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Show: NINJAGO Legends: Monstrosity (Kai mini-series)
Song: To Ashes and Blood - WOODKID
So anyone else a changed man after watching this? Because this sure did something to my brain chemistry i MISSED 2D animation SO FREAKING MUCH
#KNOX EDIT (me)#LEGO Ninjago Monstrosity#tw bugs#tw centipede#y'all can thank kai sand for the use of this song AND for the fact it's the full four minutes ily kai sand <3#the fact that i spent three days on this just proves i am so normal about it I AM NORMAL I'M TELLING U#exported over ten times spent an hour staring at it to make sure it uploaded paused to watch a tornado dissipate somewhere in there#i do indeed have my priorities straight yes indeed#last week of school and i have an exam tomorrow and i'm making this because I still can't believe this mini-series is real i wish there was#more of it and im so incredibly grateful and obsessed with what we got THEY REALLY PUT ONE OF MY FAVES THROUGH THE HORRORS#JAY GETS AN OFFICE JOB COLE GETS A FAMILY NYA GETS BEING A TRAVELLING PROTECTOR ZANE GETS A NAP LLOYD GETS ISOLATED AND THEN STUDENTS AND#KAI?? KAI GETS THE MOST HORRORS IMAGINABLE BRO GETS FREE TRUAMA FOR YEARS I'M OBSSESSED HOW'D THEY GET AWAY WITH THISHGLKSDJF#been here waiting for this to load for THREE HOURS AAAAA#hi its the next morning we're trying this again#HI ITS THE EVENING WE'RE TRYING THIS AGAIN#I TRIED THIS AT SCHOOL TOO AND NTOHING#OH MY GODS IT WORKED FINALLY OH MY FINALLY EVERYOEN OUT OF THE WAY I'M POSTING NOW RAAA
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✷ purest thoughts ✷
if this resonates with you, feel free to support this lil creacher living paycheck to paycheck! ► my ko-fi page ☕️
#illustration#aesthetic#plants#magic#esoteric#ecosystem#blue#pink#morning glory#stars#forget me not#flowers#magical#mental health#hey!! its been awhile. i hope you've been well <3#art ph#portfolio#art fart#prinsomnia#being an adult is hard. i miss the simpler days when i was younger when i was able to not worry so much abt my bills and surviving and just#keep drawing#i still have so much to figure out but i'll keep going#life has become kinder to me despite the hardships and i'm extremely grateful for that#so i'm sending you all the hugs and the support if u need it! i hope you enjoy this piece. :~)#thank you for viewing and supporting me!
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Just going to cry again (see: my previous post about the parallels between the storage room scene and the abandoned factory scene) about parallels and juxtapositions in the store room scene vs the one in Styles bedroom:
Both these scenes have such a tone of desperation and are characterised by an overflowing of emotions, but in drastically opposite directions.
(Note, some of what I say in this post directly relates to concepts and themes I talked about here, so it may not wholly make sense without that context.)
The scene in the storeroom is filled with frustrated desire. Fadel kisses Style because he wants Style's body and also wants to take his frustrations at Style out on his body. He doesn't need to look Style in the eye (and in fact very intentionally only does so only in small snatches) because this isn't about a connection as much as it is about a release. Fadel's kisses come fast, hard, and are intended to bruise more than to adore.
But episode 5's scene is filled with much more quiet and tender sort of desire. Style is kissing Fadel so much more slowly and purposefully. He keeps looking back at Fadel, checking in to see how he feels and whether Fadel is enjoying it. Everything Style wanted in Episode 3, he now gives to Fadel here, pours the secrets of his knowing and choosing Fadel anyway into the way he presses his lips onto Fadel's skin. His kisses linger, they carry a weight but are somehow infinitely gentle still; Style's kisses contain a purpose that Fadel's kisses couldn't in Episode 3 because in all honesty they were relative strangers back then.
There's also the way there's such a ferocity and carelessness in the way Fadel starts the encounter in episode 3 that is juxtaposed beautifully by the slow, tender, almost hesitant way Style slides his lips onto Fadel's. Both of them are in such different headspaces, between these episodes and its especially evident in the way they care so much more about the other person's comfort and how intentionally they showed that to the audience.
There's hunger present in both scenes but what this hunger is focused on is so drastically different. In the storeroom, they're both mainly focused on a physical release; its primal and visceral but lacked emotional resonance. Fadel gives Style what he knows Style wants (that hint of danger, with the hand on his neck), but its not because he really cares about what Style wants on anything more than a physical level. In Style's bedroom, however, Fadel is drunk (intentionally and by his own design) and desperate to open himself up to Style on an emotional level. Meanwhile, Style wants that desperately too, but knows that Fadel shouldn't because of his own terrible secret. So this kiss is what they both will allow themselves - an honesty and a hunger for this deeper connection they can only share in act but not in words.
In the storeroom, Style wants Fadel to want more than his body but knows (or thinks) he can't push for it yet, so he remains passive, lets Fadel do whatever he wants, lets him turn and shove and place Style how he wants because at this point, this is all Fadel will give him. Here, Style is passive in spite of what he wants. But in the bedroom, Fadel is passive because it's what he wants; he wants to let Style do whatever he desires to and with Fadel's body. He wants to lay himself as bare as he possibly can, which is only physical, and so he does.
And because the encounter in Episode 3 lacked that emotional connection, the focus is merely their respective releases. There's a sense of two people trying to find pleasure and 'finish' while remaining emotionally disconnected despite actively having sex with each other. Because in some ways, they didn't really need each other in that moment to get there (there's actually a lot of truth in what Fadel says about it being easier to just jerk off alone). In sharp contrast, the scene in Episode 5 isn't focused on the destination but on the journey. Style is taking his time and Fadel is letting him - Style is choosing to worship Fadel's body, with his fingers, with his lips, to respond to his vulnerability with gentleness and tenderness and adoration. The goal has stopped being about finding a release, it's about allowing both these men to revel in the giving and receiving of pleasure.
The point of these scenes is to show to us the ways in which Fadel and Style have grown to care for and, dare I say it, love each other in ways that are so purposefully portrayed by showing the nature of their physical connection. Because the ways in which these scenes are the same and yet so wholly different showcases how their touches are now no longer merely tied to their senses any longer, but also to their hearts as well.
#when i say i am OBSESSED ugh T_T#what joongdunk did in episode 5 just makes me appreciate and anew how much they're intentionally changing things each time#there's such care taken to portraying the characters growth and change of feelings and we are so blessed to be able to experience it!#the heart killers#the heart killers the series#fadelstyle#stylefadel#joongdunk#joong archen#dunk natachai#thk ep 5#thk ep 3#thk meta#hui talks thk#hui talks thai bl#shoutout to all the gifmakers because this post wasn't nearly as impactful with stills#i do wish there was a better way to search for gifs though TwT#also i've never been a colour analysis girl (because i don't know enough about it; not because i'm not interested...#i mostly don't know where to start)#but wow the lighting feels very intentional too: the cold and clinical shades of blue indicating the emotional distance between them#vs the warm and soft red/orange glow surrounding style's bedroom scene#yeah everything about these scene was so beautifully done and i'm so grateful we get to see it TwT
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Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)
#poorly drawn mdzs#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Woah...it's been a whole *year* since I took the leap and uploaded my 'first attempt' art.#It's outdated now but it holds a special place in my heart for the fact it started all of this off.#Calling this 'poorly-drawn' was always about accepting that my art was going to be imperfect and messy - and doing it anyways!#There has been a staggering number of times I have drawn something I almost didn't upload because I didn't think it was 'good enough'#only for someone to say they liked it - or that it made them laugh. And it has helped me realize -#-The worst critic for my work has always been myself. If I listened to it all the time...well we would not be here now B'*)#And now that I have dabbled in other fandoms I can truly see how lucky was to start out with the MXTX fans.#The supportive messages and tags have truly been a guiding force toward my artistic and self improvement.#I really can't describe how grateful I am.#Thank you for seeing something worth rooting for when I was just figuring things out.#Thank you for being sweeter than the candy I have strategically hidden in the nooks and crannies of this house.#But watch out! If you forget to find them we will get ants.#I remembered to not hide chocolate in the bed this year. Yes I know it melted last time. Yes it did stain. I'm still sorry.#Thank you for loving me regardless <3 Even if it looked like I shit the bed real bad.
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It was an absolute blast designing these pieces for @harriertail 's Warriors Cover Zine! The zine includes redraws of every single warrior cats cover from the main series all the way to the super editions, comics, and novellas— totalling over 100 pieces of original art!
There's a few copies left if you missed the initial preorder, you can purchase yours here.
#this was the first zine project i've been a part of and I'm so grateful to have had the chance!#everyone was absolutely lovely#and seeing all the awesome art come together was SO incredibly cool#I'm also very proud of how the blazing star turned out <3#stormclan's folly was a bit rushed so there's things I would have done differently now#but I'm still pretty happy with it :)#all in all a great experience#10/10#go check out all the other awesome art when you have the chance#warriors cover zine#wc cover zine#zine#wc#warriors#warrior cats#idk what to tag fanart as all i usually post on here is wcrp art lmao
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May10 day doodles. I wanted to make a quick sketch.
I was wrong.
"My master says I'm going to be a horrible maid ™" - the arc. Aaravos as always, refuses to roll for initiative. A little controlled chaos is good, he thinks. Probably. Maybe.
Bonus
what was going through his empty head, probably
Aren't you no stranger to that yourself, Aaravos?
I think Aaravos would volunteer to be the bait first but Callum is really going to bring down all the nations if that happens and I am scared.
"you're going to be right there with me, right?" and it's just Aaravos in a vest and monocle. or whatever the equivalence of the medieval times to a vest I guess?
alt version
the reason why I'm never finishing this is probably of my own bias hc that Aaravos hates vests or suits or anything that looks like a vest/cooperate/rich people formal attires. I would write you an essay explaining in detail why.
but i just think it's so much funnier not to explain.
#tdp#aaravos#callum#the dragon prince#my art#doodle#maid day#heeey guys#it's been 300 years#I'm still dying on my merch project#I hate that I'm really slow#I hope you enjoy this little brainrot instead tho#as always#I'm grateful for anyone that is still here#anyone who's with me since 2022 will know that I did this once before#3 years later#he still cooks in that maid outfit#maid callum#is gonna be a tag?#idk hahaha#aaravos in a monocle is objectively really funny to me
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Hwang Dong-hyuk really said he never does the same thing twice and he stuck to it. He doesn't do the same thing twice so why would Gi-hun survive the games a second time?
#i'm so impressed by director hwang#the way he sticks to what he set out to do#the way season 1 got so big that the world didn't see the show's message anymore#and the way netflix made him do two more seasons just to profit off of the hype#and the way he still stuck to his message and actually kind of actively shoved it in your face in the last season#it's so impressive#i've never watched a show where the message is as clear as it is in squid game#like no joke#i finished season 3 and i was like 'that makes sense'#it was the most plausible most real way to end this show#the way that made the most sense#and i'm so so grateful for that#i've been disappointed by a final season so many times#but director hwang didn't disappoint me at all#he should get all the fucking awards for making such a good cohesive show that doesn't do fanservice and sticks to it's themes and#intentions until the very end#no matter how much the world might want him to make a show that is easier to process and deal with#lea's random thoughts#squid game#squid game spoilers#squid game 3 spoilers#hwang dong hyuk#also i really love how you can see that he Really doesn't do the same thing twice#he might give us incredibly smart parallels but he won't give us the same thing twice
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My pictures of Dir En Grey in Paris, Day 1 (22.03.24)~
Day 2 pics here.
(my quick thoughts on the shows below the line)
I went to both Paris shows (VIP on day 1) and it was hands down the best experience of my life so far. So amazing beyond words. To not only meet my favourite band of all-time in the flesh, but to also watch them perform from the front row on the 1st day (and still very close to the stage on day 2) felt so surreal. Seeing them perform some of my favourite songs of all-time (including dead tree, my number 1 favourite song) was so overwhelmingly amazing I cried multiple times. I got acknowledgments from Die, Toshiya, and Kyo for screaming so loudly every time they came to our side of the stage, and I can't describe how affirming it felt. Since yall follow me on here, you know how much this band means to me, and especially Kyo. This man is my biggest inspiration in regards to both his music and his artistic self-expression. I've never been so inspired by a musician before; I've never been this obsessed with a band before. This was a dream come true, one that I never thought could happen. Thank you so much to this most incredible band. No band will ever come close for me.
#I've been so incredibly busy the past month I've barely had time for anything - so this was like a break from reality#and a surreal one at that#thank you so much to this band#and thank you Kyo especially <3#I'll never be able to express in words just how much they mean to me and what it meant for me to see them live#I'm so grateful I got this opportunity cuz idk when it could ever happen again#sadly I didn't really see Shinya or Kaoru much from my side of the stage both days (especially Shinya) :( but still so grateful <3#Dir en grey#Paris#France#Europe#March 2024#mode of withering to death#europe tour 2024#diru#kyo#die#toshiya#kaoru#shinya#京#薫#kyo dir en grey#die dir en grey#toshiya dir en grey#kaoru dir en grey#shinya dir en grey#my pictures
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Just in case if I didn't put in the right ones, it's "if your character had a copy ability in KAFTL what would it look like" "If your OC was in the anime, how would they work" and "has your oc been possessed before?"
Thank you and keep up the amazing work!
hey there hyperz0ne!! these are really fun ones, thank you! i went a little overboard for the copy ability upgrade one, so i'll answer the anime one in another post; but it's coming up soon! from this ask meme!
11. 🐾: If there was a Forgotten Land copy ability upgrade themed after your OC, which ability would it be for? What would the hat for it look like and how would it upgrade the base ability?
this is SUCH a cool question!! i LOVE hypothetical game mechanics, especially forgotten land copy ability upgrades and designs. took my time to think through this one good and proper! i've previously hinted that if starstruck gave an ability it would probably be crash, so continuing off that i think she would give a third evolution to the crash ability, following on from Time Crash, called Supernovic Crash. it would be unlocked at the end of the game, when starstruck shows up in waddle dee town to hang out with her friends.
i've also previously described a moveset she might have as a dream friend, and i think this one would have some similar caveats. > in each new stage in order to power-up the ability kirby must find four collectables. prior to this he can inhale and use star-bullets as usual, but cannot discard the ability except by going back to town, or dying. > once he's collected the items, the Supernovic Crash ability gains its silly little hat. after that it has unlimited uses of its first attack, "star shower", which summons a rain of starspears across the entire screen which will 1hKO most enemies.
> after powering up the ability, kirby can get rid of it by activating its second attack, "north star guide". opening a portal, kirby pulls through a massive star-shaped meteor, which he can run behind. so long as he keeps up, it'll clear the path for him until the end of the area. once the star explodes, the ability vanishes like normal crash
> lastly, if kirby reaches 0hp while the upgrade is active, a third secret ability called "dark gravity" activates. the dark sphere on top of his crown explodes outward, filling the screen with black. when it clears, all on screen enemies are gone, and kirby is left alive with 1hp and no copy ability
22. 👻: Has your OC ever been possessed or mind controlled? If yes, how did it happen?
i know this was an extremely popular theory early on, but she has never been possessed. and i'm not even sure she ever could be.
#cannot be possessed in any sense of the word.#not really. not in any meaningful way. not even by Him.#my art#asks#starstruck dee#kirby#ask meme#🎀🔍#i'm having a really delightful time answering asks again!! thank you folks for indulging me!#and for still being here. and still engaging with the lore drops even though it's been so long!! waaugh. just very grateful. thank you!! <3
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Do you have any cherik fics recs set in the comics? Or at least not set in X-men first class
my rec list is very small for i don't really read fanfics and i only really read things when they're recc'd to me HOWEVER i do have a Very Small collection for you (descending by word count). under the cut cause the descriptions got long by accident Oops
1.) [EXPLICIT, READ WARNINGS BEFOREHAND] Chimera, by Andraste (Word Count: 1,304)
(Takes place in the Ultimate X-Men (2001) timeline) I can't really describe this fic adequately without telling the whole thing or accidentally doing an analysis on it: while it doesn't have a strict plot, calling it PWP isn't too accurate in my opinion either. The smut in this fic- in my reading- isn't meant to be erotic in the typical way we approach NSFW in fanfiction, but if I start to go in-depth on what that means this post is just going to be dissecting everything line-for-line LOL. The best way I suppose I can describe the premise of this fic is a "grim" scenario based around Charles reworking Erik's mind and keeping him "docile", and Erik catching on to what's been happening to him. This fic explores how Erik wants Charles to "atone" and confront the consequences for this meddling.
2.) As If Nothing Happened, by joshriku (Word Count: 3,289)
(Takes place amidst X-Men Unlimited (1993) #1) This fic expands on the X-Men Unlimited tidbit where Charles is rescued by a """"mysterious"""" figure (who we later learn is Erik in UXM 309) during the snowstorm he, Scott, and Ororo were entrapped by. Very domestic and "warm" and sprinkled with beautiful, playful back-and-forths, and is a joy to revisit if you want something cozy.
3.) [EXPLICIT, READ WARNINGS BEFOREHAND] Behind Closed Minds by f3armgneto (Word Count: 4,914)
(No specific verse or timeline) Honorable Mention Is Honorable i gotta include the fic that was written for me... i wasn't sure if you were looking for explicitly-stated comicverse fics only but i needed to do an honorable mention..... the art this fic's based off of is meant to be comicverse so surely that must count... Premise is essentially that Charles accidentally telepathically peeps on Erik showering and is incapable of moving beyond the instance without "proper resolution". Meanwhile on Erik's end, fully aware he'd been spied upon, thinks of a "countermeasure" to Charles' voyeurism (spoilers: it's more of a reward than a deterrent).
4.) it's going to be a long, long time, by joshriku
(Takes places amidst Krakoa period around AXE Judgment and X-Men Red) A series of events between Charles and Erik following the latter leaving to retire on Arakko. My summary does a poor job on highlighting the chemistry, dialogue, and longing between Erik and Charles in this: I can only beg you to give the fic some time to read it.
5.) not so tragic, my love- it's this dream, it's this sun, by joshriku
(Takes place post-gala/beginning-of-post of the Krakoa period, diverges from X-men: From The Ashes (2024)) Erik has Charles stay with him on Island M after the fall of Krakoa. It's no surprise Charles isn't doing so well mentally after losing everything, but- amidst the facsimile of some domestic joys- Erik wrangles with Charles' depression and anguish, the professor having long lost the light in his spirit to help his fellow mutants readjust after the downfall. (Guest Starring: Jean Grey who has a wonderfully written interaction with Charles- though this fic In Its Entirety is wonderfully written...)
when i was looking through my bookmarks i hadn't realized literally like. half of my rec list was written by joshriku AJLVKEJALK BUT THEM'S THE WORKS i owe them my life for getting charles and erik's voices, thoughts, and actions down so wonderfully. i hadn't read Number 5 in a while and i'm grateful for the excuse to do so: it's probably my favorite of their works that i have listed here, so if you read any of these fics i greatly suggest that one
if you read any of these at all tho i hope you enjoy them !!
#snap chats#fic rec#i have to thank a commissioner who introduced me to joshriku and their works months back#i ALSO have to thank them because the commissioner was the reason why i picked up UXM 309 and XMU... so shout out to them...#reading anything by joshriku feels as if i'm reading dialogue from the comics itself#now usually when i see that term used in reference to /my/ work it's because of how hammy and 60's-sounding it is#but with joshriku i can just perfect imagine everything and hear everything- as if the words were meant for comic pages#maybe a lot of xmen fic writers have that talent- i dont know again im very bad at reading fics#as for chimera tho im not exagerrating when i say i can do a line-for-line analysis on it#it's probably because it's so short it's a lot easier for me to think of its premise and concept#AND IM GRATEFUL FOR IT FOR THAT i love it for that- the details Not Said are always my favorite#i remember reading that fic the first time and being blindsided by the ending#i shouldnt have considering the concept involved but still i was like Girl.... Youre In Too Deep VJLEKVJEAKLV#i love my toxic yaoi...... chimera i love you... it makes me want to tackle 'normal' erik more whenever i reread it#aaaaand i already shared all my praises for number 3 in the tags of my rb JLAEKJKAL#i always love me voyeurism and mirror usage... gentle remidner....#ngl something mysterious happened to me while i was making this post so idk how the summaries hold up#i at least wanted to try to use this ask to take my mind of the thing... i think it worked for the most part#i think a part of me doesnt read fics because then i get inspired and ill feel like im copying others' works vLAEKJELKJ#beacuse as i was revisiting these fics i was like. Ough.... Thats Good.. I Must See Visuals For This..#i met my old bestie through making fanart for her fic so who knows.. could be a worthy endeavor lol..#but yeah hope you enjoy these if you read em !!!
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FINALLY!! At long last, I've gotten my hands on a Pumpkin Kitty, after a whole year of wanting and waiting.
Her name is Latte! (Short for Miss Pumpkin Spice Latte) You can also call her Miss Spice!
#I spent 10 minutes picking her out omfg#not even exaggerating. I was deciding between this one and one of the last 3 unstuffed PKs#altogether there was only 5 of them left in the store including the 2 stuffed displays#the other one I was looking at had a nearly perfect pumpkin eye patch but less pumpkins overall#and their face wasn't as nice plus the ears were a bit wonky for my taste.#tho it was really hard to tell which would be better while they were unstuffed and flat#in the end I chose Latte because right away she looked to have a sweet face. her ears were nice and she had better patch placement#including a couple full patches on her tail#tbh if I'd had the money I might have bought both because the decision was hard#the bear builder actually asked if I was alright while I concentrated on studying each of those damn cats#I apologized and explained wtf was up with me. she was very understanding#I've always had this quirk where sometimes it'll take forever for me to pick between plushies I really want#especially if they're both the same exact plush. because then I gitta focus harder on finding out which has the better personality#you get what I mean?#anyways this has been a thing for me even as a real little kid#I remember spending and hour-hour and a half almost every time when my dad took me to choose my monthly webkinz#“my monthly webkinz” god that makes me sound so privileged. it was the nicest/best thing my dad could afford to get me because we were poor#he wanted to spoil me as all good fathers do but that was the most he could afford and I was always so grateful and still am! but I digress#anyways I took way too long to pick which kitty would become my Latte#but I'm glad I had the opportunity to choose yet alone to actually see pumpkin kitty irl available for purchase#what do you guys think of her?#stuffed animals#plushies#plushblr#build a bear#BAB#pumpkin kitty#viti's plushie#plushie: latte
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rinmakoharu blast, everybody cheered👏👏👏
2023 art dump of them:




#free!#free iwatobi swim club#tachibana makoto#nanase haruka#matsuoka rin#rinmakoharu#idk which order to put their names in but i don't think it matters all that much#only me and 3 other people have ever thought of just putting them all together instead of fighting ship wars#their 2023 designs are lowk my roman empire though#on one hand yeah that's def them#but on the other hand im lowk cringing#maybe i'm too critical of old art tho that's also a possibility✌️#anyway im still grateful that i made them back then#rinmakoharu makeout sesh when?
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Joja Co. is happy to announce that we have reached 4000 followers on tumblr💙🙏 We are truly grateful for you to allow us to be one step closer to world domination 😉🌎
#Thank you for real! I barely do anything but I'm still very grateful for yalls attention :3#sdv#join us thrive#stardew valley#joja co#joja mart#joja
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Icarus, the swan—Henry, the boy—who wielded wings of wax, craved to touch the sun—Zack, the golden boy—whose neck completed his half-heart.
- How to Graze the Dawn Without Embodying Embers (An Ode to the Sun) by @babbieblabs // ☆⭐︎
#sorry babs I know this isn't the best. i've like. forgotten how to color my gifs its been so long 😭 perhaps I'll remake at some point#anyway i'll put the rest of my thoughts at the end of the tags <3#zenry#henry danger#henry hart#zack martin#zenryverse#gifset#gifs#mine#*#okay anyway so like. i'm still so flabbergasted in the best way that you wrote this FOR ME????#and it's TOO!!! GOOD!!!!#i think about it all the time. it lives in my mind rent free. i'm never not thinking about it#i'll always be so grateful and I just wanted to make a little token to show my appreciation <3
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Ok so when you first encounter Astarion and he pulls the knife out on you Gale threatens to incinerate him. Of course he says this because he doesn't want to see an innocent person get hurt but to me this is also his way of repaying you for saving his life by pulling him out of the portal. He only has a small group of people who care about him (Tara, his mother, Elminster) so I can only imagine his thought process after someone went out of their way to save him. He's just so grateful that someone cared enough to help him, even if he is just a stranger to them.
#“this person couldve just left me there but they didnt so I'm gonna do my best to make sure they know how grateful i am”#we know mytra discarding hin caused some serious self worth issues#he doesnt want tav to regret saving him#even if by this point theyre still practically strangers#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 gale#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep
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im rlly rlly sorry to ask but dyk if you'll ever continue/update "Doctor, Doctor (Give me the news)"?
PLEASE feel free to ignore this ask if you dont wanna answer!! i completely understand and in NO way am i trying to rush at all! the curiosity is just getting to me
again im sososo sorry to ask and feel free to ignore this!!
I should start charging you guys for these asks. I'd be able to quit sex work and be a good Woman like the other anon wants me to be /j
Listen: I am not abandoning Doctor Doctor. I am two thirds of the way through the final chapter and am drafting for the third fic. I have every intention of continuing it. Don't panic, it's not going to be lost to the abyss or anything like that.
I know that the gap in chapter release probably seems huge because I usually update once a week or so. Perhaps that's on me for setting the schedule standard so high and making you guys expect quick updates.
If I'm absolutely frank with you (and I tell you this not to make you feel bad but to be honest and open with you) things are very difficult for me in real life at the moment.
Beyond being burnt out with writing generally, I am suffering some family (and pet) grief and have talked about my turbulent relationship with them in general, which in turn makes this all very difficult. I have to visit home soon and that's not going to be fun.
I have ongoing health issues, and my mental health has tanked quite badly in the past few months. I've been coming off of anti-psychotics and that went wrong, which caused me a lot of other issues, and also my mental health is very fragile anyway so it's difficult at the best of times. I had a nervous breakdown a few weeks ago and am still delicate from it. I have BPD, which if you're familiar with it, is not very nice. I'm in very intense therapy for it and that takes a lot out of me each week. I'm very tired.
I'm also in a difficult relationship that is very likely going to end because I came out as asexual. I have been having to come to terms with my sexuality, the inevitable end of this relationship that I value, and deal with the fall out of it, with someone who is not always very nice to me.
Things are stressful and tiring and very overwhelming for me. I am still chipping away at the chapter, but it's just taking extra time to get done because I lack the energy I had at the start. But it's just an energy thing; the passion is still there!
Again, not telling you this to make you feel bad or tell you off, I just want to be honest with you so you know that I'm truly not giving up on the fic. I just have a lot on. I have waaaaaay too many ideas and love for Ford to just walk away from my fics and I really love talking with you guys about them all, so don't worry :) It's coming, I promise.
#I'm also probably aromantic but im unemployed so i dont really care about that right now#i've been worried everyone will leave bc im not putting stuff out so it's always nice to know that you guys still want to read my fics#and talk to me#i really appreciate the interest and im very grateful that so many of you want it to continue!#i wouldn't dream of letting you down any more than i already have so it will come eventually you just have to hang on for me#thank you love you <3#asks#anon
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