#but like would you start SPN with Changing Channels as a ''do you like the vibes of this show?''

[cheynovak]

Forest Green Eyes - PART 4 

Castiel & Y/N Winchester  

Warnings:  SMUT – 16+ …  

Side note: English isn’t my first language.  

Words:  1794

This story takes place after the SPN finally. Jack asked Castiel to go back to earth to be the guardian angel of Y/N. Cas accepts this task but only to discover that Y/N is the biological child of Dean.  

 

Part 5 Now online

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And like a magnet your face turned towards him. Looking in each other eyes once more grinning. 

All you could think of was kissing those angelic lips again. But that was the beers you had earlier talking right...  Right? 

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The drive home was quiet. The windows were down, and the hot summer breeze landed on her skin. Y/N and Cas had just offered to drop Tom and Anna of at their home since they were clearly not able to drive anymore. The entire ride Anna kept looking at these pictures. “You guys are ok with me posting them on insta?” When they were home save, it was just the two of you.  

Castiel started to think about the kiss. He wanted to talk but didn’t know where to begin.  

"Music?” Y/N asked leading Castiel out of his thoughts?  

 

* Eric Clapton – Wonderful tonight started playing*  

Both Y/N and Castiel sat there listening to the words. Y/N didn’t want to make anything more awkward by changing the channel. Would be too obvious she thought. She looked over at Cas, he clearly had no problem with the music.  

Little did she know that the angel did his best not to look at her, afraid to give his feelings away and make her uncomfortable.  

Once home Y/N removed her jacket and walked towards the kitchen. “You want something?” 

He didn’t answer but followed her, trying to find to courage to talk about what happened.  “Y/N... We need to talk.”  

“Yeah, what’s up?” Trying to sound normal, not looking at him. Afraid of what he would say.  

“About tonight, you know, the eh ... kiss.” He asked with his heart beating out of his chest.  

A moment passed as she tried to find an answer. I can’t tell him what I felt tonight, it is so wrong! He probably still sees me as some little kid.  

“Oh that. Well, that was a means to an end. I thought you wouldn’t mind. The guy clearly got the message without breaking bottles or bones.” She said slowly turning to Castiel. 

 

Castiel’s heart dropped, it felt like the world came down on him. Y/N noticed the way he started to walk backwards looking at the ground. “Cas?”  

He cleared his voice “Yes, well, that was what I thought.” He said with a smile like he had a toothache. “I, eh, I,  I'm going to my room. It was a long day. Goodnight, Y/N.” 

Y/N let out a sigh, oh god what did I do. If someone deserves an honest answer it is Castiel.  

And he looked so hurt by my answer. He even went to his room. The man didn’t need sleep, so it had been weeks maybe months that he stayed the night in there. He usually would read a book in the main rooms, watched a movie or prepared food for Y/N. He even reorganized the entire archives from the man of letters.  

Castiel is laying down on his bed. Listening to some music he borrowed from Y/N. Trying his best to reset his feelings. Back to normal Castiel, you are here for a purpose, a job. Even though he still had no idea why or what he was supposed to do.  

Looking after a kid was easy, a teen more challenging but he managed. Y/N is a woman now, who’ve read every book in this archive, who knows every story. A woman who is incredibly smart and kind, a little stubborn and grumpy, maybe even a little temperamental. Who acts first and thinks later.  

And oh, so beautiful, her full lips, high cheekbones, dark blond/light brown hair, and her big green eyes... And taller than the average women he met.  

But he was sure there were more people like that.  

There can only be one reason that Jack was so interested in this kid. She had to be family in his eyes.  

He heard a soft knock on the door. “Cas? Are you ok?” 

 The angel opened the door slightly, just enough so he could stand in the doorway.  

Y/N stood closer to the door than he expected. She was already in her sleeping shirt and underwear.  “Hi.” She said while her lip curled slightly, clearly not knowing how to react. “Hey” He answered while letting out a breath.  

- “Cas, I’m sorry.” 

“What?” 

- “I couldn’t sleep and kept thinking it isn’t fair to lie to you, to lie to myself.”  

Is she saying what I think she is? “What?” he repeated.  

Y/N looked at the floor. ”I think, I love you Castiel.”  

Castiel lifted a hand under her chin.” Look at me Y/N... Please.” So she did.  

 

The second Y/N’s eyes locked in those ocean blue eyes she felt her whole body move forward.  

Castiel placed his hands on her face accepting her, accepting her kiss, pulling her in. This kiss was long and passioned. Y/N’s hands caressing his shoulder and torso. Castiel walked back leading Y/N into the room. Y/N started to undo his tie and unbutton his shirt while her lips moved from his lips towards his neck without losing their touch.  

 

Castiel moved his hand from her face down, over her arms, stroking the side of her breast. Y/N felt a shiver down her spine that made her moan a little under her breath.  

As she pushes his shirt of his shoulders, he grabbed her wrists and pulls back so he can look at her.  “Y/N wait... Are you sure? I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want to or regret when you’re sober.”  

“Castiel, I’ve never been more certain of anything in my life. I want all of you.” She said while softly kissing his neck going over his chest moving down.  

“I want you.” Softly scratching his nipple with her teeth. 

“ The question is.” Kissing his hips. 

“Do you want me Cas?” Licking a stripe between his navel and pants. 

Castiel closed his eyes “Yes, you have no idea.” The second Y/N undid his belt, the angel felt a fire in his gut. He lifted Y/N up without a warning and pushing her against the wall. Y/N’s legs are around his waist. You knew he wanted you as much as you wanted him by the bump growing in his paints and the moans he let out while his lips were all over you.  

He dropped her for a second just to remove Y/N’s shirt and look at her bare breast. His eyes were darkened with lust.  

Y/N pushed Cas to the end of the bed, he gracefully sat down while she sat down on his lap facing him. Even though he seemed self-assured his eyes looked for permission every step of the way. 

He took her left breast in one hand while he takes her right nipple in his mouth, sucking and licking.  

This movement made her moan his name while she desperately grinds her hips on him for more friction.  He loved how she moaned his name, this made the fire in him burn brighter. Made him want to satisfy her more and more.  

Castiel turned around, taking Y/N with him so that she is now laying on her back in bed. Slowly crawling up to the pillow. But Castiel didn’t follow, he had other plans. He licked and kissed her ankles than her legs, thighs, hips. Y/N’s head falls back when he took her panties of slowly started to caress her clit. “Please Cas, I need you.”  

“What do you need?” He asked with a husky voice. Y/N sat up “You, inside me.” She said while stroking his now very hard and visible dick. “I don’t want to wait Cas. Please”  

Castiel took off his pants and underwear. As he hovered over Y/N he asked, “Are you sure, I though humans wanted, more foreplay.”  

“Next time” She sight. “Castiel I’m burning up. I need to feel all of you.”  

He moved his dick against her, coating it with her juice before slowly entering her. “So wet, so tight.” He moaned.  

Y/N felt her hole stretched inch by inch. The angel watched Y/N’s expression and waited a little before he started to slowly move his hips. “More...” She moaned. Castiel frowned not entirely understanding what she needed. “I’m not going to break Cas, don’t hold back. Fuck me harder.” 

 Y/N wrapped her legs around his waist, pushing him deeper, while Castiel placed his arms next to her head and started to hard yet passionately thrust. He could feel her squeeze when he hit a specific spot inside her. “Oh, YES Castiel, right there!”  

Y/N felt every inch of Castiel, he was so big that every trust hit that one spot inside that made her scream and moan like a mad woman. She quickly noticed that Castiel loved the way she reacts, so she didn’t hold back. While he started to move faster and harder, she started to feel the heat boiling inside her. It wouldn’t take long before she would snap. “Don’t stop, please Cas, don’t stop, I'm so close!” Just a couple more thrusts and Castiel could feel Y/N wrapping tighter around him, it made him groan. “I can feel it Y/N, come for me.” His trust started to get sloppy, the way he felt you squeezing made him fight not to come before you. “Let me make you feel good.” Groaned out of breath.  

Those last words pushed Y/N over the edge. Castiel managed to hold back just enough to look at you. “Where do you want me...” He was so close he couldn't finish that question. “I said I want ALL off you Cas.” Not 5 seconds later Castiel came inside her. After he came down from his high, he kissed her lips. “Wait here.” Before she could say anything, he was gone and returned with a washcloth. “Hm, great sex and aftercare.” Y/N joked.  

“Well, I asked you to let me take care of you.” He grinned. 

Castiel pulled the cover over them while Y/N snuggled by his side. “This is going to change things, isn’t it?” He asked. “Well, I hope so, more of this. More of... Us” She answered drawing circles on his chest.  

“Us, sounds good.” He said. Minutes later Y/N felt asleep while Castiel kept listening to the music that was still playing in the background.   

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If you liked this, please check out my masterlist for other stories.

[spnfanficpond]

Rewatching SPN: Fanfic Edition

Hi guys! Admin Marie here!! I’d like to officially invite you to our official rewatch of the series!!!

Our goal is to rewatch the show with fanfic writing in mind. We want to look for all the places in canon where we could add a scene, show a scene from a certain character’s point of view, or change something to make things turn out differently. (We may also critique what the show writers did; that seems inevitable.)

Who’s invited? All Pond members, including Turtles! You don’t have to be a writer to have an opinion on the episodes that could inspire a writer! Everyone has valuable opinions about the show and could spark conversation and inspiration.

How will it work? On our own, whenever we have time, we will all watch two episodes of SPN. Announcement posts will be posted with which episodes we’re watching so we’re all on the same page. Later, we will all get together and chat about them. Although we have several questions to consider and creative ideas for you to do if you want, there is no pressure to actually have answers to these questions or have created anything prior to the chat. Didn’t get to watch them? No biggie! We’ve all watched these episodes enough that we can probably talk about them without rewatching them!

Where will we meet? In the discord server. There will be a special channel for us to chat in so we don’t disturb other chats happening at the same time.

When will the chats happen? Twice a month, on the second and fourth Saturdays of the month, unless otherwise advertised.

Our first chat covering the Pilot and Wendigo episodes will be on Saturday, the 14th of October.

What time will it be for you?

Los Angeles - Saturday 9am

New York - Saturday noon

London - Saturday 5pm

New Delhi - Saturday 9:30pm

Melbourne - Sunday 3am

More info under the cut!

What questions should we consider while we watch? We have a few questions you can keep in mind while you’re watching the episodes:

Are there any “fanfiction gaps” in this episode? Any places between scenes where a juicy story could happen? (For example, one scene ends at night, but the next scene begins during the day, and what did they do with all of that time?)

How would the episode be different if you changed one thing? What is changed is up to you. It could be as complex as a character making a different choice, or as simple or silly as someone wearing a funny hat throughout part or all of the episode.

What about this episode would you like to see happen differently? How would making that change affect future episodes?

List any parts of each episode that you think could be jumping-off points for a fic. Like, in the pilot, how did Sam meet their friend who was in the bar with them?

How would the episode be different if there were another character involved like a reader insert character?

What else can we do before the chat? Besides just discussing the fanfiction possibilities in every episode, we also want to encourage you to create things centered around the episodes we’re discussing and share them with the rest of us. Things like:

Write some meta about some part of the episode. What does this episode show us about one or more of the characters?

Write a fic based around the episode. Share a link to your fic in the discussion and we can talk about it!

Make a playlist that you feel reflects the mood of the episode.

Make some art or a photo collage or edits to go along with the episode.

Format and other things with this may change as we get started and figure out what works best, so keep an eye on our announcement posts for changes. We would like to hear all feedback you have for this project, so let us know what you think! In the meantime, you’ve got about one week to rewatch the first two episodes and think about some of the things we’ll be discussing and be creative. We can’t wait to see what you all bring to the table!

Have questions about this or anything else? Send us an ASK or send a private message to one of the admins below!

Admins:

Michelle - @mrswhozeewhatsis

Marie - @mariekoukie6661

Stacey - @princessmisery666

MJ - @thoughtslikeaminefield

Mana - @manawhaat (Founder and Admin Emeritus)

[creativeroleplay-ads]

SEARCHING FOR CO ADMINS FOR A OC SPN DISCORD RP GROUP. Age Range : 20 yrs old and up (for muns, characters, and faceclaims) Hi! My name is Ari! I am 23 yrs old and I have begun setting up a discord rp group server for an oc supernatural themed rp. I am currently looking for people interested in running the group alongside me as well as aiding in building the rp together (from deepening the plot, building locations, writing the species lore, etc). I am also looking for people who would want to be in said group, even if they don’t wish to be an admin. One does not need to take on an admin role to aid with ideas for the rp, if they want to contribute them as a prospective member! 

I have quite a few things set up already, so mostly all that's left is the fun worldbuilding part and then the actual running of the group! Let me tell you a bit about logistics! I have three servers set up and built already! There is one for ooc stuff (general ooc chat, info about the rp (plot, rules, lore), applying for roles, asking questions, posting plotting calls and starter calls, etc). There is one for in character interactions (text interactions and paragraph rp), and there is one for all the characters within the rp (where all members can post their character info in their own set of character channels for all members to see). I have already added tupperbox to the server, and have many ideas about other immersive character channels (like an instagram feed). 

There will be an option to play either a human oc or a supernatural oc. The species I’ve been focusing on including in the rp are : demons, fae, fallen angels, ghosts, phoenixes, sirens, vampires, werewolves, and witches. Each species will have its own base lore (built up by myself and any other co admins) that is canon throughout all members of the group who are that species (with lots of room for members to add their own unique spin and backstories within it). The lore will include abilities and weaknesses and origin story / history info specific to each species and canon within the rp. I have one species done already as a template for the other species, which I am hoping to build up with someone else, or a few others! 

Now that I’ve explained all the background info, let's get to the good part, my base plot. It needs to be worked up and rewritten, but this is the idea I have so far. - Start of Plot - Long ago there was a small and ancient civilization where supernatural beings of all kinds lived harmoniously amongst one another. It wasn’t a life without some conflict, but it was a civilization that had governing law and order. All beings that resided within had learned to co-exist, living a life that shielded them from the unaccepting and dangerous humans living in the rest of the world. It was common for people that were the same type of supernatural being to stick together, but also not unheard of for different species to mingle and interact. It was a world without the worry of being discovered by society. The creatures living there were unworried about the consequences of ‘normal’ people learning of their existence. 

Then everything changed.

 As the population on earth grew and humans decided to set out and explore the earth, eventually their ancient society was discovered. A war broke out and supernatural being were pitted against humans in a battle that raged on for months. The supernatural beings held their own, dragging the battle on due to their enhanced abilities. However, the humans had the benefit of outnumbering the creatures they fought against and eventually the war started to come to a close. It looked as if the humans were going to rein victorious, and so the remaining supernatural beings did the only thing they could think to do, they surrendered. The human settlers wanted the land that the supernatural were residing in, and the supernatural had lost the fight to protect their home. They fled from the civilization, but this was not the end of things. 

As time passed, many supernatural beings spoke of the place where they used to live free and unbothered by humans. Eventually, the story spread to other places in the world and soon there was a large and rallied group of supernatural creatures that wanted to take the land back. They made up a plan of action, and stormed the human civilization that had taken their home from them. A second war was on the brink of breaking out and the humans knew this time they would be no match for the supernatural, their army was much bigger this time around and they were fuelled by years of anger and resentment. 

In order to ensure their survival, the human in charge of the civilization begged the leader of the supernatural army to sit down and speak with them. Humans and supernatural representatives sat down and eventually made a treaty, agreeing to share the land and co-exist together. They renamed the civilization Nirvana, and set out to make sure that all that lived within it were safe and protected. 

Many years passed and society modernized, moving into the present day. 

Nirvana is still standing, and it is still inhabited by humans and supernatural creatures alike. Many of the supernaturals from the past have since moved on from Nirvana, and all of the humans who lived back then had passed on to the next life. Over time, the story of how the town came to be was lost to the general public. Those that did speak of a time when supernatural beings lived within the town were often called imaginative or crazy. Most of the human population that live there believe the history to be nothing more than folklore passed down from generation to generation. Little do they know that their home is stilled shared by beings of all kinds and mystery and magic loom around every corner. 

- End of Plot - 

If you have made it all the way to the end of this long winded message, I applaud you. If this seems like something you would be interested in, I would love to talk more with you about everything and answer any questions you may have! I would also adore to hear any ideas you have, as I truly am looking to collaborate with someone, or a few people, on this! If you like this post or message me in DMS here I will get back to you! If you’d like to reach me sooner and more effectively, I am more present and reachable more frequently on discord.  My username on discord is ariberry00

Feel free to contact me there!

[findyourrp]

SEARCHING FOR CO ADMINS FOR A OC SPN DISCORD RP GROUP. Age Range : 20 yrs old and up (for muns, characters, and faceclaims) 🎁 : My Chosen Emoji Hi! My name is Ari! I am 23 yrs old and I have begun setting up a discord rp group server for an oc supernatural themed rp. I am currently looking for people interested in running the group alongside me as well as aiding in building the rp together (from deepening the plot, building locations, writing the species lore, etc). I am also looking for people who would want to be in said group, even if they don’t wish to be an admin. One does not need to take on an admin role to aid with ideas for the rp, if they want to contribute them as a prospective member! 

I have quite a few things set up already, so mostly all that's left is the fun worldbuilding part and then the actual running of the group! Let me tell you a bit about logistics! I have three servers set up and built already! There is one for ooc stuff (general ooc chat, info about the rp (plot, rules, lore), applying for roles, asking questions, posting plotting calls and starter calls, etc). There is one for in character interactions (text interactions and paragraph rp), and there is one for all the characters within the rp (where all members can post their character info in their own set of character channels for all members to see). I have already added tupperbox to the server, and have many ideas about other immersive character channels (like an instagram feed). 

There will be an option to play either a human oc or a supernatural oc. The species I’ve been focusing on including in the rp are : demons, fae, fallen angels, ghosts, phoenixes, sirens, vampires, werewolves, and witches. Each species will have its own base lore (built up by myself and any other co admins) that is canon throughout all members of the group who are that species (with lots of room for members to add their own unique spin and backstories within it). The lore will include abilities and weaknesses and origin story / history info specific to each species and canon within the rp. I have one species done already as a template for the other species, which I am hoping to build up with someone else, or a few others! 

Now that I’ve explained all the background info, let's get to the good part, my base plot. It needs to be worked up and rewritten, but this is the idea I have so far. - Start of Plot - Long ago there was a small and ancient civilization where supernatural beings of all kinds lived harmoniously amongst one another. It wasn’t a life without some conflict, but it was a civilization that had governing law and order. All beings that resided within had learned to co-exist, living a life that shielded them from the unaccepting and dangerous humans living in the rest of the world. It was common for people that were the same type of supernatural being to stick together, but also not unheard of for different species to mingle and interact. It was a world without the worry of being discovered by society. The creatures living there were unworried about the consequences of ‘normal’ people learning of their existence. 

Then everything changed.

 As the population on earth grew and humans decided to set out and explore the earth, eventually their ancient society was discovered. A war broke out and supernatural being were pitted against humans in a battle that raged on for months. The supernatural beings held their own, dragging the battle on due to their enhanced abilities. However, the humans had the benefit of outnumbering the creatures they fought against and eventually the war started to come to a close. It looked as if the humans were going to rein victorious, and so the remaining supernatural beings did the only thing they could think to do, they surrendered. The human settlers wanted the land that the supernatural were residing in, and the supernatural had lost the fight to protect their home. They fled from the civilization, but this was not the end of things. 

As time passed, many supernatural beings spoke of the place where they used to live free and unbothered by humans. Eventually, the story spread to other places in the world and soon there was a large and rallied group of supernatural creatures that wanted to take the land back. They made up a plan of action, and stormed the human civilization that had taken their home from them. A second war was on the brink of breaking out and the humans knew this time they would be no match for the supernatural, their army was much bigger this time around and they were fuelled by years of anger and resentment. 

In order to ensure their survival, the human in charge of the civilization begged the leader of the supernatural army to sit down and speak with them. Humans and supernatural representatives sat down and eventually made a treaty, agreeing to share the land and co-exist together. They renamed the civilization Nirvana, and set out to make sure that all that lived within it were safe and protected. 

Many years passed and society modernized, moving into the present day. 

Nirvana is still standing, and it is still inhabited by humans and supernatural creatures alike. Many of the supernaturals from the past have since moved on from Nirvana, and all of the humans who lived back then had passed on to the next life. Over time, the story of how the town came to be was lost to the general public. Those that did speak of a time when supernatural beings lived within the town were often called imaginative or crazy. Most of the human population that live there believe the history to be nothing more than folklore passed down from generation to generation. Little do they know that their home is stilled shared by beings of all kinds and mystery and magic loom around every corner. 

- End of Plot - 

If you have made it all the way to the end of this long winded message, I applaud you. If this seems like something you would be interested in, I would love to talk more with you about everything and answer any questions you may have! I would also adore to hear any ideas you have, as I truly am looking to collaborate with someone, or a few people, on this! If you like this post or message me in DMS here I will get back to you! If you’d like to reach me sooner and more effectively, I am more present and reachable more frequently on discord.  My username on discord is ariberry00

Feel free to contact me there!

ariberry00

[deansmultitudes]

What was the point of prequel? I know jackles is a j*hn apologist but this didn't even redeem j*hn lol like its just a show about some strangers? It's not even a prequel since it happens after finale and does nothing to change show timeline. It just made Dean look infinitely more pathetic. Like dude is dead yet can't stop obsessing over his abusive father. Made me feel worse than spn finale which is a feat in itself.

The point? Money and ego.

Within the show, it set up the au versions of john and mary and this whole au verse for thompson to play around in.

And thus making more money and bigger ego boost for JA lol if this crap for some godforsaken reason gets picked up for season 2.

This is all it comes down to, it has no other value. From now on it'll have nothing to do with Dean or his universe. Thompson said the voiceover will be coming from Dean's journal that he gave them. Funnily spnwinnies expect it to become a show about dean's travels through the multiverse lmao as if he wasn't told by jack he's coming back to heaven, like the show wasn't from the beginning about J&M and like they can't read what thompson is saying lmao.

Other than that, no there was no point. Nothing has changed, the show turned out to be some random john and mary among millions of other john and marys. It's like if he made a show about huntercorp sam and dean except they at least were entertaining AND they did have an impact on the "main" universe and the og sam and dean's lives, somewhat. (hell who knows maybe that's the same verse and the therapy!john will start the huntercorp lol)

Frankly, the world that's all squirrels is higher on the fun list than this one lol.

So basically JA could have just made a show "Anventures of ALT!John and Mary" about this universe where Henry's letter just happened to land in John's hands, since there was no reason whatsoever for it not to land in his hands without Dean's interference. This verse has already had so many differences in it like john and mary not hating each other when they met. There was no fucking need to drag Dean into it. And then they wouldn't have needed the deus ex machina jack (which thompson literally admitted they needed LMAO? If you need a deus ex machina in a 13 episode show, that's not a fucking bragging point for a writer dude, maybe you need a career change).

(I should put a readmore here, sorry it got so long lol)

Like, thompson's talking about this season opening a whole wide supernatural universe... but this universe means nothing. It's not our SPN universe! It's not Dean's! If in the future JA does do that reboot he keeps talking about (and it's actually a reboot not JA the big showbiz guy not knowing the proper terms for his medium) those won't be our Sam and Dean. Funny how the fandom hates the concept of AW!Bobby and AW!Charlie but this crap they're eating up like it's chocolate not a turd (some of them that is). Wanna bet that if they reboot it into young sam and dean show, JA will play john? You know, the way Bill Murray played the skeptic guy in Ghostbusters 2016.

Pathetically, this is one of the least bad solutions, because if ja actually had dean mess with his own timeline, he would have literally entirely erased Dean's existence, and all the events of the "mothership". Which, you know, with his ego he actually might have. So I guess we should count our blessings.

Which doesn't change a fact that he turned dean into an obsessed stalker. Just like you put it: a pathetic, dead dude who can't stop obsessing over his abusive father. That is NOT where Dean was mentally at the end of SPN. That is not where he had been for years before that. It's sad and disgusting and it's not who my Dean was. At least with the 40years long drive you could tell yourself the heaven timey-wimey made it last a few hours not years. Like this, you know he's purposefully following john after john after john after john channeling britney's Born to make you happy.

And by the way since the akrida was unleashed by chuck after he failed then Dean's line of "[ultimate killer] that's not who I am" aka one of the most important lines of the show was a mistake. He should have remained a killer, dad's little soldier. And well, look, he did. Almost getting kicked out of heaven (into where? hell? the empty? oh em gee d*stiel empty reunion and existence foreva and eva in the nothingness?) to make john happy.

And yeah lol, he didn't redeem John. But he's given this version of him everything Dean can never have (including Dean's favorite song that cost the whole TW budget lol). And given how weird an attitude this show and thompson have about alternate universes (like Dean was looking for his family in the alternate universes HOW?? What was he gonna pop up to a random version of X characters and be like hi! I'm Dean, you're my family now????????? And the whole giving john and mary a happy ending, like, it means nothing for Dean's world or himself. His parents still were through shit and are still terrible parents. And also opening spn universe, which this isn't? Like, I don't get what their weird view on alternate universes is lol?) maybe they do think it's redeeming.

He did however succeed at blorboification of John. Now john has fangirls that aren't the few weird john apologists who'd you see in passing once in a blue moon. Now it's their boy john, their little blorbo, their poor little meow meow and boyfriend goals.

I'm so sorry you feel that way :( It's so fucking insidious for JA to do this. But we've known for two years (heck, more with his earlier comments about how "awesome" and "satifying" spn finale would be) that he doesn't give a shit about how miserably Dean's life ended. He fucking loved it. He keeps praising it every chance he gets. The only reason he had a problem with accepting dean's death (for one week lol) after he found out is that he thought he would not be able to get back to him and make more money off him. He didn't actually care that Dean didn't get to live, just that he thought he couldn't play him anymore. Hell even when he said Dean's biggest mistake was landing on the rebar it was bc if he didn't there'd be 6 more seasons! or whatever (as if he wasn't the one who wanted to end the show. Does he think a tv series can just end then resume at his personal whim??) For him it wasn't because Dean died young and didn't get to live the life he fought for. It was about himself. And he's shown it multiple times too! Every time since he's made Dean's birthday all about himself. Last year with *his own pictures* on insta and talking about himself (young and brooding/older and happier??? That's not a description of Dean) and this year with that fucking cringe birthday party for J*nsen with J*nsen blowing out the candles. They literally sang happy birthday to J*nsen on Dean's birthday. So fucked up.

Anyway, for me this episode feels like JA stabbed my barely scabbed-over finale wound with a butter knife, opened it up and salted it. And the fact now the people who were hurting about Dean's death too, now are fucking rejoicing same way S/am girls have been since the finale adds even more insult to the injury. Like thanks, I've heard enough over those 2+ years how I'm an idiot for not understanding the show because I should be totally happy that Dean is dead, and now to hear the same from what I thought was the same side of the fence? Never thought I'd see the day where who I thought was dean girls reiterate b*bros' words because they ate up JA's b*bro agenda.

For what it's worth, this show isn't SPN canon, it's a separate show that has barely any connection to SPN. So probably best course of action is to refuse to accept it as anything other than bad fanfiction that got unfortunately televized. And I hate that due to the spn finale being what it was, there is no comfort there to go back to, but I guess we've managed to live with that for over two years now, we gotta keep going and hope that this failure gets cancelled and that no one ever picks up any more of ja's shit ideas.

We really didn't appreciate how the SPN writers would ignore JA's ideas for Dean and file them away as "actor bullshit" lol

Oh and remember, in about 35 years this earth will get fried and taken over by lucifer or michael like the AW because if these J&M don't raise Sam and Dean to be the hunters who will save the world (IF they're even born at all and are the same people), there will be no one to save it from the apocalypse that is still happening whether they shoot Azazel or not, since he was a small part of the plan that's in motion anyway. The very fact that J&M exist in this verse is because of the millenia of matchmaking programme :)

[shallowseeker]

I guess I'm more Empty-coded than I thought. 'Cause when I can't sleep, I boo and I hiss, and ultimately I blame Castiel. :D

After Jack whispers, "Don't let me hurt you," we're thrown back into a united TFW, not giving into their specific flavors of Despair.

And ooof, do we FEEL Rowena's absence here. :(

DEAN (softly): Hey, hey, we're not giving up on you, okay? Um magic, magic. One of Rowena's spells? (SAM looks on helplessly) DEAN (screaming, emotional): Come on, we gotta do something!

Enter, Billie. Cas's plea: "You led Jack through his trials. You know what's happening to him. You can stop this. Please."

Billie, unlike Chuck in season 11, cannot defuse this bomb.

She blips Jack away where he can detonate without killing himself or the people around him. (Kind of like the equivalent of screaming into a pillow, or hitting someone with mitts on, maybe.)

DEAN: "What'd you do? What did you do?"

Ah. Poetic. Dean, blaming Death for the consequences he helped create. It's so tragic! It hurrtsss. Also, oh the Kelly's-death-callback! What did you do, WHAT DID YOU DO?

///

Even as he is exploding, he's apologizing to The Shadow: "I'm sorry."

And then Jack splits. The timing of the scream, the explosion, and the vortex timecard is...something.

ADAM: You'll collapse into a living black hole for divine energy. One nothing can escape— not the darkness, not God himself. But once it starts... you can't stop it.

Because like with John, the specific and unique fatherly failings of TFW cannot be undone!

We look all the way back to Henry, to his lamentation: "If I could just go back, stop all this from happening." And Cas's lamentation: "If I could go back and just--" Even John: "I never wanted this for you boys. I wanted Dean to have a home, for Sam to go to school."

I think too about Bobby from 2x01:

SAM: No. Dean would kill me if we did that. When he gets better he's gonna want to fix this. BOBBY: There's nothing to fix. The frame's a pretzel, and the engine's ruined. There's barely any parts worth salvaging." SAM: Listen to me, Bobby. If there's only one working part, that's enough.

There's this...inherent tension in SPN that I quite like. It's as Rowena laments. That she missed her chance to fix things with Fergus. She wasted her second chance, even.

She took on death as Dean did, screaming and thrashing and crying out.

There is indeed some stuff can never be truly fixed, and then you have the "fixers" like TFW who keep on trying. To rebuild around the ruins. As in Gimmer Shelter, "A saint is a sinner who keeps trying." There is something uplifting in that.

The hope versus the acceptance is a push-pull that just...really hits sometimes. I dig it!

////

Anyway, back to TFW reacting to Jack's death, cause it's so sweet and delicious and sad to watch them get faced with their failings:

Dean's Revenge narrative? Cas's Big Cosmic God destiny? Sam's sacrificial Chosen One narrative? It all leads here.

CAS: "Is he dead?" BILLIE: "Maybe."

Aside/// Again, this makes me think of GABRIEL from Changing Channels. Gabriel says (of CAS) "He'll live...maybe."

Like Sam broke free of his analysis-paralysis, now Dean is broken out of his. Instead of "letting death happen," he's moving against it.

A father's duty; work and family and protection and--

Some things I keep thinking about:

And also:

It's too big. It's too big for everyone. These expectations. Work, provide stability, provide food/water/shelter, protect, preparation, take on the world, uphold the world.

It's too big for Dean. He's not strong enough.

Cas isn't strong enough.

But Cas's expectations got heavier and heavier. He was supposed to succeed where Henry failed. Where John failed. Kelly chose him. Dean chose him.

Cas was supposed to protect them, to protect Mary. And--

When Cas became a Father, he--

No one real can escape letting you down.

[autisticandroids]

here is that “the world of supernatural is tiny” post i’ve been promising

the thing about supernatural, the thing at the core of a lot of our collective frustrations with supernatural, stuff like side character culls, what-if-there-was-an-even-bigger-gunism, the lack of institutions and governments and interpersonal politics, the nonsense worldbuilding, the fossilization of the brothers’ relationship, all of that, is that the world of supernatural is incredibly small. like it really is just... two brothers against the rest of the world, or eventually team free will against the rest of the world. 

and this is in every aspect of it.  this is why the side characters must be culled, obviously, and not just culled: it’s why the side characters never ever get the focus they should, why an episode told from bobby’s point of view is as weird and unique as the fucking episode told from the car’s point of view, why the side characters almost never become meaningfully part of the narrative. and the culling/squashing of the side characters is why the brothers can never develop: the only meaningful relationship they’re allowed to have long enough for it to grow and change is with each other, and eveeeeentually cas, and eventually eventually jack, but mostly just each other. if they were allowed to have more meaningful relationships with the outside world, they wouldn’t have to turn to each other for everything and ultimately fail, or take out all of their problems on each other.

this is why the solution to the problem of the season is always an even bigger gun: it can’t be building a bigger army, nor can it be diplomacy, because both of those require opening the world slightly to outsiders. it needs to be a weapon wieldable by a single person that they can use to destroy the enemy, or, at best, quid pro quo a deal made with one very powerful ally who can singlehandedly destroy the enemy.

this is why there are no governments or institutions, and no truly ambiguous parties: every powerful force is, in the end, a single person, or an organization with a single all-powerful charismatic leader. there are no organizations with organizational interpersonal politics. like, do we know the names of any of crowley’s underlings’ names? NO! why the fuck don’t we, he’s supposed to be the king of bureaucrats, mr. organizational. but nope! he’s just a despot like everyone else. do we know any of naomi’s underlings’ names before she fakes her death? raphael’s in season six? abaddon’s? fucking...... who else, every other big bad i can think of is just crowley. i digress. anyway in the end it’s always just one big scary guy with a big scary power, and sometimes that power is “an army” but that’s just. a superpower. it’s exactly like having a big raygun.

and like this is one of the reasons why the worldbuilding on spn is so nonsensical like. on top of the normal bad tv scifi reasons. it’s because nothing on spn exists in a society, everything exists in atomized isolation because the world can only include one thing which isn’t the winchesters at a time. there is no such thing as a wider world on spn.

and like here’s the thing. here’s the thing. there are good things about spn’s tiny, closed world. in particular, it allows really a lot of tight character focus on the protagonists and their closest relationship(s). like, if the world of supernatural was bigger from the start, would dean winchester still be the most compelling, most tragic character on television to me? i don’t think so. he wouldn’t have the depth.

but the thing is, you can have both. supernatural could have started in a tiny, closed world which slowly opened and blossomed to include both a larger universe and an ensemble cast. it almost did, but then it lost its way.

like, the first two seasons of spn are an intensely personal story, all about a family and its trauma. and all about the brothers, and their father. then the third season is about the fallout from the conclusion of that story, still personal, still all about the brothers. 

but then season four comes along. the story is no longer quite so personal. now it’s about saving the world. it’s about heaven and hell. and along with that, the cast opens up, too. ruby and cas become main-ish characters. this is exactly the right direction to be going in, a natural progression towards a bigger world and a larger cast. bobby, too, becomes a main-ish character, though he was already headed there in s3, and he doesn’t get the screentime of ruby or cas.

then, season five: we start to wobble. the world continues opening up: we’re still at a global scale, but now the supernatural is having an effect on wider society. in season four, we were preventing the apocalypse, but no one was seeing it but us, and maybe a few small towns. now there are demon omens on the news. but the cast is stuck again. ruby is dead. bobby does have a slightly increasing role, which is good. cas is there, but he’s also less of a character and more of a useful tool. and no one new is added. in fact, two of the people who it would be most natural to add to the cast - ellen and jo - are killed off for shock value. 

but then we really go down hill in six and especially seven. the world continues to open: six is about the fallout of five, a concept which i love! you can’t have an institutional war machine like heaven thwarted in its billion year purpose without a bit of fallout. conceptually, that’s wonderful! that’s why i have a good season six au. but by execution, it’s a mess, because the world of supernatural is actively shrinking again. in order to do the premise of season six well, your world needs to have a society in it, and season six can’t manage that. like, it should have been an exploration of the supernatural world with a sociological bent; a look at how averting the apocalypse, eve, social unrest in heaven, affected the paranormal parasocieties of spn. but it couldn’t manage that.

worse, the cast is also shrinking. cas isn’t around much anymore, lisa is there but she doesn’t really get to be a person, more just the idea of a wife, and side characters are dropping like flies. they killed off rufus for no reason!

then in seven it’s even worse! because the world is still opening! the supernatural world is finally crashing into ordinary society in earnest. godstiel killed homophobic pastors! he etched his own face in stained glass! he actively went around interfering in normal society! and then the leviathans came along and totally broke down the supernatural/normal distinction. they use ordinary societal channels to acquire their power! they’re politicians and corporate executives! they put their poison in the corn syrup! 

but in terms of felt sense it’s closing. the winchesters are not living in the society that’s being attacked, they are totally outside it, alone in the world. isolated. and the leviathans are still defeated by shooting their leader with an even bigger gun!

and here’s the thing: this still could have eventually built towards something, a larger universe for supernatural. with sera gamble and her side character murderboner out, season eight could have dealt with the fallout from seven in a way that kept the universe big and built the cast back up. instead, jeremy carver gave us kevin tran only to kill him a season and a half later, and decided to just completely drop all of sera gamble’s new worldbuilding, which in the case of season six is kind of understandable, since she made a total hash of heaven, but in the case of the leviathans is deeply, deeply frustrating. like, where was the fallout from that! did it change society at all? the answer, it appears, is no.

after this, the world of supernatural is fairly static. it’s neither opening nor closing. heaven and hell are constant forces, occasionally there are other threats, but everything stays basically the same in the carver era, and the dabb era too even though dabb made a few strides towards increasing the size of the cast with mary and jack.

but yeah. basically the universe of supernatural is tiny, and that’s why it’s frustrating. once again we come back to the basic problem of supernatural being that it simply is not star trek.

[deanwinchesterphobic]

what would you say its the more wincest heavy episode? we should watch it together

This is a suprisingly difficult question to answer... Most of the wincest interactions happen with their longing looks in the car or when people mistake them as dating, and there aren't many episodes that have more of that than usual. There are of course the episodes were it is heavily eluded to by other characters discussing how painfully attached the brothers are to each other.

"Changing Channels" has a nice wincest-y bit in it

"fanfiction" includes some nods to wincest although it is done via actors who are not the two men in question. They also have an ending scene that feels very wincest-y

"the monster at the end of this book" is when they find out wincest is a thing people ship

"sympathy for the devil" includes Lucifer reading out erotic wincest fanfic

"playthings" includes someone mistaking them for lovers

"the real Ghostbusters" includes two gay characters that cosplay as Sam and Dean

There are still many other episodes with them staring into each other's eyes, or having touches that linger for a wee bit too long, it's impossible to condense the amount of interactions these two have with each other honestly.

I think though that "blood brothers" has to take the cake. It's a good episode overall, but the interaction between the brothers has a tension just unlike the rest. It's a silent argument of sorts that turns into a more vocal one as it goes on. They really do read as lovers. It does not focus only on there relationship, it in fact focuses heavily on the relationship between Dean and Benny, but the way Sam doesn't like Benny sure does scream of jealousy. We don't see much of the brothers hunting without each other, so seeing Dean run off with Benny and leaving same behind has a similarity to cheating in a way, and the desperate way Sam struggles to contact Dean who is ignoring him as if he knows he's doing something wrong, something that could break trust... It is juicy. I think it's one of the better episodes when it comes both to exploring supernatural lore as well as the complexities of their relationship, again, despite it not having too much of a focus on Sam and Dean themselves.

"a very supernatural Christmas" is also very wincesty to me

The episodes with Adam and the archangels are also very "Dean and Sam love each other" vibes

Season one personally feels like the most wincest season, as does season four and the beginning of season five.

All the episodes that focus on their relationships with their girlfriends also give wincest... They hate when the other starts dating someone.

Sorry this is so very not conclusive. But all the wincest is just so, everywhere? And also very heavily emphasized in their softer smaller moments, and not so much in big ways or in mass repition. I do however think it would be fun to watch an spn episode with you.

[bisexualvampires]

I'm still thinking about sunnynatural and how of course the gang would make destiel canon for the reasons we discussed, but also! how about sunny existing as a show in the spn universe. It starts in 2005 and dean watches it whenever it happens to be on in motel rooms. Life is hunting, killing, suffering, but every now and again there's silly bad characters and it makes him laugh. Anyway he has a big crush on mac bc of course he does, and it gets to the ep where mac comes out and dean switches it off after and never watches the show again. Because he's jealous and bitterly angry - mac made it look so easy after years of denial to just come right out and say it. He made it look so easy to hit your 40s and still have time to be you. And it makes dean feel sick and sad in the pit of his stomach. But most of all it hurts dean because he always felt a connection to him in his lowest moments - but if a bad person like mac can be out, deserves to be out, and dean still can't be - then how much worse must he be?

“He made it look so easy to hit your 40’s and still have time to be you.” i… who gave you the right??

but yes! it’s fine to have a crush on mac - hard not to with that dark messy hair and those puppy dog eyes. besides, mac isn’t real. it’s fine. it’s fine. there’s just something about him that makes dean think he’s got that same thing going on inside him that dean himself is so afraid of. but the show would never go there - they’ll joke about it and bait it but it’s played for laughs. it comes close sometimes to saying this thing out loud for real, and it has dean’s heart beating too fast and he’s squeezing his sweating palms on his knees because there’s no way, there’s no way. because mac always takes it back, and every time dean feels this cocktail of relief and disappointment afterward. but then it happens. and he can’t watch anymore, can’t even laugh along, because he feels like the butt of the joke now. this god awful fictional dude did something dean could never do. so he’ll change the channel any time it’s on and he’ll never see how good After can be. how sometimes doing the scary thing doesn’t always end in danger and loss. he watched that show for 12 years and now it’s just one more thing he can’t have. one less piece of happiness that stands on the other side of bravery he just doesn’t have

[spnfanficpond]

In the past, we have always focused on writers, with the mission to connect newbie writers with more experienced writers and elevate everyone's writing in the process. Recently, we have been trying to attract readers as followers of the blog because without readers, writers are simply screaming into the void. We instituted the tagging system on fic reblogs, and started reblogging fics by non-members, so readers could find lots of fics they want to read easily. If we added a member tier for readers, called Turtles, the biggest change would be access to the discord server. We would keep some channels writers-only to keep a safe space for writers to brainstorm ideas and ask for writing help. All that being said, we want to hear what YOU think, whether you are a writer or a reader or both!

Writers: How do you feel about having Readers in the discord server with you? If it's okay with you, vote YES!

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[the-green-maiden]

Supernatural Fair Fight Livestream Recap with timestamps

(based off of the notes I took while watching live. any errors are mine and not the fault of the cast or abrams)

21:01 Panel Starts. Misha introduces panel- Stacey Abrams, Jensen Ackles, Jared Padelecki, Erik Kripke, Berto the ASL interpreter.

21:02 Stacey Abrams talks about how she got into SPN. Talks about running for governor(?) in California(?), having trouble gathering support/campaign funds. On a particularly bad day, ends up watching SPN in her hotel room. Loves it, ends up watching the whole show after this. Quotes “Even if it’s hard we can’t stop” and “who else is going to do this” and talks about keeping going.

21:05 Kripke: “Wow”

Ackles: “That’s one of the most beautiful interpretations of what we do, how we tell the story.”

21:06 Kripke: “Grateful we could provide inspiration” 

21:07 JarPad: *reiterates above* joke about how “Kripke’s writing is questionable at best.”

21:08 Misha: “The reason we tell stories is to inspire people” creates an allegory about the ‘invisible enemy’ of voter suppression with the invisible enemy trope common in storytelling. “As we made the show, we were taking inspiration from [Abrams]”

21:09 Kripke asks Abrams to tell more about Fair Fight

21:09 Abrams talks about a secretary of state(?) [whose name I didn’t catch but who JPad refers to as ‘Lucifer”] who was in charge of voter registries in Georgia who wrongfully removed thousands of voters from lists, closed essential polling locations, and prevented people from voting, which disproportionately impacted POC and youth voters, and led to 8+ hour wait times in remaining locations. Abrams tells of how her and FF acted to fix this and change the whole system for the better. “If this becomes about politicians, no one is going to care, but when it becomes about people’s [list of basic rights and essential services]...” “...Patriotic belief that democracy means that if you’re eligible to vote, you get to be heard. Fair Fight is committed to ensuring that every voter in the US has the right to vote, and we are pretty good at it.”

21:16 Misha voices concerns about Trump’s attempts to make the 2020 vote counts seem unreliable.

21:17 Abrams gives an in-depth history of voter suppression in the US, committed by both parties at various times, including restrictions on mail-in votes, ID laws, and something about the voting rights act.

21:18 A bunch more panelists join in, including Jake Abel, Felicia Day, and a number of other SPN cast members.

21:19 Abrams says that in Texas a gun license is a valid id to vote, but a college id is not. “Everyone should get to participate, not just the chosen.” Mentions that she has not seen the final 3 episodes yet, request no spoilers until she logs out.

21:22 Kripke thanks Abrams for her political work.

21:22 Felicia Day says she was very excited to meet Abrams at Dragon Con.

21:33 Misha and Kripke try to move panel along to comply with Abrams limited time availability.

21:24 Rachel Miner “We all admire you [Abrams], you’re our hero.”

21:25 JPad gives a long speech thanking Abrams that was too fast to write down verbatim. “It’s important that everyone have their own voice” says it’s an honor to meet Abrams.

21:26 Bob Singer asks a question about Purdue(?) not showing up to a debate.

21:27 Abrams gives a detailed answer about swing states, swing voters, the lack of swing voters in Georgia, and the relatively small impact that Purdue(?) missing a debate would have on his numbers. Long speech about mail-in voting.

21:29 Sebastian Roche asks a question about run-off votes. Abrams answers.

21:30 Rachel Miner asks a question about voter registration descrimination against people w foreign names.

21:31 Abrams talks about how this has happened and what Fair Fight is doing to combat it, and how Fair Fight’s legal actions have managed to significantly reduce the amount of mail-in ballots thrown out for having difficult to understand names on them.

21:33 Shoshanna Stern thanks Abrams for her efforts in making voting more disability accessible.

21:34 Abrams answers, gives more info on the subject and the importance of having accessible voting locations.

21:36 Jim Beaver says it’s wonderful to be able to talk to Abrams, etc.

21:37 Abrams realizes her time has just about run out, and says thank yous and good byes. Mentions that tomorrow is her birthday. Multiple members of the cast wish her a happy birthday. More goodbyes from everyone, and thank yous to and from Abrams. Abrams exits call.

21:39 Kripke and Misha encourage people to donate to FF

21:41 Misha and Jensen rib each other, joke about an open bar.

21:41 Misha “Now we’re just going to waste your time for half an hour now that she’s gone”

21:42 Curtis Armstrong tells a short story about his mother, who was a voter activist in Detroit and Switzerland, and how nice it was to see Abrams talk.

21:43 Trivia intro. Multiple jokes made at the same time about state capitals.

21:44 Jim Beaver “When my kid was 7, I asked her the capital of Vermont and she said V”

21:44 Kripke asks semi-serious question about what JPad wore as protection in the ball-crusher Japanese game show scene in Changing Channels.

21:45 JPad “A thimble. A mini-thimble. No, a cup.” says something else about the cup.

21:46 Ackles “Our special effects team likes to go above and beyond”

21:46 JPad comments about real fear in that scene

21:46 Misha tries to get trivia back on track. “Without powers, what does Dean say Cas is?”

------[Baby in a trenchcoat]

“Other name of the Impala?”

Julie McNiven guesses “A special place”. Someone calls out “baby”

-----[Metallicar]

“Name of Sam and Jess’s friend who goes with them to the bar in the pilot?”

Even JPad, who was in the scene, does not know. Kripke comments that it was named after an irl friend of his from Tiuanna, named LUIS.

“5 works Kripke ripped off for SPN?”

Everyone guessing at once, including: Animal House, On The Road, Good Omens, Constantine, Star Wars, and several others.

“What herpes medication does Sam have to do a commercial for?”

[Herpexia]

21:52 JPad and Julie rib each other about herpes meds, and argue whether the term is prescription or subscription for medication. One of them brings up the example of having a subscription to dog food.

21:52 Jake Abel “What if your dog has herpes?”

Misha “I only hope that Stacey Abrams has tuned in”

Seb makes another joke about state capitals, then asks JPad the capital of Albania.

Jared has no idea, guesses ‘new albania’

Seb “Tirana” talks about having lived on a boat, presumably near Albania.

Rob Benedict: “Thanks for tuning in”

Bob Singer asks who knows the story of Seb getting a massage at VAncouver airport.

Jared (paraphrased) “We all fly through Vancouver airport a lot. Just past security there’s a massage place [with the chairs where you face the floor].” One day JPad and Ackles went through security and saw Seb getting a massage. They go over, convince the masseuse [who knows them all at this point] to let JPad take over. Seb does not notice, despite the fact that the masseuse is a small woman and JPad is holding his hands weird to try to make them smaller. JPad says he put his hands down Seb’s back and up his shirt, and Seb still did not notice, just making a noise and saying ‘very nice’. JPad gets as far as groping Seb’s ass before Seb notices anything is up. This is still the middle of a busy airport.

21:58 Seb “It was strangely sensual. Thank you, Robert, for bringing that up.” “I was perturbed for the whole flight back.”

Ackles “Another highbrow story”

Seb “It’s really fun being on that set. It really is” Claims they are also serious sometimes, to which there is laughter in response.

Ackles “It going to be like that on The Boys, Krip?”

Kripke “No massages to completion”

Seb “Wait there was no completion”

Krip “Saw photos of [Ackles’s] supersuit today”

Multiple jokes from several people about Ackle costume for The Boys being assless, crotchless, entirely made of paint, and cowboy-themed.

22:01 Misha “time for about 5 minutes of outtakes”

Someone jokes about adding ‘give Seb a massage’ as a donation tier.

Misha thanks the fans, says he loves and misses all the cast. Asks Rob B to sing.

22:02 Rob B “tune into my radio show” [for singing]

22:03 Misha announced that $225,000 has been raised for charity so far in the stream.

More thank yous from everyone to everyone, including the zoom team.

22:04 Seb “Vote out Mitch McConnel:

Jensen “Such as British accent to tell us who to vote for”

Seb “I’m half French half Scottish”

Jensen and Seb joke about scottish and french alcohols, and how they can’t be mixed.

22:05 Kripke thanks the fans for 15 years. Everyone else joins in on thanking fans for 15 years.

Jake Abel “There was a big gap in there for me somewhere”

Seb asks if Jake was in the first season.

22:06 Jake “3rd, 5, and 15”

Seb gives long thank you speech.

Jensen talks about how the cast is sticking together “This group is not being dispersed”...”I take comfort in knowing this” jokes that they’re stuck together whether they like it or not.

Misha “Like herpes”

Felicia “Genital or otherwise”

22:07 gag reel begins, including Misha’s ‘on-camera finger, Jensen falling off a chair “furniture could use some work”, Jensen failing to pick a lock for a very long time and Jared asking ‘Cas” to open it, Jensen saying ‘hail misha’ instead of ‘hail mary’, Misha failing to keep a straight face while looking at Alex Calvert, Jensen eating something too hot(?), and more that someone has probably already uploaded in full anyway.

21:13 stream ends.

[im-like-if-a-girl]

*THE* mean-girl-dean-girl's Supernatural reboot MEGAPOST!

I'm gonna stick a little "keeping reading" here because hoooooo boy, this is a very long post.

Let's start with

Plot

Season 1

Dean kills John while they are out on a hunt in a crime of passion, but Dean doesn't remember because he blacked out. Cue Dean going to Stanford to get Sam and tell him "Dad's on a hunting trip... and he hasn't been home in a couple days."

The audience doesn't know what happened to John, but slowly figures it out with Dean and Sam as Dean slowly remembers what happened that night.

The entire first season, the boys are following the trail John left and fighting monsters as well. They find out Dean was with John, Sam realizes Dean has an unreliable memory, they have heart to hearts about their childhood and the fire, they find John's body, "how could you kill Dad?" but maybe Dean didn't kill dad, whooaaaaaa, misdirection.

It was actually good ole yeller eyes (Azazel) and he made it look like Dean killed John.

Okay, now let's move on to the first episode

Not sure how the opening would work, I would like the story of the fire to be revealed over the course of the first season, but maybe the opening scene could be a little bit of an establishing character relationships and backstory, idk, I haven't thought that far yet.

I'm thinking maybe it's like, Dean gets back to a motel room covered in blood and he listens to a voicemail on his phone from John saying he was on a hunt or something, I don't really know lol.

HOWEVER

I do know that after the intro rolls, we get a scene of Sam waking up to his alarm and "Nine to Five" by Dolly Parton starts playing.

Y'all know where this is going.

Cue a montage of Sam's normal Stanford college life (him sitting through lectures, walking through the campus with friends) spliced with scenes of Dean absolutely slaughtering a nest of vampires (or some other monsters, whatever works best.)

But

Now onto

Characters!!! (And descriptions)

Dean Winchester

Some lovely person on this site made edits of Dean with platinum blond hair and it made me feel some kind of way so we're doing that, homie's gonna have platinum blond hair

Side note about the hair, later when the brothers are running from the FBI he dyes it a dirty blond/light brown (insert jackles hair color controversy here) as a disguise.

He also gets tattoos because we were robbed.

Speaking of tattoos, concept: when Dean comes back from Hell, all of his tattoos are gone. His body is a clean slate, devoid of tattoos, scars, etc. So he gets his tattoos done all over again, which he doesn't mind because he made some bad, drunk tattoo decisions in his youth.

(And before you ask, yes, he does get one for Cas, either a bee or Cas's name in enochian, something cute.)

Dean goes to therapy after Sam gets sent to the Cage.

It's actually court mandated because he got in trouble, lol, he would never go to therapy on his own.

Along with the hair, Dean gets to be the grade A twunk we all know he is.

Sam Winchester

His hair gets longer in every scene he's in

No jk, but imagine

King of Microaggressions

Sam starts off like the sweetheart he is in season 1 but in later seasons he starts enjoying killing a little too much...

It's that demon blood, ba-by!!!

He brings up issues of morality to Dean, i.e. killing monsters who aren't hurting anyone. (Yes I know this is contradictory to my previous statement, but these two facets of Sam can and will coexist.)

Sam and Jess's relationship is explored further, meaning we'll need to start with a different inciting incident, but that's fine, I think everyone can agree fridgings are *(thumbs down)*

Sam doesn't truly know what happened the night of the fire until later, and then he understands why Dean is so protective of him.

Jess

She gets to live beyond the first episode

She is also trans

No, I don't feel like I have to explain myself and I won't 💜

She urges Sam to join Dean in a search for their brother, kind of gets pulled into the hunter lifestyle by association lol.

She dies on a rusty nail after fighting vampires on a routine hunt with Sam

No jk!!!

But imagine....

She's amazing and I love her and Lucifer also uses her as leverage against Sam and possesses her because I think that'd be cool.

She supports Sam 100% and also she and Dean are buddies, pals if you will.

She meets Cas Thee El and immediately she Knows, that is a homosexual.

She dies still so that we can have a Saileen Endgame but she's not dying the first episode or in a fridging. Not on my watch.

Castiel

He gets to keep his raw, light-fixture-exploding power.

I want more of that "I pulled you out of hell, I can throw you back in" energy except over dumb shit like Dean not cleaning up after himself.

He looks like a Dilf in every scene he's in, yeah, that's right, dilf with a capital D for *(GUNSHOTS)* *(gets sent to horny jail)*

Claire

She gets pink hair

And more time with Cas

And maybe a nose piercing

Feel like she should be able to kill a couple angels onscreen, punch a couple homophobes

She gets to meet Jack and teaches him swears and fun slang words.

She deserves it.

Jack

I says "that's my baby and I'm proud."

Jack starts off as a baby, but like Amara he grows up super quickly.

Like, baby to 11 year old in a couple days or less.

This is because Jack's emotional age on the show is on par with that of a 5th grader.

It's at this point when he's a young kid that he runs away from the Bunker and shenanigans ensue.

It's also at this point that Dean threatens to k*ll him.

(Still not sure if I want that in my Supernatural (threatened infanticide? In my Supernatural? It's more likely than you think) but we'll see. We'll see.)

Throughout a majority of season 13, Jack is like an 11 y.o. kid

Season 14 he's like a 16 y.o. teenager

Season 15 he's 21, you get the picture.

Listen, I love Alex Calvert a lot. He's great.

But Jack is a child and should be a child.

Kelly Kline

Kelly, baby, stay right where you are, you're perfect.

Eileen

SHE DOESN'T DIE

SHE GETS TO BE IN THE FINALE BECAUSE SHE'S AMAZING AND I LOVE HER.

BLURRY WIFE WHO? I ONLY KNOW SAILEEN ENDGAME!

She teaches Claire and Jack swears in sign-language. Castiel is not impressed.

John

J*hn W*nchester stans, DNI.

He's dead.

We only see him in flashbacks and only sometimes hear his voice in voice overs.

He's not "down the road" from Dean in Heaven, in fact he instead gets to wander around in some Purgatory like Hell for the rest of his time :)

People who get to say "fuck" on the show:

Cas (but only Once)

Jody

Bobby

Now onto other things

I want more of

Ghostfacers

(they need more screentime because I love them)

Dean/Benny

We know they had a thing.

They definitely had a thing.

Demon Dean

Again, I feel like more should've been done with this. All that build up for what, 2 episodes? was not utilized well at all.

Dean's Bisexuality

Straight Dean truthers DNI, my Supernatural is a show about love and being true to yourself

You think Supernatural is a show about 2 straight brothers fighting monsters?

Naw bitch, this is a show about the Gay Experience

He will get to have relations with men on this show.

Of course, only after John dies does he, y'know, display it. Maybe he kisses Cas on his dad's grave just to fuck John over, make him roll in grave.

We all agree John would be/is a homophobe piece of shit, right?

Okay, glad we're on the same page.

Dads

3 men and a baby with Jack is what I'm saying.

I love it when the Trio are father-figures to younger troubled characters they see themselves in, even better if it's like reluctant-but-loving father figure, oh, that trope gets me every time :'^)

Dadstiel and DadDean are my favorites, but I like it when Sam plays "Uncle Sam" to kids too lol.

"Fellas, is it gay to want a tight knit family with your husband, his son, his vessel's daughter, your brother, his wife, your cop mother figure and her wife and their adopted daughters? Asking for a friend."

Garth

Biggest flaw of Supernatural was underutilizing Garth.

I will never not be bitter that Garth was only in like, 7 episodes out of the whole 15 season series.

Every episode with Garth gets immediately 5 times better.

I love Garth.

Follow ups on characters who had entire episodes featured around them and then just... vanished???

This is mostly about Jesse, the magic kid whose imagination ruled an entire town like, his daddy was a demon and nothing came of that kid??? Only one episode about him?? No follow up???

KID CAN MANIPULATE REALITY AND WE'RE NOT GONNA GET A FOLLOW UP ON THAT?????

Uh, there was that one episode with Ennis the guy whose girlfriend was killed by a monster? I think?? Who we never see again, that was weird.

Tamara from season 3, episode 1.

And of course-

Cassie

She was so cool, and then we never saw her again :////

She gets to be a badass.

Religious imagery

As a former Catholic school student who has become for the most part, disillusioned with religion, religious imagery in TV shows like Supernatural make my brain go "brrrrrr."

Fun episodes!!!

Like, after season 6 or so, there's a drop in funny episodes

I'm talking Changing Channels, The French Mistake type stuff. (Scoobynatural is an outlier and should not be counted.)

So anyway

In my version we would have more fun episodes

I'm thinking

GENDER-SWAP EPISODE, BABY!!

(why they didn't do that in the original, we'll never know.)

An episode where Dean gets to wear eyeliner

That's it, end of post.

I want less

Racism

Yeah I feel like this is self explanatory, nearly every reoccurring character in SPN is white, and black side characters normally die in the episode they first appear in, or they'll be featured as a villain (Uriel, Raphael, Billie, etc)

Also there's a lot of... uh... asian fetishism featured in the show (what with "Busty Asian Beauties) that's really gross, also Kevin was a bit of a stereotype...

Also also it's super yucky how they kill the gods from other religions like???? Uh??? That's super disrespectful, let's not do that????

I know Supernatural is like, inherently racist because monsters are a separate race that are seen as some dangerous "other" that must be eradicated by hunters in a form of genocide-

Okay we won't get into that but

Still

Stop killing all your POC

Fridgings/Unecessary murders of female characters

I know Supernatural starts with a fridging, so this will be a hard thing to remedy, but

One death that really pissed me off was the death of Charlie

Yeah, that was pointless and we're not doing that. Charlie gets to live and be an awesome aunt to Jack.

And also Claire

Charlie Bradbury Superiority

Charlie and Garth get to meet because they're nerd/geek solidarity.

British Men of Letters

I fucking hate these guys

They're "litcherally" the worst.

The worst part is that the actors they have playing the British AREN'T. EVEN. BRITISH.

And you can tell

Uh, and that's all for now, I'll add more later.

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Hi!!!!! I've been following you for a while and all your posts about Destiel are pulling me straight back to the fandom. I stopped watching around season 9/10 but your enthusiasm is so awesome and I love seeing all your posts on my dash!!!! I've only watched each episode once, but do you have any favorite episodes to rewatch? And do you have any fic recs? I'm so excited that you're excited, it's so contagious. Thank you for being you and for being so lovely! 😆

HELLO thank you so much I’m so glad to share this happiness with you... the absolute hysteria of the implications of this thing

Favourite episodes to rewatch:

As I’ve linked before, this is a great list of Destiel moments to 14. In terms of my personal favourites that aren’t necessarily Destiel oriented (except that as soon as we get to s7 who am I kidding):

Faith

In My Time of Dying

Tall Tales

What Is and What Should Never Be

Mystery Spot

Lazarus Rising*

On The Head of a Pin

The Rapture

Lucifer Rising

Free To Be You And Me (!)

The End (!!)

Changing Channels

Point of No Return

Swan Song

The French Mistake

The Man Who Would Be King (!!!)

A Little Slice of Kevin

Sacrifice

Heaven Can’t Wait

Meta Fiction

Fan Fiction

First Blood

Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets

The Future

All Along The Watchtower

Lost and Found

The Trap

Despair

*literally any episode with Castiel from here on out and now even MORE SO given the recent Implication of 15.18. Just go to his wiki page lol. Also Season 4-5 really does fuck when it’s plot related wow.

Fic recs:

Ok these are just the fics I’ve read recently, I know there’s a bunch of stuff that was written pre-s7 that isn’t here but I haven’t gone back through my rec lists and evaluated what’s stood up to the test of time. So these are the ones I’ve evaluated on my recent binge over the past year:

Down To Agincourt

I haven’t remotely finished this, I’m reading it right now. Get past the first chapter being purple prosey (this is what kept me back from reading it before this month and MISTAKE) and you’ll be like. What. the. fuck. Incroyable. Over a million words of End-Verse angst and pining but also has humour and some absolutely outstanding writing. Ben Edlund come collect your legacy. The premise is that Dean from s7 post-Cas death gets sent back to the 5.04 world at the moment he left it, and takes over from End-Verse Dean - and starts to fight for a hopeful future. My one caveat is so far there’s been very little mention/concern over Sam but it’s FINE because this is SO GOOD. Technically a WIP but being updated.

Ninety One Whiskey and anything by komodobits (warning A Complete Kingdom is very good but has an unhappy ending).

Don’t know if you’re getting the feeling that I like extremely long fanfic but uh.... frankly if it’s not 300,000 words of pining it’s not a slow burn. After I finished this I literally had one of those moments where I had to lie down and stare into space and by ‘moments’ I mean like a full 24 hours. Life changing. World War II AU that is so artfully rendered and researched that it makes literally anyone who thinks they could be a writer cry.

You Can Keep Holding On and anything by NorthernSparrow

If we hadn’t had SPN go past S5 I’m not sure NorthernSparrow would have gotten into Destiel and that alone is why post s5 SPN deserves rights. Relative to komodobits, always happy endings and fluffy and so on. One of the rare authors who also writes AUs with rights. NorthernSparrow is a... nature academic? Of some kind, and that plays into their fics - lots of references to Castiel’s wings and bird anatomy.

Redemption Road

I’ve literally also not finished this even though I’ve got halfway through it three times now over the past decade slkdfjlskdjflkds SORRY my attention span cuts out when they get together don’t @ me. Variable quality sometimes because they have a team of different writers that came together to write an alternate Season 7, but overall really really good and some of the writers are incredible. Also like love it bc they just flexed on the writing team at SPN so hard with this. Has an alternate epilogue which happened because the writing team disagreed on the ending and had a whole drama (we love group projects) which I believe is better than the original(?), although having not read it to the end I can’t testify to that. 

Ok I simply can’t continue to fill your dash with long descriptions so here’s some more recs in shorter forms, (canon-verse because what’s an AU? I don’t know her) and favourite authors: All Things Shining, The Law of Equivalent Exchange, Dean and Cas’ Top 13 Zepp Traxx, Where the Weeds Take Root, and just for a palate cleanser, the very funny crack fic Broadway Musical. Also some authors who have written a lot of rec-worthy canon-verse fics: aeli_kindara (some SERIOUSLY good and happy fics here), xylodemon, pantheon_of_discord.

My bookmarks folder is currently an unorganised MESS, usually I have things bookmarked on my Diigo but since a) most of these aren’t on there and b) I can’t verify the quality of fics I read before my destiel hiatus, this is the best I got! I’ll update and organise all my destiel bookmarks one day sorry...

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Supernatural - 15x17. On Chuck, Cas, and love. Chuck’s true weakness

As all my SPN metas, it’s Destiel positive and happy end positive, don’t like - don’t read.

15x17 gave us a lot about Chuck and Amara relationship. Now I should tell, that inside the story they are not mirrors for some other SPN characters. SPN characters are supposed to be mirrors for them.

Or that’s how it was planned by Chuck.

From the start Chuck wasn’t whole. That’s where his disappointment in angels and humans comes from. That’s why, though he needs fans, the same time he despises them and can’t see the truth, which is obvious for them (i. e. for Becky).  Chuck doesn’t kill his fans. He just sends them away, ‘cause they are "annoying” and have their own demands. He prefers to ignore that. Just like channel execs preferred to ignore us when it came to Cas and DeanCas. 

Chuck sends his angelic fans away the same he did with Becky in 15x04, with the same words actually. “I didn’t kill him (Becky’s husband). He’s just far away”. Chuck ruins their lives with ignoring them - but also he ruins lives of those who he is interested in. Lucifer was his most beloved son - and Chuck gave him the Mark of Cain, which corrupted him... though Chuck’s main purpose there was to seal Amara, of course. 

That’s how his disappointment began. He sealed the part of himself and became BROKEN. Broke himself, actually.  In 15x17 Chuck says he was obsessed by fractals, repetitions of one form on different levels, and that’s true: in Sam and Dean’s story he just tries to repeat his and Amara’s one - maybe, to understand something. To fix himself. Not to be haunted of his own failures. That’s his self-therapy - but it didn’t work even a little for ages... until he saw something true. Until the story of Team Free Will began and his puppets suddenly weren’t puppets anymore. 

Why? I think we all Destihellers had known, but in 15x17 we got a serious confirmation.  These Sam and Dean are so special because of this Cas, because of his total and absolute disobedience. According to Chuck, that’s the only real difference between their story and the others’ ones. 

The reason of that is obvious - love. Cas’s perfect angelic devotion, but not to God. Here I wrote about Adam and Seraphina and the sacred oath reason - in connection to Cas.  Chuck doesn’t understand Cas’s (and love - the synonyms here) importance for his story. For him Cas “is something that always goes wrong” (Dean’s words from 15x03, fascinating *sarcasm*). Here in the end there are some thoughts about Cas’s being the greatest trickster of the show.

There are lots of Sams, Deans, Cases. But there is one Amara. In 15x17 she said her return because of the Winchesters was a part of Chuck’s plan - except her feelings for Dean, as Chuck confirmed. I suppose we can believe him - he chose these Sam and Dean to return Amara, to deal with her. Thanks to them he finally found the will to face her - not to make it looks like one sibling’s death/sealing is the logical reason for another one to live long and happy life (like for Dean in 5x22, after Sam’s sacrifice). Chuck used the story to heal his trauma - but he ignored Lucifer’s trauma, his desperate want to be loved, and the Winchesters’ story continued. Now I think that it was a part of Chuck’s plan - he liked these boytoys so much. And with considering them boytoys, his trauma wasn’t healed.  ‘Cause it wasn’t Amara who caused it. It was always Chuck himself.  In 15x04 he said that he hates himself. I have no doubts about it, but all he’s doing was making it even worse. Hurting others means deepening your wounds. To find the way you should stop. Just stop. And enjoy the moment, maybe - like Amara in 15x17 advised. 

But Chuck didn’t listen to her. Enjoyment means love, and he can’t love. Only manipulate. 

Unlike Chuck, Amara found her harmony. I assume that’s because she found love in herself, not outside. The love outside can’t be appreciated if your heart is closed, like Chuck’s. Well, Amara’s heart is open, and that makes her vulnerable I guess.  In the beginning of 15x17 Amara was reading “Norwegian wood”. I’ve also read this book and think that the main message here is: the real is always better than some dreams about. Just like Amara said to Dean about Mary in 15x15... though Dean seemed not to understand her.  Betraying Amara for Dean means betraying himself and letting Chuck, the vengeful father, who is ready to sacrifice his children in a heartbeat, win. Betraying her means Dean becomes Chuck’s mirror. He gives up his family not for his own freedom, but for Chuck’s.  ALL THIS STORY WAS CREATED BECAUSE CHUCK WANTED TO HAVE HIS FREE WILL. And he can’t. 

I assume somewhere in 15x04 he thought Amara’s consumption was the only way to become whole, to find free will, to feel joy, not disappointment. To be happy. 

In 6x20 we saw Cas’s praying to Chuck while sitting on a bench, with some flowers near. We know that was the moment when Chuck could stop Cas, prevent all this Leviathan story... unless he WANTED it. In 15x04 he said that he loved monsters, Leviathans especially. And by that time he certainly wanted Cas dead (as well as the channel execs, I suppose). 

In 15x17 we see Amara praying to Chuck while sitting on a bench, with a flower in her hands. She wants a balance with him. He wants her dead - not literally though. 

Did Chuck know that in 15x17 Amara would trap him? I think yes. He wanted that specifically.

Did he know that Sam would be alive by the end of 15x17? I think no. He was disappointed again, he WASN’T HAPPY even after Amara’s disappearance.  

Why wasn’t he? The Empty gave us a clue while making a deal with Cas: to be happy you must let yourself be happy. And that’s impossible without love, understanding, and TRANSFORMATION.

Yet Chuck didn’t understand that AGAIN. He said “kill each other, don’t kill each other - I don’t care” to boys only because he succeeded in killing Amara as a personality finally. So he didn’t need Sam and Dean as “mirrors” of his own toxic relationship with his sibling anymore.

But we - now we understand. Chuck revealed the secret himself when told about this Cas’s uniqueness.

To be whole doesn’t mean to manipulate and to devour, in fact these are the opposites. Maybe Sam, Dean and Cas ARE broken, but not as much as Chuck himself. Maybe they are broken only because of him and his trauma, his awful relationship with Amara. Maybe, unlike him, they found the real way to healing.  

Maybe their “cracks” are not like his. Maybe these “cracks” are the free will itself, the things that can change the convo, and they are also something Chuck doesn’t know about -  ‘cause he doesn’t understand them. 

He doesn’t truly understand love. 

The way Cas supports Sam while looking the way to save Jack. The things he says during Sam and Dean’s fight - small things, not important at first sight. They weren’t scripted by Chuck I think: Dean, don’t. Sam, why not? All these looks - from Sam to Cas before confronting Dean. From Cas to Sam and Dean. From Dean to Cas - Dean was looking at Cas several times while listening to Sam, for support or confirmation.

Cas couldn’t fight Dean there, he was so unsure. He didn’t even agree to buy Sam some time if Dean comes back earlier than Sam. But he supported Sam in his fight, said to him not to surrender, said, that Sam’s internal compass was functioning perfectly. That’s moral support only, but it could change things.

Dean also saw support in Cas, but Cas had doubts, he ASKED Sam, why not, and Dean just HAD TO listen. 

As a result they confirmed themselves as Team Free Will. All the three of them - they could escape the next Chuck’s trap.    Still I assume the crucial party in that belongs to Cas. He is something that always isn’t in the plan, something unpredictable.  Notice - when Sam, Jack and Dean deal with Amara, there is no Cas with them. But in the end of 15x17 it’s Cas who asks Chuck about Amara, and that wasn’t the part of his plan. I suppose this question was the reason of Chuck’s getting angry so much that he revealed the secret about this Cas as a kind of offence. Like it’s bad - to be unpredictable. To be a trickster.  To be real.

Chuck’s words about this Cas’s uniqueness influence Cas for sure. After them he looked at Dean TWICE (what for?!), and I think that’s possible that his latter question “What do you mean?” refers to these Chuck’s words especially. Cas was just lost in his thoughts when he heard them. Only when Chuck told about Jack’s death, Cas was brought back to reality. Coincidence? Hell no. 

Now Cas understood something thanks to Chuck, and that will play in 15x18 for sure. 

Also, in 15x17 we didn’t see any Cas+Empty interaction. Only Sam+Empty - but THIS IS CAS’S HELP TO SAM THAT MADE IT POSSIBLE.

So maybe Chuck knew about Sam coming to Death library. But did he know about Sam’s getting God Death book? We’ll wait and see. To conclude: Chuck can’t control love ‘cause he doesn’t understand it, doesn’t feel it. And that's the true weakness that will end him.  Chuck’s true weakness is revealed: he isn’t in love. With anything. 

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That ask and your answer about what if Sam was out of hunting and never left Stanford because Gabriel wanted to stop the apocalypse and threw him into a pocket dimension and I’m like. Obsessed. primarily with gabriel and how Sam would go.

I think he would stick Sam in a like… you remember when Zachariah stuck sam and dean in the office job and it was a parallel universe but also it was real life? like coplanar planes, I think Gabriel would elect to do that instead of his you’re going in my alternate universe, because it’s less detail consuming and I think Sam would notice small things that were off like how he figured out it was him in mystery spot.

You said Sam deserves to have the apple pie life but if he was comfortable with that it wouldn’t like.. work he wouldn’t be ready to ever confront Lucifer or anyone. i agree but also I don’t think he would stick with his normal life. like in the zachariah episode he had a normal life and fake memories of that but he still wanted to hunt and help people and also figure out wtf was happening. I think in this scenario Sam would still be psychic because I love that but Gabriel would probably try like… suppressing his visions and such, because they would lead him back into possible angel business. I think he’d still get little snippets because that’s fun and having reminders in that that the supernatural like.. exists and ppl are getting hurt, I think that would overrule his want of complete normalcy and even his spite toward John.

I don’t think he’d go back into hunting like, completely because I want him to have something good and also be semi well adjusted. but like we saw in the terrible life episode I think he’d like.. if he got bored and started looking up strange deaths well now he has to go help them!!

also it is sooo fun to me if he starts realizing something is wrong but he doesn’t know what. like in mystery spot I love that trope sooo fucking much also in s1 sam gets back into hunting through John Winchester style revenge quest and I want to give him a reason to start poking around that is like.. for himself and not anybody else. he can have a little obsession over it as a treat because i like seeing him be a bitch <3

i think initially when Gabriel found out the apocalypse was like in motion and Sam was at Stanford he’d have an opportunity there to do something without revealing to other players that he is alive because he was pretending to be a trickster. like he’s very much in this for self preservation and if he did some time traveling shenanigans, or disappearing both Winchesters and maybe even Adam out of nowhere, I think he’d worry that the angels would take notice. Randy your vessels!! But Stanford gives him a natural window to hide a key player. he needs to do away with Adam too so Lucifer can’t possibly have a true vessel to fight.. maybe he can kill him in a freak accident because I find that funny. sorry this is long and it will be getting longer

anyway I think as time went on Gabriel would pay like less meticulous attention. he’d still keep away like key players but as other people also started trying to stop the apocalypse he would become more relaxed also he’d be overconfident in himself like in changing channels. I think this would lead sam to notice more stuff that just doesn’t make any sense and maybe start looking for dean or even his dad, or going out of his way to look for hunts. maybe get involved in magic because i think he deserves to be a witch. wait actually that’s how he should find Dean. i think Gabriel would hide Dean from Sam and vice versa, and he didn’t foresee Sam using magic or anything. Also at this point it’s been years and I think Sam is more invested in this than his like… normal life. he’s more well adjusted but I can definitely see him just impulsively quitting his job to figure out what the fucks happening. Also I think he’d feel animosity at dean during this for not being there and not helping him, even though that anger doesn’t make complete sense. sorry i like the early seasons salmon dean reconciling and learning to like each other and sam realizing Your Parents Are People and I would like to see it with them having like, completely different lives and also some fun miscommunication bc of Gabriel. also sam having to reconcile dean having cas OHRHDHJ also dean and cas trying horribly to cover cas being not human is so fucking fun to me. unless this happens during a cas is dead time period which is fun in a different evil way.

I also think dean would only stop looking if he though Sam was dead, but I think… Gabriel might have hidden him but other people ARE still meeting him even with like altered memories. so I think angels or something can sense that Sam is alive but they don’t know where and I think they’d gloat and use it to taunt dean that he is like.. suffering while his brother is living a perfect normal life. Also because this adds another miscommunication that can be discussed and end in reconciliation in a way I don’t think would feel contrived and is in line with it the characters. it’d be Amelia s8 but Sam would be like (Sam voice) I did look for you!!! where were you when I needed you! also I want Sam to find out John died and he’s in absolute despair while cas is standing there like oh yes that’s so awful your father was an. absolutely a man😔😐🏳️‍🌈

idk when this would occur and i think every season offers like… different flavors of enjoyment for an audience of just me. like s7 proto widower arc?? Sam reconnecting with Dean during TMWWBK when he is not familiar with the dean and cas dynamic and has to be witness to Trying So Hard To Be Loyal. additionally that would be fun because bobby is there and dean is like, covering his ears and back talking bobby regarding cas. and if they’ve taken pains to hide cas being an angel Sam being like .who is this to Dean. is suchhh a fun concept.

WAIT post goodbye stranger. or maybe Sam can show up pre goodbye stranger to watch dean go from clingy after cas gets back from purgatory to wrongfooted to like ANGRY. well not Angry… to dean having dean emotions. when cas is off with the tablet ignoring him and he feels betrayed. and this Sam isn’t as close to him so he doesn’t know ANY details until Dean stats divulging them as they reconcile. ALL GOOD OPTIONS..

also if this happens during s6 i think it would be nice if cas started collecting allies, and at the same time as Sam trying to figure out what was keeping him away from dean and the angel business Cas could figure it out FIRST and use Gabriel as an ally against Raphael but he’d feel like he has to hide it from dean and sam. like in this scenario. actually any time I talk about s6 hypotheticals Cas’ conflict IS the A Plot. the Winchester’s were on a side quest idc. s6 is a fun time for these reasons but i don’t like it as much because Cas is still in the process of like.. formative development.

okay one last thing I’m SOOO sorry for my essay. you said if Sam was dispossessed the apocalypse would just.. not happen. i agree to like, a certain degree, because I do think they could have found another way but all of them would have been dust compared to swan song. so maybe Gabriel semi succeeded but instead of stopping the apocalypse he just… prolonged it. this changes a lot but if either Michael or Lucifer didn’t have a viable vessel I think the angels would scramble to actually for real stop the apocalypse but others would still want it to happen even if it was like.. Perfect they just want it to be over. this provides angel politics which I am in love with and we can still have like TMWWBK development for cas. I don’t know where I’m going with this sorry

op this is a lot, this is so much. i love it, i hope you have a google doc open somewhere and are typing away furiously.

now i didn't rewatch a lot of spn past s3 (surprise) in part bc i can't handle the brain damage and some scenes are seared into my cerebral cortex in a way that induced a temporary bout of eidetic memory, meaning i'll never forget the crypt scene in Goodbye Stranger for as long as i live. that being SAID, my s6-s7 knowledge is not as firmly coalesced. so because of that i'm letting your thoughts roam free as i don't know how accurate my own takes would be? but i feel like without sam there, like... hm. would dean even be the same person... would the past however many seasons even OCCUR remotely similar with sam out of the picture for literal years? we might be looking at a completely different world at that point.

my other theory is that the s2 plot of special children - we know azazel was raising a new 'crop' of psychic kids. i think that was a plot thread that they ended up dropping anyway, but if they didn't i do wonder if we'd be dealing with a lot more shenanigans like in s1 and s2 except with kids? and dean and cas trying to figure out what to do with these young psychics that might be turned into a vessel for lucifer or - whatever they wanted to do with those kids. hm.

i also question if purgatory would be a thing. like it probably would come up and be on the table, but maybe the godstiel arc wouldn't, bc if like you're saying dean and cas are together at this point, like. cas might have grown to love humanity (not just dean but like 99% dean) to the point where he might not be doing this risky gambit for more souls. and if gabriel is still around, cas may start petitioning gabe to help throw his archangel weight around against raphael while he tries to do the actual strategizing.

i think sam would still have his visions, like you said, and then maybe those lead him to dean or to a case that dean is also on? or if angels are more well-known later on, he tracks one down, maybe cas, maybe not (if it's NOT and it's one that works on raphael's side. ohoho. the possibilities...)

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Rob Benedict - Stageit (21.11.20)

I watched Rob's online panel at Stageit last night and I really enjoyed it, besides all the heartbreak I feel about the ending of supernatural. So let's get into some stuff he said!

He started with the spn final. What I really appreciated. He hoped we all enjoyed it. "I know it was controversial. But we worked really hard on it and you know endings are hard!"   After complimenting Jensen, Jared, and Misha for their incredible acting in the last episodes, he started with the fan's questions.

Question: "What happened to Chuck when Jack took his powers? If he died where did he end up? In the empty or anywhere else?"

Rob: "I don't think Chuck is dead. I think he just doesn't have god in him anymore. And I think he is just isolated. I think it's kind of his worst nightmare, cuz he is not god anymore, he is not in control, and he is alone.  So I think that is punishment enough for him." Then Rob was hypothesizing a little. He told us if they would ever come together again for like, a movie or something, Chuck could still come back as a "regular dude". Rob thinks that Chuck is now an empty vessel.

Then he wanted to add something about the final. It felt like he was really struggling to know how many people are unhappy. Maybe I just being crazy, but it was like he was trying to explain it to us, so we can see it through his eyes. Kinda sweet. Rob: "Again, people have extreme views about it and you are completely allowed to have your own view about what happened. I just wanna remind you that in the finale it was the first time that chuck was not writing the story. So you can reason that chuck this whole time has been bringing the boys back. You know, finding a way to keep them going so he can keep writing the story. And what happened in the last two seasons is that he got very selfish and made it all about him. And that was his mistake. So it was the first time where they just on a random hunt like they always do and Dean has that unfortunate thing happen where he dies, that unfortunate thing happen like death, but you know there is no evil writer in charge 'no no no we are gonna safe him from that and keep him going cuz I wanna keep manipulating him.' So to me, that was sort of an essence that was going on there. In a way Chuck kept them going because he wanted the story to keep going until he didn't anymore."

Question: "Did you find Chuck's ending fitting considering he disliked humanity?"

Rob: "Yeah, I mean, I thought it was fitting because he just got too wrapped up and he was trying to manipulate everything until the very end. And he wanted the ending to be this grant thing. He so enjoyed Sam and Dean, he enjoyed manipulation them and he thought for a second that it would be this great ending to be killed by them. And they didn't." Then Rob told us that if there were a movie in the future he would love to play Chuck again, see what happened to him. He would like to play him more like the apocalypse Chuck, the hoarding toilette paper Chuck.

Question: "How did you prepare yourself to play this huge character?"

Rob: " Chuck went through so many changes, from being a prophet thinking he was just this lowly writer writing these trashy books and then finding out he was a prophet and then finding out he was god... " Rob told us it was work to get all these adjustments from this likable character to the almighty, but it was fun. Even when ppl didn't like him (not sure if he was telling us that ppl were hating Rob for this character on a show, I hope not... or just the character Chuck), the evil Chuck from last season, he liked playing him. Then he told us a great story. "At the end of last season when the evil Chuck started to come out, end of season 14 and I had that scene where I broke the guitar and I was sharp with Jensen I can remember like (saying) 'Enough!' or 'Stop!' or something like that and it was coming out kinda like weird like 'E-enough' (sounding anxious) and... I was still that other Chuck. And so I said to Jensen I feel like I'm not getting it yet, he was like (disguising his voice) 'Well, you say it like I'd say it!' and I was like 'ok'. So I went full Dean on that line!" "So, evil Chuck was channeled a little bit by angry Dean."

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I'm only 8 minutes into the panel and this is like... too much to write down. I will stop here, if you like more, let me know!