#but she's almost crying bc i haven't started working on it and it goes out *checks notes* on tuesday of next week

[blacklegsanjiii]

Okay but- Acesan estabilished relatonship in Single Dad!Mihawk AU?

Like, the Strawhats meet the Cross Guild, and no one besides Sanji and Zoro (bc he stayed in Kuraigana for 2 years) knows Mihawk is Sanji's dad. Sabo and Ace are going to see Luffy and the crew like they hace been planning (Ace also wants to see his boyfriend), and finds the Strawhats witg the Cross Guild (they're... confused, to say the least).

Crocodile and Buggy intent to ignore them and decide to go their way, but Mihawk stays (almost everyone is kinda nervous about this), he's silent for some minutes until he says: "Good to see you Roronoa, and how are you, Sanji?". And as if everyone isn't already surprised by him knowing 'Hawkeye', Sanji replies with one: "I'm alright, dad".

And boom, there's chaos. The Strawhats are asking a thousand questions to Sanji and Ace is processing the fact that his boyfriend is DRACULE MIHAWK'S SON.

When everyone thinks everything calmed down, Luffy asks "Ace, don't you knew Sanji was Mihawk's son? You're his boyfriend"

Well, this isn't a information Dracule was expecting. (I just want to see, like, a 'family dinner' with Mihawk, Sanji and the ASL - Ace kinda nervous, of course)

I've been looking at this for a while trying to think of how to respond because Golden is vastly different. I'm definitely down for a Single Dad!Mihawk pt 2 Ace Lives AU. I haven't posted much about it or the concept of it at all so.

Sanji and Ace, who have been dating since Alabasta at least. Like at some point after the time skip and post Wano ASL all plan to meet on Karai Bari probably cuz Mihawk wants to test Zoro or something. Mihawk also just wants to actually see his son so ya know? Also he absolutely has not seen Sanji since he almost bisected Zoro.

So yeah Ace and Sabo show up as they're making landfall to Karai Bari and after a brief talk with the chairman and the lieutenants Buggy and Croc leave and Mihawk is just inspecting them all. He's probably trying to gauge their power when Zoro's like "where's 'Rona?"

And Mihawk explains she went back to Moria rather nonchalantly and then Zoro quickly catches Mihawk who nods and then looks to Sanji who is like "what?" And Mihawk is like "and how have you been?" And Sanji, whose brain to mouth filter is gone for the moment, "well I'm not starving on a rock with Zeff so I think I'm good dad"

Which

Okay.

Ace.EXE has stopped working. Robin is giggling madly at what Sanji said and Mihawk is pinching the bridge of his nose as Nami is yelling at Sanji and Chopper is crying and clinging to Sanji's leg. Zoro is gripping his sides laughing as everyone else is catching up while Ace is still blue screened. There is so much yelling. So much. Mihawk groans because he expected it, he did, but it's so much noisier than what he's used to. Even Buggy and Crocodile fighting every day should have made him used to the noise, and Perona and Roronoa before that, doesn't make it easier.

And then yeah, Luffy would say some dumb shit like which causes Ace, who has just started to come back around to blue screen again. He shouldn't be scared, he was the second division commander(or still is? First division maybe? Is he a strawhat? You decide!) He had a war fought over him specifically. He fought Germa to save his boyfriend! He's fought admirals and vice admirals and was raised by mountain bandits and Garp, he isn't scared but his boyfriend, Sanji, the love of his life and light of his life is Dracule Mihawk's son? Like what the actual fuck and then he watches Mihawk blink as Sanji lights a cigarette off of his own foot and Ace goes "I know! I go to prison and he disappears for two years and can do that and sky walk!"

Mihawk looks to Sanji and is like really? And Sanji points out that he told Mihawk he wanted to learn to fly when he was eleven after Marco flew him around Kuraigana as a reward when Marco came to check on the hand he broke training Sanji with swords. The hand that freaked Mihawk out because it healed in two weeks. And Chopper nods solemnly "youve always healed freakishly fast, after seeing Germa it makes sense"

And Luffy talks about the fact that Sanji broke his back and fought the next day and was fine. Sanji points out Zoro tried to cut off his feet on the island before that. Luffy says he stabbed himself in the face. Mihawk is looking at the monster trio before Koala and Nami say in tandem that when the brothers are together it is worse. Mihawk agrees to have dinner with them all and he's catching up with Jinbei who asks him why he didn't betray at Marineford and Mihawk gestures at the island which makes Sanji ask about Kuraigana. Turns out the Marines are trying to take it over.

"Trying" being the key word. Sanji and Zoro nod. Ace is like "why didn't you tell me?" And Sanji just gestures between him and Mihawk and asks if anyone would have believed him. Zoro says not before training under Mihawk. Jinbei says their humor is very similar. Then Ace asks about Marco and the broken hand which Sabo and Luffy are climbing Ace to hear about and Mihawk tells them about how he had just started training Sanji in haki then a few days later White Beard pulls Sanji out of hiding space and sent him into a PTSD attack. Sanji nods over the stove as he cooks and then tells the story of Mihawk breaking his hand.

Like when they're in town at the Doctor and he says it's fine? But it's not fine? It was broken in several places? Mihawk felt awful and Yoru screamed at him the entire time. And when Marco checked on him after Mihawk called in the favor cuz he scared the fuck out of his son and when Marco was checking him over he looked at Mihawk and double checked that he broke Sanji's hand, triple checked even. And then later he flew Sanji around and Marco laughed at Mihawk for how pale he went even though he's already translucent.

Sabo and Luffy are laughing, Ace really wants to join them but that's his boyfriend's dad. The Greatest Swordsman Alive is his boyfriend's dad. He's terrified. But as Sanji starts to get ready to serve Luffy is trapped by hands and Ace goes to help Sanji and Koala sits on Sabo to keep him distracted.

"Luffy will try to steal your food, he doesn't care, no matter how much I feed him or how often." Sanji says as he and Ace start setting plates in front of people.

"The exact opposite of you then." Mihawk says.

"Okay well, we don't need to get into that. Look at who I date and my captain, trust me. It's fine." Sanji assures the man who just eyes him. "Judge is alive, worry about that." And Luffy is whining so when they're all sat with plates Mihawk watches first hand how Luffy eats, Sabo eats like he's on a mission as well. Ace probably had manners beat into him by Deuce, Marco, and Makino so at least there's that. Mihawk expertly evades Luffy where as his crew and brothers and Koala will stab Luffy in the hands.

Sanji makes Zoro help with dishes since he trained for two years under and they're just gonna be washing dishes. Luffy asks what Sanji was like on Kuraigana and Mihawk answers. Leaves out most of the trauma healing they had to work on. Ace probably doesn't know the extent. Sanji's scars were faded by the time he was thirteen. And the Nami says she thought Sanji would be taller after seeing his birth family and Mihawk cocks a brow as Sanji tenses slightly.

"That is something Sanji will discuss if he so chooses. Bear in mind Luffy is the grandson of Garp and son of Dragon and he's not their height. He may still grow." Mihawk points out.

When dishes are done they filter out at some point it's just Ace and Mihawk. Luffy is probably already begging for food or dessert or something. Sabo is talking with Jinbei but keeping an eye on Ace and Mihawk.

"So are you going to give me a shovel talk or something?" Ace asks.

"I don't necessarily see the need." Mihawk answers. "Unless you want me to threaten you?"

"No, no, it's okay." Ace quickly assures a hand on his neck. "I just wish he told me about you."

"I'm sure you feel the same way about Germa as well." Mihawk says and Ace nods. "Never told me the name of his country, once in a great while would tell me something vague about his family. I couldn't risk having someone take him. It took a lot of work to get him here."

Ace nods again as they watch the crew and Mihawk chats idly with some members who aren't afraid to talk to him.

"So if I married Sanji-"

"Don't push your luck."

[bazthefirstborn]

Please, sub Ayaka with male reader, that is all I need in my life time. All the posts I see are fem reader

love this idea!!!! ayaka is the beloved <333

Sub Ayaka x Dom AMAB reader!

hc's and a mini fic at the end hehe hope this feeds the ayaka lovers

a/n: head over heels by tears for fears came on while I was writing this and I feel like that's appropriate

haven't written for real in a while, kind of rusty, hopefully this is ok anon <333

(notice the blue banner bc ayaya) very proud of that

tags: dom!male reader, lingerie, fingering, p in v, praise, porn with plot, yuckily romantic, like cavity rotting sweet smut bc I'm going soft

smut under the cut minors dni!!!

hc's first:

she deserves the absolute best

get her all sorts of little gifts

loves lingerie sets! especially the cute lacy ones

is very embarrassed constantly but especially when you finger her

turns beet red at the sight of you

the first time she sucks you off she's constantly looking at you like a lost puppy

praise praise praise!!!!! tell her how good she's doing and how perfect she is!!!!!

calling her pretty girl and tell her she's doing good and she could cum

lives for temperature play

will cry when you eat her out also

please go slow with her!

always has to hold your hand when you fuck <333

a super duper romantic at heart <3

fic time hehe

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Ayaka was always busy. Being part of the Yashiro Commission and having so much work to do, she barely has any time to spend with you.

So, when you get home, stressed from a busy day at work, all you want to do is spend the rare free weekend you both have with her.

So, when you walk in the door and she's not waiting for you, a lot goes through your head. Could she still be at work? Did she get more papers to fill out? More festival prep? Maybe she fell asleep at her desk?

"Ayaka? I'm home!"

you hear a quiet voice, but it's unmistakably her.

"I'm in here, my love..."

She sounded nervous, and you get confused. Why is she nervous? Did something happen? So, you walk through the bedroom door and...

You drop everything in your hands. Your eyes go wide. There's your Ayaka, standing next to your shared bed, in a beautiful baby blue lingerie set you'd bought her. She was clearly nervous, har arms crossed over her chest, biting her lip, and refusing to look at you.

You struggle to think of works, mind blank. Only able to take in the sight in front of you.

"Oh my god... Ayaka... you look.."

"How bad is it?"

She's staring at her feet now, refusing to look in your direction.

"Darling you look amazing!"

she's blushing furiously now.

"You... you think so?"

At a loss for words, the only thing you can do is rush over to her, pulling the flustered woman into a desperate kiss. She's surprised, eyes wide, before she closes them and kisses you back, placing her hands in your hair. It feels like hours before you part for air, both breathing heavy and significantly redder.

"What brought this on?" Were the first words that left your mouth, eyes roving over her body appreciatively, attempting to commit the sight before you to memory.

"Well I- You were so busy and... I wanted to give you a gift... It's stupid I know but-"

"Ayaka, my love, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me! There's nothing stupid about this. I love it, really!"

She looks like she could cry. Her shoulders drop. She's relieved, clearly, but there's something else swirling in her eyes now. She's... aroused?

"Th- thank you... I'm glad you... like it."

She's the one to grab you now, pulling you by the collar down to the bed, bringing you down on top of her. She hurriedly starts unbuttoning your shirt, before moving on to your pants and belt.

You're left in your boxers. She's staring now, almost drooling at your hardness. She looks like she's anticipating something.

"Do you want to take these off of me Darling?"

She's as red as a tomato now. When she reaches down, her hands are shaking. You take her hands in yours and guide them off.

Now, she clearly is drooling at you. You look down and see the damp spot in her panties getting darker, so you move to take them off when she says, "I- I already... prepped."

You look at her, thinking you must have heard her wrong, something, when she looks at you and moves them aside herself. There it is. A plug, nestled inside her.

Oh. Oh. Oh my God.

You're clearly at a loss when she puts your hand a little closer to where she needs it. "Please... I've been waiting nearly all day for this..."

Still not speaking, you slowly pull the plug out, eliciting a long moan out of her. "God, please, I need you so bad... Please, Love, please!"

Grinning now, you feel the need to tease her a bit.

"What is it that you need Ayaka? I need words."

Her lower lip is practically raw from how much she's bitten it. She looks away, but you grab her chin and force her to look up at you.

"I- I need you... I need your cock... Please- Please give it to me."

She's going to be the death of you.

You slip inside easily, but somehow, it's anything but easy to you. Just seeing her face, all blissed out, even before you've moved, could have you cumming like a teenager. Even more so when she pushes her ass into you, trying to get you deeper.

"Please... I need you!" She's whining desperately now, tears forming at her waterline.

"You have me."

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this was fun to write hopefully it isn't too rusty lol hope you enjoyed!!! I love getting asks plz send some in!!!!

[ipoxcky]

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spider-verse_headcanons

MILES MORALES:

whenever he gets nervous/embarrassed, he'll turn part of himself invisible, like maybe he'll stick his hand in his pocket and make it go invisible

SCENARIO: at the college admissions office, rio would tell the lady, "he makes sure that he recites his time tables every night so that he can't mess up on those challenging calculus problems!" and then he would do the invisible thing and go "stop, mami, she doesn't need to know that..."

he'll also put his head on the desk with his hood up and turn his face invisible in school if he's bored

he would probably also do that when he's crying

did the invisible hand thing with fake blood to prank ganke on april fools, ganke freaked out and almost called an ambulance before miles told him it's a prank

had a shoe-collecting phase at some point

aggressively tender headed bc his hair is always nappy from putting on the suit and his mom goes CRAZY with the comb

got little twists in his head when he was younger, but now he keeps it out. his mom will still twist his hair occasionally just for fun and he hates it

secret SoundCloud rapper whose account has like 20 followers and it's him just freestyling. the only person he told about the acc was uncle aaron who's his number one fan

PAVITR PRAHABKAR:

always pulls the "is it bc i'm _____?" card, ESPECIALLY with hobie just to mess with him and hobie would go "don't chat to me mate i don't even like the u.k. myself"

talks with his hands definitely

has seen every romance movie known to man and forces the others to watch them with him if they can

VERY facially expressive, throws the STANKIEST faces at people he doesn't like, yes he's good at reading others but it doesn't take much to read him

falls over when something shocks him bc it's like his little joke

laughs to himself a lot but doesn't tell anyone why

knows a bunch of horror stories on command, the first spiderpeople sleepover he freaked everyone out and miles couldn't sleep without the light on

just dance GOD

can raise both eyebrows individually

GWEN STACY:

had an agressive minecraft phase when she was 8 where she got the creeper hoodie and never took it off

definitely had a full pixie cut at some point

theater kid, definitely goes to watch broadway shows with her dad every so often, has met famous people because of it, her favorite one is probably dear evan hansen (idk i haven't seen it)

ben platt worshipper

drums on anything she can get her hands on

music blaster

tried electric guitar for a blip of a moment

morning person, stretches anywhere and everywhere

her favorite thing is DESTROYING pointe shoes because she can take out all her anger. this one time it got to a point where after her shoe destroying sesh she started crying because she didn't realize she had so much pain built up inside her

tutu hater

takes french and already knows a ton from ballet

wheeze laugher

pastel note taker

really pretty handwriting when she tries, chicken scratch when she doesn't

HOBIE BROWN:

surprisingly good american accent

knows a bunch of magic tricks to entertain kids experiencing homelessness on the street

headphones always on so they're absolutely demolished and holding on for dear life, too bothered to get a new pair

REALLY good with kids, does anything to help them preserve their childhood because he feels like his was gone too quickly

good whistler

beats everyone in board games

knows a lot about politics for someone who doesn't rlly like them

can judge people's character based on first glance

black nail polish never leaves his fingers

goes on really long rants about the state of the world

reads self help + philosophy books

hops the subway/metro thingy

lips always moisturized, but his hands and knees r lowkey ashy sometimes (i'm blk it's okay y'all)

doesn't drink soda

tries to be vegetarian because of the stuff he's seen (worked at a fast food restaurant and was grossed out about the stuff they were serving), that and he loves animals so

natural remedy kind of guy who would drink chlorophyll water

dreams of being a tattoo artist

uses sound effects of random things in his music, raps/sings his poetry about capitalism and stuff

keeps tin jars and cans

doesn't kill bugs and instead lets them go free

[thelivingend]

I gotchu. I'll give you a little list with genre so you don't get jumpscared by a scream. :) (note: this got out of hand so sorry! I hope this is what you're looking for! It's not a ton of pop punk but outside like, two bands, I don't listen to much pop punk these days. If you want some bands in that genre let me know! Also, straight-up punk is not something I'm listening to a lot right now, but I have a lot of recs if you're into that as well.)

Metal/metal adjacent:

Death is a Warm Blanket by Microwave (start with Leather Daddy, that song builds and builds it's SO sexy in a musical sense)

Periphery IV: HAIL SATAN by Periphery (proper metal, INSANE musicianship, stellar clean vox, lonnnng tracks)

Zig by Poppy (She might be more electronic, but whatever. Church Outfit gets me hype. Some people think she's overrated but she's FUN. Female rage.)

The last Sweet Pill album was great, you should check that out.

Chill indie stuff:

Little Oblivions by Julien Baker (if you haven't heard it yet you're missing out)

Folk punk:

Rhombithian by Sincere Engineer (female vox, she's SO cool. Start with Corn Dog Sonnet)

Now That's What I Call Music Vol. 420 - Mom Jeans/Prince Daddy & the Hyena/Pictures of Vernon (collaborative EP, favorite track on there is Thrashville 2/3 - if you like this, all three of those bands are great places to start in the genre)

Industrial/club:

On the Romance of Being - Desire Marea (strong South African influences and spans house to industrial to r&b to big band)

LESS IS MOOR by Zebra Katz (Coolest voice I've ever heard. Songs are wild. My favorite is IN IN IN, but the whole album is worth listening through.)

Single song: This S*it Will Fuck You Up - Combichrist (fuzzy, distorted, French, repetitive)

Goth:

Tocsin by Xmal Deutschland (the most-listened ones are my favorites, old band)

Jazz fusion:

Slow, Incremental Change - Fat Randy (SmarterChild is my favorite track. They have 71 monthly listeners; can't get more underground. They are CHALLENGING but they are professionals. They also sell pickles at shows.)

Two other great groups are Snarky Puppy and Sungazer. Any album works, but Lingus (SP) and Macchina (SG) are good tracks.

Pop+:

THE DEVIL'S ADVOCATE by Karson (they remind me of Caroline Polachek for some reason. Speaking of:)

Moth by Chairlift (the band is not together anymore, but it's Caroline on vocals. I quite like how it shows off her voice. Crying in Public is my favorite track.)

Let me know if you want more because this was lots of fun and I have other options!! If you want me to go really underground I can also do that :)

Well i do not think i am missing out. jokes aside THANK YOUUU i am not a pop punk person anyway so this is beautiful. i actually saw poppy live recently!! i almost left before her set bc i was there for one of the openers but i'm glad i stayed & i love when she leans in to the nu-metal thing (that spit/church dress single goes crazy) and i also looooove sweet pill and also saw them live recently!! and i added a bunch of these to my library tysm <3

[dnalkaline]

I don't even know why the fuck I try anymore.

It feels like everything important to me always feels the need to be ripped out in the worst way possible.

Every time I try saving up for a vacation or to go to an event I've always wanted to go to, I end up having some kind of freak accident or health issue that makes me pay out the ass from the money I saved up and then if I can still go I basically have to walk around broke.

And the worst part is, after I nearly died because my dad refuses to ever do checkups on his car and assured me the brakes etc. were completely fine (despite that thing being a death trap), he keeps refusing responsibility and keeps going "it was fine :/// idk what happened" despite literally everyone who looked at the car report said that if I tried to drive home that night, my car WOULD have had the tie rod snap and the rusted breaks would have immediately caused me to spin out of control on the highway and probably kill me. It's like he doesn't even care. He didn't have any reaction when he was told about this. I almost started crying because he's supposed to be the "good" parent but... idk. It always feels like people SAY they care about me just to make themselves feel better but people rarely actually SHOW they do.

Being in poverty would be enough but my life just feels the need to be gut punch after gut punch. I lose inheritance that was promised to me that would immediately make my life insanely easier at the drop of a hat just bc the person (has repeatedly) decided to change their mind and sell it for themself or give it to someone else. Everyone I've ever truly loved IRL as family has been taken from me and released from this mortal coil. And now with my brain disease I'm starting to lose the only thing I ever really prided myself on- my mind.

After the pandemic made everyone's finances eat shit, nobody wants my art anymore (right when I was starting to gain some traction!) and I have to spend my time bending over backwards for a bunch of really demanding gig work that I didn't even really have a choice in doing.

I'm too disabled to work a "real" job but too mentally competent that I got denied and even if I do EVENTUALLY win it could take years to get SSI and my rights as a human being will be limited. I used to try to put my foot in the door for like webcomic startups and shit like that as a contracted worker and every single time I get hired the company goes under and I barely have anything to show for it. I want to submit to the local art gallery to maybe get my works out there and possibly find someone who wants to buy them but there's a fee to it and I just. idk.

I keep trying to make myself feel better and less "useless" by donating old stuff or giving it to friends who might need it. And usually this helps but. I don't know. I don't even know how to talk to people about this because to be honest my therapist is kind of stumped on how to help me now. Like she's trying her best and she does have good advice it's just there's only so much you can do when there are circumstances out of your control beating the shit out of you constantly. And I can't afford to be sent to the mental hospital and even if I WAS, the last time I was there was so traumatizing due to the racism and negligence that I don't want to go back.

Maybe it would be better if I had some IRL friends to hang out with more but most of the guys I would hang out with either committed suicide or I stopped talking to them because I realized that I wasn't being treated very well. I don't know what to do. My therapist assures me I'm constantly just being dealt a bad hand of cards and I'm doing my best but I don't care anymore. I hate being alive. I hate my life so much.

I don't even know why the fuck I'm writing this. I guess I just want it to be known *somewhere* that I haven't been very well for a very long time and if I just randomly disappear one day you can all probably guess what happened. I'm not going to do anything stupid tonight but I've been fighting the urge near-daily for the past few months while trying to pretend I can keep making it through. I don't know. I just want everything to stop I wish miracles were real. I hate how you can fight depression and suicide ideation for over a decade and it feels like it's never gets much better.

It doesn't help I keep having this OCD fear that I'm going to die before my next birthday and all the stuff lately is freaking me out.

I'm crying too hard to keep typing and looking at what im typing so idk if you read all this thanks ill probably feel better after a nap or something but everything just feles so fucking exhausting

[graysongraysoff]

i know i’m the one who keeps saying it’s not going to be like flipping a switch but it is a little disheartening that my coworkers seem to have like. zero faith in me whatsoever.

[luveline]

heyy can you do a james x drunk! reader where maybe she calls him by accident and he goes to pick her up and finds out she is really really drunk and helps her getting sick and he starts worrying this may be a problem and tries to talk to her bc he worries its okay if you don’t want to do it just let me know! thank you so much love your works 💗

thank so much for your request! this is a sequel to this and this but you dont have to read them to understand <3 tw throwing up not graphic

You haven't texted James back in a couple of hours. He's unconcerned, toeing his shoes off by the front door when you call. 

It's mostly shuffling sounds. Your voice, far away. You sound strange. He says your name, and when that doesn't work, he tries, a little louder, "Sweetheart?" 

You're giggling. He thinks he can hear you getting closer, and then you're talking. 

"Oh… I called someone. Ha, oh my god. Smashed." 

"Sweetheart?" 

"Um," you get ever louder. He assumes you've held the phone to your cheek. "Hello?" 

"Hi, sweetheart." 

"Jamie! Hi. I miss you so much, where are you? I can't see you?" 

He feels a blush blooming over his cheeks and clears his throat. "Where are you?" 

"I'm at Shelley's." 

"Yeah? By yourself?" He has a creeping suspicion. 

"Well…" you begin, voice high pitched and lilting, "I was with somebody at some point, I swear. But I, ugh," you make a strange sound that worries him something awful, and say, much smaller, "I don't feel very well." 

James feels a spike of nervousness as he shrugs his shoes back on, scrambling for his car keys, forgoing his coat. "I'll come get you." 

"James, you're not here?" 

His name sounds sweet when you say it, even slurred. It breaks his heart to hear you so gone.  He swings the front door closed behind him and makes his way to the car.

"No, I'm at home."

"You don't have to come, I'm okay. I'm gonna go home soon." 

"Who's taking you home?" he asks sceptically.

You're silent for a while. When you talk, you're quiet, careful, as if you're determined to say what you want to say perfectly. "You don't need to take care of me all the time. I know I'm a mess." 

"I want to take care of you." 

James reverses out of his parking space with his phone wedged between his ear and his shoulder, waiting for your response. There's a beeping sound and he realises you've hung up. He grabs his phone with a groan, staring at the 'Call Disconnected' screen in disbelief. 

He wonders if he's doing the wrong thing in coming to see you – he's not your boyfriend. He knows that. You're friends, which you've clearly stated, and he wouldn't ever force you into anything more but he can't help how much he cares about you, and he won't leave you drunk and sick by yourself when your friends have a track record of abandoning you. 

He pulls up to Shelley's place, sees the clear signs of a party in swing. He pushes past a crowd of people, through the kitchen where he spots some of your awful friends and into the garden, where he knows you'll be. Sure enough, you sit on a low brick wall surrounding a planter bed with your head in your hands. You're crying. Quietly, but with enough force to make his chest burn in sympathy. 

"Sweetheart," he starts, almost tripping over his own shoes to get to you. 

You don't react. He's at your front, now, reaching out to put a tentative hand on your shoulder. 

"What's wrong?" He gives you a gentle shake to gather your attention but you won't bite. 

"My phone died and I was talking to James and I don't know how I'm gonna get home without him because I'm stupid," you confess. Your sobs are aching. 

"Sweetheart," he whispers, kneeling in front of you. 

He pries your hands away from your face. He thinks you're brilliantly pretty, even under the smudged make up, even covered in tears. 

"You're not stupid, okay? You don't always make the best decisions," he says quickly to himself, "but you're not stupid." He presses your arms to your cold legs, hands gentle where they rub your wrists. 

"No, I am, cos I- cos I keep coming here and thinking that people will like me more if I'm not so- and…" your words are stammering and wrought in upset, your eyebrows pinched together, your lips turned down in a frustration he's never seen on you. "I just want people to like me." 

"I like you," he says, working his thumbs into your closed fists, easing your fingers out straight. "I like you a lot. And the right kind of people-" he looks down at your hands then up into your waiting face, searching for the right words. "I mean, baby, these people, they have to get plastered just so they can stand each other. They're all idiots." 

"I'm an idiot." 

"You're not," he murmurs. 

You drop your chin into your chest and squeeze his hands. You take a big mouthful of air and he waits patiently for your tears to slow, fingers rubbing over your knuckles. 

"James?" 

"Yeah, it's me." 

"I smashed my phone." 

"I saw. How'd you manage that?" 

"I-"

"You fell." 

You giggle to yourself. "No! I don't have any pockets. I didn't want to carry it anymore. Must’ve called you before I gave up.” 

He snorts and rolls his eyes. Your drunken thought processes always amuse and confuse him. 

"You couldn't have given it to someone for safekeeping?" 

"To who? You weren't here." 

Twisting pleasure; he feels very special to have gained your trust, even in the small things. 

"I'm here now," he says lightly. 

You pass him your smashed up phone and he puts it in his pocket, but not before he sees your lock screen, a picture of the two of you, sober, having a good time at Sirius' flat, a more tasteful party. And to call one of Sirius' parties tasteful is really a comment on how horrific these shitty motives are. His arm is thrown over your shoulder, the both of you beaming. 

"Can I ask something?" Something I don't really have the importance to ask. 

You nod. He brings a hand to your face and sets about wiping your cheeks clean, or as clean as he can, sooty tears staining the back of his finger. 

"Let's give up on these silly parties, yeah? You never have any fun." 

"I don't know what else to do." 

"You can hang out with me," then, fearing he's coming on way too strong, "with my friends. They like you. Mary misses you." 

You scrunch up your nose and start to lean forward. He backtracks, "Or not. I don't know, you don't have to, but these parties aren't good for you, and I really care about-" 

You groan sullenly. He remembers that you felt sick about a split second before you throw up, kicking himself as he stands and encourages your shoulders to one side, moving your hair from your face. You miss your shoes in a stroke of luck. 

"Oh no," you say, a streak of blue down your chin. 

James panics and wipes it away with his sleeve. "You're fine." 

"Um…" 

"You're okay. Uh, I'm sure Shelley can deal with this in the morning." 

You pant to yourself with fresh tears weighing down your lashes. He smooths a hand over your hairline, pushing down flyaways, murmuring, "You're okay. Y'just had too much, sweetness." 

"No more shitty parties," you say weakly. You clear your throat uncomfortably. "I'm disgusting." 

He tuts. "That's not true." 

You slam your eyes shut and grab his hand where it rests on your head like you're worried he's going to pull away. He never would've. He pulls your trembling head and shoulders into his torso, looking down at you with an overwhelming fondness and a smidge of pity. 

"You're a real heartbreaker, you know?"

"Sorry, Jamie." 

"It's alright. Don't worry about it." He strokes your temple, trying to massage away your furrowed brows and sad pout. "It's okay."

"You're so nice to me." 

The sadness in your tiny voice makes him frown. "I told you, I like you a lot." 

"You're a really good friend." 

He closes his eyes, too. Doesn't feel like facing it, so he won't. "That I am," he says, with more bravado than he feels. 

A really good friend. 

[violetarks]

Hello!! I saw you were asking for fictif requests and was wondering if you haven't already, may I have some general fluffy headcanons for Felix? I hope you have a wonderful day💕

General Fluff Headcanons

Game: Fictif

Character: Felix Iskander Escellun

Most definitely craves physical contact

But its that kind of thing where he thinks the more he desires it and stares at you, the more of a chance the universe will tell you to walk over and hug him

It takes you a while until you turn your head, bc you feel like someone is burning holes into your head :))

But all you see is felix flipping the page of his book

Felix: "is something wrong?"

You: "do you... need something?"

Felix: "pardon? no, i dont need anything."

But you know better

He's blushing, embarrassed that you caught him or nearly did

And you can see it as he adjusts his glasses, clearing his throat

Anyway, you do hold his hand, hug and kiss him if he feels comfortable

You hold his hand through portals and in market, bc he doesnt want to be separated from you

Kissing him in public is fORBiddEN bc he'll get all flustered and not be able to function right, resulting in glaring your way and pouting

Hugging him is okay, as long as you dont see his face, so youre usually hugging from behind or digging your face into his shoulder

Speaking if which, it takes a while for him to get used to it all

The first time you grabbed his hand out of the blue, he jolted and squeezed your hand really hard, making you pull away

He apologised over and over again as anisa looked over your hand to check for any injuries (none)

Anisa only did that bc of how much felix was overreacting

He felt so bad that he avoided you for some time

After that, you walked up to him and held his hand again, just casually and this time he didnt freak out, just staring at you

Love :)))

Calls you darling or dear, bc he's old timey like that

But that only happens every once in a while

He'll be distracted or so relaxed that he doesn't notice, but everyone else does

First time, went like

Felix: "love, are you finished with my spellbook?"

You: "i... uh..."

Anisa: "what did you say, felix?"

Felix: "hm? I asked about the spellbook y/n borrowed from me."

Sage: "oh my goodness, you're so bold, felix. i supposed youre different behind closed doors, huh?"

He's so confused??

And you just hand him the book and dont talk about it until after dinner

He's blushing wildly before announcing his return to bed and hiding under the covers

His sarcasm is limited to sage and anisa, and only sometimes you

Bc he usually uses his sarcasm to show how annoyed he was

But with you, its more or a joking matter

Sage gets sad bc you get some privileges over him :((

You two do get up to some mischief tho

Like you both go ahead and make felix blush owo

But sage once convinced you to steal felix's giant coat, and you two ran around the building just playing around

Anisa and felix found you two on top of on of the highest balconies, trying to see if sage's spell for making objects levitate would work on just felix's jacket

Felix: "what do you think you two are doing???"

You, standing on top of the railing as Sage is about to push you off with only Felix's coat above your head like a blanket: "nothing"

Felix then cast a spell where sage becomes invisible to you and you cohldnt hear him at all

Anisa told felix to rake the spell away since sage was weeping in the corner

Sleepy felix :(((

He's at his desk and doing stuff when he falls asleep

You either drag him to bed or pull up a chair to sleep next to him

Although he is a night owl, he goes three days without sleeping and passes out for nine hours

Felix likes to sit next to you at dinner

Sometimes you use your magic to prank or tease felix

But it really never works since he's taught you all you know

He'll be looking for his spellbook and then sigh,, looking your way and just raising a brow

Felix: "drop it this instant, my darling."

You: "fiiiiiine..."

The book drops from the ceiling, right into his palm

Another thing

Felix feels the need to return the gestures

So he will kiss you on your forehead when you get giddy for completing your spell just right

And then look away hastily

Or he'll grab your hand and pull you away when youre about to bump into something

And he just wont let go

Sleeps next to you and once he knows youre asleep for sure, he kisses your palm or kisses your cheek

There are times when he doesnt know what to do

Like when youre upset

Maybe you felt extra sad this morning, or you were feeling homesick, or just not that great at all

Felix does not know how to deal with other people's emotions

The best you'll get is

Felix: "are you feeling well, my dear?"

You: "oh, yeah. i'm fine, felix."

Felix: "alright."

And he's screaming inside bc he cant ask you again now, he's embarrassed to

He knows for sure that something is dead wrong when you go to bed

Maybe your grip on him is too loose, or youre not holding him at all

And he's just thinking about what he can do

Sometimes you start crying and felix cant take it anymore

He turns around and digs his face into your shoulder, arms around your torso and pulling you close

He's holding you so tight that he thinks you'll break if he lets go

You slowly hug him back, crying into his hair

Felix: "... i dont know of what has happened, but you are free to tell me whatever it is that is bothering you, my darling. i... i can help, in some way..."

You: "thanks, felix. i appreciate it."

N e way :))

The most common thing to happen between you two is probably for felix to brush against you a lot

He's trying not to be suspicious so you dont see it, but its when he doesnt watch where he's going that he messed up

Felix, hitting his hip on the corner of the table in an attempt to step closer to you: "my lord, oh my goodness..."

You: "felix, you can just ask me to stand next to you."

Felix: "... i dont know what youre talking about."

Out of everyone in the group, he probably trusts anisa to take care of you the best when he's away

Sage and you almost always get into trouble and he can not handle the energy you two bring out to open

Anisa keeps you contained and helps felix feel at ease bc she can definitely beat a bitch or two

Felix likes having your head on his lap when he's reading

Its one of the only ways you can be close together like this once someone is busy

He's running fingers through your hair and up and down your arm, other hand holding his book as he reads through it

Felix: "are you already asleep, my darling?"

When you don't respond

Felix: "I love you..."

...

You: "I love you too, Felix"

Felix: "i knew it"

You play with his glasses sometimes

He'll be looking for another book or something and you steal his glasses from his desk and just play with them

Or if they're around his neck and you're sitting in front of him

You'll tug him from the chain of his glasses to give him a quick kiss

He burns red and then pulls his glasses on to continue reading

Wrapping your arms around his torso makes him putty in your hands

He immediately leans into you

Kiss him when he's annoyed

Just a quick smooch on his cheek

He' calm down and just dig his head into his hands

You're so warm and so kind to him

He feels like he doesnt deserve it but you assure him that he does, he deserves the world :))

[yuichi-ro]

i am still crying about the hunter fic, i was not expecting to feel this many emotions and re-read it like 10 times. mwah mwah chefs kiss i absolutely l o v e d it.

and a second one?? are you spoiling me???

also i am afraid i got covid or am in the progress of getting it. one test came back positive, the other negative but i am starting to show symptoms, particularly coughing which is just sooo annoying because it prevents me from sleeping properly despite being super tired. but otherwise i feel great tbh. got another booster shot about a month ago so i am not too worried there either. really just a nuisance ugh.

am thinking about throwing together a little writing event to keep me busy while i am suffering through quarantine with my two other roommates. dunno what exactly but i need to be wrapped up in a blanket and be fed with chicken soup while i cuddle with my favs. just for the extra comfort at the moment smh.

also i found this super cute/funny Getou/Reader art that has me screaming bc that’s definitely how he would want to go out XD

and also this art ugh its so cute i need more of my favs being dads tbh its what they deserve

i just hope everything will be fine with so much going on bleh. i hope you have a good day though!

-🌌momo

I'm glad you liked it I word vomited most of that before I even finished my cup of coffee this morning 🥺 I had to wrap that poor thing up in something warm and soft after what Dana Terrace is putting him through 😭 and hopefully a second part, I'm getting it done now after I also get done harassing my wife asdfghjkl

shit that is gonna suck. My wife didn't have covid but she's got killer allergies that basically after a month haven't left her. And the cough really fucked everything up. Here's to my fingers being crossed though that a lot of people who got the boosters and stuff it was gone in less than a week like a normal plain cold. I'm thinking about you wishing it goes away fast for you 💖💖💖

keep seeing match ups, collabs, the works but god my motivation to do anything but be self serving is seriously lacking. Even at almost 800 followers I'm just like ehhhhhh this is my hell hole I don't wanna do anything for anyone else but myself. Though I'll admit a prompt event has been digging at my mind, angst, fluff, smut, idc really but I gotta agree in terms of a prompt event kinda thing I'd be up for that kinda fun

am I- am I just reading Getou being a simp even if he's getting his ass handed to him?? Yes this. This is the Getou I stan. Gimme this man

sob crying over anytime there's artwork of him with the girls. Fuck weird uncle Gojo and deadbeat Toji and eh father figure Nanami. Getou got and raised two girls. Now that's the sexiest fucking thing on earth and all murder is forgiven for good parenting. If that man wants more kids, who am I to say no to a successful hot father

[mrs-mikko-rantanen]

Uhm, my day was decent? I mean aside from the fact that mornings exist and I did not want to wake up in time for my shift at work. But. And the end of the day when I have literal hours to do stuff after.. it works out cuz. Usually I get off and its oh shit I have enough time to halfway emotionally recharge and then its time for bed.

But. I got in and E^2 had put like. My name down on the schedule, and. That was great really. And we had this sheet for sign up of, basically what areas you want to be personally responsible for. And I signed light and it was great. And I dont think anyone really noticed cuz the manager wasn't there and no one else really looked at the schedule or anything else. But. It made me happy.

Still haven't gotten my name tag changed and honestly I dont think I'm going to. Cuz. I feel like I'm just being a bother asking again. But. It is what it is I guess.

I got off at five and its now nine and ive just been vibing in the car listening and singing to Spotify since I got off just trying to keep the sad at bay. And I should probably go home but. I dont want to. Cuz I know I'm just gonna wallow in the sad and self destructive tendencies if i go home.. If I ask nicely will the fae take me in as one of their own and I can become a cryptid in the woods?????

I have a three day weekend coming up and im considering doing a touch up on my hair since its really washed out. But I cant decide if I wanna keep it fully red or try and do like an ombre double tone thingy.. but I'm not sure what other color I'd try to do to the tips? Idk

I kinda wish my hair was longer so I could do like. The galaxy hair thing? Where its various shades of purple and blue and some pink and it looks different depending on how you style it. But I also know attempting to grow my hair out longer than I already plan to is a bad idea, cuz the sides and back are already getting too long and I hate it. But I wish I could do fun stuff with it too

Oh well. The duality of man i guess..

Uhm. I bought a giant plastic egg the other day, that reminds me of a dragons egg kinda. And I'm trying to decide if I should keep a hoard of dice in there or a hoard of crystals. Cuz. Dice and the clacky math rocks. But. Also shiny crystally gems

Speaking of dice I also really kinda want to try and get into a dnd group, but social anxiety and I have zero idea where to start with that so. That's fun.

Im currently resisting the urge to go and get more holes and metal in my head too. I just. The red hair makes me feel cool and powerful and I wanna look punk and

Sorry I've been rambling for like half a novel. I'll stop now before I get annoying. I mean I definitely already am. But you asked for asks and distractions and 👉👈 I love you

Id ask about your day but you seem to want a distraction from that sooo. How about, got any fun headcanons to share??

Thats awesome on the name front!!! I saw that and I got really excited for you when you posted the picture this morning, honestly I think you should bring up the nametag again, esspecially if its showing up on the schedule too. (Oddly enough I kicked around the idea of using a new name with friends and sruff today which is weird mostly bc like i like my name irl, its fairly androgynous and it makes me happy and i love my online name bc it means me :))

My vote is two tone!! I almost did a pink/purple ombre with my hair this round so I say do ittttt (that's also what I say about the extra holes and metal. Do itttttrrr)

That would be a hard choice but u do really like the idea of a giant dragons egg full of dice ngl. I need to find some people to play with too. I'm trying to get b and c in on something but idk if its ever really gonna pan out the way I want it too. My town actually has a pretty active dnd community but I am way too new and way too socially anxious to ever join something like that so I feel you there.

100% not annoying, each paragraph made me smile more. :)

My day was actually mostly ok, i just sorta ruined it with Danny at home. I just pointed out that the idealized dream band life that I wanted and thought I had was what she got and that it made me kinda jealous and she pointed out (correctly) that I'm jealous of so many aspects of her life that she now has a list of things she can't talk to me about for fear of setting me into a spiral and just. Yeah. That wasnt fun.

But work was ok. The kids all were really tierd so there was a fair bit of crying going on, but the weather was really nice so we got to go outside with them for a long time and that was very nice. I also got some really sweet cuddles from a few of them that made me very happy.

Oh! I also have a funny story about them!! So I was squatting (my main position is almost like Spiderman bc I'm down on the kids' level but i can also get up and move if I need to pretty quick) and one of the girls goes and gets a book, then stands right in front of me and points at the floor and says "sit" in the most authoritative voice I have ever hear from a 1 1/2 year old 😂 as soon as I sat down she was in my lap and opening the book so I could read to her.

As far as headcanons.... Sadly my brain is bouncimg mostly art ideas for the Tamgled au and not anything of substance so I may take a crack at that later. Otherwise I keep thinking about whumped up Will crying on the floor and Maurie finding him. Really I'm just thinking about Maurie and Will being bros. A lot. So much. God I love them.

[ziracona]

Could you elaborate on that Gordon fan theory about him being an inside mole? I haven't heard of it before and it sounds intriguing. Plus ever since the small reference to him on the memorial in ILM, I've been wondering what your thoughts were on how he ended up

Oof, okay, buckle up. This will be the abridged version but that’s still gonna be long. (Don’t read if you want to avoid spoilers for the Saw franchise).

So, in Saw, Gordon is a fkn anomaly to most of the fanbase. Becuase he has a wildly solidified character. You watch Gordon & Adam both go through three different character arcs back to back, and trauma bond, and the second to last scene in Saw is this fkn devestating & beautiful one where—let me back up. So. Quick Saw summary. Two people wake up chained by the ankle to pipes in a small nasty abandoned bathroom with a corpse on the floor between them. They’re each left a tape recorder which tells them why they’ve been targeted (Gordon because he doesn’t value life enough which is evidenced by...? — real reason is he’s literally just the unfortunate Doctor who told John he had Cancer, and John Kramer is that petty of a stupid bitch. & Adam is grabbed becuase...Literally he didn’t even bump into John Kramer or something. The guy took him because he’s a starving early 20s kid who is a photographer, and John thinks his occupation & he are pathetic. I’m not joking. Or exaggerating. This is quite literally the given reason for torturing & killing Adam being fine to John). Anyway, Gordon’s wife and like 7 year old daughter have been kidnapped and are being held at gunpoint. Gordon is told that if he finds a way to murder Adam by six (poor Fkn Adam is 6 feet away & hears this whole tape) on the clock, they and he go free. Adam is told if he can stay alive until after six, he wins and can go free.

They spend then the remaineder of Saw trying, like you’d hope good, decent, or even medium or somewhat shitty people would, to help each other escape, rather than Gordon trying to kill Adam at all. They attempt to fake Adam’s death & fail bc they didn’t realize their shackles were wired & they could be zapped, which makes playing dead really hard. Initially they are frustrated by each other, especially Gordon, who is an adult & levelheaded, by Adam who is young and jouvenile and freaking out & being a pain at first, but they bond through attempting to escape & to figure out what’s happened to them, and also learn more truth about each other. Meanwhile you also get backstory on Jigsaw & the case, and follow Detective Tapp’s story through a few investigated murders, the loss of his partner, and to where he is following Gordon, whom he is convinced is Jigsaw, now. Back in the bathroom, Adam and Gordon reach 6 on the clock, and Gordon gets a phone call where the man holding his wife at gunpoint makes her tell him he failed his game & now she and their daughter have to die. His wife bites the man’s hand, and they fight, but all Gordon hears is screaming in his wife and child’s voices and gunshots, and he has a mental breakdown believing they’re being murdered on the other end of the phone. Then is electrocuted. Adam flips out and tries to throw small stones at Gordon’s body to wake him up, terrified he’s dead, and succeeds. Adam is overcome with relief, but Gordon has a full mental breakdown, almost having died and believing his family is dead, then swapping immediately to denial and convincing himself it’s not too late and he can still save them. Adam tries desperately to apologize and calm him down, then to in horror talk him into stopping while he watched Gordon begin to saw off his foot (Adam was given a saw for this purpose too, but his broke early on before they realized the saws were meant for their feet instead of the chains). Gordon does not stop, and Adam watches in horror as he cuts off his foot, crawls to the gun the dead body on the floor has been holding, and puts the one bullet he was given into it. He tells Adam while crying and breaking down that he’s sorry but he has to die he has to save his family. Adam begs him not to shoot, but he does.

Meanwhile, Bc he’s staking out Gordon’s home, Tapp hears shots, runs in, and is able to chase off the killer and save Gordon’s wife and daughter. He pursues the killer to the meat packing plan, where he is ambushed, struggles, and then is shot in the stomach and left for dead. The man, Zepp, makes it to the bathroom where Gordon tries to shoot him with the bow empty gun & screams at him for what he did to his family, who he still believes are dead, then breaks down crying again. Zepp takes out a gun and tells him he failed to kill Adam by 6, so he has to die. Gordon asks hopeless why, and he tells him those are the rules, then goes to shoot him while Gordon tries to shut his eyes and brace for death. Adam, who is not dead, grabs Zepp’s feet and drags him down in a surprise attack, rips the toilet bowl lid off the toilet, and beats him to death with it, saving Gordon, who watches in shock and then crawls over and puts a hand on his shoulder and gets him to stop beating the dead corpse. Adam is wounded & criying because gunshot wounds fkn hurt, & Gordon tries to comfort him. Tells him it’s just a flesh wound—it’s his shoulder—he’ll be okay. Just keep pressure on it. He has to go get help. Adam begs him not to leave him alone in the bathroom, but Gordon says he has to or he’s going to bleed to death (which is incredibly visually apparent). Adam tries to keep him, then watches him crawl and pleads for him to wait and asks if they’re going to be okay? Gordon tells him “I wouldn’t lie to you.” and gives him a reassuring smile while half dead and crawls out to look for help. Adam is left alone and searches Zepp’s corpse for keys to his shackle, then finds a tape exactly like his & Gordon’s. He plays it, and realizes to his horror this man Zepp was another victim, not Jigsaw. He was poisoned and told to kidnap Gordon’s family & shoot them both & Gordon if Gordon lost to earn an antidote, or just accept death and refuse to participate. While the tape plays, the corpse in the room with them stands up, and Adam realizes to overwhelming horror it has been alive the whole time, and it is Jigsaw, who wanted a front row seat to their torture, suffering, and death. He tries to grab Zepp’s gun & shooot him, but Jigsaw/John electrocutes him w a remote (the shackles are wired) and leaves, congratulating him on winning & telling him where his key is (it got flushed down a drain when Adam woke up, which John no doubt planned), then telling him “Game Over” and locking him alone in the bathroom because John’s a fake ass piece of shit who doesn’t even keep his promises & let the winners go.

The end scene between Adam and Gordon is phenomenal & heart wrenching (Saw is an amazing character piece of a film, & the first film is the reason it became a modern horror staple! Watch here if you’re curious! :’-]

While Gordon does eventually, under extreme duress, shoot Adam, he never wants to kill him, and they are definitely close by the end of the film (which is clear both from the way they treat each other, and their more decisive actions, like Adam risking his life to save Gordon after being shot by him & never seeking recompense for the gunshot, Gordon trying to help Adam & comfort him as well as get help for them both). This is the central relationship of Saw 1, and it’s really well done.

Then, in Saw 2, there’s just no mention of Gordon going back to save Adam. We wonder what happened, until Amanda & Danny stumble to the bathroom form Saw 1 & you are greeted by Adam’s decaying corpse still chained there. It’s later revealed that Gordon escaped the bathroom, cauterized his wound on a hot pipe because he knew he was going to die otherwise, then passed out from pain. John found him and took him to his workshop, where he nursed him back to health & gave him a prosthetic leg, before convincing him to join the team.

Understandably, this did not sit well with any of the Saw fandom. We fight about all kinds of stuff, but the one thing I’ve like, never seen disagreement on, is that it makes no fkn sense for Gordon to betray Adam like that after how close they were, and it makes even less sense he’d willingly join the man who super tried to murder his wife and kid. If it wasn’t for Tapp and Adam, Gordon, his wife, and his child would be dead now. John endangered all 3 intentionally, and did not save or spare any of them.

Still with me? So. Because of that, people started digging. Now, out of Jigsaw’s apprentices, Gordon is the only one who never takes a very active roll. He did not run games or kidnap people. Becuase he was a doctor, John called him in to do medical work for tests, such as sewing a key into the eye of the man from the cold open to Saw II. The only active work he takes is catching Hoffman at the end of Saw 3D & locking him in the basement, which John asked him to do if Hoffman killed Jill (which Hoffman does). This together with Gordon’s character led to a massive fan theory. Let me try to break it down.

After Saw 1, Gordon joins a support group for Jigsaw game survivors, and returns to his family. We get very little info about him period until Saw 3D though. However! Pre Saw 1, Jigsaw basically never lost, the cops never even got close. Suddenly after Saw 1, the entire gang falls apart, starting with Amanda and John, then finally Hoffman & Jill. In Saw 3, it’s revealed Amanda went back to the bathroom to kill Adam when he survived his test. She promises she’s there to help him when he wakes up scared and half dead in the dark, and then puts a plastic bag over his head and smothers him while he fights. This lead to a fan theory that Gordon went back to save Adam once he could (able to walk & not being shadowed by Jigsaw), but was too late, and decided to take revenge very carefully. However, Amanda has a shit track record of thinking she killed someone & not checking for a pulse (see Eric Matthews, who she thought she beat to death), so the even more popular theory is that Adam was not dead by the time Gordon got to him, and Gordon saved him and replaced his corpse with another. This theory is backed by the fact that Adam was shot in the shoulder, but when the body is seen in other films, it is both too decayed to be recognizable, and the gunshot wound is in the stomach (where Tapp was shot). Furthermore, when Amanda & Danny find Zepp and “Adam”’s bodies in Saw 2, Zepp, who was already partially bald, still has hair, yet Adam’s corpse is completely bald. The shackle is also on the wrong foot now, which would indicate it was removed and then replaced by someone in a hurry. Now, obviously it’s possible this was just a continuity error, but given that Saw usually has a good track record with continuity (and uses them a lot for big reveals), that gives more weight than usual to the theory.

So, this led to the idea that Gordon was able to either save Adam, or at least remove his body & bury it, replaced it with a fake (possibly Tapp? but considering the bodies wouldn’t be decayed enough for the skin to be missed if he did it when Adam was alive or in decent preserve even, and Tapp is considerably taller, I’d assume he, as a doctor, didn’t have too much trouble stealing a John Doe cadaver from the hospital) corpse in Adam’s clothes, then agreed to help Jigsaw becuase he was smart enough to know if he didn’t play along, John would kill him (he would, and has. He never lets people with dangerous information go). John also tends to have failsafes in place, like “if Gordon betrays me, kill his daughter” kind of stuff, so the theory is Gordon played along to keep his family safe, instead of going to the cops, since he knew at least Hoffman worked for Jigsaw already, and there might be more plants, and did his best to engineer the breakdown and eventual demises of the whole team from Saw 1 on. (Was the one who gave Hoffman the idea to threaten Amanda or the info to do it, intentionally failed to protect Jill from Hoffman to have an easy excuse to kill/see both dead, etc). Makes double sense if Adam was alive, becuase if Gordon revealed himself as mole, first thing Jigsaw & co would check is what else he messed with, and they knew he was close to Adam.

There’s a lot more details to it, but that’s the short version. Most people I know in the Saw fandom ascribe to it in a weird kind of “Look I know it’s probably just inconsistent character writing and in that case fuck Gordon he can go to hell, but since I truly don’t believe Saw 1 Lawrence Gordon would do this & there’s enough evidence for reasonable doubt, I choose to believe the convoluted theory that makes him make sense & also means Adam could maybe be alive” way. Including me. If Gordon really decides he has no issue with John after what he did to him, his baby girl, Adam, and his poor wife, joins him willingly & helps, then he’s as bad as Amanda & Hoffman & fuck that guy. But since the characterization doesn’t match /at all/ & there’s never an explanation given, & fan theory makes more sense, I tend to think of Gordon as if the fan theory is right? Although if you don’t & thus hate Gordon, 100% respect. I just cannot watch Saw 1 & believe Lawrence would join up for any reason but revenge & long con to keep family safe. I mean, he tried to kill a /friend/ to save his family. You’re really going to try to convince me the man who cut off his own foot by hand to try to save his wife and daughter would ever be cool with or forgive the man who tried to execute them for no reason? Uhhh, to quote Dr. Gordon himself,

I mean.

💁🏻‍♀️ You can’t convince me the man this hellbent on destroying the man who was threatening his family did not make him pay, and just decided to be pals. You can’t. It’s inconsistent writing. :’-] anyway, there’s other info too—one of the disguised figures who helps Lawrence take out Hoffman is the exact height Adam was, the plastic bag from Amanda is gone & the corpse in a different position, etc—been like 2 years so I don’t even remember it all, but it’s very fascinating. & that’s the short yet somehow still too long version of the Gordon theory I definitely did not proof read at all for which I apologize! It’s more convincing than I write it I swear I am just exhausted. :’-] But yeah, most saw fans ascribe to it, which is why we all seem to still like Gordon, and he’s so often shipped with Adam, both of which would probably otherwise seem massively confusing. Hope it helps!

(Oh! & in ILM, since i ascribe to that theory, I wrote him that way. Failed to save Adam, buried his body, then took slow, careful revenge on Jigsaw & co. to keep his family safe. Knows there are deaths he is not blameless for becuase of that, and is full of guilt over wondering if going to the police wouldn’t have saved people, even if he had understandable doubts & reasons for what he did. Is especially guilty for Adam’s death. Seeks to make reparations slowly his own way. [tho also soemtimes secretive characters lie to me until it becomes necessary for me to know, so it’s possible Gordon saved Adam & is hiding it, but given the whole gang is dead, I don’t know why he still would be, so I think ILM verse all he could do was bury the body]).

[shenanigans-and-imagines]

Hello! This message is an open invitation to share anything you want people to know about any of your OCs, or any headcanons you may have for canon characters that you haven't gotten to voice! Have fun and share with us your thoughts!

I’m in a really soft mood all the sudden, so I want to rant about Sera and Bodhi for a bit.

In my brain, everyone survives Scarif. Bodhi loses a hand. Sera has some fun new scars. Everybody is too injured to help with the battle of Yavin. BUT, they’re all still alive.

After this, Sera develops a not so secret crush on Bodhi. He was the one with her during the battle of Scarif, not to mention saved her life after throwing the grenade out of the ship, which he totally did. It only gets worse as she gets to know Bodhi more and more through missions, hanging around the ship and just talking to him.

Bodhi meanwhile is sweating. He likes Sera almost immediately. She’s the one who helped pull him back to reality in the cave. She showed him unapologetic kindness after everything he’s been through with Saw’s people, and is just a bright light of hope in every situation. The longer he knows her, it only gets worse. He doesn’t have Cassian or any of the other soldier’s hang up of seeing her as this little kid. To him she’s this bright, pretty, strong young woman who he’s starting to fall for.

I’m thinking it takes a little while for them to get together. For one, they need time to really get to know each other outside of a crisis situation. Second, they’re both worried about ruining the friendship they’ve formed with each other. And third, Bodhi is awkward and doesn’t know when somebody is flirting with him.

They’re not that subtle and everyone knows how Sera and Bodhi feel about each other, accept Cassian. Cassian has a bit of a blind spot when it comes to Sera. In the back of his mind he always sees her as the little girl hiding in the vents of a stolen ship. Whatever romantic feels she has towards a person are dismissed as “a little crush” like she’s still twelve years old. It takes Jyn having to explain to him, very clearly that Sera is a young woman now and these “little crushes” actually have a lot more weight to them.

Eventually Sera makes the first move after having a nice chat with Baze about it. She does the vague “well, there’s this guy” thing and Baze immediately recognizes who “this guy” is. He essentially tells her that if she doesn’t tell him how she feels, it’s just going to eat away at her for the rest of her life and if the relationship is strong, even if he rejects her, they can survive it. Sera is like “that’s great advice, I’ll be right back”, finds Bodhi, kisses him full on the mouth and says something to the effect of “I like your face, let’s date”.

And now for a series of random couple questions I have taken the time to answer.

Which one hogs the blanket?

It’s a tie, both Bodhi and Sera are very sensitive to cold.

Which one is ticklish?

Bodhi. Sera found out completely by accident. She tries only to use her powers for good.

Which one proposes?

Sera, it just kind of slips out. They’re lying in bed, Bodhi says something, and she says “We could get married.” Bodhi thinks she’s joking, but he looks down and instead of joking she’s looking down embarrassed. “Hey,” he says making her look up at him, “are you serious?” “Yes. I’d really like to marry you someday Bodhi Rook. Do you want to marry me?” “Yes.”

Who buys the really expensive things and who returns the really expensive things bc they needed that money for rent?

Both of them are rather good with money, so it doesn’t get that bad. However, every now and then Sera is able to save a bit of money and spends it on something frivolous. Bodhi: It’s really nice, but we could have used it towards an actual couch. Sera: But dinosaur cookies. Bodhi: Never mind, you’re totally right.

Who is very excited about adventure and who is thinking about how life threatening it is?

Sera is all for danger. She’s been part of the rebellion for years, danger is her middle name. So yeah, I’m going to totally crawl through the vents of this Empire facility to gather the information we need. Bodhi: Please don’t.

Person A of your OTP returning home from war after Person B has believed them to be dead for many months. Are they happy/confused? Do they think they’re hallucinating?

If Bodhi were to come back from a mission after being presumed dead. Sera would lose it. Not caring who's watching she’d run straight to his arms and dissolve into a sobbing mess. She’d hold onto him as if she’s afraid he’d disappear. Bodhi for his part would hold her to him breathing in her scent knowing at last he’s home.

If Sera were to come back Bodhi would be in shock. He’d slowly walk towards her not trusting his eyes. She’d smile, anxious that he’s angry with her for not re-establishing contact sooner. He reaches her and they stand in silence for a moment. Sera smiles weakly, “Hi”. Bodhi pulls her into a hug which Sera returns letting out a strangled laugh, “Hi.”

Who sleeps in the other’s lap?

Sera. She likes sleeping in the cockpit of the ship while on missions and usually sits herself down on Bodhi’s lap. Although Bodhi does have a tendency to fall asleep while resting his head on her thigh while she runs her fingers through his hair.

Who made the first move?

Sera almost certainly made the first move. Bodhi would have liked her for a longer time, but never did anything because A) the age difference, B) not knowing if Cassian would approve, and C) thinking she deserved someone braver than him. Sera at some point would kiss him and tell him how much she likes him. He would then be the first to say “I love you”.

What’s each other their cell phone contact names for each other?

Before Relationship: Bodhi for Sera: Stars, Sera for Bodhi: The Pilot

In Relationship: Bodhi for Sera: My Stars, Sera for Bodhi: My Pilot

Who’s the one to go to the grocery store with a full list of what they need, and who’s the one that goes for one thing and gets everything else but that one thing?

Bodhi checks and double checks the list to make sure they’ve got everything they need at the store. Sera usually goes to buy milk or some other little thing, and ends up getting stuff for a nice dinner, but totally forgets the milk.

What are their plans for the future?

After the war is over and the Empire is defeated, they both want to start a family of their own and find some quiet place in the outer rim to settle down. They’ll continue helping the rebellion in getting a government up and running, but after that that small farm on Yavin 4 is calling their name.

Who was popular in high school and who lies that they were just to impress the other?

Sera wasn’t popular in the stereotypical sense, but most people know her and seem to like her.

Bodhi more blended into the background and didn’t have a lot of friends. Mainly he was just trying to get it over with.

Who knocks on the other’s door crying at 4am?

Before they start dating, they usually try to keep their trauma to themselves. Bodhi usually ends up getting up to work on his ship to cope while Sera either lies in bed or goes to one of the ships to sleep. After they start dating, Bodhi still doesn’t go to her, partially because tinkering is the only way to calm his nerves and partially because he wants to be as brave and she thinks he is. Sera at first doesn’t go to him since she still wants to appear like the bright happy person, but eventually she caves and knocks on his door.

Who collects rocks and shells when they go to the beach and who thinks it’s dumb?

Sera collects all sorts of little trinkets from different planets she’s gone to over the years. Bodhi actually likes it and sometimes brings back things of his own to add to the collection.

[gleedegrassi-bigfan]

I don't know if you remember me. I am the anon who asked about autism some time ago. I had a talk with my mom today about that topic. She almost started crying, said I don't have it. That she is a terrible mother if I have it. And I explained to her what my symptoms are (lately I dwelled deep in the topic and found a lot) and she said that I don't have it, I can't have it, because I have many friends. No doctor ever noticed it. And I said no one ever looked for it in me and that women often+

+Get diagnosed later. She dismissed everything I had to say. Said that would be terrible if to my depression and my anxiety disorder autism would get added to the list. That the list is getting longer. That I probably are confusing it with my depression. And yeah don't know. I feel like shit now. Still haven't had the time to talk to my therapist yet. I was feeling comfortable with admitting to myself that I am on the spectrum, it explained so much about how I function and now i don't know.

+Now I am not sure about anything anymore. It was a mistake to talk to her. She only sees me as a list of problems. And she said I definitely shouldn't have kids, not that they are having all these problems too. (Does she regret having me, bc I am all these problems?) I am sorry for rambling. But just a little update. I wish you all the best

Hi, anon! It’s so good to hear from you again! I, of course, wish it was under better circumstances, but thank you for reaching back out with an update.

First of all, I am so terribly sorry that your conversion with your mother went poorly. I really want to give you the biggest virtual hug right now and just give you all the love and support you deserve. I’ll do what I can to make sure you know how wonderful and valid you are.

So, let me say that again, my friend. You are wonderful. You are valid. And you are doing so, so good. I am so proud of you for talking to your mom, even if it didn’t go well. You put yourself out there, which is amazing. It shows your own self assurances and your courage. Those are beautiful things. And you put yourself out there again by reaching out to me, which just goes to show that there is a fighter in you who isn’t giving up. I know it’s hard, but you are putting in the work and that is so great.

The fact that things with your mom didn’t go well is so far from your fault. You’ve done nothing wrong here. I hope you know that. You are not a list of problems, you are not a disappointment, you are not deserving of being a regret. You are a person worthy of so much excellence that I sincerely hope comes to you, even if you have to go running after it.

I also just want to reiterate that no matter what happens, you are in charge of your own identity and your own understanding of yourself. I know it can be hard to push away the clouds of other people's opinions. But I empower you to focus on what you know deep within yourself, what you are sure of, what feels right to you. That is what matters the most. I really do hope that you can hold tight to that through this journey.

I also do still encourage you to talk to your therapist if that is still something you still want to do, and I hope that it can bring you some peace and/or comfort. Also, if you have friends or other family you trust to have a conversation about this with, I would encourage that. It can be hard to reach out and open up, trust me I’ve been struggling a lot with that myself recently. But leaning on your support system really can work wonders and I wish that upon you. Little Druck advice; rewatching the “better than haze” clip where Matteo gets the building bridges advice from Rentier always motivates me to reach out to those I trust.

But I digress, or maybe that wasn’t a tangent, because my last point is that I am always here. On or off anon, private or public, whatever you need, literally. You’ve got a friend in me and I rooting for you. And I know that those in the Druck community and the Autistic Matteo community who see this are also rooting for you and are here for you.

Sending you all the love in the world and wishing you the best. Keep me updated if you can and I hope things get better, they will someday! Take care, my friend! <3

—Harper

[glimmeringtwilight]

Uh, hi. I haven't known your blog for long but all I can say is I love you and your blog. But also could I get a Yuri from DDLC who punishes their S/O for talking to Monika? I hope this is the right DDLC, but thanks in advance!

(It is the right DDLC! And I love yuri sm fhfhghfjrfjf. Thisone is a little dark just bc the game itself is EXTREMELY dark so just awarning in advance for tw blood and tw knifeplay/tw knives.)

 The first thing you realize when you come to is that you’renot in your room.

 You’re lying on your stomach on a cold tile floor, a verywarm, very present weight on yourback keeping you pinned. You quickly realize that there’s a gag crammed intoyour mouth, and when you try to move your hands you feel what you assume arecable-ties digging into the flesh of your wrists. Ice cold fear slices throughyour chest as you stiffen, feeling the weight on your back shift.  

 Whoever they were, they knew you were awake, so you knewpretending to be asleep wouldn’t work. You raise your head as much as you canto look behind you, to catch a glimpse of the face of your killer before youdie, but before you can a cold hand settles against the base of your neck,pushing your head firmly down. Their hand holds you there roughly, smashingyour face uncomfortably against the tile as if to warn you not to try it again.

 You’re about to start thrashing against them when they leandown, breath fanning against the back of your neck. Out of the corner of youreye you see plum colored strands of hair spill down around your head. Yuri…?

 “I’m sorry about the uncomfortable position,” She murmurs inyour ear, her voice sounding breathy and strained, like she was nervous too, “Iwould put a towel under you but I don’t want it to stain.”

 Your heart jumps into your throat. Stain?

 Yuri doesn’t let you finish the thought, shuffling back soshe was sitting on your pelvis. You wince at the slight stab of pain from thefeeling of your pelvic bone being forced against the tile under her weight. Herhand leaves your neck and she uses both of them to roll up the hem of yourshirt, exposing your back.

 You thrash under her, kicking out with your feet but neverquite being able to land a hard enough kick against her to knock her off ofyou. The position she’s pinned you in doesn’t allow you to struggle much, andyou can’t push her off with your hands bound and pinned underneath you.

 You don’t know what you did to deserve this. Yuri doesn’tseem like the type. Sure she was alittle quiet and weird, but she—you thought the two of you were friends! She’dnever been anything but kind to you, so this sudden, sharp shift in her behaviorcompletely blindsided you.

 Yuri finishes tugging your shirt up your back as far as itwill go with your arms still stuck beneath you, and the fight goes out of youas the realization finally kicks in that you’re completely at her mercy, dreadtaking place of your fight-or-flight instincts and freezing you to the spot.

 You hear her steadying her breaths behind you, feel theghost of her fingertips hovering over your shoulder blade. Her hands areshaking.

 Something scrapes against the tile behind you as she picksit up, and you pray that it isn’t a knife. You try, desperately, to mumblecoherent pleas through the gag. It doesn’t come out coherent at all, but Yuri knows what you’re saying and she placesa trembling hand against your spine to soothe you. It doesn’t.

 “Don’t be scared, I’ll make it quick,” She coos, and youshudder at the syrupy tone she uses, like she’s speaking to a scared puppy, “Thisis your fault, after all.”

 You shake your head and your shoulders jerk with a quietsob, and she pets down your spine again, ignoring the way you shudder in fearand revulsion at the mockingly-sweet gesture. Her hands aren’t shaking anymore.

 There’s a quick, cold kiss of metal against yourshoulderblade, but before you can process the feeling you feel sharp pain blossomingfrom the area. A choked cry bubbles past the gag stuffed in your mouth but Yuridoesn’t comment on it. You feel the blade quickly drag down before it’s liftedand then she’s cutting you again.

 It feels almost like she’s repeatedly cutting into you inthe same area over and over, but with the burning pain spreading steadilyacross your shoulders in a horizontal line, you realize she’s probably writingsomething.

 It takes you a second to realize she’s speaking to youagain, and you struggle to hear her through the roar of blood in your ears.

 “… I just can’t stand watching you talk to… her,” Her hands tremble slightly in whatyou think is anger and you hiss in pain as she quickly finishes the cut she wasmaking, digging the blade in a little toodeep. “You can’t talk to her. Not her. NOTher.”

 You don’t know what she’s talking about. Natsuki? Monika? She’srambling, muttering incoherences.

 The cuts move down, just a little bit, from the line of burningpain across your back, and now you knowshe’s writing something.

 “Do you—do you even know what she is? She—” She cuts herselfoff, movements with the knife stilling. It’s still buried in your flesh, so youkeep still and hold your breath, not knowing what she plans to do.

 There’s a long stretch of silence before she resumes hermotions, as though she forgot what she was saying just seconds ago. When shespeaks again her voice is strained, “You’re not allowed to talk to Monikaanymore.”

 Is that what this was about? You hardly ever spoke toMonika! She always seemed to disappear for extended periods of time, and she creepedyou out. Always it seemed like she was looking through you rather than at you. You wish you’d known that it wasn’tMonika who you needed to worry about.

 Yuri goes back to mumbling under her breath, keeping thesame quick and precise motions of the blade despite the occasional slip whereshe digs the knife in too deep. Part of you suspects she isn’t doing it onaccident.

It feels like hours, though you know it’s probably only been minutes. Already the constant bite of pain from each cut is making your head swim. Yuri is working almost peacefully all the same, like she isn’t digging a blade into you. 

By the time she finishes you’re exhausted, your entire back feelslike it’s burning but the pain isn’t as sharp anymore. Darkness is creeping onthe edges of your vision and your eyelids feel so heavy. You wonder if it’s theblood loss or the stress.

 You can feel here burning holes into your back, admiringwhatever it was she carved into you, before she shuffles off you. Her handsslide underneath your stomach and haul you up, careful to avoid touching yourback.

 She settles you into a sitting position and reaches forsomething out of sight. Yuri brandishes a small hand mirror, and you realize asshe brings it closer that there’s a large bathroom mirror behind you. You don’twant to see what she wrote. You try closing your eyes and turning your headaway, but she just grabs your chin and digs her nails in until you open youreyes to look.

 Your back is a bloody mess, like it was mauled by a wildanimal. Despite the blood, you can still see what she wrote. Yuri, Yuri, Yuri, Yuri… Her name ispainted across your back, covering nearly the entirety of it. You feel sick.

 Yuri meets your eyes in the mirror and smiles bashfully. Youknow better than to believe it.

[master-sass-blast]

I'm here to bring chaos once again! I LOVE Hadassah (my wifi has been a nightmare recently so I haven't been able to say so sooner) and I would love to hear more about her so hit me with all the answers from the last OC ask post!!

Okay, Tumblr legit wouldn’t let me post my answer to this the first time. *fumes*

(also ty friendo for asking bc i’m too shy to talk about my oc stuff of my own volition)

Here’s a picture of Hadassah for anyone who hasn’t seen her face.

Throwing this under a cut because this post is LORGE.

Their age: 33-35 (age/birthdays are legit the last thing i figure out if i figure them out AT ALL).

Their sexuality/sexual preference: Bicurious.

Any siblings/Only child: She’s got two younger sisters, Naomi and Ruth.

Their favourite season: Legit doesn’t give a shit.

Who were/are their parents/guardians: So, Hadassah comes from money. Her father is a ridiculously successful CEO who has his hands in a lot of pies.She’s not on speaking terms with her mother.

Their gender: Female.

Their date of birth: April 11th. She’s an Aries and it SHOWS.

What clothing style: Practical, durable, and comfortable. Style goes out the window when you’re a soldier.

What is their favorite food after a break-up: She falls on the end of not eating.

Their favorite thing to do after a break-up: Brood. Hadassah’s pragmatic, and she’s not about to hold onto a relationship she doesn’t want/isn’t working, but she has a lot of issues with the concept of being alone. Once the break up happens, she’s gonna spend a lot of time wrestling her inner demons.

What happens in the ‘honeymoon phase’ for this character: Sex. So much sex. She takes the ‘honeymoon’ part of the phase very seriously asfkjsldjl.

How many serious relationships have they been in: Two --the first was with her late husband, Samuel, and the other is the one she winds up in with Frank Castle at the end of her story.

What is their nationality: American, technically, but she comes from a long line of ethnic, practicing Jews that she’s rightfully proud of.

What languages do they speak: English, Hebrew, and German.

What is their profession/Education: Hadassah was shafted into the Army at the age of seventeen, so being a soldier as basically been the dominant part of her life. She is, however, that person that knows a lot about almost everything. If there’s a question being asked, chances are she knows the answer to it.

Their favorite comfort food: Rugelach.

What’s a food they hate: Bacon cheeseburger. She tried one once during a rebellious episode and hated it.

Their music taste: Classic rock, but anything with a good beat will do in a pinch. She’s not picky.

Is there a story behind their name/meaning: Hadassah is the Jewish name of the historical --Jewish, obviously--figure Queen Esther. Esther was the wife of the Persian King Ahasuerus (Xerxes I) and saved her fellow Jews from persecution/genocide. Her actions are remembered today during the holiday Purim.

Something they do that seems childish to others: She’s a bit of an adrenaline junkie, but that’s about it.

What is their all-time favorite TV show: TV was too hard to keep up with during her tours, so she doesn’t really have one.

What is their all-time favorite movie: Again, she couldn’t really keep up with movies while she served, so she mostly sticks to classics --however, she did like the High School Musical movies; she’ll watch those with her niblings whenever they ask her to.

How big is their family: Decently sized. She doesn’t have any kids of her own, but her eldest younger sister --Naomi--has five kids of her own, and her youngest sister --Ruth--has seven kids and counting, which gives Hadassah an army of niblings to look after/spoil.

Are they close to anyone specific in the family: Hadassah isn’t really close to anyone after serving/being discharged from service. Her time in the Army changed her a lot --from her point of view--and she doesn’t feel like she can be around her family without feeling painfully disconnected. The only person that she’s legitimately close to that legally qualified as family was her late husband, Samuel.In her biological family, though, she’s closet to Naomi. They share similar personality types, which makes it easier for them to communicate.

Have they got any allergies: Nope. One of the benefits of going through the ‘Captain America treatment’ is never having allergies ever again.

Are they an emotional person: Not as we would think of emotional. She’s not overly sensitive, nor does she wear her heart on her sleeve, but she’s very comfortable with her emotions. They are what they are, and she doesn’t see a point in hiding them or trying to pretend she isn’t feeling them. If she’s happy, she’ll smile. If she’s angry, she’ll frown. The only time she starts hiding her emotions is if she’s not sure of what she’s feeling; she likes concrete answers.

Do they get angry/lose their temper quickly: Yes and no. She’s remarkably cool-headed about most things --you have to be in order to be a soldier--but if you hit a soft spot (the people she loves/her insecurities)? She goes from cool to violent in a snap.

What are some of their guilty pleasures: Hadassah feels no guilt for what she enjoys.

Do they have pets? Do they want pets: No and no. During her service, she had no way of reliably caring for a pet and wasn’t about to inflict that upon them. Post service --she was discharged due to a severe head injury--she can barely take care of herself, much less an animal.She will, however, spoil her niblings rotten with pets if they want them, much to the ire of her sisters.

Do they like kids? Do they want kids/have kids: Yes and (technically) yes. Hadassah likes kids just fine. She loves her niblings dearly, case in point.I can’t go into the reasoning behind the second answer without spilling a bunch of plot beans, but here are the facts: Hadassah doesn’t have kids of her own and cannot ever have kids of her own. For a long time, she’d decided to never have children outside of her inability to bear them because she thought, due to medical/mental reasons, she wouldn’t be a good mother.

Who’s cuddle buddy are they: Anyone who asks. Like, she’s not gonna cuddle with some rando, but if her niblings want to snuggle? She’s down. One of her sisters needs a hug? She’s there. Someone in her synagogue needs a shoulder to cry on? She’ll sit with them.

Do they have any tattoos: Yes. She has a list of names and locations tattooed on her arm. Several of her ancestors survived the Holocaust, so she has their names and the camps/ghettos they were in tattooed on her so their struggle isn’t forgotten/so someone can’t sweep them under a political rug and try to erase history.

Do they have any piercings: She did, but the holes closed when she was ‘Captain America-ized.”

What is their hair color? Is it their natural color: Dark brown and yes.

Do they like musicals: Sure. They’re fun in their own right, and since a new one isn’t popping out every other day she can actually keep up with them around her tour schedule.

Do they like marmite: She’s never been around a Kosher option and counts herself lucky for it.

Do they like glitter: For herself? No. For a prank to inflict on someone else? YES.

Do they believe in the supernatural: She believes in the supernatural beings mentioned in the Torah and other approved scriptures, and that’s it.

Have they ever seen a dead body: Yupp. Can’t be a soldier without seeing those.

Have they ever had a near-death experience: Also yes. Not gonna spill the plot beans, but it’s how she gets her head injury.

Have they ever broken a bone: Not any that belonged to her, but yes.

What are they like when they’re drunk/what kind of drunk are they: She can’t get drunk after her ‘Captain America treatment’ --and doesn’t drink alcohol after her head injury--but she was a pretty rowdy drunk as a teenager.

Have they ever drunk underage: Yepp.

What is the first thing they do when they wake up: Pre-head injury/discharge: check her weapons and secure the apartment.Post-head injury/discharge: about the same, but she also puts down the time she woke up, date, and weather in a journal to help her keep track of things/exercise her brain/make a safety net if she starts having memory issues.

Do they consider themselves popular: You have to give a shit about being popular to consider yourself popular, and Hadassah doesn’t give a shit.

How do they like their tea/coffee: Black. It’s the easiest way to make sure her coffee’s Kosher.She doesn’t drink tea.

What do they smell like: “You can find out at your own fucking risk.” -- Hadassah, at some point.(This is a weird question, lol.)

Are they a virgin: Nnnnope.

Do they wear glasses/contacts: Also no. Another other benefit of the ‘Captain America treatment’ is never needing either of those ever again ever.

Are they good at remembering significant dates? Anniversaries, birthdays etc: Pre-head injury Hadassah is a history BUFF. Not only does she remember birthdays/anniversaries, but she can list back major and minor historical events --international, mind you--for three centuries. Her list of Jewish history/timeline is even more extensive.Post-head injury, some of that fades a little due to her memory problems, but she does the best she can.