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dreamsy990 · 2 months ago

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drew some of my fav ody designs! wasnt originally meant to be also replicating the styles but thats sort of just how my brain works. except i didnt copy the lineart styles of anyone here so its DEFINITELY a bit uncanny for a couple of these (LOOKING AT YOU QINNY IM SO SORRY) but whatever

the designs featured here (from left to right) belong to: me, @gigizetz, @neal-illustrator, @irunaki, @bigidiotenergytm, @qinnyanimation, and @foopsie-daisy

#WAUGHHH IM SO NERVOUS TAGGING PEOPLE COOLER THAN ME #HEAD IN HANDS HEAD IN HANDS I NEED TO STOP PANICKING OVER STUFF LIKE THIS #bc like I KNOW THEYRE JUST PEOPLE. I WOULD BE SO HYPE IF SOMEONE DREW MY ODY ID LOVE TO BE TAGGED IN THAT.#BUT WHAT IF I AM SHOT. WITH A GUN. gfrdfvb vfrdedrf #i am a very normal non anxiety having person i swear guys #worst thing i did here was have odys hands very visible for the qinny one. because i didnt realize the way they draw hands is very realisti #BUT THEIR WHOLE STYLE HAS REALLY REALISTIC ANATOMY I SHOULVE KNOWN #irunakis style is SO fun to draw in bc its a lot like some of my older art so its very familiar yk yk i wasnt worrying too much about makin #-things accurate. but i think that accidentally made me too comfortable and so i ended up straying a bit too much #i think a lot of irunaki and qinnys styles specifically is in the lineart. so me using my normal style of lines makes them less recognizabl #anyways. neals odysseus i have shit talked in private (its a good design it just feels uncanny w/ jorges voice to me) but hes really-#-interesting to draw. i wanna do style studies on neal their characters have a very. idk animated feels like the wrong word but like.#something like animated. feeling to them. theyre very distinct in shape i wanna do studies thats it #bigidiotenergy i found this morning while FINALLY looking at cloudysseus art and instantly fell in love w their design #i need to ruffle his hair. hes so silly. absolutely incredible design. but GOD was the style a nightmare #it was too late id already comitted to trying to replicate the styles. but ohhh my god its so far from my own it was so hard #theres so much detail in places i dont normally put any at all #and its like. WAUGH its scary i need to do anatomy studies in general maybe #uhh havent commented on the gigi one. he was really easy to draw though lol. weirdly enough gigis style was close enough to my current one-#-that i didnt have any trouble whatsoever? and i think its the most accurate too but only because of the lineart styles being similar lol #ALSO NOT TO PLAY FAVORITES BUT FOOP ODYSSEUS IS MY FAVORITE #I LOVE HIMMM I LOVE HIS SILLY SHAPES HE LOOKS LIKE A WEIRD CAT KINDA. HE INTRIGUES ME.#my ody feels kinda lame next to all these guys gbfdefgbf #but oh well. hes ingrained into my mind now i cant change him at this point /silly i am actually happy w him but i might make changes #thaats thoughts on all of the odys here. anyways art tags time #doodles #odysseus #epic the musical #OH MY GOD EDIT I FORGOT TO DRAW FOOP ODYS SHOES. HEAD IN HANDS. IM SO SORRY

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teratomatica · 1 month ago

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you always land on all fours

#umineko #umineko spoilers #ikuko hachijo #ikukos turn for a more serious piece... the old man has reigned for too long #now. INCREDIBLY LONG INCOHERENT TAGS RANT INCOMING FAIR WARNING HAS BEEN GIVEN:#it makes me so so sad how little discussion there is about specifically ikuko because imho she fits so neatly into a lot of the more #overarching Big Themes of the game in a way that i have not ever really seen people take notice of or point out in a meaningful way #like even just off of the top of my head. the significance of names and what it means to go by a name that's Not Yours (she has like 4+)#what it Means to be a witch how it represents a person's deepest insecurities and flaws & how its at its core a coping mechanism #the fact that it takes two to create a universe and trying to do it on your own anyways has the capacity to bring you intense misery #^ (how she's shown to be extremely dismissive of her own work and skill until a collaborator comes into her life and helps/encourages her)#and even the family/patriarchy/misogyny stuff that is so prevalent in the rest of the game comes back around to her. even her Only Friend #(young&stupid atp to be fair) remarks that shes Weird for being unmarried + the little she does say about her past invites the question of #to what extent her self-image stems from her family deeming her a freak outcast & effectively disowning her while celebrating her brothers #and i have lot in my mind about the witch thing specifically because i think her particular situation is very reflective of what umineko's #entire magic system and fantasy facet as a whole is meant to represent for an individual. from what little we see of (what is presumably)#her Real personality she is shown to be deeply self conscious in a way that is JARRINGLY diametrically opposed to both 1.) what we see in #featherine and 2.) what we see when she is acting as a Public Figure. because both of the above are very much purposeful acts that she is #putting on in order to obfuscate her true self. and i have always been very resolute & adamant about not totally equating her to featherine #not only because im very firmly in the camp of “featherine is the avatar of the Pen Name & tohya is part of her too” but also very much b/c #i feel very strongly that the stark differences between the two are very centrally relevant to her character & her psyche. as is the case #with most other witches featherine's personality traits serve to reveal/magnify a lot of ikukos inner workings by playing on her #insecurities/reversing them e.g. ikuko being very quick to downplay her skill/achievements becomes featherine being the COMPLETE opposite #to the point where she barely registers even other witches as living beings rather than just fun touys. BUT even though i do champion the #ikuko/featherine separation so hard i ALSO think it is purposefully relevant that at first glance the line between them seems so blurry #her introduction implying a more nebulous separation between her reality/fantasy counterpart is i think is an intentional move on her part #like it is part of the front she is putting up when acting as the Author. as opposed to Ikuko the person who we (in a way ironically very #similar to the way that the Real Battler is presumably only shown during the boatscene) only very briefly get to see take up screentime #which even on a meta level lines up very well with her apparent underlying nature as a like. extremely private largely reserved/shy person #hit tag limit but if by some miracle anyone is still reading this thank you... please see ikuko with the love she deserves... ok ily byeee

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dribevoli · 17 days ago

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It's been 1000 years since I've drawn a human.... And the only way I could do it is by making it dogman lmaoo

Why does human dogman have stitches on his neck? Don't worry about it ;)

#im trying to do human petey but its fucking hard for some reason??#like dogman design i got first try and was happy with it but petey is giving me a hard time frrr #i guess dm has a personality that is easy to convey as a human but peteys is more complex in a way that i cant really reflect....#but i will continue to try ✊️#also idk what police uniforms look like and i dont wanna look it up #dogman #dog man #dogman fanart #greg the dog #dogman gijinka #gijinka #human dog man

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smallsinger5901 · 4 months ago

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Do you think people controlled by the death note were aware that they were being controlled? Despite being unable to change a thing. Did they know that something was sosososo wrong in their mind and their body and that they didn't want to do what they were happily doing? Did their conscious minds scream and run desperately around to try and stop it, and find themselves incapable of doing anything? Anything but watch in horror as they contradicted their own wishes, watching through their own eyes like a screen, like a horror movie with growing dread that you can't stop the protagonist from dying, not matter how much you yell the right thing for them to do. Did Naomi know that she didn't want to walk away? Did she know? Did any of them?

#just thoughts #personally i think they did #i think there's horror in that thats really hard to describe #not quite sure i got it here but #if anyone knows what im trying to say and is a better writer please be my guest ;-;#death note #naomi misora #small talk

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galvanisticinhuman · 2 months ago

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as happy as i am about the popularity that willmark is getting (even if the 'mark' in question is from a different universe), i wish ppl would realize that you can ship a villain with a regular guy Without making the villain a yandere cornball

#IM NOT TRYING TO POLICE WHAT CONTENT YOU GUYS MAKE BTW #just making that clear jic it sounds like that #I just personally don't like that characterization of maskless mark / mark gayson / gayvincible / whatever other nicknames there are for hi #I also don't like the yandere trope in general #with invincible its been shown so many times that literally any of the villains (even sinclair) can be reformed #so it wouldn't make sense for that mark variant to be like. well. That #debbie already took in oliver despite the fact that her ex-husband had him with a mantis alien #AND when oliver killed the twins she didn't immediately act like he was a monster #so with gayvincible even though it would probably be really Really hard for her #he's still her son; albeit from a different universe and also evil #but if she was able to get the “killing is okay” mindset out of oliver then she prolly would also be able to get it out of maskless mark #also rick was an evil robot creature and william still helped / is helping him get past that #so it wouldn't be out of character if william helped maskless mark get past whatever happened in his universe & grow and change as a person #im prolly just repeating the same point over again hfdhsgj #basically what im trying to say is; will x maskless mark doesn't have to be corny yandere bs #it could also be william helping him get past whatever happened in his universe #prolly phrased a few things wrong here but eh #invincible #mark grayson #maskless mark #william clockwell #willmark

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cent-scratchnsniff · 1 month ago

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doodles and stuff. struggled with painting until i gave up

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #i GUESS? carmen and ayins face is a whole thing and stuff.#oh wait hello silly first life stuff. yeah that counts. tee hee?#angela and benjamin are technically there but theyre kinda small compaired to the rest of the drawings in inclusion so im not sure..#ill do angela since she isnt covered #angela lobcorp #carmen lobcorp #ayin lobcorp #netzach lobcorp #it mustve been so prominent. the feelings of affection. those memories of ayin smiling so gently and warmly to her. to Carmen. than angela.#for it to be the very first thing brought up. the very first thing to actually recall from the copy of Her brain. a warmth she would never #be able to see upon that face. a warmth she knows and can recall but never for Her. a man who adored carmen to have such a face shown to he #that now cannot even bare to look at what isnt her what could never be her yet depending on a creation he loathes #for its similarities. for being close to him. for not Being Carmen enough. for being a bastardization of what once was. holding #justifications and trying to convince the self in order to continue forward. its just a machine. a machine must behave as a machine #how miserable. how trapping. how stuck and desperate. ever inflicting cycle of pain. anyways PLATONIC GIOCARMEN!! 🔥🔥#i canot speak upon ayin for there isnt enough room. GIOVANNI!! wanted to draw some interactions w them.#there was a scrapped doodle of carmen talking abt pain levels for beaking bones with a smile on her face while pointing to his body #bc day 48 and decidedly factually stating things with a smile as if it wasnt even personal. even if it is distressing #women in stem 🔥 have her bring over diagrams for him to have as reference. gio helping skim and find pages for specific quotes or a section #to bookmark. just happy at her glee and determination. carmen is holding up a clipboard w a diagram from the red book by carl jung but its #really small and hard to tell what it is. tee hee. there is more rambles but nay. i shant. twas for fun in between stuff #ever constant fear of misconstrued words. prithee. accept my offerings.....#spoke abt them before. i think? so content inside her warmth and joy. alive at her pride. feeling a part of him ripped away at her listless #expression. erased vanished faded from the world back to the murky color of gray further when she left the world. its so. ahngbh.#ill make a rb after this comes out and i wake up on the side blog nieranddear of just more rambles on it all that couldnt fit here #lor spoilers #... maybe. maybe on the rambles. if i dont get embarrassed and dip out of fear. whatever. go my queued post

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nonbinoclard · 10 months ago

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they could never make me hate you, miss oranje

#disco elysium #de fanart #de #disco elysium fanart #quick sketch tht i just dressed up a little hah #ive been seeing klaasje hate recently in diff circles and it makes me so sad bc i really love her #she’s SO complicated and morally grey and i really feel like ppl forget just how much shit she’s already dealing with #and just focus on how harry feels when he finds out she lies… like YEAH i would too in her situation #trying to stay spoiler free for my buddies but its just like. ppl seem so hard on her. im not saying shes a good person #but shes not an evil master manipulator either. shes just trying to survive in her own way #my art #if klaasje has 100000 fans im one of them. if theres only one its me. if there are none im dead

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rudeboimonster · 2 years ago

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~help your local rat get stable housing~

edit post nov 2023: I GOT THE HELP I NEEDED THANK YOU SOSOOSO MUCH

dramatically sprawled out on the floor

so i gotta move for the third time in that many years. unfortunately between health problems and the General State of The Economy, I have been unable to find work to be able to save any money. i have no choice but to leave the entire state. i thankfully have somewhere to go, however I need help getting there. i've been trying to do the math to get what I need to its lowest amount possible, but even that is still at least $2.5k.

after this move, i should be able to get things more stable and I might even have a couple job prospects lined up in that area, but right now I'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel funds wise and desperately need help.

if you're able to spare anything, i've set up a goal through kofi so i can track it publicly. i have trouble asking for help but i really need what help i can get. thank you, so so so much.

#mutual aid #fundraiser #help #god i dont know what to tag this im just kinda ripping off the bandage bc ive been anxious about posting about this since i got asked to #leave. head in hands. please help by spreading the word if you cant spare any cash i completely understand.#i dont know what i can offer. my ability to do art has been really really low and with my sleeping/living arrangements my wrists shoulders #back have been in fucking wretches states so its hard for me to do much #if youre wonder about the other fundraiser i did a few years ago #the person i replaced in a renting situation ended up fucking me over and got basically evicted into the 2nd week of college and i had 3 da #to leave that situation or more people wouldve gotten fucked over. and ive been basically couch surfing since trying to find work #anyways i havent slept in a bed for more than a weekend since october 2021 my back is turbo fucked please help

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peterofthedrakes · 1 year ago

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this is katakuri. to me.

#art #peterofthedrakes #digital art #graphic art #fanart #artists on tumblr #op #one piece #whole cake island saga #charlotte katakuri #katakuri one piece #when luffy destroyed his lil mochi house i immediately assumed this was what he was trying really hard to hide #(i think hes trying to hide his big teefs actually?? not super clear)#to a degree i think Liking Doughnuts IS part of what hes hiding - i dont think he really wants to be seen as like. a normal person.#who like. enjoys things.#anyways.#no spoilerrrsssssss pls thanku i am at. uh. like pretty close to the end of wci? im at the katakuri fight.

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shepscapades · 8 months ago

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shep I was talking to my brother about dbhc xisuma as one does and mentioned that ask about not being able to puzzle xisuma's face together mentally and my brother joked that the reason you put the spoiler bars and such on his face is cause you cant draw his whole face yet 😂

anyway I might have talked his ear off about dbhc idk tho lmao

LMAOO NOOOO!!! MY SECRET FINALLY IS OUT!!! /silly

#HEHE thats rly fun though i hope your brother is enjoying the osmosis XD #truthfully... drawing xisuma's face is still really difficult for me... bc he's always like. the character whose personality and character #like. comes from the fact that we never see his face? and so there's something about him that feels more... right when his face is just.#a mystery #but i DO have a facecanon for him. esp for dbhc bc its important. even if when i think Xisuma i don't think of his face the way i might whe #I think of other characters. that isn't the reason why I spoiler it though XD when we get the face reveal it'll be obvious enough. i hope #LMAO.#anyway #idk like #some of the first sketches i did of Xisuma's face will still be my favorites tbh #it's hard to capture the same energy of a rough sketch when you try to sharpen those soft edges into a clean picture yknow?#i HAVE gotten better at it though.... square-ish face but soft on the edges... kind blue eyes... hair always tied back tightly and neatly #idk. i think about him a LOT #especially lately but we knew this hehehe #i think he deserves to take the helmet off every once and a while and just. breathe and get out of his own head yknow #i think he gets better at it in s9 even if he only takes it off around people he really trusts (keralis and cleo)#not that doc hasnt seen him or that he distrusts doc but... well. that whole relationship is a work in progress since season 8 was. well #anyway im really and truly rambling <3 #xisumas face is both an enigma to me and a soft sturdy shape in my brain... its hard to replicate consistently but those doodles are #just for me anyway =w= <3 #(and a few select others. who Know. you know who you are)

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kandavers · 2 months ago

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do u ever get jealous when u see ur partners with other partners ?

unfortunately yes sometimes LMAO

That's why we reassure each other a lot <3 I feel like feelings of jealousy/missing out are unavoidable in relationships like these, so the best way to rectify it is a lot of communication

#i'm also a bit of a competitive person #i've been like this in every aspect of my life including my studies my art and all that jazz #it's not really so healthy because i end up putting a lot of pressure on myself to be perfect all the time #i want to be your favourite girl #i want to be your favourite girl's favourite girl too #(this is the kind of greed they talk about in the bible)#but i'm trying to meditate more and learn to let things go and break this habit (it's really hard so bare with me)#this reminds me of the meme that says 'do you need two partners or do you need two people to love you like your parents never did' IM SO ??#it's so funny #kanrambles #ask

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stardial · 2 months ago

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#i’m kinda falling apart a little bit i think. everything is sooooooo hard rn #i just like. don’t feel like a person who should exist #i just don’t know how to… live. like literally i cant figure this stuff out #i love being around people and existing and yet it just feels like i’m so.. bad at it? im quite frankly really bad at making new friends #and i can barely maintain the friendships i have. and it just so often feels like ppl just don’t like me no matter how hard i try #like it kinda hit me recently just how autistic i am. i miss social cues and i never know what i’m supposed to do an for a while i rly #thought that was fine and that ppl would just understand. but it’s becoming evident that that’s not the case #idk. shit’s hard

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gifti3 · 2 months ago

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the goverment is definitely figuring out this alien situation asap right?? cause whats happening currently is not feasible in the long run is it not??

im sure they are trying to maybe figure it out...probably, but part of me feels like it is not being treated with the seriousness it should be by them, which ig is in character LOL

pretty much relying on one guy (who doesnt even wanna be doing this) is actually scary

and the mc still has to like 'encourage' him to do it, tho its much easier in the 'ray ending' for sure. that man just wants to live a regular life with mc (unfortunately for him that means continuing to be binary star and dealing with aliens)

and if i was a citizen and knew this id be panicking

like yea u have these other heroes helping and stuff which im sure looks comforting from an outside point of view! but like the actuality is that its ray keeping things afloat

AND ON THE TOPIC OF THE MC, i was definitely in my head like....wouldnt rays superiors (managers??) get like curious about them? like no way theyre not being nosy about it after a certain amount of time passes. it really feels like something that could be leveraged against him,,, (if there is fic about this pls send it to me lol)

honestly i feel like mc and rays relationship would have moments of high stress. like there will be good times but also the bad times will also be there and its sometimes gonna be because of outside factors they cant control