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y'all... y'all... i promise, grammar rules aren't there to hurt you... please start a new paragraph for every new speaker... it's not that i don't wanna understand... it's that i literally can't brain b/c i don't share the same brain with you... please i beg you
#ooc;;#it's about some discord rps like not my BESTIES YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE#but ppl i'm trying to connect with on the friend level#i am trying my best like i don't care about spelling mistakes if i know what you mean#but if two people talk in the same paragraph then god help me i have no idea what's going on#the who what where why when how of it all i really need to know...
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Roytim is such a fun crack rarepair for me! Dick’s best friend sleeping with/dating Dick’s baby brother Timmy is 10/10 drama on a more personal note than I’d picture it with Jason. Absolutely no shade I just have always read Dick as being more protective of Tim and Damian.
Do you have any Roytim headcanons to share? <3
oh i LOVE RoyTim on it's own! likely bc i'm just a Tim multishipper and if it fits i ship, but Roy is especially fun via the Dick connection. and i 1000% agree, *especially* pre-Flashpoint, would even argue it's outright canon that Dick is far more protective of Tim and Damian than he ever was with Jason (not out of dislike, but simply bc Dick and Jason were never all that close and the tragedy of losing Jason was losing what could've been, not what he already had) and especially with Jason as Red Hood, Dick holds no particular protective brotherly feelings toward him. it's all Tim and Damian. so you're so right, the drama of RoyTim is just a smidge more upped than of JayRoy and i'd love to share headcanons-
i think it makes for a fun "crush on your older brother's friend" situation. where like. Tim knows it's unrealistic and he has no *actual* intentions to chase it when he's just 15/16 and Roy and Dick are in their twenties, often hanging out around Tim. and Roy is handsome, he's funny, he's similar in personality to ppl Tim has dated (Steph, Kon) so, it's a crush. one that he hides *well* and never makes it Dick or Roy's problem, and one Tim never expects to pan out. he just fantasizes about Roy a little bit and mostly grows out of it by the time he's an adult.
i think more fics need Lian, so i like the idea of them co-parenting Lian. especially if they're both. sort of bad at it. like Roy loves her and he's trying, but he's doing this basically alone and it's not like he has experience. Tim also has no experience. neither of them know what on earth to do. it's a very cute idea that just relies on the two of them being terrible at parenting and Roy getting so mad that the first time Lian says "dada" she says it to Tim that he considers breaking up for a good five minutes.
how they get together can happen in a lot of ways, but i'm interested in the idea of Dick asking Roy to talk to Tim during Tim's Red Robin arc. Roy has experience helping kids through his work helping young addicts and nothing else has worked, so he offers to at least try with Tim. and Roy, who also doesn't handle grief well, understands at least some of what Tim is going through. especially since Roy dealt with Oliver dying and then suddenly coming back, he's at least open to the idea Bruce could be alive. he's just around to try and help Tim keep some emotional stability, but it ends up with Roy helping with the search and somehow, falling for Tim along the way
they go to sitcom levels of chaos trying to keep the relationship hidden from Dick. they *both* know Dick is far too protective of Tim to react well to it. but also, i think Roy would get *just* a bit of an ego about sleeping with Tim under Dick's nose. he makes a point of strutting around when Dick invites him over, finding reasons to be shirtless just to make Tim squirm a little bit. it's that sort of kink where you're excited about the risk of being caught. that fits these two so well and i can't explain it.
because Roy is used to mentoring younger heroes, i think he would have a bigger than normal moral panic about dating Tim. he fights his feelings for a *while*, to the point Tim can tell Roy is fighting his feelings and he's trying to convince Roy he's fine with this. Tim telling Roy about his childhood crush does not help. it makes Roy feel *worse*. it makes them take things very slowly, and i could see Roy being the type to never fully touch Tim until Tim is 18, no matter how much Tim insists it's okay.
i do think they have unhinged sex when they actually get into it though. no matter how sure Roy is that he'll be gentle the first time, the minute he gets his hands on Tim, it is feral. there is blood and foul dirty talk and Tim cannot walk the next day. i think Roy makes for a very mean dom, the type who will make fun of you for being a mess in bed. he just has those vibes, and it works great for getting Tim to just. turn his brain off.
i think Roy, who's struggled with picking hero names before, would be someone to try to force Tim to let go of Red Robin once the whole Bruce thing is over. it's not Tim's name and Tim doesn't need to keep punishing himself with it. Roy is nice about it at first, but then i do think he threatens to set that damn suit on fire if Tim keeps wearing it and doesn't come up with a new hero name. and the worst part is, Tim does know he's serious.
when Dick does find out, chaos. an absolute shitshow. when Roy tells him, Dick punches Roy in the face before he even finishes explaining himself. it's a pure gut reaction. even Bruce isn't as protective over Tim as Dick is. it takes a *lot* of convincing from Tim that it's okay and he wanted this before Dick calms down, and he still doesn't talk to Roy for like a month until the rest of the Titans are forced to hold an intervention reminding Dick of his own dating history with age gaps, like Babs. Dick does cool down, but he is not afraid to stoop to "you're fucking my brother" in an argument bc he wins everytime when he brings it up.
i think Tim is the protective partner. everyone *expects* it to be Roy, he's older and more experienced, but it's Tim who will absolutely lose it if someone threatens Roy's or Lian's life. like not fanonish "committing murder" Tim, but more so canonish "i have a contingency plan for everything" Tim. Roy has had to hold him back a couple times. honestly i think the moral conversations Roy and Tim have are so interesting. because Roy will cross the line for those he loves, so bc of that, Tim is careful to make sure Roy is never in a position where he has to protect Tim bc he knows it would turn lethal quickly. it's a very "i know what you're capable of and you don't scare me but i won't let you become a worse version of yourself bc of me" sort of self preservation vibe. i think it'd be very neat. Tim fights like hell when he's close to death bc his thought is always "i refuse to let Roy feel like he has to avenge me" which i find very crunchy.
#necrotic answerings#tim drake x roy harper#roytim#i adore roytim anon tysm for this#I love crack ships for Tim that shouldn't work but do#I will fandom bicycle that man to death.#I hope these thoughts feed you well#you could dead dove the fuck out of these two#but they're more fun as a chaotic cute couple#bc that's the joy. they shouldn't work. it baffles *everyone* who finds out.#the titan's are like oh. dick's brother??#and young justice is like. wait arsenal? how did you even know arsenal well enough to be dating him???#so many questions. Roy will try to answer them if he's asked. Tim will just shrug bc it's his business.#I just love these two. roy my beloved.
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What's it about cloti that you like? I'm curious, bc we otherwise tend to ship the same things. I love both cloud and tifa, and they have some cute scenes, but I don't feel it with them. Idk if it's because of the truly awful shippers, or something else. For me it feels like sokai in kh 1, I see why ppl ship them and that the narrative is pushing for them to be together, but i don't really care about that aspect of their relationship. Your answer doesn't have to be elaborate or anything, it's genuinely only curiosity on my part. Other than that, how do you like rebirth so far? I know some ppl dropped it pretty fast, bc they didn't like the crazy amount of mini games. Which I get, bc some of them were a hassle, but all in all i still had fun.
Short answer: I really like their individual characters and their complicated friendship and past that Rebirth starts delving more into, and that’s made me warm up very quickly to the romance between them.
Long answer: Cloud and Tifa’s dynamic is so interesting to me in Rebirth. I feel like the game does a good job of pulling back the curtain on a relationship that up to this point has been summed up as “childhood friends” to reveal how much more complicated it is than that. Imo, these are two people who have always yearned to know each other but never really have. They were friendly when they were very young, it seems, like under the age of 7. Then, Cloud started pulling away, and Tifa has never understood why. And they haven’t been able to really reconnect since then, made all the more difficult by Sephiroth and Shinra.
FF7 pushes romantic angles with both Tifa and Aerith, which I don’t really love tbh. I do wish it was a little more toned down and optional. But I really like the sense of yearning and desire to connect that threads Cloud and Tifa’s entire relationship — and the consistent symbolism of reaching for each other, trying to bridge that physical and emotional gap between them (usually when one is about to literally or figuratively fall), that goes with it. I like watching them bond and get to know each other now, so many years later, as best as they can (considering Cloud’s memories and sense of self are all screwed up), while navigating the unique trauma of being two of the only survivors of the massacre of their village. I like their mutual support, how they take turns supporting/grounding/saving each other.
I like that memories play such a big role, that they both have precious memories of each other that are key to who they are and which no one else knows. Fucking love when Tifa falls into the Lifestream and she realizes Cloud tried to save her from crossing the metaphorical bridge of death/falling when they were kids, and you see how much the past seems to parallel the present with their roles reversed this time. I want to see the whole memory so much. I don’t know if we ever will, but man. I really feel like even if Cloud couldn’t stop Tifa from falling, he must’ve saved her from drowning. There’s a river below that bridge, right? She hit her head and presumably passed out — someone had to keep her head above water, and he was the only one there because he refused to abandon her… I think, metaphorically, that’s pretty much what’s gonna happen in the game. I don’t think Tifa is gonna be able to catch Cloud from falling, but I think she’s gonna hold his head above water when they hit the bottom.
Sorry, I’ve been thinking about this part so much shsbdbsbs I just feel like it’s so interesting and crucial to the story. I think it really helps Tifa understand what’s going on with Cloud and Sephiroth on a level the others don’t. She’s much more conscious of Cloud’s behavior and notices the distinctions between Cloud and Sephiroth. She’s usually the first to notice when something’s not right and intervene.
I like that Tifa is established as the truth to Sephiroth’s lies and the one who can kinda “wake” Cloud up because, unlike everyone else, Tifa was there when Sephiroth (and Zack and Cloud) came to town and Tifa has seen what Cloud was like before the Jenova cells/false persona (even if she’s never been able to fully understand him). She’s the only one stopping Cloud from losing complete touch with reality, which is why Sephiroth is trying to undermine her credibility and eliminate her.
Like it’s really obvious, to me, that if Cloud and Tifa could properly reconnect by finally understanding the past and each other, Sephiroth’s manipulation wouldn’t work. Like, you know in the Loveless play how the bad guy’s weakness is true love. And then the hero (Cloud) and whoever is playing the princess (I had Tifa) try to declare their love, and it doesn’t work. The bad guy just laughs and says their love is an illusion or whatever? That’s what’s going on in the game, I think. I do think they love each other, but they don’t understand each other yet, Cloud isn’t even sure who he is, his identity is scrambled eggs, so it’s not a complete or true love. They have to bridge that gap, discover the truth and really meet. You know what I mean?
I still haven’t talked about the actual romantic stuff fbdbdbsbe I’m sorry, romance is usually always secondary to me. Um. I like that Cloud initiates a lot of those intimate moments with Tifa. Other people usually invade his space and make him uncomfortable. But Tifa’s patient with him and doesn’t pressure him. He reaches out to hold her hand and hug her and stuff. He opens up to her about his doubts and fears. It’s sweet how bashful they are, how realistically awkward they are sometimes. Yeah, idk, I just think they’re neat. I want them to understand each other, finally like really know each other, and I like when they hold hands.
As for how I’m enjoying Rebirth as a game (as someone who has never played the og FF7): I’m really loving it. I think it’s so much more fun and interesting than Remake. Love the open world, the different regions, the exploration, side quests, party bonding and banter, chocobos, whatever tf is going on with those protorelics and the Queen’s Blood creator, the battle challenges, Chadley (I know he was in Remake, but I grew more attached to him in this game), the return of other old NPCs, the new ones, the fun silly stuff like the segways in Costa del Sol. Rebirth fleshes the whole world and characters out, and I’m never bored. I have very little complaints. If it sticks the landing, it might be one of my favorite video games. Rip to the mini game haters, but I’m different. (Except the piano. The piano can go fuck itself.)
#but so many of the mini games are optional so I’m not sure why ppl would quit over them#like just don’t do them. i just avoid the piano. lmao#it’s funny how cloud and tifa remind you of sora and kairi cause at this point they remind me more of riku and sora#but 🤷♀️ everyone’s got different opinions#this is very quick and rambly sorry. i am trying to finish the game before i share thoughts
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how do you personally view sex/sexual attraction? what differentiates it for you, and what was your journey like? also your hair looks so good im jealous 😩❤️
im p stoned n in the middle of ori so i don't wanna rant(too much, but also oops) abt it rn lol, but I don't have sexual attraction 0:
ppl just b looking real pretty and i am looking affectionately. sex itself is just part of a shared experience to me and its a lovely way to be affectionate (❁´◡`❁) ♡
there's a level of passion that ppl only really show when they're having sex with someone and if i could just have that without the sex that'd also be really great. i can and have made out all day, i love being handsy, i love being close in each other's embrace, i love the sounds and faces people make when they're losing themselves, i love Everything about when ppl cum, i also get a kick out of making someone as horny as possible bc it's fun, i love BITING people ☝🏾😤💕 i love the feel of our skin pressed together
idk i think it's all very fun and passionate and sweet! but then on a more casual note i got a huge oral fixation and if i know you like that, eating pussy's as casual as a kiss on the cheek and is more like me just stroking your back 🤧 it's just There ykwim i salivate over it.
the root of why i do things isn't because I'm horny and I Want You like that but more so from a place of wanting to take care of you bc i know you enjoy it 🤝🏾 and seeing/making you like that is enjoyable to me bc i know ur feeling good physically and emotionally.
tldr i move with my heart not my dick 🫡 but that's not gonna stop me from making someone cum as many times as they can handle bc I'm having fun and it's hot. as far as most ppl are concerned u still get to hit so whatever. if i think you're cute I'm trying to put u in a series of situations..
the only hurtful recurring issue I'd have before was ppl assuming I'm trying to have sex w them just bc we're making out like.. I'm just having fun and spending time with u, it doesn't have to be more than this. but then i let ppl escalate it and happily follow along but would always be confused and hurt low-key when they'd stop being as affectionate one day bc we've been having too much sex and like. i didn't know why those things had to be bundled together 🙈 it wasn't a big deal but i didn't get it, and it's hard to know u are missing a whole ass kind of attraction when you've never experienced it before!!
there are a lot of other slight disconnects that'd come up here and there over the years internally as i tried reconciling how i (didn't) feel with what the norm seemed to be and what ppl wanted of me, i only Really truly found out what being ace was in the past year as i tried answering the seemingly simple question of “do i like sex??¿” to which the answer was basically i love everything about it as a shared experience but as just a kind of affection it's also very besides the point To Me. enjoying sensations and connecting with each other are very 🤌🏾✨💕
coming from a more emotional/affectionate place this also makes me very flexible w kinks bc idk why not i would do anything for you.. but there are definitely simple physical things that make my brain go fuzzy, and i like to shut off and enjoy myself 😵💫😵💫 anything with my mouth is a big one but i like to be touched and grabbed too and being the dom is nice. why not lose myself in sensation 💆🏾♀️ i have a very sensitive body and i enjoy it.
but also as far as losing ourselves in sensation goes, that extends to everything (❁´◡`❁) ♡�� i cook and bake with decadence, i love to give massages of all sorts, i love being cuddled up and warm, i love putting on something fun for us to watch or do, i want to go on beautiful hikes and picnics in the garden with you, i want to experience Everything w you and enjoy all of life's pleasures. being polyamorous this also extends to friends bc there's nothing I'd do for a lover i wouldn't for a dear friend of mine 💁🏾♀️
um. i could talk in all directions and probably go in circles about the topic for a lot longer/more in depth but u get the gist of it 🫡 it's very easy to participate in and enjoy sex as an experience without that layer of sexual Attraction being what guides you To Me. ur still very lovely and seeing you naked is even more beautiful and I'm going to take my time exploring all of u ♡ no matter what we're doing exactly I'm just trying to share a good time w you.
figuring out I'm ace made every disconnect make sense and everything clicked and it make me more sexual bc i firmly know where I'm coming from and what i actually get out of sex in general now👍🏾 there's an indescribable layer of hesitation in how i move and interact w others that's not there anymore, but that starts to bleed into self confidence and polyamory and other off topic stuff so yeah. good stuff. sorry my high rant was a lil long (。ノω\。) consider this some sleepover talk lol
#also ty for appreciating my hair it is pretty cool 💆🏾♀️💕#i grew it myself 💁🏾♀️#oversharing and a little shy bc no one ever asks me about it 🫡 but ty for asking about it#i always feel like no one cares when i actually Do want to talk about being ace lol
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from the way jaewon just naturally takes care of jihyun it really shows that he actually likes taking care of ppl. yeah he's scared of being disliked but he also likes putting in effort and looking after those he likes, those ppl he feels responsible for. somehow thou, almost every friend he's made since day one turned out to be someone conceited and selfish and took his love and care for granted. somehow the same ppl he put so much effort into learning about took what they know of him at surface level and built a version of him they envied. and now he can't break free from it bc he's already bone-deep tired and doesn't think he can deal w the consequences of ppl finding who he really is and how he really feels.
jihyun's a reminder of why he loved being around ppl. bc the right ppl accept your love tenderly, and give you back the same or more. and for so long he's only loved the wrong ppl and now finally he can see who was right for him and who wasn't. only two of his relationships rn are reciprocal - jihyun and yoonwon. what's really exceptional about his relationship w jihyun is that jihyun actually knows nothing about him. almost everything he knows about jaewon comes from jaewon himself and for someone who talks so much, jaewon does not talk about himself. but jihyun thinks jaewon is incredible despite not knowing he's a rich kid w connections or that being assigned to his group for a group project guarantees an a grade. jihyun can see he's popular but also sees that he gets stressed. jihyun sees he's nice to everyone but also appreciates the sincerity behind his kindness. jihyun takes him as he is, no assumptions or expectations and treats him w a kind of reverence jaewon gets high on.
and w every passing minute they spend together jaewon's learning smth about himself, learning how awfully he's been treated by the rest around him, learning that it is possible to receive just as much and more in a relationship, learning that he can be loved even when he comes off as someone who picks fights drunk and makes the shittiest drawings and runs away after initiating a kiss. he's learning that he can be forgiven when he fucks up and that he doesn't need to be perfect to be loved.
and it makes hanging out w his friends so much more difficult. bc now jaewon has ppl who treat him better, he starts to accept that he maybe deserves better. but jaewon's at a stage where everything feels too late and meaningless. what's the point of screwing years of friendship just months before he leaves and everything will fade anyway?
i think jaewon's nature will probably be best explained once his relationship w his parents is explored. often times kids grow into ppl pleasers when they grow up trying to please a difficult parent (his father i'm guessing). seeing how jaewon's already began revolting against his parents means he's likely not too far off from his breaking point. whether jihyun acts as a catalyst or hinderance to this process is what will probably determine if he'll choose to fight for this at least or if it's the first thing he'll give up.
#most personality problems are a result of parents#i really wanna know more about his home situation#how he grew up and all that#love it when we're given such three dimensional characters that ur as curious about them as u would be about a real person#the eighth sense#thoughts.txt
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Neuvi headcanons
MY BBGRL,,, MY LIL CUTIE MANS WHO I ADORE,,,, i love him so much he's so fuCKIng CUTE dude, lil dragon mans sksmefkhjrshefkj. i swear i'm a normal individual w/ these characters
list of current h/c's: - i feel like he's socially anxious?? like ok, listen, he's GREAT w/ any formal situation, but THE MOMENT it gets casual he PANICs on the inside bc he's like 'wait what's the right and wrong thing to say'. - following that, i feel like when he's in a casual conversation w/ ppl and starts getting panicked, i feel like he's learned to tap his cane twice on the ground to signal to any of his closer companions that he's freaking out. like a "get me out of this situation please" type deal. - this ties into my belief that he's got anxiety regarding smaller scale things. like if he makes a small mistake on something or breaks an object, he feels SO BAD and panics as he tries to figure out how to fix it.
- knowing this, i feel like he feels a bunch of emotions, he just doesn't know how to like,,, put them into words? read below - a yearning for learning,,,, actively seeks out how to label his emotions, but how does one define their feelings? Emotions are not equated to logic, and yet they're a part of human experience, so what is the method to label that which is so intangible yet so real? he doesn't know yet, but he's figuring it out and i'm so proud of him :)c - overprotective in his own way. like he's been putting a lot of stuff on his shoulders so ofc that includes him being sensitive towards people he cares about being harmed. - prideful! he doesn't think he's prideful, he just is Proud Of Things, but tbh i get a bit of a "dragon pride" vibe from him. it's silly goofy and rears up the most around certain Archons. - GOOD DAD. NEUVI IS SUCH A GOOD DAD. IF A MELUSINE COMES UP TO HIM TO TALK ABT A THING, HE IS THE MOST ATTENTIVE LISTENER. HE'LL ASK QUESTIONS, TOO, TO TRY AND LEARN MORE. oUGH i love him he's SUCH a gOOD DAD - afraid of losing everything; Neuvi didn't really realize he had so much to lose until he almost lost it, and now he's like even more scared to lose anything else. - anxious of closer connections. Neuvi wants to be closer to people; he really likes humanity, and he wants to reach out to people. but he's afraid, bc if they ever err away from the side of justice, they may end up in his court. no matter what happens, then, is him sentencing them not a form of betrayal? neuvi ponders this a lot - MOVING AWAY FROM SAD THINGS: y'all i'll be SO real, ppl are so used to Neuvillette being in Fontaine that, when he's Outside of Fontaine, unless they Know Him on a personal level, no one recognizes that he's the Iudex of Fontaine. like not even actual Fontainians register it, bc, like, why would the literal Iudex Leave his Natural Habitat of the Court of Fontaine??? - side note, average ppl are intimidated by him. like most ppl look at him and go 'if i approach him, i will be arrested for war crimes bc CLEARLY he is a PRINCE' (which is the best and funniest shit) - 'unrelated'; Neuvi doesn't talk to a lot of ppl outside of his closer friend group, i think u can understand why - such a hard worker,,, honestly probably overworks himself and doesn't even realize it. - WHICH LEADS ME TO HIS HOBBIES HEHEHHEHEHEHE - ARTIST,,, you CANNOT sit there, after Lantern Rite, and TELL ME that HE DOES NOT start looking into the arts. THIS MAN would ABSOLUTELY get into painting and poetry and shit. he likes watercolors and he ADORES POTTERY (THAT FUCKING LADLE??? I CRIED OVER IT IN MY TEAPOT FOR 30 MINUTES HELP) - loves books and stories. like seriously they're kinda actually really fun for him to read bc he sits and breaks down what is and isn't accurate abt them (crime/detective books) and he gets invested in romance books (he's CURIOUS okay??) - bc he reads Fontainian romance books, any and every romantic gesture is like,,, awkwardly sappy? like he'll do small scale things bc he's a lil nervous baby, but it's THE SAPPIEST of the sappy. - fashion lover. Listen, this man could arguably wear whatever he wants and he chose to wear THAT???? he's a fashion lover / makeup master, and i will die on this hill. - he would laugh at Cyno's jokes, but only AFTER Cyno explains them.
OKAY I,,, I THINK I DID IT,,, i had so much written i'm dying please i love him so so so much. my itty bitty squishy bbgrl i cannot wait to explain why and how he joined the party / poly it's SO silly, this entire thing is my favorite i have been yapping abt them for a MILLENIA
#neuvillette#neuvilette genshin#brain worms#genshin neuvillette#neuvilette headcanons#this man is so fucking cute#i think he's so precious#i'm not even joking about the ladle thing btw#i'm an Eng VA user and BRO#the voice acting#is on point#i put the ladle beside my kaeya lamp in the teapot#and started like crying bc i was just staring at it#why is a ladle so cute#why is the man who made it cuter#why didn't we get zhongli's thoughts on neuvillette during Lantern Rite?#I'M WATCHING YOU HOYO#ok i'm done talking abt him#i'm going to go set up the Silly Goofy timeline that is my Genshin Impact interpretation#uwu
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hunger games posts gave me Thoughts i wanted to share so uhhh hiiiii local friend who studies literature and it’s place/function within society here with a comment. stories and writing (even though this p much goes without stating) have always been modes of entertainment and education and much more, we humans love our mediums. i think the biggest issues with the hunger games bullshit is people have begun to treat it like it’s a meme to just make the comment about it and leave it behind without using genuine critical thinking skills. it’s been going on for months and it’s starting to water down focus on what’s happening in favor of talking about fiction. i think the fiction shouldn’t be getting this in the way of the discussion of what’s REALLY happening. if it helps to click in younger minds that what their country is doing is wrong, that can be a positive, but fully grown adults repeating it like it’s a joke feels abysmal. like they’ve missed the point somehow.
i don’t know if this makes sense but summary is: literature as a tool for understanding the world = important especially for kids, but, constantly talking about the literature ONLY and not what it actually reflected of the world you live in/treating the real world thing with the same level of respect as the fiction = missing the point and making real issues into what feels like fandom talking points. i don’t think it should take a book or movie series for the average adult to understand horrors of violence on the scale we are witnessing and i definitely don’t think that they need to use that as the only frame of understanding what’s happening.
anyways hope that made sense and also to others who might be reading this…. the moment something fictional clicks you into something really happening, try to understand the real world through the real world information you can find, not a novel. any novel. go learn real history. as much as possible do not distance yourself from the worlds pain with a wall of fictionalization, engage with the world like you actually live in it and like life matters to you. even i engaged with people pointing out comparisons once or twice, months ago when they started, but i have not sat and made that all i will talk about, and certainly not to the point i’m not even keeping up with what’s //really// happening in rafah right now. especially not in favor of all the soulless “ooogh omg guys the capitol is real???” jokes i keep seeing from ppl talking about the kentucky derby.
this turned into a micro-hate rant about western europeans / US citizens thinking it’s some brain blast enlightenment to point out a dystopian novel about the US is a dystopian novel about the US. from fully grown adults it’s almost embarrassing, there is real life suffering happening and you need to talk about it like it’s real not like it’s a fucking story. it is baffling
Exactly like fiction can be a tool to help initial understanding of subjects especially for young people but when we're talking about current genocides and invasions going on people really need to learn to pull their socks up and behave like adults with sense. It's so insulting and dehumanising to the people of Palestine to be compared to some fictional group of ppl from some district in a book written by a lady whose father was a fucking Veteran.
It's so immature and stupid and so intentionally obtuse and unserious. It's cruel and selfish and totally just being done to be self congratulatory like ' haha look at me i made this connection between fiction and reality I'm so cool and special' like SHUT THE FUCK UP.
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Im going to ramble, this is just my opinion
I made a post somewhere about why I dislike Seto x Marry and the main reason is because it would imply Marry is a higher priority to Seto than his family because she's his girlfriend and not because she's needs the extra support/Seto is generally emotionally mature.
Someone said they ppl really do prioritize their girlfriends over their siblings and while I don't necessarily disagree, I think in the case of the mekakushi trio, it's an exception because their relationship doesn't seem to be traditional siblings, but closer.
My point is I find it very difficult to believe that if Seto, Kano, and Kido didn't happen to become legal family, they wouldn't be found family anyway. Like theyre interrelated in more ways than one, both fundamentally and personally. Fundamentally in the sense they all have eye abilities, and personally for the following reasons.
Just about everything about their childhood points the three of them as a trio from the start. They're assigned to the same room, they're all outcasted, their room is collectively referred to as "the monster house", specifically the collection of three of them. Their personalities bounce of each other, and they clearly stick together by choice from the start. Like Kido often got annoyed and mean to Seto and Kano, but why didn't she just try to find other friends?
Like, they're a trio. Like, between them and the rest of the gang, they're a subgroup within the group. Now, Marry is very distinctively an outliner. I don't mean this in a mean way per se, but you know. She's different from the rest of the gang, she's a medusa and has the queen snake, and over is 100 years old etc etc. like she inherently cannot connect with the tightknit trio in a fundamental sense the same way Seto, Kano, and Kido automatically connect with each other.
And of course, Seto, Kano, and Kido ARE family. But my point is theyre very distinctively (found) family, regardless whether or not theyre legally family. In other words, their dynamic oozed sibling/close knit vibes from the very beginning.
Regardless, the trio grew up together and share a sister (as in, Ayano) and further trauma of their new mom's death. In certain routes, (the second manga route namely) Marry IS a sister to the trio and Ayano so i do appreciate in certain routes Marry grows up with the trio too. But again, she's fundamentally 'different' and Marry and Seto connect with each other (as shown in Shounen Brave) more than Kido and Kano do with her. So my point is Seto, Kido, and Kano and nonetheless a distinct subgroup that excludes Marry. (Jeez, that sounded mean)
To be clear, yes, the mekakushi dan are very very close (family levels of close) to each other. But it'd be wrong to say some of them aren't as close as others to certain people. It's hardly a drastic difference (or I'd like to think so anyway lol) but I find it hard to believe Seto wouldnt be at least mildly closer to his siblings than Marry.
Anyway I rambled. I'll paste the original post I made I'm referring to
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Why I Dislike Seto X Marry
So this isn't meant to be a dogmatic or aggressive post at all! Just a friendly and civil debate at most! This is just my opinion, that's what I'm trying to say :)
So yeah, I dislike Seto x Marry and... TL;DR: it's mainly because it trivializes their friendship. That's probably not clear so I'll explain.
1. Seto is depicted as a very emotionally mature, perceptive, empathetic kind of person. He wasn't like that as a kid so, logically, Seto has put in a lot of effort to better himself and become as emotionally intelligent as he is. And that can be proven by how gentle and caring he is to Marry.
However, if you're under the impression Marry and Seto are together, then it negates Seto's self-betterment because it's implying all of Seto's actions towards Marry that showcase his emotional maturity were influenced by romance and he might've not acted the same way if he didn't happen to have feelings for her.
In other words, Seto has put a lot of effort into bettering himself. To imply that some of his best showcases of it were based on feelings outside of his control contradicts his self-improvement and negates his integrity.
2. Seto is undeniably more active in Marry's life than Kido's or Kano's. To be more specific, we see him interact with Marry more often than Kido or Kano. For example, in the anime when Momo wakes up at the Mekakushi hideout and screams bloody murder, Seto immediately goes to make sure Marry is okay. Of course, you could argue it's because Marry (in this example, Marry literally collapsed but I'm talking generally) is sensitive and needs more support.
That kind of thing happens quite a few times. For another example, when the terrorist attack occurs: Seto gives more attention to Marry than his siblings. And it's true this can all be attributed to Marry needing the extra support and reassurance more than Kido or Kano. I mean, we always see Marry being sensitive and timid so ofc she's gonna need to be comforted more than Kano or Kido who are characteristically tough.
Going back to Seto generally being more active in Marry's life than Kido's and Kano's, Seto has always been depicted as a caring person. Seto has always been keyed up to have been a lot like Marry, especially in Shounen Brave and even Imagination Forest. So it's totally understandable for Seto to genuinely care about Marry's well-being and the well-being of anyone who isn't okay, such as Kano.
But, if Seto and Marry are together, then the vibe goes from "Seto wants to help out someone in need of help" to "Seto prioritizes his girlfriend over his family."
And, you know... given the family drama in the trio, it's pretty gross if Seto prioritizes A GIRLFRIEND over his remaining siblings. Marry being a higher priority because she's sensitive VS Marry being a higher priority because she's his girlfriend is... you know, a big difference. I know Seto x Marry doesn't automatically mean Seto gains that kind of thought process, but I prefer to disregard that possibility entirely. I like to think Seto helps out Marry because he's a nice person, not because he has an ulterior motive.
In other words, Seto x Marry implies Seto is more active in Marry's life than his remaining family's lives because of romance, and not because Seto is a genuinely nice person.
3. Also, technically Marry is like 140 while Seto is like 16. Not the most creative factor I guess but I figured I should mention it lol. Also, when Seto dies, won't Marry keep living and that'd be kinda sad for her… isn't that what created the daze lol. A human dating a medusa…
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as someone who has troubles finding irl friends due to autism, fear, awkwardness, very little time and energy etc, having some sort of online community is essential for me to form friendships or at least likeminded people. People to talk to whether that's on a very superficial (fandom) level or then moves on to more personal things.
irl I've had some very good friends that I'd still consider ppl I love but I still have issues finding time and energy to meet them and essentially what happens is that you lose some connection over time, whether you like it or not, there will be things in your and their life that you might try and catch up on once you meet again but it will still feel like there's distance growing bigger and bigger. And I've also had plenty of friends, especially friends within larger friend groups, that ive lost due to fights, lack of shared interests, just growing apart.
In general, irl friends have never been close enough or stable enough to really trust them with deep shit or physical closeness. And for many reasons I've lost trust and got more anxious in getting close to people for fear of abandonment and, well autistic social reasons I guess.
On the internet it's very linked to my hyperfixations, lose it and the friends and acquaintances will most likely move on as well. Each time I find people that I legitimately have love for even if I will most likely never meet them, maybe sometimes because of it. I guess the physical distance tho sometimes lends itself to a different sort of closeness tho, more daring in what you open yourself up to.
At the end of the day I know rationally that those people I now, at this moment in time, found for myself, will not stay in my life for long, or at least not forever. And as an overthinker I'm already thinking of losing them, it's seriously annoying lmao. Like it's almost mean how I just know I'll have to say goodbye to them at some point while I'm actively having a great time.
All this to say, there has been people in my life, even recently, that told me they consider me their best friend and I have such difficulty to respond to that. It's not that it's not probably a mutual feeling (i don't know, what is a best friend?) but there's also expectations and fears connected to that for me. The loss would be bigger, the disappointment in me not being what they thought me to be would be bigger. It's so hard to explain. I just know that very few people so far have stuck with me, I don't have the strength to invest in friendships, i barely have the strength to invest in myself, and I know the people who consider me a friend, a best friend even, deserve to have someone that can't just make them laugh a lot but someone who can also be there for them when they're in trouble. And I'm so preoccupied with my own struggles that I can barely handle those situations.
I'm just a very selfish friend unfortunately. Idk what this is I just felt like writing this down, feel free to ignore, thank you if you read tho.
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⭐ i'd love to hear your director's commentary on how marius won the hand :D
THANK U for the ask!! You probably already read my dir. commentary on Ch. 5 and Ch. 6 of How Marius Won the Hand [...], so I'll jump back and do a commentary on Ch. 4 of the fic!
I confess: I had no idea what to name Courferre so I picked the two names I feel I've heard the most often when it came to fan-assigned names. And not to give any spoilers, but Courfeyrac's name will come into play again in the future!
Also not to pull a Hugo but I wanted to emphasize how pretty Cosette was lol. Needed to give her and Enjolras some physical similarities first (beauty, etc.) before some spiritual similarities later on in the story!
Cosette canonically loves to tease Marius! See:
Ten years later, with the love of Marius in her heart, she would have answered: “A pedant, and insufferable to the sight! You are right!” (4.3.7)
“Monsieur, you are handsome, you are good-looking, you are witty, you are not at all stupid, you are much more learned than I am, but I bid you defiance with this word: I love you!” (4.8.1)
“Don’t cough, sir; I will not have people cough on my domain without my permission. It’s very naughty to cough and to disturb me.” (4.8.1)
And so I needed Cosette to have her spunk here as well!
Ninny mention!! *cue cheers and applause* Wanted the Valjean reveal to be Hugo-esque ("omg who could this mysterious old man be 🤭") and I'm glad ppl noticed it! Also, Valjean hates Marius so much that I NEEDED to include it, though I suppose Ch. 6 is a lot more obvious with it.
Pilf wrote an excellent post about what Valjean's dynamics with the Amis would be like. Though the context in this fic is quite different (Courferre + Marius having to gain Valjean's favour) but I still think it fits! Courfeyrac would be far too Courfeyrac-ish to gain Valjean's immediate liking, in contrast to Cosette who would love Courf immediately (which only just worsens Courfeyrac's standing). Combeferre, however, is able to stick to safer topics! They're just Two Polite Men. This fic has also only just hinted at Enjolras' and Valjean's father/son dynamic so far but it's very close to Pilf's post on it too. They do not talk to each other at ALL; they will sit in silence together for hours and enjoy it. That's their father/son bonding time babey!
A call back to an earlier part of the chapter when Marius tried to make sure that "his palms were not slick with sweat". Mission failed!
I like to write Courferre stumbling over each other trying to impress Cosette. Idk I just feel like they have that sort of energy à la Tulio and Miguel from The Road to El Dorado.
I'm really glad ppl liked this scene ehe. How did Marius drink soup with a fork? Just part of his Pontmercying shenanigans I suppose.
Cosette being shocked at Enjolras taking her hand is the same energy as someone getting shocked when a particularly introverted cat suddenly comes up and sits on their lap. I hc that Enjolras isn't a very tactile person (which could be canonically derived from his only-two-kisses moment), so Cosette appreciates any physical displays of affection she can get!
I argue that the main thing Marius lacked in canon that could have given him a proper 'character development' was the belief that he could have a solid support system outside of bourgeois circles. He was so close to connecting with Les Amis de l'ABC but he ultimately fell back into a self-deprecating hole once his world views were challenged. In this fic I hope to get Marius to reconnect with Les Amis on a personal level first (via Cosette and Enjolras) before attempting to push him towards connecting with them politically (and he's already beginning to, in Ch. 5!).
And it's no surprise that the first person he reaches for when he realises that he DOES have actual friends is Courfeyrac! Writing this fic and rereading les mis letters has got me in my Courfius feels; Courf was such a good friend to Marius and (fic spoilers?) is definitely deserving of being his chief groomsman!
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And that's it for my Ch. 4 analysis! Sorry for the late answer lol; immediately after reblogging the post I got thrown 5 different assignment deadlines.
If anyone wants any other fic analysis (or even an AU analysis as a whole!) feel free to ask! I'm only one message away from blabbering like an idiot <3.
#les mis#les mis fanfic#syrup writing#OFEA#enjolras#cosette#marius pontmercy#only tagging the main players so that i dont flood tags#enjolsette
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Hey so a few days ago I saw this post about how Rhaenyra not telling Alicent that she lost her v card is not the same as Alicent meeting Viserys in the middle of the night and not telling Rhaenyra. And it occurred to me, did anyone question why Viserys would choose the daughter of a second son from a family that doesn't even bring that much into prestige into the Royal Family. Like many could argue it was because of the Hightowers connection to the Faith and the Citadel but House Targaryen has two daughters as members of the faith (Rhaella daughter of Rhaena and Aegon the Uncrowned and Maegelle daughter of Alyssanne and Jaehaerys as septas) and a son in the citadel( Vaegon son of Alyssanne andJaehaerys) so that argument wouldn't really work.
I just wanted to know your thoughts on it as many people tend to gloss over this part when talking Viserys choosing Alicent over literally any other available female in his court(not counting his daughter).
This is a really interesting point! Honestly, I think Viserys was choosing what he believed was the lesser of two evils, someone that he thought would be a decent fit with him (she took an "interest" in his model of Valyria 🥺) and potentially the bigger concern was someone he thought could get along with Rhaenyra.
It feels like a dad move, he's trying his best in the midst of his grief and still thinks his 15-year-old wants a doll or something... The analogy isn't perfect, but I think you understand. The decision was two-fold. He was trying to make a choice that he thought would be beneficial to them both, without considering the way Rhaenyra would be hurt by the decision. This is why their dinner together (Rhaenyra & Viserys) where they discuss the expectation for him to remarry is so interesting, because Rhaenyra is fine with Viserys marrying for duty, and Viseyrs is like great!! Because he thinks marrying Alicent is dutiful to Rhaenyra. He's raising her best friend tremendously in station and has found a wife that is in her childbearing years (he wouldn't have to wait like with Laena) and she is ok with his hobbies - it feels like the best of a bad situation.
Except it backfired so hard because, from Rhaenyra's perspective, her dad just married her best friend for no reason. She had no clue that Alicent was visiting her father and nurturing some sort of affection there with the intention of being his queen.
Realistically House Hightower added nothing. They brought nothing to the table, unlike House Baratheon, Velaryon, etc.
Laena was easily the better choice for him, and the show completely glosses over her close relationship with Rhaenyra, simply to make the Rhaenicent besties angle work.
IDK, it's interesting, but also ppl will make the argument that if Viserys and Laena had gotten married, Corlys would've pushed for any sons through that marriage to be named as heir above Rhaenyra...
Even though, really, its a win-win, if Rhaenyra married Laenor as well... like
I've gone completely off-topic, I'm sorry.
I don't think the late-night visits and the v-card are on the same level in terms of what they're lying about. Alicent never admitted to visiting Viserys because it would've made Rhaenyra aware much sooner that Otto was vying for power, whereas Rhaenyra lied about the v-card because she knew it would be used to ruin her reputation/undermine her position as heir.
It's honestly "You lied for power, I lied to protect myself - we are not the same."
Anyway, I hope this gave you some insight into my thoughts on the matter!
Thank you for the ask 💕🫶
#answered asks#bimyself06✨#my mutuals#house of the dragon#viserys targaryen#rhaenyra targaryen#alicent hightower
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v curious here because i was looking through the vi tag. have u found anything whatsoever that helps with reducing the effects diplopia. i first started having double vision like four years ago and there just...isnt a lot of information out there about like. living with it. have you found anything that works for you?
Hello! :D
Yeah, the info out there for coping with diplopia is extremelyyy lacking, unfortunately.
I'm currently trying prism glasses right now to see if they will help my eyes align better but so far, despite paying $1400CAD, it's done nothing and I'm starting to wonder if prism glasses are a scam tbh sO I don't personally recommend those.
Beyond that, a few tricks I use are:
-Screen readers and visually described media and movies -Closing the eye I have the least vision in and brief looking through the one I have the most vision in, to cut down on how much double I'm seeing -Using liquid level indicator on glasses and cups so they don't overfill -Using a mobility scooter for long distance trips that are too far to walk, since I can't drive due to my vision
and this one I'll put separately because it relates to safety:
when I'm walking down the stairs I ALWAYS use the handrail and go slow; the back of my heel connects with the back of the stair so I know my foot isn't dangling over the ledge, and then I exaggerate how much I pick up my feet and then once again aim for feeling the back of the next step below me, repeat.
Using your voice is also important in these situations. I'm a quite person so it's hard but, my safety has to come first. Practice saying things like
"I can't see, please don't push me!" or "Do not push me!"
for crowded stairways with impatient ppl, those scenarios are the most dangerous.
I wish you the best my friend! The majority of advice online for diplopia is "get prisms" or "get surgery" and that just isn't enough for those of us suffering.
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ask thing! 1, 2, 47 (although feel free to say bff or marry since these questions are weird LOL), 50, 60, annnnnnd 83? 👀👀👀
hellooooo friend thanks for sending the thingggg <3 1. What is your biggest turn off in a person? ooof a lot of things bc i am a Bitch ahahahaha. jk, i won't act like a bitch if i don't like you but i am veeery picky about who i actually choose as my friend. i really dislike cowardice in people, generally, but esp regarding personal relationships -- we are all little gremlins afraid of rejection, but i feel like that's no excuse not to at least Try ya feel me? it also makes my blood boil when ppl try to rationalise or explain their lack of empathy and human decency as some sort of natural selection like oh i am right to hate this person because they are WEAK like. pls chill :) you are allowed to hate who you want but pls don't be self righteous about it! this also applies to ppl rationalising bad things happening to ppl as something they deserved -- i am aware this is their defence mechanism so their brain wouldn't have to deal with the reality of a Bad Thing happening to them but it makes me so angry lol -- they apply this child-level analogy of like bad things happen to bad ppl and i am Good so therefore nothing Bad will Ever happen to me and usually those ppl have also read about law of attraction and heavily misinterpreted what that's actually about :) also -- selfishness is a biiig turn off! 2. What is your biggest turn on in a person? i will tolerate many things if i like your general vibe hahah! a really big thing for me is actually being able to have quality conversations during which i feel seen. i like people who are able to process and actually hear the things you say and then actually respond to them -- many times ppl will just wait for their turn to talk or not even try to understand where you're coming from, which is fine i guess, but pls miss me with that shit bc i have no patience for it! i guess that requires a high level of emotional intelligence and that's a trait i highly value in ppl! i will try my best to offer the same courtesy to them! i also love when ppl just... try, you know? i understand it can be hard but i really love it when ppl just show up in a relationship (of any kind), flawed and broken, i don't care, but they came and they put in the effort and i will also put in the effort and.... congratulations!! you are building a relationship haha. for real i just love when ppl care and then they show they care, and sometimes it's just as simple as showing up and getting coffee together even though you're busy. it's surprising how many ppl just act on their natural instinct to pull away or get scared of genuine connection (myself included but i am WORKING on it okay). 47. If you could choose one Disney princess to be your best friend who would you chose? i chose to read this as "wife" instead of "bff" and i will have to say megara from hercules, she's exactly the type of woman that i'd go crazy about irl hahaha 50. If you had to live in the world of the last T.V. show you watched where would you be living? thaaaat would actually have to be wednesday hahha! no complaints, any world that has larissa weems in it is a good world to me! as for murderous monsters, those exist in every world, i'm not too worried haha 60. What is a relationship deal breaker for you? my last relationship ended bc my ex had trouble showing me she cared about me in a way i could understand, which, now that i think about it, is a reason many of my relationships came to an end or fizzled out over time, i just wasn't feeling appreciated. so i guess if i'm not feeling wanted i will not waste my time being there, i no longer do that to myself (i used to tho!) 83. What was the last thing that made you laugh? i laugh a LOT ahahahah and i find the stupidest things very funny. i think the last thing that made me scream with laughter was a video of an escape room chase lol it was very scooby-doo-esque. i was watching it with my sibling and literally banging my fists on the table here's a link to it if anyone is interested but prepare to be disappointed bc my sense of humour is that of a 5 year old
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I'm sorry, the Irish War of Independence is not just about 2 besties deciding to part ways. It was a response to hundreds of years of oppression that ended in the death of 25% of the population of Ireland and the emigration of another 25%. In Northern Ireland there was a high percentage of the Protestant descendants of British settlers, and they felt a stronger connection to Britain than to Catholic Ireland, so they have fought to remain part of the UK (with strong support from the British government). The Banshees is just about a guy that started feeling that his bestie was just too boring and that he was wasting his life spending too much time with him. And that happens in life. But his friend could not understand the reasons to end a lifelong friendship. Which leads to a escalation of tension to a ridiculous level. It's a fairly simple story and I don't think it needs to be an allegory of anything besides what it is. You can understand that in a small town it's harder to establish new friendships, so losing your best friend cuts deep
Thank you Anon for your heartfelt input 😊
I'm glad you provided more backstory on what historically happened with Ireland.
I'm glad I'm not the only one who just saw the film as a story (albeit weird) about friendship lol. His reason for not liking him anymore was just so DUMB to me lol. 🤣
Okay, so the dude is boring. So what?! 🤷🏾♀️ Is that any reason to just cut off a close friendship abruptly like that? 🥴 You two have been friends for years! Didn't you know he was boring before lol? 😂
Idk i just didn't get it lol. I especially didn't understand why Colin kept trying lol. After the second and third tries I would have left the former friend ALONE rofl 🤣
I'm not into BEGGING for anyone's friendship. 🤚🏾 I want ppl who actually want to be my friend lol.
But I get what you're saying that maybe it was tough to make friends on that small island.
I still think that was cruel that he just did a total 180 one day without any warning. He liked him the day before, and the next day ignored him and treats him like a complete stranger. Like what??? 🥴 😂
That's why I said, they BOTH were crazy! Lol 😆....
That's why I preferred the second interpretation of the film. It makes more sense to me.
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Im about to be fr. I'm a lil sapiosexual. And I didn't know there was a word for it until this moment. You gotta hear me out. It'll sound very rick and morty esque right. Like, "To be fair you have to have a really high IQ to comprehend --" ass shit. But hear me out. It's an attraction to people romantically/sexually based on intellect/intelligence. Not just finding yourself attracted to people who are intelligent, but prioritizing/valuing intellectual connection with people in your relationships bc that is a primary means in which you find yourself developing romantic loving & desire feelings for people!
I have always felt the primary means of my connection with people started in the mind & being on the same page intellectually, and ppl I can have intellectual conversations with I feel connected to in a different way - connected being the operative word. There is something weirdly (but lovingly) sexual about meeting minds like that, and the studying of that person and that mind to understand where they're coming from. Not that I don't like my friends or ppl I become into who I have shared stuff or similarities or just fun vibes with that fall outside of that, but tbh if we're not meeting minds then it'll never be all "me" showing up there in a way that is satisfying to me in my romantic/sexual endeavors. Fun is fun, but it's not the same as fulfillment, and it's not the same as excitement, and it's fun sometimes bc it's silly and stupid - which there's not a thing wrong with. It's just when I have the kind of relationship style with someone where it is a lot of being able to talk/share earnestly, and not have to have the silly dial turned on all the time, well. Yeah it's fucking awesome to have. And I find myself opening up more in those dynamics. Pursuing a kind of authenticity that feels safe because I feel grounded. And I don't know that I can find myself feeling as vulnerable & truthful, as honest & real as I want to show up. If I can't talk about complexity in ideas and have productive conversations & if it's clear that other person has no interest in like, trying to meet minds on that level, meaning they don't really add much or care enough to learn to be able to add much, then. I'm sorry but it'll always be just a lil too superficial for me to ever think me and that person could have anything going on to make a relationship work.
When I do have the mental connection, I don't know why, but it also makes me FEEL LEGITIMATELY LIKE A SLUT Like bro I. It activates the weird part of my "shut up and 🥴🤤" part of my brain. And I've long felt a little weird or stitled for legitimately feeling aroused from when people EXPLAIN things to me lmfao. Or I hear them talk extensively about their thoughts & they're really further thought-provoking and interesting ideas and stuff, and they can phrase it so well and thread different concepts or metaphors through it, or in their stories, that it feels like witnessing a profound lesson or they're infodumping about their niche passion.... And dude seriously, that's deeply attractive. I would legitimately watch a fucking deep dive video essay or something with somebody aa foreplay ahahahhaha we turn that on, i'm getting turned on. They pause it to add their own thoughts and then i'm gonna pause it so i can smooch them.
But it's more than that! It's how they talk, too! It's how when they talk they can't help but *teach* you too, and they get so excited to do that for stuff they know a lot about. And then their tone can take on a degree of great depth and seriousness once they're deep in it, and that's deeply romantic. And to pivot away from their special interests and stuff - people who are able to have pretty nuanced intellectual conversations about just kinda any topic you broach or even on a whim in random conversations and stuff, who demonstrate a lot of self-awareness & desire to learn and understand and have their mind be opened/changed, people who pursue their own intellectual interests outside of anything they "have" to and consciously make deliberate efforts to know more and understand deeper. Bro. Bro. It's joever.
There's a kind of intensity + spark associated with it, and a straightforward kind of bluntness often times to their ability to accurately comment on something and just say it. Or because they are just locked into explain mode. Or they are really feeling the weight of what they're thinking about and talking about or their mental wheels are really goin. Or they just speak really matter of factly. Or can't help but to respond to something with a really strong sense of stoicism that looks like intensity bc they'll just answer your questions or respond to your statements really like, genuinely, because they know better, and they value the perspective you're coming from, and that you may be able to add on a topic that maybe rings resonant for them. And when you're on the same wavelength of when you're both knee deep in a conversation about something, the kind of electric undercurrent of their mind racing and your mind catching up and the shifting gears and then they way you can see in BOTH your eyes when you are thinking the same thought ---- BROOOOO it's HOOOTTTTTTTT.
I feel all the feelings I wanna feel sexually/romantically from that in a desire way! Feeling kinda submissive, and a desire to almost be a little 'babied' as they're so patient to help me understand something, and their having a very blunted affect that feels a little dominant but super grounding and reassuring and frankly relaxing to be in the presence of that melts through not just in everyday but in a sexy context too. But also! In a happy romantic/friend way, I love the feeling of falling deeper in that sense of love bc it's like falling down the rabbithole, and being relaxed enough to just speak your thoughts at any time & they will listen and even if your thoughts are not "intellectual" in nature or in service to some kind of discussion, you know they're the type to take in everything they hear. You know whatever they take in, they think about, and they maintain a level of curiosity & appreciation for learning. And oh my fucking god I'm sorry I just feel like I've cracked an important code here because I think about the times in my life I've experienced this & it really has been in very unforgettable + meaningful relationships (whether platonic or romantic).
Please lord let me marry a smartypants lol
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i think i'm just gonna list the things i liked and didn't like
i don't like how persistent and insistent adrien/chat noir is for ladybug. again, i really think it's a very scary and dangerous pattern to teach children. obviously anyone of anyone gender should respect the person they like and their boundaries, but esp teaching young boys that they need to respect young girls's boundaries and bodily autonomy (whether either of them stay that way later in life).
i did however think plagg's sad face in adrien's bag was very funny.
the creator is trying to reignite the race war between chinese ppl and japanese ppl fr /j
i'm annoyed that, like with master fu decoding the grimore, or the fact that kim swims and has a a close friend who's crushing on me, we don't get any hints that kagami fences with adrien until this episode. bc last we saw, she had been defeated and then akumatized.
i thought marinette chatting with her friends was a cute little scene, but it's kind of soured by the fact that 1) all they talk about is adrien (so it doesn't pass the bechdel test) and 2) her friends don't even listen to her when she says she thinks they're just meant to be friends
honestly, yknow, i just didn't like this episode. which is not surprise. i just didn't like the set-up or the premise. again, i think under a better writing team and creator, the love square could work. i might still be annoyed with it, but maybe i would be less annoyed if it was actually done well on a technical level.
but i don't feel any stakes or miscommunication drama. all i see is a teen boy not respecting his partner's boundaries and who doesn't listen to marinette, and a teen girl who is unable to speak to her crush at all, and barely listens to him, either. like that's just. idk basic? and it feels dumb.
once again the pacing was absolutely shot because they had to spend half the episode setting up the love square, and the introduced love interest rivals. so what does that make that? if it's a love square, and luka is connected to mareintte, and kagami is connected to adrien,,,like some sort of creature i guess. the square is the face and the off-shoots are like. ears or smth. but anyway the fact that they wasted half the episode introducing and setting up the love creature means they had to rush through everything else.
instead of like. using other episodes to establish that beforehand.
someone in a server i'm in, after reading some of my posts on this, commented that this show is like french rwby and they were so on the money with that one. like all i can think about is hbomb commenting about how they could've set up so many new characters through naturalistic storytelling and instead decided to spend half their season on a prom arc.
ml is like that but like for everything. ondine makes a brief appearance in frightingale and suddenly we're supposed to know that she and kim are so close that she confesses her love to him??? the leap the audience has to make!!!
i also just was annoyed at both marinette and adrien the whole episode bc of how they acted at the skating rink. but i won't go into that here bc i think it's more personal than an actual critique. could it have been written better, absolutely. but i don't think i would've liked it all the same.
i do feel bad for luka. it's very weird they made him the way he is. why introduce him as a potential love rival when 1) adrien isn't going to pay attention bc he will always want ladybug and 2) luka isn't even going to fight for marinette? where's the drama in that?
that does remind me tho, i did want to complain about the fact that adrien doesn't listen to kagami. like she says something and he completely ignores her! she tells him it's not his technique, and 5 seconds later, he goes, "it must be my technique." like my dude. maybe if you like. actually listened to the girls who talk to you, you'd have better chances understanding them.
and it goes the same for marinette, too. luka asks if she wants to ride the subway back together and marinette completely ignores him in favor of watching adrien leave. she doesn't even indicate she heard him. and then what does she do? nothing! she just stutters and stumbles and it goes nowhere!!
also can i just say the fact that she was like, "let's bring the whole gang next time" and then instead of listing their classmates, who have been shown to hang out together--they went to the goddamn movies last time--she lists the two they were just with, and alya and nino. which, funnily enough, pairs them off quite nicely. /sarcasm
tl;dr what is this romance doing in my superhero show lol
also now that i've started ice skating, the fact that both luka and kagami can do those moves on ice indicates way, way more practice than you would think. there's no way, based on their comments to the skating coach, that they would be able to skate that well if they did not get consistent practice. luka especially bc he lifts marinette!! adrien and marinette too. i've seen inexperienced ppl and first-timers, they are not that steady, nor that confident. even when they're with more experienced skaters. they move slow, they hang close to the wall. that was so unrealistic lmao. don't give ppl false ideas about how easy ice skating is man.
finally, this man couldn't get ppl skating?? in paris, france?? france, where adam siao him fa is from????? hello???
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