#but idk I've been embarrassed? to post it

[meymeyzart]

I'm back with a tatsurinne doodle

[marley-manson]

The more I think about it the more I adore Hawkeye laughing when Radar walks in on the flu shot in Carry on Hawkeye.

It's just such a delightful reaction. A lesser show might frame it as an embarrassing moment, maybe as comeuppance for his flirting, or just for humour. Hawkeye can make role reversal sex jokes but he wouldn't want anyone actually thinking it's something he does, that would actually be humiliating.

But no when Radar walks in and thinks he's interrupting some kind of sexual moment it's played like his dream punchline, the best possible thing that could've happened in that moment. Zero shame, zero embarrassment, nothing but appreciation for the comic timing. It's so much fun lol, god I love this episode.

[ravene]

Part 1 Chapter 2 be like

[p1x1x]

[capricioussun]

I was really thinking about if I would ever be comfortable merging my art accounts and I don't think I will. At least not unless I did a full rebrand which I'd really rather not since I'm very happy with how things are situated now.

But I think it boils down to acceptance seeking. I've been socially isolated for a very long time and it's difficult. Even back when I first started drawing au stuff years ago, I contemplated making a separate blog for it because I knew how many ut fans didn't really like the aus. I didn't want to alienate any of the "audience" I'd already built but I also knew there would be a turning point I would just wind up barely posting on one account or the other and it would feel like trying to limp half the time on one leg and then limp the rest on the other, which would be pointless.

But with mirrorshipping (selfcest) being a much more universally contentious topic, I got worried it would only deter people even more. I certainly didn't want to lie about it, especially bc I don't associate it with prshipping the way some others do, so it's not really that im "ashamed" of it, or want to hide it, just that I know it's the kind of thing that's very likely to make some who just walked in turn right back around.

To some degree, as someone who hopes to one day make a career out of being an independent artist, it makes sense to prioritize "growth" over personal satisfaction, but on the other, I've always struggled to care about that sort of thing. Any time I've cared about "alienating" a potential "audience", it's always been more about personal acceptance. I don't want people to see one little aspect of myself or interests and judge me entirely based off of that, even though that's all anyone really can do on the internet. I don't take blocking personally, despite how the prior sentiment seems to contradict that, I get it, I block all the time too, for a variety of reasons. But if there's a chance there're others who don't really mind that I mirrorship, they just don't want to see it or have to block the tag, I don't want them to feel turned away or annoyed, and so I kept it all to a separate account.

There are a few other reasons I won't really get into, too, like how people often do associate it with prship, and how I don't really want to draw that type of a crowd to my main blog, either, but I know in my heart it's the acceptance/approval seeking that was the biggest motivator.

I really honestly wish I knew how to connect with others beyond just trying to "do things right" and hoping that earns me positive attention. I really wish I didn't always feel like my only chance at affection is to improve what I can offer in return.

[anonyanonymouse]

🙈

[celluzu]

I do think twitter needs a small reminder that like. constantly bringing up drama and the horrible obnoxious people in your fanbase makes the obnoxiousness feel a million times worse than it probably actually is.

[unnamed-atlas]

Having brain worms. What if uhhhhhh SOS Mianite au

[tiffanylamps]

I want to create. With this heart, this mind, this sensitive soul, I was made to be a creative; engineered before broken down for parts. And yet, I am without. Without words, movement, image, or sound. No painter's brush, no click-clack of a typewriter, no red light of a darkroom. I am bursting with want, but these fingers are frozen; this mind shrouded in a mist so bleak, I find myself unable to see the path ahead.

15/11/23: i'm in my feels. the irony of this post isn't lost on me, i'm just indulging myself.

[kindnessoverperfection]

wild how the more i'm working on recovery. the more i realize how fucking bad i miss her.

[phagodyke]

every time i experience attraction im like wow guess im attracted to ppl on a person by person basis bc there is no possible connection I can make between any of these ppl! and a couple months later I'll realise ohhh. I have a TYPE type.

[futuregws]

Okay before I ask the question I wanna ask I just wanna make one thing clear so yall don't judge me, I have ADHD okay so my brain is everywhere, one small thought will in fact lead to completely random unrelated shit that sometimes start a whole monologue, so don't ask me how I think of the stuff I ask about bc I don't know okay lmao.

So my random ass question of the day is something I need other opinions on, it's GoT related btw so let's imagine that there was another targaryen woman besides Daenerys and they were introduced pretty much at the same time and that other character had as much or maybe even a little more screentime than Dany, do yall think that this character would have been as popular in the media and between fans and as iconic as Dany or would she be overshadowed and kinda ignored.

[downsteepy]

threw this together pretty fast lol. anyway 2022 has been a pretty on and off art year for me because some of these months (from around june - september) i didn’t even really have anything substantial. by that i mean 99% of what i drew this year was very self indulgent self ship art and i don’t want to put that on an art summary because that’s embarrassing hehe ♥

+ some bonus stuff that i still like from over the course of this year (from february - december omitting some months)

i’d like to actually like.. be better at drawing in general in 2023 because i feel like my turnout has gotten pretty bad (september only had like 5 files in the folder lol) and then also i personally feel like my art is either stagnating or getting a little bad so 👍

[sillimancer]

talked to my therapist today a little bit about how I'm having mixed feelings about starting a blog again because I got a couple bluesky notifications on posts and it made me happy and motivated me to write some blog post notes and I agreed with their comment that, Given The Circumstances, it's probably not cringe under any circumstances to find things that bring me joy and want to keep being alive, but I also feel like we breezed a little too quickly past my issue with realizing that I haven't been writing for all these years because I felt like I had nothing to say, but it turns out I actually have a lot of things to say, it's just really disheartening and exhausting to say things and have nobody hear you, and bluesky has been the first time in a long time where I felt like maybe potentially people wanted to hear what I have to say

to be fair to my therapist this was like the last two minutes of session

[byfulcrums]

holy shit my worst fear just came true

[cidandy]

hgnfnfh i keep being tempted to delete a bunch of my old art