#but im gonna be brave! and read abt them!

[megumiifushiiguro]

soooo stsg fic recs?

[skitskatdacat63]

This is my personal crossover event of the century

[stealingpotatoes]

can we get a rundown on the anakin-raises-leia au? i’m totally in love with (read: obsessed with) it but i missed most of the context and i’m so curious!

are they coparenting? was it a parent trap style agreement to split the twins? is it temporary, until the war ends? who decided who gets which twin? did mustafar just never happen?

the answers to ur questions in short are: not really, arguably, absolutely, i did, and no!

in longer, the main thing you need to know for context is it's an Anakin-doesn't-turn-to-the-darkside-but-Palps-still-succeeds AU!

Anakin chooses not to try save Palpatine from the Jedi council and instead goes to Padmé's to angst abt the fact he might be losing her -- only to feel a very solid Other loss in the Force and see the temple up in flames ): he tries to go help but gets his shit kicked enough he leaves when Bail shows up

obi-wan and yoda both return to coruscant, obi-wan shows up to Padmé's to ask her hey do you know where Anakin is??? except Padmé's not there either bc after Sidious made his Big Speech anidala realised Anakin's totally a fugitive so they decided to Leave

i'm not 100% on what happens around here (lbr we all know my focus is the kids) but i'm currently thinking they nearly get caught or smthn, fight happens (??), Obi-wan gets there just in time to help thanks to Dormé snitching -- and Padmé goes into labour w the shock/stress

whatever exactly happens, Obi-Wan is there when they get Padmé to a medical station and the normal rots ending group unite. Padmé gives birth (keeping her will to live) and a question hangs heavy in the air: what are they supposed to do with the twins?

Anidala are too caught up in the joy of being parents to think about it, but they're quickly and forcibly snapped out of that when the Survivors all have a chat like canon. Yoda's the (brave) one to say they need to be apart because their force signatures would be too strong together and in the dire case Palps finds them, he could NOT take both. He's probs initially like they shouldnt even be kept w you two, Anakin's too powerful himself and Padmé you're too visible (while I imagine Bail and Obi-wan know their respective besties and are like king they are NOT gonna take that well)

and theyre right! Padmé, fresh out of like three of the top ten most harrowing experiences of her life, is like stfu u little green bitch im not losing my kids. but after some convincing she sees the need for her to remain in the senate and anakin's need to fight/run. she knows they can't fight the empire effectively together and she knows it's too dangerous to put the twins together. both parents want more than ANYTHING to be with their kids -- but they also don't want their kids growing up in a galaxy eaten by tyranny or being stolen by palps.

so they made the hardest goddamn decision of their lives and each take a twin (probably chosen on "anakin thought the baby'd be a girl/padme thought it'd be a boy" or smthn) and after some time planning their next moves, Padmé and Anakin are forced to go their separate ways to save the galaxy for and with their kids ): knowing the better they fight, the sooner they free the galaxy from the empire's clutches, the sooner they can reunite and be a family

[bamsara]

bam i just want u to know that this tidbit has been aggressively bouncing around the inside of my skull since reading it (esp after stream spoilers wahjfdhgsfsgd idk why im so nervous to share my theories but im gonna try n be brave abt it and start weeheee)

Narinder had plans.....whatever could they had been......

Im SO VERY interested in peoples theories and analyzations . just know that i am metaphorically scrambling at the door of your brain like sticking my little hands under the gap pssp pssp pssp I would like to hear them ALKHGLKHLKGHSLKD

[sohychocochips]

favorite fan — a triple s sohyun fanfic

image cr: pinterest

synopsis: you've always been a wav, since you can remeber and you've always had a huge crush on your bias, park sohyun, since you can remember

warning: im still a baby wav! so i don't know much about triple s and etc, still learning. but i saw there is only one fic abt sohyun here so i had to step up ♡♡ also, english is not my first language !!!! pls correct me if i type anything wrong !!!! thank youu ♡♡♡

dinamics: triple s idol sohyun x cute fan f!reader

info: so so much fluff and cute interactions + a little suggestive

start reading here:

you think you've never been that cheerful in your life, you're a fan of triple s since their debut and now you're gonna watch their first ever tour! isn't that cool? you lost a bit of your enthusiasm while waiting on the line tho, but you were happy your favorite group had so many fans supporting them. the stadium is full of people and you make sure that you ran enough to get a place close enough to see sohyun live well. you don't say it out loud, you think people are gonna find weird, even your friends, but you are romanticaly obsessed with sohyun. c'mon, who isn't !? but you're not obsessed in a weird way, you just love her so much and wants her to be so happy even if it's not if you. cause she would never choose a silly 18 years old to date, right? you didn't even know if she likes girls and you don't like assuming people's sexualities. while you distract yourself thinking how gorgeous she will be live, the concert starts. the intro was awesome! all 24 girls sing incredibly well live, and dance and rap well and of course are sooooo pretty. you can't take your eyes of sohyun, as always, and you didn't notice, but she noticed you, the only fan that was not recording. you know you're gonna miss the videos later but you want to enjoy the view without caring about camera angles. as you scream for her, she thinks you're just so cute. she also thinks you have such a beautiful smile and pretty makeup with a lot of blush, that makes you even cuter. she loved to know that you exist. the entire concert was amazing, and of course you used all your family's money to go on every single one of the concerts that tour, you're not rich, but your grandparents are, and sometimes the right thing is just taking advantage of that! ypu had so much fun in each one of them, even if they all had the same tracklist. and, can't skip that little fact: in the middle of the tour sohyun started interacting with you, she was always near you and talking to you and even asked for your phone to record a little, you were just soooo happy, the happiest you ever been. months have gone by and you still re watch that video everyday, especially today! after many tries and albums you got it, you're going to a fansign of the queens. it's just so fun talking to them, you just finished your 2 minutes with kotone and xinyu, almost the last members, but the last one was actually sohyun, you move to her space very nervous, you gulp.

"hello" she says, not looking at you yet. "wait, it's you! what's your name, darling?"

"hm, hello. it's y-y/n"

"eyyy, you were not that nervous with other members" she jokes and smiles. oh, that smile, you were hypnotized by it.

she gets your album, signs and draws or writes something else, whathever, her looks and sweetness with you are more important now.

"so, y/n, tell me a lil more about you" she asks flirty while taking your hands and massaging them. you look at her hands in yours and think you need to be brave, you only have this chance to talk to her and cause a good impression

"im 18 years old, i like to dye my hair, also bows and bunnies and cute things in gerenal and of course i love triple s" you're a little awkward, but you hear her saying "cute" in a low volume and laughing.

"it'll be little bunny then" she smirks

"hm?" you're lost in confusion

"you're nickname! think of one for me too!" why is she so flirty with you? you try to forget that, you're probably being too delulu. she must be like that with everybody

"your time is over" the staff says, being a little too harsh with you for sohyun's taste

while leaving, you can hear her saying "don't talk like that to her, she's such a good girl" and that made you so happy you almost screamed, but had to hold it in.

when you got home you remembered the sign, you were there for it! when you open your album on sohyun's page you have a surprise, a little text and a phone number. it says "love, you really like me, right? please send me a text soon! i'll be waiting, i trust in you, i'm sure you'll never share my number with anyone xx xxxx-xxxx"

you won't lie, you cry a little, keep looking at the paper thinking "how the fuck is that real?" and suddently "what if it's not real!?" then you remembered, she was waiting for you. you pick your phone on the maximum speed you can and type sohyun's number. add to contacts, talk to.

"hello!" you say

"hi! who is it?" she says

"it's y/n 🥺🥺 is this the right number 🥺🥺" you felt a little awkward

"little bunnyy" ok, it must be her

"you though on a nickname for me?"

"i like to call you sohy unnie"

"cute ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ"

"as expected from my little bunny"

hers? hers little bunny? you've never been hapier, laying on your bed, kicking your feet, because THE PARK SOHYUN called you her little bunny. you want to be hers so bad.

"yah, don't stop talking to me" she's a little possessive too?? oh my god! when will you two marry?

"im here, don't worry" you never know what to say around her, you get your favorite juice to make everything the most confortable the possible

"i can't be mad at you! cutie!"

"do you happen to want to go on a date with me?" you spill your juice.

PART 2 SOON ! THANKS FOR READING TILL THE END LOVE YOUU ♡♡

[youremyheaven]

AHEM. I WILL BEGIN MY INFODUMP ON THE FREAKINESS OF SOLAR MEN NOW. this is just a pt. 1 because idk how y'all will take this so um i'll just to do the most tame stuff rn.

to preface i'm a lunar woman down & a masochistic sub. that's relevant bc all of my exes are solar doms who happen to also just be doms in the bedroom TT. and i need y'all to remember that when you read this bc all of this is consensual & i dont want to paint it as otherwise because like i said i'm not here to slander them!

anyways so to start these men get off so much to psychological & physical domming of others. literally anything that falls into this category of domming they're into - roughing you up, degradation, wildly imbalanced power play etc.

the weirdest part abt it is that they can sense submission in others from the get-go. despite all my solar exes being doms surprisingly i've never met them off any bdsm dating sites/apps. i met them all in an organic very meet-cute kind of way and yet when we get into the relationship eventually and reflect on our early days like talking abt things like our 1st impressions they will alw admit they could sense that i was submissive from the jump. so that's another thing they can smell that on you immediately.

so i'm going to talk about my latest ex specifically bc i think he exemplifies what i'm most trying to get at here. he's a uphal moon, krittika asc, and pbp sun. and like all my other exes he was a dom too but he took it to lengths i had yet to seen till him.

1st of all solar men's sex drive is insane. mind you no joke i'm clinically a hypersexual myself but it's a lot trying to keep up with them omg. they constantly want it and will shamelessly go for it. it seems almost unconscious to them even (e.x. feeling you up mindlessly)? so with my last ex we were fucking like rabbits so much that it got to the point where i exclusively wore dresses and skirts around him because it was just easier. and we eventually agreed to have me forgo wearing anything underneath if we were hanging at his or my place tg because it was kind of like ... what's the point? we're just gonna end up rolling around with each other at some point today💀

that's why when you said that you love sex i felt so seen because im the same way. it quite literally feels like turning my brain off and i get so dopey happy and calm afterwards like it'll put me straight to sleep. i get rly whiny and sad if i go even a day without soooo stay strong sister you will get through this

anyways a lot of semi-public sex too with solars. like in the car before events, in bathrooms if we can sneak away from said events etc. and they get turned on really easily like it's just not difficult to get them in the mood if they're not already in the mood. solar men also rly like the whole daddy/dad thing. you can literally see their whole face perk up when you acknowledge them in that regard. i cant speak on ddlg specifically because that's not for me personally but in my experience with my exes they've explained the whole daddy/dad kink as just feeding into their powerplay kink so that's how i've come to understand it for them.

the last thing i'll touch on for now (that is if i ever decide to be brave enough to continue sharing with y'all ummmm) is impact play! they seem to like this kind of thing. but not in the way i've seen it manifest for other naks like not in the same way it's depicted in 50 shades of grey for e.x. - in fact i think that guy is a mercurial so def different. solar men are a lot more fun with it. like when they spank you, gag you, slap you etc. it's not rly because they're trying to discipline you or quote on quote teach you a lesson or punish you. it's just bc it's fun to them to see you in that position and it thus feeds into their ego (which is i think at the root of why they like the kind of sex they like. it's an ego thing ultimately) - and personally i'm the type i'm in a giggling fit when i'm getting roughed up like that so it's truly just two ppl having fun and getting off in a weird grossish way one another.

thank you for sharing this 😳I miss sex more than ever and now I'm also intrigued by the idea of banging a Solar man 😳😤

[petrichorium]

fandom spaces are so skewed with regard to pregnancy and parenthood it is all one note of course a baby makes life better and everything will go great and even if you want to be a parent that kind of fic gets old and i know there are a lot of people who never want kids so where are the lets get an abortion fics? the hold my hand and tell me im brave and awesome while i get an iud fics? the you getting a vasectomy is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me fics? i would love love love to read stuff like that and i have a bunch of half baked fics that will never ever be seen because im the worst in the world at writing dialogue

Yeah I made a lil post about it but in most romance circles having children is portrayed as just. Part of the happy ending. And that puts a bad taste in my mouth obviously because to me that’s literally HORRIFYING and society at large thinks I’m a selfish pig for it when for the vast majority of women motherhood means giving up who you are for the sake of your husband’s precious little progeny. And like!!! if u wanna fantasize I’m not gonna shame u obviously u can write what u want and that’s perfectly fine but u also don’t get to silence me and my fantasies when I talk about them. I get to write what I want and I get to have a reaction to trends and it really is not about a single person ever so like get over yourself if ur taking it personally. (Literally not directed at anyone but the anons who consistently jump in my inbox when I talk abt this stuff)

Anyway I don’t plan to write abt much of this stuff (tho admittedly the initial gojo post began as a let’s get an abortion post that I started writing and then… decided I didn’t have the spoons for today) but I do have a bunch of “no children talk” fics in the works bc I think that’s v fun to explore!!!

[torialefay]

It’s so hard to know how to think about this stuff. For context I am on the side of Palestine in this horrific nearly year-long massacre… I don’t think companies should have policies disallowing folks from speaking their povs would be thing A in my mind rn. Thing B is that making the genocide skz/Chris’ problem is unfair when they cannot control this and…. Are people coming at other groups or is it just skz bc they’re a hot topic or bc that’s the major crowd im in?? Like if you’re gonna demand it let’s demand it of the industry and not put all the pressure on one man… I understand wanting celebs to take a stance though, to encourage the rest of us to do so as well. I think it would be the right and best thing to do. However thing C coming off of that point is… even I am scared of losing my job if i speak out. I work as a receptionist and i would lose my job and my livelihood if I started talking to patients walking into the clinic about my personal views and especially abt something so heated. I’m not saying it’s right but I’m saying to try and put yourself in his shoes… there are many incredible and brave activists who have no doubt risked so much more than just their 9 to 5 but for many of us it is not something we can risk or even something we want to risk… idk i feel like people try to make celebs act like politicians. I do think they should speak up but i don’t necessarily fault someone who finally reached their passion career goals if they are contractually obligated to stay quiet and they don’t want to lose what they’ve built for themselves. I feel like i could keep going but it would sound insane and rambly… idk…

i appreciate hearing your views honey 🫶🏼

i think what we can all agree on is that idols should be allowed to speak on whatever they deem is morally ethical & could be helpful in some way. the murder of tens of thousands of people & destroying the lives of millions more is inexcusable. i hope that in the future, the companies can undergo reform & that idols will have the right to speak out on these things. but at the end of the day, it is kpop... which hasn't really been known for it's ethical or authentic practices 🫠

friends, this is the last ask i'm gonna post/answer. pls know that i've read your messages & they are very kind. again, anon just misunderstood what i was talking about, so pretty please no hate toward them & any hate won't be posted. let's all do better okay love yall tho 🫶🏼

[rebuke-me]

*shoots at your feet like a cowboy* talk about deere. whore. - @pigeonwit

(dancing like a chicken with its head cut off) don't mind if i do

ur gonna get me talking abt the idea of deere playing jack and davey in newsies bc it makes me gnaw on both ideas like a dog toy

jake playing jack who has never played a big role in a show before (unless you count that one time in freshman year where he read for mercutio in english class but that doesnt count) and absolutely freaking the FUCK out about it. relating a little too hard to the idea of being Everything for Everyone all the time, being the brave one who keeps his head under pressure. going a little too all out during santa fe because he doesn't know how else to deal with the concept of oh god i also have no clue what i'm doing here, i don't want to be stuck here forever. jake who plays off the fact that he cried onstage by saying that he just taught himself how to stage cry (he didn't)

jeremy playing davey and having INTENSE impostor syndrome, because why is he picked for a big role? but there's something so personal about the way that davey acts, the one who wants to have all the answers but falls flat sometimes because his heart is too damn big for his brain, and vice versa. jeremy who wants really, really badly to live up to everyone's expectations, to keep his head, to not let his emotions get the best of him.

also i think they'd bring horridly covered up homosexual energy to the two of them. u watch them and you're like are they about to hit each other or kiss. the answer is the latter.

(also if u like this concept im doing a shameless plug of never acting at all by urs truly)

[rarepairnation]

LOLL i was gonna start like ‘hey there im denethor anon’ but u beat me to it. SIMILAR MINDS. Haha i read one of ur fics, was immediately smitten & was like i MUST follow them. (I’m glad i did, love the vibe of ur blog and the Flavour of ur opinions.. TASTY) so im a more recent follower but i’m gathering younger you weren’t a fan of denethor, huh? Can’t say i blame you. PJ certainly made some Decisions. he was like how do i convert a complex character into The most loathsome creature ever. He really did our fav gondorians sooo dirty. I literally watch through those scenes SEETHING in rage.

So I’ve been Thinking about denethor and faramir and nothing else for two days. like i am a denethor girlie. in my mind. spiritually. haven’t posted much abt him on tumblr. but nowww. you’re exactly right, ‘denethor Is a good leader…[insert ur paragraph here]’ yes yes yes you get it. listen denethor was a prideful, angry, resentful man but he was also valiant, resilient and noble. He guarded his city, alone (which takes GUTS, again, he was a badass!!), so well, for literal YEARS that Sauron was fearful/wary of him. i wish people were more understanding of him. he’s such an interesting character there’s so much to explore there. as you said the duty-vs-love, the weapon-first-person-next of it all. the layers. denethor as a weapon. denethor as a symbol of both sword/shield. AAHHH

BUT i think some people dismiss him hate him bc he is the mirror (the ugly side? if that makes sense) of humanity, of us. we ought to show him some compassion tho ‘cause havent u ever been taken under the darkness of life? felt the world slipping away & struggle to keep up w it? dont u ever feel hopeless? that things will never change, no matter what u do? DO YOU HAVE FEARS HAVE YOU FACED THE MONSTERS? WERE YOU ALONE, SCARED AND HOPELESS? AND HAVENT YOU MADE MISTAKES IN YOUR GRIEF AND PUSHED PEOPLE AWAY?? THAT’S what denethor experienced. He was described as a leader & a learned one at that for christ sake. He knew that evil was awaiting him and his kin and his people! he saw his future. yet. yet he soldiered on until. war declared. his sons killed (or so he believed). that’s when hope abandoned him. what was the point of staying alive now anyway? Evil was upon them, they would surely be tortured w a fate worse than death, so why should he not end the pain and kill himself? he fought the war against Time, Evil and The Dark Enemy himself and WON. he was a brave man indeed, to have fought these dark forces so much stronger than him. but he finally lost the war against Despair (and Grief), the cruelest of them all. imma cry 😭😭😭 no no no u don’t understand he didnt give up hope, hope abandoned him he- [GUNSHOT] (i don’t know how much of this even made sense lmao) anyway,

Faramir <333. do i even have to say anything about faramir? he’s the specialest little guy i love himm 🥰. On god i am one step away from rereading lotr just for him (plsss dont tempt me finals are in less than a fortnight) his and denethor’s relationship like u described my godddd XDD. fucked up familial relationships MY BELOVED. i am feral about this trope. the resentment… the jealousy… the mirror image of each other… the you’re-the-same-like-me-and-i-hate-that… mmmhm. hey do u ever think about 12 year old faramir admiring his father much the same way he did boromir and wishing he would grow up to be just like him? and do you ever think about 28 year old faramir knowing that he’s more like his father than anyone else and hating that? hating him? i do.

I’ll stop now lol im afraid my coherency has diminished by now. also sorry sorry for replying so late i am preparing for my exams. but rest assured i WILL be Rotating faramir around in my brain :3

hiiii denethor anon LOL this is the greatest ask ive ever received. every day i endeavour to provide only THE juiciest of opinions. aka this is my diary and you all are subjected to it. anyway im so glad you liked my fic i would love to know which one you read! i got into lotr via the films when i was super young so my past opinions were def coloured by The Choices. i have learned and grown since then<3 i was watching the book-to-film analysis vids on the extended edition dvds a couple weeks back and it made me so mad that i had to get up and turn off the tv. did you know there are other character options besides 'paragon of virtue' and 'one dimensional villain'...truly kind of a "nice dichotomy idiot! now what lies outside of it" situation. A Waste Of Your John Noble, To Be Honest. idk i still hold the films very close to my heart but the choices...i will simply respectfully disagree. and dont even get me started on faramir we WILL be here all night. another time. i have denethor thorongil situationship-fic to write. (i am serious about that) (i was simultaneously playing it 100% straight serious AND kind of joking about them. i shouldve known better. well.........we are so in it.)

you are so real for this. i have ALSO been Thinking about denethor and faramir and nothing else for days. weeks, even. sorry to everyone coming to the faramir goes to rivendell au for faramir and the fellowship the first 10k is literally just Keeping Up With The Stewards. we'll get there. i Will blame you for the impetus for my recent denethorposting on main but also encourage you to also do this. do whatever you want forever<3 nooo but straight up...guy who has so much strength and will that The Lord Of All Evil wouldnt contend directly against him and had to bring out the big palantir guns to bring him down. and if he'd not lost both of his sons i mean...who knows what would've happened. sometimes your sons ARE the only thing keeping you from killing yourself Do It For Them-style and lets be real that is a valid coping method. (i don't have an answer for that one and boy oh boy do i wish i did. it is going to become a massive thorn in my side in, oh, 70k or so when i hit rotk. well...i will blow up that bridge when i get to it.)

im actually putting a read more in this time bc this post broke a thousand words. continue at your own risk. there IS also faramirposting at the end here i promise.

just imagining denethor leading the siege of minas tirith. um. now stay with me here...riding out with imrahil's sortie. STAY WITH ME HERE. what do you think the livery of a steward going to war looks like. jesus christ i need to go lay down. yes i purposefully placed the read more before i decided to go momentarily horny on main. its also lowkey very vague au spoilers. sorry everyone but denethor IS canonically hot and we need to acknowledge it. Anyway.

denethor as a weapon denethor as both a sword and a shield...i am chewing glass for real. you GET IT. god i love person-as-weapon metaphor soooo much. When The Iconography Is Getting A Little Too Real. denethor as gondor, as her vanguard and standard-bearer and. i am straight up frothing at the mouth. all he ever wanted was to be a gentle lord in a time of peace.....and death was his reward...Sorry For Stealing The Fingon Death Quotation But I'm Right. so much of his behaviour and the strain on his relationships with his sons and all that is sooo...informed by the fact that to cope with having to be lord of a country at war he had to be so so unbending. he couldn't allow himself to waver, ever, not even for love, not even to save his sons.

did you know he was 21 when sauron returned. pov you are 21 years young and you have been alone all your life you are the steward's only son you are his strange numenorean heir and no one else has the LITERAL PSYCHIC POWERS AND VISIONS that you do and you have had to contend with that, alone. master your own mind, alone. learn how the shape of politics and lordship and life bends around you. and the dark lord the enemy who brought down your forebears has now set his eye on your lands again. Jesus Christ. How Would You Fucking Deal. sorry i would have a nervous breakdown and go and live in the desert. Man. TWENTY ONE? LIKE ME? most days i feel like a teletubby with a job and a credit card. if you scale it to account for numenorean lifespan inflation i mean i don't know how the math works but like. i bet it comes out to being like. 17. HELLO? basically everyone i know was barely a person at 17. the dark lord of all evil and he's MY problem to deal with?

i mean exactly. haven't we all been prideful and angry and resentful. haven't we all been there. once again [pippin voice] let's all understand poor denethor a little better. havent you ever been taken under the darkness of life [your paragraph here] yeah exactly what you said. the idea that he fucking won the war against the darkness and only lost to despair is..........so much! goodbye i have to go cry!

faramir, me AND fate's most special precious little guy....oh captain my captain....exactly. Exactly. i cant morally endorse a reread right this second but like. After. make it through finals and then it is Faramir Time. (and good luck! you got this!) tactical smartass little bitch master of both man and beast wizard's pupil (complimentary) star and hope and jewel of minas tirith knight in shining armour...my beloved. the idea that like faramir as presented, as the diplomat, as the scholar, as the numenorean, was supposed to be the one to go to rivendell...it haunts me. where is denethor sends the right son to do the right job.txt. he is gondor's no. 1 horse girl he is better suited to the wild than the battlefield he has read every sindarin text in the library he KNOWS the story of elrond and elros. he is literally telepathic and psychic and prophetic. thinking about him interacting with elrond and galadriel (and every other elf. but them in particular) makes me feel deranged. its very...self taught dnd wizard meets guy who went to wizard school energy. he's insane.

YEAH ITS CRAZY THAT THEYRE THE SAME GUY. it's. boromir gets to be boromir but faramir has to be denethor.txt. gracious and lordly as a king of old...now who is consistently referred to as noble and kingly...that a younger faramir would've looked up to...yeah. the perpetuation of denethor's second-best complex. i have a whole nother post in the drafts about that i CANT get into it here but jesus christ men who are NOT breaking the cycle. they even look the same. i mean 37 year old faramir as steward is 100% the spitting image of his father and that makes me....genuinely fucking insane actually. i mean like older councillors are doing double takes every time he walks by. i mean like sometimes people call him by the wrong fucking name. WOW where did that come from. the complex that that would give him...hello? turning this over inside my brain at WARP speed.

you are not late at all lol we are leaving little letters in each other's mailboxes to read when we have the time. i hope your exams go well!!! there will be more Faramir And Denethor Hours soon<33

[rpfisfine]

when I saw "reenact" I said surely not, how? it's not possible, so many of them are straight-up porn. (unless there's others on wattpad, I wouldn't know I don't touch wattpad with a ten foot pole that's where I draw the line) then I spared a thought for you, because your fics are so important to me so if you go down I'm doomed. I have so many thoughts n worries

- 🌵

Yeah yeah thats exactly what i was thinking too like even just logistically theres just genuniely no way like actually straight up legitimately zero way. i just googled the fics on wattpad to find out the situation bc honestly nothing can harm me more at this point and it turns out its just cross-posted fics from ao3 of just one author (kenorkia) so theres actually way less stuff on wattpad which is. i guess good for the humble fic reader but insanely bad for the rest of us and especially me bc that means that weve got like nowhere to hide now LOL. but oh my god wait maybe that means theres still hope... maybe theyll just read the wattpad ones even though there's just one fic with two short chapters and thats it but its true that theres no sex in either of them. but that would actually be huge ngl like that would mean us completely dodging the bullet but somehow i dont think thats where the breadth of aleksa's deeply twisted fanfic knowledge ends which is just goddamn like pretty extremely goddamn. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! im being extremely brave and choosing not to delete my entire ao3 account and tumblr account and life even though that was literally my initial reaction upon getting the fateful ask bc i did work hard on the fics after all and i still couldnt be happier abt the response ive received on them and im so happy that ppl continue to appreciate them we will get through this guys we r just gonna have to stay silly. the world is made of pudding

[itsjaywalkers]

omg laurie hi i just saw my tag i love it sm😭😭 (im insane commute nonnie btw)

also, bc i like explaining this, the reason for my two hour commute to class is that im Very Stupid. so what happened is that i did a little two month long internship start of last semester. the office was literally in a whole other town but i didn't have many classes so i decided to just get an apartment in that town and travel for my two-three classes per week. and that was ok. but then the internship came to an end and i found out (get ready for this) i accidentally signed a seven month lease!! idk what even happened but it's not hard to believe that my landlord told me this and i just had my head in the clouds. but anyway i was like ok cool i'll just pay the fine n move out but my best friend said that i should just do the commute this whole semester and get a job at some office again next semester (we're only allowed one internship per sem) and i was like 'ok😝 i'll do that😝😝 with no prior knowledge of my schedule for next semester🤪 im so goofy aha' and then i spent the next two month doing that (which was fun tbh. i didn't have many classes and i used the commute to not have thoughts) but then BAM this sem starts and i don't have the time for interships bc of my schedule!! however. i already lived here for like 4 months now. its like 3 more months. do i really want to just Give Up and let all the time i wasted be for nothing AND give my landlord money??? i dont Think so. which is why. out of sheer stubbornness i take two hour routes to classes 5 days a week

anyways sorry for all the yapping i just think its so funny!! (i live in delusion) but also nothing happens!! ive been thinking about that all the time. im telling you its occupied so many of my thoughts i'd sign another 7 month lease thinking about nothing happens jeggy they're my love<3 i've been talking abt them sm last week a friend gave me her jacket to sit on (was wearing white) and i said "you know who'd do this" n she said "please don't start again"

again sorry for the length of this but also have a great week!!! praying for nothing happens jeggy and the ppl they're torturing (sirius) by being themselves!!! <3

hi darling!! i'm so happy to be hearing from u <3 and i'm glad u like ur silly lil tag hehe u earned it!!

this story is . so very insane to me but at the same time i can't even judge u bc i'd also choose to endure 2 hour long commutes out of sheer stubborness BUT ALSO bc i'd refuse to pay a fine. i made a mistake with the lease and i'm dealing with the consequences but i'm not . wasting any more money . still i'm so sorry u gotta deal with this for 3 more months, just thinking about how much time u must lose on public transport every week is making me wanna cry. ur so very brave babe i swear. at least it's only temporary, and once this semester is over you'll be able to move out and hopefully get a place a lot closer to ur classes so u can chill a little. honestly this feels like something that'd happen to me so u have all my support and appreciation UR DOING GREAT DARLING!!!

don't apologise!! it was very fun to read indeed and i love getting these updates on ur life + ur crazy commutes. and i've been thinking about them A Lot too, both them and oby jeggy have been occupying all of my mental space and i swear they're all driving me insane. AND LISTEN james would. for reg he so would. sorry to ur friend bc she sounds very done but i'm on ur side always and that's definitely very nothing happens james coded!!! IT HAD TO BE SAID!!!

STOP APOLOGISING BABE U AND UR ASKS ARE SUPER LOVELY thank u very much and i'm also wishing u a great week!! u deserve it!! and i'm also praying for all of them bc . they're gonna need it lmao

[moonrisecoeur]

last ask of the day i promise but like

man

how do you muster the courage to just horny post about leon to the world bc god !! i wanna be involved w the fandom and talk abt my bbg leon but i am also terrified of just. the only other ppl who like the same stuff thinking im weird or something. or like comparing myself to others? cause like god yall are SO good at writing?!?! ur thoughts!! huge. i am gen so insecure that i cant match up quality wise w everyone else. like sjdhjskfkskfnne. ty for ur time btw ur way too sweet <3

-🐕

actually do not promise that. keep talking to me. i’m literally begging you and i don’t even like doing that-

if i’m being honest!! it’s not a courage thing i genuinely like to think about it like this…

i’m going to say what i’m thinking and people are either going to like it or not. i can make the concious choice to change what i am writing to fit what other people want or not do that. both are acceptable and understandable. sometimes u want people to read ur stuff and you want to see the follower count go up and you want to make friends and you want interactions and likes and reblogs. and sometimes you genuinely just want to say something or write something u know no one is going to care about. to me, it’s not about being brave or courageous. it’s just understanding that it’s okay to be weird, it’s okay to like weird things, but you’re not weird for liking unconventional things. ur literally just some dude. who is gonna be mad at u for wanting to stick ur dick into something u know?

there is no need to be insecure the people that i’ve met on re tumblr have been SO nice and so welcoming and amazing i promise no one is going to critique ur grammar or quality. people look for concepts they like and words that point out to them, whether or not it’s amazing quality (WHICH I KNOW IT WILL BE) doesn’t matters as much.

[swingstep]

Since a lot of people seemed interested... here’s a Ratswap AU post!

All the info will be under the cut since there’s, frankly, a lot of information. But for now: a synopsis!

Ratswap is a MRD roleswap AU! The basic swaps are Mad Rat with Rat God and Heart with Mimolette! The rest... are probably best to be read for yourself! Things get a lil weird, not every event is 1:1 per character! With that out of the way... here we go!

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Hat Rat (aka swap!Rat God) is a perfectly normal pet rat living in a perfectly normal house with a little girl. She doesn’t have contact with much of anyone other than the girl and her pet cat who also lives there, but she’s pretty much on her own. Except for her imaginary friend, Mimolette!

But one day, she gets taken into the vet for a procedure. She’s not sure for what or for why, but once she gets there she starts, frankly, freaking out. Being stuck in a little cage surrounded by strangers with masks and bright lights and sharp objects... it was a nightmare. She didn’t know these people-- what did they want with her? 

It’s just before the operation starts that she hears a voice tell her to listen to her heart, put her paws on her chest, and make a wish. And, miraculously, something clicks-- and she opens her eyes back at the beginning of the day again! Turns out, this weird guy that calls himself “Mad Rat” was the one who helped her, and with a little convincing (but mostly just her being curious anyway,) she decides to leave her cozy life to see what really lies out there on the city skylines! So its an adventure with one rat, one imaginary heart friend, and one emo boy who just kinda showed up one day but they’re totally friends! :)

And Hat basically just... gets into trouble. She loves seeing the outside world for the first time but has no idea how it works, which leads to her just barely avoiding getting herself hurt or killed. Multiple times. To the chagrin of her companions. 

...Even though Mad Rat is kind of egging her on sometimes, He thinks its funny.

Mad Rat is treated as this "cool guide figure" who Totally knows what the outside world is like (he doesn’t.) and Mimolette is the very exhausted voice of reason (who is glad her friend is having fun but Please look before you cross the street please they’re begging you Hat pl--) 

At some point, Hat stumbles into a group of rats in an alley and decides to go say hi! She’d never met any other rats before, so she was pretty excited (though her companions seemed rather antsy at the idea.) It was quickly revealed that these rats weren’t exactly the friendliest, talking strangely in circles before suddenly seeming to panic at the sight of her and lashing out. Being small and slippery, she manages to scoot away before tripping and stumbling into a storm drain, throwing them off her trail. 

---

Hat seemed vaguely miffed about “the gall of those guys >:/” while Mad Rat advises she keep away from other rats, as they’re all “kind of assholes anyway.” He doesn’t seem to like them very much. Hat, despite the unintended tumble, actually is very excited to explore the sewers, despite the fact that they seem to be flooding just slightly. Mimolette isn’t exactly thrilled, but doesn’t stop her, coming along anyway.

Along the way, Hat begins hearing things distantly in the tunnels. Mad Rat begins ribbing her, suggesting it’s some sort of Monster or Ghost, which Hat and Mimolette protest to-- but... the noises had to come from somewhere, right..? They eventually reach the deepest parts of the sewers when Hat’s paranoia reaches its peak. There, they encounter the source. 

It starts with quiet echoes of Hat’s words, then piercing eyes in the dark. Soon, the form grows in size and volume, before its entire form makes itself apparent: a phantasmal form of writhing claws and limbs shambling towards them as it takes an almost feline form, the echo almost a bellow as it barrels towards the group. They Decide It’d Be A Good Idea To Run.

After a rather terrifying chase scene, the group finally makes their way out of the sewers. Mimolette is especially concerned (considering they were the only one who couldn’t see the ghost,) but Hat refuses to acknowledge anything that had just happened beyond “Haha! That was scary ! :)” Mimolette is starting to get pretty worried, but Hat seems to be mostly distracted– especially since Mad Rat seems to be actively taking the lead. They cant really do much, so Mimolette follows along and tries to keep an eye on things. They can't shake the feeling that something's on Hat's mind, though..

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Eventually, the group heads to a nearby rooftop as the day seems to come to an end, watching the sun set for the first time, collectively. It’s a very lovely scene together, at least until they ask Hat what she thinks. She seemed to be mostly at a loss for words... before she blacks out.

...The clock winds back. Hat wakes up back on the windowsill of her old home. It’s revealed that Hat just… died. Right there. And time rolled back to the start of the day again. Mad Rat explains that her heart gave out on her, and he had to turn back time to stop it. Mimolette quickly begins freaking out about her friend dying, and Hat seems to be processing it, before she simply goes “So we get to do it all over again! :D” Mad Rat cheers her on for a Positive Mental Attitude™ before Hat runs off again, leaving Mimolette confused and concerned.

It isn't for a while that Mimolette decides to speak up, noticing that Hat had been incredibly spacey and flippant through the entire journey, refusing to even acknowledge her own fucking death. Hat shoots back that everything was fine, and that none of it was really that big of a deal, that it wasn't worth interrupting their time together. And Mimolette decides to stand firm, refusing to let Hat ignore the problem any longer. If they wanted to keep going like this, she'd have to get through them first. And for Hat, if it was a fight they wanted... well, it was a fight they were gonna get.

In the end, Hat manages to come out on top, but... the entire time, Mimolette would not stop talking. poking holes in her worldview. How it was weird that, all of a sudden, this guy showed up and convinced her to just leave. How she was seeing things, with the ghost in the sewers, or the “nightmares” in the streets.

...How she was completely ignoring how her own health was suffering, in favor of literally anything else. Because Mimolette could tell that something was wrong. They were her heart, and they could feel it coming even if Hat didn't want to face it. At its core, Hat was dying, and it was Mimolette's fault.

And hat couldn't argue with them. So... she didn't. She didn't like the conversation anymore. It wasn’t fun anymore. It was never fun. So Hat decided not to think about it anymore. Mad Rat was waiting, They had places to be. Mimolette didn't have the energy to argue anymore, so... they stayed quiet, and let her go.

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Hat wasn't very talkative after that. Mad Rat just took the lead deciding where to go, what to see. Hat never brought up what'd happened. It was like it never happened. It wasn't until afterwards that things started to become slightly more clear, When they noticed a commotion on the roads.

As it turned out, Hat wasn't the only one to leave home that day. The little girls cat, Jack, noticed her departure and became worried, slipping outside and wandering the city to look for her. And cats aren't exactly as good at rats at slipping away from the dangers of a new place-- which becomes painfully obvious when they learn about how Jack met his untimely end looking for her on the busy streets. 

Mad Rat insists they keep going, saying that it was a shame, but it wasn't their issue anyway. But Hat couldn't shake this deep seated feeling of guilt. That what happened was her fault. That she knew something was wrong, That she knew it couldn't have been that easy-- that she knew that ghost was familiar for a reason. So, Hat takes things into her own paws, and turns back the clock.

 At the end of it, Hat manages to save him. Glad to see her, Jack offers to carry her back home to safety, but she backs away quickly. She doesn't explain, but... she just needs a minute. And... she runs away.

Making her way to the rooftops, Hat sits in silence before Mimolette appears again, concerned. And... hat rat lets her walls down. Because deep down, she’s fucking terrified. Of all of this. She was excited to have her friends, excited to see the world, finally, but... suddenly, everything was so real. All she wanted was to finally live the way she wanted with the people she loved after so long of just living so shallowly, away from the people with their sharp objects and bright lights and medical masks, and just... really truly be free. 

But she couldn't. She always knew she couldn't. Because knowing what she did, knowing what Mimolette told her... they all couldn't live in this situation. Mimolette was killing her, and she knew this, but that operation would take them away from her. She’d known the whole time. She could feel it coming too-- she just couldn’t bear to think about it, couldn’t bear to think about what it meant. She couldn’t bear to consider a life without her closest friend. So... she didn't. She kept following the cycle, kept seeing all she could, just so she wouldn't have to face a reality where Mimolette was taken away from her. Because what would she have then?

She couldn't deflect anymore, and Mimolette was the only one who would and could understand. Mimolette was the only one who would truly Listen. She couldn't take the truth even when it laid itself bare in front of her, when it bit back after she ignored it. Because even after she lashed out at them, deep down, it was all because she couldn't take hearing a goodbye from her own friend. She couldn't stand that Mimolette was so accepting of it. She couldn't stand that they were so willing to let her go that easily.

But... it wasn't really "being let go" at the end of it. They didn't fight because Mimolette didn't want to live-- they fought because Mimolette wanted, so desperately, despite themselves, that they wanted her to Live. And Hat couldn't accept that. She still couldn't. But she'd spent long enough ignoring the person who'd given their everything for her. After so long of talking together, of cheering them up, after painstakingly insisting that Mimolette was her friend, no matter how "real" they told themself they were-- Mimolette had made the choice to save her. and Hat would do anything to let that wish come true.

---

So... they go back. Jack was waiting right where they left him, waiting for her to come back. She'd made her choice-- she'd have to face her future head on. And... time stops.

Because there was one person who hadn't stated their claim-- one person who, after everything, just couldn't let it go. Mad Rat reveals his true nature.

Mad Rat was a parasite. He couldn't live on his own. His life revolved around the consumption of others, An endless cycle that he just couldn't bear. So, he just decided not to. He'd live the way he wanted to-- and he finally found someone who would share his dream, who he could finally live through. And it was fun! He'd gotten to see so much, to do so many things-- but after everything, here she was, throwing it all away. Because if she went home, if the operation went through, it would be the end of him too. And he couldn't have that. He'd thought Hat had finally chosen his side after her spat with her little friend, but she just went and threw everything he did for her back into his face. And he was pissed. 

They wanted to mess with his happy ending? They wanted to make him into a villain? He'd show them a fucking villain. So, for the first time, truly tapping into his abilities as this parasite, and give them one good fight-- vs the Phantom Sun. But, despite everything, despite how airheaded and dumb she played herself out to be-- Hat wasn't going to take this. Being betrayed by someone she called a friend... she didn’t have the energy for sulking anymore. She was fucking pissed. He wanted to mess with her? With the wishes of her friend? She'd show him what she was really capable of.

---

Despite the odds, through the power of a spoken promise between a rat and her heart, they overcame the impossible. Against the rage of the parasite, against the fury of the sun, Mimolette and Hat Rat reigned victorious. And at the end of their battle in the mindscape, Hat blacks out... and awakens to see Jack carrying her home, concerned at her sudden fainting spell. Mad Rat was nowhere to be seen. They were going home. 

Jack couldn't take them the whole way they came-- he'd have to find another way while she went back on her own. She'd made it that far, she would be fine. And so, just the two of them, Hat and Mimolette begin the trek back home. One last journey. Hat still wasn't ready, but... a promise was a promise. But as they closed in on their old home, things get... hard. 

Hat's vision swims again, and once more everything fades to black. Because Mad Rat wasn't done yet. He wasn't willing to let go that easily. He wasn't willing to give up that easily on his own life. If he had to take things into his own hands, he would. And Hat Rat was furious. This guy really thought he could play with her life, mess with the things she cared about without consequences? She was just as willing to go down fighting as he was. And if it was a fight he wanted, it was a fight he was gonna get.

And it wasn't easy. Mad Rat quite literally fought with every fiber of his being, pulled no punches, used every single one of the fears he knew she had in order to strike her down. But... she couldn't be kept down that easily. She never could. After all, she wasn't just fighting for herself anymore. She had someone to fight for. This wasn't just for her, not even remotely. 

But Mad Rat made the sole mistake of thinking he could stand in the way of her friend's final wish. And what he didnt know was ultimately his downfall: Hat wasn't some dumb useless house pet that could just be squished and be over it. Because after all the time they’d spent together, Hat understood him just as well. She knew all of his tricks. and that was what gave her the edge. And... she pushed through. He just couldnt keep up with her anymore. 

Mad Rat was defeated, but... he still couldn't let go. He had nothing left, but he still couldn't let go. He couldn't understand why she was so willing to so blindly follow into a point of no return. He couldn't understand why she was so willing to just lose everything just like that. They could've just kept going, exploring the world together, that same idyllic day, over and over. He couldn't understand-- he... he wasn't ready to go yet. And Hat hears this, and it all clicks into place. She understood him. Because at their core, they were the same, once. Unable to face forward, unable to let go of this unsustainable dream that their problems just weren’t there, This deep seated selfishness. 

And Hat sees this... and turns away. It wasn't up to her to fix him. It wasn't his choice to make. If he still thought that he could do what he wanted with her life... well, there was no hope reasoning with him. Their journey wasn’t over. His was.

---

So... they leave the final hallucination, make their way back to where the story began. The day was coming to a close, and they could both feel it. Her steps grew uncertain, focus wavering. Hat stumbles back to her cage, her energy finally giving out on her, that deadline closing in. But she was where the humans could find her-- that was what mattered. She could hear them coming. Things weren’t in her hands anymore. As her consciousness faded in and out, Mimolette appeared one final time to wait out the last of their time together. Hat couldn't respond to them, but they knew she could hear them. And... they just talked. 

Talked about their time together, how much they enjoyed spending time with her. how much she changed their fate-- even knowing that Mimolette wasn’t "real" like she was, Hat still fought with her entire being to let Mimolette see themself as a person-- someone that was cared for. And after all their time together, they could really feel it. They knew, they understood, and they hoped that Hat Rat could feel it from them as well. As the humans came in and prepared to take hat away, as the last of Hats consciousness hung on, Mimolette gave a final wave.

"Thanks for everything. it was fun." 

And everything after that was a blur. Movement, lights, dulled sound-- she couldn't comprehend it all, but just as quickly as it started.. she was back in her cage. Alone. Quiet. It was over. And she lay there. The quiet was enough to tell her what she needed to know... but it didn't stop her from wanting to call out. She knew she wouldn't get an answer. but.. through the quiet, someone else made their presence known. Jack had been waiting nearby, wanting to check on her. and... Hat let him. Because even though they'd never acknowledged each other before, even though he would never truly understand, he was the closest thing to someone who could remember-- and he knew what she did for him. Even if it wasn't the same, she could move forward with a new bond, a new friend. It’s what Mimolette would’ve wanted, after all.

[transxfiles]

the constant struggle between leaders of diversity-based clubs and their faculty advisors

[pepprs]

ok u know what im gonna say it. stuff like humans of new york and chicken soup for the soul is the coolest shit in the whole world and honestly my dream job is like . going around and collecting those kinds of stories and finding creative ways 2 share them w other ppl like that 😔