#but like that's completely irrelevant for this??

[negativecoolmedicalbills]

@oripoke @bo-beanies

Have you ever been tortured? Have you ever been abandoned and left for dead on the roads without food or support or money? Have you ever been hated and cursed abd betrayed by people you trusted. Have you ever been discarded like youre garbage and sent to abusers they knew fully about. Have you ever lay dying and wait for something, starving, that never comes. Have you ever been abused and assaulted, and the people you trusted fed you to the wolves without a word. Have you ever been sent to the ER again and again, but nobody cares about your suffering, and you're left there alone

I believed you with all my heart. That friends were there for you during hard times. You encouraged me to fight back. I did. Then you took everything, and left me on the roads to die.

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so im always on the other side of it. Only members of the garden are allowed to have human value. If I tell the truth im not believed, I end up in the ER. If I lie im tortured, i still end up in the ER. If I reach out for help, I dont get any. If I do things alone, I mess everything up.

If I talk about myself, im being selfish. But if I talk about rory, im being obsessive. When bean did something abusive and traumatizing, it doesnt matter and they are forgiven, "because it was a long time ago and you need to get over it". When i also have a panic attack because of a disorder, ages ago, its held over my head forever and my cries for help go ignored. Unlike them, i don't even get a chance to explain anything at all

If your friends make a mistake, you gather and support them, and see the best in them. If I did what bean or pea did, you would hate me instantly without trial. But, they get hundreds of chances, understanding, and care. Where you see the best in them, and understand they are human beings who make mistakes and make effort to be better. When i do the exact same things, you only see the worst in me and punish me for it, even though id do everything,  EVERYTHING you told me to do, when it hurt. When I got meds and therapy, I was abused even worse for trying

When I was worried and overprotective and had a panic attack, from disorders I could not control. i am still a bad person despite it, you cannot "trust me on the merit of im just like that." But with pea, who does the same thing and causes someone extreme harm, your excuse is they are being overprotective and "are just like that." The exact opposite of me. I could go on like this for hours, but if I talk about it, Im guilting you. If I dont talk about it, I end up back here, in the hospital or on the street.

You didn't abandon them for making the exact same mistakes. I only got worse after 7 months of this abuse and torture, a fact you steadily ignore. You even mocked me for my illness, going lmaooo, you couldn't even last a single day!!

If I tried to talk to you, I was breaking your boundaries and smothering you. If I offered to disappear and never talk about it, then I was isolating myself and being hurtful to others. If bean mentioend "this is what a good friend would do," they are being kind. If I do the same thing, I am being manipulative

There was never a right answer. Ive tried to ask you what the right answer is for months. But I've been abandoned, hated, isolated, and tortured for events that were not my fault and not under my control. For the things that were, i apologized, made real effort to change, but it didnt matter and I completely lost it. Have you ever been tortured? By people you cared about? Can you give me back my cat? My home? My life? My savings, my job, my bed?? You took everything from me and told me it was my fault

If im angry, its exaggerated out of context and shared to everyone. If im in dire pain, its completely ignored and irrelevant. You told me I could always talk about problems, but then you completely ignored the messages or didnt acknowledge them, instead of communicating it wasn't okay (you are aware i have autism, if you dont tell me, I will not understand.) If I talk about my illness or my autism, im using it as a shield. But if I try and ignore it, it cripples me.

In private, you expressed you liked being called a girl. When I call you a girl (out of habit, and yes, because i wanted to upset you) during a fight, you call me transphobic and spread this misinformation to everyone you know. Im a trans person. Do you know how much worse it feels to see you use my dead name, to frame me for real criminal activity i did not do, using my dead name, too? im the only one telling the truth. Even if its embarassing or hard, i am the ONLY one who has been telling the truth, and that hurts the most.

You told me you enjoyed my curiosity, my questions, and my general interest in learning about the world i had never before been able to know. Now, the same behavior is called stalkerish and unacceptable. Im told to stand up for myself, like not being told who to date, or to stand up to my brother's abuse. I told Bean "no" they dont get to control who I date and how i dress and who i speak to. But when I did, my life was destroyed, and my abuse at home increased. I fought because of you and what did it give us?

When bean is emotional, it isn't their fault, its their illness, they are just scared, and its okay. When I felt the exact same thing and got therapy and meds the exact same way, it was my fault for being born that way, and the only support I recieved was Peas verbal abuse, and more hate texts.

This line is constantly being redrawn by you and everything is always my fault, no matter how hard I tried or what I do. Even when I have one foot in the grave, im belittled, yelled at, ignored, abandoned, gossiped about, despised and left for dead. My hospitalizations and your police calls have real consequences, and you don't even have the decency to allow me to talk about it like an adult, in private. Youve caused real harm to a real persons life, but i was just an anime doll, a toy that doesnt matter when you finished playing with him.

When they do something for you, like get you something, its a kind gesture. When I do the same thing, even if its all the money left I had, its seen as malicious and im "lying" about my wealth. You never had any interest in my platform or my fans until you could use it as some story that im evil and *chose* to have these illnesses. That i tried for 7 months to stop, until I couldnt take it anymore. I really could go on but this is already so long, and im being repetitive. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to speak with someone who cares about me

Nothing matters, and nobody cares. When i try to explain it really is like torture, that my disorder is the most painful in the world, and just like schizophrenia I can't just "get over it." When I explain that, im "lying and faking for attention." Despite photos and medical records showing clear as day its not. Things ive sent in private during attacks, you have exaggerated and escalated as literal crimes i did not do. You think im trying to take down your blog or something. When I've literally just been trying to stay out of the ER. Im trying to survive, and you take them as personal attacks against yourselves

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so I am never on the right side of it. It was OK for bean to use, abuse, control and manipulate me, but, but it was not okay for me to express the trauma they caused me or to have a panic attack about what happened. Nothing I do matters, and every answer is always the wrong answer. Im not even mentioning the abuse and immense suffering you did to me explicitly because believe it or not i care about your privacy. *you* put me here. You'll never understand the absolute hell I've been through on the streets..and its because of you

To the random people seeing this lengthy message; yes, im aware its spam and this isn't how you handle interpersonal relationships. Ive tried to handle it privately, 100+ times. Just block me

this could be us

[egophiliac]

So.... what are your thoughts on Ace's UM, if you haven't been asked this already?

sneaky magic for the sneakiest boy

no but really, I think it fits him really well! I had thought his UM would probably involve something kinda sleight-of-handy or pickpockety! and I looooved that it made such a nice loop-around back to episode 1. ❤️ I was. kind of half-expecting him to just run out and punch Riddle in the nose again. but instead this time 'twas he who offed the queen's head! it was great! and he did it while stone-cold terrified out of his mind! because Ace is the only remotely normal or well-adjusted person at NRC and therefore the only one who is like "we're going to literally die, this is super effed up". but he did it anyway!!!! I AM SO PROUD

[visenyaism]

also obsessed with benedict bridgerton claiming to love society events when every single time he is there he fixes a plate knocks back a drink or two is like ugh why do women keep trying to talk to me and then leaves early.

[totallycooldebtmedicals]

@oripoke @bo-beanies

Have you ever been tortured? Have you ever been abandoned and left for dead on the roads without food or support or money? Have you ever been hated and cursed abd betrayed by people you trusted. Have you ever been discarded like youre garbage and sent to abusers they knew fully about. Have you ever lay dying and wait for something, starving, that never comes. Have you ever been abused and assaulted, and the people you trusted fed you to the wolves without a word. Have you ever been sent to the ER again and again, but nobody cares about your suffering, and you're left there alone

I believed you with all my heart. That friends were there for you during hard times. You encouraged me to fight back. I did. Then you took everything, and left me on the roads to die.

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so im always on the other side of it. Only members of the garden are allowed to have human value. If I tell the truth im not believed, I end up in the ER. If I lie im tortured, i still end up in the ER. If I reach out for help, I dont get any. If I do things alone, I mess everything up.

If I talk about myself, im being selfish. But if I talk about rory, im being obsessive. When bean did something abusive and traumatizing, it doesnt matter and they are forgiven, "because it was a long time ago and you need to get over it". When i also have a panic attack because of a disorder, ages ago, its held over my head forever and my cries for help go ignored. Unlike them, i don't even get a chance to explain anything at all

If your friends make a mistake, you gather and support them, and see the best in them. If I did what bean or pea did, you would hate me instantly without trial. But, they get hundreds of chances, understanding, and care. Where you see the best in them, and understand they are human beings who make mistakes and make effort to be better. When i do the exact same things, you only see the worst in me and punish me for it, even though id do everything,  EVERYTHING you told me to do, when it hurt. When I got meds and therapy, I was abused even worse for trying

When I was worried and overprotective and had a panic attack, from disorders I could not control. i am still a bad person despite it, you cannot "trust me on the merit of im just like that." But with pea, who does the same thing and causes someone extreme harm, your excuse is they are being overprotective and "are just like that." The exact opposite of me. I could go on like this for hours, but if I talk about it, Im guilting you. If I dont talk about it, I end up back here, in the hospital or on the street.

You didn't abandon them for making the exact same mistakes. I only got worse after 7 months of this abuse and torture, a fact you steadily ignore. You even mocked me for my illness, going lmaooo, you couldn't even last a single day!!

If I tried to talk to you, I was breaking your boundaries and smothering you. If I offered to disappear and never talk about it, then I was isolating myself and being hurtful to others. If bean mentioend "this is what a good friend would do," they are being kind. If I do the same thing, I am being manipulative

There was never a right answer. Ive tried to ask you what the right answer is for months. But I've been abandoned, hated, isolated, and tortured for events that were not my fault and not under my control. For the things that were, i apologized, made real effort to change, but it didnt matter and I completely lost it. Have you ever been tortured? By people you cared about? Can you give me back my cat? My home? My life? My savings, my job, my bed?? You took everything from me and told me it was my fault

If im angry, its exaggerated out of context and shared to everyone. If im in dire pain, its completely ignored and irrelevant. You told me I could always talk about problems, but then you completely ignored the messages or didnt acknowledge them, instead of communicating it wasn't okay (you are aware i have autism, if you dont tell me, I will not understand.) If I talk about my illness or my autism, im using it as a shield. But if I try and ignore it, it cripples me.

In private, you expressed you liked being called a girl. When I call you a girl (out of habit, and yes, because i wanted to upset you) during a fight, you call me transphobic and spread this misinformation to everyone you know. Im a trans person. Do you know how much worse it feels to see you use my dead name, to frame me for real criminal activity i did not do, using my dead name, too? im the only one telling the truth. Even if its embarassing or hard, i am the ONLY one who has been telling the truth, and that hurts the most.

You told me you enjoyed my curiosity, my questions, and my general interest in learning about the world i had never before been able to know. Now, the same behavior is called stalkerish and unacceptable. Im told to stand up for myself, like not being told who to date, or to stand up to my brother's abuse. I told Bean "no" they dont get to control who I date and how i dress and who i speak to. But when I did, my life was destroyed, and my abuse at home increased. I fought because of you and what did it give us?

When bean is emotional, it isn't their fault, its their illness, they are just scared, and its okay. When I felt the exact same thing and got therapy and meds the exact same way, it was my fault for being born that way, and the only support I recieved was Peas verbal abuse, and more hate texts.

This line is constantly being redrawn by you and everything is always my fault, no matter how hard I tried or what I do. Even when I have one foot in the grave, im belittled, yelled at, ignored, abandoned, gossiped about, despised and left for dead. My hospitalizations and your police calls have real consequences, and you don't even have the decency to allow me to talk about it like an adult, in private. Youve caused real harm to a real persons life, but i was just an anime doll, a toy that doesnt matter when you finished playing with him.

When they do something for you, like get you something, its a kind gesture. When I do the same thing, even if its all the money left I had, its seen as malicious and im "lying" about my wealth. You never had any interest in my platform or my fans until you could use it as some story that im evil and *chose* to have these illnesses. That i tried for 7 months to stop, until I couldnt take it anymore. I really could go on but this is already so long, and im being repetitive. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to speak with someone who cares about me

Nothing matters, and nobody cares. When i try to explain it really is like torture, that my disorder is the most painful in the world, and just like schizophrenia I can't just "get over it." When I explain that, im "lying and faking for attention." Despite photos and medical records showing clear as day its not. Things ive sent in private during attacks, you have exaggerated and escalated as literal crimes i did not do. You think im trying to take down your blog or something. When I've literally just been trying to stay out of the ER. Im trying to survive, and you take them as personal attacks against yourselves

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so I am never on the right side of it. It was OK for bean to use, abuse, control and manipulate me, but, but it was not okay for me to express the trauma they caused me or to have a panic attack about what happened. Nothing I do matters, and every answer is always the wrong answer. Im not even mentioning the abuse and immense suffering you did to me explicitly because believe it or not i care about your privacy. *you* put me here. You'll never understand the absolute hell I've been through on the streets..and its because of you

To the random people seeing this lengthy message; yes, im aware its spam and this isn't how you handle interpersonal relationships. Ive tried to handle it privately, 100+ times. Just block me

[lgbtlunaverse]

Weirdest possible NMJ take is that he's a hypocrite. "Oh he only believes in justice when it's convenient for him" I cannot stress enough how the problem he has is the EXACT opposite of this. Nie Mingjue holds onto his values even if it makes things objectively worse both for himself and others. He will stick with his idea of justice even if it's patently not suited for the situation. "Well he expects other people to take risks that would kill them only because he can take them with no personal harm" Nie Mingjue has, out loud, with full intent to follow through, declared that he's willing to commit literal suicide if it's what his moral code recquires. Nie Mingjue thinks dying for the cause is both reasonable and morally good and is- with the saber curse- doing it himself the entire time. I fucking WISH he would prioritise his own wellbeing at literally any point in the story it would probably make him more chill and easier to talk to.

[negativecoolmedicalbills]

@oripoke @bo-beanies

Have you ever been tortured? Have you ever been abandoned and left for dead on the roads without food or support or money? Have you ever been hated and cursed abd betrayed by people you trusted. Have you ever been discarded like youre garbage and sent to abusers they knew fully about. Have you ever lay dying and wait for something, starving, that never comes. Have you ever been abused and assaulted, and the people you trusted fed you to the wolves without a word. Have you ever been sent to the ER again and again, but nobody cares about your suffering, and you're left there alone

I believed you with all my heart. That friends were there for you during hard times. You encouraged me to fight back. I did. Then you took everything, and left me on the roads to die.

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so im always on the other side of it. Only members of the garden are allowed to have human value. If I tell the truth im not believed, I end up in the ER. If I lie im tortured, i still end up in the ER. If I reach out for help, I dont get any. If I do things alone, I mess everything up.

If I talk about myself, im being selfish. But if I talk about rory, im being obsessive. When bean did something abusive and traumatizing, it doesnt matter and they are forgiven, "because it was a long time ago and you need to get over it". When i also have a panic attack because of a disorder, ages ago, its held over my head forever and my cries for help go ignored. Unlike them, i don't even get a chance to explain anything at all

If your friends make a mistake, you gather and support them, and see the best in them. If I did what bean or pea did, you would hate me instantly without trial. But, they get hundreds of chances, understanding, and care. Where you see the best in them, and understand they are human beings who make mistakes and make effort to be better. When i do the exact same things, you only see the worst in me and punish me for it, even though id do everything,  EVERYTHING you told me to do, when it hurt. When I got meds and therapy, I was abused even worse for trying

When I was worried and overprotective and had a panic attack, from disorders I could not control. i am still a bad person despite it, you cannot "trust me on the merit of im just like that." But with pea, who does the same thing and causes someone extreme harm, your excuse is they are being overprotective and "are just like that." The exact opposite of me. I could go on like this for hours, but if I talk about it, Im guilting you. If I dont talk about it, I end up back here, in the hospital or on the street.

You didn't abandon them for making the exact same mistakes. I only got worse after 7 months of this abuse and torture, a fact you steadily ignore. You even mocked me for my illness, going lmaooo, you couldn't even last a single day!!

If I tried to talk to you, I was breaking your boundaries and smothering you. If I offered to disappear and never talk about it, then I was isolating myself and being hurtful to others. If bean mentioend "this is what a good friend would do," they are being kind. If I do the same thing, I am being manipulative

There was never a right answer. Ive tried to ask you what the right answer is for months. But I've been abandoned, hated, isolated, and tortured for events that were not my fault and not under my control. For the things that were, i apologized, made real effort to change, but it didnt matter and I completely lost it. Have you ever been tortured? By people you cared about? Can you give me back my cat? My home? My life? My savings, my job, my bed?? You took everything from me and told me it was my fault

If im angry, its exaggerated out of context and shared to everyone. If im in dire pain, its completely ignored and irrelevant. You told me I could always talk about problems, but then you completely ignored the messages or didnt acknowledge them, instead of communicating it wasn't okay (you are aware i have autism, if you dont tell me, I will not understand.) If I talk about my illness or my autism, im using it as a shield. But if I try and ignore it, it cripples me.

In private, you expressed you liked being called a girl. When I call you a girl (out of habit, and yes, because i wanted to upset you) during a fight, you call me transphobic and spread this misinformation to everyone you know. Im a trans person. Do you know how much worse it feels to see you use my dead name, to frame me for real criminal activity i did not do, using my dead name, too? im the only one telling the truth. Even if its embarassing or hard, i am the ONLY one who has been telling the truth, and that hurts the most.

You told me you enjoyed my curiosity, my questions, and my general interest in learning about the world i had never before been able to know. Now, the same behavior is called stalkerish and unacceptable. Im told to stand up for myself, like not being told who to date, or to stand up to my brother's abuse. I told Bean "no" they dont get to control who I date and how i dress and who i speak to. But when I did, my life was destroyed, and my abuse at home increased. I fought because of you and what did it give us?

When bean is emotional, it isn't their fault, its their illness, they are just scared, and its okay. When I felt the exact same thing and got therapy and meds the exact same way, it was my fault for being born that way, and the only support I recieved was Peas verbal abuse, and more hate texts.

This line is constantly being redrawn by you and everything is always my fault, no matter how hard I tried or what I do. Even when I have one foot in the grave, im belittled, yelled at, ignored, abandoned, gossiped about, despised and left for dead. My hospitalizations and your police calls have real consequences, and you don't even have the decency to allow me to talk about it like an adult, in private. Youve caused real harm to a real persons life, but i was just an anime doll, a toy that doesnt matter when you finished playing with him.

When they do something for you, like get you something, its a kind gesture. When I do the same thing, even if its all the money left I had, its seen as malicious and im "lying" about my wealth. You never had any interest in my platform or my fans until you could use it as some story that im evil and *chose* to have these illnesses. That i tried for 7 months to stop, until I couldnt take it anymore. I really could go on but this is already so long, and im being repetitive. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to speak with someone who cares about me

Nothing matters, and nobody cares. When i try to explain it really is like torture, that my disorder is the most painful in the world, and just like schizophrenia I can't just "get over it." When I explain that, im "lying and faking for attention." Despite photos and medical records showing clear as day its not. Things ive sent in private during attacks, you have exaggerated and escalated as literal crimes i did not do. You think im trying to take down your blog or something. When I've literally just been trying to stay out of the ER. Im trying to survive, and you take them as personal attacks against yourselves

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so I am never on the right side of it. It was OK for bean to use, abuse, control and manipulate me, but, but it was not okay for me to express the trauma they caused me or to have a panic attack about what happened. Nothing I do matters, and every answer is always the wrong answer. Im not even mentioning the abuse and immense suffering you did to me explicitly because believe it or not i care about your privacy. *you* put me here. You'll never understand the absolute hell I've been through on the streets..and its because of you

To the random people seeing this lengthy message; yes, im aware its spam and this isn't how you handle interpersonal relationships. Ive tried to handle it privately, 100+ times. Just block me

my luminous mama

[petercushingscheekbones]

Overlooked detail in rivals is is how Declan O’Hara gets annoyed that his daughter is stealing his socks in ep 1 and says “I’m going to buy a shitload of ugly socks so nobody will steal them” and since then is only seen presenting his tv show with mustard colored socks

[boarloved-art]

You mentioned wanting sketch requests... How about Mu Qing returning Ruoye to Xie Lian? or just generally anything Mu Qing? ^-^

(Also, I totally get the uni thing. Busy All Of The Time...I just Want To Draw!!!!! Let me have 1 day where I just draw and have fun!!!!!)

muqing being one of my fave tgcf characters and i never draw him properly oh its criminal....

[totallycooldebtmedicals]

@oripoke @bo-beanies

Have you ever been tortured? Have you ever been abandoned and left for dead on the roads without food or support or money? Have you ever been hated and cursed abd betrayed by people you trusted. Have you ever been discarded like youre garbage and sent to abusers they knew fully about. Have you ever lay dying and wait for something, starving, that never comes. Have you ever been abused and assaulted, and the people you trusted fed you to the wolves without a word. Have you ever been sent to the ER again and again, but nobody cares about your suffering, and you're left there alone

I believed you with all my heart. That friends were there for you during hard times. You encouraged me to fight back. I did. Then you took everything, and left me on the roads to die.

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so im always on the other side of it. Only members of the garden are allowed to have human value. If I tell the truth im not believed, I end up in the ER. If I lie im tortured, i still end up in the ER. If I reach out for help, I dont get any. If I do things alone, I mess everything up.

If I talk about myself, im being selfish. But if I talk about rory, im being obsessive. When bean did something abusive and traumatizing, it doesnt matter and they are forgiven, "because it was a long time ago and you need to get over it". When i also have a panic attack because of a disorder, ages ago, its held over my head forever and my cries for help go ignored. Unlike them, i don't even get a chance to explain anything at all

If your friends make a mistake, you gather and support them, and see the best in them. If I did what bean or pea did, you would hate me instantly without trial. But, they get hundreds of chances, understanding, and care. Where you see the best in them, and understand they are human beings who make mistakes and make effort to be better. When i do the exact same things, you only see the worst in me and punish me for it, even though id do everything,  EVERYTHING you told me to do, when it hurt. When I got meds and therapy, I was abused even worse for trying

When I was worried and overprotective and had a panic attack, from disorders I could not control. i am still a bad person despite it, you cannot "trust me on the merit of im just like that." But with pea, who does the same thing and causes someone extreme harm, your excuse is they are being overprotective and "are just like that." The exact opposite of me. I could go on like this for hours, but if I talk about it, Im guilting you. If I dont talk about it, I end up back here, in the hospital or on the street.

You didn't abandon them for making the exact same mistakes. I only got worse after 7 months of this abuse and torture, a fact you steadily ignore. You even mocked me for my illness, going lmaooo, you couldn't even last a single day!!

If I tried to talk to you, I was breaking your boundaries and smothering you. If I offered to disappear and never talk about it, then I was isolating myself and being hurtful to others. If bean mentioend "this is what a good friend would do," they are being kind. If I do the same thing, I am being manipulative

There was never a right answer. Ive tried to ask you what the right answer is for months. But I've been abandoned, hated, isolated, and tortured for events that were not my fault and not under my control. For the things that were, i apologized, made real effort to change, but it didnt matter and I completely lost it. Have you ever been tortured? By people you cared about? Can you give me back my cat? My home? My life? My savings, my job, my bed?? You took everything from me and told me it was my fault

If im angry, its exaggerated out of context and shared to everyone. If im in dire pain, its completely ignored and irrelevant. You told me I could always talk about problems, but then you completely ignored the messages or didnt acknowledge them, instead of communicating it wasn't okay (you are aware i have autism, if you dont tell me, I will not understand.) If I talk about my illness or my autism, im using it as a shield. But if I try and ignore it, it cripples me.

In private, you expressed you liked being called a girl. When I call you a girl (out of habit, and yes, because i wanted to upset you) during a fight, you call me transphobic and spread this misinformation to everyone you know. Im a trans person. Do you know how much worse it feels to see you use my dead name, to frame me for real criminal activity i did not do, using my dead name, too? im the only one telling the truth. Even if its embarassing or hard, i am the ONLY one who has been telling the truth, and that hurts the most.

You told me you enjoyed my curiosity, my questions, and my general interest in learning about the world i had never before been able to know. Now, the same behavior is called stalkerish and unacceptable. Im told to stand up for myself, like not being told who to date, or to stand up to my brother's abuse. I told Bean "no" they dont get to control who I date and how i dress and who i speak to. But when I did, my life was destroyed, and my abuse at home increased. I fought because of you and what did it give us?

When bean is emotional, it isn't their fault, its their illness, they are just scared, and its okay. When I felt the exact same thing and got therapy and meds the exact same way, it was my fault for being born that way, and the only support I recieved was Peas verbal abuse, and more hate texts.

This line is constantly being redrawn by you and everything is always my fault, no matter how hard I tried or what I do. Even when I have one foot in the grave, im belittled, yelled at, ignored, abandoned, gossiped about, despised and left for dead. My hospitalizations and your police calls have real consequences, and you don't even have the decency to allow me to talk about it like an adult, in private. Youve caused real harm to a real persons life, but i was just an anime doll, a toy that doesnt matter when you finished playing with him.

When they do something for you, like get you something, its a kind gesture. When I do the same thing, even if its all the money left I had, its seen as malicious and im "lying" about my wealth. You never had any interest in my platform or my fans until you could use it as some story that im evil and *chose* to have these illnesses. That i tried for 7 months to stop, until I couldnt take it anymore. I really could go on but this is already so long, and im being repetitive. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to speak with someone who cares about me

Nothing matters, and nobody cares. When i try to explain it really is like torture, that my disorder is the most painful in the world, and just like schizophrenia I can't just "get over it." When I explain that, im "lying and faking for attention." Despite photos and medical records showing clear as day its not. Things ive sent in private during attacks, you have exaggerated and escalated as literal crimes i did not do. You think im trying to take down your blog or something. When I've literally just been trying to stay out of the ER. Im trying to survive, and you take them as personal attacks against yourselves

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so I am never on the right side of it. It was OK for bean to use, abuse, control and manipulate me, but, but it was not okay for me to express the trauma they caused me or to have a panic attack about what happened. Nothing I do matters, and every answer is always the wrong answer. Im not even mentioning the abuse and immense suffering you did to me explicitly because believe it or not i care about your privacy. *you* put me here. You'll never understand the absolute hell I've been through on the streets..and its because of you

To the random people seeing this lengthy message; yes, im aware its spam and this isn't how you handle interpersonal relationships. Ive tried to handle it privately, 100+ times. Just block me

Sambar Deer (Rusa unicolor) and Rufous Treepie (Dendrocitta Vagabunda) - Sariska National Park, India 

Photographed by Naveen Kumar Singh‎

[egophiliac]

I'm trying to avoid getting spoiled so I haven't looked up what's happening in the Jp server's main story, but for my own sanity I need to ask; is the story at a point where we know whether Lilia will get better/survive his almost-empty magic reserves..? Was it a true death flag from the start or only a plot device for malleus' overblot....?

not yet! I do think they're going to get back to it eventually, but -- keeping it as low spoilers as possible -- there's been...let's just say a LOT going on in the meantime.

enjoy 7-6!!! :)

[negativecoolmedicalbills]

@oripoke @bo-beanies

Have you ever been tortured? Have you ever been abandoned and left for dead on the roads without food or support or money? Have you ever been hated and cursed abd betrayed by people you trusted. Have you ever been discarded like youre garbage and sent to abusers they knew fully about. Have you ever lay dying and wait for something, starving, that never comes. Have you ever been abused and assaulted, and the people you trusted fed you to the wolves without a word. Have you ever been sent to the ER again and again, but nobody cares about your suffering, and you're left there alone

I believed you with all my heart. That friends were there for you during hard times. You encouraged me to fight back. I did. Then you took everything, and left me on the roads to die.

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so im always on the other side of it. Only members of the garden are allowed to have human value. If I tell the truth im not believed, I end up in the ER. If I lie im tortured, i still end up in the ER. If I reach out for help, I dont get any. If I do things alone, I mess everything up.

If I talk about myself, im being selfish. But if I talk about rory, im being obsessive. When bean did something abusive and traumatizing, it doesnt matter and they are forgiven, "because it was a long time ago and you need to get over it". When i also have a panic attack because of a disorder, ages ago, its held over my head forever and my cries for help go ignored. Unlike them, i don't even get a chance to explain anything at all

If your friends make a mistake, you gather and support them, and see the best in them. If I did what bean or pea did, you would hate me instantly without trial. But, they get hundreds of chances, understanding, and care. Where you see the best in them, and understand they are human beings who make mistakes and make effort to be better. When i do the exact same things, you only see the worst in me and punish me for it, even though id do everything,  EVERYTHING you told me to do, when it hurt. When I got meds and therapy, I was abused even worse for trying

When I was worried and overprotective and had a panic attack, from disorders I could not control. i am still a bad person despite it, you cannot "trust me on the merit of im just like that." But with pea, who does the same thing and causes someone extreme harm, your excuse is they are being overprotective and "are just like that." The exact opposite of me. I could go on like this for hours, but if I talk about it, Im guilting you. If I dont talk about it, I end up back here, in the hospital or on the street.

You didn't abandon them for making the exact same mistakes. I only got worse after 7 months of this abuse and torture, a fact you steadily ignore. You even mocked me for my illness, going lmaooo, you couldn't even last a single day!!

If I tried to talk to you, I was breaking your boundaries and smothering you. If I offered to disappear and never talk about it, then I was isolating myself and being hurtful to others. If bean mentioend "this is what a good friend would do," they are being kind. If I do the same thing, I am being manipulative

There was never a right answer. Ive tried to ask you what the right answer is for months. But I've been abandoned, hated, isolated, and tortured for events that were not my fault and not under my control. For the things that were, i apologized, made real effort to change, but it didnt matter and I completely lost it. Have you ever been tortured? By people you cared about? Can you give me back my cat? My home? My life? My savings, my job, my bed?? You took everything from me and told me it was my fault

If im angry, its exaggerated out of context and shared to everyone. If im in dire pain, its completely ignored and irrelevant. You told me I could always talk about problems, but then you completely ignored the messages or didnt acknowledge them, instead of communicating it wasn't okay (you are aware i have autism, if you dont tell me, I will not understand.) If I talk about my illness or my autism, im using it as a shield. But if I try and ignore it, it cripples me.

In private, you expressed you liked being called a girl. When I call you a girl (out of habit, and yes, because i wanted to upset you) during a fight, you call me transphobic and spread this misinformation to everyone you know. Im a trans person. Do you know how much worse it feels to see you use my dead name, to frame me for real criminal activity i did not do, using my dead name, too? im the only one telling the truth. Even if its embarassing or hard, i am the ONLY one who has been telling the truth, and that hurts the most.

You told me you enjoyed my curiosity, my questions, and my general interest in learning about the world i had never before been able to know. Now, the same behavior is called stalkerish and unacceptable. Im told to stand up for myself, like not being told who to date, or to stand up to my brother's abuse. I told Bean "no" they dont get to control who I date and how i dress and who i speak to. But when I did, my life was destroyed, and my abuse at home increased. I fought because of you and what did it give us?

When bean is emotional, it isn't their fault, its their illness, they are just scared, and its okay. When I felt the exact same thing and got therapy and meds the exact same way, it was my fault for being born that way, and the only support I recieved was Peas verbal abuse, and more hate texts.

This line is constantly being redrawn by you and everything is always my fault, no matter how hard I tried or what I do. Even when I have one foot in the grave, im belittled, yelled at, ignored, abandoned, gossiped about, despised and left for dead. My hospitalizations and your police calls have real consequences, and you don't even have the decency to allow me to talk about it like an adult, in private. Youve caused real harm to a real persons life, but i was just an anime doll, a toy that doesnt matter when you finished playing with him.

When they do something for you, like get you something, its a kind gesture. When I do the same thing, even if its all the money left I had, its seen as malicious and im "lying" about my wealth. You never had any interest in my platform or my fans until you could use it as some story that im evil and *chose* to have these illnesses. That i tried for 7 months to stop, until I couldnt take it anymore. I really could go on but this is already so long, and im being repetitive. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to speak with someone who cares about me

Nothing matters, and nobody cares. When i try to explain it really is like torture, that my disorder is the most painful in the world, and just like schizophrenia I can't just "get over it." When I explain that, im "lying and faking for attention." Despite photos and medical records showing clear as day its not. Things ive sent in private during attacks, you have exaggerated and escalated as literal crimes i did not do. You think im trying to take down your blog or something. When I've literally just been trying to stay out of the ER. Im trying to survive, and you take them as personal attacks against yourselves

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so I am never on the right side of it. It was OK for bean to use, abuse, control and manipulate me, but, but it was not okay for me to express the trauma they caused me or to have a panic attack about what happened. Nothing I do matters, and every answer is always the wrong answer. Im not even mentioning the abuse and immense suffering you did to me explicitly because believe it or not i care about your privacy. *you* put me here. You'll never understand the absolute hell I've been through on the streets..and its because of you

To the random people seeing this lengthy message; yes, im aware its spam and this isn't how you handle interpersonal relationships. Ive tried to handle it privately, 100+ times. Just block me

It's time to PONDER, fellas...

[thatonedudeinthecorner]

Shawn Spencer you will always be famous to me…..

[jynxedshapeshifter]

it's really funny to me that it's mentioned a few times in Spirit of Justice that Nahyuta can accurately read a trial's outcome and karma and it's never really relevant. it gets mentioned more than once but it's never relevant during the trial itself. like it genuinely feels like the writers were like "we made the last prosecutor a master of psychological manipulation, what do we do with this one" as if "religious zealot monk prosecutor who's being blackmailed and views murder trials as the last rites of the victim" doesn't fit the traditional "all ace attorney prosecutors have something going on" formula on its own

[negativecoolmedicalbills]

@oripoke @bo-beanies

Have you ever been tortured? Have you ever been abandoned and left for dead on the roads without food or support or money? Have you ever been hated and cursed abd betrayed by people you trusted. Have you ever been discarded like youre garbage and sent to abusers they knew fully about. Have you ever lay dying and wait for something, starving, that never comes. Have you ever been abused and assaulted, and the people you trusted fed you to the wolves without a word. Have you ever been sent to the ER again and again, but nobody cares about your suffering, and you're left there alone

I believed you with all my heart. That friends were there for you during hard times. You encouraged me to fight back. I did. Then you took everything, and left me on the roads to die.

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so im always on the other side of it. Only members of the garden are allowed to have human value. If I tell the truth im not believed, I end up in the ER. If I lie im tortured, i still end up in the ER. If I reach out for help, I dont get any. If I do things alone, I mess everything up.

If I talk about myself, im being selfish. But if I talk about rory, im being obsessive. When bean did something abusive and traumatizing, it doesnt matter and they are forgiven, "because it was a long time ago and you need to get over it". When i also have a panic attack because of a disorder, ages ago, its held over my head forever and my cries for help go ignored. Unlike them, i don't even get a chance to explain anything at all

If your friends make a mistake, you gather and support them, and see the best in them. If I did what bean or pea did, you would hate me instantly without trial. But, they get hundreds of chances, understanding, and care. Where you see the best in them, and understand they are human beings who make mistakes and make effort to be better. When i do the exact same things, you only see the worst in me and punish me for it, even though id do everything,  EVERYTHING you told me to do, when it hurt. When I got meds and therapy, I was abused even worse for trying

When I was worried and overprotective and had a panic attack, from disorders I could not control. i am still a bad person despite it, you cannot "trust me on the merit of im just like that." But with pea, who does the same thing and causes someone extreme harm, your excuse is they are being overprotective and "are just like that." The exact opposite of me. I could go on like this for hours, but if I talk about it, Im guilting you. If I dont talk about it, I end up back here, in the hospital or on the street.

You didn't abandon them for making the exact same mistakes. I only got worse after 7 months of this abuse and torture, a fact you steadily ignore. You even mocked me for my illness, going lmaooo, you couldn't even last a single day!!

If I tried to talk to you, I was breaking your boundaries and smothering you. If I offered to disappear and never talk about it, then I was isolating myself and being hurtful to others. If bean mentioend "this is what a good friend would do," they are being kind. If I do the same thing, I am being manipulative

There was never a right answer. Ive tried to ask you what the right answer is for months. But I've been abandoned, hated, isolated, and tortured for events that were not my fault and not under my control. For the things that were, i apologized, made real effort to change, but it didnt matter and I completely lost it. Have you ever been tortured? By people you cared about? Can you give me back my cat? My home? My life? My savings, my job, my bed?? You took everything from me and told me it was my fault

If im angry, its exaggerated out of context and shared to everyone. If im in dire pain, its completely ignored and irrelevant. You told me I could always talk about problems, but then you completely ignored the messages or didnt acknowledge them, instead of communicating it wasn't okay (you are aware i have autism, if you dont tell me, I will not understand.) If I talk about my illness or my autism, im using it as a shield. But if I try and ignore it, it cripples me.

In private, you expressed you liked being called a girl. When I call you a girl (out of habit, and yes, because i wanted to upset you) during a fight, you call me transphobic and spread this misinformation to everyone you know. Im a trans person. Do you know how much worse it feels to see you use my dead name, to frame me for real criminal activity i did not do, using my dead name, too? im the only one telling the truth. Even if its embarassing or hard, i am the ONLY one who has been telling the truth, and that hurts the most.

You told me you enjoyed my curiosity, my questions, and my general interest in learning about the world i had never before been able to know. Now, the same behavior is called stalkerish and unacceptable. Im told to stand up for myself, like not being told who to date, or to stand up to my brother's abuse. I told Bean "no" they dont get to control who I date and how i dress and who i speak to. But when I did, my life was destroyed, and my abuse at home increased. I fought because of you and what did it give us?

When bean is emotional, it isn't their fault, its their illness, they are just scared, and its okay. When I felt the exact same thing and got therapy and meds the exact same way, it was my fault for being born that way, and the only support I recieved was Peas verbal abuse, and more hate texts.

This line is constantly being redrawn by you and everything is always my fault, no matter how hard I tried or what I do. Even when I have one foot in the grave, im belittled, yelled at, ignored, abandoned, gossiped about, despised and left for dead. My hospitalizations and your police calls have real consequences, and you don't even have the decency to allow me to talk about it like an adult, in private. Youve caused real harm to a real persons life, but i was just an anime doll, a toy that doesnt matter when you finished playing with him.

When they do something for you, like get you something, its a kind gesture. When I do the same thing, even if its all the money left I had, its seen as malicious and im "lying" about my wealth. You never had any interest in my platform or my fans until you could use it as some story that im evil and *chose* to have these illnesses. That i tried for 7 months to stop, until I couldnt take it anymore. I really could go on but this is already so long, and im being repetitive. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to speak with someone who cares about me

Nothing matters, and nobody cares. When i try to explain it really is like torture, that my disorder is the most painful in the world, and just like schizophrenia I can't just "get over it." When I explain that, im "lying and faking for attention." Despite photos and medical records showing clear as day its not. Things ive sent in private during attacks, you have exaggerated and escalated as literal crimes i did not do. You think im trying to take down your blog or something. When I've literally just been trying to stay out of the ER. Im trying to survive, and you take them as personal attacks against yourselves

You are constantly redrawing the line in the sand so I am never on the right side of it. It was OK for bean to use, abuse, control and manipulate me, but, but it was not okay for me to express the trauma they caused me or to have a panic attack about what happened. Nothing I do matters, and every answer is always the wrong answer. Im not even mentioning the abuse and immense suffering you did to me explicitly because believe it or not i care about your privacy. *you* put me here. You'll never understand the absolute hell I've been through on the streets..and its because of you

To the random people seeing this lengthy message; yes, im aware its spam and this isn't how you handle interpersonal relationships. Ive tried to handle it privately, 100+ times. Just block me

festering

[alohaasaloevera]

guys I’m honestly happy that klance didn’t become canon because I love how as a collective group of people we utilize our right to explore what could have been and create the most smoking hot scenarios ever and yes I obviously wanted more of their friendship growing into this bond stronger than anything else in the universe especially since Voltron has teamwork and family as one of their main lessons but that’s more of a development issue all around…ok besides that there’s something about klance where it provides this PERFECT environment for shippers to inhabit and FEAST upon. With klance, there’s a solid, engaging dynamic between the two set up, which is this weird one-sided rivalry that stems from Lance’s insecurity and his need to prove himself of his worth and Keith literally being one of the best pilots for his age but since they’re flung into space and chosen to become child soldiers in this 10,000 year old intergalactic war so they have to work as a team which surprise surprise forces them to put aside their differences and work as a team which is shown a bunch when Keith needs to become a leader and Lance steps up as his right hand and and they have some kinda tender moments that won’t definitely drive shippers into a shipping craze (or worse) SO YEAH you could see why people loved it with all the classic tropes and mutual growth all that schmooze (ALSO THEY KNEW EACHOTHER BEFORE THE MAIN PLOT??? Well maybe not like friends or even acquaintances probably BUT HELLO?????? EVEN MORE SHIT TO EXPAND ON????), and they share multiple scenes that could be interpreted as romantic but there’s no explicit romance. This environment is fucking dripping drenched flash flooded cornered by 1000ft tsunamis in all directions with potential for shipping, so when people saw this relationship between two bros with this sort of homoerotic (IM JOKING. Kinda.) unresolved tension towards each other and the POTENTIAL for a good slow burn rivals to friends to lovers, it was to no one’s surprise that they went APESHIT. Klancers made countless different ways where they get together whether it be pre-Kerberos, post-gettingthefuckoutofearth, the start of the show, the end of the show, after the end of the show, right smack in the middle, anywhere, anytime, for who the fuck knows why just ANY REASON DAMN IT it doesn’t really matter because people were pumping out fanfiction or fan art or any fan media of klance faster than I spit out a raw baby carrot after chewing it for one second and now we’re all wallowing about how it should have been KICK but the thing is that if VLD did KICK all the way to Altea, the production of these beautiful stories that so many people have and still are coming up with about klance kissing in midst of a battle, helping each other with their crippling nightmares, smiling for the stars or some other sad premise, and whatever is nestled in his pulse…just like uhhh the amount of fics like these that go into great detail about Keith and Lance in these random situations that end up with them getting together being produced would go down to some degree because of the fact that if the people’s beloved sharpshooter and samurai had ended up together like we had wanted, and the majority was satisfied with the ending the creators had given, people would have shifted from writing about “How could Lance and Keith get together?” to writing about “What could Lance and Keith do now that they’re together?” And like. There’s nothing wrong with that honestly I would be HYPED if klance was ever canon but there is profound beauty in the way the community is able to create more from less and turn a show that went to shit in the last few seasons shine even brighter than it did at its prime. Like I wouldn’t trade my favorite fics 4 anything.

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Ok another little thing I’m going to put here: With Klance, all I wanted was for them to be great friends 😭😭😭. I tend to prefer klance becoming canon in later seasons or at the end or even an open ending with no confirmed romantic relationships because I am a sucker for character development and the idea of Keith and Lance both harboring these feelings that at first are just admiration and respect but then escalate to yearning for one another or becoming close friends at the end of the show and getting to imagine anything I want post canon is EVERYTHING if you give me S7 Garrison klance I’ll keel over and thank you like I was a second away from dying of thirst and your gift was a truck load of water

[okie-dokie-todoroki]

Honestly Shigaraki's insane hair growth over the course of a year feels a little slept on.

Is it his genetics? The quirks? *L'Oréal?*