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Oh Leonardo and Raphie in 87 is an A Team dynamic I’ve been wanting to figure out 😂
It's not an easy dynamic to pin down! I love watching it but it's difficult to describe let alone write
Most basic level, Raphael is the funny guy and Leonardo is earnest. That kinda makes them opposites in a way that makes it easy for them to play off each other. Which can either look like tag-teaming for brilliant banter, or sometimes getting on each other's nerves.
Raphael also balances Leonardo in the way he does not want to rush into danger. Feeling heroic is low on his list of priorities. Leonardo wants to follow every lead and die on every hill. Raphael wants to go home. They make a great team!
Leonardo's great with kids. Raphael has more street smarts imo (it's that Just Some Guy energy).
I feel like at the very core of their dynamic is just that they will always have each other's backs. When Leonardo hit his head while reading the Three Musketeers and dressed up as characters, and Splinter suggested joining him could help get his memory back (✨cartoon logic ✨), Raphael says something like "I would give Leonardo the shell off my back but I'm not playing dress up for him." But folks. He does in fact play dress up for him. (Also Raphael what are you talking about you literally love dressing up). In the episode where Michelangelo keeps bringing home pets and is friends with the zookeeper, I don't remember the plot at all but I remember Leonardo and Raphael generally being in each other's vicinity like they are both the other guy's emotional support turtle.
Okay so like. This is more my personal interpretation/headcanons? But one thing about Raphael is that if he's not making a witty remark he's probably just silently observing. So I see him being kinda,, not shy exactly. Maybe not not shy. Like I literally think he is just watching trying to take it all in and process, and when he sees a chance for a good joke he jumps in because that's his way of participating. And I see Leonardo being a really comforting presence for him because
-Leo will carry the conversation especially if he notices you need him to
-He can also happily sit in silence with Raphael and neither of them feel awkward they are chillin
-take charge personality reassuring for someone who feels unable to take charge and likes routine
And then Raphael is also a comfort to Leo because
-Leonardo actually loves having fun and laughing but he doesn't necessarily know how to without structure
-He takes things literally which can easily become stressful in a social situation, and Raphael could very easily (and occasionally does) make fun of him, but is very good at instead explaining things to him in a lighthearted way so that Leo feels in on the joke and not laughed at
-somebody really does need to stop him from following the Technodrome to the center of the earth
So basically what I'm saying in their different autisms fill in each other's gaps. I care them,, a normal amount 😭
Y'all should add in your two cents if you've seen 1987 because I feel they have a deep, rich, complex dynamic that there could be a lot of different takes on
#thanks for the ask!#im sorry it took me so long aldhdhsh#i will be back with a list of good episodes that show their dynamic#but probably not until tomorrow#tmnt#tmnt 1987
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#Super Mario RPG#SMRPG#Legend of the Seven Stars#Mallow#Super Mario#SMB#Super Mario Bros#Me when I remember SMRPG comes out tomorrow#I probably won't be able to grab the game until later since uh. Money. BUT ONE DAY#Video
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I'm craving a good pussy slap session, so I'm going to borrow a page from my mutual's book and make a note game!
1 note=1 slap
Spamming encouraged, I wanna cry 🥰
Edit: challenge is complete and an audio of it is posted :3
#edge slvt#edging kink#spankher#spank my pussy#thx for the inspiration Ava#I'll probably keep this up until tomorrow evening. that way i have a treat for when i get home from work
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tomorrow
#by the way i’m not here. i just scheduled this to post today#probably won’t be back until some point after episode seven comes out.#so i’ll be off doing something Personal Related until then! for now enjoy this tasty piece because that sure is angst#murder drones#murder drones n#n murder drones#serial designation n#tw eye contact#tw eyestrain#potentially???#also yeah no. this piece is literally named ‘tomorrow’#yes i was listening to guilty by al bowlly while i drew this. did the fact this piece uses lyrics from it make it obvious or#haha i’m scared actually#zeisty’s heavy hitters
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You better make it hurt.
[alt version under the cut ^_^]
#my art#chonny jash#cccc#cj heart#cj mind#oh this is gonna get crunched badddd#but! guess who finished this after like. two months!! <- is in the worst motivation slump ever#i didn’t realize that Mind’s sun thingy makes it look like he’s actually being shot until i showed my dad -#in my head it was to be more a stalemate but that honestly works anyways#just fightinggg violenceee#if anyone would like this taged with anything though do let me know#as with all my art and such#probably gonna do a close up reblog tomorrow without the coloring i did to wreck the view of Mind’s face 👍
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Let's Try This Again!
One note on this post over this post over the next day or so (until Tuesday night, Eastern Time), is equal to 1 minute I'll need to write over the next few weeks. I'll set a goal on TrackBear (a site I've been using to track my word counts recently) and post how things have been going that way. Have fun!
#stargazer writes#I am slightly hesitant doing this#last time this ended up being like five hours#however this will probably be fine#right?#anyway this will probably close up tomorrow around 7:30 eastern time#I've got internship stuff tomorrow afternoon and don't have cell data turned on for Tumblr#so we'll see where the notes get to until then#did beat the discord time reacts thing!#however that was a little bit less due to the limitations of that platform#we'll see....
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SURPRISE! i was at billycon the WHOLE TIME....!
#i showed up in the last like. 40 minutes they were open lol#but i got to see them do a few shows! and they were fantastic!#i recorded the whole 8 minutes of guitarzan lol my arms are still sore from holding my phone up that long#ill probably slap it on yt :]#also i met like 2 people i knew/who knew me while i was there! if this was you hiiiiiiiiiiii#what a great warmup im so fuckin excited for tomorrow#will be there at or soon after opening until closing if my family lets me lmao#juno.txt#juno.irl#rae#rock afire explosion#rockafire explosion#showbiz pizza#billycon#billy bob's wonderland#beach bear#mitzi mozzarella#dook larue#fatz geronimo#billy bob brockali
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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today i had a realization that kinda freaked me out at first and now has me feeling incredibly sad. so i live in a pretty cold place, right? the coldest in the region actually. the town is always covered in mist and clouds, and in winter it can get so cold it snows. so, heres what i realized today:
the trees. theyre still green.
i cant explain how disturbing this seems to me. green trees in november. yesterday the maximum temperature was 19 °C, and i dont know how that translates to fahrenheit but let me tell you that its pretty fucking warm for autumn. im not even sure if its going to snow this year. thats bonkers.
as a being from nature, this has me feeling actually nauseous. like i know im not the most connected to nature guy in existence, but even i can tell when something feels off. something has gone terribly wrong here, and i dont know what to do about it. fuck.
#i feel awful#you know when you are having a nightmare and something disturbs you so much it wakes you up?#thats the feeling. except im still waiting to wake up. but i know i wont.#im going to bed now so if you leave a message i probably wont see it until tomorrow. just a heads up.#whispers of the dragon#otherkin#nonhuman#vent
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Their job is beach
#rainbow high#barbie#barbie 2023#phaedra westward#dolls#all art#fanart#i'm behind on drawing my dolls i've bought#i still have to do mila berrymore and frankie#and then i'm probably getting olivia tomorrow#and i should be done until i do my ooaks
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Of Shidou Ryusei ; And how his character connects towards sexual trauma
(Content warning: Major mentions of SA/CSA and abuse, minor mentions for NSFW behaviour. Most of them aren't in graphic detail, but please please be wary of it 🙏 There's also spoilers for CSM and A Clockwork Orange)
Shidou's character is one of those that sticks with you throughout the entire series. It feels like we know everything about him, yet there's something so mysterious about his behaviour that makes you wonder, what's with this guy? We know how he acts, his violence and vulgarity injected in his brain and blood, but yet we don't know why he acts the way he is. It is very heavily implied that he went through a sort of restriction, born in a bird cage which he freed himself from through going to Blue Lock, but what is that restriction? What was the bird cage which trapped him? What was it that was holding him back from searching for freedom and exploring the world?
Since then, there's been a large speculation of theories on what his backstory could be. But one of them I want to talk about is about how his backstory is connected to SA, and how he could have experienced it at a young age. At first, I was extremelyyy hesitant to follow it due to how it made me a bit uncomfortable to discuss about, and how I saw a majority of people supporting the theory use it for shock value rather than a chance to devolve into darker topics. Of course, not the case for everyone who supports the theory, just from my own personal experience in the fandom.
But now, I can see the extremely, deeply discomforting vision on how this could be true in a way. From both his favourite manga and movie involving SA as an integral part in the story, to the concerning side of him being slightly revealed in the Egoist Bible. (Eg. crying at the end of the day, when he's feeling nothing or when he's empty, as well as his dislike of gifts)
Due to my heavy interests, I wanted to explore this theory into a more deeper matter. I decided to analyze more of his behaviour, as well as doing some of my own research. I must say, Shidou's behavioral manner can be one that is similar to those of SA survivors, especially male survivors.
Okay okay, enough yapping around. Let me get straight to the point.
Shidou and his instinct's responses
Generally after experiencing sexual abuse, one's entire personality will change. Every behaviour change is different for every sexual abuse survivor. Sometimes they'll isolate themselves more often, sometimes they turn into a much aggressive and violent person. Because the world has failed them, the world is putting them in a place where they are no longer safe and are more vulnerable. Because when your entire sense of self and personal power is taken away by your abuser, you are left with nothing but fear and new survival instincts. Why I bring this up is because Shidou's entire personality is built on instincts. His instant response to even the slightest hint of dislike or threat is to immediately beat them up, no matter who they are. A noteworthy thing to mention is that one of the main responses from males following sexual trauma is anger, because it is more socially acceptable for men to react that way. Attacking someone is the best way of defense, and Shidou follows this way of defense entirely. This also follows up with the stigma with the male ethic of self-reliance, in which help-seeking behaviours can be seen as cowardly or unmasculine.
It's most likely the reason why he also dislikes Kunigami's philosophy of heroes; Considering the fact his entire character is based on wanting to be free from restriction, he must have lived in an environment and/or went through a sort of restriction which influenced his ideals of "I can fend myself, I won't need anyone". The world he has grown up in was nothing but survival against the abuse he went through, so for what purpose should he believe in the principle of a savior, if he himself could have never been saved? It doesn't help either when in real time, there have been many cases where survivors of sexual abuse are either never believed when they speak out about it, or never speak out at all in fear of not being believed.
And besides the fact he uses violence as a defense method, one thing I noticed about Shidou is that during the time he was locked up by Ego for inducing violence onto Rin. We see him, perhaps for the first time, being calm and offering a promise that he'll make sure to stop fighting and hitting others, as long as he is let out of that prison he's trapped in. You see, a common reaction victims will use during the process of the SA is to freeze. To stay silent and still. It's like how animals freeze to avoid fights or further harm to themselves, or play dead in order to prevent getting eaten by predators. Although the outer self may seem to be in a calm state, the inside are on high alert, because they are afraid on what will be their abuser's next moves. The option to fight or run away may seem easy to those who haven't experienced SA, but to the victim it may seem harder than you think. Because freezing is a body's instinct response to abuse, and it'll stay frozen until the abuse is over, it's almost like a human's way of playing dead, so that the assault induced will end sooner. Among the instincts of 'fight, flight, freeze', Shidou seems to use fight the most out of the three. However, when necessary times come necessary measures, Shidou, perhaps for the first time, switches to 'freeze' instead of 'fight'. Not only because he basically, cannot physically fight anyone at that moment, but also because he is afraid. Afraid of being restricted yet again, afraid of not having the chance to live his life, which is to play football. The worst position to be in when you're being hurt or abused is limitation. You can't move, you can't fight, you can't run away from your abuse from happening. Nothing but hope that the abuse happening to you will end soon, that your abuser will stop hurting you. That's exactly what is so terrifying about the freeze responses.
Shidou and his sexual behaviour
If any fan knows anything about Shidou, it's that he's not afraid to speak out what's on his mind, especially lewd and inappropriate words. More or less, this can be connecting to something called hypersexuality. Accordingly, hypersexuality is defined as an intense focus on sexual fantasies, urges and behaviours that can't be controlled. Hypersexuality can not only cause distress, but also problems in school and workplace.
Survivors of sexual abuse cope in one of the two ways: Either by avoiding sexual or intimidate interactions entirely, or seeking said interactions on a large and unhealthy scale. According to this article, a majority of men who suffer from hypersexuality or sex addiction have been either physically or sexually abused in their childhood.
We see Shidou quite literally compare scoring a goal in football, to sexual intercourse. (And also the part where he says he's gonna blow his load, with Sae also dismissing it, but it's just partners supporting each other!)
By now, we know that two things that Shidou is unable to separate from each other is life and football. Both the act of life and the act of playing football is interconnected. Because football is something that allows him to leave a mark, allows him to be known by the world. Because football is a biological phenomenon to him, rather than just a sport.
And yes sure, this is supposed to be a connection to his philosophy of leaving a mark on others, so that you can be remembered. But also remember what he says in his monologue: "Those who create something, those who want to become something, and of course, those who make children." The way humans create life is through intimacy, through intercourse. The two people engaging leave a mark on each other through creating that life, that child.
And while speaking about his monologue of leaving a mark, Shidou also mentions that wounding others are a way of leaving behind a proof of existence. Inducing abuse whether it'd be physical, emotional or sexual, can also be one of the ways to make someone remember you.
The abuser leaves the mark on the victim, the mentioned mark left on them can be seen as PTSD or trauma symptoms.
Abuse is not something you can just simply turn away, forget or overlook. Whether the effects of trauma are short-term or long-term, they are there, they are a proof of existence that it happened. Shidou's inability to separate the physical act of football and the biological act of life's desires, especially sexual desires, can be seen as hypersexuality. Hypersexuality can also be seen as a mark left onto the victim. And it's extremely lengthy to recover and remove those marks left on you.
Of Freedom and Shidou Ryusei
I think Shidou Ryusei and his obsession with freedom is something so interesting about his character, yet so many people tend to ignore it as a significant part of him. Because imagine if one day out of the blue, your entire bodily autonomy gets taken away from you, you're trapped in a cycle of repetitive abuse onto you. When it's finally over and you have control over everything again, the world suddenly feels so utterly different. So what do you do? Of course, cling onto that freedom that is now yours.
Bite any other hand that may seem like it's trying to take it away, because if there is one thing you do not ever want to repeat, it is someone isolating you once more against the world. So hold on tightly to the freedom you now have, and make sure it stays with you for eternity.
All of Shidou's favourite things, his favourite film, manga and song, are also connected to this in a way.
It would take too long for me to get into detail about both Chainsaw Man and A Clockwork Orange, but I want to say that both media and their protagonists have approaches to freedom of life and choice.
In Chainsaw Man, Denji is a child that has been depraved of even the basic of human needs; Just like Shidou, he wants to claim everything in his current life and not return to when he had nothing when he was a child. In A Clockwork Orange, Alexander who in the beginning of the movie has been committing heinous crimes with no one to stop him, is captured and put through inhumane experiments in order to rehabilitate him. His entire freedom is taken away from him and for the next hour, we see him go through immense suffering and torture by those who he had wronged to the point he attempts to commit suicide through jumping off a window. In the end, it doesn't seem like his mindset has changed at all. It makes us question whether or not letting someone be free to do anything they want is the better option even if it hurts others, rather than attempt to isolate them in order to transform them into a better human being.
I would like to talk a little about his favourite artist. For a bit of context, hide is popular for being an icon of rebellion against Japan's conformist society, and one of his songs PINK SPIDER, is listed as Shidou's favourite song according to the official Blue Lock Egoist Bible. I've seen a lot of interpretations of what the song truly means, but the main story is that it's about a spider trapped within and kills anything near it. Because it wishes to free itself away, it steals a butterfly's wings. It attempts to fly, and fails, and tries again. Whether or not the spider did actually succeeded in flying away is unknown to us. But, that's not all!
Around the chapter where Shidou scores a goal, the commenter calls it a 'rocket diving header'. This can lead to one of hide's other songs in the same album as PINK SPIDER, rocket dive; a song with the similar approach of freedom but with different tones. Compared to PINK SPIDER, rocket dive has a more cheerful approach. In the end of the song, the star mentioned in rocket dive successfully flies away and appears as a new shooting star in the sky.
Which brings me to point out something: Shidou Ryusei's birthday is on Tanabata, a type of Japanese celebration called the Star Festival which is celebrated on the seventh day of the seventh month.
His name, Ryusei, is also a homophone for shooting star in Japanese.
Shidou, born as a star on the day where two lover stars meet, yet when he was born, he was not allowed to fly and join the others in the sky.
But he overcame everything, achieved that dream of having the freedom to do whatever he wants. And even though he went through all that pain, all that abuse, and most likely had to learn how to escape by himself through football before Blue Lock, he made it come true, like a spell.
And eventually, he learnt how to fly, and let the world knew who he was.
#cw child abuse#cw csa#shidou ryusei#blue lock#bllk#ryusei shidou#shidou ryuusei#character analysis#bllk analysis#character study#character examination#i deeply apologize for the repetitive words and any mistakes i made it's so late i can't be bothered to fix it until tomorrow#this is my first time writing such a long analysis and posting it publicly. please be nice to me.#i worked on this shit for TWO WEEKS and will probably not like it later but you know what it's better to never post anything at all
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figured itd be easier with some placeholder character sketches to get a feel of how the game will look as we fill in sections of the story, so quickly did these after work c:
#neopets#neoart#my art#i drew xandra like 4 times and am still not happy with hers so ill probably redo hers again tomorrow#but otherwise its fine for a starting sketch#also have one of the player characters but i want to wait to show them until im decided on their designs#me literally 2 days ago: ill wait and do art at the end. me today:
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I should not repot a tiny maple tree in the dark but I want to repot my tiny maple tree. into her tiny pot. on account of being the cutest goddamn thing of all time.
#i will wait until the morning and do both the tiny maple tree and the bby giant sequoia together#but AUGH ITS SO TINY AND CUTE AND STILL IN IT'S NURSERY POT AND I WANT IT TO BE EVEN CUTER#FUCK#what is better than the teeniest bonsai#anyway I have obtained THREE little trees and I'm thrilled about it#the third one is gonna stay in its nursery pot until it's gotten some shaping#which will probably be after moving. but alas. it's very pretty#but i will do the pruning tomorrow as well and probably some wiring#I'm unreasonably delighted by my tiny maple tree ngl shes so fucking cute
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''It can be found in quiet mountain areas on a full moon's night. Its dancing and its tiny, faintly glowing wings confer upon it a lovely fairylike quality.''
#alex's gifs#pokemon#clefairy#pokemon legends arceus#pla#pokemon legends#mélofée#pokemonedit#pkmnedit#pokemon gifs#pkmn gifs#clefairy gifs#clefairy edits#rhitag#userdahyun#leksietag#my gifs#gifs#fairy type pokemon#fairy pokemon#mine#last one until maybe tomorrow or wednesday and probably won't do any for a while nndvdnkdnk
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with many people speculating that the identity of the culprit will finally come to light next episode and many theories running abound, i'd like to make a masterlist of all of the theories people have written out guessing who the culprit will be. that includes the main murder of Arei, the attempt on Ace, and any theories synthesizing the two. i think it would be fun to read up on before the episode, and fun to look back at once all is said and done :D
so, if you've made a theory speculating about the murder, please leave a comment on this post (preferably with a link to the theory)! i'll only be adding the theories of those who comment on the post, just so that i don't accidentally make anyone feel excluded/highlight someone's post that doesn't want to be shouted out.
all i ask is that you only submit whatever the most current version of your theory per character/combination of characters. for instance, if you wrote a theory based on the evidence from part 1, but wrote a new version taking into account what happened in episode 12 or 13, i'm only going to add the newer one. if you only have a version from part 1, though, that's fine!
(also, for all theoretical theorists out there, a reminder that i made an episode guide that breaks down all the episodes into easier-to-find sections. i just updated it for 2-13!)
#danganronpa despair time#drdt#drdt chapter 2 part 2 spoilers#drdt spoilers#PLEASE comment on this if you've made a theory even if you aren't like a “popular theorist” or whatever#i'll probably make the post tomorrow but also i can update it up until/even past potentially the next episode#let's theorize about the murder... together!
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Whatever speech you're declaring sir, I'm🧎♀️🙇♀️
#atzsource#ateez#mingi#my leone 🦁#lucieblr#rhitag#melontrack#kpopccc#kflops#nugudomedit#malegroupsnet#dailybg#ultkpopnetwork#teresgifs#It's almost midnight I'll probably go to sleep and idk how this set will go#again mky only contyibution until further notice I'm gonna hibernate#tomorrow I'll cry about how ugly it looks
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