#but i think they're good representations of the characters?!

[730spitz]

Honestly I love the character that is wheeler yuta, why? Because everyone had a part in creating him to be violent by nature, not necessarily having a choice as he was built that way. He also throughout his whole time has been a Martyr, he isn't making most choices by himself, yuta being seen constantly as if he regrets his decisions and looks like he doesn't want to do what he's being made to do.

Only to talk himself into it, and as Time went on he isn't regretting or thinking too much about his violent choices. Now he's trying to make himself seem as if he isn't just a pawn, a Martyr, something to be sacrificed.

Yet he is. He says he isn't but the minute he says he isn't Claudio tells him to be quiet and he does, which truly showcases how under control he is even though yuta believes he is in control and has made every decision by himself which isn't the case it's actually quite the opposite it's like he hasn't been able to make his own at all always needing guidance or someone to follow even if he believes he has control. Yuta wheeler constantly almost has had a collar and leash on and is unable to make his own choices or even have his own thoughts, and it only gets proven more with how Claudio treats him.

I think they don't trust him, and constantly have to monitor him because if they don't he'll get too free and they want him until he can become that sacrifice. A pawn to remove, we saw it multiple times the death riders leaving him or letting him get beaten up because they don't care about him. At some point I think they're ridding of yuta in a big plan or to be some sort of end game sacrifice that ultimately succeeds or fails, either way yuta being such a good representation of this bird in a cage this whole time and being deluded with this idea of the freedom he has is amazing.

[apologetic-artist]

First batch of designs!!! I hope y'all like em hehe :3

(Yapping about my designs and future designs under cut hehe[LOTS OF WORDS AND STUFFS!!])

Sketch: The sweater that they're wearing under their shirt is actually one of Tony's old sweaters he grew out of. I wanted to go for a mixed match look with a lot of color while avoiding visual looks of green for obvious reasons. I think they're one of the more outgoing of the bunch, especially since I think they're one of the younger ones(like late 20's, early 30's) so I tried to fit that in their design. Definitely one of my favorites out of my designs.

Tony: Looking at my previous ref sheet of her, I'd say this is a major upgrade. Not a lot has changed about him except for some tiny things and the colors. I love this pose. Also, at the ends of her suit jacket, they look like little clock hands, I thought it was cute. With Tones, I kinda just took inspiration from everyone else drawing him with formal attire, but I think mostly everyone sees him wearing a suit or something adjacent.

Shrignold: For the information, it has a bit of question marks I should talk about real quick. The question marks on the species was just a silly little joke to reference what Yellow called them in their episode and people headcannoning Shrig as more of a moth than a butterfly, which I totally see where they're coming from because I don't know what my Shrig is anymore. As for the relationship status, nobody(not even them) are sure if they're dating or not. Sure, there's a lot of evidence, but it is still a confusing relationship. I can talk about it more when I post my Larry with its respective headcannons.

Colin: My bbg. Anyway, with his old design, he was way too lanky, and it kinda looked off. The colors were also way too dull, so I made them a little more pastel. Also, Lana is the name for Laptop, not sure if it'll change, so this is kinda a placeholder. I also added some cute patches to their overalls to reference their digital world since I wanted more representation of that part of their character in their design. I just love Colin if you couldn't tell lmao. I feel like all the new details are a major upgrade.

FUTURE DESIGN SECTION!!:

The reason why the Health gang isn't in this is because I'll make a post of all of them together in a group bc I believe they should all go together. It may take me a long time since I, to be honest, never really cared to make designs for them. The reason why I haven't yet is because GOOD LORD they are kinda hard to translate to my style, specifically Steak and Fridge. I'll figure it out eventually.

The same goes for the love cult. Trust me, I wanna draw them so bad(might get to them before the Healthy Gang). All I'm saying is that that bunny is coming first he's literally my favorite. I love that blue bunny boy so much.

Larry might also need to go into his own post. There is so much, and that's all I'm really saying so far.

Listen, I'll only draw the machine teachers if i wanna, there are too many.

The TV teachers will obviously get designs, no doubt.

Also, have a scrapped outfit for Shrignold! I decided this should just be just for when it's in the cult :]

That's about it!! Thanks for reading my ramble. Have a good night/day/afternoon/whatever time of day it is!! :D

[timxpy]

SOUL WITH VIOLENT OBSESSION LOOKS SO RIGHT NGL. Like, I think he could have both obsessions about harming others and himself. And in the end rituals are no longer helping, and he just... Doesn't know what to do. Alone with this violent thoughts that make you feel like a monster. We need to talk more about this kind of obsessions, ngl they're the worst type of obsessions you might have as a person with ocd. AND OBSESSIONS ABOUT HARMONIA, YEAAAH... I think that perfectly connects with his npd ideals (they're totally relate to Harmony in some ways yeah). AND AGAIN, HIS IDEALS ARE JUST ALWAYS IGNORED. THIS IS SO PERFECT DESCRIBES WHY HE COULD HAVE THESE OBSESSIONS. I think he also would spend a lot of time just for one ritual. Like, twenty minutes for each compulsion.

YOU'RE SO ABSOLUTELY RIGHT UGHHH. I think this conflict between two disorders is the most important and interesting part in ocd + npd Mind headcanon. He's supposed to be rational and obsessions don't look rational!!! LIKE AT ALL!!! AND THIS WILL BE SO FRUSTRATING FOR HIM I SWEAR. Actually haven't got much to say about ocd Mind more, you said like EVERYTHING SO RIGHT. I JUST LOVE TO READ AND READ YOUR POST AGAIN AND AGAIN DISKWKSKDKKD. Just want to add that I had this kind of obsessions like you described anddd I can say that sometimes u feel REALLY stupid when do rituals. Like, always count just to make sure u make basic thing right are annoying and it looks strange for people around you, it's sometimes really hard to explain why you do things this way...

And guess what... YOU'RE ALSO RIGHT ABOUT HEART'S OCD!!! I believe that his obsessions are strongly connected to thinking about his actions. He always think how he looked when he said this or that, or did anybody see how he just uhhh walked??? This really worries him. Always thinking about how u look when u do this or that or did anybody see something that you didn't see in yourself... This will be really exhausting!!! Yaaay they all are suffering again!!!

Yk I really like to see good npd + bpd combo in characters. Like, I like to see good cluster b representation in general BUT SEEING THIS COMBO MAKES ME SOSOSO HAPPY (also I had the same feeling but with npd + aspd combos several times. I'm just really glad to see people don't think about characters like monsters just because they have symptoms of this two disorders). AND NOW THIS COMBO IS WITH OCD TOO AND I JUST LIKE AJAJAJANSNND THIS IS SO GOOD. But Soul is suffering sm ngl. I just can't imagine how hard it'll be to have both lack of self identity and inflated identity (which you need to support with anything that makes you feel like you're actually that kind of person as you think you are) at the same time.

Alsooo, what do you think about pds from other clusters??? Can any of them fit any cccc character in ur opinion???

[Sorry that I didn't answer for long time, I was really tired last two-three days mehhh]

bpd soul propaganda

his relationships with heart and mind are extremely tumultuous. he alternates between encouraging support and harsh criticism. he wants them to be close and loves them, but he's easily frustrated by their conflict and despises them for it.

he seeks a stability that seems impossible for him to achieve. when he doesn't feel like he can be stable, he threatens suicide because it feels like his only option. suicidal and self-destructive behavior is really common in bpd, especially in response to interpersonal distress and instability.

he has very little sense of self. identity isn't something he feels like he has the right to have (since personal separation is contradictory to trying to be Whole), but also, it seems like something he just can't get a grip on even if he tried.

I think that he has extreme attachment issues in concord. he's terrified that things will go wrong again, worried one of them will get hurt or disappear whenever he's not keeping an eye on them. he wants to know exactly where they are and be told when they're leaving because otherwise he'll panic about their absence.

on that note, his fears of hurting them or ruining things when things seem stable are something a lot of people with bpd struggle with. there's this underlying fear that the things "inherently wrong with you" will ruin everything you touch, either because of personal experience or internalized demonization.

if you headcanon Whole as a distinct person, that would be his favorite person. the extreme, almost religious idealization and having your entire sense of self revolving around a person (or really, the perception of perfection you have of a person) is a clear sign of having a favorite person. the abandonment issues would also be the worst with Whole, for obvious reasons

also i think it would be neat if this was a more widespread concept

[good-to-drive]

Girls5Eva is the best thing that ever happened to me, actually

[sysmedsaresexist]

thoughts on fandoms treating characters with a heavily fictionalized form of split personality as if they canonically have DID?

like DID doesnt fucking do this

You mean you don't do a magical girl sailor moon transformation when you switch?

I don't know, sounds sus, friendo

Your eyes should at least change colour, how else do you know who's fronting?

[theokusgallery]

i have bad news for anyone who expects mental illness to be family friendly

^ yeah!

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

hate when i see a youtube video that's like 'analyzing why [thing] is bad!' and you watch the video and they just say nothing for twenty minutes

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

man like i loved macdennis and i still do but the obnoxiousness of some shippers has put a sour taste in my mouth like i get people want to see the ship they like be Real And Canon On TV but it's getting weird and reeks of entitlement and not being able to see past your gay ship being gay. and tbh the idea of macdennis going canon doesn't excite me as much anymore because i just know if it did happen people are not going to know how to fucking act and make it weird!!! glob is fucking weird btw don't do that. i know ship and the potential of canon can be exciting but i need people to step out of their macdennis echo chamber and think about the way they talk about these real life men. like part of me doesn't want on screen, undeniable macdennis at this point because of the way people treat rob and glenn as dolls and extensions of their characters i KNOW people are going to be fucking weird if they get content like that

[motoroil-recs]

I suppose this counts as a kinfession. I just wanted to state how sometimes it gets really frustrating to see sentients who are kin with a not binary character that uses they/them (see Kris from Deltarune) and them then using he/him. I get that it is their own memories and literally them, but I suppose after a while it feels like some sort of erasure to me? I hope that makes sense, and if anybody could explain more to make me more comfortable with this specific thing, that would be lovely as well. I always want to keep an open mind.

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[librarygf]

watching heartstopper as an adult is like this is so tonally wild. what is this world where emotions are represented by cartoon animations but also the main character is a cutter with an eating disorder who is relentlessly bullied for being gay. but then again i know that this is unfortunately 100% relevant for the kids/young teens who are the target audience of this show and that made me so sad that i had to sit in a dark room for half an hour after it ended to cope

[fragmentedblade]

Not to be a jingfu on main, but it's so cute that Jing Yuan thought of Fu Xuan with those jelly beans

[foxxsong]

It is so incredibly frustrating to watch everyone talk about how fanatic Across the Spiderverse is and all the important themes and representation, while I have also been one of the people desperately waiting for it to come out. And now that it has I just straight up can't. Sure, I could try, but who could possibly enjoy a movie they can't look at half the time while having a migraine for likely the entirety of it?

"Everyone should watch this movie! It's so great!" I would fucking love to, but unfortunately it is wildly inaccessible to me - and straight up genuinely legitimately DEADLY to others - so I just have to sit back and sadly watch everyone who is not photosensitive and epileptic praise it constantly while never acknowledging what a slap in the face it is to entire groups of disabled people.

I can only imagine how black epileptic animation fans feel right now.

[inklingofadream]

periodic reminder that 4thewords is great :) never timed well bc it never occurs to me to say this in november when they offer a month of free subscription time, but! it is making the process of catching up on polychives more satisfying. finishing this chapter is like fighting a literal beast, rather than a metaphorical one, because for $4 a month (or slightly less, I buy the end of year bundle) 4thewords will provide Beasts

[boyinthevoide]

I randomly started thinking about Axolotl wings of fire and got very annoyed because damn they weren't even really a character they say six words in the entire book and two of them are "friend" and the explanation that they're nonbinary is clunkier that a portcullis. Why did Tui bother? They're really pretty token imo like. "Wow I'm made a character who's nonbinary they're not a girl or a boy or maybe they're both we never find out because they never have a conversation with anyone ever on screen" yes well done Tui here's your "did you even try?" sticker.

IDK I'm just. I'm very annoyed about them because it seemed really cool that Wings of fire would finally have a trans character and then it's like "nope no we have a trans stick figure who speaks less than the literal newborn baby".

However. However. Love their name. Axolotl is such a good name. Tui got it right with that one.

[musical-chick-13]

I was thinking about making some (low-level) Content™ for Mental Health Awareness Month because it starts in a few days, and I realized just how few explicitly canon mentally ill characters-that aren’t treated with absolutely appalling disrespect-I actually know. :(

[llycaons]

yeah I think satisfaction is what I look for in finales. like if the story promises something, I want to see it delivered. characters go on journeys, grow as people, develop relationships, fall in love, accomplish things, fall deeper and deeper into despair...not to start spoiling every piece of media I've ever consumed but shows with endings I enjoy or love or find satisfying, whether they're elaborate or not, fulfill the promise they made me when I picked it up. this is going to be a story about x. watch while it happens. on the way, it might become about more things too. at the end, we'll deliver a finale that matters in a way that hits hard. adventure time. mp100. the hxh anime. rgu. tgcf. bojack horseman. dungeon meshi. the untamed. I know not everyone likes as tidy endings as I do, but I do want it to say something that's relevant to the story that's being told. otherwise....like, what's the point?