#but im just saying. it would be fun and its fun to think about.

[losver07]

lmao it's fine i wouldnt care much about repeating tbh, i think slowing down a bit might be good for me :)

"why am i always sick? well you see, every full moon i— seriously mate i have a fucking chronic illness, and you have a problem with being nosey. god, i'm not allowed to break bones anymore? for fucks sake"

i mean please look at him and tell me that's not a baby version of timothee. like a special edition lmaoo

oof yea i get that :((

yeah!!! like it happens to me with writing & drawing, my hand just doesn't wanna pick a side lol

obv it makes sense babe we share a braincell

yuppp she's lowkey crazy so it's fun to hear from my bedroom lmao. anyway they've broken up now so ig i won't see her until..... tomorrow probably (and then three days later aprox they'll break up again, so fun)

YES have you seen futurama cause i think there's a chapter where they have a time machine and it's like. the same shit over and over again. like there's a ton of liberty statues buried one on top of each other. gosh that show is my childood

AXOLOTLS ARE SO FUCKING CUTE!!!!! and yea moles are awesome. i identify as a mole when im out in the sun (astigmatism)

oh definitely we should french revolutionise her. and yup the stuff she says does not even make sense?? like did an actual human being say that??? idk it makes me depressed tbh she's having a huge economical impact in the worst stuff when she could be donating to orgs that at least don't harm anybody. like ok, you don't like trans ppl. fine. you can donate to OTHER stuff. idk, help orphan children? she should care about them taking into account hp.

i honestly think she's just stubborn and wants to piss us all off. i took a look at her birth chart some time ago and i think she's a leo so yea. she think she the loudest roarer but we used to screamin our lungs out!!!!

↑ idk what that was i just woke up if you couldn't tell :)

i mean how could i reject a cute doggo pic.....

YES IM CONVINCED ITS THEIR REINCARNATION!!!

lmaooo im suuuuch a shakespeare (im not i say dumb shit so the occasional smart shit sounds exceptional)

YAY ill be listening tomorrow hehehee

lol no please god i cannot let my tumblr comments be better than my actual writing jsbckdbckd

okay i can confirm the brush is not that bad. but the expensive ones last years and this one is probably gonna last two months at best (again, can't complain for 4€)

REMUS REEINCARNATION???? we need to find the rest. it's a quest.

sorry did i hear shark tooth collection???? 1. yes that smells like neurospice 2. THAT IS SO FUCKING COOL WTF

in my case i think both my parents have something going on lol, like i very clearly got the ocd from my mum but my dad has over 2k books and probably around 100 game consoles at home so..... (also he has like 6 copies of the divine comedy which is fun cause of course you need six of em dad, sure)

anyway not complaining cause i can play street fighter in a big ass arcade machine :)

not sims but if i wake up from a coma and they tell me i've been dreaming everything since 2020 i would fully believe it. literally every single aspect of my life changed that year. crazy. a lil too crazy...

nuh uh i totally didn't adapt my fashion sense to a fandom.... that's embarrassinggggg......

WE THE FUKIN BEST!!!!

oh shit we already do that LMAO, i have one w a wolf howling at the moon (cause we're cubs but also.... rjl) and one w just the cover of the dark side of the moon. and i have a bowie one in my scarf but that's second hand shopped i fear. we have a lot of meme pins it's scarily funny (the most popular one is the "I DONT SELL COOKIES" one)

you ARE a disney princess like whatttt that's so sweet!!! poor birdie i hope it's okay :(

this is one of the best interactions in the history of tumblr btw. like wtf

"my child is fine" ma'am your child prioritises memorising every single full moon that happened in 1975 over their schoolwork

[forsaire]

What do you think about hard of hearing!soap and wheelchair bound! Ghost

i adore Soap who has to wear a hearing aid ♥ it makes sense given his propensity towards demolitions his whole life, the momentary awe leading to issues in the future

and just the thought of things like Ghost whispering he loves soap into the ear that doesn't work very well and soap doesn't hear him. or whispering filthy things just for fun, and then he gets a hearty slap across the shoulder when he accidentally says it into soap's very much working ear

but besides the fun, there's such an intimacy in ghost purposefully living his life so its easier for soap. tries to talk while facing him so soap can look at his lips, always sticking to one side when they walk together, putting soap's hearing aids to charge when he fell asleep and forgot, putting captions on everything they watch together, ahhhhh

when it comes to ghost in a wheelchair, i've had fewer thoughts about that one. to me i think maybe it would be hard for ghost to accept. he'd always been incredibly skilled, quick, nimble his whole life. he was big and strong, always there to protect soap, but now he feels he cant do that any more.

im curious how that would happen, there's so many different ways, but if it was say tacking a stray bullet to protect soap, i can see how soap would also harbour a lot of guilt about that because the injury would have forced them to uproot their lives and quit the military.

it's an interesting dynamic, maybe one dripping with most angst

[peanutheaddd]

I know artist hate this question, but you are so chill so I was like ,,Let's give it a shot": Do you have any tips about learning art?

Things like shading and wrinkles would be especially nice, I overthink about this thinks too much and it keeps blocking me from the progress and I stuck in the same place for like 5 years with it plz I begging you the way you draw wrinkles is very yummy

i actually dont know why artists hate this question 😭😭 same w getting asked about brushes . i mean they probs have a reason but idk what it is LOL . im gen flattered u think my art is good enough to ask for advice LOLLLLL but heres a guide ! ill js do shading and wrinkles .. i have another post in drafts abt how i study art in general LOL

if theres one thing to take away from this its copy lots and lots and lots of pictures and everntually itll start making sense. almost everything i do in my life is by way of brute force including art LOL.

again . this is just how i do things PERSONALLY. so take it w a grain of salt . it might not work for you . and thats fine . youll figure out smth that works eventually . BUT i hope it helps regardless.

i totally understand the struggle with being stuck and overthinking LOL ultimately you really js have to embrace the fuck it we ball mindset i fear . if you keep staying scared of making bad art youre doomed to forever make bad art . youll never improve.

"theres no such thing as bad art" has never helped me personally bc i dont actually give a shit if theres no such thing as bad art . if i think my art is bad then i think its bad . saying that bad art doesnt exist doesnt change anything at all . the way i think about it is "ok. my art is bad yes. and thats too bad. but i can improve even just by 0.01% if i do a study . so im gonna do that" . so every time i feel bad about my art i do a study . and ultimately all of those individual studies add up and thats probably why my art level is at the level it is today . 😭😭

u got this man . art isnt easy at all but its rewarding and most importantly it is Fun . if u improve enough to the point that u dont constantly hate ur art then art becomes the most fun thing in the world . thats why i draw so much . it feels like doing a line of coke . instant dopamine hit

[anim-ttrpgs]

Question about deathbed: i havent seen much about it yet but what ive seen doesnt make it sound very...fun to be alive in that world and that its like influenced by practices of the christian church during the middle ages and stuff like that, so im wondering how that would affect being able to even really play a woman being badass in that game?

Is it basically hardmode difficulty if you wanna play a woman?

I have two answers to this.

First is that in Death Bed, a woman can be badass. I’ll demonstrate by making Herr Rike, an old literary and AD&D character of mine, in Death Bed. @thepleasuregoblin @ashweather and @umbraldame can attest that she is just about the most believably badass person there is. (Despite the title of “Herr,” she is a woman and always has been. Well she’s female, technically she isn’t human and in her setting “woman” is a human-specific term while other sapient species have their own terms for genders but you get the point.)

(art by @chaospyromancy)

I’m not gonna go through this very granularly because in Death Bed most stats are rolled, start out very low, and then are upgraded one at a time by level-ups. But over the course of building her stats up to where they should be to represent her I would focus on Agility, Scripture, Dexterity, Vigor, Strength, Endurance, Arcane, and Attunement from highest to lowest in that order.

For Traits, I would get her

(this is a men-only Trait, and also one I will probably nerf before final release, but a female character can still take it, at a price.)

(she isn't actually humble, but the effect of this Trait fits her personality.)

(note the sidebars in this one)

(in no particular order)

I might also consider giving her Gentleman (Men only.) but at the moment in the game’s unfinished state that Trait has an unclear interaction with Lady.

Yes, she does have both men-only and women-only Traits, that’s allowed, it just reduces her Social Status. I rolled it and at the end of all those Traits she still has a Social Status of 27, which is fairly high.

Social Status is a stat representing how respectable the character is by the standards of 1400s society. It determines who gets to talk down to and degrade who. What the higher Social Status character says goes, and if this pecking order is challenged, that tends to distress people.

Characters who have Traits which fall outside their perceived gender suffer a debuff to Social Status, because that’s just how it was back then. Hell, that’s how it is today.

So she could kill monsters and shit with a sword just fine, the worst she would get is maybe the occasional weird look, especially since, in the Middle Ages, it was irregular but not strictly forbidden for women to practice martial arts. The super strict sex-segregation of martial arts was way more of a Renaissance and onward thing.

Now for the second answer.

A lot of what our cultural idea of what is “cool” and “badass” is extremely masculine-favoring. And while yes, swords and armor and violence are cool and badass, (I’m not immune to thinking that the things knights do is cooler than the things their wives do.) a lot of “feminist” or “egalitarian” or otherwise “pro-women” media that is historically set ends up having the message “This woman is badass and cool because she’s.. like a man, unlike those other lameass women who are like women.”

It ends up being the medieval version of that action movie trope that goes like

Male Lead: (pleasantly surprised) “You know how to fight and be badass?”

Female Lead: *racks shotgun* “I grew up with 7 brothers and so I had to learn how to play rough and played army instead of Barbie dolls and I didn’t have a mother and my ex-special-forces dad taught me how to fight starting at a young age. All that masculinity helped me grow up to be cool and tough woman instead of a boring helpless stupid woman.”

instead of, like, celebrating the other 99% of women in that time period who just did woman stuff.

Death Bed allows you to make a character that is a woman but effectively fills the social roles of a man such as killing stuff with a sword*(which is something just about every other TTRPG on the planet also allows), and it allows you to make a character that is a woman and fills all the more normal social roles of a woman while still being a very valuable asset to the party both in and out of combat (and Death Bed has a lot of “out of combat” stuff going on. It’s a classic dungeon crawler, which involves a good amount of combat, but is not purely combat and a party needs plenty of characters who are focused on other things if they want to survive.)

*and again, this wasn’t even something women were strictly barred from doing at the time.

Fencing Master: (Men only. +1 Social Status.) This struggler has +1 Scripture, +1 Strength, +1 Dexterity, and +1 Agility. Additionally, upon gaining this Trait, give him any three Weapon Special Attribute Masteries, selected at random from those he does not already have. Additionally, reduce his Hollowness by 1 each time he gains a new Special Weapon Attribute Mastery. However, this struggler must make a Despair roll any time his martial technique is called into question or disrespected, unless he proves himself. If he attempts to prove himself and fails, he must take an added instance of disadvantage to this Despair roll. He must also make a Despair roll each time his weapon is reduced in Maintenance Rating as a result of a failed attack roll. 

Additionally, this struggler gains 2x the EXP from engagements in which he fights alone without allies. 

Frightening Demeanor: (+1 Social Status.) So long as this struggler is not a non-combatant, apply a -1 to this struggler’s Attention each time their Attention is increased. However, apply an added instance of disadvantage to their reaction rolls. 

Humble: (+0 Social Status.) This struggler’s good nature is a bulwark to disrespect. They gain an added instance of Advantage to any despair rolls related to disrespect. They gain an additional added instance of advantage to any despair roll related to disrespect from characters of lower Social Status. 

Lady: (Women only. +3 Social Status.) This struggler has an added +3 to Scripture,[1] and an instance of advantage on reaction rolls. However, she must take an added instance of disadvantage to any Despair roll resulting from being disrespected by a man or woman of lower social standing, and must make a Despair roll up to once per Scene in which she is not wearing fine women’s clothing.[2][3]

[1. Sidebar] Literacy was considered the domain of noblewomen, clergy, and scribes.

[2. Sidebar] This Trait does not require the struggler to be a non-combatant. Though it was unorthodox for them to participate directly in battle, women of noble standing were not barred from martial training. In fact, a nobleman’s wife was expected to command his levies in battle should their home be attacked while he is away.

[3. Sidebar] Wearing fine women’s clothing does not preclude the wearing of most armor, so long as the visibly feminine elements are preserved.

Additionally, up to once per Scene, this struggler gains 100 EXP if she goes the entire Scene without getting her shoes or dress muddy, wet, or otherwise dirty. [gains EXP from reading literature or eating fine food and drinking fine wine? Figure this out.]

Paranoid: (-1 Social Status.) This struggler has an added instance of advantage to Agility rolls to avoid triggered traps, and, once per Hourglass, the player of this struggler can ask that the Narrator reveal to their struggler any and all traps in a room or general surrounding area and the Narrator will do so. However, they must make a Despair roll if they ever accidentally trigger a trap, or if anyone ever startles them such as by walking up behind them or waking them from their sleep.

Also, when the Narrator makes a wandering monster roll, the player of this struggler may ask that the result be revealed to them, but if they do so, this struggler makes a Despair roll.

Up to once per Scene, this struggler gains 10 EXP for being right about the dangers that lurk nearby.

Sharp Tongue: (+0 Social Status.) This struggler’s quick tongue and quicker wit allow them to wind around any social slight with the agility of a skilled fencer. At this struggler’s choice, they can cause the object of their ridicule either an added instance of advantage or an added instance of disadvantage to any Despair rolls related to disrespect from this struggler. Either advantage or disadvantage is doubled if their words are actually said in dialogue or at least summarized and the Narrator deems their remark sufficiently clever.

Tactician: (+1 Social Status.) Once per engagement, this struggler can bark out a specific order to an ally with a Social Status up to 3 degrees higher than their own, or any degree lower.[1] If the ally they are ordering complies, that ally gains an instance of Advantage to the next 3 rolls that carrying out that order may entail. However, if the ally refuses or fails to carry out this order, then this struggler must make a Despair roll. If the ally dies as a result of attempting to carry out this order, then this struggler must make a Despair roll with an instance of Disadvantage.

[1. Sidebar] This can be done even if this struggler is a non-combatant.

Additionally, this struggler gains 5 EXP for each successful roll on the aforementioned next 3 rolls made by their ally complying with their orders. 

[kruxton]

ok so ive gone through with the touchstarved demo (i forgot what backstory i chose 💔 not sure if this matters to what i'll be yapping about) and leander's route was the last one i did - went crazy about the other 4 too but i need to talk about HIM

this guy is FASCINATING. objectively fascinating. out of all the 5 characters this guy baffles me the most. token nice guy that is a bit... TOO nice, right? and so as ive done with the rest i take notes about interesting dialogues or scenes cause i like fleshing out the characters in my head completely, and this guy???? i wrote about him 10x more than the others. and i dont even like him as a romance option yet. he truly is just such a compelling character

warning for spoilers (?) of the demo

im just going to preface this with the fact that i have maybe only played a visual novel like once before this and that was YEARS ago. i dont know if im reading too much into it all and that everything's just a 'that's how it works in these games' thing or not so!!! there's that. AND i only just discovered this game a few days ago (on the same day they updated actually) so the fandom discussions r very new to me

so by the end of the demo you're given the option to follow one of the characters after the drink at the bar, and no matter who you choose you're going to end up talking about the other 4 as well. something different I noticed for leander's dialogue was that for every person you'd ask about, he would always ask what you thought about them first. every single one. none of the others did this, they would just speak their mind, but leander ALWAYS ASKED FIRST. and the two options you had were to say something positive or something negative about them

and depending on how you answered those questions, leander's response was STAGGERINGLY different. whenever you would choose a positive answer (eg: saying Ais was 'honest' instead of 'a jerk'), leander would go "yadda yadda sure but that guy's dangerous and not to be trusted" - essentially. im generalising to make my point but this was the vibes he let off. and his character would be all pissed and frowning, worried for the MC's safety, acting all protective and shit.

but then u turn around and redo the dialogue option, choosing the negative one instead, and without fail leander's reply would be 'haha yeah but he's not all that bad.' (again, generalising). even so far as to say he's seen mhin's 'soft spot' before, and saying the senobium was cruel for imprisoning vere (which, by the way is completely contradictory to what he would say if we chose 'I feel bad for him.' (positive option) - he literally says VERBATIM that vere 'should be caged'). and i can't help but feel like this must be on purpose. the devs HAD to have done this on purpose its too good of a character trait to just be some sort of writing flaw

and by character trait i mean his whole nice guy shtick. i think its all an act and he's a lying two faced bitch. yup.

a line i remember distinctly was him lightheartedly saying he was jealous and wanted to keep the MC all to himself, which im going back to now after playing through all the options in this scene and like. oh i GET him now.

this man gets jealous whenever the MC shows affection for literally any other character and bites back with something to incriminate said character in MC's eyes. but if the MC says something bad about anyone, he has to keep up his shtick and be the mediator again. the nice guy that gets along with everyone.

now that ive written this i realise that this might literally just be a Very Common Archetype that i just rarely indulge in, but I wanna finish this off with the fact that I still think his story and personality is easily my favourite, and being able to sort of decipher this part of his story through the mechanics of a visual novel with multiple routes is SO Fun. its like damn i wish i could do this in real life to see if people are lying to me or not

anyways the touchstarved demo is peak i cant wait for when the game releases YAYYYYY

[m155y-74]

gang this took me so long holy shit im so tired ughhhh, yes my comments r completely incoherent and my rating system is stupidly inconsistent also no it’s not a star per song it’s purely based on vibes. i’m very very sorry if i was mean in fairness to me its 1am anyways tysssm for replying this was acc sm fun and now i have a shit tonne of new music so yay (also u all get a sentence on my judgement of u based on ur music if i had never spoken to u so have fun with that)

@vitch-with-v ⭐️⭐️⭐️

IM SORRY BUT OMG DO WE HAVE DIFFERENT TASTE

u defo love a mosh pit in theory but are terrified of getting trampled

Mi Buen Amor/Antes De Ti-lowkey loved them both have very much the musical theatre belty vibe that i love tho i think i would have liked it a bit more if i spoke spanish lmao Kunst-ngl i rlly didn’t see that coming but kinda yes tho i’d defo have to be in the mood, the smezir2 one and give it up-no sorry but not my vibe like at all where r the words?? Eres-like yes maybe i think i’d like it a lot more if i knew spanish but kinda cool

@directorsbeencut ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

we have very similar taste, bravo flawless excellent (also love ur new pfp it’s making me wanna change mine back to my man)

u love eyeliner but can’t do it and it haunts u

beat my guest/prince charming-fuck yea love both these songs especially beat my guest too much too young/ghost town-kinda loved both of these very much my vibe might be going on the playlist complicated game-i love XTC acc a stupid amount love this well done the distance-hmm less my vibe sorry bout that the the empty-excellent flawless love le tigre bravo

@l1v3r-al0n3 ⭐️⭐️

i saw nu metal and my heart sank (u get an extra star for sonne be grateful)

u haven’t a glass of water in over a year

sonne-one of my fav songs ever thank fuck u put that on there otherwise i’d have to unfollow u. the rest i’m sorry but no like rlly not my vibe (i liked the emptiness machine more than i thought but still not enough) i’m a big thrash/power/heavy metal fan and just nu metal no no thank u

@i-ate-the-sun7 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

okay so i’m just mystified as to how out of all the amazing clash songs u could’ve chosen that was the one u went with (extra star for metallica)

i have nothing to say about u ur very confusing but you’ve never painted ur toenails

pretty fly-like yeah maybe pretty good not quite my vibe but sure why not janie jones- i love the clash with my whole heart like so so much but of all the clash songs u coulda picked like come on dude, still excellent song tho you know what they do…- hot take and i’m gonna be crucified for this but i rlly don’t like mcr so sorry bout that it was okay cannibal girlfriend-yeha acc yeah rlly liked it which i didn’t see coming for whom the bell tolls-well done very well done u get an extra star just for this song

@horrormoviepsycho ⭐️⭐️⭐️

pretty good all good songs im just not super into nineties sorryyy (rlly not sorry)

u rlly want to skateboard but are shit at it and don’t wanna look like a dork when u fall off

this is love-lowkey a big fan i liked this kinda a lot debaser-finally listened to this despite being obsessed with the fic yeah kinda? never been super into the pixies ngl but pretty good love is a mutt from hell-yeah pretty good? kinda a vibe but not rlly mine dirty little secret-yeha again sorta yes, not no? i dunno red right hand-hmm yes i think so yes defo yes

@amnesiamilk ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

stunning beautiful amazing bravo

u have an amazing jewellery collection and value it over your life

silver springs-flawless amazing obviously hertz-never heard this song before fucking love it made it to the playlist kiss them for me- obviously yes siouxsie my absolute queen ugh i love her so much all i need-hmm yes weirdly enough not the biggest radiohead fan but yeah kinda like it black-ooooh yes didn’t think i would but defo yes i’m a fan

@rose-bunny-28 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

pretty good just different vibes, love ayesha erotica tho (and sabrina carpenter 🫣)

your badass but are shit at painting your nails

lazy bones-not the biggest green day but yeah sure why not pretty good sixteen-i love ayesha erotica m yes yes love it ok-hmm yeha acc pretty good littke bit chill for me tho hide it away-yeahhh sure good just not rlly my vibe lie to girls- deeply ashamed to admit this but yeha i kinda love sabrina carpenter

@yourmasteramon ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

took me surprise i liked more than i though i would ngl

you’ve never in your life worn a backpack with both straps

county line-surprising yes very stu macher vibes somehow max don’t have sex-hmm like yes? but defo like in a certain mood but lowkey a fan undone-hmm yeha not rlly sorry not sorry just not very my vibe the stalker-fucking love this band name i’d never heard of them before song yeah kidna loved it boys don’t cry-don’t rlly like the cure but yeah sure why not pretty good im a fan

@paroxysmofhate ⭐️⭐️⭐️

my god we have different taste but lowkey pretty good

ur have a pet rodent of some sort

supa freak love-kinda maybe not super my vibe but sure cult of personality- yeha acc kinda loved it like a lot tear you apart-yeha yeha maybe but also wiat yes yes i’m kinda a fan epic-noooo sorry but noooo mx.sinister-okay acc yeah sorta a fan i can go with this

@crookedchildphantom ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

so i had never heard any of these songs before and u got five stars so holy shit go u

u only use wired headphones

a hundred kisses-yeha yeah acc a fan like this a lot strip-yes yes love it yep good good angry johnny-lowkey love it it made it to a playlist soooo andrew in drag-oooh omg wiat yes yes love it bloodsport-hmmm no like maybe but not really

@joelle2038 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

lowkey rlly good defo a fan might have to check out los campesinos lmao

u love scented candles but forget you’ve left them burning and neatly set shit on fire

beetlebum-yeah yeah pretty good v chill i’m a fan i just sighed….-okay so sorta yes like i’m a fan but not quite by your hand-like this quite a lot im a big fan good good baby i got….-hmm yes yes good but not quite sure holy smoke-yes yes big fan like it a lot

[mintchocopudd]

I hope u dont mind my messy rambling, but this is quite an interesting topic so I cant help but to yap about it (its just my opinion dont take it too seriously) (also english not my first language so maybe i use the wrong word or word it weirdly im sorry)

1. Yes, potential is good.

2. Yes, its better to never stop rather than starting point and place.

Potential is good, especially if it's connected with your interest too as it can help them grow even more. But what if their potential doesnt coincide with their interest? They can easily get lost from it. Is it simply a waste to not continue despite potential? I don't know. The only person that can judge and say "it's a waste" or "no, it's not a waste" is the person with said 'potential'.

The thing is to keep nurturing something, doing it over and over again is because someone had fun with it. Like falling in love with something is easy, but staying in love? That's hard. Even to someone with potential, it's super hard to keep doing it all over again.

The key is patience.

Interest came from interessa, which mean 'different'. It's easy to change interest because they are different everytime and we dont like boredom. To stay in same interest is hard. It's hard to always find something new and keep staying in love with it.

Even when trying to keep your interest afloat, you have to practice, research, and study it. So, it doesn't really matter where you start, as long you want to learn it all over and keep staying in love with it, Being patient and nurturing it, you can always do it.

Something more that I can conclude is:

1. Potential + Interest = faster learning growth.

2. Interest + patience + learning how to make it fun = longer mastery. If you have potential too, that would make it superb hahah.

3. Just potential alone isn't enough.

I think the better stuff to understand here is "how can we nurture interest from the start". That's how we can stay in the long run.

More stuff on the side:

To people with potential, maybe its kinda, u know, hard to some people to just run off on the opposite way when you already have like basically a google map telling you on what to do. However, if you have something else as your interest that you are willing to pour your patience, so be it.

What if you dont know about your interest that you are willing to endure the boredom that come with practicing it? go experiment, but dont erase the bad answer that didnt come with good result. You might not have a definitive clear answer but you sure know things that you dont like and go against your principle.

All in all, I hope life will be kind to us all :)

Art rambling

I think its not hard to see who has more potential for art early on than others. As someone who doesnt fall into that category it kinda made me feel bad when i see the ppl w more potential stop drawing by choice.

"Oh such wasted potential" or "man, if only i have that potential i wouldnt have stopped"

But a potential is only as good as the parts that are realized. Like selling an item that has a potential to be sold at X amt, its only as good as the amt a real buyer is willing to pay for.

The main points here to remind myself here is

1. Its easy to get lost in what ifs, and its more beneficial to focus on whats actually happening

2. It matters more that you never stop rather than your starting point and pace

Ive seen a lot of ppl who are better than me that drops drawing by choice. And maybe it never brought them/doesnt bring them the same happiness. And it made me realize that never wanting to stop and enjoying what i do matters more than whether i had potential or not in the first place.

[hiddenbeks]

carth watching in increasing despair as this random soldier he escaped the endar spire with and who agreed to keeping a "low profile" makes an enemy of tarisian nobility and the local crime lord, loses all their credits in pazaak games, enters a dueling ring with the excuse of regaining the credits but really just wants to blow off some steam, goes to a sith party with the excuse of searching for leads on bastila's whereabouts but really just wants to see how fun the sith are to party with,

[hyunpic]

daily gifs until hyune day: king of hair styles — “if you like my long hair, pls love me until it grows out. if you like it short, pls love me until it's gone. then, i’ll only receive love”

[starry-bi-sky]

im dedicating this to @detectivedarling. i felt inspired after seeing their little ficlet yesterday sadhjfl 🫶

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Danny's grip on his cane tightens.

"What—"

His voice cracks. He stops, clears it, then tries again in spite of the nausea twisting in his gut. "What are — you, uh, watching, Bruce?" He sounds horribly far away.

Bruce doesn't look at him, his attention laser-focused on the screen. Which is— fine. It's usually not a problem, Bruce gets like that when he hyper-focuses on a case, and unless it's urgent — or he's been at it for hours — Danny sees no need to pull him away from it. He likes the quiet camaraderie they have, it's companionable and unique to the two of them.

He wishes he was right now though. Looking at him, that is.

That way he wasn't watching what was clearly one of Danny's ghost fights. One of the nastier ones, if the collateral damage and rubble on the street is of any indication.

Danny tries to remember which one that is. He shuffles a little closer to the desk, ignoring the rock in his stomach or the ugly weightlessness in his arms. It's not the blood blossoms, that much he knows. He just recently had an injection so it shouldn't be bothering him this soon—

So it's just nerves. Perfect.

Most footage of his fights are— messy, at best. Unusable at worst. Amity Park was obsessed with appearing 'normal' when they first started happening, and typical news stations censor the worst of the fights anyways for publishing, since they can get pretty gory at times. And ghosts move too fast to be caught on regular standard cameras, not including distance and light and—

That is to say— finding usable ghost fight videos is hard.

Danny wonders how Bruce got his hands on this one, and then stops wondering.

The audio is muted, which is - good. Good, because the fight is ugly and chaotic and clearly this was taken on someone's phone. Fuck, he can't remember if he ever saw that before — clearly not. They're hiding behind an overturned car, and Danny grits his teeth so he doesn't tell that idiot to run.

The camera turns up, and focuses on two figures in the air. It takes a few seconds, but when it does, Danny gets hit with a wave of vertigo. His grip tightens and he leans heavily on his cane, he waits for the black dots to disappear.

He- uh, he remembers this fight now. Uh, sort of.

He remembers being twelve at the time, and he remembers some of the injuries he got out of it. His eyelid spasms abruptly. This ghost wasn't one of his regulars, so he doesn't remember whatever name they had, barely remembered what they looked like up until- uh. Now.

Was he always that small? Well— Phantom's never been particularly big, perks of being a dead kid, but— it's - different. Seeing it from an outsider perspective. Was he that small? Or is it just because he's wearing a jumpsuit clearly too big for him that casts the illusion of being small?

Doesn't really - matter. Now. He can't access his ghost form, and he already knows the answers to his appearance.

Phantom is clearly bleeding, viscous and violently green like the bubbles of a lava lamp, clutching onto a limp shoulder that's missing an arm from the elbow down. Half his face is drenched in similar blood, the eye on the drenched side is closed — not because he can't see through the ectoplasm.

Danny's memories of that fight slowly come in a bit clearer. Right. He took a pole to the eye in that one. That had - hurt. A lot. Getting an eye gouged out usually does. It and the missing arm took hours to grow back.

He rubs his eye with his palm for no other reason than it itches.

The other ghost isn't untouched of any injury either, but he's not in a state of dismemberment like Phantom is.

Danny drops his gaze down at Bruce, whose sitting in his chair with his hands threaded together, looking so tense that Danny half expects to meet solid steel if he were to touch his back. His face is - blank. Terribly blank, with an intensity in his eyes that Danny doesn't see often.

He looks terribly distressed.

He opens his mouth, and finds that nothing comes out. His throat is thick with an ugly, tar-like feeling that makes his eyes sting. Kinda reminds him of when someone wraps their hands around your throat and presses. He closes his mouth, then tries again.

"B—" hhhhhh, "Buzz."

Finally Bruce looks at him, one hand slaps the space button on the keyboard, and the video pauses. His expression doesn't shift, but there's a weight in the lines of his face that reminds Danny of a set of weights sagging.

He looks quite like he's grieving something.

Bruce opens his mouth, his voice comes out terribly soft and heartbroken: "He looks like you."

Which is— a terrifying sentence in and of itself. One that makes Danny's legs shake and ignite his ragged, poison-chewed nerves alight with the need to run. An instinctive urge to deny, deny, deny.

How could he? He could say, that's a ghost, Bruce. I'm not a ghost. He could crack a joke, and ask, 'do I look dead to you?' or say something about how he knows that his parents studied ghosts, but that didn't make him one.

He could say that, and he could say it knowing full well that Bruce would see right through it. He'd probably let Danny too.

Danny closes his eyes. They sting, you see? So does his nose, right in the back like someone popped him in the face. And his throat is thick and gross and like someone stuck a spider, the big fat tarantula kind, right down into his esophagus.

He breathes in — through his mouth, because his nose stings and so it'd be best not to irritate it further with air — and it's terribly shaky and uneven. But it clears a pathway to his lungs big enough for him to say — whisper, really:

"You know, I think you're the first person to notice that."

[eshithepetty]

"Haha Dream BBQ is so random and incomprehensible" "did they take drugs to make this lol" "you're actually not meant to understand anything in this series it's ok" "Joel G just makes up stuff on the spot based on what would be funny" "it's just random for random's sake" "is this AI" "stop theorising, it's not that deep" SHUT UPPPPPPPPPP

[codecicle-archive]

I made a severe and continuous lapse in my judgement, and I don’t expect to be forgiven. I’m simply here to apologize

Inspiration

[sticks-stones-sonic-insanity]

Ok. Sonic 4. Metal Sonic and Amy. Sonic CD. Time Stones. Good and Bad futures. Time manipulation. All of that stuff. An idea, a concept if u will...

Agent Stone becomes the main antagonist of Sonic Movie 4 not out of a desire to take over the world, but in an attempt to use the Time Stones to save Robotnik from the explosion of the Ark.

"I already lost you once! I-! ...I can't lose you again." Half of that dialogue was the last words Stone got to speak to Robotnik.

If he knew there was a way how, he would make sure they never had to be.

[ruporas]

special operatives (silly interaction beneath read more)

[ID: Digital Art in color of Trigun Maximum, characters included are Wolfwood, Elendira, and Legato in a casual meeting situation. The piece consists of orangey yellow lighting and purple shadows. Wolfwood sits on the left side, facing Elendira who’s on the right. He’s seated on a plain wooden chair with one knee up and he’s holding the strap to his Punisher in his left hand while his right sits against his thigh, He has an irritated expression as he speaks to Elendira. Elendira is sitting in a fancier seat, her right arm rests against Wolfwood’s propped up knee, her left hand holds her suitcase. She’s sitting cross legged with an amused expression. Legato can be seen in the back at the center of the image in his mobile body case, one of his eyes shown to be glaring at Wolfwood. End ID]

[ID: Sketch, uncolored comic. Elendira says to Wolfwood, “I’m not telling you to dedicate yourself to him, but just accept the situation at hand. We could get along better if we were on the same page.” Wolfwood responds, “Don’t peg me me for an optimist. I’m not dumb. But, I’m also not going to just live in resignation. Plus, I don’t have any interest in getting along with ya.” Elendira coos, “Aw, you sure? I have a wonderful shoulder to cry on when the weak people you’re trying to protect eventually dies in the coming months. Though, I guess it’s fine. Someone like you might just die before then anyway...” She snickers in her hand while Wolfwood is speechless and just glares. Legato is faintly drawn in the back, glaring at Wolfwood, muttering “worthless” repetitively. End ID]

[four-is-the-best-number]

(having a thought) yknow i always think abt that moment where X says he gets invited to a lot of parties actually. considering his nature you'd almost think he isn't that social bc they're quite meek and docile but the thing is. a lot of characters like X because they are very friendly too. so it's interesting to me that X stays with Four despite them being fairly mean, when clearly other characters like them a lot. it wouldn't be hard for X to make new friends because pretty much everyone who they meet likes them. so... why do they stick around? sure, loyalty is probably one reason. but I almost wonder if X is drawn to Four for being someone who doesn't immediately treat them like this sweet, soft character.... Four is willing to be blunt towards them when no one else really will because of the way they view X. and I think that's part of the reason why X stays. Four's confidence is something they are trying to learn from and is something they slowly do gain more of.

and that goes for Four as well. X is everything Four struggles to be. both of them inspire the other to try and change and grow. they are both learning from each other and becoming more like the other as the show continues on. okay im done having thoughts now

[ghostbeam]

thinking a bit about soulmate aus and what happens to the people who have incredibly common words for their marks things like hi how are you or welcome in or nice to meet you

like what happens then, you go your whole life thinking you'll never meet the one or that everyone has the potential to be the one, and how could u possibly know even when you say your words back, your response to such normal everyday greetings can't be all that different from the very words on your skin