#but now im in the process of aquiring a pump. and not going to lie the idea of being able to kick back and deal with diabetes at a less | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

heathermason1983 · 6 months ago

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I genuinely think I'm becoming really normie and on one hand I don't like it but on the other hand I love it and it feels like I'm growing up and moving on idk. Like I'm working consistently for the first time in my life and I have a goal to work towards and I'm in the process of getting insurance approved for a tandem pump and I'm in love and in relationship FOR OVER A YEAR AND WITH SOMEONE I HAVE BEEN FRIENDS WITH FOR LIKE FOUR YEARS and I bought a car and I have inadvertently turned my sedentary lifestyle around and I am finally learning who I am amd what I do amd how I truly need to and would like to change about myself and I feel like I have all the power in the world to change these things life has overall become much more thrilling to live in, all the annoying and bad stuff aside.

#idk why i cared about so many things i really domt and quite frankly never truly cared about in high school #idk why it took me so long to be comfortable with myself oh wait yes i fid. diabetes made me crazy.#and i still dont have great control quite frankly im kind of bad at it and yeah its totally within my power to change that #but now im in the process of aquiring a pump. and not going to lie the idea of being able to kick back and deal with diabetes at a less #frequent and intensive pace is a really nice thought. it's not going to be perfect but if it can keep my a1c down to 6 or so that #would chsnge my entire life. my entire mwntal and emotional wellbeing would change radically. my attitude and self confidence. my physical #wellbeing as well. like this would undoubtedly radically change my quality of life #anyway lol #i get emotional thinking of mysekf with a pump with drastically better control of my autoimmune disease and man it makes me want to cry lol #i want to be her i dont want to feel sick and i dont want my autoimmune condition influencing my mood and actions anymore i want to be #clearheaded and rational and healthy i want to feel healthy so bad

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