#but rn im rereading and im on catching fire

[moonworshippinglesbiandotcom]

katniss and peeta’s private sessions in catching fire really drive home the extent of the capitol’s, specifically snow’s, barbarity. peeta paints a picture of the most innocent of their victims, the youngest, and katniss hangs the most guilty, a member of the capitol himself. the eye of cruelty and brutality does not just lie on the districts but on anyone who dares deviate from snow’s ordained path. katniss and peeta show that no-one is safe, not even the capitol itself.

[mortifyingordealof]

actually. it's infuriating how the hunger games gets remembered as "one of those" ya love triangle stories. katniss spends the whole first two books resisting the advances of two young men, one representing everything revolutionary and combative, one representing peace within the status quo, while she repeatedly looks at the reader and says "I am just a traumatized kid, I don't know what to do, I should not be forced into this choice" until she is, essentially at gunpoint, forced to choose. There is never a tender moment between katniss or either of her suitors that is not horrendously overshadowed by the fact that she is, to some degree, an unwilling participant just trying to survive moment to moment.

[sydneyscarm]

“about the blogger” meme

thank you to @bioloyg for tagging me :)

y’all don’t really know me so this’ll b fun

star signs: aquarius sun, gemini moon, capricorn rising,,, two air signs in my big three might scare u but trust my chart is earth dominant!!!! i promise!!!!

fav holiday: i love christmas! im not particularly religious, and i don’t consider myself christian or catholic like when i was a child, but i love the lights and the music and the gift-giving and general holiday cheer

last meal: lol i think i had a joint for dinner last night honestly. just forgot to eat and went straight to bed after smoking. i’m about to eat filipino spaghetti for breakfast though

current fav musician: faye webster (specifically jonny rn) and beyonce (all of renaissance has been on repeat since its release) and victoria monet (all of jaguar II is insane, grammy sweep i just know it)

last music listened to: probably ctrl (deluxe) by sza on my way home from work last night

last movie watched: taken, that action movie with liam neeson lmfao. but if we��re talkin movie theater viewing, it was the ballad of songbirds and snakes

last tv watched: i’ve been rewatching s2 of bridgerton. kate & anthony the couple that you are.

last book/fic finished: the last book was catching fire (i was rereading thg like the rest of the world) and the last fic i read was an unfinished sydcarmy fic i found literally an hour ago called all things go (all things go) everyone should read it, very good.

last book/fic abandoned: last book i abandoned was speak, okinawa. it’s a memoir about an asian girl’s struggling relationship with her mother and her culture. very good (and relatable) but extremely heavy so i took a pause on it.

currently reading: thg resurgence so i’m reading the ballad of songbirds and snakes, i didn’t get to finish it before watching the movie and i keep getting caught up so it’s taking forever to finish, but im almost done w it

last thing researched for art/writing: i haven’t full-fledged written for fandom in probably years. but i used to research a lot of fighting techniques cause i was deep in the my hero academia brain rot LMFAO

fav online fandom memory: i mostly inhabited twitter fandom spaces so in 2020 i was placed in a ship gc and i met one of my best friends on there <3 so i think that would be it

fav old fandom you wish would have a resurgence: the show is quite shit and not good at all but, for nostalgia reasons, i would love to see fairy tail (anime) have a resurgence. i bet the fics would be soooo top tier compared to when i was like 9 and reading fics on wattpad and ffnet

fav thing you enjoy that never had an active or big “fandom” but you wish it did: this is more to do w me being interested in things once hype dies down and less to do with a fandom actually being active or big, but i absolutely devoured s2 of bridgerton when i first saw it. and i read every single fic in that kathony tag.

tempting project you’re trying to reign in/don’t have time for: i don’t really write anymore and have stuck to silly posts and headcanon threads but i’ve had a pride and prejudice sydcarmy au stuck in my head for a couple days

this was fun now u know some of my life!!! im pretty sure @bioloyg tagged everyone that i come across in this fandom so ive got no one WHOMP but feel free to do this if u see it 😛

[unsurebazookacore]

DUDE I SAW A HUNGER GAMES EDIT EARLIER AND NOW I AM BACK IN MY HYPERFIXATION HOLY SHIT I FEEL YOU FR

NO BC ACTUALLYYYY AHHH IM SO EXCITED IM HALWAY THRU REREADING CATCHING FIRE RN IM LITERALLY OBESSEDDDD

[autism-archey]

@hunter-sylvester tagged me in this, my very first tag game, so thanks hunter!! you are a pioneer of Metal Lords fan content, pls keep doing what you're doing!

3 Ships:

steddie, but listen, i don't Like season 4 of stranger things. i think the plot/writing was bad actually, but. i stuck around for steve, because damn they're good at writing characters and i loved his seasons 1-3 arc. steve & eddie have incredible chemistry that everyone else has already talked about but listen bro. what if they were t4t.

frerard, but listennn its for the DYNAMICS. i feel like frerard fics have like, mythologized this pairing into something distinct from those real people that are alive and exist. they've lifted the personas and adpoted them onto some really incredible works of fiction... there are archetypes and characteristics and relationship dynamics that i see over and over and over again, always distinctly non-normative and queer, and god dammit it gets me ever time.

i'm struggling to come up with a third... i think The Batman (2021) Selina and Bruce. actually yes this one definitely. god i fucking love those two. my heart like actually ached when she left at the end.

First Ship Ever:

This is going back a long time but I wanna say it was Stucky or Destiel that really had me first. which honestly i was right about that, those white guys have chemistry! i used to eat up post-winter soldier fics all the time and i always end up coming back to them. something about bucky on the run or holed up and scared as his memories struggle to come back, and then steve being the first person to be gentle with him. anyway

Last Song:

my god let me tell you. i listened to ethel cain for the first time today (Golden Age) and i immediately started like crying in the car and then i wrote more poetry than i have in maybe months? that was hours ago and i'm still neck deep in her discography =D

Last Movie:

Avatar: the way of water!!! Avatar is basically a new special interest for me and I'm learning sooo much about it. also this movie is Worth going to the fancy theater for.

Currently Reading:

Catching Fire by Suzanne Collins. i think this is the first time I'm rereading the hunger games, and I'm so glad i picked it up over christmastime bc 1) i got sucked into it and finished it in like a day and a half; and 2) what an incredible fictional depiction of revolution. like katniss' character arc, the emphasis on solidarity and community over and over and over again, every detail adds so much.

Vine Deloria Jr.'s The World We Used to Live In, which is packed with American Indian stories on spirituality and medicine men. i only just started it but i'm clinging onto his words like they're air. which, in the busted concrete version of the world now, they might as well be.

Currently Watching:

Dimension 20's Neverafter, which is premiering weekly rn (too slow! agonizing!!) and is just beginning, but already getting really fucking good. I keep my copy of Grimms' fairy tales in the bathroom now lol and the stories are crazy. The boy who could not fear had me at the edge of my toilet fr!!

Currently Consuming:

i mean where's the post that's like "autism costs families $60,000 a year" "all that weed im smoking"

Currently Craving:

my boyfriend come back :( when you're here you always put my head back on my shoulders the right way but it gets all messed up every time you leave

i dont think i have anyone to tag but mayve i'll edit & update with a tag later!

[acebean]

thank you for the tag!! :)

last song I listened to: well im currently in the middle of pirating my entire spotify library bc im sick on going on 30 minute walks and hear 15 minutes of fucking ads and also not being able to really pick what i listen to so at this exact second im listening to wild by troye sivan

currently watching: 9-1-1 is airing rn so ive been watching that with bestie, as well as Chicago Fire with my bestie but we're only on Season 4 so far, other than that I've been working through alot of old youtube series like Jacksepticeye playing Life Is Strange 2 and Markiplier playing Red Dead Redemption 2

currently reading: i've been slowing rereading/catching up on the Percy Jackson books since I stopped keeping up with those part way through the Trials of Apollo series, I own all of them I just haven't read them

currently obsessed with: i've been fixated on Assassin's Creed for about a year now please help

favorite color: i really like deep blues and purples

tagging: @plumberrypudding @theyvegotsomuchtowhisperabout @novarosewood

TAG GAME

get to know you better game! answer the questions and tag 9 people you want to know better.

last song I listened to: at the time I was tagged I think 'love crime' (that one song from the ending of the hannibal tv series) but at the time I'm actually posting this it was 'personal jesus' by Depeche Mode.

currently watching: the Saw movies (I only have 'Saw X' left and I'll be done with that), the spiderman movies (all of them, in no particular order). Also I'm trying to find the time to properly watch the star trek movies again.

currently reading: Nothing. I'm searching for a 'complete Sherlock Holmes' edition to read all the stories thought.

currently obsessed with: umm, nothing actually. I'm still really into star trek, lupin iii, sherlock holmes and a lot of other things (batman?) but I not hyperfixated in any of them in particular at the moment :/

favorite color: deep red, dark blue (with black/gray undertones), forest greens, yellow...

tagged by: @hope-of-enterprise thank you for tagging me, I have no idea if I did this correctly though (also I'm pretty sure this 'tag game' started as a chain of reblogs or something but got 'broken' along the way and I'm too lazy to track the original post)

tagging: I don't think I even know 9 people but here, let me try by tagging some people that I have actually interacted with. @yirima-chai , @sawbones4117 , @starrycrowz , @kaklord , @kabbage-potato , @purpleenma , @scummybee , @bakersttardis , @current-events-mc

If you've already been tagged in this uhh, ignore it I guess.

[stevie-steven-stevington]

bro i am literally never gonna get over peeta in catching fire going “if.....if it weren’t............if it weren’t for the baby 😓🥺” like THAT MAN KNEW EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS DOING AND IT LITERALLY WENT EXACTLY LIKE HE THOUGHT IT WOULD HE SAID YOU FUCKERS DON’T CARE THAT KIDS ARE BEING SENT TO DIE? WELL HOW ABT THIS FAKE UNBORN BABY AND EVERYONE SAID OH NO NOT THE UNBORN BABY!!!

[lesbiten]

Rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better or catch up with (or tag whomever)

[putting this under the cut]

tagged by: @leo-frognag

Favourite colour: my go to answer to this is always purple but idk!!!! purple and orange and green are all very good colors.....also im redying my hair purple (MAYBE?) in a bit so i may be biased. but im not like set on that so i am open to interpretation. what color should i dye my hair

Last song: in the attic by the antlers because i have mentwol iwwness

Currently reading: A LOT OF BOOKS AT THE SAME TIME!! technically im still reading wicked (probably postponed because my brain is just like. not. doing it) also technically still reading warriors fire and ice as part of my full series reread but that has. pretty much also been postponed. im also reading warriors the place of no stars right now because its the furthest ive read in the main series. im also going very slowly thru that. also also have been meaning to start spotfur's rebellion because its the last novella in that set i need to finish. ummm. and also im reading the hobbit for scifi LOL

Last movie: can i change this to last show...cuz the last movie i watched was deepwater horizon for ap enviro and that shit was like. the most average action movie ive ever seen. but in terms of SHOWS im finally on doctor who episodes that werent out when i was initially obsessed with it as a kid :) and thank god because twelve seems very fun and i hope moffat fucked him up less than he fucked up eleven

Sweet, savoury or spicy: easy. sweet. i eat an ungodly amount of candy. dentists hate her

Currently working on: urrmhmhm. hm. i dont write and im not currently working on any major art projects really. i have stuff i Want to do eventually but nowhere even near like. starting. outside of art stuff i have to do for school im not really doing anything rn i dont think.....in terms of like what i would most like to get done on my mental Art Things To-Do List i REALLY want to storyboard an eyes peeled by half-handed cloud sol (the warrior cats one) pmv. its been a project ive had in mind for almost 2 years now and i intend to at least start it soon hopefully.

tagging: @1x04 @ghoostcats + any of my other mutuals who want 2 do it. tagging nine people is stressful but yall are all tagged in spirit (plus several of my muts have already been tagged in one of these LMFAO)

[relaxxattack]

(this is like 1.3k words btw probably should have mentioned that)(I haven't reread this in like two weeks so gl)

Sometimes it's wise to not open your mouth. That was the first thing Ran had learned while traveling to the other world.

A few half-seconds after that, he learned that humans were a danger, and violent. Seemingly flinging their sloppily made weapons at any being they didn’t immediately recognize. He had to learn a lot of things in those few moments he had spent on that green filled-plain. He can still relay them in his mind, every now and then he finds an odd obligation to.

“Do you think I make a good general?” Jackie asked his otherworldly friend, the small man’s eyes tracing horizon in front of them. The calm lavender of the setting sun being clouded out of view by blooming rose-bushes.

Rule 1 is a lesson Ran finds himself relaying quite a bit.

Reassurances began itching themselves in the back of his throat, the small compliments of leadership and respect laying uncomfortably on Ran’s teeth and bitterly against his tongue.

An empty and distant “How so?” was what left his mouth in their place.

“It’s just,” Jackie's steps slowed for a moment. “I’m not a warrior, or- or even a soldier really. I just miss,” the general paused, stopping himself “God, I shouldn't have won that duel-”

“What do you miss?” Ran interrupted

Jackie hitched his breath and bit the inside of his lip, a flicker of pain sparking in his eyes “it's complicated.”

Human emotions were, with lack of a better word, odd. A single twitch of the eye or the wrinkle of the nose could have hundreds of roads leading to it, each becoming less and less paved as it got closer to its destination.

What further complicated this was that different expressions meant different things for different people, something that was entirely alien to the enderman, and something that took a lot of readjusting to become common to.

It was excruciatingly difficult with Jackie however. Often there were universal mannerisms that showed emotion amongst everyone. Small certainties that made Ran’s job just a little bit easier.

All of these practices had been thrown out the window at the sight of the general. Ran had been required to evolve a keen eye for pointing out when his friend became distressed. Perhaps it was the tenseness of his jaw, or the way he forced his shoulders down from hiding away his neck.

They were small things, for often a hollow grin left a stain on the blonde man’s face.

Something ached in the back of Ran’s skull “do you just not want to tell me?”

Jackie allowed his head to sag.

“I don't want to tell anyone really,” the young man explained with a nervous laugh, view craning downwards towards the hoard of daffodils that had begun to blossom over the garden-path.

They were beautiful things, blooming in honey and sugar bells, their undersides being highlighted in a golden orange as the light split through the petals.

There was something mesmerizing about them, the stems pinching through the cracks in the pavement and the soft, enclosed buds flopping over the smaller strands of green that kept them connected to the rest of the plant.

The blond boy held a lonesome nostalgia for when he would pick them from the line of their roots, growing through the gravel path in his old back garden. How he and his sister would split the flimsy stems in half and taste their sour insides, the clear, sugary liquid stickying the tips of their fingers and flecks of green getting inside their fingernails.

“What are you looking at?” Ran questioned, peering over the short general who had seemed to stop in place.

“They really are beautiful,” the young man answered.

“The daffodils?”

“Yes.”

“You do realize most gardeners consider them weeds?”

Jackie clenched his jaw and hit his friend on the arm a bit too roughly to seem playful “oh please, and you’re not a gardener now are you?” A forced, breathy chuckle came out of his mouth.

They were the small things.

That was yet another thing Ran had to figure out. But he’d get it eventually. He always does.

The smaller of the two quietly stormed away from his friend, kicking up granite and limestone off the ground as his feet trudged against the gravel, a small cloud of grey building up behind his heels.

The blond boy’s silhouette was outlined by a fractured golden rim as the sunlight filtered in through the gaps in between the rose-bush’s leaves, his shoulders seeming to quiver as they were strained down by his own mandatory will.

Ran paused, gazing at the lovely picture in front of him, the gorgeous oranges and reds lighting up the garden's foliage creating a pinkish purple reflection off the flora.

Something weighed down in the back of his chest. He wanted to see Jackie’s smile be genuine, at least for the rest of the night.

“They do look nice,” the tall one said, catching up to the small sunflower that had moved so quickly past him.

Jackie’s eyes softened and Ran felt something flutter behind his ears.

“You really think so?” He asked, looking upwards towards his friend.

“Definitely,” Ran answered.

The boy bit the inside of his lip, the corners of his mouth craning upwards into a grin “what do you like about them?”

Ran thought for a moment “,I enjoy how they grow in groups. No matter where they are, unless the rest were picked off obviously, you’ll never see one alone.”

“Do you have a favorite flower?” Jackie perched up on his tiptoes and poked his nose close to the enderman’s face.

“Um,” the creature said, flinching back slightly “I don’t, really, know any. Do you want to tell me some?”

“Definitely.”

“Well, continue then.”

Jackie lingered by his friend's emerald eyes for a moment longer, entranced by the way they seemed to be framed in sparkling jewels.

He had beautiful eyes, that was one of the things Jackie had learned.

The short boy pointed over to a field of purple flowers and began rambling about hybrids history and how they bloom. How they've evolved, how they’re perceived and what they mean. Another enderman creature came up briefly, something about bouquets and wedding venues although the conversation quickly changed pace towards the vines of ivy and grapevine that grew over the side of the building, the grape curling around frames with the ivy tracing the cracks between bricks.

They talked about flowers for the rest of the night, one going on tangents of pollination with the other humbly listening, wandering around the garden as ramblings of petals and pigment created a hum from the greenery.

It was a nice night, afterall Ran’s cheeks hurt from smiling for so long, and what night like that couldn't have been nice?

Just for tonight.

At least just for tonight.

---

It was important to keep logs of the day. Information discovered, things that should have gone unseen and private being filtered out through trails of citizens and roads leading to another realm.

The page with flowers sketched into the corners, however, was one that would be ripped out and hidden, stuffed into the back of a drawer neatly folded and left to read over later.

Of course there were a few pages torn at the seams. Ones that Ran knew neither he nor Jackie would have wanted to be discovered.

They were important, though. The self-doubt, a weak link that could be potentially valuable during war-time, not that Ran was 100% sure that the diplomat he had been newly assigned even knew they were fighting.

It felt like a quiver lined with something bitter, the archer firing arrow heads made of needle and flint with a bow string lit on fire.

The trickles of ink from quill to paper detailing strategies and lackluster qualities of the opposing side.

This is when he’d remind himself of Rule 2.

The most important point to be made.

I wrote this like 3 months ago so the pacing is a bit weird. but jackie is kinda out of character for a reason lol sleep deprivation and burnout will do that to you :]

its sweet though its so sweet im going all TwT rn.... awwwwwwweee

okay now i must return to my work prison (god its due soon and im doing just Horribly help hudvsjkmx)

[bringingglory]

Hey bestie, for the fanfic ask thing I’ve got these for you: 🖊 (if you don’t have a snippet then just like describe a scene you’re excited for, and you know which fic I’m asking about lol) ✨ 🍰

aldkjfhasdf hey bestie, my love, my light, asjdfhlaskdjf thank u in so much for this ask <333

🖊 Post a snippet from a current WIP.

okay first of all, this whole scene feels so embarrassing bc its SO SAPPY. like, i would have posted a more comedic scene, but all the funny college crack shenanigan scenes are very unpolished rn so uhhhhh have gross sappy corny scene instead alkdjsfhasdlk while this scene is slightly less unpolished than my other scenes, it is still subject to change bc, yknow, rough drafts

“Iwa-chan!”

Hajime spun around to see Tooru sprinting towards him from the baggage claim.

A breathless laugh bubbled out of his chest. “Oika—”

Tooru dropped his luggage handle and threw his arms around Hajime’s neck.

Hajime let out an oof before he caught Tooru and wrapped him in a hug.

“Iwa-chan,” he breathed. “I’m in California!”

“Yeah, you are,” laughed Hajime. “I can’t believe you’re actually here.”

The smell of Tooru was overwhelming. He smelled like the stale recycled airplane air that came from a fourteen hour flight, but he thought he could smell the beach sand on him. Tooru was tanner than when Hajime had last seen him, and he could see the faintest freckles dotting the back of his neck, and even though his hair had turned a lighter brown from the sun, his shampoo still smelled the same.

Standing in the middle of the airport pressed chest to chest with Tooru was addicting, but Hajime was afraid that if he didn’t pull away soon, he wouldn’t pull away ever. But when he tried to take a step back, Tooru tightened his arms.

Hajime froze. “Uh, Oikawa—”

“Be nice to me,” Tooru mumbled into his neck. “I missed you.”

Ohhh, this was so bad for his heart.

He hesitated for a moment before tightening his arms again. “I missed you, too.”

He could feel Tooru’s smile spreading across the skin of his neck and his heart stumbled in his chest. Hajime let them stay like that for another second before he pulled away.

“Okay, let me go now,” he said. “We should stop blocking the way.”

“Fiiiine.” Tooru pulled away with a dramatic sigh.

✨ Choose three adjectives to complement your own writing.

sdfhalskdjfa feels weird saying positive things about urself bc im terrified of sounding arrogant but uhhhh alkdjfhaldskfdsalfjsdflkjhdalksjfhalksjdfhlkads okay

1. comedic - or at least i try really hard to be. i really try to put humor in a lot of my fics bc i don't want to make stuff *too* serious or dramatic, plus i think having light-hearted moments makes the serious moments hit a little harder. or at least i hope they do akljdsfhlaksd

2. conversational - idk if this is a good adjective? but it's a thing that i kind of strive to make my prose to be. like, ever since i read the wings of fire series in 7th grade, i've noticed that the prose itself is conversational or it has a v specific voice (i dont mean like character voice, but that counts too) and i really liked that so even though i write p much exclusively in 3rd person, i always try to make the prose a bit conversational, if that makes sense (not that 3rd person is commonly voiceless, but like u tend to get more voice in 1st person stuff). god i hope i dont sound like an asshole aldkjfhasdkl

3. poetic - this is a VERY recent thing and also my writing isn't always poetic, BUT every since that One Summer Day last august where i decided to learn how to write poetry, i have learned to write more poetically and sometimes it shows in my writing via the convoluted metaphors i come up with alkdjfhasd. ofc my writing isn't always poetic, so im just saying that this is v much a sometimes thing. and uhhhhh, i also literally cant come up with any other adjectives lol

🍰 Name one of your fave comfort fics (doesn’t have to be your all time fave).

THIS ONE OH MY GOD

so this is a super cute solangelo fic and who doesnt love solangelo BUT the part of this fic that makes it a comfort fic for me is all of the FRIENDSHIP and the HUMOR.

so a quick summary of this fic is that nico di angelo gets stuck in a time loop bc of aphrodite, and he can't get out of it until he figures out his "love troubles." she catches him when nico's trying to run away (he's running away bc will "rejected" him).

and so there's a lot of cute stuff about love and realizing people care about you and family and helping people and also it's just funny, like the scenes with hades and nico were p funny. it's overall just a fun romp and a light-hearted story and i just love it so. so much. i reread it when i feel sadboyhours or something bc i genuinely just love the friendship and everything about it.

once again, eye of my apple, life of my light, thank u so much for the ask bestie <333

ask game

[onepunchmiss]

OPM S2e11 Live Blog

“The Varieties of Pride”

I left work an hour early just to watch the episode sooner and of COURSE I GOT STUCK IN TRAFFIC FOR AN HOUR because the universe BE LIKE THAT. But guys holy shit this is the second to last episode of the season. So much shit is about to go down. I’m eerily calm and concerning myself soooo uh without further ado I’mma WATCH

As always I’m watching from the perspective of someone up to date on the manga and web comic!

Ok so we’re picking up exactly where we left off, but I mean how could we not, really? And Garou still looks beautiful and I still cri evr tim KEK Glasses looks SO out of place like his fists arent even raised when everyone else is pointing a weapon ar Garou like dude?? Every time Garou laughs I gain a year of life btw, also god damn he’s really drawn SO WELL here, pls pls pls treat Genos with the same respect my bby boy pls 

“Where are the S class heroes” oh dear be careful what you wish for…………………. asdfghjkl “any kid who heard you would be so let down” IDK GAROU ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT. ARE YOU. ohohohOH OH OH THE STAIRCASE!!! THE CRUEL STAIRCASE!! AH ok opening theme who it gon b this week 

ASDFGHJKL  A CHIBI GAROU IN THE OPENING IM IN LOVE 

Oh no these flashbacks are going to be heartbreaking, but at the same time I cant not see a bunch of Geryuganshoops asdfghjkl ohhh oh no Garou no Garou is literally me I was that child this is personal and it hurts stopppp I just wanted Wile E Coyote to catch road runner once JUST ONCE I was SO that kid  im- also what the hell kind of show is ‘Justice man’ why does the monster sound so sympathetic like, IM JUST TRYING TO STOP OCEAN POLLUTION TOO yall fuck just Justice Fire Kick me to the face too i guess 

AAAAAAAAA IM SCREAMING GO MY BOY KICK ASS THIS IS LIKE THE EXACT MOMENT WHERE GAROU OFFICIALLY EARNED MY COMPLETE RESPECT IN THE FIRST PLACE THEY THINK THEY GOT HIM AND HES JUST LIKE WELL ACTUALLY FUCK YOU IMMA POWER UP BITCH AND I AM LIVING SEEING IT IN MOTION MY BOY asdfghjkl”like im not allowed to have one? talk about discrimination” son I love you THIS IS AMAZING THIS WHOLE THING IS AMAZING 

BEHOLD the exact moment u shit ur metal pants, fool

IM JUST SCREAMING THIS WHOLE TIME I DONT HAVE WORDS THIS IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ANIMATION IVE SEEN ALL SEASON JC STAFF DOESNT SUCK THEY JUST POURED 100% OF THEIR TIME INTO THIS FIGHT 

WHOAH calm the fuck down there smiley face man?? I’m SO GLAD they made him look crazy a bit cause I honestly didn’t even notice him just nonchalantly suggest to kill him the first read through, holy shit fuck ????? 

THIS IS JUST SO GOOD IM SCREAMING HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WANT TO SCREENSHOT EVERY SINGLE FRAME ITS ALL SO GOOD 

WHAT IS THIS

WHAT IS THIS

A GLASSES FLASHBACK 

I THOUGHT IT WAS AN OMAKE OR???

WHAT IS THIS 

WHAT

OH MY GOD HIS VOICE?? IM,,, BABY NO AND SAITAMA??????????? WHAT THE FUCK AM I WITNESSING RIGHT NOW  

AND THEY’RE TALKING ABOUT LIMITS ST O P 

SADFHGJKLKJMHNGBFVCXCVBRGHNTYMJ<KUMJYNTBRVECWRVTBYUMIKMYNTBRVECVBTNYUMIYNTBRVECVRBTNYUM

I CANT BELIEVE THEY PUT THAT IN THERE WHAT THE SHIT FUCK 

OH GOD

I THINK IM GONNA LITERALLY CRY THIS SCENE GETS ME EVERY TIME I READ IT LIKE I JUST REREAD IT THIS MORNING BUT-----

oh no its happening. im crying ok oh dear lord 

I just…. love him so much … holy shit… ah the laugh, +1 more year life, and again oh no im becomming immortal ahhhh

ASDFGHJKL FUCK “YOU GOT ISSUES BROTHER” GODDAMNIT U READ MY MIND GAROU PLS

Oh my god. The voice sound effect here. just everything about this. Oh my god. I’m so shook holy shit shit ----- ‘Oh your still alive’ WELL ILL TELL U WHAT I AM LIVING RN SO YEAH oh no and Garous little slightly heartbroken hand gesture as Tareo screams and runs and then he just starts limping away gasping for water and then 

ASDFGHUJIKL GENOS 

WAIT CAN SOMEONE GIVE GAROU WATER FIRST THO 

I DONT KNOW IF IM EXCITED OR HEARTBROKEN RIGHT NOW HELP the MUSIC is so INTENSE and GENOS LOOKS SO COOL IM SO FULL OF EMOTIONS AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM IS CONFLICTING OH NO 

HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT THIS ANIMATION HOLY SHIT OH MY GOD OH MY GOD EVEN THE STILLS OF THE SMEAR FRAMES LOOK FUKKIN AMAZING GOD DAMNIT

wow ok saitama and king right ok gonna pause and give my heartrate a second to come down holy shit. I’m gonna watch and rewatch this episode 2000000 times I know it oh my god. phew. ok. ok. moving on 

Saitama just keeling over and SCREAMING is me 24/7 HOLY- omg I’m dying thank you opm for being a glorious mix of BADASS and PEAK COMEDY ASDFGHJKL WHAT IS THAT FACE SAITAMA this is so good. How long have they been there playing games anyway?? Aww King being concerned for Genos’s safety thats so sweet?? Also Saitama worrying very subtly I love them so much I cri 

AH THERE GOES MY HEART RATE AGAIN OK asdfghjkl THE watchdog Man movements!!! LOOK!! SO !! COOL!! Ouch ok I love seeing Garou smile but not while pinned to a tree like that no nope I dont like it not one bit oh no 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

THERE IT IS THERE IT IS THERE IT IS THERE IT IS OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ohhey its flowey undertale 

ASDFGHJKL OK Genos looks so cool I just IM so GLAD im just so happy I cant Also IM LOVING ANIME GAROU WITH THE RED its just SO GOOD  phew phew asdfghjk just EVERY SINGLE SHOT OF GAROU IS SO PERFECT EVERY. SINGLE. ONE 

BANG ASDFGHJKL BANG OH MY GOD I WAS SO CAUGHT UP I FORGOT wtf this music is so funky i love it??? Holy crap??? 

This looks soo good I am alive I am living is this the thrill of life ?? ? Oh my god. This music is killing me this is so intense, I don’t want it to end here. Bang is also drawn SO BEAUTIFULLY here everyone in the whole episode is WAIT

WAIT

I DO NOT REMEMBER THIS FLASH BACK 

THIS IS NEW 

OH NO 

ASDFGHJKL GODDAMNIT SOURFACE 

One, Murata, JC, why did you do that. that was cruel. It hurts. i wasn't prepared. I mean im never prepared but like ESPECIALLY not for that just tear my heart out just tear it out i dont even need it please just JUST 

oh no, you cant end the episode like that 

please come back 

wh-what about my favorite dopey bird man

please 

wha

what am I looking at what is this end card “The wiping of the disciple’s butt” is that really how thats translated?? What a fukkin roller coaster 

So this was by far my favorite episode of the season to date. I know a lot of people were worried about the animation quality and just overall quality JC staff has been putting out thus far, but I think it’s clear why the rest of the season has been average majority of the time. They spent. All the time. And budget. on. This. Episode. Every Character looked beautiful. The animation was fluid, not too blurry, not too flashy, well paced, and with high quality art. I just. Oh my god. I’m in denial right now that the season only has One episode left. Just 24 minutes more. Until WHO KNOWS when. Whos gonna cry with me next week? pls im gonna need like 100 shoulders my weak heart. ahh shitttttt

Side Note: DID YALL HEAR ABOUT THE OPM GAME COMING OUT??? I swear I JUST had a conversation with @joyandeggs last week about how they could make a game and what it should/could/would entail, AND LO, I HAVE BEEN BLESSED 

June 2019 is a BLESSED month for me regarding OPM the past few weeks have been an OVERLOAD

[giroshane]

*arises from the deep swamped by homework, actual work, moving, and various other life stresses*

im here at 3AM with some Good Omens headcanons bc tbh rn Crowley and Aziraphale are the only things keeping me going at this point

this is just my own shit there’s like no real support from the book (which i read when really young and don’t really remember and need to reread) or show (ive only had the time to watch episode 1 im DYING) here to my knowledge i was just really inspired by a fanart that had crowley’s hair catch fire when he was flustered and im love shit like that

and btw i dont think ANY of this is coherent 

Things Crowley does when (properly) Flustered

hair begins to smoke, and eventually, catch fire (after the first few close calls with Aziraphale Crowley trained himself ridiculously to keep it under control or at least out of Az’s sight)

He’ll start clearing his throat awkwardly. While a normal human tic, for Crowley it’s because it’s do that or breathe smoke like a dragon, and he’d rather save that power move for when he’s ANGRY, not when Aziraphale has gotten him a lovely rare plant.

in similar vein, he heats up! Space heater Crowley! Demons and angels both run hot but in diiiifferent ways. It’s funny because Az will cozy up to Crowley if it’s too cold, which will make Crowley heat up, which will make Az cozy up more, and the circle of stupidity continues

i just realized this before posting that by this logic if u make Crowley emotional enough u could probably cook an egg on him and im dying 

Stresses his sibilants (ive seen this a lot and i fucking LOVE IT hh h) (I imagine it might be frustrating when it impedes his actual speech, like trying to insult someone whose got on his nerves and going  “ssssSSSSssSSs-ss-sSTUPID! Fuck!”) (Az thinks its funny. And cute. Doesn’t quite pick up that it happens far more often when they’re together than when they’re apart bc he thinks its just a Snake Thing)

Scents the air (snake tongue thing) (this is more when he’s nervous than flustered--it’s a defense mechanism) (DANGER WHERE??? CHECK SURROUNDINGS)

alternately, scents air around Aziraphale (i mean, come on, “I know what you smell like”). After a certain point it becomes reassuring, that comforting familiar friend smell, yanno? I’ve been slightly spoilered, so god it just gets so much worse when Az comes back after being discorporated, bc then Crowley is just desperate for that reassurance. Az does notice this, and in fact realizes why. Good soul that he is, and knowing of Crowley that he is, he doesn’t comment on it.

Pupils dilate. What’s the point of snake eyes if they don’t do the thing!!! Come on!!! the show copped out tbh by not having it at all. (this is easily hidden tho bc those DARN GLASSES UGH snake eyes are the coolest shit man) (they say, as they have an oc with snake eyes who ALSO hides his eyes with dark glasses all. the. time.)

Things Aziraphale does when (properly) Flustered

You’d think he’d get flustered easily (and he does!) but that bastard’s self-control is BEAST MODE (he can’t have the humans know anything! Nope! And Certainly Not Crowley Either! And tbh he’s fairly emotive for an angel so it’s also hiding from his siblings because he’d get ridiculed for it and that sucks)

He doesn’t catch fire, he glows, Stardust style (fuck yeah another gaiman classic i just remembered FUCK GAIMAN KNOWS MY WEAKNESSES). If he’s not careful (it’s holy light) it can burn (demons easiest, then humans), which is another reason he suppresses it. Crowley has caught him vaguely shining through the windows of the bookshop while engrossed in a particularly amazing book.

In the 1940s Crowley thought his ass nearly caught fire when he walked away from Aziraphale because the church grounds were still a lil holy but nah it was because for a split second Az holding that briefcase LIT UP SO DAMN BRIGHT

He doesn’t heat up like Crowley does. If Crowley heats up like a campfire, Az heats up like a UV lamp; like celestial radiation, more than warmth. Crowley, snake that he is, loves it regardless. 

Wings. You wouldn’t see anything but his shoulders fidgeting but it’s like he’s nervously adjusting his wings. (if they were visible you’d see he definitely would be. Also, they would be flapping a little) (the worst this ever gets he’ll actually levitate off the ground just the tiniest iota) (able to pass it off as rising on his toes)

Wind. Somewhat a subset of the wings, somewhat Az’s own celestial power. Breezes pick up. Gusts of wind this way and that. Aziraphale almost never has windows open in the shop and somehow Crowley hasn’t noticed that there’s sometimes a draft regardless. (Az misses when Crowley had long hair. His breezes would catch it so nicely)

If he’s in his shop (or has any books on hand) he’ll start fussing with a book (gently!). He’ll open it and thumb the pages or rub his hands over the covers, or tap it. Hug it to his chest. Nice tactile sensation, very grounding

this is more when he’s furious than when he’s flustered, but that celestial radiation? Can and Will fuck with the weather on a large enough scale. You’ll taste the ozone in the fucking air. im talkin Thunder and lightning, baby. Az can be just as dramatic as Crowley.

[iwaoiyoonminphan]

JJP Fic Rec

hi! i love jaebum, jinyoung, and most importantly jjp so here’s a fic rec for the ship of the life 

this is hardly a fraction of the quality jjp on ao3, but these are honestly my favourites and the ones i recommend the most! enjoy and join me in jjp hell

sfw (no smut)

1. (why dont you) speak it out loud  by sevencm 

complete/ post college au/ fluff/ 9k

“Imagine that A and B are dating, but person B doesn't voice their feelings much. One day person B is cursed/drinks a truth serum and has to say everything they think about out loud. Person B starts saying 'I love you' and other super cheesy shit to person A every five minutes. Person A enjoys it very much.” 

thoughts: actually the cutest fic to ever exist! the characterization in this fic is so good and i reread it all the time^^

2. Falsettos, Stains, and Drama   by jaenly 

complete/ high school au/ fluff/ 9k 

“It all starts when Jinyoung becomes Juliet Capulet.”

thoughts: ok so like jjp are both in drama club and they end up as romeo and Juliet. actually the cutest ever jaebum was so shy n bashful ///////// n jinyoung was dense as fuck, the ending made me smile so much!    

3. look at me for a sec (don’t be too awkward) by turbrolence(shortiest) 

complete/ hogwarts au/ fluff/ 10k 

“in which a bludger shatters jinyoung's shoulder and jaebum ends up volunteering to feed him breakfast.“

thoughts: so cute!!!!!!!!!! jinyoung is dense as a brick and i loved his interactions with the side characters too, jaebum was s o chivalrous but also dorky and SO ENDEARING this fic makes me want to spontaneously combust honestly 

4. Of douchebags and pretty boys  by schoetheisrealaf 

complete/ asshole au sorta/ fluff and humour/ 7k 

“’Dear Dog Biscuit, Since you seem unable to understand the sign that clearly indicates that this parking space is to be exclusively used by the staff of this facility, I’ll kindly explain it to you again: Until you’re an employee of the state who works his ass off for society only to get shit wages and the worst working hours you CAN’T USE THIS PARKING LOT, SO FUCK OFF! Apart from that, have a nice day. PS.: I hope you don’t have sex for a year. :)’

OR

You steal my parking spot all the time and I was just heading out to leave a strongly worded note under your windshield wiper but oh no you're hot AU Starring Jinyoung the kindergarten teacher and Jaebum the (arrogant yet dorky) business man“ 

thoughts: ok ok so this is so funny n also soft? jinyoung and kids makes me really happy and why is jaebum like this??? hilarious and also so cute rereading this is always fun! 

 5. opportunity cost  by symmetrophic 

 complete/ corporate au/ fluff and humour/ 4k 

“kim yugyeom, 25, is PA to park jinyoung, 29, feared ceo of park powers (this sounds marginally less ridiculous in korean). a lot more intellectually insulting and ghei than it sounds.”

thoughts: this fic is kind of yugyeom centric but its so funny and cute i just couldnt resist ukno!! jinyoung depends on yugyeom so much its cute and also jinyoung screaming over jaebum? the BEST 

6. Always By My Side by bb_bambam 

complete/ soulmates au/ fluff and angst/ 21k 

“Soulmates!AU where after you meet your soulmate, you experience physical pain when you’re apart for more than 12 hours until you both acknowledge that you’re soulmates.Essentially, it takes Jinyoung and Jaebum way longer than it should have to figure out that they’re soulmates.“

thoughts: the softest soulmate au ever! i especially loved how it was set in canonverse bc the emotions were so real n pure! the au setting was very clear and jaebum made me ssso sad 

7. Your Smile Is Sweeter Than (Hot) Chocolate  by bb_bambam 

complete/ coffee shop au/ fluff/ 12k 

“Jaebum brings Youngjae to a coffee shop for some hot chocolate, and they end up getting Jinyoung instead.Basically, the jjp coffeeshop/kidfic mashup au no one asked for.“ 

thoughts: another one from the goddess herself! jinyoung is the best barista and single dad jaebum is so sweet n whipped i loved it so much its just tooth rotting fluff tbh and kid! youngjae im really about to SCRE AM 

8. Topaz by setaxis 

complete/ idol verse/ angst/ 6k 

“Mark loves much the way he does everything else, quietly, unthinkingly. He doesn't know when he fell in love with Jackson. He doesn't think it matters much.

xxx

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off. I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul.” 

thoughts: ok this is the only main markson side jjp but i included it in this list bc jjp is pretty important here too and the angst hurts so much jaebum is so stupid and jinyoung hurts prepare to cry 

nsfw (w/ smut)

1. Disappear Here by foxxing(gayfantasticfour) 

complete/ detective au/ angst and mystery/ 70k 

“Homicide detective Im Jaebum's career has been steady and his personal life mostly uneventful, until the morning officer Choi Youngjae wakes him up at 3am and he finds out his childhood best friend and ex-partner has been murdered. He takes the case only to watch everything he's ever known slip through his fingers like sand and to finally figure out that sometimes life is all about finding forgiveness.” 

thoughts: this one was an emotional roller coaster! the plot was really intriguing and i cried so hard at the end. the writing was amazing too, as expected of the queen of jjp fanfiction 

2. read you like a magazine by dollyeo 

complete/ college au/ enemies to friends to lovers (!!)/ 42k 

“Ever since Jaebum passed auditions and he didn't, Jinyoung's been hell-bent on hating the guy. Now that they're in uni together, it's like destiny is screwing up all of his plans.”

thoughts: theres no actual smut in this but theres other nsfw-ish content so read at your own risk! this fic has the perfect amount of angst and fluff and ENEMIES TO FRIENDS TO LOVERS AAAAAAA jinyoungs character development was super fascinating n jaebum was so whipped in this i love him 

3. Citation by KingJackson 

complete/ college au/ enemies to lovers/ 115k 

“When the one book he needs for an important term paper has to remain in the campus library, Jinyoung catches the eye of Jaebum, a library assistant.”

thoughts: a fandom classic honestly! jinyoung is such a bitch but soft perfect jaebum loves him anyway its so angsty but also the best gghhhhhh check out the sequel renewal its also SO GOOD 

4. A Certain Romance by foxxing(gayfantasticfour) 

complete/ escort au?/ fluff/ 17k 

“By day, he's a top-rated babysitter. By weekends he's an x-rated escort. These things are generally kept separate, until the day his weekend regular gets his phone number by recommendation and calls for an emergency babysitter. The problem is that Jaebum doesn't know that Junior the escort is also Jinyoung the babysitter.In which Jaebum and Jinyoung know each other in the biblical sense but maybe want to get to know each other, too.“ 

thoughts: also by the queen! jinyoung with kids is the bane of my existence tbh and kid! yugyeom gives me so much feelings bOI jaebum is kind of awkward in this but jinyoung still likes him hehehe i loved this SO MUCH 

5. Compass Calling by sugarbowl 

ongoing/ pirate au/ action and angst and fluff/ 65k rn 

“Prince Jinyoung is destined for a lifetime of luxury, until he's shoved in a trunk and accidentally abducted. Im Jaebum clawed his way out of poverty to captain a pirate ship and... not much else, actually. Jinyoung could be his first real treasure, if Jaebum could just figure out how holding someone for ransom actually works.“

thoughts: cant believe this is the only fic on this list by god (actually just read sugarbowl’s entire ao3) this fic is so beautiful jaebum is kind of dorky and also really cool this fic had me at the edge of my seat all the time AMAZING 

6. The Tiger & The Duke by foxxing(gayfantasticfour) 

ongoing/ sugar daddy au/ angst/ 160k rn 

“Im Jaebum is the richest man in the country under forty, content to mess around and skirt the headlines as a cutthroat businessman and casual playboy. Park Jinyoung is a graduated English Literature major, content with (in Jackson's words) his boring life working at a restaurant and writing poetry. When their worlds collide over a spilled cup of coffee, Jinyoung learns there's a lot more to life than the secrets of his past and the safety of library books.“

thoughts: another one... but this is so good ok at first i was kinda wary bc the ten year age gap but its not very important in the plot and nothing illegal happens lol jinyoung makes me want to PROTECT and jaebum is trying his best ok hes sO anyway its good and ill cry when it ends 

7. muses by comingbackhometoyou

complete/ star trek au/ enemies to lovers/ 120k

“Your dad gave his life for-”

“Yeah, yeah I know,” Jaebum interrupts, voice ringing through the empty bar. “My dad gave his life for Starfleet and died with honors. I’ve heard this story a thousand times before. No offense, but why should it matter to me? Why are you here telling me what I’ve known since I was five years old?”

Jaebum has been running for 16 years when his past finally catches up with him.”

thoughts: this one doesnt have much smut i think just ALMOST smut but anyway i dont even like star trek but this made me so sad jjp love each other so much its beautiful and i love jinyoungs no-nonsense character its so funny and also heart wrenching i dont know this fic just hurts me its wonderful 

i hope you liked my recommendations and enjoyed the fics as much as i did! the jjp fandom is honestly blessed by so many good writers so i hope you find more good work in the tags!! 

[hayleysstark]

Sorry if this is late... #11 Did you read any good books this past year?

oh hey no worries love (: i try and answer every ask i get regardless of the timing. thanks for asking btw i actually had way more fun answering these than i thought i would lolll. anyways tho

11: did you read any good books this past year?

i did actually!! i read like juuuusttt under a hundred books last year ((i wanted to read the full one hundred but ran out of time come the last week of december so boo)) and there were some serious gems liiikeee wings of fire???

all right listen here bitches the wings of fire children’s fantasy series ((author Tui T. Sutherland)) is one of the absolute best things i’ve ever laid eyes on ever i mean um

everybody is relatable??? and no i am not shitting you. as somebody who prizes likable characters over pretty much everything else in literature, this series is an absolute gift to me. ((i will admit here that i did find it...difficult...to connect with clay in book 1, more so than anybody else, but as each volume is narrated by a different character, it wasn’t as big a deal as perhaps it could’ve been.))

they are dragons. yes. they are literal dragons. some of them hate all humans and want to eat them. some of them just ignore humans entirely and think them no smarter than monkeys. some of them even keep humans as pets. but they are all dragons. some are your typical terrifying beast from folklore, with smoke pouring from their nostrils and membranous wings spread wide while others seem closer to scorpions, and still others act a bit more like wolves. its great

also its fantasy. so there are prophecies and battles and kingdoms and a huge war that these five young dragons are destined to stop, and also they were all stolen as eggs from their parents and raised v far from their natural homes. 

the worldbuilding is to fucking die for. there are six ((and maybe more but i’m really tired rn and my brain’s not working right)) unique dragon species, all with their own strengths and weaknesses and abilities  and social structure and allies and way of raising their young and way of fighting the war anD I COULD GO ON ABOUT THIS ALL FUCKIN DAY CAN YOU TELL

anD I WANT TO GIVE EVERYONE IN THIS SERIES A BIG FUCKING HUG CAUSE THEY ARE ALL MY CHILDREN ((ok but winter?? winter is my child. dONT FUCK WITH ME. WINTER IS MY SMOL BABY SON CHILD DRAGON. DONT FUCK. WITH ME. WINTER IS MY SON AND HE NEEDS ME AND I LOVE HIM AND I WILL GIVE HIM EVERYTHING I HAVE.))

basically read them. read them all. book 1 is the dragonet prophecy. and book 6 is moon rising, which is technically a spin-off series set in the same universe, but we see a lot of familiar characters and honestly the second series is def worth the read ((B/C WINTER IS MY CHILD DONT FUCK WITH ME WINTER IS MY CHILD HIS BOOK IS BOOK 7 IT IS CALLED WINTER TURNING GO READ IT HE IS MY SMOL BABY CHILD SON.))

something else i’d def recommend is the Inkheart trilogy by Cornelia Funke ((i won’t go as crazy as i did about wof, but thats mostly b/c as far as i can gather Funk receives a bit more attention for her work. not to say she doesn’t deserve it!!)) yeahhhh. honestly Inkheart is a fave. dustfinger is a++++ and farid is my son and resa is so precious and needs to be protected from everything. 10/10

another good solid read is Chronicles of Narnia. cant go wrong with C.S. Lewis. but again, very well-known, most of you are familiar w/ the plot so i wont go into detail like i did with the first one. but it’s really amazing so definitely check it out if you’re interested

also i am perfectly aware this next book is pretty huge in its own right but im just gonna scream this from the rooftops avi’s crispin: the cross of lead 110% deserves your attention and also your praise and worship and all your love b/c cRISPIN IS MY CHILD. CRISPIN IS MY SON. ALONG W/ WINTER. AND FARID. MY SONS ARE ALL PRETTY FUCKED UP. 

and Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo. definitely definitely definitely would recommend. Inej and Nina and Jesper are my bros. i would bro it up w/ them in bro town anD WE MUST PROTECT WYLAN AT ALL COSTS and kaz is a gift from God above. a ruthless murderous morally deficient gift. 

and one more thing!! one more thing ok are you ready no i dont think you are no one is the world isnt ready for thiS FUCKIN GEM ((also is this cheating cause i technically read this book for the first time like four years ago but i reread it in 2016 soooo i’m gonna count it anyway deal with it)) okay are you ready for this no one is ready for this i myself am not ready for this i cry every time i read it okay it is Last Night I Sang to the Monster by Benjamin Alire Seanz and iT IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE FUCKING BOOK IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD OK. OK?? ((really the title makes it out to be a lot worse than it is. it sounds like some sort of psychological thriller or gaudy horror but really it’s a contemporary YA and i cry at it every time i read it and i relate so well to both zach and rafael. seriously just read it. i’m going to cry if i so much as talk about it any further but it is amazing and it feels like no one but me appreciates it, or even knows it exists.)) go. read it.

whoooo so THAT got way longer than i planned and i am SORRY. thank you for asking tho!! i hope at least ONE of the books on this list catches someone’s eye

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