#but it wasnt in the cs i thought

[scionshtola]

i was looking through my screenshots and the amount of times ppl talk about shtola being SO mad/livid with them is v funny to me, like maybe she was like that with cori too but for one cori likes when she tells them what to do and for two cori tries very hard all the time to do what's asked of them. (and it seems not doing that is what usually sets her off with the other scions). so maybe she really doesn't get mad at them like that and this is why cori is also the only scion that calls her shtola. privileges by way of not pissing her off.

[dailypearldoodles]

Day 248

Today's Pearl is from @pearlthebard! A very interesting premise and from a very cool set of RP blogs! Go check them out!

[calamitys-child]

From a pile of fabric offcuts and random fasteners and glue and broken bits of jewellery and things that i found on the ground i just made a choker for myself and a really pretty if I do say so myself custom keyring for my parents to put on their spare keys I love to do crafts and I love repurposing scrap material into something cool! Nothing is useless to everyone everything has its time and purpose!!!!

[icarusgf]

it does not mean much but . i was so much happier in the moment last vday than i am rn but my life is so much better and closer to my dream now than it ever was back then 

[chyeyuj]

hey, can i request for minji nsfw where y/n fucking minji so hard and so good that minji can’t even get a full word out, only moans and half-uttered curses and minji whines (it can include oral)

hi anon! when you snet thid, i thoight of nerd minji..

probably my first time making dom yn...might not do it again...o hopw you like this anon<333

no cs, minji has been very busy lately, always finishing her assignments and all that. she's so focused on her work, she would always forget that you were next to her..she would sometimes ignore you, only focusing on tapping on the keyboard of her laptop. you were lonely, you needed to feel her touch again but everytime you'd hug her she'd lightly push you away and you were grumpy bcs of that:(

so..this one night, minji was doing her assignments as usual, you thought that she needed a stress relief so you came into you and her shared bedroom. the table was kind of messy, pens were here and there and so are papers. you let out a sigh as you came up to her, tapping her on the shoulder. "minji baby, you need to take a break." you said, rubbing her shoulders. "i need to finish this assignment, y/n." she didnt take her eyes from the paper, she didnt even spare a glance at you and you were getting sad.

you began kissing her, from her face to her neck. she stopped writing and looked at you, her face softened and her body wasnt tensed up anymore. "alright then.." she sighs. you immediately turn the chair so she could fully face you. you began kissing her on the lips as she wrapped her arms around your neck. you slowly reached inside of her shirt, realizing that she wasnt wearing a bra, you smirk and started to play with her mounds.

soon, you both pulled away, panting for air. minji gave you a shy smile, your hands still inside her shirt and playing with her nipples. she bit her lip, holding back her moans and that upsets you. "dont hold back. i want to hear you." you told her and she did stop holding back, whining and moaning.

you reached for her shorts, slightly pulling it down before remembering that minji was sitting on the chair and you were standing up.

you grab her hand, bringing her to the bed and laying her down. then you continued to pull her pants down.

and as if minji knew this would happen, you saw that she wasnt wearing any panties either. well, you weren't surprised because she wouldnt wear anything underneath when she's at home.

looking at how wet she was, you began teasing her which made her even more shy. "stop teasing and just get to the point." she mumbled to herself, you heard it but didn't say anything as you instantly insert two fingers in. starting with a fast pace, not letting her speak or anything and just "gettinf straight to the point" like she said.

the way you finger fucked her made her moan like crazy, constantly hitting her g-spot. she wanted to tell you that she was about to come but it only came out as whines. you knew that and just fucked her relentlessly. and thus, she squirted on your hand.

you pulled your fingers out, licking her juices on your fingers as you smiled at her. you immediately cuddled up next to her. "was that a good stress relief?" you looked at her, still smiling and she nodded. "yes, it was." she placed a kiss on your forehead, smiling back at you.

[suiana]

surviving romance still tears me apart after MONTHS of ir finished.everytime i go back to read some chapters to reminisce or maybe just clip for videos i cry no i SOB. IT'S THE MOST BEUTIFUL PEACE OF FICTION AND I SYILL REFUSE TO BEILEVE THAT SE EUN WAS THE DEVIL. EVEN THOUGH I MADE A WHOLE BOARD BEFORE IT WAS REVEALED, SHOWING HOW SIMILIAR SHE IS TO THE DEVIL AND IM PLANNING ON UPDATING IT IUTS JUST WHY SHE MANIPULATED ME SO BAD THAT EVEN I DONT THINK SHES THVW DEVIL I LOVE SE EUN U CANR DO THIS TK ME IOVE U SE EUN STAY WITH ME STOP YOUR NOT TT DEV YOUYT NOT DTMEH DEVI.Ok anyways i really love how each of the girls pictures were crossed out. I don't get seonyeongs YET but maybe it's about her growing literally and also mentally and tearing the page?? Idfk. Hana's rip was lips that looked seductive, or lips like a siren because on the first run she died because she trusted her friends voice, which lead to her death and her zombie form becoming the same thing she died to. MY FAVORITE ONE IS DEFINITELY JURI AND SHINBIS CROSS. IT EVEN LOOKS LIKE THE SLICE WHERE SHINBI WAS KILLED AND I HTAE THST THEIR SO TRAGIC. Basically, Shinbi and juri's crosses are aligned. Their canon. Anyways!! Rina's cross being a heart, AND HAVING A LITYLE HEART NEXT TO HERS RESEMBLING MINWOO IS SI CUTE OMD. Cheram, jinhiu, mihiu are all normal rips because they got out of the story at the same time. Chaerin's is also a rip similiar to theirs, but its a straight line cuz she got out of the story by the help of the devil im totally not reaching but it also looks much older and just ripped unlike the other ones, which looked punched through symbolizing how she wasnt even able to get out of the story while being self aware of whar would happen jihyeon's cross was ripped out like chaerins,except hers is fully ripped out cuz she actually got to go out of the story after finding herself unlike chaerin who went insane because she was self aware. Seyeongs page being a pink cross talks about how shes still just a character in a story. Nothing else AND THAT HURTS SO BAD. I WILL DIE ON A HIL DEFENDING SEYEONG MY BABY. MY CUTIE. Also, jinhius cut is like a sword bc shes a swordswoman, maybe cheram's rip is referencing to a window and how much she helped?? Yeri's page looks crumpled up and punched at bc she punches and she also cried before she died on the last run. Im not sure why seonwoo's page is just a little cut but do wish we saw more of her cuz shes sk pretty :(This isnt the full explanation cs tumblr deleted my last ask i probably shouldve added on notes instead.. ANYWAYS!! im finally not anonymous cuz i really want to show you what im referencing to and my old board of why i thought se eun was the devil 🙏🙏

i guess ill binge read this after im done writing my lab report LOL

[nejjirez]

Since everyone addressin their problems with rashad ..

a lil while ago i had an issue with another writer , it wasn't a big problem but someone found a way to fuel the damn fire..

um its obvious who the fuel was .. at first i thought he was tryna help me because at the moment he was one of the only people who were tryna actually help me in the situation.

this was the last message i had from him before ppl got on his ass about the stuff he was causing , he also pretended to be me in the other writer's anons.. which didn't click to me that it was him at first , until i just saw the other writer's post about the situation and now it all make sense to me.. i see him causin problems to evb now and im js thinkin like um.. damn.. cs it is no fuckin reason damn near the whole miles writers block should be on yo ass rn..ts is insane 😭

and honestly the whole thing abt him "usin his mental issues as an excuse" made me squint at my screen bc like .. ohhh okayy...

back to the situation with him pretending to be me , the other writer added it all up and it makes sense to me now , only her , me , and rashad wouldve been the only ones to know abt her not accepting my apology , and the anon just happened to know abt it .. and ik the writer wasnt that dumb to js go in her own anons so it left rashad as the only person.. i don't even ask ppl stuff as an anon , i make it very known who i am

so i'm honestly pissed at that nigga rn bc i was genuinely stressed , and u js tried to make the situation fucking worse? nigga wtf mental issues gotta do with fueling a disagreement? like dpmo bruh .. bc ur mad weird for that , i trusted you , defended you , and hella other shit and ur the anon the whole time..

u got urself known by all these writers js to end up like this.. u got ya self into this.. don't even act like ppl targeting u or wtv bc u made urself the target..

and at first i didnt believe @averagegirlie when they said it was him pretending to be me , but now ts make sense , we had an argument or wtv but i appreciate you for that 💗

this whole situation just pissed me off .. bc u caused a big ass eruption in the damn miles writers group and then try to blame other shit on it .. tbh u js attention seeking , if u needa talk abt ur mental issues , problems or whatever the fuck u got goin on id recommend doing it to a person in private or going in your notes??? something that WONT cause shit?..

yall have a good day tho.. tagging ppl who have had some problems too with him (lmk if i missed anybody..)

@hiimayee @ashsostrange @tainted-liquor @breeandhermunches (MB IF U DONT WANT ME TAGGIN U BREE JS LMK)

[sunnyapollonjabrigidotter]

Here something i created on the magickal sea 😅

(I think Apollo would agree)

*** *** ***

Since a little child i wanted to see the sea

And first time i saw its vastness fell in love with it

And more and more each decade, as i grew...

There ive known an imense magickal force

A force that corrupted me, it taking away my innocence...

In the country i live there is no sea

People are poor, tho rich in soul

There are harder times so many different opinions rise: as to who shall be the leader,

what way should they go...

My country s little, but with lots of different tribes

Where they even come from? *sigh* ...

They come from people's ignorance

& confusions in big...

They came cs people were rather acustomed to argue with each other, rather than really listening to each other, setting points straight... how do you cure this blindness?

I became so frustrated that i wanted to run away... and what better place than to the magickal sea, with its shores...

I booked a plane ticket to the sunny country of my dreams, in which ancient whispers i found the part of me that called to be awakened, despite its christian predominant and living traditions...

Yeah, i see, there is magick in everything, call it as you want.. so i thought, but not everything attracts everyone... & ive been to church when little, and i realised its not really my place... then i became more curious in me, through seeking knowledge, not working for marks, but the feeling... so i probably was meant to await that sparkle, that magick no strict doctrine could wash away from my spirit... that, as guessed, will have to rise when my overthinking mind will stop... it has to stop... it's too tiring, after all, to think this much... & it's no real point in that... let the winds lead away the perturbing thoughts, & let the seas wash the body & give in more of that which it holds, the salt with its essences... "the salt of the world" s now that chorus resonating in my ears & trying to internalise & understand better...

So my footsteps took me now to there... barefoot, easy and happy... i almost forgot i cant swim, but reminded myself when i come to as far as my feet can touch the soil of the underwater...

But something happened in that magick of the sea, it felt like i was beginning to swim, tho to be able to i needed to leave something i wasnt yet ready to... too many blockages.. in me...

I came back to the shore telling myself, next time, ill try again... others can, why cant i? I thought, terrifyingly tho... i either swim, either die...

...

Next time as i came back, a month & 27 days has passed... i felt the calling to go... i took a big breath widened my arms, got in & then lifted my legs...

Is so uneasy to fall everytime & take that salty taste in, with whatever rests might be there...

Then i remember a song, a sweet melody was it called? tho i didnt understand much of it, other than that it could be of two that fell for each other, and as i fell for the sea, he sung probably of trust to her... nowadays when i think of that song i envision me hugged by the sea, as i was then, except my friend was in the picture, too... & she was more confident than me...

Leaving any thoughts away in a smile i squated again & pushed a leg backwards with the hands ahead, holding to my friend... saddly we werent able to make it, but i was dreaming of it since then...

Now i was thinking, what if the sea s really made, among other things, to really change one not just physically but esp mentally, in soul, even spiritually... cs as i said i had the blockage i thought i could get away but i guess i didnt know how... ig, not thinking but doing... or... how?

& what else??

Thought also now, that the song of the sea s not only slightly transforming, but changing one in all?. Maybe that's what happened to... Medusa? Remember? She was changed in a monster by Athena, but After she was raped by the King of the Seas, of the Poseidon...

and what if she was changed by the sea power, those like me know that's not okay to take myths ad literam... & it wasnt in a temple, or on a meadow, but in a sea... since the features Athena 'gifted her with' whatever you consider that a blessing or a curse were... was just a manifestation of what the ever-changing sea, starting with her essence, left her with...

- so Athena s not to be blamed of anything:

Some said she sent a blessing in disguise on her, but i think it was more, it was she, the union, the mission she had, of serving the temple of the goddess, ... s not just a mysoginistic trope (tho interpretation vary widely... )

P.s.: this inspo came after saw a necklace of Medusa - n asked the seller what her real meaning is, & those what it protects of?? cs thought, also mainly cs a saying i read of from dont remember which article, but which i recognised, namely that of "petrifying fear"

"Ofc, there was much more, than just the sea" ...

[jackie-shitposts]

is it just me or do i feel like there aren't enough Sheena simps or stans in this fandom? maybe i'm in the wrong place or maybe i'm just stupid... but like i always see Jeantonio posts and Crackle appreciation/simp posts (not complaining hes my fav) but i literally NEVER see people simping over Sheena and WHY??? shes so badass literally the Pacifica Northwest of CS

and instead of stanning her we gotta make fun of her in fanfics and art and i just-

not to mention some ships with her are...pretty mid imo. dont get me wrong i think Papertiger is really interesting, but i dont get Tigred (i cant see enemies to lovers working out here) and Graysheen is just. like there's no chemistry, and men and women CAN be friends. also is Tigrivy a ship? i really like that dynamic, but my personal hc is that Sheena's had so many exes that she turned into a self loving badass lol

also the show (and book adaptation) REALLY mistreats her. i hate the fact she's the only "main operative" (out of the four; Crackle, Le Chevre, El Topo, Tigress) that gets jailed. i wanna learn more about her!! shes really interested in jewelery, even in the book shes like "ooh bling bling" maybe we could have seen a shot after VILE's takedown of her working with jewels? maybe a fashion designer (she clearly liked Countess Cleo the best out of the faculty.) maybe in the Rio caper she could have been more relaxed and in her element??

ik shes a "mean girl," but she deserves to change. there are people in this show who have done so much worse (*cough* Chief *cough*) and the show lets them walk away, but someone with just bad manners and a snobby personality is OH SO HORRIBLE?? i would have liked to see her and Carmen resolve their shit, not let Carmen win every damn time. besides, we saw it with Pacifica and Mabel - it cant be THAT hard. (i know criminals have bigger problems than petty rivals but let me have my moment.)

so yeah, sorry for the anon rant. but what are your thoughts?

The sheena stans and simps are certainly not the majority, but over time I’ve seen a not-insignificant chunk of them. I think the biggest sheena simps are the animators though because they always animate her like she’s serving cunt (because she IS)

If youre looking for tigress fans, papertiger is where youre really gonna need to look. I disagree with you on the ships you consider mid, but to each their own in that regard. I do think Graysheen couldve worked and im honestly surprised its such a rarepair. I also think that Sheena’s far too insecure by the end of the show to truly love herself yet, but she could totally get there.

I do think that she had SO MUCH MORE potential than she was given in the show, while at the same time being one of the more interesting VILE operatives (once again thinking about my Sheena Mindwipe AU that simmers in my brain). Sheena does deserve to change, but she needs to WANT to change and by the end of the show she wasn’t in that place yet, and there wasnt anything to push her to that place (in fanfic, a lot of ships are what ultimately do push her to be better, such is the case with redtiger). But at the same time we gotta understand that Tigress is a supporting character, and even if there were further plans for her the show wouldnt have had time for them. If only i had the money to make the show myself smh

[br4ttyeilish]

okay my full in depth hit me hard and soft opinion༉‧₊˚.

this is billies best fucking album. the lyrics, the beats, the emotion, the story it tells, everything about it.

i will say, happier than ever rlly let me down. it wasnt a WOW factor album like i thought it was gonna be. and with hit me hard and soft i didnt really expect good or bad, i was in the middle. so i didnt get my hopes up and had my expectations a tad bit low (even tho im obsessed w her)

i did the same thing with found heaven and by having my standards low the albums really fucking blew my mind.

hmhas is def a situationship/love album for SUREEEEE. whoever the girl billie was writing about girl u are one lucky fucking duck but also whyd u do my girl lowk dirty..

i also LOVE LOVE LOVE the switch up in songs like one minute im crying and the next im shaking ass and the next i feel all oogly boogly spooky.

my official FIRST ranking is:

BIRDS OF A FEATHER

THE GREATEST

L'AMOUR DE MA VIE

THE DINER

SKINNY

BITTERSUITE

WILDFLOWER

CHIHIRO

BLUE

LUNCH

even tho i have a ranking there isnt one fucking song on this album that i dont like. every. single. song. is fucking amazing.

i also love that i relate to the album so unbelievably much. billie really got into a situation ship at the right fucking time cs i needed an album like this. like i feel so sosoosososoos bad to the ppl who got tickets next to me at the hmhas tour cs.... woof.

anyways enough yapping thats it :3

[angelfruittree]

9 people Id like to get to know better !!! thank you sm for the tags @irregularcollapse @drarrymyheart @wolfpadx @achillesankle @solmussa @imsiriuslyreading - (doing this again bc well why nawt now that i dont have to wake up at 3 am tomozzy)

Last song: Secret door by arctic monkeys... I just... i'm fine (i'm not immune) im also trying really not to fall asleep before 10 but im in bed locked and loaded.

Favourite colour: I do wear a lot of black but bee wrote something like 'garish crimson' and i thought yeah thats the red i like... yeahh

Last movie/TV show: Hazbin Hotel on amazon soszocjvf soj nl so gay and insane someone please watch and Masters of the air on apple EXTREEMeLY gay they tried to broify war and they succeeded but not in the way they think

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: going with savory bc if im at gails im picking savoury first... you know?

Last thing I googled: Keira knighlteys discography i think.... but before that i had to google if tea was slow releasing actually its just less caffeine than coffee

Current obsession: Check please thanks to bee and also regulus going " youre so silly , i love you " in @soliloquy-dawn lost on you also james going "you're so messy" and chuckling as he fucks regulus brains out i wasnt normal about that i cried alsooo in sols first kiss fic when geto and satoru cant kiss each other because they are so nervous they keep missing and yeahh im- im not. immune to guys being stupid in love, defending movies i dont really stan that much to film bros who love christopher nolan but call other movies 'self indulgent' brother are you okay??? lmao.

Last book: Ive got three hours left of Dark Rise by CS PASCAT and i was listening to it sobbing at 4 am on my way to work and then I just ordered Dark Heir (which is book 2) christian coulson who narrates in memoriam narrates them so.. i mean.. mdoznvao you know?

Looking forward to: This two week break I have and not waking up at 3 am for work weheeee and also finishing hazbin hotel and thinking more about monk damen and also thinking about heartbroken writer laurent and ummm hmmm , looking forward to pondering on them some more and recording some marig and EIAT!!

Well since ive done this np tagging @kaaaaaaarf @paintedgray @titstractiontag @assclaptherapy but also open tag <3 <3 <3 <3

[i-sveikata]

okay so we know cs pacat loves to turn things on their head/reveal that it was never what u thought it was. so heres a couple unresolved plot points i think we're being misled by and would be genuinely funny to find out is something else in the next book:

-the sun king, who it seems is slowly building up to be revealed as sarcean's main enemy actually turns out to be yet ANOTHER ex that sarcean fucked (in his quest to have sex with anyone who reminds him of anharion because sarcean doesnt think he'll ever have him) i mean its literally happened with the lady and visander, the man has a pattern

-also lol the idea that all of his greatest enemies are just his exes is kinda funny tbh

-the collar around james neck is to share power with sarcean so james/anharion can never be fully magically depleted and vulnerable. theres compulsion but not in a controlling way which deprives him of choice- in an anharion-and-sarcean-feel-pleasure-if-he-obeys kinda way and the reason its a collar is because theyve got a dom/sub relationship and/or pet play kink. (the whole 'do you want me to order you around?' thing is just them falling back into the same dynamic)

-its eventually revealed that anharion is the one who actually put the collar on himself- not anyone else

-james/anharion is the key to fully unlocking sarcean's sealed off magic and its meant to tie in with the collar which links the two (sarcean wanted anharion intombed with his body, it wasnt the plan that someone behead anharion and stole the collar thereby delaying his rise to power once he came back)

like im sure there will be more but these ones just jumped out at me as potential interesting twists!!!

[bookstoreaders]

*Spoilers for both of these books*

I had found out about CS Pacat while searching for art work inspiration for my own story and that's how I found the Captive Prince Series and then I saw Dark Rise in books a million and I was instantly caught by the cover. I love any story with darker morally complex (not gray: I could and will make a post on that) characters.

I put off reading it for while because I'm very much a mood reader and this past week I decided you know what let's dive in.

So I'm going to go through each character and what I think of them because I am 100% a character reader. This will be for both books Dark Rise and Dark Heir (also please note i did audio book so I may spell things wrong)

Let's start with our main boy:

Will:

I find Will so interesting and complex. It's hard to tell if what he is doing is because he truly doesn't want to be like Sacien or if this is all apart of Sacien's "will". I find it very interesting that Will's name is well, Will. At the same time it's seems to me that Will is trying so hard to NOT be who he was in his past life. At the end of Dark Heir when he gets outed and he thinks James is the one person who actually accepts him and finds out he has the collar on (I have thoughts on that but I will get to theories later on) it's devastating. I think for both Will and James they want to not be judged for the choices their past selves made.

On that note James:

James is probably my favorite character.

He is snarky and smart and brave and everyone treats him terribly except for Will. He is either treated like a wh***, a weapon (though Will is guilty of this), or a traitor. He's something to be owned, to be possessed. He is paying for the actions of a past he can't even remember (until the very end) when the collar was put back on him i was so upset, but knew it wouldn't work the way St. Claire wanted.

Violet:

I liked Violet more in book one. Im.curious about her inpending "fight" with Tom and if and when that will go down. I was hoping she would be the one to stick behind Will and not judge him. (Though i feel she's going to be the first to go back, if Will really is trying to be "good")

Cyprian:

Cyp Cyp... I really didn't like him.at first. But.now I do. However, I find him complex as well. I love his dedication to his believes and his loyalty and obvious love for Violet. I hate his judgement of James, that he blames him for Marcus and the other Stewart's and doesn't think about why James might have left. (Their father tried to kill him when they found out he was a reborn) ... on a different note him drinking from the cup, wrestling the shadow, jumping down that whole and breaking the "staff" and dragging Will back up like he was a sack was pretty bad ass.

Katherine/Visander

Let's start with Katherine: I wish we'd had more time with her. I didn't feel very connected to her so when she died i wasnt that upset. Visander seems so one sided in his goals and thoughts. It's like has blinders on. He doesn't think that maybe Devon has changed in 1000+ years or that things might have changed. He is stuck in the past. His relationship with Philip is interesting especially with him being in Katherine's body (which is very weird and im not sure how I feel about it)

Elizabeth: she can be annoying but she is.also 10 years old. For her age she is a very smart and brave young lady and im excited to see where her story goes.

Tom:

I feel like I am grappling at straws for more information on Tom. I want more. How much does he truely know? Is he niave? What does being a "lion" mean. He clearly loves Violet

Devon: he interests me more than anyone. His story is tragic and sad. Hunted and having his horn cut off... they say it was by humans but I have thoughts (theories later) and then living through all those years alone. It's pretty tragic. He seems to have a very loving and trusting relationship with Tom from what I can tell (I do hope I'm reading that correctly)

So thoughts and theories and all that and there's no Rhyme or Reason to any of this:

I am starting to wonder who the real bad guys are: I don't think it was really Sacien. I wonder if it might actually be the Sun King or whatever he's called. I wonder in book 3 of with James remembering the past if we won't learn the truth. Because something is up.

I despise Will's mother. She raises this child, ties him to beds, tries to kill him. All for the supposed mistakes of a past life he can't recall... yeah f**ck her.

I think the Stewart's are sus. Did they hunt down Devon and saw off his horn? If not how did they end up it?

What exactly is the white death and if it's evil how did Visander come back if he is good?

What's up with Grace?

I'm firmly convinced that Sacien/Anharian Will/James is like a "You have to have shadows with light" James is the Light and Will is the Shadow they are supposed to compliment each other. I think someone fucked with history but we will see.

Basically, I really enjoyed these two books, and I am desperate for any news on book 3

[mattslolita]

update about the boy!

NO BC Y DID UR CHRIS FIC HAVE ME 🫦🤤😫💃

SO yesterday (sunday) he came over to mine, and my older friend was also here cuz she came round saturday night. she has a baby and shes like 8 months old. basically he was like playing w her an making her laugh (HES GOOD W KIDS OMG😊😊😊) and my friend went "thats ur man right there" and i laughed. he heard her and jus looked up and smiled at me 😏😏

when she left we were chilling in my room and i forgot all abt this tbh, but he gave me the charm he bought last week 😍😍😍 then cuz its his mums birthday soon we were looking for stuff to get her. then we thought of buying this cute box of fake pink roses that look real from some website and a charm from pandora and then a perfume she wants.

after like 2 hours we decided to go out for smth to eat (wingstop bc ITS FIRE and im fussy asf). when we left we saw 2 of his mates and one of them said to me "im jus gonna hav to pretend im interested in you to get him to make a move atp" 😭😭(he dint hear)

then we got home. i was laying on my stomach on my bed and he was downstairs talking to my mum (God knows abt what🤔 ) and he came up and layed next to me but dint say anything instead jus looked at me. then i said "what?" and he jus sighed and said "nothing" AND obviously it wasnt nothing but i dint wanna push it. i told my friend and she was like "he wants you so bad its UNREAL" LMFAOO 🤣(real)

today at schl we had science and we had that COVER/SUPPLY TEACHER AGAIN OMGGGG!! i wanted to cry like bro LEAVEEEEEEEEE!!!!! she made us answer true or false questions related to biology (ibsr idk the difrence between biology chemistry or physics its badddd) 😭😭😭 and if we thought it was true we had to go to the left side of the room and false, on the right (games you'd play w a fucking toddler, grow up!) and i knew the answer too one of the questions (SURPRISINGLY 😉) BUTTTT... i literally cant tell my lefts and rights (im dyslexic but also jus super dumb 🥹) so the boy was like "yes but what side do we go on" and i was like "hold on" and he went "YOU DONT KNOW UR LEFTS AN RIGHTS?". he was pissing himself w his friend and the teacher was like "how are you in top set w/o knowing ur lefts and rights?" first off pipe down, second, fucking LEAVEEE the SCHOOL MAN! he was takin the mick the whole day and then said " you wanna start learning how to drive as soon as you turn 18 but the driving instructors gonna go 'turn right' and ur gonna go left, straight into the fucking river" VIOLATED! (SO TRUE THO) 😭😭😭😭😭😭

side note- i was sitting on the grass with two of my friends today and this girl whos in my brothers year like 2 years below said hi to me then she went "ur rlly pretty" I LITERALLY LOOOOVE PPL LIKE THAT. she was so sweet omg i wanted to cry 🥲🥹

AWWWWW HIM JS LOOKING AT U IN ADMIRATION IS THE CUTEST THING EVER !! ur momma was prolly giving him the talk LMFAOOOOOO

im soso glad u liked the fic bb❤

STAWP BECAUSE I DONT KNOW MY LEFT OR RIGHTS EITHER ITS SOOOOOO EMBARRASSING I BARELY REMEMBER CS I REMIND MYSELF IM LEFT HANDED LMFAOO

that girls so sweet OMGGGGG !!! if he doesn't ask you out soon ISTG.....

[terraliensvent]

hey! owner of the species here. (https://www.tumblr.com/terraliensvent/748247327120277504/i-think-theres-a-whole-issue-with-cs-as-a-whole-i?source=share)

i only rehired the devs becaus half of then were not doing anything at all, and the other half were not being very nice to those who werent doing much! also, one dev was making me extremely uncomfortable. I understand how this could come off this way!! but tbh i made this species as a personal project because of terras shutting down, and it kind of hurts to say its going to turn out like the hellhole that is.

Terras is very complicated in terms of drama right now and i feel as though comparing a species that is just starting out and maybe not the greatest to another one that has repetitively made wrongs, angered many members, etc. is a little unfair!

im super sorry if I am rude in any of this, i am trying not to be petty or mean or anything, i am just a little upset that you thought of it this way! its okay though.

i also probably am going to leave terras just because of how it is right now, i was considering just making my species a one off and moving on but I really like ARPG things, and was planning for mostly a non-monetary spending community, and kindness.

sorry this isnt super terra related anon, if its not terra-y enough feel free to ignore!

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im gonna be fr anon, you did not need to defend ur species. it wasnt even named so if anything my post wouldnt have really gotten you any negative press

they also sent this ask:

"same anon who replied to this i dunno if its about me but if it is not then sorry if i!!! was like rude or something im very stressed rn"

i think you may be overthinking a little with this one, try to mellow out a bit. i dont think u come off as rude but maybe a bit panicked, maybe rethink if youre ready to handle a responsibility like this? not everyone is right for handling large communities and thats ok

[mydearestriver]

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i should have made this blog as soon as you came into my life. but as a new mom, i was struggling (still) to find time for myself, let alone create a blog for you to read when the time has come.

but now let me share [y]our stories here even though it was kinda late hehehe

let me just say that you are not unexpected. we prayed for you and the Lord has answered our prayers through you.

june 28, 2023.

it was eid al-adha, and at 2am we're on our way to the maternity clinic. luckily there's a grab rider who accepted the booking bc if not, we don't know how we can go there in time.

i was in trial labor for almost 8 hours, but to no avail. my dilation is not improving so the doctor suggested that you will be removed via CS since my water was already green (meaning, you pooped already inside, and it will be dangerous for you to stay in my womb for long).

your dad and i was very excited and at the same time, scared of what will happen. i kept on praying and wishing that you will come out normal, healthy and safe.

after hours of waiting, it was time.

i was not sure how long i stayed in the operating room, but for me it was like an hour short only. i only wanted to hear your cry as soon as i heard the doctor said "baby out" and when i heard you, i couldn't stop crying.

thank you lord was all i say even tho my body started to ache and shiver. i obly wanted to see you. hold you and kiss you.

i was so excited to go to the recovery room but then the doxtor said you can't and need to be isolated bc you already ate and inbaled your poop. that caused you to breathe in difficulty.

they had to put oxygen on you and you need to be in dextrose.

the thought of not holding you and be with you in the same room made me crazy and mad and made me think this is all my fault i wasnt able to be healthy for you.

but still, thank you Lord was all i can say because He is faithful and he helped you recover soonest.

almost 7 days in the hospital and we finally went home.

it was the longest 7 days of my life, fighting tears and anxiety of not being with you to feed you and sing you to sleep.

with that, it made me realize that i'm really lucky to have our giliw dad and your mamita to support me and take care of you in the NICU.

after 7 long nights of being separated, i can finally feed you and sing you to sleep.

it was also hard as i didn't know where and how to start, especially in breastfeeding. i was starting to doubt myself if i was giving you enough milk to sustain your needs, but glad i didn't stop! it was the best time and it bonded us so much i couldn't and wouldn't stop holding you.

this is our first pic together!!! it was not aesthetically beautiful but this was gold as this is also the first time i held you 🥹

you were just so little and fragile but now as i am typing this, you can barely fit into my hands.

time really flies by so fast i sometimes just wanted it to stop so i can hug you all day all night!

anyways, it's 10:20pm already and you're starting to cry from sleep. i should end this post now, but will be back for sure to uoload/share more first time with you!

♡ momom izang