#but then I'm normal again. mostly

[clingyduofan]

sometimes I miss dsmp so bad I feel like I'm going to throw up

[hellspawnmotel]

epsilons

[i-dont-talk-for-days-on-end]

I just realised I'm only one month away from my three year anniversary of Being Not Normal About Sherlock Holmes. Truly the fandom that keeps on giving. <3

[starryjoy]

"Trans" is merely one of the many adjectives that describe me but in the eyes of so many people so many things I do will immediately be tied to that adjective.

So many things I feel weird talking about because everyone assumes I am like this because of my transness.

Me being openly very sexual in nature while being a woman? Well, I am a trans woman, need to remember that!

And the thing is so many people don't do this maliciously. So many people have simply internalized the misogynistic idea that women have to be one certain way and when they see a woman who isn't that way... well, if she's cis, she's a weirdo, but if she's trans... well of course, that explains everything doesn't it!

And the people who are seen as cis women in this equation also suffer please don't get me wrong. They get shunned and talked about with intrigue and wonder like they're some sort of mythical beast.

But to the people who are seen as trans women then a part of the observer so often will go "makes sense" as if they discovered the one single key to read humanity.

I am also curious how other people under the trans umbrella feel to this stuff. My idea is that we probably have similar but different relations to having the adjective "trans" heavily influence how people see us, and I would like hearing them out.

Also absolutely necessary disclaimer that it's great if to you personally the adjective is so important that it defines parts of your personality! I won't yuck someone's yum and stuff. I'm just tired personally of feeling like so many people will immediately think of me as trans before they think of me as anything else, but I get the idea of that being something someone could like.

[poke-poke-poke]

found a goomy doodle i did a few months back--- it's unfinished but cutee (who's gonna tell goomy that they're weak to ice,, they're gonna get sick rip)

[rainedroptalks]

greta hayes deserves a solo where she's a cringefail college student who also leads souls to their afterlives on the side, and maybe she solves murders every now and then. i'm calling it dead girl detective- hey wait where are you going

[desultory-novice]

[Noir('s) Soul]

"Look, I don't know you that well but you seem like a decent enough guy. Just, have you considered relaxing a little? I mean, seriously! This contest is supposed to be for fun! And look at you! Young and (far as I can see for a human) you're the picture of health!"

"...Okay, I don't know what's going on with that sword (?) of yours and I've heard you're some kind of Dark Matter (not that you look it!) but I just don't see where all this, 'Oh, woe is me, I'm a monster!' and 'I can't remember what the sensation of touch feels like' and 'Aah the sunlight burnssss' or 'Every breath is pain~' is coming from. Put down the goth poetry and join in the fun! You only live once!"

"Haha... Yeah, no... You're...right..."

- CW: Body Horror of the [NOT SO MILD?] Variety!! -

"After all... this won't last...forever..." (...please...?)

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I think I mentioned (?) that Tourney!Noir is a bit of a mess, soul-wise, and that he is mostly projecting/barely maintaining an outward physical image of himself as he looked like in his last days as a human. And that certain triggers cause him to glitch out.

Thanks to Cauli's body horror the other day, I thought it'd be fun (?) to draw what he would look like if you glitched him all the way out.

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[Psst! Vote for Noir?] We have body horror!

[hi-note]

Would you care if paper doodles I did last night idk I wanted to draw more characters shaped like this

[outtox1cated]

It's good to know that i'm not the only one who went throught the rain world to ultrakill hyperfix pipeline. i had enough of being a little clueless animal and dying in the most embarassing way possible, it's time to KILL

[patchyworx]

People talk about fast metabolisms like it's all fun and games and eating whatever you want but they fail to remember that it also means your body is Incredibly Stupid and decides that you become deficient in everything in a couple or so days where it takes most others a week. Or months compared to "oops you forgot to photosynthesize sufficiently :( no i don't care that it has been freezing and overcast for the past week, you didn't absorb enough sun. Perish Badly."

Or at least it would be if i didn't like citrus fruits so much, probably

[cathymee]

maybe it's to maintain a sense of tension & turmoil that would eventually reach an explosive peak, a sense of tug-of-war, a back-and-forth to hammer home the ideals they want to deliver and for the viewers to chew on, but although these arguments regarding hiroshi & his stance as a man torn between his loyalty for his country & the loyalty for his Filipino friends and lover is of course important, how they write these scenes & the points they present from this week alone is getting too repetitive...? literally the argument scenes from last night & tonight between adelina & hiroshi is basically the same; the ideas were the same, the dynamics were the same: the aggressive, radical adelina, bristling rage and fear over the injustices she's seen thus far, and the cautious, inspiriting hiroshi, all hopefulness and reassurance one moment as a lover, defensiveness and sternness as a japanese soldier in another. this debate will be ever-present ofc, it is one of the series' biggest conflicts, but it is unfortunately so easy to tell when it is a.) being pulled up as a main topic to move the plot along / be a necessary conflict for character development/introspection / be the conflict to deliver the morals & messages the writers want to send to their viewers, or b.) when it is being pulled up only for the drama and filler to pass the time. like watching the characters sit down to argue for 10 minutes, do other things for the plot for 2 minutes, then sit down again to argue for the next 20 minutes. lol.

[peniscat]

i miss succession and the community it gave me </3

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[baifengxis]

I know it's on me for looking too many comments and reviews about my favorite shows but do you guys ever feel like people just don't know how to like something anymore? Especially when it comes to tv-shows. It's like everyone's so ready to tear something apart, to be disappointed, to be proven right that a show is terrible like they thought it would be. I'm not talking about constructive criticism nor am I talking about being fairly disappointed over something but not only people love being negative but if you dare say that you love a show they all dislike you have to apologize because how dare you? And if you tell them to stop with the negativity because you just WANT TO ENJOY A MFUCKING TV SHOW when everything in this world is shit, they'll tell you you're censoring their opinions. Like it's not that deep please for the love of god, just let people enjoy things, if you don't like something THAT'S FINE but you don't have to make long essays explaining why and not let other people who do like it, enjoy it.

[museofvoid]

In honor of asexuality awareness day I think we should all throw rocks at this man for genuinely making me question my sexuality for a while there

[veshialles]

okay nvm I made tea and watched my comfort show and no longer feel the crippling agonies of a thousand little heartbreaks. peace and love on planet earth 💖