#but it still hurts nonstop

[area51-escapee]

Bought stuff so I could ensure I’d have lunch tomorrow but the expectation that everything is washed immediately after makes it impossible to actually do. I am in so much pain and using my hands at all hurts so badly I more or less have to choose between using them to make food or using them to clean and decide which is worth the pain. I’m so tired. I want somebody to make my lunch for me.

[saturnvs]

came face to face with an ardennes horse on the other side of a fence on my walk today. nearly cried because i miss these big lovely creatures with my whole heart. i'm fine (most definitely not)

[spaceratprodigy]

*gulp* deacon/iris "please just kiss me" intimacy ask........ NYE party- (i am shot)

@oldworldwidgets — [ intimacy prompts ]

It's in the stars, it's been written in the scars on our hearts

We're not broken, just bent, and we can learn to love again

pose reference

[irhabiya]

everyone on here is way too sweet to me oh my god

[orcelito]

I think that. When you are on 2 hours of sleep. You shouldn't have any other bad experiences. As a rule

I got half frozen on my way home today. And I feel quite significantly awful. Want to just crawl into my bed and shiver away in my blankets. But I have to shower and eat first. I'm warming up, but my fingers are still kind of burning. I feel Not Good.

[wildflowercryptid]

spoilers for the end credits of indigo disk below the cut!

GUESS WHO JUST FINISHED THE MAIN STORY, I'M GOING TO EXPLODE!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭

( i desperately need to redraw these mjverse style... )

[chirpingchorus]

I almost got this version of Street Spirit done in one go, but the last riff at the very end with the ring and pinky fingers did me in. Curse you, Jonny...

^ BANE OF MY EXISTENCE because the other tricky parts are at least fun to play once you learn them. The pain never ends with this final bit.

[tamagotchikgs]

last post ended up deleting my tags so im continuing them here

[bylertruther]

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[quippecker]

HATE the ghosting culture on this website, gives me so much anxiety whenever a partner just goes completely silent out of the blue. Personally, since people dipping is SUCH a problem on here, I think it would be polite to at least send a message to say you're busy, part of the time... I never hold it against anyone individually, since I know shit happens, and there are plenty of times that I've suddenly dropped off on someone for a bit. I'm not perfect, I've ghosted entirely by mistake, and I know that happens too. But if it's more than a week, I try to send a quick message to let them know, because I hate the way it makes me feel to be on the receiving end.

I just never know what's going on with people here, because they're all so afraid to talk to each other. And I get it. The one time you think communication might be a good idea, the person on the other end is obsessed w anonymity and hates ooc and disconnects. Then you decide, maybe I should keep quiet, and you get people that WANT communication, and freeze up and ghost the entire thread because they're scared to message you for even the most minor of clarifications. I've saved so many threads, chiming in with a suggestion or clarification when a regular partner suddenly freezes up, but I wish taking that initiative didn't risk a D/C for the crime of trying to collaborate, instead of read minds.

I hate it! I wish you could ask someone if they're busy for your peace of mind, like a normal person, without running the risk of people thinking you're clingy and need to touch grass. I've put HOURS of my time and emotional investment in this, and am looking forward to corresponding with you! If we have been messaging daily for weeks, I'm worried on a human level, when you just suddenly disappear! And not for nothing, but it hurts my feelings!

I love this hobby, I don't care about reading/writing fic and I never have, I like connecting to someone who shares my same passions for a character and a concept and the joy of writing, but this site is just a minefield of people that seem to hate it for some damn reason

[17gz]

actually i miss being unemployed yes i was miserable but at least i didnt have to deal w kids...

[chryzuree]

nitw chrysijacks au!!! tell me more abt it im so invested i love nitw!! do they get to be animals too...if they were animals what would they be!!!

AAAAH, okay okay, so it’s still a work in progress bc i haven’t decided if i want to have chrysi be in mae’s position but with elements of bea, or if i want jacks to be in mae’s position and have chrysi be mostly bea with just a hint of cole (bc i think chrysi would’ve absolutely left town for a bit), but as of writing this.. i’m erring towards chrysi as mae, since she defs can perceive things that most ppl can’t, plus she’s charismatic and generally a mess.

i was thinking chrysi shows up a couple days before her bday & you know. dismembered arm is found as usual. YES, chrysi’s thrilled abt this!!! VERY important to know!!! honestly, it’s a relief for her to find that arm, bc the vibes in that diner were in SHAMBLES. she was rlly trying to avoid eye contact w jacks and jacks was staring her down w his laser eyes. put those things AWAY, it’s literally four in the afternoon…

the party scene happens on chrysi’s bday itself, and guess who FUCKING FORGOT IT WAS HER BDAY. when the rest of their friends arrive at the party later (bc unfortunately, chrysi had to drive jacks out. she’s going to scream. that’s the worst, most awkward car ride over ever) & wish her happy bday, jacks is like “😦 oh………. happy birthday……….” <- has been in the same space as her for the past two hours. like. damn.

JACKS is the one that gets drunk (saw an ex, to which chrysi says, “you can’t run away from the town’s population”, since jacks is a serial dater), so chrysi takes him home and it’s the worstttt. she should’ve stayed at college. ((actually, jacks asks why she came home.. he’s rlly glad but he’s worried for her. unfortunately for him, he does NOT phrase it like that and chrysi gets even angrier w him))

they start repairing their relationship right around the same time chrysi starts seeing cult members / having fucked up dreams. so mostly, jacks comments on how exhausted and ill she looks. you really know how to compliment a girl, don’t you??

on one of their outings, chrysi finds out that jacks hasn’t rlly dated anyone in a while (omg.. theyre both single at the same time again.. which hasn’t occurred since jacks ruined their makeout session in senior year of high school!!!! wrow!!!!!) but anyway. still have to unpack allllllll the drama of high school before it goes anywhere.

their halloween celebration is fun.. i think that jacks would jst tag along w chrysi…. she’d win at the water balloon toss & they’d both laugh at their fortunes being read & jacks suspiciously goes missing when chrysi’s asked to cover for the witch play the town’s putting on. i jst think they need to reminisce abt halloween celebrations past… they neeeeeeed to kiss abt this, but they will NOT!!! never ever!!!!

jacks is the first to agree to research ghosts w chrysi <333 ughhh, he wants her so bad. does he believe in ghosts?? well.

THE SCENE IN THE WOODS, WHEN SHE GETS SHOT AT??? JACKS HAS TO BE PHYSICALLY DRAGGED AWAY SO HE DOESN’T ALSO GET SHOT AT. he’s sick with worry the whole time chrysi’s in the hospital. who cares abt the cult member keeping an eye on the appt??? he only cares abt how chrysi’s holding up…

he is dragging chrysi into the appt & picking her up bridal style when she shows up!!! he is putting her on the couch and tucking her in and curling up beside her!!!! they actually have a heart to heart there + chrysi begins to forgive him… before she “falls asleep” against him and jacks falls asleep too.. then chrysi gets up and goes to the woods w/o telling anyone.

jokes on her, bc jacks wakes up within ten minutes of her leaving bc he misses the feeling of her curled up against him. can NOT stop his obsessive crush and hyper-awareness of her. it’s been on overdrive since, like, ninth grade.

he’s the one to yell at her when they show up in the woods. OMG, JACKS ALSO HAS A CROSSBOW!!!! he fucking sucks at shooting at the guy tbh, he’s jst glad he managed to hit him.. then he hands off the crossbow to hold chrysi the whole way into the mines.

i haven’t rlly decided what i wanted to do here, bc i kinda want to deviate & play w story stuff regarding castor’s death.. kinda want it to be the valors that are part of the cult + they’re trying to bring castor back… but i also kinda want to up the level of danger throughout this whole time, so maybe castor’s already been revived as a vampire, but he’s like… super fucked up and ghoulish and nothing like the castor they knew… what if the mines were castor’s living quarters & they were jst trying to protect him?? plus this could mean that jacks can finally choose chrysi over castor !!!!!!! ,,,,mmm, yeah, i’m going to do that.

anyway. chrysi does NOT feel bad abt caving in the mines behind them!!!!!!! bye bye, valors!!! die then!!!!! jacks is a little more like, well, that was maybe not the best course of action? WHO CARES MAN!!!!!!

chrysi defs passed out bc visions or w/e but it’s FINE!!!!

the story would end w chrysi wishing jacks happy bday (fucked up two and a half weeks there, huh?) + jacks giving chrysi her bday present, bc he felt like an asshole that he a) forgot it was chrysi’s bday, and b) got blackout drunk on it… then they kiss abt it <333 and now they’re a couple!!!!

i wasn’t rlly thinking they’d be OFFICIALLY animals, but i think they’d both have a cat / fox motif…. lots of shirts + trinkets to call to mind those animals for them!!!!!!!!!!!! they should kiss…

[lotus-soup-pot]

Todays episode was intense.

The Stress to be under constant alert, the fear when you are found, the loss of your parent whom you recently bonded with right in front of your eyes, the helplessness, the acting on survival mode, the guilt for being responsible, the decision to stay because of love and the decision to leave because of love. The driving factor of every action being love - parental love, unconditional love, selfless love.

[guinevereslancelot]

is there anything worse than being rejected by a potential friend 😐

[onepiexe]

day 02 migraine wish i was laying in mud

[fappellmoan]

is it really really stupid to give her the gift. i know she’s not worth it and im making myself feel like shit over and over and i need to stop and it doesnt matter how sad or angry i am about it she’s not just gonna dump him and even if she did i wouldn’t like. want to be the second choice (not that i inherently would be. weirdo dream scenario) and it’s just not gonna affect her much to not see me anymore and i have to be okay with that. and im truthfully not rn but i have to be cause that’s the reality. anyway lost my point there