#but like. there’s so much i want to know and so many details thag you can’t get from a wiki bc it’s not ‘plot relevant’

[milimeters-morales]

okay i might have to start reading comics

[gay-dorito-dust]

this isnt thag detailed but can i request percy jackson x reader (platonic) where they first meet (as well as with annabeth since she was with him at the time I think) for the first time in the labyrinth and turns out reader is percy’s older half sibling? if not that, then just maybe general headcanons of percy having an older half sibling

I’ll probs just do the head-cannon for this one. 🦦

The moment Percy found out that you were his half sibling, the relief that came with no longer having to have an entire cabin with the low grey walls to himself would follow.

As it would ultimately meant he was finally freed from soul crushing loneliness he’s felt ever since being claimed after beginning to get use to the warmth and liveliness of that of the Hermes Cabin.

Seeing those empty bunks taunted and mocked him every waking moment, serving as a reminder that no matter how powerful of a Demi-god you were, you were no more helpless against the grim reality of being a forbidden child of the most powerful gods of the Greek pantheon.

However with this revelation came the urge to protect his newfound family and with that came moments of tension, especially the ones where Percy tended to forget that you were capable -if not more- in taking care of yourself when it mattered most, seeing as Percy had a tendency to put himself at the forefront of danger if it meant protecting the people who mattered so dearly to him; You being one of those very people he’d gladly act in reckless abandon in favour for your safety.

You hated this about him as no matter how long you’ve met him for, you weren’t going to stand by and willingly let your little brother place himself in dangerous situations for you.

Loyalty maybe his fatal flaw, your fatal flaw on the other hand was devotion.

Devotion to your family, your friends and loved ones, so much so to the point when you’d sacrifice everything for them, even if it was to your own detriment and eventual downfall, as long as they were safe and happy nothing else mattered.

Percy would go to war for you and you would happily go to war for him tenfold.

You; don’t do anything stupid till I get back.

Percy: how can I? you’re taking all the stupid with you.

You: jerk

Percy: bitch

If you were to ever have a crush on someone or someone starts making moves on you, fucking watch out cuz little bro Percy had a few choice words for ‘em and is hellbent on knowing their intentions with his older sibling. You deserve the best but in Percy’s eyes, not many people make the final cut.

However his interrogations were equal parts hilarious and embarrassing for you for multiple reasons but after the first few times you’ve told him off for doing so, you’ve given up and just let him act as though his words would sway anything into his favour, you could always just sneak out and meet them elsewhere; preferably away from any body of water but primarily the lake where you knew Percy and yourself would often frequent when in need of feeling closer to the one thing connecting you to your father.

But on this occasion, you severely underestimated your little brother.

You; Percy get out of the lake, people are begging to stare.

Percy: not until the sibling stealer behind you stops flirting. *he says whilst standing knee deep in the canoe lake, ready to super soak someone to the bone.*

You, groaning as you looked over at Luke who looked about ready to use you as a shield again your own brother, sending him an apologetic smile; I’m sorry about my IDIOTIC BROTHER, he tends to severely overreact, especially over the little things.

Percy, hands on his hips, staring at Luke murderously: who are you talking about, I don’t overreact. I just want to talk to him. Here. in the water. Where I have full dominion over.

You: I have full dominion over the water too fuckhead and like hell I’d let you interrogate him.

Percy, whilst still looking at Luke before walking off to find Grover and or Annabeth; you’re lucky enough to live another day.

Much like any sibling dynamic you take the piss out of each other but the moment someone else thinks it’s cool to do so also, it’s game over for them as an temporary alliance between you two is formed to defeat a common enemy before going back to taking the piss out of one another as per usual.

You: you’re such a sore looser fish breath

Percy: says you coral for brains

Some random camper; yeah, coral for brains.

You and Percy looking at the random camper; the fuck did you just say? Would you care to repeat or start running.

Random camper; *sweats and runs away as though they’ve just shit themselves.*

I think I’ve went on long enough but all in all, Percy was just ecstatic that he wasn’t alone anymore.

[samkerrworshipper]

HEYY gal would you be open to telling us/writing a list of current fics you’re working on atm? xx totally fine if no but gosh i just love love your writing so much i want to know what’s coming to look forward to🥴💕💕

jdjdjdhdjd okay okay so i havent named many of them rlly and tbh most of them are like very basic Wips but i’ll give u a more detailed summary of what i’m writing

i don’t update this often tbh it’s probably not in date if u reading this

katie mccabe x reader

bad girls don’t get sex - reader is being a horny little bitch the whilst out with katie.. katie takes her home and gets her all hot and bothered but then reminds her that bad girls don’t get sex

mapi leon x ingrid x reader (need inspo to finish lol)

punishment - r has anger issues and frequently gets cards, so ingrid and mapi decide thag for every card they collect r shall be pun sued and it works… until r is feeling bratty and needs some attention so they go sooking to the umpire.

sam kerr x reader (coming soon)

heatstroke - adhd reader forgets to stay hydrated on a hot day and suffers heat stroke on the pitch.. queue angry n overprotective Sammy k

leah williamson x reader (coming soon)

concussion - leah looks after you after a nasty head clash that leaves you fairly i’ll

lap dance pt.2

sticker charts pt.2 (coming soon)

[toontails]

I agree with anon. Out of ALL the fanfics I’ve ever read only a few selection of them are genuinely good to me, and Toon Quest is up there with by far the best interpretation of a reader, as a fanfic writer, a X reader one at that, it’s difficult for us authored to make an x reader and successfully pull it off so many fanfics I’ve read are 🤣 eh not so great when it comes to creating the personality for the reader I mean come on! You have a protagonist that’s on screen for a good majority of the story you have to atleast make them somewhat good to read and yet so many authors struggle with that they either make the reader too much if a ‘badass’ or the reader has the MOST DRAMATIC story in all of man I swear that trope is so overused that it’s actually really annoying to read. So when I stumbled upon toon quest because I wanted to read a bendy fanfic I was going in thinking I was gonna recieve that same concept of a character (seeing most bendy fanfics I read the reader all of the readers were not interesting at all) but I came to find out in TQ that the reader actually has chatacter development, their own quirks that aren’t too out of place and even a short background of theirs that isn’t too much in detail thag strays away from the story, we know that the reader doesn’t gave friends and stays at home and that is clearly what’s seen in the first chapter. As she’s sitting at home sleeping the day away 🤣🤣 even as far as not really explaining what she looks looks, but rather vauge enough for the audience to interpret what they want her to look like. Her reactions are genuine, she dosen’t get up and go alpha mode but as a young teen who’s never experienced anything like this. She runs away! The most human thing anyone can do! So thank you AA for making our protagonists so well made to a point I consider reader her own character!!

😭 aw man you guys are so nice to me tonight thank you ❤️

[the-lavender-creator]

Ok time for my rant about the wedding fic!

I love the prologue. I like that it gives us little details about their lives. How that was the first place they had a date together. How they have a favorite place to sit. Theirs a sense of domestic intimacy in it that I love.

Yes. I love toralei wanting to propose. Having planned everything out. Having tried to hard.

Only for it to get brutally shot down by yet another Ill timed storm. The way that as soon as she wants to talk. Thunder the starts

THE WAY CLAWDEEN IS IMMEDIATELY LIKE ‘OMG. STORM. WE NEED TO GET YOU HOME. I NEED TI SNUGGLE WITH YOU. WE NEED TO GET PROTECTIVE BARRIERS AROUND YOU STAT!

Omg the way this hints at the curse even from the beginning. I just noticed that the numerous storms at the end of the friendship, aka beginning of their relationship meant toralei wanted to ask her to be her girlfriend so many times but couldn’t cause of the storms.

The way she covers her face and Clawdeen immediately assumes it’s cause of embarrassment and jsur wants to help her.

the way you mentioned it’s all Clawdeen. At first I thought it meant she was greatful for her. But no she’s actually saying that a little bitterly. Cause she wanted to be the one to say things. So many times.

AWWW THE WAY TORALEI TRIES TO TALK TO CLAWDEEN BUT SHE THINKS SHE SCARES AND TRIES TO DO BREATHING EXERCISES CINDDJNDFINDIXNE

the way Toralei tries to be honest but the thunder decides to be a bitch.

The way Clawdeen is confused cause since they’ve gotten together Toralei hasn’t lied about a single thing and I love that face so dearly.

The way Clawdeen immediately says they can get through whatever it is. Like that’s not what Toralei is trying to say but Clawdeen loves her so much she’s willing to work through anything cause she loves her so much.

The way Toralei immediately jumps to being somewhat pathetically defend. Like she needs to prove herself. She needs Clawdeen to believe her like others haven’t.

The way I realized this was live action toralei as soon as she admitted she was cursed by witches so I had to go to the beginning and re read it in a British accent like the live action character.

the way Toralei is clearly working through nauseating pain.

The way Toralei references her attack 🥺.

THE WAY BABY CLAWDEDN IS IMMEADIATELY LIKE ‘OH NO BABY IS IT YIUR ARM IS THAG WHAT YOU MEAN IS IT HURTING OH NO!’

‘It’s always hurting’ YES FOREVER PAIN AND NERVE DAMAGE CANON. YOU WROTE MY MEDICALLY ACCURATE AFTER AFFECTS AWWWWWW BESTIE I LOVE YOU

Aww toralei admitting the stupid ass witches thought it would be fun to continue her torment by having thunder appear when something important happens.

Clawdeen understanding. The storm happening in real time. Her trying to listen while also trying to help toralei through the storm as much as possible.

No!!!! The way toralei desperatelh wants to do this one thing. Just this one thing but the storm gets bigger and her fear and anxiety gets bigger until she drops the box and just breaks down for a hot sec. Angsty but relatable.

THE WAY CLAWDEEN LITERALLY PULLS TORALEI INTO A HUG ANF LETS HER CRY.

THE WAY SHE KNOWS TORALEI WANTS THIS SO BAD SO SHE GETS THE RING.

the way toralei feels so useless cause even this she couldn’t get and Clawdeen pays her full attention on her while trying to drive. But also being so fuckinb supportive the whole way there. THE WAY SHE HEARS TORALEI CRY THE WHOLE WAY THEIR

The way toralei is being all moody but Clawdeens like SCOOP MY LITTKE MOONLIGHT and she get all fucking flustered and Clawdeen she hulks her up the stairs cause she’s adorable.

the way she literally fucking hacks the curse so Toralei can ask her. That’s it that’s the best. The way she carries her up all the steps but insists it’s. A princess cary cause if gaunt be a bridal till toralei proposes. The way she works around the curse. The way she lets toralei have this moment. The way she orchestrated everything is literally perfect. The way she comforts her sweet kitty and once again gets her flustered with a deep kiss. Toralei bottom propaganda the

THE WAY SHE IS CARRIED OVER THE THRESHOLD.

I loved the angstiness of swing this. And it was really nice to see ClAwdeen comforting toralei with no strings attached. It was so fucking sweet. God I love your fanfics.

I need to write more established toradeen stuff they can be so fucking sweet and there's so much potential with the level of trust they'd have to have to make a relationship work in the first place and add in the fact that Clawdeen is a team player and would always look out for Toralei above all else when Toralei has only had herself. Gold. Fucking gold. I need to take advantage of it more fr fr fr

Also I just need to write more fluff of them

[notsodailycake]

Happy Birthday Dork

Yep! Today's my birthday! This gal right here is turning 16! (Now time to change my age in all my bios💀💀)

And i decided to draw these two gals. Now of yall weren't following me back in 2020 on insta, then yeah, you have no context to who these two are

The blond one is well, Cake, my oc/persona, and the ginger one is Brooke, an oc thag belongs to @/ molzysketch on Instagram. I wont go into full detail, but we basically ship these two. We made them during the fall of danplan, Brooke was supposed to be Ann for molzy's pirate au. A group chat was made to make theories of what would happen on the next part of the au, but the next day the fall happened. After the fall we revamped them as ocs tho, and everyone in the group made their own ocs and we role played with them

I'll add the version with no text under the cut, plus bonus info and ramblings boyt my art :>

This all are kinda redesigns of them really. Brooke was redesigned by her own creator molzy of course, but i worked on the colors by the end 😌

On another note tho! To make this drawing an even better birthday gift to myself, in the middle of doing this i realized how similar it was to an old drawing of these 2

This one was from July 2020, it was the last time i did a proper drawing of them in their pirate self

But honestly, looking back the old drawing i did of them, god am i happy with my progress. You can see they actually grew up too, the old one looks more soft, childish and now they seem to have grown up! It's more mature, has more personality to it, to the characters!

I'll keep it short, but basically, I'm happy with how my art and the characters grew. They actually feel like pirates, and Cake feels like how i wanted them to feel, and Brooke now actually seems like Brooke and not a revamp of Ann. Which props to Molly for that!

Also, i tried out a new shading technique here, which i love! But hate it just as much, bc of how many layers i had to use, and how slow it gets when you leave or come back to the drawing 💀

Also really time consuming, but it's worth it bc it looks epic. And honestly it's way more fun, with how free i am with it and messy i can get with it

And yeah, the similarities between this snd the 2020 one, it was PURE coincidence. I started to work on this mostly testing out a technique i saw on a reels and it turned out great, the bodies, didn't know who to use it with. After a while decided to use Brooke and Cake, was gonna draw Brooke holding cake, but the body better fit Cake so i did them instead. And only when i was sketching Cake out did i realise it

I miss these gals, and i wish to work with them more. Hell i actually am re working on Cake's story now. I plan on maybe changing their name to Cory, tho I'm yet to fully decide

Tho idk how the og crew's story is now, but honestly, it's alr i can still have fun with it XP

[atiny-exol]

Yandere Prince Ateez!

Warnings:yandere behavior, mentions abuse, violence, blood, humiliation, degradation, mature things, possessive behavior, stalking, forced marriage

Requested: oh hell yes

A/N: yandere prince ateez is suchhh a good idea😭I love it

You are a maid, a poor little maid trapped in the claws of the eight brothers and princes of Utopia.

Prince Hongjoong

The second oldest of the kingdom.

Usually mistaken as the oldest. Unlike his brothers he doesn't look like a disappointment to the king and queen.

Does his work like it is used to be, attends the important meetings and always does more than required

Ambitious, smart, charming, but for you he let his facade of the perfect prince down.

One of the reasons why you are the maid in the castle. Always watching you, pointing out your mistakes and everything you do wrong.

Doesn't care if you cry because if his scolding.

As his future wife you have to be perfect, flawless, just like himself

Even if he is mean you can't help but fall in love with him.

And he knows that too well.

Behind his facade he is very insecure and angry about the fact that he will never be the king of this kingdom.

Tries to hide the insecures from you and always offers you a smile. Unless you did something wrong.

Easily fell with you on love. One smile from you, one kind word and a your good manners.

And your eyes. He loves your eyes. Even if they hold tears.

Especially if they hold tears, but he has to cause them. If someone else makes you cry, he will kill.

Or let them kill.

Ruthless in this fact. Always has a plan to eliminate everyone who gets too close to you.

But always threats you with this too.

You are scared but also fascinated by him.

,,Y/N, Y/N, Y/N. How many times do I have to tell you that I don't tolerate inappropriative behavior. Especially from you I want perfect manners and a beautiful look. Change your clothes and then you do the chores again."

Prince Seonghwa

The oldest and the future King.

Unlike Hongjoong, Seonghwa isn't thag interested in attending important meetings.

He is still smart, strong and powerful. Ruthless to be honest.

When he rules the kingdom, no one will ever say something against him. His death stare is making everyone shiver, including you.

And his whole aura is scary.

Loves to see fear in your eyes. The little teary eyes, filled woth tears. He loves them way to much.

Would cut them out of your face, but he loves you. Doesn't want to ruin your pretty little face.

The first time you met, he scares you and threaten you with death. Because you spilled coffee all over him.

But then he saw that his brother found you interesting. Another reason to kill you.

Your little stuttering, the red face and yes the fear and shaking. Made him change his mind.

He loves to be powerful and feared.

And you give him the feeling.

The feeling that he can rules everything, that he is more than just a prince and future king.

No he wants to be the God. And first of all your God.

,,You dare to speak against me you annoying brat! Who do you think you are talking to. I'm your future king and God. Learn your place! 2 weeks in the catacombs will change your mind. I'm sure."

Prince Yunho

One of the oldest. Not very strong, but not weak either.

Not very smart, but not dumb either.

He was and is always just Yunho, the kindly, smiling and handsome prince.

Everyone adores him and his smile, his whole personality.

But all of this is making him sick. Sick and angry.

Why can't he be the oldest? Why can't he be as smart as Hongjoong or as strong as Seonghwa? Why? Why!

Wants to feel special. And appreciated.

And you are making him feel like that.

You give him the strength to smile more and more each day.

He follows you through the castle. Helps you and talks with you.

With you his smile is not fake, his smile is genuine and gentle.

But of course his brothers have to ruin everything.

He can't have one thing for himself.

Stalks you in the night, the times you bath and the times you aren't working.

He looks at you in every situation, because he knows that only he is doing this.

This is something his brothers won't steal from him.

They won't steal you aways from him.

He never fighted. He never talked back.

But if it is about you, he changes.

Changes into something far away from kind and sweet.

,,My poor little maid. You look so tired, but at the same time your sleeping face is the most beautiful one on this planet. Just stay like this and let me watch. So I can remember every small detail about you."

Prince San

Handsome, charming, a flirt and arrogant.

That's how most of the people would describe this prince in their private rooms. And yes, yes he is exactly that.

He is cocky, flirty and teasing around you.

He loves to humiliate you infront of the other servants.

But why does he do this? The answer is easy.

To get your attention. Your anger. Your red and humiliated face.

Because just he and his other brother Wooyoung are supposed to see your humiliated face. And both of them love that.

They often share the fun.

One of the distracts you so you make a mistake and the other one will scold you for that infront of everyone and then pull you around with cuffed hands and a string around your pretty little neck.

He wants you for himself, but sharing you makes fun too.

Hates your tears, but if they are because he humiliated you it is beautiful.

If you try to avoid him, he will get violent and break your hands. Or pushes you down the stairs.

Then he blaims all on you. Because you are just a clumsy little kitten.

The first time he met you, he thought that you are perfect. Everything on you is perfect, but no one beside him can be perfect. And you also didn't give him enough attention.

That's why he started bullying you

And now he loves it

,,Look at this clumsy little pig, with the apple in its mouth. You look absolutely adorable like that piggy. Can't wait to let everyone see this shamefully look on your face, while I tell them what you did today."

Prince Mingi

There are 2 things he loves.

The feeling of the arrow hitting the target and you.

Oh and both combined is tying you to a target and trying not to hurt you with the arrow.

He losts the count of how often he already did this. But it isn't his fault.

Sometimes he is just so jealous, because he can't spent so much time with you, that he has to do the things he loves at the same time.

It scares you and you are always crying when he does that.

But he loves to show you that he would never actually hurt you. If you don't piss him off of course.

Because the first time you made him jealous, he actually made you the target.

He hurted your leg painfully and his looks was so scary that you felt like dying.

After that you always tried to make him smile and it helped.

Always smiles around you and kisses your cheek. Gets red and shy with you

If someone flirts with you, they are the next target and you watch him killing them.

He is scary and brutal, but he is still a tall puppy for you.

,,Aww n.. No don't be scared love! I won't actually hurt you. I.. Said don't be scared! I won't hurt you. Goddammit why are you crying again. Tz. If you don't stop now I change my mind! "

Prince Wooyoung

Flirty, a tease and mischievously. That's what one of the youngest prince of Utopia is.

And he doesn't even try to hide it.

Already accepted the fate. The date that he will never be as powerful as his older brothers.

But since the first time he saw you. He felt that he has power. Even if it's just power over one person.

He has the power to control you.

San and him are making sure that your life in the castle is a living hell. But unlike San he is more flirty.

And not just towards you. Tries to make you jealous and often sees thag it's working.

Then he teases you about that, and degrades you.

Tells you often that you are just his little plaything, his maid and his property.

You live to please him. If he wants you crawling on the floor you do that. He wants you to eat from the floor? You better do it or he will humiliate you just like San does it.

You are a cute little kitten till you show your claws and Wooyoung makes sure you will never show them again.

He even humiliats you infront of other princesses.

They are laughing at you, spitting at you and degrading you more and Wooyoung loves the power he has over you.

The power to control your life and how it goes.

Since he doesn't have a life where he can do what he wants too.

,,Awww are you crying now? Really? Just because they laughed at you. God pet you are so useless, can't even stand some entertaining degradation for me. If you don't stop this I will make sure that everyone sees you like this, and by everyone. I mean everyone."

Prince Yeosang

Smart, but doesn't talk that much. He isn't that social not even with his brothers and the king and the queen doesn't seem like they are proud of him.

He craves your attention, he craves the way you beg for him and cry out his name.

Oh and he craves your blood.

But first things first.

The first time he saw you, he was there to punish you.

You angered all of his brothers and even if he doesn't talk much with them, they know that he is the most sadistic one out of them.

He has his fun with you and at first he doesn't understand why his brothers like you. Why they want to break you and have you for themself.

But the time he spent alone with you, showed him why.

You have him the feeling of being needed. The feeling of being strong and having the power of living and death. Just like a God.

You are making him a God.

Carries blood from you in a small bottle around.

Once a while he has his fun with you. Torturing you, especially when seonghwa locks you away.

He doesn't show his affection with lovely words, or hugs unlike his brothers.

No he shows you his love through brutal violence

,,Cry some more for me angel. Cry more and more and I will fill this bottle with your tears. I want to carry them around just like your blood. So I have a piece of you always by my side. Yes beg me, beg me to end your suffering. "

Prince Jongho

The youngest and most loved prince from the family.

Everyone loves and adores him. He is friendly, sweet, but also strong and good in fighting with the sword.

He is the most dangerous in a fight out of all brothers. No one would dare to stand on the other side of his sword.

That's why you have to do it.

The first times he trains with you, he does it to make fun of you.

He isn't that sweet and kind to you, because he doesn't think you are worth it.

He doesn't see why his brothers like you, but one time he seriously injured you and his world crashed together.

Practice without you isn't fun and he slowly realizes how much you pulled him in love with you.

Gives you a ring and proposes to you after you are healed again.

You said no. Of course you said no.

And jongho made sure you regret that.

He does this over and over again, always smiling even if you give him a no as an answer.

But at some point you are sitting on your knees in front of him, his blade slowly lifting you head up and his eyes shooting a cold stare down at you.

You habe to say yes.

He will marry you.

And no one is going to stop him. Not even you

,,I give you a last chance. Will you marry me? I don't take a no as an answer and if you dare to say this again I will kill you. I will let your blood stain my sword. So what do you want to choose. Death or the chance of getting married to me."

[hoonphobe]

the relationship of tutor and fighter and why they’re not just some lust filled couple.

this shit is about to be super messy so don’t mind my shit explainations.

tutor and fighter are a gay couple from the series why r u, which is a thai bl.

their relationship consists of many intimate and erotic moments such as multiple make out sessions, a few “sex” scenes, and cute cuddling mantras. this caused many people watching the show to assume that they are the “fan service” couple, or that they’re just extremely horny and add no emotion to the show.

however, that is so utterly wrong.

let’s actually take the time to think about their dynamics and why their relationship is the way it is. once you understand, their relationship is very beautiful, but also somewhat sad at first.

firstly, let’s talk about their personalities.

tutor is a man who is often known to want to keep others happy and disregard his own feelings, he is an extremely hard worker, he’s stubborn, he’s petty, but he’s also a goofball that likes to tease people and have fun (especially while at the beach).

now fighter is a man who is stubborn, petty, loves to tease people, he’s also a goofball that loves affection, he’s pretty shy and doesn’t like sharing his feelings, but he often doesn’t let himself be happy.

their personalities are actually quite similar if you look at them. they’re two people who despite not like being pushed around, are super emotional when vulnerable. this dynamic creates the “tug-of-war” effect in their relationship.

for example; when fighter first kissed tutor because tutor was saying he liked men. tutor had figured out that fighter had been hiding his sexuality, so when he went to confront fighter about it, it put fighter in a vulnerable situation. he didn’t appreciate being put on the spot like that, so instead of reasonably settling the issue, he decided to act on impulse in kiss tutor to “prove” that he was winning their “fight”. which of course caused tutor to freak out leaving them yelling at each other because the other refused to own up to anything.

this dynamic happens during their 18+ scenes as well, but i won’t go into detail about such.

either way, this tug-of-war battle that they have going on carries out through their whole relationship. it dials down when their at peak happiness, but overall it’s still there. this dynamic causes for their emotions and actions to be a bit more impulsive and agressive. it makes their scenes more intimate and intense because there is so much emotion built up in them since they’re both stubborn at heart and refuse to open up fully to one another. (they do eventually but damn does it take forever😭)

now, that we’ve covered the personality aspect, now it’s on to the main conflict of their whole relationship.

tutor and fighter’s relationship is solely about (at least from what i picked up) them finally living for themselves instead of other people.

both men have constantly had to live for others and hardly got to make decisions for themselves. tutor had to work hard shifts and hours to pay back his father’s debt and he always tried to make sure that no one worried about him and thag they were happy (ex: hwahwa). he always disregarded his own feelings and always did things for others even if they were an inconvenience for him. while fighter was being controlled by his father for most of his life. he couldn’t decide who to date, where to work, nor how he wanted his future to be. he lived his life feeling like he had to always do what his father said and impress him rather than doing what he wanted or what made him happy.

however, when the two found each other, they finally found something worth being selfish for.

when they first started exploring their relationship, everything was done in secret. for fighter it was because he didn’t want anyone (mainly his father) to find out that he was into men because he was scared to disappoint him. while tutor, also somewhat having the feeling of getting judged, was worried about how others would feel seeing them together, like hwahwa would be upset that he’s dating her ex/love. or also that he’s feel selfish wasting time on a relationship rather than supporting his family and keeping others happy.

all the times where they made out, teased each other, etc. weren’t shown to please the audience with bl content, it was to show their longing of breaking boundaries. to show how much they craved doing what they wanted to do without the approval of others.

their relationship allowed them to break those boundaries. the day they decided to take a chance on what they had (the rooftop scene and right after that) they looked the happiest they had ever been since the beginning of the series. they were no longer holding their true selves back. they were doing something for themselves. and their trip to the beach just amplified that by 100.

their sex scene wasn’t just an 18+ scene to amp up the atmosphere of the show, it was shown to solidify that they were willing to be selfish for one another, that they were ready to say “fuck it” to those that don’t agree with their choices and to those doubts they have about if what they’re doing is right.

of course when they came back, they were still worried about what would happen, but they had decided to slowly start opening up to others about their relationship. however, all that went downhill when that photo got leaked.

at first they were still doing alright. they decided together to tell hwahwa about their relationship without trying to worry about how’d she’d react, which went well lol. but the second fighter’s dad found out, and went right back to controlling his son, all hell broke lose.

tutor curled right back up into his ball of doubt. he went back to trying to please everyone. he let fighter’s father take away his confidence and the first grasp at freedom he had. breaking up with fighter caused tutor so much pain because he once again went back to where he started rather than fighting for himself. he let his mental and physical state worsen and he eventually just lost it.

the whole time tutor had been hurting, fighter had been too, but he hadn’t lost his confidence because for the first time he was doing something that made him happy and he wasn’t going to just let it go away. when him and tutor had their fight outside, you could see fighter wanted to keep fighting for them despite not knowing what happened, but tutor couldn’t. he was tired of being selfish for himself because the second he did it all burned down. he just wanted all the pain he got from breaking his boundaries to stop and he thought going back to square one was the way to do it.

although tutor gave up, fighter never did and constantly kept trying to understand what happened to them. he wanted his happiness back. but tutor refused to tell him because he was once again trying to please the wrong people. this then leads to the trigger warning scene.

fighter had been hurting so deeply about the situation with tutor because he felt like he had did something wrong. he almost went down the same hole as tutor and was willing to change himself to get tutor back. but he never did, he continued to fight for his happiness, just in the wrong ways.

since their time at the beach was the only true happiness fighter had felt they had together, he assumed that sex was the only way to get tutor back. tutor obviously not invested at all feels hopeless because he’s thinking about the consequences that their relationship caused. he just wants things to go back to normal hence why he tried everything he can to get fighter to stop loving him and forget about him. and although it does get fighter off tutor’s back for a bit, it doesn’t stop fighter from fighting.

they have their reunion moment, and tutor lets himself be vulnerable for a bit, allowing himself to be selfish a moment even if it hurts him later because of all he’s put himself through. only to later bring himself right back. and whilst this is happening, fighter is once again fighting for himself and getting his life back by not allowing his father to control him anymore.

and when they go back to the beach, and fighter tells tutor about what he did and why he didn’t tell him about his father, tutor realizes that he should’ve fought for himself. that he, like fighter, doesn’t live to please others.

their whole relationship was based of this tripe that you need to live for yourself and not for others. so the reason why they had the amount of scenes they did was because they wouldn’t allow themselves at first to freely do as they pleased so once again, a lot of their pent up emotions were let out through actions rather than words.

they weren’t just extremely horny.

[heyangels]

name ten people that make you smile

ohhh!!!! so many people on this site make me 🥺🥰

@liamisthesun sarah is an angel sent from heaven!!!! love to talk to them and i instantly smile when they message me

@thechampagnelovers camila is always such a big supporter of me (especially when i try to go outside of the box or even the fandom)!! so much love i have for her

@bidenbussy jex!!! my love sent from above!!! honestly could talk to them for hours and hours and hours!!! they always send me random texts saying they love me and it makes me !!!!

@quiffyharry jillian is one of the best people to walk this earth (and i mean thag entirely)!!! she always is there for me and probably knows me better than anyone on this site. we honestly are like soul sisters.

@dearniall helen!!!!! always such a big big big support of everything i create!!! i want to get to know her more, but from our encounters she is such a sweetheart!!!

@badreputatiom i love tanvi so so much!!! her work is very incredible and she’s one of the only people that i follow that creates work outside of the 1d fandom!! shoutout to her for giving me access to the louis show because i couldn’t get my hand on a ticket!!! owe her big time!!!

@spellboundzouis sabrina is such a talented creator!!!! everyone NEEDS to go check her out!!!! her eye for detail is *chefs kiss* and i am quite often inspired by her work!!!!

@akasakasads ali!!! one of my first friends on this site and so thankful she still sticks around my crazy ass!! she puts up with my snapchat spams (so does jillian and jex^^^) and i love her so so much!!! i wish we talked more often, but shit is crazy so i understand we don’t get to talk as much!!

@louistomlinboo belle messaged me one day to tell me she liked my edits and i will NEVER forget it!!!! she’s so so kind and makes such stunning edits!!! I have a soft spot for her because she has the same name as my fave princess and my dog (both of which i love just as much as her!!)

@tomlinsno maria and i don’t talk often, but when we do it makes me smile wide!!! i am dying to get to talk to her more!!

[xmalereader]

Newt Scamander X Male Reader

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Summary: Reader is a muggle that saves and befriends a thunderbird. Later that thunderbird does the same.

Warnings: fluff, language, MxM, muggle, wizard.

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It was storming outside as y/n tried to rush back home from work, it’s been a week since it’s been raining and he was slowly starting to hate it. Don’t get him wrong, he opens the rain but this past week it’s been storming with strong weather and it just didn’t want to stop.

Reaching the large apartment building he stumbled inside and breaths heavily as he removed his hat and hangs it up. “Ah, Mr. L/n! I seen that the rain has gotten you again.” His landlord lady says as she came out from her room.

Y/n chuckled with a small smile on his lips. “It’s not the first time.” He tells her as he removed his coat and hangs it up as well. “Did I get any mail?” He asks, walking Over to her, still covered in water. His landlord rolled her eyes, “You a few letters from family and your rent.” Y/n takes the envelopes and chuckled,

“I’ll get you your money by the end of the week.” He tells her as he heads upstairs and bids her a Goodnight. Heading up stairs to his own room, unlocking it He steps inside and tossed his mail on the coffee table. He’s been getting letters from his family and he’s been ignoring them. Ever since he’s told them about his dreams and drawings of him seeing weird like creatures, they all thought of him crazy!

He kept his artwork hidden from everyone that he knew, Including friends. He didn’t want people telling him that he was crazy about seeing such creatures that aren’t real. So, he decided to remain everything hidden and pretend like everything is normal in this world.

Stripping off his clothes he sets them down by the fire and heads to the bathroom to take a warm shower to keep himself from getting a cold. He lets the warm water trail down his body as he leans against the wall, lying his forehead on the wall as he thinks. He’s been working harder now and days, trying to keep himself busy and to forget about his dreams but each night was the same. He would wake up in a sweat and go straight to his desk to draw out what he dreamed about, it was mostly about mythical creatures.

Finishing up his shower he heads out and grabs some clothes, changing into them after he dried off, he kept the towel around his neck as he walks around the apartment. Making himself something to eat and some tea. “Let’s see what’s new...” he whispered to hisemlf as he held his drawing book and a pencil in hand, sitting down on the couch. Opening up the notebook, he flips through the many pages of different creatures that he’s dreamed of. Last night he had another one, it was about a small like leaf creature, it had a set of root arms and legs that would form out a small body. He began to sketch it out, getting every detail that he could Rememeber.

It didn’t take long for him to finish up, finishing his masterpiece he smiled at himself. “Good job.” He praised as he closed it up and sets it down, reaching over for his cup of tea he gasps as he noticed how the lights in his apartment shut off and a loud thud was heard above. “The power must’ve gone out.” He stands up and searched for the candles that he stored away close by the window. Finding one he lights it up and looks outside the window to see the other side of the street without light. “Guess it’s not Just us.”

Grabbing a blanket he wraps it around himself to keep himself warm from the cold weather, heading downstairs he sees the other owners out as well. “What happened?” He asks.

“A black out apparently, all of this rain is blocking us out.” The old man that lived just below him says as he huffs and grumbled. Y/n rolled his eyes, “it should be back soon.”

“It’s not just us! Half the city block lights are out as well.” Mrs. Gomez says as she held her blanket close to her body. “Ah, Stop freaking out it’ll come back on.” The landlord says as she crossed her arms. “Just return back to to your rooms and you’ll see that it’ll be back on soon.”

Y/n turns around and heads back up to the top floor where he lives.

“So much for help...” he whispered to himself, passing by the stairway that led up the roof, he was stopped by a Chirp. Loud enough for him to hear it.

Looking up the stairs he glanced over his shoulders to make sure that no one was watching him. Heading up the stairs he reached the main door to the rooftop, slowly opening it he noticed that it was raining softly now. Stepping outside In only his socks (which he regrets) he looks around the roof and sighs. “Must’ve been my imagination.” He turns around to head back inside only to freeze in spot when he sees a giant like bird standing right in front of him.

His breath is caught in between his throat as he tried to say something, but nothing would come out.

The giant bird tilts its head in questioning as it watched y/n carefully. Wondering if this person is a threat or not. Y/n slowly steps back, “Nice Little? Birdy...” he breaths out as he continued to move backwards to avoid the birds attention. Before he could take another step he noticed the bird shift around, trying to walk over to the edge. It spreads its left wing out but it’s Right was tucked away.

Y/n tilts his head as he stared at it. He noticed the way it looked, it looked broken.

The first thing that came to y/n’s Mind was to help this creature. He slowly approached and gets the birds attention, “Hey buddy...listen I’m not gonna yet you, I noticed your broken wing.” He says as he reached out slowly. “Would you mind-?”

The bird flinched and glared down at him trying to move away from the other male. “Shh it’s okay...” he pulls his hand away when he heard the large bird hiss back in anger. Y/n bites his lip as he lets out a sigh of frustration. “Alright I won’t force you.” He tells the golden like bird.

The giant bird tilts its head, slowly it lowers its head down to sniff at y/n’s face. He stayed still in spot as he lets the large bird sniff him out, letting him know that he wasn’t going to hurt him. The large thunderbird moves away, slowly it lied down and slowed y/n to look at his wing.

Y/n smiled weakly as he approached again, he placed his hand on the large wing and gasps. “Whoa, it’s soft.” He cooed out as he quickly examines the broken wing. He lifts it up carefully and nods, “You must’ve hit it against something to get a large mark like that.” He tells the thunderbird and smirks. “I’ll be right back, stay here!” He rushed towards the door. “Stay!” He turns around to see the thunderbird watching him.

Smiling softly he quickly heads inside to grab the things he needs. He just really hopes that this isn’t all a dream, he didn’t want to end up on the roof again only to notice that it was his imagination. Getting to his apartment he quickly grabs the things he needed like: bandages, food, blankets, and maybe some books in Case he got bored.

It didn’t take long for him to return back to the roof only to see the giant thunderbird still sitting there and waiting. “Good to know that it wasn’t my imagination.” He says as he smiled. Walking over he sets everything down, “Alright let me check your wing again.”

The thunderbird chirps and slowly lifts its broken wing up, doing as y/n Said as he let him inspect the broken wing. The older male frowns softly as he sees a few scratch marks under the feathers, his curiosity hits him as he reached up to touch them with a gentle hand and to stroke down the lines. The thunderbird tilts its head in confusion, looking under its wing to see y/n He cooed.

Y/n looks up to face the thunderbird and chuckled. “Sorry, I’ll fix this up quickly.” He grabs some bandages and began to fix up his wing. It was a very large wing but the birds Injuries were small so not much work is needed. It takes y/n awhile to fix up everything before finishing up. “All done.” He allows the giant bird to inspect the wrapping, it tilted its head in different directions. A confused expression was noticeable on the birds features.

“It’ll heal soon, it just takes time...so In the mean time you have to stay up here where it’s safe.” He spoke to the mysterious creature. He didn’t know why he felt so comfortable around such a strange creature, he should be freaking out and telling his neighbors!

But deep down he knows that he shouldn’t be telling anyone about this, he should keep it a secret. Just like how he keeps secrets about everything.

Y/n spent the rest of the night on the roof, he couldn’t really leave the thunderbirds side without causing trouble. He sat down across from the creature, leaving a bit of space. He didn’t want to piss off the bird, I mean he did help the bird but he didn’t know if that meant thag they were in good terms. Y/n was reading one of his books, the book lied on his lap as he scans each sentence as he read.

The thunderbird was watching the human male. He expected the human to immediately expose him to the human world, but instead all he got was patiences and silence.

Before y/n could read the next chapter he caught a glimpse of the sun rise. “Shit!” Standing up quickly he groans. “I can’t believe that I lost track of time! What time is it? Am I gonna be late?” He rushed around the roof collecting his things and hiding them behind pots and inside a shed. Before he could head inside he quickly remembered about the thunderbird. “Um...” he began to think and groans. “Just hide.” He grabs the blanket he had and placed it on top of the thunderbirds head to keep him “hidden”, y/n said a quick goodbye as he heads to his room to get ready.

The thunderbird was able to pull the blanket off its head only to see y/n gone. The giant thunderbird stands up in surprise, where did the human go? He did a quick 360 around him only to see no one. He lied back back down in his spot and chirps softly, waiting for the human to return back.

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“Your late.”

“This is my first time coming late.”

Y/n was panting softly. He ended up running to work after finding out how late he was. Y/n worked as a regular Artist, he would usually work at home with his projects but he liked working at a building with more people to socialize with. His manager stood in front of him with crossed arms, “I don’t care if it’s your first time. You have work that has to be finished by today.”

Y/n rolled his eyes, placing his things on his desk and taking out his notebook. He grabs a blank canvas from the equipment room. “I’ll have it done at the end of the day, promise.” He answers to his manager.

He began to draw the outline of his new project, it didn’t take long for him to sketch it all out before adding the color. Y/n spent half of the day at work, he was actually able to finish up early and was aloud to leave home early, (which he was glad too after not sleeping at all) .

The weather was better in the afternoon. It was no longer raining and the sun was shinning down at them, slowly setting to end the day. He walked back to his apartment, spiting the veg large building he looks up to see if he was able to spot the golden bird but to his luck he couldn’t. Smiling, he steps off the curve only to hear a loud thundering and strong lighting. “What the hell.” He breaths out as he ran to his building, trying to avoid the rain from ruining his clothes. Right as he stepped foot Inside it started pouring, hard.

Y/n quickly takes the stairs to the roof, he wanted to make sure that the thunderbird was alright. Dropping his things by his doorway he doesn’t hesitate to head straight up the ladder. He exits the building and onto the roof only to see several men trying to hurt the thunderbird.

“Get away from him!!” Y/n shouts as he glared.

The five strange men turned to see y/n. “A no-maj!”

“Obliviate him!”

One of them stepped up and held out their wand, pointing towards y/n.

The thunderbird sees this and gets angry, he lets out a loud screech as he knocks down the wizards using his tail. He stood in front of y/n in a protective way. “Get that damn thing under control and that no-maj!” One man shouts as they began to throw hexes as the thunderbird. “Stop it! Your hurting him!!” Y/n shouted as he backs up from the chaos.

Everything was moving so fast, the thunderbird was flapping it’s now healed wing at the wizards. Trying to back them off, y/n pants as he takes another step back only to gasp, he noticed how close to the edge he was. The men were stepping closer, the more steps they take the further they had to go back.

One of the wizards kept throwing hexes, not stopping. It was trying to tire out the thunderbird from fighting back. Y/n glared at him, he ignored the other four wizards that were trying to stop the thunderbird from doing anything else.

“Hey!” Y/n shouts. “Leave the damn thunderbird alone.” He says as he gently grips the creatures feathers. The thunderbird flaps its wings harshly and picks up y/n by the shirt. Y/n gasps as he gets lifted up into the air.

“Oh my god!! Oh god!” He shouts in panic as he groans. “I think I’m gonna faint...or throw up.” He moans out. The thunderbird used his beak to place y/n on his back as they flew through the sky.

Y/n grips the thunderbirds feathers as he kept his head ducked down. He hated heights and flying just made things worse for him, “where exactly are we going?!” He shouts as he feels the wind against his cheeks.

The thunderbird only chirped in response as he continued to fly through the clear sky. Y/n sighs as he pressed his forehead against the back of the birds head, he closed his eyes and contained to breath slowly. “It’s all gonna be over...” he whispered to himself as he slowly drift off to sleep.

The flight only took a few hours before the thunderbird arrives at their locations. Landing in a large clear grass field, the thunderbird began to cry out in a singing kind of rhythm. This caused y/n to jolt awake and to fall off the birds back, “Ow...” he groans out as he gets up from the grass and grunts. “Where are we?” He asks as he stands up to see the open ocean as he stood on top of the mountain edge. “Holy shit where are we?!” He asks again.

“Frank?”

Y/n turns around to see a man in a blue coat. “Where did you come from? And who are you!” He ran over to Frank to keep him protected. (Even though he was a Tiny human being) Frank rolled his eyes as he chirps towards the British man. “It’s been a while Frank. I thought you went home.” The British man asks as he walks over carefully and stretched out his hand to stroke the thunderbirds feathers.

Y/n watched the Two and raised a brow in confusion. “Okay...” he says. “Hate to ruin the moment but where am I? And who are you? And what is going on?!” He began to repeat everything again as he panics.

The British man smiled shyly. “I’m Newt. Newt Scamander. And this is Frank he’s a thunderbird and a very rare species.” Y/n stared up at Frank and glared. “That doesn’t quiet answer my question...” he grumbled out. Newt nods softly. “Your in England, out in the country actually...” he says softly as he avoids eye contact.

Y/n’s eyes widen. “I’m in what?!” He shouts as he walks over to Frank. “You! Take me back home right now!” He points up at Frank, the thunderbird tilts its head and chirps.

“I wouldn’t do that if I were you-“

“Shush!” Y/n says as he turns back to Frank. “Frank, take me back to New York this instint.”

Frank turns his back towards y/n, ignoring him.

“Frank!” Y/n shouts again as he tried to get the birds attention but the creature kept ignoring him. Newt could only watch and chuckle softly as he noticed the two bonding with each other.

“What are you laughing at?!” Y/n shouts at newt in frustration. This caused the Brit to look away shyly. “It’s weird seeing frank bonding with someone else, he’s usually cautious...”

“Well that because I saved his life, his wing was all messed up and I helped him out, then these guys appeared and began to hurt him.” Y/n explains as he gently stroked franks beak and smiled softly before frank nuzzled his hand.

Newt fiddled with his hand and cleared his throat. “If you’ll like I can help you out. Frank won’t seem to listen to me but he does to you.”

Y/n glanced up at the thunderbird who only stared back before he Male nods. “Alright.” He says as he crosse dhis arms, newt nods in response and began to walk towards his hidden place where he kept his case safe.

“Oh, you never told me your name.” Said newt as he turns back around to face y/n.

Y/n bites his lip. “Y/n. Y/n L/n.” He answers and only gets a smile from newt.

“Welcome to the wizarding world, looks like you and frank will get along quiet well.” He Said before leaving towards his case.

Y/n raised a brow and sighs. “This is gonna be a long day isn’t?” He looks up to frank who only squeaks and began to follow newt.

“Yep, it is.” He grumbled out as he followed the other two.

[pllandcompany]

dream on: a new year's eve story

summary: Logan doesn't see what's so magical about New Year's Eve.

warnings: talk of depression, poverty, weight mention, undereating, a smooch, cheerier than it sounds, I promise

tagged: @ziallwarrior @apologieslogan @logansmolbean @crofters-jam @asylia-5911 @ab-artist @band-be-boss-blog @unbefuckinglieveable @flyingfreeyt @thecatchat @thefallendog @backatthebein

notes: I'm waaaay late but I wrote this weeks ago and I thought I hated but then I came across it again today and inspiration actually struck me so I figured I should follow it before it disappears again. Hope you enjoy it!

It was far too cold for Logan Fields to be standing outside on a balcony. However, that was exactly where he found himself tonight against all good judgment. He wrapped his coat tighter around himself as another chilly blast of evening air cut through him, shivering his body down to his skeleton. There was a time when he used to be able to tolerate the cold somewhat but after a recent weight loss, he found himself more sensitive to any decline in temperature. He chuckled wryly at the choice of words that emerged from his turbulent thoughts. Sensitive. Hmm.

Lately, it seemed he was more sensitive to everything. It was an apt description.

The party behind him erupted in a muted crescendo, disturbing the fragile serenity Logan had achieved. Sighing heavily, he stepped closer to the railing, feeling the tiredness creep in with the cold. He checked his watch and frowned with disgust. 10:32. Midnight was only an hour and a half away but to Logan, that was an eternity. He genuinely didn't want to attend this function anyway; in his mind there was nothing to celebrate. Besides, his desire to be alone was only growing stronger by the minute so why was here? Maybe he could just quietly sneak out and head home, ball drop be damned-

"Logan? What are you doing out here?" Logan winced internally at the worried sounding voice behind him. Roman. Of course. How could he possibly sneak out now with the host directly behind him? He turned slowly, plastering a tight smile on his face.

"My apologies for disappearing, Roman, it was merely a bit loud for me. I just came outside to...decompress." Roman seemed to relax considerably, his concerned frown relaxing into a warm smile.

"Oh good. I was worried you might be leaving early."

I was planning on it, he thought almost bitterly. He squinted slightly at Roman's hands, suddenly realizing what he was holding. "Is that a blanket?"

Had the balcony been even just slightly brighter, Logan would have seen the blush that crept onto Roman's face. "Yeah, and I brought tea, too. You...you looked cold." Logan accepted the mug as the writer gently wrapped the soft fleece around his shoulders.

"Oh, well...thank you. It is quite cold."

"Then why were you standing out here so long?" Logan looked up at the velveteen sky sparkling vividly with bright, diamond stars.

"You have quite the view from this balcony. I suppose I became somewhat entranced."

Roman walked over to stand next to Logan, admiring the view for himself. "Ah, yes. This was the element that sold me on this place. I do most of my writing out here when it's warmer." Logan hummed noncommittally, distracted once again by the tornado of thoughts in his head. Roman frowned at the vacant, hollow look in his friend's eyes. He gave him a once over, noting how frail Logan's wrists appeared to be, how dark the circles under his eyes were. He felt his heart break at the obvious state of silent distress his friend appeared to be in.

Well, this just wouldn't do at all.

"What's on your mind, Lo?" Logan visibly tensed up. This was exactly what he was afraid of.

"I was simply considering how silly it is to commemorate the passage of time." He sighed again, a sudden weighed sensation passing over him. "Time, or more accurately, our system to quantify our perception of time marches forward regardless of whether we acknowledge it or not. Celebrating that event is pointless and unnecessary, especially when nothing significant changes in the singular moment of the arrival of a new calendar year."

"Jeez, Specs. Way to harsh a vibe." Logan turned to face a suspicious Roman, eyebrow raised in surprise. Logan offered up a wry smile.

"I apologize, Roman." His face fell considerably. "It's...it's been a rough year." He exhaled shakily, hands gripping the railing as the events of this past year flashed through his mind. The breakup. Getting laid off. Losing his apartment and worst of all, moving back home. Roman placed a soft palm on Logan's back, once again breaking him from his negative spiral.

"You will find another job, Logan. You won't be stuck in your parent's place forever. It will get better."

"Living with my parents is stifling me." His voice was tight with some emotion he couldn't identify. "I feel like a man with no purpose. No direction. I can barely afford to eat, I have no leads for employment and I'm...alone. I have no one and...and no one wants me." And he's crying now, wonderful, leave it to him to cry at a party. Roman didn't even flinch as he pulled Logan in for a tight hug, letting him lean into his embrace without comment. This wasn't the time for teasing; his friend needed him.

"You're not alone, Logan. And you are most certainly not unwanted." Roman pulled back and ever so softly held his friend's face in his warm hands. Logan soaked in the heat for a moment, closing his eyes briefly. It wasn't until he opened them again and saw the passionate gaze Roman was giving him that he understood.

"You...how long?" Roman chuckled nervously.

"A long time. But you weren't single for so long and then the break up happened and I knew you weren't ready to hear it." Logan gasped quietly, heart pounding with nervous elation. The tiniest spike of anxiety surged through his chest as he thought back to the man who left him, the man who told him that he was too cold, too detached, impossible to love, that he was no good for anyone as a lover. Yet here stood the most romantic man Logan knew, an author of several successful novels that detailed the accounts of many a love story with accuracy and passion, this man...wanted him? It couldn't be real.

"Roman, I...I honestly don't know if I'm still not ready or not. This feels like a dream right now and...I need this to be real for me to feel safe. I mean, trust me, I want to move on but..." Logan floundered for his next words briefly until Roman placed a gentle finger on his lips, stilling their babbling stream.

"Shh, hush darling, it's all right. I understand that. Which is why I'm restraining myself from kissing you senseless against this wall. Instead, we're gonna go inside, I'm going to make you more tea and something to eat, and then we're going to watch the ball drop and be happy. Because that's why you celebrate New Year's: to feel happiness. To give yourself over the magic of change and celebrate being alive despite all that's happened to us." A watery chuckle escaped Logan's mouth.

"The magic of change. You can romanticize anything, can't you?"

Roman wiggled his eyebrows. "Would you like to find out?" He gasped, face flushing again in embarrassment. "I didn't mean that how that sounded! Oh God, I'm so sorry, Lo, I don't mean to push you, I swear it-"

"It's quite alright, Roman. I am not offended. You've been waiting a long time, it seems."

"I would wait lifetimes for you, darling." Okay, now Logan was definitely red in the face at that comment. He turned his head and bit his lip, poorly concealing the smile that decided to show up to humilate him further.

"Well, then, maybe we should wait inside? Both of our lifetimes will be very short if we develop hypothermia." Roman smiled fondly at his brilliant friend.

"Lord knows we don't want that." A gentle hand was placed on the small of Logan's back, leading him back to warmth and light. Once the two gentleman stepped inside, they were immediately ushered to the center of the living room by a man with a mop of curly brown hair decorated by a glittery, silver hat with the numbers 2019 illuminated in a flash pattern.

"There you guys are! I was worried sick! You two almost missed the countdown!" Patton brightly chirped as he continued pushing the pair towards the television, where it appeared thag all of the party goers had gathered.

Countdown? Logan wondered. We were out there that long?

Patton grabbed the wrist of a less than sober looking man dressed in all-black down to his own decorated New Year's Eve hat, sans illumination, yanking him close to his side. "You too, Virgil! No one is missing this."

Logan looked over to see Roman looking just as stunned as he was at how an entire hour and a half seemed to fly by as fleeting as a New York minute. It just wasn't possible...was it? Had they really lost themselves in each other that much?

...Ten...nine...eight...

The chanting of the countdown broke into both Roman and Logan's senses and they locked eyes, suddenly feeling unnaturally drawn to one another.

...seven...six...five...

Out of the corner of his eye, Logan could see Patton and his apparent partner Virgil already deep into a passionate kiss, not willing to wait for any proverbial ball drop. Logan felt his pulse quicken once more as he turned back to the towheaded writer, an adoring but patient gaze lighting up his chocolate brown eyes.

...four...three...two...

In a split second, Logan knew what he was going to do.

One.

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!"

Roman found himself exceedingly grateful for the deafening cacophony of jubilation in his apartment that exploded at the turn of the new year. The noise made it nearly impossible to hear the squeak that emerged from him the moment Logan's lips pressed against his, cool and inviting. He was simply prepared for a New Year's Eve hug but this? This was his dream coming true in ways he hadn't even imagined. The kiss was brief but heated, both pulling away with pupils blown wide and chests heaving with pants. They stayed there for a moment just drinking each other in, the heat of their passion intoxicating them better than any champagne could. Logan let out another glorious chuckle, his laughter slowly becoming music to Roman's ears.

Maybe there was a little magic in this night after all.

[bonbonswirl-blog]

Perfect

ALL THE CHARACTERS BELONG TO @brueklynn I OWN NOTHING. This is like..uhhhh idk?... a 'batim' au idea? I guess? Im Not sure idk..its just that I got the idea from there and Instead of bendy its jokey, but not really exactly what happend there in batim. Plz ignore the bad portrayed scenes XD blondie is a lot OOC here. Enjoy if you only can thx.

It was a typical afternoon, the sunlit clouds drifted across a clear blue sky, fresh air filled the atmosphere swaying the palm trees gently by a breeze. David was at the recording room, a mellifluous melodic singing voice rose high, following the sweet, piping notes produced by the musical instruments around. After such a lilting, everyone toke a break, david sat on a chair, holding the lyrics for the new song in his hands. He saw a shadow approaching him, revealing his only cheerful boss. "Oh hey Mr. Blondie!! How are you in this lovely day!" "Hello david! Just checking on my young talented singer! How is the new song going?" "Its going great! Im just reading the lyrics again now!" "Thats good!...you know david...have you ever thought about how much the children love your jokey voice?" "Oh! Thats intresting...im sure everybody enjoy listening to it!" "Yea! they do....have you ever felt some...connections...to jokey?" "Connections? Mmmm well...I do feel that we both share a good love for the stage and thrilling the audience! along with the love to asssist other people and spread some optimism in the air!" "Thats beautifull!...Have you ever considered before...becoming this star that all those kids appresciate?" "That...looks pretty Mr. Blondie! But what do you mean?" His boss began to equivocally chuckle, it was low but icy, wasnt like his usual gleeful ones that gave an auditory hug, but david overlooked that, remaining unruffled till the answer. "David. Can you come with me for a while?" "Sure thing! But..what about the new song?" "Dont worry! It can be done in another time! now follow me!" They both left the recording room, the animator leading the ginger boy across the studio, while on their little trip to the unknown room they are walking to, david catched from away a sight of henry, tommy and norman talking together until a rueful rob drew near them, starting a conversation. David didnt mean to eavesdrop anyone, but their high voices did reach his ear. "Guys! Have any of you heared ANYthing lately about harriet? I cant find her anywhere! She didnt come to work and she is not at her home! I called her many times but she doesnt reply! Im really so scared..." rob vented, the three told him thag they didnt see her too. David felt sorry for the fellow worker, hoping that harriet is alright and will be back soon. He looked forward, though he only saw blondie back and his wheelchair, he could feel that he is trying to ignore something, he may have heard a little of the talking out there, maybe he feels sad too? But david was in his mind for a bit, wasnt aware of the time until he sensed that blondie stopped moving. This is when he noticed he is in an unrecognizable area he didnt see before, maybe this was a new place that got built recently?, " Here we are david!!" In front of both was a dark long way of stairs, it was only one storey up, just like one of those half open basemant stariecases. David knew not both will be able to clmib this, he was ready to push that wheelchair up, he looked at blondie concerned, whom just returned a grin. "Dont worry about me! I have my own ways for climbing those!" David didnt really get it, but he just let it go and left blondie to use to his own way, watching him in every step making sure he wont be close to any harm.

Dont ask how blondie climbed the stairs, he just did. that was a really narrow hall they were both in, in front of them a wooden door, blondie toke out his keys and opened it, only for both to be greeted by. "Finally!! Where Were ya!!" an angry wallaby yelled, looking as if he lost patience, it seems blondie was late to whatever meeting they should have done earlier, the room wasnt so small, almost looks like a little hallway with a wall at the end. The view was...tensed, it was a dark room with only a little bulb barley lighning it, orange colored light struggling to penetrate the darkness in thin thread rays. It was almost as if candles were the ones giving the slight shine here. Wallaby, paul and murphy were there, standing near the sides of the walls, everyone in a specific place, two at the right wall and one at the left one, only a mile spearting each two. the menacing aura holding david in a tightening grip, why do blondie have such a grisly decorating tatse...He wasnt sure if entering this room is a safe idea. "Guys!! I Brought Our Last Guest!!" Blondie exclaimed in a chirpy tone, closing the door behind himm Last guest? What does he mean? "Can we PLEASE Finish This Now And Go out?" "Come on paul dont be such a killjoy! Enjoy the place!" "If you are telling us to enjoy this creepy atmosphere then I had lost all my faith in you." murphy sneered, clearly not comfortable or trusty with how this 'gathering' is going to end, nobody knows the goal behind it. "Come on David! Here! This Is Your Place!! Stay Still And Dont Move Ok?" Blondie said while putting david on a specific spot on the left wall. "Sure! Wont Move A Shoe!" David obeyed, blondie looked at him, but this time, although he had his usual smile that showed his white glowed teeth spreaded on his face, his eyes had shimmers with some inexplicable spite. "Everything is set~" He whispered this under his breath while walking to one of the corners, nobody heard that one. Three of the invited four toke a look at blondie whereas he was doing something uncanny at that distant corner. David turned at the person in front of him, which was paul. "Oh! hey Mr.Paul!" But being the tedious man he is, paul didnt respone, only focusing on the book on his hand, thats why wallaby seemed as if he was gabbling to himself. The young boy then looked to his right side and saw murphy, still keeping an eye at blondie in a suspicion, despite not understanding a thing from what he was doing, nobody can just fetch someone to a room like this without being not up to something. "So Guys! Why are we here?" "I Dunno david! Mr. Blondie just went to me and told me that I gotta get here cuz he needs me for somethin, well I dont see anything! All I do is just standing on dis here spot not movin a leg!! What about ya paul?" "I dont care I just came here so he can stop nagging me." " I came here after he told me that I can be a 'star' like jokey." "Wait you gonna be a star? Ooh! Thats why we standin on a star!" "What?!" Wallaby words strongly drived murphy attention, making him watch the ground, they all noticed it now, they are standing on 'stars' that are drawn on the floor. David felt inside him a very straied premonisition feeling that was telling him to move, he didnt understand it, why would his guts tell him to move away from a single drawing on the floor? He promised his boss he will stay still there....how could a star drawing hurt anyone? Since whe do drawing harm people? But no matter how much he tries to brush off that feeling, it feels like a stiff weigh was being held on his chest, it made him feel so sick, maybe he just needs to move because his legs hurt him? Yeh yeh thats just it. The cheeky lad toke one step only out of that star shape, he tried to persuad himself its his legs aching and not because of a sixth sense, and that was really something he should be thankful for because. "Guys! I think we gonna be a stars!" "Wallaby...I dont think this star shape is used fo-" "GOODBYE MATES!!"

And with a casted spell and a flash of an eye, everybody was drowned with an unknown colorful sticky liquid that fully covered them, gluing them to the ground. Expect David, who fell down to the ground aspect with a horrible fear that rised behind his eyes from the grisly vision that immediately happend.

Blondie Stood there, watching him in enmity.

Blondie turned around, only to be so bothered by seeing the surviver. "Oh it seems I missed a shot! Im going to fix this~" The words had deserted david, the color quickly drained from his face, a cold wave embalmed him and his mouth ran dry, sweat poured down his body, Heart began to hammer against his chest, every muscle in his body shouted at him to flee. To escpae this imminent threat. He hurried to the door, using every little cell of power left to open it, but no matter how much he quickly moves the handle in fright, the door didnt open, oh yes, blondie locked it. Seeing no hope, he knocked on it so expeditiously and hardly, trying not to make his words stumbled, begging for someone outside to hear him. "HEEEEELLLP!!! HELP ME!!! PLEASE!!! ANYBODY OUT THERE?!?!? PLEASE HELP ME!!" "Come on David, why so nervous?" Blondie snickered from behind him, his voice hinting he is oncoming, his tone ringing in a sick icy way, sending chimes ringing in david ears, but he kept screaming for a rescue, he was not frightened nor afraid, he was beyond such mere nouns, he was going crazy, his boater hat fell from his head, it only reminded of how much he wants his family NOW in this profound situation, he just wanted to go back to them again, stay with his father marley at home and go to beach together or golf or car or wherever his father wants to go, staying in his parents arms was all what he desired, he would never wish anything anymore after this. He could no longer control his hands they were shaking in an odd trembling rhythm, his legs collapsed underneath him, teeth chattering in fear, He slid down the door, bringing his knees up to his chest.

"I-I-I-I-I-I D-D-DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!"

"You dont understand? I hated you! Im who created jokey! He was my friend since the childhood! My friend since the start!! But you! I saw every little detail I gifted him in you! You were perfect, perfect for him, more perfect than me! Now that I had a studio of my own, I wanted him to be alive! I reached my wish by the help of you all, by animating and presenting him to all the children around the world, they loved him, just like me! But lately, I didnt feel that I made this dream come true yet...how can a cartoon character offset me of a friend who always stayed by my side that I cant make real! But now I found a second chance, a second chance to revive him, to this reality. Thats it! Thats the chance! By using some souls to bring those stunning characters and that convival cartoony world I created to reality...that was always my biggest dream...and whats a better chance than to have the voice actor whom I influenced the traits for the children 'star' right at my hand~ People will love you david~"

Blondie was right, if david dyed his hair black and wore some cheeks make up, he could exactly like a real life jokey, but who would need a cheap costume when you can bring jokey himself to reality. David recalled the times when he sometimes thought uncle harry may have been a little overprotective of him. He thought his uncle needs to ease a bit, nothing so dangerous will happen for him. Now, he regret thinking this, and wants him to overprotect him forever and ever. Fear became a tangible, living force that crept over him like some hungry beast, immobilizing him and his brain, holding him a captive and took control of his entire body, Shadows and echoes play on his senses warping shapes and sounds. That outlandish substance already reached his legs, his life flashed before his eyes and he ushered his bright unearthly ones shut.

Yeb, this is the angel end.

[mochifufu]

i feel embarrassed to have had the slightest thought that you might be different from the other guys that had shown me interest in college. i will not personally confront you with how you made me feel, because you apparently like to call confrontational girls “crazy,” and also because me telling you anything will mean nothing if you are not in the right mindset to accept and change how you are. i also might be wrong and maybe i just happened to view every single thing in a distorted way.

thank you for having the courage to consistently ask me to hang out, whether it be for cooking a meal or to study — i truly did enjoy the moments we spent together. but i hope you learn someday that by doing so, you are setting an expectation for yourself. to whomever it is, if you act a certain way consistently for a while, that act will be associated as your norm, and people will expect you to act in such way continuously. so when you break that consistency all of the sudden, it is easily identifiable. especiallt in cases where feelings are involved, there also comes the emotional burden of having to understand the reason behind such sudden change. in this case, your consistent act of hitting me up every day changed all of the sudden, and I had a hard time wrapping my head around the cause of the change, usually end up questioning my own actions as the catalyst of the change.

of course, you have no obligation to live up to such expectation, even if it is an expectation that you set for yourself. but it was just personally a lot for me to handle emotionally, on-top of the personal problems that i was having at the time. i am not trying to blame you or make you feel bad about what you did; me being overwhelmed by my emotions is not your fault. i was the one who let myself get emotionally attached to you, and my own pre-existing problems were the ones that amplified the pain from the emotional consequences that resulted from your change of action. but i hope it is not too selfish of me to wish that you would understand why i felt such a way.

the day after your friend told me that you had feelings for me, preaching to me for good thirty mjnutes about how you would make the perfect boyfriend, your actions started to change. i of course have no clue what caused the change, or if that change really did happen right after that conversation i had with your friend for a matter of fact. but i dont think i am crazy to the extent where i would feel like you are different for no reason. ever since that day your friend had a talk with me, although we still spent a lot of time together, those long hours of hanging out became very stressful for me and the hours to follow after the hangouts were even more stressful, for the feeling i got was that you were less interested in me at the least. you started making uncertain plans, putting me and my time on hold for plans that mostly did not happen. you would set ambiguous plans for “tonight,” only to not contact me the detailed time and place of the plan that was supposed to happen “tonight” until i reached out multiple times to confirm whether it was happening or not (and most of the time, it did not happen and therefore i ended up wasting my time being embarrassingly excited to see you and spend time with you for plans that you were not that keen on making happen to begin with).

as embarrassing as it is to admit, yes, you were a big reason why i took 40 ibuprofen pills and went to the ER. your irresponsible words and sudden increasingly indifferent actions towards me after the day your best friend told me how you supposedly felt made me question my worth, even as a friend and a human being, and wonder for hours on what i could have possibly done wrong to cause this sudden shift in your action. again, my apologies if i sound like i’m blaming you for my actions — i am not. i would like to take full responsibility for feeling such way, thinking such way, and committing such actions. i was just disappointed and upset by your actions and it was just overwhelmingly burdensome for me to keep on thinking and stressing about your irresponsibility. already having been in a bad head space to begin with, the extreme stress from you was the one last factor i needed to pull the impulsive act of overdosing. during the couple days that you started to act differently, i could barely focus on anything else — even things as basic as studying, spending quality time with other people, or eating. i was unable to sleep properly for many nights as well, unable to fall asleep until the morning, which is even later than my already-late sleeping hours due to my insomnia, because i could not get my mind off of many things, with you being one of the more overpowering thoughts. i felt as though my brain was going to explode from all these thoughts and problems in life floating in my head, and decided to take the ibuprofen impulsively because it was nearby and i desperately was seeking for there to be peace in my mind at that moment. i just wanted to stop thinking for a while but i felt as though these thoughts were out of my control. i was not planning to kill myself, but i was ready for the worst. next time, even if its not regarding me, please do not tell your friend to tell your love interest that you like them if you are not certain about your feelings. others’ feelings are not objects that you can toy with and trash when you lose amusement in them. i might sound dramatic for saying all of this and committing such acts, but some people are more sensitive to emotions and get affected by them more easily and heavily than others like yourself. if its a feeling that goes away after 3 days of you telling your friend to go wingman you, then it is probably safe to assume thag it is a fleeting interest, not anything serious. your feelings are your responsibility. you are free to feel however way you want at any time, but once it starts affecting others involved in the situation, you have to know that you are responsible for that and actually be prepared to be responsible for it. your uncertain feelings can be torturous to others in ways that cause immense pain. if you cannot do anything about the pain the other person is going to be put through because of the resulting actions that seep out from your feelings, then it is probably not a good idea to let those feelings out in the first place. 

even when i was at the hospital, you did not care much. even when i got out of hospital, you did not care much. you yet again made the empty promise to pick me up from the hospital, and an hour before my discharge you told me that you actually have class from 12 - 4 followed by a call at 4:30, and told me that we should just eat dinner together. you were so busy retracting your words and rescheduling me to fit your schedule that you did not even bother asking me on my wellbeing or anything regarding my trip to the hospital. you also continued to be inconsiderate with my time for rest of the day of my discharge, not letting me know when to come over for the very dinner that you set, and the very dinner that i asked you to let me know when i should come over for. keeping up with the recent trend that you have newly established, you did not respond to me when i literally asked you to let me know when to come over and continued to remain silent until i called you around normal dinner time asking if it was happening or not. you also had the audacity to call me “late” three minutes after the time you established only when i called to check if the dinner was happening. no, i did not flake on you for that dinner unintentionally because i fell asleep. i really was convinced on going over to cook dinner with you despite just coming out of hospital and despite you not even letting me know when to come for dinner. i ended up not going on purpose because my friend helped me come to my senses by letting me know that you told the same friend that was preaching you to me just couple days prior to this that you no longer had feelings for me.

i dont know what to think of you. i am still hurt. am i just boring? so boring that you lost interest just couple days, not even a week, after telling your friend to preach you to me? if your feelings faded that quickly, then that probably means you never really actually liked me that much and it hurts to think that as well. another thing that i could not get out of my mind, and still am having a hard time getting rid of, was the thought that maybe i am just not meant to be liked and/or loved by anyone. as i have told you before, i had gone through similar situations where boys would act as if they are very interested in me and then suddenly seemingly change their minds and act differently just when i decide to be more open and vulnerable to let them in. with all of this repetition, along with other factors of my life, i am continuing to feel as though maybe i am just not worthy of being loved and cared for by anybody, and it is quite unfortunate that you, who I thought genuinely cared about be, ended up participating in further developing and solidifying such a horrible feeling. please be very carefully about your emotions and confirm that you actually feel something significant about the other person before acting upon your so-called feelings. as i’ve numerously reiterated throughout, your actions could have a bigger impact than you imagine on the other person.

i get that in a two-person relationship, there are always two stories to be considered, and that it is important to hear your side of the story to properly interpret the situation. nonetheless, regardless of your side of the story and what possibly led you to make such decisions that output such actions, yes, you did hurt me in many different ways, and i am still hurt. i’m not sure if hearing your side of the story will ever change the emotions i was put through because of your actions. what you did is not a move to pull after telling someone to tell me that you like me, but it is also not something you should do to a friend. i am not asking you to take responsibility for all that has happened due to your emotional irresponsibility and disrespect for me and my time, but it would be nice if you could someday come to a realization that you really did fuck me up badly and empathize with what i had to go through due to your irresponsibility.

[strawberryspeachy]

Also theres this girl. Call her girl B

K well lets go with i met girl A and boy A at a club. I hung out with girl A again and at a later time i hung out with boyA

When i hung out with boy A i met girl B in his friend group. We were all shoping and there were two more girls. The other two girls looked at me like ‘why is she here’ and a couple times when turning to adress me just full on looked displeased that i was with their group. But girl B talked with me alot and we fell behind the group cause were the same height and the rest of them were tall. And a couple times we drifted off apart of them to shop alone. I mentioned that i hadnt dont kareoke in japan yet but really wanted to and she said we should go to one where you can put on oufits too.

I said that i was supposed to go too tokyo disneyland with people that weekend but they cancelled. This group was like oh were going tomorrow actually if you wanna join us! I declined saying it was too short notice for me but thanks for inviting me

Became friends on line and instagram with girl B

A coiple weeks passes and i asked her when shed wanna do karoke and she told me not that week because she had exams and at a later time. And a couple weeks after that i told her i was gonna go shopping in tokyo if she wanted to join me , she said she wouldnt be in the area.

All fine and good. We had a coiple interactions about food inbetween

So when i got fired i messaged boy A asking if he happenes to know if.

K important. This group lives together in a sharehouse.

I asked him paniced and told him a bit of what happened. If his job was hiring or if he knew of anything hiring and if his sharehouse had open rooms

He said no to both and i was like ah ok thanks anyhow - do you know any that are or how to find sharehouses?

He (normal talking inbetween btw. Not short remarks or anything just getting to the point here) he said no again

I did start that off saying in sorry you dont know me that well and this is alot. But im panicing and dont have any idea what to do so im trying to find information for anywhere

So anyhow. I go on instagram. I dont have many friends at all so its easy for me to see the numbers. Noticed that my following went down but i had the same amount of followers.

Yea yea. Ive been blocked alot. Thats how every guy ever has stopped talking to me. By blocking me. So in aware of what the subtle sign looks like

A couple days pass and my followers go down by one. Im curious. Idk who blocked me. It wasnt anyone i had messaged about my job stuff.

So i go to my messages to see of it was anyone i actually cared to talk to.

Yep.

It was girl B

I can only assume boy A talked about what I said and theyve both just fucking took that as im a creepy stalker

Which means those two times in the past month and a half that ive asked her to hang out. She wasnt busy. She was like ew no not with the stalker girl. And then when he told her she went eeeeekk no shes probably gonna message me too!

And ill just restate here that the report of me being fired said that my behavior aligns with stalking

So.

In japan. Apparently.

Messageing someone who gives detailed responces back - but doesnt want to and never says that or makes it apparent. = you a stalker.

Asking someone to hang out and do the thing your previously discussed but trusting that they’re actually busy if they say theyre busy and not that they just dont want to so asking again at a later time = you a stalker

Talking to someone your around and building off of the conversation they give back and the conversation getting more and more personal because they dont cut it at some point even though they want to but dont say it = you a stalker

Talking to someone when theyre in the area around you instead of ignoring their existance when they want you to but dont make it clear that they dont want to talk = you a stalker

Asking someone information on how to do personal things you dont know because youre new to the country = you a stalker

So basically in Japan pretend no one around you exists. If you do talk make sure your conversation is as hollow as foam and if they get personal with you RUN AWAY or else theyll call you a stalker for SHARING PERSONAL INFORMATION. Oh yeah. That was also writen in there. Don’t fucking ask don’t tell. Japan is the homophobic us army but with being a breathing human.

God damn. I literally met a girl in japan who i thought - woah lady. You just shared way too many personal details with me about your life in the first five minutes of knowing you. This is too much for me. Dont really wanna get close and see how much farther that could go.

Just the amount of times ive met people who share WAY too personal of stuff with me and my other coworkers. And no ones response has ever been BE GONE!! NO MORE INCOME FOR YOU!!

Its always just “dude. Tmi” and after months of nice “you shouldnt tell people this.” “Im trying to eat” “why are you telling me this” “i dont want to know the rest of this story” AT. MOST. someone might embarrass them and yell “youre always sharing way too much information about yourseld. Its gross and no one wants to hear it. Just stop!”

But even at thag point no one goes to the fucking boss and like FIRE THIS OVERSHARING POS

And ive never heard someone call someone a fucking stalker for the intial attempts of trying to make friends even if that person overshares personal information

Damn. Japans dumb. Im sorry im not sorry. If my situation at home wasnt so shit id just fucking leave.

No wonder everyone in the country is so stressed out. Youre still living in the middle ages where youre best friend could suddenly decide youre a witch the town will burn you at the fucking steak.

[eulogy34-blog]

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This issue is noticed to run in people and experts feel this situation could be the result of autoimmune disorder, where by the immune method of the body mistakenly attacks the hair follicles. These involve treatable problems like anemia and thyroid disorder and polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). These circumstances are diagnosed by blood checks in addition to a historic and Bodily evidence. While a few research have recommended that baldness may very well be inherited with the mom's spouse and children genes, these theories call for additional testing. Existing reports are inconclusive. Although not indicated for woman sample balding, spironolactone (Aldactone) has had some success in managing this situation. Probably read more is alopecia totalis, where your entire scalp goes bald. It is important to emphasize that individuals who've localized hair loss usually Never go on to get rid of hair all over the scalp. Alopecia areata can influence hair on other parts of the human body, too (for example, the beard or eyebrows). Nourish Beaute treatment shampoo is acceptable for every type of hair, and also for the two, Males and women. The shampoo helps make hair much more manageable and easy to brush with no shedding strands. When you've got a medically diagnosed hair loss trouble, then this shampoo may possibly be able to help with it. Learn how aquiring a vitamin D deficiency can lead to hair loss and what you are able to do to take care of balanced vitamin D degrees in Your system. Throughout the 3-thirty day period telogen interval, the hair root shrivels up into a small "club," then the hair falls out. It can be therefore ordinary to shed about a hundred hairs on a daily basis, far more of these on days when shampooing loosens the hairs that happen to be able to fall out. The body then replaces the hairs. While most of the people who request hair alternative surgical procedures are Adult males, Kaufman claims women make fantastic candidates. A detailed examine these will usually reveal the club at the end, exhibiting that these hairs shed Generally. Typically, about ten% of scalp hairs are during the telogen phase. Vitamin A can even be present in animal merchandise like milk, eggs and yogurt. Cod liver oil is a particularly very good source. Bottom Line: Vitamin D's actual function in hair growth just isn't understood, but a single type of hair loss is associated with deficiencies. You could raise vitamin D concentrations as a result of sun exposure or by ingesting particular foods. Hello sir I am suffering for major hair loss trouble so please give me tips for control hair loss Androgenic alopecia - is actually a genetic condition. Adult men with this condition are afflicted with what is usually often known as male sample balding, which can commence in the course of late teens or their early 20s. Sure. Considering that coconut oil is rich in potassium, it retains the scalp health and fitness, and promotes the growth of new hair, rendering it the top treatment for hair regrowth. Nonetheless, usually there are some anecdotal stories that supplementing with also higher of the dose could also lead to hair loss.

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Purchasing the most effective hair loss shampoo for guys and women is usually tough. With a great number of internet marketing ploys and Untrue statements, it may be tough to convey to which items are genuinely effective and which of them are basically a fraud. The very best shampoos for hair growth consist of four vital substances. The subsequent substances have been demonstrated to not merely sluggish or avert hair loss in Adult males and women, but to properly create new growth to prevent thinning and balding. Regardless of what item you select, ensure it is made up of the next factors. Food plan performs a crucial job in hair growth. Protein is important for extended hair so be sure you are acquiring more than enough protein with your eating plan. This is certainly also called platelet loaded plasma therapy. Researchers noted in the British Journal of Dermatology Could 2013 situation that restoring hair growth on bald patches is possible by injecting them with platelet abundant plasma. one. Never heard of more info from stepto remedies , but from your looks of it, it has been obtainable some time and been given mediocre feed-back. Additionally, it lacks The present simplest components. They aren’t increasing your overall hair count, just shifting across the hair you've still left. Moreover, it doesn’t cease foreseeable future hair loss and occasionally more transplants are expected. Is there visit involving hair loss and worry? Equally psychological and Actual physical strain (for example a significant sickness or Restoration from surgical procedures) are actually connected to hair loss. Even though thyroid blood checks and also other lab tests, which include a whole blood rely (CBC), on Individuals who have common hair loss are often usual, it's important to exclude treatable leads to of hair loss. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-SiXXn3EKKI2t7btdwEplw has ketoconazole, but only a few other hair thinning/loss relevant ingredients; not readily available on Amazon (only by using Lipogaine Site). The parents at Ultrax Labs are assured more than enough you’ll see success from Hair Surge that they offer a 90-day money back assure. They don’t make a great deal of products – only 3 within their complete portfolio – but they may have a agency perception inside their formulation. Scientists uncovered that the two 2% ketoconazole and minoxidil regimens enhanced hair density, dimension, and proportion of anagen follicles. Ketoconazole is also efficient in managing a fungus named Pityriasis That usually inhabits the scalp. RepliCel is a kind of cell therapy that features a large amount of oldsters energized. This can be often known as RCH-01 and RepliCel is collaborating with world wide cosmetic enterprise Shiseido. RepliCel will be an injectable like Histogen or Botox for instance. It is essentially hair transplants on steroids, but They can be migrating cells as an alternative to hairs. Their intention is to have a seed biopsy then multiply it while in the lab for around three months. You’ll locate ketoconazole in Nizoral anti-dandruff shampoo, and preliminary investigate signifies that it could be effective in dealing with hair loss. In the event you’re a man who hasn’t uncovered how to use hair gel nevertheless, it would be a good time to figure out ...

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August 18th, 2018

IN A BEAUTIFUL little church in Tampa, Florida, on a hot summer day, people gathered to say goodbye to Mr. Robert Straley. If you Google his name you’re going to get results that are 99.9% Dozier related. Bob was very public about his time at the school & his fight for justice. That’s what he was known for, so that’s what you’re going to get. Before his passing, that’s all I knew of him. To me, he had been Mr. Robert Straley, Whitehouse Boy.

OF COURSE THERE was more to this man than just Dozier & having had the privilege of spending quite a bit of time in his home, I got to know not Mr. Straley but Bob. That’s the side that I’m going to share with you today.

  ROBERT STRALEY ~ AUTHOR & POET

BOB WAS NOT just a talented writer but an actual published author. He collaborated with Michael O’ McCarthy (also a Whitehouse Boy) & Robin Gaby Fisher (a Pulitzer Prize winning author) to write the book “The Boys of the Dark: A Story of Betrayal and Redemption in the Deep South.” The book chronicles the events at Dozier & is a great read! I was given several hardback 1st edition copies that Bob had at his home & I absolutely treasure them. I highly recommend reading it! Don’t take my word for it though, go grab your own copy! I will put the link for it below…OR feel free to reach out to me & if I REALLY like you, I may be willing to hand over one of my copies!

    HIS WRITING DIDN’T stop at just that book. He also wrote poetry & short stories for many years. I do have tons of CDs that contain a handful of his short stories & would definitely be willing to give one to anyone who asks. Having read some of his other work, I can honestly say it is beautiful. Of course my favorite is a poem called “Please Remember Me” which was written about the lost boys of Dozier. I also love another titled “Facing Cancer, Finding Jesus”, written during his final days …Having lost my own dad to cancer, this particular piece broke my heart.

    A SUCCESSFUL BUSINESS MAN

BOB OWNED A successful novelty business. In fact, he started building his company, Firefly Vending, out of his garage & was one of the first to manufacture the chemical glow necklace. The glow necklace continues to be one of the top selling novelty items, selling millions every year. He spent close to 40 years of his life attending festivals & expos selling these items with 15 of those years running his other company, Nashville Glow Light, selling LED electronic novelties before finally retiring.

    HE ALSO RAN a latex mold business & I was lucky enough to see the passion & detail that he had put into each piece. They were absolutely amazing!

    GREAT FRIEND, AVID TRAVELER

HE LOVED TO travel & there were many photos of him posing at the beach, in the mountains & visiting other countries. The photos would also show the close group of friends that he spent a lot of time with, some of which I would have the pleasure of meeting throughout the week before his service. It was very apparent that when he made a friend, it was for life & the general consensus of the people I spoke to was thag he was generous, kind & would bend over backwards to help someone in need.

    A LOVING FATHER

LAST BUT CERTAINLY not least, Bob had a beautiful daughter that he unfortunately lost way too soon. Though I know the details of her passing, It’s not my place to share them. What I will say is that the photos of them together show how much he loved her & there was not one person I spoke to that didn’t say how deeply he mourned the loss until he took his last breath. One of the most touching part of the service was when a tape of his daughter singing “Amazing Grace.” Her voice filled the church, giving me goosebumps. She had the voice of an angel which could explain why Bob was obsessed with them, filling his house with angels of all types.

    THERE WERE OTHER little windows into Bob’s life that I found were pretty awesome. His grandmother was an artist & some of her paintings were hanging in his home. Seeing them made it clear that Bob’s talent was undoubtedly passed down from her.

    INSPITE OF THE situation that had gathered everyone together, it made the experience a bit more bearable to hear some of the stories of the other side of a man that I’d only known for his activism. Overall, I’d say Dee Dee & family did a fabulous job planning a memorial service that not only celebrated Bob’s life but seamlessly tied together all of the parts of a man who had packed so much into his life.

  TO BE CONTINUED…

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CELEBRATING THE LIFE OF ROBERT STRALEY ~ Pt. 1: A Different Side of Bob Please Support "Finding Florida" By "SUBSCRIBING", "LIKING" &"SHARING" Posts & Site Info! August 18th, 2018 IN A BEAUTIFUL little church in Tampa, Florida, on a hot summer day, people gathered to say goodbye to Mr.