#but if I did do videos I might look into it; would be kind of nice to be able to say 'it's not what I'd do; but he's a broke technique'
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How would the LADS men react to their MC being really sweet and soft spoken but become toxic during video games (screaming, cursing out players, laughing when they lose)
Crash Out
You were so composed and well spoken in public. Little did your man know what he was in for when it came to you and video games. A/N: I watch a whole lot of CoryxKenshin, Berleezy, Joeiaco, PeegTV, and Britani so I kinda (hella) be screaming and crashing out everytime I play video games CW: Strong language
Zayne
Zayne is the type thats worried about your cortisol levels as heâs watching you yell at the tv. He would definitely brings you cold water and some fruit while trying to gently coax you off the game for a while, but would only end up doing as you say which is to leave you the hell alone.
You currently have a death grip on your controller and trying very hard not to yell into the mic on your headset. You failed.
MC: You fuck ass camping bitch what kind of bullshit is this?!
Zayne: Uh honey?
MC: Yes baby?
You leave the match â slamming your headset to the ground â and focus on Zayne giving him with the most innocent look
Zayne: Are you alright?
MC: Im good why?
Zayne: You sound like youâve forgotten yourself
MC: Oh because this musty PT Cruiser built bitch was camping the third floor during the entire match pissinâ me the fuck off
Zayne: âŠ
MC: âŠ
Zayne: Why donât you take a break?
MC: I will
You give him the sweetest smile before grabbing your headset and slipping it back on your head
MC: Right after I blast this little bitch to hell and laugh in their face
Zayne: âŠâŠâŠ.ok
Rafayel
Rafayel is the type to just check in sparingly to avoid being the one in the line of fire. He was not trying to catch a stray when you were raging, but he also just wanted his girlfriend back, but instead he had hot headed Hades on his hands. Rafayel comes in to find you at your PC set up he can tell something is wrong even with your back to him
Rafayel: You seem angry
MC: I CANâT BEAT THIS STUPID FUCKING GAME
Rafayel: WHY ARE YOU YELLING AT ME?!
MC: IâM NOT YELLING AT YOU
Rafayel: YES YOU ARE
MC: *Heavy sigh* Iâm playing this game Scrutinized and I'm supposed to file all these reports while also making rounds around the house because there's two killers trying to kidnap me and I donât fucking understand how this lucky charms bitch keeps getting in the house
Rafayel: Have you tried taking a break?
MC: I DONâT NEED A FUCKING BREAK I NEED TO BEAT THIS MANS ASS WITH A SKILLET AND HOT GRITS
Rafayel: âŠâŠ..I miss my sweet girlfriend where did she go?
MC: Im sorry Raf
You pull him how down by his collar and give him a quick kiss
MC: Check back in an hour I should be done with night 1 by then
Rafayel nods and leaves you to scream at your computer. He silently leaves littles treats on the desk for you. Heâs scared he might be the one to receive your wrath if he bugs you too much.
Rafayel: Done yet?
MC: BITCH GET UP OH MY GOSH
Rafayel: nervermind ._.
Xavier
The type that tries to help, but only ends up pissing you off unintentionally. He just wants to help, but you donât want his help because you know the second he gets his hands on the game heâll not only beat it, but would beat it in record time.
MC: Iâm about to rage I'm about to rage Iâm about to rage
Xavier brings you a glass of water and sits it on your desk
Xavier: What's wrong baby?
MC: I have yet to beat this fucking game this damn Nun from hell keeps spawning everywhere
Xavier: What game is it?
MC: Nun Massacre
Xavier: You donât seem like yourself want me to try?
MC: Xavier I love you however if I let you try this game and you beat it in one go Im not eating with you for a week.
Xavier: I just donât like seeing you stressed
MC: and I donât like seeing this refrigerator built bitch get the best of me
Xavier: and you donât want my help?
MC: No
Xavier: Are you sure
MC: Yes
Xavier: âŠâŠyouâre sure?
MC: Ask me one more time and see what happens
Sylus
Sylus is so amused seeing you get so mad over a game. Heâll be egging you on for sure heâs not even trying to make it better. He wants to see your anger practically radiating off of you. Youâre on the brink of raging? Heâs chuckling in the background. Youâre about to slam your hands on your keyboard or throw your controller? Go ahead heâll buy you a new one.
MC: *yelling into the headset* FUCK YOU BITCH âŠ. YOU SOUND LIKE YOUâRE EASY TO DRAW SHUT THE FUCK UP TALKING TO ME TURN YO MIC DOWN
Sylus: *Chuckling* like theyâre easy to draw?
MC: YES! That bitch was just mad because I found her camping spot and sniped her ass
Sylus: You should do it again just to make her mad
MC: Oh trust me I'm on her ass now her play style is corny I'm not letting her team win this match
Sylus: Would you like me to bring you anything while you show her whoâs boss?
MC: Water and some cherries please
Sylus: Iâll be back in a minute
Sylus walks out and can still hear you yelling all the way in the kitchen
MC: GET FUCKED BITCH SUCK MY DICK
Sylus brings backs what you asked for and kisses your cheek before making himself comfortable to watch you cuss people out over a game.
Sylus: A dragon growing her horns
#love and deepspace#sylus love and deepspace#sylus#lads#love and deepspace sylus#lnds sylus#lads rafayel#lads xavier#lads zayne#lads sylus#lnds#sylus lnds#lnds xavier#lnds zayne#lnds rafayel#l&ds#l&ds sylus#l&ds rafayel#l&ds xavier#l&ds zayne#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace rafayel#love and deepspace xavier#xavier love and deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#rafayel love and deepspace#nikaaaaimagine
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âJacked and Kindâ Drabble - Bnha Boy Trio
Synopsis: Doing the âA Boy Whoâs Jacked and Kindâ with Bakugo, Todoroki, and Midoriya!
A/N: This was a request! A fun one might I add. Hopefully you guys like it and donât forget you can always request Oneshots, drabbles, Headcannons, etc! đ«¶đ»
Warnings:None
Word Count: 1.1k
Katsuki Bakugo
Bakugo wasnât stupid, heâs seen the trend, and when you brought it up to him, he wanted no part in it.
âCâmon Katsuki,â You whined, waving your screen in front of him,âItâll be cute,â He huffed,âI donât care.â Frowning, you plopped onto the couch next to him,âWhy are you so against it?â He continued to read the book in his lap, slightly annoyed by your persistent,âBecause itâs a stupid fuckinâ trend. Why do you need to film it to prove I can pick you up?â Smirking, you draped yourself over the boy, putting on a pitiful performance,âSo we can prove our love.â
Scoffeing, Bakugo shoved you off of his arm, unfazed by your words,âYeah, whatever.â You decided to move onto the next tactic,âI mean, if youâre too weak to do the trend then I understandâŠâ Alas, Bakugo showed no reaction to your provocation. Your shoulders dropped and he let out a chuckle,âDid you really think that would work? Youâre not as smart as I thought.â
Clearly the âkindâ part didnât apply to your boyfriend. You groaned audibly and got up, finally leaving Bakugo to his reading. You stood, staring sorrowfully at this couple on your phone,âI guess Iâll ask Eijirou instead, Iâm sure heâll be up for it.â
Like a flipped switch, Bakugo was on his feet in an instant, his book left behind,âLike hell you will.â He uttered,âSet up your damn phone.â A giddy smile spread to your face as you set up your phone. I knew that would work.
Bakugou stood next to you begrudgingly, a scowl depicted on his features. The music started and you hoped your boyfriend wouldnât get revenge by tossing you over his shoulders. His large hands gripped your hips and you didnât have anytime to grab his wrist before you were being lifted from the ground. You were star struck. I didnât even jump. Bakugo snickered at your reaction and flexed slightly for the camera. You posed for the camera, feeling Bakugoâs hand resting comfortably on your thigh. Right before the music ended, Bakugo flipped off the camera, making you let out a laugh.
He let you down easily, mumbling under his breath about how stupid this was and he was going right back to his book. That night, your post had blown up. You rested on your bed with Bakugo showing the hilarious comments.
i feel so disrespected.
in front of my salad??
the audacity to be in my fypâŠ
so cute! *blocks*
If one thing was true, Bakugo fit the jacked description extremely well.
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Shoto Todoroki
Shoto hadnât seen the trend at all, which wasnât a shocker, but when you came to him so energetic, he was curious to see what it was all about. He had to admit, the trend was cute. You stared at him with such hopeful eyes,âSo? Can we do it Shoâ?â He glanced at the video again, then at your face,âWill it make you happy?â You bobbed your head rapidly,âYes, Iâve been dying to do this with you.â He gave a small smile, then gave a curt nod,âThen letâs do it.â
You were buzzing with happiness and your smile was blown wide in front of the camera. You started lip syncing to the music and then you felt Shotoâs hands on your hips. You knew Shoto had muscle (he always let you caress them whenever you liked) but you were still shocked by the ease of his movements. He gracefully lifted you, placing you onto his shoulder and you posed for the camera, crossing your leg over the other like a princess. Once it was over, Shoto put you on the ground softly, and as a thank you placed a gentle kiss on his cheek,âThank you, Shoto.â
After a few hours, your video was flooded with likes and comments, but as you looked over the video, you realized Shoto wasnât even looking at the camera. He didnât flex or smile, instead his eyes were locked onto you, who was too busy looking pretty for the camera. He looked completely whipped for you and you couldnât help but show it back to Shoto. The boy gave a simple shrug,âYou looked beautiful, I couldnât help myself.â
His words made you blush and you had to cover yourself ur embarrassment by tucking yourself into Shotoâs embrace. He didnât know why you needed a hug all of a sudden, but he was happy to provide. When you calmed down, you both went through the comments. Shoto was a bit confused,âWhy are they so angry?â You chuckled, shaking your head,âNo, theyâre not mad Shoâ, theyâre being sarcastic.â
on my wifi?
if you look closely you can see me hanging in the background đ
you guys are adorable!! Iâm standing in the middle of the highway rn!!
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Izuku Midoriya
Letâs be honest. Izuku is the one to come to you about the trend. He saw it on his feed and was thrilled to try it out. He practically bounced on his feet as you watched the couple. You knew Izuku wasnât as tall as most of the guys on the trend, but if you knew one thing, it was that Izuku had arms for days, let alone his muscular legs. You passed Izuku his phone back, raising a brow at him,âAnd why do you wanna do this?â Izuku lit up, puffing his chest out with pride,âSo I can show you off.â
If that wasnât a perfect answer, then you donât know what is. You were setting up his phone immediately. The song began to play and you stood next to Izuku happily. He grabbed your waist, lifting you swiftly onto his shoulder. He flexed his bicep, winking toward the camera, but unexpectedly he was bumping his shoulders up and you were slipping from your spot. You let out a gasp, but then Izukuâs arm was placed securely on your back and under your knees. You giggled out of shock and Izukuâs heart melted at how pretty you looked. He quickly stole a kiss and when he pulled away the video was already done.
He set you down carefully, a heavy blush tinting his face,âSorry, I got carried away.â You rolled your eyes playfully,âYou definitely donât have to apologize.â He stood over your shoulder, watching the video back and he would be lying if he said he didnât immediately save it to his camera roll. Later that day you were both cuddling on the couch and you checked the video, which was overfilled with hilarious comments.
am I interrupting something..?
stood up, shed a tear, then applauded
pls get a room.
this has to be cyberbullying.
You both were entertained by the comments, but then Izuku pointed to your caption,âDid you call me a âShort Kingâ?â
#writers on tumblr#x reader#drabble#bnha#bnha x reader#@ink-stainedkiss#mha x reader#mha#katsuki bakugo x reader#mha bakugou#bakugou katsuki#shoto todoroki#shoto x reader#mha todoroki#izuku midoriya#mha izuku#izuku x reader#jacked and kind#muscle#fluff#mha fluff
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Chapter 6 - Everything I Do
Tags: Dean Winchester/Female Reader, Sam Winchester/Reader (platonic), light fluff, mutual pining, light angst, love confession, smut (handjob, fingering, p in v sex), Dean's got the Mark of Cain, uh oh.
Summary/Warnings: The Mark reaches a breaking point. Usual Warnings, little angst, lotta smut.
Author's Note: I am of the firm belief Rowena wouldâve said cunt religiously if the CW wasnât full of a bunch of pussies.
Chapter title from Video Games by Lana Del Ray
Word Count: 8.7k
Read on A03!
Chapter 5
Dean can breathe. Not easily, but he can. He can feel the weight of something airy and thin wrapped around him, stuck to his skin and far too heavy. Thereâs a hand on his brow, and itâs not the right one. Deanâs not sure what the right one would even be, but he knows itâs not this one. This one feels a little wrinkled, and the nails are too long, and it doesnât satiate the betterlust. Itâs just there, pressed to his skin like itâs looking for something and not all too pleased with what it finds.
The longer itâs there, the more the betterlust pounds and stabs and scrapes at him. Rots his guts and carves open his skull and rips through his chest. Itâs searching for something thatâs not there, and Deanâs head is too clouded with pain and ache and sickness to figure out where he should even be looking. Not in the hand. Not in the thing around him like a shroudâhot and clinging to him like a plagueâbut maybe somewhere close. Because wherever Dean isâhe doesnât know, and he doesnât have enough of a brain to guess right nowâitâs unfamiliar, but feels right. Heâs lying on something soft, and it smells good, and when his fingers flex, theyâre tracing over an impression left on the area next to him. An indent left on the space by something that could curve and press into Dean exactly like he wants. Craves. Needs.Â
The betterlust starts to flare and bellow, almost drowning out the low voices around him, and Dean knows he might die if he doesnât find what fits into that impression and take it.
âHow long has he been like this?â
âIâm not sure, a few hours?â
âWell can you try to be sure, Samuel?â
âI got here the same time you did, how am I supposed to be sure-â
âAsk our resident Dean Expert, the poor girl has been stuck with him all week-â
âNo, Iâm not going to make her do more. And, uh,â thereâs a long sigh, and Dean still isnât really sure whatâs going on, or who these people are, or why theyâre talking about him. âI donât think itâs safe for her right now. To be around him. He said he didnât want her-â
âHe obviously lied, you idiotic boy-â
âHe didnât want her to know, Rowena. And itâs not my place to tell her-â
âSheâs a big girl, sheâll survive a little bit of emotions.â
âHeâd, heâd fucking kill me-â
âAnd he will kill himself if he does not accept what he needs! Itâs quite honestly a miracle he was a stubborn enough arse to resist the Markâs demands this long.â
Deanâs really fucking confused. There are two voices, one that sounds a little like his and one that very much doesnât, and theyâre both talking about him like heâs important. He doesnât feel important. He mostly just feels tired, and bad, and sick. Sweaty and hungry and desperate for something he canât name, but they say he needs to name or heâll die, and he doesnât even really know what names are right now-
âIf I tell her, this becomes her responsibility-â
âWell, Dearie, I wasnât aware you were stupid and blind-â
âHey-â
âYou cannot look me in the eyes and say that she would not welcome the responsibility, boy. She is so pathetically obsessed with him it makes me feel ill.â
Dean felt his mouth try to frownâhe canât figure out how to move, so it more of a twisted grimaceâas he racked his mush of a brain to figure out who they could possibly be referring to. He couldnât remember names, but he could remember presences. Remember that the voice like his was good, and he was supposed to protect it. The voice that wasnât like his was bad, and kind of a bitch, but helpful when they ran out of options. There wasnât a third voice, but there was a smell that he really liked. Loved. Craved. Needed-
That was the imprint. And it wasnât here right now, but the betterlust and already spiraling around it and constricting his lungs as he tried to find it. He needed it, and it didnât need him, and he was going to die-
âI know,â the familiar voice sighed. âBelieve me, I know, but I canât ask that of her-â
âSheâll shred your sorry arse apart if you donât-â
âAnd Dean will put a bullet through my brain if I do!â
âHe will die before he gets the chance. Have I not made it clear that, unless Dean receives the help our lovely, pretty, lovesick-â
Then the voice that wasnât like Deanâs said a name, and the betterlust exploded inside him. He knew that name. Heâd die and kill and cut himself to pieces for that name. He wanted it. He couldnât have it. He needed it, more than he needs air or water or food or music. The betterlust demanded it, and was shredding apart his insides because he refused to take it, but was also lending him the strength to find it. To find Her. Dean needed to fucking find Her, or nothing would ever be good again-
His eyes fly open, and for a long movement everything is only a blinding blur of color. Thereâs noise around himâboth voices shouting words that sound like theyâre for him but he canât understandâand Deanâs brain kicks into a vigilant, borderline feral function as he hauls himself up, something pushes him back down, and the betterlust grew feral.
âRowena, grab the other arm-â
âI am not meant for brute labor, Samuel-â
âAre you fucking kidding me-â
Dean roars Her name clawing and grabbing at the air to try and go, try to get to Her, because he was going to fucking die, and the betterlust told him She could fix this, make this better, make Dean better-
âOh for- Fine.âÂ
The voice not like Deanâs says something he canât understand, his whole body tightens. Like a weight has been dropped on his chest, and ropes have been wrapped around his limbs, forcing him to collapse back onto the bed with a noise that might have been a whine.
âDean.â Rowena appears in his vision, her face drawn in annoyance. âBlink twice if you understand me.â
Dean scowls, but blinked twice.
âGood. Are you going to try and kill us again?â
Dean glowers at Rowena, keeping his eyes wide open in a gesture of no, and she sighs.
âGood boy. Iâll let you up, but if you ever try and grab my hair again, Iâll make you regret having hands, aye?â
The tension vanishes from Deanâs body, and he sits up slowly, pinch the bridge of his nose to try and curb the pounding ache behind his eyes, taking deep, mechanical breathes to get some fucking control over his body. Over the betterlust. Over himself.
âDean, are you feeling okay?â
Sam looks worried. Heâs frowning and scanning over Dean with concern, like there will be wound on his skin they can patch up to fix this.Â
But only one thing can fix this. And Dean still isnât strong enough to not know where She is, not when all he can remember is dragging himself to Her room, and hearing her voice, and seeing her pretty face before it all went dark.Â
Dean mutters Her name, his voice low and gruff, and Sam and Rowena freeze. âWhere is she.â
âSheâs eating.â Sam mutters, bracing his hands on his hips. âI told her to get some rest. You freaked her out, dude, she-â Sam shakes his head, giving Dean a look he doesnât understand, and doesnât have the energy to try and decipher. âShe was really shaken, when we got back. She needs-â
âShe needs you.â Rowena interrupts Sam, and he shoots her a venomous glare. âYouâre too much of a meat-headed dolt to see it, but that darling girl looked as if sheâd been devastated over you.âÂ
âRowena.â Sam hisses. âWe agreed-â
âYou agreed. I made no promises-â
Dean raises his handsâthey both need to shut up, or his skin will fly off his bodyâand their argument stutters off.
âHow bad is it.â He looks to Rowena, the moment alone an act of labor. âAnd donât try to lie or sugarcoat it. How long I got.â
Rowena sighs. âIf you insist on keeping your head up your own arse, a day. Maybe two.â
âBut weâre going to try to reverse it.â Sam jumps in, his voice desperate. âAnd Rowena gave you something to keep you going-â
âBut, as I told your brother,â Rowenaâs words are harsh, and Dean appreciates it. This really isnât the fucking time for dancing around anything. âIt is a very temporary solution, and the reversal will take time you no longer have. There is an obvious fix to your little problem-â
Dean lets out a dry chuckled. âMy problem? Last I checked, Rowena, you were the one who fucked this up-â
âI did not fuck anything up, you petulant man child-â
âRowena-â
âNo!â Rowena cuts off Sam with sharp words, holding Deanâs glare. âI did my job, Dean Winchester, but you are too much of an arrogant, brooding little cunt to do yours.â
Dean narrows his eyes. âWatch it, bitch-â
âI did not have to help you,â Rowena hisses. âBut that poor, desperate, lovesick woman begged me to. You know exactly what you need, and you are too cruel and stupid to do it.â
Deanâs hands curl into fists on the sheets. âI said fucking watch it-â
âSheâs right.â Sam mutters, and Deanâs gaze whips to him, his mouth falling open at Samâs pitying, exhausted expression.
âIâm sorry, I must be going insane, because thereâs no fucking way you just sided with Rowena-â
âI didnât side with her.â Sam snaps, running a hand over his face as he shakes his head. âIâm just trying to get you to think for five seconds. Iâm trying not to lose my brother because he canât see whatâs right in front of him-â
Dean scoffs. âThereâs nothing in front of me, Sam. Rowena botched the spell, and now I canât do anything but-â He cuts himself off with a groan, a stab of pain twisting over his ribs, and Sam throws his hands in the air.
âFor crying out loud, Dean, youâre dying because of this self-righteous, sacrificial bullshit you always pull! Rowena didnât botch the spell, youâre just refusing to give the Mark what it wants, and until you do-â
âIt doesnât matter what I want!â Dean roars, slamming a hand down on the mattress. âFuck, Sam, Iâm not going to force myself onto her just because-â
âBecause you think sheâll say no?â Sam rolls his eyes. âDude, you canât be stupid enough to really believe that-â
Dean scowls. They donât fucking get it. Sam and Rowena donât know Her like Dean does. They donât understand that She would say yes, but she wouldnât really want it, and Dean would stain and mark Her in a way that theyâd never come back from. Sheâd never smile at him the same, and heâd have to die alone in the dirt when she finally got the memo that he wasnât worth helping. When She left him, her soul more tainted than when sheâd found him. When his poison sunk into Her skin, and she would still be so pretty and amazing, but ruined and marred from Deanâs touch. From how weak and pathetic and toxic he was.Â
He couldnât do that. Heâd rather fucking die.
âJust drop it, Sammy.â Dean mutters, his gaze falling to that imprint of Her on the bed. Her bed. Dean was finally in Her bed, and he didnât even get to enjoy it. âItâs not happening. And youâre not going to convince me, so either fix this, or let me die without goddamn yelling at me.â
Thereâs a moment of wired silence, Rowena silent in the corner of the room as Sam and Dean glare at each other, and Sam shakes his head like he canât believe Deanâs nerve. Like Dean isnât saving the only good thing they both have. Protecting the only person thatâs stayed with them, that they both love, even if Deanâs love is made of undying, animalistic, grime and dirt covered devotion, and Samâs is purer, softer affection that could never cut and scar Her like Deanâs.Â
âShe was crying.â Sam finally says, his tone colder than Deanâs heard it in a long time. âWhen we got back, she was sobbing, Dean. Have you ever seen her cry? Ever?â
He hasnât. Dean has seen Her grit her teeth and bite back sounds of agony from injuries, seen Her scream and flail when theyâve lost people, and seen Her so angry it scared him a little, but heâs never seen Her cry. She didnât cry. Her eyes got glossy, and her voice grew tight and choked, but she didnât cry. Sam has to be lying, and he doesnât look or sound like he is, but he has to be. She doesnât cry, so why the hell would that be the truth? But why would Sam lie, and why has She stayed this long, and fuck, everything hurts and Deanâs too damn tired to figure out what the hell Sam is trying to tell him but the betterlust is scratching at his heart to know-
âSam,â Dean swallows, watching his brother carefully. âI-â
Thereâs a knock at the door, and everything in Dean flies to the sound. Itâs Her. Before Samâs hand is even on the doorknob, Dean somehow knows itâs Her. Here. Maybe for him, maybe not, but the betterlust doesnât seem to care because itâs Her-
She looks horrible. Still so fucking pretty, but horrible. Thereâs a slump to Her posture as she stands in the doorâhair tangled and shirt wrinkledâand Her gorgeous face is slightly puffed. Her lips pouting. Her eyes lined with red.Â
Like Sheâs been crying.Â
Sam says Her name in question, and when She speaks her voice is hoarse.
âLook, I know you to told me to rest, but-â Her mouth falls open as her eyes land on Dean, and Her sharp inhale feels like it shoots adrenaline right into his blood.Â
He tries to offer Her a winning, Iâd be happy to see me too smile, but it doesnât feel right on his face. It feels too vulnerable, where itâs always been like a shield. It feels like itâs a lie, or trick, or act of cruelty when Deanâs rarely met a woman who doesnât flush and giggle under that attention. Itâs supposed to make him feel good from their happy, hopeful eyes. Itâs supposed to make them feel good from Deanâs well-crafted, carefully wielded charm.
But right now he still just feels like shit. Bottom of the gutter, horrible, flea-ridden and matted shit. A fucking piece of shit that might have made Her cry, and isnât even smart enough to know why.
He tries again, making the smile wider, adding his most casual drawl. âHey, Sweetheart-â
She makes a strangled soundâloud and pained, making the betterlust start to snap at Deanâs brittle spineâand all but runs to the bed, almost falling to Deanâs side as Her hands begin to grab at his face and run over his skin. Angling him for Her to examine with frantic eyes and words, igniting little paths of insatiable fire wherever She touches.
âAre you okay?!â She turns his head to the side, her fingers tracing his jaw and cheek like boils or scars might have just appeared. âYour fever is gone,â the back of Her hand presses to his brow, flipping to touch it with Her palm. âBut shit, youâre covered in sweat-â Her glare whips around to Sam, Her grip still tight on Deanâs face. He doesnât really mind. The betterlust is still trying to climb out of his throat, but he can fight itâfor Herâand this can be enough. Itâs all heâll get before heâs gone anyway. Her touch, and loud almost furious shout at Sam. âWhy didnât you change the sheets like I told you to-â
âHe was dead weight,â Sam says Her name, his voice a hell of a lot kinder than when heâd been talking to Dean. âAnd you also told us to make sure he got some rest. Rowena said the fever broke, and heâs lucid again-â
âBut this is gross Sam, and you couldâve moved him if you tried-â
âMoved him where? He started freaking whimpering when we took away your comforter-âÂ
Dean scowls. âCan you guys stop talkinâ about me like Iâm not right fucking here-â
Her gaze turns back to Dean, the odd, aggressively mind-numbing panic and care returning to her eyes as she begins to examine him once more.Â
âYou seem better, but youâre redder than you should be, and, shit, was that scar always there-â
Her fingerâs trial over Deanâs chin, dangerously close to his mouth, and he has to bite down a groan as he says Her name. âThatâs been there at least a decade-â
âWhat about this one-â
âThree years, you were there when I got it-â
âFuck, youâre right.â She shakes her head, Her eyes suddenly boaring into Deanâs and settling warmth in his gut. âWell, are you feeling okay? Does anything hurt, or feel sick, or feel numb-â
âSweetheart.â He catches Her hand, and she falls silent with wide eyes. âIâm-â
âAnd,â She moves his gaze onto Herâs, and fuck Sheâs always so pretty. Even when Sheâs pissed at him. Especially when Sheâs pissed at him. âDonât you dare fucking lie to me, Winchester, Iâll stab you-â
He chuckles, and itâs dry and low, but maybe the realest sound heâs made since he woke up. âI donât doubt that, Sweetheart.â He drawls, and she lets his guide Her hands away from his face. âBut I promise, Iâm feelinâ better.â
She nods slowly, and Dean pretends he canât see Samâs eye roll in the background.
âOh. Okay.â She turns at Sam and Rowena, her voice slightly unsteady and weak. âHave you, um, have you both been in here? The whole time I was eating?â
Sam nods. âYeah.â
âOh.â She swallows, and Dean notices Her body go slightly rigid. Sam must notice too, because he tilts his head and frowns at her.
âIs that okay?â
âYeah, sorry, itâs justâŠâ She trails off, staring at her nails as her voice drop to a mumble. âThereâs a lot of people in here. Makes me nervous.â
âShit, sorry.â Sam says Her name, his voice apologetic. âDidnât know that. We can go, if you want.â
Thereâs a long moment where Sheâs just staring at Sam, Her mouth slightly open, and her body curled in on itself like sheâd been punched. Sam repeats Her name, his voice cautious, and when She snaps out of it, her voice is still soft and anxious.Â
âThat would be good.â She whispers. âThank you.â
Sam nods. âNo problem. Me and Rowena,â he shoots the witch a glare, and she rolls her eyes. âAre gonna go try to fix this. Text me if you need anything, either of you.â
She hums an acknowledgment, Her attention never leaving Dean as Sam and Rowena close the door, and Deanâs whole existence begins to curve into only the feeling of Her as her fingers trace over the back of his hand.Â
After a long moment of silenceâonly the sound of Deanâs heart in his ears and the shifting of blankets under their bodiesâshe swallows, her voice barely a breath. âThey canât fix it, can they.â
He blinks at Her. âTheyâre gonna get it-â
âDonât lie to me, Dean.â She gives him a soft smile that makes her look like sheâs already grieving, and something in him lights up and withers away in the same second. âPlease.â
He swallows. He is really tired of lying to Her. And he can say something closer to the truth and still hold his ground. Heâs not quite that weak. Not yet.
âItâll be close.â He grunts. âBut Iâve survived worse. I just gotta pull through-â
âYou donât, though.â She whispers. âRowena said you just have to-â
âRowena can eat me.â Dean mutters, glaring at the door. âIâm not doinâ whatever the hell the Mark tells me to, that was the fucking point of this.â
âThe point was to help you, Dean.â She sounds so freaking sad, and itâs pulling Dean apart. His will and mind all being reduced to Her. Too good and pretty to be sad. And itâs just Dean. She shouldnât be this sad over only Dean.
âSweetheart-â
âI donât,â She swallows, speaking over Dean with quiet, soft words. âI donât know why youâre being such an ass, Dean. Why canât you just do what the betterlust wants? Isnât it what you want-â
âIt is.â Dean has to push the words through his teeth, because She so close and itâs not close enough and everything fucking hurts. âBut I canât have it, so weâre dead in the water. But Sammy and Rowena-â
âDean.â
He canât look Her in the eyes. Her voice is so gentle and nervous, and heâs not strong enough to look Her in the eyes and see all that worry and pity in them. He can barely even grunt an acknowledgment for her to continue.
âWhat do you want?â
âIâm not gonna-â
âIs it me?â She whispers, and Deanâs eyes shoot to Herâs. He canât breathe. He canât do anything but stare at Her and try not to die as he realizes this is it. This is how he loses Her. Forever. This is the last time he gets to look at Her and bask in her beauty and kindness, the last time he gets to drown in the smell of cherries and feel a little more alive under Her touch.
But She doesnât look afraid, or disgusted. She just looks urgent. Desperate. As confused and hopelessly hopeful as Dean feels.
And he canât speak, or think, or do anything but stare at Her as she speaks again.
âDean, do you,â She takes a shaking breath, and Dean needs to touch Her. âDo you love me?â
ââââââ
Heâs not saying anything. Deanâs looking at you like youâve shot him right through his heart, ripped it out, and taken a bite. Gaping like heâs trying to ask you for it back but canât find the breath to, blinking like heâs trying to test if youâre really there. He reaches a hand up to run over his own face, reaches out to touch youâtrace broad, calloused fingers over your cheekbones and jaw, over your chin like heâs wiping something you canât see awayâand jerks back suddenly, like youâd hurt him. Burned him. Branded him.
Heâs branded you. Youâre never going to forget his voice in your head, sounding like heâs overdosed on something awful, and doesnât think heâll come back down. Like heâs trying to cleanse himself of something by whispering words that will either haunt you past the grave or feed you for the rest of your life. Your heart will never forget the way it stopped for only a second before kicking into a pace that was all too fast when Deanâs eyes closed, and your hands will always remember the cold fever of his skin.
âDean.â You have to make your voice strong. Steady, like youâre demanding something from him and not praying to him. âPlease-â
âWhy-â His voice is hoarse, almost strangled, and it makes your every muscle feel a little weaker. âWhy would you ask that.â
âIâm, I canât tell you, just please answer me-â
âDid Sam tell you-â
âSam?â You frown, shaking your head slightly. âNo, I just, this has nothing to do with Sam-â
âThen why the hell are you-â
âWhat would Sam have told me?â
Dean falls silent, opening and closing his mouth as he goes red, his eyes looking almost feral. He looks like a cornered animal, something starved and needy, unsure if it should bite the hand reaching for it or grab it and never let go.Â
You want to hold him and never let go. You want him to grab your hand, and hold it, and never think to drop it again. You want to hear him say those words again, and have his voice be certain. You want to touch him, no matter if heâs like this or breaking or furious orâin those rare, priceless momentsâhappy. And you need to know. Deanâs never owed you anything, and he never will, but if thereâs only one thing that he can offer you in universe, it would be really nice if it was this. If Dean ever gives you anything, please, dear God, let it be this.Â
âDean,â you whisper, moving your hand to his knee and holding his almost fearful, rabid gaze. âPlease answer me. Tell me what Sam-â
âHe,â Dean swallows, voice gruff. âHe wasnât supposed to say anything. He fucking swore heâd never-â
âHe didnât.â You repeat, unsure if heâs even understanding the words out of your mouth. âAll Iâve talked to Sam about is the spell. But why-â
âRowena.â He mutters, and it sounds like heâs mostly talking to himself. âRowena mustâve open her bitch mouth-â
âI havenât really talked to Rowena at all-â
âMustâve been some fucking spell-â
âDean!â You scream, your nails digging into his leg like you can hold him with you forever. âIt was you! You told me you loved me! You had a fever and you told me you loved me, you said my name, and I just,â Your voice cracks, desperation starting to break through your blood, out of your mouth in spit. âI need to know, please, you need to tell me if you meant it-â
âSweetheart-â
âPlease.â You refuse to look him in the eyes. The moment you look in Deanâs deep, pretty eyes youâll know what heâs thinking, and youâll lose him forever. Everything in you is screaming to know, but youâre still not able to just look into Deanâs eyes. âDean, please tell me.â
âWhy.â
For a second youâre not sure if you heard him right. The question startles you enough to make you look up, and the moment you see him something snaps inside of you. He looks wounded. Nervous. Almost as afraid of youâof your words, and what they might be capable of doing to him if you use them wrongâas you are of him.
âWhy would you need to know.â He rasps, staring at his own hands. Flexing in his lap, seemingly against his will. âYouâre not- Itâs not somethinâ youâre-â He looks up to you, his eyes almost pleading. âWhy would you give a shit about-â
âAbout you?â
Deanâs throat bobs, his nod short, and you summon more bravery than youâve ever been capable of before. Enough to reach out, over the space between your bodies that so smallâbut still feels like milesâand place your hand on his cheek. Keeping his gaze on yours.
âI always care about you. I-â You take a shaking breath, the last words falling off your tongue. âI love you.â
Deanâs hand shoots up to cover yours. To hold you against him, with a grip that tells you he might be trying to sear his skin into yours.Â
âYou-â His voice is so soft. His hand over yours is like iron, but everything else about him seems to be dreamlike. Hazy and uncertain, both of you watching each other like youâre sure the other will vanish if you look away. âYou love me?â
âYeah,â you try to smile at him, and itâs not charismatic. Itâs pleading and tragic and so fucking delicate. âI do. I mean, I have. For a while.â
âHow-â
âFour years.â
He blinks at you. âNo, I, I meant-â He swallows, shaking his head. âI meant how. How did that happen.â
Itâs your turn to frown at him. âHow did that happen?â
âYou shouldnât love me.â He mutters, his hand over yours flexing. Like heâs trying to pull it away but doesnât know how. âItâll get you hurt.â
You raise your brows slightly, running your thumb over his cheek. âAre you going to hurt me?â
Deanâs eyes narrow. âThatâs not what I-â
âAre you?â
âOf course not, Iâd never-â
âWhy?â
âIt doesnât matter why-â
âIt does.â You whisper, folding your legs under you to rise on your knees, dropping your brow to his. Holding his gaze the whole time. âIt matters to me, Dean.â
He makes a choked sound, but doesnât move away. âWhy?â
âBecause I love you.â You whisper. âAnd it would be really cool if you loved me.â
Deanâs only staring at you, his eyes flicking between your own, slightly blurred gaze that can still see him so well, and your lips.Â
âAnd it happened,â you push on, your voice growing a little weak when he still doesnât respond. âBecause itâs really easy to love you, Dean Winchester. Youâre a good man.â You offer him a smile, and his own mouth falls open just a little. âAnd even if you donât love me, I wouldnât have you any other-â
Something in Deanâs eyes flickers, and he moves before youâre sure whatâs happening. Yanking you into his lap with his handâfingers now tangled in yoursâcatching you with an arm around your waist, and kissing you.Â
Kissing you. Deanâs kissing you.Â
Your body sparks into actionâeven as your brain becomes fogged with a hazy, Dean-shaped lustâand you fist a hand into his shirt, pulling him as close as the world will allow. Heâs holding you so carefully, leaning down in a slight dip, and there could be a storm raging around you instead of the soft, romantic rain this feels like it belongs to, but you wouldnât know. Because this is a kiss people wage wars over.Â
Itâs louder than music in your ears and electric in your blood, but sparks isnât a strong enough word. Itâs like lightning. Shooting through your spine and lighting up every nerve in your body to Dean. Soft lips molding perfectly into yours, warm and calloused hands skillfully mapping over your skin, a groan down your throat that you can feel settle in your lower gut and start a wildfire. Youâve been hungry and youâve never dared to eat, but Dean is here now and youâll either be starved for the rest of your life or never want for anything again.
When Dean tries to pull away, you just follow him. Chase after his lips with yours, trying to get just a little more before this all comes tumbling down. Before the thought can even dare to cross Deanâs mindâthat heâs not good for you, and he should goâbecause this is all youâve ever wanted and youâll be damned if you donât cling to it for as long as heâll allow. Youâll fall all the way down, until your body is only supported by Dean below you, and youâll forsake oxygen until your body demands it. Maybe a little while after, too.Â
And Dean doesnât seem to care to let you go. Every time he tries to pull back itâs a jerked movement, and every time you collide again he grows more and more feral. His groans turn into deep, animalistic growls, and his touch on your skin becomes rough. Not painful, never painful, but urgent. Uncontrolled. Pulling at your skin like heâs trying to meld it into his, kissing you with bruising force, bucking up into you with his hard cock brushing your inner thighs.Â
You grind down onto him onceâwhen he hits closer to where youâre beginning to ache for him, and your own need grows stronger than youâre desire to let Dean control thisâand he bites you. Dean catches your lip between his teeth, sucks in into his mouth, and grins like heâs won a prize when you whine a plea of his name.
âHoly shit,â he mutters your name, pressing his brow to yours as you both catch your breath, grabbing your waist to stop the next roll of your hips. âIâm not- I canât do this to you-â
âYouâre not doing anything to me,â you whisper. âI love you. I want this.â
Dean catches your hand, running his thumb over your knuckles and staring at the movement, his voice so low you almost donât hear it. âSay youâre lying.â
You blink at him, and shake your head. âNo.â
His eyes flash, shooting back to yours as he grunts your name. âYou need to say youâre lyinâ right now, or Iâll-â
âYouâll what?â You lower your face back down, until youâre sharing Deanâs every breath. âFuck me? Actually say you want me?â
His throat bobs, voice rough with lust. âYou, I canât fucking control it, sweetheart, if youâre fuckinâ with me you need to take it back now-â
âDean.â You grab his face between your hand, forcing his darkened gaze back to yours. âAnswer my fucking question.â
He shakes his head weakly. âYou donât-â
âI love you.â You hiss. You need to make sure he feels it, in the slightly spit on his face, that still tastes a little like him because itâs pushed through lips that are swollen from Dean, and Dean alone. You glide a hand down his chest, the kiss apparently fueling something bold inside you that hadnât been there before. Your fingers trace down, over his abdomenâhardened from work but still soft in all the best placesâand Dean takes in a sharp breath, his hands on your hips tightening enough to leave a mark, and you lean back. Just enough to open space between your bodies, just enough for you to palm him through his sweatpants.
Heâs huge, and twitching under your careful, light fingers, and God, you need him inside of you in any fucking wayâbetween your hands or filling your mouth or buried deep into your cuntâbut Deanâs still just staring at you. His chest heaving, eyes so dark and wanting you might cum just from his attention, and nostrils flaring as you move your hand up, resting right over the hem of his pants.Â
âI love you, Dean,â you whisper, the rush of confidence barreling down as you wait for him to do anything. âAnd you need to tell me now that you donât love me, or-â you take a long breath, dragging up the last bit of your nerve. âYou need to say you love me, and do something about it.â
Something shatters in Deanâs gaze for the last time, and whatever war heâs been waging with himself reaches a brutal end as he surges back up, kissing you with all spit and bloody need. Like youâre the best thing heâs ever dared to have on his tongue, and he might be trying to chew off a bit of you to keep.
He wonât need to. He has you. Heâs had you for a while, and when he leans back to watch you with glazed, hungry eyes, his words seal some deep, fragile part of you to him forever.
âI love you,â Dean grunts your name, scanning over your face like heâs afraid the words will yank you from his hands. They wonât. âI need you. I gotta have you, but Iâm- Iâm not in control of it right now-â
âI can take it.â You push your hand into Deanâs sweats, taking his cock in your hand. He groans, eyelids fluttering, and when you run your thumb over the head of himâpressing into the weeping slit and squeezing just so lightlyâhe hisses your name like a prayer. âPlease, Dean. I want it. Please.âÂ
You pull down his pants with your free hand, taking his boxers with them, and start to slowly pump your hand up and down his impressive length. There will be bruising marks of Deanâs hands of your hips for a while, but youâll survive. Itâs worth it, to watch him unravel below you, to see Deanâs pretty eyes grow glazed with lust for you, feel his dick throb and hips jerk under your touch, hear his low growls and grunts as his jaw clenches and he doesnât pull you away.
âGod,â he moans your name, and you start to squirm above him, desperate for a bit of your own relief. âI wanna- Wanna taste you. Fuck you. Ruin you-â
âSo do it,â you slip your other hand downâtrusting Deanâs hold to keep you uprightâand squeeze his balls. âYou say you love me, Dean, but you havenât proved it-â
The words do exactly what youâd wanted them to. Dean yanks your hand from around him, crashes his lips into yours with a fervor that might have been dangerous if it didnât taste and sound and feel like Dean, and lets go.Â
His every movement is rough and uncontrolled, because his tether over every bit of will that had seemed to keep him restrained is gone, and in its wake is only the Mark. All its lust and fury and hunger, primal and focused on you. On taking what it wants.
And youâd give it to him, even if it left a few marks on your skin and bruising on your heart, but you realize that the Mark doesnât seem to just want to use you. If it did, Dean wouldnât be sucking on your neck and moaning at the taste of your skin, all while tracing big, warms hands around your body to palm your breasts. He wouldnât allow you to grind onto him, or whimper his name, or scratch at his skin as he pulls you apart with barely anything at all. When he flips your over without any effortâonly a low grunt and flex of his musclesâyou feel like the most priceless bag of flour in the word. Perfect to be tossed around like that forever, but worth more to himâmore the Markâthan just another body.
And you canât see him anymore, but you donât need to. You hear the sounds of him shuffling behind you, the muffled noise of his shirt being tossed onto the floor, and then his voice. Low and feral and saying your name in a way that makes your knees weak.Â
âUp.â He grunts, and you whine when he angles your hips up and pulls down your shorts, you already wet cunt being hit by the cold air. âSo fuckinâ pretty, gonna ruin you, baby. Youâre never gonna even think about a cock thatâs not mine again-â
You nod a little stupidly, wiggling your ass back into him and moaning when his still-clothed erection presses right into you. âFuck, Dean, please-â
He spanks your pussyâjust once the stinging pleasure shooing up your spineâand you bury your face in the sheets to stifles your desperate moan.Â
âNeed yaâ to listen.â He mutters. âYouâre gonna have to talk to me, baby, lemme know what feels good, what youâre likinâ, what you need more of-â
âYou,â you gasp, and Dean chuckles, running a taunting finger between your folds. âGod, I need you, Dean, need you so bad-â
âYou need me?â He pushes the finger into your cunt, his body moving to covers yours as he whispers in your ear. âNeed me to fuck this tight little pussy until you scream? Goddamn prove you how much Iâve wanted you, how much Iâve always wanted you-â
âYes.â You nod frantically, grinding your ass up into him. âShow me, please show me-â
Dean moves your head to the side, capturing your lips in a long, slow kiss, and hums in satisfaction when he crooks that finger right up against that deep, sensitive spot inside of you, and your hands start to claw at the sheets. Â
Then heâs gone. Without warning Dean draws back, yanks his finger out without warning, spanks your pussy againâchuckling at the high, needy sound that escapes your lipsâand presses one hand to your lower back to still your writhing as he shuffles behind you
âTell me whatcha want, baby.â He mutters, moving his hand to rub up and down your thigh. âAnd Iâll get it for âya. But you have,â He slaps your pussy one last time for emphasis, and you can only moan. âTo say what you-â
âYour cock.â You whisper, spreading your legs wider for his to see. To look at your wet pussyâneed dripping down to your kneeâand take whatever the Mark is asking of him. âWant your cock Dean. Want you to fuck me, no holding back, please-â
He slams into you without warning. Burying himself at the hilt in one brutal movement, groaning above you as you go limp under him, trying only to twist and touch him, only to push back and somehow get him deeper. You feel so full, so fucking high on the stretch of Dean inside you, but itâs not enough-
âGod, sweetheart, you feel so fucking good.â Dean starts to massage your ass, with one hand, the other holding you up in the air for him to use. âBetter than I dreamed, feel like heaven, gonna fuck you so good like you deserve-â
âDean, fuck-â you clench around him, the praise feeding right into your cockdrunk daze of Dean, and he groans.Â
âDonât do that,â he grunts your name, and it sounds like an order. âI ainât gonna last if you-â He moans as you squeeze around his massive cock again, and pulls all the way out before slamming back into you with a growl.
Your mouth falls open, a sound like a mewl escaping your mouth, and Dean starts to fuck you. Really, properly fuck you into the mattress, with low groans and an unforgiving pace, bumping your cervix and snaking a hand around your stomach to pull you up to his chest, rubbing your clit until youâre wrecked and seeing stars, thrusting up into you like a jackhammer and keeping you so blissfully pleasured and warm.
âSo fuckinâ good,â he growls your name in your ear, and you squeak. âTakinâ this cock so fuckinâ well, all warm and tight, made for me. You were fuckinâ made for me-â
Deanâs thumb and fore finger roll your clit in a tight circle, and you cum with a scream. Light and color lining your vision, the far-off sound of Deanâs filthy praise making your orgasm ride out and out and out until youâre sure youâve reached something like heaven. Your vision is still blurred when the satisfaction has washed fully through you, and you realize Deanâs stopped moving.
His hand tangles in your hair, angling your face back for him to see, and fuck heâs so handsome. Breathing heavy in your ear, lips puffed from sucking and kiss your skin, eyes glazed but still focused on you.
You must look like an idiot. Your expression is slack and needy, your eyes glazed a lips parted, but Dean looks at you like youâre a diamond and his cock twitches inside you as your eyes meet.
âShit, baby,â he mutters. âYou gotta say somethinâ-â
âThat-â You let out another moan, your pussy still fluttering around him. âGood.â
He chuckles, kiss the very corner of your mouth with a smirk. âYou got full words, Sweetheart?â
You swallow, the full feeling of Deanâthrobbing inside you, still rock hard, pushing against that heavenly spot but with just too little pressure to send you over once moreâcrashing into you, and you say the only thing you can think of.
âKeep going?âÂ
He stares at you for a second, then shakes his head. âNo, I- Iâll be fine, I can take care of myself-â
âWant you to use me.â Youâre practically whining, and youâd be more embarrassed if the words didnât make Dean jerk up into you. âPlease-â
He groans your name, burying his face in the crook of your shoulder. âIâm not- youâre-â
âI said donât hold back.â You whisper, rolling your hips against him and feeling pride glow in your chest at his moan. âFuck me, Dean. Iâm yours.â
And there it is again. You say the exact right thing, the thing you knew would work, and Dean gives in. He shoves you down, flips you onto your backâpulling out for only a second as he adjusts you under himâand starts to fuck you like an animal. Rutting into you at a near inhuman speed, hitting your cervix with every thrust, every word a low growl that coils release tighter and tighter in your lower gut.Â
âSo fuckinâ greedy,â he grunts, slamming a little rougher. âWantinâ more, begging me to fuck you, so fucking pretty cominâ apart on my cock, tell me how good it feels, baby-â
âGood,â you moan, your nails digging into his shoulders as the bed creaks around you, your whole body overwhelmed with pleasure. âFeel so full, Dean, feels so good, youâre so fucking big-â
He groans, and you start to babble. Youâre not even sure what youâre saying anymore, because every word feels like itâs spilling from your mouth. But every inch of your brain trapped in Deanâs skin slapping against yours, his muscles flexing around you, the low and primal sounds rumbling out of his chest as his movements grow sloppy and his cock starts to throb inside of you, and you couldnât think about anything else if you tried.
âYou feel so good, Dean, please donât stop, want you to cum, I-â You gasp as he starts to kill up your neck, your hands shooting into his hair. âFuck, Dean, please, so good, God, I love you-â
His mouth slams into yours, and your orgasm rushes through you like a tidal wave. Longer and powerful, leaving you so fucked out you can only whine under Deanâs body, toes curling and eyes rolling back in your head as your pussy flutters around him.
Dean pulls out, keeping one hand gently on your knee as he pumps himself with an almost blurring fist, and cums over your abdomen and thighs. Itâs hot and sticky, and part of you wishes youâd had enough of a brain to ask him to let you taste it, but youâre so completely spent that when Dean collapses over youâa heavy, comfortable weight youâre more than happy to be trapped beneathâyour brain wipes every other thought but Dean away, and you decide to just stay here. Where Deanâs face in buried in your neck, and your sore from all of it but there will never be a better pain to experience.
âI-â Dean breaks the silence, words muffled in your skin. âI feel better.â
âOh.â You huff a soft laugh. âGood.â
âWhat, uh, what should we tell Sammy?â
You tug on his hair, just enough to move his gaze back to yours. âThat we had sex?â
âNo,â Dean groans your name, a smile pulling at his lips. âAbout the Mark. But we should tell him that-â
You make a mock, dramatic gasp. âDean Winchester, are you going to brag about sex to your brother-â
âItâs sex with you, Sweetheart.â He winks, rolling you both over and caging you comfortably against his chest. âAnd Sammyâll be thrilled to hear it, heâs been on my ass for years-â
âYears?â You squeak. âHow many years?â
He shrugs. âI dunno, all of them?â
âAll of them?! What do you mean all of them-â
âI mean since I met you.â Dean starts to rub soothing circles on your back, his mouth curling in smug amusement. âDeep breathes, baby, youâre gonna hurt yourself.â
You flush, still not really use to the baby thing. Or Deanâs hands on your skin, every touch lingering like an imprint that will never even try to fade. âShut up-â
He shakes his head. âNah. You love it.â A boyish, wide smile splits over his face. âYou love me.â
You might die. You might explode into a million, tiny pieces of confetti and shimmering glass, because Dean looks so happy. There are no ghosts in his beautiful eyes, no loathing or dread stained over his perfect face. Heâs happy, here, with you, and youâre not cruel enough to stop yourself from crawling up his chest and pressing a soft, sweet kiss to his lips.
âI do love you,â you mumble against him, straddling his torso as you push yourself up flat palms. âBut Iâm still gonna tell you to shut up.â
He chuckles, the sound rolling and humming right into your blood. âAnd I wouldnât have it any other way.â
Dean reaches up to tuck a little hair behind your ears, and freezes, his eyes trained on his forearm. On the Mark.
âWe, uh,â he clears his throat, watching you carefully. âWe do need to figure out what weâre gonna do about this.â
âYeah.â You sigh. âWe do. But I, I think-â
You cut yourself off, taking his hand in yours and running light fingers over the Mark in thought. Dean stares up at you with a slight awe in his gaze that makes you feel almost important, and your words fall to a soft breath.
âIf you want.â You whisper. âWe can turn it back-â
âNo.â He shakes his head, sounding almost panicked. âIâm not goinâ back to that shit, not now-â
âDean.â Your fingers still on his arm. âWas it me? That the Mark wanted?â
He swallows, but nods, and you sigh.
âWeâre going to have separate sometimes. And we can figure out the bloodlust-â
âWe should have to figure it out though, you donât gotta put up with that-â
âI know.â You smile at him, and itâs not hard. Smiling at Dean is never hard. âBut I will.â
âDo you-â He stares at you, tangling his fingers in yours. âDo you not want me to keep the betterlust? You can tell me, I donât want you to feel like you have to, for me-â
âGod, no.â You shake your head, squeezing his hand. âIâm just, Iâm worried about what might happen when the betterlust decides Iâm not enough. Or when this, um, when you-â
Dean says your name, slow and firm, and you swallow. âThis is it for me. Itâs you, and the Mark knows that. Youâre gonna be more than enough, hell, youâre more than I deserve-â
âThatâs not true.â You mumble. âYou deserve the world.â
He chuckles, pressing a kiss to the palm of your hand. âItâs adorable that you really believe that, baby, but-â
You scowl at him. âItâs the truth, Dean. Youâre a good man, I meant what I said-â
âI know you did.â His charming, cowboy grins falters slightly. Not falling, but twisting into one youâve never seen before. Still roguish, still well designed and stealing your breath, but with a slight crack that allows you to see deeper. To see the lonely part of him, that really thinks you donât belong here with him. Thatâs trying to drag you into him, because heâs certain youâll start running if he doesnât. âBut this,â he nods to the Mark. âIs still gonna be a problem. Iâm still gonna be a problem-â
âYouâre not a problem-â
He says your name, the word careful and tender and holy from his lips. Itâs the best way youâve ever heard it. The only way you want to hear it again. âDo you want me to keep the betterlust.â
You purse your lips, and nod.
âWords, baby-â
âYes.â You whisper. âBut I need you to promise me that if it stops working-â
âIt wonât.â He shrugs, his voice flat, as if heâs speaking in fact. âAnd weâre gonna keep looking for a way to get this son of a bitch off. But weâre doinâ it together.â He pauses, scanning over your open features. âIf thatâs what you-â
You lean down, silencing him with a long, easy kiss. Itâs not desperate anymore, but careful. Like youâre making art, or starting to spin a web that could unravel with a single tug, but neither of you will let it. Youâll never let thisâwhatever this becomesâfall apart. Youâll put your whole life into keeping Dean, fighting for him and helping him and reminding him that heâs not really a burden. Letting him remind you that he really does want you, and heâs never going to allow you to doubt that again.
âTogether.â You speak against his lips, letting your content breath fall into his mouth. âIâd like to stay together.â
He nods, mouth curving into a grin. âAlright then. Together.â
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Summarized transcript of the Twisted Radio episode with Heartslabyul (minus Trey) voice actors!! đ„ł (all is just paraphrased, not direct quotes, and Book 7 spoilers removed!)
Highlights ă»A lot of industry talk!
Last weekâs opening talk that was set was âHow do you want to spend New Years?â
đč I will have finished work by the 27th so I will be relaxing and listening to this show at home.Â
â ïž Are you sure? Youâre really going to listen at home?
â€ïž Listen with your whole family.
đčYes, I will have my kids listen to it, too.
â ïž Iâm going to contact you on the 27th. âđč-san, are you listening?â
đč Reads a fan letter: they are being asked about things the cast learned when they first became voice actors.
â ïž Says he never went to a technical school or training school or anything so he just learned on the job. He said he learned that new hires are expected to sit near the door to open and close it for others. He didnât know this at first and would sit in the middle or the back and other new people would tell him that he needed to be near the door.Â
âŠïž says he also never had any formal schooling/training and he learned by watching everyone around him, which is how he learned the shorthand that is used in the industry, and everyone talks about how shorthand can vary by person.
â€ïž starts talking about an unnamed project that he did with đč (they canât say what it is). â€ïž says his character used a sword and he became interested in it and went to a trial lesson. What he learned is that that skill is not only about strength. And also the swords are very heavy.
đčsays when he debuted he was given a rehearsal video to watch on VHS instead of DVD, but he didnât have a VCR so he had to go buy one from a recycle shop specifically to watch the total of two VHSs he would be given before his agency shifted to DVDs.
Next section:
About Riddle
đč He canât speak too kindly or it departs from Riddleâs character. Heâs been doing this for 5 years now and he likes everyone, but that much time hasnât passed in the game yet. So he will be directed to be less kind. He feels that his voice has changed, too, since it has been so long, getting deeper, so the director will ask him to sound younger.
There are also what he calls the âsystem voicesâ which are maybe voice lines? He says that since they have to be accessible to everyone no matter what point it is that they start playing the game, he has to record them as how Riddle was at the start of the main story, and how strict he was. He says he has been watching Alice in Wonderland a lot in order to properly portray the angry queen.Â
About Ace
â€ïž He says that like đč new challenges have been appearing over the past five years. There is also the change in Ace from thinking that he was better than Deuce but then Deuce got his UM first. â€ïž Ace doesnât know his UM, and â€ïž himself is looking forward to it. He says he really doesnât have any idea what it is going to be, he hasnât been told.
â ïž says that fans will often comment on how well â€ïž is able to mimic other voice actors. He asks how â€ïž himself is at imitating people and â€ïž says heâs bad at it.
đč says that maybe â€ïž being so good at it is why Ace has been imitating people so much in the game. â ïž says that if â€ïž was bad at it then they might have started asking him to do it less.
About Deuce
â ïž references how all of Heartslabyul recorded together for Book 1 which never happens for mobile games, and he had never recorded with that many voice actors in the same place for a game before. It was the very start of his career so he was grateful, and now they all record alone.
They talk about Deuceâs struggles in Book 5. â€ïž says he is empathizes a lot with Deuce, so he adapted his line readings in order to be really annoying.Â
Now they are talking about Book 7 things, redacted for spoilers đŠ
About Cater
âŠïž says that Cater hasnât really changed that much from Book 1, unlike other characters. He is always showing the same mood, with only occasional whispers of his true feelings. He is still treating everyone the same way he always has, and âŠïž 's portrayal hasnât really changed either.
âŠïž says that when he is going through a script he will ask the staff, ââŠbut what is really going on?â beyond the words that he has been given to read.Â
More Book 7 things, redacted for spoilers.
About Trey
âŁïž isnât here in person because of scheduling conflicts but he provided a comment to read on air! His comment is on the impression he gets from Trey: a dependable and kind senpai, if you have been brushing your teeth properly. He can seem mature beyond his years because of his supportive role in the dorm, and you can sense the mental strain he is under sometimes. At first glance he can appear untrustworthy but he doesnât seem to have hidden intentions behind his words, so do not worry.
â€ïž talks about Trey in Book 1 and his childhood relationship with Riddle and đč says that the scenes with Trey and Riddle towards the end might have turned out differently if they hadnât been able to record together.
Comment from âŁïž on voicing Trey: he says he tries to portray Treyâs calmness but it is difficult to do so while simultaneously not making him sound older than 18. Part of Treyâs charm is how quick-witted he is, so he tries to suggest a hidden complexity through his line readings. He reiterates that there arenât any actual bad intentions though.
â ïž comments on how, since the characters are villains, they all have villainous-looking expressions that they make sometimes, and Treyâs in particular looks very villainous.Â
â€ïž says itâs funny how âŁïž is actually the youngest voice cast member in Heartslabyul, but the character he is voicing is a calm and collected senpai.
â€ïž shares another comment from âŁïž asking how much Trey expects people to brush their teeth before he will be satisfied.
â€ïž wonders if Trey and Cater will be graduating and â ïž says âno I will not let themâ
About Main Story
Book 7 talk~
About In-Game Schedule
Lilia birthday, Samâs New Year Sale, Malleus birthday, Main Story Content~
Twst Fes DVD on sale~
Anime is coming~
End!
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" CAN WE ? " ââ .âŠ
â your boyfriend asks if you want to do a tiktok with him
â pairing : nonidol! wonbin
SIGHING LOUDLY , YOU SLUMPED ON THE COUCH AS YOUR BOYFRIEND LOOKS OVER TO YOU WITH THE REMOTE CONTROLLER IN HIS HAND .
"what's wrong, angel?" he asked as he went closer to you and laid his head on your shoulder.
"i hate watching couples on tiktok... i'm not even angry or jealous but it's so.." you replied and ended off with a sigh. he takes your phone away from your hand and watches the tiktok you had looped on replay.
"oh? wow he's strong." he comments as he scrolled through the audio and comments section.
"do you want to do it?" he asks after watching a few videos as your eyes widened. if it was animated wonbin could've swore he saw sparkles in your eyes.
but your excitement only lasted a while before your face relaxed, "i thought you don't like doing tiktoks..?" you asked as he giggled, "you seem pretty obsessed with this trend... plus, i don't mind. we might even blow up!"
"really..??" you asked with excited eyes once again. you let out the highest pitch of squeals before hugging your boyfriend and tackling him on the couch.
"alright angel, let's do this while my biceps are still rock hard." he joked as you quickly set up your phone stand.
in wonbin's eyes, you were the happiest girl on earth. he loves you so much, to the point where he would do anything and everything for you.
once you were done setting up, "should we test it out first?" you asked as he immediately scooped his arms under your thighs and lifted you onto his shoulder with one arm.
your cheeks were flushed as hell, you were speechless. one hand?? that was super impressive to you. the moment you got down, you hid your face in his chest.
"when did you get this strong, bbinie oh my..." you asked as he giggled and shrugged, pressing the start button as the sound started.
"a guy who's jacked and kind..." the audio started and he lifted you up with one arm, even landing a small kiss to your thighs before smiling widely to the camera.
as soon as the audio stopped, he placed you down and took the phone, the both of you watching intensely before giggling away.
"the audio was right, you are jacked and definitely kind." you mumbled as he landed a kiss on your cheeks, "all for you, angel."
hhs notes! my first riize post hehe, how was it? i got inspiration (@lovhrin) from a writer i saw some time ago!! was struggling between wonbin and sungchan because wow. i could not. pick. goodnight loves!
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You can use a lot of words you know? You don't have to talk yourself around stuff like "It's famous Nazi code for an abbreviation for their popular motto which I won't be repeating here" when you really can just explain that 88 is supposed to represent the Hitler salute because H is the 8th letter in the alphabet? You don't even have to say the words but I mean wouldn't it make more sense to actually explain something instead of vaguely talking around it for some sense of...of what? What's the use in nor calling the thing by it's name? Won't that do more harm than good? I mean if people know they shouldnt do something but don't really know why then they won't take it that serious no?
#sorry very stream of consciousness type of posting (and is there ever any other kind on this blog?)#and if it's about the actual word then you can use those uh#goose feet#the uh#'''''<- those#usually in text you put quotation marks yes thats the word around words with complicated historical connotations#thats how I've been tought at least#I'm not sure if that's how it goes in america but I've been tought that you never use words like the Nazi âthe Jew'' without quotations#because they are historically and socially critical and in a text it would look like you're actually kind of a nazi yourself if you just#threw words around like that#yanno?#i think thats better than not using words because they might me triggering#i will respect it if asked of course but I'm not going to censor myself for the sake of seeming more sanitised or whatever#i hate that kind of trend that seems to be in media nowadays#whatwith unalive and grape and all#we have words for that. use them. do you not hear yourself. ''why are we glorifying corn on paper'' do you not feel shame writing like that?#it's all very. idk#almost performative it feels like#you know how I mean?#we're not going to say the evil evil words because people might be triggered (as if they'd be less triggered if you added one letter i don't#quite think thats how reading works) but are we actually going to fill the shoes we want to walk in and take the same attitudes#away from the Instagram comment section on a video of someone talking about zeus the mystical figure being depicted as attractive and#acusing them of glorifying a rapist when yeah no the guy was considered attractive can we stop conflating good looks with moriality can we#all just think?#like normal people?#some things you're just meant to be grossed out by why are we trying to make everything seem soft and harmless#''hes a pdf file'' grow a pair will you and talk in a way people will actually understand it's actually good if you're a little upset#by the idea of someone grooming kids that's a good response to have why are we tryinh to minimise that?#this got a tad beavy you don't have tk read until.here but if you did I'm sorry#I'm barely even awake i don't do well like tjis
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I just think that the main barrier to being good at a lot of different things isn't about that you couldn't be good at it, it's about time, and it's about affording equipment and materials
It's gonna be a lot harder to find the time for even one hobby if you're working full time, and make no mistake, there's a real problem of getting what you need to actually work on stuff
#that's why if I ever did make videos about carving; I think I'd try to stick to just my knife and my gouge; cause that's 90% of what I use#one carving knife and a medium sized flat gouge will do a lot for you; I like my skew and such; but those two are what I need#I even have a feeling you could get by with an exacto (not nearly as good; but the point would be budget)#not sure what you'd use for the gouge#but if I did do videos I might look into it; would be kind of nice to be able to say 'it's not what I'd do; but he's a broke technique'#like... part of why I would only want to put out free stuff and no like... paid courses (which are fine)#is cause I'm used to being broke; that's who I want to help out; the poor fools like me#cause even people I like with woodworking on youtube who are about doing it on a budget... they still say to drop a fair bit of mint on it#and that's more for furniture making; but... love to do that some day too#and you know how I talk about stuff you know making it easier to do other stuff; there's a lot I think I could tackle with my knife#like... I'd like to once again kind of challenge myself if I did get into that#like what can I make with a dirt cheap saw; an exacto; and whatever I find for a gouge#how cheap can I make this to do?#And can I make it something they can do even if they don't have space?#like can I make it so they could do it over carpet if need be so long as they vacuum?#how unideal can I make things and still have it work? cause I think a lot of us are in very unideal circumstances#and to an extent who I most want to teach are the people who are like I was; in many ways still am#no really money making skills; trouble working for whatever reason; just kind of screwed#and I want to be able to say 'I can't promise you this'll work; but I've made it simple enough maybe you can try it'#'and I'm not saying you'll make money; but at least it's something; and at least it might be fun'#like... I can't recommend woodburing; that kit cost at least $100; think more like $200#that's not cash people have just lying around#I get that even asking to spend like... $5 on a saw; $5 on a blade; $5 on a gouge; and $5 on wood... even if I got it that cheap#I get that sometimes $20 is a big ask#I want to be able to say 'I'm not telling you it'll be your masterpiece; or you might not want to upgrade some of this stuff'#'but here's how you can go to some damn mega corp hardware store and come out with enough stuff to do this with little cash'#hard enough to get started on stuff; I want to lower the barrier to entry to as close to zero as I can#course... that means me getting more of my shit together; mean me building furniture and stuff#can carve at this point of course; though haven't in some time cause gotta get that commission out#not saying I make amazing stuff either; or that I know if I can teach at all
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Freak On The Cam! - C.K.
Synopsis. Choso always loved watching you - his pretty lilâ camgĂrl - from behind the screen. Who knew heâd love being on-screen with you even more?
Pairing. Choso Kamo x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, camgĂrl! reader, spĂtting, Choso has rings and piercings, first times + loss of vĂrginity (Chosoâs), oral (fem receiving), exhĂbitionism, DOWN BAD Choso, cĂșmplay, use of âmaâamâ, Sukuna is a menace, vĂbrators, light jealousy (Chosoâs), some HEINOUS things, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 6.5k
A/N. Meant to post this last week but hehe here we are. Also Iâve GOT to stop using Unc-kuna so much lmao.
âWanna see a movie or do you wanna make one?â
Choso was screwed. Completely and utterly screwed. So badly, in fact, that he might as well just wipe off every trace of himself online and go into hiding - preferably forever.
All because he had been so stupidly careless as to leave his phone unattended for exactly 1 minute and 47 seconds around Sukuna.Â
In the time it took Choso to raid the kitchen for his favorite brand of cereal, his uncle had managed to open his Twitter (because âthatâs where all the juicy stuff isâ), stalk your pretty page at the very top of his last searched, and send a god-awful pick-up line that would probably get him blocked. Or worse.
Damnit, he knew he shouldnât have made his password Yujiâs birthday.
âYa should be thankful I didnât DM her myself, brat.â Sukuna chuckles, not even a shred of regret in his tone, way too amused with how Choso was frantically trying to tackle the phone out of his hands. âWhatâs the harm in asking? Such a pretty camgirl, nâ you look like you need some good pu-â
âSheâs also my classmate.â
âKinky. Even better.âÂ
No, not âeven betterâ. God, this must be some kind of cosmic joke, and Choso just wished the Earth would swallow him up whole right now - and maybe his phone along with it too.Â
It had taken him almost a whole semester to work up the courage to just sit next to you during your shared lecture. All gorgeous with your bright smiles, and your smart mouth. And Choso was very much content to admire you from afar - and from behind his phone screen, of course.
Never following, never liking. Never tipping you off as one of your hundreds of thousands of fans.
And now, not only had Sukuna revealed that heâd found your secret Twitter account - the one with those sinful little clips of yourself that had Choso opening the app way too much - heâd also propositioned you. Like some creep. Â
âUgh. This is why women hate you.â Still desperately grappling, he spits out more to himself than Sukuna at this point. âB-besides, sheâs never even gonna respond any-â
Ping!
And the Itadori household had never been quieter. Never, on a random Saturday during spring break. Never, as the two men crowd the phone, jaws dropped and staring wordlessly at the singular message on screen. You.Â
âLetâs make one ;)â
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âSo sânot a stream this time, jusâ a video. Is that okay?â You hum from your desk, glancing at the man seated on your bed as he hastily nods along with whatever you said. Looking like heâd rather be anywhere but here.Â
Weird.Â
It had only been a few days of back and forth since youâd gotten that first text - the one that youâd honestly thought about blocking like the thousands of others. But there was just something about it that made you stop, something that had you clicking on the profile to delve a little deeper.
It hit you like a semi-truck back then - five of them, in fact - that this was someone in your class. Someone you knew. How the hell did he even find this account?Â
You knew Choso as that sweet - albeit slightly gloomy - kid that sat next to you, always quick with his answers and even quicker to look away from your gaze, no matter how hard you tried to spark a conversation. Youâd just guessed he was afraid of you or something.
So nothing couldâve prepared you for how ridiculously attractive he looked in that profile picture, all smug grins and dark locks falling effortlessly around his slightly smudged eyeliner. Shirtless, giving just a peak of- oh god, were those nipple piercings? Â
Could you really be blamed? You just had to have him.
But, here - it was like he was just itching to run away at the first chance he got.Â
âYouâre not held at gunpoint, yâknow.â you giggle at how he startles at the mere sound of your voice. The mattress dips as you stop fiddling with the camera to sit next to him, thighs flush against his muscled ones. âAre you sure you want-â
âYes.âÂ
It seems that both of you were surprised by the abrupt response. Too quick. Choso clears his throat, cheeks flaring as he tries to dredge up some semblance of dignity, he drawls lightly. âI mean- Yes.â
You study him for a moment under the dim lighting, noting the way his hands clench and unclench in his lap, the way his chest rises and falls rapidly as he struggles to control his breathing. He was nervous. Nervous and horny - nothing quite like the suave impression his pick-up line gave off.Â
But so irresistible just the same.
âWellâŠCho.â you bat your lashes, voice dropping to a seductive whisper - not too heavy, for now at least. âThen why wonât you even look at me?â
Alas, Choso was not a strong man.Â
Maybe at your words, maybe at that playful little nickname you gave him, heâs finally raising those dark eyes to look at you. Twinkling with- fear? anticipation? A flicker of something so dangerous as his gaze sweeps greedily over that tight dress you put on just for this occasion.Â
Choso tries to ignore how sinfully it hugs all your curves. Or the way it would look a million times better on the floor.Â
This was absolute torture.Â
And God he thinks he could pass out right then and there as you lean in closer. Too close. The temperature in the room suddenly increasing by about 10 degrees as you purr, tone careful and balanced. âMuch better. And nowâŠâÂ
His breathing becomes heavier, eyes flickering downwards. Once. Twice.Â
And you know youâve got him in the palm of your hand.Â
â...all you gotta do is touch me.â
Yeah, if Choso thought he was going to pass out before then he definitely wasnât ready for those dangerous little words. Ones that have him shaken right to the core - fighting that urge to just take you how heâs imagined all those lonely nights.
âYou- huh?â he lets out a shaky laugh, the sound strained as he crosses his legs with the subtlety of a sledgehammer, desperately trying to will away the blood rushing straight to his throbbing cock right now.Â
But how could he? Not when you only shift closer, barely even a hairâs breadth between you two - relishing in his strangled gasp as your tits press so enticingly against his arm. Such an adorable pout playing on your lips as you mutter, âDo you not want to?â
And he did. Oh, how he did - has been imagining it for the past five months, in fact. And Choso lets you know, a little twenty times, actually, as the words spill panickedly from his lips.Â
â-idiot trying to set me up and Iâve been dreaming of fucking you for so long but Iâm just-â Heat rushes to Chosoâs cheeks, as he abruptly shuts the fuck up. But itâs too late - the damage has been done.
You give him a wry smile, lips mere inches from his ear. âJust what?â
His breath hitches, muscles rippling so deliciously as he shudders beneath your touch. âIâm a-â Choking out - as if it physically hurts to admit - â-virgin.â
Oh.Â
Now, you mightâve expected many things - but certainly not this. Though, looking at the cute flush on the tips of his ears, all the way down to those big, needy eyes, you donât mind. Not one bit.
With one, quick glance at the rolling camera - your mouth is moving before your mind. âDo you want me toâŠdo something about it?â
And then itâs like something snapped.Â
You donât know who leans in first, just that Chosoâs kissing you. And youâre kissing him - how could you not?Â
Because goddammit it was always those pretty lips that you were staring at whenever he was spouting off answers in class. You just never expected heâd be kissing you back with such an infectious desperation.Â
No sooner are you thinking about how sweet his lips are before heâs pulling away with a soft sigh, pressing hot open-mouthed kisses down your jaw. Your neck. Back to your lips like he wanted everything and anything.
You gasp licks a long, languid stripe up your neck - maybe at how utterly obscene it felt, maybe at that sharp cold feeling that makes you flinch. Fuck - a tongue piercing? The noise makes Chosoâs mouth drop into a quick oh! surging forward to claim your lips again. Addicted.Â
Only to be stopped by your hands cupping his face, letting out a pained grunt at how he was so close. Just a hairâs breadth away from your lips.
âCho~ Open your mouth, baby.â you whisper, hotly.Â
And he looked so pretty - dark hair askew, lower lip swollen and quivering with need, brows furrowing because he wanted more of your taste. But he obeys, of course he does, Choso thinks heâll do anything you asked. And lo and behold, sitting right there in the middle of his tongue was a pretty silver piercing.
You just canât help but thumb open his mouth further, looking him right in the eyes as you spit in his mouth. Once. Twice.Â
âBet no one else has done this before, huh?â Grinning at how sinfully Chosoâs eyes roll to the back of his head at your taste, âKiss me proper now.â
God, you were so good at throwing away whatever was left of his poor sanity. And itâs all thatâs said before his kiss-bitten lips are crashing into yours again.Â
âNo. No oneâs hah- done that before. Only you.â heâs panting into your open mouth, swirling his tongue with yours. âF-fuck only you. Only you only you-â
You barely even realize the way youâre on his lap now, sitting so prettily there that Choso half-deliriously wonders whether he should take a picture. Mind spinning too much with his throbbing erection under your drenched panties, a damp little patch at his fat tip. So hot and heavy already.
âCho, do you want me to-â
âYes, maâam.â
You certainly donât have to be told twice - especially with that little nickname. Fiddling with his belt, youâre so hazy with want - the need to taste Choso, to see if the rest of him was as sweet as his lips - that you almost miss the look of confusion that flashes across his face.
You bat your lashes at him almost-innocently, âYou alright?â And Choso thinks he could cum right there and right now at the sight. If he wasnât currently battling for his life, that is.Â
âYeah, sâjusâ- what I wanted hah- was toâŠâ His hands sneak down, cupping your heated pussy through your drenched panties. â-taste her. â
âOh?â
âAre yâgonna teach me how?â
Oh. Fuck.
You know youâre fucked. Completely and utterly fucked.
Only moments later, Chosoâs wrestling you back onto the mattress, face-to-face with your sloppy pussy. So mean with the way he was pinning your hips down with one hand, all but ripping your panties off with the other.Â
You feel his piercing before his tongue. Both the hot and cold so maddening on your cunt as Choso licks long, lazy stripes up your puffy folds - dragging his hot tongue all the way from your base. Just grazing your swollen clit.Â
âTeach me- fuck fuck-â words muffled and slurring together, vibrations going straight to your pussy. âUse me. Use me how you want.â
Youâre threading your fingers through his dark locks before you even realize it, grinding your sloppy cunt all over his waiting mouth. âQuirk your tongue like- ngh-â Angling him close enough so he bullies his soft tongue into your tight pussy. Piercing massaging all the right places. âFuck-â
âLike this?â
âSh-shit,â you gasp, nodding deliriously. âSâtoo ngh- good.â
And by God, did you mean it.Â
âYeah? Yâlike this?â heâs groaning, wrapping his lips around your swollen clit. âCan feel you clenching around me. Shit shit shit, you love this, huh? So slutty on camera for it?âÂ
Getting wetter and wetter by the second as his tongue roams for that one-
âOh! F-fuck, Cho. Right hngh- there. Deeper-â
Ah, found it.
Choso grins as you tug on his soft strands, you can feel it on your throbbing pussy. Pushing your legs all the way till theyâre at your tits to hit that little spot each and every time. Again and again. Eyes glassy, torn between devouring that slutty expression on your face and how fucking drenched you were.Â
âShit, baby,â his words are so strained now, like his sanity was dancing away at each flick of his tongue. âYouâre drooling everywhere. See? Show the camera now.â
You donât have to look. Because you can feel it.
Can feel how wet his mouth is, just glistening with slick and saliva. Trailing all the way down his chin - to his wrist - only second to how sloppy your dripping cunt was. It was like he was getting messy on purpose, like a little reminder to himself that shit this was you and he was eating out your pretty cunt to insanity-
âOh my god, think mâhooked.â Tongue dragging all over your swollen folds, catching on his piercing. âThink your pretty lilâ pussyâs hah- driving me crazy. Ruined me, Fuck-â
And itâs so embarrassing how heâs talking you through it, grinning at every lilâ whine and whimper that leaves your mouth. You were acting all shy right now in a way that makes Chosoâs cock twitch so painfully. He barely even notices, though, with the way he was so drunk off your pussy.Â
So messy - unable to decide between rolling his tongue over your ravaged clit and dipping into your sloppy hole. Too much. In and out in and-
âFaster.â
He goes faster.Â
âH-harder.â
He goes harder.
Anything and everything for you - to keep those pretty moans falling from your lips, walls getting tighter and tighter around his tongue. And Choso might just consider himself a man addicted.
âCan you ngh- cum fâme, baby?â You flinch as he spits out the words into your cunt. Harsh. Fucked-out. Sounding just as delirious and breathless as you. âCum fâme please. Wanâ to taste yâon my tongue. Please. Fuck- need it so bad. So bad.â
Youâre so caught up in Chosoâs pussydrunk little babbles that you barely even realize when youâre cumming. Just that youâre letting out a strangled scream of his name, dragging your sloppy pussy all over his mouth.Â
And he has never seemed more blissed out. Long gone is that nervous little expression usually on his face around you, Choso looked like he could be suffocated in-between your legs right now and love it. Hope for it, even.
He tells you that, of course. As soon as youâre blinking back your vision, blood still roaring in your ears. Delicate strings of slick snapping where he parts from your quivering cunt, lips swollen and glossed so prettily with your sweet sweet juices.Â
âBaby, yâthink the video of lesson one came out good?â
Oh. Shit, what have you done?
---
That certainly wasnât the last time you saw Choso - or the last time you had him in front of a camera, either.
A few weeks later, you found yourself with an entire album for the man - a hidden treasure trove under the simple name of âCho <3â. Most of the videos favorited, all sorted so tediously in a way that showed you spent an obscene amount of time looking at all the ways he ruined you.Â
So filthy on camera that you always wondered whether it was the same person in the sheets and in class, texting Choso for later. Just to confirm.Â
But embarrassingly, only some of these videos made their way onto your Twitter account - with Chosoâs pretty face largely out of the frame. The two of you hadnât ventured into streams yet either, opting to hide him away. Because, okay, maybe you were slightly jealous of other people seeing him - but it was really hard not to be when he looked like that.
In spite of all that, youâd still gained a casual hundred thousand more followers since his appearance - ones who always commented on your solo streams asking where your âhot emo bfâ was.
Comments youâd pointedly ignore, because, hell, you wished he was here on-stream helping you get off, too. Yet despite the endless flirting and videos, Choso actually hadnât made it further than actually holding a full conversation with you. And you wanted more.Â
For all you know, you might just be one of his many trysts - and it was just for the videos, right? You get the content, he gets the experience? A win-win situation, so why have you never felt more like such a loser?
Such a loser the way youâve already lost count of the âlessonsâ but still havenât gotten to feel him - to fuck him the way you wanted just yet.Â
âSâalright if I take this, right, maâam?â He smirks during one such session, knuckle-deep in your dripping cunt. Dangling your drenched panties like a badge of honor, flimsy and soaked with your sweet sweet juices. âSâalright if I-â And he canât even finish the sentence. Your jaw drops as Choso raises the thin fabric to his face, breathing in your essence like a man possessed.Â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âYouâre so filthy, Cho-â you manage to choke out once you find your voice. Squirming on his bed like such a slut for him. âWas the innocent thing just an act?â
âNope.â he pops the p, licking lewd little circles on your neck, thumbing open your puffy folds to watch in amazement at the way you glisten and clamp around his fingers. Eyes flickering briefly to the recording phone in his hand. âBut we gotta give âem a good show, huh?â
Right, youâd forgotten about the camera. But none of that matters anyway because-
Intensity setting 2.
âYouâre so mean, too.â
âAm I?â he grins, teeth grazing along your racing pulse. âI think you taught that to me, baby. Shit, lesson 8 it was?â
God, he was addictive.
Chosoâs having way too much fun playing around with the intensity setting of the bullet vibrator shoved inside your ravaged cunt. Sending quick, methodical vibrations all along your pulsing clit. In time with the breathless moans leaving your kiss-bitten lips, and itâs all you can to call out for- more? Mercy? Both?Â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âGod, youâre so perfect. Shit, so messy fâme.â he groans, and you could tell that the video wasnât going to be uploaded anyway. Too shaky, focusing in and out of Chosoâs fingers. Knuckle-deep and pumping in and out of your filthy hole. Relentless. âAlmost makes me wanna show off to an actual audience.â
âMaybe I want to, too.â you muse, shifting at his heated gaze. Dangerously pressing your thumb over those nipple piercings youâve gotten to know so well lately - as if to support your point. God you wish heâd take off that snug shirt.
Intensity setting 3.
âThat so?â
And no matter how many times Chosoâs ruined you on camera - and watched the videos over and over afterwards - he always thought they werenât enough to capture your perfection.Â
âSuch a slut fâme, baby.â To capture the exact moment in which your wet lips fall into a soft little oh! when he massages your walls in time with the pulsing vibrator. To capture that absolutely sinfully excited little glint in your eyes as he ruts his clothed erection against your pussy. âYâalways this dirty?â Quickly turning into a look of slight panic at the sudden jingle of keys from the front door.Â
âYo, brat. Where the fuck are ya?â
Ah, there he was, the reason that Choso usually locked his bedroom door whenever you were over, even if he was home alone.Â
Intensity setting 4.
As the silence continues, so does Chosoâs abuse on your cunt. In fact, he only gets more erratic - like he wanted you to cum. Needed you to cum right now, right here in front of Sukuna, footsteps only growing louder. Nearer.
âCho-â you fight to get out the words. âHeâs hah-.â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âCanât speak? Thatâs cute.â he coos, voice way too relaxed for someone whose mind was reeling with the realization that he couldnât remember if he locked the door this time, and how adorable you sounded. Enough so that it made some raw, primal part of him wanna pull down his pants and fuck you right here right now. Cockblocks and his own virginity be damned. âCâmon now, use your words like a good girl. Tell the camera.â
Cocky bastard.
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âClose!â you yelp, unsure of whether you were talking about yourself or the looming Sukuna. Jaw slack, tears springing into your ears as you look up at Choso. âSo close.â
God, you were addictive. And this video was definitely going in both your favorites.
âMhm,â he hums, movements getting hastier. More desperate. âI know, maâam.â
Intensity setting 5.
Thatâs all that it takes for you to cum, letting out a loud strangled moan of Chosoâs name. Or, you wouldâve - if it hadnât been for the way heâs shoving two, thick fingers into your mouth.
Silencing you - and in your hazy brain you think that if this was his way of shutting you up, then you really didnât mind. Because all you could taste was you and the cold, cold metal of his rings. Somewhat intoxicating.
âShhhhhh.â heâs breathing out, still mindlessly grinding his hips into yours. Though, you realize with a pang that today wonât be the day you get to feel that achingly hard erection straining his pants. âThese pretty moans arenât for him, hm?â
Pressing on the back of your tongue, smirking at the way you nod tearily up at him, moans still muffled. Hell, do you even know how sexy youâre being right now.
âMhm, all fâme. All for fuckinâ me.â
Knock! Knock! Knock!Â
âWhy the fuck are you locked up in here on a Saturday night?â Sukuna sounds impatient, but not surprised. Probably imagining all sorts of dorky things his nephew was doing to hole himself up in his room. âCome out nâ get this takeout- whatâs left of it anyways.â
And with that, itâs like the magic is over.
Your high only just bating before Chosoâs hurriedly ending the recording on a hazy still of your disappointed pout, cursing Sukuna for his impeccable timing.Â
Slightly concerned about the door being broken down and someone else seeing you in all your fucked-out glory, he hastily moves to grab the spare cloth by his bedside. Cleaning you up with hushed promises of âsending the recording laterâ, and âsâalright, heâll be gone soon.â
Close. You were so close.
A win-win situation - but youâve never felt like more of a loser.
---
âBy God, I never thought heâd get the balls to do it.â
You yelp in surprise at the deep voice from behind you, whirling with a defiant brandish of Chosoâs (your?) keys. Heâd given them to you a few lessons ago, saying it would make it easier for you to come and go from his apartment as you pleased. Which - to you - felt dangerously like something a boyfriend would say-
But that wasnât important right now.
What was important was the older man suddenly towering over you right outside Chosoâs front door. Big arms crossed over his chest, that leering smirk clashing with his pink hair. âI knew it was odd that brat had a pair of heels by the door.â
Shit. Sukuna.
Ryomen awfully-wingman-his-nephew Sukuna.
âSpill.â At your confused head tilt, he plows on. âSpill the tea. I need new blackmail on my lilâ nephew. How badly did he have to beg you to go out with him?â
You donât know what was more bizarre - what he was saying or the way he actually pulls out his Notes app as if hanging on to your every word.Â
âI-Itâs because of you.â you manage to choke out, unsure of what Choso has told his family about you. Eyes flitting between him and the door right behind you, sounding your very best not to sound just as guilty as you felt. âYouâre the reason we have this weirdâŠthing.â
A beat of silence passes. One. Two.Â
And just as youâre beginning to wonder whether youâve broken Chosoâs infamous uncle, he throws his head back and laughs. Laughs, right in your face, sounding like heâd just heard the funniest punchline in the world.Â
âOh thatâs hilarious.â he exclaims, wiping a mock tear. Cackles dying down as if he was suddenly aware that maybe Choso would hear and walk in on this impromptu interrogation. âDamn, that awful pick-up line is why you started fuckinâ? I thought itâd get that sap blocked so heâd stop stalking your account so much.â
âNo, weâŠâ you hesitate, mind reeling with what Sukuna just admitted, and how bad it would really be that youâre divulging your sex life to a relative of the guy youâre fucking. Before thinking fuck it, might as well confide in someone. â...weâre just doing stuff for-â putting up air quotes. â-content.â
âJust content?â
âJust content.â
âAnd you like that fool?â
Your face burns at how glaringly obvious it apparently was, â...Yes.â
This seemingly sets Sukuna off on another wave of uncontrollable laughter. âOhh, thanks for the blackmail on that emotionally-constipated brat.â Typing away on what you assume to be his Notes, he promptly turns to walk away, âSee ya around, doll.â
âWait!â you call after in confusion, making him stop and raise a brow. âArenât you supposed to like- I donât know, give me advice for your nephew or something - like a good uncle?â
Scoffing, âWho said I was a good uncle?â He leans in ever-so-slightly, âJusâ rock his world on camera or somethinâ nâ ask him out right in the middle.â Satisfied with being enough of a decent samaritan for today, he walks back with a half-wave, âHeâd listen to whatever you say anyway.â
Oh. Is that so?
And Sukuna probably meant it as some joke. Something to tease the both of you with - but itâs something that sets the gears going off inside your head. Something that had you ignoring Sukunaâs slightly panicked, âJusâ not too soon, I needa bully him with this first.â
---
You didnât listen to Sukunaâs little plea, of course. Because only a few days later youâd steeled yourself to finally send that one text you knew would change your relationship with Choso. For the good, hopefully.Â
You: 9pm my place. Get ready, cuz this time weâre gonna be live ;)
Cho <3: :0Â
And with that, youâd thrown your phone on the bed, jittery about later tonight. Browsing through your wardrobe for that one set of barely-there lingerie in his favorite shade of pink. Hey, you could never be too prepared, right?
Nothing couldâve prepared Choso for this moment - absolutely nothing at all.Â
He mightâve just died and gone to heaven the very moment he read that dangerous text - finally inviting him to join one of your streams. The ones that heâd always watch in the safety of his bedroom, lights dimmed, pants bunched around his ankles.Â
Cock just achingly hard in his fist while he wished he was with you behind the camera. Getting you off so much better than any sextoy would. Just forcing those pretty moans from your lips - and everyone else could see that. Wish it was them ruining you instead.Â
Alas, it was only a dirty little fantasy.Â
Until now, that is.
slvt4u: Holy shit boyfriend reveal, about time.
uniwhore: THIS is the hottie from Twitter?????Â
itsgenslut: idfc just fuck
âNervous?â you smirk, looking down at the man sprawled so prettily on your bed. âYou look just as close to an aneurysm as you were the first time. Though-â snaking your hand down, â-this is still the same as ever.â
You chuckle at the way Choso catches your lips with his, more to shut up those pathetic little moans threatening to escape him than anything. Because every glance at you in that sinful little pink bra gave Choso a mini heart attack.Â
âB-baby-â he gasps, grinding his clothed erection against your palms. âI wan- hah-â
âMhm?â
And God how youâve ruined Choso - run him so utterly dry of his sanity.
Because heâs angling your head down, piercing cold against your tongue. âSpit.â
It was like that first time had gotten him addicted. So you do - right into his waiting mouth. Jaw dropping at the way he tips his head back, back, back to let it slide so obscenely down his throat. Moaning at just a taste of you, âGod, I need to f-fucking ruin you.â
And if thereâs anything youâve learned after all these months with Choso, itâs that anything he says - he does.
The words have barely left his mouth before heâs pulling your bra off, ripping your panties easily off your hips. Each and every little regret about what a shame it was thrown out the window at the first sight of your pretty pussy.Â
It never gets old - and Choso could never get enough of the sinful sight - your cunt so sloppy and ready for him already.Â
âCho-â you whine as ringed fingertips coming up to circle your sloppy entrance. Cold. Stretching you to insanity. âS-stop teasing.â
âYes, maâam. But first-â shifting you around ever-so-slightly on top of him. âGotta show off how wet yâare fâme.â
uniwhore: did he just call her âmaâamâ?? Me when??
roses101: idk who i wanna be theyâre both so fucking hot ugh
âFuck, yâlook so sexy from this angle. Wonder if the camera thinks so too?â
Your face slightly burns at how he was seemingly taking over your own stream. Smug bastard, you think, glancing down at Choso, red-faced, hair untied, wearing a sly grin as his eyes slide over the flurry of comments. But two can play that game.Â
âCho~â fumbling with the hem of his underwear, âYouâve been holding out on me.â
A gasp leaves you involuntarily as you tug down Chosoâs boxers just enough for his throbbing cock to spring free, hitting his sculpted abdomen. Blushed your favorite shade of pink - to match your bra - so so angry and soaked in precum.Â
He was so intimidatingly long - longer than any of those toys you usually brought on camera. Thick enough that it had you wondering, shit, would you even be able to take it?
âSâthis a-alright?â and for all his previous confidence, Choso sounded self-conscious. Peeking at you through his long lashes.
You grin, pumping a hand up and down his swollen cock, letting his precum drip down your wrist. âSâperfect.â
âGod- fuck, baby. Oh-â Choso lets out breathless little profanities as you straddle his waist, dragging his weeping tip down your swollen folds. So fucking filthy as you sink down in by fucking in. Slowly. âToo- much-â
Apparently too slow because no sooner have you just taken in his fat tip, squeezing and clenching around him, that Chosoâs flipping the both of you over.Â
âMâsorry.â he breathes into your mouth as your back hits the mattress. âMâsorry mâsorry, fuck- just canât-â fingers immediately drawing frenzied little circles on your pulsing clit to take your mind off the dizzying stretch as he bullies his massive cock into your snug cunt. âCanât wait canât wait- waited too fucking long. Want this so badly-â
You felt too good. Too perfect around him.Â
âAh! Hngh- Cho, oh my god. Too- ngh-â you moan, as he starts grinding in shallow, mindless little movements just to fit himself inside. Pushing and pushing, you wondered if he even realized what he was doing.
Sounding like his sanity was dwindling away with each little thrust, âSâtoo big? You can take it. Fuck fuck fuck please. Need this.â Pressing all the way into your lungs. âHow do you wanâ it- how do you wanâ me?â
Honestly, Choso didnât even need to ask, because he just bottoms out - heavy balls smacking against your ass, cock swollen and throbbing inside you - that you think that you just wanted him to ruin you.Â
âR-ruin?â his voice breaks as he repeats - more to himself than you. Oh, shit had you said that out loud? Youâre speechless as Choso throws your legs over his shoulder, dragging his swollen lips lazily across your ankle. âYes maâam.â
Oh. You might as well have just signed off your will.Â
Because then heâs fucking into your sloppy cunt. Unforgiving. A man starved because he was. Jagged, quick thrusts, splitting you apart deeper and deeper on his rock-hard cock.Â
âFuck- fuck fuck fuck-â he pants into your open mouth, finding it so fucking difficult to find any rhythm when your tight cunt was milking him so good. âYou feel so good. So messy. Ya love it like this, huh? Being hngh- watched?â
âHngh-â you buck wildly into his body, reaching up to play coyly with his nipple piercings. Tugging and pulling lightly. âFeels too good- are- ah- are ya sure this is your first time?â
Honestly, it was a wonder Choso didnât cum right then and there.Â
Tojisslvt: need someone to fuck me like this the first time
22sabi: Typing with one hand is so hard.
DaStrongest: i could fuck her so much better than than inexperienced loser
Choso throws his head back in a cruel little laugh at that last comment, something that makes you tingle all the way from your burning cheeks to your stuffed cunt. Clamping down deliciously on Chosoâs unforgiving cock in a way that makes his hips and fingers stutter.Â
âYa think you could fuck her better?â it takes you a second to realize he was talking to the camera and not you. Thrusts getting sloppier, getting familiar. âIâm the one that got her so messy like this.â Purposeful. Calculated. Like he was aiming for that one-
âFuck!â you scream as he hits that magic spot. Once. And then over and over like a man possessed. Just so utterly ruining you the way you knew he could. âCho oh my god- I canât hah- ngh-â
The cold metal of Chosoâs rings dig into your cheek softly as he turns you head to face him. God, this was the stuff of his wildest dreams.
You - teary eyed and looking up at him like such a slut. Pussy getting wetter - tighter - as he teases you in front of the camera. Torn between running away from his relentless cock and bucking up for more more more-
 âFuck no no no- Keep your legs open, baby. Donât hah- run away from me.â his fingers dig into your hips, pulling you impossibly closer. âDonât- need this. Need this so ba- shit.âÂ
And he sounded so genuinely worried heâd lose the feeling of your heady cunt. Fingers bruising on your hips as he pulls you closer. Like he was trying to fuck out any and every shred of shyness out of your body.Â
slvt4u: Always the quiet ones.
DaStrongest: heh, fuck off. iâd make her cum so much harder.
Now, Choso was fucking you like he had a point to prove, and it was probably the only reason he hadnât passed out from how good your pussy felt wrapped around him.Â
Both of you were barely-lucid at this point - and he was out of control now.
Pussy drunk thoughts unfiltered, âNo oneâs ever d-done this- got me hah- feeling like this.â And you had the distinct feeling he just beat you to your original goal, letting out sweet little babbles into your open mouth - though his hips were anything but.Â
So hard that you were sure the creases of your sheets would leave marks for tomorrow - along with his balls on your ass, your ankles on his shoulders, lips searing against yours. It was like he wanted to prove something - to prove he was good enough to- the viewers? To you?Â
Knowing your body well enough to hit that one spot over and over until you were sobbing. Fingers erratic on your clit.Â
âCho-â you squeal, tears springing to your eyes as he only gets sloppier. âI-Iâm gonna-â
âCum?â he breathes, as if he couldnât believe it. And fuck if you werenât the gates of heaven spread wide open for him then he didnât know what was. âFucking cum. Please please- hah- fâme. Cum on mâcock nâ make them jealous. Fâme- Like youâre mine.â
You barely even realize when you are. Jaw slack, eyes rolling to the back of your head as you see stars behind your eyes, blood roaring in your ears. God, he was gonna have to go home and rewatch this stream all over again.Â
âNgh- mâcumming mâcumming oh-â
Not even realizing the way youâre dragging your nails down Chosoâs sculpted back. Marking up his milky skin - and he lets you.Â
Loved it in fact- the way he loved you.Â
Your eyes go wide, and Choso knows heâs fucked up. Realizing with a jolt that words were tumbling out of his mouth before he could stop them. But itâs the way you squeeze him tighter- giving him such a gorgeous little fucked-out smile that sends him over the edge.
Sharp canines digging into the crook of your neck like he wanted to break skin, holding himself back from breaking you while he cums and cums so hard it hurt. Over and over-
âLove you- love you love you love you-â heâs muttering into the skin, unbarred. âSince I first saw hah- you. Wanted this more than fuck fuck- air that I breathe.â
His seed was oozing out of you now, painting your ravaged pussy white, dribbling down your legs. So fucking full and debauched. Thick, hot globs that were sure to stain those overpriced new sheets. But did Choso care for the mess? Not at all.Â
Because you were holding him so impossibly tight, pushing away the strands of hair sticking to his forehead. Whispering little praises as he fucks you through his first time. Close. Warm. Everything he ever dreamed of.
âSâeverything I ever dreamed of, too, Cho.â
And he knows heâs won.Â
urfavslvt: Proudest nut. Want more.
uniwhore: does this mean couples content??? Pls say yes plsplspls
DaStrongest: invite me next time <3
âThought you were embarrassed.â he licks soothingly over the bite. Voice shot, piercing smooth against his tongue. Embarrassing little confessions leaving him with each spark of electricity running through his veins. âThought you didnât stream wâme cuz of that- but shit. Dreamed of this fâso long. So long-â
Oh?
âHey, Cho.â your voice rings through his hazy mind. Just enough for Choso to raise his head and meet your intoxicating, sultry gaze. Giving a sly, sidelong glance at the still-blinking camera.Â
âMhm?â
âWanna film a weekâs worth of âmoviesâ in advance?â
---
Sukuna (do not answer): Oi shitty nephew, where r u Jin made me come over with (half) leftovers.
You: Sorry, not home. At the movies rn.
Sukuna (do not answer): When tf do u go to movies??Â
You: Since now, on a date. You probably canât relate.
Sukuna (do not answer): Stfu nâ stop lying, a date with who? Ur body pillow?? Not like u had the balls to ask out that pretty lilâ camgirl anyway.
Haha
Right?Â
You: *girlfriend
Sukuna (do not answer): Huh?
You: Girlfriend.
Sukuna (do not answer): THE FUCKINâ PICK-UP LINE WORKED??
A/N. This came out a LOT longer than expected.Â
Plagiarism not authorized.
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My timeloop RPG In Stars and Time is done! Which means I can clear all my ISAT gamedev related bookmarks. But I figured I would show them here, in case they can be useful to someone. These range from "useful to write a story/characters/world" to "these are SUPER rpgmaker focused and will help with the terrible math that comes with making a game".
This is what I used to make my RPG game, but it could be useful for writers, game devs of all genres, DMs, artists, what have you. YIPPEE
Writing (Names)
Behind The Name - Why don't you have this bookmarked already. Search for names and their meanings from all over the world!
Medieval Names Archive - Medieval names. Useful. For ME
City and Town Name Generator - Create "fake" names for cities, generated from datasets from any country you desire! I used those for the couple city names in ISAT. I say "fake" in quotes because some of them do end up being actual city names, especially for french generated ones. Don't forget to double check you're not 1. just taking a real city name or 2. using a word that's like, Very Bad, especially if you don't know the country you're taking inspiration from! Don't want to end up with Poopaville, USA
Writing (Words)
Onym - A website full of websites that are full of words. And by that I mean dictionaries, thesauruses, translators, glossaries, ways to mix up words, and way more. HIGHLY recommend checking this website out!!!
Moby Thesaurus - My thesaurus of choice!
Rhyme Zone - Find words that rhyme with others. Perfect for poets, lyricists, punmasters.
In Different Languages - Search for a word, have it translated in MANY different languages in one page.
ASSETS
In general, I will say: just look up what you want on itch.io. There are SO MANY assets for you to buy on itch.io. You want a font? You want a background? You want a sound effect? You want a plugin? A pixel base? An attack animation? A cool UI?!?!?! JUST GO ON ITCH.IO!!!!!!
Visual Assets (General)
Creative Market - Shop for all kinds of assets, from fonts to mockups to templates to brushes to WHATEVER YOU WANT
Velvetyne - Cool and weird fonts
Chevy Ray's Pixel Fonts - They're good fonts.
Contrast Checker - Stop making your text white when your background is lime green no one can read that shit babe!!!!!!
Visual Assets (Game Focused)
Interface In Game - Screenshots of UI (User Interfaces) from SO MANY GAMES. Shows you everything and you can just look at what every single menu in a game looks like. You can also sort them by game genre! GREAT reference!
Game UI Database - Same as above!
Sound Assets
Zapsplat, Freesound - There are many sound effect websites out there but those are the ones I saved. Royalty free!
Shapeforms - Paid packs for music and sounds and stuff.
Other
CloudConvert - Convert files into other files. MAKE THAT .AVI A .MOV
EZGifs - Make those gifs bigger. Smaller. Optimize them. Take a video and make it a gif. The Sky Is The Limit
Marketing
Press Kitty - Did not end up needing this- this will help with creating a press kit! Useful for ANY indie dev. Yes, even if you're making a tiny game, you should have a press kit. You never know!!!
presskit() - Same as above, but a different one.
Itch.io Page Image Guide and Templates - Make your project pages on itch.io look nice.
MOOMANiBE's IGF post - If you're making indie games, you might wanna try and submit your game to the Independent Game Festival at some point. Here are some tips on how, and why you should.
Game Design (General)
An insightful thread where game developers discuss hidden mechanics designed to make games feel more interesting - Title says it all. Check those comments too.
Game Design (RPGs)
Yanfly "Let's Make a Game" Comics - INCREDIBLY useful tips on how to make RPGs, going from dungeons to towns to enemy stats!!!!
Attack Patterns - A nice post on enemy attack patterns, and what attacks you should give your enemies to make them challenging (but not TOO challenging!) A very good starting point.
How To Balance An RPG - Twitter thread on how to balance player stats VS enemy stats.
Nobody Cares About It But Itâs The Only Thing That Matters: Pacing And Level Design In JRPGs - a Good Post.
Game Design (Visual Novels)
Feniks Renpy Tutorials - They're good tutorials.
I played over 100 visual novels in one month and hereâs my advice to devs. - General VN advice. Also highly recommend this whole blog for help on marketing your games.
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KENJI SATO â° 10:43
âWorking overtime really doesnât suit you, Sato.â The teasing sentence made Kenji grunt in disapproval, slumping against his couch.
âWow, I didnât notice. Thank you for that valuable input, [Name],â he says, rolling his eyes at you.Â
He canât help the sarcastic reply. Kenjiâs schedule was all over the place. His life has been all over the place ever since his return to his home country, Japan. And now he not only has to take care of himselfâwhich, in his defense, was fairly simple when he just had to worry about himselfâhe has to worry about an infant Kaiju!
What a wonderful (not) icing on the cake.
âKen is really appreciative that you made time to fulfill his request, or, shall I say, cry for help, [Name].â Minaâs familiar voice flurried from a distance, closing in to your right in a breeze.Â
âHey! It was not a cry for helpâitâs more like a... Asking a friend for a favor,â Kenji says, trying to ease his brain with whatâs coming out of his mouth (like it was on autopilot, scrambling to defend himself and the pride he had left).
âUh huh. And the favor is? I donât really think thereâs anything I could do to her containment unit or any repairs thatâre needed in this place.â
âI just need someone to watch over her.â
(âI just need someone to talk toâ is a much fitting phrase.)
âDoesnât Mina already do that?â
âThereâs only so much a supercomputer like me can do to entertain a living being, [Name].â
On cue, Emi croons at the video of you singing on stage. A part time career of yours, because when youâre not developing new tech that boosts the economy, you might as well indulge in your hobbies.Â
Kenji wouldnât admit it, but he has a vinyl or twoâor even a whole collection of themâthat he considers as priceless as his one-of-a-kind sports car displayed in the basement.
âWould you look at that? She likes your singing.âÂ
He watches as you take a step closer to Emi, observing how she delightedly squealed at the soft melody being played on the holograms. This 20-foot-tall baby Kaiju reminded you of the time you took care of children at the daycare center.
âI just...â he sighs. You didnât even notice that Kenji was already beside you, offering you a canned drink.Â
âHow do you do it? Juggle everything?â He murmurs. âYouâre the busiest person I know. Working on your thesis, performing at various concerts, taking on charity work, and whatnot. Hell, if you could run for president, Iâm sure Iâll be seeing you in the elections, too.â
A quiet laugh was returned. âItâs not easy, thatâs for sure. But within time, youâll learn just what you need and what you can handle.â
âMm. Donât you ever just want to run away from all the responsibilities people place on your shoulders? I can barely take care of this young lady,â he chuckles, though it doesnât hold even the slightest ounce of humor to it.
âI wish, but then Iâll remember the kids who're so happy to see me whenever I drop by,â you say. âThey may be a handful at times, but youâll be surprised to know just how smart and caring they are. How they take in their surroundings and attempt to figure out who they are. Weâre all what they have. The least we could do is give them our time and love all the same.â
Kenji lets your words sink in. Simple and touching. The kind that gets the gears in his head to start twisting.
âYou really are a charm with your words; did you know that?â Â
âThanks; I try my best.â
The night continues with Kenji and Emi playing baseball on a simulated field with you by the shed, cheering on from a safe distance. Kenji doesnât remember the last time heâs been this genuinely happy after his return to Japan. Itâs a refreshing feeling that he wants to get used to again. To see the baby Kaiju successfully hit the ball with a swift swing after watching after him is a sight that tugs at oneâs heartstrings.
Just like a proud father.
âCome on, girl! We gotta run the bases!â
And as the two celebrate their moment of triumph, the baby Kaiju stomps toward you and giggles happily as she hoists you in the air without much warning. You took it all in you not to shriek and absolutely lose all composure, but when youâre up in the air and are being held to a bear hug like some sort of teddy bear by a Kaiju that could probably crush your bones if not careful, itâs hard to not just scream for your life.
âOh, okâok. Baby, put me down gently, please,â you chuckle nervously.Â
âIt appears that the little one sees you as her other mother,â Mina adds.
Kenji laughs at the sight, pulling out his phone to take a picture. This is definitely a memory heâd want to remember.
âThis is not funny, Kenji. Tell her to put me down.â
âAw, is Baby not listening to her Mommy?â
âAgain, not funny. This is like an out-of-the-blue co-parenting a child with you. With you being my annoying ex-husband.â
âSpecific, eh?â
âShut!â
When youâre just about to leave for the night, Kenji suggests that you sleep over. Thereâs a lot of spare bedrooms in their manor, he reasons. He also doesnât understand what came over him to offer, but he doesnât take it back.
But it could be because heâs missed you. And heâs somewhat afraid that this may be the last time you see each other in a while due to your clashing schedules.
âYouâre such a girl dad, Kenji,â you tease.
âHaha, good one,â he says, rolling his eyes at you. He took a couple of blankets from the closet and placed them on the bed.
âJust saying.â
âWhatever you say, Mommy.â
âOh hush, Daddy.â
That ringed out a laugh from him. âBleh, that sounds so embarrassing coming from you.â
You shrugged. âHm? Donât you think youâre embarrassing too?â
âIâm not.â
âAre too.â
âAm not.â
âAre too. I will not be going back and forth like this with you anymore, Kenji Sato. Good night!â
Kenji canât hide the smile that appears on his face. Yeah, he definitely missed this.Â
Definitely missed you.
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So about the Battle Subway Trains
Hi, I love trains! And the Trains in Unova have a surprising amount of detail? And nobody talks about it? And if I don't talk about it I will explode!?!!!
So despite Unova being inspired by New York you'd think the Battle Subway Trains would be based on The New York Subway Trains? However they look like they are more based on Japanese Railway Trains!
I'd like to preface before going into this that despite talking a lot about the Japanese Railway, I am not Japanese, while I did my best to research as best I can, some stuff may fly over my head, I also used an online translator for some information so it might not be 100% accurate.
Alrighty lets get into this! This is mainly for fun and its going to be under the Read More because it is verrrrrrrrry long, I hope that you enjoy!
If you aren't aware, each train in the Battle Subway has lore! All the lore comes from this Worker NPC on the bridge in Anville Town. Depending on the day, a different train will show up on the turntable, and he'll give you a little dialogue for that train! This dialogue is what I'll be mainly analyzing :]
Single and Anville Town Trains:
"This is a Single Train! It's the oldest train in the Battle Subway. It's for a loop line to go around the Unova region! Do you know Tubeline Bridge? The train that runs on it is this Single Train."
"As you know, this is a local train to Anville Town! Isn't it just so cute? This one is a little slow and heavy. When it runs, the whole train sways. The train car is the same model as a Single Train. Because it is an old train car, I hear the maintenance is hard, but it's the one I always ride, because I loved it as a kid!"
So! The Single and Anville Town Trains are the same model of train, you can actually see this in their designs where they both share the same face but they differ in the livery. (Livery is a term referring to the train's decor/color, the color is often associated with a particular company or in this case a particular train line.) I'm going to use this fact to assume that if one train has one feature, then it's likely that the other train also has that same feature. Such as how the description of the Anville Town Train says it sways as it runs, if that is the case then the Single Train also probably sways. (which sounds kind of awful to battle on, unless you have good train legs I suppose X_X)
It is stated that the Single Train is the oldest in the Battle Subway. I believe though, that it means the oldest train that is currently running in the Battle Subway. As there is another train that seems much older and no longer running, but I'll get to that train much much later.
Older trains are indeed harder to maintain, and expensive too. This is because the older the equipment, the harder it is to get its parts as they become more obsolete. Though I will say this, trains can last a long time! The average service life of a train is about 30-50 years, it really varies from train to train. These trains would most likely be on the older side.
There is a slight possibility that it has been continued to be maintained past it service life. Given how fond the Worker NPC talks about the train, it might have high sentimental value. Therefore if it is past its service life, it has not been scrapped or recycled yet because of it. I doubt this is the case though, usually it is never worth the maintenance cost (especially for regular operation.)
Like the description says, you can see the Single Train running on the Tubeline Bridge, here's a video of it! Apologies for the way I am recording this, I don't exactly have a capture card, but I wanted to show you guys regardless
You can see how fast the train is going as it passes below you! At least the just Singles Train anyways, seems to me like it's going about 20-30mph? I tried doing math to find the exact speed but that's difficult for several reasons (no idea how large a "tile" in Pokemon really is and objects in the overworld are not very accurate in size so I can't exactly do any comparisons. The perspective of the camera also makes it tricky.) Given how the Anville Train is described as "slow and heavy", I would hazard a guess to say that the other trains of the Battle Subway may run faster than this.
You can also see that each train is made up of 7 cars as it passes below you if you slow down the footage. Which is not surprising, you have to win 7 battles in a row to complete a "set" where you are then dropped off at a rest stop. I believe the Battle Subway trains to be electrical multiple units (EMUs) so it would probably make them 7-car sets.
It also looks like the Singles Line is very busy with the trains only being seconds apart! Now I know this is more a visual thing so the environment would be interesting to look at, but I'd like to think it indicates that the Battle Subway/Singles Line is very popular! (and very well organized!)
As for Real life train inspirations I think perhaps the Tobu 10030 series?
The Tobu 10030 is a version of the Tobu 10000 series with some minor changes, such as the design of the face and using a bolsterless bogie. (Bogie is a part of the train that refers to a frame that holds sets of wheels as well as the suspension, breaks, etc. in which the body of the train car rests upon.)(A bolster is a part that connects the side frames of the bogie and the underside of the car's central pivot point.)(A bolsterless bogie is a bogie type that doesn't have a bolster). The front of the train is covered in fiber reinforced plastic and the outer panels are "bead molded" (which... I have no clue what that means...) This series has been going under renovations since 2010.
Double Train:
"This car is a Double Train! This is a mass-produced car from a decade ago! Compared to a Single Train, the number of parts was reduced so it could be built for a lower cost. The number of parts influences the budget and construction time. The streamlined and beautiful design of the Double Train is still valued today."
So the Double Train is at least 10 years old! (That's what decade means!) Honestly though, I think the Double Train might be older than 10, in Japanese the description just says that it is a "mass-produced train from a long time ago" and doesn't mention a number... Another reason is that in the Multi Train description, it mentions that it is a test model for future trains that will replace the Double Trains. Which means perhaps that the Double Trains may be reaching near the end of its service life, which again average 30-50 years. It could be a possibility that this train may have a shorter service life than usual, who knows. This all speculation really.
As for lowering the amount of parts, from what I found it makes the train lighter. It would also probably lower the cost as well like the description says (trains are really really expensive to build! EMUs can cost $2mil-$10mil per car!)
It also mentions that it is a mass-produced car! It's a train made with mass production for commercial purposes! I believe it's usually for train lines that are really busy, where they would need a lot of trains? It typically means that there are a lot of them. (All this makes me wonder about train production in the Pokemon World...)
As for Real life inspirations, I think that the Double Train is inspired by the Tokyu 1000 series train.
The Tokyu 1000's design and equipment is similar to another train, the Tokyu 9000 series, with improvements such as improved handling and making it easier to do inspection and repair work. As well as reducing the amount of spare parts from the Tokyu 9000.
Multi Train:
"This car is a Multi Train! Few cars of this model were produced. This is a test car to develop future mass-produced cars that will replace the old Double Trains. The technology born during the creation of this train car made the Super Single Train and Super Double Train possible!"
The multi train is a test/prototype train! A little surprised that an entire line is running off a few prototypes. Like the description says, not many are produced as the purpose of a prototype is to test features and improve upon them if needed before they are put into mass production. Given that it says the technology from this train was the reason the Super Single and Super Double Train was made possible. I'm thinking it was most likely testing some eco friendly features? As it is the Super Single and Super Double Train's main feature.
Perhaps them using a model with so few trains means that the Multi line isn't that busy/popular? (Surprising then the train platform is not swarming with more train photographers haha!)
As for real life inspirations, while the livery may not be the same I think it could be the Keisei 3000 (2nd Generation.)
The Keisei 3000's body is made of lightweight stainless steel and the passenger doors have a paper honeycomb structure. When they were designing this train, they wanted it to be both environmentally (energy saving) and customer friendly (being accessible to elderly and those with disabilities.)
Super Single and Super Double Trains:
"This Super Single Train is a new mass-produced car! It's an environmentally friendly train, because they revised all the parts to drastically reduce power consumption! Newer trains have to be built in a way that's both functional and environmentally friendly. Compared to the past, they've improved significantly."
"This Super Double Train is a new mass-produced car! Such a streamlined and refined design! Beauty and utility working together! That kind of beautility is unique to mass-produced train cars! It uses the same train car as a Super Single Train. The only difference is the appearance. It is a superb train car that will go down in the history of the Battle Subway!"
The Super Single and Super Double Trains are the same model. Honestly the description of these trains doesn't give me a lot of information besides the fact that these trains are eco friendly. So I'll talk about what trains do to make themselves (even more) eco friendly!
They are stated to be eco friendly by reducing power consumption. I think it could be referring to a "VVVF inverter control" (it stands for variable voltage variable frequency. In English its mainly called the VFD or variable frequency drive.) A VVVF is a type of system for an AC motor that can reduce energy consumption! (There are two types of electrical current, DC or Direct Current and AC or Alternate Current. An AC motor is a motor that is driven by AC electricity.) It is important on energy saving trains! I won't get too much into how it works, but essentially it controls the AC motor's rotational speed by controlling the frequency. By controlling these, it can control the speed and acceleration of a train. You'll find that a VVVF is often paired with a three phase motor (I will not go into that...) Let's just say that these systems are very efficient at using power and help save energy.
Really, reducing power consumption usually means being more efficient at using power. Like using LEDs, using better insulation to retain cooling or heating, and generally using parts that use less electricity. It could be that the train is lighter in weight too (lighter vehicles use less power.)
Both of these Super Trains are mass produced! Which tells me that there are a lot of Super Single and Super Double trains! Its lines are probably busy.
As for real life inspirations, it is very much inspired by the E233-2000 series train
The E233-2000 is a little bit of an oddball in the E233 family exterior design wise. Its design was inspired by the Tokyu 5000 series. Its basic running equipment is the same as the E233 trains before it though.
I think it is a bit of a stretch, but I'll mention it anyways. The E233 (which the E233-2000 is a subsection of) is a train that has won the Laurel Award in 2007. The Laurel Award is an award given to trains by the Japan Railway Friends Association for trains with an excellence in technology and design (specifically geared towards commuter trains.) It could be what all the "beautility" comments could be referencing to? They do look verrry different though, and the E233-2000 came after the award was given...
Super Multi Train:
"This train car is a Super Multi Train! This is the latest train car! Improved acceleration and deceleration! Automated train-car controls! It's full of cutting-edge technologies. Also, a regeneration brake system, a car-body tilting system, a whatchamacallit system, a thingamabob system... I don't remember all the details, but it's just a big festival of all the latest technology!"
Ohhoho! The Super Multi Train description is a goldmine of details! This train is the whole reason I wanted to make this post! Let's run through its features!
Improved acceleration and deceleration means that it can run between stops faster, allowing for quicker operation time.
Automated train-car controls or ATC is a safety system on trains that prevents trains from going over a certain speed! If the train goes over the maximum speed permitted then the ATC will pull the brakes automatically to reduce the speed and release the brakes when it is below maximum speed. It also displays the maximum speed to the driver. It is an incredibly important safety system!! From what I understand, the term ATC is very common in Japan, in other countries the ATC would simply be a part of cab signaling (it is a safety system mainly for the driver and train crew, it tells them track status and condition information) and train protection technologies. ATC is installed on all Shinkansen trains, it is also installed in some subways and heavily used railways.
Here's an example of what it looks like! The green triangle there is the (current) maximum speed. There are a lot of different types of ATC systems and this ones a D-ATC (stands for Digital Automatic Train Control) from within an E233! There are a whole lot of different types of ATC, and they can come in many looks! I would show more examples, however, I have hit the image limit on this post... :[
A regenerative brake system is a special type of breaking that allows a train to generate electricity via breaking! The electricity can either be used immediately, stored, or returned back into the line. You might've heard this feature on electric or hybrid cars. It is a common eco friendly feature!
A car-body tilting system is a feature in trains that allows the body of the train car to tilt into a curve! It allows the train to go faster on a track (not needing to slow down on a curve) but the feature is mainly for passenger comfort! When you ride, you don't feel the centrifugal force at all when going around a curve! And it makes the ride so smooth! Here's a short video demonstrating what it looks like:
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There are essentially two major ways to do a car body tilting system. There is active tilting (forced body tilting) or passive tilting (pendulum system). A forced body tilting system uses computers to tilt the train using track data or sensors, telling the train when and how much to tilt. If the calculation is not done correctly, it can leave passengers with motion sickness (An infamous example is the Advanced Passenger Train in the UK). The tilting itself I believe is done via hydraulics. Forced Body Tilting is more popular in European and American trains.
As for passive tilting, the train in the video uses it! (A controlled pendulum train!) It means it uses natural forces to tilt the train car. I'll dive deeper into this type of tilting in the Wi-Fi train section because it actually mentions it's a pendulum train! As to which tilting type the Super Multi train has... it could honestly be either.
(Ah! I forgot to mention this, but tilting trains are especially useful in mountainous regions, where there are a lot of curves.)
In the Japanese version of the Super Multi description, it also mentions that it has a "earthquake warning system" and a "tornado monitoring system".
An earthquake warning system is not something fully installed into the train, rather it's mainly a set of sensors installed along the track, coast, and major inland areas. For passenger rail, if any signs of an earthquake are detected, it will alert any trains in the affected area and drivers are required to apply their emergency brakes. For shinkansen trains it will cut off power to the affected area which will automatically activate the emergency brakes.
Well, I found something close to a tornado warning system. There is a "gust warning system" where sensors measure wind speed and to predict where strong gusts of wind would go. Again, it's not a system that is installed within the train. From what I could tell, they would restrict travel speed during strong winds. If wind speeds are too high, then they would shut down the lines. (I suppose would be very useful, especially when there's some legendaries that cause powerful storms roaming around.)
In the Japanese version of the text, it also states that the Super Multi Train is also a test train. Which again means there's also not a lot of this train. It also states that some of it's features are unnecessary due to it being a test train lol
In the description all these features are stated as "cutting edge" and "a festival of all the latest technology" when these features are not all that new? And Regenerative breaking seems to be pretty common? (Every irl train I have shown thus far all have it.) Eh, I don't think it's that big of a deal. They are just fictional trains after all.
I originally thought the train looked like an Eizan Railway Deo 800 series, but thanks to the leaks, it looks like that the JR East 205-500 was used as a base to design the Super Multi Train? With probably heavy modification to the final design. (While I don't condone the method that these leaks were obtained, curiosity did get the better of me. This is the only train that I ID-ed this way.)
This Train was exclusive to the Sagami Line, though it ended operation in 2022 and every one of these trains have been scrapped. The blue color I believe is an homage to the Sagami River that runs along the line. The Train used a semi automatic door system for its passenger doors. Which means that rather than the conductor opening and closing the doors, the passengers would press a button to open the door when the train has stopped.
Wi-Fi Train:
"This train car is a Wi-Fi Train! It is the fastest long-distance high-speed train in the Battle Subway! This is called a pendulum car. Its body tilts while going around curves, so it can run without slowing down! Faster! Farther! Our engineers' spirits are infused in it!"
A pendulum car is a very specific term!!! Like I mentioned in the Super Mutli Train section it is a type of car body tilting. There are multiple types of Pendulum systems, There is Natural Pendulum, Controlled Pendulum, Air Spring (also called Simple Pendulum), and Hybrid.
Natural Pendulum is just using the centrifugal force of when it goes around a curve to tilt the train. This type was known to cause motion sickness in riders because when it straightened out, the car would "lag" or wobble. Sometimes the force was not enough to tilt the train and this would also cause passenger discomfort. These issues were fixed later with a controlled pendulum, where there would be a degree of control to the tilting. Using mechanisms similar to forced body tilting, it would prevent wobble and ease the tilt. The air spring method, as suggests in the name, uses air springs to help with tilting. It is similar to the controlled pendulum, though it tilts less than it (controlled pendulum can tilt 6 degrees and air springs can only tilt 2 degrees). Air springs are cheaper to build though and still are able to make the train go faster. Hybrid is the combination of controlled pendulum and air springs, allowing for an 8 degree tilt.
I hope the Wi-Fi train is not a natural pendulum? You're telling me you have to battle on that and you might get motion sickness?? Though it sounds like it might be more high tech so it is most likely the other types... Hopefully...
It also states that this train is the "fastest long-distance high-speed train in the Battle Subway!" Looking at Japan's tilting trains (that are not shinkansen), they go about 120kmh-130kmh (about 75 mph-81 mph.) So it could be a possibility that the Wi-Fi goes something along those speeds.
I've looked through Japan's tilting trains, and the closest one might be the JR Hokkaido Kiha 201 series? It's not at all close though... I can't really find a good match tbh. I think the 113 series seems to be a bit more closer visually.
The one on the left is a Kansai livery and the right is a JR Shikoku livery. They are both the same train, JR Shikoku bought the 113 series from JR East to replace some aging trains and then modified it. Which is why they look a bit different. The modifications include strengthening the front of the train and adding shock absorbing material inside.
So Those are all the trains that run in the Battle Subway! However there are 2 trains that don't, instead they only show up in Anville Town on certain days. I'll be calling them "Old Train Car" and "Futuristic Train Car"
"Old Train Car"
"This train car is the kind that ran a long time ago. Compared to contemporary train cars, it has more parts, so I heard it was difficult to build. The old train cars built with lots of small parts have their own unique beauty and attract a lot of fans. Those cars no longer run in the Battle Subway, but I hear they're still used in a faraway region. Ah... I'd love to be on that train!"
So this sort of car used to run on the Battle Subway. It's said to be still running in another region, though with how old the train looks I can only think that maybe it would be running by railway preservationists.
The design of this train reminds me a lot of old Japanese electric trains and trams. Especially trams with that double roof. I don't think it's really based on any particular vehicle? Here's a couple that I found;
The only one I feel like is worth mentioning is the Jomo Electric Railway Deha 101 (this specific car is the Deha 101, others of its kind are called Deha 100 type) and the Nagasaki Electric Railway 160 type. Both of these vehicles I believe are still running to some capacity.
The Jomo Deha 101 has been running for over 90 years. While car 101 still resides at Jomo Railway, other Deha 100s have been transferred to other private companies where they have been scrapped. I believe the only existing Deha 100s today are Car 101 and Car 104 (which has been painted bright yellow.)
The Nagasaki Electric Railway 160 type used to belong to the Kyushu Electric Tramway where it was called the Type 1 Electric Tram. When it was transferred to the Nagasaki Electric Railway it was renamed into the 160 type. Today, there is a single car in operation. I believe it is the oldest wooden car in Japan that is still in service.
I suppose I will also mention the Keifuku Electric Railway Mobo 21 Type Train, it does look the most similar. Though, it's purposefully designed to look like an old style tram.
"Futuristic Train Car"
"This train car is a new train to run in the future! Wooo! Cool! Super cool! The latest motor breathes fire! Uh-oh, if it really breathed fire, that would be bad! But it is full of the latest technologies! It's undergoing a lot of testing. It's called a gauge-convertible train. It's a sweet car that can adjust its wheels to run on any rail!"
So first off, I'd like to say that this train visually kind of looks like a "Sonic" 883 series (nothing to do with the blue hedgehog, it was just a coincidence lol)
However the description!!!! A "gauge convertible train" that is undergoing a lot of testing... That description matches exactly with the GCT! (literally standing for Gauge Change/Convertible Train, though in Japanese it's called FGT or Free Gauge Train!)
The GTC is the project name for this experimental shinkansen. The one in the picture is the GTC-01, the second generation of its kind (as this is the version they would be testing before and during the development of the game, there is now a 3rd generation.) So, the term gauge refers to the distance between the two rails. Different trains run on different gauges, they can come in either narrow gauge, standard gauge, or wide gauge. Japan's rail network is mostly narrow gauge (specifically Cape Gauge.) The main exception are the shinkansen trains, which run on standard gauge. This shinkansen like the description says would be able to run on any gauge. It used to be under a lot of testing by the Free Gauge Train Technology Research Association. Today though, the GTC-01 second generation sits on display in the Shikoku Railway Heritage Museum.
There are a lot of challenges that the GTC faces. It takes a bit of time for the wheels to adjust to the gauge and you need to go slower when it's doing so. It has increased maintenance costs. The heavier specialized bogie creates more wear on the rails as well as making the train harder to detect. (Ok! Basic explanation for Railway Signaling! Tracks are split up into sections called "blocks", and a small electrical current is run between the two tracks that makes up the block. When a train runs through, the wheel and axle of the train disrupts the current, which then the system detects that block as being occupied by a train. If it is occupied, the signal lights at the end of the block will be turned red, preventing other trains from entering the same block, thus preventing collisions. The problem arises in the GTC in that the wheel and the axle are separate, thus something about this is making it hard to detect on the rail.)
With this train being a "gauge change train" it really made me wonder what gauge the Battle Subway trains runs at? I thought maybe standard gauge or maybe even wide gauge because you can only make the train so wide depending on the gauge. And you'd probably want it wider so that there is more room, especially if you are fitting a battle arena in it! However in Japanese the description mentions that "The rails are a little wider on the tracks that run at higher speeds." Which is... exactly how Japanese rail works? So the Battle Subway lines are probably narrow gauge?
Another thing that's interesting about the "Futuristic Train" is the date that it actually shows up. In Anville Town the way that each train shows up is dependent on the last digit of the day of the month, like so:
0- (10th, 20th, and 30th) "Old Train Car"
1- (1st, 11th, 21st, and 31st) Single Train Car
2- (2nd, 12th, and 22nd) Double Train Car
3- (3rd, 13th, and 23rd) Multi Train Car
yada yada you get the point (4- Super Double Train, 5- Super Single Train, 6- Super Multi Train, 7- Anville Town Train, 8- Nothing, 9- Wi-Fi Train)
The only exception is the "Futuristic Train" who will show up ONLY on February 1st, June 12th, October 1st, October 14th, and December 30th, pretty random huh? haha of course not! These dates are dates significant to the History of Japanese Railway/Transportation!
February 1st: The opening of Japan's first electric street car in 1895!
June 12th: The temporary operation of Japan's first passenger railway in 1872!
October 1st: The release of Japan's first Shinkansen, the series 0 in 1964!
October 14th: The official opening of Japan's first passenger railway in 1872, with the first two stations between Shimbashi and Yokohama! This day is also Railway Day in Japan, celebrating this event, Tokyo holds a Railway Festival and train companies like to do events on this day as well!Â
December 30th: The opening of Japan's first subway line in 1927, The Ginza Line!
Rails, Station Platform, and More Train:
So the Station, there are a few details I can pick up on here!
The type of track that the trains run on (at least in the station) are ballastless tracks! It means the rail is tied directly onto a slab of concrete rather than having ballast hold it up (ballast is that rocky gravel that you often see beneath the tracks.) This type of track is quite expensive to build and makes the place a lot nosier, but it has a lot of advantages! For one, because there is no ballast to maintain, it has lower maintenance cost (ballast must be packed every now and again using a ballast tamping machine. Which lifts the track and jostles the ballast beneath it. Ballast also needs to be replaced after a while because the rocks have to be irregularly shaped for it to work, and natural weathering can make them smooth out.) It is also easier to clean and has a longer lifespan. Because the rail is tied to slabs of concrete the rails are less prone to deformation, which is good! Though it is also that same inflexibility means that it is difficult to change anything about it and takes longer to repair.
Their buffer! (that little black thing at the end of the line, I think it is a buffer?) It doesn't look like that effective of a buffer... The purpose of a buffer is to stop a train if brakes fail. Though this thing seems to be more for the driver telling them where the end is, hence all the, what I presume are, lights. Let's hope they have some sort of other safety system in place.
There doesn't seem to be a third rail. I have a feeling that might be because most Japanese railway trains are powered via overhead wire (literally every irl train I have shown is powered this way.) Maybe the Battle Subway trains might be powered via overhead wire? I might be over analyzing here, they might not have thought of modeling such a small detail haha
The train itself has some sort of device on top (that box thing.) I believe it to be some sort of air conditioning unit. Given how each train car has one large unit on top of it, I believe that it uses a centralized cooling system, which means there is one large air conditioning unit. (There are 2 other types, they are distributed cooling which consists of 6-8 small units and centralized distributed which consists of a couple of medium sized units.) Central cooling systems are easier to install and maintain because there is only one unit to worry about.
Signboards:
The Buildings in between routes have a electronic news bulletin board, and depending on which city is connected to it, the news bulletin will give a little flavor text about the city. There's some flavor text about the Battle Subway when it's about Nimbasa City, and it different depending on whether you are playing the first one or the second one, here they are:
BW
"Run and battle! Trains never stop!â Battle Subway in Nimbasa City"
"They say someone who loved battles also happened to be a railway maniac, and thats why we now have the battle subway"
So, this might be a coincidence, but there is an old name that Japanese Train Fans used to call themselves. The name was "Railway Mania" (ééăăăą direct translation). It was used up until the 1950s. Today it's seen as a derogatory term but it was used very commonly back in its heyday (even more popular than "railfan" apparently.) I think it is kind of interesting that the term "Railway Maniac" was chosen for this flavor text and I wonder if it has anything to do with this old name. However, I say it might just be a coincidence because the term "Maniac" is not unheard of word in Pokemon (Item Maniac, Poke Maniac, Hex Maniac, etc.) But regardless, there's that little fun fact for you!
B2W2
âGet on a train and fight!â Battle Subway in Nimbasa City"
"The energy generated by heated Pokémon battles is the fuel that keeps the Battle Subway running"
I'm going to get a little headcanon-y here. We can interpret this figuratively, as in if there are no battles then its not really a Battle Subway is it? But I think it would be fun to interpret it literally! What if Pokemon Moves could get absorbed somehow to power the Train? And if the Train doesn't need it it could go into the line to power something else in the Subway! I think that would be cool :]
Extra Stuff:
âI think the Battle Subway Map could also be inspired by JR East's rail map, the main reason is the single lines (dark green) which goes in a loop around the Unova Region...
Reminds me of the Yamanote Line (light green) which also goes in a loop connecting a variety of major stations together in Tokyo and is a very very important line!
âWhile I do believe Gear Station is inspired by New York's Grand Central Station, I do think there's a lot of design elements taken from Tokyo Station as well
âThe gray bodies of the Anville, Single, Doubles, and Multi cars are probably meant to represent an exposed steel/aluminum body rather than the ones painted white like the Super Trains.
âIn the Anime, the trains are said to have an ATO system, this is also a real system, it stands for Automatic Train Operation. It's a system that allows a computer to control when the train stops and goes with no driver involved! I don't think that the trains in the games run on an ATO system though, as there are Depot Agents who talk about train driving (Depot Agent Cameron who says "Iâm good at driving, but Iâm not good at dealing with Pokemon." at the start of battle, and a way more obscure Depot Agent whom you can talk to on the platform after 14 wins on a Super Train who says "Iâd rather have an exciting battle than slowly drive the train.")
âIn the Anime, there's a stamp rally, which is a real thing! There are station stamps in Japan which tourists can collect. Though, occasionally Pokemon will collaborate with JR East to create a Pokemon Stamp Rally! The most recent is this Pokemon Horizons Stamp Rally promoting the show! Here's a map of what stamps you can collect at each station and the prizes you can get!
âIn the Nacrane city library there is a book that mentions that Nacrane used to have steam locomotives running through it!
"This book is about the things you can ride in the Unova region, such as Castelia Cityâs cruise ship and Mistralton Cityâs planes. Before there were planes, locomotives carried people all over Unova. The railway in Nacrene City is a legacy of those lines." (B2W2)
What kinds of Steam Locomotives? I suppose we will never know, as we never see one in game.
âThere's an Roughneck NPC you can talk to at Tubeline Bridge in B2W2 where he says
"Watch it! People use ârailway fanâ as a catchall term, but there are many types of railway fans! There are riding fans, detraining fans, station fans, train-car fans, schedule-table fans, picture-taking fans, recording fans, and more! Donât go thinking theyâre all the same!" (B2W2)
So in Japanese, Railway is Tesudo (éé, testu é- Iron and do é-Road) and a Railway Fan is Tesudofan, however fans will abbreviate to just Testu and stick what aspect of trains they enjoy with it, so like äčăé (Nori äčă-Ride, é-tetsu) as a Train Riding Fan, or æźăé (Tori æźă-Taking a Picture, é-tetsu) as a Railway Photography fan. There are a lot of these and the NPC does go over some! There's also Railway Modeling Fans (Fans who collect model trains and/or construct model railways), Collecting Fans (Fans who collect railway related items such as tickets or stamps), Operation Fans (Fans who like researching railway operation and equipment), Regulation Fans (Fans who like researching railway handbooks and laws and regulations that go into a railway), Simulation Fans (Fans who like playing train driving/railway management games), Artists/Writers, Urban Explorers, and Railway Preservationist (I gave up on the last ones lol). There are lots of ways to enjoy trains!
There's also the super specific terms of "Mama Tetsu" where a mother becomes a railway fan because of their children's interest or "Oyako Tetsu" where a child becomes interested in trains because of their parents.
âThe badge on Ingo and Emmet's hats probably represents the logo for the railway company that they work for, while researching about Japanese Railway Companies, I noticed that they have a lot of circular logos, here's a handful:
From what I could gather, these types of black and white circular logos are called a mon, kind of like a crest? If you wish to scroll about the logos, here is the link for the Wikimedia commons list.
The company's logo is also what's usually depicted on irl conductor's hats anyways, in the exact same place too.
(I was looking for a screenshot to showcase the hat to put here, but instead I found this promotional video! It's actually pretty good at going over the basics of what a driver and conductor actually do! Please feel free to check it out)
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âThe name "Depot Agent" is a little bit of a strange name, in Japanese the name is simply "Railway Worker", a depot is often referred to a train yard, however depot can also refer to a station, given where we see this trainer class working (at Gear Station), it is most likely that the depot in this case is referring to station, so they are station workers!
Final:
After all this I have come to the conclusion that somebody at Gamefreak really liked trains! And I really think all the little details are so awesome! and it really cements the Battle Subway as my favorite battle facility!
Anyways I hope you learned a thing or two and I hope you gained a new appreciation for trains and the Battle Subway! Thanks for Reading! â
(If I got anything wrong, please feel free to correct me, there was a lot of information I had to sift through and I am NOT an engineer * _ * and if you have something to add please do! I would love to learn more! ^ ^
#post#long post#VERY LONG POST#THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE I STARTED THIS IN AUGUST#I love trains too much. Its a sickness really...#submas#battle subway#pokemon#pokemon black and white#pokemon black 2 white 2
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ex!nicholas a. chavez x fem!reader
might be inspired by âwe canât be friendsâ by miss ari <3
"we really shouldn't." you gasped, feeling the tip of nicholas pressed against your clit. you'd be crazy to deny that he felt like heaven, but there was a reason this felt wrong.
he held you down with one hand, using the other to guide his length between your folds. "just the tip baby, i promise." he did his best to assure you. his eyes were narrow and he turned his focus primarily on wetting his cock between your legs.
the truth is, you and nicholas had broken up weeks ago. yet you couldn't fully let go of each other. when he called you late on nights like these asking to see you again one last time, you'd always show up - and it always ended with him buried balls deep in your cunt.
"we can't,nick." you whimpered pathetically, hand pushing at his chest when his tip finally sunk into your hole. nicholasâs brows furrowed and he audibly hissed at the familiar tight squeeze of your pussy. he'd observe you carefully while he pulled his thick tip out to kiss your fluttering hole, just to slide it right back in again with ease.
it didn't take long for you to stop pushing at him. pretty soon you were holding his shoulders for support and rocking your hips forward in an attempt to take more of him inside you. you always folded under him. his touch was one of a kind and there was no way you'd ever be able to take just the tip. you needed more.
"deeper, n-, p- please." you cried pitifully, but he only shook his head. with a cocky smirk he whispered,
"just the tip, remember?" and he'd leave you with no choice, fucking you shallowly at a fast pace until he was close to finishing.
and that's right when nicholas would get immensely selfish. he'd snap his hips forward and force his cock deep inside you. the feeling of his warm cum spurting your insides made you gasp, immediately creaming all over him right then and there.
with a beautiful smug look on his face, he'd pull out his phone and snap a photo of your fucked-out oozing cunt. nicholas would be so proud of the filthy mess he had made of you. he'd text you the photo the very next night, calling you and urging you to come over again.
"baby, you'll always be mine. now come back and let me fuck you properly this time. we can make ourselves a video this time instead." you roll your eyes as you could practically hear the smirk on his face through his tone.
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The conversation around AI is going to get away from us quickly because people lack the language to distinguish types of AI--and it's not their fault. Companies love to slap "AI" on anything they believe can pass for something "intelligent" a computer program is doing. And this muddies the waters when people want to talk about AI when the exact same word covers a wide umbrella and they themselves don't know how to qualify the distinctions within.
I'm a software engineer and not a data scientist, so I'm not exactly at the level of domain expert. But I work with data scientists, and I have at least rudimentary college-level knowledge of machine learning and linear algebra from my CS degree. So I want to give some quick guidance.
What is AI? And what is not AI?
So what's the difference between just a computer program, and an "AI" program? Computers can do a lot of smart things, and companies love the idea of calling anything that seems smart enough "AI", but industry-wise the question of "how smart" a program is has nothing to do with whether it is AI.
A regular, non-AI computer program is procedural, and rigidly defined. I could "program" traffic light behavior that essentially goes { if(light === green) { go(); } else { stop();} }. I've told it in simple and rigid terms what condition to check, and how to behave based on that check. (A better program would have a lot more to check for, like signs and road conditions and pedestrians in the street, and those things will still need to be spelled out.)
An AI traffic light behavior is generated by machine-learning, which simplistically is a huge cranking machine of linear algebra which you feed training data into and it "learns" from. By "learning" I mean it's developing a complex and opaque model of parameters to fit the training data (but not over-fit). In this case the training data probably includes thousands of videos of car behavior at traffic intersections. Through parameter tweaking and model adjustment, data scientists will turn this crank over and over adjusting it to create something which, in very opaque terms, has developed a model that will guess the right behavioral output for any future scenario.
A well-trained model would be fed a green light and know to go, and a red light and know to stop, and 'green but there's a kid in the road' and know to stop. A very very well-trained model can probably do this better than my program above, because it has the capacity to be more adaptive than my rigidly-defined thing if the rigidly-defined program is missing some considerations. But if the AI model makes a wrong choice, it is significantly harder to trace down why exactly it did that.
Because again, the reason it's making this decision may be very opaque. It's like engineering a very specific plinko machine which gets tweaked to be very good at taking a road input and giving the right output. But like if that plinko machine contained millions of pegs and none of them necessarily correlated to anything to do with the road. There's possibly no "if green, go, else stop" to look for. (Maybe there is, for traffic light specifically as that is intentionally very simplistic. But a model trained to recognize written numbers for example likely contains no parameters at all that you could map to ideas a human has like "look for a rigid line in the number". The parameters may be all, to humans, meaningless.)
So, that's basics. Here are some categories of things which get called AI:
"AI" which is just genuinely not AI
There's plenty of software that follows a normal, procedural program defined rigidly, with no linear algebra model training, that companies would love to brand as "AI" because it sounds cool.
Something like motion detection/tracking might be sold as artificially intelligent. But under the covers that can be done as simply as "if some range of pixels changes color by a certain amount, flag as motion"
2. AI which IS genuinely AI, but is not the kind of AI everyone is talking about right now
"AI", by which I mean machine learning using linear algebra, is very good at being fed a lot of training data, and then coming up with an ability to go and categorize real information.
The AI technology that looks at cells and determines whether they're cancer or not, that is using this technology. OCR (Optical Character Recognition) is the technology that can take an image of hand-written text and transcribe it. Again, it's using linear algebra, so yes it's AI.
Many other such examples exist, and have been around for quite a good number of years. They share the genre of technology, which is machine learning models, but these are not the Large Language Model Generative AI that is all over the media. Criticizing these would be like criticizing airplanes when you're actually mad at military drones. It's the same "makes fly in the air" technology but their impact is very different.
3. The AI we ARE talking about. "Chat-gpt" type of Generative AI which uses LLMs ("Large Language Models")
If there was one word I wish people would know in all this, it's LLM (Large Language Model). This describes the KIND of machine learning model that Chat-GPT/midjourney/stablediffusion are fueled by. They're so extremely powerfully trained on human language that they can take an input of conversational language and create a predictive output that is human coherent. (I am less certain what additional technology fuels art-creation, specifically, but considering the AI art generation has risen hand-in-hand with the advent of powerful LLM, I'm at least confident in saying it is still corely LLM).
This technology isn't exactly brand new (predictive text has been using it, but more like the mostly innocent and much less successful older sibling of some celebrity, who no one really thinks about.) But the scale and power of LLM-based AI technology is what is new with Chat-GPT.
This is the generative AI, and even better, the large language model generative AI.
(Data scientists, feel free to add on or correct anything.)
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MAYA, I MANIFESTED MY DREAM LIFE!!!!
Okay, I don't know if you remember me, but I participated in a lot of your challenges and the Pinkâs challenge, and I found some success! I shifted to my wr and manifested some things, but I could never do it consistently, and it was really fucking annoying.
So, I took three months off and worked hard, using subliminals every day and going on affirmation rampages. I was doing lucid dreaming methods, SATs, meditations, yoga nidra, reading spiritual books literally my whole summer was dedicated to shifting and the void state. I was eat sleeping and breathing it because I could not continue to live the way I was even I can even consider that living âŠ
So What did I do
I just followed your challenge because college was starting, and I couldn't go back to school without my dream life for the fourth time, fearing I might actually harm myself. So played the fields with this rampage (together in two different tabs).
During the Day
https://youtu.be/aLsn6ZK4RZ8?si=Dt_j7ChLjNsQ6tpV
https://youtu.be/gBD4Owz1GC0?si=icOkN1DoFsqP-adT
During the day, I would live in the end. I created albums for my desired realities, re-read my scripts, revised my void list because I genuinely believed I was going to succeed, watched supercell shifting videos on YouTube, and stared at my vision board, realizing it was going to be my life the next day, and more!
Overnight
https://youtu.be/JwV297pP9aw?si=Sxx-xlhE_owInoxH
https://youtu.be/DKB5I9y8SEg?si=PI-UaNw2m_VUWYy1
What I Manifested
- Master shifting abilities
- Master void state abilities
- Having my WR to be a perfect heaven
- Making this current reality a dream: desired looks, desired body, never gaining weight, revised wealth and family, dream friend group, a social media following, being worshipped and respected, being so beautiful by my own standards, dream home (I have a mountain range that goes through my backyard and a farm on my land, itâs enormous), revised city, only attracting wealthy, tall, attractive men, pretty privilege, 145 IQ, going to an Ivy League, getting rid of my anxiety and depression, getting rid of my health issues, no toxic family, so much money, and revised my name to Bella because I love Bella Hadid (my old name was Audrey), and so much more.
I know it sounds nothing too crazy compared to other people who manifest powers and trillions of dollars, but I can shift anytime I want. Iâm going to my singing desired reality and high school musical Dr soon and I am so excited I have hundreds of places to explore. My life here finally has stability, and Iâm so happy. Not waking up with stress, nausea, and diarrhea is a blessing. My house is clean, my family members arenât fighting and calling me names, my siblings and I are close. I audibly gasp anytime I see myself in the mirror. My phone is always blowing up with people asking me for plans when it used to be dry as hell, and people forgot I even existed. Everywhere I go, people tell me I should model, want to pay for what Iâm buying, are so kind, open doors for me, want to help me for no reason, give me discounts, ask me on dates⊠Iâm so happy and confused. I donât know how to feel. I am genuinely so loved and respected, and on top of that, I get to explore the universe of my favorite shows and movies.
Iâm so glad I never gave up, even though these three months were hard and my life had gotten worse, I am finally free, my hard work paid off, and I hope everyone else will do the same. We truly are God! I was afraid this community was some big joke and big bloggers were creative writers or just laughing at delusional people like me, but I can confirm itâs very, very real.
My love I am so proud of you ! And yes I vaguely remember you and your first shift you messaged me about :)!
I am happy your hard work paid off as well. I remember when everything seemed so meaningless and delusional as well and I also thought shifting was some big joke to target mentally ill teens, but the reality is we truly are all god and no amount of doubt and struggle will ever change that truth. I hope you enjoy your dream life, and I am happy I could help đ
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if you're stuck on a chapter there are a few reasons:
-your set up to the scene you're writing is not working. go back and check it
-you are not in the right POV. think about who would be the most interesting or the most entertaining or the most informative in that scene, depending on what impact you want the scene to have
-you're at the beginning of the chapter and the words aren't coming to you even though you have it planned out already? the solution is simple: you don't like what you have planned out as much as you think you do. do not force it
-solution to a lot of problems comes from a single question I ask myself: Do I choose the kind option, or the mean option? (Your readers will eat up either one)
-You find the dialogue lacking? Act it out
-Your scene feels boring or something just "ain't right" but you can't tell what it is? Try making yourself feel the emotion you want your readers to feel. If you didn't cry while writing a scene meant to make your readers bawl their eyes out, then you might not have connected to your character as well as you wanted to. Put yourself in their shoes, pretend you ARE them.
(And afterwards, please practice putting yourself back in your own shoes and taking care of your mental health. Sometimes the fucked up stuff might get to you. Healthy minds create healthy lives, and in turn, you get to keep creating.)
-Your environment might be bothering you. Take a look around you and see what's nagging you. Is your workspace not clean? Are your notes out of order? A clean/orderly workspace can help you organize your thoughts or get you into a more productive mood. (Trust me, I get it, sometimes it's really hard to keep it tidy.)
-Try white/brown/pink noise. Try listening to music, or to videos that create background noise you feel most productive with.
-Jumping jacks. Squats. Stretches. Wiggle around your room. That one scene in High School Musical where Sharpay and Ryan are warming up. It sounds ridiculous, but this is good for you, your body, and your mind. Release pent up energy, get yourself awake and focused. If you aren't able to do this, try something silly to wake your brain up. Do some puzzles, sing some songs, etc.
-Most importantly:
Did you do your laundry? Did you get enough sun? Did you drink enough water? Did you eat enough today? Did you get your favorite snack? Did you smile? Did you run in your yard like you did as a kid? Did you laugh with your friend? Did you see the way their eyes crinkle when they smile at you? Did you play with your dog? Your cat? Did you look at the flowers in the field near your house? Did you meet someone new? Did you learn something you didn't before? Did you try something you were scared of? Did it go well? Did you enjoy being yourself? Did you explore the world today? Did you live? Did you love? Did you feel? Did you breathe, and relax, and feel that everything is gonna be okay?
It might seem insignificant, but we write from the heart, not just the mind. Let your story sit in the back of your mind when you truly feel stuck. Take care of yourself, try getting out of your head. Notice the details around you, commit them to memory. Your story will wait for you. It might take a day, or days, or a week, or a month, months, or a year or years. But the story sits with you and you'll be thinking about it without actually thinking about it. When you come to your story again, it will be happy that you've grown, no matter how big or small
#erinwantstowrite#writing blog#writing advice#writing#writing inspiration#writer's block#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity#mental health#it's so imprtant to take care of yourself#your characters want you to do that#they live as an extension of you
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Kinktober 01/10/2024 Max Verstappen- Voyerism
Plot: Max cannot help but take pictures or videos of you whenever you guys get heated! But what happens when heâs leaving you for a long time.
Warnings: Kinktober, Smut, pillow humping, VOYERISM, masturbation, watched unknowingly etc. 18+ Minors DNI
Max was obsessed with you.
Not in like a creepy stalker way, but in a more ⊠you were his person kind of way.
Every time you came to a race, all he would do is follow you around. His team? Didnât exist. Christian Horner? Who is that? Sergio Perez? Not sure who you mean.
His interviews were 90% staring at you and 10% listening and answering the interviewer. It actually got to the point, that even though it wasnât affecting his driving Christian threatened to black-list you from all F1 races.
Max of course didnât take this lightly.
Due to Maxâs obsession with you, when you couldnât attend race weekends he was sort of lost, just in this limbo area of his mind with nothing to do. Especially if you were doing a modelling gig and didnât have much time throughout the day to answer him.
So he started to film you, in your more intimate moments to feel closer to you when you were away as the more you started to do, the bigger you were getting and the bigger you got the more you were booked in for.
But it didnât stop there, once he got to a race weekend and became particularly frustrated he realised how much these videos helped him let off some steam when you werenât there to help him.
Of course you knew about the videos. It was something fun for you and Max to do to liven up your sex life when you were together.
But then Max became obsessed with the idea of you not knowing when he was playing these videos just for himself. You were unassuming at a shoot, strutting your stuff and he was there tangled up in the sheets of a hotel room in Italy, using one hand to jerk himself off while the other held up his second video of the two of you of the night.
When he would come home, heâd start to watch you get undressed and shower from the crack in the bathroom door that he needed to get fixed but because he felt like he was never home he didnât ever bother. He would make sure to tell you wrong times that he would get home, just at the off chance he might be able to catch you in a private moment to yourself, hearing those little noises you made and calling out his name as if you knew he was there.
Then came the bedroom camera. Max never told you about this camera, why would he ⊠it was his apartment after all. Thatâs what he told himself when he was thinking of the idea.
It was one of those motion-activated ones, and he installed it just before a triple header, above the wardrobe in between two show boxes, and unless you were looking specifically for a camera you definitely wouldnât be able to see it.
âBye baby Iâm going to miss you! Look Iâll try and make it out to your home race. But good luck for the first ones, I love you so so muchâ you smiled at him kissing all over his face.
âMmmm Iâll miss you too, donât know how Iâll last without my gorgeous girlâ he sighs before leaving.
But that was a lie, he knew exactly how he would last without you. He knew that camera in the bedroom would make him feel as though he was at home with you. Even if he was just watching you sleep or get changed like he normally did when you both got ready with each other in the mornings.
He waited and waited, pulling his phone out every-time the custom haptic vibration heâd made for the app that linked the camera to his phone so he knew what it was buzzed..
Mostly it was just you doing house chores and bringing washing back to the bedroom to put it away in the closets or changing the bedsheets now that heâd be gone for three weeks so theyâd be fresh for when he was back home. He missed you changing the first time because he was out with Lando, Oscar and Charles playing Paddle and his phone was in his gym bag.
He of course rewatched it but he just sort of found it sweet watching you do the same routine you did even when he wasnât there, only missing out a few steps that normally involved him.
It wasnât until the night before his first race that he was laying in his hotel room, exhausted from the day heâd had in qualifying and staying late to train on the sim against the teams orders that he saw you more intimately on the cameras.
Youâd come into the room rather naturally actually. You had a large cup of water with ice and a straw which wasnât uncommon for you before you went to bed. You then sat on top of the duvet covers with your back propped up with the pillows against the back board as you put something on the TV.
And you pretty much got through the whole film just watching it drinking your water slowly and eating the snacks youâd brought with you.
He saw you get a little fidgety towards the end but you never were one for sitting still for long periods of time. So he didnât think anything off it and nearly clicked off for the night until you got your phone up.
He immediately saw the bite of your lip as you started scrolling.
He sat up more awake and alert than he had been the last hour of watching you on and off while you watched your film. He was curious about what was on your phone that was making you bite your lip.
However once he heard the audio come from your phone he was all too familiar with what you were watching. It was a video heâd taken during the last time you guys had had sex with one another. He knew immediately because of what he said at the start of the video.
âAre you going to be a good girl for me while Iâm gone?â And when he heard himself say that, he could feel something in him stir.
It excited him, the thought that you were just as desperate and needy as he was.
He watched as one hand travelled down into your silk shorts as you spread you legs open giving you easier access. He watched as you hand grazed over you clit, he couldnât see much right now with those shorts still on but the light airy moan that he heard through the cameras audio was enough to let him know what your fingers had just brushed against.
He couldnât even really tell if you were just rubbing yourself through your panties or if youâd pulled them to the side and he wanted to know more. He wanted and needed to see more.
When you made that face, the one where something stated to feel really good thatâs when he knew youâd dipped your fingers in a little further, only to test the waters. Your legs closed around your hand as he could hear those sweet noises still coming from you.
You attempted to prop the phone up against your knees but he could see your frustration as it kept sliding down at an angle you could view it.
Max was already hard as a rock from just watching you lightly touch yourself but when you spun round so that you were facing away from him, propping the phone up on the top of the headboard and placing a pillow underneath you he pulled himself right out of his pants.
He almost felt like a pervert but he convinced himself if he told you what heâd done or was doing youâd love the idea. He knew you better than you knew yourself.
His hand rubbed quickly up and down his length as he watched you hump a pillow, which was of course one of his usual ones. Your moans came through the camera way clearer than he had expected.
What caught him and nearly had him letting go of that growing feeling was when you moaned his name.
âMax, fuck pleaseâ youâd groaned and the camera had picked it up perfectly, his jaw dropped and his hand sped up seeing the stuttering of your hips into the pillow meaning you were also close.
He kept watching you completely obsessed with everything he was seeing.
âCome on baby, come for meâ he called and as if youâd heard him you were shaking, moaning and gasping into the other pillows while your hips drove down into the pillow riding out your high.
Max came watching that wet spot grow on your panties from the angle your currently were at. He couldnât believe that this was only the begging of the night. And when you turned round pulling your underwear off and you went into the special draw by your shared bed, he knew youâd both be in for a long long night.
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