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What if when you're revived in the library you end up losing all your memories of L corp like how it is on your first day working there. How would Binah react to this?
oh.
no.
no. not this again. she can't go through this yet again, for the hundredth, thousandth, millionth time. in the facility she could bear it, sleeping and waking to the same beginning over and over. but here- all the others come to intact. only you sit up from where you were asleep, looking around in confusion. at first Binah thinks you're merely dazed, crouching by you and settling her hand on your head, but no- you don't recognize her, or your coworkers, or anyone, staring up at her with trepidation. you ask her what her name is. her fingers twitch as she fights to keep her composure, carefully schooling her expression into one of polite neutrality and sitting back with a silent breath. and she tilts her head, slightly, just as you used to do to her
"...I am called Binah."
you're not sure what's going on in this strange place. the people around you call it a Library and speak of light. you can't quite see it. this Floor you're working in is rather dark, lit only by floating stars and candles. although, you're never certain of anything here. why the books seem to contain nothing and everything. what your purpose is here. who the odd strangers you're forced into battle with are- isn't this a bit excessive? this is a Library, after all. you're not given an explanation, merely told to work and keep working and ignore the odd, pitying glances the other librarians give you. wondering why that elegant, regal lady, your Patron Librarian Binah, always looked at you silently, dark eyes weeping without tears. you didn't know her, before this
why do you see black feathers in your dreams, then?
#project moon#lobotomy corp#library of ruina#binah#binah lobcorp#binah library of ruina#she tries not to treat you any different#but she can't help herself#she's so gentle with you#silently pleading for your memories to come back#perhaps they do#or perhaps you fall in love with her all over again#she shall hold you either way#and cry. quietly
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i love the tower princes. i love that there’s absolutely no way in hell that this friendship is even remotely good for either of them. love that they assuredly are making each other SO much worse with every second they spend together.
#tlt#the locked tomb#ntn spoilers#my art#anyway ever think about how the empire of the nine houses is pretty much singlehandedly being run by ianthe#and not only are the 2 people who are supposed to outrank her no help at all#they're actually actively detrimental to the empire's functioning as they are both deep in their depression spirals#and won't stop trying to start the apocalypse like they wanna start the apocalypse so BAD!! and ianthe doesn't even want to#be saving the world. girl wants to be villainous. she's stopping the apocalypse with an air of 'UGH i have to do EVERYTHING around here'#you really can't blame her for needing a chew toy. luckily kiriona is right there and she's basically a professional chew toy.#she's used to it. who knows what she'd even do with herself if no one was chomping on her. so it works out!! (not)
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Vivienne's fear being 'becoming irrelevant' isn't something that's linked explicitly to her pride, no matter what Solas says about her (and the irony of Mr.Pride himself saying that should not be lost on you), it reveals what and who Vivienne truly is.
She's a survivalist.
Because we don't spend as much time in the Free Marches or Orlesian circles, we don't get to experience what being a mage is in these cultures. In Ferelden and Kirkwall, a mage is a lesser being without freedom no matter what they do--but in the Free Marches and Orlais specifically, mages are commodities that are given freedom so long as they play an entertaining enough role. They can explore the world if they have a noble patron, if they catch the right person's eye. They are, in a way, two sides of the same coin--refusing mages agency and forcing them to relay on higher powers. Vivienne lucked out, as sad as it is, when Bastion fell in love with her; she found someone who was contrarian enough to recognize her as a full person and also someone with power that could help her rise through the ranks. This is not to say that Vivienne on her own wasn't an exceedingly talented and intelligent individual--by nineteen she was already the youngest full fledged mage in Circle history and she was skilled enough to make herself an enchanter. But, I can not emphasize this enough, none of that matters if she didn't also play the Game and impress enough people.
Vivienne could have been the most brilliant mage in the history of Thedas and it means nothing if she was overlooked by nobility.
So when Bastion made her his mistress, she gained not just a lover but also a means to an end. Now she can use her magic to protect herself. Now she can roam where she wants and not be question for it because she's Madame Vivienne. Now, she can walk into the Orlasian court and belong there.
And what happens? Celene notices her and makes her the Court Enchanter, a position that has always been the equivalent of a jester. Vivienne took that title, ignored that it was essentially a glorified insult to who she is, and made it a position of power. She made the Court Enchanter into an advisor, a political rank. She had done the impossible and made mages an actual political entity in the Orlasian Court, something that wasn't seen outside of Tervinter (not counting what players can do under very specific conditions if they made mages in DAO and DA2).
All that, however, only continues as long as the court recognizes her as something worth their attention. Vivienne needs to maintain her act as Madame De Fer, The Lady of Iron, the Court Enchanter, The Jewel of the High Court, because the second she just becomes Vivienne, it's over for her. The assassins coming raining in, her name gets devoured by rumors and gossip, and she'll be found dead at bottom of the stair case with a dagger in her back if she's lucky.
So of course when the Circles fall apart during the Rebellion, she clings to that Loyalist Mages to maintain that structure--of course she moves her pieces to the Inquisition, knowing that if the Circle DOES fall, she at least as another place for herself and mages latch onto--of course when she hears that Celene replaced her with a new Court Enchanter that appeared out of no where, she grows to resent Morrigan.
Like, Morrigan literally pops up out of thin air, makes herself invaluable to Celene, and then plants herself in the place Vivienne had to claw her way up to and create so she could survive. Would you not be resentful when your life's work is usurped by some random witch of the wilds because she happened to charm the Empress? Everything Vivienne strived for all whisked away because the court find a gem who glimmers ever so slightly more than Vivienne.
So yes, Vivienne fears becoming irrelevant because the world has made it so that irrelevance for an Orlesian mage means death.
#vivienne making herself into the most beautiful shining gem of the court#making herself razor sharp and blindingly glittering and audacious so everyone HAS to look at her whether she likes it or not#and then when she thinks she can step away and focus on the Inquisition to help her fellow mages here comes Morrigan#who may be just as glittering just as sharp just as beautiful but she does it in a more wild way that the court snaps its head to look at h#and Vivienne fears that she's about to lost everything#and she white knuckles her alliance to the Inquisition like a life line and hope this gamble sees her through#because the alternative is far too horrifying for her to entertain#and do not confuse all of that with Vivienne being selfish because she's NOT Vivienne is not pulling the ladder from other mages#she wants them to have her power but she's aware that if Morrigan pulls HER ladder than it's all over#and really why the fuck are we holding all that against Vivienne when this is how the world made her (a world that is canonically colorist)#so she could live and breath and be seen as equal in some measurement?#I mean if you can sympathize with SOME OTHER MAGES for how they navigate an hostile world I wonder why you can't do the same for Vivienne#unless there's a glaring reason why you wouldn't dare get to know her#writing#vivienne de fer#dragon age#vivienne#dragon age inquisition
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DPXDC Idea: Mother of Monsters Dan(yal)
Specifically Fem!Dan because I made this in mind with my Fem Danyal Au bUT. The best part about Dan is that I get to play dress up with her, and Fem Dark Dany is gonna go by Layal (pronounced lae-el) because it means "the nights" and it sounds similar to Danyal, and I think she'd choose that name to mock Dany. ANYWAYS
Mother of Monsters Danyal. She may be evil but she's an Al Ghul at her core (even with vlad's soul merged with hers - however, considering that Layal looks and sounds like Dany, she considers that soul to be the more dominant one.) and loves animals. And she might be heartless, but she adores the monsters of the infinite realms.
Mother of Monsters Layal who hates everyone but utterly dotes and adores on every manner of beast she comes across. Stealing the eggs and infant young beasts of the Infinite Realms to raise as her own because she wanted them. Her own island full of monsters, a monstrous menagerie of her own. She steals most often from poachers or exotic pet keepers and other menageries -- the full grown beasties can keep their young.
And with every monster she raises, she can shapeshift their features onto herself, allowing her to change her shape from humanish to any matter of monster or hybrid creature. She calls herself their mother, and them her children. Her precious little babies, capable of incredible mass destruction and mayhem.
From little griffins the size of kittens, to stymphalian vulture chicks, and leviathan young hatching from eggs the size of her pinkie, to creatures native of the ghost zone that didn't even have names in the living realm. There really wasn't a limit to what or who she would take in and she didn't limit herself to any form of mythology. If they were beasts and they were unwanted, she wanted them. And as such, amassed her own mini army of "children" willing to listen to her any command.
Earth doesn't know what hit it when she attacks them.
There are many monstrous forms she could take on, the first one I've thought of is a combination of various serpentine/reptilian features. The body of a naga -- her lower half long and serpentine, her upper still human -- with spiked fins connecting from the bottom of her arms to her sides, ever seen Sinbad where Eris goes "you might have seen my likeness on the temple walls" and her arms do that fin thingy? Same concept. Her hands are webbed and taloned, perfect for slicing through the skin of the living, and her teeth are needle-sharp and shark like. Her hair can either be spiny and feathery-like like the spines of a lionfish, or frilled like a frilled-neck lizard. It's perfect for dealing and doting on her reptilian and amphibian-inclined darlings.
I'm more of a fan of aus where Dan is a sibling of Danny's rather than their kid, so Layal's redemption(..?? probation?) proceeds with her legally becoming Danyal's "twin" sister, who had been lost to the foster system before the Fentons adopted Dany, and was only recently reunited with her. The two of them look so alike that the lie is easy to take root and spread.
Layal is very indignant to the fact that she's now ten years in the past and has to restart her menagerie all over again. Do you know how much blood and sweat went into raising those children? How dare you separate them from their mummy. Although she'll admit she does miss their juvenile years, so she won't mind (too much) needing to raising them again. Dany is helping her retrieve all of them though, dammit.
long story short: epic the musical's "Scylla" has a CHOKEHOLD on me and this is the result of it
Unlike her Dan counterpart, Layal's voice is dancing and sirenic. It's purposely alluring and motherly, in order to lure people into a false sense of security until she feeds them to her "children." Echidna doesn't have shit on her. She almost seems friendly and reasonable, until you get too close and realize it was all an act and she drops it to metaphorically swallow you whole. She's like an anglerfish that way. She and Dany both sound like Scylla from Epic.
#mother of monsters danny#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpdc#dpxdc au#dpxdc prompt#fem danny fenton#fem danyal al ghul#danyal al ghul#dany helps laya find one(1) beastie and instantly falls in love. laya does not need to convince her to come help her rob other ghosts blind#of their exotic “pets” or animals or whatever the reason they have beasts that they shouldn't for. she'll volunteer willingly its a trait#that they share. laya knows that raising her babies will be difficult now that she has to g back to *school* but dammit se's not leaving#them in the hands of the people she found them in. those are HER children fuck you.#Layal is the one to reveal to Damian that his older sister is alive and it was on purpose. It was to send him on a wild goose chase looking#for Dany in order to be around to save her from becoming Layal.#'Tragic. Terribly tragic; your dear sister had her soul ripped from her body and merged with another. What was left of her...'#'well. i put out of its misery.' she's very cloying towards damian and this is on purpose because she thinks its funny to get under his ski#goes out of her way to only ever refer to him as 'little brother' but if she can't she'll call him sickeningly sweet nicknames.#this happens about oooo midway 'redemption'? Where Laya is actually rather fond of Dany and is starting to consider her as a sister#as well. and she likes Ali. Laya herself is still rather unsympathetic to the world around her. only acts on a kindness for 'her people'#her people includes Dany which is why she even actually told Damian that Dany was alive and gave him an incentive to look for her#because she saw DAny mourning another lost birthday for her little brother and decided to go 'aw fuck who gave me feelings' and decided to#make it everyones problem.#starry rambles
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it's been a week and i still haven't recovered </3 so i did a little sketch with this scene between normal and scary because it fucked me up and i need more moments of them comforting and caring for each other
#dndads#dndads s2#dungeons and daddies season 2#dndads s2 spoilers#dndads spoilers#scary marlowe#normal oak swallows garcia#these two make me so fucking ill#i love their relationship and i missed them having moments so much and i was so heartbroken when normal comforted scary about terry jr#it sucks! when your best friend looses her dad and she has to face all this feelings she was trying to protect herself from#and you can't do anything to help hee besides being there and hugging her#if normal could he would take her pain away in a heartbeat#which is an idea i am thinking. about normal messing with the modify memory spell to protect scary from being sad#anyways they are my babies and i love them so much and they are the siblings ever <3
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Couldn't stop thinking about the Macaria design i did a while ago
Also important:
#hades game#hades 2#artofmoonlightflowerqueen#hades supergiant#hades fanart#hades fan design#I imagine she started doing death god things at a very young age so her self worth is tied to her work#She compares herself to her siblings so that does not help either#Also she inherited Hades' flirting skills (She got nothing)#I imagine Mel and Zag regularly have to be like ''Maca for the love of gods they were flirting with you''#Zag makes offerings to Aphrodite like ''Please help Macaria she has 0 rizz i can't watch anymore''#The lantern and talons were made by Nyx (they are for death god stuff)#I have like 3 assignments what am i doing
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#lauren faust that fluttershy should've been an earth pony rather than a pegasus#but i think that she works better as a pegasus tbh#somethig about her not being able to fit in up in the clouds#and how she found herself and purpose on earth is really sweet#sometimes all we need is to change our environement to do and feel better#fluttershy my beloved <3#<- me about any character at this point (i can't help that my heart is full of love)#art#digital art#mlp#mlp fim#mlp g4#my little pony#friendship is magic#mlp art#mlp fanart#mlp fluttershy#fluttershy#mlp fandom
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Wait, I thought only Adrien almost figured out that Marigold was Marinette. When did Marinette start thinking that Adrien was Chat Noir?
So Chat Noir gave Marinette a huge hint with this:
This severely limits her pool of potential candidates already. To see her "everyday" he'd either have to go to her school, be a regular at her bakery (which she's not usually working at, so unlikely), oooooor is stalking her lol. The school thing is the most likely.
And Marinette has already narrowed down the candidates through logic here:
While being blonde and green eyed doesn't hurt, it's not a given hint towards Chat Noir's identity. However, Marinette has ruled out everyone in her class out except Adrien and Chloe, and the feather allergy is a HUGE give away. While Marinette still has to consider the rest of the student body at her school, Adrien is ticking a LOT of boxes. And Marinette had a lowkey crush on Adrien for the first two seasons of SL, it's not unthinkable that she'd lean towards wanting Chat Noir to be Adrien and it's coloring her investigation. Lucky for her, she's correct.
#for scarlet lady's identity she hasn't narrowed it down nearly as much#adrien is accidentally telling on himself when Chat Noir can't make it to an akuma fight#whereas chloe consistently is late or doesn't show herself or care enough so her not showing up to help doesn't seem like a hint to marinet#sl ask
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for when you've just been through a trauma here, okay?!
for @simptasia
#shannon rutherford#lost#lost abc#medit#SHANNON WARRIORS RISE UP#honestly i have alot of thoughts rn regarding shannon and her insecurities and femininity...#and the patriarchy! bc she keeps her beauty regiments intact after the crash (e.g. tanning or giving herself a pedicure) - things that off#island are normalised and expected of her and her appearance is clearly something that she uses for validation bc she thinks she's useless#therwise. so of course (beside the fact that she thinks they're gonna get rescued soon) she isn't ''''helpful''''. bc she's just a pretty f#ce who can't do anything. and what can she do? what DOES she have control over? her beauty regiments#and then boone (AND VIEWERS!) make fun of her for it.#i doubt the writers thought that much about it and maybe it isn't that deep. but there's certainly something to unpack here. i love shannon#with other writers and at another time she could've been so phenomenal as a character#mvideo
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Finished..
Alt version under cut
#fourteen xfohv#bfb 4x#fifteen xfohv#4x bfb#fourx#digital art#eight xfohv#ten xfohv#tau xfohv#pi xfohv#x bfb#four bfb#bfb#bfdi#xfohv#fanart#tau is aroace bc tau is me and I am tau#i think pi would use the poly flag with the pi symbol on it for obvious reasons#algebralien gijinka#my skin is bruising but it should start getting better from here#when fifi doesn't have her weapons the 14 x 15 ship thrives#foul would totally tease fifi#fifi would be unable to KILL foul#but that doesn't mean she can't defend herself#neither can kill the other#and pi is in there for flavor!#pi probably helped foul escape and foul lead pi to fifi's cabin#they hide out in the woods together!!#two fugitives and an irritable host#love you all so much !!
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Something-something Kaito faking his death and going to his funeral in disguise as his mother [the real one of which is that random person in the bg, also in disguise of course]
#dcmk#kudo yukiko#kuroba kaito#kuroba chikage#vermouth#--who turned out amazing?#She was not supposed to be the star of the piece but I suppose she can't help herself
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Besides, you know. Why settle for hot, rich, and famous when I can hang out with you?
Smallville | 7.11 | "Siren"
#this moment is so special to me and y'all have no idea#despite all of their bickering and how much they claim that they don't like each other#they still let themselves be vulnerable with each other#Lois is such a guarded person because of the parentification her father put her through but she lets herself cry with him#and he can't help but comfort her because this is one of his best friends just utterly breaking down#and even though he knows that she makes the joke just to save face he still smiles at it#she curls her face into his shoulder and he rubs her back 🥺#Lois deserves all the hugs in the world and I adore that Clark shares that same sentiment (even if he doesn't realize it yet)#clois#clark kent#lois lane#smallville#gifs are mine#my post
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thinking about the way shadowheart, lae'zel and minthara deal with breaking away from a god/god-like figure they've dedicated their lives to. shadowheart immediately latches onto rescuing her parents as her new 'mission'. lae'zel immediately dedicates herself to freeing orpheus with the vigor she served vlaakith. minthara fixates on obtaining the power to make sure she's never controlled again.
its like. breaking away from gods/god-like figures leaves a void to fill. they're trying to fill it, and trying to choose what they fill it with. and they know that's what they're doing, in some ways, maybe to avoid the enormity of what it means to have broken away. maybe to avoid working out what they'll do as individuals. shadowheart doesnt know her parents, and they dont know her anymore, but she has to save them. you can ask lae'zel why she won't focus on herself, and she acknowledges there's no time for that. not yet. minthara wants you to use the power of the brain, but has dialogue/approval when you speak to ravenguard and she realizes hes still in there beneath the tadpoles influence, just like she was.
'my deference to him is a habit that will die hard, i fear'. minthara still calls the elder brain the absolute, even after she knows the truth. lae'zel still calls out to vlaakith in battle. shadowheart still wears the symbol of shar in her hair after dyeing it. indoctrination/ingrained beliefs are hard to break.
they've broken away from what was controlling their lives. they're free. they've lost everything. shadowheart can save her parents and but will always have that mark. lae'zel has been declared a traitor and will be hunted until vlaakith is overthrown. minthara can never go home, and would be executed if she tried.
they've broken away. they've lost everything. they're struggling with what that means. they're free. they wouldn't have it any other way.
#baldur's gate 3#shadowheart#lae'zel#minthara baenre#baldur's gate 3 spoilers#bg3 spoilers#i just. i love them#i love characters breaking away from religion and dealing with the religious trauma#i love when its not simple and easy#i love when the time is taken to show that its not easy#that theres a void thats not always filled with something 'good'#minthara wants u to use the power of the elder brain. maybe shes ignoring that means using people in the same position she wa#maybe shes telling herself she doesnt care#but when u meet ravenguard and reach out with the tadpole and find out hes still in there#she approves when yuo tell him hes being controlled#and says that hes still in there just like she was. that we should help#i dont know if lae'zel still calling out to vlakkith in battle is a bug or a mistake or something but it /works/#she hates her shes rejected her but thats been her entire /life/. its not discarded easily#same with the shar headpiece. i dont know if thats an oversight. but it works. shadowheart is still shadowheart.#like she says when she rescues her parents. she can't just forget shadowheart. thats not what she does anymore#i have some gripes about this game but god this is all so good
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Queen Brie gets a new loyal knight chew toy
#OC: Queen Brie the Fake Peppino#to be named#new clone is also in beta and subject to change but this was still cute and silly enough to post hehe#also do not worry new clone is fine! it is enriching for clones to be chewed on a little#and Her Majesty is being affectionate so it is just a gentle bite#she can't help herself her new knight is too cute she's just gotta have a love nibble or two#and the new guy doesn't mind - it's just mildly embarrassing and maybe a little unbecoming of Her Highness (tho she'd disagree to that)
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HARLEY QUINN: THE ANIMATED SERIES “A Very Problematic Valentine’s Day”
#harlivy#harley x ivy#harley quinn: the animated series#hqtasedit#dcedit#hqtas spoilers#she just can't help herself 😌
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Watching ST1 and surprised by just how much Nancy lies. She lies even when she has no reason to, like when she's hanging out with Steve and his friends and wants to leave, she could have easily said something like "I need to do something" or "I'm tired" but she made up some excuse about her mom. When asking Barb's mom about Barb, she could have easily told her she was worried but she didn't. Girl just lies like it's second nature to her.
#she doesn't lie like robin. robin lies for survival#for robin lying and cheating are the weapons life has given her. she's not strong or brave but she's extremely cunning#a fast talker and even faster thinker who can get herself out of almost any situation with her wit and silver tongue#nancy lies like it's a sickness. like she can't help herself. she lies like she's never learned how to be truthful#it's like a vice or an addiction. she's bad at it too. it barely just gets her out of trouble sometimes because people are too uncomfortable#to demand answers from her. at best she can buy herself a few extra seconds of time.#for robin lying is a knife tightly gripped in her hand for nancy it is a boiling poison in her blood and she can't get it out of her#ronance#< target audience
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