#but the topic of this is the way my siblings interact with eachother

[viaviv124]

Cotl Orphan AU

So bc i would never in a million years finish writing this as a fic i'll just write everything i have so far here so its out of my head and y'all can also do whatever you want with it. This will be a long ass post so get a drink and get cozy. Of course i won't get on full Detail like characterizations etc, in this post at least, so feel free to ask questions! I'd love to answer them!

This post includes content warnings for all sorts of very dark topics, but especially murder, body horror, torture, cannibalism, suicide, depression, slightly implied sexual abuse, implied abuse in general and other stuff like that. If you're sensible to this please click off or proceed with caution.

It all starts with 5 siblings, Shamura(16), Kallamar(14), Narinder(13), Heket(10) and Leshy(8). When Leshy was barely able to walk they ended up on the streets because one of their parents killed the other before taking their own life. They struggled a lot but they got by.

One day, when Narinder was out looking for food, he found an injured lamb, around his age, in an ally. They seemed starved and the life had already left their eyes as they barely managed to look up at him. Being unable to just leave them there he knelt down to them, ripped off parts of his own clothes to wrap around them as makeshift bandages and left them all the food he gathered so far whilst telling them to keep living, that they shouldnt have to die like this. Once making sure the lamb will be fine alone he left, thinking he can just collect some more food anyway.

Around 3 - 4 years pass and in that time 4 of the siblings were gravely injured. Shamura suffered a devistating blow to the head from someone they stole food from, cracking their skull just enough to keep them alive but also to damage the brain. Kallamar's ears were ripped off by other homeless people that succumbed to insanity. Heket's throat was slit by an older, privileged child who thought it was funny after Heket expressed that she didn't want anything to do with them. Leshy's eyes were all shot during a heist, requiring his siblings to gouge out the remains. It's unclear how they survived all that. From then on the siblings, espacially Narinder, decided that murder is okay and justified if necessary.

More years pass and they reach their current ages. Due to a dispute they're chased out of the current ally they lived in for a long time. Now they're on the search for a new home, but it's very hard. Once they're on the other side of town, where they've never been before, yet still unable to find a suitable place especially Shamura starts to despair, blaming themself internally for being unable to help their siblings. Narinder and Kallamar do their best to try and reassure them.

One night, as they're wandering, they get found by a lamb dressed in rags, covered in scars and dirt and wearing a bag, they're around Narinder's age, who smiles kindly at them and offers a hand, promising a secure home and food. All of the siblings distrust this child, however out of necessity Shamura feels forced to accept the offer, they take the lambs hand. The lamb's smile turns gentler as they introduce themself as Belphy before starting to lead the way.

Belphy leads them to an old, abandoned factory at the outskirts of town, in which are several children of various ages and states, some coming to greet Belphy and asking if they brought new friends. At first the siblings don't trust anyone, keeping to eachother instead of interacting with the others, however eventually Leshy starts to get along with a yellow cat barely younger than him and with a missing arm. Heket becomes friends a bunny girl, who's quite the oddball, detesting touch in one moment and then clinging to Heket the next. Seeing their siblings get along with the other children Shamura and Kallamar also slowly start interacting with the others. However, Narinder only really socializes with Belphy, as they seem to cling to him whenever they're not busy. Seeing them first as an annoyance, Narinder soon learns to trust and appreciate this strange lamb. He also learns that this is the lamb he helped many years ago, being the leading cause of Belphy helping other children in need too.

However, Narinder notices some very odd behaviour from Belphy. He can't say what exactly it is, but it bothers him. But no matter how often he decides to trail them when they go out, they seem to always be a step ahead of him, greeting him with a sweet smile and going home with him before he could even get a rough glance of anything the lamb was doing. Whenever he asks questions Belphy smoothly avoids them or tells him not to worry about it, that everything is fine and nothing's out of the ordinary. Narinder can't help but get a bit scared, though. Because as nice and sweet as the lamb is, whatever they hide, he knows they must hide something, must be horrifying.

But one day, on the day he finds out. This time he wasn't even trailing Belphy, he was just out on a walk of his own when he suddenly heard a scream. He hid behind the corner and glanced into the back ally, having never seen something so horrifying before. In the ally was a bloodbath, Belphy in the middle of it, surrounded by two or three gruesomely mutilated corpses. Belphy licked the blood off their hand with a terrifyingly satisfied smile as the black knife in their other hand turned into a black snake with only a red eye as a face and curled around their arm, conveniantly hidden under the fleece. Confused by the transformation of the knife-snake they looked at their arm "Hmm? What was that for? I'm not done yet." As they look up again their eyes meet Narinders and Narinders blood runs cold as he freezes. His heart beats up and almost out of his chest as Belphys smile softens and they walk torwards him, covered in blood. The closer Belphy gets, the faster and louder Narinders heart beats as he squeezes his eyes shut.

Despite his expectations Belphy just gently cups his face, pulls his head down to their height and leans their forehead against his. They gently caress him and with a soft and gentle voice they attempt to soothe him, telling him that everything is okay, that he is okay and that he doesnt have to be scared. They tell him to breathe. To Narinders own surprise this works unexpectedly well and he manages to steady his breathing and calm down a little, however once he can move again he moves away from Belphy, opening his eyes only for a glare as his fear turns to fury. Narinder hisses not to touch him.

Belphy smiles and puts their hands in the air to show they're not a threat, the snake, now more exposed, stares at Narinder. When Narinder demands answers, Belphy complies with no hesitation.

They tell him that the snake found Belphy several years ago, not too long after their first encounter with Narinder. It said it needed blood and if Belphy provides it'll help them in turn too. So as proof it turned into a black crown with its red eye in the middle, its true form it said, and sat on Belphys head, healing every wound as good as it could it its weakened state. Once Belphy agreed to do it the crown now turned into a combat knife. Belphy only ever kills adults. When they first killed they let out all their pain and sorrows, following the crown's advice to make it easier, and as a result they came to like it. Torturing and killing adults, the ones that made their life so horrible in the first place. Now these despicable creatures are at their mercy as they scream and cry in pain, just like the lamb did too, before taking their lifes at last. Over the years they also grew fond of the taste of their victim's blood and flesh, what once was a necessity now was a guilty pleasure, allthough, they added, they cannot stand the smell.

Belphy reassures Narinder, who is a mix of heavily disturbed and (for reasons he doesnt quite understand) somewhat unfazed, that they won't ever harm him, the other children and his siblings, not now and not when they're all grown. They also make him promise to please not tell anyone, not even his siblings, before suggesting he can help them if he'd like.

With that Narinder is now Belphys partner in crime. He did come with them on a few massacres, he calls it that because of how messy Belphy is, and whilst he's still somewhat disturbed, mainly by Belphy's cannibalistic tendencies and a level of merciless sadism he didn't expect of them considering their sweet and gentle demeanour, he can't help but admit that he also bears a deep rooted spite for adults and that this is a great way to vent all this pain, it made him discover he might also be more sadistic than he thought. Maybe murder for fun was okay and not just a necessity.

Yet all of this still bothered him. Deep inside he was not only scared of Belphy but also himself. Shamura noticed Narinder's off behaviour and after weeks, maybe months, of observing him they finally asked what's going on. Narinder's deep trust in Shamura makes him forget about the promise he made and so he tells the everything. Everything about Belphy, the murders, his own sadistic tendencies, his fears and worries about all of this. Shamura didn't say much about it. They just held him close as he spoke.

It took less than a day for Belphy to find out. They're not happy. And Narinder is going to feel the consequences of a broken promise. Some cuts and bruises, maybe a broken bone or two, but nothing more than a severed finger. They care too much about him to do more. They cant bring themself to do more. So this'll do. It should teach Narinder to keep a promise next time.

They did it. They hurt him. As much as they hate seeing him scared, him accepting their embrace for comfort afterwards was very nice, considering how often he told them to not touch him. Maybe they'll ask the crown to heal Narinder, the message they wanted to send seemed to arrive so there's no need for him to be in even more pain.

AND THATS ALL I HAVE FOR NOW :D Thank you so much reading through this! If you have any questions about the AU and characters etc, feel free to ask!!

[floofble]

Replied to a comment on Reddit asking why I shipped Floofty x Gramble and thought, wow I wrote like almost 800 words, this should NOT be stuck on Reddit. Remembered I made this side-blog just to take @floofble as my user, so here’s my 2AM rambling about why I enjoy the pairing.

Wording might be off because, again, 2AM and Reddit comment reply. Feel free to offer your own insight, or to bash me for my opinion if you want lol.

Frankly, it’s difficult for me to really explain why I love the two so much because a lot of it comes down to my own personal headcanons and just the fact that I’ve liked the pairing since I first got into the fandom (about four years ago. Side note but DAMN, long time.)

When I did first join the fandom, I hated Wiggle with a burning passion and loved Gramble with all of my soul, thus causing me to hate Gramble and Wiggle as a pairing (I have moved on from this and I do like them now, but not exactly important to my ranting haha). I honestly just had wanted someone to pair with Gramble in spite of Wiggle. Who else to pick but the scientist on the other side of the beach that everyone was already shipping with half of the cast? In the beginning it was mostly just “haha, purple and pink sillies” but as I got more and more fixated on them I realized a lot of things that could genuinely make them an interesting pairing.

Firstly, their relationships with the Bugsnax sort of oppose each other yet mirror eachother in a fascinating way to me. Floofty’s entire goal throughout the game is to figure out a way the Bugsnax could be useful in a scientific/medical context. Their goal is based off of good for other grumpuses, and yet they socially isolate themself, seemingly not WANTING to build any relationships. Gramble, however, is pretty much the opposite. His sole purpose for coming to Snaktooth was to become part of a family, and despite the plethora of people surrounding him he too seems to isolate and instead fill the absence of a family with Bugsnax. I think, if written correctly, interactions between the two (whether platonic or romantic) could have added a lot of growth to their characters in regard to their relationships with others.

While Gramble having to come to terms with the fact that Bugsnax don’t make up for real connection and Floofty realizing that without connection they can never truly understand the people they are trying to help ARE points that occur in the canon end game, I think that the resolution of it all could have been a bit more satisfying if they had both had more interactions with people outside their main counterparts, and the fact that both of their resolutions revolve around relationships with others makes the pairing stand out.

Besides the whole story logistics of it, I think the two also parallel pretty well with our main boys (DRUMROLL PLEAAAAASE… Snorpy and Chandlo.) I think that any of them could mirror the other, honestly. The obvious choice of Floofty mirroring Snorpy for their sharing of a lack of social understanding/connection, their overall sort of high regard for themselves compared to others despite their obvious insecurities, honestly just the fact that they’re siblings, etc etc. Chandlo and Gramble’s mirroring is a bit less obvious, but it’s still there. Both of them have a surplus of love and care to give out based off of their respective canons, both are the more lighthearted of their couples, both also having obvious insecurity that they tend to shadow behind their resilience or just brush off all together.

Less obviously, Gramble could mirror Snorpy and Floofty could mirror Chandlo. Bear with me here. Gramble and Snorpy both have their extremely obvious anxieties. They both tend to dance around topics, resulting in miscommunication. They both isolate and have limited interaction with the others in game. Now, with Chandlo and Floofty I do think I might be reaching a tad bit, but here we go. Floofty and Chandlo both have a need to get things done themselves, a sort of a complex in all honesty. They are both stubborn as hell, though it’s more blunt with Floofty. Their goals are similar, just with Chandlo wanting to help one specific Grumpus rather than the entire race as a whole like Floofty.

There’s honestly a bajillion things I could say to explain this pairing. I was not expecting myself to write this much 😭 I guess, in conclusion, they have a shit ton of writing potential that I enjoy. Also, Floofty watching Gramble sleepwalk is funny. Don’t they have research they could be doing? Watching Gramble certainly isn’t helping you with your Bugsnax studies, Floofty.

[mylifeismyfandoms]

Idc about what any of yall hateful mfs say, MEL AND VIKTOR ARE ABSOLUTE GIRLFRIENDS IN MY MIND. Not like in the relationship sense, don’t get your hopes up, i mean girlfriends as in when your mom says she’s going wine tasting with her girlfriends. That kind. A SISTER FROM ANOTHER MISTER. Unrelated by chance, sibling duo by choice. I was so inspired by this beautiful friendship in my mind I decided to create story of how it came to be a bunch of headcanons about it!!

If you aren’t open minded, think Mel is the bane of Viktor’s existence because of one interaction, or riot when your precious Jayvik ship does not take place,...or

...most of all if you just hate fun and whimsy! 😭

If any of these apply to you please just find something more to your taste to read and save both of us the trouble 😁

-Sincerely, your dear tumblrer Brenna

Here are the spectacular headcanons and the one dialogue piece or somethingt I made about their Theoretical friendship also throwing in singular Viktor Mel hc’s along the way… bc I CANT HELP MYSELF 😭😭(please read them they are fun and dare I say a little…angsty if you enjoy hurting, mentally😈)

LETS GET INTO IT 🌊🌊🌊

1. They are girlfriends that are like girls girls for eachother Viktor is tired of Jayce being passive aggressive? Mel does it back to get justice.

• Mel thinks her and Jayce are growing apart? Viktor is taking on more of Jayce’s responsibilities and HEAVILY influencing Jayce to hang out with her more.

2. They never want to see each other left out or mistreated by anyone, especially the star of the show, Jayce. The dick is good, but NEVER good enough to drive the two of them apart. They GOT each other’s back with dealing up with Jayce’s situationship crap.

3. Of course their relationship doesn’t revolve entirely around Jayce, they yap to each other about anything and everything that comes to mind.

• They both tell each other what their childhoods were like since they are both genuinely so curious what life was like as a child for the opposite class. Part of Viktor’s stories about his lack of access to medicine for his condition throughout the majority of his life is what helped Mel really empathize with the Zaunites as her citizens, she would NEVER admit it, but she is thankful it happened. NOW for something pulling a bit more on the heart strings. 😈😈

• On Viktor’s part, he loves hearing about the political world Mel was exposed to, he raises his eyebrows everytime very highly, but never says a word while Mel speaks about the lessons from her Mother, silently thinking about how interesting Ambessa’s morals are, and analyzing the devastating mindset they have installed in Mel. He is conflicted thinking about how Mel had it so good physically, on the outside, with all their money and needs met, and yet, when the castle doors shut, she had it so very bad on the inside. His heart aches for his best friend. If no one understood her pain he did. He could look past the wealth and status and see a little girl never feeling good enough, not to her mother, not to her family, not even her city. He wasn’t a therapist, but he could never deny a shoulder for Mel to lean on if she ever needed it. (I personally think/headcanon Viktor to be an extreme empath, just not showing it to others. I like to think he has a gift to deeply understand people’s motives and struggles, even before his rebirth. He tries to ignore it sometimes but really cant unless he is experiencing intense emotions, for example, rejection, loss, greed etc. or just being around really stupid people he loses his temper and has to be alone for a while.)

SORRY I GOT OFF TOPIC BACK TO THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP (hurray ^_^)

PRECIOUS MEL AND VIKTOR LIGHTHEARTED BONDING COMING UP!! (MAKING UP FOR THE LAST HEAD-CANON…apologies. 😔)

4. Peak friendship Conversation/scenario

• One second, Viktor is explaining a troubling quadratic theory while Mel looks through court requests. “It’s on the tip of my tongue, I can feel it…” Viktor murmurs while gazing upon his work. “Something else is about to be on the tip of my tongue tonight…” Mel casually sighs, her exhausting work lowers her polite filter, that and being around her bestie. A smile creeps up on Viktor’s face as he tries to pretend he didn’t find it at least funny because it was so out of pocket “Not the time, Mel, Not the time!” He says gradually raising his voice in effort to convince himself, But Mel knows he isn’t actually mad at her. She chokes down a smirk as she tries to resume work. She finds people getting worked up the funniest thing ever.

• The next moment Mel is replaying a meeting with her and an allying city’s leader to Viktor while he tinkers with the newest Hextech experiments. “I can’t possibly understand why the council is so set on their relationship with the city! They haven’t even assisted us with anything since Heimerdinger was 25!! Waste of time, money, and my patience…” She recites in her fine tuned proper English accent. Viktor chuckles. “Why worry so much about an ally you won’t hear from again until your deathbed?” “They’ll be asking me for funds for a swimming pool as I take my last breath” she jokes, rolling her eyes. Viktor pretends to be Mel on her deathbed “We will not be wasting money on funding a meaningless po-“ he pretends to die mid sentence, very dramatically, then dropping his head down to the desk, resisting a large smile. (My head-canon is that Viktor is was a theater kid and surprisingly good actor for just performing by himself by the quarry as a kid because he recognized it’s great acoustics) Mel laughs very hard “What was that face?? Oh god no, no! I hope I don’t look like that while I’m dying, there goes my legacy” her hysterically loud laugh dies down as her sentence goes on.

5. Viktor has never had many friends, because of his introverted tendencies, and Mel hasn’t either from the throne’s knack for intense sheltering of royal children, and her mother certainly didn’t help. But despite that they both share the same great sense of humor, not prim and polite like anyone would expect from such a professional woman and genius inventor.

6. ONE OF THE BESTTT :DD : THEIR FAVORITE ACTIVITIES THEY DO TOGETHER!!

• One of their favorite activities to do that don’t involve work is karaoke, watching sing-a-longs, and watching musicals. They NEVER disappoint, those notes are being HIT, cunt being SERVED EVERY. TIME. They aren’t just your regular Joe’s sitting on the couch and singing, they’re getting up and in the most blunt way, BUSTING A MOVE, WITH THE CANE IN HAND. Sometimes they know what choreography to do, when Viktor doesn’t and messes up he accepts defeat, slumping down onto the couch while Mel says mocks him by saying some corny shit like “better luck next time!” Or “17th times a charm!” In an overly cheery voice. When Mel doesn’t know the choreography, oh she does not back down, even if she should, she tries to make it up along the way, and it looks…acceptable until she hits a really awkward move then next thing you know she’s rolling around on the ground laughing while Viktor looks at her VERY disapprovingly every single time. He says something like “cmon cmon pull yourself together now…” and claps slowly or tries to correctly do it himself just to show her up. He thinks it’s hilarious a man with a cane can figure out how to dance better than what he’d guess the healthiest woman in the city. They both really love singing lol, the favorite sing-a-long is Heathers. They both got that one DOWN.

7.I hope no one bitches about this but I just want to clarify it is not weird that they fuck the same guy while having a sibling-like/close friendship with each other, they don’t get jealous because Jayce loves them both very much equally (w-w-what is this 😱😰..a-a...a...healthy poly relationship? This can't be!) and they aren’t doing threesomes weirdos. But IF they wanted to they COULD because they are all non-related consenting adults that have a very close friend group and there is NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT >:p

8. ALSO IM NOT DONE, DONT SCROLL AWAY, LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST, THEY SHIT TALK AMBESSA TOGETHERRR 🤭🤭

• Viktor absolutely flames the shit out of Ambessa’s parenting based on what Mel has said about her childhood to make her feel better 🥰 He loves sounding WAYY more knowledgable than he really is about psychology when he uses his very brief knowledge on it to school Ambessa for Mel.

If you liked my friendship headcanons comment more duos you would like me to headcanon!! (please I need purpose) I cannot promise that headcanons of a different duo won’t overlap at least a little with this one, it really just depends on my interpretation of the characters relationship!! (Also I can only access Tumblr after 9:30 pm, because of these fuck ass restrictions so I’ll try to get your headcanons written and published as soon as I can access the app again)

NOTES FROM AUTHOR WHILE WRITING 💗💗💗:

Recording thoughts during my writing process!! ^_^

Please like my post oh my god i just realized i started writing and editing at 1 am and i as i am finishing this up it is 8 am. Help. Is this a kind of disease. I havent slept a blink, the writing...its pulling me in...I CANT RESIST...LIKE THE HEXCORE. I arcaned MUCH too close to the sun today. Yall BETTER like ts I worked so hard on my first real Tumblr literature. These head canons better show up in yall's DREAMS with the amount of frustration that were put into them. I'm just joshing im not trying to guilt trip yall you guys don't gotta dream about my head canons but if i get 4 likes and a slap on the wrist I will be throwing my kindle fire down the stairs this weekend.

it was worth the tweaking, I think, love y'all.

-The most totally sane arcane fan, Brenna

[inkcoffinz]

and it makes no sense (to me) that norway and sweden aren't brothers (or related in some way)😭 because culturally out of all countries (yes, even out of the nordics) they are the closest, (+ they share the longest border in europe) norwegians and swedes love to tease and annoy each other all day long, and it makes no sense that they barely interact in canon😔

but hey ! that's just my opinion🦐

I don’t have enough knowledge on Sweden and Norway to be well versed in this topic, but your point is interesting! I don’t personally see any of the Nordics as related (other than Iceland and Norway being brothers) but I can see them all as a cute really close group who consider eachother bros. Sweden and Norway picking on eachother like siblings is quite cute!

[danielleee-x]

I love the people in my life. However small or big the interactions we have, and however regular or sporadic they may be. There's something to be said for building a community that loves you and shows up in either which way they do. One talks to me regularly with long texts, regular calls, a clear intention to be there for me through thick and thin. Another shows up once a year, almost in a passing by, moving motion and shares how often they remembered me and my soul. They may not reach out or talk to me often but they're there, orbiting my surroundings and sending me love on this planet or on another. One doesn't always need to love actively and intensely. A simple 'I know you're alive and you matter enough to me to say I love you, every once in a while' is enough to me. Not always but usually it is. Everyone gets lonely at times. I do struggle to see the love around me but that is okay.. Some things need to go away for us to notice the deepness and beauty of it in its absence.

I live for the people I love. The way my mom and I speak through all topics underneath the brightly shining sun. Even when the clouds hide the happiness - she is there. She is so beautiful when she laughs. I see her smile and touch as the strongest medicine I could get in this lifetime. She's truly something else. Ethereal at times. There's no moment of doubt in my mind that she is my soulmate in this dark and twisted little world. I love my mom and the way she sounds and looks within this body she chose.

And I love my dad so much that I can't express any of it without being in pain. We may have had some rocky times but he has always had my back, no matter how ungrateful my teenage self may have been. He's the funniest and sweetest human to walk this soil. Which is why I think he like plants so much. He himself is like a sunflower when he wants to be. He was neglected a little while but plants aren't as weak as one may think. The youngest of his bunch and the most controversial but the most special of the four. I think so either way. We're one and the same. Funny, rough around the edges but always the person to rely on when the tide gets too rocky. I can only wish people see him with the sparkling eyes that I see him with. One in a million.

I wouldn't know what to do without my sister. She's been one of the worst and best people in my life. Perhaps that feeling is universal between siblings but the trauma we have endured, individually and together, is indescribable. There used to be such a big push and pull but we've grown up a lot. When I look back and see how much she's changed for the better - I can see the whole mt.everest underneath her feet. All the while keeping up with her passions and talents. The moment she let me in and let me practice my love for helping my surroundings, we became unbreakable. The waves still come and go but I wouldn't know what to do in life without those. She's a diamond in the rough but so are we all. I love her laugh and how bubbly she can be. We're just sisters.. there's nothing that can come between that, not while we're still the same soul in the same old - broken down bodies.

Now we get to my brother and my confusing appreciation for him being in my life. We aren't as close as we once were. Our life used to be us against the rest. The fights we fought to just survive were so similar to eachother nd different all at the same time. He showed up for me against my bullies, even when being harassed by his peers himself. He was there when I needed him, all the while he was silently struggling on his own. I wish I could have done, and can do, more than I did. My hope is that he knows how deep my love runs for him and his quirks. I feel a huge wall between us now. It does break down at times by us being in a car together - those are the most special moments nowadays.. we just get to share our passion for music and talk and be ourselves. For a split second it feels like us against the world in those drives. I hope he feels that too. I miss us and I miss his horribly curly hair from back in the day. The tears we had together. The conversations we shared. And the way he always laughs at my jokes, no matter how bad they may be. He truly makes me feel like one of the most special people whenever we're in the same room together and I hope he feels that way sometimes aswell. I truly don't know him anymore. I wish he knew that all the trauma doesn't change my opinion of him. I'm still here waiting for him to open up his heart to people again. Until then I'll be here waiting. I'm sure he'll heal soon enough. I'm sure.

I love the people within my life. Wether they are happy, scared, sad or angry. I wish to experience all of their emotions and see them for who they are. Unzip your skin and let me have a little look at the way you tick. Let me be there for the good and bad times. But also be there when I fall back down. It doesn't always have to be the same person but atleast let there be one of them. I love you all. Even if I am shitty at showing it at times.

I live for the people I love.

[fatewalks]

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i. i am a full - time worker with a lot of responsibilities in life ,  so this blog will be SPORADIC & LOW-ACTIVITY .    mutuals can request my discord and twitter if i am not here !    ( p.s, if i take a long time with a reply ,  please remind me . )    shipping     just to get it out of the way , my shipping will be extremely selective ,  & done only with friends. there are some exceptions ,  where if the mun & i feel as if there may be potential. i am not particularly looking for ships ,  as i'm not very keen on just romantic shipping ,  so please keep this in mind.  i am also multi-ship, & no two relationships will be in the same universe unless discussed prior with all partners involved, otherwise please do not accuse thancred of cheating; they are in their own seperate timeline / universe.    addenum    i'm not looking for relationships- don't assume we are dating just because our characters are/they are involved with eachother. i am not looking to develop any romantic relationships, and would appreciate it if advances weren't made towards me. thank you.

ii. as a general rule ,  i don't follow anybody under the age 18 ,  as i am an adult above legal age .    FFXIV has a lot of adult topics ,  & i wouldn't want to expose minors to this sort of content .     standard dni applies     if you condone / support the following : grooming / paedophelia , r*pe , non-con , abuse , and things in this umbrella . i don't want you here, or anywhere near me. this is a safe space for survivors.    if you see me interact with a known groomer/paedophile   , please let me know immediately! i am an autistic mun, & would like to keep my spaces free of people like this.   dni if   you interact with miles, also knows as reapcrbunny. before knowing of his harmful behavior, i interacted with him briefly & was deeply made uncomfortable before being made aware of his behaviors. i will hardblock anybody i see that currently interacts with him. this also applies to zach/zacharie, under the handles of zachscratch on twitter. he is a racefaker & don't want him anywhere near me. ( he is my sibling, & i can only attest to his behaviors. ) he has been caught saying slurs he cannot reclaim, along with multiple other behaviors that is unnacceptable.

iii. as far as portrayal goes ,  i go mainly msq & canon-divergent based ,  with a few references to other games.    my headcanons are also included in my portrayal ,  & i do my best to try & blend it with canon .    there are a few modified headcanons from ideas that i've come up that i use here ,  and i will try my best to cite any non-canon sources ,  along with any research i do.

[thescrapbookingscientist]

Bimonthly Media Roundup

- Gurdians of the Galaxy 3 (Movie) - Family movie night for the last Marvel movie I'm willing to watch for a long while, I did enjoy the film although I think it's largely the weakest of the Gurdians trilogy, though in fairness that's in large part due to things outside of the writers control given what happened to the characters in the unrelated Marvel films. For the good parts I'm glad the characters still felt like they cared about eachother, with Nebula and Rocket in particular getting to show a lot of emotional growth, I loved to see more Mantis overall, it had a pretty good sense of humor, and I'm glad that the central cast all got narratively satisfying endings. For the not so good parts I really didn't enjoy alternate Gamora even if I do think they did the best they could with her in the sense of not pairing her off with Peter and letting her do her own thing - I just don't think she should have existed in general as it takes up such a weird space in the film. It's especially a bummer given how big of a role her and Nebulas sibling relationship played in the prior film only to have that all erased with very little interaction between the two here. Rockets backstory is appropriately tragic and the villain being a CEO playing god mad scientist is good but to be honest I didn't really buy his friendship with the other experiments given how generic their "we are friends who love each other" dialogue was. A lot of the big emotional beats just didn't hit like I felt they should, and the ending in particular had a lot of "they are doing this to set up cameos for future movies" moments that felt really in-organic. I don't know, the film is pretty well received so maybe it'll hit differently for me on repeated viewings but for now it kinda feels like the franchise that started with a bang and rose even higher in the sequel ended with a "eh, it was alright'.

- I'm in Love with the Villainess (Manga) - Caught up with the recent releases and uh hmm. I do like the central couple, the gimmick of a bully being unintentionally bullied by their victim being really into the bullying thing is quite funny and beyond that the two of them have heart and interesting personality traits, so that's cool. When the story is just them interacting it's great, particularly later on when the two become more familiar with each others eccentricates. Beyond that though the plot is kinda losing me with it's not exactly supportive portrayal of a class revolution. While the narrative doesn't seem to think the commoners are 'wrong' per say for wanting a more equal society, it does seem to be pretty wishy washy on how they should behave as 'violence isn't the answer' and 'can't we all get along' messages with a largely nice noble cast of characters and not particularly sympathetic commoners leads to a sorta pro nobility message overall which. you know. not great. Not that I particularly expected the lesbian medieval escapist series to be pro revolution, I just assumed they would stay away from politically relevant topics. I guess time will tell to see if they have something more nuanced and interesting to say than I'm giving them credit for given how early we are into the series.

- ENNEAD (Webcomic) - Twitter tells me that the most recent chapters feature a Horus face reveal which I'm hyped about, but the pages haven't been translated yet to my misfortune.

- Trash of the Count's Family (Webcomic) - Second season updates have arrived and I've missed Cale, nice to see him. The art style has changed a little so that the backgrounds and clothing are more detailed which is cool but I do have to say I miss the larger eyes of the old style that made the characters a bit cuter overall, even if the comic as a whole looks fantastic either way. Anyway Toonka's cool I like seeing him too.

- The Locked Tomb Series (Books) - Finished up Nona and man do I immediately want to go reread the whole series with all my gained context now. I've really enjoyed each novel in a totally different way, and truly love all the weird and interesting characters with the dramatic and yet very difficult to describe in a serious way plot points. I do so hope the books get a TV adaptation if for no other reason than to see so many of the actors pull double and triple duty in portraying all the body sharing antics going on. I need to highlight my favorite quotes on the second readthrough given the series has the nerve to be both hilariously clever and stunningly profound. For favorites I'd say Camilla and Gideon have my heart but really everyone is a joy in their own way, and I'm desperately hoping that Alecto has a happy end for at least most of them.

- Lego Monkie Kid (Cartoon) - Welp I binged through the rest of the series and I will say that seasons 3 and 4 addressed a lot of my issues with it in terms of narrative progression and introducing individual character backstories and arcs. Season 4 in particular was pretty great with the demon brotherhood plot introducing Azure as a competent and sympathetic villain and showing how flawed of a mentor figure Sun really is, as well as featuring some nice character (and design) growth for MK. I like pretty much everything about Macaque and his bitter divorcee vibes with Sun, Red Son and Mei teaming up was a surprisingly cute development, Pigsy and Tang remain as solid and adorable father figures, and I feel like the settings and overall animation looked stellar overall. I do have complaints that I don't really feel like voicing, but as a whole I quite enjoyed this show and will be looking forward to the fifth season - It is really excellent to see a Journey to the West successor actually utilize the series format as opposed to the attempts to cram it into a movie.

- Ace Attorney Investigations 2: Miles Edgeworth (Video Game) - Completed! I do think I liked this one more than the last one, largely because Sebastian was a fun and interesting little shit, though I'd still say it's on the lower end of the Ace Attorney games as a whole - There was just a lot of time wasting and unnecessary appearances of unlikable characters. I also liked a few of the new side characters and the overall look of the designs, though the actual villain motives were very questionable overall, even for the insane universe that is Ace Attorney.

- Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom (Video Game) - Getting a little worn out with the sheer amount of content this has to be honest, I liked exploring the castle and fighting the ganon clones as well as the temples in general but theres still so much to do. That's not a bad thing exactly, but the burnout is hitting and I might have to pick it up later and do more of the final quest and post game content. I did like the physical appearance of the sages helping you in the castle though, that was nice.

- Project Runway All Stars (TV) - As a general rule I don't tend to like All Star as much as it'd predecessor, but this season has been pretty solid actually. The challenges have been fun and creative with solid looks across the board, and while I don't usually agree with the judges favorites we've at least been on the same page when it comes to the worst looks, so my faves have been mostly spared.

Listening to: Sway Cover and Eat Your Young Cover by Reinaeiry, Insane by Black Gryph0n, Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother, Comfort Zone by Fukase, Two Princes by Spin Doctors, World's Smallest Violin by AJR, Never Love an Anchor by The Crane Wives, Bad as the Boys by Tove Lo, Adore by Jasmine Thompson, Undress Rehearsal by Timeflies, Self Esteem by The Offspring, Lent by Autoheart.

[sisislair]

I Wish for Love

No time for schoolwork when I already have homework,

working out problems between person A and person B.

What is 0 to the power of my words times the x of something I can’t leave?

Music pounds and boxes my ears,

but it can’t drown out the voices that lance through my heart.

What is a heavy base against the screams of tearing each other apart?

A minor fault, a discordant note, and the music broke.

I play and play, an insistent melody, till my fingers bleed.

Why can I not recreate the harmony I need?

An imbalance in the brain, a chemical reaction, all the same.

Take a chill pill we say, 

but what good does it do if you’re used to it being this way?

I must watch every step, every word and whisper,

because a promise exists that I refuse to break.

Why is it so easy to slip into cruelty, not even aware or awake?

I am powerless against the forces of hate and betrayal.

Some would wish for money, or help from above,

but I, I wish for love.

[tokyokookmin]

why do you ship the boys? don’t you think it’s weird. it’s like people shipping you and your sibling like ew?! can’t they look at each other? they’re grown men, obviously they have had sex. nobody has said it is with each other. if they have not explicitly stated it , i don’t we why people have to ruin a good thing. can people not be friends without others trying to ruin it? real life ain’t a fic. unless they have said they are in a relationship, this shouldn’t be a topic sentence because what if they aren’t. who is to say you aren’t making them uncomfortable? taekook ignored each other because of aggressive shippers - stop trying to influence people. just because you support LGBT doesn’t mean everyone is gay or has sex with each other. That’s not how it works. People can be straight whilst supporting the LGBT community.

I assume you had stumbled across my blog and saw that the motive of it is to support the relationship of Jikook. You, as an Army who dislikes shipping decided to jump into my inbox to reprimand me of shipping the members.

No anon, it isn't weird to ship the boys (here I am speaking about jikook) I have been in this fandom since 2018, thoroughly observing the antics and behaviour of the members from the past 4 years. I really have been closely observing Jimin and Jungkook when they are around eachother.

The glares, the temptations to be together,to hold each other hands like GAHH I get so desperate when I see them not being able to do couples things like holding hands 😭. Just do it damnit.😵 Don't you see it? There's a difference between the way jikook act together compared to NORMAL skin ship. Theres a huge degree of difference, anon.

The members always do skinship with other tho they're reaction are way WAY more different than jikooks. See this picture below? Look at the left side of the pic, do you see the way hobi reacts when Jin had a task to kiss hobi on the cheek?

Then look at the right side of the pic, Well, if you are a jikooker you would know that this moment is EPIC. Lol. Wouldn't jk and jm have immediately kept a gap like how Jin and hobi did? Instead, jk and jk turned out blushing sooooo muchhh! It's a never-ending saga of Jikook blushing 🤣 when they are around eachother lol.

Why that amount of love in the eyes, why are they so flustered?

Does this seem friendly? Jk and jm having a sort of a romantic dance with both of their hands on eachother shoulders, caressing their hair. OMG. Look at the crowd at the back, all of their attention fixated towards KM. Their smiles omg 🥺🥺

KM has dropped plenty of tiny hints along the way. They have successfully told us that they are more than band mates, more than anything. They have a special corner for eachother in their hearts. Their dynamics is different. They way they both communicate is different.

It isn't a coincidence that all of those sweet, romantic moments only consistently happen to them. Why is it always them who we see interacting the most backstage and off-camera? Why are they giving so much commitment to spend time with each other if they aren't dating? Why does jikook have the most sexual tension in the group?

It's always them "being there for each other". The math is mathing

Jikookers who has had experiences in a relationship would know how strong the foundation of KM relationship is, little moments are defined as a precious gesture in a relationship. Well that's what I can say from a 10+ years long relationship. And still lasting 🥰

👏It's 👏time 👏for 👏people 👏 like 👏 you to 👏 stop 👏 blurring 👏the 👏lines 👏 of 👏 reality. 👏

I can't change your perspective on the shipping culture by just one single post but it's okay. 🤣

[kaypeace21]

I believe that byler is an endgame

but why would they spend 3 seasons winding up with mileven?

People REALLY need to pay attention to the shows the Duffers cited as huge inspirations to them. Cheers,dawsons creek, freak &geeks did exactly what the Duffers are doing (and the Duffers said these shows inspired them)

. Cheers for over 5 seasons built up the pairing of sam and Dianne- had them break up in the s5 finale and then in the last 2 eps of the 11th season have them get back together and once again break up explaining for the 100th time they were wrong for each other and brought out the worst in eachother . Cheers would build up multiple pairings (Frasier /Lilith (s4-11/broke up in s11) , sam/Dianne (s 1-11, broke up in s11 permanently) , rebecca /sam (s8-10) Rebecca/robin (s8-9) -these pairings lasted for multiple seasons and they all broke up! They built pairings up for multiple seasons but showed throughout the show why those pairing in cheers could never work out in the long term. The same Thing happened with almost every pairing in Dawson’s creek (they’d build up multiple pairings up -sometimes for multiple seasons- sprinkle in good but also dysfunctional aspects of those relationships- and then break them apart for good ).

Also in Dawson’s creek 2 characters (a rich girl and poor guy with daddy issues) date and breakup- but both of their gay brothers get together and are endgame instead of them (cough jancy vs byler). One of the gay guys (the rich one with the book smart sis) even dated the main girl (Joey) for a while before admitting he was gay and that he was in denial (while dating the main girl for more than a season ). In D.C even the main guy(Dawson) / girl (Joey) don’t end up being endgame (despite teasing it for all 5 seasons) . They did this with a lot of couples in the show. Honestly, the Duffers pretty much borrowed this idea of showing pairings with issues and breaking them up -but toned down how long they’d bait them . Like 11seasons of showing dysfunctional couples date -ick. And Dawson’s creek ... my god it had a literal love octogon/ love webs (so many love squares/pentagons/ and on and off relationships). The 1 adult couple broke up and I’m not exaggeration 4 times, and Dawson got back with 2 of his girlfriends like so many times. And ugh I’d say each (of the 4-5) main characters dated at least 4 people -and each of those relationships lasted for like 20+ eps each... and then after all that build up -break up ). That’s not even including the people the main 5 or so characters would date for like 5-6 eps . Thank god it was toned down compared to Dawson’s creek or cheers. i can’t imagine the frustration watching those shows during its airing 😂

Freaks & geeks (set in the 80s)was also inspo.14 y old Sam who is bullied and called “homo” “queer” etc throughout the whole series - he also obsesses over a cheerleader girl for the whole series and in the second to last ep of the series- they finally start dating  and he realizes they have nothing in common and says “it’s boring. all we ever do is makeout.She likes nothing i like. We can’t talk to eachother. We never have fun.” And he admits he only keeps dating her cause everyone would call him “crazy” to not date her. sam and her are also said to be “from different planets” and “different species”  just like mileven in s3 lol.  The gf of  sam also says before they dated she saw him ‘like a sister�� (like El asking mike if he’d be her brother in s1, before they date). And after this sibling comment various characters -encouraged the couple and said they would be good together (before they dated-like what we’ve seen in st with mileven and other ships ).Sam eventually decides to not cave to peer pressure- and breaks up with her. Meanwhile sam’s sis (is a straight A student, who is initially into a popular guy and starts hanging with the cool kids).  After getting over the first (popular) guy, she later dates another guy- a music-obsessed-stoner-guy  with a cruddy dad...and she breaks up with him (like jancy?). That couple was even called ‘romeo & juliet’ before they broke up-similar to mileven being called “romeo & juliet’ before their breakup. plus r&j were never in love... just like mileven.

All 3 shows had the main guy/girl date but not end up with eachother in the end . And both shows -would build up several pairings that looked like endgame but would show faults in those relationships and would have them breakup (because those pairings were never that healthy together). Which I believe is what they’re doing with jancy, jopper, mileven and lumax (explained in my analysis here all the evidence for why I don’t think they don’t end up together). I mean there’s many reasons I listed in the analysis but you think it’s a coincidence - jancy, lumax, mileven , and Steve/rando girl who rejected him in s3-all incorportated spying on their love interest ? you think the duffers think that’s good to have all these romantic pairings spy on eachother? When in the show they canonically have the us gov (villains) spy via phone taps, and hidden recorders, and cameras? Brenner used El as a spy for his own gain ? they even call the mf a ‘spy’ (which the characters perceive as the  main villain)... i don’t think the mf is  actually villainous but that’s off topic).The point is narratively equating spying as something ‘wrong’ by characters our main cast of heroes is against. But having that same cast of heroes partaking in spying themselves … specifically on to their romantic partners- and not also showing it as a negative. But romanticizing it? Would be quite hypocritical. And a HUGE narrative oversight.

Also build up?

S1- mileven kiss right after el asks if he’ll be her “friend” or “brother”. Has others compare el to mike’s sibling /cousin. Hint Will is gay . Have hints mike is queer too/ and cares deeply about Will. Constantly mention how el physically resembles Will/a boy. Parallel mileven to ted/Karen who were “never in love”. Have Nancy and mike verbally compare the jancy/stancy love triangle to mileven/byler . And at the end of the season mike writes a story for Will that likens the 2 to han/leia. Flo says about jancy/Jon “ only love makes you that crazy and that damn stupid”. (Which flo wasn’t entirely right about since jon punched Steve for insulting his family- for Jon it was familial love -not romantic love. But put a pin in that phrase)

S2- was pretty much byler season (and mileven barely interact that season). Byler say they’d go “crazy together”. But el’s new catchphrase is she’s “not stupid.” They Compare mileven to luke/leia (siblings that kissed) . Ref ghostbusters and parallel byler to the romantic pairing of Dana /venkman (but have el just be a ghost and mike a ghost buster which isn’t romantic but the opposite) .parallel mileven to hopper/el. Have el spy on mike, el hurt a stranger cause of unhealthy jealousy, have mileven dance to a song about a possessive spying/Stalking ex gf . Throw in mileven burns like “they’re not in love they’re not even from the same planet.” (El being et ref) . Have mike say annoyed “a bond ?! (Scoff) cause you shared nougat?! “ (egos like s1 ) “. Mike saying after knowing max for a week “hate you? I don’t even know you?” (He knew el for a week too so no way he loves her -cause he doesn’t know el , just like max ) . mike even criticizes his friends’ instant attraction to max saying “you haven’t even spoken a word to her.”Dustin saying “ I don’t have to . I mean -look at her.” Which makes it even more suspicious that mike was into a girl who multiple characters said looked like a boy (specifically Will) in s1. Have El watch a soap opera (all my children) and mimic the scene of  erica kane and her love interest michael. Which in the soap opera-isn’t endgame, and ended with some stalking after their breakup.

S3- mileven is finally dating : multiple characters (lucas, Will, Hopper, dustin,Max, etc) in the show dislike and verbally complain about them together . In cheers all of sam’s friends hated him dating Dianne and would vocally complain about it (similar to joyce they even clapped/cheered after 1 of their many breakups) . Mike is horrified by the spying(that mileven fans romanticized in s2) , el is happier single and neither is heartbroken over the breakup. They date for 2 eps and then breakup . Mileven being together inhibits El’s character arc from s2 (aka she went from wanting to explore the world and leave the cabin in s2 to see her friends, to ignoring her friends and cutting herself off from the world in order to stay in the cabin all day to make out with mike for 6 months - she would literally lie to her friends about curfew to return to the cabin and kiss mike -going against her ‘friends don’t lie’ mantra from the past 2 seasons too ). Mike canonically doesn’t trust her / doesn’t believe in her ability to make decisions and lies to her and never apologizes for lying. And el doesn’t apologize for spying . They throw in more gay hints of mike & Will. Mileven is called “bullshit��� like s2 stancy . And Both pairings in the show kissed a bunch and said “I love you” (but they weren’t endgame). They also contrast s3 mileven scenes to s2 byler scenes and have byler win out. And once again parallel mileven to hopper/el and Karen/ted. As well as paralleling and likening Mileven to stancy in numerous other ways (besides the “bullshit “ line) . They also parallel mileven to stobin (both are straight baits) .They parallel the stobin confession to the mileven one -both confessions have them sitting on the floor, both girls have bandages on their legs, and both confessions are interrupted by dustin. Also both Steve/mike use the terms “crazy & stupid ” to confess to robin/el. But unlike Will who agrees to be “crazy “ with mike .El confused , asks “ what makes you crazy?” And robin says she didn’t have a crush on his “stupid hair”. el even says in reference to mike “there’s more to life than stupid boys.” Showing how el/robin don’t have romantic feelings for the boys-like the flo phrase of s1. Unlike Will who after fighting with mike calls himself “stupid” over and over and rips up the photo of him and mike where they promised to go “crazy together.” Even Steve says in s2 stancy should should “pretend to be stupid teenagers” in love. Emphasis on “pretend”. And when el says she loves mike “the first I love you” plays -the only other time that song plays in s3 is when robin rejects Steve (cause she’s gay.) cough cause mike is gay too.

There’s a lot more in each season (that illustrates mileven was built up -but not as a positive couple but a problematic one that was never was in love to begin with ). But I’m trying to keep this short . You can read this post here where I go in more depth about all of this .

S1-2 builds up the problematic ships (but showed good and bad aspects of their dynamic) . like the spying of jancy, lumax, and mileven or the jealousy. of Hopper in s2. In the s2 finalie they have them kiss or hug/exchange romantic glances. And in S3 we see the after math of this with all the couples officially dating - and they show all the couples issues at the forefront . I already talked about mileven. But, Lumax broke up 6 times (they dated for 6 months- and every month they dated max dumped him ). Jancy fight in the opening of ep 1 and don’t understand each others issues (sexism/poverty-and Jon’s issues with his dad) . And neither supports the other in their passions of journalism & photography.Nancy is also called “nancy drew” who in 1986 (year of s4) before going to college dumps her long term highschool bf (who helped her in many of her past mysteries/novels ). Their relationship was also shown as complex and somewhat dysfunctional because of both parties -before nancy drew dumps him. And (even if not dating like the other pairings) jopper almost go on a date in s3. Joyce was trying to hide the fact she was moving, Hopper was horribly jealous, and all they did was yell and argue.Murray says to joyce regarding hopper “he’s a brute... probably reminds you of a bad relationship” (aka lonnie/Joyce) . They even have Joyce watch a cheers ep- which directly compares jopper to (dianne/Frasier) who weren’t endgame in cheers but a rebound .  Hopper /fraiser both drink chianti . Fraiser asks dianne to marry him/Hopper asks Joyce on a date-both women stand them up. Or when Joyce asks Hopper out she calls her self ‘detective byers ‘and Hopper name drops miami vice. Which had an on and off again relationship for several seasons- of the male /female detectives.The relationship faded out as Gina realized they mainly got together when one or both needed someone. Crockett was very protective of Gina, and had some jealousy when Gina was involved in relationships , but was the first one to be there for her when things went wrong. And they realized it was better to not be together romantically. Heck seems like all these couples have negative film/tv parallels... lucas in s2 mentions not liking winston in ghost busters cause he came ‘super late’ (like Max). in s1 disses michael myers (which Max dressed as). And at the end of s3- lumax dress identically to eric/donna from a ep of that 70s shows (in the ep  eric/donna were broken up).

 (s3 was marketed as the “summer of love” and “summer love” is a euphemism for flings that don’t last.) s4-5 Will probably show good healthy ships/break up the problematic ones from past seasons .

So first 2 seasons focus on the unhealthy ships / and the last 2 seasons focus on healthy ships. S3 the middle season would be considered the turning point -and why none of the popular ships (assumed to be endgame) came off looking that great (compared to how they were presented in s1-2) .

[lol-q]

There’s so many things I love about the show that I haven’t seen people give enough credit for and I want to go on a little ramble because people are focusing so much on what they don’t like vs. what they do. So here’s my list. Sorry for the grammatical errors 😬

I love that the lesbian main character is this sweet, innocent, big hearted young woman and not portrayed as a overly sexual fuckboi that hits on every woman. I love that Fatou is soft and gentle. More lesbian rep like that please

I love the soundtrack. It’s exactly the type of stuff I imagine Fatou would listen to and it’s not just the top 100 hit songs.

I love that they use the soundtrack as a way to connect to the plot line, like the lyrics to the song Fatou was listening to when she was on the rooftop said “And I hate to leave you feeling all alone.But your story cannot start until you've grown. You can find how to be OK on your own. I just can't be the one that makes you feel at home” which was a hint as to where the plot was going

^^ also the song playing during Kieu My and Fatou’s museum date

I love the little mannerisms Nhungi chooses to show as Kieu My. The happy little bounce she did in ep 1 when she called out Fatou’s name and when she subtly checked Fatou out by looking her up and down.

I love how their rooms show their individual personality so well. Like Fatou’s room in the beginning of the season was normal and then it became increasingly messy as the episodes moved forward, showing her stress and chaos in her life

I love the height difference between Fatou and her brother lol

I love when her brother and her were thinking of what to get their parents so they split the bill on a gift - a very subtle way of showing siblings interacting

I love when Fatou and Ismail interact cuz it’s so funny

I love the physics teachers speaking voice, he sounds like kermit the frog

I love fatou’s eyebrows. Idk it’s just so perfect. Give me tips plz

I love that the characters rewear clothing. And it’s not a show where every episode is a new outfit with new clothes. Very realistic and it always bothered me when teens on highschool on tv have new clothes every episode

I love that Fatou’s original bio on tinder was “wanna cuddle?”. I feel like that girl would rather cuddle with someone than win the lottery. She’s so soft (also why did it say she was 24 in ep 2 when she was on tinder lol)

I love that the show showed the struggles of coming from a bilingual family and being the only one that struggles to speak it. When fatou was talking to her grandparents with her brother and her brother had to translate for her and it was awkward af, I felt that. I’m the youngest in my family and I struggle to speak Tagalog so people have to translate for me sometimes and it sucks.

^^ I relate to fatou so much in that scene cuz the dynamic in my family is the same as Fatou’s. My parents lay off and let me and my brother do our thing unless there’s an indication we need their help. The only time I ever spoke about school with my family was when report cards would come and they would see my grades weren’t that good. I remember my mom seeing I had a D in middle school and automatically jumping to conclusiosn without letting me speak. My brother is academically successful and he would also try and get me to do more school stuff when I was younger. Like he would make me do math problems to help with my grades. So it’s all very relatable for me

I love when Fatou sings, her voice is so soft and smooth.

I love whenever Kieu My and fatou are flirting both so blatantly and yet so subtly. Like the tension is there but it’s still awkward despite how smooth they both try to be it’s so adorable

I love how Fatou and Kieu My are so confident flirting and talking to eachother through texting but when it’s irl it’s still awkward and new. It shows the reality of an actual relationship in the making. It’s not just a full head dive into “I love you”.

I love when they were at the table tennis bar place and Fatou was hyping up Ava when there were dudes looking at them and Ava did a fancy ass turn and smile. She’s so pretty

I love that Fatou’s problems were shown in subtle ways in the beginning with money. Counting money at her job and when she wa trying to pay for the drink at the bar. It was a small interaction but in real life it would cause a lot of stress and anxiety if money counting problems kept happening over and over again

I love Yara and Josh’s friendship. More platonic friendship between a male and a female please. Also more Yara in general please.

I love that Zoe owned up to her actions last year to the entire group (minus Ismail Constantine and Kieu my) on New Years. I see her owning up to the role as Nora’s big sister.

I love when Josh was drinking a lot during New Years and Fatou was trying to get him to slow down. It shows how big her heart is for her friends. Also I think Josh and Fatou could be great friends

I love that Kieu My looks at Fatou like she hung the stars. When Fatou mentioned she knew Kieu My was a Scorpio, it’s the first time I’ve ever seen that girl smiled so big (before episode 5 of course)

I love that whenever they kiss Kieu my is smiling.

I love Sira’s side profile. There I said it. Girl has the jawline of a Greek goddess.

I love that they change Fatou’s hair. She looks good in every hair style but it’s always nice to see her in different styles.

I love that they showed the struggles of being a passive and gentle person. Because we’re not assertive in regular everyday life we are easily looked over. And it’s hard for us to muster the gusto to be assertive and take what we need because we prefer shying away from conflict and just letting things flow. I relate to fatou’s character so much in that sense. I lowkey think this is the universe’s way of telling me to stop being so passive about life and to take charge idk.

I love that the topic of white savior and performative activism was touched on. And I love that it was between two friends because it’s very realistic to how dynamics work between young people these days. The way they handle it differs in opinion but the fact that they even spoke about it was great.

I love that moment when Kieu My wrapped the vietnamese pancake in the lettuce snd handed it to Fatou. Its so sweet. If I was Fatou I would have forgiven her right then and there lol

I LOVE THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWo. YES MORE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE.

Episode 6. Just all of it. Even the angsty part. I want more of that. Episode 6 yes. I’ll marry episode 6

Kieu My wearing Fatou’s cardigan. 💕💕💕💕💕💕✨✨✨✨✨😫😫💕✨✨🥺

^^ but also as a person that tried bangs before, you can’t tell me that girl woke up with her bangs perfectly in place lol. This girl probably bought a mini straightener or something too

Fatou telling Kieu My it doesn’t matter if she wears make up or not rather than going off on how she looks prettier without it. She’s just like “it doesn’t matter. You’re pretty no matter what, my little space nerd”

Pissed off fatou is a hot fatou. Js

I love Sira’s acting in general. But the way she shows Fatou’s sadness is great. It’s not just tears and that’s it. When she got fired it was a build up of tears but she wasn’t sobbing, same thing with the cashqueens argument. But she broke when her and Kieu My got in a fight.

Finn being socially awkward. It’s so funny cuz Zoe is this bubbly party girl and her boyfriend is so awkward. Nice balance.

^^also his hair makes me laugh idk why

Ismail opening up to Fatou shows how so many people feel at ease with her. Girl has a calming presence for everybody, she doesn’t even realize how much she’s helped others.

I love that Constantine wears the same jacket over and over again. Idk it seems to fit his character.

^^also kudos to the actor who plays him, he’s doing an amazing job

Love Fatou. Love her dimples and her soft voice. She gets all high pitched when she’s normally speaking but when she was fighting with Kieu My her voice became lower. Just love the way Sira’s voice sounds. Also Nhungi’s speaking voice.

Love the shaky camera movements. The fast pans and the slow motion dance scenes.

Love the aesthetic of Kieu My smoking but PLEASE DONT SMOKE, CHILDREN. ITS BAD FOR YOU.

Love the different aesthetics of the cashqueens

Love maike. Great actress. Give this turtle an Oscar.

Love Kieu My climbing the roof to help her Fatou. Softie to her girlfriend but an ice queen to the world lol.

Love the actors. Love the characters. It just makes me so happy.

This is so well written, i might actually cry no but really it was really nice to read your positive and cuteee facts after the tag check :/ and it really helped because i get mad and sad when i see bad takes. Everything you said was so true and i think im fangirling over this essay. And it made me emotional 👉👈.  Represantation does really matter.

This season is so important for so many people and i don’t think some people realize that when they’re ‘’criticizing’’ some things. Not only we have a lesbian main, we have a black lesbian main who is the softest person in the world and she has LD and/or ADHD. I sometimes can’t believe we got to the point of skamverse where we get rep instead of hurtful,problematic seasons and plots, some might interpret that as shade but it really isn’t, careless storylines really does hurt ppl and why would you want to hurt people when you can give 8 min of sapphic museum date instead 👭🌌 :)

i love this season, i love this gen and i love this essay

[tysabrewing-s]

God im ACTUALLY super duper excited to see penny n webby interact first of all w dellas pre establish thing w "shes JUST like you!!" Which dont get me wrong she mean this as in a "ur both super strong n can beat the shit outtav things :)" BUT here me out yall ive had a hashtag Galaxy brain thought (warning this actually got VERY long and incomprehensible a bit lol)

What if its like w how penumbra is socially? Shes obviously not gonna know anything considering shes an alien n never exactly knew MUCH abt earth besides della which even then is p wild herself and w that one ask abt penny being afraid of cars shes most likely not gonna rlly follow traditional social standards n p much do her own thing 

And you know who was put in a situation just like that? Webby! Honestly i wish more ppl talked abt this more as somebody who relates to her not knowing anything about how ur "supposed" to act and even a bit of her isolation she went thru up in the mansion 

its honestly never SHOWN as a bad thing! Or anything she even HAD to change abt herself!! Albeit she was kinda picked at by hdl but in like a sibling way like going up to ur you get sibling n calling them a fartbucket or some stuff like that lmao

What im trying to mean her is that i think webby would LOVE  to help penny w getting to know earth stuff a bit more they both have similar isolation issues and even tho she does have plenty supportive ppl who never treat her lesser bcuz "oh my god ur sodifferent why cant u be normal Webby wtf :\" theres rlly nobody else who EXACTKY gets that to a tee besides della lena n fethry 

but her and fethry interacting probs wont ever get super deep 

lena has hella a lot other things going on and i think her isolation problems while webby will be helping w those i feel like the sabrewing family is gonna have a much more impact on that part of her 

We've also seen her n della interact but it was more like abt encouraging urself n not having to follow on another's footsteps but im p sure they will talk to eachother abt being isolated at SOME point

 but her and penumbra being able to reach out to eachother specifically w their situations would mean a lot to eachother bcuz they did HAVE good ppl in their life webby w beakley n penny w lunaris except lunaris ended up being a horrible piece of shit but he seemed to be a p good manipulator so obviously of course penumbra will be fucked up by this having to slowly realize small lil things lunaris did its honestly like a abusive parent\ child dynamic 

I kinda got a bit off topic here abt how webby n penumbra will be helpful ppl to eachother bcuz Webby ofc cant relate to having abusive ppl but i just wanted to mention penny and lunaris dynamics 

Anyways tho penumbra and webby dynamic is gonna be important bcuz penny will most likely not be super close to ppl besides della which also relates to her isolation problems and they are also going to help eachother w it and honestly will be even more important to pennys arc but this post s abt her n webby so ill continue 

Webby is obviously gonna try and interact w her and hdl in general bcuz wtf alien that was friends w della? EPIC 

Penny will most likely close them off but then Della will encourage her to interact w them and overtime when penny gets out of her shell a bit more and ACTUALLY interacts w the mcduck family she n webby will DEF get close to webby bcuz i think she'll end up helping her the most getting used to earth besides della and what frank meant by webby inally getting to eatt her hamburger is that penumbra will also get to eat her "hamburger" like I mean this in a literal way bcuz i do think that they WILL idk go to funsos or some shit but also metaphorically w penumbra going out and trying new things and not having to worry abt lunaris holding her down nobody is going to be mean to her for not getting how earth works or is and finally get to be around a healthy family 

[goji-pilled]

I'm rewatching Reflekdoll,again,and tbh I can say for sure this is by far my favourite episode ever.Here some thoughts since I'm a little late to that party lol

-The talk between Chat and Ladybug is like this mix of friendly teasing and joking and a very serious topic (at least that's how I see it lol)But honestly the parts I love so much come after that so skip that

-Juleka and Luka sibling moment.I mean we finally got to see what their realtionship is like and I couldn't be more happy with what we saw.Luka engouraging and supporting his sister and her dreams?Fuck yes that's some really good content

-What else I like about this scene is that I can personally relate to Juleka a lot,not only in Reflekdoll but also in Reflekta.The fact that she didn't want to bother Marinette or how insecure she is is something I did/said/felt too (or well still do/say/feel)Like this feeling that you're all alone,that noone cares or notices you?That hurts,a lot.And it's something I know all to well.And honestly it's super important to show children that these feelings exist because it might help someone

-Juleka not being able to handle a compliment?Yep,absolutely relateable.I swear I'm going to protect Juleka 'till the very end

-Alrighty this is the part that makes me slighty salty:Alya pushing Marinette into things that clearly make her uncomftable.I mean yes she means well and want to help her best friend but seriously,pushing her like this and forcing her into uncomftable situations with Adrien is the absolute wrong way to do it and the girl just doesn't seem to get that.Fucking hell Marinette pretty much begged Alya to not invite Adrien but she is just like "Fuck it!" and disrespects Marinette's wish.

-After 'Ladybug and the Miracubros' we present to you:'Adrien and the Girlsquad'

-Juleka getting more nervous untill it's an actual panic attack.Again I can relate a lot to this,even though I wouldn't say that I have panic attacks.It's more this feeling of becoming so nervous that it feels like you have a knot in your stomach,your throat is dry,you feel super uncomftable and all of the sudden your thoughts are worst case scenarios;"What if I mess up?","What if I'm not good enough?","What if they laugh at me or hate me?",etc.I have these thoughts more often than I like to admit since I was 6/7 years old.It just makes me kinda happy that a show for children shows this topic

-Marinette trying to comfort Juleka is something I loved too.Like Marinette is very understanding here and tries to help Juleka calm down which shows us a bit of their friendship and I just really apprechiate that

-And Alya is at her bullshit again dear god.Honestly Alya sees that Juleka is having a panic attack and all she thinks about is getting Adrien and Marinette together.It's just wrong on so many levels.Not only does she keep disrespecting Marinette but she also head on ignores Julekas situation,which is rude and disrespectful.Like seriously that's so not okay and she should've been called out for that.

-Adrien sweetie thanks for trying.It's good to see that he wants to help Juleka in this situation.

-ALYA GODDAMNIT.And again she is being pushy.Yes Marinette said she's gonna do it herself but in a way where you can tell she wanted to help Juleka and remove the pressure,plus Marinette never said she would never consider Juleka as a model again so there is that!But of course a certain Blogger had to be pushy and forceful about it again.And Adrien didn't even want to model,he just wanted to help.Oh god the way Alya told Juleka to give her suit to Marinette is just...no.Juleka is upset and honestly does Alya notice?No.And Marinette's clearly uncomftable oh god why.

Alya:"I care about all my friends equally!"

Alya:"Adrien!"

Alya:"Marinette!"

Alya reading something from her arm:"And uh...Julia?"

Honestly I could go on with this but let's refocus on the positive stuff.

-How the fuck does noone hear or see Adrien and Marinettd talk with Tikki and Plagg????

-Adrien and Marinette in that Partnerlook just expanded my lifespan for 100 years

-"He's too hot-I mean I'm overheating inhere don't you????"

Mari please you need to calm down oh god please someone save the poor girl-

-Julerose.Julerose.JULEROSE.I swear everytime Juleka and Rose interact my hesrt bursts.Also thank god for Rose and Marinette,it's these two who try to help Juleka (just like in Reflekta).Also Juleka bot wanting to bother others with her feelings?Yes hello I'd like to say that this situation is relatable.

-That soft look Juleka gave Rose after Rose kissed her cheek is just...so adorable and it shows how much Juleka loves Rose

-God Juleka talking herself down?Almost crying and super upset by herself?Probably even hating herself?Yep again,this is all too familiar to me and it feels so good to have a chrachter to relate too.

-"Yet again my young prey fails to be the center of attention."Your "young prey"???Seriously????Gabriel what the fuck-

-YEET THEM GLASSES

-No honestly Nathalie's transformation is so amazing.It's simple but in combination with the amazing theme this transformation is by far one of my favorites.I'd go as far as to say my second favourite transformation(Together with Luka's)

-I genuinly love the whole scene in the lair.I can't even tell you why because I don't know but I just love it.

-Them sending off an Akuma and an Amok?Loved it.

-Petition to let Gorilla adopt Adrien

-Also Gorilla is so soft for these kids

-I loved the scene of Juleka's akumatization.Like the purple maskoutline being a combination between Hawkmoth's and Mayura's looks so fucking cool

-Reflekta is back bitches!Honestly Reflekta has always been one of my favourite akumas and I'm happy seeing her again!Also her design is so fucking amazing holy shit

-I'm not fan of Miraculous' english dub but Juleka's voice actress is amazing.Lots of love to her.

-"I'm gonna show you what it feels like to be me!"Honestly that's such a great line on many diffrent levels.Not only does she say it because she's a villain right now but because she obviously has some kind of selfdisliking and ugh can you make Reflekta even more relatable too?

-"Juleka is no more,I'm Reflekta!Everyone always forgets about Juleka anyway..."Honestly this is again a pretty deep line and it shows more of her emotions...And I can relate to certain dagree.It feels like people just forget about you,that you're not important,don't matter,sometimes you want to be someone else so badly...Honestly Juleka truly is one of my favourite characters

-Reflekta turning Marinette into a Reflekta and saying:"Perhaps you'll understand me better now that you're in MY shoes!"It's another line that shows how Juleka(or at this moment Reflekta) feels.She feels misunderstood and wow same here haha...

-Tikki and Plagg's interaction earlier was great and Plagg reassuring Tikki is so adorable.Honestly these two need more screentime together

-"Rose!Where are you my BFF!"Juleka has the 'She's just a friend' desease,we all know what people in this show mean when they say:"She's just a friend".And since she said BFF they're probably married

-Plagg calling for Chat Noir and then almost casually telling Marinette his identity is gold.

-Honestly all Plagg/Marinette interactions are gold.I love this chaos duo.They are the best part about Kwami swap AUs.Also Plagg looks and sounds so soft when talking to Marinette I love them

-Marinette taking the ring like:"Fuck it"

-I love the detail that the Miraculous changes to it's wielder

-LADY NOIR TRANSFORMATION.I absolutly loved everything about it and it's my favourite transformation with Roi Singe's

-Lady Noir is giving me gay thoughts

-Lady Noir said fuck Reflekdoll rights

-Tikki is just like:"Oh god no the choas duo finally found eachother-"

-Adrien not introducing himself,rude.

-Adrien taking the earings:"Fuck it I always wanted to do this"

-MISTERBUG TRANSFORMATION.I love his transformation so much,he's an adorable Bugboy.Honestly his version of the Ladybug theme sounds so great holy shit

-Adrien sweetie why do you have a Reflekta head agi-oh never mind it's gone

-Hot take:Marinette does the Black Cat transformation better than Adrien,while Adrien does the Ladybug transformation better

-"M'lady Noir" I love it

-Adrien did the Orgins-Ladybug move with that yo-yo

-Lady Noir helping Misterbug out even though she sounds a bit rude gives me life

-The Lucky Charm scene is amazing I love it,them arguening and teasing like a married couple god just kiss already you dumbasses

-Again Marinette is explaining how the Lucky Charm works even though she may sound a little harsh she means well but she didn't have to hit him.......well it was funny...haha

-"Why don't you help me instead of making fun of me?!"...Adrien...she explained you the lucky charm the whole time...she tried helping you and teased you....you pun and tease her all the time...your still an adorable bugboy and I love you

-Marinette is so extra when summoning her cataclysm...I love it.Though she could've thought about the idea of cataclysming a sentimonster a bit longer...she's still a queen and I love her

-Adrien getting to explain cataclysming a sentmoster is a nice contrast to her explaing the lucky charm

-That wink Lady Noir gave Misterbug that just gave me a lot of life

-Reflekta is the first Akuma to ask for help nakwsnkwwk

-And again she helped him by reminding him to catch the akuma in a teasing tone

-Idk why but Adrien catching an Akuma and saying Marinette's catchphrases was so awesome

-Adrien admitting and understanding why LB never jokes around is some character developement we stan!Untill the writers decide to take that way that is but y'know

-Marinette admitting that she's happy to have a little less responsibilty for once hurts my heart like the girl has so much responsibilty and stress an in the end it always depends on her to fix thing and she just needs a break and a hug...

-Them working our a plan was great.It showed how well they work together and just ugh,kiss already you idiots!

-Gabriel goddamnit why are you letting her use the damn Miraculous god jesus

-Dusuu is absolutely adorable and I love her

-oh...rip Nathalie

-Oh the reunion with their kwamis was so sweet holy cow my heart is gonna explode

-And here I go again becoming salty,like Marinette should not have been the one to apolagize.It should have been Alya,to both Juleka and Marinette.Alya way the one being rude,pushy,disrespecrful ans inconsidered.But oh well of course it's always Mari's fault...

-Adrien and Girlsquad are the Brotp

Anyway overall I love Reflekdoll so much.It absolutely is my favourite episode.From Juleka/Luka sibling moment,being able to relate so strongly to Juleka,Mayura's transformation,the Kwami swap untill the end I loved the episode,despite being salty here and their but you can't expect me to watch a mlb episode and not be salty

[demented-dukey]

Re: tw: discussion of incest

Welcome to another drama-filled day with your host, DD! Today’s post is being brought to you courtesy of an anti-incest post that crossed my dash. At the time of me reading the post, the OP was not on the Anti-shipper list, but they do have me blocked, so I can’t reblog their post.

Fair warning to everyone reading my blog - if I see you vagueblogging in a way that I feel is personally directed at me, including referring to specific reasoning I’ve used in my posts, I consider that interacting with me and will probably interact with you back. You are not safe from DNI rules if you interact with me first.

@despacitosanders - you have been auto-added to the Anti-List and marked with a [DNI] so that pro-shippers know not to interact with you. If you truly don’t want to interact with us, read no further on this post.

Click the back button and walk away.

Otherwise, if you continue to read this post, you are willingly choosing to break your own DNI rules and interact with me.

If you’re still reading, then so be it. I have a few things to say about the points you made in your post.

sometimes you got some Feelings. and you express them. free speech amiright, should apply to “antis” too right

Your right to free speech means that the government can't arrest you for what you say. It doesn't mean that anyone—anyone—has to listen to what you say, nor does it protect you from people arguing with your opinion online.

that being said, i don’t condone sending hate to people.

This, I agree with. I don’t condone sending hatemail to anyone - Pro, Anti, or Neutral. This is not a call-out post and I don’t want anybody to attack despacitosanders. This is just a reply to their post, because I had reason to believe they were specifically talking about me.

if people request you to make a new channel in your server to keep the romrem seperate from the rest bc uh Most People are made fucking uncomfortable or are even triggered by that [...] then theyre being demanding and “coming at you”.

If their request is denied by the server admin and they continue to cause a fuss over it, then YES, they are being demanding. Users are allowed to request a new channel, but if the owner of the server says no, then you must respect that and drop it. If you don’t like the rules of a server, then leave the server. No one is forcing you to be there or stopping you from leaving. I know you’re not talking about my server, but I’m going to use it as an example - My discord server allows RemRom in all its channels. Anybody who requests that it be restricted is gonna have their request denied. If they keep causing trouble, they’re gonna get kicked from the server. My server, my rules. If you don’t like it, make your own server. 

roman and remus are actually brothers

That is still debatable. If you care about the nuances in the text, I’ve written an entire meta based on why there is no solid proof of brotherhood in DwIT and all the “proof” is actually open to debate and extremely disputable. Fandom has leapt on the “brothers” headcanon, but it is still a headcanon at this point, and will be until Remus and/or Roman refer to eachother as siblings outside of a generic “Bro” that could be applied to anyone regardless of relationship, or a reluctant “...yeah” that was forced from Roman immediately following two head injuries and was quickly invalidated by what he said next (read the meta to learn all about it).

On the topic of “romantization”, which I am so fucking sick of I could scream: Yes, I’m going to write Roman and Remus being “in some way desirable” to each other, because if they didn’t desire each other, I would just write creativitwins. Which, obvs, I still do when I’m in the mood for platonic siblings, but if I’m going to ship them romantically, they’re going to be fucking romantic.

this fandom literally has 14 other 2 person ships just among the sides. 14 other ships that aren’t canonically confirmed to be Platonic Only

The “just ship someone else” argument has about as much validity as “just go to another fandom”. No. I like Roman. I like Remus. I like their dynamic and the possibilities of their relationship. If you think the sides are interchangeable then it shouldn’t matter what sides I ship.

In your “14 other 2 person ships”, you are obviously including Patton/Virgil. Why does Moxiety get a free pass but RemRom does not? In canon, Patton calls Virgil kiddo and “my child” several times, and Virgil gave Patton a dad-themed nickname. That right there is a “canonically confirmed to be Platonic Only” relationship. Maybe Moxiety shippers don’t consider the pairing as father/son when they write it, but as you said yourself at the beginning of the post, “well they’re not really related” which of course is invalidating to people with family they aren’t biologically related to. they’re just as much family no matter what. I have ~yet~ to hear a valid reason why Moxiety is allowed but RemRom is not. Go on. I’ll wait.

[neimana]

1.AU Where Uncle Yomo takes care of lil Touka and Ayato maybe time after Arata leaves them and the three of them are like a wild flocks of Kirishimas, their reputation starts like a rumor and then grows enough to alert the ccg, even between ghouls they are feared. It's even said that they own a district. 2.And maybe ccg decides investigate and assign the case to the infamous black reaper, the son of the feared Reaper itself. So he starts to investigate and ends up with nothing but more rumors +

+and urban legends. So one afternoon after an exhaustive night and day of searching he finds this coffe-bar and guess what?!  3. Idk This part I haven’t decided… Maybe first they fight as ghoul vs dove and then they meet as barista and customer. Or viceversa. But the first time they see eachother like “humans” they feel something. Something that burns their cold stoned hearts. And they can’t stop this feeling. So at first they try to ignore the suspicion of what they truly are ++but then they don’t care anymore. I imagine their romance like Juliet & Romeo, maybe. (Capuleto vs Montesco a.k.a Kirishima vs Kishou).  Ok… This got out of my hands. Lmao. Srry for them spam            

omg is this inspired because of my endless list of AUs on ttt?😂 ever since my last black reaper/toukacchan art i’ve been thinking of a possible au with these two.. i hope you don’t mind me writing a whole HC about this bc ANON, (under read more bc it got long)

I LOVE IT. The whole idea of uncle yomo trying to raise not only one but two kirishima siblings, would be tough when both hit puberty&he has to keep them out of big trouble, settling much later in a ward&opening their own coffee shop. it would be like the more peaceful years so far of their lives together, keeping now a low profile, until…well, they are pretty (in)famous in the ghoul world, even when they don’t go around causing trouble like before, perhaps the kirishima siblings get into some big confrontation with the doves? i would like to include hinami in this, something like in the canon story where she&her mother are discovered (albeit here hinami is the same age as in :re &both of them make it out alive!!). so ayato&touka help to protect them&run away together to :re. uncle yomo has a bad feeling about this— his fears are confirmed when in his usual patrols he notices there’s no more doves, but only one. the black reaper. yomo tells both ayato&touka they should now be more careful & look their steps, since the black reaper is no normal dove..

ccg has been looking for them for years, losing suddenly the trail—but now that the two rabbits came out of their hole they have no intention of allowing them to escape again. so they send death itself. black reaper putting a foot in :re, touka being the only one that day in the shop, she has learned from her younger days to recognize /dangerous/ opponents &she also has heard the rumours about this person.. who with each deliberate step has analyzed the place&his surroundings with the look of that of a predator. nonetheless, she has a role to fill as the manager of the shop (bc uncle said he wasn’t fit for that role, ayato neither lol) even when all she wanna do is kick him out as fast as she can, touka makes her way to the seat he chose, close to the books. steps of one who knows their territory better than anyone.but despite being natural enemies… when touka comes closer to this customer, when he lifts his head &they make eye contact..suspicion &….something more..now that she has a better look…although he seems to be around her age the dark bags under his eyes&the pitch somber stare tells her this guy has been through a lot more than any other human his age. suddenly he looks older.

the short interactions between customer/manager becoming slowly casual talks about books that escalate to more personal topics..things she hasn’t tell anyone before slip through her tongue. uncle yomo warns her, touka tells him she just can’t simply tell him to stop visiting the shop…but ayato is the one that makes her realize this closeness with the black reaper is not just a one sided thing.“—and what if he’s just using you? getting all friendly with you so you let your guard down…aneki, i’ve seen both of you talk and your expression… it’s the same expression you have when you look at your human friend… you’re starting to trust him, aren’t you?” ayato doesn’t need an answer for that.

what if he’s using you

it is true, though. the moment the bell at the top of the door received him, he knew he had found what he was looking for. the first eye contact with her.. the small talk..the books, the coffee…without conscious intention opening up slowly beyond the initial calculated goal.

every day being questioned by his superiors,“how’s the investigation going?”“what’s the progress?”“have you found the trail?”after some months, he’s summoned to his office. “—one week.”

hinami who has shared with him thoughts about books&questions about words. yomo who has given him some interesting insight about himself with a simple sentence. even the little brother who looks at him wary from the distance. the shop, the smell he has come to get used to. touka. touka who has shared with him her thoughts, her questions, her insight, her wary look &the smell he can’t get enough of. she looking at him beyond the facade, looking at the ugly shell & coming through the cracks to see the emptiness of being so full of everything. embraced him&allowed him to embrace. even when the vicious words kept escaping from his lips, when the truth was told. without conscious intention.

one week. one week. one week.

((the capuleto vs montesco aka kirishima vs kishou imminent confrontation ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;))

kaneki takes a decision. even if it’s at the cost of his life, he will not allow him to put a foot inside the place he has come to see&feel as a sanctuary. it will probably be..his last mission.when touka’s expecting kaneki to come..instead of his dark figure a white, taller, bigger presence shows at the doors of the shop.

ending#1; kaneki doesn’t make it. he arrives to the horrible scene of investigators standing outside the shop, burning it. the reaper is standing outside, a familiar figure lying at his feet…kaneki collapses in despair.ending#2; kaneki comes through the back door of the shop&manages to block ixa’s blow aimed at yomo&touka, the same events of cochlea/the canon story follow, “i’ll see you later”, “i was finally…able to leave something”; kaneki finds the will to continue living, reunites with touka&co. but now they’re being pursued by ccg. ending#3 vers.a; kaneki doesn’t show up at all. he’s being kept as a prisoner in cochlea. he’s sedated&being put to sleep, marked as traitor for aiding ghouls. when he wakes up he expects to being executed, by that point it would be the most merciful end for him. he doesn’t want to wake up anymore to the thought of corpses. her corpse. but instead of being crushed to death he undergoes the therapy. he’s given another name, but his memories remain as punishment. he’s given another quinque. it is a punishment as well, she’s already named by him, “thunder rabbit”. ending#3 vers.b; he’s kept as a prisoner&when his date of execution approaches kaneki has no will to fight back, he craves for it, to end the suffering. but then the night before that day he’s woken up by the howl of cochlea’s alarm. he listens all of it from the corner of his cell, no intention of even escaping when it’s opened. “i’m sorry i’m late— ” her voice sounds the same. her face is the same. is this another dream? “—let’s get out of here.”——

;;;;;;;;i’m so bad for endings 😭, anon thank you sooo much for sending your ideas! they were truly inspiring ((though i’m sorry if i’ve misinterpreted something about them, i’m sorry for using them to branch these headcanons too;;)) the endings were inspired from other endings from other personal headcanons tho, but they suited this as well 😂…i had fun, once again thank you for sharing 😭🙏

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Module 3: Identity is so confusing

Writing this blog post 3 weeks left in this semester, I am honestly SO proud of myself. I think I managed to do the impossible. Impossible, that’s how I would describe Module 3 :D (that’s a sarcastic smiley face, clearly I’m still recovering from that long test)

Often mentioning the theories of identity formation in Module 2, this module offered a more relational perspective on identity. Describing identity as also a product of socio-cultural factors including ones peer and parental relationships the and deepening this with 

This module was very relevant, especially in its discussion and dissection of gender stereotypes and the importance of consent and proper use of the internet, so even if I think I did not do well in my test I know that I learned something. 

The first topic was on identity development in family relationships. With this in mind, I will be constructing my own individuation timeline as well as posting a picture of me as a child and now not just to highlight how transient or alive identity is. 

Me as a child: 

Me now: 

From my choice of photos alone, you’ll see how much has changed. When I was a child, it was easy to think of my self as just an extension of my parents who needed to eat, walk, talk, go to school, and look cute. Now, it’s hard to think of myself without thinking of my family, my friends, my interests and more as I truly adapt different identities when I am with each of these. 

Next is my individuation timeline as seen below. 

In infancy, my parents saw me as their biggest responsibility and  they could not part from me especially as they had all the resources and means needed to keep me safe and alive. With that, I saw my parents as my sources of life and survival while I, on the other hand, had no coherent sense of self yet— just someone attached to my parents especially my mother. In toddlerhood, I experienced my first individuation. Here, I began to let go of my infantile attachments. I still saw my my parents as great sources of love, support, knowledge, and protection but I knew I did not need them to survive as I could feed myself, use the toilet by myself, and more. With that, I saw myself as the little angel of my parents who always made them happy and I think my parents saw me in that way too. Childhood was no different as I deeply idealised my parents, I saw them as my superheroes, my greatest sources of information, and wanted to be just like my dad. They saw me as their carbon copy often saying things like “just like mommy/daddy.” Thus, I saw myself as an extension of my parents who I needed to obey so I could be rewarded and be perfect just like them. Come adolescence, my second individuation began to unfold. At around 11 years old, I de-idealised my parents and no longer saw them as perfect. With that, I saw myself as unique not just from my parents but also from my siblings. I had different talents, different interests, and values from them so I think my parents were beginning to see me as an individual and not just their puppet. Lastly, as this individuation still continues I am now beginning to see my parents, specifically my mom, as my friend and myself as a work in progress. In terms of how my parents see me, I think my mom sees me as a friend too as she is not afraid to confide in me and I am able to see her vulnerabilities. Together, we talk about boys, school, the past, woes, failures, doubts— stuff I cannot talk to about with my dad, which my mom also says she cannot do sometimes. As my dad is less expressive, I think he still sees me as his baby but I still respect him even if I cannot see him as an equal yet. Thus from this exercise, I saw clearly that I am not my parents. In fact, a healthy parent-child relationship is one where the parent nurtures and supports the child into becoming his or her own person while still humbling them and reminding them to be good. With this in mind, I am willingly going to continue to reconnect and renew my relationship with my parents, talk to them more, and work towards equality so we can have even more meaningful and deep interactions. 

The next topic was on identity construction in peer relationships and digital spaces. With this being said, the best way for me to express all I have learned is through memes :> 

First, my friends. My friends are so important to me and I am so thankful to have them in my life as they never cease to put a smile on my face. Moving to a co-ed school in senior high, my group of friends expanded but I still kept my friends from Woodrose close to me. In these two settings, the common denominator about myself is that I’m the funny one in my friend group as well as the butt of the joke. My girl squad in Woodrose was full of intelligent and supportive girls, we often traded books, had deep conversations, and confided in each other about our doubts, pressures, and failures. They formed the part of my identity that is hardworking, introspective, and empathetic. In Beacon, I met new people who loosened me up a bit and introduced me to different kinds of fun like parties, spontaneous dinners, and odd conversations at Denny’s until 3 AM. There, I could goof around in class especially because of the boys who were always rowdy. With the girls, they introduced me to fashion, boy talk, makeup, and fun self care luxuries like getting a facial while still reminding me that I could be real with them and show sadness, fear, and guilt. They made me the online shopping addict today as well a go-to person for advice, ranting and a hug. They made me see that doing things that were conventionally girly did not mean you were conceited or an airhead and I have become an open-minded and less judgemental person because of them. Now, in college, I brought a lot of my high school friends with me. So these two crowds, the brains and the international school kids (we have all bonded over this) are who I still affiliate with. I have yet to find a new crowd here but I don’t think I would stray from each type of crowd as I do not really wanna step out of my comfort zone. To put this into words, here is a meme: 

With the first meme out of the way, I can proudly post these three low-budget but very accurate memes about my online and offline identity. 

Here, you practically hear me proclaim that I am somewhat of a comedian myself on Facebook where I share the FUNNIEST memes.

Here, I expose what a mess I am on another social media site. On twitter, I am either really really sad or really really ready to preach, be inspirational, and make a change. Nonetheless, my followers are my closest friends and they are endlessly supportive, ready to either cheer me on or cheer me up. Here, I’m more comfortable to reveal my vulnerabilities because my parents and relatives are not on it and I would hate for them to get worried about me. 

To sum this all up, here is a meme on my online vs offline identity:  

Online, I am more unrestrained, showing more of my cheeky and makulit personality, and vocal about a lot of things. Offline, I’m like a sponge that likes to observe, more refined and mahinhin. This describes the shy side of myself when in social situations so I’m thankful for social media as it gives me an avenue to share the side of myself that is loud and crazy but funny to watch. 

The last topic was on gender and sexuality. First, I was able to discover the different facets and faces of my gender through filling out the Genderbread Person. My worksheet is attached below: 

Easily, I can conclude that I am not either/or just like gender. Filling this out, I struggled in the element of gender expression. I suddenly remembered that when I was in Woodrose, my teachers always told me that I slouch like a man and sit like a man. Out of their eyesight, I would respond by assuming an even more male-like stance and I could not help it because I was comfortable that way. When I dress up, my expression depends on my mood. Sometimes I wanna be a girly girl and feel the swing of my dress when I walk and sometimes, I do not care at all and find it more comfortable to dress like a man- I even use my brothers clothes a lot, especially to sleep. These examples alone point to a very important understanding on gender and even sexual orientation  which is that there are truly infinite possibilities. Moreover, being one does not relate to being another so we cannot judge a person on simplistic norms such as how they express themselves. 

I recognize in myself that I am not just one or the other so with this, I know that I have the right to respect all even if society tells me different or I have a hard time understanding. In fact, gender shouldn’t even be something one dissects so much because it is so flexible and has many facets that are independent of eachother. I can even relate this understanding to sex and sexuality.  In gender,  we are conditioned to think that it is always either/or and this extends even to sexuality where as a woman you are either a virgin who is uptight or a slut who is cheap. In both situations, you cannot win and it is hard for me to believe that there are still some people that cannot accept that humans are so complicated and unfit to be reduced to 2 extremes. However, I cannot say that my views are perfect either. I have always adapted a broader view on sexuality, recognizing the plight of the LGBTQ+ community but even then I was scared to question if I was more male than female. In my mind, it was hard to imagine myself or allow myself to be more male-like because of my socialization. When it came to sex, this was even more skewed.  A touchy subject, I came from an Opus Dei exclusive for girls school so sex equaled taboo. Before this class, I never even had an in-depth discussion on sex that attacked all sides, especially one that dared to say that a womqns sexuality is not to be hidden, but instead explored. Before this class, I always succumbed to the women who have sex are sluts belief while still agreeing with the “men are trash” statement. How could I blame the male while clearly perpetrating the culture of victim blaming? Clearly, I had some internalized misogyny and cognitive dissonance that I was able to tap into with the discussion. I now see another side of it, which is that I have been conditioned and socialized to punish women and glorify men for sexual behaviour and expression. In its own nature, there is nothing wrong about and nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to sex. In fact, most of the bad things associated with sex come from a lack of awareness so I know now that it is important to ask the right questions. Such include: what birth control method is best, how to respond to the spread of private nude pics online, what is consent, how do I give consent and more. In terms of self-expression then, I can do whatever I want within the limits of my own comfort. If I think wearing shorts to school is but if I refuse to wear a lace bralette to a bar, that is fine too. It doesn’t mean that if other women do not express themselves, such as in the way they dress, the same way as I do that they are “sluts” or not worthy of the same respect. Simply, this just means we have different modes on self-expression and levels of comfort. 

With all of this being said, I was clearly able to explore the inner nuances of my identity given this module. Nearing the end of the semester, I am so exhausted but am going to try my best to power through it. I think this is the second to the last if not last blog post I have to write before passing the final project. I look forward to reading my past blog posts and see how far I’ve come (including the likely grammatical errors I’ve made as I never proofread these. again, I’m sorry) and if I’ve made any meaningful connections and observations about myself.