#but me heart want versainz so-

[afterredlights]

Max's words still bounce around in my head.

Verstappen said, “I actually don’t worry about it. Because in the end, whoever is next to me, ultimately, at the end of the year he must finish behind me in the championship anyway.”

So, he's looking for someone capable enough to tail him in the championship. Whether it might be Checo who is an absolute team player, or anybody else, whoever it is must finish 2nd.

They would have to sign the contract knowing full well that they'll be second to Max, especially to the media. So, whoever it is better be someone who can keep up with Max or good enough to challenge Max for the championship.

Either way, take a look at this.

Max is a consistent block, so he's probably not moving from that spot unless he DNF-ed a lot or got a race ban or something.

Checo is in a good place, and is the most appropriate for Max in the future as they have a good rapport already. Charles will still bleed and breathe Red even after he wins a championship (very likely) with Ferrari, and probably won't budge unless something happens. Carlos is... Available.

He was Max's first teammate in F1, they both started in that elite grid together. He is still the only non-Red Bull to have won a race in who knows how long. He's been popping up on the podium this far in the season, and frankly, should Red Bull decide to ditch Checo after his remarkable seasons with them, is there another option beside Carlos??

From Max's perspective, he only wants the best and since he is the best, he'll only take the second best as his teammate. In which case, there are two possible choices in regards to pilots who are truly behind him and available: Checo and Carlos.

Right now, the pilots from P5 until P10 are locked and booked already. Below them, Nico will be off to Sauber and I'm not sure who else might be up to it.

2025 will see a shuffled deck, with more or less the same song and dance, me thinks.. but, still.

Who will Max be paired up with next season?

[transbrucewayne]

F1 but it’s ultra specific ship dynamics that I need in order to enjoy the ship:

Versainz: baby’s first situationship (literally pentaltyboxbox’s art is my versainz thesis. “Ay, Max, no. I am not gay and neither are you” 🤨) teammates who weren’t supposed to like each other reluctantly becoming friends and then being intricately connected for the rest of their careers. But totally not in a gay way. Of course.

Chestappen: repressed catholic and some guy who needs dilf pussy so bad he wants to kill himself (this is deeply important to me)

Strollonso: Brat princess Lance. Heros and anti-heroes. I’m on the dark side. Tell Lance not to worry I just want to build a gap with the cars behind. You’re my fucking hero.

Carlando: Baby’s first situationship pt.2?? Lando with a massive crush, first real boyfriend Carlos….i need there to be angst. Lando fell first AND harder, etc.

Britcedes/Gewis: George fumbling all over himself trying to impress Lewis, Lewis just thinking he’s cute no matter what. It’s the coolest man alive/weird little freak he’s obsessed with pairing of my dreams. George: this is my boyfriend he’s cooler than me and also he’s cooler than all of you.

Maxiel: first love married divorced remarried pining missing something that maybe was never there will they won’t they one big game of gay chicken healing from baby’s first situationship etc etc etc (I adore them)

Dando: trying to find solace in another, longing for someone you can’t get back, subversion of expected dynamics (controversial: I fully believe Lando tops in this one). But also. They need to have one brain cell. Lando blabbing on about god knows what. Daniel sweating and popping a vein bc of how much he needs to kiss him.

Twinklaren/Landoscar: third time’s the charm, oh you’re the one I’ve been waiting for, tender glances, young love, first teammate crush syndrome

Danterri: we had something weird in the past. “Find another weed guy I can’t fuck with you…uhhhmm nothing personal I can’t fall in love right now and youre Everything I love so if I ever see you again I’ll never let go of your hand sooo yeah” (we’ve all seen that one web weaving.) Are you dating the female version of me?

Lecciardo: WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IN VEGAS. Charles needs dick from a guy with unstoppable charisma soooooo bad. Fueling each other’s impulsive sides, etc etc

Sebchal: baby’s first situationship (Charles’ version) (from the vault) I miss you so much I’m going to listen to breakup songs all night long. I still think of you every day. I named you twice in a list of drivers. You may even kiss. If it was the omegaverse Seb is so obviously an alpha.

Brocedes: if it doesn’t make me physically sick to my stomach with anguish I do not want it. I hope you die I hope we both die. Hand in unlovable hand. I still consider him my best friend in my heart. We’re not friends. Are they lovers? Worse.

Chewis (Charles/Lewis. I recognise this is also the name for Checo/Lewis. What is the Charles/Lewis name?) me and the bad bitch I pulled by being in violation of that one article section. You know the post. They suffer together. Kinship in joint pain. You’ve got a long future ahead of you. Praise kink.

Let me know if you want a part 2, if so, send ships you want!

[rubyceleste]

I came here after ao3, not before leaving a comment there and I'm clearly not done.. so I wanted to ask, as you clearly did the perfect characterization of Carlos in ITSL, do you read others fics of "bottom Carlos" as well? Like it's been so long I'm into F1 fics but not one "not-cringe" bottom Carlos fic I've crossed over... Like not with Charlos nor Versainz ... I want this so bad....

So the achingly embarrassing question "do you have some reccs?" (Cuz Carlos is freaking bambi)

CarCar, Varsainz, Charlos I'm up for anything >^^<

thank you so much, that is a huge compliment ! i'm really happy you're connecting with itsl carlos (as i've mentioned in the past, he's very precious to me). your comment on ao3 was also wonderful to read, i'm really thankful you took the time to let me know, how you felt, it means a lot and encourages me to keep writing ❤️

i do read a bit of everything as long as the writing resonates with me, but i can recommend you some fics i've enjoyed which would fit your preference (or just kind of, i'm just recommending my favs really...)

the better half of a good time (by @antimonyandthyme) carcar

a fire you can't (won't) put out (by @antimonyandthyme) carcar

two works and an author i cannot recommend you enough (i highly recommend you also check their other stuff out, fantastic writing !). the second one is my kryptonite, i come back to it all the time just to feel something (it's rough out there)

a bad recompense for your love (by @steviethenarwhal) charlos

one of my favs ever, the content is not explicit but if you're looking for excellent writing, a compelling story and the need to rip your heart out in frustration one moment and overwhelming love the other, i really encourage you to read this one. the characterisation on both ends is extremely well-done.

crash landers (by @janinaduszejko) carcar

reckless attention (by @janinaduszejko) carcar

you've surely heard of the first one, the carcar scriptures in the flesh, it is a vers but please if you haven't done it yet, do give it a chance because it is a gorgeous, gorgeous work. the second one is also my beloved, one of my first carcar fics (if not the first ?).

cheek to cheek (so to speak) (by @testarossa) carcar

also one of my firsts, super tense and sensual, absolutely love this one.

breaking code of conduct (by @seasidefae) carcar

super sweet, fun and sexy, it is also a vers but please do give it a go!

game, set, match (by @wormeo-and-juliette) carcar

this one is so fun, i'm sure you'll enjoy it. super cute and absolutely hilarious, some lines are so clever and witty, pretty sure you'll love it.

there you go ! this is an exhaustive list of some of my favourites, i hope it'll satiate your story-appetite ❤️ sadly do not have any versainz or more charlos, but if anyone has recs, feel free to share

(on a side-note, i wouldn't call any work "cringe", we all have our preferences but writing should always be fun and self-indulgent ! know you didn't mean any harm though, and your comments, asks and love will always be appreciated, so thank you once more, and i loved answering this)

[f1amboyant]

Fun fact! The job I talk about loosing is actually scriptwriting 😂

I feel like I should explain who Carlos and Charles are soulmates with for maximum clarity 😅

•Carlos: parents and sisters (ofc), Caco, María, Teto, Fernando, Nico, Lando, Charles and new addition Alex

•Charles: parents and brothers, Joris, Jules, Pierre, Andrea and Carlos

OTHER DRIVERS CURIOSITIES

-Carlos jokes that he is the ultimate teammate bc he is soulmates with most of them; no one asks for Max bc Max is an anomaly, completely unmarked, since he was a child he was always completely covered in public, including gloves until he was old enough to maintain the distance. Rumor has it that his father (also completely bared, not by choice but bc he is a piece of sh...) prohibited him to have soulmates that could "distract" him from victory.

-So Max starts his F1 career not having any skin on skin contact until in a memorable grand prix he suddenly shows up with a warm brown mark cupping his jaw and paler than dead. The journalists there say that Jos was enraged and tried to attack Max and Daniel and after that he was not allowed in the paddock anymore

-Nowadays Max is still careful but he can be seen wearing short sleeves and spoting Daniel's mark and GP's soft aquamarine across his bicep

-Alex and George's marks are twins streaks that go from wrist to biceps since the first time they touched they bumped into each other 🤭

-Fernando is the most shameless about his marks and will post pictures with them visible every year to celebrate soulmates anniversary

-There is video evidence of Seb crying when he sees Michael's mark on himself AND then again when he gets Mick's

-Classic Old F1 lore says that two world champions had each other's marks on their d.... (kidding kidding, but if true this would have been a thing 😶)

-Kevin once said on camera that Nico's mark was on his balls (later discovered that actually it is on his back)

-Mick, Lance and Esteban's marks of each other resemble a group hug

Just a little something for everyone but let me know if you aren't interested 😅😅

Just having fun while watching the FP3 🥰🎨

Ooooooh I love those new additions!! So much to think about!!

Of course Carlos is the ultimate teammate, every teammate falls in love with him 🤭 But does Max have his mark? 🥺 👉 👈 My versainz heart wants to say yes 🥹

I really love the lore on Max. Perfectly canon.

Maybe Nico and Kevin would have had their marks on their balls but they touched each other on other parts first. Too bad 🤭

Mick, Lance, Esteban group hug, that's so cute!!!

I really love of these, anon. Please feel free to share more 🥰

[oranjeleeuw]

fanfiction ideas master list

I will add new ideas to this on the go, and also update on the progress of each story regularly

Catboy streamer girlfriend Charles

Smut, 1-2k words at best, lestappen

Charles is doing game streams but he gets a bit more brave about acting up for the camera

He's still shit at it though

But he has a very supportive donator

It's Max

Charles doesn't know that

He got his cat ear headphones from this donator so he's responding to some commissions of this person

The fic is either description of Charles movements and thoughts or chat comments from twitch CUT description to Max pov

It's something equivalent of phone sex but through stream video/chat commands I guess

this was requested by my bf hfdhj <3

WIP state: only a draft

Toto Wolf uses Roscoe for spying (he fails)

Crack fic, all the teams on the grid mentioned, 1k words probably

Toto has this fantastic idea that Roscoe gets along with every pilot

So the dog can be used for some mischief

He sends the dog out in different silly scenarios to go off and spy on different teams, figuring out their strategies

But since Roscoe can't talk and he's not trained for this, the dog just collects pets

At the end Hamilton takes home his kinda sensory overloaded baby

WIP state: only a draft

My condolences

Lestappen one shot, hurt/comfort, more so comfort, will become sweeter in the end

Charles DNF in Zandvoort, Max is catching up with him right after the winner ceremony

Definitely more than friends (were we ever friends?), less than boyfriends relationship status

Max is praising the skills of Charles and goes on how he's wasting his talent at Ferrari

Charles ends up crying/having a breakdown bc what if it's not the car but him who's not performing any better

Max offers to take him down to the beach for a walk to clear his head (Charles stops crying and starts laughing when he thinks Max wants to take him to the nudist side of the beach)

They walk, look at the sea, enjoy the wind

It's peaceful, it is helping

They kiss, and kiss

Charles wishes he could treat everything as easy as it is with Max, even though nothing is easy with Max

But these corresponding things are what stick them to each other so it's fine

WIP state: 1/3 of it is written, rest of it is drafted out in detail

That infamous Ted and Robin pact

You know, the "let's marry each other if we are still single by 30"

Young Versainz with some added jump into their current age

“I mean it'd be fun to make a pact like that” Max prompts, which makes Carlos snort.

“Yeah, get me a home country where it's legal first” he says bitterly,

Toro Rosso days, Max and Carlos watch himym in their free time

Max fancies the thought of having someone secured for himself if things go south

Carlos is cynical

But the possibility of this pact lingers, haunting the thoughts of both of them

The emotional journey of Max Verstappen with men

Goddamn this boy is Gay™

I really want to have a self-indulgent analysis of how I see Max's relationship with the most important men in his life

Like I want to explore his feelings and flash of thoughts of sexual awakenings

Starting with Charles (as kids, young teenagers)

Jumping to Carlos which is a Very intense jump

Like losing virginity kind of a jump

Oh it was awkward but the best and most he'd wanted

Then the whole ordeal that is Danny Ricciardo for this kid

Goddamn he's so gay for him

Getting together with Carlos seemed so easy that he thinks maybe it's a sealed deal with Danny too

Like he likes him, that's obvious, isn't it?

Isn't it?

Then an older Charles enters the stage of racing (and Max’s heart) once again

Keep in mind this won't be an actual ship fic since none of the pairings will end up as couples, it's more so a study of Max emotions

[devilsainz]

First, Thank you @watercolor-hearts for tagging me! when i saw it i knew it wouldnt be an easy task (mostly because i love to talk a lot lmao) but i liked the concept and felt that it would be interesting way to dive more into the ships i am fond of.

Pairing/Shippy list!

Here are the rules:

1. List your top seven ships.

2. Put them all in order for your love for them; 7 to 1, 1 being your favourite.

3. Name the fandom.

4. Put a picture of the guys in question.

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7. Ziam (Zayn/Liam Payne) (One Direction)

weird way to start this list, since its not f1 related, and i very much believe it's a dead ship now. But honestly they deserve this honorable mention for being the first ship i adopted, and i didnt even care about One Direction or their music around that time (in fact i cant remember even how i stumbled upon this ship lmao). These two together just had so much chemistry for me, either on stage, interviews, or anything really. also they were my introduction to this whole idea of "ship" (Larry was the absolute more popular one obviously, but it was Ziam that really SUCKED me in like a vacuum cleaner). Unfortunately, Liam's distasteful comments last year bursted my bubble about them (even though he has explained this year he wasn't in a good place, and i personally think they are okay with each other, even though still distant), but i still like to watch their compilation videos on youtube sometimes, it's quite bittersweet :')

6. Martian (Sebastian Vettel/Mark Webber) (Formula 1)

honestly i feel i just dont put these two higher because they feel somewhat new to me, like i need to dive into them more. I just think its such a fun ship in the sense that it has a looot of things going on at the same time, their very public rivalry and the famous multi 21, mark's angry face at that one press conference, it could be so so angsty but they just make me laugh (also, the making love on track quote is now burned into my brain so in no way they could be out of this list).

5. Christian horner/Toto wolff (Formula 1)

okay okay this is the part yall realize im actually crazy. but... they DO have chemistry when they are interacting, even in their non-amicable moments, and i do love myself some good enemies to lovers. Obviously it helps that i think they both are very actrattive, sexy middle aged men that have hunger for victory and i believe they hold so much respect and admiration for each other, considering they are the two most sucessfull TP's at this point. Also, HEIGHT DIFFERENCE.

4. Versainz (Max Verstappen/Carlos Sainz) (Formula 1)

(i wanted to find that ONE gif where he lifts carlos a little so bad but this one will do) Oh, this one really rocketed fast into my favorites. I just think they are just so wholesome. I always feel Max is warmer towards a certain number of drivers, and Carlos is one of them. And i dont even ship them in a ... kind of way, even tho it makes sense in my head the narrative that both were each others "first's" before going into bigger ships. Its just that it feels so special that both debuted together as teammates and, both took different trajectories in the way their career planned out, but theres still a genuine connection between them, at least in my view.

3. Maxiel (Max Verstappen/Daniel Ricciardo) (Formula 1)

I know its weird because i dont really post about them. But this falls into the same category as versainz for me, except that here there's a kind of dynamic that it makes me go "hmm... interesting". I always like to see max smiling and being happy because this boy went thru so much in his childhood, and oh how Daniel knows how to bring this side of Max. If Max can be warmer to certain drivers, for Daniel he has a whole SOFT SPOT, and i think that's very endearing. IMO, Daniel feels like the person that changed him in deeper ways we know, that one person that was indirectly a "life teacher" to him maybe, and thats special to me.

2. Brocedes (Lewis Hamilton/Nico Rosberg) (Formula 1)

Oh, the ANGSTY in this one. yes, this one deserves the ANGSTY in all caps because to me that's them. Oh to have lived through their divorce must have been heartbreaking but what a freaking cinematic ship this one is. I just can't ignore it. How it feels to me that Nico is the one who wears his heart on his sleeve, while Lewis has that chilling Capricorn control over his emotions is so. just so. And the fact that Nico's legacy is forever entangled in Lewis' name. If a movie screenwriter would come up with this, i'd think it would be overdramatic, but no, theyre actually this unhinged.

Charlos (Charles Leclerc/Carlos Sainz) (Formula 1)

how do i even start talking about these two idiots? Okay, so obviously i think they're both very attractive and that definetely helped me to ship them lmao. But thats kind of reductive, because these two have sooo much chemistry in my opinion, even before their ferrari days, there was so much potential waiting to bloom, and it did. I love their banter, their competitiveness, how they can get childlike around each other sometimes. How they are so physical, how they make each other laugh (let me not talk about their gazes to each other or i will not end this today). I love how Carlos doesn't hide he wants to compete with Charles (which brings him unnecessary hate sadly), and how both respect each other in this stance. There's a bit of angsty underneath this soft/fluffy surface too (more from Carlos' perspective imo - but lets not forget Charles and Silverstone 2022 too - this is my charlos angsty origin story), but they still find their way, and that kind of compels me even more into them. I just think theres so many layers, multitudes, in the way we can create, write and read about them. Absolute favorites.

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Tagging @schumiatspa and @sainzjpeg 😊

obviously, feel free to ignore if you dont want to play, no hard feelings around here ❤, and also 7 ships are quite a work! if you're not tagged but want to make your list, feel free to do it and consider yourself tagged by me 😘

[babybulls15]

Heyho hello, I am Mia and I have finally accepted my fate! 🤪

After living in denial for the longest time, I have finally accepted the fact, that my random fandom sideblog has slowly but surely turned into my F1 RPF blog.

And because this is also where I promote my own writing, it might be time to actually introduce myself.

So here we go, I guess...

💫About Me💫

There's actually not very much to be said about me specifically.

I'm Mia (on the internet at least ;D) and I run this Tumblr account, thx byee :))

jk, here are some Tumblr-relevant facts about me:

🙆‍♀️ I'm a cis woman, going by she/her pronouns

💬 I speak English, German, French and a bit of Spanish (I don't tag posts language-specific, though)

⌛ I started my fandom journey on Wattpad and am now very happy to have deboarded that particular train for Tumblr xD

💻 I actually don't have any other social media, because I'm very susceptible to doom-scrolling (but I want memes, so I'm very thankful for Tumblr and my saviour the chronological dash lmao)

❤️ my offline hobbies include but are not limited to: reading, writing, singing, music, photography, knitting, Magic: The Gathering, nature (whatever that means)

📚 I am an indiscriminate enjoyer of all things written down, whether it be traditionally published books, comics or fanfiction

✏️ I wrote some fanfic in my teenage years, switched to poetry for a while, before coming back to long-form fandom writing

🏎️ I've always been really into motor sports of any kind, but kept it mostly offline and regional, F1 has only recently been added to the list and I am actually very surprised by how much I enjoy it (it also managed to get me over my almost decade long writers block so I think I will stay for a bit)

⁉️ Although I am an advocate for Don't like it, don't read it!, I recognize that sometimes it's not that easy. I myself have clear boundaries of what I am and am not comfortable seeing. Therefore, although I do post F1 on my main blog, I've decided to keep the rpf-side of things confined to this sideblog.

💌 I am always delighted to meet new people and make new friends, so if you want to chat, please don't hesitate to send me a DM or an ask!! <3333

💫About this blog💫

Drivers I support a bit more than the others:

🦁 MV1

🌶️ CS55

👑 LH44

💚 NH27

🐨 OP81

I don't hate anyone, these are just the ones I care/post about the most. :))

Posts about particular drivers are mostly tagged with a shorthand just like in the list. :)

Ships that live in my head rent free:

🦁🌶️ Versainz (hence the url ;))

🦁👑 4433

🦁🚗 Lestappen

🌶️🧡 Carlando

🦁🦡 Maxiel

👑👱 Brocedes

🌶🐨 Carcar

🧡🐨 Landoscar

and whatever else tickles my fancy :))

My own two cents are organized like this:

✨ #mia screams into the void but in a different direction for original posts

✨ #mia throws writing into the void for my writing (can also be found on Ao3)

✨ #oh don't go breaking my heart for all the heart-break

✨ #wtf did i just witness for all the mind-break

✨ #oh…oh no for all things 'this is very funny but also wtf people'

✨️ #insane. the lot of them for 20 millionaires going vroom vroom in circles every second weekend being absolute menaces to society

✨️ #lights out and away we meme for...well...memes

✨️ #braking news and griddy rumours for newsies, silly season shenanigans and all other season-related stuff

✨️ #*write write write* for general fandom and writing related posts/memes

✨️ #artsy for anything art (drawings, writing, edits, gifs, ...)

✨️ #smiley (っ´ω`c)♡ for smiley people (mostly Max lol)

I might come up with some more things to differentiate between stuff.

If you have read this far I am very grateful! Thank you for giving me the time of day, I am so glad you exist! (also pls come and chat with me if you want) 🥰🥰

[c2-eh]

Eva!!! My gosh! I read your Versainz/Charlos fic and I'm dead!

Super long comment but so many things I want to mention. Sorry 😅😅

Really liked Carlos feeling conflicted while congratulating Max for his win. Our Ferrari boy! You did a great job with the comparison between Max and Charles through Carlos' eyes both on their personality and how they treat Carlos.

His love for Max during their TR days, and how Carlos was trying to make the most of it before it had to stop. How Max still searched for him to celebrate just because they promised each other they would do it when they were younger and in love.

I enjoyed quite a lot all the little glimpses that you were showing of Charlos, the thumb on the neck, Charles trying to get closer to him or Carlos want for him. How he defended Charles against Max "attacks" later on.

Of course Max is a power bottom, super fitting, ans the smut was great.

Both Max and Carlos being bastards but with such different approach to it. Max only doing it for his pleasure and having one over Charles while Carlos is doing it because he is greedy and thinks he can't be hurt but he will once he realises the pain he is causing. The way you already showed some glimpses of it already.

You broke my heart when Charles saw them! Poor baby 🥺🥺

I liked how you showed it was physical with Versainz and Carlos wouldn't want more than that versus the feelings he doesn't know, or wants to accept, he has for Charles. How he thinks Charlea is only a passtime when it clearly isn't like that.

And no offense, but he prefers Charles. Pliant, lovely Charles who bends to his will anytime he wants, just because he wants Carlos' approval and love back. Perhaps one day.

All that is going to slap him on the face sooner than later.

The end with Max teasing Charles at the press conference. He really knows how to get under the skin of our boy.

Seriously I loved reading it. Super interesting! I'm wondering if you are going to write a second part 👀👀

Either way I can't wait to read more of your works 💞💞

Nonnie!!!! 😭😭 I am smooching you on the forehead, you made me cryyyy 😭😭 This is one of the reasons I write 🥹 and don't ever apologize for giving long feedback!!! I am living for it (just like every other writer).

I am so so happy you liked it and understood what I was trying to show in the fic, without directly saying it 🤭

About sequel - for now I don't plan on writing it. But it's not final. Maybe someday I will, but currently I have a writers block :')

THANK YOU again 🫶🏻🥹❤️🥰

[mish-tique]

Miss missha, are you doing okay? I hope you're doing okay!!

I think on the last ask i sent, we were all about celebrating carlos pole and fuck I woke up to the race ten laps in and saw carlos' name way down there and had a heart attack

And seeing that we'll continue onto November for kinktober is honestly fine!! Kinda know myself too that I'll be reading a kinktober fic in a cemetery should we visit (I'm so sorry, i meant no disrespect, but if mary shelley can have sex on top of someone's grave, why can't i read smut)

SPOILERS for "chase it" below the rose line

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🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

"His head falls back against the headboard but he makes sure not to lose sight of Max. Not when Max looks so beautiful in the moonlight that decorates his bedroom" <- aww that line's beautiful aww

"It’s the worst punishment after feeling so good for such a long time: feeling nothing" <- why does this mirror saturday and sunday so much? i - 😭😭

“That’s how I feel every time you give me hope,” Max says and Carlos has trouble focusing. “Every time you reach pole, you do well, you are fast, I think you might finally give me the battle I have been longing for. Every time you get close I think we might finally get the future we deserve.”  <- that hurt 😭😭

"Not when Carlos knows why Max says them, how close those words are to their hearts’ truest desire. There is nothing they have wanted more than to battle each other ever since they joined Toro Rosso together." "He wants to give Max what he deserves and then enjoy it to the very second." <- guess who's gonna look for versainz fics later (can't believe i haven't read much of them yet)

"Yet he won’t let it get to him. He knows his time will come. His time with Max will come, and it will be amazing." <- aww this is too sweet

this is really sweet with all the thoughts and hope for better races and results and just waiting for each other to be there to come to be at the top step awwww

thanking you again because i really haven't considered versainz much before and well i'm gonna go read some later

-Rose 🥺🌹

YOU WOKE UP 10 LAPS IN??? babe why would you do that to yourself T-T

do NOT read my fics at a cemetery. then again i was in the cathedral in Barcelona plotting my grindr fic so. here we are.

no better way to cope with sunday's loss as writing smut

go read versainz!! it's one of my comfort ships. like it's not thriving but the way these two can comfort me and make me happy. ugh.

Hope you enjoyed the versainz fics after this one, and let's pray that next weekend will have a versainz podium!!

[sebastidan]

We Were Perfect

Description: While drinking, Max remembers the good and the bad of his relationship with Carlos

Relationship: Carlos/Max

Word Count: 1392

Based off @damsindistress Versainz edit - I’ve had it stuck in my head! (http://damsindistress.tumblr.com/image/155883748252)

With a heavy sigh, Max lifted the bottle to his lips. The glass was cool against his fingertips, damp with a layer of sticky condensation. He let the amber liquid spill into his mouth, coating his tongue with a bitter taste. It burned at his throat and warmed his chest. But Max didn’t care. Tonight, Max was drinking to forget.

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Dragging his tongue over the exposed skin before him, Max sucked gently at the sensitive spot on Carlos’ neck. He felt the other man’s head fall back against the pillow and heard the strangled moan that escaped his parted lips. As he pulled back, he watched the pale skin darken in colour until a red bruise protruded proudly. Max smiled wickedly as he lunged forwards, this time pressing his lips to Carlos’. It was hungry, messy. They moved too quickly and too desperately but neither man minded. It was a moment of passion. Max took Carlos’ bottom lip between his teeth, tugging gently. With a moan, Carlos parted his lips and Max took the opportunity to slip his tongue past, exploring each corner and every curve of his mouth. He could still taste the coffee Carlos had drunk.

He could feel Carlos’ chest rising and falling erratically beneath his, hear his heart pounding quickly, see the lust in his half-lidded eyes.

This was bliss. This was euphoria. Max had never been happier.

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Everything had been easier with Carlos by his side, everything had been better. The time spent as teammates, racing alongside each other had been the best days of his life. They were best friends and lovers, spending every minute possible wrapped in each other’s arms. Lying late at night, Max missed the warmth of another body, the safety Carlos’ arms brought. It was lying alone in a bed built for two that brought the overwhelming loneliness. Max almost feared going to sleep at night now.

Max took another swig of his drink, wincing at the taste. He remembered the late nights spent in Carlos’ hotel room, working away the tension and stress of every race day or every press event. Max had always longed for the evenings when he could run his hands over Carlos’ body, through his hair, taste his lips. It was hard in the public’s eye to keep their hands away from each other, reverting instead to longing glances when the other wasn’t looking. Oh how Max missed those days… He drank from the bottle, letting the liquid begin to swirl the four walls around him.

------ Max squinted into the dimly lit hallway, checking his surroundings. Once sure no-one was around, he lifted his hand and gently knocked against the wooden door. For a moment, Max was left alone in the silent corridor, picking at the hem of his hoodie as he waited with nervous anticipation. The door finally swung open to reveal Carlos barechested and damp, a fluffy white towel slung low around his waist. The corners of Max’s mouth tugged up in a slow smile,

“Hey…” He murmured softly, using his tongue to wet his lips.

Carlos smirked, “About time, I nearly got bored of waiting for you…” He teased, gesturing towards his towel. He stepped forwards, taking the cords of Max’s hoodie between his fingers and gently pulling him into the room, “Come on then…”

Max listened. He step forwards, wrapping his arms around Carlos’ torso, not caring about the damp patch spreading across the front of his hoodie. Behind him, he kicked the door closed before pressing his lips to Carlos’ like he’d longed to all day.

------ Max wobbled on his chair as he reached towards his drink on the bar. He didn’t know how long he’d been sitting on the stool, resting his arms against the slightly sticky wood. He hadn’t spoken to anyone since arriving, he had simply been drowning his sorrows. He had come out for one reason and one reason only: to forget. And he knew he was on the right path. He lifted the bottle to his lips and swallowed.

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When Max arrived in the Hospitality Suite, he couldn’t help the small smirk spreading across his cheeks. There, sitting at a table by himself was Carlos nursing what Max knew to be a very strong, black coffee. Max could see the purplish shadows swooping under his eyes, the effect of very little sleep the previous night. And Max knew exactly why...

Max took a bowl of cereal from the counter and sat down in the seat next to Carlos, dipping his hand beneath the table to brush his fingertips against Carlos’ leg. The other man turned to look at Max, smiling softly. Max watched as a warm blush crept over Carlos’ cheek, colouring them red. He gently squeezed Carlos’ thigh, chuckling slightly as the Spaniard jumped slightly at his touch.

Max couldn’t wait for a repeat performance that evening… It was the only thing getting him through the long day of media commitments...

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By this point, the world through Max’s eyes had blurred. But he wasn’t ready to stop. Not yet at least. He picked up the new bottle and took a sip. There was still something he wanted to forget, the day everything changed. He knew alcohol wasn’t a permanent solution but he knew it would give him just a little temporary relief from the ache in his heart. And that was all he needed tonight.

---- Race suit tied around his waist, sticky with rosewater, Max headed back to the hotel. It was late, the sun beginning to set as orange shadows were cast over the track. Team debrief and celebrations had gone on for longer than Max had expected and now, with the cool metal of his winner’s trophy in hand he was walking back to celebrate in the only way he wanted. Before the race begun, Carlos had messaged Max the number of his hotel room, just like old times.

Max knocked on the wooden door, waiting as he had done just months before. It took a while before it opened and Max was facing Carlos. The Spaniard, dressed in a thin t-shirt and boxer shorts stood blinking blearily, an unhappy scowl residing on his face.

“Max.” He muttered, the annoyance evident in his voice, “What are you doing?”

“You said to come…” Max answered, running his fingers through his hair in confusion, he was sure this is what Carlos had asked from him. So why was he not being let in?

Carlos sighed, “That was hours ago Max. It’s late and I have to be up early for my flight tomorrow.”

And with that, Carlos shut the door on Max and their relationship. It was as Max slid down the wall to pull his knees to his chest that the tears began to fall. He knew this day would come, he had been watching the two of them drift apart for a while now. Ever since he’d been promoted to Red Bull, Max’s evenings and weekends had been committed to his new team. He had been so busy working that there had barely been any time to spend together. They no longer had the team events, the race days, even the meet-and-greets. They had no longer had time together. They had nothing.

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Max lifted the bottle to his lips, his tongue desperately seeking the last few drops that spilled into his mouth. He shook the glass, getting everything from the bottle before slamming it down against the bar. He knew it was a bad idea, even through the cloud of alcohol. But Max took his phone from his pocket and dialled the number he knew off by heart. The phone began to ring, sounding a few times before a very familiar and very tired sounding voice answered,

“Max?” Carlos asked, his voice thick with sleep, “It’s late, are you alright?”

Max shook his head, not realising that Carlos wouldn’t be able to see. He took his bottom lip between his teeth, biting down on the sensitive skin in an attempt to stop the tears forming in his eyes. As a few fell down his cheek, he used the pad of thumb to carelessly brush them away.

“Max?” Carlos tried again, the concern evident in his voice.

“You and me Carlos.” Max slurred, cradling his phone to his ear, “You and me, we were perfect…”