#but it is painful like there are so many cards i dont have lol. they even added more bc its monday

[munkkyprime]

Deciding to grind more gems in Master Duel or spend 1000 years playing Pokemon again...

Rambling beneath the cut lol

I'm playing Invoked Magistus in the theme chronicle event this time and oh God that deck does a whole lot of nothing very efficiently (there aren't many good generic synchro 8s or rank 4s available and the Magistus extra deck usually just wants to make an extra deck floodgate with a battle trick, and you never want to have to make Vahram AKA synchro mirrorjade that only has the on destruction effect and nothing else)

It wasn't mentioned by name but since we know we are getting more Witchcrafter cards and hopefully more propheseers and Endymion cards due to the new manga announcement, but Magistus *really* needs something to do that isn't Calamity Zoroa, and not even the Aleister fusions round out the deck's issues; Magistus Crowley's effect to change attributes like never comes up to make any Aleister fusions because the other Magistus cards can be used as material for the most important ones anyway which I think was the main purpose of the effect at printing? But idk more often than not I'm sending an Aleister from hand or field to graveyard and then invocating with it and something else in grave more than I'm changing Crowley to a light or smth...

Also don't get me started on the Prophecy monsters in general. (Monster portion of the spellbook archetype)

[4giorno]

this is what i mean LMAO i really got another double 5 star with a free new years ten pull, but theyre both dupes

[meiiuka]

hii!! i rlly love ur posts and i wanted to ask,

could you write fuyuhiko, ishimaru, and shuichi with a reader who ends up in the hospital alot?

if you cant/dont want to, just ignore this post! no hard feelings lol ^^ anyway, have a good day!!!

hi!! i’m so happy to hear you like my posts, it means a lot to me <3

fuyuhiko, ishimaru, and shuichi with an s/o who ends up in the hospital often:

category: headcanons, x reader, comfort, fluff

Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu:

• he just wants to protect you and make you feel more safe so he holds you closely when you’re feeling sick or anxious

• whenever you end up in the hospital, he gets really anxious and can become desperate for answers

• during your stay there, consider him your guardian angel bc he will not leave your side even if you insist

• he checks on you veryyy often. and he tries to be unobvious about it sometimes but 😭 he cares so much he can’t hide it

• “i don’t care what it takes to make sure you’re okay, i would go to the ends of the goddamn earth for you, got that?”

• he’s super stubborn and needs to make sure you’re okay, so he waits in the hospital room with you

• and if he can’t? he will wait outside in the parking lot until he can

• he’s argues with the staff about letting him in so he can check on you,, sometimes it actually works

• he kisses your forehead when you fall asleep because he wants to make you sleep well

• “i love you. squeeze my hand if you’re in pain, i can take it.”

Kiyotaka Ishimaru:

• he’s alert to any signs of illness or discomfort and has learned your signals overtime

• “y/n, i do worry there may be something wrong! are you feeling ok? should i get you a water? medicine?”

• he needs to be near you in case something happens. he loves you and wants to be prepared if anything occurred

• if you end up in the hospital, it never gets less scary for him

• even if its routine, he still can’t mask his anxiety behind potentially losing the love of his life

• “i felt too worried about you to sleep properly last night… would it be okay if i asked to stay in your hospital room overnight?”

• if this means he has to sleep on the floor, so be it, he will

• he tries to avoid smothering you but tends to be really physically clingy, just in fear you may feel alone

• “my love, tell me how you are. i want to listen to your fears and pain… i’d never move an inch if you asked me to! i’m right here.”

• he takes you out on lots of dates once you’re discharged, making sure you handle yourself carefully when you go outside again

Shuichi Saihara:

• he tries to come to your door every day and texts your phone if he knows he isn’t going to be able to see you irl

• “hey… y/n, are you feeling ok today? i was worried about you last night, i couldn’t stop thinking about you.”

• he doesn’t want you to worry about him worrying, he just wants you to feel that he cares

• and he definitely does. a whole lot more than he could even express to you

• when you end up in the hospital he’s the first to show up. how did he even know you were there?

• “i just… felt like something was off. gut feeling… and i needed to see the scene.”

• he loves writing little cards and sending lots of flowers and surprises to you when you’re in the hospital— every single time no matter how many

• “oh these? yeah, some are from your family and friends, but these ones are from me.”

• and he points to a neat stack of wrapped presents and cards

• he massages your scalp and leans over to kiss your lips and hand while you lay down

• “i love you so, so much. i could never lose you, i just want you to be safe and… comfortable. i’ll hold your hand right here.”

[concretepuppy]

hope does the erectile implant work? i always thought of like... a button or smth lol.

there are three types. i have the AMS Ambicor two-piece hybrid system (the newest of three. AMS is the brand, Ambicor is the model). all options will need to be replaced eventually. *theoretically* they could last forever, but because theyre mechanical devices that are getting a lot of friction, and in the case of phallo penises supporting something relatively heavy (phallo penises are significantly heavier than natal penises bc natal penises are mostly erectile tissue, which is spongy and light, but phallo penises are mostly subcutaneous fat or muscle, which is denser) so eventually they wear out or break. luckily unless the break is the result of trauma and caused any of the stuff inside the silicone to break the silicone or the device somehow breaks through your skin, it’s not dangerous to have a non-functioning device in your body. all three options are attached to your pelvic bone using titanium sutures. the small amount of metal will not set off body scanners/meta detectors and are all safe for MRI machines, and you’re given a patient info card to show when it’s relevant.

the types are:

1. Semi-rigid rod. exactly what it says on the tin. it’s a rod of ball-and-socket joints covered in silicone. the rod is always semi-rigid and does not get more or less hard. you bend it up (at a 90° angle to your body) for sex, and bend it back down for daily use. this option lasts the longest bc there’s less mechanical parts. i know two people who have had it, and both are satisfied, though one says he sometimes has difficulty topping anally if the bottom is a virgin or rarely bottoms anally. in cis men (who are the only population who have any studies wrt erectile implants, so they’ll be the comparison i use) this typically needs replaced every 5-10 years. there are many different brand options

2. Inflatable. A hydraulic system where a “reservoir” of fluid in a bulb that is ovular like a testicle is connected to the cylinders implanted in your penis. there is a button on the reservoir you push multiple times to fill the cylinders with fluid to become erect, then press and hold the button to become flaccid. For phallo patients, the reservoir is typically placed on one side of the scrotum and the other side has a testicular implant, but the reservoir can be placed anywhere in the pelvic region, it’s just easiest to access in the scrotum. This needs replaced more often than the semi-rigid rod bc it has more moving parts, in cis men it generally needs to be replaced every 5-7 years. i’m not sure about brand options bc i never considered this option.

3. Hybrid. what I have. the only existing option afaik is the AMS Ambicor. it’s a hybrid of the other two. it is a semi-rigid device, though less rigid than the rod, so it still has a truly flaccid state. the reservoir is again typically placed in the scrotum. unlike the inflatable, there is no button on the reservoir. you squeeze the reservoir itself to fill the cylinders with fluid & become erect, then you bend your erect penis at a ~60° angle in the middle (it looks very painful but it’s not at all, it’s not even uncomfortable) to deflate it.

i had some issues with inflation/deflation when i first started cycling the device. my balls were still sore so squeezing the reservoir kind of hurt, so i wasnt inflating the device all the way, which made deflation difficult. but now that i dont have any post-op pain, the process is easy and painless and cycling the device (inflating and then deflating it right after. you have to inflate the device once a day to “keep the fluid moving” according to my surgeon, so if youre not having sex or jerking off you just do a quick cycle) takes like two minutes, if that. it typically needs replaced in cis men everg 5-7 years.

my surgeon, Dr. Geolani Dy, prefers the hybrid for phallo patients. it has less risk of erosion (the tip of the device coming out of your skin bc the skin gas eroded due to pressure/friction) than the rod bc it has a flaccid state, but it can handle more weight than the full inflatable and thus is better suited for phallo penises. with the inflatable option OHSU offers, the tip of that device is a bit more pointy than the hybrid, so it also has a higher erosion risk. not sure abt any other inflatable options. but all three options have their pros and cons! there are also external erectile devices. some DIY using two coban/vet wrap and two condoms to create rigidity (note: this is not “safe” as in “safe sex” bc the friction of two condoms means theyre likely to break, so should only be done with partners youre fluid-bonded with), but this really only works for PIV sex and personally i could never get it to work for me. there are companies that make external erectile devices, like the Elator or the Stays Hard. both were designed for natal penises so both companies recommend phallo patients email them and work with them on sizing to ensure a good fit. i never tried these options so i cant speak to how well they work.

[misc-obeyme]

LISTEN. (cw torture, barb thirst, mc infofump, mentions of murder and devildm politics, a bunch'a spoilers for Barbatos live ★ & Tea time w you-, obey me whump, conditioning, rant about newer fandom this ask is a wild ride)

But I also like the idea of him discovering what you’ve been doing & then questioning you about your methods. Like he’s impressed you would take matters into your own hands, but he is also an expert and can teach you many things~

Cue you getting taken on as the torturer’s apprentice. When you tell Solomon, he just goes pale and stammers out a joke about how he doesn’t like sharing his apprentice lol.

I'm gonna interrupt you like the potato i am but like???yes????? you do not understand my obsession with torture. I always thought I'm a masochist but I've recently figured i was wrong and Boy it Was the best feeling in rhe world to figure out whats wrong with me-

also my mc is both Sol's apprentice in magic and Barb's student in torture and baking. mhmhmmm. I also Do Not Like the brothers so much my mc was never an exchabge student. I did some black butler shit back there and now he lives in the castle. like two years before the exchange program- (no my canon doesnt follow the game's canon caue thats so very badly written) and he also helps w murdering people who are against Diavolo. and people just ?? can't believe it- there has to be some sort of a war shit going on. Dia is too kind to do this- also, if anyone figures they don't. Barb has POWERS-

and BOY DO I LOVE BARB FOR THAT. Also dia but he isnt important rn sjsksk. in the new event's card he said smth like he would cross his own boundries for the sake of Diavolo and Devildom. althought he didnt say for mc so 😔 but thats hot af still. But buT BUT vvv

villain wannabe. wdym darkness?? you said itll be for the sake of devildom! idk im misinterpenting or no but this is so side ways I'm a bit ????ing rn

also in Tea time with you when you ask him what the fuck he did that even being a 24/7 slave butler to Diavoli won'y undo the mistake he had done?? he laughs?? HEEHEEE???? what are you Michael Jackson? and the other option he goes straight to anger so idk whats with the huge difference in replies-

anyway angry Barb is also best Barb i dont make the rules. also he's the butler of their PRINCE noone gets to harm mc. they'd dissapear. go missing. possibly either killed or very altered. Came Back Wrong™ ohoho, imagine if some of the castle workers/maids etc used to be high ranked nobles and demons and they've done smth so wrong that lowered them to this. and they don't remember it?? and noone else does remember too. just some lost names. okay not to get far-

BUT LISTEN Barb has definitly done some conditioning bs out there you can not prove it otherwise. also, Mammon keeps getting punished by Lu and hasn't changed so imagine the pain those demons have to go through for that-

JSKSKAJ!! BARB IS HOT OKAY- HES SADISTIC. I live sadistic demon butlers . also the fact that he has a torture dungeon- and who says there aren't demons in the hidden prisons waiting for their turn? i imagine Barb would randomly take one, do the things™ and leave for the next few months. the second the demons think they're forgotten/ theyre doomed. its also not in order so yep more stress. so wha i was goimg to say is imagine a very sadistic and mentally ill™ mc whos very angry tortuing some " innocent" souls in the dungeons. also, I tend to imagine Barb has taught Lucifer a few forms of torture when he fell (cough, Believer cough-) so-

Barb is such an interesting character (like Sol) and the older fandom used to really put those aspects in mind but the newer fandom is stripped completely from darkfic. like. can we have more darkfic i am begging I want obey me whump I dont want mc angst i want mc whump i want these bad boys dying of pain and being saved the last minute i want more stories on devildom politics i want more dark! demons/dark! mc aus- like can we bring that back??? can we stop w 24/7 fluff/comfort/angst thats just mc's death ?? no hate to those but can we bring back the dark shit i want to see demons getting their asses whooped in barb's dungeon or Dia being manupilative af--😭😭😭

ok ok ill shut up now😂

There is so much happening in this ask, but for some reason I keep coming back to "HEEHEEE???? what are you Michael Jackson?" because wow that made me actually LOL for real.

I'm always going to be for canon divergence. I say do whatever makes you happy! Your MC must truly have their hands full learning all that stuff with Barbatos and Solomon. But like if you're gonna learn those things, might as well learn from the best, right???

The thing I like about Barbatos is that he is very versatile. They've kept him very mellow in the game, but he has so much potential to go dark if you want to write him that way. I mean they don't even confirm that he actually has a torture dungeon in the game... I'm pretty sure it's just Mammon who says he's rumored to have one. But like by leaving it open ended like that, we can speculate all we like about it, you know?

And traditionally, wasn't that the point of demons? Aside from tempting humans, they're supposed to torture souls, right? I mean, I don't know how accurate that actually is, but it's interesting to think about.

I'm not especially obsessed with torture and I think it's pretty clear from my writing that I'm generally on the fluffier side of things lol. But it's interesting to think about, especially considering the types of characters we're dealing with here. And I really like the exploration of morality and inner evil and that sort of thing when it comes to heavy stuff like torture.

I thought it was very interesting in Barbatos Live how he calls MC his good conscience. 'Cause in Tea Time with You, he very much indicates that he used to do crazy stuff all the time, but then the Incident happened and now he doesn't. So wouldn't his guilt over whatever happened be his good conscience, like it has been all this time before MC showed up? Is he saying that MC just makes him want to stick to that even more?

Though he also says that it's like demon nature to have some darkness, so I don't know if he's talking about his specific experience necessarily. It's more like he's saying he wants to fight against his own nature? I dunno.

OH DANG but I love that idea about the maids and such in the castle! Demons that messed up so bad, now Barb keeps them at the castle to work??? What was that about not giving into the darkness???? lk;asdfkjlfd

I'm afraid I can't really comment on the amount of darkfic present in the fandom at any given time... due to being a Fluffster Extraordinaire, I'm faaaar more likely to read sweet lovey romance fics than Barb torture dungeon fics. Which isn't to say that I don't like the Barb torture dungeon situation because I do indeed find it very intriguing lol. I'm just usually like yo I want that guy to bake for me and make me tea, I don't care what he does in his spare time.

In fact, I really like the idea of a sweet and doting house husband Barbatos that pampers MC all day every day while being a ruthless and loyal demon butler the rest of the time. Like the dungeon isn't a rumor but as long as he washes off the blood when he comes back, MC is like whatever lol.

Oh but I also like the idea of MC being just as bad as him, now that I think about it. Like MC isn't ignorant, they don't turn a blind eye, they are right there with him, actively participating. The torture couple aadsflkjdfkjldf

I dunno, I think I'm considering it in more of a humorous way than a serious way, though.

Anyway, it's fun to consider all aspects of Barbatos because he has so many facets! And I think it's fun to explore the different sides of him.

[honeyuuyuu]

500+ Followers Event!

Heya! This event is all about OC interactions, but before I introduce to you our three wonderful students let me list down a few rules:

1. No NSFW

2. You may ask about canon 

3. Strictly TWST, however you may mention other fandoms, just don’t ask for other characters from other fandoms, or use your other fandom OCs

4. Don’t be disrespectful

5. I will not answer asks in these blogs: @honey-milk-depresso​ @ryuuryuuhoney​ . Asks must only be in @honeyuuyuu​ 

6. Have fun!

Now that’s out of the way, the three musketeers!: 

Ove Bell:

yo wassup, i like bugs and er, honey’s cool- yeah- anyways yall should like totally vote me for tumblrsexyman (/j- or was i??), and also like dont get confuse between arachnids and insects, they are completely different. i love insects, but spiders get me ya know? lol i look like a third grader typing okay bye- please chat with me- istg the damn creator hasnt made us proper intro cards yet they’re damn lazy-

Heldge Seincler:

Hello, viewer. I am Heldge Seincler, a descendant of the great Seincler Family where we are known for being the best military advisers and leaders around. I hope to be able to protect the Draconia Family, although there is this first year in Diasomnia who seems very passionate about doing so. Maybe he could join? Alas, it does not matter. I hope you get to know you well. That is all. Oh, one more thing, if that prince causes any trouble for you, tell me.

Prince Kainalu:

Hello! I’m Prince Kainalu Kamakawiwo’ole of The Crowns of Atlantis, but I know many people can’t pronounce my surname because it’s really long so you can just call me Kainalu or Kai for short! No need for that “Prince” title, really, I’m not doing any royal duties or anything and it’s a casual interaction, so, yeah! If you know Heldge, dear Leviathan. He’s a tough pain in the neck and he really needs to loosen up a bit. Seriously. I like the ocean, and fish, and swimming in the ocean. Yeah. Sorry I can’t really write casually without being really awkward. Still hope we could be friends! ^^

Honey:

Well... You already know me..! So um... yeah! D-don’t bring T*ey, A*e or A*ul into this, though! please do- please- and yourself- please talk to me- </3

Welp, there you go! Now go talk to us! Okay bye-

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[delcakoo]

Aww i love being ur cool older sibling!!!

I mainly play for txt bc thats where i have the best cards! (sometimes i play enha or svt songs bc its fun tho!)

And yeah this is my 6th ear piercing (unless u count an industrial as two piercings haha) and i also have a septum and chest piercings (ik they arent called that i just dont wanna make people uncomfortable fnfjfkfk idk how to refer to them online but i do have them) and then i have a wrist tattoo and ankle tattoo and 6 small finger tattoos djdjddhdk. people joke that once u get one u keep wanting more and i swear its really true! I have a bunch more piercing and tattoo plans however they cost money i do not have rn lol

ohhh omgomg !!! UR MAKINF ME RLLY WANNA REDOWNLOAD IT 😭 IMMA DO THAT LATER

HOLY SHIT???!! I DID NOT EXPECT SO MANY thats so cool !!??? AND FINGER AS IN RING TATTOOS???? i’ve always loved looking at those WHAT DESIGN R U OTHER ONES?

i wanna get a tattoo as well but smthn small most likely cuz my pain tolerance sucks 💀

[zizz-asdf-re-r-o-u]

nukani Q&A

Questions from here! https://matadorofheart.tumblr.com/post/717595845428707328/

1. What got you interested the game? What kept you playing? - some leaked H scenes, now i'm still playing to find out the lore/story and see more H scenes

2- Who was your first SSR? -OG SSR Kuya!

3- Who’s on your home screen? Do you tend to stick to the same character/card or switch it up? Do you have Eiden onscreen with them? Currently SSR Aster + Eiden, i originally had OG SSR Kuya. haven't played the game long enough, but i think i'll be switching up on who i think is coolest at the time

4- Favorite character? -Kuya & Aster, closely followed by Garu, Rei, and Morvay

5- Favorite Eiden ship? -I think i'm a polyclan shipper, but I like Kuya/Eiden, Eiden/Garu, and Aster/Morvay's H scenes the most.

6- Favorite non-Eiden ship? oops, Aster/Morvay xD but I'd watch Morvay bang everyone. I also believe Quincy/Kuya is partially canon, but dont care about quincy so i dont actively seek out fan content about them.

7- Favorite territory of Klein? -No favorite territory. But maybe wood since thats where Kuya is from?

8- Favorite chapter? -oof, i'm torn between Rei's chapters and Kuya's chapter. but i also kinda hate them bc getting through the chapter boss fights WERE SUCH A PAIN IN THE BUTT. Ok technically Rei's should not have been that hard, but I was only building up 1 healer and 1 support. I didn't know i'd need several of them to beat his fight :(((

9- Favorite event? -GAMBLER'S PARADISE, and I'm really liking Misty Vale so far. Ok maybe I have recency bias xD but i really liked everything about Gambler's Paradise except for the high stakes stages which i couldn't clear story, the new SSRs, H scenes, eiden's outfit, the violence/gore in the event story, the horniness of the event story, the intimacy gifts, and how everything tied itself together. what the heck, it was such a well packaged. (Especially compared to Sunburst Festival and Chase the Rainbow's rerun, which are the only 2 other events I played)

10. Favorite original SSR? I think overall (battle stats + H scenes) Kuya, but Edmond (for battle stats) and Garu (for H scenes) are a close second.

11. Favorite event SSR? H scenes- Aster & Morvay, Outfits- Edmond slays in every outfit he has I swear. But also Maid Blade and A/B/O Garu? Hnnng. Battle stats- I have no idea, but I want the Kuya and Garu event SSRs

12. Favorite H scene? Oof, a tie between SSR Aster & Morvay. Warning that there is some dubcon/noncon in there, but if you ignore the dialogue, the voice acting and artwork is very yummy. A close second are Kuya's OG SSR and SR H scenes, but i KNOW i would love Kuya's Sunburst & Lakeside Spark H scenes if i had them- I've seen the screenshots. A/B/O Garu also seems to have very promising H scenes and I'm very excited to unlock EG Garu's scenes cause they look fun too.

13. Current level? 60... but none of my units are 60 yet xD

14. Most powerful unit? SR Morvay at 59 xD SR Yakumo is a close second at 56.

15. Least powerful unit? Probably all the cards i have that are still at level 1 (which is like 80% of my cards lol)

16. How many of your units have maxed out bonds, if any? I have maxed out SR morvay, SR aster, R yakumo. Then several cards that are at room 4.

17. Do you strategize & focus on gameplay, or are you just here for the spice? -I'm only here for the spice.... but I've spent significantly more time on strategizing instead :( I'm bummed out about that

18. Thoughts on the challenge events? (Sorcerer’s Trials, Lost Relics, etc) Uh I dont have strong enough teams to tackle anything higher than trial 29 on ST... I wish I could like them. Lost Relics looks particularly intimidating

19. What’s your favorite thing about the game overall? The H scenes xD And i guess the lore too. Rei & Garu's mysterious backstories are especially interesting to me. (I really like horribly traumatized characters lol)

20. Got any wishes for the future of the game? (Story, events, new characters, etc?)

ok so mostly a lot boring gameplay/gacha complaints that i've already seen like the pulls/energy/currency/etc. Buuut for fun wishes, I can't believe maid Blade is the only card with crossdressing! we need another one! Yakumo cooks & cleans! he should be in a maid dress at least once! Also more violence and gore! I dont know if there was any explicit murders before Gambler's Paradise, but as a huge horror fan, i loved that tiny glimpse of fictional violence. Also more *extreme* kinky activities! Nuca is surprisingly vanilla; we only get some glimpses of bondage or some sex toys here and there, so when Aster whipped out some tentacles, I was so so so excited. LIke I've seen the Kuya 4koma webcomics. He's a super kinky bastard- we should see it more. Currently the femboy possibly trans twink is more sadistic than Kuya is. C'mon, its a porn game, there should be more porn in it. Speaking of Aster, I hope there's something somewhere hidden confirming that he's trans. Too many signs point to it, but i still see denial. Also I'm not into big guys or DILFs, but Aster said he has an old-man form, and I know there's a subsection that would go wild over DILF Aster. (Especially traaans DILF Aster maybe? trans DILFs can be very hot).

Also this isn't a wish, so much as a hope it stays, but i hope we never have a "true ending/route/romance" type thing. I think Eiden & his harem should remain poly.

[bright-side-of-the-moon]

salaam everyone!

this is an rp and general account for my riordanverse oc Hilal, you can find me @kindred-spirit-93. i wont be very active here for both irl and in character university lol, but the important thing is having fun :)

all rights reserved to rick riordan, only my ocs belong to me. keep in mind that this is fiction, so enjoy it for what it is. you can read more about Hilal here.

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✧ about me:

my name is Hilal which is Arabic for crescent moon. my twin brother's name, Badr, means full moon.

birthday: December 31st 1986

likes: strawberry milk, purple, cats, books, sleeping, languages, beatles, teas, autumn, mint chocolate chip and pineapple pizza

dislikes: dishonesty, deadlines, sardines & fava beans, cleaning the pellets of Marmalade's midnight snacks (ew), social situations

speaking of, this is my eagle owl companion Marmalade. say hi!

she was gifted to me on my birthday by my father. she likes to nibble on barazek, syrian sesame biscuits. shes a bit odd but so am i & i love her very much.

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✧ trivia and stuff:

as a daughter of Hades (long story), i have a certain affinity for the dark, but through a boon from Persephone (even longer story), i also possess some botanical abilities.

said powers shift with the changing seasons, and in all honesty im still learning about them myself, so bear with me.

i speak many languages; English and Arabic i grew up with, Chiron very kindly taught me Latin and Greek. in the summer holidays during highschool i learnt Turkish, Aramaic, and a little Farsi too.

i recently took up embroidery! i never knew stabbing could be so much fun but here we are ;)

im a practicing muslim Alhamdulillah, and my faith means a lot to me. it can be hard sometimes to wear the hijab and balance everything, but i try my best and thats what matters

funny story: shortly after my birth when we went to get the paperwork done, mama accidentally wrote her dad's name after mine on the forms, so my 'middle name' is my grandfather's name; Khalil, which is Arabic for friend or companion.

i dont have any weapons (i use my hardcover anatomy book if needs be), but im learning archery. looks cool and is quite fun

its also less taxing on my wrist; i underwent surgery about a year ago for CTS and am still hesitant to commit to strenuous physical activities, even knifesmanship. but im working on it

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✧ people, places, and things:

after moving to camp half blood (february ish), the first camper i met was a young Will Solace! there werent many year round campers, but i saw Will every now an then when i went to pick up some pain killers from the infirmary. i still have the sunshine plasters (band-aids) he gave me :)

Nico i met when i was 19 i think, he showed me his mythomagic cards and i made pasta and pesto (a comfort food of mine)

he introduced me later on to Hazel, and i was overjoyed to have a little sister, which is only made funnier when you realise that i am technically the youngest XD

life seems significantly brighter with my new little family and close band of friends. i do hope being on tumblr will serve to strengthen the bonds and make new ones

chances are on any given day you can find me either in the library, the kitchenette over Chiron's study, my cosy room in the attic, or on my sunrise walk where i internally monologue and brood

after a wonderful and lengthy conversation with Lady Hestia over some tea and biscuits, the plans for a cabin of her own revolve around it being a sort of safe haven for relaxation and some peace when things get a little loud or overwhelming.

with her permission ill be using the second floor of the new Hestia cabin as an office for sessions for anyone who needs to let off some steam, have a good cry or a chat and some cookies.

this comes after my psychology & councelling degree and necessary training to qualify as the camps resident mental health councellor, because sometimes being a demigod is a bit much

"because sometimes being a demigod is a bit much" - Hilal Khalil

jokes aside, i look forward to being of some comfort for those who need it in their time of need. baked goods work wonders too.

i have a satchel i carry with me nearly everywhere i bought it at the airport and its been my trusty companion since. i embroidered some (wonky) flowers and skulls with jewels for eyes on it :)

i made a few pendants back when i dabbled in epoxy resin art to make some coasters with flowers i picked. keychains were a bit harder so i only made 3; for hazel, myself, and nico respectively:

･ﾟ.･ﾟ✧ .･ﾟ･ﾟ

✧ before i forget:

the phrase "Sub umbra floreo" is Latin for under the shade i flourish, which i think fits me well all things considered

my idea so far for this blog is recipies, interacting with fellow campers, Marmalade & Abercrombie, and other bits and bobs

the Arabic phrase written in the profile picture reads: heal your sorrows with shawarma, which is my favourite food :P

have a nice day/ night and i will see you (maybe) soon!

[oraclekleo]

Hi Kleo!

If it comes to the reverse tarot game, personally i can't read tarot at all, so i wouldn't even know how to come about interpreting something 😅 However I'm thrilled for different games! I've been thinking about learning tarot, but I don't know if it's for me if that makes sense? Knowing myself i would probably doubt whatever comes out in the cards.

Yesterday it was 31° here so i feel your pain. Luckily today it's only 25 which is perfect for summer imo. Drinking lots and lots of water really is the way + I've made some ice tea from black tea mixed with cherry juice 🍒

I'm really bored these days and i dont know what to do. I mean i have a couple ideas but i just can't bring myself to it. I've started crocheting cause i want to make all these cute things from pinterest, (thought about selling some as well) but so far i can't do any pattern besides chain, and it's really frustrating 😔

I've also been thinking about uni/college. I should be out of school already but I failed my senior year 😭 So i have some additional time to think. I have no idea what should I pursue, I've got so many interests and i dont know which one would be the best for me. Sometimes i feel like i would suck at everything lol

Really hope you're fine despite all this heat! Take care! 💙❤️‍🔥

Hello!

First of all, if you feel interested, you should give tarot a try. You don't have to believe it. It's a great meditation exercise, it can serve as an artistic inspiration for other projects, it can be just a fun party trick or game for you and your friends. You don't have to take it seriously. Tarot cards are always just a tool, a set of colourful pieces of paper, it's up to you to determine how you're gonna use them. So if you feel interested, you can give it a go and see. Here are 10 tips on how to use tarot

Anyway! I'm with you on the heat. I'm just drinking water from a bottle right now, I have a glass pitcher with lemon water in the fridge for when I crave some refreshing flavour. 😁 Realities are all about location, location, location but summers are all about hydration, hydration, hydration! 💧

Any new skill takes long to learn. Sometimes it's best to embrace the one that you find fun learning, as the process itself, not just aiming for the perfection. 😊 As for the future plans... It's a very popular believe these days that you should pursue a career based on your interests and hobbies. But the reality is a bit more complicated. Even if you study something you are interested in and then find an adequate job in the field, you might not be happy. I mean, the very thing that used to be your interest or hobby, something you used to do because you wanted to and because you enjoyed it, suddenly becomes a source of income and therefore you are no longer allowed to approach it with light heart. You MUST do it. And what escape do you have then? What will you do to relax if the thing you used to do to relax is now the source of tension? Obviously you should do what feels best for you but a mundane and boring job is often the best one you can have because it allows you to do all the work during business hours and once you leave work, you can truly detach and relax while attending your passions and hobbies and they will always stay the source of joy for you. Only very special and driven people can turn their hobbies into big wealth and those people usually have to sacrifice A LOT! This doesn't mean, you can't be one of those people, only you should consider the dark side of the whole thing. 😁

Me and dogs are doing fine today. 😊 Thank you! 💖

[sunnybubblezzz]

the end.

its june now.

the first teardrop fell in january.

it sucked. it sucked so so so much. its so embarrassing how much i cried over her. it’s embarrassing how im still crying.

the 7 hour playlist is embarrassing, all these posts are embarrassing lol. however, i think i can say that this is the end.

she leaves in two months, and i can go days without thinking about her, i stopped listening to the playlist, and i don’t sob anymore, if i can just block it out when my brother talks to her- its cool. plus, im happier.

and with my whole chest, i can confidently say that

SHE SUCKSSSSSSSSHSADJUJSDHUHDS

yeah YOU SUCKKK.

i WISHHH she can see how better off i am without her. lowkey, i wonder why im crying over her. she was NOT that great. i got over the loss of her real quick, like dude- i’m just embarrassed i loved you so much.

the only thing that hurt was not feeling enough. but i have other friends to reassure me of that.

A HUGE THANK YOU TO MY BESTIE POOKIE I REALLY COULDNT HAVE DONE IT WIHTOUT HER.

i love her sooo much. like, it was God who gave me her. i prayed night and day for God’s help and He really did give me it. He helped me in the form of one of the best people ever. she has my whole heart.

and to the one who broke me to pieces.

i really really want to say that i hope that happens to you one day. but i already know it will. i already know that she’ll feel the SAME pain i felt. i dont even have to worry- i dont have to wish it or hope.

instead, i hope youre happy. i hope youre happy and i hope you just REALIZE how BADDDD you hurt me.

i hope you realize that you made ME WANT TO DIEEE. you made me feel like so much less, when in fact im sooo much MORE.

i never loved you wrong. i hope you look at those gifts and cards and i hope you REALIZE THAT.

and this whole time i’ve been wondering, “why wasn’t i enough for you.” but nah bro- if it wasn’t me not being enough for you- YOU WERENT ENOUGH FOR ME.

im mad that i loved you so much when you did not deserve it.

i’m mad i let you hurt me.

i’m mad i put you on such a pedestal WHEN YOU WERE NOT ALL THAT.

i hated the way you were such a perfectionist, i hated the way you looked down on me, i hated the way you never complimented me, i hated the way you were with me, i hated that i always felt i needed to do extra things to be good enough for you, i hate that i felt so lucky to be friends with you

i hate that since you left, i always feel not enough in everything i do.

so i’m letting you go

because i’ve cried way too many tears and it’s time to move on.

but i’ve felt this sort of resentment in my heart, this bitterness and its time to let it go. so, i forgive you. i love you.

even though you’ll never say sorry, and i’ll never forget. even though you hurt me till it was hard to even take a breath.- i forgive you.

i feel so much lighter now. i thank God for all my other friends who made this so much easier. I remember praying for a friend- and thanking God for giving me her. Now, I thank God for taking her away.

i hope you (don’t) forget me.

to the one who i love and who loves- thank you.

[4giorno]

oh i also got hajime ♡ i forgot to take a screenshot bc i was so devastated to have used 70 pulls for one off rate up 5* LMAO

[lucky555]

what's always in my bag: w/ inspo + recs

section 1 will be essentials section 2 will be recommendations

section 1, the essentials:

your electronic of choice (if you have one). usually for me this is my phone, however sometimes it also includes one of my cameras, headphones, laptop, or iPad.

journal. this is an ESSENTIAL for me because I am too afraid to leave it in my room when I am not there due to the fear of someone reading it lol.

medicine pouch. its good to always keep pain meds/any meds you usually need incase of an emergency.

wallet. this is an obvious one, as someone who has not yet set up their Apple Pay (I know I'm very very late on that) I always need my wallet with me.

a book. this has come in handy so many times, as I find myself reaching for it when I need to wait in public or where there is no wifi.

a beauty pouch. this is my favourite part of my bag, it includes lip products, perfume, gum, hand cream etc.

hand sanitiser/sanitiser wipes. I ALWAYS need these with me as I am a huge germaphobe and need to clean my hands at all times.

section 2, the recommendations with links:

before I begin, if you're looking for a bag for university/school I do not recommend getting tote bags. it will KILL your shoulders by the end of the day and its not good for your back. there are many cute backpack options that would be much more comfortable for this use. however, tote style bags are my favourite just for casual, everyday use.

some bag recommendations are;

longchamp le pilage (i dont have this one yet but I really want the black one)

goyard tote in size medium

brandy melville canvas backpack

miscellaneous recommendations;

I got my journal as a gift, however I recommend any notebook you can find to be honest. I'm not too picky with my journals however the one I am using right now has been my favourite, it is beautiful and it feels very personal due to it being a gift.

my medicine pouch is a random one from years ago, however I recommend the cute small pouches from brandy melville.

I recommend getting card holder instead of a big wallet if you barely ever keep cash on you (like me). it is much smaller and more convenient.

the current book that I am reading is 'the virgin suicides', it's so good so far and I recommend everyone to read it. i am really excited to finish it because ive heard incredible things about the movie.

I use the glossier pouch as my beauty pouch, however literally any pouch would work just fine.

for lip products, I recommend the glossier balm dot coms for lip balms, and the fenty gloss bomb for lipgloss.

for perfume, I have a mini body spray in my bag just for emergencies (as it is not my favourite scent), however I recommend getting a small body spray with whichever scent you like best (I am planning on getting the vanilla mini body spray and hand cream from bbw).

for hand cream I recommend any from l'occitane, their quality is brilliant and the scents all smell wonderful.

hope this was interesting to read because it was very fun to write :-)

[a-very-tired-raven]

1. April 19th 🐏!!

2. Biggest Phobia would probably be melissophobia, which is a fear of wasps and bees. However my biggest fear is being forgotten.

3. Uhhh ive twisted an ankle and had a bad sprain, which is about the same as breaking one.

4. Everything lmao. My humor is very fluid, and i can adapt to others humor extremely well. This is what helps me make other people laugh :]

5. Yes, Men with long hair. Like, actual, long hair. Also i reaalllllly like nerdy and dorky guys. True dumbasses. Slap long hair on a dork and im smitten.

6. Yes, depending on the context. I was heartbroken when my dogs passed away, and i was also heartbroken when my mom at my icecream 💔

7. Question is way too hard lmao. But if i had to pick one id say Out of my mind by Cg5

8. Was born female, and I currently have no plans of transitioning

9. America🇺🇸!! Hope to travel someday.

10. Uhh very vague question hmm... fireworks?? Idk man, id have to think ab it for a long time

11. Yes, multiple actually. I have six dogs🐶(5 pitbulls and a mutt) a couple of goldfish and a bearded dragon. Working on getting rats sooner or later.

12. just rude and hateful people in general. Im just so tired of everyone going at everyones throats.

13. Finding out my step mom is getting engaged 🧡!!!

14. Mmm kinda of. As much as i love the night i get creeped out during later hours. So i suppose.

15. Yes, very much so 🎮!!

16. Lmao plenty. Slaped the shit out of a target mannequin thinkin it was nailed down. It wasnt. Almost made it fall lmao. Also tripped and nearly busted my ass in public.

17. A hospital!

18. Yes but i didn't always need them 😭!!

19. Foxes, Rats, and axolotls!!

20. Orange orchid's 🌺🧡

21. Raven! Hence the user lol

22. Swimming!!

23. Pasta of any kind!(spaghetti, alfredo, lasagna, etc etc)

24. Not that i know of! But i di have very sensitive skin, so I gitta be careful about what lotions, sunscreens, and earrings i wear. (This also means sand burns the everloving fuck outta me)

25. Someday, yes. But the pain makes me very very nervous. It scares me a little.

26. Football, baseball, and rugby!!

27. I believe Adhd is counted as a disability, correct me if im wrong, so yes.

28. Lol its pretty plain, first off its thick, that way even if i drop it on its screen it wont crack, and two its grey and black.

29. Math. And computers. Got a computer for the first time last year and theres so many things i dont understand

30. Violin music lmao. That shit hurts me so damn good. Electric instruments can have this effect but not nearly as strong as a violin.

31. I honestly dont think i KNOW about enough conspiracies to believe in any.

32. Nope!!

33. Fine with a lot of them (moths, lightin bugs, dragonflys, rollie pollies, etc) but i am terrified of bees man. Wasps and hornets i hate they can go fuck themselves, and so can cockroaches, waterbugs, earwigs, and fireants.

34. Pretty unlucky in terms of literal luck tbh. Im very clumsy, dont have really good odds with mystery things(pokemon cards, etc) but in terms of stuff to be thankful for i think im very lucky.

35. Halloween🕷🕸, April fools, and Christmas lol.

36. I like the ocean itself, but the sand here sticks to us all over, and it burns the fuck outta my sensitive skin. Maybe if i went somewhere where the sand didnt stick id like it more?

37. COOKIES, icecream, and snickers lmao big sweet tooth

38. Sundrop!(its a soda thats only distributed to specific states here) mango slushies are good too!

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[svmbucky]

arguing with anti sambuckys and anti sarahbuckys can be annoying as HELL but especially when they play the “why can’t a man and a woman just be close friends, huh??? why can’t two men be in an intimate PLATONIC relationship, HUH??” cards. god knows those cards aren’t coming out when you’re shipping bucky with white women.

[cerealmonster15]

fuuuufufufuuu it’s my partners bday in a few weeks and i have NO IDEAS, I just remembered while i was in the shower and was like o fuck wait it’s march now, shit

idk my mind always goes to food for gifts but aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 

straight up can’t remember what i got him last year

for christmas i crocheted him a snorlax but that took like weeeeeeeeeeeeeks and weeks and weeks of time bc im slow lol

thought about commissioning a drawing or something from someone for him , but hhhh money,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but also imma be spending money on gift anyway so hhhhmmm,,, hmmm mm m mm,,,,