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lyliah7 · 1 year ago

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Leaving a comment makes me fucking anxious and for some (stupid) reason I always feel guilty leaving a short comment so I often just skip commenting. But you know what? @justleaveacommentfest motivated me to get over that and it feels so fucking good to leave comments on fics I enjoy. So far I've posted, I think, 3 comments today? Which, sure, isn't a lot, but for me it's huge and it's stressing me out but I will keep doing it because authors fucking deserve it

Thank you fanfic authors for sharing your work with us and making us smile (or cry) with your works 🤍

#ao3 #my anxiety level is high rn #but i'll keep going #and hopefully one day it won't stress me out #but until then i can deal with a bit of anxiety #especially when fics make my life so much better #thank you fanfic authors #and fandom creators in general #fandom creators are the best people and i love each and every one of you #just leave a comment fest #lyliah's ramblings

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dilfkuza · 1 year ago

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i feel sick :)

#y8 spoilers #yakuza 8 #SMASHING MY HEAD IN THE WALL SCREAMING FUCKING CRYING BREAKING GLASS TEA4ING MY HAIR OUT WAILING FUCKKKKKK #i knew 'happy' would never be a possibility for Kiryu but you gotta be FUCKING KIDDING ME #bashing my skull open and letting the emotions flow out of me naturally bc i cant find the words to express how i feel rn #fucking. fucking. god fuck damnit KIRYU 😭😭😭😭#they couldn't let his ass retire. had to give him cancer on top of every other fucked up thing in his life. hhhhhhhhhhh #bulletin board #kiryu kazuma #god. this has spiked my 'kiryu sendoff' anxiety so high i might puke fr

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incorrect-riordanverse · 1 year ago

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im so mad that this is a side blog account and not a main account. i started this blog when i was still relatively new to tumblr and i think i was… like. fourteen years old or something. i never thought i would continue for this long, and i never knew so many people would like the content i put out here (i have over 9k followers which is literally mind-blowing, like wow….).

because this isnt a main account, i cant respond to replies left on my posts, i cant really reply to anyone unless i reblog !! i cant even follow people with this blog, it just comes up as my main blog (which is not pjo-related… rip my failed attempts at organising my fandoms to different blogs). so my avenues of interaction with a lot of you are seriously impeded.

so i just want to say i am so thankful for all of you, i read every single person’s tags who reblog my stuff, i read all of your replies and every time im crying screaming rolling around on the ground in agony over the fact i CANT REPLY!!

i know my posts are super inconsistent these days, im glad so many are still here! i think i may change some of my content eventually (never gonna get rid of the incorrect quote stuff, i’ll just be adding some other things like pjo headcanons or analyses or something), just to spice some stuff up on here.

#also! im currently writing a fantasy book rn and have been so stressed over the fact that authors are expected to have a following before—#—reaching out to agencies with a manuscript. and i seriously stress about creating a following.#so my backup plan is literally you guys. my four year old pjo account on tumblr with its silly little quotes 😭😭#and like. if that works. could you imagine. that you guys may actually save my future ??? like?? i love you guys for just following me bc ??#YOU MAY SAVE ME FROM THE CAPITALIST PRESSURES OF SENSATIONALISING ONES OWN ART FOR INVESTED SUCCESS YAYYYYYY #anyways im not going to promote it now bc its still in the first draft area. not near for me to even go thru revisions yet. i may never-#-promote it on here. i dont want to annoy people with suddenly changing tracks. and i def wont transform this blog into a self promo for me-#-thats never going to happen! i would make another blog for it but for now everything’s just an idea!#i just wanted to say thank you because this has been giving me so much anxiety especially since graduating high school. the problems of—#—trying to be an author have become more pressing and immediate for me. i hope it will happen one day but who knows #you guys give me confidence though. and i literally cannot thank u guys enough (I HATEEEEE THE CAREER ANXIETY)#not riordanverse #not incorrect either #for followers #rewriting #sorry for the whole essay in the tags ☠️

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pinayelf · 3 months ago

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coping w anxiety by drawing hot men

#had a stressful day yesterday & my anxiety is still p high from it...#so im drawing hot da men...#im doing portraits of the da men i think are Cute and im at nate rn...#fenris next then cullen and bull #shall i draw davrin & lucanis?

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tamagotchikgs · 4 months ago

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i just woke up n i feel so bad both mentally and physically i dont know whats going on

#this is the worst ive felt in so long #my anxiety is at a an all time high it is fully governing my brain rn all i can think about is everything i did wrong socially yesterday #i feel nauseous in my body n my head #just ag.u..... i want it to end i want it gone #it feels like my heart is attacking me frm inside #im also still sososo tired i dont know why i woke up so early it's only 3am #im gonna try n smoke myself into falling back to sleep i guess o(-<#i just want 2 cry everything hurts #i also woke up w bad acid reflux i think because i forgot to eat yesterday except for a cherry coke #i miss when i used to be able to do that regularly #i miss when my body allowed me 2 treat it like shit #i cant even drink water it hurts so bad o(-<

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artsyebonyrose · 1 year ago

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inktober day 12: spicy

(marceline and bubblegum from fiona and cake)

used this prompt to draw toxic yuri bubbline B)

this was also a way for me to try to unlearn my deep rooted shame and embarrassment towards doing or posting suggestive art, because i am an adult and it is literally fine to do so. however this was an unsuccessful mission as i cannot even think about posting this without waves of anxiety smacking me across the head. soooo i'm just gonna post it and not look back, ok thanks bye enjoy pls do not look at me i will cry

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jackredfieldwasmyjacob · 10 months ago

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good morning! a couple days ago i was reminded that all the predoc contracts applications were about to be opened so i decided to look when exactly and there's one that opened earlier in the month that i only have ten days to complete and send 🙃

#getting war flashbacks from last year when i did not have a good time. at all #i have to email the professor i had as my phd supervisor after almost a year like 'heeeey! remember how stressful was last year?#well how about we do it again lol'#it's my second and probably last chance to do my phd in madrid so... gotta try at least. despite being engulfed in anxiety rn lol #anyways. i don't think any of you are also phd candidates but just in case. the phd predoc of the community of madrid is open #also the FPU but i don't have a high enough GPA to access it so. lol.

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ducktollers · 6 months ago

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got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D

#delete later #sortof bc its basically already mine since my mom works there and said the current assistant sucks so bad theyll take Anyone with a degree #and theyre desperate #and its super casual and low intensity but still stressed tf out #bc i havent done anything non routine since december and my anxiety has gotten soooo bad and im soooo bad at talking to people #and ik the antidote is doing things again which is why am i doing this but. scary #and time is moving too fast and im so lost and i hate my stupid fuckass grocery store job and idk what to dew w my life rn #cannot stop reminiscing abt the life unlived and the time lost and while i do that i am not living anf losing time #😃😃😃😃😃😃#cannot stop thinking abt how my school life is simply over and i missed it i wasted it its Over 😀 no more chances #didnt make ONE friend in 5 years of university didnt join anything didnt do anything except mentally deteriorate #uni is supposed to be the source of so much life and experience. and yooo i missed it 😂yooooo omg its too late for me 😂😂😂#i rememebr before crossing the stage at high school graduation i was like. rn im in the part of my life before graduation #and in a minute suddenly im gonna be in the after #and then i realized recently. im in The After of university. the moment passed and i missed it #there is no more chances theres no more ‘next semester ill make friends’ theres no more Anything it is Over #time keeps going so fast and yallll i cant go back lol 😂😂😂 brooo wtf nobody told me u can never go back 😂#dawg i havent felt alive even once since leaving high school 😂 yo i peaked at age 17 😂 yo jm about to turn 23 and my last memory is being 19 #yooooo whered the time go 😂😂😂😂 brooo where does it keep going lol come back wait up im runnin out of time 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂#x

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mintaikk · 1 year ago

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My anxiety-riddled ass about to go to homecoming to a new school with a group of girls I don't know but they invited me for some reason

#idk how i got here send help #i feel like Y/N rn #but also my anxiety is making me want to throw up so thats nice #school #homecoming #possums #high school

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befuddledbrynntrovert · 1 month ago

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I am definitely going to graduate with my Associate's with a high GPA. I am 100% going to complete this semester with a 4.0. If I keep this up, I'm going to get into a good uni and I'm going to get scholarships. I CAN do this. 😤

#I know it's just the first semester but I am HANDLING this #Plus I decided to take a course that was supposed to be taken in the second semester of my second year so I'm confident #High school age Brynn would be so proud and in awe of me rn. I'm going to prove to her that she was wrong. I can do this.#adhd #anxiety

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aropride · 1 year ago

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my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt

#text #(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that)#ed tw #weight loss tw #talk about weight in general tw #like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite #no i dont have an eating disorder #i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️#i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during #a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still)#but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight''#even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school #& very briefly my freshman year of college #and i got to around [number] both times #and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body #but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong #even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right #its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself #Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that

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luixiv · 1 year ago

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I hope and pray that S2 of Arcane won't pull any timeskip shenanigans on Viktor. When we won't get to see his gradual Machine Heraldification TM. Because I desperately need to see the whole process required for him to get there. I want to see him working on his augmentations, figuring them out, messing up a bit and eventually succeeding. I need to see the science behind it. Please

#Clair rambles #my anxiety is so high rn #I just needed to get this thought out of my system #it was just sitting on my mind and relentlessly haunting me #Machine Herald #Arcane Viktor

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castielsprostate · 8 months ago

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NIGHT NIGHT!!

#my anxiety is so fucking high rn for noooo reason #if i die tonight know that i love you <3 #my anxiety made me type that #okay NIGHT NIGHT SEE YOU TOMORROW!!

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silouvertongues · 2 months ago

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in the trenches these days fr

#genuinely havent had this bad of a time mentally in so long im gonna lose ot #its like REALLY annoying this time esp bc i dont have the TIME !!!!! i need to do so many things and also a bunch of actual fun stuff #but im just like mentally???? idek???#for the past week ive felt like season 3 stiles when he couldnt tell if he was alseep or awake and he was like seeing things and losing it #like thats genuinely the only way i can describe it rn what the fuck is going ON #one of my best friends is coming to stay this wekeend and WE'RE BOOKED AND BUSY doing lots of high school reunions #and i was so excited but now im brain is messing it all up and im pissed i havent seen here properly in soooo long #there were just so many things i needed to get done before she gets here tomorrow evening but ive been wallowing in bed all week #WHATEVER ITS FINE i just wish the anxiety would settle so i could actually breathe and get shit done

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mars-ipan · 2 months ago

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i want to order soul food so bad but also before i left my mom mentioned us “having a lot of food in the house” so now i feel bad abt the idea of ordering food

#marzi speaks #she didn’t intentionally guilt me it’s the anxiety acting up methinks #but like. 90% of the food in the house rn either takes spoons to cook (which i don’t have atm)#or is leftovers that aren’t mine. and i don’t wanna eat everyone else’s unwanted leftovers!#i know my appetite is high right now but i don’t want to just eat everyone’s scraps #makes me feel like a dog in a negative unfun way #plus almost all of the leftovers are like. greasy. and i do not have that in me rn #my stomach. does NOT want anything greasy #i just want soul food…. fried catfish… candied yams… okra…#it’s gentle and warm and kind to my stomach. and it makes you feel better #and i’ve been feeling kind of shit today and just want my simple southern comforts is that so much to ask #chicken fried steak with gravy would also lowkey hit but that’s more emotional. in my heart i want soul food

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starfall-spirit · 2 months ago

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Hi, a toddler rode a tricycle straight into my ankle and it's swelled up like a balloon. How was your Thursday?

#my RN mother saw it and was immediately convinced i need an xray #but she's also the person i got my high anxiety from so...#starfall personal #i really do love the kids i'm with all day #but man do they make life interesting

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