#but i still wanted to be a bitch u_u

[toucansafari]

this is yet another instance of me being a sore loser but i really feel bitter and disappointed when big events with big guest artists etc are always organized in western countries (and ofc asia would only mean jp) and the cultural exchange/exposure keeps getting better there while we are kinda left to figure this out ourselves (in this specific complaint i am talking about big anime cons happening in usa with huge guest artists from around the world which leads to more people becoming aware/interested in comics/manga while these things are still considered fairly niche and "childish" in my country)

[tearitar]

29! Curious about which songs or albums that influence your sniperspy work in general and your thoughts. Thank you!

29. If you made a playlist, talk about the songs on it and share a link

Haha, I do have a sniperspy playlist HERE, though I can't say it's very good. I usually just throw a bunch of songs together when I want to noodle around with an idea. I like writing same fraction, but most of these are for cross fraction.

You already know about Bully by Black Pistol Fire but that's usually my go-to for enemies-to-lovers. (And obvs Deadbeat Graffiti, their enemies to lovers album, LOL.)

One song that is HIGHLY accurate to what I think is ~*omg so them*~ is I Can't Decide by Scissor Sisters. A country twang, a slide whistle, deranged silly lyrics; absolute clown music. So it also has the bonus of fitting within the silliness of the TF2-universe. The whole vibe!

Unfortunately, it does not make a good song to write to, lol. I get distracted. It's very catchy. These two bits always make me smile;

Fuck and kiss you both at the same time Smells like something I've forgotten Curled up died and now it's rotten

and also;

I've got to hand it to you You've played by all the same rules It takes the truth to fool me And now you've made me angry I can't decide Whether you should live or die

I can name more lyrics (it's a bitch convincing people to like you / If I stop now call me a quitter / If lies were cats you'd be a litter) but then I'd be typing out the whole song!!

Choke by IDKHBTFM is also a good one for cross fraction and made me consider writing some asphyxiation kink, but more than that, I think there's a good 70s rock rift to it--so it's an ALMOST appropriate for that time period. If I made a true sniperspy playlist for public posting I usually like to... keep the songs vaguely period accurate. But eh.

There are very few same-fraction songs that I would pin down as The Song, but I'm fond of Dark Times (which is a ballad duet between Ed Sheeran and The Weeknd). BEFORE YALL LAUGH, IT'S VERY GOOD. The song is pretty fucky. Some lyrics I adore and think a lot within a same fraction sniperspy context;

Waking up, half past five Blood on pillow and one bruised eye Drunk too much, you know what I'm like But you should've seen the other guy

This ain't the right time for you to fall in love with me Well baby I'm just being honest And I know my lies could not make you believe We're running in circles that's why

and obviously;

Light one up, let me bum a smoke, Still coming down, dripping throat, I got another man's blood on my clothes But it ain't his fault, it's the life I chose

For me it gives the image of them in bed together, just talking about their day killing people, lol. It's very sweet in a morbid way. And my favorite sniperspy core theme is in the lyrics "ain't the right time to fall in love" so I'm bound to love the song for them.

However, the biggest joke here is that I mostly write to hyper-pop, 90s love songs, kpop, and early 2000s club music. If I play something that actually reminds me of sniperspy I simply stop writing and daydream. u_u

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ETA: ANSWER PART 2: aka why I shouldn't blabber straight off the work shift then hop in the shower with music then suddenly remember BIC RUNGA!!!!!!!!!

Okay, so i DO have a same fraction sniperspy songs in my secret playlist that i won't link because even I know it's just kinda A Lot but I will not be ashamed about Bic Runga, New Zealand's pop princess treasure--and this is just MY taste in music so fuck trying to match the tf2 time period and vibes this is ALL ME AND THE BLORBOS I MAKE KISS, BABY.

Something Good - I have titled my fic request compilation after a lyric "let you get your way" which, you know. Corny. As well as "just might come crashing". bro I wrote that whole fic to that song!! I love it for same fraction sniperspy so much. It's kinda hopeful but, like, rifts on the No Romance policy I imagine they have.

If I were honest I'd tell you everything But it keeps coming out as lies It's not a promise In case you're wondering It's not some blessing in disguise

IT'S NOT SOME BLESSING IN DISGUISE!!!! YEah!!!!! Yeah that's what I'm TALKIN' ABOUT!!!

Sway - *blood visibly dripping from my mouth* Listen. It's just a good tune, man. I think they ARE sweet on each other but this song is both sweet but guarded and just kinda yearning. Sway my way!! Don't come and go like you do!!!!

Don't stray, don't ever go away I should be much too smart for this You know it gets the better of me

sorry to sound insane, but there you go. what more can I say. i love the song itself. this is otp-pilled bullshit.

And there's no cure, and no way to be sure Why everything's turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired, I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart

Other Big Runga Songs to consider:

Honest Goodbyes: honest goodbyes only work once or twice / they work once or twice / then the rest must be lies

Get Some Sleep: Putting on my daytime eyes / a good enough disguise

ok i think im done.

[hansmannette]

Hi Rocky! I just wanted to say that I've always love your bayo art so much!! You're one of the artists that really kept me going in the fandom a few years back. I'm also a bayoluka enjoyer now because of you (primarily because of seeing your old art of them).

I do wonder though, looking at your old posts you seemed to rather like the idea of bayo+jeanne+luka in a poly relationship together. Do you still enjoy it? I'm asking because after generally thinking about it, as well as seeing your old posts regarding them (including one particular piece of art), I absolutely cannot stop think about them together just both loving bayo.

hey rose! thank u for the kind words O LAWD U_U im glad you enjoy my work, thats what keeps me goin!!!

also yeah i really enjoyed the idea of the three of them together mainly because obviously the bond between bayo and jeanne is very strong, every game shows us this. i think that no matter what it is, they both would prefer doing it together because they are like.... two of em... theres two of em. dont separate! so bayo kinda just comes in a pack with jeanne imo and since i LOVE bayoluka, jeanne tags along for it sometimes. i think jeanne is the most mysterious character out of the cast so im not sure what her intentions behind this could be... maybe shes just having a little fun ^^

also bayo just deserves all the love, lets be real, she's the MAIN BITCH!!!

[vodkaing]

what happened to your twitter? it says it doesnt exist ;_;

i deleted im sorry </3 tbh its been a long time coming especially bc nsft artists are getting shadowbanned left and right and the constant onslaught of For You tweets was giving me like. aggressive brain damage i wont lie.. i do still wanna have a social media presence but its hard when i cant post my art anywhere (and im too shy for tagging things) :")

i wanna find a site where i can post my projects and talk to ppl... i actually would not mind remaking or revisiting it once a certain son of a bitch hands it off to someone else and they do some serious upheaval on that damn app </3

meanwhile if u want u can dm and i can give you my instagram :D its much more disorganized but i still post art and talk to ppl there u_u

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

ever since P5's release I noticed that you've been bitter about the Persona franchise. You find things to hate about something even when its supposed to be a non-issue.

Case in point, Reload.

I get that you have a preferred artstyle.

It would seem like Reload can do nothing right.

I'm just wondering where did the persona-loving person go?

*looks at the ask about the Art style I got the other day* Weird, I didn't publish this yet tho TT0TT (I didn't get far into answering it cause I wanted to actually see if I can analyze the different art styles between Soejima and....who ever did the new P3R art.... but I didn't have time at that moment so that ask is in my drafts right now).

So I uhhhh haven't.....bitched about the art style in a minute..... u_u Tbh, I thought my last two posts were 1) showing excitement over Persona (a mod but still) and 2) upset Wada is just acting like a broken record and stirring shit up with the fandom again (We get it just stop bringing FeMC up if you aren't gonna put her in! TT0TT You're just being mean now!)

But if you want something positive: I think P3R's Answer might be the improvement we've been needing! :D (I just hate it's DLC (ʘ‿ʘ)). But ignoring the DLC aspect, it looks like they are seeing its original shortcomings and are trying to improve on it. It looks like they're adding more content so it's not as empty too. (now are the character episodes going to be good? No idea. I saw Yukari looking not pissed as fuck cause Aigis is breathing the same air as her so I'm side eyeing it a bit. jaksldfjka But we'll see. On the brightside....at least that stuff is optional, so you can avoid it if you don't like it). Plus I'm getting more Metis (baby girl you're back home! TT0TT I'm so happy!). And the new song "Don't" (?) sounds interesting, I liked the line "Don't you make me do this" cause jaskjfd context of the story.....sounds heartbreaking~! :'D

Ok onto the other stuff:

Tbh I haven't played P3R in so long that I forgot there was an art style change and that I hated it. akslfdjkalfjkaljflaj I'm living in delulu land atm.

(that or I'm letting myself be slowly exposed to it again. Like you would a cat to another cat, by putting food next to a closed door. The food being the FeMC mod fkldjaskfsa half joking. Tbh, just seeing screenshots on twitter is exposure therapy I guess, and I mean the actual game not the mod).

I could take an art style I don't care about if they'd just given me the bare minimum which is......a full P3 game.  (ʘ‿ʘ) No extra content, just.....frakenstein the damn games together, I am asking for the barest of bare minimum. Don't even need two answers, re-record a few lines and change the pronoun to gender neutral, and then replace the P3MC model with the FeMC model during 3D cutscenes, and then just........don't include 2D cutscenes that shows the MaleMC (there you save on 2D cutscene budget too). Only thing you have to worry about is a model swap and some voicelines. I think that's do-able for a big company. (and by model I mean crusty PS2/PSP models, I'm not even asking for them to use P3D/P3R stuff....I legit mean it when I say frakenstein the PS2/PSP vers, bare minimum).

I think I'm more upset with how the 3D environment (and UI) looks than the 2D art if I'm being honest. That I'm having a hard time adapting to tbh.

As for "since P5"....I mean...yeah.... It's hard....to stay fun loving when you hate P5.....and they keep making P5 stuff. TT0TT (RiP to the P4, and possibly P3, haters back during the P4 era. I get it u_u)

It doesn't help that the company has gone full "let's fuck the customers" mode since P4Arena (tho imo P4D is when the signs of it getting REALLY rough started to show). And they've just escalated their shitty DLC practices since. ("EA is worse" damn yeah they suck too, good thing I can hate both practices at once!) "It's Sega's fault not Atlus'!" I don't really care, I can be upset with both. "But Atlus said it's Sega's fault!" oh no the corp is gonna have big dad corp take the moral hit. Whatever shall they do? Nothing they say will look good tbh, they have to accept that. (aka they could be telling the truth, or they could be playing us. I'll only trust them a little if their shotty practices change :/)

I really mean it when I say the DLC practices have been really getting to me.

Which is why I'm taking a break and hunkering down until something interesting (by which I mean: new game/IP announced) happens in the fandom.

[irishfino]

i'm not done

i have a lot of thoughts

nels: hey zenos i got arrested zenos: whatever for? nels: some guy said the warrior of light was a punk bitch zenos: ah, justifiable homicide nels: no no he's still alive just probably wishes he wasn't zenos: i will arrive with bail nels: thankyouloveyoubye zenos: did she just...

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zenos is in love with the wol and no one can convince me otherwise

sorry emet, you passed on your "i love azem" genes u_u

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zenos stole lala!nels' body and immediately lost himself in a snowdrift

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friendly reminder that zenos is really pretty

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zenos would enjoy the chaos of pf

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he already pretty much has emet's face lmfao varis looking at baby zenos like "FUCK" and emet just in the background cackling "your offspring looks like me!"

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extremely horny for zenos/10

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he can still come back! yoship has been very cagey on him! this is how we can still win scion!zenos!

[cries in a corner]

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once you bang zenos you get no other penos

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zenos 100% powders his balls with the finest and softest powder brush

estinien buys ball powder but uses it on his armpits instead because he'll just wash his balls in the shower nbd

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zenos be like "COME!" and has no idea why the wol can't stand up anymore

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zenos be like: [bites you bites you bites you bites you bites you bites you]

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zenos finally agrees to an arranged marriage, but he requires that whoever he marries has to be able to kick his ass

cue a longline of assassins, admirers, and one very confused wol who has no idea how they got there, but they've been in worse situations

it's a comedy

asahi is the one who interviews everyone and tries to reject people who he thinks: have a real chance, is just trying to kill zenos

wol confuses him, so he sends them to die

they don't die

shenanigans

zenos v wol fight: -wol gets stomped -asahi cheers on his lord -zenos let's this one live because they tickle him, sends wol away -wol is all "wtf i ain't dead yet" and charges zenos' back -sweet ninja moves zenos grabs them by the leg, hoists them to eyelevel "this one, father, i want this one"

asahi tries not to explode and die, varis is just very tired and approves

the longest zenos post

i tweet a lot of fun thoughts :)

and i mean a lot

hmmm wolzenos school au, but they're teachers. zenos teaches philosophy and math; he's banned from even subbing on a PE class for reasons heknowswhathedid nels is the nurse/PE teacher the students are confused as to why their boring ass huge bitch teacher clearly has the hots for nels but neither of them seems to know (yes that's right zenos doesn't know he wants to kiss nels, he is dumb and i love him)

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zenos slow-blinks to let his wol know he loves them (and also wants to fight)

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zenos: i am trying to raise your ire, my friend nels: oh, yeah no, i'm already pissed the fuck off and would fight you to the death barehanded right now if that wasn't exactly what you wanted. ye ain't the only stubborn bitch on this star, galvus! zenos: ...well that's just rude

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zenos goes out of his way *once* to save wol's life, and that's when he patricided varis and stopped black rose from being released. all the other times his actions lead to wol being saved are accidents. zenos is walking comedy wtf

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dan zenas ur bobbies

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zenos the type of guy to fuck you on his futon then show you his highly intricate gundams he put together himself

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nellie is going to take all of zenos *all of him*

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zenos is the ♪is there anything better than pussy? yeah a really good book♪ vine made manifest

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cinderella but it's zenos trying to match a shoe and weapon left from an assassination attempt

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listen zenos knows exactly what sex is he was taught what sex is, he heard about and probably caught soldiers doin' the sex it just never crosses his mind that he actually wants to fuck the wol because he's a fucking idiot

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zenos, in the middle of his first crumb of wolussy: so this... is what men fight and die for... 'tis divine in its own way and -- wol: hey, shut up up there and start thrustin' before i decide a nap would be more satisfying zenos: my apologies

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[puts brightly colored barrettes and baubles in zenos' hair]

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zenos takes off his armor to reveal he's actually skinny as fuck and pale enough to get moonburn

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i bet zenos has huge balls

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zenos: this... is the sole pleasure i know. and... it is the sole ~*~pleasure~*~ i have to share nels: [unzips top] zenos: wh -- why are you getting naked nels: homies don't let homies die virgins zenos: ????? y'shtola: i... sense a disturbance in the aether...

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i often imagine zenos has less muscle mass because the ancients were tall, and thin

i just think it'd be funny if he took all his clothes off in front of wol and he's far less bulky than he first appeared and wol is sad... but at least he still has his huge tits and phat ass

[ominous-crow]

yeah my heart still belongs to one(1) japanese rock band

[thequackcity]

Quackity and Schlatt’s Relationship - More Complicated Then You Think

(this is all /rp and about the characters from the dream smp! pls assume i have the dignity not to write analysis of youtubers)

recently there was a bit of discourse surrounding the relationship between Quackity and Schlatt floating around on tumblr. tho i never saw the original post that sparked the conversation, i did see a few posts that were inspired by it mentioning how they disliked that the original post implied that Quackity and Schlatt were mutually abusive and/or equally bad for each other 

since i never saw the original post, i can't be sure if that's what the op meant to imply. it's not really my place to speak about a post that i never got the chance to read. BUT the conversation that was caused by the post in question did get me thinking about how this fandom treats the relationship between Quackity and Schlatt and how little nuance there is in discussions about it

now before i say anything else, i want to make a few things clear:

i don't think Quackity and Schlatt’s relationship is mutually abusive. no need to worry about hearing that from this post

i don't look down on ppl who have different interpretations of their relationship

there will be potentially triggering content in this analysis. i will place a quick warning whenever i think one is needed!

their relationship is romantic in canon and therefore i’ll be treating it as romantic

alright now that we’ve gotten all of that out of the way, we can finally get on with the analysis! i apologize for how long this is gonna be

part 1: let's talk relationship!

i think we can all agree that Quackity and Schlatt’s relationship was not exactly a healthy one. tho it didn't start out that way, it certainly turned into what could be read as abusive or toxic (i personally read their relationship as being abusive in its later half due to evidence provided by the text, but i understand if others prefer to view it as just toxic instead)

but what happened that led to their partnership ending so badly? what caused all of this mess?

well, it was a lot of things. but we will get to that later. let's talk relationship first!

from the very beginning, Quackity and Schlatt’s relationship was pretty one-sided. tho they both clearly liked each other as friends/partners in crime both before and after the election (yes they did interact before the election!) Quackity was also interested in Schlatt romantically- something that Schlatt wasn't fully committed to

as we all know from the infamous date stream and from a few other moments, Quackity and Schlatt enjoyed playfully flirting with each other- tho it was pretty obvious that Quackity was more serious about it then Schlatt was even tho Schlatt considered Quackity to be very attractive

in my opinion, Quackity is someone who wants a long term relationship, while Schlatt is more interested in flings. this can be seen in Schlatt refusing to marry Quackity and rejecting most of his advances while Quackity tried his best to convince him to feel otherwise. Tommy put it best: Quackity is just one of Schlatt’s many bitches U_U

to Quackity, the romantic aspect of their relationship was very important. because Schlatt never actually shot him down or told him that he didn't feel the same way, Quackity took that to mean that they were truly in love. Schlatt on the other hand wasn't very invested in the romantic side of things but clearly valued Quackity’s looks and his support as an ally against Pogtopia so he never fully rejected Quackity’s advances

this might not seem like too big of a deal considering the other things that happened between them, but i think it shows part of the nature of their relationship. there is a lot of miscommunication and, on Schlatt’s end, manipulation of emotions. love is a strong motivator for loyalty and Schlatt is a smart guy who would know how to use that to his advantage

but that isn't to say that Schlatt didn't ever care about Quackity!

Schlatt is a complicated guy and figuring out when he's actually being genuine can be pretty difficult. but i think there are some moments that point to Schlatt genuinely caring about Quackity

when he was alive, Schlatt was pretty paranoid. not as paranoid as Wilbur, but certainly up there. but there were never any times where he truly questioned Quackity’s loyalties after his first day as president. Schlatt also seemed truly upset that Quackity betrayed him, bringing up their status as partners in crime while ranting about how much it hurt him and singling Quackity out while talking about how he had been abandoned during his time of need

Schlatt also spent a lot of time sulking after Quackity betrayed him and whining to Ponk about needing a new bitch. this is in contrast to how angry he was after Tubbo betrayed him- both during and after the execution

there is also the situation with the Big Man Gym 

after being dead for a while, Schlatt contacted Quackity despite them leaving off on bad terms and asked for him to visit him in his cave gym. when Quackity showed up, Schlatt talked about how he valued their relationship and the good times they had together. tho this can easily be seen as emotional manipulation, Schlatt’s a lot smarter than he seems and- if he doesnt have memory issues due to being a ghost- would know that Quackity’s opinion of him was in the dump at the time of his death and most likely wouldn't have improved since then. Fundy has a higher opinion of Schlatt than Quackity does and is someone who obviously craves validation. but Schlatt went to Quackity first anyway and trusted him to help revive him

i think that this is all good evidence that points towards Schlatt truly caring about Quackity as much as someone like Schlatt can care about anyone- or at least valuing him as a companion

i also think that it is pretty common knowledge that Quackity cared about Schlatt- and possibly still does- but i will go over a bit of evidence that i haven’t already mentioned before we move on to the next part

Quackity tried multiple times to impress Schlatt (like when he lied about knowing how to play chess), would attempt to help Schlatt when he was drowning in water, sadly said that they could have had something together while Schlatt was dying in the caravan, and implied that he wouldn’t have left if Schlatt hadn’t taken down the white house. Quackity also willingly went to the Big Man Gym after being summoned there by Schlatt and wanted to revive him long before the revive book became part of the story

part 2: what made it fall apart?

everything i've said so far has been pretty interesting (hopefully) but it doesn't really answer the original question: what went wrong to turn Schlatt and Quackity’s mainly positive partnership sour?

well it comes down to two things in my opinion: their incompatible desires for political power and Schlatt’s deteriorating mental state

Quackity wanted political power from the beginning and wasn't afraid to be open about his desires. he pooled his votes with Schlatt because Schlatt offered him the position of vice president, something Wilbur and Tommy weren’t willing to give to him. tho Quackity obviously cared about L’Manburg and wanted to see good things for it, he also desired power and was willing to team up with someone he didn't fully agree with to get said power

at 32:40 in this video, Quackity talks about how in politics everyone uses everyone so it's alright if Schlatt is using him. he then talks about how he doesn't want to be a man with no power and how he understands that Schlatt’s main goal is also gaining/keeping power. Quackity also shows a bit of his naughty evil side by saying if he overthrows Schlatt then the fun ends too early! 

(side note: these two are pretty evenly matched in intelligence and manipulativeness, i love it!) 

it's a bit of a fandom misconception that Quackity was a love sick yes man during the Manburg era. tho Quackity did want to please Schlatt and was in love with him, he didn't shy away from standing up to or disagreeing with Schlatt when he believed it was needed

at around 26:12 of this video, Quackity and Schlatt meet together in private and Quackity tells Schlatt off for playing down his role in the power structure of Manburg. since this was very early in Schlatt’s reign, Quackity shows no fear towards him and confidently tells him not to treat him like that

Quackity also broke Niki out of jail after regretting letting her be put there in the first place, tried to convince Schlatt to not execute Tubbo, jumped in front of Fundy when Schlatt tried to attack him, tried to stop Schlatt from tearing down buildings, and attempted to protect the white house he built from being destroyed by Schlatt. these are not behaviors of a pure yes man but of someone who, despite fear, has the confidence to speak up for himself even when disrespected by someone in authority

Quackity has always been someone who wanted power and someone who was never a yes man to authority. this contradicts with how Schlatt believed Quackity should act as vice president. in Schlatt’s opinion, Quackity’s one job is to sit around looking pretty while Schlatt does all of the important things and holds all of the power. Schlatt was a big fan of promoting people to worthless positions of authority and its pretty obvious that he considered vice president to be similar to the fake positions he gave Fundy and Tubbo 

in the end, this was a big part of what destroyed their relationship. like it or not, Quackity’s a power hungry guy and always has been. he didn't like that Schlatt constantly shoved him aside and refused to listen to him

now onto the nasty bit...Schlatt’s mental state

cw for mentions of alcoholism, mental deterioration, and abusive behavior  

before i say anything more, i just want to say that i don't think having issues with alcoholism makes someone a bad person. i personally have some issues with such things so it would be pretty stupid of me to say being an alcoholic makes you a bad person. alcoholism does negatively affect your cognitive functions tho and, combined with other health issues, can cause some of the very serious mental problems that Schlatt clearly struggles with

throughout the Manburg era, Schlatt’s mental state rapidly deteriorated. he went from a pretty normal- if eccentric- guy who had a drinking problem, to someone who was delirious most of the time. it's a sharp and noticeable decline that caused a lot of pain for Quackity due to Schlatt often taking his excess aggression out on him by yelling at him and/or belittling him. tho Schlatt often belittled Quackity before he went fully off of the deep end, it was never as aggressive as it was when he was in this delirious state of mind

it was during one of Schlatt’s most aggressive and delirious moments that he tore down the white house despite Quackity’s protests. as we all know, this caused Quackity to snap and kill Schlatt (it's more complicated than that but we will get back to that). as mentioned previously, Quackity implied that he would have stayed with Schlatt if the white house hadn’t been destroyed

in my opinion, these two things combined are the biggest reasons why Quackity and Schlatt’s relationship fell apart. their differing desires for power were not compatible and Schlatt’s awful behavior while his mental state declined caused a rift between them that couldn't be fixed

part 3: how toxic was it really?

cw for emotional and physical abuse 

as i said all the way back in part one, Quackity and Schlatt’s relationship was not healthy. i have provided many examples in the other two parts that shine a light onto why it wasn't healthy, but i didn't show the entire picture

there are many moments that show exactly how Schlatt treated Quackity when he was acting at his worst and none of them are pretty. tho Schlatt was never truly aggressive with his insults until he started to go off of the deep end, that doesn't mean that what he said wasn't negatively affecting Quackity

Schlatt would belittle, insult, and mock Quackity for his appearance not being up to his standards, for his opinions, and for being emotional in ways that Schlatt disapproved of like crying. tho Schlatt would often brush off Quackity’s reactions towards this cruel behavior, it's very clear that Schlatt’s treatment of him has stuck with Quackity in many ways

Quackity is very sensitive about his appearance and it seems to be because of how badly Schlatt hurt his self esteem during their time together. Schlatt tied Quackity’s worth to his appearance and then would claim he wasn't meeting his standards of attractiveness. we can tell that this has stuck with Quackity because of his sensitivity towards people bringing up the scar on his face (something that greatly alters his physical appearance) and he still reacts very badly when Schlatt calls him the mocking nickname flatty patty

speaking of flatty patty- that stupid insult shockingly has a lot of weight in Quackity’s relationship with Schlatt. tho its something the audience is meant to laugh at, the nickname also shows just how little Schlatt respects Quackity because he's constantly throwing it around just to make Quackity upset. Schlatt’s last words are flatty patty all because he wanted to get in one last dig at his ex and ruin Quackity’s day even further 

Schlatt tends to do a lot of things that are intended to make Quackity upset. tearing down the room Quackity made for him in the white house is the biggest example of this- especially since Schlatt mentions how it will upset Quackity while he does it. you can see this moment at around 19:10 of this video

and now let's get into the elephant in the room when it comes to these two: Quackity was scared of Schlatt. tho we never really see Schlatt hit or attack Quackity physically outside of their confrontation at the white house or their confrontation in the caravan, these clips imply that Quackity was at the very least scared of Schlatt physically harming him in some way 

as for actually physically harming him, Schlatt hits Quackity multiple times with a pickaxe and with his fists during their white house fight. Quackity hits Schlatt a couple times too, tho these are all primarily defensive blows since he is trying to protect himself and his property. he also chases after Quackity with a bow after Quackity’s plan to trick him into signing Manburg over to the Pogtopians fails and hits him multiple times during the caravan confrontation

all of this evidence shows that Schlatt was an abusive (or at least toxic) partner towards Quackity and someone who greatly affected him in many ways

tho Quackity did a few questionable things throughout his relationship with Schlatt (such as trying to get Schlatt to have sex with him despite Schlatt not being interested as shown in the later half of this video) and did some downright morally wrong things during his time as vice president of Manburg, no one deserves the pain of an abusive relationship- even a person who has done bad things

as a brief side note before we move on because i know people will bring it up if i skip over it, Quackity did- and most likely still does- want to literally possess Glatt. he brought up reviving Schlatt and using him as a political pawn after Schlatt’s funeral and during their conversation at the Big Man Gym Quackity talked about owning Glatt and having him work at Las Nevadas with no pay

this is unsettling behavior to say the least but this essay isnt about the aftermath of their relationship so much as it is about their relationship when it was actually happening. maybe i will make another post talking more about how Quackity’s relationship with Schlatt affected him even after Schlatt’s death and/or about Quackity’s relationship with Glatt

part 4: final thoughts

i’m not exactly sure why the nuances in Schlatt and Quackity’s relationship get lost when it comes to the fandom, but it’s pretty disappointing to see. hopefully this essay can help people take a closer look at canon and maybe even help them find something interesting that they’d want to explore!

tho the point of this essay is to clear up any misconceptions and hopefully add some nuance to the conversations surrounding Schlatt and Quackity’s relationship, i also wrote it in hopes of showing people how fascinating these two partners in crime were back in the Manburg days. i didn’t cover everything but i think i did a pretty good job for my first analysis post in the dsmp fandom

also since you read to the end, i must say thank you! it really does means a lot to me that you did. i hope you enjoyed and maybe even learned something. this post can be used as a resource if anyone wants to use it as such

here’s a tiny devil Quackity for your troubles <3

[cheerstotheelites-if]

Group Chat

11. 🍍🍕?

*PapaWeylyn added WtfEliseo to the group

F.Heartstein: Oh gods. He's back.

WtfEliseo: happy to be back bitches 😘

F.Heartstein: Can someone kick him out again. Please.

PapaWeylyn: No we're not putting Eliseo in the timeout corner for another 3 weeks

F.Heartstein: Can't he be in the time out corner for the rest of the school year?

ZephGoWoosh: lmao we kind of need him Fleur

ZephGoWoosh: student treasurer remember?

F.Heartstein: He barely does anything. What do you mean, Zephyrine.

PapaWeylyn: Alright steering away that topic before things get heated again :'D

PapaWeylyn: Sooo pizza this week, right?

PapaWeylyn: Who's buying again?

WtfEliseo: I can buy twelve boxes

ZephGoWoosh: holy shit

ZephGoWoosh: Eliseo's finally contributing 😢😢😢

ZephGoWoosh: i'm so proud of you 😭😭😭😭😭😭

F.Heartstein: Don't buy twelve. We can barely even finish three.

WtfEliseo: it's because all of you are W E A K

WtfEliseo: Im disappointed 😞😞

WtfEliseo: especially at you fleur 😒😒

F.Heartstein: I told you that I'm not fond of pizza, you shithead.

WtfEliseo: but you still ate some tho

WtfEliseo: so you lying? 🤔🤔🤔

F.Heartstein: I only like manager's choice, so fuck you for buying two boxes of hawaiian pizza.

WtfEliseo: WHATS WRONG WITH HAWAIIAN THO???

ZephGoWoosh: bruh fr no one puts fruits on pizza

ZephGoWoosh: it makes the pizza taste weird 🤢🤢🤮

WtfEliseo: FUCK YOU, PINEAPPLE ON PIZZA IS THE SHIT THO 😩😩🤌🤌🤌

WtfEliseo: RUTHERFORD BACK ME UP HERE IM BEING CORNERED

PapaWeylyn: Please don't drag me into this Eliseo

PapaWeylyn: I may cook but I know what lines not to cross

PapaWeylyn: And that line is pizza flavors u_u

WtfEliseo: what the hell man

WtfEliseo: I thought you cared 🥺😢😢

PapaWeylyn: Oh I do don't worry!

PapaWeylyn: I just don't want to be get my butt kicked by uh Fleur and Zeph

WtfEliseo: WEYLYN YOU BASTARD

PapaWeylyn: IM SORRY!!! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

ZephGoWoosh: ffs can we just get one box of manager's choice and two bacon supremes?

F.Heartstein: Agreed. Anything but hawaiian.

WtfEliseo: fuck you both 😘🖕

ZephGoWoosh: awwww babe fuck you too!! 🥰🥰🖕🖕

F.Heartstein: Gods help us.

*Group chat ended

-> Author L personally has no hate against hawaiian pizza

-> Not the best out there, but its edible

-> You can fight them on that /j

[screamting]

U kno, with nao and sota I took Joshua's snobbishness in the opposite direction- where he's fully aware of how they challenge neku's preconceived notions and world view. Like "oh Neku you didn't expect them to say that did you? Arent you shallow neku. Aren't you shallow for thinking the valley girl-localized npc and her partner have nothing to say just because they're complete airheads. For shame. Lets see how this holds up."

I feel like if that were what was happening Joshua probably would've said it aloud. During the conversation he tries to isolate neku but instead nao and sit Instead, he drops talking about them as soon as they've left screen, and this bitch never shuts up, so I cant imagine he would've allowed them to move on if he were planning on needling neku instead of just like " well they were charming 🌝"

These bitches not on the same wavelength

of course, the play throughs I remember most clearly are later ones, when we know the game isn't just challenging Neku's established worldview, but also Josh's. If Josh already valued Nao and Sota's perspective-- that even the silly human emotions and desires matter even in the vapid hellscape, that people unlike him matter at all-- then we probably wouldn't be in the position of wiping them out in the first place.

You know what I tried to edit a sentence in the reply and got a more generous interpretation of Joshua here. But he is still.... A little snob. u_u

Best case interpretation is this:

Joshua took advantage of running into Nao and Sota, knowing if he exposed what Neku was going through they would reach out in affection. And he 'knew' that it would fail. Because Neku's heart was closed off to people, and Joshua didn't think that would ever change.

I still dont think Joshua understood what was going on with Neku internally during this scene, and if he did he completely failed to comment on it. Which is maybe just a Joshua thing: he's not going to change the role he's playing or break character as much as possible. Only occasionally does he ever pause and consider something Neku's said and say "that's out of character for you"-- even though we know it's not out of character anymore.

Loving and forgiving words have probably been used before on both of them and never made a dent. Joshua didn't expect these ones to either. Because he doesn't expect people to change, even under extreme circumstances. He wanted to destroy the game because he didn't think it changed anything. He thought Shibuya was stagnant.

And he absolutely didn't expect it to change because of Nao-Nao and Sota

[tetrimidion]

One Hellsite VS Another Hellsite

Hey all! So I finally finished making my blog. Thank you to those of you who have followed me from Twitter to here. I was never fond of tumblr, I've had only bad experiences with it in the past, but I really wanted to make a sort of "back up" social media platform in case I ever get booted from Twitter.

Since that's what almost happened.

Here's the story!

To the complete fault of myself, I didn't realize that if one Twitter account gets permanently banned, then the others do too.

The offending account gets its ban and 'instant deletion', while your others you get locked out of and 'marked for deletion' as I found out through trying to find a solution on reddit. Even if you manage to get on the 'innocent accounts', they will eventually get suspended as well. This could take anywhere from 6 months to a year to occur. But when it does, it will be without warning.

They do this by two ways: Any account associated with the phone number and IP of the banned one.

After my ban on the 'offending account' I tried to make a Google voice number to change on my art account, to which twitter wouldn't let me do.

So I appealed the ban on the offending account. What was the offending account? What did I get banned for? Well, I'm glad you didn't ask, because I'm about to share anyway.

The offending account was my Eric Cartman roleplay account. Now, I admit my tweets on there were pretty aggressive, as it is 'canon divergent' rp account where I play him as a yandere.

I have in my profile, in my pinned tweet, AND on my connected url page that it is a parody, rp account. That nothing on there is condoned or real. And, everyone who I was engaging with, were also other rp accounts. These are people I'm also friends with ooc on discord as well. So we were all consenting and just having a good time.

I was rping with another Cartman who basically said they had information that I (my Eric) would want. So what would I do?

My responding tweet was along the lines of doing something to them, and then dining on where those thoughts come from: Words I'm not going to retype, as I know tumblr is now a SFW site. But basically, imagine Hannibal Lector replying while on a kind of tab often given out at clubs.

That got me an instant permanent ban and account removal. I was then given a notice that that I'm forbidden from ever creating future accounts on Twitter as well.

Welp. FML. Because even though I barely had any followers on my art/Tetrimidion account, I still rather enjoyed engaging on it, and it was proving to be a good outlet for me to attain some attention and interest regarding getting future commissions. Because bitch is poor.

So, I sent in an appeal stating blah blah blah 'rp and I have it plastered everywhere that it is rp and not real.'

Several hours later, I got an email back saying that they relooked over my account and unbanned me.

So I had to delete any tweet on there that could be considered 'threatening' to those not familiar with rp if they read it.

That ended up being like, half my tweets lol

So that gave me quite the bit of the scare, and I don't want to risk that happening again, lets I get a Twitter BDSM master who isn't quite as forgiving as the previous one.

Then @romantheskeleton, was a blessing to me by bestowing an extra Twitter account they have. So now I'm going to be taking over said account to rp Cartman there…as the account is associated with a different IP and number (that isn't theirs anymore either)…but I will be MUCH more careful about how I word things such as …..participating in an activity that zombies are known for doing uwu

In anycase, I decided to create this tumblr now for a "back up" basically. Especially since it just came out that Twitter is also now banning people for retweeting between accounts! So if I drew some artwork on my rp account, and wanted to retweet it on my actual art account, that could get you an instant ban.

So yeah u_u

[laserbobcat]

Story time. I used to play pikmin ten years ago (I was 20). Lovely game, super fun. I don't remember how, probably searching for solutions or art, I found a story written in the POV of the lil guy the picmin help. It was written in such a harsh way, like some depressive crash survivor journal, and he was super mean to the pikmins. I didn't understand what the fuck did I just read and where it was coming from. It just made me so depressed. It actually made me so sad that I stopped playing picmin after cause I felt bad for the picmins. Cause I'm a lil bitch like that. I'm sorry if you wanted a plot twist or something, there's not. I'm just still salty about what I now know was a fanfiction, and being robbed of the joy of playing pikmins U_U

[homestuckexamination]

ok. so, these are all jokey but i think they're funny.

pages. bc their development hinges on the session so much, pages actually have unique outfits for each session when they godtier. they go from simple for basic sessions, to extremely extravagant for huge sessions. do not expect them to be able to do anything but float in it in 100 player sessions lol. we just see the basic one.

bards. that whole costume? fake. time messed up that one. no they just look like that stupid cock from the beginning of Disney's robin hood and i mean that in the nicest way possible.

princes look the same but if they're sad their pants deflate like clown shit.

maids either look like cat maids or butlers and it depends on how much respect they deserve.

mages get shitty wizard robes.

heirs get to do whatever with their clothes. they deserve it. they go through so so much.

sylphs just are. they don't get costumes unless they rly rly want them.

knights either look like actual knights or nexo knights. yes dave is the latter he loves it.

thieves look like audrey from wandersong or nothing. i don't make the rules.

witches just. whatever. same as heirs. they've been through enough my god.

rouges all look like candyland characters. any type and version but its gotta be canon.

seers. my faves. the best. they all look like white bitches with so many layers to their outfits. no options. they can cheat this by having many socks on or many accessories on tho

these are obviously all jokes but like. tell me im wrong. im not.

I like to think regardless of complexity or ease, the Page Outfit is still practically bottomless.

I am sorry to say, though, that the Bard's awful, awful outfit is a necessity. No one can escape the Codpiece. u_u

"Buenos Dias, Dirk!" *Pantaloon Deflating Noises*

C... Cat Maids? owo

Any robe is wizard robes if you're just majyyk enough. :)

TECHNICALLY speaking, everyone does through Alchemy!

Imagine awakening as a God and you don't even get cool PJs.

I had never heard of "Nexo Knights" before.

"Or nothing", even worse than the Sylph case-

Witches do deserve it.

Similarly, not familiar with Candyland. X3

Christ. X3

Just. Very silly, yes.

[heizerux]

IN NEW YORK YOU CAN BE A NEW— Hero :3

My ML NY Special review/thoughts

First things first, I love this whole intro sequence they had going for the special. Really takes me in for the ride that they’re going International. Anywhoosies, the following are majority of my thoughts as I chronologically had them as I watched the special.

Starting off: SPACE POWERS SPACE POWER SPACE POWERS :o

I know they’re just friends, but im just saying Chat, not everyone goes out of their way to research rose colors to give to their “friends” ;3

CONGRATS ON THE BABY MS. BUSTIER!!!!!!!! May we meet your baby in ANY of the next two seasons. :3

Sock Washington Adrien and Marinette’s growth :’3 I love the analogies for her good FRIEND she uses.

Nathalie in bed rest from the peacock miraculous low key makes me wonder if Emílie started there first before. . . Well, ending up out.

I LOVE that this is an ACTUAL post S3 film. Most special films are made with that “description” to be inserted in any season, but they always feel off with continuity in the main series. Here we carry on that that although Adrigami and Lukanette are in the steps of “building” towards something from S3. . . We see that Adrienette/Ladynoir is just . . . Not going away anytime soon :3

The Ladybug kitty beeper 🥺 I want one. Gimme

Plagg: See any supervillains around??

(Idk. Try below the house 😬)

I love to see Kagami. I see she’s supportive of Adrien and his feelings with toughness lol.

Not gonna lie I low key actually think it’s sweet that Luka is so supportive of Marinette in general? He’s such a secure and good guy. I really could never (I actually forgot about the salt and comments about how he’s bland while watching him in this minute he had lol) He wasn’t bad. He was just here.

Marinette lights up Adrien’s thoughts/problems and he doesn’t even know it lol Boy can go from “Oh no, Ladybug is gonna be so pissed” to “OMG Marinette is here :D”

In regards to Alya: I didn’t know NYC was a “romantic” city. I just thought it was “flashy” lol

The SUNSETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT VIEWEWWWW and the HUGHGGGGGGGGKVDXHHXHXEEEEEEEERRDUURUTXITCTICTCITUTXOCOHVURSUZIFDIEURJJUSDIFIAWEKVMMVVFJHSHTYETIFJCHgshjfjdufii—

Nino FINALLY said it 👁👄👁 “Adrien is a baby chick coming out of his shell”. He straight up called out his own bro on his absentness. . . #wokenino

Ok, Majestia’s badass. I like her in this a lot and she’s a MOTHERRERFVHDYSYHFJYSIRKG GC DFUKGJG—

Sorry. Better luck next year, Domacles 🥺

“IN NEW YORK YOU CAN BE A NEW MAN!!!”

Alya’s pointing XD . . . Annnnd Adrien missing the sign U_U

“The croissants are en route” BITCH I—

But Adrien, dear, PLEASE catch a hint :’3

No, Chloe! Don’t throw the mini Lafayette D:

I LOVE the new girls, Jess and Aeon so much

💕Sabrina x American Boy💕 that’s all. This matters to me

Kim found a buff friend to do buff things with🥺

We need a Hot Dog Dave in our real lives. A hero that brings free food. Hmmmm

Flying Adrienette . . . Dancing, together 🥺 UGH THEYRE SO IN LOVEEEEEEEE

Marinette AND Adrien’s Worst Continous ENEMY: Automatic Doors still

I’m trying SO HARD not to make anymore Hamilton references in this special 👁👄👁

American villains have the “common sense” Hawkmoth lacks. Technopirate:“Why do you want jewels? Don’t you want a bomb? No? Umm, okay?”

Chat Noir blowing his cover because Marichat!!!!!! Not gonna lie I found myself yelling a lot in excitement

. . . And THEN I found myself crying because seeing Ladybug being ACTUALLY LEVEL 9,000 mad at Chat Noir made my heart hurt. Ladybug chill 🥺

Lafayette was an American miraculous holder!!! 👁👄👁

These entire scenes. . . I don’t EVER wanna see them like hurt this again.

Oh yeah, Hawkmoth does stuff. The girls work to seek LB and CN as all adult heroes are going mad.

And the reunion 💕💕💕💕💕🥺🥺🥺💕💕

I just really love to see that even though they’re both “moved on” from their “love”, they keep coming back to and caring for each other. . . Those fist bumps are now equal to passionate Ladynoir kisses to me 🥺

LOOK AT THE AMERICAN HOLDER!!!!!!! I didn’t see this coming at alll and I’m fucking PLEASED with what we got. A Native American girl being a holder. *chefs kiss* I’m so freaking happy guys.

(Rip Paris but NY has bigger problems lol)

Omg Justicia and Knight Owl are together💕 I’m pretty sure that’s canon if you catch my drift 👀

Kind of an afterthought but I was a bit surprised to see the space powers shown kind of secondhand in this. I still hope to se them more in action within the show. Chat’s space costume looks gorgeous mimicking a night sky.

This special brought loves square fluff, hurt, super gays, more people of color, good insight on what the US is doing with their heroes, and a posible birth of more American holders? This isn’t even past the tip of the iceberg but this episode brought good stuff!!!!

10/10!!!!

[theundecider]

ok i’m gonna try and figure out which of my non-tma muses would be aligned with/maligned by which entity, or if they’re just normal or idk in which case i won’t mention them

ashley - THE EYE she is so eye-aligned curious as hell and she can DIE from it so very EYE

anjali - the end <3 life-and-death powers and all that.

brizo - maybe maligned by the lonely u_u possibly even aligned with it. :c

chyna - i can see chyna Maybe being touched by the eye but ehhh

cillian - the slaughter-aligned, methinks, if there was more musical motifs in his backstory. desolation-marked, tho, i think

clarence | claire - hmmmm possibly maligned by desolation? in that he’s a clone and u kno life’s already over before potential can be reached and also the possibility of suffering loss + cruelty at the hands of other people (especially fearful over losing david + emily)

david kastle - same as clarence, equally fearful over possibly losing clarence + emily

david hoover - kinda wanna say maligned the spiral just based on him like. going to different locations within his game. not too settled on it but it’s An Idea. a loose one, tho.

david warshawsky - the hunt >:( cereal kyller

damien - the hunt also </3 this is part of one of his verses/aus anyway

dexter - Also The Hunt. wouldja lookitthat. :|

echo - the end. :C

edward - quite possibly maligned by the spiral + the web, methinks. i may have to rewatch the playthru

ethan - get icked on by the corruption and the flesh </3

gorou - i really wanna say stranger-aligned for his illusionist sidegig thing pre-zanara, and possibly for all his... stuff afterwards. eh, maybe

holly - probably targeted by the buried if i’m honest, with fear of losing people but not necessarily in a way that “invites” the desolation.

honey - absolutely been targeted by the desolation, i think, even if rockdove wasn’t in her business :(

jason - i said he’d be hunt-aligned before, and i think i stand by that, with him coming into it during his time spent in jacob’s hands, and being reinforced by the idea that he Wants To Do The Right Thing, and it ending up tipping into self-righteous stuff

jemima - slaughter-aligned bitch lol! no but really she has all that potent anger, does have the capability for violence, and she’s not As honed in on the Righteous element like the Hunt, it’s less Hunting Prey and more Fighting The Enemy iygwim

kiyoko - ya girl’s a tough one to figure out but i think... maybe an avatar of the dark. “i don’t wanna know <3” type of bitch u kno. very flimsy idea but still.

lucy - hmm. could be a victim of both the lonely + the web.

mark - see i wanna say the slaughter Again but i suppose it could also be the hunt. like tracking down the dude who left he + his mother destitute, but also with the. plot being based off the song. lmao

mary - end. she can see ghosts <3

mischa - FLESH LOL depending on which verse i guess

naoko - the end bc i say she’s (basically, functionally) immortal ^_^

the narrator - stranger. literally multiple people(?)

peril - the flesh again

sarah - maligned by the stranger Can You See It.

salome - marked by the end, avatar of the hunt (which really puts a dampener on the whole EX-cereal kyller thing lol)

sharon - oogh i may need to re-read a post about PIM but... possibly the flesh?

steven - marked by end </3

veronica - ol’ bitch part of the hunt. she’s very self-righteous

western - one of them vampires :)

teddy - VAST, maybe, maybe vast-aligned, definitely maligned by the desolation tho oof

zoe - also Icked by corruption + flesh

bonus Eventual Muses

mia - both aligned with + maligned by corruption + flesh, especially with like. My Ideas For Protag Mia.

deirdre - aligned with the hunt. she has a alotta issues in her regular verses that i still need to figure out but they would lead her to the hunt rather than the slaughter.

milicent - maligned by the eye, but also possibly a bit aligned with it? and DEFINITELY maligned by the web for [REDACTED] reasons, and possibly a smidge of flesh + corruption for the same [REDACTED] reasons.

ivy - marked by the desolation, increasingly so after the death of each family member eek

bronte - SLAUGHTER + HUNT. BITCH? POSSILY ALSO A DESOLATION AVATAR...

carol-anne - maligned by the web bc of the witch </3

[ash-etherwood]

Top 5: writing memories, songs, characters that are not blank rune, runes, food

♡

Linda I love you but are you trying to kill me … that’s so many Top 5’s! But alright, I’ll do my best! (Answers will probably switch between German and English RIP to every non-German-speaker who follows me and wants to read this for some reason I swear I’m normal)

WRITING MEMORIES

5.) The entire time I spent finishing my first (second?) longer writing project It was the year 2012 and it was a cyberpunk story about my friends’ and my edgy self inserts riding dinosaurs, fighting aliens and being badass. The plot twist in the end was that my character was secretly evil and wanted to kill everyone. (Things to show your therapist) The final boss fight made zero sense and also everything was incredibly weird and stupid. But sometimes I still think about those times when I sat in my grandma’s living room at night, eating chips and listening to Vocaloid covers while thinking this story was the coolest shit ever. Truly simpler times.

4.) Researching something about universities in Texas for OvF on a rainy Saturday afternoon I have no idea why this memory is still sticking with me to this day (I think it was around 2016 or something?), but I remember that it was just a really nice day and I felt really at peace at that moment?

3.) The entire writing process of Bathroom Blues It was such a spontaneous project and I still have no idea how I managed to power though it in just a little under two months! Also it was just incredibly fun seeing you getting excited over new drafts and I loved coming up with new plot points and Halloween costumes for everyone with you. :-D Truly a summer worth remembering.

2.) FINALLY uploading the prologue and intro chapter of WWBL Not really a writing memory, but that moment was … so sexy and magical. Seriously, you have no idea how long I had been waiting to finally start that story, waiting for the Steckbriefe to roll in and see people react to the prologue and generally the idea … I even made one of those countdown graphic thingies for the designated upload date! 8D At that point I had planned that story for about six months and just … yeah, that felt powerful to me.

1.) Writing the prologue for WWBL When I first started the draft for that prologue I was sitting at the window in my favourite hotel in Winterberg, Sauerland, wore my dark green flannel, had the window wide open breathing in the cool mountain air and allowed myself to listen to my WWBL playlist for the very first time. God, that felt so amazing. I even have a photo of it (which somehow makes it look like I have the biggest football shoulders in the universe) my sister took that night. God I miss Sauerland. )’:

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SONGS

My apologies to every favourite song of mine that I forgot about, I have a whole playlist of them, but I think these are some of my oldest faves … (Honorable mentions for Don’t Mess With Me and Not That Big by Temposhark, Goodbye by Apparat, Me And The Devil by Soap&Skin, Heart Heart Head by Meg Myers, Pain and Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace, Beautiful Crime by Tamer, Gravity Of Love by Enigma, In Flames by Digital Daggers [thanks Phi u_u] and Murder Cries by Snow Ghosts AHHH FUCK IT I could’ve just made a playlist,,,)

5.) Vater Unser by E Nomine Starting off with some weird shit, won’t we? I’ve been in love with this song since fifth or sixth grade, when I was just starting to develop an actual music taste and although I have many favourite songs by E Nomine, this one has to be my absolute fave. Every time I can relate it to a character it makes me love said character even more. (Also I think about it every time my mom forces me to go to church for Christmas so … yay? I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t even be able to remember the Vater Unser if it wasn’t for this song. 8D)

4.) Wires by The Neighbourhood I think this is the newest all-time fave on this list, I found it in … 2015? Thank you, Youtube AMVs. Yeah man, this one is just … on so many playlists it’s not even funny anymore.

3.) Heathens by Twenty One Pilots An edgelord classic but like … it’s on EVERY playlist of mine. Every single one. It’s just so good. The first time I heard it was on the radio tho, when I was having breakfast with Jessie and I forced her to shazam it because it immediately stuck with me,,,

2.) Imaginary by Evanescence My first Evanescence song ever and the first step towards becoming who I am today I think. This song has like … such a big history for me, man. It single-handedly turned me goth in 2008 and I have never really thanked it for that.

1.) Eternal by Evanescence Might be my favourite song of all time. The number of dramatic RP scenes I have written with this in the background … man. Oh, also this song is the reason for one of my oldest internet nicknames, ‘eternala’, which subsequently shortened into Etschuh and then Tschuh, my main nickname until 2017, when I came out as trans and finally found an actual name for myself I was comfortable with!

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NON BLANK RUNE CHARACTERS

I know this was probably supposed to be about fandom characters but I can literally not come up with a single character right now that I love with a special burning passion and that is not my or one of my friends’ OCs so you’re getting OCs now. u_u And boy do I have a lot of those.

5.) Jackson Tracey from atroCITY (mine) This little piece of shit kept me company for a pretty long time and is still very close to my heart for some reason, although I haven’t drawn him or really thought about him in detail for a while now. My favourite thing is how I only realized what a horrible person he was after I stopped regularly working with him but honestly good for me. 8D His storyline and personality is kinda convoluted and tbh I’m not really sure how much of it is canon anyway (atrc was always a little weird about canon rip) but yeah. He’s an obsessive stalker piece of shit who pities himself way too much and he is also a semi-immortal demigod who likes knives. I hate him but he also helped me a lot with some gender and sexuality stuff so thanks I guess.

4.) Mayoko Imai from Century Riders DXPrototype (Maus’ and mine) Mayoko is a magical girl protagonist with a cool cyborg arm prosthetic and her main character trait was that she was basically a reverse weeaboo, a Japanese girl who was obsessed with American media, culture and comic book heroes! I actually love her concept a lot and she also had a pretty cool character arc in her story (which Maus and I wrote together and actually finished btw!), although it could use a lot more … polishing from today’s point of view. But I love her anyway. She always wanted to do the right thing and be a hero and got broken pretty cruelly and her ending is kinda bittersweet I guess? Ahh there’s just so much nuance to it … anyways, CR3 also stuck with me for a very long time and I enjoyed the time with her a lot. :3 (Her name had a cameo in Another Incident btw heehee)

3.) Tessa *insert extremely long chain of unnecessary first names here* von Lean from Nobody Is Perfect and Infernal Temptation (belongs to one of my old school friends) Tessa is just … a hand full. I love to hate her. She is badly written and developed and just OOZES mentally ill teenage girl’s idealized self-insert power fantasy, but she just … man, she was a big part of one of my most drama-filled high school friendships which I love looking back at so much. Tessa has fucked so many of my characters … good for her tbh! There are actually two versions of her, one is just a ‘normal’ teenage girl and one can shapeshift into a cheetah, but both of them are very close to my heart. I should really adopt and redesign her some day.

2.) Judy Khayat from Original vs. Final (mine) Look, I love all my OvF-characters and every single one of them is special to me in their own way, but Judy is just … the most complex of them all I think? Man, she went through so much … she is actually one of my oldest (semi)-active characters (I created her in 2009) and her latest version is from 2016 but I should really, REALLY revise her again tbh. She has a very complicated backstory that I didn’t handle as carefully as I should have, and anger issues and religious conflict and depression and PTSD and then Vance of all people becomes obsessed with her for no reason and decides to traumatize her even more … yeah. God I really love her but I seriously need to work on her. A LOT. I should also finally rename her tbh … let’s just see where she takes me next.

1.) Okami (I don’t even remember if she has a proper last name rn lol) from Split Realm (mine) Yeah, that bitch is just my favourite OC. She’s also very old, probably from around 2009, and initially was a magical girl with fire powers who I played in an RP with my friend Flauch but boy did she grow up! Holy fuck. Okami is a horrible person but I love her so much. She is so violent and full of anger and pain and sadness and treats everyone around her like shit and she is in love and she is a demon but also apparently the personification of the concept of Chaos but she just wants to be a teenager again and run away with the love of her life and ahhh it’s all so hopeless for her … also she turned out gnc af with time passing and pretty much went through a gender/sexuality crisis in real time with me, her creator, which is always fun. :^D I haven’t drawn her in a while tbh. Should really do that.

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RUNES IN BLANK RUNE

I’m just gonna go with the arcs here, okay? Also this entire answer might look completely different if you asked me again tomorrow, you know how indecisive I am with Blank Rune shit ahha,,,

5.) Jera Look. I know I’m boring and stupid. But I just love Tave and Liam having their disgusting little foreshadowing talk, okay? I can read it over and over. I just love my horrible little shit crime boys. Also Rhy and Phillip are there. (’:

4.) Isa This one is here because it was the first arc I witnessed in real time which gives it a very special place in my heart and it also … hit pretty hard at the time. But having read Fehu it’s become even better now! It’s just such a wonderful, tragic romance between two horrible, ruthless boys and I … I’m not immune to Rhy, sadly. :-/ Just like Phillip.

3.) Wunjo We still haven’t seen everything that leads up to Wunjo yet, but we DO know more than we did initially (wow shocker) and it’s just always a fucking blast. Also, it has the first mention of Ash’s real name … the first Rhy POV (which what the fuck!! I always feel like we had one before but we didn’t!! Wild) and it has crazy blood-soaked murder Tave, my beloved. :///3

2.) Eiwaz You guys have heard me fanboy about Eiwaz so many times already. Eiwaz-OT3 (and Kain) my beloved!!! It’s just SUCH an amazing starting point and there are so, so many things that tie back to it and every time we find out about a new one my heart makes a little jump … und es beginnt von Neuem indeed.

1.) Gebo One of the most painful but also the most beautiful arcs yet in my opinion. It’s been hyped up for so long and boy did it deliver. God, my heart still hurts when I think about that last scene. Also all the dialogue … the golden lines we got … and it’s an arc without Rhy! Crazy!! :-D I just love the relationship between Ash, Astrid and Jakob so much. God fuck I want what they have. Just maybe without the murder suicide,,,

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FOOD

5.) Diese Sonntagsbrötchen wo die Verpackung so plopp macht, wenn man die Folie abzieht Better than normale Brötchen for some reason. Most of the time. See 2.) Look man, I just really love a good breakfast …

4.) Chocolate cupcakes with cream cheese topping One of the first things from a certain baking book I tried when I was getting into baking back in 2019. God they are so tasty. I don’t make them often so I don’t get used to them too much and eating them still feels special but ahhhh I love them so much!

3.) Grünkohl mit Kartoffelbrei und Mettendchen One of my favourite things about autumn/winter and one of my biggest comfort foods. God I love this shit so much. I just put … mountains of Grünkohl and Kartoffelbrei on my plate every time and I will just warm it up for four days straight until there’s no more left. It turns me into a fucking caveman. I’m not even big on eating meat but … yeah. Everything is different when there’s Grünkohl.

2.) Normales Brötchen mit Butter und Scheibenkäse aber ich bin beim Frühstücksbuffet im Hotel Oddly specific but that’s just how it is. Sorry. Nichts geht über Brötchen mit Käse.

1.) Chilli-Knoblauch-Nudelauflauf My beloved. My comfort food. I eat it literally every second day. At least one hour in the kitchen every time. Fresh ingredients. My only vegetable intake. And I’ve been doing that for three years. I just love it so much, man. I cook it for everyone who visits me. Chilli-Knoblauch-Auflauf cured my depression.