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December 4th, 2023
Previous Drawing || Next Drawing Noelle just wanted to do some holiday shopping at sans' shop... the puns are infiltrating... losing.. hope.... eyes.... closing.................
#sans#noelle#art#starbe#superstarfruit#drawing#deltarune#deltarune fanart#digital artist#undertale#noelle deltarune#noelle holiday#comic#funny#daily drawing#sorry for the late post- I kinda was super busy today AUGHHH#but it's out now.... smiley face#enjoy
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Coffee Shop AU where Qimir is the hot barista and Osha and Mae can not figure out how he knows when they give him the wrong name for their orders.
#he starts drawing smiley faces in the O of Osha and it's how they figure out he likes her#listen...I'm in a weird place right now 😅#oshamir#osha x qimir#osha aniseya#mae aniseya#qimir#the acolyte#this is dumb idek if this makes sense 😂
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some 1b girl lineups so i can have all my little personal designs in one place :3 slightly inconsistent bc i drew them separately at first but fuck it we ball
no clothes versions that i made for myself to use as templates (yknow so i can draw clothes on top of them without having to draw them over and over again) and showcase my general appearance headcanons
how i think they like to wear their uniforms (looking at bakugo, UA seems pretty liberal about it so i get to have fun lol). obviously what they wear depends mostly on the weather but these are meant to be like,, their favorite combinations?
i really like the "long sleeve shirt with no blazer" look. kind of a shame no one in bnha seems to wear their uniform like this
the most important part!! the costumes!! putting the notes under the cut bc they ended up kinda long
i like Reiko's canon costume a lot, i just decided to give her fingerless gloves and make her kimono long and tattered for the spooky vibes. i used to also draw it with a reversed (right over left) collar bc that's how they dress dead people and Reiko's meant to have this ghost aesthetic but decided against it this time because maybe it's more culturally inappropriate than i think?? idk its not that big of a visual change so i'd rather play it safe
Setsuna is wearing my own costume design that i explained fully in an older post. i still like it, i just gave her spike bands on her legs instead of the same thing she wears on her forearms bc i decided i dont vibe with the total limb symmetry anymore lol
i spent a ridiculous amount of time trying to think up a redesign for Kendo only to settle for her canon costume with extra bandages/cloth wraps (theyre cool) and ordinary combat boots instead of the ones she wears in canon (i just don't vibe with them). i guess sometimes less is more or whatever
Pony is wearing @doodlegraveyard's awesome redesign :) pastel cowgirl swag
Ibara's design is by m0chicakes, i still think its amazing
Yui's costume also takes a lot from doodlegraveyard's design, i just decided to try blue as her accessory color to distinguish her color palette from my Momo design
Kinoko's canon costume is just *chefs kiss* so the only thing i changed was the color of her shoes. her sleeves are short here bc i thought it could look cute for a summer version of her costume, the winter version keeps the long fluffy sleeves. her spray guns were pissing me off so i decided not to draw them but trust me they're here in spirit
i might post winter edits for some of these later :)
edit: posted in a reblog!!
#bnha#class 1b#reiko yanagi#setsuna tokage#itsuka kendo#pony tsunotori#ibara shiozaki#yui kodai#kinoko komori#bnha redesign#tikto's art#okay smiley face time OVER complaining time is NOW#i do like it enough to post but i am less than happy with how some of this stuff turned out if i gotta be honest#ponys pastel ass linework colors. everyones feet and shoes. kinoko's chicken legs. honestly kinoko in general#im sorry girl i couldnt do you justice but i redrew you like 3 times and still wasn't happy so i had to settle with what i had TwT
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Fluent Freshman - Part 12
PREVIOUS
If there was one thing no one would ever guess about FF it is that he unapologetically LOVES Black Friday.
You may be thinking. Ugh Black Friday. Everyone is so rude and tired. The deals aren’t even that good. It can turn into a blood sport at the drop of a hat over a toaster that is 15% off.
You are correct.
That is why FF loves it.
It is the one shopping day of the year where every single one of his instincts are correct, valid, and useful. He has pulled his gran out of the way of elbow drops, he has avoided the gaze of a woman in PINK sweat pants who was looking for someone to steal a blender from, and he knows without a doubt that the cashier hates him already so there’s no need to worry about whether or not they hate him.
It’s like a breath of fresh air!
Everyone is just as antagonistic and awful as he thinks they are!
Shopping is actually the blood sport he always feels like it is!
So there he is standing in a line at the nearest store (Target) waiting to be let in with the masses who all look ready to stab one another for better positioning for a TV. The jokes on them though because his only goal is the grocery section and he deals with the threat of repeated stabbings for BREAKFAST.
He spots an IHOP in the distance and hopes his gran doesn’t feel too lonely. They’ve gotten buttermilk stacks together at the IHOP by the mall for years after the two of them finished Christmas Shopping.
Someone elbows him in the side to get his spot in line but FF does not really care. Again, he doubts any of these people are going to be racing him to the all purpose flour.
It’s 4 AM and the barricades come down.
There’s a rush of people pushing and shoving but FF just steps to the side and watches as they all rush in. He’d mostly stayed in the line because the throng of people made it easier to stay warm. He had left his jacket back at the house because the five hour energy might be making his skin feel super sensitive but he is pretty sure that if he wore his nylon jacket he would die.
The five hour energy also may be upping his anxiety just a little bit.
He walks into the store at a leisurely pace and while the crowd fights over the carts he grabs one of the baskets. He can feel the eyes of other shoppers all wondering if he has some insider knowledge on a good deal that would only require the basket or if it’s a matter of who gets to the back to receive the ‘redeem’ coupon.
He sees a few shoppers get lured in by his siren call and much like a siren following anything that FF is about to do will undoubtedly lead to their downfall.
But FF doesn’t care about that.
He cares about HIS downfall.
So he makes his way to the grocery section and ignores the six different shopping assistants who try and guide him to where he ‘should’ be shopping and each of them only give him increasingly confused looks when he states his intention to go to the grocery section every single time.
Is it easier to ignore their stares when the five hour energy have set his baseline heart rate to something that might be too fast to register as a heartbeat? Maybe.
It is easier to ignore the confusion on their faces when he can see both the past (he asked for TWO favors from Andrew in one day how is he still alive???) and the future (still malleable at the moment apparently. There’s even a future where Andrew actually just is trying to make overtures of friendship but he dismisses that one as INCREDIBLY unlikely and looks at the far more viable one where Andrew at least makes his death quick while he enjoys his great gran’s brownies.)
It’s good to set reasonable goals for yourself.
So he arrives at the grocery section which is deserted aside from one employee who may or may not be asleep against a shelf. FF looks and….not a shelf he needs so he is not about to wake that poor man up.
So he gets everything he needs for his great gran’s brownies (he’s trying to buy his life here so he is not about to assume he can use ANYTHING in the house), the ingredients for a good breakfast (because he really needs to eat something that is not a five hour energy or sugar for the sake of his poor stomach and he may as well get enough for everyone), and (since Captain Neil mentioned it & he is trying to buy his life here) the ingredients to bake another pie.
While he grabs cinnamon he checks to see if they have grandma’s love in stock but, alas, it continues to be unavailable commercially.
He stares at the whipped cream for so long that the employee asleep in the other aisle woke up and asked if he needed help and, startled, he dropped it in his basket. “No I’m good.” He says before power walking out of the grocery department and deciding to brave the Home Goods section to buy some incense so that he can hopefully channel the spirit of his great gran to assist him in this, the darkest of his baking hours.
He arrives at the check out stations and finds the shortest line .
He can feel eyes on him, inspecting his purchases, judging them, judging him, who the fuck goes grocery shopping during the Black Friday rush?
FF.
FF goes grocery shopping during the Black Friday rush.
The cashier looks for hidden cameras but FF has no such thing accompanying him today or ever (as far as he knows.)
After a moment the cashier must look at the ever growing line and decide that whatever scheme they think FF is up to isn’t worth trying to figure out. They offer a membership card, FF valiantly declines to get one despite the two attempts.
He is out the door with four bags of groceries that all have a target on them that feels a little too correct. It’s 6 AM now (he really did lose a lot of time at the whipped cream section) and he’s walking back to the house in Columbia.
He actually feels a little bit better since he at least got to experience his actual favorite blood sport (sorry Exy) and he even got another 2 five hour energies while he was in the check out line so he could replace some of the ones that he had gone through.
“Smith?”
He would like to thank the combined weight of the groceries for keeping his feet on the ground when he heard Captain Neil’s voice.
He turns and Captain Neil is looking at him wide-eyed in his running gear that Smith has seen him in. “You were shopping??” He asks.
FF nods and lifts up the four bags as evidence. “Why didn’t you pick up your phone?” He asks.
FF almost scoffs but he doesn’t, “You can’t be distracted when you’re in a Target on Black Friday. That’s how you take an elbow to the eye.” He responds because it’s like Captain Neil has never experienced the WWE-like environment of Black Friday shopping.
Captain Neil blinks at him.
“Text Andrew or me next time you’re going to go off into the night or just let us know beforehand. Andrew would have driven you.” Captain Neil says and grabs two of the bags out of FF’s hand. “C’mon let’s get back and maybe you can get some sleep.” Captain Neil sighs.
“I’m fine.” FF adjusts the bags so he has one in each hand.
Captain Neil does not say anything so FF assumes that he has accepted that.
***
FF had not been asleep on the couch when Neil had walked through the living room. Neil, in a move that had Andrew fully waking up, went back to the room to check his phone to see if FF had texted him an update on going out. All that greets Neil is the impersonal series of texts that mostly confirmed when practice times had been changed, when the bus was leaving, and spelling on various Spanish words.
FF isn’t a big text person.
He’s more of an in-person kind of friend.
Neil likes that about him most of the time.
“What.” Andrew asks face still half buried in Neil’s pillow.
“Smith isn’t on the couch.”
That has Andrew getting up despite the early hour and their activities the night before. Neil watches as Andrew grabs his own phone to scroll through but seems to come up with the same lack of communication that Neil does.
Andrew does do the extra step and hit the call button.
But all he gets is the confirmation that the VM has not been configured that has greeted them every time FF misses their calls. (Voicemails make FF anxious so when he got his new phone he just…never configured it.)
Neil knew that FF was not pleased with them and somehow the calm request to either stop fooling around or let him out had hit him and Andrew harder than any of the screaming demands that the two of them were usually met with from Nicky, Kevin, Aaron, or any of the other Foxes.
“You said he wasn’t mad.” Neil says.
“He nodded.” Andrew confirms.
“Maybe he went on a walk?” Neil tries as they come out to the living room. They look at the front door and find that it’s locked but it looks like Aaron’s keys are gone. “He probably is going to come back if he took Aaron’s keys since Aaron wouldn’t be the one he’d be irritated with.” Neil rationalizes.
“He didn’t bring his jacket.” Andrew says looking at the black jacket still on the hook by the door.
“We can go and see if we spot him.” Neil offers.
Andrew nods and Neil heads out first since Andrew is still in his sleeping clothes and will need some time.
Neil had not expected to find FF walking back to the house with groceries for breakfast and the pie that Neil had mentioned hoping they could bake at the house.
“Is this for the pie?” He asks looking down at what was in the bags he was carrying as the walked back to the house. Neil managed to shoot off a quick text letting Andrew know that it was fine, FF just went grocery shopping.
FF just nods, “Got everything but Grandma’s love.” He says.
FF is a nice guy to brave the stores on a morning like this but FF also looks like he hasn’t slept a wink.
“Did you sleep at all last night?” Neil asks.
“I’m fine.” FF repeats.
Neil really is starting to understand his friends’ hatred for the phrase.
They get back to the house and Andrew is sat out in the living room. FF stops and blinks at the sight of him sitting there.
It is a well-known fact that Andrew does not willingly wake up early most days unless he has to. Neil is glad that Andrew has a friend that he’s coming to care about the way Andrew cares about FF.
Andrew gets up and yanks the bags out of FF’s hands. “Go to sleep. Today will be irritating if you’re half-asleep.” He says with a scowl and walks to the kitchen to put away the groceries FF had bought.
FF just looks at where Andrew had gone uncomprehendingly for a few moments and Neil figures he’s just tired. Neil feels guilty that him and Andrew messing around in the car like that had rendered FF unable to sleep and the two of them had agreed last night that from now on when FF is in the car they can talk all they want but hands stay on the wheel and eyes stay on the road.
FF is plopped down on the couch when Andrew and Neil come out of the kitchen after putting away the groceries (“These are the ingredients for brownies.” Andrew had noted as he put away melting chocolate.) and he’s looking through his flashcards again and not sleeping. He hears Andrew make a disgusted noise next to him and the next thing he knows Andrew is smacking the cards out of FF’s hands.
“Go. To. Sleep.” Andrew enunciates.
FF stares at him, then down at the flashcards. “I don’t think I can.” He says which is better than him lying and saying he wasn’t tired even if the truth had Andrew’s mouth stretch into a thin line that meant he was beating himself up for something.
“Try.” Andrew orders. “Just lay down and close your eyes. Nothing will happen to you while you’re sleeping.” He says.
FF blinks but nods turning on the couch and laying down. The blanket is still over on the lazy boy that Neil had set it on the night before and Andrew rolls his eyes before grabbing it and tossing it over FF.
“Thanks.” FF says before closing his eyes.
Neil looks to Andrew who nods and Neil accepts that there’s nothing else to be done for now and heads out on his run.
***
FF can admit that he’s a bit adrift in what Andrew and Captain Neil are doing right now.
He really should go grab another five hour energy because falling asleep IN FRONT of an irritated Andrew Minyard feels like a death sentence but “Nothing will happen to you while you’re sleeping.” And having a blanket thrown over him did not feel like a threat even if he can feel Andrew’s eyes watching him.
FF is tired and when he’s tired he tends to make stupid decisions. So FF lets himself drift off to sleep while the man who was likely going to move him to a secondary location sat and watched.
His dreams are not peaceful.
He’s running, can’t escape, an echo of words he should have considered before letting himself drift off and he knows he’s going to DIE.
He wakes up with a start to the smell of bacon, eggs, and hashed browns with Nicky standing over him. “Hey there sleeping beauty! I made you a plate!” He says and hands FF a plate of breakfast that smiles up at him with a bacon mouth, egg eyes, and hashed brown hair.
FF takes the plate and digs in immediately. He needs his strength.
“Today will be irritating if you’re half-asleep.”
Andrew Minyard was going to hunt him for SPORT.
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#Fluent Freshman AU#Did Andrew watch FF sleep for an hour to make sure he actually got some sleep?#Yes#Did Andrew find the 2 five hour energies and throw them out while putting the money FF spent on them in his wallet?#Also Yes#Nicky wakes up and remembers that he promised FF that he could sleep in his room#So he is trying to make it up to FF with smiley face breakfast#FF's love of Black Friday mirrors my own#Do I like the deals? Eh. Do I like the barely concealed threat of violence? YEAH BABY#We go visit my Fam in Ohio for Thanksgiving and then me my mom and my aunt make a battle plan#Mom's on grabbing duty since she's tall while my Aunt and I are on protection detail#I got a black eye one year but the Xbox 360 was worth it for Tales of Vesperia#then we get IHOP#I miss when it started at like 5 AM#Now it just starts on Thanksgiving which is bullshit#I ain't moving from my turkey coma#AFTG Fic#AFTG#AFTG AU#AFTG OC#AFTG Shitpost#Andreil#FF - Pt. 12
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#why are you GREY !!!!!! STOP !!!!!!#ummm. heir of blood slyph of hope bnt is as good as its gonna get im like the worst person to be doing this#coughs slyph is a girl exclusive class but i dont. care.#okay talking about all teh details i put in here now bc i feel like it i usually dont point em out when i do this sorta thing but. now i a#teds save the humans patch is now like. anti culling something cuz. id assume thatd be a good equivilent#also his smiley face patch is the trollian logo. and his quirk has the smiley face because in both movies he has a smiley face somewhere#both of their oants patches match their colors irl#tbh there uh. wanst really anything for bill. his quirks a wyld stallyns ref though#doodles#bill and ted#homestuck#fantroll#trollsona#bill s preston esquire#ted theodore logan#were doing cringeposting again today guys. sick#i like just realized i fucked up the layers on the text oops !!!! whatever#oh oh and the reason that teds wearing more teal and bill isnt wearing much olive is bc of hemospectrum shit like how nepeta has a bunch of#blue on her design but equius has like no olive
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hanamaki takahiro big fan of stickers!!!!!!! he puts the nice vinyl ones on his water bottle laptop notebooks etc as decorations they’re Everywhere they’re so unique and fun and cutesy why wouldn’t he customize his things he just really likes stickers!!!!!
buuuut his favorites are the ones that aren’t strictly meant to be reused they’re “one and done” the ones he has to restick. fruit stickers item labels barcodes gold stars price tags anything he can get his nails under to pry off and stick somewhere else. sometimes these become permanent decorations with the other real stickers but usually he just sticks them Elsewhere . on the bottom of shoes on the back of issei’s shirt on the underside of desks and walls of bathroom stalls on the inside of hajime’s jacket hood on the legs of the volleyball carts and the handle of the broom in the closet on tooru’s backpack and in his hair on the cover of textbooks and all over blank notebook pages on video game controllers and doorframes and unsuspecting bystanders anywhere he can reach whatever happens to be closest and in need of stickering. it’s not usually done maliciously it’s more like he sees a sticker he peels it off he has it on his finger what now. if there’s nowhere to put it he sticks it on his leg to deal with later sometimes it’s hours before he remembers or sees it again he’s just walking around with a sticker leg no one pays any mind it’s one of the least unusual aspects of his appearance. yeah hanamaki takahiro and stickers !!!!!he’d wallpaper his room with them if given the chance
#stickers in oikawa’s hair is malicious btw and he plays dumb but he will admit it#there’s a cabinet in his house he’s Covered the inside in stickers if his mom ever finds out he’s cooked#stickers in his pants pockets they go through the wash now Everything’s sticky#hanamaki takahiro big sticker guy!!!#puffy stickers glitter stickers scratch and sniff stickers clear stickers paper stickers hello kitty stickers sequin stickers smiley face s#hanamaki takahiro#seijoh 4#haikyuu
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i've gone to sleep angry and woken up angry every day since last saturday
#the flatmate who moved out was made CRYSTAL clear of her contractual duties to keep paying rent until she's been replaced on the lease#just like the other flatmate who moved out (and flatmate B is a student who works part time and has a deadbeat dad she can't move home to)#flatmate A works full time and will be living at home rent free and only moved out to go on a free holiday to mexico with her sisters#but it's flatmate A who's throwing a tantrum saying she wants her bond back and wants to stop paying rent now#even though no one's moved in to replace her on the lease WHICH WAS THE STIPULATION OF HER BREAKING IT EARLY#she KNEW this and she avoided all attempts at conversation about it before she moved out#but now that we're not face to face she's so brave over text with her lawyer sisters in her ear trying to tell us we're fucking her over#and trying to get us to pay HER RENT on top of our own#it's a fixed term lease you can only break it if you abide by the conditions the landlord sets#and the conditions were that she find someone to replace her on the lease#she's claiming that bc flatmate c (who's staying in the flat) moved into her room out of his couples room (bc him and flatmate b broke up)#that that somehow counts as her being replaced on the lease#no matter how many times we tell her that's not the case because how the fuck could he replace her when he's already on the lease#she refuses to listen. IT'S A ONE IN OUT SYSTEM BABE AND YOU'RE STILL IN#it's just soooooo shitty and sneaky like we've been friends for three years and now she's throwing it all away for WHAT#i hate people pleasers i hate people who hide their selfishness and sneakiness behind smiley faces and kisses#how is it in ANY way fair that the rest of us pay her rent so she can go on holidays. yeah i'd fucking like that too girl#it's stressing me out so bad because she's trying so hard to get between us all and tell one person that the other person said something#and then you ask the other person and they say no i absolutely did not say that#and we have proof evidence and facts on her side but she refuses to believe them#anyways. we've referred this all on to our landlord now so now it's her problem and out of our hands#ugh. it just sucks because we were really close friends and now what are we
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I both love and hate how I resort to sleeping every time I'm stressed and/or things just aren't going very good </3
#like there are def worse coping mechanisms#so I try not to worry abt it too much#but I wish I could stop trying to run away/avoid the problem by sleeping instead of actually.yk.facing it and getting it over with#but at the same time ew no#I love just escaping to my dream world like idc if the dream is mundane or a nightmare by that point#just anything so I don't have to think abt what's happening in the real world..sigh#but then I wake up and I'm like wait a min I feel like I'm supposed to be stressed abt something rn#THEN I REMEMBER AND AM LIKE OKAY I REMEMBER NOW BYE honk shoo honk shoo#I'm just thinking abt this rn bcz I just did this today#literally slept all day bcz I didn't want to face something that wasn't even that serious :[#but it stressed me out so bad and I don't even know why#it's nothing anybody here did btw it's an irl thing xD#so dw dw!#and I ended up dealing with it in the end it's just bsdhfabskhfna#I hate this :((#I also had smiley days by hibiki ganaha playing in my head when I woke up for the last time xD#that doesn't have to do with anything I just thought it was kinda funny BASHBDHASBD#plus it did kinda make me feel better when I woke up bcz the song SLAPS
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Me when I forget that some of the things I do and think are genuinely concerning and problematic instead of silly and quirky
#listen it’s a heart and a smiley face it’s kinda cute#and it shouldn’t leave scars#unless the sharpie ink decides to be mean#no more context btw figure it out lol#like I though this was silly and now I’m having a semi serious conversation with my friend about why self harm is bad#ITS NOT PROPER SH I PROMISE#it’s just like#sillies#idk#I want to be funny but it feels like now is not a good time to be funny#idk man
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Hey check out my new OCs Ah-Lecks YIIK and Artie WHF who are totally not existing indie game characters that I thought would be funny to turn into background cameos in R&RWG. They have no idea who the other person is, Ah-lecks just keeps sitting at the same table as Artie and giving his life's story to this stranger who seems to be listening while Artie tries forgetting his past and I'll add more details once I've actually played We Happy Few most of my knowledge right now is secondhand and watching my friend play bits of it
#skys doodly doodles#ah-lecks#artie#suicide mention#i didnt even notice i forgot ah-lecks stupid mustache until now. i waxed it off of him for his crimes i guess#artie gets a smiley face mask because the original mask would be out of place#also no idea how ill incorporate percy into this version or if i even need to make it a proper thing#since artie is just 'guy in the background who looks and talks like arthur from we happy few'
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So like, what's the best thing your crush could have said while still turning you down? I'm flattered doesn't seem so bad to me
-with a smiley face and that she appreciates me saying that
and we are missing the bigger picture here. she led me on (attested to by many of my friends who knew about this) and was calling me pet names like "bae, babe, mi amor," and saying "i love you" (out of nowhere and like we do not hang out outside of work so like we are barely friends outside of being coworkers) and shit like that and just looking at me the way friends do not look at each other and just making me feel like she was kinda interested in me as well. she gets jealous whenever i talk about how someone else is attractive, especially men (im bi), said that im a catch, "a hottie in a hot bod" and literally follows me around everywhere i go. starts touching me more frequently as soon as she figured out that my love language is physical touch, started saying cute shit as soon as i told her it's right above words of affirmation. and mind you, she was not like that at all when i first met her or like that with anyone else, she was usually pretty quiet and kept to herself and doesnt share anything about herself outside of work.
but all of that can be pushed aside. i am not forcing/expecting and will never force/expect anyone to like me, especially after being on the receiving end of "confessions" and hearing them say "but why doesnt she like me???? im tall, fit, go to the gym, and do good in school" what made it bad was that she would tease me incessantly to the point of making me feel like shit, and think that im joking around all the time, that im pouting or whatever when i tell her point blank that im mad/sad/upset/that she's being mean, and that just because i smile at her (which she would literally wheedle out of me) or hug her (bc for some reason i would feel bad sometimes about being upset with her??? when it's my emotions??) i forgive her, when that is not the case. she would say im sorry sometimes, when she's seen that im pissed or she's hit a nerve, but in this weird voice and tone that implies that she's sorry that im mad/upset (bc when i am i am not as affectionate and "cute" or whatever, and my default mood at work is cheerful/friendly and she wants it back??) not of what she said. and there was a time i think where ive explained to her exactly why i wasnt my usual self too and she just... brushes it off?
so my mood/emotions would be literally up and down up and down like a damn roller coaster whenever we work together with her stupid teasing and pet names and "i love you so much's" and touching/loving words, and i would be so confused and sad over what was going on, and cry on the days that were bad. i obv didnt tell her why it affected me so much, bc that involved my crush on her, but just to a normal coworker/friend i feel like you should realize when's the time to stop, especially when i have flat out told you that im mad/sad/upset/that you're being mean or whatever. you know?
and there was no way that she didnt notice that i am not as affectionate and touchy and complimentary and stuff with my other coworkers compared to her.
and so in the response to my confession after that sentence of "im flattered" and that she appreciates me saying that ive fucking had a crush on her for a year and a half and had felt awful at work that day (a bad day in which i had originally planned to confess in-person), she asked me to tell her about what happened specifically that made me feel bad "so that (she) can move forward."
so yeah, in reply to your question anon, i think i was just hoping for a little bit of empathy.
#she also hadnt specifically said she doesnt like me that way which i personally feel like was needed for me to move on#she just... said im flattered#with a damn smiley face?? like she enjoyed the attention#but whatever lol im over it and its petty to hate someone over this#i just want to let out my feelings and move on now#wenz can talk#anon ask#and also for those ts fans out there too she’d absolutely trashed on her before i got SO pissed and she backed off
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my family is like "why dont you show initiative to do xyz?" and then when i show initiative they're like "actually no, you're not allowed to go anywhere or do anything"
#my uncle next door broke his wrist and i was like ''please let me go to the hospital after him so he has a coat and i can bring him home''#and NOPE i aint allowed to leave the house bc the roads are still melting out from the ice even tho they're safer now than 3 days ago#when same uncle's washing machine broke i approached all my other uncles with a plan for replacing it bc uncle next door has limited income#and they viciously tore that plan to shreds and then my passive aggressive aunt got involved and was really freaking rude about it#and im just :upside down smiley face: STOP DISINCENTIVIZING ME TO CARE FOR YOU WHEN YOU ARE OLD#not that uncle next door is its just the rest of the family#jess talks too much
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Redesigned to clear up misunderstandings? 🤭
#an attempt was made anyway#dlable#not a misspelling#daesung#bigbang#dlite#btw someone pointed out that it looks like a face (a smiley face) and now I can't unsee it#kinda creepy tho
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dawn of man's constant low morale problem before you research the beer technology if anything is proof that indeed there is no happiness without alcohol.
#dawn of man#gaming#once you reach like 80 people there is someone dying every minute#plus apparently storms get more common after you discover agriculture???#i'm getting one per season at this point#and every thunder is a morality hit or so it seems#literally everyone in my settlement had that yellow smiley face above their head all the time#then i invented beer#and had them build 2 brewing stations#and i've never had problems with depression in my settlement ever since (so far)#i mainly planted grains for straw because i like having a literal farm and no i'm not getting rid of the goats just because i have cows now#so i'm using the extra grain for beers since i'm getting stacks of 150 of them every autumn#it seems to be working out#everything fits and my people are happy for the first time in history#this is what an advanced economy looks like#first we ate the grains now we give them to the animals so we can eat them and we use the byproduct for entertainment#'tags can't be longer than 140' tumblr is actually twitter now and no one told me
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if you get this answer with your top 5 music artists and send it to the last 7 people in your notifications 🎵🖤
YESSS THANK YOU
TOP FIVE, I CAN ACTUALLY ANSWER THIS NOW WITHOUT IT BEING JUST THE SAME ONE FIVE TIMES.
okay it says top 5 music artists, i don't know if i'm supposed to list specific musicians or if i can do whole bands.
but i'm going to do both now. you get two lists. just because when it comes to having an opportunity to talk about my favorite music, i am like a seagull that found an entire french fry on the parking lot.
they're not listed in order by what i like more because i like my favorite bands and my favorite people equally or else they wouldn't be favorites i think.
because that's how my mind works. at least right now anyway. i'll order them by what i knew first.
my favorite bands:
sweet
genesis
badfinger
iron maiden
showaddywaddy
my favorite musicians at the moment, also ordered by who i knew first:
brian connolly
peter gabriel
tom evans
pete ham
bruce dickinson
buddy gask
malcolm allured
i went a little over the limit because i can
#reaching back far in my mind to remember when i learned of genesis and badfinger#when i was a kid my dad used to point out land of confusion to me when it was on the radio a lot ever since i can remember#so that's probably my earliest memory of genesis#and then i got more into them arounnnnd 2014-2015 maybe#maybe earlier#at the time i was more into the phil collins singing era than the earlier albums but now it's the other way around even though i like both#and then one day during that my dad asked me to play a badfinger song and i found a video for him#he wanted me to play it all the time#like every day#along with some other band videos that he also wanted every day#the badfinger one was a video for come and get it#i didn't know anything from them before that but i liked the song#and then it always reminded me of tom's smiley face and crooked mouth whenever i heard it#because of that one video#maybe i should do that one#there were two songs#but in separate videos but from the same thing#i could do them both#help me i just woke up and i can't stop rambling my morning brain foggy groggy brain thoughts
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I may have lost my carefully rendered and cut out sexy lucifer for my art project and I am devastated because that took days to make but the image of Super Extra Hot MLM Besties Shout-out Feet Censored Lucifer hanging out somewhere is a balm upon deep wounds
#its not big but just. very detailed.#yes this is for a school assignment#dont worry guys it's about the monstrosity of homosexual desire through the lens of repressed mainstream culture#theres a skittles rainbow and a flooded morgue and pictures from d-day and hes gonna get sparkle wings!!!! and smiley face stickers!!!!#hes lurking but he better fucking stop or i swear to god#now is not the time sexy lucifer cut out i need to stick you on my background. youre too important girlboss.#raspberry rambles#art
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