#but shes still like. a mom but not like a traditional mom. shes a butch lesbian mom figure who teaches you to fight is what im trying to say
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Butch! TEC Headcanons

Pete- Pearl
•I can either see her with the same shaved buzz cut or the most greasy oiliest chopped hair. No in between.
•Her older brothers are a mix of supportive where it’s her life and they don’t really gaf and a little bit of hesitation cause of family tradition and they don’t know how their parents will take it.
•her mother is understanding and still loves her. Her dad hates her style, thinking it’s some weird phase like her monsters and horror movies.
•wears binders and wife beaters if she not wearing baggy clothes. Her binders smell like dog water and body odor.
•she is no better than a man. Will have a hand on you in public, at home, at her house, at your house.

Jerry-Jenny
•showers regularly but just recycles the same three outfits. Has worn the same shirt for a week to bed cause she doesn’t see what the big deal was.
•can have the same haircut as Jerry or have a mix haircut between he-man and shera.
•can be feminine at times. I see her as a stem if anything. Can switch from butch to fem.
•not as openly perverted as the other three but still perverted. Has stolen panties from your room and used it to jack off.
•if you cosplay or dress up for renfair with her she is exctatic but also drenched the whole time. If you go to the tavern wench and try and down a beer, whether you down the whole thing or not she WANTS you.
•religious catholic household. And ASD woman who is also gay. It’s messy.

Josh-Jane
•still rocks an oily ass ponytail, not afraid to show her hairline to the world.
•her parents don’t know how to take it. Being Jewish then also being gay her father is disappointed but her mother is more worried of her safety. Her mother thinks she’s making herself a target for being harassed and knows she gets bullied by her weight already.
•since Jane doesn’t have a fragile masculinity but now fragile femininity she is more into girl neiches while also liking startrek and starwars. My little pony and monsterhigh dolls into the mix. (Her and pearl fein over monsterhigh)
•the lolcow of the group. Like if you treat her nicely she would be so suspicious and paranoid cause the club treats her like ass.
•she curly hair that would make the gods cry but she never fucking showers so you’ll never see it unless she’s forced to shower by her mom.
•collects perfumes from franchises to have the full collectors set but would smell like ass.

Bill-Beth
•she’s just Bill Dickey but with a shag cut.
•femcel who has definitely said “I’m not like other girls.” And has spat the eyes of makeup and lipstick brands.
•thinks men are scum of the earth but would treat a woman just a man would. Double standard asf too.
•says her strap game is unmeasurable but gets winded and tired after two minutes then you just ride her while she catches her breath while trying to talk dirty. “Yeah..just wait till I’m on top of you.. you dirty slut..” gasping for air each sentence.
•wears push up bras under graphic shirts and flannels. Icon shit
•a brat. If she doesn’t pipe on about how much of a top she is, she’s trying to prove it to the other club members as some social status.
#the eltingville club#the eltingville club x reader#pete dinunzio#josh levy#joshua aaron levy#jerry stokes#bill dickey#pete dinunzio x reader#bill dickey x reader
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Okay, straight Eddie Diaz, because - hear me out - trans woman Eddie Diaz.
Like it makes perfect sense in canon due to the fact that Eddie is repressed as hell, it can be about just sexuality, but I think adding in gender really adds to it. She does truly dream of having that traditional marriage with someone, she has just been casting herself in the wrong role, which makes it all the harder to figure out, because she is so sure that's what she wants, but it always feels wrong anyway.
It turns out, all the women she has dated felt wrong, because she wanted to be them not be with them. Plus, they never measured up as a parental figure, as a mother figure specifically, because Eddie wasn't comparing to what can be expected of an early stages potential step parent. Instead, she was comparing them to what she, Eddie, provides for Chris, and they could never be as good as a mom as her (but she didn't realize this).
((Also, Buck - bc yes, I am making this a little buddie - was able to fit into that step parent role, bc Eddie wasn't comparing him to herself, but let him organically grow into the role. Something Eddie doesn't realize until she unpacked a lot of stuff and realized her feelings for him aren't the platonic kind. She also realizes why she was so fuckign jealous of all his girlfriends, but always less bothered by his boyfriends.))
I feel like she'd be more masc (give me butch trans woman Eddie, please, fan artist out there, I'm on my little knees) and she struggles a lot with wanting to be a woman, but having 'masculine' interest and thus feeling like she can't be. Seeing Hen was both great for her and the cause of much confusion, bc she wanted what Hen had so bad, but also not entirely, because she isn't a lesbian and she had no clue what that meant when she first started working with the 118.
She has a hyper-masculine phase (mustache Eddie, why xp), really leaning into 'being a man' to run away from the feelings, because that is a mood. This isn't a great time for Eddie, because she does still like her masculine hobbies, as mentioned above, so it's confusing and she semi-gaslights herself into thinking she is imagining it. Until one day she shaves and is like, huh, I forgot how much I liked the clean shaven look and suddenly that triggers a whole set of revelations.
She keeps the short hair, but changes the shaping off it slightly so it softens her face more. She also is a jeans girly through and through, though comfy leggings definitely start making their way into the rotation after Maddie introduced her to them. Eddie does change the cut of her jeans slightly to be less tight at the crotch area, but she does like jeans that emphasize her butt, bc she has a great ass and that makes her feel good about herself. Overall, she isn't big on skirts, but wears dresses when there is an occasion.
Also, she has height dysphoria, which also upsets her, because all the heels look fun, she doesn't care that Hen claims they're the devil's shoes. ((Buck being taller makes Eddie so euphoric, before she realizes what is making her dysphoric exactly, she'd continuously be in his space, because he makes her feel a little shorter. When on dates, she sometimes can pull out heels and Buck will wear thicker soles so she can, sliding an arm around her waist and tucking her into his side so the dysphoria won't creep back in)).
She doesn't tell her parents at first, but she does tell her sisters, who are thrilled to have an all girls sibling squad now. They give her some of the heirloom jewelry they got, which Eddie missed out on, because she was still an egg at the time. She totally doesn't cry... Maybe a little.
Eddie is not a make up girl, however. She really tried to get into it, especially to cover the five-o'clock shadow, but it always looked weird and it isn't practical with her job. When they have a party, she'll put on some mascara and try with contour to add a little different shaping to her jaw and cheeks, but she never gets into it as much as she thought she would. She does not say no to getting manny paddies with Athena and May from time to time. Having nice nails is a great source of gender euphoria.
It was a little hard on Chris for Eddie to be mom too and Eddie had a whole crisis about what if this is repeating Kim, but in a different font and I am actually trying to replace Shannon? She has a lot of solo therapy and the two go to family therapy. Chris is never a dick about it, just a kid working through his trauma (don't be mean). When they have worked through it, Chris is her number one hype man, even though he's an awkward teen about it. His stumbling compliments are always her favorite and she carries them with her in her heart.
Anyway, just straight trans woman Eddie <3
#rr fanfic ideas#trans woman eddie diaz#trans eddie diaz#eddie diaz headcanon#9-1-1 headcanon#911 headcanons#9 1 1 headcanon#9-1-1#9 1 1#911#911 abc#9 1 1 on abc#buddie#buck x eddie#eddie diaz#eddie diaz x evan buckley#christopher diaz#hen wilson#evan buckley#911 show#9 1 1 buddie#9 1 1 abc#9 1 1 fandom#maddie buckley#buckley diaz family#athena grant#diaz family
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I'm Tired
For a long time I've said that I don't need a coming out. That I'm bi, but I won't ever date a woman (because I want a more traditional path out of life), so accepting that is just for me. I came out to my mom and my sister. My mom was great, for a conservative woman of her age... my sister said "No you're not" and not only blamed my time attending a woman's college (did not make me gay. In fact I hardly knew what gay people were at that time in my life) but also said that gay people don't exist. All lesbians are just either traumatized or predatory. I dropped the subject, and didn't argue. So I went back into my closet, though I told myself that I wasn't, and stayed there. I didn't realize that a glass closet is still a closet, and it's not much space in which to make a life. I have now been "out," staring through the walls of my glass closet, for many years. I have told myself that I don't envy the others dancing in the sunshine, that I want a husband, and kids born the ordinary way. A little while ago I bought a necklace from wal-mart, a little crystal butterfly that wasn't purposeful pride merch, it just happens to be pink, blue, and purple. I thought it was a bit silly, after all I don't need anything to proclaim my sexuality, I know it... but wow. I get it now guys! I get the appeal of the merch! It isn't obvious, kind of a "stealth" pride flag but it feels so good to wear it, especially since I can wear it around my sister without her knowing what it means. It takes the edge off when she says something insanely homophobic. I was at a Dollar Tree and they had Pride socks. I bought all of them. It felt amazing when the butch manning the counter lit up, talking excitedly about how she had already gotten those socks for herself and as gifts for her friends. I am 27 now; I know my own mind. I have dated only two men in my life, and slept with neither for purity culture/waiting for marriage/don't want to get pregnant out of wedlock reasons. I have also realized that having kids is not something that particularly appeals to me. I like kids, I wouldn't mind adopting, but I don't think I want to be pregnant. I don't even know if I would be a good parent with my mental issues. This removes the main reason I was really only looking at men. And also... I just want to date a woman. I want to possibly marry a woman. I have barely seen a single good m/f relationship in my entire life. I am getting sicker and sicker of listening to my sister's homophobia in silence (I have said things. You cannot argue with her. She is right and you are wrong. This is law) The glass walls are clear, but stiflingly tight. I want to break free. I told my mom, the only person I am actually, really out to, that my bisexuality isn't hypothetical anymore, that I think I might actually want to pursue a gay relationship. She took it... okay. I'm kind of worried that it's straining her acceptance to imagine me actually bringing a woman home. I'm 27 now. I know my own mind. God has been very good to me, guiding me and pulling me down the road to where I need to be, even when I resisted. He gave me the time I needed to get my life together and figure everything out. I am very grateful for all He has done, and I know that I just have to trust Him for the rest of the journey. I want to be the person He intended for me to be, and that means living as my whole self. I don't want to lose my family; they are all I have ever had, but it is their choice if they harden their hearts once they can't ignore the truth any longer. Anyway, I'm going to my first Pride event on Saturday! I don't know how it will go; I'm a little worried that a festival environment might not be great for my Autism/ADHD, but I don't know where else to find people, and I'm really excited!! I'm ready to leave my chrysalis and dance in the sun. Wish me luck!!! Happy Pride <3
#I'm ready to be the gay cousin lol#I have so much women classical art on my laptop#it's really getting absurd#college didn't turn me#blythe danner in 1776 (1972) did#happy pride 🌈#lgbtq
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need to hear more about is it serious? and pls sir i’ll take a girlfriend. posthaste
saints!!!!!! ok so!!!! both of these are just ideas so far. however ’hello sir i’ll take a girlfriend’ is literally my most specialest little guy in the world. im like too scared to start writing it because its that important to me. it came to me in a vision several months ago and sude wants to murder me daily for not having started it yet……
the title ’hello sir i’ll take a girlfriend’ is from a song called ”life time warranty” by cyberbully mom club which is THE butch mtf dyke remus lupin. to me. TO ME!!!!!!!!!!


butch dyke bookshop keeper remus lupin meets femme dyke sirius black. thats it. thats the fic. they will talk about gender and sexuality. black sisters (sirius and reg) angst, remus not always passing, them talking about it, sirius thinks remus is the sexiest woman she has ever seen in her entire life, explicit sex scenes but like. in a way where they’re figuring things out together. like the entire fic is just me exploring gender and sexuality and projecting onto lesbian wolfstar. specifically like dyke themes. like they’ll be having very heavy discussions about what gender means to them, what sexuality means to them, lesbianism, trans butch remus struggling with the concept of ”male privelige” while identifying as a woman but not being percieved as one, sirius being the dykiest dyke that ever dyked because shes rebelling against her family, while reg is more of a ”im just a lesbian” and she still wants a traditional wedding and struggling with still wanting to conform to societal expectations even though she’s not even allowed back home anymore, dyke throuple lilyrosekiller, dyke jily exes who were ”good” lesbians. a dog a house and only heterosexual friends. jamie and lils talking about how it hurt both of them to try to have a heterosexual relstionship even though they’re lesbians. lesbian jegulus. and MORE!!!!!!!!




also this is a post i made about lesbian lilyrosekiller from that fic:

and ”im just curious, is it serious” is literally just a super messy infidelity quillkiller fic that i want to make into a series……. they’re in uni and bella is engaged to rodolphus but shes sporadcally sleeping wih rita. thats it. just them being super messy………..
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🐖 iska pretty please?
putting this one behind a readmore again haha
send an oc + emoji (or order the WHOLE HOG)
✨- How did you come up with the OC’s name?
This one was out of my hands. I designed Iskandar Kiriyakuya originally by algorithmically trying to create my ideal waifu, two of the seeds involved there being Kyoko Kirigiri and Togami Byakuya from Danganronpa 1. We simply mashed their surnames together into Kiriyakuya. Iskandar came from Rider from Fate/Zero, somehow, probably because she's a cavalry rider and a warlord.
🌼 - How old are they? (Or approximate age range)
At the beginning of Isekai I believe I said she was 30.
🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?
She's got a couple of bitches she's left on the table due to being inept at dating and emotionally constipated. Her childhood crush, Baphira Kaneshiro is unhappily married to a merchant that is never home. She's gotten her ass beat by a pro wrestler, Hira Diamondclast. She's been given the run-around and got very close with a boat clown, Hayfa. She currently has gay little standoffs or something with over half of the women in the party. High noon shootout situation.
🍕 - What is their favorite food?
Iska famously doesn't really like food because of a long history of medical issues before she got her core installed. But it's basically a form of hotpot with a milky tea and beef based broth.
💼 - What do they do for a living?
She's a warlord, servant of the Meikugan Empire, babysitter to the children of prophecy, and a hesitant emissary of the Meikugan Quintessence.
🎹 - Do they have any hobbies?
She likes riding and caring for her axirin mount, Sareyn. She likes solving little puzzles as forceshaping exercises.
🎯 -What do they do best?
She's not the best in the world by any means but she's rather good at very fine manipulation of forces. Very precise telekinesis. She's also very good with animals.
🥊 - What do they love to do? What do they hate to do?
She loves tasks. Following orders. Being told what to do. Unless it's the Coinspinner, god of Fate, speaking. She also dislikes dealing with irritating people and is rather bad at doing so peacefully. She's also awful at sharing information about herself with people and being vulnerable in any way.
❤️ - What is one of your OC’s best memories?
After the fight with the Tangled Beast she woke up on the operating table, core newly implanted in her body, and even though she felt like complete shit physically speaking, she was surrounded by her family members and her mom nodded at her in approval and her father shook her hand in congratulation. Feridhun made her favorite soup.
✂️ - What is one of your OC’s worst memories?
When she got outed as gay to her mother. She thought in the moment it was Baphy that had done it (it was actually Baphy's shithead half-sibling) which made it sting worse. Her mom took that as a sign that despite Iskandar's childhood fragility it was time to take her to the warfront and beat some backbone into her, that she'd lost sight of her lot in life and role within the family.
🧊 - Is their current design the first one?
Pretty much. She's been slowly changing over the course of the campaign. There are different things I would have chosen to put in her design if I was making her specifically for Isekai as opposed to co-opting her though.
🍀 - What originally inspired the OC?
The whole waifu generation process. I shan't elaborate further.
🌂 - What genre do they belong in?
High fantasy, especially military/political fantasy. Her personality has had to adapt somewhat to match the more action/adventure oriented story though. She's not as smart, calculating, or patient as a traditional protagonist in the genre because of it.
💚 - What is your OC’s gender identity and sexuality?
Lesbian. She hasn't done much experimentation with gender but I feel like if she could she would get a kick out of being perceived as butch especially if she can do so while still keeping her long hair. Butch in like a Chinese warlord way. I dunno.
🙌 - How many sibling does your OC have?
None siblings.
🍎 - What is the OC’s relationship w/their parents like?
Bad! She was closer with her dad, sorta, when she was younger but he died while she was away at war. He never really saw her as more than just a fun plaything though. A child that lives in his house, not his daughter. Her mom has always been pretty frosty and resentful of her cringe child, constantly pushing her well past her various breaking points.
🧠 - What do you like most about the OC?
I like the tension between her being so fierce and strong and very visibly being damaged goods. All her current peers are leery of approaching her, she has all this presence, she's very scary, but she's also just so pathetic and pitable. She's so sucks.
✏️ - How often do you draw/write about the OC?
I roleplay her pretty often but I don't draw her much these days unless I'm either objectifying her or putting her in a humiliating outfit. I wrote a bit for her before the campaign started officially but haven't since.
💎 - Do you ever see yourself killing off the OC?
I could. Would need to be a really worthy death though. She's too cringe to be allowed to die yet.
💀 - Does your OC have any phobias?
Intimacy. Internalized homophobia. This isn't so much a phobia as an irrational dislike, but she loathes opulence and indulging in comforts on principle.
🍩 -Who is your OC’s arch-nemesis or rival?
Gohar Kaneshiro, the saultry little bitch that outed her is her main on-sight nemesis. She's got other enemies (she fuckin hates the Coinspinner. Tried to punch him once but it went down like Sun Wukong vs the Buddha) but they're all fleeting in the face of Gohar.
🎓 - How long have you had the OC?
Seems like I named her in September 2020 so about 3.5 years
🍥 - What age were you when you created the OC?
I would've been 20!
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This post is infuriating for how sexist and generally regressive OP is, and this at only 16 years old. It implies that masculine girls (which are called "girls" here) are by default wrong in their bodies, doomed to a life of medicalisation, not doing girlhood correctly, really just in fact boys, feeling miserable in their bodies, and all this just because they are leaning more masculine. I was all that. I am still all that. At the age of OP and because I was a tomboy in a world that once again proves we aren't allowed to wear whatever we want when clothes are just clothes, I developed anxiety, partial dysphoria, couldn't even imagine calling myself a "woman" in the future, felt like I was in a permanent state of sadness, puberty was all just making shit harder than ever all while I was hiding the fact I was crushing on other girls and felt like everyone could know and reveal my secret as if it was a disgusting thing to be.
So the reality is that while yes there are plenty of examples of that terribly sexist trope of "she was a tomboy but it was a phase, she grew out of it and is now a beautifully feminine woman in a straight marriage who's also a mom of three" what I'm actually now mourning just the same is the fact that as masc adult women the rebellious masc girls in new films grow into transboys (emphasis on the fact they're still teens) then transmen and yet again aren't given the chance to be just masc women. As if that wasn't an option. As if masculine girls were less numerous than gender conforming transmen. T wouldn't have saved "him". She is most likely to be a butch lesbian or masc bi woman. Even if straight she's probably not going to enter a traditional unbalanced dynamic where she's dominated and he's dominant. That woman can have short untameable hair and be just as free as she was when she was a kid. This post shows the deep lack of representation we as a society have about masc girls and women and how this impacts each and any of us, just differently depending on what other representations are shoved in our faces and presented as a "solution" to who we are.
I mourn for the rebellious masc 'girl' in every movie, who grow out of her manliness and becomes some asshole's domesticated wife. I mourn for her short untameable hair, which she was always running a hand through in those old photos. I see the way her fingers linger as she goes through the album with her young daughter, forcing a laugh at who she 'used' to be.
T would have saved him.
#chloé says stuff#internalized sexism#gnc#masc women#shame#patriarchy#genderists are harming women and gays#heteronormativity#sexism
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broke: shipping sumireko with the adult characters
woke: everyone has collectively adopted sumireko
#the same way a family adopts a stray cat that just wont go away#except its a human who just wont stop astral projecting in front of your house#reimu is the strict and highly anxious defacto mom who never asked to be a defacto mom whose child keeps walking off#she even took her shOPPING ONCE#rinnosuke is the dad thats out of the loop but is trying to impress the kids just so badly hes trying#marisa is the cool irresponsible aunt that encourages you to be gay and do crime#kasen is the responsible aunt whos still cool but in a responsible adult way#mokou i cant describe better than a rough but supportive big brother figure who wrestles with you except shes just butch#but shes still like. a mom but not like a traditional mom. shes a butch lesbian mom figure who teaches you to fight is what im trying to say#and you met her outside a dennys one night#keine is of course a mom by extension of this. and also because shes a mom friend in general like come on#idk what doremy and okina would be#touhou#dfhgjsdfh#ask to tag
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My aunt has made a tradition of embroidering Christmas stockings for everyone in the family a generation younger. So my first and second cousins and my siblings. I just saw the stockings on the table and saw siblings birth name. So I'm thinking of trying to fix it to their chosen name. It would be easy since sibling conveniently chose a 3 letter name.
I just hope my mom doesn't get too sentimental and won't let me. It's taken her a long time to accept the whole situation, but she has finally started using siblings chosen name when they're not around so that's progress.
Sibling still hasn't done a legal name change so here's one thing I could do that's simple and doesn't alienate them. Last thing I would want, I am far closer to younger sibling than my older sister even though we're closer in age. I imagine me being a butch lesbian and them bi and nonbinary has a lot to do with it. Plus I started treating them like a sibling and not a baby as soon as they were old enough to share interests with.
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12 days of Christmas Special 2
Henry Bowers x Plus size!reader (Sister)
Word Count: 1281 words
Warnings: none
Summary: How the Bowers siblings spend Christmas
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Christmas in the Bowers house had always been sort of strange.
Butch had never really cared much for the holidays, and often worked through Christmas eve because of that. He didn’t like Christmas, and since your mom had left, he hated it even more so.
Which left you and Henry alone for most holidays during your childhood, which necessarily wasn’t the worst thing for you.
It was no secret that your brother could be moody and mean on occasion but he wasn’t all bad. You never doubted that Henry loved you, and he proved that even more around the holidays.
Henry didn’t really care for Christmas.
All throughout his childhood, there was basically no Christmas but when you were born, that changed a little for him. He went back and forth on how he felt for you, but overall, he was pretty protective.
...And when it came to Christmas time, he wanted you to have more than he had as a kid.
He knew that Butch tended to ignore the holidays, even now, and wouldn’t do anything for you. Not only that, but if you were lucky, he would ignore the two of you when he’d had too much to drink or a hard day at work.
It had always been that way.
When the two of you were younger, Henry would go out of his way to try and play Santa. He would make you little crafts and toys and wrap them in newspaper so you’d have something under the tree.
However, he didn’t have to do that anymore. Now that the two of you were older, Christmas was easier on you both.
For starters, you didn’t believe in Santa Clause anymore, so he didn’t have to jump through hoops to keep that illusion alive for you. That was for the best, as Henry didn’t have energy to do that anymore.
...And it didn’t hurt that Henry had his own money now.
He didn’t have to make you flimsy Popsicle stick houses and paper dolls anymore. If he wanted too, Henry could go out and pick up whatever he wanted for you, and in that way, Christmas was better.
Though, your father still didn’t want to be a part of it. Butch refused to even get you a Christmas tree this year, because he didn’t want to look at it.
For him, it was nothing more than a nuisance.
Of course, Henry wasn’t going to make you go without a tree. It was a tradition that he knew you loved, something you’d been doing since you were children. You had always gone to the Derry tree lot and picked out a live tree.
It broke your heart to hear that you weren’t going to have one this year, so naturally, Henry took it upon himself to make it all better.
He started by having the boys come in so that they could get it all figured out. Patrick complained at first, but at the end of the day, he decided to just do as he was told without starting a fight with your brother.
While it was no secret that your father hated the holiday season, that didn’t stop the Bowers gang from putting together the perfect christmas for you.
It took a little bit of convincing i.e threatening on Henry’s part to get the boys to help him out but once he did, they all got to work trying to make it all work.
That meant buying ingredients for cookie dough and cutouts, shopping, anything to make your holiday the best that it could be.
...But first, there was one thing you needed.
“Oh hey, I didn’t know you guys would be here” you hummed, shocked that the guys were standing in your kitchen. It may not have been shocking normally, but this was a Saturday at ten in the morning.
You didn’t even know they got up this early.
“Go get dressed, we have plans today” Henry prompted, eyeing you incredulously from where he was standing. You were still wearing your pajamas and that wasn’t going to work for what he had planned today.
There was a strange tone in his voice, something you hadn’t been expecting, but you knew better than to ask questions. Whatever it was, you were sure it wouldn’t take too much time.
Henry would probably drop you off at the house a little later so he could hang out with the guys at the quarry. Even knowing that though, you went to get dressed just as he’d said and didn’t ask where you were going until the car stopped again.
The Trans Am jolted slightly as Belch pulled into a parking space, causing you to lean a little too much into Patrick’s side.
You were going to apologize to him, but before you could, you glanced out the window to see where you were. You didn’t want to get too excited but you couldn’t help yourself.
It was the Christmas tree lot.
You really didn’t think you’d be able to come here this year but there was no denying it. Every year, the Derry Christmas tree lot stayed the same, and it was perfect.
To you, Christmas wasn’t Christmas without it.
You couldn’t help the small gasp that left your lips when you realized where you were, your eyes snapping up to Henry’s face as if to clarify what you were assuming.
When he nodded, a small smile creeping onto his lips, it was over. You scrambled to get out of the car, urging Vic to get out as quickly as he could so that you could start looking through the aisles.
From where you were sitting, you couldn’t get there quick enough and didn’t even bother to wait for the boys to get out of the car before taking off.
On occasion, the boys would tease Henry for going so far for your benefit but you were his little sister and he had always done this for you.
It was second nature by now.
...And seeing how happy this made you, they understood why this had been so important to him.
“Christmas trees huh? Who knew” Patrick shrugged, watching the way you buzzed around happily, smelling the fresh fir and pine trees and feeling the needles beneath your fingers.
It was funny, of course, but more than anything, each of the four males were just enjoying the obvious happiness this was giving you.
When Henry told them that you liked going to pick out a Christmas tree every year, they never expected you to like it this much.
“We used to go with mom. I think that’s why she likes it so much” Henry shrugged, heading in your direction without much more than that, only to be followed by the rest of them.
You didn’t like talking about your mother, because she hadn’t come to see either of you in years, and there was no reason for you to care about her. However, there were certain things that just brought back those happy memories.
“You find one you like?” Henry asked, coming up behind you. You were looking at a pretty big fir tree, with big full leaves and a bright green color.
It was a nice one, one that you’d have to put in your bedroom to avoid the wrath of your father but a nice one nonetheless. Even if it was going to be a bitch to transport, if this was what you wanted, he’d figure it out.
“Yeah, isn’t this one pretty?” you hummed, gingerly feeling the needles. It was going to be difficult to get home, but at least you’d gotten one thing right.
It was pretty.
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✨Fem! Bucci Gang HCs✨
(slightly not sfw for 18+ characters) inspired by @askbuccigang ‘s genderbends
Bruna/ fem!Bruno:
soft butch vibes- not quite a traditional tank top butch but definitely more on the masc side
sometimes wears perfume, but mainly wears cologne
smells like jasmine, bergamot, and sandalwood
a serious capo who’s focused on work, but soft enough to take baths with you and brush your hair
a “you can handle yourself” type mom
if you act up at the store, she’ll give you the s t a r e
insert *she doesn’t know how to use a phone* jokes but take it an extra level: her childhood made her mature faster at a younger age, making her overprotective of her lovers and colleagues, also not able to enjoy young adult things
she tries of course. it’s like living your teen years in your 20s
tops abbachio, only bottoms sometimes
reluctant to bottom sometimes, she just wants her baby to feel good! will probably let you top if you give big enough puppy dog eyes
Gina Mista/ fem!Mista
sweaty and smelly b/c she’s athletic and b/c she doesn’t know sometimes, doesn’t care
with those abs OBVIOUSLY she works out like all the time
short nails, thick eyebrows, hairy arms, hairy legs- hairy wlw rights!!!!
happy trail
maybe that’s why she wears long sleeves and long pants in this hot Italian weather
she’s not quite curvy thicc but more on the toned thick and firm side with an ass that doesn’t quit 😖
narancia calls her gy-na to piss her off sometimes, lost a boombox the next day
bruh girl
manspreads on the bus
“baby, you’re my forever girl” 🥺😫💘
gives very top vibes especially with the gun pants thing but she’s a switch
Leona Abbacchio/ fem!abbacchio
early 2000s fashion girl but make it G O T H🕸🖤
like the low cut jeans and everything, chunky flip flops, tight t shirt, but she makes it all work
collects a lot of makeup but she forgets about it sometimes so it gets dusty and crumbly and that’s her biggest pet peeve besides fem!giorno
also collects magazines and records
butterfly ass tattoo
if she was a song, she’d be “I miss the misery” by halestorm
yes, she still has giant titties but she obviously wears something to prevent them from flying around while she’s fighting some mafia goon
femme pillow princess for Bruna but WILL top you
fem!Narancia
five feet tall
google doc full of memes
“on jah”
if she was a song, she’d be “coloring outside the lines” by misterwives
definitely has “hey look listen” energy
has stickers all over her nintendo switch
still has short, shaggy hair- it’s less maintenance
lots of hair in her face, not so much math in her brain
which wacky earrings will she wear today? who knows
like tupac, public enemy, coolio, snoop dog, and a couple catchy aerosmith songs
absolute lege with aerosmith
very lovable 💕💕
fem!fugo or miss ❤️pannacotta❤️
it took her a long time but she reads books for fun now instead of being expected to annotate for symbolism, motifs, literary devices, and whatnot
that bitch in class with the pens but it came from a fear of not having legible and organized notes b/c her parents would check them
word of the day calendar
has one? is one? you decide
collects pretty notebooks
you can’t see it but she has a swiss cheese hole shaved in the side of her head
tutors biweekly
lowkey scary when she gets mad, narancia unintentionally pushes her buttons
sweetie pie
fem!Giorno
personality wise she’s the same but she’s still the smartest fuckin jojo
soft 🤍- soft skin and hair too
gives off fawn/bunny vibes
flowers in your hair, flowers in her hair, there’s no flowers left on the dang ground!
the outfit is the same but it would probably be more like a women’s power suit so it’s a more comfy fit
orchestral quartet under the moonlight type dinners
has stacks on stacks on stacks of cash but doesn’t show it all the time
frog hunting and moving earthworms away from the sidewalk dates
#jjba#jojo#jojo no kimyou na bouken#bruno bucciarati#guido mista#leone abbacchio#narancia ghirga#pannacotta fugo#giorno giovanna#vento aureo#jjba part 5#genderbend
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🕒: What’s your current gender?
🧦: What’s a random xeno gender you experience?
🔔: How did you figure out you were genderfluid?
🕒: I don't feel like diving into that right now but over the past couple of days I've been feeling pretty close to demiboy.
🧦: Ooh I love this one :) There was one time when I all of sudden was like "My gender right now is a pile of colorful chaotic zig-zags, squiggles, and bent lines" thinking about it now it doesn't really make sense but then I was like "there is no question, that is my gender right now".
🔔: You know what I'm going to take the opportunity to tell my life's story because I feel like it.
From about the age of 8 (which is when I stopped trying to fit in) I pretty much full on rejected what a girl was supposed to be. From then on I was a tomboy, and embraced (traditional) masculine interests (sports, stem, hiking/camping) and started to hate pink, purple, dresses, and all things feminine. At 11 I went to my uncle's wedding and I wore a suit.
Almost a year and a half ago now I cut my hair supper short. I went from refusing to get a hair cut (because I'm one of those people who hates change) and having my hair in a long braid everyday, to a pixie cut. When I told my mom I wanted to cut my hair she asked me something along the lines of does this have anything to do with gender, and I honestly said no.
Then we went into quarantine and at some point I started to question everything. I would cycle though thoughts; what if I'm not a girl, eh it doesn't matter I should just wait it'll be easier to think about this when I'm older, maybe I'm nonbinary, but what nonbinary, nope I'm cis what was I thinking, maybe I just don't like stereotypes and want to be a tomboy/butch. It was a really awful cycle and left me question myself constantly.
Finally one day a month or two ago I decided to sit down and do something about it. I got onto gender wiki and started looking for terms that felt right. I collected several similar terms that day. A few days latter I came back and looked again and was like wait what his completely other term feels right.
After a week or so more of looking into it and paying attention to my gender I settled on genderfluid. I still go through the cycle just less extreme, and I'm working on it.
#confused gender anon I'm going to answer your ask next and I'm going to give you a different answer#also my nickname for you is now confused gender anon (let me know if you really don't like it)#genderfluid information day#gfid#I've got a couple more of these still#ask#thanks for the ask!#thank you#thank you so much
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Hi! Wondering if anyone has queer books, movies, tv, etc recommendations? Looking for educational resources to understand myself a little better, and just general queer representation for my little baby queer heart <3 sending you so much love, thank you for pouring into others as much as you do!
I am DELIGHTED that my queer energy comes through my mostly anonymous blog, so thank you very much for this!
I have a degree in media, specifically television, so I have a lot of thoughts about this. First I’d like to say that it is completely okay to interact with “problematic” media. There’s a lot of focus these days on what representation is the “best”, but I don’t find that a good parameter to judge. Most of my favorite queer content is on the older side, and these works tend to contain outdated concepts or aspects of their time of origin. We don’t have to fully agree with the creators or the themes to enjoy the media, it’s okay. We seek out media to see something other than what is already inside us, if we only absorb solely what we deem to be “right” then our options at understanding what came before are severely limited.
These are by no means perfect representations, these are just my personal favorite books and movies that I always return to!
Books:
- Left Hand Of Darkness (1969) - controversial to include this, but this scifi novel documents a culture that exists beyond gender and it transformed the way I though about gender in our world. It is not traditional queer representation but I think it’s cathartic to read as someone who exists outside the binary.
- Ruby Fruit Jungle (1973) - my mom read this in the 70′s when it came out and made sure I had a copy at the same age. This book changed my life. It’s about a small town lesbian who moves to nyc. The writing is snappy and bright. It made me ache in my soul to read about someone like me for the first time. It has elements of it’s time and some points that may wrinkle your nose now but it still hold up and I adore it. (fun fact: the author went on to co-write a series of mystery novels with her cat)
- Stone Butch Blues (1993) - hard to find physical copies, but pdfs are out there for free! It documents queer rights and communist activist Leslie Feinberg’s life as a gender nonconforming dyke in the 70′s. Can’t recommend highly enough for reading about gender exploration and presentation in addition to queer history.
- Fun Home (2006) - pretty quintessential graphic novel reading in addition to the authors famous comic strip Dykes To Watch Out For. An autobiography of a young woman grappling with her sexuality only to find out her deceased father had also struggled with his.
- Aristotle and Dante Discover The Secrets Of The Universe (2012) - a love story between two teenage best friends, it is one of the most beautiful YA romances I’ve ever read. Life changing.
Movies:
- Paris Is Burning (1990) - a documentary around the ballroom scene in NYC in the late 80s. This under represented, POC-lead subculture birthed tons of movements we see today and much of drag as we know it.
- The Watermelon Woman (1996) - an early Cheryl Dunye (on of my all time favorite directors) film, semi autobiographical, about the experience of a black lesbian woman. I absolutely love this movie. It’s slice of life-y and full of heart. Also shot BEAUTIFULLY.
- But I’m A Cheerleader (1999) - a cheerleader realizes she’s a lesbian and gets sent to conversion camp where she falls in love. A stylized dark comedy from the 90s, created by and intended for a queer audience, it’s visually striking and fairly light hearted given the subject matter!
- The Way He Looks (2010/2014) - there is a full movie of this, but the earlier short film is what stuck with me. Set in brazil, a blind teenager befriends and then falls for his new classmate. A very sweet film.
- Moonlight (2016) - follows the life of a gay black boy as he grows. Perhaps the MOST significant movie on this list, we wept in theaters to see a gentle and beautiful representation of black men in love. Important viewing for absolutely everyone. It is also a stunning, visually striking masterpiece. Cannot recommend highly enough!!!!!
- BPM (2017) - about the 90′s AIDs movement in france, will make you cry. It’s all about the power of queer revolution.
- Can You Ever Forgive Me? (2018) - idk how this is as far as representation goes, but its hands down a favorite of mine. Based on a true story, it focuses largely on a lesbian woman and her gay friend in the 90s pulling off a big con. It’s charming and dickish and i am quite fond of it.
- Portrait of A Lady On Fire (2019) - want several hours of unbridled wlw yearning? this is the one for you. absolutely a piece of high art. I saw this on a first date and we were so emotional afterwards we went on a 5 hour walk.
Thank you for letting me monologue! If you read/watch any of these let me know, if you’d like! Feel free to add more y’all!
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that’s such a good explanation and thought provoking and it really does make me think about this one time during the ~3 years of high school when i wasn’t out yet but had (mostly) come to terms with the fact that i’m a lesbian and while my fashion sense has shifted so much easier her my life and my interests are diverse just like every other human person, i do suppose if someone who believed in the dichotomy saw me would call me and my secret(ish) gf at the time both “femme” and i almost rammed down the closet door to correct my mom when she said to me that “girl looking lesbians date boy looking lesbians” and i, who was a girl looking lesbian dating a girl looking lesbian w/o her knowing, was cautiously like, “that’s not really true” and my mom gave me a condescending smile and said, “i have two lesbian friends, i think i know better than you do.” like i stg i almost karate kicked down the closet door just to make her understand how absurd her comment was but my teenage fear was stronger than my teenage anger, sadly. my mom still does believe that and seems to always ask whenever i am dating or have a gf why i don’t date butch women only and like… idk why did you marry a 90’s grunge band rockerboy then try to shove him into sweatervests because you think the ideal man is ken from barbie? oh is that an inappropriate question?
like sure people have certain fashion tastes and i definitely have certain features and senses of style i’m attracted to but the cookie cutter idea of butch and femme is so strange to me. i’m sure some lesbians are really into the traditional femme fashion style and long hair and painted nails and some are really into a tattooed stud who wears men’s clothes and drives a truck but it’s such a weird heteronormative thing to assume lesbian and gay relationships/attraction are solely about butch/femme or bear/twink. i definitely have always liked jock girls or goth girls and i love curly hair and dark eyes and muscular arms but that isn’t a lesbian thing. that’s a human thing.
Butch and Femme identities circa 1998 from My Gender Workbook
There's maybe two or three of these that are relatable, funny, and harmless.
The rest are disturbing.
Is this the butch/femme culture we're supposed to be preserving? Or is this specific moment in butch/femme history the one we're supposed to ignore?
I guess we could ignore this entire 90s decade of butch/femme culture because it's not palatable. We could look back to the 80s as the butch/femme ideal. But then we'd have to pretend there's no continuity between 80s butch/femme scenes and 90s butch/femme nonsense. And there's definitely continuity. And there's continuity from the 1990s to the 2000s, the 2000s to the 2010s, and the 2010s to today.
It's time we acknowledge the role butch/femme gender frameworks had in promoting queer and gender ideology. That's a huge part of our history and we can't pretend like it didn't happen.
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A bit of lesbian/queer representation in history:
This is a collection of newspaper columns by Barbro Alving, published in 1953 in Sweden. Her pen name was Käringen mot strömmen ("the old lady against the stream," after an old folk tale), and the title of the book is "Hemmakväll" = evening at home.
While Barbro wrote under a pen name (two, actually, the other one was "Bang", which she used for serious articles) she wasn't anonymous, people knew who she was. That's her in the blue chair. The woman sewing is her life partner, Loyse Sjöcrona, nicknamed "Viran" in the columns, and the younger woman is her daughter Ruffa. The dog is called Bongo, and they also had a housekeeper named Signe Andersson (not pictured).
The exact nature of Barbro's and Loyse's relationship is debatable – Ruffa has later claimed that it started out sexual, but was platonic by the time she was born. On one hand, she ought to know. On the other, don't we all shy away from the thought of our parents having sex? *g*
Either way, they lived together for 47 years, starting when Ruffa was two, and Barbro was as openly a butch wlw as anyone could be in 1953.
And while there's a bit of angsting in her teen diaries ("God has no right to make me like this, half man, half woman") she seems remarkably secure in her identity later on – and her audience were fine with it. Just as they accepted her as an unmarried mom (after a hookup in 1938), they accepted the unusual family. And the columns, cosy little stories of everyday life, are full of stories about "Viran".
In this particular collection, she even complains that the housing politics doesn't take into account families such as hers, and that a bunch of people might need to live together without being a traditional nuclear family.
"We are two working women and a schoolgirl and a housekeeper and a dog. It is, humanly speaking, a very vital family formation. I can't do without the child; without her I can't imagine my existance. The child can't do without Viran; without her she would have been lost at sea (because mother is literally travelling at sea and on trains). Viran with her professional work can't do without the housekeeper; without her she would overexert herself and become a beautiful corpse. And none of us can do without the little dog, because he's so sweet."
It's easy to think it was all doom and gloom in the past, partly because of the laws (homosexuality was still listed as a mental illness at that point) but also because of media. But there were also little pockets of love like this one.
(Note 1: Barbro's work as a serious reporter with the pen name "Bang" is remarkable and includes such things as reporting from the Spanish civil war while six months pregnant, but that's for some other time.)
(Note 2: If you wonder about the name "Ruffa", it started out as a baby nickname, which in turn started out as the hypothetical name of the third head of a two-headed tortoise, as imagined by Barbro and a friend one drunken night in their youth. The name was never meant to get stuck, but Ruffa kept using it all her life, even professionally.)
#barbro alving#loyse sjöcrona#ruffa alving-olin#bang#käringen mot strömmen#lgbtq+#wlw#lesbian#bisexual#queer#as always it's hard to label historical people :)#swedish history#sweden
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On the Death of Sirius Black and Literary Gay Bashing in Harry Potter
In 2003, I was ten, straight, and positively obsessed with Hermione Granger.
If those last two things sound a little contradictory, it’s because they were. I do not mean I was “obsessed” in the sense that I wanted to dress up like her for Halloween, I mean “obsessed” in the sense that I literally blushed anytime my mom read her name aloud to my sister and I.
Queer. I was queer. I just didn’t know it yet.
Thus, I didn’t notice the Sirius/Remus romantic subtext as a child, drinking hot chocolate propped against my sister’s knees and listening enraptured as my mom read to us from the most recently released Harry Potter book. When Order of the Phoenix came out, I was far more interested in Angsty Harry™ and the evils of Delores Umbridge, and when Sirius died, I was not even all that upset. I didn’t really like him all that much, knew even at that age that he embodied too many of the stereotypically “masculine” traits I had already grown to hate with his pride and brooding and emotional immaturity. I didn’t much care, much less recognize that JK Rowling had done something rather unforgiveable.
But others did.
Seventeen years later, I get it.
By 2003, many older, wiser readers had long since clocked the queer subtext between Sirius and Remus. And, when I picked up the books earlier this year to re-read them for the first time since they were read to me as a child, I saw it too. (Notably, this was prior to JKR’s most recent round of blazing transphobia, after which I stopped reading.) And, okay, yes, I am the type of queer who reads queerness into many things. But y’all, I really didn’t have to try all that hard this time. If I were reading these books for the first time in the context of 2020, I would assume Remus and Sirius were canonically a couple, and JKR just wasn’t bashing us over the head with clear evidence of it. She doesn’t do that most of the time anyway. By Order of the Phoenix, in my opinion, the evidence (as movie Dumbledore says so awkwardly) is incontrovertible. The living together? The joint Christmas present? The “Sirius, sit down” scene early in the book? The confirmed HIV/AIDS metaphor, IN THE 90S?? THEY’RE FUCKING GAY TOGETHER.
And here’s the thing, (and I have no proof of this, so you’re just going to have to roll with it): I think it’s pretty clear that JKR became more conservative as time progressed. Money tends to do that to people, conveniently. What started as a series about the power young people hold to defeat evil and fight injustice eventually devolved into a flaccid epilogue where heterosexual nuclear families abounded and there were (still) no visibly queer characters in sight.
By the time the final book came out, I was a full-fledged teenager, and I, too, had abandoned fantasies of fighting evil and injustice for fantasies of settling down with “my perfect man” (L. O. L.) So, I get it. I get that priorities change for young people. But for adults, especially those recently drunk on the power of infinite amounts of money and fame? Nah. JKR knew what she was doing. JKR laid all the groundwork for a possible relationship between Remus and Sirius and then changed her mind. Or was told to change her mind. Or was forced to change her mind.
I have A Lot Of Feelings™ about Tonks and Remus’s relationship (most of which are about the way their canonical relationship plays into a lot of really awful tropes about disabled people which, no matter how you read him, Remus is). And I have a lot of feelings about Sirius Black as a character. I have a lot of feelings about Dumbledore, some related to his posthumous outing and some not. And, like most of us now, I have a lot of feelings about the entire franchise as a whole. But here’s what I know: It doesn’t actually matter, because JKR didn’t just change the explicit relationship dynamics between Sirius and Remus, she quite literally killed any chances of queer romance.
And she didn’t just kill Sirius. She killed Remus, too. And Tonks (who is a genderqueer butch and I will die on that hill). And Dumbledore. And the cute, squeaky house elf with a love for clothes and an obsession with Harry. And the young Gryffindor boy who followed Harry around, constantly asking for photos and autographs. And – you know what? Fuck it. – the person who lived INSIDE ANOTHER MAN’S BODY before returning to his bodily form, during which time he relied heavily on his male servant who cut off a literal body part to restore his master.
Am I reading too much queer subtext into each of these characters? Maybe. But, as this lovely article states, “close reading is queer culture, always has been.” And I can’t help but notice that the vast majority of the characters JKR didn’t kill off are, well, pretty fucking straight. (Drarry shippers, feel free to come at me. I’m sure there’s plenty of queer subtext there, too). They’re, for the most part, characters with a clear canonical history of heterosexual romance, as if only those with a possible future of a heterosexual, nuclear family are worthy of survival.
And I just don’t think this was an accident. I think it was the intentional plan of someone who started to feel like the world of inclusion she’d created was being read as far too inclusive.
To call this “literary gay bashing” is a pretty serious accusation with a pretty serious use of a very loaded term. But the thing is, I think we too often let people like JKR off the hook without recognizing what her words – both literary and non-literary – have done and can do. We too often dismiss it with statements like, “she’s entitled to her opinion”. Gay bashing is the intentional abuse or assault of someone perceived to be a member of the LGBTQIA2+ community, physically or verbally, that often results in lasting harm or death. And I use this term to describe JKR’s work particularly because it is sensationalizing, because it calls violence what it is: violence. Because, sure, she’s as entitled to her opinion as anyone else. But the second you create a world where anyone, especially children, are going to see themselves, going to feel safe, your “opinion” better do as little violence as possible.
When I saw the first Harry Potter movie, back in 2001, I refused to discuss it for months. I was furious. At the time, I couldn’t quite pinpoint why, but I now realize that I was heartbroken that Hermione Granger didn’t look like me. When JKR described a girl with wild, brown curly hair, I saw me. I saw my hair. And so, as children tend to do, I saw the rest of me, too. I saw tanned skin and dark brown eyes and full lips and high cheekbones (the ones people always told me made me look “Indian”, which I only partially am). I saw the quiet confidence that develops when you’re the brownest kid in your school, ready to strike but only when provoked. The pale, arrogant, racially unambiguous Hermione Granger I saw on the screen made me feel dirty, cast off, unworthy of representation. The self-hatred I felt when White Hermione Granger entered the film alongside White Harry Potter and White Ron Weasley and White Everyone Else was a kind of violence.
And when JKR killed off all of her queer-read characters, she took that violence to another level. Because they were there, we saw them, we did not imagine the romantic undertones between Remus and Sirius, or the way that a shape-shifting young woman with short, spiky hair reads an awful lot like a person uninterested in traditional gender. We saw ourselves in the most beloved franchise of all time. And then, she took away those possibilities, and she took away those characters.
And you know what? People die because they can’t see themselves in media. People die because that’s what they’ve watched everyone like them do on screen and in books. It’s not harmless, and it’s not victimless, and it’s violent.
There’s only one solution to literary gay bashing: To Bash Back. We can and do write ourselves into the stories, into the world, and refuse to settle for explanations that gaslight us into thinking we imagined things that were never there, or ask us to settle for tiny crumbs of useless representation.
I intended to finish my most recent story, “Come Healing”, with an ambiguous ending that left the possibility of Sirius’s death open to reader interpretation. But then, JKR kept going, and talking, and kept creating violence, and I got mad. And so, like so many queers before me, I rewrote the story and changed the ending, and created love and security and peace and life where the canonical author had created hopelessness and death. And in the world we live in right now, that is radical. It is bashing back.
It’s tiny, but it’s something. Every time we write a happy ending for a queer character, we create the possibilities of happy endings for queer people everywhere. And no one – no matter how hard she may try – can take that away.
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hazel hcs!! all the hazel hcs!!!
SHE!!!! I live her she’s baby
Ok I haven’t reread Kane chronicles yet but Sadie x Hazel is where it’s at no I will not elaborate
She’s not a great bake or cook she’s not like terrible and can follow a recipe well enough as long as she’s not distracted but she’s not good either. Her cooking w Nico is really more her dancing around the kitchen w him while standing on his feet and eating raw dough
She’s not really into makeup tbh and I think when she gets older she’ll identify as Butch she has a lot of issues w how she views womanhood as so many people’s definition of womanhood doesn’t include her
After coming back from the dead she has attacks of dizziness and fatigue and is a part time wheelchair user (Leo tricked it out)
She also uses wrist braces due to the damage and strain moving sm earth caused her
Traditional therapy doesn’t work for her by itself so Hades/Pluto enrolled her and Nico in different non traditional therapy units like animal therapy, art, writing, and music therapy (the latter they enjoyed the most together)
She loves jazz, blues, old rock, gospel, country, she loves music but nothing is funnier than lil Hazel rocking out to heavy metal while cleaning the stables or something
Despite iding as Butch later on she never cuts her hair as she finds her fro more empowering than any haircut could be personally
She does let Nico paint her nails she hates the feeling the texture of chipped nail polish tho and always removes it that day
She’s a very good short story writer there’s something simple and sweet about her writing, she’s very good at poetry too
She likes to draw she does not have the patience to paint but she is learning
She cannot sew knit any of it everyone tried to teach her but she’d rather die than actually sit still and do it so she makes Nico mend her clothes (she asks and he’s physically incapable of saying no)
She grows up to be a veterinarian!! I don’t know if she marries or anything she’s thirteen but given her complex relationship with her mom and womanhood I don’t think she’d ever have kids I think she’d be a very good Aunt tho
She likes to read even if it takes her forever and once she reads a book she likes she always reads everything by that author before moving on
She’s still learning to fight and she’s powerful but lacks finesse and technique esp in hand to hand and other weapon fighting she’s a much better mage but man does she make up for it in commitment and fighting dirty hand to hand? She fights to win she is scrappy Nico teaches her a lot of Underhanded tricks they have to be they’re tiny
She is tiny she literally never gets any taller she stoped growing at 5’-5’2 and she’s valid!
She works very hard to pick up technology and is a very skilled photographer!!
She’s claustrophobic and scared of the dark so Nico built her a dresser so she wouldn’t have to use a closet and there’s a drawer unit under her bed and under any staircase in any house she’s in. She knows how dangerous the shadows can be
She has a complicated relationship w religion esp due to the nuns ⚠️ abuse but she eventually starts going to church again and she finds it a very healing process (I can def see her converting to Judaism or Islam too as you can find a community and healing in any major and frankly almost all religions)
She’s colorblind as underworld kids see in the dark and therefore their eyes are different therefore they see a different range of colors therefore she’s a colorblind legend
She’s gay she actually ends up having a p good relationship w Hades as Nico already did all the emotional labor for him and is holding a gun to his head, she can drive, she’s actually p good at math, her mind
She’s left handed and cannot use scissors she hates them she is physically incapable of cutting anything it is very trying for her
She likes pineapple on pizza
She’s from the south yes she’s anti grits they exist (she’s very pro sweet tea)
She has a very heavy accent and a def lisp that gets extremely prominent when she gets nervous
She has a tooth gap and she gets glasses when she’s older
Thus was off the top of my head!! I love her!! Baby she’s baby!!
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