#but in my hc i consider him to be closer to 16-17

[wereh0gz]

I think it's kinda weird how ppl say sonic *can't* be a teenager bc of the way he sounds or acts (especially in frontiers) bc. Yeah he can actually. Have you been around a lot of teenagers before. Have you seen how varied they are

You go to a high school and you will see teens taller than all of the teachers around them with deep voices to match, and you'll also see teens who look and sound like they could actually be 10, and everything in between those two points. Yeah the majority are somewhere in between, but it's not completely impossible for a teen to look or sound like an adult

Also a kid who has been through everything Sonic has will start to act mature for their age. A lot of real kids will start to act like adults for a plethora of reasons. In fact I myself was often told I was mature for my age even when I was little (possibly bc of undiagnosed neurodivergency or anxiety or something but we're not unpacking that rn). Some kids will act like adults, some won't. It depends on a lot of things

Point is just bc someone looks, sounds, or acts like an adult doesn't mean they are one

Idk Sonic character ages have always been kinda weird but just bc they don't have any stated "official" ages anymore doesn't mean Sonic is suddenly not a kid. It just means it's more open to interpretation and not that relevant to the franchise since the game timeline is already really ambiguous

[innepttia]

@spookyvalentine has FOUR sets of “50 questions about Shepard” list and this is the third!!

Maeve Shepard

First 50 Questions | Second 50 Questions

TW: mentions of alcohol abuse & canon typical death

(Art by tumblr: @/milton-chamberlain)

1. How often does Shepard use the omni-blade?

Omni-blade, not a lot but it’s her favorite weapon to use (ok I know this is contradictory but just go with me). Omni-tool – ALL THE TIME.

2. What does the Virmire Survivor think of Shepard?

Ashley! I think she wishes they were closer, because they really would get along if they both gave it a shot. If Shepard didn’t die, they’d probably have become besties at some point and perhaps Shepard could have still soothed over some of that xenophobic nature of Ashley’s.

3. Top three comfort movies:

Howl’s Moving Castle

Princess Bride

Shallow Grave

4. How many languages can they speak (without the translator)?

Oh, I love that Spooky has asked this in the Mass Effect discord we’re in because I already know the answer now!!

English, ASL (which doesn’t really count for translator-use), and – in my own HC – spacers have a language similar to The Expanse’s Belter Creole.

5. Does Shepard keep a log/journal?

No. Which is a boring answer, but no.

6. What kind of driver is Shepard?

I like to HC that she actually would rather have others drive so she can tinker with something. So, instead of driver, she’s a passenger princess.

7. Shepard witnesses a petty crime. What is their response?

She ignores it! Maeve really cultivates an air of: “If this doesn’t affect me, then I don’t care.”

8. Revenge, or the high road?

REVENGE, BABEEYYYYY – but only in her head because she’s a busy lady and doesn’t have time to really properly act out her revenge.

9. What will always distract them?

Thane, Thane, Thane, Thane, alcohol, Thane, Thane, Joker, Thane, Thane, Thane, etc.

10. Does Shepard ascribe to any sort of faith?

No, but she becomes interested in Thanes.

11. Fondest childhood memory?

By ME2, she isn’t sure her childhood memories are really hers, so she tries to forget them.

12. Most embarrassing adult memory?

In ME2, before Thane’s romance was locked in, she got so drunk one day and drunk-messaged Ashley trying to flirt with her. Then when that was completely rejected, she went straight to Zaeed to try and flirt with him, but she became so distracted in the garbage compactor that she missed her one chance with that old merc. Joker was 100% watching the vid feeds and EDI was monitoring her messages to Ashley.

13. What does Shepard choose to do about Gavin Archer?

THIS mothafuckin guy THIS GUY ohhhhh my god. I think canon choice was “your brother is going to Grissom Academy and you can fuck right off” but the unhinged, more correct choice is: iron pressed against his temple and ending it all then and there for Gavin.

14. Is Shepard the type to gossip?

If it’s gossip with Kasumi, yes, because Kasumi has the best tea and tells the best story. Anyone else, probably not.

15. How does Shepard react to Garrus’s Archangel reveal?

I’m just going to go with the canon-neutral reaction.

16. What was the N7 program like for Shepard?

This was when she was A Good Soldier and A Good Person (pre-ME1), so it went pretty well, all things considered. She was focused and driven and wanted to be the best she could be.

17. Go-to karaoke song?

ANOTHER ONE I CAN ANSWER BECAUSE OF DISCORD thank god. This song because it’s mostly shouting instead of singing:

Fire Woman – The Cult

18. What choice does Shepard make on Rannoch?

Okay so, this one might get me a lot of hate BUT I’ve always accidentally (I’m so serious about this) picked the option here Tali throws herself off the cliff. Like, I’m not joking. It doesn’t matter how many years are between play throughs, or if I’m like, OKAY THIS TIME…!!! I always manage to pick that option. In an AU, I’d really like for the Geth and the Quarians to make peace and build the planet together and I’m just inept at making Good Choices.

19. Which kind of reaper do they think is the ugliest?

That stupid Human-Reaper from ME2.

20. Can they dance?

She can sway to music really well.

21. What is Shepard’s relationship with Hackett?

Mostly annoyed at him. In her eyes, Hackett is up there with TIM.

22. What’s their alignment? Paragon, renegade, a mix…

Renegade all the way. Light up her face with scars.

23. Got any allergies? How bad?

No, because I honestly just won’t remember she has them.

24. When’s their birthday, and how old are they?

Canon birthday and canon age!

25. Trash talk or potty mouth

BOTH!

26. What’s their temper like?

Flares hot, but then it dies down pretty quickly because she’s either smothering it with alcohol or she’s already moved on to the next crisis.

27. What does Shepard think of Bakara?

EVEEEE and not my clone named Eve!!!!! She adores her and will do anything for her.

28. A reoccurring nightmare:

Indoctrination. She can’t shake the feeling that, even after everything, she’s indoctrinated.

And Moon’s Haunted fic.

29. Which news correspondent/journalist does Shepard bring on the Normandy? What’s their relationship like?

Diana Allers and it’s a relationship of: Maeve forgets she’s there until Diana reminds her.

30. Who’s got the biggest crush on Shepard?

Ummm ME!!! Hmm definitely Joker in all 3 games, Garrus in 1 and 2, (and finally a HC) the Geth (and OC) she messages all throughout ME3.

31. What kind of relationship do they have with Dr. Chakwas? Which doctor do they bring her on board for 3, and why?

Good! They’re drinking buddies, except Dr. Chakwas is obviously less unhinged about it.

32. Who has Shepard’s grudging respect?

Javik & Zaeed.

33. Reaction to the window over their sr-2 bed

Kill Bill sirens.

34. Does Shepard want children?

Not just no, but hell no.

35. What does Shepard consider their greatest mistake?

Joining the Alliance.

36. Did Shepard enjoy the heists with Kasumi?

Yes, this was her favorite mission. I think I mentioned this in one of the previous 50 questions, but she was excited for the heist. She was excited to dress up and to have even the slightest potential to not kill anyone.

37. Does Shepard ever play matchmaker?

Ngl, I like Liara and Javik together so I’d like to imagine she helped with that somehow.

38. A silly daydream:

While she was on house arrest after ME2 and before ME3, she daydreamed that Joker would come visit her and they’d rekindle whatever they had before.

Or, she’d imagine Thane would come rescue her like a damsel in distress.

(god these aren’t really “silly” are they?!)

39. What kind of media do they consume the most?

Tech news, but she’s pretty off mainstream media content. She prefers to spend time with her crew in person.

40. Favorite ice cream flavor

Cookies and cream.

41. If Shepard has a LI, what would they say are a couple of Shepard’s flaws? And strengths?

I think we all like to imagine our LI’s being over the moon about our Sheps, and my HCs are no different.

Thane sees her as the spitting image of one of his goddesses. She’s strong, relentless, ruthless, and determined, which are all qualities he admires. In private, she’s soft and a puddle of mush most of the time. I like to think he enjoys taking care of her (e.g. blanket over the shoulders, a good cuddle session, sharing food).

Her flaws come through pretty starkly in all these sets of 50 questions: she can make REALLY poor choices, she can get tunnel vision on certain missions, she can be too brash.

42. Are they quick to laugh, or slow to smile?

Okay, I’m probably going to be annoying with this but I’m going to say both to this one too (like the potty mouth or trash talking one). I think she’s quick to laugh, but it isn’t always genuine. She’ll laugh when she feels like there’s a social cue she needs to meet. She’s slow to smile because those would be her true, genuine feelings.

43. What does it take to earn Shepard’s trust?

Most people have her trust from the beginning. She doesn’t feel like she has time to be untrusting, so her initial trust is easy to get. As long as that isn’t broken, then all’s golden. If the initiate trust is broken then it’s near impossible to get it back.

44. Top three people Shepard thinks are hotties:

Samara

Nyreen

Zaeed

+Thane because he’s her Li so that’s a given

45. What’s the easiest way to gross them out?

Throw up. THAT’S ALL hahahaha but fr gross.

46. What are some of their favorite combo moves with team members out on the field?

Oooohh this is embarrassing for her and me. I always forget team members and Shepard can do combo moves together, so I never do it. So lets go with: she’s a lone wolf who likes to do her own tech combos herself.

47. Can they forgive easily, or are they the type to hold a grudge?

Neither! She’d rather just forget.

48. Does Shepard have a good sense of direction?

She relies solely on her HUD that she doesn’t know anymore!

49. Did they enjoy their party on the Citadel?

Yes, it was nice getting everyone together, but she really missed Thane.

50. What is Shepard’s ending?

Maeve, beloved, goes full destroy ending, which includes destroying herself. I’ve talked about this a lot in the server so I’m not going to get too much in the weeds but… she’s very content with this choice.

+1 …got any kinks?

*looks back at question 33* yes – a choking kink whoops

[aerltarg]

My personal favorite headcannon is that the brother that Brynden mentions to Bran that 'he loved' is, in fact, Daemon Blackfyre; of course, the obvious choice would be Daeron 'the Good', I mean, he fought his king against Daemon, and nevertheless, killed him and his heirs, going so far that he went to history as a quenched Targaryen loyalist, always dismantling any Blackfyre insurrection but, wouldn't be more interesting if Brynden was thorn between 'love or duty', as many characters in asoiaf are? He could have he's reasons for loving Daemon: I mean, how couldn't he? the head of the Blackfyre dynasty was the ideal that any bastard could dream of being: was raised at court, being acknowledge by the realm despite his status (maybe for the wrong reasons, as many of his supporters had conniptions with the dornish), being acknowledge BY THE KING. And, I imagine, that being raised at court, and having similar status as Daemon, Brynden could relate a lot more with him than with Daeron, who was the heir and prince, something that he never dreamed of reaching. I imagined that, by the end of the day, Brynden loved and idealized Daemon, and the fact that Aegor persuaded him to rebel against the crown was a dagger to his heart, this and the old adage that so many characters of the books try to follow: "love is the death of duty".

What do you think?? (Pls, bear with my english, this is not my first language g.g)

omg i love this headcanon too!!!

yes, as you've said it's very easy to imagine daeron as the "brother he loved" of brynden. he fought for him, he killed for him, he became kinslayer, he stayed loyal to house targaryen after he died, he served his sons. i also think it's very much likely was daeron who gave brynden the dark sister for all his accomplishments.

yet, however much i love to imagine brynden having friendly relationship with daeron, the concept of "brother he loved" being daemon... just strikes different. and indeed does feel like smth grrm would go after - as you've said, "love vs duty" kind of situation, "human heart in conflict with itself" trope that grrm likes so much. there's even enough basis for this in canon, imo. i rlly like how you pointed it out! bc YES, brynden had more in common with daemon, another king's bastard, than with daeron, the prince of dragonstone. they were even closer in age to each other while daeron was much older. e.g. daeron was already 17 when daemon was born and 22 when brynden was. such a big age gap, esp in the world where ppl are considered 100% adults at 16, doesn't seem to me like a sign of a close relationship. ffs, brynden was very much likely younger than baelor breakspear, daeron's eldest son, and probably younger or around the same age of aerys i, daeron's second son. and yeah, sure, we do know that brynden's mother, missy blackwood, befriended naerys, aemon the dragonknight and daeron himself, yet i can see this only as brynden being kind of a distant little nephew to daeron, not a brother close to heart. and when we have the combination of the age gap AND different social status chances of close friendship go to hell pretty much, imo.

another great bastard who was even closer in age to brynden was aegor. and well... we know they weren't friends for sure lmao. this blackwoods vs brackens thing as addition to everything else ig. it's kinda curious tho that aegor was growing up away from the king's landing while both daemon and brynden were raised at court, and yet in the later years aegor and daemon somehow bonded and bittersteel even managed to persuade daemon to fight for the throne...

i must say i especially love the part of brynden idealizing daemon and feeling betrayed when he got persuaded by aegor to rebel!!! ah, ol' good targ drama, we love it. but personally i'm especially delighted to see this (and adapt this hc pls 😂) bc it reminds me so much of brynden & jon snow parallels that i enjoy a lot! it gives me the vibes of robb and jon: a close brother who has the love of their father while you are otherized and you still love this brother (even if are jealous in some way?). surely, i think there are greater parallels with daeron & robb / brynden & jon aka bastard bros staying loyal to their legitimate siblings despite everything. yet, now i cant unsee daemon & robb / brynden & jon! like yeah daemon got papa's love and was that perfect targaryen prince (except for the name) while brynden was otherized not just bc he was a bastard but bc of his looks as well. yes, jon and robb are the illegitimate vs legitimate kids situation but daemon being all that except for being waters and brynden also being rivers but still far from the perfect prince(TM) imagery gives us so many opportunities to wonder what their dynamics rlly was! bc i believe this basis of being able to relate to each other could make it so super interesting!

agsvxvsh idk if i'm making sense rn so the main point i wanted to lead to. brynden "he had sacrificed his own personal honor for the good of the realm" rivers chose duty and did what he thought right - put an end to blackfyre rebellions, got the kinslayer attire for this and was sent to the night's watch after his last attempt to end blackfyres. he paid for his choice. jon "i am the sword that guards the realm of men, and in the end, that must be worth more than one man's honor" snow chose love. his decision to march for arya is one of the main reasons he got assassinated. he paid for his choice too.

these parallels with jon that only shine brighter when you consider daemon as "the brother he loved" of brynden are one of the main reasons i love this hc! but ofc the whole complexity and potential of their story and situation that you get play the huge role too. it's a very rich concept that i enjoy so so much!

[youveneverbeenalone]

Inktober for Writers/Fictober:

Day 17- Jubilant (Darejones)

As promised, here is the second part of the vignette from yesterday (Day 16- Defiance). You’ll want to make sure and read that before reading this. I think I like how these turned out. Let me know your thoughts about it, if you’re so inclined. Halfway done now, and that’s bittersweet. But thanks for all of the support so far. Prompt list here, just in case and links to previous days at the bottom. Thank you for reading!!!!!

Day 17- Jubilant

When she wakes the next morning, she’s immediately aware of three things- regret for the way she acted the night before, terror that she’s ruined their budding relationship, and a terrible fucking headache. But she probably deserves the latter, considering.

She spends a good portion of the day moping around her apartment and half-assing some internet investigation for an open case. But by the time night is falling, she’s restless.

She hadn’t told him not to call, but she hadn’t exactly encouraged him to, either. A part of her is dreading him calling, because then she will have to apologize and try to explain herself. But a part of her is becoming increasingly anxious for her phone to start ringing, because she needs to hear his voice and know that they are okay. That they aren’t over. Because she’s suddenly very invested in not giving up on whatever it is that is developing between them.

Thirty minutes pass as she paces the length of her main room, weighing the pros and cons of reaching out to him and running contingencies in her head to try to assess how he would respond if she called first. But for how worried she is, she feels guilty more than anything else, and in the end, the guilt wins out. It seems a monumental task to face him with how terrible she acted, and so she decides she’ll let him be the one to initiate. But she has to drink another bottle’s worth of whiskey to make herself stand by that decision.

And unfortunately, she’s still waiting for him to call the whole next day… and then the next after that. But by the evening of day three, her anxiety about the fact that they haven’t talked is overpowering her anxiety about talking to him, so she caves.

She still hasn’t allowed herself to consider exactly how she feels about him and what it might mean, but she does know that she isn’t okay with the void that not having him around for the last few days has left in her chest. So in a moment of incredible personal growth (and wouldn’t her old therapist be so proud), she sets off for his apartment.

On the way over, her mind is a mess, replaying their fight and chastising herself for all of the ways she fucked up.

Initially, she was mad because he was trying to control her, and that’s maybe the biggest trigger she has- other than anything that specifically reminds her of Kilgrave. Because she is done with all of that- the feeling of being powerless and like she’s at someone else’s mercy, like she isn’t the one who runs her life. She takes pride in the fact that she makes her own decisions in all things, and she hates it when people try to restrict her ability to do so, even in the spirit of caring and concern.

But she was also upset because Matt Murdock is the world’s biggest hypocrite when it comes to the issue of personal safety, and she’s not willing to see him risk his life on anyone else’s behalf. Never again. The man almost died under a ton of rubble because of his guilt and misplaced sense of martyrdom, and she will not sit idly by as he as he places himself in another such situation. She simply can’t because she cannot bear to lose him again, especially now that they’re getting closer.

And maybe she’s unconsciously a little mad at him for that, because it makes her feel so vulnerable and raw all the time. She absolutely hates that. And it’s made worse when she is triggered in that state, which is the final piece of the puzzle from their fight several nights ago. All because of the way he said her name - her full first name - with that specific cadence that still haunts her dreams. She needs him to never say her name that way ever again, for the rest of her life.

So now, she just has to tell him all that so next time he’ll know. So he won’t try to make decisions for her or control her. So he will give up the savior complex and take his own safety more seriously. So he won’t remind her of him when he says her name. But she won’t explain about her angry her vulnerability is making her feel. At least not yet.

These thoughts carry her all the way to his door, where she hesitates long enough to take a few deep breaths before she works up the courage to knock. It’s still strange to her, the knowledge that he can sense her coming from miles (but, seriously, maybe? She’s not clear about his exact range) away. It makes things feel uneven, like she’s starting off balance before they even truly begin. And she doesn’t need any more disadvantages on that front. Especially tonight. But at the same time, isn’t that kind of the point? She’s been unbalanced enough the last few days without him around, and this is an attempt to remedy the problem. With a sigh, she forces herself to knock before she can think any harder about it or convince herself to leave.

She wonders where in the apartment he was when she knocked because he’s at the door in record time. That calms her speeding pulse one degree because it’s a good sign, right? Maybe an indication that he was anxious for her to come, or that he hasn’t had the best time over the last few days, either? As he opens the door and she takes him in, her suspicions are confirmed. Because he looks rough. Like the last few days have stolen sleep and calm from him as much as they have from her. She breathes a sigh of relief at the thought as he gestures for her to come in and wordlessly leads her to the living room.

She hesitates at the couch, hands fidgeting in the pockets of her jacket, while he goes to the kitchen and retrieves a bottle of whiskey and two glass tumblers. She doesn’t sit until he returns, sitting in the chair across the coffee table from her. As he pours two glasses, she clears her throat and sits, just barely catching the tumbler he slides across the table to her. She takes a drink and bites the inside of her lip while a beat passes. She’s not one hundred percent sure where to start, so she tries for something somewhat neutral.

“So… you didn’t call.”

He hangs his head, placing his elbows on his knees. “Seems like you needed some space, so … no, I didn’t.” He raises his glass and takes a sip as a thoughtful look comes over his face. “Did you want me to?”

It’s because she’s Jessica Jones, damn good private investigator, that she catches the slightest glimpse of hope on his face and in his voice as he asks. And it makes her happier than it has any right to. But it’s something she needed, an assurance that she didn’t make a huge mistake in coming her. And it inspires her to be a little more honest with him than she might otherwise have been.

“A little. Was kind of dreading it, though. ‘Cause you know by now how I’m total shit at apologies.”

That earns her a look from him, one eyebrow sliding up, skeptical tone in his voice. “Really?”

She sighs, voice flat. “Really.” She looks down at the floor for a moment, gathering her confidence to say what she knows she needs to say. Then she takes a drink and swallows. And with the liquor, she swallows down her pride and her terror, and opens her mouth to do something she’s not typically inclined to do: she tells him the truth.

“Look, I’m sorry. I overreacted for two reasons. One, because someone was in danger because of me, and I had to take care of the situation before any harm came to her. And two, I hate it when people try to control me, even if they’re trying to help. Connect the dots about that. And then, the way you… god, it sounds stupid, but the way you said my name really set me off. Don’t call me ‘Jessica’ like that again, okay? Just call me Jess.”

He blinks at her and the relative ease with which the words escaped her mouths. But then he shakes off his shock and nods. “Okay, I can do that.”

She sets her jaw, a contemplative expression on her face. “Good.”

It’s his turn now, and he hangs his head for a moment before he speaks, voice low and quiet. “I’m sorry too. I thought about what you said, and I did some reflecting about how you must feel when I rush into something head first, without any concern for myself. And if it’s even a fraction of the anger and anxiety and frustration I felt for you, then I can see why it makes you so upset. So, I’ll try to tone it down.”

She huffs at him softly and raises her eyebrows. “Can I get that in writing, Counselor?”

The grin he gives her at that is bright- enough that she’s convinced it could light up a whole city block if only someone could engineer a way to collect and contain it. But then again, she wouldn’t want to share it even if they could. He doesn’t grin that way for just anyone, and she is proud of the effort she has put in to grant her such privileges.

“For that, you will need to contact my lawyer, Ms. Jones. I believe you’re already acquainted with Mr. Nelson, from HC&B. He should be more than happy to accommodate your request, seeing as he’ll want a copy too.” The smirk he is now wearing filters into his voice, making it light and playful, and the sound washes over her like a summer breeze.

And suddenly the guilt and shame and fear that she had been lugging around for the last three days evaporate. These weights which had previously been burdening her mind seen inconsequential when she’s here, in his orbit- feeling the warmth of his smile and hearing the lightness in his voice. And in the place of those familiar, if unwelcome emotions from before, now she finds only happiness. Pure and unadulterated. She would even go so far as to call it jubilance, the likes of which she has never known before. And it terrifies her, for the fact that this is definitely uncharted territory and she worries that she will lose her bearings or take a wrong turn and end up completely lost. But it is becoming increasingly clear to her that she doesn’t want to be without him, regardless.

Distantly, she knows what this likely means about what she feels for him, but she’s still not willing to consciously acknowledge it. For now, she can only bring herself to admit that she didn’t think that this kind of happiness was something meant for someone like her. But with each new moment spent with him, she is becoming more and more open to the idea. And it’s only a matter of time until she is able to believe that maybe she does deserve a chance at a happy ending with someone just as fucked up and snarky as she is. Thank God for Matthew Murdock.

Day 16 (part one of two) | Day 18

[icharchivist]

Well since i’m left on my own to ramble about gendice, that game post i reblogged i’ll do it on my own alright under the cut then 

Please feel free to ignore that, I just have a lot of gendice thoughts and this meme makes me want to put them to use. 

1- Who is the most affectionate?

Both in very different ways. Dice would be the kind to be touchy without really an afterthought, like quick hugs and stuff like that. Gentaro is really affectionate though once in private and can be even more desperately clingy.  In general though both of them seems to show their affection like this: Dice is straightforward and direct, if he wants to hug or say a compliment he will not think twice, while Gentaro would generally be more sly about it, disguising the way he shows his affection to not show how desperate he is for it.

2- Big spoon/Little spoon?

hhh i’m huge BigSpoon!Dice and LittleSpoon!Gentaro here. We know Gentaro canonically likes to snuggles against people he likes so i really could see him snuggling into Dice’s arms very easily.

3- Most common argument?

Tbh although they have a lot of lighthearted arguments i have trouble seeing where they could really be in a fight against each other. I guess the most commons are topics over Gentaro’s lying going a bit too far sometimes or Dice’s illegal activities being lectured about, but this rarely escalate.

4- Favorite non-sexual activity?

Singing together is an easy one, else I can see Dice dragging Gentaro into all sort of games with him which amuses Gentaro, else i love the idea of Dice watching Gentaro work.

5- Who is most likely to carry the other?

Huuuuummm Dice is heavier and generally described as more muscular with canon content (not my words, Nozuyama-san’s) so i’d be more inclined to him carrying Gentaro. That said, I can totally see the day Dice is doing Something Stupid and Gentaro will have to carry him in some way because Dice got hurt or something. Y’know the boy could do that.

6- What is their favorite feature of their partner’s?

Physical I guess?  I mean i’m personally very big on their eyes so i’m inclined to project but i’d love it to be their smiles too - the way Dice’s is so wide and carefree and the way Gentaro’s lips just twists a bit when he lies before trying to hide it. I’m big emo for this.

7- What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

For Gentaro, I think it could be a very mixed bag of both still wanting to connect with Dice and capture his attention more while also still keeping him at some sort of safe distances from him - eventual ruder lies for exemple, that he would regret almost immediatly despite Dice never truly being too concerned about them on the longterm. For Dice... I think he might drop earnest comment out of the blue. I could see him be really in denial for a long while though (i mean i kinda hc both are both oblivious and in denial over their own feelings which is fun) but idk i could see him just start to earnestly drop compliments out of nowhere. I kinda love the idea of his honesty throwing Gentaro off his rythm considering Gentaro does that with his lies in general.

8- Nicknames? & if so, how did they originate?

I mean. In Stella Gentaro calls Dice his Messiah. And he made him a king in this fantasy. And he previously made him his knight. Truly any of those could come back as a nickname at some point in their relationship. I’m especially found of Messiah though, it is so corny but it is so earnest.  Dice doesn’t really seem to do nickname in comparaisons though - Gentaro plays more with identities than Dice do. Canonically he just once teased Gentaro by calling him Sensei so i could see Dice use this playfully. Eventually he could get carried away when Gentaro uses some nicknames on him and end up replying with what was Gentaro’s role in those parts, ie if Gentaro calls him his Knight, Dice would reply “well alright Princess”.

9- Who worries the most?

Gentaro. Dice gets involved in illegal activities just as easily as he’s breathing. At some point I think Gentaro can just expect the worst out of Dice’s situation at any present day and be just trying to prevent the worst.  also tbh i’m very found of the idea of him possibly being terrified of his friends being sick which would just bring him back to think about how his childhood’s friend situation hadn’t improved, so i’d see that add to the list of worries, especially considering Dice isn’t exactly having a stable, safe life.

Dice tends more to worry when he’s confronted to a direct problem, not exactly letting himself pounder over them unless it’s right in front of his eyes. He knows the things to look out for and would directly react (say against Hifumi in general for exemple I can see him get wary) but he wouldn’t overthink about them. Unless Gentaro gets in danger in which case as long as it’s a direct danger, Dice would be directly freaking out.

10- Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Hummm inclined to think Gentaro since Dice “I don’t remember anything that isn’t of use for me for Gambling” is... less likely, but i do like the idea of Gentaro being the exception to that would their relationship deepen.  But yeah I mean Gentaro had promised he’d write a story with Dice as its protagonist and we know he writes fanfiction of themselves lmao, I could see him observing carefully what Dice’s habits are to remember them for writting.  a basic “it’s not that i care about you, it was writting reference” “ah” “that was a lie though.”

11- Who initiates kisses?

Huuuuuuuuuuum. A bit of both?? I just think Dice might just be more forward with them when he wants to. I am kinda weak to the idea of Gentaro trying to drop subtle hints before even thinking about leaning in. And with Dice’s obliviousness well at some point Gentaro does have to initiate something-

12- Who reaches for the other’s hand first?

Oh, Dice, without a doubt. My hc is mostly that Gentaro is very touch starved and clingy but he doesn’t specifically reaches out for that because well aside from his childhood friend he doesn’t seem to have much opportunity to trust people. I’d also see him be more concerned about not exactly showing PDA.  While yeah, Dice would be forward with his emotions and feelings once he acknowledges them and he has very little care for what people might think of his actions. He’d be more inclined to show PDA in general, and at least hand holding is something Gentaro wouldn’t object to in public.

13- Who kisses the hardest?

*rubs chin* I’d be inclined to say Dice, again, straightforwardness while Gentaro might be more subtle and all. But i’m... very weak to the idea of Gentaro getting carried away when Dice though...

14- Who wakes up first?

Gentaro. Dice is more likely to be a nightowl with how he lives his life, while I could see Gentaro have a morning routine.

15- Who wants to stay in bed just a little longer?

A bit of both but mostly Dice. I have a very vivid image in my brain though at all time of Gentaro waking up first with Dice all entangled with him, and suddenly because of how enamoured he is he’d just grab a notebook and a pen nearby and write a bit of what this happiness can inspire him - cutting to later therefore Dice waking up all sleepy and just wrapping his arms further around Gentaro because why is he already busying himself it’s just morning com’on.

16- Who says I love you first?

*takes a deep breath* I don’t know, Gentaro “Dice and I were totally star crossed lovers in another life so now we’re soulmates and i may be attracted to Dice or perhaps i am lying ahahah unless? ;O”, who would? 

The thing is that I don’t see Gentaro lowering down his defenses. Like even if he was willing to say he loved Dice, he would be a bit scared of exposing this vulnerable side and would immediatly backaway with a “that was a lie of course” of some kind. Honestly I can see Gentaro slip the I love You words first by complete accident, like heat of the moment, but immediatly covering them up. 

For Dice.... I feel like the moment he would realize he’s in love it would be very hard for him to hold it in. He would be more straightforward and honest if he could but he cannot exactly be sure of what Gentaro wants so he would perhaps not step closer until he’s sure.

Tbh I just think it would end with Ramuda being the one who, at first, have a lot of fun with their bullshits but ends up being a bit fed up and tease them too far until they are in the same room and are pushed by him to do something about this tension or he’ll riot. 

17- Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it usually say?)

Gentaro would take any opportunity to leave words anywhere. Some obscure poetry or sometimes just to mess with Dice specifically hard words he knows Dice would just be like “what the HELL was that”, but are actually all earnest in some way.

18- Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

Erg by all account Dice broke off with his family completely and we don’t really know much about Gentaro’s family (are they even real). If we take Gentaro’s song for truth though, i’d say Gentaro would talk about it to his family first. 

As for their friends... not to be rude but like their only friend is Ramuda, and for Gentaro his bedridden friend and for Dice it’s Riou.

Like Ramuda would immediatly be all “...? You didn’t just figure it out did you? Like really? really??”. Also I think Ramuda would definitly bring it up before either of them could bring it up to him. Eventually i think they’d discuss it beforehand if they really wanted to tell Ramuda - as a teammate and friend who had to be made aware of it.  But else if they are both not in relationship yet i think neither would tell Ramuda because they’d be worried both of breaking the dynamic of the Posse and terrified of Ramuda’s teasing. But they can’t escape those laters, as if Ramuda hadn’t noticed.

But yeah Gentaro would definitly talk about Dice to his bed ridden friend in some way way before Dice can talk about Gentaro to... any of his possible friends.

As much as I believe Dice is a very friendly person I don’t think he gets much private with people? He seems to have cut ties with his past all he could and considering the nightlife he tends to have i don’t see him having exactly stable friendships he would rely on outside of the Posse. Except Riou of course, with whom he had been closer than we’ve seen for others, but i don’t specifically see Dice going too private either rambling about his own personal life. I would love to be wrong though. Like I could imagine him slipping some infos about it out of the blue. Riou doesn’t pry so Dice just. slips things without thinking.

So yeah that makes Gentaro more likely there.

19- What do their family/friends think of their relationship?

Ramuda thinks they’re interesting and finds it entertaining to see how they hit off. He’d eventually joke even about having been the matchmaker there. Ramuda genuinely likes both of them whenever he’s ready to admit it or not (and you can fight me on that), so i think it would genuinely make him happy.

But also part of him would feel isolated, like a bit left out. It would bring him back to think about his past friendships and the people Ramuda had ended up separated with and that would leave a sour spot.Besides it might create some distances as in Ramuda would remind himself he brought them together because he wanted to use them, that they were just a Ephemeral Posse, and that if these two would carry on together, he would not in the end. I think it might be a truly hard balance for Ramuda and it would have him miss TDD even more.  SO yeah mix of happy for them and a bit bitter though. 

Gentaro’s friend .... all we know of him is the “that was all a lie” song by Gentaro so it’s hard to say but i’d be inclined to think that he’d be overjoyed that Gentaro is having more people he can be close to. Kinda the same reasoning for Gentaro’s parents.

Riou would be all the more supportive of course. He’s happy Dice has a such a close bound with his partener and I mean, the last drama track had Gentaro prove MTC that he’d jump first in Dice’s defense if needed. I think even if Riou was an enemy that day, he respected this loyalty, so hearing Dice would be in relationship with him would seem like a good thing, like we can rely on Gentaro at least.

If Dice is Otome’s son, which is a theory that is dear to my heart, I think she would be much more.... having problems with the relationship considering she seems to keep a close eye on Gentaro for some reasons. I personally HC that one of the reason Otome considers Ramuda unstable in the last drama track is that she feels like it was a taunt to have her son being agitated in front of her in a life or death situation along with one of the guys she’s been watching closely because he seems to hold secrets the gov doesn’t want to split.  So by all account i think Otome would be displeased mostly because of her own agenda concerning Gentaro and be concerned for her son in some level.  But yeah Dice isn’t exactly one to care for his family’s approval.

My hc about his relationship with Otome would she be his mom would be that she does love him and he loves her too but there is just... too big of a divide, an impossibility to understand each other, a wall between their ideals. I’d say she probably neglected raising him for instance to pursue her goals and while Dice may have got that it was necessary it still created a very hard to connect way. Depending on the reasons Gentaro is watched by the gov, i could see Otome come around for her son’s happiness, that’s what i mean by that. But I do think in general she would rather Gentaro not be around Dice all that much - as if Dice didn’t have enough trouble already.

Else if Dice has more regular parents i think it’s really up to anyone’s guess. And I didn’t really think about anything else than this hc so oops.

20- Who is more likely to start dancing with the other?

Dice. PDA argument again, and also because he seems to be much more the kind to start exhuberant moves and dance than Gentaro, and he would definitly want to drag Gentaro along with him. Like in SMT.

21- Who cooks more/who is better at cooking?

I believe Gentaro has more opportunities to cook than Dice does  but i’m very weak about the idea of Dice being a good cook....LIKE SPECIFICALLy I would love the idea of Dice learning cooking skills from Riou and trying to cook for Gentaro. So like with all of Riou’s cooking, it is very good, even more tasty than normal food! but the moment Gentaro would learn the ingredients, he’d be like the rest of MTC about them. I love this HC a lot for the sheer ridiculous of thinking about Gentaro meeting up with Juuto and Samatoki to ask them how tf they eat Riou’s cooking and the three of them bounding over how “they can’t just tell them it’s disgusting that would break their heart”

22- Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines?

Geez I wonder, “we were star crossed lovers and now we don’t want to be apart” “there’s no way i could be attracted to you... well that’s a lie” “take me away with you, my messiah”, who the hell would be much more likely to use pick up lines i wonder huuuum?

I’d love Dice to try some pick up lines but they are much more generics in general. Gentaro is always up-pickingup him.

23- Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear during inappropriate times?

Seems like a Gentaro thing to do (＾ಠᆺಠ＾)

24- Who needs more assurance?

Gentaro. Dice is much more self assured and has no care about what people think of him. I think Gentaro still is... less able to do so. 

I also feel like... so because of those No Longer Human stuff, I hc that Gentaro is more likely to have clang to this bit of fiction a lot to give himself strength, so a lot of the way he perceive his confidence could be limited to how much he can fits the narrative that had helped him cope with the world so far. which can bring to such disturbance like against Hifumi where those specific coping are mocked. 

Besides as i’ve mentioned in the past somewhere in the past that all of Gentaro’s interraction with people always come down with Gentaro specifically seeking for a safespace with Dice - refusing to be exactly confronted to people alone. Adding to that the fact the lies are most likely a protection against others (see the NLH analysis), and it feels more that all of Gentaro’s “assurance” is mostly a reflect that he.... isn’t that good with it. 

In comparaison to Dice it does stand out yeah because Dice just. doesn’t care. At all. about what people may think. the guy would go all in on a gamble without even doubting his cards even one second, so eah i mean.

25- What would be their theme song?

Stella  huh okay perhaps using a canon song isn’t the most clever idea there but i’d like to say I have a full gendice playlist on spotify that I update from time to time so that gives 67 titles to chose from. (i’m also just seeing i have One person subscribed to that playlist and im *surprised pikachu*)

But some of my favorite are definitly Do I Wanna Know by Artic Monkey (the “ace in your sleeve”? the endless “not knowing what the other think”? ayay) and Sick of Losing Soulmates by Dodie.

But like i said i have 67 titles fitting them so (＾ಠᆺಠ＾)

26- Who would sing to their child back to sleep?

?? both??? Their duets are when they are both so much on the same vibe, same rhytm- for something like that, why would they try to pick one?

27- What do they do when they’re away from each other?

Dice is probably lost in a casino trying to regain a bit of thrill (i’m very weak to the idea of love being a whole new kind of a thrill for him and making it.... somewhat shallow to come back to casino sort of thrill)

Gentaro is most likely writting (and I am very weak of the idea of his feelings and emotions for Dice slipping through the pages as well. I’m also very huge on the idea of one day this showing before him and Dice got in relationship and people pointing out “Gentaro-sensei seems to have changed his way to write love, do you know why?” and instead of realizing that it is because of him Dice gets jealous of the random fictional character everyone is saying that about in Gentaro’s new level, obviously not realizing it is basically Him. I have a lot of headcanons.)

28- one headcanon about this OTP that breaks your heart

Usually I have no hcs about any of my ships but with them i have too much hcs so this is hard to pick one???  and I feel like i forgot them all on the spot  (＾ಠᆺಠ＾) I think... ultimately i think neither of them would be willing to make the first step in their relationship because there is too much self loathing going on and i HC both would consider they’re unworthy of the others. Both of them have refered to themselves as worthless people not worth having around, Gentaro always say he’s too twisted, Dice considers the way he decided to live his life to be a rotten one, even if he owns up to it. 

And I think it would enter in consideration with how they approach their feelings of both thinking the other definitly deserves better than themselves and therefore... not stepping forward at all. 

And the more they’re in love, the more this self hatred would be strong because they cannot impose the “twisted person” they are to the other, not like that. That would be too selfish. 

Ever read Visting Hours by Kitaa on ao3? Go read that. This is at least very good in showcasing exactly what I mean for Dice because I love Kitaa’s work and we agree a lot on characterization of those two.  For Gentaro i could go in length about it specifically but yeah.

And I think it kinda breaks my heart to believe they would... truly think of themselves so lowly. Not taking into account how the other may love them because they are too worried about how their own feelings and how they cannot impose it on the other.

29- one headcanon about this OTP that mends it

But that with all of that there is still something that always bring them back to one another, like two broken pieces of the same set that was supposed to be whole. (borrowed from Kitaa’s other fic, Things Remembered, go read this one too. I. really love Kitaa’s work.)

That together it just.. clicks.

And even if they may worry about their self worth when they’re apart, when they’re together there is so much.. euphoria about enjoying each other’s presence that all those doubts disappear for the sake of enjoying the present moment with each other. Loving each other so much they forget what hating themselves feel like, you feel me?

Anyway obviously those hcs are mine and may be changing with time but that’s a pretty solid showcasing.

Anyway i love them bye

[bekasyura]

ALL NUMBERS BC GO BIG OR GO HOME

Alright time to procrastinate by answering all these fanfic questions. They’re all under the cut

1. What was your first fic and could you stand to reread it today?

Based on the first one that’s on my surviving ffnet, it was dramione and no I could not stand reading it today for certain reasons I don’t want to discuss.

2. What’s your most recent fic and how far do you think you’ve come?

My most recent is The Sn Sets deals with grief and mourning after a canonical character death which is not something I write often. I think the emotions in it could have been better but I’m still satisfied with how it turned out. I think I’m at a place in my writing where I can attempt fics with that kind of emotional level.

3. In your opinion, what’s your best fic?

I have no opinion on this but my best friend and brother say “Covered in my Art”

4. In your opinion and without looking at any numbers, what’s your most popular fic?

Well, I only have 2 actual popular fics so I easily remember them. My most popular is my victuuri post-episode 7 kiss fic. I posted it just a couple of days after that episode aired so naturally it shot up.

5. Is there any fic that makes you super happy to reread and remember you wrote that?

I hardly reread my fics. I just can’t bring myself to do it. But one that I’m happy I wrote is 

6. Is there any fic that makes you super embarrassed to reread and remember you wrote that?

I get embarrassed reading them all. 

7. What’s the fic you most want to continue (unfinished or no)?

I am looking forward to continuing my Living Legends series (YOI Tattoo Shop AU)

8. What’s the oldest (longest since last update) fic you most want to continue (unfinished or no)?

My Star Wars Mummy AU. It’s been almost a year now and I still have all my notes and outline for it. I just need motivation.....

9. Have you ever written for a fandom without watching/reading/playing the source material?

Nope. I’m picky about what I write about and it has to be something I’m really into in order for me to watch it. 

10. Have you ever written for a fandom without reading other fanfic for it?

I’m picky for what I read as well so if I’m writing for it, I’m most likely reading it as well. 

11. Have you ever written a fic for a concept you know someone else has done before? How did it impact your writing process or feelings after posting?

Well there’s always writing popular tropes that everyone does but what comes to mind first is my Mummy AU. It was my idea first but someone got inspired by my editset I made of it and before I could post my first chapter of the story, someone else did it. They finished the fic before I could get my done and so it made me lose interest in continuing mine even if there were enough differences between ours. 

12. Have you ever written a fic and decided never to publish it? Why?

I’ll have a bunch of ideas I start and never finish for various reasons. But I pretty much publish everything I write.

13. What’s the biggest change between your style when you started in fandom and today?

Besides the fact that I don’t suck as much as I did 13 years ago? I’m still working on it but I feel like I’m able to set a scene better with description and narration has gotten better. 

14. What’s the biggest change in your taste between when you started in fandom and today?

Don’t know if this answers the question but I guess sticking to what I like and not conforming to the popular ideas of how certain characters/ships should be written. 

15. Have you ever purposefully written one fandom/fic idea over another because you knew it’d be more popular?

*stares at victuuri post episode 7 kiss fic* 

16. Have you ever stopped writing a fic/for a fandom because it wasn’t receiving enough attention?

That might be one reason I stopped writing Marvel fics

17. In your opinion, what’s your most overrated fic?

Honestly, “Closer”. Don’t get me wrong, I really like the fic even if I haven’t read it since I posted it, but I don’t know if it’s good for all the kits and kudos it’s gotten.

18. What’s your most underrated fic?

Any femslash or polyship fic or rarepair fic

19. If you had to pick one fic/scene/chapter of your work to describe your entire portfolio to a stranger, which would you pick?

Oh shit um....

20. Have/Would you ever rewrite a fic? If yes, would you take the original down?

I have considered it for two Merlin fics and I would do it in a heartbeat if I could but since they’re part of big bangs I can’t.

21. If someone starts kudosing and commenting your fics in a spree and has a few works of their own, would you go look through theirs?

Yeah I sometimes do

22. Has there ever been anyone who’s made you freak out because they read your work and followed/favorited/reviewed?

People would actually have to read my works first. I just get excited to have anyone reading my stuff tbh

23. What’s the nicest review you’ve ever gotten?

Most are on my “Not ‘He’” fic with readers sharing their experiences with me in relation to my fic. It was an amazing feeling to see that my fic connected with people on such a personal level like that.

24. What’s the meanest review you’ve ever gotten? Do you think the reviewer intended it?

I’ve gotten some kind of rude ones that were too pushy for updates but one that sticks out was just someone going off on their own rant about gender identities on the above mentioned fic. I don’t think they intended to come off as bad as it sounded but it wasn’t fun to read nonetheless. 

25. What constructive criticism, however well-meaning, always makes you feel bad when you see it in a review?

Mostly dealing with simple grammar mistakes because that’s stuff I should know but still always forget.

26. What aspect of your writing do you most enjoy to see praised?

Characterization because no one wants to read a fic where the characters are so ooc it takes them out of it. So being able to capture the character, especially in an AU, is the best thing to hear.

27. If you could only ever write crossovers or single-fandom fics ever again, which would you pick?

Single fandom fics. I don’t really do crossovers.

28. If you could only ever write for a single crossover or a single fandom again, which would you pick? 

Yuri!!! on Ice. I honestly have plenty of ideas to keep me going. 

29. Does the division of your writing across fandoms line up with your reading? What’s the biggest discrepancy?

((skipping))

30. Do you continue to write for a fandom after you’ve moved on or do you focus solely on the new one?

If you looked at my AO3 chronologically, you will see where I stop and start a new fandom. But there are some fandoms I will write at the same time. But there will be a focus on the new one. 

31. Who’s the one character you’ve just never managed to get perfectly right?

I feel like it’s Clint Barton despite how much I love him. I think it’s because of that I feel like I can’t write him well.

32. Who’s the one character who shines without you even trying?

I feel like I have Yuri Plisetsky down pretty well.

33. Is there any particular character whose scenes always wind up being longer/more frequent than you expected? Does the quality hold up?

It really depends on the fic and what I’m writing. Some characters may steal the scene but it usually turns out well. 

34. Was there any fic that you wrote that really surprised you in the fandom reaction? Was it just by the numbers or did they take it an entirely different way?

I was surprised to see so many people interested in “Covered in my Art”. AUs can be hard to sell and while it’s not the most popular tattoo shop au, it still got a better response than expected. 

35. Have you ever written a ship into a fic without meaning to?

I accidentally wrote past Yuuri/Phichit in my recent Phichit/Leo/Guang-Hong fic. I guess that hc is so set in my mind I can’t help but write it lol

36. Have you ever sincerely written a ship you do not support into a fic?

Yes but it was a commission fic so I kinda had to

37. Have you ever purposefully bashed a character/ship in a fic?

Regrettably in the past when I was younger and didn’t know better. But I have learned from that.

38. Have you ever purposefully written something you know your readers would find uncomfortable/would not enjoy? If yes, why?

Besides like injuries, not really. 

39. Do you consider yourself to have a readership?

I know I can count on like 3 people to read my fics and they’re the best peeps ever.

40. Do you feel like you put out enough content?

I do now after going so many years hardly writing anything. I still feel like I could do more.

41. If you cross-post your fics on multiple sites, do you have a favorite? Are there certain fics you would only post on certain site?

I mostly post on AO3 but I’m slowly adding my fics back to ffnet just to have them hosted in two places. I definitely prefer AO3 because I love the tagging system. 

42. How many views has your most popular fic gotten?

7k and I know it’ll be the only one

43. Your least popular?

less than 50

44. Do you follow/favorite/kudos/comment/review more stories than you have received?

Yes because I try to kudos and comment on anything I read that I liked. 

45. If you had to call yourself an author of a single genre (besides fanfic) what label would you give yourself?

Fluff. It’s a genre now.

46. Do you consider yourself a diverse author?

I would like to be but probably not. 

47. If someone you know in real life who isn’t involved in fandoms asked to read your work, would you let them? If yes, what would you recommend they read first?

No. While I have no problem telling people I write fanfic now, I don’t want them reading my writing. 

48. Does anyone you know from outside of fandom know you write fanfic? Are they involved in the same fandom too?

Not really. I don’t just walk around telling everyone I write it. It still has to be brought up and I feel comfortable telling them. 

49. Has anyone in your life ever read your fanfic just because you wrote it?

Yes because I make my best friend read it.

50. Has writing fanfic had a significant impact on your life? Would you say it’s entirely positive?

I’ve literally been writing fanfic for half my life now so it’s definitely had a significant impact on me. For the most part it has been positive. It’s given me a way to express myself and make my voice be heard. There have been times it stresses me out and I feel anxious about it but I wouldn’t stop writing because of that.