#but still not lovin them side effects

[sky-walkerem]

im getting the Covid booster in an hour pls hype me up for this im ~nervous~

[syoounn]

•Synopsis: Questioning them, "Will u still love me when im no longer young and beautiful?"

● Characters: Dazai, Chuuya, Fyodor, Nikolai, Sigma.

● Inspired by Lana Del Ray's song "Young and Beautiful "

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Dazai

He chuckles softly, rolling onto his back to stare up at the ceiling and think, one arm behind his head as the other arm wrapped around your waist to pull you closer to him.

“Hm? Course I will.”

He turns his head to look at you as his hand gently squeezes your hip.

"How so?" You asked.

“It’s pretty much impossible not to love you, Bella.."

Dazai chuckles again at the question, lifting the hand that’s behind his head to gently pinch your cheek, a light grin crossing his features.

“Because you’re damn perfect. Why wouldn’t I love you? I’m an idiot if I ever stop loving you.”

He huffed quietly, rolling over onto his side to pull you flush against him again, squeezing your thighs in adoration.

“Besides, you’ll always be the most beautiful woman in the world to me. Even when you’re old and wrinkly.” He grinned again, pinching your cheek again as he chuckled. “My pretty, pretty Belladonna.”

“Now, quit blabbering and kiss me already.” He murmured softly, his eyes trailing down to your lips, watching how they shine faintly in the dim light of the room from the moisture.

“Or...how about I show you just how much I love you.. hmm?"

hums at your comment, nipping your neck again. His fingers make their way down your torso, tracing your body with a loving touch. He pauses as he reaches just above your belt, pulling away and meeting your gaze.

“How rough do you want it?” He whispers while he is smirking, his lips brushing yours as he speaks. You were left flustered and thrown a pillow on his face.

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Chuuya

"Huh?

“No longer beautiful? Hah, don't try and tease me with impossible situations, Doll. That’ll never happen.”

Chuuya teased you back. He gently pushed you down to lay on your back. He climbed over you with that same signature smirk on his lips, gazing down at you. He placed a kiss on your cheek before pulling back.

“You, beautiful, Doll. Have always been and always will be the most beautiful thing in the world to me. So there’s no possible way that I could ever stop lovin’ you.”

Chuuya pulls you into his lap and presses his forehead against yours.

“Because no matter how shitty you might look, you’ll always be my beloved. I’d love you even if you were bald and toothless with how wrinkly your skin is.” He teased you, pinching your cheek. “Ya could lose all your limbs, and I’d still adore you as much.”

You chuckled. "Really.. you think I'd looked shitty?"

“Heh, you’d probably still look gorgeous to me even if you could scare away a rat’s tail with your looks.” Chuuya gently pushed you down on the mattress, pinning you between him and the bed.

“So stop asking and thinkin’ about bullsh*t questions like that. You should already know that I’m crazy ‘bout you, dollface.”

"Hmm, how crazy?" You asked.

“Mm, I’d do anythin’ for you, Doll. Give you whatever you want, get you whatever you desire, go t’the ends of the Earth for you.”

He nuzzled into your neck, softly placing more kisses to your skin, his arms tightening around you.

“I’d kill for you, ‘specially if anyone hurt you. I’d ruin anyone’s life in an instant if it meant keepin’ this smile on your face.”

"No killing!" you said.

Chuuya rolled his eyes as he pulled back to look you in the face, his smirk softening to an affectionate smile at the sight of your expression. He reached up to gently cup your cheek again, his thumb rubbing over the skin.

“I was gettin’ dramatic for effect, Doll. I promise I’ll only fight ‘em, no killin’.”

He teased you as he placed a chaste kiss on the tip of your nose, his tone playful as you could still hear the affection behind his words. Therefore, he sounds like he wasn't kidding about that.

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Fyodor

His eyes flicker with something akin to surprise as he gazes at you. There's amusement in the slight curl of his lips.

"How strange, dear. You wish to know if I'll still love you once your beauty fades? Hm."

He laughs softly, and it sounds like chimes. He gives you a meaningful smile and shakes his head almost pityingly.

"Myshka, you're my wife. I took an oath to honour you and our marriage, as God intended. I have no need for some pretty girl I could spend some time with for a brief moment." He gives your hair a gentle tug. "You should know by now that I will always love you."

"Though you may become withered as you age, you may also come to become wiser. In my eyes, intelligence and wit are infinitely more endearing than mere beauty, my dear. However..." He falls silent. His eyes narrow into thin slits while a smirk stretches his lips. "Do not doubt my loyalty for a second, my dear. I am quite possessive of what is my own."

"Oh. And make no mistake, dear. You have been mine since the moment you confessed your feelings. I do not intend to give you up for any other being, no matter their worth."

"Ah.. you still remember that.." You said shyly.

"Indeed. How could I forget?" A teasing smile pulls the corners of his lips into a slight smirk. "Your trembling hands and words stumbling over each other as you confessed your feelings—it was truly adorable."

"So, my dear, why do you ask me such questions? Are you experiencing doubts, perhaps?" He lifts a finely manicured brow, a playful edge to his low voice as he tilts his head to the side.

"I was just curious.."

I see. He hums. His fingers come to run over your cheek before he places his palm against it. His skin feels a bit cold against your warm flesh. Once more, he remains silent for a moment. The dark eyes, looking into yours, seem to sparkle as the corner of his mouth lifts into a smirk.

"There's no need to worry, my love. I'll love you until we're both buried in the ground, my sweet rose. Nothing will change my affection for you. No matter your age, you'll be beautiful to me."

"Though, I must admit, a child of yours and mine would be the most beautiful creature in this world." A thin smile pulls his lips apart as he tilts his head towards yours, his voice dropping to a husky whisper. "I wonder how it would be, to see you, oh, so pregnant with my child. Hm."

"Ch-..Child?!" You said surprised.

His smile widens. An amused huff of laughter escapes him, his breath fanning across your lips. "Oh, Myshka. Don't act so surprised. Did you think I married you with the idea of never having offspring?"

"Now, my sweet flower, tell me..." he begins, his voice dropping to a low murmur once more. "Do you truly think I would waste your beauty and fertile body until you reach your older age?"

He shakes his head. The smirk on his lips turns almost smug.

"Of course not, darling."

"Your body was made to bear children for your husband. So... are you not excited, my love?" He laughs lowly, his breath tickling your skin. "I have always been told I had many..." He hesitates, his mouth curving into an amused little smile as fire flickers in his eyes. "...adventurous traits."

He then slowly guides your way to both your shared bedroom, still shocked about what Fyodor just said. Good luck handling him tonight.

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Nikolai

"Why, silly girl. I love you as my wife, not as a pretty bird for me to put into a golden cage." Nikolai pulls you into his embrace, gently nuzzling against the top of your head, and you can feel warm breath ghost against your skin as he speaks. “I’ll love you forever and always even when you get wrinklier than an old lemon~”

"Old lemon?" you said, confused.

Nikolai giggles.

“Ah, just a silly little metaphor~”

“But my point is~ I’ll still love you even if you no longer look young and beautiful.”

He cups your cheek in his hand and places a kiss on your lips.

"How can you be so sure.." You said blushing slightly at the sudden kiss.

Nikolai presses his forehead against yours, tilting his head slightly.

“Because you are the love of my life - my darling wife. If it weren’t for you, I’d probably be a lot less sane than I am now~” He places another soft kiss on your lips.

"You're always sane!" you said.

He chuckles at that remark and pokes your forehead.

“Now, don’t get smart with me~”

“I may not stay sane if my darling wife keeps making little jabs at me…” He says in a jokingly threatening tone and flashes a grin.

He giggles before tackling you to the couch and pinning your hands above your head with his own.

“Or I may just have to get payback~”

He says, before starting to kiss you all over your face rapidly.

Nikolai laughs as he continues his “revenge”, planting kisses all over your face and giggling as he does. He gives your cheek one last final peck before speaking up again, his tone still playful.

“How about that~? Are you sorry now, hm?”

Nikolai’s hair drapes over his face like a curtain as he looks down at you, a smile still present on his face.

“But really, I love you- You’ll always be beautiful to me. Now, what makes you worry so much if I’ll still love you when you’re old, hmm-?”

"I just got curious.."

“How cute.”

He says playfully, as he takes a few strands of your hair and starts twirling it around his fingers.

“But don’t worry, love, we’ll grow old together, and I’ll still think that you’re beautiful, okay~?”

Nikolai pauses and sits up from being on top of you. His hair had become messier, and it draped over his face. He looks slightly more serious than his usual self and starts talking again.

“If you ever start to feel old or not beautiful, just look over at me, okay? Look at how beautiful I’ll still be, and you’ll still feel young and beautiful!”

He does a couple of dramatic gestures and throws a fit of giggles after his comment.

"As long as you remain mine, I shall keep adoring you. Forever." He said sounded serious and possessive way. Looks like he won't be planning to let you go... forever.

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Sigma

Sigma let out a soft chuckle as he heard these word, he leaned his head forward and then placed a gentle kiss on the side of your head before speaking in his soft, loving tone.

“You’ll always be beautiful in my eyes. You will always be the person that I love the most. So, of course, my love, my feelings for you would never change, no matter what.”

He let out a gentle sigh as he hugged you just a bit tightly, not wanting to let go yet.

“I shall love you no matter what, even when you’re no longer young and beautiful as you say.”

He thought about how much he absolutely loved spoiling you when it suddenly came to him a plan.

“Would you do me the honour of a date at my casino?” He asked as he took a hand up to cup your cheek gently, his thumb stroking over your cheek gently, and his grey eyes stared into yours with love and adoration.

"Hmm.. why suddenly?" you asked curiously.

He gave a small smile as he placed his hand gently on your chin and stroked over your lower lip with his thumb slowly and softly.

“Because you’re adorable, and I just want to pamper you. My love, what’s better than having a nice date at a casino with the best owner of them all to take care of you?”

His grey eyes glistened with a light shine as his heart beat faster just at the thought of showering your adorable self with love.

He quickly cleared his throat as he tried to calm himself down a bit. He was getting too lovey-dovey.

“You could wear that necklace I got you last time. It would look so lovely on your delicate neck.”

He chuckled as he leaned in and placed a soft kiss on your lips before pulling back, his thumb still gently stroking your lips as he listened to his rapidly beating heart. His face flushed lightly as he smiled at you and looked into your eyes.

“I’ll book out the entire casino, darling, so it’s just us. After all, no one deserves to be spoiled like you do. My love.”

He said as he reached out and began stroking over your hair gently.

"Sigma.." you said in a tearful expression, feeling happy and loved.

Sigma’s eyes widened slightly upon seeing his partner get teary-eyed at his words. He moved his free hand to gently wipe away those tears and then gave you a gentle reassuring smile. “Ah.. My love….did I say something wrong?” He asked with some worry in his tone while rubbing his free hand along your back to soothe you.

"No... i love you..." you said smiling.

Sigma’s heart flutters upon his partner, saying those three words. He held you close against his chest as he placed a kiss on top of your head. “I love you too, my dear, more than words could ever express…”

He added in a soft tone before holding your hand gently, rubbing his thumb over it in a soothing manner to calm you down. “There’s no need to cry, my love, we’ll stay together forever. You’re perfect in every sense of the word, and nothing could ever make me love you less.” Sigma said in a reassuring tone while giving you a soft kiss.

As then, both of you have a romantic date tonight.

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[the-head-ancho-chilli]

The Hashira’s Favourite Hugs

Happy Valentines day everyone! Enjoy some lovin from your favourite Hashira ^^

Requests and asks are still open :)

Word count: 4k~

Mitsuri Kanroji

Mmmm

Prepare to be swept off your feet (literally)

Approaching our very own love Hashira and requesting a hug will be met with the same excitement no matter what

“Huh? Do you want a hug? Of course! Come here sweetie, let me hold you for a bit!”

She will be SO HAPPY if you asked ^^

Mitsuri may squeeze you a little, but never too much

Her goal is to get you as close to her as possible, no gap spared between you two

She’s honestly one of the best huggers here

Depending on your height, she’ll either prop her chin on either your head or shoulder

She’s a little warm from her flustering, but still enthusiastic nonetheless

If your head is tucked away, she’ll focus on swaying you both side to side in a rocking motion

Almost as if you two were dancing

But if you face is out in the open, Mitsuri will not waste a second before peppering your entire face in kisses

She tries her best to make you feel loved

Mitsuri absolutely adores hugs so she’ll never turn you down

She likes cooing about how much she loves you while the two of you hold each other

“Oh you make my heart skip a beat! I love you so much!!!”

Compliments will not be held back here, Mitsuri will go above and beyond

SHE MEANS EVERY SINGLE ONE, DONT YOU DARE DOUBT YOURSELF

But even the love Hashira has a favourite hug

Mitsuri was once gone for more than a week on some business that she had to attend to

You missed her terribly, and you grew more worried as time passed by

While lounging in your shared bedroom, you heard the door open and close as your love cheered “Honey, I’m home!”

You sprinted across the house, found Mitsuri and leapt into her arms, yours pulling her in by her neck

Seizing momentum while she had it, Mitsuri spun the two of you around while you were still in the air

But when the two of you had spun enough and she tried to put you down, she realized that your legs were around her waist

You were almost clinging onto her like a koala, and something inside of her melted

She was internally squealing at how affectionate you were :)

Mitsuri’s favourite hugs are ones where she can use her strength, often by lifting you up into her arms

“Sweetie it’s late, let me carry you to bed, okay?”

It just makes her feel strong and cherished

Would absolutely carry you around like this all the time if you let her

Obanai Iguro

He acts like he hates them

Do not underestimate him and the complete unadulterated adoration he has for you and the few people he lets near his heart

Obanai is just not used to that kind of thing, and it really stresses him out

If you asked him for a hug he would just shoot you a critical stare before groaning out an "Ughhh, fine. Come here"

You would be doing all the work here

Even if you have both your arms wrapped around him, your head resting on his shoulder, he still won't move

Obanai is really stiff about it

If you're lucky, he'll MAYBE pat your back unenthusiastically

Truth be told, Obanai doesn't let people touch him often so he wouldn't have much experience in it by far

Now if you ASKED him what is favourite hug is, he would say the side squeeze he gives you in public

Obanai can get overprotective easily, but he doesn't like showing it

He rarely misunderstands when someone is just being nice or affectionate in a platonic manner and when someone is actually hitting on you

If he sees someone making moves on you or just making you uncomfortable in general, he will glide over there and put his hand in your back pocket

Effectively pulling you into a very tense side hug

Obanai wouldn't say anything, but his main line of protection is his very judgmental look at his target

He wants you to believe that he's tough and all, that guarding you from danger is his greatest joy

But Obanai is really soft

His actual favourite hugs are what he refers to as "Sweater Time"

If you have larger sweaters than he does, he will pull the bottom hem of it up for a minute and pull it over his head

If he's taller than you then he just tucks you underneath the hem of his

Basically the two of you are wearing the same, spacious sweater

He's close enough that just fitting into it doesn't make you feel like you need to wrap your arms around him

But Obanai might pull you in if he just really needs your touch

He absolutely loves holding your face and resting his forehead on yours, absentmindedly tracing your jaw

Takes the opportunity to look into your eyes but Obanai doesn’t hold eye contact for long

So very warm :)

Tengen Uzui

Ohohoho

You’re in for a ride, that’s for sure

If you ask Tengen for a hug, he’s gonna be so snarky about it

He’ll make you confirm it like 5 times

“Hmm? You want a hug from the God of Festivals? Ahhh, of course, anyone would want to be in my arms! Come closer and claim you prize from yours truly~”

Tengen will motion you towards him, hinting to put your arms around him

Most of the time he’ll tease you about it, but sometimes Tengen will just flash a smile and pull you in

He’s pretty strong so his hugs are pretty tight by default

You can smell a hint of the cologne he uses, which is never too strong in the first place

Loves pressing you in by the small of your back, he can’t explain why though

Tengen’s hands just gravitate there, no lower or higher

Even when you two are already hugging, Tengen will not be able to resist teasing you

He is RELENTLESS about it too

Even if Tengen gets annoying with how affectionate you can be, he doesn't really mean it

Because every now and then, he just needs you there with him for a bit

It doesn't happen often but Tengen does have nights where he just can't sleep

You wouldn't know if its stress, repetitive thoughts or nightmares simply because he refuses to tell you

When he just lies there in the early hours of the morning, he'll carefully drag whoever is nearest towards him

This particular instance, you barely stirred awake as Tengen lifted your body to lie atop of his

Sensing your arousal from slumber, Tengen already hushes you back to sleep

"It's okay baby," he coos. "Just needed you a little closer. Get some rest"

If you happen to stay awake, he'll continue his attempts to get you to fall asleep again as he would honestly prefer for you to stay asleep when he's like this

Because when Tengen feels the worst of himself haunt his thoughts with all the memories and pain that he carries everywhere, nothing soothes him more than you pulling him closer whilst dreaming

This unconscious "I love you" of yours never fails to bring a sad smile and a few tears of love rolling down his cheeks

Pulls you even closer as he feels joy spread throughout his chest like fireworks

Yes, this is his favourite, and he will reward your efforts with forehead kisses and gently stroking your spine

Sanemi Shinazugawa

Either he has rabies or he just snarled at you

“Why the fuck are your arms like that? Are you looking for a fight?”

If you ask Sanemi for a hug, expect some backlash

See, all you wanted was some affection and somehow he's looking at you like you have two heads or something

"No you jerk, I just want a hug..."

Sanemi is pretty circumstantial with hugs, but he's not like Obanai where he's hiding how soft he really is

In reality, he would prefer that you got a hug from someone else

"Isn't it Mitsuri's day off? She should be in the garden at Shinobu's place"

Due to his workaholic nature, Sanemi doesn't think that he would be the best person for when you want affection

And its not because he hates affection nor does he find you annoying

Sanemi just think that because he's sweaty, covered in a bit of blood and is exhausted beyond belief, that maybe someone else's hug may bring more comfort than he could

But if there's no one else around...

"Mitsuri took a trip to a resort in the mountains, and you're already here"

With a roll of his eyes, Sanemi will acquiesce

"Get over here, you dork"

I will advise you however, that hug will not last more than three seconds

He will be firm in the hug, and maybe he'll give you a few pats on the back, but that's all you're getting

"There, now no more distractions. I've got some unfinished buisness..."

He will immediately turn away and go back to whatever he was doing

Honestly, he's trying to hide how (minorly) flustered he is by your sudden request for affection, but it's not surprising enough for him to let up a little on his unspoken self-consciousness

No, that would take at least a decade of attempts to make any progress

Just take his huffiness with a bit of grace; Sanemi just isn't the best person to go to when you want a hug

But if you come to him with tears dribbling down your cheeks, and a pained expression on your face

If you come to him with opened arms and a few sobs choked in your throat

If you push aside your dignity to allow Sanemi to see you at your worst, and a look in your eyes that shows that he's the only one who can alleviate the pain

"I've got you, I'm not going anywhere. I've got you"

He won't hesitate to immediately pull you in

There's something in the way you hold onto him that makes him believe that maybe, just maybe, he's not as bad as he thought

Hugs like these are his favourite, when he can push out his insecurities and hug you just for the sake of hugging you

Yeah, he's no good for hugging you when you want it

But he's perfect at it when you need it

Shinobu Kocho

She’s kinda iffy with them, but she does have her own preferences

If you approach Shinobu and you ask for a hug, she’ll open her arms to you and motion you toward her

“Oh my, my dear do you need a hug? No need to worry Angel, I’m right here”

She’s definitely shorter than you so she’ll normally press her face into your chest while the two of you embrace

Shinobu likes listening to your heartbeat, and sometimes seizes the opportunity to check your health

Usually she does it because she finds it soothing

Other times, Shinobu just worries even if she knows she has no reason to

Believe it or not but she doesn’t like being held

Shinobu will never breathe a word of it, especially if you’re really affectionate

Would never ask you to stop, she just wouldn’t go out of her way to ask you to hold her

You would think after learning this that Shinobu just doesn’t like physical affection

While cooking some dinner for the two of you, your mind will start to wander about Shinobu

She spends so much time studying medicine that you hardly saw her all day today

You missed her dearly

But then you feel two arms snake around your waist, and someone pressing into your back

The smell of wisteria and rubbing alcohol wafting around you

Yes, it’s true that Shinobu doesn’t like being held

But she LOVES holding you close

In bed she’s the big spoon, she hangs onto you when you share showers, her arms will wrap around your neck when she checks up on you working at your desk

But right now?

You cooking and talking about your day, while she hums along?

Feeling you relax into her touch as she hops up on her toes to press her forehead into your neck?

Yes, this is Shinobu’s favourite

There is no place she would rather be

PLEASE LET HER HYG YOU AS YOU DO STUFF

Shinobu is the type of person where she just loves existing in the same space as you, but with her chest pressed against your back

Overall, back hugs enthusiast

Kyojuro Rengoku

CUDDLE MANNNN

Look me in my eyes and tell me that he isn’t the best hugger here

If you ask Kyojuro for a hug, he would be so honoured to give you one

“But of course my love! Please allow me to give you a proper embrace!”

He’s so soft and warm you could melt away

Depending on how you are when you asked, he will either ask you about your day or stay very quiet for you

Our sunshine boy can brighten even the stormiest days

Kyojuro’s very versatile with affection, so if he knows you have a preference he will heed to it at once

Head scratches, back rubs, shoulder pats, you name it

He’ll do it all for you

If it’s possible in the moment, he will give you a loving kiss on the forehead

With how affectionate Kyojuro is, you would think maybe he doesn’t have a favourite hug but that’s not true

“My love! I have finished my project, sit down with me so I may share it with you!”

You had just came back from the kitchen with two cups of tea, setting them on the coffee table

Kyojuro sat on the floor with his legs crossed, arms open and motioning you towards him

Initially you were confused with how close you stood near him, but Kyojuro still hurriedly motioned you towards him

He softly held onto your hips, turning you away from him, and pulled you down so you sat on the floor with him

You were basically sitting in Kyojuro’s lap

He had one arm around your waist, using the other hand to pull the box he was working on for the past couple weeks across the table towards the both of you

It was a time capsule of various items and mementos of time spent with you and his friends

Although the two of you were reminiscing on the memories made , Kyojuro’s focus lied in how comfortable you were to hold in his lap

He fantasizes of turning you around to face him so he could be all romantic and look into your eyes

But yes, Kyojuro’s favourite hugs are the ones where you are seated in his lap

If you want to hug him as well, Kyojuro will spin you around so you can cuddle all you’d like :)

Big or small, he can handle you no problem

Don’t ever worry about being too heavy ^^

Giyu Tomioka

Also iffy but for different reasons

To be completely honest Giyu has no idea what he’s doing

And he doesn’t know if he should tell you

The last thing he would want is to come off as unapproachable (even if he’s aware that most of his peers don’t like him)

If you ask Giyu for a hug, he’ll just nod and open his arms slightly

When you close in on the hug though, his arms aren’t even touching you

They just stay there… hovering…

Good grief help this man

“Giyu, what are you doing…” “Hugging you?” He mumbled

HE DOESN’T EVEN SOUND SURE

There’s no way around it, you have to show him how it’s done

“Let me show you Giyu, put your arms like this-“

He’s still learning so please be patient with him

Even after you two practice a couple times, he’s still awkward about it

Very light grip on his end, he feels like if he were to actually put pressure in his hugging it might disturb you somehow

Like what if he's hugging too tight? What if you want to escape his hold earlier than you thought??? What if he's doing this wrong?????

After you two have hugged in a couple other ways, he starts developing preferences

For an example, he likes draping his arms on your shoulders in a way that they fall down your back

Giyu feels like he’s not bothering you too much this way, and it’s natural enough for him to not overthink it

His first natural instinct isn’t usually physical affection, and Giyu wouldn’t even be able to firmly place what his favourite hug would be due to his lack of experience

But one time you greeted him after he came back from a particularly rough mission

Idk he was just standing in the middle of his yard looking lost and worn out

You tried to talk to him but he was unresponsive, so you just pulled him in

His arms still rested at his sides but from the way that his chin rested on your shoulder, you couldn't have seen it but there was a twinkle in his eye

When you pulled away with a smile and bade him goodbye, you genuinely restored something in him

This is Giyu's favourite hug; ones where you just hold him close without an expectation that he has to reciprocate something

Next time you saw him seated at his desk and writing in his journal you noticed it

You almost missed it but it was most definitely there

A tiny smile was on his face as he printed his thoughts onto the paper

Gyomei Himejima

You wouldn’t notice right away, but he’s actually awkward with hugs

This gentle giant is so huge and you’re so small in comparison he doesn’t know what to do

So if you ask Gyomei for a hug, you're gonna have to be more specific

"You want a hug? Of course. May you please elaborate on your preferences?"

Boundaries are very important to Gyomei

He would prefer if you could have a discussion before you need a hug where you list the things you are and are not okay with when it comes to touch

But if neither of you have had that discussion, just describe what you need from this specific case and that'll suffice for Gyomei

Once that's done, Gyomei will only then allow you to wrap your arms around him

The most common tendencies he tends to gravitate to is petting your head and rubbing your back gently

I will warn you that unless you specify that you don't like getting picked up, Gyomei may unintentionally lift you off the ground by a couple inches

Honestly, he forgot how huge he is and he thought you were taller

If you want to return some level of affection to Gyomei, I would suggest singing some praises for him or making generally happy noises :)

He particularly likes it if you coo a small "Dawwwwwww" or let out a pleased hum, it just pulls a wide grin out of him

When you two eventually pull away, he will without a doubt rustle your hair or pat your head

"Are you feeling better? I'm always here for you, remember that"

His biggest priority whilst showing you affection is ensuring that he leaves you in a better state than he found you

Be it physically, mentally, or emotionally, Gyomei will always be ready to take care of you

Even if he's oddly stiff about it

You see, Gyomei is hyperaware of his size and it sometimes conflicts with his confidence in coming off as passive and kind

It's really hard to be perceived as non-threatening when you're 7'2 and one of the strongest Hashira

So he tries to establish boundaries with you not just to respect you and ensure he's not crossing any lines, but also to make him feel safe and comfortable in being affectionate with you

I will add however, Gyomei doesn't have any physical boundaries with you (except killing another living thing without full disclosure)

So imagine his surprise when you ask if you can try lifting him

"You can certainly try- ouf!"

He was interrupted with your efforts to pick him up

Regardless if you manage to get him an inch off the ground, your determination still has him flustered

Gyomei finds your strength and playfulness endearing, letting a soft chuckle at your smaller stature trying to lift his gigantic self

But he'll heartily tell you to put him down before you start to over exert yourself

Gyomei will hold onto you for a little longer in thanks though :)

Because Gyomei's favourite hugs are the ones that make him feel small and cared for, rather than large and nurturing

He appreciates how you remind him of that side of him

Muichiro Tokito (Platonic)

Muichiro needs a good measure of caution if you're going to be affectionate with him

Initially most people would think that it's because you would have to try a couple times to get his attention with the amount of times that he spaces out

But honestly, if you hug him without warning he gets scared

If you ever did pull him into your arms whilst his mind was elsewhere, you can see Muichiro start to panic

He won't say anything about it, just standing very very still

But Muichiro is visibly uncomfortable

I mean think about it, imagine how startling it could be if you were just minding your own business and out of nowhere, someone's in your personal bubble

It makes Muichiro feel like he missed out on something important :/

His shoulders will be shaking as he looks around the person who's hugging him, trying to gauge what kind of situation he's in and what would be the appropriate reaction

Muichiro doesn't really like hugs in general so I wouldn't recommend hugging him in the first place

If anything, Muichiro feels bad because everyone just assumes that because he's a kid that he likes hugs and being coddled

So if you ask him for a hug, he'll politely turn you down

"A hug? Sorry, I'm not a hugger..."

He really doesn't mean it maliciously so please don't hold any hard feelings about it

It's only a personal boundary, he just hopes that you'll respect it

If you want to be affectionate with him, then I would suggest handshakes :)

But I will also raise that there may be a time where Muichiro may want to give you a hug

It's usually when someone accomplishes some kind of feat, and Muichiro just feels really proud of them

So his favourite hugs are the ones that he initiates (usually out of pride)

Muichiro will always do it with his arms wrapped around your waist and pressing his face into your middle

Hugging him back isn't his favourite, but now would be a great opportunity for head pats ^^

Muichiro loves those

Overall you just need to be patient and understanding with Muichiro, and just trust that he will come to you

And you know what, if you really need that hug then Muichiro will at least go out of his way to cheer you up

It just might not be the way that you would expect

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Let me know if I should do this prompt for the Demons too!

Reminder to read the rules before submitting any asks or requests ^^

[confetticoloredclowns]

𓆩Bob Velseb x Reader HCs𓆪

Wooooo, first (official) post on this absolute garbage fire of an app. And of course it's Bob ✋💀 but is anyone really complaining? Because I'm sure not. Anyways this post was made really late at night, and there may be grammar and spelling mistakes because I'm running a fever rn- so I'm sorry 😭

CW+TW; Cannibalism, Murder, Knife mentions, Blood mentions, NSFW at the end ;)

🜲 Bob's a big guy, I think we all know this- but he's also really, really comfortable. And warm. He's the best cuddle buddy, hands down. The butcher man will often times pick you up from behind, nuzzling his face into the crook of your neck while mumbling something like "I've missed ya, sugar" after a long day of "work".

🜲 He almost always has his hands on you, even in public! He's usually got an arm wrapped around your waist, or a hand on your shoulder. Hell, sometimes he's even HOLDING you. It's really sweet, but sometimes unexpected or overwhelming.

🜲 Bob is really big on cuddles! He's either got you in his lap, or snuggled up to his side. Sometimes the big guy falls asleep on you; rather effectively trapping you in your spot until he wakes up. It's all in good nature, of course, it just means that he loves you.

🜲 PRAISE. Both giving and receiving, Bob LOVES it! Especially from you. Speaking of which, you'll usually have a "You look stunnin' t'night, sweetpea. I could just eat you up" or a "Not even angels compare to what you've got, sweetness" whispered into your ear. Bob never fails to make you blush.

🜲 Big guy is very protective. If another person is even THINKING about trying to hurt his little darlin' consider them dead in an instant. That goes for bastards trying to flirt with you, too. You're HIS and his only.

🜲 Bob's anger can get ahold of him sometimes, and it's overwhelming. But he'd never, EVER take it out on you- you mean too much to him. Most of the time he'll just leave for a few minutes, before coming back covered in blood. Sure, red stains get everywhere but it could be worse!

🜲 His knife is the same as his anger. He'd never draw it on you (unless you reeeaallllllly asked him to). Sure, he's a cannibal and all- but the idea of knowing that he hurt you? Bob doesn't like to think or even TALK about it. The idea is often shoved down with a "Hm. Interestin'. Anyhow, did ya hear 'bout the news this mornin'?"

🜲 Bob has, and will try to get you to eat "Long Pork" as he calls it. You know damn well it's human meat, and have expressed your discomfort with consuming the substance. But Bob is persistent, always saying something like "Awh, C'mon, sweetness. Just a bite? I promise it ain't all that bad. Tastes just like Pork!" And "I'll give ya some special Lovin' if ya try iiitt~"

🜲 He also really, really likes cooking for you! Any dish you can think of, he's got the skills to do it! Which often leads to him making you all your favorite meals whenever you're sick, or feeling down. Physical contact, acts of service and personal time are his love language, after all.

🜲 Bob also really enjoys giving you tiny little trinkets! Anything that be finds on his victims that he thinks you might like, he's taking. Sure the items are always a little bloody, but that can just be washed right off!

꒷꒦NSFW꒦꒷

🜲 Bob is a horny motherfucker 24/7. He's really good at hiding it, but goddamn it doesn't take much to get this man going at all. Cuddling usually always turns into him slamming his hips up into you, biting down on your shoulder just to hear those delicious little noises you make.

🜲 He has good stamina, surprisingly. He'll have you pinned down to the bed, practically cockdrunk from how many times you've came- and he's still going, fast, too. "Just one more round, sugar. I promise I'm almost done" Bob usually lasts anywhere from 3-6 rounds, only to just collapse and nearly fall asleep right on top of you.

🜲 Aftercare with Bob is always some of the sweetest moments; him cradeling you in his arms, usually humming a little tune as he peppers kisses along your face and neck. Any bruises or marks left upon your skin always end up being kissed, Bob uttering a gentle apology under his breath.

🜲 Overall, being in a relationship with this big, lovable cannibal man is wild. But in the best ways possible <3

[imagining-in-the-margins]

S.R. Blurb Masterlist

If you're looking for my S.R. SFW Masterlist, look here. If you’re looking for my S.R. NSFW Masterlist, look here. If you're looking for my CM PolyAm Masterlist, look here. If you're looking for my Other CM Characters, look here. If you’re looking for Other MGG Characters, look here. If you’re looking for my Works in Progress, look here.

Screen: Spencer wears his heart in many places.

Anticipation: Spencer gives Reader their first kiss.

Birthday Wish: Spencer is sad he can’t reach you on his birthday.

Strawberry Mentos: Spencer and Reader share sweets and something else.

At Ease: Spencer comes home to his partner and finds them still asleep.

The Only Exception: Reader is only just beginning to believe in love again.

Sweet Tooth: Spencer and Reader celebrate the anniversary of graduating their eating disorder recovery program.

Adagio: Post-Prison Spencer learns to take things slow.

Fast Car: Reader drives a sleepy Spencer home.

Multifaceted: Reader interrogates a witness. Spencer can’t believe what he sees.

Piece of Paper: Spencer and Reader discuss Autism evaluations.

Tipsy: Spencer can’t handle his liquor, or how much he loves Reader.

Bruises: (16+) The team is concerned when Reader shows up with bruises on their neck.

A Curious Pair: (16+) Emily and JJ find a curious piece of clothing in the women’s locker room. Spencer thinks he might know who it belongs to.

Father Figure: Spencer discusses daddy issues. His boss, who is also his girlfriend’s father, has a question.

Viral Video: Someone recognizes Spencer and Reader from a viral video.

Casanova: [Excerpt] Spencer’s not the only person in his hotel room (and he doesn’t want Derek to see). 

A Perfect Day: [Excerpt] Spencer and Reader spend an autumn day together.

Lavender: Spencer is no stranger to headaches, and he tries to help however he can.

Stardust: Reader lost someone very important to them. Spencer helps them through a particularly dark moment of grief.

A Desert Bloom: Reader has never liked cacti. Spencer finally finds out why.

Pyrotechnics: Reader has a hard time on Fourth of July, and Spencer makes them fall in love with fireworks again.

Favorite Person: Reader just needs a little extra reassurance sometimes.

Storm: Reader has a panic attack.

Clean Shaven: Reader helps Spencer shave after prison.

Life’s Pleasures: Spencer struggles with some side effects of his medication after prison.

Your Specialty: Spencer sees his significant other comforting a child and it makes him wonder.

NSFW BELOW, MINORS DNI

Birthday in Bed: It’s Reader’s birthday, and Spencer is her present.

Post Coital Dysphoria: Spencer comforts Reader after sex.

Impatient: Spencer can’t wait until you get home.

Saint Valentine: Spencer spends Valentine’s Day with Reader.

Liqueur of You: Spencer goes down on Reader for the first time.

Speaking in Tongues: Spencer translates a movie for you. Things get a little tense.

Clean Lovin': Spencer and Reader have sex in the shower.  

Peaches & Cream: Spencer can’t get enough of you.

NSFW Alphabet: A character study on Spencer.

Handle With Care: Reader gets hurt during sex.

Morning Reverie: Spencer wakes Reader for a sleepy, early morning tryst.

Bibliophile: Spencer and Reader have sex in the library.

Oral Presentation: Spencer teaches Reader what to do when she’s on her knees.

Instinct: Spencer explains the biological phenomenons as he causes Reader to experience them.

Hard at Work: Spencer can’t seem to speak straight or sit still during a zoom meeting.

Handiwork: Spencer gets his first handjob.

Easy Access: Spencer is insecure about wearing shorts.

Blown Away: Virgin!Spencer gets an enthusiastic thank you from his partner.

[ash-arts-a-thing]

So, I followed the scent of angst and ended up finding ur trollshock au, LOVIN IT so far!

Had to look up what bioshock was and its context and characters since I’m not a gamer, but I am still a bit confused bout the whole situation. U don’t have to, but do u think u could give a brief rundown of what’s going on?

Thank you!!! I’m glad you’re liking it!! I hope to do more for it soon!!

Where do I start? I haven’t gotten a comeplete timeline from begining to end, so some things aren’t difinitive, but I can give you run downs on a couple things.

Sorry this got kinda long, I’ll put it under a read more, if you have any more questions please don’t hesitate to ask!

John Dory and his parents were invited to move to Rapture for their scientific knowledge, which works for them because morally their parents are extremely bankrupt so they can get away with anything down there. JD was aiming to get into the music industry, he’s a great song writer (not naming them though) and he’s ace with a guitar, but their parents managed to talk him out of it. They claimed his entertainment skills would be put to better use by demonstrating plasmids and tonics, of course back then they weren’t comepletely aware of the side effects excessive and heavy use could do to somebody both physically and mentally.

So for a while JD was the face and name of plasmid use, his favourites being Enrage and Incinerate. The first side effects he had were horrible migraines so he uses a pair of tinted goggles to try to avoid bright lights, and around this time he’d been told they would be having another baby soon. JD, excited at the thought of being a big brother, recorded a few songs for them via audio diary and one in particular being written specifically for his sibling.

Not long after Bruce was hatched the effects of constantly destroying and rewriting his dna finally caught up to him and they quickly pulled JD from any sort of spotlight and practically erased his existance, claiming that he had to be sent back to the surface for business reasons. In reality they signed him off to the new Protector Program, Bruce was signed to the Little Sister (Brother) Program. Any male subject they tried to use for the LSP hasn’t worked, but they managed to make it work ask long as Bruce was paired JD and ONLY JD.

Unfortunately the slug they planted into Bruce had the side effect to make him age incredibly fast and while they saw it as a benefit at first, since the rest of the children in the Program were 5-6 years old, but by the end of year 3 he had the looks and mental capacity of a 30 year old. He was not happy to say the least, since he’d been put through multiple experiments to try to slow the process before he reached his ‘30s’.

They went through the same thing with the rest of the brothers, slowly perfecting the aging problem with each one before getting it right with Branch. Each brother also still has their slug in their bodies, leaving them with the residual effects they caused when they were LB, but they don’t know how long they’ll last since Clay and Floyd don’t get Adam unlike Bruce.

B, C, and F, are desperately trying to get to Branch without hurting JD or causing his body to shut down from Branch being taken from him. Floyd quickly became reckless in his attempts and constantly takes mortal damage. Bruce is trying to keep Clay and Floyd safe even forbidding them from using Plasmids and Tonics so they don’t destroy their bodies or minds. Clay is constantly torn between his two brothers, wanting them to just be a family, but knowing trying to seperate Branch and John Dory safely will most likely be impossible.

John Dory still has some part of him left, doing little things to keep his personality like the way he’s still a showmen when he uses plasmids, he’ll hum along to any of the songs he’s written if they’re played through a diary. When he hums you can hear the barest undertone of his regular voice mixed with the guttural voice of the Big Daddy’s, it’s very comforting actually. So he’s aware, but sometimes he isn’t.

Viva and Poppy were also put through the PP and LSP, Viva forcefully put through rapid aging to fit the role of a Big Sister and Poppy put through the conditioning. Viva is fully aware of everything happening around the city and does her best to keep Poppy as safe as possible. Viva and JD have a steady protector relationship due to the friendship through Poppy and Branch.

Viva also ocassionally tries to keep the other brothers informed of what’s happening around the city when she isn’t watching the kids. Her and Clay are very close, being friends before they’re conditioning and experiments took over their lives comepltely and eventually forming a romantic relationship. Viva, at first, is not happy with the way Bruce conducts things, thinking that he just wants to kill JD and be done with it until she see how he reacts to one of his brothers old recordings.

Thier goal is to make it out of Rapture, together, as a family. There are three endings, haven’t decided which would be canon, but I’m running off the ideas from B2.

The Good Ending: everybody makes it out alive and in one piece, John Dory is able to get the same treatment as Sigma in the canon games, getting freed from the conditioning and his suit so he can live a… ‘normal’ life with his family. They probably all get a big house together and help take care of Poppy and Branch as they attend school and shit and Bruce gets some help for the mental state he’d be in after the genetic issues.

The Neutral Ending: John Dory dies in order to save his brothers and the sisters. Viva would extract JD’s Adam and distribute it amongst his brothers so they’d all have a piece of him, kinda like a shoulder angel type of deal. It’s unknown if they’d all stay together.

The Bad Ending: John Dory and Bruce both die, the conditioning would end up being too much for JD to fight against and comepletely lose who he’d use to be, causing him to lash out at the rest of them. Bruce at this time would also feel his sanity slipping, using what consciousness he has left to protect them all from JD, leading them both to their deaths. When the rest finally make it to the surface they all break off, Floyd taking Branch, Clay going solo, and Viva taking Poppy with her.

[blazehedgehog]

Once again thinking about how advertising shifted from a small group of selected individuals who would rate, approve, and distribute a limited number advertisements on TV, radio and in print and how the modern "anyone can make an advertisement for anything and put it anywhere" completely destroyed the market.

In theory advertisements aren't bad. I mean there are still a great number of people who loudly and proudly declare they only watch the Super Bowl because marketing agencies spend big bucks on funny, interesting advertisements. There were scenarios where advertisements were acceptable and even enjoyable!

But not anymore. Since a person can register for Google Adsense and slap as many ads on a thing as they want to, the more desperate and sleazy among us decided to fill entire pages with ads. The value of a single advertisement bottomed out, as instead of guaranteeing a viewer's undivided attention, websites started being lit up like the Las Vegas strip. Memorable ads suddenly matter less than whatever's the most simple and flashy.

The side effect, the thing that I'm actually thinking about today, is how little advertising matters to me now. The only ads that ever actually command a single iota of my attention are the most annoying things: websites with "sign up for our mailing list!" pop-ups, or when I go dumpster diving on my Roku and find a streaming app that plays ads every 90 seconds, or when a news website is covered in "SUBSCRIBE TO OUR PREMIUM SERVICE" banners in every corner (or limits how much you can read before paying).

The only ads I remember are the ones that feel like a punishment.

To the point where, on a website that actually tries to show an acceptable number of advertisements, my brain has been automatically trained to ignore them. I don't even see them. I was using the tumblr app five minutes ago on my phone and I can't tell you what the ads were. I salted the earth for those neurons in my brain. That kind of mental spite is a reflex for me now. The rest of the internet has made me so resistant to all forms of the most annoying, forceful, attention-grabbing advertising that it will probably never work on me ever again for as long as I live.

But I can still recite the Toys'R'Us song by heart. It's been more than twenty years since its debut and people still remember the McDonalds "I'm Lovin' It" jingle.

...Actually, I'm so inoculated to modern advertising I had to double check whether or not McDonalds even still uses "I'm Lovin' It" because I cannot remember having seen a McDonalds advertisement in a very long time.

I suppose my ultimate point in all of this is never feel obligated to watch ads. Never feel guilty for using an adblocker. When that website says "We noticed you're blocking our ads, please turn it off" there is no law that says you have to (if they try to force you, a quick google search will probably solve that).

Always remember you are the victim of their circumstance, not the other way around.

[floydsmuse]

Meggy my dearest, I come bringing a Miles Miller thought and plenty of thots with it (lol).

Miles is very, very ticklish which is really, really funny for the both of you. He can't help it, he's just a very, very sensitive boy who goes nuts at even the slightest touches.

You love to see the look on his face when he's asleep in bed and he's laying there shirtless and you start tickling his armpits but he laughs like crazy when you start going after his belly. Miles's laugh is the best because his face gets all scrunkly too when you do it (lol).

When he goes to the doctor it's even worse when Miles has to have the full abdominal exam. He's trying so hard not to squeal and squirm when he feels those hands feeling his tummy up and the only way Miles is even able to get through it is by imagining YOU feeling him up (lol).

But Miles absolutely loves it when you rub his belly to help him relax. The minute you hear that little purr in his throat, you know it's working (lol). He's even been known to fall asleep occasionally

I know we've touched on it alot but I can totally see Miles getting an upset stomach from way too much dairy even though he needs it (you had to yell at him once after he snuck a whole brick of pepper jack cheese from the fridge and ate like half of it, lol). But even still, you're more than happy to gently rub him and help move things along, maybe leaving a few little kisses here and there to make him feel better.

He goes absolutely FERAL if you start kissing his belly when you're doing the deed in the living room. Miles loves the feeling of your tongue swirling around his navel and leaving feather light little kisses around it too.

Meggy I know it's on the short side, but I think we can both agree it's the short blurbs that make it worthwhile (lol).

Mary my love! yay! more thoughts/thots for our precious boy :,) hehe i can’t wait to read these !!

oh Miles is without a doubt super ticklish! like if you so much as brush a single finger over his skin, this boy will get all fidgety & the giggles just won’t stop coming! oh my gosh, not the armpits! Mary plsss🤣 i could totally picture it tho! his whole body scrunches up & he’s lightly pushing you away, begging you to stop through breathy laughter! the belly too! yesss. that’s a particularly sensitive tickly spot for him. but why can i also imagine you blowing raspberries onto his tummy too?! that would drive him wild 🫠

yesss! Miles would be squirming like crazy at the doctors! i could see the doctor initially being impatient with him, but they can’t be for too long. cause once he lets out those high pitched giggles & his round cheeks heat up, they can’t help but laugh too! oooh yes! Miles would be like a happy little kitten when you rub his belly. he’d always just melt into your touch & if you so much as stop your touches, he’d start whining & won’t stop until you return back to giving his tummy some lovin’ 🥰

haha the dairy, yes! i remember this! Miles is just far too stubborn & loves it too much to give it up, even tho he’s clearly lactose intolerant & the doctors recommend he stay away from it. he can’t help himself tho & will always ends up with an upset tummy :/ luckily he has you to rub his belly & lay light kisses onto it when he’s feeling the after effects of eating cheese, yoghurt or ice cream. can definitely see him being a big sucker for ice cream & i can’t say i blame him there! it’s so yummy :))

ooohh!! YES MARY!!! he’d go absolutely insane when you kiss all along his belly & up his little happy trail while you’re getting it on! it’d drive him even crazier when you decide to nip at his doughy flesh & leave little love bites all along his skin🤤 ughhh!! wanna kiss his tummy so badly right now!! 🫠

thank you so much for these thoughts/thots Mary! i loved them & will being thinking about them for the rest of the day🥰 gonna reply back to the other thoughts you sent me in too, so be on the lookout for that darling 💕💗

[dancing-to-architecture]

20 - ZZ Top - Eliminator (1983)

Ah, ZZ Top. The Houston blues-rock band known for spinning fuzzy guitars and big ass beards, except for the one guy who's last name was actually "Beard".

Having existed in America during the 80s and 90s (and having lived in Houston itself for a year and half) of course i know their hits (and i can see a few here) but I'm kinda excited to hear the deeper cuts.

Speaking of ZZ Top's deeper cuts: i got to see these guys live at Bonnaroo, but i don't think they quite got the point of Bonnaroo. Typically, if you're there, you're playing the hits. The Big Numbers. The ones you know everybody there is gonna be able to sing along to.

Over the course of 45 minutes, they didn't play a single song i could recognize.

I don't have an ounce of shame in saying that yeah, I left that set early and went to a different stage to watch The XX right as they started playing Intro.

Easily one of the better calls i made at that festival.

•Gimme All Your Lovin'-

Such a simple but effective drum beat. No frills but it doesn't need 'em.

Aggressively horny lyrics, but it feels almost campy with how straight they're delivered.

"If i blow my top, will you let it go to your head?" At the risk of sounding like John Waters for a moment, i think the world needs more barely-disguised lyrics about getting a blowjob, especially these days where it really seems like everybody's horny but nobody fucks.

"You got to pack it up, work it like a new boy should." Happy pride month, y'all.

•Got Me Under Pressure-

This girl sounds FUN AS HELL. I'm reminded of Sheryl Crow here: "are you strong enough to be my man?" (Yeah i know that's not what that song is about but play with me in the space here.)

•Sharp Dressed Man-

1000% the first song that comes to my mind when i hear "ZZ Top".

Also 1000 is likely the number of times I've heard this song in my 38ish years on this rock.

That riff still kicks all kinds of ass though.

Audience participation section: which movie's "main guy wearing a bunch of different suits for 5 seconds each" changing-room montage do YOU think of when you hear this?

(Correct answer: it's literally the background song for every. single. one. since this album came out.)

Also white gloves and looking for love...that's... certainly a look.

•I Need You Tonight-

I fucking love this song!

Oh wait, shit, no I'm thinking of INXS.

Jokes aside, i really like the echoing guitar tone.

Pretty solid bluesy "i miss my woman" song. If this album wasn't already stacked, I'd say this could have been a single.

And that solo, though!

•I Got The Six-

Before this one started, i was wondering what the six was referencing. A six pack of beer? I got your back? HAHAHAHA NOPE.

"I got the six, gimme your nine!"

Again, more songs about blowjobs! Sixty-nining, even!

And also, if you're attracted to women and you don't/won't eat pussy, know that i have lost some respect for you.

Horny as hell song, but it gets a nod of overall approval especially since the end is kinda hilarious.

•Legs-

ATTENTION META: 40 years ago, the bearded ones taught us all about the importance of having Legs and knowing how to use them. Y'all had no fuckin excuse for your floating torso mananangal-wannabe bullshit.

This song goes so fucking hard. At least 35% harder than a song about legs should go. I hate that it fades out during the solo, though. Let that man cook!

•Thug-

I know, I KNOW this album came out at least a decade before the show did, but that slap bass just feels Seinfeld-y. Funky, but Seinfeld-y.

Also, calendar check: June 21 is Thug Day, i guess. Remember to keep your machine guns and money secure, and bust your friends out of jail!

•TV Dinners-

Know what? I can appreciate that Billy and/or Dusty sings about processed microwaved slop with the same exact amount of gusto and dedication that he does about the most beautiful woman he's ever seen.

Otherwise it's basically a novelty song, imo. I can't believe it was a single.

•Dirty Dog-

Ah, the flip side of aggressively horny: the creepy/gross/misogynist angle. God forbid a woman does anything.

Also this really sounds like a ZZ Top b-side. It literally sounds like 4 of their other songs put in a blender for a while.

•If I Could Only Flag Her Down-

The misogyny continues and deepens.

In lieu of a review for this song, here's a lyric:

"I just want to crash her/

I just want to trash her."

And here's the vomiting emoji 20 times:

🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

•Bad Girl-

"Praise kinks DNI": the song. I feel like i need a shower after hearing this.

Well, the second half of the album sucks some real shit, but Legs is still a banger. It's pretty easy to see why the deep cuts stay deep, though.

And, like many, many albums I've heard before: after the first 5 or so songs, it's just time to put on a new album.

Favorite Track: Gimme All Your Lovin'. 100%.

Least Favorite Track: If I Could Only Flag Her Down. I'll spare you another 20 vomit emojis.

[simonwimon]

Its 7:30 Am Perfect Time To Post OC Refs

also typed All Of That out under the readmore in case it's hard to read. this would have taken so much less time if i just didn't insist on handwriting it all LMAO

Tessa Yadid Ahava Hassan

he/they

30 and lovin' life

under no circumstances a scientist, despite the get-up

lives out of his scooby doo van

unnaturally unlucky but SUCH a good sport about it

DOES NOT have lightning powers.

just... the power to strike himself with lightning.

TOTALLY different!

not visible here, but has lichtenberg scars down his back

does his darndest to be a good person & put good vibes out into the world

...despite those good vibes never coming back around his way :(

"oh fuck i have to respect women *runs into oncoming traffic*" kind of guy

their unlucky streak is how they explain "almost running over a random man" AKA meeting rae - though that's more about the "nearly killing him" part rather than the "new van roommate" one

speaks in a kind of sing-songy, overly-fancy way. type of guy to say "jolly good" unironically

their unlucky streak ALSO leads to them getting tied up with rae's past. literally.

imagine the next pic here

31 and still kickin'

more prominent white hair

right hand missing ring & pinky fingers' last 2 digits

bad right leg - uses a cane when need be

lichtenberg scars now down back & both arms

traded the goggles & labcoat for glasses with side shields & a Grandma Sweater :)

turns out being held hostage by a shapeshifting alien hivemind, interrogated regularly for information on your not-husband, and kept in a hole the rest of the time is Bad For You

has A LOT of identity & confidence issues on account of the same shapeshifter taking tessa's place back home

doing their best to Not Explode

despite all the difficulties the last year presented, rae has been helping them A Lot. which they cannot thank him for enough

still keeps their Goofy Helpful Guy personality, just. a bit more subdued

ok now imagine the rae pic here

Renee Rosalinda Romero ... aka just Rae

they/it/she/he (stick with one, alternate, anything works!)

Incomprehensible Age Disease

everybody's favorite time-traveling identity-issue-having gay alien symbiant

the species he belongs to survives by befriending other sentient creatures, living alongside them, and slowly (over the course of several generations) changing their own biology to almost perfectly mimic the other's

...so when a different alien species trying to eliminate all disease and "faults" within its society finds them, it turns out they make Really Good Lab Rats

rae Spawns long after that becomes the norm. he's a test subject for curing & treating fatal diseases

the Big One he's used for is very deadly, but rae is MOSTLY unaffected - the only side effects are both Physical Teleportation and "Mental" Teleportation

basically: rae clips thru walls and his consciousness jumps back & forth to past & future raes

translates as rae having random amnesiac episodes, OR knowing what's going to happen for however long

anyways. gets so stressed during "treatment" one day he just teleports away through time & space To Earth

wandering around 'til he nearly gets hit by a van & meets tessa

sticks with them initially out of confusion, but ends up getting attached

actually Develops A Personality now that he's not constantly stressed as fuck

extremely laid back guy. usually has some sort of quip for every situation

if he's in anti-amnesia mode, 9 out of 10 times, he just uses his knowledge for goofs & gaffs instead of changing stuff

tessa helping out with amnesiac episodes has made him a lot more casual about them

is often accidentally intimidating. in reality wouldn't hurt a fly

eventually, rae's past catches up to him.

ok now imagine the next rae pic ok we're almost done

Incomprehensible Age Disease (+1 year)

big ol' clump of white hair now

eyesight a bit worse, especially in his left eye. used to have fake glasses as a placebo but tessa got her real ones

lichtenberg scars around left eye

got ONE WHOLE INCH TALLER!!! short king.

his style stayed mostly the same, but she started wearing tessa's old sweater. it's comfy. :)

all of the physical changes to his body help ground her when any particularly bad What Timeline Am I In Now episodes come up

dealing with the whole Fake Tessa debacle has made him a bit. Self-Doubt-Y

but having his not-husband's shoulder to lean on helps them both

despite... ALL THAT, she has somehow gotten more upbeat than she was before

turns out getting to explode (at least one part of) the weird hivemind trying to track you down and kidnap you is sort of cathartic

[moon-ursidae]

THE MANDALORIAN 3x06 SPOILERS

i’m caught up! didn’t think i would tonight but here we are!

i’ve seen some heavy spoilers for this ep already :/

so i know some of what’s coming

more darksaber focus in the “previously” hmm

god they really have just been setting shit up that bo-katan is gonna get the darksaber back and rule the mandalorians

last episode really propelled that one

idk i’m just kinda annoyed at this point

this season is just- ugh idk

i’m just gonna shut the fuck up about it until the episode is over

or when it’s relevant to the episode

empire ship??

WOAH THE WAY THAT TANK DRAINED WAS FUCKIN SICK

THAT’S A WHOLE STAR DESTROYER??

OH???? I WAS WONDERING WHEN THESE 2 WOULD SHOW BACK UP

AHHHHHHHH

omg the drama of this romance

guns for hire OOOOOOOOO THIS INTRO GOES HARD

i like that bo’s formed a relationship w grogu but that also makes me scared

like there’s so many things that make me think that something is gonna happen to din…

all of these major plot points being given to bo katan?? bad news bears man

god din is so attractive

i’m still shocked when i hear his name

like it’s still insider info to me

JACK BLACK AND LIZZO OH MY FUCKING GOOOOOOODDDDDDD

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

IAVSKABSKEBFKXBZKZVAOSVSKSBAL

i know lizzo was GEEKING being able to hold grogu

she’s gorgeous

jack black is having a week huh? fuckin good for him he deserves it

droid problem?

god i love jack black he’s so silly

“progrum” HAHAHAHAHAHA

BATTLE DROIDS?

din may fuck shit up if that’s the case

this feels so fucking video game-y

grogu do be lovin the scritches

GOD THE DIN DJARIN HEAD TILT™️ SO HOT

“you had me at battle droids” i knew he was gonna fuck shit up

HOLD ON I JUST HEARD “these droids” AND PAUSED IS THAT FUCKING CHRISTOPHER LLOYD

OH MY GOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD

IT’S FUCKING CHRISTOPHER LLOYD

the music from season 2 UGH so good

the fucking seperatist droids oh my god there’s so much history with these droids and din and bo

UGNAUGHTS???

DIN ASKING ABOUT THEM TOO UUGGHHHH

KUIIL I MISS YOU

if nobody hates droids, din djarin has left this realm.

one thing about din djarin? he’s gonna look damn good in an elevator

i’m gonna fucking cry if nick nolte voices any of these ugnaughts

“i am mandalorian din djarin, friend of ugnaught kuiil. you will answer our qustions and help us with our task. i have spoken.” I HAVE SPOKEN😭😭😭😭😭😭

THE WAY THEY IMMEDIATELY LISTEN AT THE MENTION OF KUIIL 😭😭😭😭

the voice of this ugnaught is SO FAMILIAR.

it’s pissing me off that i can’t name the actor

the practical effects are fucking awesome

it’s gonna piss me off that i can’t name that voice actor

ANYWAY

god the lights reflecting off of din’s armor is so sexy and will never not be sexy

BATTLE DROIDS SINCE THE CLONE WARS??? SO HIS HOME WORLD WAS ATTACKED AFTER???

din’s gonna fuck around and find out huh?

HOLY SHIT HE DEFINITELY FOUND OUT

HE GOT HIS SHIT ROCKED

that’s concussion # what now?? like 60?

THE SOUND OF THE DROID HITTING THE BESKAR HAHA

now THIS is the bounty hunting shit i missed

THAT LOOKED A LOT LIKE R2D2???

PLEASE THE WAY HE DOVE THROUGH THE WINDOW??? HE’S SO CRAZY I LOVE HIM SO MANY

THE LIGHTING IS FUCKING GORGEOUS

THIS IS THE BOUNTY HUNTING SHIT THAT I’VE MISSED OH MY GOD

this is also so obi-wan and anakin coded

plz din is so stubborn i love him

YOU CAN’T TAKE THE BOUNTY HUNTER OUT OF HIM I LOVE IT

this is literally an rpg game. there’s side quests to side quests and quest steps to quest steps

this is just becoming an episode of criminal minds: star wars edition

DARKSABER DARKSABER DARKSABER DARKSABER DARKSABER DARKSABER

THE MUSIC CUE AHHHH

THIS IS LITERALLY JUST AN EPISODE OF CRIMINAL MINDS HAHAHA

CHRISTOPHER LLOYD TEA TEA TEA

SEPERATIST??

COUNT DOOKU??

AHHHHHHH

YES MORE JACK BLACK AND LIZZO HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

SHE’S SLAYING

OH MY GOD GROGU HELPING HER😭😭😭

the difference between axe at the beginning seperating lovers meanwhile din and bo are helping these two lovers is so good

DIN DJARIN OF CONCORDIA?????

CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING

HIS FULL TITLE I’M YELLING

KNIGHTHOOD FOR GROGU YEAAAAAAAA

oh god here we go

the gurls are fighting 👀

damn she rocked his ass

oh he’s pissed goddamn

this is crazy

wait is the knee slide in this episode?? i know kate was talkin about it in an interview but idk if it’s this ep

not this fight i guess

that was a cool fight sequence tho!!

here we go about who is the actual leader and who has the fucking darksaber

he’s gonna give her the darksaber isn’t he?

HE IS EVERY BIT THE MANDALORIAN THAT THEY WERE YUUUP YUUP YUUP LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

“then she shall have it” I FUCKING KNEW IT.

“would it not belong to her?” i-

ANYWAY

DIRECTED BY BRYCE DALLAS HOWARD YUUUUUUP YUUUUP YUUUUP SHE SLAYS EVERY TIME

i’m gonna do a whole seperate post about some of my other thoughts bc i have MANY.

[allthemusic]

Week ending: 30th April

Ooh, we're getting closer and closer to Elvis becoming the most tagged artist on this whole blog. Frankie Laine's still got one up on him, but we're close, I can feel it!

(Now and Then There's) A Fool Such as I - Elvis Presley (double A-side, peaked at Number 1)

We open with some steady, rocking guitar, and the deepest of deep notes, Elvis singing from right down in his boots, it sounds like. The rest of the song isn't that deep, either, it's just the first line - almost makes me wonder if it's Elvis singing that first note? If it's somebody else, it's subtle, though? Okay, I've just looked it up, and it is somebody else, Ray Walker of the Jordanaires. It's not the comedy bass voice that you sometimes get in Elvis songs, though, it's some proper credible bass singing.

And then Elvis takes over, and he's on fine form, asking his love to pardon me, if I'm sentimental / When we say goodbye / Don't be angry with me should I cry. Elvis got dumped, you see, but he's still hung up on his love: I'm a fool, but I'll love you dear / Until the day I die. And that's it, that's the song. It's simple, effective, and all of it sung with a surprising amount of warmth - you don't get the feel that this is Elvis at his most heartbroken, or his most desperate, or his most angry, though they're all tones he could have conceivably taken with this song. Instead, he goes for a sort of settled acceptance. There's no recrimination against Elvis' love for dumping him, just a resigned acknowledgement that Elvis' affection for them isn't diminished - even if that makes him a fool.

It's got a bit of a country feel, so I wasn't hugely surprised to learn that it was originally a country hit, written in 1952 and originally a hit for one Hank Snow. Since then it was also covered by the likes of Tommy Edwards and Jo Stafford, and would later be covered by Bob Dylan. And I can see all those covers working - there's a fairly timeless appeal to it, and it's not an obviously gendered song, either.

It takes its time fading out, in a way that feels quite modern to me, eschewing a big old definitive ending, in favour of gradually dying away as Elvis repeats the final title line, over and over again, with Ray Walker singing subtly along what sounds like an octave lower, barely audible, but adding a sort of richness to the sound. If I was feeling more pretentious, I'd try and make a case that it's supposed to mirror the way that Elvis' love continues on, even after the song finishes. But I'm not feeling pretentious, so let's just say that it's a nice ending, and leave it at that.

I Need Your Love Tonight - Elvis Presley (double A-side, 1)

Okay, this is where all the rowdy energy went. It's not that the last song was particularly lifeless or slow, but this song is frantic, setting out at a clip, and not letting up for a moment, not until the very end. It's one of those songs where the entire band sounds like they're barely just keeping the pace up, in a good way - I bet this was great fun live!

Not that it was likely performed live, at least not immediately after recording, since this track and the previous one were recorded immediately before Elvis left to go to Germany, as part of his military service. So I'm maybe imagining this more as Elvis blowing off steam one last time, before shipping out. Certainly, he throws himself as the song, all about how he desperately needs his baby's love, tonight (hey, I never said it was a particularly complex song!)

There's obviously some slightly saucy potential here, especially in the verse where he explains how I've been waiting just for tonight / To do some lovin' and hold you tight / Don't tell me, baby, you gotta go / I got the hi-fi high and the lights down low. Elvis, it seems, is ready for some love-making!

Course, reading it written down, the line about how Elvis' baby gotta go, along with the ooh wow, you better stay / Pow pow, don't run away or the can't let you go lines do come off a little predatory. But the tone, when you listen to it, is mostly just flirty and kind of goofy. Would Elvis have written those lyrics if he was making songs today? No, probably not. But he didn't, and honestly, there are way worse songs out there for that kind of thing. The overall tone's romantic and just a little bit suggestive, in a very tame 1950s way. It's pretty great.

I also really like the vaguely Latin rhythms that the guitars and percussion are playing throughout. Between that, the little hyaargh Elvis sneaks in around the mid-point, and the spirited double bass playing, it's a very fun, energetic song - I'd for sure enjoy dancing to this, if I was a 1950s teen!

I thoroughly enjoyed both of these songs. Neither are songs that I really knew before listening, or not beyond their names, and both were a very welcome discovery. Am I... becoming an Elvis fan? I think I'd have said before this project that I appreciated him, but didn't otherwise have very strong opinions on the King. But the more I listen, the more I'm feeling a kind of affection for his warmth and good-natured goofiness. Both of which are on full display in this week's songs.

Favourite song of the bunch: (Now and Then There's) A Fool Such as I

[hotxrod]

"It needs it," he repeated her words with a slow nod of his head. "Just so happens I'm a saint who specializes in cleansing dark souls. You leave it to me, Cece — I'll cleanse the ever-lovin' devil right outta you." He gave a click of his tongue and a wink of his eye, as if he was the most charismatic car salesman alive, selling a hot piece of tin trash on wheels. As clear as the blue skies on a summer's day, Danny was obviously enjoying the way the younger brunette seemed to be able to match his energy, and then some. Unlike the women he was normally surrounded with, Cecilia Salazar was already much more engaging then what he was used to being matched against. Her quick wit was refreshing, her twisted sense of humor was divine, and there was this certain air of mystery enveloping her that he had a wicked urge to sift through.

It wasn't until all six foot and a couple inches of him were towering over her, did Danny realize just how much of a height difference there was between them. He also couldn't betray the amusement in thinking how easy it would be for him to just scoop her up in his arms, like nothing.

A dark eyebrow quirked as a pensive hum vibrated against the back of his throat, choosing his next words cautiously. "I wouldn't say that's all I'm after. If you're gonna hang out with me all night, that's the real prize. The wishes will just be a big ol' bonus ... when I win." And just as if it had never left, the infamous smirk returned to his features, masking the dizzy effect she had on him. The weekend had barely even started and, already, Danny could tell he was going to be in trouble with her around.

As Cece mentioned, again, the shirt he was depriving her of, it was then that Danny straightened up once more. Tilting his head a little to one side as he peered down at the brunette, he took a moment as if envisioning her in one of his shirts. A tactic to further tease her, which also backfired on himself as he caught his lower lip between his teeth, a means of distraction from the carnal thoughts that threatened to flood his mind. "Alright, the more you talk about it, the more I can definitely picture you in one of my shirts. And if you really want one ... don't think I'd be able to say no to you." While he enjoyed the relentless banter being tossed back and forth, it was almost terrifying how easily swept up he was getting in everything about Cece, and it left him wondering if he truly ever could say no to her.

With the assurance of keeping her close, the adrenaline junkie certainly wouldn't decline giving her another ride, if ever requested. Her cutely veiled threat to hold him true to his promise just got a chuckle out of Danny.

Without verbally admitting to it, he hoped that she would.

His ears perked up slightly at the mention of her family, small smirk tugging up the corners of his mouth hidden away behind the visor of his helmet. It left him feeling curious, wondering how contrasted or comparable the Salazar household had been to his own. The thought of having a handful of siblings always sounded like it'd be fun, to Danny. He'd grown up as an only child, and while he'd nurtured connections that resembled a sibling-like bond, it wasn't exactly the same; he was still missing out on that specific tether that only siblings could share.

At the minimum, that was all he could assume.

"Oh yeah? Well, if you end up still liking it up here, after being stuck with me all weekend, maybe ... maybe you could bring them around sometime." Quickly following up the offer with an effortless shrug of one shoulder, the mechanic attempted to pass it off as nonchalant as possible, without looking any further into it. It had come out faster than his brain could process the possibility of it being too forward, a little too soon. However, he couldn't be blamed for the hopeful feeling that this weekend was going to be one for the books, and, with the way her arms tightened around his torso just enough to send a small shiver down his spine, this wouldn't be the last he'd see of Cecilia Salazar.

"Fifty?" A hearty laugh soon erupted from the older blond, giving a shake of his head at the numbers she tossed out there. "Nah, we rarely go that hard up here. This is more of an escape for us from all the crowds and shit — we keep it lowkey." He hummed in thought for a moment, almost in sync with the motor his bike, before finally answering her. "I wanna say closer to ten. Maybe a little less, depending on who all decides to show up." And whoever Rob decided to slip a sneaky invite. Leave it to his younger cousin to spice up a perfectly relaxed getaway. "Why, were you hoping for a banger party? We've tried it a couple times, but the park rangers around here tend to frown on all the traffic."

While the view of the mountain at the cable car station was certainly in its rights of being absolutely breathtaking, Danny knew of another spot. A little more elevated, heavily wooded with a small opening — it had an even better view of the layout, if one could imagine to be possible. Thickly treaded tires sent snow spraying behind them as Danny carefully maneuvered the bike around trees and shrubbery, until slowly coming to a stop on the segregated hill he'd visit often to unscramble his troubled mind.

"See that?" He leaned back a little, head turning more toward Cece before outstretching an arm to point at a specific area of the mountain, in the distance. The Adler Estate, miles away atop Blackwood Mountain, was warmly lit up against the otherwise dreary cold of winter, evidence of someone already making themselves at home in the main lodge. "That's where the magic happens."

It was amusing to imagine Daniel Adler, a man with a love to get his hands dirty upon working on a vehicle, a saint. It made Cece cross her arms across her chest and lean on her hip, one corner of her lip curling into an amused half-smile. “If you’re a Saint, Danny, then I might have to come often during this trip for some cleansing of my,” she copied his cross movements, “very, very dark soul. It needs it.” It wasn’t a lie — Cecilia Salazar was a woman with secrets that often ruined lives; just because she was intoxicated most of the time did not mean that she was a good drunk. She was quite the opposite of that, which worked in her favor at first; nobody messed with her and her family. But it all came with a cost.

It was like he was doing all of this purposefully to get close to her. Not that it did not work, of course, but Cece hoped that at least she would give some sort of challenge, something to slow down the process of how much she already liked this interaction with Daniel. While it was true that they hit off well instantly from the moment they met, Salazar stored bad memories in that storage called memories — memories full of males that gave her the absolute ‘bad boy’ aesthetic, males that enjoyed a little bit of adrenaline, males that at the end hurt her. Daniel wasn’t helping her case at all with the way he eyed her up and down, undoubtedly already imagining her walking around the lodge in only a pair of bikini, and leaning down, tall frame almost enveloping her.

‘This man will give amazing hugs,’ were her first thoughts, thoughts which did not remain as innocent the more Daniel kept leaning over her and lowering his voice like it was meant for her and her only. It made something in Cecilia flutter. She kept the tough act up, however, for she was not going to back down now and offer Adler material to tease her with. But he was indeed crawling underneath her skin already. “Ah, you’re doing it for the wishes,” she nodded slowly, “well, Mr. Adler, if you play your cards right and you, let’s say, win — promise it’ll be worth it.” A shameless flirt. A last minute-thought comeback in the hopes she won’t be the only flustered one, though she might be if Danny kept towering over her. God, why was he so freaking tall?

Cecilia released quite the dramatic sigh before one hand pushed away a strand of brown lock that fell over her hazel orbs. “Well, there goes my chance for stealing myself a souvenir,” replied the brunette. “But, say, don’t guys like that? Girls in their shirts? Though, I have to admit that your shirt will most likely be a mini dress for me.”

“I’m gonna hold onto you about that free ride, Adler,” warned the young brunette with a finger waving towards him, before her adrenaline-loving heart sped up as Daniel hopped on the bike in a helmet that looked way more worn than her own. Wrapping her arms around his torso to hold onto, Cecilia took in the details of his helmet first before her mind processed the rest — of the firm muscles hidden underneath layers of clothing, of the fact that she was impossibly close and pressed against the older male’s back. Good thing she had a helmet on, for her hazel orbs could not focus on anything except his back.

To the point she almost did not hear him when he turned around to glance her way.

“Hm? Oh, I’m good. I’m fantastic!” nodded enthusiastically the young woman before forcing her head to shift towards the change of landscape — from the cable car station to the white-covered trees and ground. Most people would pull out their phones in order to take pictures and store them in their gallery for memory-purposes ( or to post them online ) but Cece never had that urge to reach for her device for such purposes. No, she took it all in with the intentions of re-creating it all on paper. “I don’t understand how people look at this gorgeous view and still choose summer,” commented Salazar. “If I had the chance, I’ll stay right here. I know that… my little sister hates the cold but my two brothers would love this.” Elisa, Victor and Sebastian were the only topic of her past she was willing to throw out there. Cece missed them, like she would miss a limb if amputated. Last she heard, those children were the top of their classes despite Victor showing signs of rebellion already. At least one family member resembled her in some way.

Clearing her throat, she subconsciously tightened her hold over Daniel’s torso as the thoughts of her siblings felt like a jab in her heart. “I never got to ask,” she changed the subject quickly, “how many people are we talking, in the lodge? Ten, twenty — fifty people?”

[anitosoul]

tripreport.019: Fluidity

liquid 💧

Key Inspirations

MoMA Ready’s Set at Nowadays Nonstop (DJ set)

Snail Mail – Valentine (Music album)

Floating through music (activity)

Don Miguel Ruiz – The Four Agreements (Book)

Talking (Activity)

Y2K Retro Bubble Look (Aesthetic)

Dissociating (Acitivity)

MoMA PS1 Greater New York (Art exhibit)

Floating Points (Music artist)

Mobb Deep (Music artist)

Mixing in the woods (Activity)

The Pattern (App)

Coco & Clair Clair` (Music artist)

St. Vitus (Venue)

Opening DJ sets (Activity)

Forgiveness (Activity)

Coming home (Activity)

Fluidity Tracklist A-Side

Coco & Clair Clair – Pretty

DJ Swisha, Jessy Lanza – All the Time

piri – Soft Spot

Turnstile, Mall Grab – Yes I Need My Generator (Mall Grab Remix)

DJ Sabrina the Teenage DJ – Down With Love

Special Request – Amnesia

The Manuel Azevedo Quartet – Futebol de Bar

Octo Octa, DJ Q – It’s You (Octo Octa’s Slammin’ With U Mix)

DJ Q – Optimum Thinking

Nikki Nair – Power Tool

Planet 1999, A.G. Cook, Baseck – Party (A.G. Cook & Baseck Remix)

FJAAK – Identity

Jamie xx – Idontknow

DJ Rashad – In Da Club Before Eleven O’Clock

Mobb Deep, DJ Zinc – Shook Ones (Remix)

Skrillex, Noisia, josh pan, Dylan Brady – Supersonic (My Existence)

MoMA Ready, Sasha, Sean Paul – I’m Still In Love (Rework)

Samurai Breaks – Pump Up the Volume

Overmono – So U Kno

Alec Empire – Let the Sun Shine

Fluidity Tracklist B-Side

MoMA Ready, Mina Thomas, Yunie Mojica – Simple As A Song

Oakwite – Whisper

Wet, Blood Orange – Bound

Snail Mail – Forever (Sailing)

LIKE ANIMALS – Function

Floating Points, Mayfield Depot – Bias (Mayfield Depot Mix)

Coco Bryce – Lovin U

LONER – New to Me

Lenzman, Artificial Intelligence – Drowning

nCamargo – Side By Side

The Caracal Project – Expresso

FD – Ice Cream

Alicia Keys, Lenzman – Unthinkable (Lenzman Remix)

James Blake, Submorphics – Modern Soul (Submorphics Remix)

Drake, Mutt – Best I Ever Had (Mutt Bootleg)

PinkPantheress – Break It Off

Adam F – Circles

Austra, Avalon Emerson – Anywayz (Avalon Emerson’s 14th Life Version)

November’s mix is somewhat of a combination between September and October. Each of those months was one end of an extreme for me: In September I used music as an internal tool, a guiding force to process my feelings, and in October I used music as an external driver, a vehicle to express myself to others and communicate with the world around me. This month, the intensity finally seemed to settle, but it was met with a reckoning of the self-importance I was giving to myself and what I was doing. (I also recognize the irony of talking about this in a personal blog about my life experiences.) 

The themes of this month’s mix were inspired heavily by the MoMA Ready liquid DnB set I mentioned in October. At that point my friends had gone home so I was there by myself, and I had nothing else to do except reflect on my life. I thought about all of it: my relationship to music, the ways I’ve grown since moving to NYC, the effects of the pandemic, the dynamics of my personal relationships, my professional trajectory, dealing with loss. I was cradled by the music, finally processing all of the change. 

Later that month, I had some close friends stay with me. This was a sobering experience, as I realized that for as much processing I was doing on the dance floor, I had barely processed anything using language. At the same time, I realized how much I was making everything about myself and forcing situations to be the way I had built them up in my mind. I imposed my expectations and problems without regard for those around me, hurting people in the process. I fell back into patterns of depression and anxiety and guilt, blaming myself for it all.

I was still using music as a motivator, and I had some additional chances to perform live. We hosted another PQ party that coincided with some friends being in town. It was a great experience getting to perform for them for the first time, and just as importantly I got the experience of having a set that didn’t go as I planned. I made some pretty big mistakes and felt that the energy was off, but it was a learning opportunity. Getting feedback from the friends who were there was invaluable. I learned that I needed to ease into some of the less accessible sounds and build up to them, familiarizing the audience. A few days later Four Tet and Floating Points did a surprise set at Nowadays and I spontaneously decided to go–I got to do even more “field research,” learning how to get a crowd warmed up for higher intensity tracks. They played “Supersonic (My Existence),” a Skrillex/Noisia/Dylan Brady song which I honestly wasn’t expecting given Four Tet and Floating Points’ more low-key sounds. I could tangibly feel the importance of narrative-building and energy flow in their set. 

That week, a friend of mine recommended me for an event with Girl Gang NYC, providing more experience playing live. It was challenging but exciting given I had no idea what the vibe of the crowd was going to be, but I took what I learned from the PQ party and incorporated it into my set. I played some hits, some throwbacks, and blended them into some of the drum and bass tracks later on–people loved it!

I knew I was going home later that month for Thanksgiving, so I decided to reach out to St. Vitus, the main dance club in my hometown of Tulsa, about doing a set. I was given the opportunity to perform and I was extremely grateful; it was my first club set and it happened so quickly after I started getting into DJing. I had to give it my all, so I crafted my set around a lot of the music I played in October as well as the tracks I was discovering throughout November. 

I was so nervous at the beginning; I had an opening set on Thanksgiving eve, so it was pretty empty at first. I was worried that only a few people would show up. About half an hour in, some of my friends arrived and others slowly started trickling in. About an hour into the set, a big wave of people suddenly showed up, a lot of them classmates from high school who I didn’t even know were planning on coming. It got pretty packed and I started transitioning into what I knew best: pumping it up to 150+ bpm and blasting some jungle and DnB. The crowd was vibing so hard, I couldn’t believe it. I was feeding off their energy, dropping into deeper and deeper cuts. I played “Supersonic (My Existence)” and the crowd went ballistic just like they did at Four Tet. It was amazing.

Despite the external validation and momentum I was gaining, I was still struggling a lot mentally and interpersonally. At home I was wallowing, ruminating on regret. I spent most of my time in bed, and I got sick shortly after Thanksgiving which didn’t help. One of the main reasons I wanted to go home was to go out to the cabin and spend some extended time there to recharge, but getting sick was another unexpected curveball that I had to accept. 

It wasn’t until someone important to me gave me the book The Four Agreements that I started to reframe my thinking. The weekend after Thanksgiving I was finally able to go back out to the cabin. It was a nice, sunny day. I set up a hammock and read it as the sun set. It was the perfect setting for taking in the book’s philosophy. For those who don’t know, The Four Agreements is a self-help-y book written by a Mexican physician who became overwhelmed with the stressors of modern life and turned towards teachings from his parents who are indigenous healers. I appreciated that the book isn’t fully prescriptive, but presented as tenets of ancient knowledge; it resonated with me much more deeply. The Four Agreements are:

Be Impeccable with your word.

Don’t take anything personally.

Don’t make assumptions.

Always do your best.

I realized how much I was struggling, especially with the second and third agreements. Since reading the book (and going to regular therapy), it’s been a lot easier for me to reframe my thoughts and accept things the way they are. 

That night out at the cabin, I set up my controller and mixed on the front porch. It was a nice night; not too cold with a slight drizzle. We had Christmas lights up which provided a soft glow. I played my own emo liquid DnB set, mixing in indie tracks like new Snail Mail and Wet with the liquid DnB I started the month off with. I was accepting life for what it is, and accepting the change, loss, and differences in expectations that come with it. It was healing; the book, the music, the cabin, the outdoors, it was all medicine; there was a fluidity to it all that provided a respite from the erratic roller coaster energy that seemed to dictate the entirety of 2021 up until that point. That flow, the ease of it all, was exactly what I had been seeking.

[yabai-erasure]

2022 kpop wrap up

bro this year did not let up for a second

quick thank yous

wjsn chocome super yuppers thank you for making camp kpop again

fromis_9 dm was the first choreography i learned this year thanks for letting me be a sexy queen for a bit

taeyeon INVU music video was so aesthetically in sync with endwalker that it blew my tiny weed addled brain

pixy villain goth bitches rise up

twice celebrate yeah i cried when they renewed ok

dance class staples

viviz bop bop i didnt watch queendom2

ive love dive you already know

aespa illusion sluuuurp

b side spotlight

rocket punch in my world

red velvet bamboleo

purple kiss singles were ass but their bsides were gold

twice basics fuuuuck yeah dude

itzy racer vocal fry queens

wjsn done dont disband dont disband dont disband

fav post-izone project

i cant even tell you how much joy i get out of seeing most of the izone girlies thriving. yena, yuri, chaeyeon, and eunbi all made fantastic solo songs, wonyoung, yujin, chaewon, and sakura are tearing it up in ive and le sserafim respectively, and I even got peeks of nako and hitomi throughout the year. like, my tiny heart cant take it.

i loved eunbi in izone, i loved her when i watched produce 48 this year, and as a soloist in 2022 she absolutely impressed me. her icy voice and house instrumentals are just what i need and i thoroughly loved glitch and underwater

fav songs i changed my mind about

okay O.O literally had me by the throat until the let me be your super heroooo and then i lost interest. I think I had hit superhero mental saturation from existing on the internet for the last five years and hearing the word superhero was somehow the last straw & i was just like fuck this song. I was wrong dude. several months later, my bedtime edibles would hit and I'd be typing O.O into the youtube search bar multiple nights a week.

also

billlie gingaminga yo

I reluctantly got into boy groups this year

I got into kpop back in 2013 because the goth bar near me had a monthly kpop night. the bartenders were mean as fuck but made unbelievably strong drinks, and they would project the music videos onto a huge screen and my roommate and I would get sloshed and try to twerk to HyunA. It was a simple and beautiful time. but. the DJ who ran the event was such an unabashed EXO stan and we would spend half of the night drunkenly talking shit about her not playing enough girl group songs.

it makes zero sense for me to still have this chip on my shoulder, especially in a year where pretty much everyone agrees that girl groups dominated the industry, but I've been admittedly ignoring boy groups for the majority of my time as a kpop fan and it just started to feel unfair.

drag me for this but Blessed-Cursed got its claws into my brain. I was sick of not knowing what naega byeonhae meant. I liked doing the silly anime pose choreo during Thunderous. I'm like, vaguely aware of who the members of Seventeen are. wow. truly in my growth era. dont ask me about nct tho

who i'm watching for 2023

Fifty Fifty had a no-skip debut mini. higher is fantastic dizzying bubblegum pop, log in is?? cyber girl crush?? lovin me is smooth af, this mini is just so polished for a debut

CSR ohhh myyyy goddd are they filling such a sorely needed niche in kpop right now. I couldn't get into pop? pop the fuzzy effect sounded vaguely horror movie to me, but loveticon is wonderful I can't wait to see what they do next.

period

basically nothing i can say about these tracks, if you listen to them you feel the impact

le sserafim antifragile

ive after like

newjeans ditto

i hope 2023 is better for yall

kep1er good luck truly

itzy blink twice if you need help burying jyps body

loona unionize

closing thoughts

I got to see Twice play in new york and that was sick. thats all

[mrvlbimbo]

Could we get some angst like where either bimbo!reader and Eddie get into an argument and/or go on a break but they can’t stand being away from each other and do the whole confession and kiss in the rain cliche?

I FUXKING love this

I totally imagine them being like that meme where the couple is arguing but one is still sitting on the other’s lap.

It’s their anniversary but he has hellfire that night so he says she can come with him and they can go on a date after.

So she goes and she assumes her seat on his lap and she’s just happy to be there with him. She’s a little worried about it but she’s not mad.

But then time goes on and he’s kinda rude and he ignores her the whole time. So she starts to get grumpy, huffing and crossing her arms so he’ll console her.

He doesn’t seem to notice, making her even more upset. She’s glaring into the side of his head, desperately hoping he notices (she likes attention)

Finally he realized as he puts his arm around her shoulder, whispering something incoherent against her forehead. He seems annoyed.

She grumbles, pulling away from him and shaking her head. “Babe. Stop, you’re being stupid,” he hisses, instantly turning his attention back to the group.

Her heart drops at that word “stupid” so many other people had called her that but never him. She’s holding back tears for the rest of the session as he seemingly ignores her.

He feels terrible, heart breaking at the sad look on her face. Despite that, he couldn’t bring himself to look pussy-whipped infront of the club. So what? He’d apologize later and she’d forgive him easily. He’d seen her brush off far worse insults from far less important people.

But he didn’t account for the fact he was the most important person to her. And his words would do more than sting a little.

She was ready to go straight home and cry all night but she still had to go on a date later. She didn’t say another word to him, even as they loaded into his van. She stayed pressed against the cold window, keeping as far away from him as possible. “Take me home, please,” she whimpered, her voice tired and broken.

“Calm down. We’re going to dinner, remember?” He sighed, reaching over to pat her thigh.

She smacked his hand, turning her head just to glare at him for a second. “No. I wanna go home.”

“I’m not mad about tonight. Let’s just enjoy our date.” She almost laughed at that. Mad? What right did he have to be mad?

“Let me out of the car.” He rolls his eyes, effectively ignoring her demands. “NOW. EDDIE.”

He reluctantly pulled over, letting her out of the car so she could pace around angrily. Her heels clicked on the abandoned road and she stumbled slightly, falling into his arms.

He stepped away and let her go as soon as he was sure she wasn’t going to fall over.

Then the rain started to pour, drenching them both and running her hair and makeup. And she had just been thinking things couldn’t get any worse.

One bad thing after another all day she finally broke, angry tears streaming down her face and clouding her vision.

“Fuck. Baby, c’mere.” He pulled her back into his arms, crushing her against his chest in a way he knew she loved. Usually.

“Stop. Stop it,” she whined, pushing against his chest.

“I know. I know. Fuck I messed up so bad. I love you, I love you so much.” Giving her little kisses on the forehead as she glared up at him, her lips twitching up just the slightest.

“No you don’t.” She pouted, shaking her head sadly. That hit him. How could she ever feel even for a second like he didn’t love her? He loved her with everything he had, he felt terrible for not showing her that.

“Baby. Of course I love you. I love you more than anything.”

“Y-you wouldn’t even look at me.”

“Babe. Listen to me.” He cradled her wet cheeks in his hands, their faces so close together that their noses and lips were brushing. “I will never ever ever ever ignore you like that again. It was killing me to sit there without giving you some lovin. But I just didn’t want to- I don’t like the way people talk about our relationship. I didn’t want to put you infront of the club like that and have them say something rude.”

“I’m sorry...” now it was her turn to apologize, forgetting to be mad when she heard his fast rapid breaths. He was trying his best to hold it together and that hurt her more than anything he could have said.

“Hey-hey. None of that. This is all my fault. Lookit this, I made my girl cry and everything. What a shitty boyfriend I am.”

“Don’t say that,” she grumbled, finally relaxing into his arms.

“Look. I know I don’t deserve you. You’re so good, so perfect, so pretty, so kind, so lovely and just for me. I love you so much. I don’t deserve any of it. But I can’t live without you. You’re it for me, baby. You’re the love of my life.”

“Kiss me,” she murmured, tears washed away by the rain and a weak smile on her face.

“Yes ma’am”

And so they did the cliche couple thing of kissing in the rain, desperately grabbing at eachother and trying to chase away the idea of ever being apart.

Eddie x bimbo!reader masterlist