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Anybody have advice/resources for emigrating out of a country?
To answer your questions 1) yes, this is a sincere and legitimate request 2) yes, I'm aware this process is long and laborious (unless things escalate to the point we need to go full refugee which God forbid) and 3) it would be two adults (40s, advanced degrees, decent if not ideal health) and two minors.
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there are two executions scheduled next month
michael smith is scheduled to be executed by the state of oklahoma on april 4th, and brian dorsey in missouri on april 9th. of the time i'm writing this, willie pye was just killed last night by the state of georgia. none of these men should have been eligible for the death penalty: both mr. pye and mr. smith had/have intellectual disabilities and mr. dorsey was incapable of deliberation during the time of his crime which should have changed the nature of his murder charge.
read more about michael smith and brian dorsey and sign petitions asking for clemency below:
#i was shamefully late to posting about willie pye on here due to health issues so i'm trying to be proactive now and will try to post#about people the month before they're scheduled when i'm able to so people have time to see it#death penalty#death penalty action#petitions
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I know the canon explanation for Planet Jackers is just that the Tallest neglected to mark the earth for conquest so they saw it as up for grabs. But imagine if it wasn't a random coincidence that the Planet Jackers just happened to show up to take the earth not long after Zim arrived? Like, the Tallest were hoping for Zim to die before he even made it there, so after he reported in for the first time they called the Planet Jackers and told them to incinerate the earth hoping to get rid of him.
#invader zim#i'm a big fan in general of the#almighty tallest#being more proactive about dealing with zim#especially after backseat drivers#i think it would've been sick if they realized just humoring him from a distance wasn't enough#so they actively start sending assassins to try to take him out#and maybe only back off because they're afraid if the assassins aren't successful they might talk#and if zim finds out who sent them he'll come after the tallest
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can you believe i'm already planning my holiday event
#hehe#author update#amymas is coming back in nov/dec!#and i'm trying to be proactive and write some stories early#so i'm not sweating on christmas eve to post SLDKFJSD
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it's day two and one of my classes is already giving me anxiety attacks BUT there's so many people in my class that are in the same major as me so hopefully it'll be fine??
#also trying to be more proactive about emailing professors when i'm having trouble bc i really can't drop out of this class#screenwriting is lovely but i really do hate doing literally every other job in a production#like i'm not interested in it so i don't care so i'm bad at it#and then i get freaked out bc i'm bad at it#look i can make a banger script for my skill level okay#like when it comes to my screenwriting i can give an a-worthy script no problem#but that's what i'm studying. professor banging on about how if you just put enough effort in your short film final from this class could b#festival-wrothy like bro!!! no it will not!!! i fundamentally don't understand how to use a camera and trust me i've tried#they legitimately just don't make sense to me#like i get it in theory but then there's always 1 million things i somehow get wrong#and that's very stressful!!#anyways. i guess it's a good thing i only have three classes this semester#rambling
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"[Alice Perrers] requested that she be buried in the parish church of Upminster, St Laurence, before the altar of the Virgin Mary. Alice seems to have had an affinity with Mary through her life; a seal of hers from c. 1374 shows an image of the Virgin Mary and child, her tabernacle seized in 1377 had an image of the Virgin Mary on it, and now she wished to be buried before Mary’s altar."
-Gemma Hollman, "The Queen and the Mistress: The Women of Edward III"
#historicwomendaily#alice perrers#my post#I didn't know about this but it's so very intriguing#I wonder if Alice associated herself with Mary to try and assert her own 'quasi-queenship'#(ie: the most powerful woman in the country at the side of a king)#as Mary was obviously important element of queenly iconography in late medieval England#though on the flip side I suspect it would have also raised hackles that Alice - a commoner and royal mistress - was attempting#to present herself in such a way#it's especially interesting to consider in the context of Tompkins' argument that Alice was perceived as 'inverting queenship' (slay)#also this book was ... complicated.#It's very understanding and sympathetic and raised some very good points#but also tried to...massively soften Alice's actions and downplay her role and power in the process#(ie: defending her by diminishing her)#also there's this gem:#'Edward had been markedly restrained with the gifts and favour he had bestowed upon Alice' girl that is a flat-out lie#no other royal mistress of medieval England was ever given so much or honored in such a way.#yes we should emphasize Alice's own proactive role and intelligence in building up her vast estates#but even if that hypothetically hadn't happened#Edward's grants and gifts would have still made her extremely wealthy and powerful regardless#and was also weirdly obsessed with romanticizing Edward III and it got kinda questionable#like yes obviously I think we should ascribe more nuanced motivations and emotions to *Alice* than 'ambitious gold-digger#taking advantage of an aging king'#but I'm not fond of it veering too far on the other side either#I think sometimes we should simply be comfortable admitting when we simply don't know something
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bleh
#blabbering#rambling/whining/complaining/venting ahead:#I think the horrors have finally caught up to me and the depresso is starting to take hold#i don't usually experience this until winter but I think the sudden drop of activity and people going on hiatus and such -#has triggered this early for me#basically I can't be left alone with my thoughts for too long or i start spiraling REALLY badly.#i don't really handle change very well haha...#i have the notorious curse of second guessing anything and everything and putting it on repeat in my head and then amplifying it#which sucks bc I don't have any more escapisms that work now bc this was already my escapism and I have no human connections irl#(I'm not kidding either. I've failed time and time again to make friends irl and was always the proactive one about it. But alas... ugh)#my only source for connections is online bc i struggle to make friends (especially at my age and how my energy keeps depleting and depletin#might lowkey be sharkweek but usually I just get more agitated and not this (this is very specific to the winter horrors™ for me)#i guess I may as well check out the spears while they're around still (tho in between me making dinner). I'm just feeling super bummed out#and not excited like I was the other day about it (ofc I blame the depresso™).#I don't even know what to do for my beta characters. Head empty. Head gone. sigh.#also it sucks bc next week is gonna kick my ass at work (canada day/july 4th/july in general/5 DAYS and long shifts in there too)#i'm going to be so tired and so alone and with nothing to look forward to. Idk what to do bc none of my usual distractions are effective no#No escape. No seretonin. No company. Nothin'. I notice I when i start getting bad like this when I fall back hard into pokemon#(because it was my childhood escapism and I was a neglected only child who was left alone a lot; hence the connection lol)#i'll probably just have to suffer through it and be an absolute wreck of a person i think. I don't really have any other options#watch me get sick again bc canada sucks to work bc everyone has it off and they ALL GO TO THE STORE I WORK AT AND IT SUCKS.#gonna try to draw more too but the depresso is eating my brain worms (the healthy brain worms)
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felix: [takes limerick aside early in the campaign and confides, with difficulty because he's ashamed about it, that he sometimes has trouble speaking at all, because he wants at least someone to have fair warning ahead of it possibly coming up if he's gonna be traveling in a group for any amount of time]
limerick the first time felix mostly loses speech: you've been really quiet, everything okay? do you have any thoughts to add [to this discussion]? :)
limerick last session when simon lowkey assigned felix to go do a social encounter: I'll go with you, to help with the talking :)
limerick as soon as we're in the social encounter: [looks directly at felix, expectantly]
#felix: [dissociating] no yeah that's fine#the thing about the latter bit is that felix could have handled it better if he hadn't been DROPPED on a TRUSTFALL fgkjhdfg#he's not... shy per se or inherently uncomfortable about talking to people he just worries he's going to screw it up#so that was more 'oh perfect I can figure out where that npc is and limerick will talk to her. teamwork!' and relaxing into an expectation#and then getting rugpulled lol#[sigh] anyway none of this effects felix's FEELINGS about limerick really but like. it IS going to effect their relationship#ah boy he is not gonna remember if I tell him important and sensitive things about myself#and he's gonna try to be proactively kind and supportive in ways that are actively worse than if he hadn't#I guess I'd better just not confide in him or let my guard down enough to lean on him for support then :\#WHICH LIKE-- it is what it is but ah beans :')#reminding myself that pulling away from relationships rather than advocate for himself is A Character Flaw I gave the lad on purpose.....#can't set up uncomfortable situations if I'm not prepared to then play in the uncomfortable space.....#you have one(1) friend and he's so so so bad at listening to you or understanding you and you just gotta deal with that#he's gonna actively stress you out A Lot but you'd better not say anything to him about it or you'll end up with No Friends (again)#AH ALSO to be clear: this seems like a lot of projecting based on a couple minor things early in the campaign BUT#I should clarify that a lot of the 'oh god yep here we go' is coming from ME who's played dnd with this friend for many years lmao#no yeah this was Going To Happen and I'm not surprised but AH MAN. AH BEANS......
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Asked my provider to renew my referral to the surgeon and she answers me with "they don't take insurance." Why in the fuck did you refer me to them then. What is the point of getting a dx that I needed SPECIFICALLY for insurance to cover the surgery and then referring me out of network.
#in operant conditioning terms I'm constantly punished for trying to get my life together and be proactive and handle my shit#“but why don't you have your shit together”#fucking kill me#she said she didn't even know any plastic surgeons who take insurance which surely can't be true#what about ppl who need reconstruction after accidents and shit
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I think purity culture has ruined fandoms: everyone is so ansty to prove how pure they are that they attack and harass people horribly and call it "activism". Be it people attacking teenagers in the Marauders fandom because there's this new rule you can't even write the words Harry Potter without summoning a hoard of naysayers who accuse you of endorsing holocaust or some shit just for liking something linked with Miss Black Mold, or be it people harassing SA victims who still dare say they find solace in their old NCG's fandoms, in the stories they loved and made theirs from their childhoods or as adults. This uglyness that runs into tumblr and is infecting every fandom, every social media actually, is so fucking gross. Putting the blame of the evils of consumerism or rich people onto the single person reeks of late stage activism. No one knows what to do anymore, so we start eating each others, and then purity culture morphs into these extreme forms of harassment, that are becoming more and more normal by the day.
I'm starting to get tired of the internet as a whole.
#rant#fandoms#ng#cw sa mention#yes this is about harry potter#yes even coraline or good omens or sandman or whatever#the C in NG stands for Creep#I've been angry at this stupid culture for years and now I'm getting so sick of it#I'm blocking anyone who says you endorse this or that for just still *liking* your childhood book or whatever#if you care so much about a cause make a donation or an informative post- be proactive and constructive- BUT ->#if you take these causes as an excuse to be a fucking bully you're just a fucking pathetic excuse of a bully for sending hate and d. threat#rowling#hp#y'all wanna close yourself in the bubble of persecution where “no one is doing anything about this! I'm the only one doing something!” ?#and use this last-hero-left-on-Earth-syndrome to start harassing heavily anyone who doesn't agree (for ex) that liking HP=being transphobic#well drown in your own hate with your own peers-I'm done listening to these people or trying to be lenient and understand their pov#no matter how good your cause is-if you back it up with hate and bullying and psychopathy you're only hurting the cause-not even helping it#I'm still laughing at that person who said that going around with a ratty 10 years old HP keychain means you're “advertising” the HP books#because someone could see your keychain and get inspired to buy HP merch or the books giving Rowling money-same with tattoos#this level of craziness is... something else#edit: in the year of the lord 2024 I finally learnt how to make my stupid rants unrebloggable#amazing#I finally have the possibility to rant a bit and then it doesn't risk going around accidentally lol#without making it private and then losing it in the sea of posts
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I think all Sims or visual novels (not just dating ones) should have like. Four dialoage options. Each with a unique personality and tone.
Like, one could be more sarcastic and dry, one happy go lucky "look on the bright side ™!", or just emotional in general, one purely logical, and one who just tries to make jokes or playfully flirt.
Player can choose any of these options at any time, they don't just have to stick to one. This could be tweeked whichever way would work the best, but yeah. My opinion.
Thank you very much for answering!!!
In some interactive fictions I've played personality works like a stat, so if you're character is shy but acts more outgoing around an RO they'll comment on it, which I like, but just letting people choose at will would certainly be easier... lots to think on (╭ರ_•́)
This more or less what I've been working with as a general guide for myself???
I split how MC talks generally vs how they are with the specifically romantic choices. My handwriting is a bit messy here, but I know I want how the player interacts with the romance to be something I keep track of even if I let you bounce around between being pessimistic or optimistic. That way if you are playing someone who is repressing their feelings you get to choose who cracks first, you or your RO.
#<3 asks#the listed characters are the starter ros#i split off four from the group to work on so I'm not trying to write 72 at once#if you are curious and can't make it out#they are:#mammon (oblivious) gabriel (restrained) virgil (proactive) and cas (flustered/proactive)#cas is special#I've spent a lot of time thinking about him#but mammon had to be one of the first routes w how popular he is in obey me#not that they're exactly alike though...
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No fear
One fear
#Yadda yadda#(I'm just trying to have a good laugh about all the things that come under this tag)#You see#I am a wimpy baby#Aka I'm proactive about my mental health#And being weird while using fanfic as a means to escape#This makes me SO NERVOUS#Unless the tags are thorough#IT SCARES ME MOM#I WANT TO GO HOME
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Ashamed, exhausted, food repulsed. Wish my gf was here so at least I could be held through the agony.
#recovery#I'm trying to be kind to myself#I'm almost certain I have bpd at this point#but I need to talk to my therapist about it#and maybe need a meds adjustment#regardless I'm gonna ask about DBT#and if we can work through some of the dbt skills workbook together#now that I have a serious partner again#it's waaay too easy for me to backslide into unhealthy coping mechanisms when I'm triggered#found out the hard way last night#but today is a new day#and I can always choose to be proactive about my health going forward#I want to be a good boyfriend#but I also owe it to myself to maintain a healthy relationship#something I never got the chance to really learn or practice#but this time I will#this time it can be different#I can grow I can change I can do the work#but today I will curl up in a ball and rest
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I'm literally counting down the days til I bring my puppy home. I know it'll be a lot of work, and part of me is stressed about it, but I'm really looking forward to having something like a full time job. As a disabled person who's unable to work and isn't going to school, I struggle with depression and my self-worth. Also being autistic and ADHD, I really really struggle with setting my own routines. I NEED routine to function because of my autism but due to my ADHD, I can't stick with it without external accountability. So, I have a lot of free time on my hands in comparison to my peers, and it's hard when I'm asked "What's new with you?" or "What have you been up to?" because I don't have anything the average person finds value in to say. My mom (who's also AuDHD) and I always say we need "have to's" in our lives (meaning responsibilities and obligations) to maintain a routine. A puppy is a big "have to" and I really need that in my life. I need a big "have to" to organize my life around so I can get my shit together
#a lot of my days lately I'm just like. trying to kill time cause idk what to do yet#trying to do all the research and preparation I can before she comes#I know more about dogs and training than most but with puppies I feel less equipped because it's been 7 years since I raised one lol#and back then I wasn't very well equipped at all knowledge wise. so I really want to be better this time#be more proactive about training socializing and conditioning#I have BIG plans and I just can't wait to get started!#em rambles#puppy talk#personal#I wanted to post my thoughts to my dog Instagram but I don't have a picture to post so I'm rambling here lmao
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it's probably a crazy long shot but I'm a lil bit desperate so why not float the idea idk. just wondering if anyone would be interested in trying to organize a group to play dnd over discord some time. I've never dm'ed and would prefer not to, but if we can't recruit someone who will, I can try to run a prewritten campaign. it's just been like literally 6 months since the last time I played, and it doesn't seem like the campaign I specifically bought dice at youmacon for is going to happen SO
#I've spent a lot a lot of time crying and lamebting the fact I'll probably never get to play again#but I at least want to idk#TRY and be proactive and make an attempt at finding another group#I'm not super experienced but at one time my friends and I had 3 campaigns going st once#and it was the most fun I've ever had tbh#I miss it so much and then my bestie put on the vox machina animation last night and it made me want to play again#SO BAD#but he would never lmfao and even if he would you can't play a campaign w just 1 player lmfao
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self-isolation during times of stress is pretty bad actually shame it took me 2 years of uni to realise this
#not to be cringe but i ended up joining the people on my course today when our lecturer didn't show and one girl was getting on with work#so sat at the same table but not talking to the rest of us#we were having a whole rant session about third year optional modules and i said something that made the others laugh & she was smiling#to herself @ it#u are trying to be serious studying over in the corner but i got u sjhbjkhbsd#they're such nice people and i wish i'd been proactive in becoming friends at the start#because my lecture skipping meant i never gave myself the chance to do so and they all moved on ahead of me#i can talk to them any time and they're always so lovely but i'm not in the core group#and i've done that to myself#:(( hopefully next year .... she says again#i see them often in lectures but not outside of that much and it's my own fault that now i'm at a point where it's weird to request to join#outside of lectures i mean#but today i asked and it was fine <3 small steps#for someone so prone to removing myself entirely from everyone around me#:/ my default is to assume that nobody wants me there and i can rarely gather the strength to be there anyway#deep deep issue that one!! because it extends to my parents#need to shut up and get one with work wow
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