#but it's just sooo frustrating
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
after buying FOUR SEPARATE mouse wheels i can confidently give my recommendations
ive bought a 10 inch silent spinner
6.5 inch silent spinner
8.5 inch comfort wheel
and an 8.5 busacate wheel
the ten inch was too large and heavy for my mice to even turn it a little bit. it has not been used once and i cannot return it bc amazon is a fucking asshole
the 6.5 inch was incredible for noise and they all loved it, but it caused major wheel tail in all my girlies.
the 8.5 inch comfort wheel is perfect in size, but it is insanely fucking loud. like. unbelievably loud. as in you can hear it all the way across the house. it squeaks unbelievably bad even after i oiled it and it rattles worse than a goddamm freight train. even the tiniest movement causes loud rattling, not because of it hitting the glass but because the wheel and stand attachment is shitty.
and finally, i just purchased a busacate (idk how to spell it tbh) 8.5in. out of all four wheels it's the only one that is completely clear and doesnt have any noxious colors. it's also the only one with height adjustment, which is an absolute must if you have mice that love to bury everything.
Every review so far says it's extremely quiet and produces no noise at all. id honestly take anything at this point lol
#the ladies#ive spent easily $100 just on wheels#luckily i can return the comfort wheel and the 6.5#but it's just sooo frustrating#i hate that people try to say 6.5 and 10 inch wheels are suitable for mice when they ARENT.#one is way too small and one is way too large#the only size wheel appropriate for mice is 8-9inches#and dont fucking bother with kaytee wheels#ik the good wheels are more expensive and closer to $30-40 but if you consider the fact you'll#probably have to get a different kaytee wheel bc the one you got doesnt work or you'll have to replace it yearly#bc it's not meant to last long at all and they regularly fall apart#dont do 4 $25 payments and just do one $30 payment.#i think the nitegel???? ones are very similar but the only one i can find online is a 12 inch one#which is great for rats#but not for mice obv
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"
like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.
"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."
... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.
and i'd still keep writing.
i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.
i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley
"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"
and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.
it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.
you create because you're greedy.
#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME#there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing#and the writing is what i need to be doing#writeblr#this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to#edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol#i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means#i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong#i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse#i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO#i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness#and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it#im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us#i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer#and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work#even if it means being miserable#but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.
18K notes
·
View notes
Text
Austin hat workshop
from sf app
#carlos sainz jr#scuderia ferrari#f1#austin 2024#Carlos’ face when he put the hat on#the way they bonked their hats together#Carlos being soooooo concentrated on decorating his hat#then tugging his hair in frustration as he has to decide on a design#him just deciding he’ll do two hats so he can use both decoration#HIS HAIR#him being sooo excited to see all the decoration#charlos#c2#c square
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm having a bad mood today
Would you draw my blorbo for me please?
#If you have time/energy/willing for that though. No pressure#Im sad and annoyed bc i couldn't get my blood tasted today#They only signed me up for an appointment in a month#And its already been so long since i try to figure out what is wrong with me bc my stomach doesn't work as it supposed to#I'm tired and hurt and all this is very discouraging#Mom tells me to go to the private lab to get my tests done faster but it costs money and we haven't been having much of those#She says that my health is more important and she's right but i just feel so bad and guilty for spending money on myself#When it is possible to get free medical treatment#But URGHHH the free one is sooo looong#And the problem is also that bc im an immigrant here i often don't understand how the system works here and i do mistakes#Like today I came to the hospital thinking i can get my blood tested right away with my doctors prescription in my hand#But no i only got it registered and got an appointment on 17 of December#Fucking urghhh#Im just tired and frustrated that's all#Anyway#Wanna draw buba for me? 👉👈🥺
65 notes
·
View notes
Text
The kids will some day be fine.
Cw. Blood on the second picture:
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#my art#normal oak#link li wilson#taylor swift dndads#scary marlowe#i think this came out great#i just enjoy drawing the teens as cuddling im pretty sure i drew basiclly this like thrice now#also listening to sophmore slump and its so so good like sooo good#cw blood#oh also an obligatory wtnv refrence with waiting for the bus in the rain waiting for the bus in the rain#oh also i started not quite dead (frustrating at times pretty decent backround noise tho and needs more fics)#and the orbiting human circus (julian desrves so many hugs i am so so confused reminds me of fairytales and stories from my childhood tho)#and im slowly getting thru hazbin hotel (not as good as i hoped some of the songs are bangers tho kinda cringe a lot unfortunetly tho)
212 notes
·
View notes
Text
been exercising consistently for a month now (4 times a week) and I hate to admit that my energy levels really have improved so much 🧍♀️
#used to feel like crashing after lunch basically everyday and these days I actually feel like doing things...#and it just keeps getting easier to exercise too bc I'm starting to be less sore after each session + it feels sooo good to increase the#weights and know that I can handle it...#it was rly tough in the beginning but once I passed that bit where I would almost always give up it's gotten a lot easier#I don't even have my brain trying to talk me out of exercising anymore#I just get to the time I usually exercise and do it#and not just physically but mentally I can feel a lot less resistance in doing things too#specially with cleaning etc I used to battle it out in my head so much and I'd do it regardless but ik I used to do it very frustrated bc#I didn't Want to do it but these days I barely feel any resistance I just think that I have to do something and I do it... actually feeling#like a functional person woah#jt
40 notes
·
View notes
Text
i had time to play a decent amount today and actually further the main quest & companion quests and. i dont have anything eloquent to say this time and im not feeling generous anymore... taash's writing sucks dogshit
#even if i ignore the whole. Solely Existing To Teach The Player What Nonbinary Means#their character is wildly inconsistent#they are constantly picking on other companions to a point that it's literally grating to have them in a party with some of them#namecalling emmrich and getting an entire scene about it and no one seems to realize how silly it looks to have#mx 'you dont get to tell me who i am'#repeatedly calling emmrich by names he doesn't like#same with calling davrin a spirit and saying shit like 'don't be ashamed of who you are' all sarcastic i just know they#felt sooo smug writing that line#also please god stop saying nonbinary it is so immersion breaking it's awful. i hate to say it but it's literally making me cringe#god i want to like them so bad. but i think taash and harding are the worst writing in the game#taash i want to like at least but i straight up hate harding lmao especially playing as an elf. why am i apologizing ?#and you literally cant call her out on any of it. soo frustrating#datv spoilers#datv critical#da posting
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
I just feel like people don't get me.
"oh he groomed her" "oh her life was so terrible" "she was trapped until he died and it freed her"
Do you guys forget he was my dad? He loved me with everything he had and still does and would do anything EVER for me. He would always protect me and never ever hurt me or lie to me. He never lied
How could you look at Silco and not see the absolute love of my life? How could you see what he's done for me and not see anything but love and dedication and loyalty? If anything, I wasn't a good daughter to Him.
#system babbles#im so frustrated#jinx#silco#arcane#introject#actually plural#fictive#i just my interpretation is correct inherently and i understand why people do what they do think what they think ship etc#but im sooo sorry this is the Only way#jilco#only
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
Jerez 2005 post race press conference
#vr46#valentino rossi#motogp#sg15#sete gibernau#ppl just do not get jerez 2005 of it all and why it was sooo baddd#and the public’s and media’s immediate and restrictive perception of what happened is another story bc again YOU PPL REALLY JUST DONT GET I#like the most frustrating thing about this rivalry is def stems from the fact that ppl don’t rate sete as a rival/rider which leads to-#them being unable to see the layers that are definitely there (trust me)#like even the simple fact that so much of it was about vale publicly and retroactively erasing their prior warm rapport…….#ok I’m just rambling#anyways THE LAST PHOTO GAWD
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.
#my stuff#i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks#like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy#hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month?#can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control#can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me?#and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone#so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks#im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better#i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up#cause i can see that happening#i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something#and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends.#and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you#i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once.#and that's not me. that's not who I want to be.#i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.
76 notes
·
View notes
Text
So either we are all clowns or Bridgerton is a joke. Either way that horse interrupting them has become my enemy number one and my villain origin story
#woke up#Im not gonna say pissed#but at least a lot frustrated#like Bridgerton is supposed to be steamy#it’s not supposed to be Whistledown#or you just rename the show#i don’t know#it was beautiful though#just highly frustrating#just sooo much was missing#polin#bridgerton#bridgerton season 3
55 notes
·
View notes
Text
Watching everyone re-reading the Great Gatsby for some kind of clue for the website, meanwhile I re-read the book for homoerotic subtext….
But also for some kind of clue of what the fuck is going on in that website.
#I would like to firmly thank Alex Hirsch for combining both of my autisms together#I know he’s just doing it to fuck with people#but by god#it’s really funny#and people are talking about it sooo#win win#?#tho#I know people are gonna end up more frustrated than anything#ah well#win win lose situation#gravity falls#the great gatsby#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#dipper pines#mabel pines
49 notes
·
View notes
Text
Man so i was outta town and yet the grind never stopped!! (Click for better quality)
#man i had so much fun with these#theyre sooo cute!!! aghhh!!#mostly#dumb dumb jocks#au#ahh the one where he’s slurping noodles#i guarantee Tenga made those for him#slightly messy but it oki i was literally inside a train#i was also super eepy idk why lol#i should really go to bed im eepy rn#mob psycho 100#mp100#tengouda#onigawara tenga#tenga onigawara#gouda musashi#musashi goda#musashi gouda#????#still confused on that last name#just a tad frustrated cause Musashi goes off model a TON in my comic an#i just cant get him down ouuuugh
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
still trying to beat owl in sekiro. im making more progress. ive gotten him to phase 2 twice. ive just gotta be more patient and take my attack openings where i can without getting greedy
im trapped in hell with grandpap
#its sooo frustrating#genichiros fight was way more satisfying cuz i could just GRAH GRRRR GRRR RAH but with owl ive gotta be much more vigilant and patient#to watch out for his bag of tricks....#on a more positive note i played some bloodborne w my friend last night and my sekiro reflexes have made me real good at parrying
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
oo u want 2 draw soo bad..
#i hate that my ability to draw is so conditional#its soo frustrating but i dont know how to break it. this has been the one thing thats never changed.ill never be free#times like rn i just do studies but its soo fking BORINGGG euuhh...#but if i try 2 draw something for funsies i just stare at the blank canvas. literally immobile. & u know how people r like just draw#something anyways. a line. something. and its like no i cant do that oi cant even do that u underestimate my freak#i want 2attack myself from the pov of someone else#i think im having the realization tht i will never be able to do art stuff frls and its driving me crazy i think.#like im actually sick and unwell frm the thought of it.my friend commissioned me and im ab 2 send the money back#after two weeks bc i cant do it im literally frozen dude.i want 2 cry and die and explode into a million pieces#wait im back to add more.idk if anyone feels the same way but its like. i know its entirely a Me issue its a mental block issue#theres something thats not connecting in my head but its like.why is it so easy for everyone else ykwim...and thats a lie too right#like everyone else struggles w art and its not.it cant exist Without you struggling and practicing hard and trusting yourself#but in my brain im just convinced that like.i cant do this i cant do this like everyone else can do it like second nature and it freaks me#tf out#but also its the one thing i want to do more than anything else in my life and so like if i cant do it i dont know what to do.ughh.#not me freaking the fuck out rn lawl.lols.even#and on top of it i feel like i cant express myself well and i think my friend. < SOOO awesome and well meaning and NICE and legitimately#pushing me to try and believe that i can do this stuff but i feel like they wont understand the sort of like.mental block im struggling wit#like its less that i hate my art or something i dont its more like.i just feel soo physically restrained and incapable of doing it.suddenly#i cant think and i cant do anything.i have no creativity i have no ideas my mind is quite literally blank and empty
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
Mid-Century Burst | CC-Free
A tricky little shell challenge that you can get some use out of too! Tried to dig into some 70s inspo for the exterior on this one. This is 2 bed, 1 bath, fully-furnished and CC-free. Because of the limited size of the main shell, I added a detached garage with an apartment on top, which adds +1 studio bedroom and +1 bathroom.
The TS4 shell challenge I used for this lot was called "BubbleShell3" on the gallery from the ID "bubblesisgaming". I'm also playing around with using random palette generators for room inspo, this time from ColorHunt. It's been fun and I recommend using it to get out of your comfort zone!
Download Mid-Century Burst @ SFS
#ts2#sims 2 cc free#sims 2 lot#sims 2 maxis match#Calcinidae Bay#rockethorse lots#the shell turned out to be exactly 10x10 tiles which is so frustrating (but in a good way)#bc you FEEL like you should be able to fit it on a 1x1 lot with the lot adjuster. But you can't. It cannae happen#so you're forced to add a FULL 10 tiles on both sides of the lot. but it made me play around with that extra space more than I would've#and I like the garage & granny flat and shed and outdoor areas I added!#kicking my feet and writing 'shell challenges' in a big heart in my diary with glitter pen#also the randomly-generated colour palette thing is sooo interesting and challenging with a CC-free game#because at every stage there's a point where you're like 'there just isn't any way I'm gonna find swatches that match this'#and then you inevitably find ONE thing that pulls it all together and it's sooo satisfying and it ends up looking so different from my usua
82 notes
·
View notes