#but tbh..... i am the kind of dumbass emma is as well

[chussyracing]

Also for a whole minute i straight up went, emma? An in, my Emmy? Ofcourse they're better than p&p, it isn't even a competition before I realized 😂

i wouldn't dare to compare with miss austen </3

[mazojo]

You said that Senku is in your top 3 of fave main characters you’ve watched/read. Who are your top 10?

ohHHHH BOIIII I've been wanting to answer this one since I saw you send it nonny asdfghj I love me some good ol’ ranting time and I am about to unload a lot of my trashy fingerling here lmaooo

Iam gonna consider this as main characters from manga’s/anime’s ive read because if I take into account webtoons and series or books ill go crazy ASDFGHJK, here I go trying my best not to shout about them and fail xdxdxd

10- Yamada (From Yamada-Kun and the 7 Witches): ASDFGHJK Super super super random and probably from this list the one I didnt expect I would like so much at the beginning ? but boi he is such a sweetheart and nice guy underneath it alllll, seriously I love himmm and Shiraishi is also a really close bet for this spot but gotta go with my criminal boi ya know

9- Haruhi (from Ouran): I LOVE HER, an icon at its finest and she is the biggest mood ever ? Asdfghj name a more powerful person, ill wait 😤

8- Phoenix Wright (from Ace Attorney): I dont talk about phoenix a lot and I feel like this is lowkey cheating considering I really got to love him thanks to the games but as it has a manga and anime I will ignore my set if rules and place him here asdfghjkl. Although Miles and Maya are also tight for my favorite here gotta give it to best lawyer softest boi in town certified dumbass, Phoenix

ASDFGH He looks like such an idiot on that gif I love it

7- Maki (From Stars Align): as I am writting this my heart breaks a little more each and every single time so thats fun,,,,,,,,,,, Stan Maki because no man would ever measure up and jaja,......ja...... please be okay

6- Nagisa (From Assasination Classroom): Honestly I dont talk about Nagisa enough, almost never mention him but like, he is always in the back of my mind ya know? just........... really want to rewatch it now ;w; He is such a different main character and the whole psychological aspect to it, iconic

5- Tanjiro (From Demon Slayer): Next to Yamada, the second character I was surprised to like that much tbhhh..... I thought Tanjiro would be kind of a bland main character from the pictures ive seen and all but boi was I wrong and glad of it. I am a suckER for family oriented characters and just,,,,, bby angel deserves the world and goddammit someone please tell me he is okay? please? anyone? //rip my mental sanity 

4- Emma/Norman/Ray (From TPN): Lmaoooo okay kinda cheating because its 3 buT hear me out xDD, I am not really sure who is the main character here (maybe Emma??) so I will just count them as a package deal because I cant just leave any of my bbys out of this ya know?? I love every single one of them so they all fit here because dAmn it I cant choose asdfghj Although Ray is kind of my fav but Norman and Emma are my precious beans to protect so yeee

3- Senku (From Dr Stone): Wellppp as I said in my last post, Senku is such a well done main character in every aspect of it. From his appearance making him super unique to his personality and just, god everything. tbh the second and third place between him and Deku are lowkey tied but gosh Senku sir I love you

2- Deku (From BNHA): An ANGELLL. Do I need to further expand? Although a lot of people dont like Deku that much as a main character I absolutely adore him. He has gone through so much and his character development and just.....Everything man, we always stan deku in this household.

1- Dazai (From Bungo Stray Dogs): OKAY KIND OF CHEATING AGAIN BECAUSE I DONT KNOW IF ATSUSHI OR HIM WOULD BE THE MAIN CHARCTER BUT WHATEVER HE GEST A PASS. Ummmm anyways, yes, my husband, my world, the best of the best, Dazai freaking Osamu. I honestly dont even know why I like him as much as I do but I just know that since the moment I saw episode 1, I knew I would fall in love with this idiot. Not only is he wicked smart and cunning but everythinga about him is so interesting and enigmatic godDD, I love love love loveeee BSD, very poetic that my fav main character comes from my fav anime, its all very cinematic 🤧🤧

Also like, a loot of honorable mentions (cough cough Yuki Sohma and Momiji cough) because I wasn't sure if they were considered main characters or more like, secondary ones. I tried considering the ones that were perceived as the main focal point of the plot but I left out a lot of my bbys ;w;

[flying-elliska]

Feelings (a lot of them) rn

- I’m kinda wrecked, and kind of in withdrawal, and kind of at peace, and kind of warm and fuzzy, and kind of frustrated, and kind of intrigued, and and and...it’s a lot lol. So about this last clip :

- I found Alexia’s fight with her idiot of a boyfriend kind of hilarious. Of course nobody should be pressured into a threesome they don’t want but it’s a way to turn the situation around. He’s expecting a threesome with a girl because she’s bisexual - but what about what she wants ? If he isn’t willing to try for her, then why should she be expected to just because of her sexuality ? Honestly she deserves better. I home Romain is a goner next week and we will see more of Alexia through Imane’s eyes. I love their friendship. 

- I actually genuinely love Emma and Alex together, it’s the only Chriseva pairing I like, they have such a chaotic dumbass, bro-ey, disaster bi couple vibe and I love them and I hope they work out. The actors just have a lot of chemistry together, (much better than Emma and Yann) their insta stuff was hilarious

- Yann and Chloé...idk I feel neutral about them but they both deserve happiness, so I guess we’ll see. Might be a bit awkward if they want to do group dates lmao but then again it would be very funny to see Chloé’s gotten over Lucas and becomes part of their friend group because her character has always been much more likeable than other Emmas

- Basile and Daphné...idk I was warming up to Basile lately, maybe because his actor makes him so endearing. I wish they hadn’t gone so heavy on the gross humor in the beginning of the season. I feel like he’s just very socially inept, and has had bad role models, but he’s kind of sweet underneath too.  It’s good he overcame his horndog nature and say what you will - he’s really really into Daphné, he’s always been supportive of her foyer efforts, he wants to be a better person for her, and after what happened with Charles, that’s good for her. I still hope she’ll end up with a girl, but this might be good for her for a while. It was a bit fast that she kissed him though, but they’re teenagers and she’s been really wanting a relationship for a while, so. And tbh Magnus and even him always gave me this strong adhd vibe, in which saying dumb shit and not understanding social cues and always kind of being ‘out there’ is a big thing, so i find it hard to hate him too much. I just wish they spent less time on him, it annoyed me so many times that we were seeing him instead of other characters so... But here it was mostly cute. I guess. 

- I need a specific post for Elu feelings srsly this is already too long

- Cake guy and Maria look happy and disgusting, good for them

- Imaaane ! One think I love is as soon as a character becomes main they’re suddenly so well dressed lol. I wasn’t fond of some earlier styles for her but here ? Wow, she looked so regal. And obviously disconnected, and apart from the rest, and now I want to know more. Assa’s gaze was so expressive. Brilliant passing of the torch. I am also very happy to see more of the girl squad again. They all rocked this season. 

[dontdowhatisayandnobodygetshurt]

Even numbers :}

THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU CRAZY KIDDO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU’RE A BLESSING ON THIS WORLD!!!!!!

2: is your room messy or clean?

It’s kind of a mix?? Like I leave my clothes folded on top of the drawers rather than putting them away bc the drawers stick and it’s just easier access. The messiest thing about my room is that I’m a human magpie who likes collecting shiny/interesting things so I have a lot of stones and bits of metal or ceramic and some nuts and bolts lying around pffft. XD But mostly I keep things kinda tidy.

4: do you like your name? why?

I DO NOW!!!! :DDDDD

6: describe your personality in 3 words or less

uUUUuuHHHHHh well-meaning, stubborn, energetic! :D

8: what kind of car do you drive? color?

I currently drive my parents’ car. It’s dark grey… not gonna say what model. XD

10: how would you describe your style?

Like, clothes wise? Either very simple n plain or outrageously colourful n quirky. Depends on the day. XD

12: what size bed do you have?

Double.

14: if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

Oof honestly just back home (in Victoria.) A part of me also wants to try out a big city?? I’ve always lived in the country and tbh I kind of hate big cities because they seem to be filled with rude busy people but I wanna live there just to have something different and so I’ll know for sure and to say I did, y’know? (lmao a friend and I joke that we’re gonna move to NYC together one day, so she can keep my li’l naive country boi ass from getting chewed up and spat out by New Yorkers. I appreciate it. X’D )

16: favorite makeup brand(s)

No idea. I’ve only worn makeup twice, and those times were when my Mum begged me for a solid year until I finally caved and let her do it… grumpily. X’D

18: favorite tv show?

S E N S E 8

20: how tall are you?

5′4. :)

22: do you go to the gym? 

Nope, not enough money. I used to work out a lot at home and I got p ripped but because of my eating disorder I had to stop. Still haven’t started up again yet. :(

24: how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

21 bucks. :D

26: how many pillows do you sleep with?

2. One under my head and one to cuddle (shut up, I kNow. XD )

28: how many friends do you have?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯  too lazy to count, however many people I interact with online. I don’t have any irl friends… god that sounds pathetic. XD

30: whats your favorite candle scent?

Absolutely no idea, we never have any. That’s actually something I wanna change when I get my own place. I like candles. They calm me.

32: 3 favorite girl names

God I am so shitty with names. My characters either name themselves or they don’t get names. X’D UUUUUUUUHHHHH, Amber, Ida, Carmen??? idk???

34: favorite actress?

Emma Thompson is an actual fucking legend and I would go to battle for her.

36: favorite movie?

How to Train Your Dragon or Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse! :D (If it has to be live action: Ferris Bueller’s Day Off. :P )

38: money or brains? 

Heart.

40: how many times have you been to the hospital?

For myself, personally? Lots when I was a baby bc I had chronic ear infections and would literally just scream 24/7 and never sleep, I was in so much pain (poor tiny Matt. :(((( ) Once because I had a really bad migraine around age 13 that literally would not go away and had me throwing up every other minute and in such bad pain I wanted to literally die. And once recently when I felt super sick for months and months and finally went only to find there was nothing wrong with me?? turned out it was my gluten intolerance but dear god I had never felt that sick.

42: do you take any medications daily?

Just my asthma preventer (and I forget to take that a lot and end up not being able to breathe as well as I should, bc I’m the World’s Biggest Dumbass :)) XD )

44: what is your biggest fear? 

Physically: Not being able to breathe. Emotionally: The people I love ending up hating me just because I’m me. There’s a lot of irony to unpack there but I’m just gonna set the whole suitcase on fire. :)

46: whats your go to hair style?

Shaving the whole damn thing off.

48: who is your role model? 

I don’t really have one?? I guess my parents?? But I don’t really wanna be exactly like them either? I think it’s unwise to put anyone on a pedestal bc nobody’s perfect.

50: what was the last text you sent?

Screaming to a friend about how cute her OC is. XD

52: what is your dream car?

Literally could not care less so long as it gets me where I’m going and it’s neon yellow. X’D

54: do you go to college? 

Nope, dropped out of highschool early lmao.

56: would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

Rural I guess?? But that’s only because I’ve always lived rural and don’t know any different. it’s quiet, I like quiet.

58: do you have freckles? 

Yep! I don’t have them in big patches tho? I just have like, some random single ones scattered all over my body?? XD

60: how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

Don’t have a phone and dear GOD I don’t even wanna know how many pictures I have on my laptop. Answer: too many. XD

62: do you still watch cartoons? 

OF COURSE!! :D

64: Favorite dipping sauce? 

idk I don’t really dip things in sauce? Maybe just tomato sauce?

66: have you ever won a spelling bee?

Yes, actually!! Woooo go bb Matt!! :D

68: can you draw? 

Stick figures? Yes. XD

70:what was the last concert you saw?

Never been to one.

72: Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

Only ever been to Starbucks so I can’t really compare. 

74: what is your crush’s first and last initial?

76: what color looks best on you? 

I think blue does. 💙

78: do you sleep with your door open or closed?

Open. Sleeping with it closed freaks me out, idk why. 😅

80: what is your biggest pet peeve? 

Being condescended to. :///

82: favorite ice cream flavor? 

Mint choc chip! Or rainbow! XD

84: chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

GIMME THE GAY SPRINKLES EVERY TIME.

86: what is your phone background?

Laptop background is currently THIS incredibly amazing beautiful accurate drawing Oli did of my OC Ben!!! :’D

88: do you like it when people play with your hair?

Y E S. I used to hate it when it was rlly long but now it’s heaven. ^-^ Unless I’m in one of my ‘being touched makes my skin crawl’ kind of moods.

90: do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

Just whenever I have my shower, occasionally during the day if I’m sweaty or whatever. Sometimes if my insomnia kicked me in the ass I splash my face n neck with cold water to wake up in the morning.

92: have you ever been drunk? 

Nope, and I really don’t want to be. The idea of being out of control of myself, even just a little bit, is terrifying to me. No thanks. I also just generally do not like alcohol, idk why. 

94: favorite lyrics right now

My all-time favourite lyrics come from Twenty One Pilots’ song ‘The Judge’ (even though I don’t actually like the song itself I love the lyrics):“When the leader of the bad guys sangSomething soft and soaked in painI heard the echo from his secret hideawayHe must’ve forgot to close his doorAs he cranked out those dismal chordsAnd his four walls declared him insane”

96: day or night? 

*chanting* NIGHT NIGHT NIGHT NIGHT NIGHT N

98: favorite month? 

Ironically, considering my character March is a giant dickwad, it’s March. XD The weather is just starting to turn cool after the grueling summer and it’s also my birth month! :D

100: who was the last person you cried in front of?

My Dad. Yikes.

AHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKIN, ALEX!!!

[consequentson]

The Bates Motel Series finale was everything I could have ever hoped for and more.

Unfortunately... my television reception was not. I missed the last couple minutes; the last thing I saw was what I’m assuming was a close up of Emma holding Katie’s hand. I’m so emotional right now idk if I even wanna talk. It was just... perfect. Perfect fuckin’ finale. Perfect goodbye. True as ever to all characters. Perfect.

WOWOWOW. What a start!!! I’m glad they didn’t fuck around with the confrontation with Romero – it felt… right. Like – they didn’t drag it out, y’know? I was worried they would. His plot this season was pretty cut and dry.  I knew the second he bent to help dig out Norma he was gonna die very soon though – turning his back to Norman like that, with his gun so easily reachable? Rookie mistake, but it seemed right, even for a badass like Romero, because he was staring at what used to be Norma Bates and… just…. Sdhjfjsjhk

I’m a little confused about Mother disappearing though. Like… Mother, uh, Norman’s still in a shit ton of trouble with, y’know, the death penalty hanging over his head and stuff??? But maybe she’s more leaving purely because Norman knows everything, like he can’t hide – he had to deal. I dunno. I’m a little confused about this part.

I’m also confused about Dylan’s immediate knowledge about Romero? He must have found out about what’s going on with Alex off-screen. Would’ve liked to have been shown his learning about everything going on with Romero, to know how/why, but I guess it isn’t as crucial as some other things so I get it, although I feel like they wasted a lot of time on much less important/relevant things, but… y’know, I’m not that fussed. I’m super happy he’s again reiterating that Norman needs help, not to be killed, and I’m super disappointed with Sheriff Greene’s refusal to even acknowledge the possibility that Norman is ill and her black and white view of condemning him. I mean, I get it, she’s friends with Regina and so on so forth and she would be her main concern, but she seems so dismissive about Norman. Kudos to Dylan for sticking up for Norman, as always! He loves his little brother so much, no matter what. I can only imagine how he felt when he was called down to the police department. :(

Sidenote: pretty annoyed they considered this episode “adult content” just because Romero dropped an f-bomb. I dunno if I missed the first few minutes or not because I had to guess a pin number to be able to watch :/ and it said it would only give me thirty minutes, which is dumb, bc what if it cuts out mid episode????

 HOLY SHIT wow that was

So painful

Casually just bawling

I’m such a wimp when it comes to flashbacks/references to series pilots in the finales like I just….

Wow…. And Norma… god, I miss Norma so much I feel sick… oh, Norman… my heart is just… absolutely shattered for this family… for Norma, and for Norman, and Dylan who’s gonna be walking in to all of this inevitably… I just… wow… beautiful. So beautiful. Well done, writers. Way to hit us right in the fucking feels… uuuuugh. Absolute pros. I dunno why I was even a little nervous, I mean – freaking Carlton Cuse, man…. I don’t… I don’t even know what else to write…. Just…. There was so much HOPE in the beginning, just… dreams and hopes and now… the contrast is just – absolutely gut wrenching…. Gahhhh this pain is why it’s okay this series is ending, it just – it can’t get worse…. Wow…

((((((

OH MY GOD IF ONLY THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED BACK THEN THO

I AM SO EMOTIONAL RN? FUCK WHY DIDN’T THAT ACTUALLY HAPPEN

IS THIS NORMAN’S SUBCONSCIOUS SELF KNOWING HE NEEDS DYLAN’S HELP? BECAUSE DYLAN TOLD HIM ‘I’M YOUR BROTHER AND I LOVE YOU’ AND MAYBE PART OF NORMAN REMEMBERS THAT? WAS REMINDED, FAINTLY, BECAUSE OF THOSE GUESTS AT THE MOTEL?

I’m sorry I went all caps lock I just – can’t rn?? Like… really!? I AM SO BEYOND PHENOMENALLY PLEASED

LIKE WE GOT TO SEE REMO TOO! FUCKING /REMO!/ I’M JUST SO HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING SO FAR KSDHJSFDJH

I don’t even know what else to write while I wait for these fecking commercials to end

I don’t even care that there’s only 20 minutes left I’m just so pleased with everything so far??/

Thank you writers for recognizing the need for us to say goodbye and not trying to cram plots at us!! They’re just honouring the characters we’ve grown to love and that is all I ever need from series finales and THANK YOU CARLTON CUSE YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING YOU ARE BEING SO GOOD TO US FANS?? We’re seeing Norma, we’ve said goodbye to mother, we’ve said goodbye to Romero, we’re seeing sweet, kind, good kid Norman, we’re seeing how far Dylan has come from the star… this is just all so beautiful and I’m just so pleased so far.

I’m just terrified about like… what Norman is gonna do now when Dylan shows up. I have this really bad feeling about the circumstances , like – I really still feel like Norman will die, but I’m so scared that he’s gonna die in front of Dylan, whether by Dylan’s hand or by his own hand, but for Dylan to ever get over that… oh, man…

I mean, I say I’m terrified, which I  am, but at the same time it’s just a fear because I’ll feel so bad for Dylan, not because I think it’d be bad writing if that makes sense

BUT WOW THIS FINALE SO FARRRR.

I CANNOT I LOVE DYLAN SO MUCH THO OK? HE IS JUST

HE IS SO WONDERFUL AND HE LOVES SO MUCH AND HE JUST HAS THIS HEART THAT IS CRAZY LOYAL AND BRAVE AND FEARFUL BUT BRAVE AND HE DOES STUPID SHIT BECAUSE HE LOVES PEOPLE WHO DO CRAZY SHIT AND I JUST LOVE HIM SO MUCH OH GOD

They really seem  to be wanting us to think Dylan is gonna die!!!!! Which just makes me so anxious bc I know he probably won’t thanks to the dumbass who posted those spoiler photos buTTTT that means something crazy emotional is gonna happen regardless and I just fucking can’t because everything has been so goddamn perfect so far I just can’t HANDLE ANY MORE I’m so scared kshdjfjsh DYLAN IS GONNA WALK UP THERE AND SEE NORMA’S CORPSE I’M NOT OK I’M NOT BUT I AM BECAUSE THIS IS SUCH A PERFECT FINALE???? I LOVE IT AHHH.

WOW I just kldshjkf I’m wasting time now tryna make commercials go faster because I am speechless WITH HOW PERFECT THIS FINALE IS I don’t even know what else to say EXCEPT THERE’S ONLY 8 MINUTES LEFT WTF I’M SO SAD BUT SO HAPPY BECAUSE WE’RE GONNA KNOW IT ALL AND THERE’S AN AFTER SHOW AND I MIGHT HAVE TO WATCH IT  AND I have no sweet clue how I’m supposed to sleep tonight honestly like I better just crash because this is ridiculous I’m so ksjdhsfjhdkjhf about everything

Just thank you

THANK YOU SO MUCH to the writers for this BEAUTIFUL FINALE

THANK YOU FOR HAVING DYLAN STAY TRUE TO CHARACTER. <33333 I’m just… so proud of him

I’m so proud of Dylan Massett

“I know I have a child.”

MAX FUCK YOU MAX JUST TEAR MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST WHY DON’T YOU

“and a wife”

ASLKDJFHJDFLSDKHC MAAAAAX THAT  LINE DELIVERY THO JUST WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE RECOGNIZE THIS MAN’S TALENT TOO PLEASE???

I have no words except that it was perfect.  I’m bawling like a baby tbh. Like… I’m speechless and just sitting here crying.

Unfortunately my tv stopped working lietrally the second the camera panned to Emma holding Katie’s hand so I’m missing the last couple minutes/minute. :/

[survivor-marianas-trench]

“I’d rather drown.” - Episode 4

Sorry I haven't been here yet. But like wow, I've lucked out. I haven't been vulnerable yet. And just when I think I haven't got a shot, we merged with the people who I can potentially work with. This is what I needed. Friends. I can't wait for this. I need the me/Gabby/kait/jenn thing to work with the me/liana thing and I need to pull in Emma and amanda. And then we can take out all of the men. I'd be fine with that. I really would be. Ok, since not much has happened yet that's all I have to say. But stay tuned, I'm hoping it gets interesting. 

My new tribe? My new tribe is everyone. Aka 21 crazy people! Jk I like a lot of these people and can't wait to get to know the people I don't know. 

honestly this is gross, a 21 person merge makes me want to cry! I hope this is temporary! But I mean, there are plenty of great people on this tribe that I might like to work with 

Ok! So it looks like telling Kelsey wasn't a complete bad idea! It looks like I'm the only one who mentioned Shea's name to her so she's grateful for that which is good. I feel like I'm slowly starting to take all these people left out of the loop under my wing, first Seamus and now Kelsey. Hopefully I can actually make something happen with this, especially with this 21 person merge!?!?!? I'm truly shook but I feel like I'm in a good position. I was on good terms with everyone on Tasi (with the exception of maybe Liana? Who knows where she stands tbh) and then I have Kait and Jenn as well so whew. I've talked a bit with Rhea and I feel like I can get something going with Chrissa and Amanda too so hopefully this immunity disadvantage won't hurt me too much.

THIS VIDEO IS ME AND LUKE STRATEGIZING NOW THAT WE CAN ACTUALLY WORK TOGETHER  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eswdydFXf78

I've got there minutes before midnight so ill make it short: dogs bark the loudest when they are scared. That's all! :)

I'm very upset about not being able to compete because apparently it's making us a target and it's all my fault and I feel awful. Despite Darians messy ass going from one tribe to the other saying Finite will join forces against the other, one of us Tasi could still be going. I hate. I just need Luke to answer me like desperately!! This is the worst time to have a tribal honestly. I'm working all day tomorrow then go straight to class and I'm honestly probably gunna pass the fuck out when I get home and make my friends my mad for not going out with them and get voted out because my lazy ass won't talk to people. So here's my co cession all now. Hopefully  I can turn it around and not be voted out and maybe even save all of my Tasi tribe mates. Like honestly Darian is such a mess telling everyone the same thing! When will he learn that if you tell everyone the same thing they're going to catch on. Why can't it just be him going? I love him and all but he just makes it so easy to target him so like that's what I'm gunna do. 

I am extremely excited because Billy and I made a final two deal and I can't wait to take all these suckers down!

P.S I love Ricky and Monty

I don't know how well i fair at this point i want to make jury and like everything but it's hard 

I.FUCKING.LOVE.KAIT. So Darian had this "master" plan to get the old Finite tribe to stick together with one of the other tribes to get the third out....only problem... THE DUMBASS WENT TO BOTH OF THE OTHER TRIBES LMFAO So his bitch ass got caught trying to flip them against eachother and now everyone wants to target him and Kait and I are sitting here CACKLING OUR ASSES OFF THIS IS FUCKING HILARIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SO ANYWAYS since Kait and I actually have a brain, we wanna pull a small group from each tribe together rather than tribe v tribe bullshit. We're trying to figure out who to pull in now. Are Kait and I the duo of the century? I think so

Kait is cracked and I am literally just here for the ride so I am grabbing a life vest!

A 21 person merge is just... I'd rather drown. 

Darling! What a lovely week it's been so far. The merge has come and I've had a lot of time to talk to people. This week, I've definitely had to work on making those new relationships, building those old bridges. I've got to run as far from Tasi as I can get, because I know that if things continued with them, I'd be the next boot out. Thankfully, the other tribes seem to be nice but I've got to be able to find out who's being put up for elimination before the designated time to vote comes. If I can find it, I can change it. And if I can change it, I can call it! And at this point, who doesn't want to be calling the shots? I DEFINITELY do, especially since I had no shot at immunity. Based on how other people in this game have been treating me, specifically Liana, I'm definitely considering myself in danger of going home this week...but I can't go home. I gotta hit that top, henny! And in order to reach the top, I've got to make it through these preliminary weeks and I've come too far to stop now! I came to slash throats, save my family and wear ugg boots. Let's hop to it with personality and positivity, yes? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLou1H0uw1Y Canada's Self Proclaimed Favourite; Kelsey Mikaelson~!

Well this has been one hell of a round First, only three fucking people tried in the immunity challenge and actually got points, making them the only ones to get immunity. Super fun. Those three would be Luke, Kait and Rob. Luckily those three are involved in a huge multi tribe alliance that is forming Yup 14 people I think. We are all voting together to start weeding out others This alliance consists of the finite 7 Rob, Amanda, kait, Emma, andie, rhea, and me Gabriel, johnny, Luke, Jen Billy, Seamus, and Christine I know this is a cluster fuck of people but this is a cluster fuck season. Anywho. I'm hoping all goes smoothly and everyone proved loyal. I guess we will find out tonight  

Darian is a HOT ASS MESS. Like how can you go around and be so confident about a vote that is not in your corner? Like obviously I'm confident Darian will go, but like at the same time, I'm not cocky confident about it. Darian is so blinded by his own ego to see that his ass is in trouble. So many people have gone to Sam with receipts of him saying her name and he (in my mind) has no clue. What a messy ass bottom. 

The beginning of this game was kind of rough for me, I didn't really know anybody on my tribe except for Billy and Chrissa and if we had remained as that tribe, I definitely think I could have been heading home so it's comforting that things are starting to look up for me. This 'merge' has been really interesting, especially because it's just letting everybody see how messy Darian is. He wants to put the OldTasi and OldMakahana tribe against one another but agreeing to align with both sides????does he not understand that he will be pissing off so many people by doing that? dumbass. Sam and I have been werking and so far think we have Dan, Amanda, Andie, Lily, Seamus, Kait, Jenn, Kelsey, Liana, and potentially 3 more votes PLUS our votes to take out Darian. This is going to be so beautiful because he's so confident that he's running things but bless him for trying I guess. Oh yeah! I have immunity! That's fun too 

Well. Hopefully Darian goes tonight and not Sam. I love Sam and would hate for her to go so soon! I'm doing rlly best to convince those I'm closer to to vote for Darian so hopefully it works out. This is so scary! 

I love when chrissa lies to me! Maybe Billy too but hmm it's interesting how no one I've talked to know how votes are going this late in the game. Seems like my alliance has this though. And now it's shown me that I can't trust billy and chrissa sooo!

Kait is a good demon and she's gonna pull numbers to get out drain I love her when she's not angry with me

darian goggin is a dumb bitch

Ok so this vote is either gonna be make or break for me tbh. I'm super nervous cause I kinda want Darian to go instead of Sam because I love Sam so much its not even funny. She's one of the people I know I can actually trust and Darian seems like a bit of a wildcard. I don't like people who put themselves in like leadership positions cause I like doing my own little thing so being in a massive group that Darian created makes me uneasy, especially because he wants to target Tasi. Like.....I don't wanna be the person that takes out my entire tribe out just for me to be next!? I'm not that Dumb...They never did anything to me! They screwed Seamus over though which is what's killing me right now cause it looks like Seamus wants Sam to go so I'm just a mess. I really wanna work with Seamus though so as long as we get through this together, we should be fine...hopefully. I'm just stressed cause nobody really talks strategy with me like I feel like I have to pry it out of them most of the time and its getting annoying. Like I love Kelsey but he always waits last minute and by last minute I MEAN THE LITERAL LAST MCFRICKEN MINUTE to tell me a name and by that point its just like...over....So yeah! I'm a bit frustrated but no matter what happens I think I can make something good out of this.

Did i betray Darian? Yeah : / hopefully rhea goes with me too