#but i just feel so angry and ashamed and rn i just want to disappear
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itâs scary to see how my bpd affects my cognitive
#no but srsly#the spliting thing is what scares me the most#rn i have a friend who hasnât replied me for three days#but theyâre active on ig and tiktok and let me tell you#i am SO ready to never message them again#it actually gets even worse now that iâm aware of it#my rational thoughts are in constant battle with my bpd thoughts#like i know that if i never message them again iâll be sad and lonely#but i just feel so angry and ashamed and rn i just want to disappear#ugh splitting* i hate tumblr tags#like just what the fuck do you think youâre doing going out with ppl and posting on ig#but not replying to me. is there something wrong with me do you hate me do you wanna quit being friends#and itâs really confusing cause theyâre always saying how much i mean to them and how they think iâm the only person who can understand them#things like this always trigger my fear of abandonment#no really i just want to disappear
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hiii can i request tsumu, kenma, oikawa, and kuroo where theyâre in a secret relationship and the reader feels like theyâre hiding her bc theyâre ashamed of her ? like a hurt too comfort type of thing? thank u bb đ„șđ„ș
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secret relationships w/ atsumu, kenma, oikawa, and kuroo
a/n: i have so many angst requests,, yall must like getting hurt đ also this wasnât as angsty as i thought it was gonna be since im going through writers block yet again and i can not handle pain rn (also not proofread, so read with caution lmao)
â m. atsumu
it honestly surprised you at first, the way someone like miya atsumu returning your feelings the moment you told him you liked him near the start of the school year
there wasnât that instant gratification though, knowing that one of inarizakiâs golden boys still felt out of your reach
despite being in a relationship with you, it wasnât like anyone knew of it besides osamu and your closest friend
of course you didnât really mind as youâve always thought couples who were obnoxious with their relationships 24/7 and constantly making out in the hallways wasnât your cup of tea either, so you get why atsumu wanted to keep it a secret
besides, with a guy so popular like him, you really just thought he was sparing you from the harassment (not that it would be bad if all the girls crushing on him new)
you get that he was just trying to protect you, and yet the more you thought of it, the more than it was simply just an assumption and you really didnât know why your relationship was kept secret
it wasnât like either of you would get backlash in any way, so what was the problem?
you werenât exactly the type to be the most insecure either
sure, you were aware of the flaws you had, but it wasnât something you were ashamed of as you learned to get used to it
yet itâs hard to fully love yourself when your boyfriend isnât even comfortable with the fact that no one knows you two are even together
you hated jumping to conclusions, but you couldnât help but to think the worst case scenarioâwas he ashamed of being with you?
you honestly thought the idea was impossible
if he was seriously ashamed of the thought of being with you in public, why would he even waste all those months dating? were all those dates and nights sneaking out to see each other for nothing?
it was like this for weeks with the way your own thoughts sabotaged you as you stood next to him during lunch
in moments like this in school, surrounded by your classmates and acquaintances, you and atsumu were only friends who sat next to each other occasionally and shared conversations that only friends would have
only friends
god, you hated the way that atsumu wouldnât even look at you the way that he would when you two are alone
was he that embarrassed to be with you?
you didnât want six months of all your hard work and effort of making time to be with him for nothing,, you had to do something about it
everyday, you, atsumu, and osamu would walk to school together with osamu typically walking ahead of you and your boyfriend
most couples would hold hands as they walked together, but atsumu had made it explicitly clear as the closer they get to school the farther they had to be from each other to avoid suspicions
thinking of it now, it sounded wrong to begin with and you had no idea why you even agreed to do such a thing
the school was close, maybe a block away and instead of slowing down your pace to create a gap between you and atsumu, you stubbornly stayed next to him to which he flickered you a weird look
he shrugged it off but the moment you two passed the gates and into campus, you slipped your hand into his
without missing a single beat atsumu immediately pulled his hand away from you with a look on his face that held all the questions running through his head at that very moment
âwhat are you doing?â he asks, almost in a harsh whisper
a frown melted upon your expression at how quickly he pulled away, almost as if he was disgusted by you. âi um, didnât know you hated the thought of people seeing us together so badly.â
you didnât know where all your strength went as it disappeared the moment you needed it the most
yet as you were about to walk away, atsumu tugs at your wrist lightly and pulls you into his embraceâhis warmth and comforting scent of chamomile from saved you from the embarrassment that was tainting your cheeks red
âno, no itâs not that,â he mutters, lips tickling your forehead. âi just wanted to keep you to myself a bit longer.â
â k. kenma
you honestly werenât surprised at the fact that kenma wanted this relationship to be kept secret
he never seemed like the type to be in a relationship let alone get the attention of being in one in the first place, yet it irked you to the core
it was fine at first; acting like you two were just friends while at school or at volleyball practice and it wasnât at all weird or out of the ordinary
maybe thatâs why you were okay with it in the first few months of your relationship with kenma as you were always near him the majority of the time
yet you constantly had to fight the urge to not be so touchy with him from wanting to hold his hand to leaning your head onto his shoulderâyou often had to stop yourself especially in front of your friends and his teammates
you were good at keep secrets, but it was absolute hell not being able to even tell kuroo considering you always hung out with him too (it was a given obviously but you digress)
kuroo is a bit curious in his closest friendâs antics so his constant teases of how you and kenma would be such a cute couple annoyed you to your core
he laughs as if you and kenma being together would be absolutely impossible and wouldnât happen in a million years, and yet here you two were, pretending to laugh at his jokes and agreeing and it would be, in fact, impossible
as mentioned before, youâre more annoyed at keeping your relationship secret rather than angry
your actions were more abrupt and cold rather than your usual warm self and kenma definitely noticed
despite his usual calm and collected expression that he has on a daily basis, it covered up his own emotions of blatant insecurity and worry that you were losing your feelings and losing them quick
the last thing kenma wanted was for everything that happened between the two of you to be wasted over his own fear of being judged for being with you
you were his first in everything and he certainly wasnât going to let you become his first heartbreak either
he worried about this for a few days, overthinking while he played video games with kuroo, lev, and yaku that they noticed how quiet he was being over the call
it was then did he impulsively asked kuroo to go on a separate voice channel with him just so he could blurt out, âiâm dating (y/n).â
and to his surprise, all his best friend said was:Â âyeah, i know. (y/n) told me.â
âwhat? why?â kenma asked with confusion evident on his visage
âshe had no one else to go to vent.â kuroo answers, his amused laugh echoing through kenmaâs headphones. âdonât worry, i wonât tell anyone.â
âthanks, but... i think (y/n)âs angry at me and i donât know what to do.â
âshe told me that she was getting tired of keeping your relationship a secret. she asked me if you felt embarrassed or even ashamed of being with her.â he explained.
confusion and a bit of worry washed over kenma as his words suddenly faltered, âi could never be ashamed of being with her,â
âthen i guess, you should tell her that.â
âwhat should i do?â
his best friend lets on a smirk (not that kenma could even see it, anyway), âiâm so glad you asked.â
you werenât exactly sure what you expecting to be honest
you knew there was something going on between kenma and kuroo as if they were planning something intricate, but you werenât bothered to even ask
perhaps you were still in that petty mindset of giving kenma the cold shoulder after having to keep your relationship on hold all the time that stopped your curiosity
sure, it was a bit childish, but you were planning on talking about it with kenma the moment he came back into the classroom after going off somewhere with kuroo
which by the way, where the hell were they? lunch was ending soon and you needed to talk to you boyfriend asap
the timing was almost perfect the way the thought of him entered your mind was at the same time as his familiar blonde hair walked back into the classroom with a melon bun and a canned drink in his hand from the vending machineâyour favorites
âi noticed you didnât eat lunch, so i bought you this.â he says, placing them down onto your desk.
âis this supposed to be your way of apologizing to me or something?â you mused at him.
there was a faint smile on kenmaâs face when you did. this was your usual self, one that constantly smiled at him rather than deadpanned and cold. âno,â he simple put it. taking in a breath of confidence before pressing his lips on the corner of yours. âbut i was hoping that would.â
with wide eyes, your eyes scanned the room to see if anyone noticed, afraid at the fact that you broke the first rule. despite being a blushing mess from a minuscule peck on your cheek, there was an inkling of confusion still evident within you, âwhy did you do that?â
âkuroo told me everything.â
âi knew that guy couldnât keep a secret,â you mutter as you tried to ignore that infamous feeling of butterflies in the pit of your stomach. âi donât think people saw, so they wonât think weâre togetherââ
âwhat if i wanted people to know weâre together?â ded asf
â o. tooru
you honestly shouldâve known oikawa was going to keep this relationship between the two of you a secret since the moment he confessed his feelings to you
what else could you have expected from aoba johsaiâs most popular boy wonder with an actual fanclub full of naive girls
perhaps youâve become naive yourself considering you dealt with months of having your relationship constantly being swept under the rug, psyching yourself out that he was doing this for your sake
and you understood that
it was the reason why you even agreed to keep your relationship on the downlow considering how annoyingly notorious oikawaâs fangirls were, they wouldnât have let you see the light of day if they were to find out
if you were in fact being honest, there was a period in time near the beginning of the relationship how cautious you were beingâbarely talking to oikawa unless it had to do with school, avoiding his gazes during class, and even swallowing your pride by just watching his fangirls flirt with him and there was nothing you could do about it
you honestly had to give yourself a pat on the bat for dealing with six months of this treatment
you figured it wouldnât be that bad, especially after schools where you and oikawa could finally have alone time to yourselves, but even those times alone with him there was a lingering feeling of tension and unease
the thought of someone from school even finding out of you two being together even affected your relationship outside of school hours
you were tired of waiting outside the school gates for hours just for him to come out of volleyball practice and apologize that he couldnât walk you home yet again
you figured that oikawa had grown far to used to seeing you waiting for him all the time that it was practically common sense that he was going to reject you again and again
you had to stop waiting for him at some point, but there was an inkling inside that for once, just for once, he would look at you with a smile so sweet that he would finally go with you
but not once has it happened
was he really that afraid of people finding out of his relationship with you that heâs willing to disregard all your hard work to even make this thing (whatever is was) to even happen?
if you were truly being honest with yourself, the only reason why this relationship is still up and active for this long is all because of you
youâre the one always asking him when heâs available during the weekends so you two could finally see each other, youâre the one always texting him first, youâre the one always being the most understanding of the situation
and yet itâs almost like oikawa isnât even batting an eye at how difficult it has been for you
you absolutely hated jumping to conclusions and thinking of the worst case scenario and yet here you were, suddenly drowning at the possibility that the only reason why oikawa wanted a secret relationship was because he was ashamed to be with you
it was a thought that kept you up at night, tainting your optimistic thoughts of hope that this relationship would actually work out to decimate into thin air
the more is simmered in your head, the worse it becameâwhat if his feelings that he confessed to you was a lie?
you hated overthinking
but if you really thought about it, even before you and oikawa dated, neither of you two were close. just two acquaintances in the same class that occasionally shared answers with each other just by the convenience of sitting nearby
you even went as far as believing that him dating you was just a joke, that this whole goddamn relationship was just some mindless prank just because he was bored
six months of wasted time. you were over it
the next day at school, you didnât even look at him, you didnât smile or even acknowledge the way he said good morning to you (as a friend does)
you figured heâs probably too dense to even notice, but he did. the usual glow you had each morning when you said good morning back to him was gone
he already missed the way your gazes would meet and how he would constantly find himself lost in your irises, but now you couldnât even look at him in the eye
the only person whoâs aware that you and oikawa were dating was iwaizumi. it was a given as who else would oikawa ramble on and on and on about how pretty you looked or how smart you are if it wasnât his best friend?
if anything, iwa was the only guy oikawa could complain about how you were ignoring him
âmaybe sheâs bored of you for once,â iwaizumi cuts straight to the point. there was really no point in beating around the bush
offense was written all over oikawaâs face, utterly surprised, âhow could she?â
âyou canât keep your relationship with her a secret forever, you know.â his best friend goes on to explain, âwith the way things are going with you two acting like youâre nothing but acquaintances, (y/n)âs bound to lose her feelings.â
âbut i donât want her to lose feelings for me! and itâs not like i can suddenly tell all my fangirls that iâm dating someone, theyâll freak!â whines oikawa.
âwhy do you care about your fangirlsâ feelings more than your own girlfriend? seems to me, it doesnât even look like you care about (y/n) at all the way sheâs constantly waiting for you after practice only to be rejected.â
itâs obvious iwaizumi wasnât here to sugarcoat
âi just donât want them to harass (y/n)...â oikawa reasons, trying to ignore the way his heart drop at iwaâs words like a gripping poison
âthen thatâs your job to tell those girls to back off.â he suggests, âthey literally treat you like a god, surely theyâll listen if you tell them to leave her alone.â
the following day, you came across oikawa waiting outside your door, dressed in his uniform with his gaze lingering about to occupying his attention
âwhat are you doing here?â you ask him as you close your front door behind you. heâs probably here to break up with you, you thought to yourself
you had to force yourself to ignore the way your heart dropped at your own self-destructive thoughts
taking a deep breath as you approached him, you readied yourself for harsh news to come your way
but it never did
instead, you were greeted by oikawaâs infamous smile that made everyone at school to fall in love with this guy (including you)
he takes your hand into his, intertwining his calloused fingers that dwarfed yours in size. you donât remember the last time you held oikawaâs hand, but it felt so familiar and warm
it was like home
you couldnât help but feeling the ends of your lips tugging into a smile as you looked up at him, âwhat if someone at school sees us?â
you were expecting some kind of excuse, but all he did was shrug. âwho cares?â
â k. tetsurou
when you and kuroo started going out, you certainly wasnât expecting it to be like this
if anything, âgoing outâ would be a stretch if you count late night dates and sneaking out at midnight just to see each other as dating
it certainly wasnât your usual definition of dating either as you yearned greatly to be able to do normal couple things with your boyfriendâlike actually going out on dates during the day, eating lunch together, hell, even just holding hands!
it almost seemed laughable how normal things done in relationships were something you never even experienced with kuroo even after a few months of being together all due to him wanting to keep the relationship a secret
and if you were truly being honest with yourself, you never really understood why he wanted to keep it on the downlow in the first place
you never really questioned it as you just that much of an understanding person, but at a certain point it just wasnât adding up
it wasnât like he had girls going after him 24/7 despite being at the top of his class, popular, and nekomaâs volleyball captain
it wasnât like oikawa who had an actual problem with hoards of girls surrounding him and tracking his ever move, so what was the big deal of letting your relationship public?
it was then did it hit you
the suddenly downpour of insecurity within your own loving boyfriend that you trust so much was getting the best of you
âwhat if heâs embarrassed to even be with me?â you contemplated in a harsh whisper to your best friend
it was in the middle of lunch and you two were sitting alone on a bench in the schoolâs courtyard chatting while eatingâwell, more like overthinking in your case while you friend just sat there and nodded
âif he actually felt that way, then he wouldâve broken up with you already.â your friend stated in between bites, âbesides, if i didnât have feelings for someone, i wouldnât put in the effort to sneak out just to see them.â
you hummed, not sure what to say as she did have a point
but could you really blame yourself for wanting an actual relationship rather than one thatâs forced to go unnoticed?
âi should talk to kuroo about it...â you sigh out.
âtalk to me about what?â an oh-so-familiar voice calls out to you and your friend
kurooâs figure approaches the two of you as he give you a curt smile with hidden meanings that you werenât able to even notice. you were too caught up in your own meddling thoughts that you also didnât notice the way kuroo frowned slightly at the way you avoided eye contact with him
ânothing,â was all you said before standing up and throwing your trash away. âlunch is almost over so we should all get to class.â was all you said before briskly walking away
kurooâs brows furrow in confusion as he looks over to your friend, âwhatâs up with (y/n)?â
âshe thinks youâre too embarrassed to be with her, thatâs why you hide your relationship.â she cuts straight to the point (homegirl just wants to eat her lunch in peace ffs)
âwhat?â your boyfriend huffs out in shock, almost offended at the fact that you out of all people would believe such a thing. âwhy does she think that?â
your friends shrugs, ânot sure. thatâs something you should be asking her, but if it were me, i would want a normal relationship as well.â
kuroo doesnât say another word before walking away. and yet his walk quickened so he could catch up to you before you could get to class, footsteps echoing through the hallway in patters as he sees your familiar figure near your classroomÂ
â(y/n)!â he calls out to you as you slide the classroomâs door open. it was sure to catch the attention of the rest of the students already in the classroom as you turn towards him, brows furrowed in the same confusion
as he neared you, there was almost no sign in him stopping, sending your heart beating in a frenzy as you parted your lips to tell him to slow down
but before a single syllable could even fall from your lips, your boyfriendâs own pair press against yours harshly. it was sweet like caramel and you swore everything moved in a slow motion when you suddenly realized where you two were
he stole your breath away when he pulled apart from you, eyes immediately scanning the room of his own classmates staring at him in awe
âsince when were you two dating?â matsukawa asked rather loudly, it seemed that others were interested in knowing as well.
panic suddenly coursed through you as you gave kuroo a look, gravely ignoring the way yoru heart was thumping against your chest and the dozens of unanswered questions running through your head
âw-weâre not actually datiââ
âweâve been together for a few months actually.â kuroo cuts you off, sending you a wink before entering the classroom
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So about that sog Kai au đđđ do you mind telling us about it????đłđłđł
ALSJJDJSKALAJSJSKALA GOTCHU BRO đ„șđđđ thank you for asking!!!!! Beware.... long post time....
Basically this starts aaaallllll the way back in season 4, where when Kai became the red shogun, he got involved in even shadier and shadier business situations (he basically becomes a for-hire grunt/guard because heâs so good at fighting! As a result, heâs so deep in the underworld and itâs dealings that when the ninja tried to look for him in season 4, they straight up canât find him. They use all of their connections, everything they can, but heâs completely disappeared, without so much of a trace past three months after Zane died. (This is a year later. They hadnât checked up on Kai in a while, he had a huge fight with them before he left, swore he never wanted to see them again, etc. they decided to give him time and space). So they file Kai as a missing person, and come together for the search for him! A few days after the report is filed and they start the search, they get their invitations to Chenâs! Kai didnât get an invite because even Chen couldnât find him... so the ninja have to make the difficult decision to pause their search and try and go save Zane, only to have nya AND Garmadon show up because Nya came with him for backup, but then she heard abt Zane, and made the even harder decision to join them on their quest to get Zane. Season 4 happens relatively the same, only Nya was the one to become romantically involved with skylor instead of Kai (staff moment didnât happen because nya didnât have the villainous traits for the staff to bring out rip. But it did help connect her to her elemental powers a little early! Good for you queen). But anyways. Harm still gets yeeted, seasons aftermath is the same except now they have Zane and have to face the search for Kai, which hits them like a ton of bricks. Season 4 ends.
so when season 5 starts everything is pretty different, thereâs no tea shop, because all of their energy and focus is on the search for kai, so nya hasnât had time to rlly focus on trying to develop her powers, so later when she trains her skill level is abt the same. morro happens, which delays the search AGAIN. they are in very low spirits abt all this. season 5s ending and resulting effects are the same. skybound does not happen just like in the show :). day of the dead happens, season 7 is a bit more complicated but again, results for the ninja are the same. basically normal seasons, except kai isnât there and they are generally in lower spirits because all of their free time is spent looking for kai, but they think heâs either vanished completely or.... something worse that they donât want to think about. so by time season 8 starts, the ninja have definitely become much more lax on their search, not spending as much time on it, dealing with other threats. they hate it, but ninjago needs defending and they are the ones to do it. by time season 8 starts, theyâve stopped actively going all over ninjago. they just keep their eyes out during missions more, that kind of thing. MEANWHILE!
this whole time, kais been doing his shady activities. traveling around with different gangs until he finds one that have him work for them full time, however itâs one of the biggest organized crime syndicates in ninjago. all over the whole continent! so he basically has to travel a lot, and he goes DEEP undercover, because originally he didnât want anyone to find him, then it became he was so ashamed of all the criminal activity heâs taken part in. however, after a while of stewing in definitely the WORST environment for this kind of thing, he slowly but surely has so much resentment, the anger, then eventually even hate for the ninja. it wasnât near overnight, but it happened. he thought about all the hurtful things they had said to eachother in their last fight. how deeply everyoneâs words had cut. how they all seemed to gang up on him, when he now knew he was grieving, and sure he was out of line a bit then, but did it really require that? them taking everything out on him? he thought about how it took months for them to even realize he was gone, that his last motel was a dead end and he hadnât left a trace since. how they didnât try and somehow let him know that zane was alive. how they had seemed to search for him like mad and then disappear for so long, almost at this point having given up on finding him entirely. he didnât want to talk to them, but it had been nice, secretly, to know that they at least cared enough to look for him, to miss him maybe. he thought about how zane dying had fractured the team, but kai being as good as dead didnât seem to meaningfully impact the team in any way. he was selfish for thinking this, he knew, but GOD it hurt him more than he could describe. all that he had done for each of his teammates. his sister. his family. his whole life he had done nothing but sacrifice for all of them, only for them to not sacrifice a thing in return for him? he is. angry. and devastatingly depressed about it at the same time. and heâs filled with so many conflicting emotions, because on one side he still truly cares about them, and would do so much for things to go back to the way they were. but on the other side, he is just filled with so much resentment and anger, hatred all built up, the feeling of betrayal and deep, gut wrenching sadness, all swirling together, clouding his mind, mixing with his deep, almost hidden happiness of being actually FREE of all of the hero junk, the responsibility, the destiny, EVERYTHING. he also, even more secretly, enjoys the fighting more now. he doesnât have to hold back. he can keep going until he burns himself out because thatâs what heâs paid to do, damn the consequences. heâs swept up into being more and more violent, even accepting a few hit jobs a couple of times, mainly to see if he could. he could. basically rn heâs an absolute SOUP of conflicting violent emotions and dubious morality. This is the state heâs in when he meets Harumi.
he meets harumi on a job, she was working with the opposite gang, starting to get herself into the crime rings so she could firmly establish the sons of garmadon, (this part might change a bit because i actually have to watch season 8-9-10 lol but iâm getting to it i promise) they end up outside after, ending up sharing a lighter and some smokes, causing them to start talking, and end up opening up a bit and bonding a bit. they end up sort of.... acquaintances. they will talk after a job or before sharing a lighter to smoke sometimes, talking about so many different things. eventually they end up talking abt the ninja and how much they HATE them, harumi egging kai on in his negative emotions towards him, revealing her parents fates. kai ends up revealing the stuff abt his parents, how he was forced to raise his sister from far too young..... eventually revealing that he was, at one time. the red ninja. never again to him though. never again. heâs begun to hate everything he once stood for. harumi has her suspicions, he fit the description of the missing red ninja, from broadcasts and flyers. this was just the kind of business where you donât ask those kinds of questions. besides, she liked kai. and what better way to get back at the green ninja, the once she hated most, than getting his former teammate on her side?
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So thatâs it so far!!!! I hope u like this bro! I have a lot more details and fights in mind, especially when we actually get into season 8 lol, but I donât wanna spoil anything rn!!!!! Lots of fun stuff Iâm planning on posting lol đ PLEASE tell me what u think bro..... I crave feedback and criticism..... pls bro.... đ„șđ„șđ„șđ„șđ„ș
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BTS Reaction: You Have An Asthma Attack | Maknae Line
Requested: yes! @sweetbtsboys I hope you like this! Sorry it took literally so long.
Genre: fluff
Warnings: none :)
Hyung line coming soon <3
PARK JIMIN:
You stand there in shock as confusion and dread washes through you. You have no idea what to do and all you can focus on is the back of your best friend, the only boy you've ever loved, as he walks away from you dejectedly.
He just took you by complete surprise by confessing to you. You never thought he'd feel that way about you, so you've always pushed your feelings down again and again for years.
"Y/n...I think I'm in love with you. No, no I am in love with you."
"I- what?"
"I mean-...yeah."Â
He wrings his hands anxiously awaiting your answer, while your head is spinning as you try to find the right words to accept his confession. After a minute of silence Jimin sighs and hangs his head, "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything. I'm such an idiot, gosh I'm so stupid." You look up in shock and shake your head, the words still stuck in your throat. But, Jimin doesn't see your panicked expression as he's staring at the ground in embarrassment.
Then to your horror; Jimin sucks in a shaky breath and moves to turn away. "I'm really sorry, y/n. I shouldn't have said it. I ruined everything didn't I? Just- just pretend this didn't happen...please." Jimin turns away before you can grab him. Why won't the words you want to speak come out? Why can't you call to him and tell him to wait? Tell him you feel the same and have for years.
When the shock finally wears off and your head clears, you shake your it and blink. Then, you see Jimin disappear behind a corner.
No.
No no no.
You spring into action and run after him as fast as you can.
"Jimin! Jimin wait!" You call out to him, but he doesn't hear you. You turn the corner and see a bunch of people walking here and there as you scan the crowd in a panic.
You start to push through people carefully, when you see the back of his brown head going further away as he walks at a brisk pace.
The crowd finally breaks and you sprint for all your worth, not giving your asthma a second thought.
How is he so fast?
You think desperately as you run, your lungs already starting to ache and burn. Then it hits you like a wave; there's a horrible pinching in your chest and you gasp for air, but you can't stop running. You won't.
"Jimin! Park Jimin, stop!" You holler with the last of your breath. He stops suddenly and turns at the sound of your urgent voice.
"Y/n?" He looks at you in confusion, then he hurries toward you when he sees the state you're in. He takes your hands and helps you to a bench.
"Oh my gosh, y/n are you okay? Why were you running?" You mime to him that you can't breathe and he nods, rubbing your back gently.
"You're having an attack, aren't you?" You nod and he bites his lip in worry. "Do you have your inhaler?" He feels guilty that you rn to catch up with him, and panic as he sees you struggling to get a breath in. You shake your head and his heart drops, then he pulls himself together and takes your hands gently.
"Ok then. Just breathe with me, alright?" At your nod of confirmation, he starts to take slow deep breaths, counting and blowing out again and again. Eventually you're able to keep pace with him as you two look at each other and breathe deeply. After a couple minutes you can breathe, but you're still wheezing a bit.
"Are you okay, y/n?"
"You're an idiot, Park Jimin." You choke out and he looks down at the ground.
"I know. I'm sorry, I ruined ev-"
"No. You're an idiot to think I don't feel the same about you."
Jimin's eyes nearly pop out of his head and you try to bite back a smile. "W-what? I don't- you don't-... You don't hate me?" You roll your eyes and surprise both of you when you wrap your arms around him and hold on tightly.
"Of course not. I-...I love you."
Jimin hugs you back and blinks back his tears, not wanting you to know about them.
"We should probably go get your inhaler, love." You blush at what he calls you and nod awkwardly, "Yeah, that's a good idea." Jimin takes your hand and envelopes it in his, helping you stand.
"You shouldn't have run after me like that."
"What was I supposed to do? Let you go thinking I hated you?"
"We have phones you know. You could've called or texted me to come back."
"Oh shut up."
Either way, you can bet he isn't going to let you be running again anytime soon.
KIM TAEHYUNG:
"Jagi, I told you a thousand times. Get off that scale right now." You pout when your husband walks over and lifts you off the little scale in your bathroom, carrying you into the living room and plopping you on the couch. "But, Tae! I gained another pound and a half. I just need to-" Taehyung cuts you off with a look, a very angry look.
"You need to stop this. I'm not kidding around y/n." You can tell he's hurt and you feel ashamed of the way you've been acting. You skipped a few meals and kept checking your weight, making comments about how fat you are. You never considered the fact that maybe it would have an affect on your husband too. He always tells you how beautiful you are and how much he loves you, but you never accept it.
That has to weigh on him a lot.
Suddenly you're crying, out of the guilt you feel for putting him through all that. Taehyung kneels and wipes your tears away softly, "y/n, baby. Please just talk to me." You sniffle and shrug, "I don't know. I just don't feel good in my body. I don't feel healthy." Taehyung nods in understanding, "you mean because of how tired and cruddy you always feel?" You nod and he stands up to pull you to your feet.
"Then, we'll both start eating healthier and we can go on morning jogs. I don't feel my best these days either. Sound like a deal?" You nod excitedly and hug him tightly, "yes! That'll be fun!" Tae laughs as you two go to the room to get some sleep before your first jog the next day.
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You're totally hyped up and ready; you've got your tennis shoes on and your headphones ready. You're a little nervous because you have asthma, but it shouldn't act up if you two take it easy.
Apparently that doesn't matter though, because the cold air gets to you about five minutes into the jog. Tae is going like a pro, headphones in his ears and he's not struggling at all. You on the other hand; are struggling to breathe as you stop to catch your breath. You hold your hand up to tell Taehyung to slow the heck down, and he sees you aren't next to him. Tae stops and jogs back to you, "you alright, jagi?" He looks at you knowingly and takes your hand, leading you to a bench. When you both sit down he pats your back gently, "asthma attack?" You nod and he pulls out your inhaler from one of his pockets. You look at him in surprise and he shrugs, "I know you better than you know yourself, baby. This cold air is a bit-"
"Taehyung!" You laugh and he chuckles along with you, smiling sweetly at you as you take a few puffs from your inhaler. After a couple minutes you give him a thumbs up and he nods, "all better?" You shake your head yes and stand up, "I'm okay, let's go now." Before you can start jogging again, Tae grabs your hand and starts to walk slowly with you. You look at him, confused. He smiles and shrugs, "I think maybe we should do daily walks instead, and for the cold weather we'll take shorter ones." You nod in agreement and smile at the warmth his big hand envelopes yours in as you two stroll and watch the sunrise.
JEON JUNGKOOK:
You can't stop the laughs bursting from your lips as you run as fast as you can away from your boyfriend. Jungkook and you decided to have a picnic today, so you packed up some food and came to this big field that's always empty. You two found the field one day and now it's your special place.
"I'm gonna get you, y/n!" You squeal and pump your arms harder than before, your sundress flapping in the wind while Jungkook laughs behind you at your cuteness. As you're running around in circles avoiding his grasp, your chest starts feeling tight and your breaths get shorter. You know an asthma attack is coming on, but you unwisely ignore it. You don't want it to ruin your fun day with Jungkook. Besides, you have your inhaler in your purse and a few puffs will fix it all.
Another minute passes and you start to slow down, grabbing your chest to help the air go in. Your chest has a sharp pain everytime you breathe in.
Jungkook notices your change in behavior and slows to a stop, "y/n? You okay, baby?" You nod and smile while waving him off with a laugh, "I'm fine! Just hungry." Jungkook smiles and points at the basket on the blanket laid out, "Ok then, let's eat! Come here." You walk into his open arms and he kisses your head, wrapping his arms around you. Suddenly, you're coughing uncontrollably and the wheezing has started. You sit on the ground and try to breathe slowly, but it's not helping. You can't get enough air in and the pain in your chest is excruciating. Jungkook plops down next to you with concern written all over his face, "y/n? What's going on? How can I help you, baby?" You never told him about how bad your asthma is; you usually use your inhaler and you don't run a lot, so the poor boy is at a complete loss of what's going on right now.
You point to your chest and manage to wheeze out, "a-asthma..." Jungkook's eyes widen and he scoots closer to you, "what do I do? Baby, tell me how to help you." You point at your purse and mouth 'inhaler' before another coughing fit wracks your body. Jungkook quickly crawls over the blanket to your purse, opening it and pulling out your inhaler, then he rushes back and hands it to you gently. He rubs your back soothingly while you take a puff.
But nothing comes out.
You look down in a panic, it can't be out already!! But it is. The little inhaler has a "0" on it while you stare at the place where the number of puffs is. Jungkook sees your face and looks down at it, "what's the matter? Is it not working?" You shake your head and cough out, "it r-ran out." Jungkook tries not to panic, but his mind is spinning in circles.
Then he takes a deep breath and nods, "ok well, we don't need it. All we need is to stay calm until we get another one, ok?" You nod and he tells you to take as deep breaths as you can, counting with you as he cleans up the picnic. Then he stands up, grabbing the basket and blanket and motioning for you to stand.
Jungkook has you get on his back while he holds the picnic stuff. You climb on and he walks you to the car, counting your breaths the whole way. He even carries you up the stairs to your apartment where you grab your spare inhaler and take a couple puffs.
"Thank you, Kookie." You hug him once your breathing has regulated again, and he kisses you gently.
"Love you, y/n. Make sure you tell me anything else like this, I just want to help you." You nod and he embraces you softly.
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a/n: I'm sorry this took so long. I hope you guys that requested these things are still here and see them :((
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1st I have to say this b4 I repeat the post from fb. This is a place where I can speak my mind freely without judgement, speak my peace even. Which is exactly what im gonna do so prepare for a read. So think what u want idc, but the last thing I wanna do is tick some1 I know off cause on some level there's a mutual appreciation & respect regardless of my impression. And anyone that reads this isn't obligated to understand my opinion & I dont expect u to. With my brain its my thought process to let information out of my head so I can put things aside, observe & absorb more lol. Writing is another tool or coping mechanism for my anxieties & other psych ailments, treatment for my mental health depends on it & other hobbies in other words, especially during shutdown, something to focus on. Heck even youtube is recommended by my doctor if it keeps me happy lol. But because ill be working again, I may not have time to do alot of things I like sadly..idk i just wouldnt want to be burnt out & focus on more important things. I have a high respect for anyone working around people during this time & it must worrisome for u too, means I have to keep on my toes as well soon..its a scary world out there for an introvert but I was killin it in NY too. It was just a slow steady process with all the limitations & moving my life up there wasn't easy to begin with but I pulled through & did it all...only for it to be taken away.
So, I'm an Irish, German, Canadian,British Mut from tucson. Maternal & paternal immidiate families lineage mixed made me, including my NY blood from my bio dad. The rest is all over Europe but u get the idea. Tucson may be where i was born & my 1st home without a father & raised not knowing (were mardi gras babies btw đ)
But NY is & will forever be my 2nd home i dont care what any1 says, I felt I belonged there. Its the other half of me quite literally.Theres a memory that's really been bugging me. Last day b4 i left it, a bald eagle flew across my path in the sky no joke going NE & I was departing back to the SW. I chose the eagle years ago cause I identify with it. including the background symbolism in different phases of my life that included them lol, but to actually see one was just amazing.
They symbolize strength+freedom in general despite it standing for the country from sea to shining sea lol. Also Braviary was always in my pokemon team besides pikachu since its gen came out lol. I've always been strong, whether some believe it to be true or not is their problem, only I know the things I've gone through. Point is different ends of the spectrum its always been with me throughout in some way & im glad i got to share it with someone that gave me the freedom I needed.
But yea I experienced what its like to be there & got to know that part of me even if I didn't find him & maybe didnt care...I feel I was meant to be there. I was in touch with my roots, lower Temps & above sea level rather than high temps & below sea level đ€Ł I loved everything about my time up there. It'll always be a part of me, & I hope to see it again. But I digress.
But in regards to the relationship itself, emphasizing on what i said b4. Just as it i got "settled" in it was gone & I had no clue what was happening without my knowledge, the whole plan to bring me back, all of it, the whole chain of events that unfolded the way it did starting with leaving a marriage in the 1st place to be with him i mean come on lol. Chasing a dream that didn't play out the way we had hoped. I took leap of faith & I ended up starting over twice in 1 year with no benefit of the doubt. I still have my ny health insurance for the rest of the yr, I have to add it to my list to apply again in az. Ive been wearing the wrong prescription glasses for 6 months under quarantine & they're just now getting to stage 4 of opening lol. Just understand how frustrating that actually is for someone like me & u totally get it đ
U want to take care of business but sometimes you're limited & gotta work around it. had all that covered there & then was told I settled, wrong thing to say & its no wonder I didn't blow up in his face right there & then đ. But I have retraint & can control myself. Though it was out of my hands the new relationship didn't have to go sour, been just as long if not more, could've actually thrived given the proper balance with room to grow. Idk, Sometimes I honestly don't think anyone believed in me. I mean I have no debt, no record, no kids, im a clean slate type of girl lol. Yes I did end up feeling unappreciated, underestimated, a bit neglected, insecure about my body, ashamed for being myself, & I shouldn't have to feel that way at all & if that happens there obviously something off. I just didnt know what it is he wanted & needed, i wanted to help & be a good partner to this dude but why is it bad to ask the same in return? I shouldn't have to drastically change myself to fit someones standard i know, but...i needed the old him back, I missed the old us & wanted to get back to that.. Was always so closed off & probably ended up in his own head who knows, maybe there was guilt for some of the things he did & didnt want to hurt me anymore, spare my feelings any more than it did b4 it was too late.idk whatever the excuse i still don't know what triggered it all to fail so easily & i don't think i ever will. But ending up with the conclusion that I was the problem, its narcissistic to even believe that & i won't accept it. Not when he can't confront his own issuse & put blame onto himself too.. it was a low blow & literally felt like my heart was pierced at the sound of it. If im to blame its the other way around as well. My point of view wasn't acknowledged so this is my take & experiences of happened so plz dont hate me for speaking my truth.
But yea I can tell when somethings not right & feel strong empathy for others emotions. I knew something was different, there were signs everywhere since the mistrust started & during the last half of that time with him I questioned everything but sat in my own headspace as well as he did just thinking about it. If anything we failed eachother, the blame is on us both but idk what else i could've done to get through to him. That's the stubbornness, he wouldn't budge. Despite how things went down..Leaves me to think, what was the point of having me there in the 1st place, to not follow through with our shared hopes & dreams but instead spiral into such resentment for me that the interest faded. But at the at the same time...even if it ended early for him, I didn't give up & I fought to keep us okay which it was for the most part. Hindsight is 20/20, it definitely wasn't negative all the time. In fact things were great between us & acted like goofballs together, that right there is a friend despite if the stronger feelings weren't mutual. Nobody with hate in their heart acts like that, he was good, the best, cheered me up when I was down, shared interests & did things for eachother. But that alone makes me question what was truth & what was fiction sometimes ever since the trust between us started to fade. Am I in the right to feel what im feeling right now? Im angry & upset yes very, but the kindness he had throughout..he did care in his own way...which makes things so much harder.
Tripadoodle if some way you're listening, I hope u know now where im coming from. For your own benefit & quest to be a better man like you always wanted...actually try. Head my advice. Making yourself better shouldn't be put on a womans shoulders to do for u without her getting lifted in return...its alot of weight to handle for 1 person to carry lol. Get off your ass & build on yourself, learn from everything that happened & become better for yourself & the sake of others, Because it starts with u. Go to church if possible or watch them, it really does help. Even from across the country I still want u to do just as good & help u as a friend. You promised we could remain friends & im holding my end of the bargain whether u like it or not lol it was your idea during the ride here. All I wanted in the end was to not lose u in my life completely...but i should be patient i know.. Theres more space, im not contacting u directly & respecting that, eventually ill stfu lol but I feel I need this rn. I should hate u,but I cant hate u, I do still care, u had that affect on me so much that I can't really listen to others when they say ur a douchbag lol, u were still my rock the whole time even if u didn't feel the same after a while & u did help me alot as well. I see the good in people & u are good, with well balanced snarkiness & humorous sass to boot. light a fire under ur own ass & ull be okay lol. Never stopped believing in u. Ive seen what you can do, you're very smart & know your sh*t, u will go far lol. And as a friend I'd lend u my strength if I could but the most I can do is pray for things like safety/protection, healing, forgiveness, guidance, etc. Leave it to God if u feel compelled to. Give zanabell a hug for me.
God i talk way too much đ
No im not doing any of this for attention, I want my voice to be heard as well as a possible learning experience if it had that effect on anyone. The things we learn build character & help us understand a little more about ourselves. Probably shouldn't share cuz its nobody's business, yea ive thought of that too.. But its a blog lol, Tumblr allowed it to be that space, opinions and rants are allowed & encouraged. Nothing wrong with that đ€·ââïž so who gives a crap.
These are pictures of the NY sunrise & AZ sunset. Clouds always get me cuz of the shapes, used to to take pics of them all the time. once saw mario holding a hammer when I was a kid đ 3rd & 4th pic is a split rainbow, never seen that b4...either someone found the gold or its deciding whether or not to connect. Probably was connected but I missed it lol. But then I looked behind me after the split 1 disappeared & a double rainbow was forming. Nature can be scary but also beautiful
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We donât talk anymore (Jikook Cover) Scenario Jungkook x Reader
Hello guys
This is my first Tumblr post and first fanfiction inspired by the beautiful cover released by JUNGKOOOK&JIMINNN 'We don't talk anymore'. I know Jungkook has done the cover alone before but I think this version is more powerful and made me feel things as many of you would probably relate and Jimin's sweet voice is everything I love him so much..... I'm in tears rn :'(
Anyways so when i heard this song i just grabbed my lapotp and typed this, its raw and not proofread and was literally just me blabbering cos of the feels i got from the cover and so i imagined a really sad relationship. I hope you enjoy it!!
I don't know if anyone's going to even read this but my friend told me to post it anyway so if you like it please give me some love!!! I accept requests <3 and would probably write better if i wasnt so emo ahhahahahahahahhaha (i shouldnt lie to myself ill never stop feeling emo while stanning bts)
Word count: 1.9k
Y/N POV
Itâs been a long time since you felt the spark that initially ignited your relationship, you always had to put your 100% and felt like it was dying anyway, there was nothing that can be done to save it and thatâs when you thought it was time to start seeing someone else and move on.
You called him a day before you decided to forget the hell that you have been through because of him but like all the previous calls that turned to voicemail this time was no different.
It was the familiar female voice again âthe mobile number you have called is not available...â
You felt ashamed that he has put you through this and hurt your pride, because no matter how much you called he just wont answer.
Y/N: âjungkook I need to speak to youâ â delivered at 10:31 pm
âplease just answer the phone..â â delivered at 10:32 pm
âjungkookâ â delivered at 10:32 pm
but nothing
5 minutes later⊠the messages were checked as âopenedâ
So she decided to call again but there was no answer.
Jungkook: âI wish you could stop calling me at night you know im at practiceâ âI wont answer Iâm working so good nightâ â opened at 10:40 pm
Y/N: âwhy are you like this?â âwhats wrong?â â opened at 10:41 pm
Jungkook: ânothing is wrongâ â opened at 10:42 pm
Y/N: âdonât lie to me can you please call me back after practice?â â opened at 10:42 pm
Jungkook: âyeah.. laterâ â opened at 10:45 pm
You stayed up all night waiting for his call it was an agonisingly slow night but you waited for him to call you like a fool anyway. 3AM came around and still no call. He never practices this late.
So you decided to call one more time. And unexpectedly there was an answer.
âhello? Jungkook?â
silence
âyeah⊠wussupâ
he sounded drunk and you were speechlessâŠ
âwerent you at practice? Why are you drunkâ
âim not drunkâ
âwell okay then what are youâ
âim jungkookâ
no shit
âok jungkook we need to talk but I cant talk to you if your drunkâ
âyoure already talking so carry on⊠what is this 39 missed calls all aboutâ
âwhere are you, can I see you? and if you answered the first call there wouldnât be 39â
âno im going home now so just say what you wantâ
âokay⊠I just donât think this is going to work out between usâ
silence
âjungkookâ
then he laughed sarcastically
âare you breaking up with me?â
âyeah I jus-â
âokay thenâ
âjungkook I need to tell you whyâ
âI donât.. think I careâŠâ
= call ended=
Jungkook woke up with a severe headache. The time was already 2 past noon and he had no idea what hes done the night before but all he could remember was drinking so much.
The truth is he didnât know why he drank so much in fact he didnât know why he gave up doing anything besides work the past few month, he knew his relationship with you was dying slowly and he knew It was his fault but the Wings tour and his musical career was eating him and was far more important, at least in the company and BTSâ eyes.
He thought that you could wait for him but his career cant, he knew it was selfish and hard but he had no other choice and he didnât know better, because he was only 19 and he could only handle so much.
You woke up around the same time, you didnât get time to sleep at all from crying over the ended phone call, you knew it would be hard but you had to move on. You knew you didnât deserve him and that made your relationship rocky at first, but as jungkook told you he loved you repeatedly, you slowly gained confidence and learnt to love yourself too but that all came crashing down because he clearly doesnât love you anymore.
You knew the only way you would get over him is erasing him completely from your life which included blocking his phone number, for his own good you knew he was a good guy and probably would try to befriend you after these 3 years but you couldnât handle seeing him as not yours, but just a friend. You took out your phone and as you unlocked it, you saw the selfie you had at their last date together and couldnât help but cry even more because all that has to go too.
= 3 months passes by=
Authors PV
As you slowly learnt how to live life from scratch, Y/N served another caramel late to who seemed to be a distressed customer. She had quit her old job which was close to big hitâs main building and decided on a new beginning.
Within these 3 months she had met a guy whoâs a regular at the cafĂ© named Zico, he would throw way too many compliments about the coffee than one would give but she found it cute as at least for what seemed like years, sheâs started to receive the attention she craved⊠but she cant help but think of jungkook whenever she sees him wishing that he would be the one who would give her these compliments and taste coffee that she only recently learnt to master but obviously that life doesnât exist anymore.
But as she is in south korea, bts are increasingly becoming a hot topic and their songs were played everywhere as if her memories of him werenât enough reminder.
Slowly Y/N got to know Zico even more, and naturally they dated. She couldnât deny how good he treats her, maybe its because itâs a new relationship but he was there when she texted and even called her when she didnât turn up for work because she was sick. He showed that he cares. Jungkook didnât.
On a fated evening, when the new couple chose to walk next to the Han river a familiar figure stood on the way walking with what seemed another familiar figure but she chose to ignore it and continue walking holding hands with her new lover.
What Y/N dont know is jungkook has been growing crazy the last 3 months, he had tried to reach you so many times, he doesnât remember the phone call that night and he thought that you ended the relationship alone and hasnât decided to even talk it with him. He missed you so much and every day he realised how much of it was his fault, it was his fault that you had left your old job, your neighbourhood, changed your number and disappeared. He wished you were happy but deep down he hoped like himself that you werenât able to forget him.
Then he saw you walking, he looked at jimin who was trying to distract him from the sight that he has also seen. Jungkook felt angry and tried to contain himself, but soon after he was washed with feelings of sadness and regret, deciding to walk up to you anyway.
âY/N ?â
you looked at him with surprised eyes, which Zico has returned to you in confusion.
âcan you give me a minute?â you said to Zico who nodded and walked away
âyou look wellâ you said to him
âis that all you have to say to meâ he said to you with tears in his eyes
âI donât remember you wanting me to say anything at all⊠but say what?â you replied returning a hurt face.
âwhy you left me like thisâ he said looking down knowing exactly what you left but he had to hear you say it
âyou didnât want to hear it.. remember?â you said to him as you laughed away your tears
âwhat are you talking about?â he asked you
âyou said to me you didnât want to hear it, remember you were kind of drunk actually but I knew if I didnât tell you right there and then, you would never pick upâ you admitted
âyou couldve texted me at leastâ he said defeated
âyou donât even reply anyway⊠I need to goâ you walked away
then he watched you combining your hands with your new lover as you continue walking. Jungkook went back to the companyâs building with Jimin who tried to comfort him, he saw the pain that Jungkook went through the past few months, but he couldnât deny that he was the one who screwed it up for himself.
Jungkook entered the studio where he was meant to record aimlessly, he always overworked himself when he was feeling lonely or sad and today he was broken. He scrolled down his Spotify playlist and encountered a song named âWe donât talk anymore â By Charlie Puthâ, it was always there but he never really bothered to listen to it, but tonight he tapped âPLAYâ.
By the end of the song he was sobbing, he remembered how much he wanted to come back to you when he had a day full of schedule, he expected you to be there texting him sweet words when he couldnât make it to dates because he couldnât perfect his practice, celebrate happy occasions with you but there must be a good reason that she left him he thought laughing to himself as he related to the lyrics of the song. He was so drawn to the song that he decided to cover it hoping that the fans would like it too, but more importantly as a message to his gone girl.
=3 weeks forward=
âDid you hear the songs Jungkook released this monthâ said a co-worker to the other âNo no what is it called? Put it onâ the other one replied
They played the cover that the entire of nation of Korea has been obsessing over, and for the first time the you heard it. And you felt as if you were shot in the heart. You could hear the sincerity in his voice and realised how the hell did things come this far, because you couldnât imagine your life without him no matter what.
âI need to go somewhere can you cover for me please? you said to one of the coworkers and ran outside the cafĂ© to big hit, cursing yourself for deleting his phone number.
And as you ran to the building you asked the familiar security who still remembers you if jungkook can be called down.
You felt like life at that moment was like a ticking bomb and you needed to tell him whatever you were feeling at that moment, youâll probably regret it but at this moment you didnât care.
But it was too late as you saw him walking down the stairs with another girlâs hand around his. You felt like you were shot a second time, this time earning a much severe injury. You laughed at the thoughts you had, the he sang this for you â it mightâve had no meaning at all. With tears running down your cheeks you ran before he could notice you catching a TAXI, but he did see you and realised that you came back. Jungkook let go of the girlâs hand to run after you but it was too late⊠he watched the TAXI drive off.
Many tears were shed that day.
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