#but i was scared that it was gonna progress to the stage where i'm literally tearing my skin off and it getting infected

[thesulliedone]

its a bit icky, but there's something oddly satisfying about the way the skin sorta peels and crumbles after an eczema flareup dries out.

[oh-no-its-bird]

Ok so updated list of my WIPS;

Actually in progress;

- Offal and All (Kakashi's relationship with food throughout the years, mostly told through the eyes of others) I'm activley focusing on this one rn and hoping to post it like, this week actually. It's a mash up of a lot of different tiny Kakashi hc's I've posted about and should be very fun (and depressing, but that's kind of my brand, so.)

- One Step Three Steps chapter 10, it's going well so far actually I just keep writing it at work then being forced to stop bc like. Work. Might go up this week, hopefully

- Chasing Shadows chapter 4, it's like 20% done? Ish? I just need to find the head space to get back to writing it, will go up within the next 2 weeks for sure but idk when exactly. It'll be great tho ur gonna get Hikaku, Fugaku, Shisui, Mikoto, just all the cool Uchiha. Lots of politics, lots of drama, the works

- Itama and the secret senju weed empire fic,,,, it will be long and it will be beautiful which means it'll take me forever to do, sorry

- Magical Girl Izuna AU (my beloved) I got distracted by other projects midway through writing chapter 1 but I'll get there eventually

- Little lab mystery where kid edo-tensei reincarnations of Madara and Tobirama wake up with no memories and immediately stage a jail break

- Nin burger!!!!! Yes this is a real thing yes I meant to post it like the same week I started making it but then I got distracted and didn't. But I swear to fucking GOD I will see it complete. Nin Burger is my favorite real naruto restaurant that is real

- That one oneshot where Madara and Tobirama spend a festival night in the capital together as children, and Madara develops his very first crush on the fox masked boy, but seems to be doomed never to meet him again— till Konoha's first festival is held and he sees a man wearing the very same mask, waiting for him in the crowds. Might not actually finish this one tbh but also maybe I'll save it for tbmd week?? Idk

Considering / Planning;

- Hikaku as the Uchiha clan head after Madara's betrayal comic,,, not an actual fic but I wanna make this so bad. I've written notes for it I just need to get along to drawing it

- Izuna in Wonderland comic, honestly I'll probably end up doing the entire thing in one go one night when I get hit in the face w a brick w motivation. So it'll be a surprise for both u guys and me when I post that! I always do my comics in one go bc I physically can't bring myself to return to art projects if interrupted, which means I tend to do longer ones on my days off where I have literally nothing else to do or distract me, but I haven't had one of those in like. 2 months now. So. But I will soon!! Umm. Maybe.

- Here Before and After Me chapter 2, I'll probably make one eventually but who tf knows when. I have a very specific vision of Kakashi following Tobirama onto the battlefield and scaring the shit out of a very alarmed and confused Izuna

- Tobirama and Izuna's field trip through time and space, I don't think I want to commit to a full fic bc it'd be seriously long and I'm already commiting to Chasing Shadows and One Step Three Steps as my regular update long fics, then the MG Izuna au and Itama fic as my "write it all behind the scenes then post" long fics. One shots only for me, sorry. But I do wanna write a silly one shot of the boys crash landing face first into a konoha council meeting during their field trip

Dropped / Abandoned;

- That one mdtb space mermaid au, rip. Maybe I'll come back to u one day but for now I have a lot to focus on, sorry

- mdtb fish in a pond fic where Tobirama is half spirit and turns into a koifish that Tajima then brings home and tosses into the families koi pond

I think that's everything? I have a shit memory and do everything on my notes app then forget to categorize the notes half the time so I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I'd lost smthn else in my like billion different notes.

Those are the important ones tho, so, good enough!

[the-stove-is-divorced]

OHHHH Congratulations for 100 subscribers!!! That's awesome!!❤❤❤

If it's allowed to ask about any of your fics, then what are your plans for all the time in the world or do you already have drafts for future chapters? I'm always fascinated by de-aged!Bruce fics and your foundation for the plot is something I've never seen before!! Would you like to share a quick peek into the future of that storyline?👀👀

Oh yay tysm, genuinely. (´꒳`)♡ And yes ofc!!! I'm happy to!!!

I will preface and admit literally anything I plan for any fic is 110% subject to change, especially if it doesn't feel right anymore or doesn't fit with how the story's progressing since I only write stories as I go. But with that being said, YEAH I OFC I WILL.

So as of this moment, the big plan is to jump around at different points in Bruce's life, around 4-7 different stages so it's not gonna stay stuck to his current rlly young age! (´꒳`)ゞ Bruce should jump in age in about 1-2 chapters, but entirely dependent on how the next chapter goes and that hasn't been finalized yet, much to my own internal agony, bleh. It's been such a pain in the ass to get right and the inner perfectionist in me is not helping, so it's taking longer than I want to. At the same time, I can also admit haven't decided if the next jump should be around 11-13 years old or more compellingly around 17 years old. I also wanna be careful not to make Alfred too perfect? He has the bias of hindsight in his favor, and is the main (and so far only) narrator, so I wanna get some clear contradictions in here.

Oh, and for the story's logic, the magic that de-aged him is unwinding in big ol' chunks, and won't come undone all at once, hence skipping forward! It will be 17 years old, either 18-19, either 20-21, and either 21-22 years old, with maybe an extra 13 years old so the switch from 9 to 17 isn't too jarring, if that makes sense. Plus, debating a bonus point around his late 20's/early 30's. And while I don't have a big ol' plot, as I write as I go, but there are moments I want to include if I'm able!

For example, 21 year old Bruce looks just like how old Bruce was when he took in Dick (but Dick misunderstands, Bruce was 23 when he took in 13 year old Dick), so I want to include a scene where Dick is so relieved there's finally a Bruce he understands is here, but he's still wrong. Dick might go in for a much needed hug, a beaming smile, but Bruce gives Dick a Brucie smile. Dick still a complete and utter stranger to him. The crushing plummet of hope after the first real sign of relief, being teased with the first fleeting glimpse of Bruce he knew to work around, how to behave around, only for him to treat him like a complete stranger and pull out Brucie mask on him? Horrible. I can't wait to write it.

If I'm feeling really angsty (which I probably will be), that late 20's/early 30's is Bruce before Jason died, and he's so much happier. There's a tension not found within him, a kind of wariness that hasn't been ingrained just yet, a joking, lighter tone he's more willing to display so openly. He's excited to see how his sons have grown, he wants to know what college Jason went to, what careers, he wants to know what Dick ended up doing, he's so hopeful he didn't fuck them up trying to raise them like he was so scared he would. They don't have it in their hearts to tell them what happened, I think they lie, or Alfred pointedly won't them say anything. He saw his son grieving once and he wants to savor this joy, this hope, this happiness that was buried when Jason died. He'd be furious if they revealed a damn thing right now.

But I do have chart to keep my idea for my personal understanding of Bruce's development, which I'll share below! It's not complete, and like anything, subject to change, especially at the 7-8, 9-10, and 11-13 yr old marks. But it's a general idea to keep my thoughts in order.

I hope that was satisfactory! Unfortunately, I don't have a finalized version of the next chapter done, so I can't share a sneaky peak of it (currently debating between a POV switch or continuing with Alfred) but I hope all my yapping makes up for it. TYSM for asking and showing interest. Still amazes me people like my stuff. (//▽//)

[sithisreadingcorner]

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Hello I’m following I liked and rebloged both your reading posts. I’m Sol. And my birthday is July 3, 1999. So it’s tomorrow as I’m typing this as of now!

My question is how does my younger self feel about me? I have a lot of trauma from that age and I want to know how my younger self is feeling. If you can’t tell how she feels about me, can I get a message from her please?

Thank you in advance I’ll leave feedback!

Hello Sol and welcome! I hope you had a very very happy birthday, and please enjoy your extra detailed birthday reading! I got you a mix of several decks, and the number five felt just right.

the emperor. the empty reversed. hope reversed. star. simikiel (the angel of vengeance)

You know, sometimes the thing that the asker asks, or the way they ask it, reveals so much about their situation - not even in a spiritual way, but in a mundane intuition kind of way; but sometimes I only notice the details in hindsight when I have already laid out the cards. It did strike me odd that you would ask me to speak on your inner child's behalf, since you know her like a thousand times more than I do. But once I laid out the cards, it all made perfect sense to me. 😳

I would think that you and your young self either don't communicate with each other at all and you dont know how to reach them, or you are quite at odds with each other and you dont know how to reach them in the more metaphorical sense. And the reason for that is that there is so, so, so much anger in there, that it's kind of scary. So you are either trying to block it out because this is not something that you want to identify with, or you are trying to connect but you are only met with ferocious hatred. 😔

And you know I'm not a therapist but I will explain what I think the cards mean and then think about it whether it's true, and preferably talk it over an actual therapist as well. The thing about your younger self is that she is still in there, frozen in time, and she hasnt made a lot of progress about anything, even though YOU probably have made at least some. That little kid, who is in there, was absolutely, horrendously betrayed by a world that she had the right to think was just, at that time (even though sometimes it isn't). And she has a ton of righteous anger about that, but nowhere to go and nothing to do with it. So it's kind of like a closed valve that is building up pressure.

I want you to remember that this kid was (and maybe in a way perpetually is) going through something really horrible and there is only one person who can help them. It's you. And if somewhere deep down you feel like she would say "I hate everything and ESPECIALLY you" then I need you to know what she really means is "Please help me." She just doesnt really know how to say that.

The angelarium deck I use very little, almost never, because whatever it says it always does in the most confusing way possible, but sometimes I do take it out when I have a feeling the reading is gonna be intense and it really was. Take this from the booklet:

[...] It is the way of Simikiel’s sword, cutting in both directions.

While we will gird our fragile hearts against be­ing hurt, pain will make its attempts on us by any means necessary. It is in our soul to survive at all cost, even if it means violence. [...]

What I think scares you about anger is what you think it can do. But anger in itself doesnt really do anything, it's just an emotion. It's okay for anger to exist, and it has a right to. And the anger that is being stifled and squashed down, will always consume you. I mean this not just metaphorically but in the literal, physical sense too. Those are never completely separate.

The emperor card was really unique because i think that even though your younger self really despises the abuser, shes also like… still stuck in the stage where she identifies with what her abuser said/how they made her feel. You know, she's just a kid and that's how she was taught. Thats maybe something to think about, is that true and if yes than how to help it.

I don't feel confident advising anything on how to do that (yknow, not mental health advice) but I wanted to point out the Star card as a really good sign for you from an otherwise pretty drastic deck. This is not tarot, it's from the Deck of Many Things. Namely:

STAR: Immediately gain a +2 to one ability score.

I can't stress enough how little likely it is to get something so simple and positive with no repercussions or strings attached, so we have that going for you already. But what I'm thinking is maybe it's also trying to say that you are trying to take on too much of this work at once. Maybe try to focus on improving just one thing and open up your horizon gradually!

That would be it Sol. I really hope this could help a little, and either way I hope the best for you in your healing! 💜

july readings (3 of 5)

tips? 💗

[albatris]

ok i am terribly curious: what is a frankendraft. i saw that term multiple times in ur atdao tag and i am full of Wondering over what it means

oh hell yeah, the frankendraft! that's not a term I've used in a while!

anyway this is gonna be a super jumbled long ramble post, I'm so sorry, I have a lot of trouble explaining things concisely dhgdjkghd

okay, so, it was...... TECHNICALLY invented as my own personal "outlining" method for ATDAO, and you will see why that is in quotation marks as this post goes on :P

so the official name for the frankendrafting technique was "outline first draft frankendocument" but this is a mouthful so it got shortened to simply "frankendraft"!

in short, a frankendraft is basically a very very VERY bare bones shitty first draft, except I couldn't call it A First Draft at the time lest I intimidate myself out of working on it. a frankendraft is basically writing every single thing that happens in a story from start to finish in the form of like

X does this. Y says this. this happens. then this happens. which makes X feel this particular way. then this happens. which makes this happen. etc etc etc

I cannot emphasise enough that this is NOT in brief dot point summary form. this is in chapters. this is the Full Fucking Story. here is an excerpt from the frankendraft to illustrate my point:

"Noa is hesitant to leave Alice alone, and feels it would be inconsiderate. Plus, she's worried about how the rest of the DII will receive this, whether they will view her as reckless and irresponsible. She goes to her car to get a blanket for Alice, and then searches her back seat to see if she has anything in the way of spare clothes for herself. She locates one of Tris's hoodies she has been procrastinating giving back to him because it's huge and comfy, and puts it on."

the whole thing is basically just like. stage directions. me explaining the story to myself. lmao. it's literally all the same level of bland and undescriptive and bare bones from start to finish. I've won NaNoWriMos with how lengthy the frankendraft is

now, the whole thing may seem kind of dumb and you may be like "so what is the benefit of that?", but here, hear me out, I had my reasons, yeah. and it's actually a KILLER technique if you're not quite a plotter and not quite a pantser and you're also an over-anxious perfectionist stresshead with brain fog and a complicated plot you need to wrangle into cooperation

it functioned as an elaborate trap I could lure my anxious perfectionist writer brain into where I unwittingly spin together a coherent draft without realising

but mostly, like, in hindsight, I was SCARED of writing so I'd freeze up, and the frankendraft was excellent for helping with that! interestingly, the frankendraft was an approach I needed to use for ATDAO, but not one I've needed for Rental Car which means I've definitely made progress on the perfectionism and fear side of things! :D

now, here we fuckin go, The Longer Explanation Of Benefits Of Frankendrafting -

so, story time, there was like a five year period where I was getting NOWHERE with any of my work, and I was grumbling about it when I had the following realisations

pantsing wasn't working for me because I'd freeze up and find it super daunting, I struggled with just Throwing Myself Into a scene right off the bat with no guidance. even if my brain knew exactly where the scene needed to go, I hit blocks. no thoughts head empty. plus, the plot of ATDAO had so many different threads going at once that trying to keep track of everything While Writing A Genuine Engaging Story was too much for my confused little brain 2 handle lmao

and at the time, writing was an extremely anxious act for me! lots of perfectionism, lots of stress, in the midst of relearning how to Have Fun Writing again, blank pages are intimidating, blah blah, usually I'd psych myself out so bad that my brain stopped completely

so I thought to myself, "hey, if you're struggling to keep track of what you need to be doing and all the stress is too much at once, you probably need an outline!"

but traditional outlines don't work great for me either, see, 'cause I struggle to condense things and figure out what the Important Key Points are that I should be putting in my summaries and dot points. outlining that way feels restrictive, it doesn't express what I need it to, it doesn't help me at all when it comes to actually knowing what I need to do in a scene

'cause like, in my outline, the scene is just a brief description of what's happening, but there's so much OTHER stuff I need to keep track of, like. how does this scene progress, what are the feelings, what other plot elements are at play, where am I at with symbolism, characterisation, what's the dialogue like, what parts of the mystery are at play here

a lot needs to happen in a scene! and without having it ALL laid out for me I'd still hit blocks

so then I was like. "what if instead of either trying to write a full story right off the bat OR trying to fit the jumble of garbage inside my brain into a Nice Neat Outline while trying to make said outline resemble my plot in a way that actually helps me know what to write..... what if I just included literally as much detail as possible in my outline. what if I just included All Of It"

so I did!

I just started typing up descriptions of what happens in the scene line by line. here's an action! here's a symbolism! here's a dialogue! feelings! another action! telling the story without bothering to make it a Story, without descriptions and prose and whatever. just straight facts. not bothering to make it sound nice

Me Explaining The Story To Myself. me telling myself line by line what I need to do

and this worked FANTASTICALLY. I was coming up with fresh ideas, I wasn't scared, I was having important plot realisations, things were coming together and making sense in a way they hadn't for years c: I was finding ways to join scenes that were previously just floating and disconnected together into a coherent narrative, without the stress of "oh fuck I'm writing a story"

(and it WAS stress at the time, writing a story. I had a very dicey relationship with creative writing for several years)

but anyway yeah...... I could just trick myself into writing a first draft without ever acknowledging I'm writing a first draft

anyway this was also great for me because my two favourite parts of the writing process are 1. taking shitty words that already exist and transforming them and building on them to create something better, and 2. editing and revision. I realise now these are arguably the same thing at times

building and editing, these are my jams. I love taking some garbage and tweaking it and transforming it and finding better ways to describe things and swapping stuff round till it clicks

I could just go through an entire frankendraft like "I'm creating a hyperspecific outline, not a first draft" and then when I finished it I could be like "whew, a first draft, now the hard part is done and I get to do the fun stuff I love!" which is editing, revising, building, transforming this bare bones mess into something genuinely lovely

"but logan doesn't that take away from the mystery and fun of writing??? if you're so specific with your outline, isn't that boring??"

nope! it wasn't for me! I still got all the fun stuff, I just got it in a different way! I simply couldn't do the fun stuff and learning and discovery while I was ALSO trying to, like....... write a story, with style and description and finesse and drama and good words

plus, the most inspiring thing for me was not the Mystery and Adventure of writing (which, again, I still did get), it was my brain being free enough to just relax and write. which is why possessing a frankendraft that just directed me exactly EXACTLY where I needed to go was so freeing and wonderful!

anyway so that was The Frankendraft

long unnecessarily wordy explanation

it's a first draft! it's an outline! it saved my fuckin ass more times than I can count

it served its purpose and I haven't needed to use the technique recently! yeehaw

thanks for coming to my ted talk

[oh-my-damn]

Hi bestest bestie 💜💜

So i was deep in my chramelia feels this morning while eating my breakfast and i've been meaning to ask you about this thing that they keep dancing around, the baby and the mariage thing i mean. Like in the latest part, they're joking about Ames being a baby making machine and i was actually shook that it was her who made that joke! 🧐 like if it was Chris i'd get it, given that she literally unlocked his breeding kink which i'm only assuming he did not know that he had it in him in like a couple of parts ago. But like coming from her?! It made me think about where does that leave either of them.

Chris, i believe, is already there. Like i bet you the same fifty bucks Hayden bet our lovely reader that Christopher has already planned the way he's gonna propose to Ames in his head and honestly if it isn't at Disney Land then i know absolute shit about absolute shit! 

But like where is Ames' head at with all of this? Ik they talked about moving in together and she expressed her willingness to take the bar exam in another state for the right guy but that was all before they both realized they had baby fucking fever!!!! 

Like they're joking about it so much, i'm starting to worry for them. Like babes!!! That is NOT a laughing matter and you two knuckleheads are gonna need to have The Talk™️ very freaking soon! 

So where does that leaves us, Queen?! 

Is the talk comin'? Or are they gonna keep dancing this silly dance around it?! 

Sincerely, 

Your biggest fan 💜

Hi bestie!!

Thanks for this awesome ask hehehe, I love how you analyze my stories, it's honestly so fun and refreshing!!

Bc you're right - they are dancing around it.

And you're also right about Chris being ready. As he's said before, he would do anything for and with her, go on any adventure with her.

Having kids is definitely something he has thought about, and he has definitely thought about having them with Ames.

We are still at the teasing stage and they will keep dancing around it - despite what you might think regarding Amelia and how progressive and independent she is, she is also old fashioned.

She wouldn't want to have kids before engagement or marriage, and she did just get started on her career, so it's a little early for her (on the path she's on)

She is however also well aware that there is an age-gap between them, and she also knows she started her current path before she met Chris. She has accepted the fact that things might stray from her original plan because of this. She wasn't expecting to meet someone like him, or get swept off her feet, so she's going with the flow right now.

HOWEVER.

Keep in mind they've been together for only about 6 months. We see them a lot back and forth, but the timeframe is actually pretty short.

Ames is going to go back home in the next few chapters, and Chris is going to end filming and go back to Boston with Dodger. And they're faced with the reality of being long distance permanently, which also takes a lot of navigating.

I think the reason they keep joking about it is bc they both want it, they're both sure about each other rn, but they also know there are quite a few things complicating it for them, and keeping them apart.

I also think Ames is worried it might be too soon - she doesn't expect anything, she's too scared to expect everything from Chris this soon in their relationship, which is also why she got a little worried when Scott mentioned that Chris usually ends his relationships after a few months.

She has a hard time knowing where his head is at, and Chris does too, despite clearly wanting to be with her. He is also hesitant to jump straight into it with both feet first because this is new and different for him and he doesn't want to rush anything.

So the answer is yes, unfortunately, they will keep dancing around it. We're going to have some drama coming our way soon, and it's going to change some things and how they act around each other, and it's going to make or break them.

Stay tuned to find out whether they make it or break it !! hehehehehe

[i-love-hobbies]

Eda's reckless behaviour and overall mental health

Summary

Eda is a genius, but is very emotional when making decisions (not anger, but fear, stress ect.)

Her reckless behaviour and apple blood problem in my opinion are her ways of running from reality.

In season 1 she made a bit of progress on this issue. Then the finale happened. Then she made again progress and s2ep7 did a complete reset. And she is making progress now again.

Eda's intelligence

She's been a criminal for thirty years. She has been in the shady business for an extremely long time. Yes magic definitely helps but you also have to find a way to be on top of the game, so you can survive.

Remember Tibbles' shrinking potion. She can't really use a lot of magic if she is shrinked or poisoned and dead, can she? Not to talk about her enemies which you'd think would attack her now that she is magicless.

They haven't on screen, yet. The only ones that tried are Adegast and Tibbles and they both died without her using any magic (or close to nothing).

Now we know that she doesn't make plans a lot on screen. In s2ep3 especially she just let's Luz make the plan but that's because she is her mentor.

In s2ep6 Luz used sleeping needles which is wild magic so no, it's not knowledge coming from Hexside. Also the pickpocketing Luz mentioned.

Teachers don't do the tests instead of students.

She teaches her everything that isn't glyphs. I wouldn't be surprised if she has told stories to Luz about her best "outsmarting everyone in the room" moments.

Now we have seen some of her problem solving on screen. One of which was in ep.18 fight only using her channelled magic trough the staff (im not taking credit for noticing this, have no idea who did though) and used the bridge.

Also if she can telepathically talk to her staff. Owlbert saving Luz was probably her idea.

She had her impact on Raine's rebellion as well, without having magic or turning into a harpy.

"You are not our mom!"

"Wow, we actually helped people this time!"

"Bye, mommy Eda!"

In the back of her head she knows exactly what to do, everytime something happens.

Eda's mental health

Eda's curse and the nightmares it causes. The father incident. The fact that she probably thought Lilith was scared of her.

Lilith's hidden guilt and her taking her father's eye out don't mix well together. I wouldn't be surprised if they barely spoke even if they lived in a house together.

Her losing Raine.

Her faith in the emporer being broken.

She has seen a lot of death, that does impact people.

Season 1

At the beginning of the series she was making a lot of bad choices which don't aline with her experience.

The series starts with her getting caught by Warden Wrath. Instead of just sneaking, they were just walking comfortably in the corridors.

They are kids, one from another dimension, but her... She doesn't know better? And for a paper crown that she can replace by stealing from someone else.

Next episode we are introduced to her morning drink later on confirmed to be for adults only. And that drink didn't get a mention for the rest of the season. In that episode she is also not the most clear-headed. She didn't try to sneak, she didn't use potions. Didn't try to plan.

A list about her being impatient can go on and on.

So when does she think. When she realises it's dangerous (aka when it's right in her face). Literally in the first episode the moment she started doing stuff is when she got caught and spat on the warden's face.

In episode 2 she didn't do that because she didn't know if Luz was alive and had a hard time bottling her feelings. Like if Luz proved to him to be hard to keep tight up he could have killed her, the girl that came back for her and her son yesterday. And she proved to Eda that she is a little dangerous the previous episode with her fireworks.

Eda was rational again, after she was with both King and Luz.

As the series went on though she started to calm down a bit.

Firstly, the fact that she was so focused on fixing her card problem, after Tibbles scammed her, that she trew them away in another dimension.

I was wondering how she overcame it so quickly.

It also shows her knowledge of how to handle this type of problems which brings up a question. How did she learn it?

Secondly let's compare the first half of the season to the second.

1. Everything I already pointed out and was hiding the curse. The stuff that happened in ep.5. Her refusal to be parental in ep.7. Body swapped.

2. She gets scammed again (this time though, how do you expect that someone was digging their own grave). Didn't use a sleeping spell on the slitherbeast immediately instead was just standing there. Got caught by the fun police. Worsened King's stage fright.

In ep.15 because of her ignorance Luz and Amity almost die. Except that is not the full story. She had at this point a lot of faith in Luz and this was her friend's mind.

For Amity it's not that she hated her. Amity actually saved her in ep.12. It's because she wasn't that important for her to realise. "Omg Willow is at the very least extremely mad at her."

It's again a refusal to think, but for a stranger and not really on purpose. It was just a habit of hers.

Episode 18 and 19

At the beginning of the episode. Eda hid the curse, again.

When she learned that Lilith had kidnapped Luz. She didn't try to make a plan. She just revealed herself in all her glory while her magic was disappearing.

Shot the staff in a wall while she was having no idea, what that was supposed to accomplish.

Luz showed up and she finally started thinking.

Afterwards Lilith said we all know what and for the first time Eda's anger was the leader of her choices and Luz almost fell on to the spikes.

So then, for the very least a night, she was stuck in her mind with something, that was chasing her. She woke up to Emporer Baby the B*tch, who was telling her, he was about to go after Luz.

And no she didn't believe in Lilith, but was so overwhelmed. It was insane. So she begged. After some more running, she woke up to Luz in the Comformatoriam.

Next, she was about to get petrified and for awhile this was the calmest things have been since she got caught. Then Lilith shows up (ah yes she existed).

King jumped "She was trying to help!". Wait King was there.

Petrification beam go.

PURE PAIN!

Then she got the idea for all of them to fly away. Lilith shared the curse making the confusion even bigger. Then her magic is gone (that was a thing). She learned that the portal is destroyed. Now she was living with Lilith and might have starved to death with everyone else in the house.

After all of this she not only tried but HAD TO pretend that she was mentally stable, so they could survive this mess.

Season 2A

In episode 1 she told Luz not to go after big bounties and then tried to steal from a coven's ship.

At this point her emotions are the only thing that made decisions while they were also getting hidden. Don't get me wrong she did help and should, especially Luz but it's ALL feelings. She didn't think about consequences, which sometimes are good.

She didn't attack Lilith cause it's just not the time, she's scared from her own anger. Plus she can't really stand being with the roller coaster of emotions, that came with being in one room with her.

This didn't mean she didn't work with her and hadn't listened to the backstory, though.

The episode ends with her and everyone else not being close to dieing. Finally!

So now what? She tried to think about Lilith? Yeah, she probably preferred not to.

Then her glyph almost kills King, but Lilith showed up and helped. This is probably a familiarity she missed. So again she decided not to process it, but it definitely sticks.

She also didn't notice Luz being hurt.

Next episode, we saw Eda taking a shower which means she has healthy coping mechanisms, at least one, self-care and is not yet a workaholic.

Luz's apple blood joke is concerning.

After the events of episode 3. Luz probably told her that Lilith stayed with her and King, instead of just leaving them, get killed by Jean-Luc.

Then Eda still isn't certain where she stands about everything and Lilith just left, with her final act being, giving King mental issues.

Throughout this whole thing her mom was there with her cures/annual accidental attempt to kill her favourite daughter.

In this episode, Eda fell for apple blood signs. Rationality is out of the window.

In ep.6 she decided to help, with students getting palisman. Again not thinking about all the trauma, but finally doing something against her first instinct.

In ep.7 she heard King's "Le-" and refused to fully process, where the heck is he gonna go.

She also punched someone, cause this is gonna work?

Now she has reconnected with Raine having no idea should she even think of a romantic relationship again? And decided to be useful at least for something since she "can't raise kids".

She was helping and being very good at it, but it came from fear of loneliness.

Then she heard that Belos has a plan and just is overwhelmed. What if the kids get hurt, is she powerless?

Oh, look! Raine might be dead!

Next episode she overworked herself.

In between ep.8 and 9 she was trying to scare the beast into transforming. (She is losing her sanity. Literally the previous episode told her not to do that.)

In episode 9 again it's all emotional. She wants to feel better and be stronger, so she told King to blast her (almost blasting Amity), hit fool's blood even though Amity said the lake is further ahead.

Luckily she showed progress too.

She ate voles, which was against how she was feeling.

In ep.10 she was scared of letting Luz in the portal. I'm not saying she wouldn't have before, but I don't think it was easy.

Right now, after s2ep10, I think she isn't the most mentally stable. But she is definitely working on it.

[pixie-cocaine]

ATEEZ Reaction To: Catching them off-guard by being naked

Hii, I've noticed your requests are open. And i've been seeing your Ateez reactions recently, which are amazing. :D I just wondered, do you think you could do an Ateez reaction where their S.O. walks into the room naked while they are playing a game, working on music etc? (Kind of like that new Tik tok trend going around atm) x

Guuurl, sorry I waited so long to actually do something about this ask lol, but hopefully this will make you happy :)

Songs Listened To: X by CODE KUNST + LEE HI, FXXK It by BIGBANG, Dante’s Creek by THEY + DEAN, Baby Don’t Stop by NCT, Love Talk - Wayv, A Little Death by The Neighborhood

Hongjoong ♡:

• This man was straight vibing and your sneaky ass just HAD to do something

• “Joong.”

• “Yeah?” he didn’t look up from the small journal, with which he was jotting down lyrics for a future song he was to produce for

• He kept his eyes trained on the pages

• And uh-uh, that wouldn’t do 😤

• You rolled your eyes and waltzed over to the boy, putting a hand on the shoulder of the chair so you could swing him around to face you, an eyebrow raised

• “Look at me.”

• And he sure as hell did dafdsaffwq

• Face said :O

• Doesn’t matter how many times he sees your nude body, still looks like a kid in a candy store lol

• To say he was completely distracted would be a huge understatement

• Hanky panky in his mini studio? Yessir

Seonghwa ♡:

• Looking at this gif and listening to a slowed sexy song is gonna kill me istg

• Also, who let him act like a little hoe in their comeback? Keep your shirt down, mister, it’s not safe

• Gorl has nothing to do in his sparetime because he’s not too big of a gAMeR, but he does like to play phone games when he’s especially bored

• Would probably be playing like fuckin uhhhh candy crush or something when you said “lemme do sum a lil crazy 😌💅“

• You were kinda just curious to see what his reaction would be if you showed up witcha tiddies out

• So you got out the shower and half-assedly threw on a silk robe that Hwa got you for your birthday, not tying it or anything, but rather letting it slip off your damp shoulders while the front sat open and displayed your body for all to see

• His reaction when you leant against the doorframe and fake pouted?

• Immediate 📉

• Everday and night he’s gon chase you frfr

• “C’mere...,” He’d mumble, tossing his phone to the side 

• Level thirty-seven could wait ;)

Yunho ♡:

• Playing pc games at home is one of his favorite things to do (He’s even said so)

• PC games are his go-to when he gets bored of console

• So he’s constantly in his lil gaming room so that if you’re ever sleeping, he doesn’t wake you up

• He was on a multiuplayer session of Valorant when you decided to ruin his gaymer grind

• F in the chat boys

• “Yunho?”

• “Yes?” He stops his hastily typed directions to his game buddies in favor of giving you a quick glance from his chair, and has to look over again to make sure he's seeing things right

• Yeah, he was definitely seeing the pretty rise of your breasts and smoothness of your thighs, revealed from the towel now on the floor, right. Especially the way both of those lovely attributes were becoming larger as you approached him

• "W-woah!" He rushes to shield his eyes, though you only giggle and swivel his chair around in order to straddle him, removing his hands from his face

• "What? Am I too repulsive to?"

• "No! No it's just...," Yunho trails off, letting out a shaky breath and trying his best to not stare so obviously. Literally just paying attention at anything but what you wanted him to

• You only grin, tilting his chin to you face you head-on, "It's ok to look, baby. Don't be so shy"

• a forgotten game and heated chair sex is what would lead to your surprise

• kiss kiss for baby 😘

Yeosang ♡:

• We need more Yeosang gifs, this is ridiculous y'all ;(. Also, we're just... Not gonna talk about San on the side 💀

• Oh oh! And Yeosang getting bolder on stage is my favorite thing

• soooo snowboarding

• Yeosang said he likes to do that in his free time

• He'd just got a new custom board, which the front had lovely baby blue dripping forest face and the meaning of his name painted in black for the back, "Sound Resonating From A High Point."

• He was waxing it in the kitchen with it sat atop the island for easier space when he felt your arms slide around his waist, to which he smiled at, still continuing his work

• "Hello there," he mused

• "Baby, what would you do if I told you I was naked?"

• bitch hUH??

• He really did not waste time with turning in your hold and IMMEDIATELY looking down to see what you're wearing

• He chuckles upon , giving a cat whistle before bending down to set you on top of the counter

• "What's this for?"

• "Bored," you purse your lips, allowing yourself to lean back on your forearms as you spread your legs, "And you seemed like a good time-passer"

• Yeosang hums, falling to his knees easily enough and pulling you towards the edge of the island, then presses an affectionate kiss to your inner thigh

• "Fair enough"

San ♡:

• San likes to spiffy up on his English, which is still pretty hard for him even if you assure him that he's doing just fine when he speaks it around your family

• That being said, you'll sometimes catch him at the table with a textbook in front of him and a language journal by the side that he uses to write small romanizations

• You were particularly bored today. And damn, was San looking good with his messy black hair and shirtless torso. He never really did wear shirts around the house.

• "Sannie," You sang from the doorframe, fresh out of the shower and a bit sexually frustrated considering San hadn't touched you for a couple weeks due to your busy schedule

• He hummed in acknowledgement, jotting something down in the journal as he alternated between both the book and notebook

• You knew he was busy but his English really wasn't bad, so it didn't need to be now. It could wait a bit longer

• Sighing, you drop the towel from your body and fling it at San, which makes him jump and pull it from off of his head, looking towards you immediately and gasping

• You put a hand on your hip, giggling at how he tries to calm himself down

• lol goofy boy

• "C'mon, I know you're tired, I can help you relax," you gesture with a finger in a beckoning motion, and like he was already planning on it, he hops up from his seat and follows you back to the bedroom

• sorry if this was kinda boring lol, let's just San could have literally any reaction and frankly, this is probably the most tame he would be

Mingi ♡:

• Like Yunho in a lot of ways

• He does like to play games (probably PC, too), so you already know he'd be mashing that controller in the living room lol

• "Aww man, are you kidding me!?"

• Mingi gets shy, especially when it comes to you, so when you decided it'd be a good idea to step in front of the screen while he was playing Zelda with the towel around your body held open, he was a visual representation of keyboard mashing

• "Woah—Ohmygod-" [insert Minnie baby accidentally throwing his controller in his haste to cover his eyes]

• "You don't want me?" You ask, pouting and tilting your head

• His response is spreading two of the fingers across his eyes to peek, nodding his head frantically but trying to find the right words so he doesn't make you sad, "You just scared me is all! I don't wanna be rude by looking when you don't want me to or anything..."

• He takes his fingers away to hold them out instead, making grabby hands until you smile and crawl into them, in turn, climbing on top of his lap and letting him press his face into the valley between your breasts so he could kiss the skin there while looking at you

• "I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong idea," he mumbles, nuzzling his head farther down

• "No baby, you're fine," You reassure him with a hand ruffling the strands of his hair

• sweet hanky panky alert 🚨 sweet hanky panky alert 🚨

Wooyoung ♡:

• it's the large ass gif of Woo and his ponytail for me

• Oh and yeah, I know this doesn't quite fit theme of YOU walking in on them to flash your boobies but you're gonna keep your mouth shut and pretend it does 😏

• Another gamer.. damn this is getting repetitive

• hmmm

• Dance practice it is! 😃

• Woo doesn't like repeatedly practicing the same moves over and over again, but he did like the progress he made with each re-do, so he supposes he'll bear with the exhaustion

• Well.. obviously not now, because he's just walking through the bedroom door when he finally registers that you're sitting on the bed, lying on your stomach and scrolling through your phone with a leg raising your body go the side

• You snap your head to look at him, "Ah, there you are," you grin, pushing yourself up to a sitting position, "Thought you were gonna come home late again"

• Wooyoung let's out a snort as he closes the door behind him and drops his dance bag to the side, already taking his inky black hair out of the ponytail it was previously in and shaking it loose

• "What a nice surprise"

Jongho ♡:

• No thoughts, only buff babie

• And how he sung "sex in the morning baby" with a scary amount of aggression

• lol it makes sense that sweetie likes to play racing games on his computer

• LITerally so precious ;(

• Same trope (yes I'm a disappointment); Jongie plopped onto his lil chair with a fluffy blanket around his shoulders and headphones on that cute little head of his

• He said "I love playing car games, vroom vroom y'all 😤"

• And you said "I love playing surprise games, yes yes 😈"

• Gorl, when I tell you he squeaked out of surprise at how you turned his chair around to face you ;(

• "Uhh... Am I- Am I supposed to be looking?" He stammers, eyebrows raised and eyes locked on your bare front

• "By all means, baby," you purr, shaking your head with a familiar fondness at the boy in awe before you

• Just like Joong, he never tires of seeing you naked. He loves looking at you when you're nude, because it's when he can appreciate all aspects of you

• "Hang on, let me pause the game, I'll meet you in the bedroom"

• Getting intimate with Jongho is quite easy. He'll pretty much always say yes to sex, and it's pretty casual when you hint at it

[queeranesearch]

i don't watch or read nge but it looks interesting and if you want can you tell me about it?? :D

HUGS YOU ANON. MWAH MWAH OKAY OKAY SO I've only watched the anime (finished it like two days ago sdfjkd), so I'm only gonna discuss it as the manga from what I know is quite different, having scenes that are not in the anime or are changed significantly. There are also movies which I've yet to watch but I know they ALSO differ greatly since they literally just. Retell the story but with different endings. They're literally AUs that are also canon its weird so: lets just talk about the anime.

[below the cut is a summary, and some trigger warnings for the show]

So the basic summary: NGE is set in 2015, fifteen years after a cataclysmic event called The Second Impact, in the city of Tokyo-3. Creatures called Angels continuously attack, threatening the extinction of humanity; it's unknown what the angels are or why they attack, but in response, an organization called NERV was formed to defend humanity. NERV created giant robot-like weapons called Evas, which are the only things powerful enough to fight and eliminate angels. However, Evas need to be piloted from the inside by a human. The main character, Ikari Shinji, is recruited by his absent father Gendo, the director at NERV, to pilot one of the Evas and aid in the battle against the Angels. Shinji is scared at first, but ends up agreeing and becoming an official pilot, but is left with many questions such why was he chosen specifically to pilot, what are the nature of the Angels, etc, but it seems the more he pilots the less sure he is about everything that's going on.

That's pretty vague, but it's all I can tell you without spoiling a bunch of things because being just as clueless as Shinji as to what's happening, and gradually piecing things together as you progress is a big part of the experience!

There are many references to Judaism and Christianity, and psychological questions about what humans are, the idea of having a purpose in life, what makes up our identities, and the long lasting effects of how our parents treat us. (so there's a LOT of Freudian influence.)

It can be confusing to watch at times, but overall I found it very compelling and I became attached to a lot of the characters quite quickly!

Though I should warn that within the series there are:

Sexual themes, particularly relating to characters who are minors. 1, because the main characters are teenagers, and 2 because of the Freudian influence. There are explorations of the Oedipus Complex, the Electra Complex, and Freud's psycho-sexual stages. (If you don't know what any of them are you might wanna have a brief look into them before watching. In general Freud makes a lot of people uncomfortable for many obvious reasons but if you feel really upset and disturbed by his theories, you probably won't like nge).

Moments where minors are sexualized, especially the girls. This is partially because of the Freud stuff, but also because this anime was released in the 90s, and sexualizing women and girls was unfortunately very common.

Emotionally heavy scenes. Like I mentioned before human psychology is explored a lot, and so there are characters suffering from depression, neglect, their concept of self. and there are moments where various characters have emotional breakdowns on screen. They are especially upsetting to watch if you like the characters, so I'd recommend watching nge when you yourself are feeling alright emotionally.

Gore and Violence. There are lots of fight scenes, so there’s lots of blood and moments where you are shown characters undergoing severe physical trauma, which may be upsetting. 

That’s all I can think of off the top of my head, soo yeah! Evangelion has A Lot going on but. I like it lmao

[iammamenow]

🔮Dream Snippet💤

This Evening: 'Karl Satan', featuring Misha Collins

My friend and I are avid metalheads. So much so, in fact, that we concluded that if we'd have known each other before our officially meeting in college, we would've led drastically different lives for the better. Our music tastes made us the quintessential outcasts throughout our childhood, in our differently placed yet all too similar environments of the unforgiving grammar school setting. And if we'd have been together, instead of rebelling alone? Hell. We would've been fucking merciless; scaring off all those who tried to subdue us with 'Slipknot'.

Luckily, we didn't miss each other entirely. It was she that managed to get tickets to our local Knotfest, and since then we've practically been inseparable. We have a whole list of other acts we NEED to see. Jinjer, Cherry Bombs, System of A Down... Killswitch Engage is one of the more recent ones added to the list.

And it keeps on building from there.

Blame the die-hard fan in me, but I even go so far as to dream of the concerts we'll see, and the bands that'll be headlining it. Very rarely is it ever as detailed with the opening number.

So you can only imagine my surprise when this little nightly fantasy in particular came in and dropped kick the bomb on me from up close instead of merely from up high.

Because as much as I love metal, Supernatural comes in at a very, very close second.

Onto the dream! That way you'll see what I mean.

My friend and I are already at the venue. We gave up the idea of seats and smuggled our way into the nearest pit where there was already a circle forming, whirling in rhythm to the revving up of the amps testing out the guitars. It had been years since I'd been in one. I jump in, just in time for the wave that comes our way. My friend decides to watch from the sidelines. To my chaotic, she is the zen. Even at a metal concert, where we both inevitably lose our shit, but in our own way.

Soon the tests of chords cease from the guitars, the rhythmic hits from each individual drum and symbol cut. That long drone of bassy silence fills the entire place with that unsaid but solid presence of a queue - someone's about to go on.

The crowd cheers. My friend and I - along with the whole circle pit - turn to look at the stage and do the same. Naturally. No matter who's up there, you cheer. It's a metal concert, for Satan's sake. More than likely, every fucking band is gonna knock your ass out. I haven't been proven wrong if that yet.

And I certainly wasn't in my dream.

The five souls that come walking across the stage are oh so gothically dressed, it warms my heart to it's original sad core. The drama in the abundance of buckles, glinting a brilliant gold in the overhead stage lights; then the overall theatricality of the fact that their whole theme just mirrors that of my favorite horror movie 'Hellraiser' and it's main antagonists, The Cenobites. I was ready. I was waiting, already wanting the onslaught of their sound that I just knew had to be fucking brutal. I mean look at the way they're dressed! We were in for it.

Oh, we were.

I was.

The one stopping in front of the mic had an elaborate coverall mask on, save for the bottom half of his face. And when he took it off to reveal the rest of it, everyone cried out in bloody shock and praise.

I just went quiet.

My friend yelled out for me the "holy SHIT" that was already on my lips and screeching in my head when the now unmasked figure introduced himself as none other than the angel in a trenchcoat. The man that plays him, that is.

Misha Collins

I couldn't tune out the world around me if I tried. I didn't want to. Not even if I was in absolute shock. I do not allow myself to fade off into some haze or other ethereal realm when it comes to events like this. I want to be there, in that moment; one that I made it all this way for. For all concerts generally. For metal concerts specifically.

I just need to be there. All there.

And man, in that moment, was I fucking glad I was.

After making himself known, Misha turns to the band and introduces them as 'Karl Satan'. I know there was a deeper joke in there, i just know it. But I was too busy laughing at the name alone to even dissect it any further. Frankly, so was the audience. Such a hearty chorus brought a smile to Misha's lips.

As he readied the mask to be put back on again, he made one final claim as himself to say that he formed this cover band to try his hand at "this music shtick", just like the rest of his cast mates from the show. Personally, I never had any doubt that he had something like this in his artillery; something akin to a band or music act. But like this? Hell no. Hell. No! Hence making it all the more lovely of a surprise.

With that, the mask went back on, and he sent a nod the drummers way before the lights faded out, leaving us in an anticipating darkness. Almost as quickly as it set in for us did it get fucking shot with the sharp bash of the symbols, joined by the aftershocks of the snares.

It's starting. Holy fuck, it's starting!

The rhythm was classic, dangerously revving up to what you could literally taste to be a sweet drop. Above all, it was familiar. My friend and I were in perfect sync with Misha, when through the mask he screamed through gnashed teeth:

"THE YEARS I PUT INTO THIS!!"

His leadership was seamless; effortless. Without question, you would believe that he had done this before. With the headbangs intertwined in the thrumming veins of both the percussive guitar riff and the drums, he would channel his power back and forth. First he would go, then the audience.

The circle pit was a whole world of it's own. No. It was a black hole, sucking in other fans who caught a glance at it, and soon as they did, wanted to join the fray. I even got my friend to come in and join me in the air, where they hoisted me up once the center of the circle started to disappear with the amount of people swallowing up all the empty space. We were floating orbs in this fanatic atmosphere. Two circulating asteroids in the midst of a hailstorm of meteors, heading straight for the center our universe - the stage.

It was fucking AMAZING.

And so utterly filled with Misha-esque quips of humor and theatricality, making it feel all the more REAL. For example, as the opening number progressed, he would add little bits of harsh criticism of his own voice and caliber of scream. Then after the next song, he would transition with a story on how he auditioned to play a demon for Supernatural in the first place, and has since taken the rejection hard. "Can you tell? I started singing about it! Singing? Screaming? You get the idea. Yeah, you get it. I know you do". He then laughs suddenly, throwing his head back. He brings the mic up to follow that of his mouth, facing skyward. "Wait, wait! How shitty would it be if I would've actually gotten that fucking role if I'd have just done THIS?! Just SCREAM AT THEM?!" Like second nature does his Castiel voice come out. He even took of the mask again so that he could throw on the whole audience that quintessential doe eyed gaze of the angel's, complete with the head tilt. "Would you call me an angel then, Dean?" His own guffaw, bringing Misha back. "There you go. That's how Cas got his voice. He kept screaming into the void *Castiel voice* and came back out with this... As for the others, I can't speak for them. They wanna speak two octaves below their normal voice, who am I to say anything? Trick question. I'm the one who can't say anything because I'm too busy getting a sore throat all the time. Thanks, Cas. Love you, too. That bitch".

Forget what I said. AMAZING doesn't cut it. It was fucking GOLD.

And above all, it was a fucking DREAM.

I woke up eventually, and here I am three or so days later writing about it, still reeling from it.

I have only to conclude that the two things that make me happy are what seems to be a mirror with it's two sides, representing one thing in the reflection: the one thing that made me happy back then, and the one that makes me happy now.

I thought I had to outgrow one. Just like I think currently that I'll soon have to outgrow the other.

But do I? Do I really?

They go so well together.

Perhaps the real question is, what if they both don't wanna leave?

[hoochy-coo]

Honestly I'm even surprised that selena gomez managed to stay relevant for a decade. Like she actually managed to make it this far, not to be harsh but she doesn't have anything special that she brings to the current landscape of pop culture, like, sure she's gorgeous. But other than that she's average at almost everything she does. Her personality doesn't leave an impression, her vocals aren't one to exactly rave about, I watched two films with her in it, she's entertaining at best.

- And my impression is she doesn't write most of her songs ( all though I know she wrote a few ). What's more mind boggling to me is that she's pretty much one of the most well connected girlies In the music industry. She had so many opportunities that I feel she didn't take advantage of. At her peak she was seen with anyone who was anyone in the industry. Her bff taylor swift ( I don't know how genuine the friendship is ) is one of the most prominent female songwriters of this decade. Now I'm sure taylor knows many people in the industry that could help selena with some of her albums, some upcoming songwriters who could write her something, or talented producers who are looking for exposure. I feel like what selena lacks most imo is direction, and which with revival we saw a glimpse of. Sometimes she comes of uninspired and lazy when it comes to music. And after rare... the album was lackluster and disservice to the progress that was made in previous eras. 

I feel like Selena’s real talent lies within media play and making connections to keep her relevant. It’s quite fascinating to see because Miley is undoubtedly the biggest household name out of that generation of Disney stars but for the last 4-5 years, Selena has become the bigger name. I completely agree that she’s average in every area but she must be doing something right in terms of attracting stans because she’s got a stable and sizable fandom that goes hard for her whenever she drops a new project. All her collabs (which she singlehandedly bagged through industry connections) have been really average but it always seems to chart well/get decent radio play. I wouldn’t say that Selena hasn’t capitalised on the opportunities that have come by though. Just off the top of my head, I can name a fair few instances where she used her connection in the industry to get further/stay relevant: She made an appearance on Taylor’s Rep tour 2 years ago, she and Bieber capitalised on each other and their relationship and milked it for what all that it's worth (Her fans are gonna hate me for this but Bieber definitely got her into all the prestigious award ceremonies as his fate. Without him, she would have had zero chance to sitting front row), her friendship/fling with Charlie Puth got her a feature on ‘We Don’t Talk Anymore’ which has gone like 4 times platinum or something, she dated Zedd and he gave her ‘I Want You to Know’ which ended up being huge, etc. 

The only stage in Selena’s career where I felt like she failed to capitalise on was when she was dating the Weeknd. She should have at least done a song with him or went through with the rebranding her and her team was trying to do with ‘Fetish.’ That could have been an iconic era that cemented her in the pop music game but she fumbled by not dropping an EP to follow up the hype of that and ‘Bad Liar’ (not that it’s completely her fault, I know she went through a massive health scare and needed time to heal). If she’d follow ‘Revival’ up with an equally strong/critically acclaimed album, her singing career would look a lot different now. You’re correct that she lacks direction and I suspect that it’s because she’s not even all that passionate about making music...? I remember her saying how hands-on she was with the creation of ‘Rare’ but she didn’t even recognise her own lyrics when Madison Beer mentioned it on the live stream. In terms of writing lyrics, you could literally add one word into a line and that would be enough to get you a songwriting credit. Honestly, the best move to make now is to get herself a Taylor feature or vice-versa. They share a portion of their fanbase so it’s a win-win for both of them. 

[theninjamouse]

Okay, I'm not sure if you have requests open but I've had this on my mind for a few days now. So, if you're feeling up to it, how about a Species-Swap-Shorby drabble?

I am very very fond of the species swap idea, which I remember being brought up before. For this case, we’ll say Grillby is a war vet who runs a bar and Shore is still a dancer. A rather fiery one.

This got pretty long so I’ll put it under a cut. Also, this kind of turned into a summery of how their relationship would happen in the even of a species swap but it’s not how the story of OoF is going to be progressing. This is just a what if kind of thing.

Grillby isn’t exactly what one would call a social person. Which is a little weird considering his career choice as a bartender. But the regulars like him for his role as a silent listening ear who also happens to pour the alcohol. That suits him just fine.

What doesn’t suit him is his employees dragging him out to social events. Which tends to happen every few weeks when they decide he’s working too much and drag him out someone to unwind and ‘relax’.

Being in a massive crowd of people is not his idea of relaxing. It’s some grand opening of some big new hotel slash spa slash…T.V studio? Whatever it is, it’s being opened by that monster robot Mettaton or whatever his name is. It’s supposedly the first of twenty nationwide and it looks like most of the city is here to celebrate the opening.

It sure is a change in attitude compared to when monsters first came to the surface three years ago.

“Grillby, you’re going to age prematurely if you keep scowling like that.” One of the the older members of the serving staff nudges his arm playfully. “It’s not like the bar is going to explode if you’re not there.”

“The kitchen literally caught on fire the last time I was gone. And I don’t like crowds.”

“Trust me, there’s a good reason for this one.”

There’d better be because he’s sweating and not just from the heat. There’s too many people here and it’s making his skin crawl. It’s fine, there hasn’t been an attack on monster settlements for a long time now and there’s security and-

The lights dim and his gaze is drawn to the stage in front of the hotel. The people around him go silent as the spotlight reveals a single figure covered head to toe in a dark robe of some kind. A deep beat starts to echo through the speakers set up around the whole area, shaking his bones with the intensity. And then, as a lone violin begins to play, a hand extends out of the cloak, reaching towards the heavens.

A shining, fiery hand.

The music speeds into a fast paced tempo and the dancer steps forward, shedding the cloak to reveal that it’s not a person at all. It’s a fire monster, one clad in shimmering burgundy dress that flairs about her as she spins. The cloak on her hand catches fire and he gasps along with the crowd as briefly, she’s encased in smoke.

When it clears, the robot is there with her, also dressed in a shimmering outfit that matches the fire of his partner. The two of them begin a dance that speaks of two forces battling against each other and yet moving in perfect harmony. The fire being barely seems to even touch the ground, movements fluid and utterly inhuman. Embers trail from her hands and feet and sparks brightly snap from the flames that make up her hair. She kicks up into the air and he can see a delighted smile even from this distance, bright eyes gleaming. For just a brief moment, they seem to land on him, giving him no more than a second of eye contact. Her eyes are bright, like stars caught in flame.

And for once, Grillby finds himself unwillingly speechless, his heart pounding in his chest.

~~~~~~

“The food here is supposed to be amazing!” Faith drags you towards the quaint little bar. Little sparks of lightning flash through her cloud like hair, racing down and tracing patterns over the surface of her face and arms. “And I heard the owner has hired a few monster chefs so you know they’re gonna be friendly to us.”

“I hope so,” you mutter. The last place didn’t exactly have a warm and welcoming atmosphere and you’re literally made of fire. “I’ve already had to scorch off more than enough creeps to last the rest of my life.”

“Trust me, this one will be the place.”

You step inside and immediately, you know she’s right. There are monsters here, a lot of monsters and many of them are sitting together with humans. The sound of the bell above your head causes a few heads to turn and for a moment, conversation becomes muted. A thing you’re very used to. Living fire is not exactly something most of these people see every day.

Faith pulls you up to the bar. You feels eyes on you as you pass by. You ignore them. You take a seat and wait for the bartender. Judging from the mop of bright ginger hair just visible over the bar, he’s digging for something in a cabinet. You don’t want to startle him so you lean over slightly and clear your throat with the soft crackle of snapping embers. “Excuse me?”

“Be right with you,” he murmurs, glancing up. He freezes, eyes growing wide. Ah, shoot, you shouldn’t be leaning over him like this, you’re scaring him. You move away.

“Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you,” you say, flashing with a few dark streaks of red. You don’t ever think you’re going to stop feeling bad every time you startle a human even though there’s really nothing you can do about it.

He’s still gaping at you but then he stands very suddenly. Oh, he’s tall for a human. Under his red hair, his skin is flushing. It matches the light stubble on his face. “N-no, that’s-I’m sorry, I shouldn’t stare.”

Aw gee, he’s kind of cute when he’s all flustered. “It’s okay, I’m used to it.”

He frowns slightly at that. Then- “I’m sorry but…are you the one that danced at the opening of that new hotel a few weeks back?”

You blink and then smile. The flash of bright colors reflects off the glasses on the bartender’s face. “Yeah, that was me!”

He smiles too and it makes the corner of his eyes wrinkle. “That was an amazing thing. You were stunning to watch.”

Oh geez, now you’re going blue. “Thank you very much,” you whisper.

He’s staring again, the expression oddly fascinated. He blinks and straightens. “Order what you like, it’s on the house. For both of you,” he adds, nodding to Faith.

“Oh! Are you sure? Won’t you get in trouble for that?”

The corner of his mouth twitches upwards. “I hope not, considering I’m the owner of this place.”

Your flames snap loudly. The owner? “Does that make you Grillby?”

He nods, and sticks his hand out. “It’s very nice to meet you Miss….?”

You hesitate, gaze dropping to his hand. You won’t hurt him with your flames, you know that but does he know that? He’s surely just being polite. But it would be rude of you not to accept the handshake. Slowly, to show him that it won’t hurt, you lift your hand and very gently clasp it around his human one.

He’s soft. Kind of squishy. And cool compared to the harmless heat of your hand. You smile at him, hoping he can see it through your flames. “I’m Shore. It’s nice to meet you too, Mr. Grillby.”

~~~~~

The chance visit turns into another and then another. You come to his bar often now and it’s so much easier to talk to you than it is the others. Maybe it’s your flame. He’s always loved campfires and the sweet smell of burning wood. But more than that, he finds himself oddly at ease around you. You’re bright, both literally and in personality and just…fun.

He actually finds himself looking for you on those nights when you don’t come to the bar, disappointed when the tinkling of the bell rings because of someone else.

He runs into you at the beach once. Seated on the sand and staring out at the water. You brighten when you see him and gesture out to it. “Isn’t it beautiful?” you ask him. “It just goes on and on. Does it ever end?”

“Eventually,” he replies.

“I wish I could go out in it.”

“Why? Wouldn’t that hurt you?”

You laugh and it makes his heart flip in his chest. “Yeah, horribly so. I know it’s weird for a fire monster to be so fascinated with water but-” You wistfully stare out at it. “I don’t know. My Soul feels like maybe it was meant to be out there.”

But you’re not out there. You’re right here, next to him.

He doesn’t say that out loud.

~~~~~~

It’s a few days after you and Grillby sat on the beach. He’s usually composed while at work but you can see that he’s nervous about something. Humans are so easy to read sometimes. Though admittedly, Grillby can be tricky sometimes. His face sometimes slips into a carefully neutral expression, mostly around others.

“Would you…um, there’s a place where….I mean, I know I shouldn’t ask this, you’re a customer but….”

It takes him a few tries. He’s adorably shy and you absolutely love seeing the color in his cheeks when he blushes under your teasing. Eventually, he blurts out, “Would you like to go to the aquarium with me?”

You’re startled but you say yes. So you go and it’s amazing and it’s breathtaking and for the first time in your life, you feel like you’re underwater and it makes your Soul leap in your chest and it drives you forward when Grillby beams at your excitement and you place your hands on his cheeks and almost giggle when they bulge with shock.

It’s the first time you kiss.

~~~~~~

The first time you spend the night, the night of the anniversary celebration, he knows that he should’ve insisted that you go home. But you could see he was nervous, even if you didn’t understand why. And how can he tell you why he’s shaking under the sound of the fireworks? How can he tell you that the thunder like cracks rip through him and throw him back to those nights when the entire city echoed with the sound of bombs and a single misstep could mean the end of your life?

Just like it ended the lives of his team.  

But when he wakes in the middle of the night, screaming and crying for the friends he lost that day, you’re there and your gentle warmth dries the tears on his face and grounds him. You pull him back, you whisper comfort in a language he can’t understand. He gasps while you hold him and chase away the demons that haunt him, for just a moment.

It’s the first time he’s cried in years.

~~~~~~

When a glass thrown in anger misses Grillby, when it splashes against you instead, utter agony has you screaming on the ground while your core desperately fights to reignite the wet patches on your arm and face. Your skin is cracking, it’s crumbling under the heavy weight of water soaking into you. You sob from the pain of it.

Grillby is screaming at the man who did it. Through the haze that threatens to pull you into darkness, you see him pounding his fists into the man’s face. There’s blood there.

Ah, that’s right. Humans bleed. It’s so strange. They don’t dust like monsters. Like you. Dust is trickling from your arm and down your face. It itches.

Then Grillby is there, he’s desperately trying to say something. Then, something else splashes against your face, something that is like water but isn’t. This…this is oil, it’s thick and it’s flammable and your flames greedily eat it and your fire roars with the pain of being forced to so quickly shift from embers to an inferno.

It does the trick. You’re okay but your arm will probably scar.

Grillby forcibly throws the man out of his bar and comes to you and holds you close. He’s shaking.

And under the pain, you feel….

Warm.

~~~~~

The first time you whisper, “I love you,” to him, Grillby feels as though his heart might burst right out of his chest. The two of you are dancing and it’s just you and him in the entire world in this moment. And when he kisses you, he feels as though he is the one on fire. It burns in heart and flows through his blood. He wants you to stay by his side, he wants to forever feel the heat of your flames against his skin.

You gasp quietly under his mouth as he grips you with a desperation that surprises even him. “I love you,” he murmurs as his mouth continues to press kisses against your face. Your flames tickle against his cheeks, almost too hot to bear.

You return his kiss just as fiercely.

[ruinedbygaysstylinson]

hi there! i'm still somewhat new to this fandom but i'm familiar with bg and everything so i'm just wondering why people believe that liam is also stunting with cheryl? is he believed to be gay as well and this relationship with her and his baby is just another cover up? like i understand why people believe louis isn't really a dad but i don't see as much regarding liam? can you try and explain this??

Hi Nonnie!

First of all, welcome to the fandom. It’s a mess, but it’s our mess lol

I’m gonna be honest, when I first got this ask I had no clue where to start explaining just how fake Chiam is, and I wish I had a textbook answer for you. The best way I can put it is that literally everything about it makes no sense logically. None of it. Prepare for a lot of rambling.

Not sure how into the fandom you are, but if you’ve heard of RBB/SBB, they foreshadowed Chiam on Liam’s bday in 2015 at a show, using toothpaste labeled “Colegate” which is a nod to her first marriage, and the original babygate which had been labeled a couple months earlier.

As far as timelines go, Sophiam ended late October 2015. Charcole actually got married for the second time in mid 2014, and while her and her husband seperated in late 2015, they both wore their wedding rings into 2016, despite the fact that later it was hinted that Chiam began at the XF final in 2015. Chiam was announced in the exact same way every other stunt is: via an exclusive to Dick Wattpad from the Sun. Baby rumors started a couple months later, nearly 2 full months before the date Charcole supposedly conceived. During this time, Chiam made a few public appearances, all staged red carpets or pap walks, and they were never spotted together by fans outside of these. Charcole had a baby bump months before she was pregnant, and baited the media by putting her hand over her stomach in multiple events. After she became “pregnant”, Liam basically moved to LA and lived there for her entire pregnancy. He began partying, worked on his album, and acted like a single guy for the duration with no care in the world for Charcole. What a normal thing for a dad-to-be to do. They never officially announced the pregnancy, she just turned up obviously pregnant in December 2016, and then posed for Loreal with a massive bump on a campaign released in February. Her bump changed in sizes and height throughout the pregnancy, but she went into hiding so it was difficult to actual tell what was going on, which was 100% the point. The birth was announced via a single photo of Liam with a baby, despite the fact that usually moms pose with their baby. To this day, we’ve never seen the baby’s face, and Charcole has yet to show off her pride and joy. Privacy is one thing, but this is another thing entirely. If it wasn’t for Liam babbling on, you’d have no clue she had a kid.

So what are my issues with Chiam? First of all, her association with Satan Cowbell. They are besties. Judges together on XF, and recently I found out that she’s also an executive producer. Chiam was used to promote XF in late October with probably the cringiest moment they’ve had yet. If you hate Satan because of what he did to Louis/Harry, you better be concerned that Liam “willingly” shacked up with one of his friends.

Secondly, timing. Liam was planning a solo career. It’s been his dream for over 10 years. Why on earth would he decide to settle down in the middle of trying to launch his solo career, just months after ended a long term relationship? Basically this stunt forced him to “choose” between his career and his kid, which is NOT something that a loving partner would put you through. Charcole was also married until late 2016. If she was so desperate for a baby, wouldn’t it make more sense to have it with your husband rather than a guy 10 years her junior in a completely different stage of life? She’s old but she still has time. Literally everything about this relationship was set up to fail. Also, what exactly do they have in common? They moved so quickly that Liam never had to talk about her/why they are even dating. To me, the only things they have in common are that they were both in a band (with very different experiences..) and they have a kid together. Nice.

Thirdly, Charcole’s presence in his promo. In 2014 she released an album that flopped pretty badly because she really can’t sing at all her. Her fame came from her very public relationship drama and her association with XF when it was at the height of it’s fame. Her career is pretty much over and she’s most likely desperate for anything to reverse this progression. What better way to find new fans than to try and tap into one of the largest fandoms out there? Of course, she didn’t take into account the fact that we aren’t 13 year old girls with no brains, and therefore aren’t going to blindly stan her like people did with Sofa and Elk in the past. She’s ridiculously problematic as a person (she punched a woman in the face for doing her job and got convicted for assault, admitted to attacking her ex husband, dodged taxes via a shady company that closed in 2014 right when she turned up suddenly married to JB. The list goes on and on), and from what I’ve seen her personality stinks, so why would we support her? For the most part, people either dislike her or just don’t care at all. Bummer. Liam’s promo was the only way for her to get positive news out there about herself without her doing all the talking. Unfortunately for her, Liam went overboard and now people hate her just as much, if not more, than they did before this stunt. Just to be clear: normal celebs don’t launch their careers by constantly telling stories about their kid, s/o and hyping up their accomplishments from 8 years ago.

Fourthly, body language. This is a big one. Liam’s eyes in the very first selfie of them scared me to death because he looked so upset and resigned. Literally screaming for help with his facial expression. All along, the lack of intimacy between Chiam is pretty hard to dispute. They are not comfortable together at all, and I know some media sites called them out for faking affection on red carpets when they are distant in private in May 2016. Liam was a lot better at faking it last year as well, because he’s nothing if not professional. At XF this year, it was literally painful to watch them interact, and I made a post about that when it happened. Basically, as a couple they don’t have the familiarity that they should have considering all they’ve squeezed into less than two years. Liam also doesn’t talk about her fondly at all. If you pay attention, a lot of his comments just about her are negative: she scolds him, nags him, rolls her eyes at him, dresses him (in hideous pants, someone burn those), makes all the decisions about the baby, critcizes his music, etc, but at least she was famous back when he was 15 eh? (Them meeting at 14/24 when she was married for years is just another nasty aspect. She was in a mentor role and I’m disgusted she was okay with this stunt. It’s so wrong on so many levels.) Overall she sounds pretty awful to me, and that’s just based off of the picture Liam is painting.

And finally, the saga of Conchobear. The difference between actual celebrities having babies (think Beyoncé), vs Charcole is hilarious. No one ever saw her stomach when pregnant, she hid for months before and after the birth, and low and behold she popped back up with a new face! That’s the second 1D mom to get extensive plastic surgery when she should be caring for an infant. I seriously doubt she actually was pregnant, but that’s not something I’ll go into here. Liam was out working on his career a month after the announcement, and has been travelling pretty consistently since. He’s missed multiple important holidays; for example, on Father’s Day he flew from the US to Italy for a fashion show, and then back to the US. On Conchobear’s 6 month bday, Liam went out and did interviews. Do you really think that if Liam was an actual dad, he wouldn’t make every effort and move mountains to spend as much time as possible with his firstborn son? It just doesn’t make sense with what we know about Liam’s personality. He’s responsible, and he wouldn’t put himself in this situation. What he says, what we are fed, what he does, and what we know about him as a person don’t line up at all. Liam sounds like an amazing involved dad with his tales, but he lacks a basis in basic human development; his stories are cute and so unrealistic. Thus, Liam hasn’t spent any significant time with a baby. The entire stunt has been setting up single mom!Charcole, but Liam’s team has made sure to prevent her from calling him a deadbeat via the stories. It’s hard to say he was never around when he’s gushing about the kid in every interview. He’s also gotten worse at lying recently, and I get the feeling he’s tired.

So yeah, basically every aspect of this relationship is messed up in one way or another, and I’m expecting to see Chiam end sooner rather than later. If they are both out working on material, they won’t be able to hold it together imo. There’s definitely stuff I’ve missed and if any of my mutuals/followers want to add to this feel free. This is just stuff I thought of off the top of my head.

For specific examples of some of what I’ve mentioned you can check out the Twitter thread I linked below. It has some great resources and that account in general is amazing at breaking down stunt events. I’m also gonna reblog a post comparing Chiam to Zigi (another dead fauxmance) and Hiddleswift that is pretty interesting for you to look over.

https://twitter.com/EndBabygates/status/856439540831195137

Enjoy your stay in the fandom Nonnie. If you have any specific questions or need recommendations for who to follow, shoot me a message!

[kristianhrabkolma32]

Rehearsal process

Opening Scene

- Veronica moves from left to right, opening the reading from her diary.

Beautifu, the name of the opening song introduces 'Baxter hill high' which is the school where majority of scenes take place. Veronica is still reading from her diary which reveals rest of the cast throughout the whole song.

At the very start of this song my mind always tells to count, counting beats in time and rhythm of a song is very fundamental skill to have in any practitioner repertoire.

My role at this point is a moody teenager, who always wanted to be with the popular kids but secretly hated them which lead him to express wearing dark clothes and really going into emo culture yet he's still a geek at heart.

Going into a bit more technical side of this, ensemble has 3x8 to un-freeze from each of their position. So the song consists of beats knowing the mean of beats is commonly used amongst musicians, musical theatre performers or just performers overall.

On the second count of 8s in the music, curtain is lifting and allows me to be ready in time so my professionalism is shown right from the start. There are 3x8 counts leading into 4th where ensemble joins in on the first count of 8 count sequences. Progressing each 8th count into the song the ensemble starts on different count for three times.

For exanple:

FREAK!SLUT! BUNOUT! BOGEYE! - we start on the first count of 8.

Moving into next section,

FREAK! SLUT! LUSER! SHORTBUS! - this time ensemble starts on the second count, which leads to third change and this time it begins on third count.

Knowing how to count enables me to be on time in my place positioned, which shows commitment to knowing & understanding my material.

This link contains footage of our rehearsal process , I wasn't able to insert actual video here so I'm taking a different approach. In the first 18 seconds of the video, you can see techniques of progressive counting as previously mentioned in the sections above.

As Veronica takes us through the song she reveals the rest of the cast thus showing her emotions and setting the scene which is reflected in the technical aspects in choreography. The choreography is strategically placed along with music to create what the director envisioned . Near the midway of Beautiful Heathers are being introduced, there is change in music to more minor, this is an expression used to describe mood of songs or melodies. As Heather's enter through the archway created by us the non-populars , this is a strategically placed choreographed exert to showcase class diversity within the school society.

This footage is only to support my analysis and to help demonstrate points mentioned above, it is not our final rehearsal footage therefore it serves as a teaching tool.

Dramaclasses (2020) "Verfremdungseffekt, or the ‘estrangement effect,’ was used to distance the audience from the play and is sometimes called the alienation effect. Brecht did not want the audience to have any emotional attachment to his characters, so he did various things to break it."

Thus confirming that Bertol Brecht technique uses several techniques to alienate audience, however it can be used in different situations such as in this instance. 

Following, the music comes off into a scene that takes place two weeks late, it is stated by Veronica as a clue for audience. Brecht technique is used to tell the audience there is time change or that something has changed.  Brecht technique consists of literally tell the audience actors mood, intentions or it can be simple character change , this is shown through either literal representation of the change or simply writing the representation and displaying it.

Candy Store

Leading into 'Candy Store' , the scene is showing use of power within school society by Heather's. They are telling Veronica that it is their "job" to keep losers like 'Martha Dumstock' in their place. Martha is Veronica's best friend,  although she thought. Veronica gets blinded by the limelight as she enters the world of Heathers, the Heathers want to invite Martha to Rams party as a joke but Veronica quickly realizes what is about to happen and try to stop them. This is when Heather starts Candy Store with the infamous " are we gonna have a problem…." line to tell Veronica you're either with us or against us. 

At this point ensemble wise I'm in the scene witnessing how this unfolds, obviously feeling scared by Heathers, I'm showing this through my timid positions and acting style as they burst through the crowd of students. 

I'm not singing in this scene as our director want to show female empowerment thus giving this song stronger meaning using the lyrics in quite literal sense as Heather C. Talks about school being her candy store. The viewer can see this as a very sexual innuendo situations as we are in school environment and these are three young adolescents students in mini skirts talking about how they 'own' everyone.  

Here is a footage of our Candy Store rehearsal, this is only to demonstrate and support points made above. This footage is not a final piece it is only a rehearsal at its beginning stage.

For our final show I thought it would improve my performance, stamina and focus if I make a timetable to be in that mindset constantly.

Here's an example of my timetable:

I've tried my best to keep in sync with it , from our last performance I understood that it is vital for an musical theatre practitioner to have some type of regime even if they are not performing.

This gave me some room for improvement and allowed me to see how simple regimes can implement massive changes in a short time.

This semester I have improved on my overall stamina/ strength which I'm more than pleased with , however it gave me more than that. I am able to understand and apply my skills where are needed.

Fight for Me

Moving forward we have another school scene just after Candy Store, this time we are in groups that we stay with for the majority of time. We are watching how things will unveil with Veronica's new status as she meets Jason Dean or J.D. for short.

We're in semi-circle of students now, watching a fight with J.D., Ram And Kurt who are other characters known as Jocks.

Going into three different positions at the beginning of this song called 'Fight For Me/Holly Shit', just like previous we have 3x8s of call and response from the female/male ensemble leading into 4th eight where we freeze frame as Veronica confesses her interest in J.D. as he fights those two Jocks, she finds this very arousing. Our role is to be interactive students just like in a normal school environment when you see fights. This highlights the overall relationship within society and how it molds pupils into bigots from a young age.

Kurt: " Hey, sweetheart. What did your boyfriend say when you told him you were moving to Sherwood, Ohio?"

Ram: "My buddy asked you a question."

Kurt: "Hey Ram, doesn't this cafeteria have a 'no fags allowed' rules?"

J.D. : "They're seem to have an open-door policy for assholes though. "

Kurt: "Hold his arms".

As its shown above in the exert from our script on the page 33, this leads into the begging of Fight for Me. J.D. gets into an alteration, this insinuate the societal mindset structure how pupils are raised up in this environment which they bring into their adulthood thus continue the cycle of abuse.

In Big Fun we have a scene with Ram and Kurt, following rest of the students arriving at Rams party.

The scene revolves around Heathers, Veronica, Jocks and Martha's relationship, it is shown throughout in a party environment of underage drinking takes place. As an ensemble member I'm one of the guests at this party having good time, nothing unusual for a teenager that age he's no stranger to alcohol or even pretends that they don't know what they're doing.

In the next footage you're about to see there is proof of rehearsal progress, from the instructions given by tutor I now know that at the time I was incorrect in the technical intention of the movement.

For example: in the footage you can see my counts and movement itself are correct however the speed of my delivery isn't. We have been given 3x8 of step,step,step drag behind, drag behind, drag behind. It is put in as a dynamic change to show off that we are affected by alcohol or whatever substances these teenagers consume.

You can see this from 2:20 minutes into the video, notice me in my green cap and buckle belt as I do those steps accurately yet incorrect.

I was able to correct this once I understood the intention behind this movement and what it was representing.

Which brings us to Blue , this is the last scene that I was a part of before this world wide pandemic occurred.

There is a scene leading into this song , including Heathers and Veronica as she is called into the woods for help yet instead is misled and offered up for a daterape.

This I a kind of thing people do to one another on daily basis, 'rather you than me' type of situation.

The song itself talks about teenage boys testosterone levels rising out of control, (this is the nicest way I can put it) boys from early teen hood develop testosterone levels high enough so they are ready to mate. In this instance it is forced upon Veronica by Heathers, knowing that parental views and opinions impact their children and how they treat on another, proves why Ram and Kurt thinks it is okay to treat women with such disrespect. Maccoby (2020) states, "There is clear evidence that parents can and do influence children."

You can see this throughout the footage , it is solely focused on how the boy needs help and would do anything for you once you help them.