#but i hate the tiny text on my blog

[lunarlando]

thinking about girl dad!lando 💭

a/n: hello and welcome!!! first ln4 post of many to come hopefully. i have so many more thoughts about this, so if anyone wants to come chat or bring up some headcanons of their own, feel free to pop into my inbox :)

girl dad!lando who can hardly believe his ears when you tell him you're pregnant. he's at the height of his career, and having a baby would be a huge change. he's still young, of course, but when he thinks about who he wants to do life with for the rest of his years, the resounding answer is you. so finding out that in nine months time, you're both going to be bringing a child into the world—one that could quite possibly turn out anything like you—oh, he's over the moon. he doesn't even know if it'll be a girl or a boy yet, but either way, he's beyond excited.

girl dad!lando who hates missing appointments and checkups all the time due to the constrains of his job. he wants to be there with you every single time, but with training and races and all the traveling, it's just not in the cards. occasionally he'll be able to pop in via video chat or phone call, but most of the time you have to update him after all is said and done, and he hates it. he feels guilty that he can't be there for you as often as he wants to. you assure him time and time again that it's okay; as long as your baby is healthy, it's okay. he'll have all the time in the world to spend time with them once they're born.

girl dad!lando who becomes even more excited when you find out you're having a girl. it was one thing to think about this baby and wonder about all the possibilities. it's something entirely different actually knowing. he hopes with all his heart that she looks exactly her mother, and already knows she's got him wrapped around her finger. he does his research too—sends you countless articles from parenting blogs and tries to educate himself on how to be the best parent so his baby girl will thrive as she grows up.

girl dad!lando who absolutely refuses to miss the birth of his daughter. he doesn't care what race week it falls on, doesn't care how much shit he'll get into for missing it, on this he stands entirely firm. nothing will prevent lando from being right beside you the entire time. and when the day does come, it's the first time mclaren has to bring up a reserve driver for him. he's a whirlwind around the house when you tell him it's time to go the hospital, grabbing the baby bag you'd both pre-packed and sending off texts to everyone important, making sure everything is in order before helping you waddle to the car. and much to your annoyance, he's never driven so slowly through monaco as he does on the way there. you're surprised you don't have the baby right there in the car with the way he crawls through the streets at a snail's pace.

girl dad!lando who nearly cries when he first gets to hold his little girl in his arms. she's just so...tiny, compared to him. she latches onto him instantly, little hand curling tight around his finger like she knows he's her papa. in that moment, looking down at this precious thing cradled against his bare chest, he vows to never ever let anyone or anything hurt her, for as long as he lives. it's like his heart has made its way outside his chest and into his hands. he actually does cry when he looks over at you—the one who made all this possible. he knows for a fact he'll never love anyone or anything as much as he loves the two of you.

girl dad!lando who takes a month or so off to spend time with you and baby girl norris and settles into fatherhood surprisingly well. he's the definition of doting dad too, taking care of everything he can so you can rest as much as having a newborn will let you. he also does a massive amount of shopping, even though baby girl norris had already gotten everything a baby could ever need, even before she was born. they ranged from practical items like bottle warmers and value size packs of diapers (thanks to her uncles checo, hulk, and kmag, who knew what parents actually needed) to a copious amount of formula 1 team themed attire (redbull onesies from uncle max, ferrari bibs from uncle charles and uncle carlos, mclaren everything from uncle osc, you name it). stuffed toys, baby books, hats, bibs, even teeny tiny baby sized sunglasses—baby girl norris already has a fan club of aunties and uncles surrounding her.

girl dad!lando who can't sleep sometimes, so he just watches his baby girl sleep, just so he knows she's okay. and when she cries herself awake in the middle of the night, he's right there to soothe her, picking her up, holding her close to his chest, rocking her back and forth gently. he talks to her too—tells her stories about how her mama and papa met, how much you love each other and how much you love her. stories about his family and your own family, about his racing family, his best friends. everyone he loves already loves her too. one time you rouse from your sleep to find his side of the bed and her crib empty, and you almost panic before spotting a faint glow coming from the living room. upon further inspection, you find him doing laps around the sofa, gently pat pat patting her back to get her to sleep again. your heart breaks wide open at the sight of the two loves of your life bonding.

girl dad!lando who gets so nervous the first time you bring baby girl norris to a race. she's a little bit older at this point, old enough to take in all the sights and sounds of the bustling paddock, but still young enough to where she has no idea what's going on. he carries her on his hip, shielding her eyes and ears from the flashing cameras and loud noises, beelining right for mclaren hospitality as quick as he can so she can get settled before he gets too busy. he worries about her constantly—is it too hot or too cold out for her (you've got a cute little romper and a jacket in the baby bag if either is the case), will she get bored (give her a plastic spoon and she'll be entertained for hours), is it too loud for her (mclaren engineering fashioned a custom set of baby sized headphones just for this occasion). you have to be the one to stop him from pacing a hole in the floor and tell him he's got more pressing things to prepare for.

basically girl dad!lando who does his best to be the best dad he can be for his little girl, even though he might not be around as often as he'd like.

[daytaker]

The Gang's Tumblr Pages

Inspired by this and my own reaction to it.

Lucifer

Perfectly curated, perfectly formatted, and whenever there's a major change to the tumblr format, he simply leaves the website altogether in a huff of peacock feathers.

Lots of HD photography of nature getting reblogged.

Has an extremely complicated and specific list of tags he uses for every single post.

He only reblogs text posts that are sufficiently visually appealing. Very few meet his high standards.

You could look through his entire blog and not learn one single thing about him except that he's a perfectionist to the point of neurosis.

He has a lot of professional art blogs following him.

Mammon

Oversharing oversharing oversharing!!!!

He regularly gets himself in trouble by shouting about the shit he's done into the void of the internet.

Tried to have a tagging system but forgets about 7/10 times.

Reblogs himself all the time to say "AND ANOTHER THING!!!"

He hates looking at the actual blog pages. The text is always so tiny and some of them start playing music and changing his mouse into a weird shape? No thank you.

He has very few followers and he doesn't really care. Who goes on tumblr for the social element? Weirdos, that's who.

He's insanely easy to troll with anonymous asks. Everyone has done it. Even Lucifer, though he wouldn't admit it.

Some of his best asks:

"did u just post that you're okay with the idea of ponies and unicorns breeding. like no shade on that conceptually but why."

"If you reblog another 'reblog this for good luck' post, I will personally break down your door and steal your skin."

"ur ugly" "yeah-huh" "ugly" "no i won't 'come off anon and fight u' whhy don't you come ON anon and fight me?" "'i don't know how' sounds like something a chicken would say"

Leviathan

He just makes a blog like one of us. Fandom stuff.

Except he's multifandom to the extreme. It's impossible to keep track of his interests because he always has so many simultaneously.

He has the most followers of the brothers just because he gets so deep into so many fandoms that they come rolling in.

He has blocked all of his brothers except for the twins. They're okay.

His blog is a chaotic mess but there is order within the madness. He has a masterpost of tags that explains everything if you care to look at it. (I don't recommend it.)

Satan

It feels stupid to even put this in writing but...cat pics. Endless cat pics. That's like 90% of his blog.

The other 10% is a mixture of book recommendations and analysis, Lucifer shade, and a comprehensive, ever-expanding list of shit Lucifer has done to make Satan angry. It's a very long list. It's organized by theme.

"Lucifer inflicts unjust punishments." "Lucifer makes unnecessary snide remarks." "Lucifer simping for Diavolo and MC (pathetic)."

His blog itself is very minimalist and clean.

He's another fastidious tagger. He tags the cat pics by color, breed, age, number of cats, setting...

Asmodeus

He's not very into tumblr. It's like Devilgram but more complicated and less popular.

Sometimes he'll post or reblog 'aesthetic' things. Moodboards and the like.

In general though, he doesn't really 'get' tumblr.

People don't post selfies very often. Weird.

Beelzebub

Food blog.

Just food.

Reblogging hot dogs.

Reblogging nachos.

Reblogging ice cream.

Nothing else. Ever.

Belphegor

"This minimalist Tumblr has no posts."

No posts.

Default profile picture.

Sometimes he'll like something.

Usually he just looks at it.

Diavolo

There is no order. Only chaos.

He hardly ever uses it, then he'll come online and reblog a million things that have nothing to do with each other. Then he'll go silent again.

He has no tagging system.

He has no custom theme.

He is very friendly to all anonymous askers though.

Barbatos

Barbatos would never have a tumblr. Don't be ridiculous.

Solomon

He only posts very rarely. He prefers to lurk.

When he does post, it's something weird as fuck, like reblogging statistics about owl pellet contents.

He likes to keep people on their toes.

Simeon

Reblogging inspirational quotes, pictures of nature, and general positivity.

That is, once he figures out how the website works.

That takes a really long time.

What is a queue? What are tags? Why is it called a "reblog"? How does he track activity? How does he navigate the homepage? Why does it post things in such a strange order? What is a "Blaze"? What is a draft? Custom URL? Custom Theme? Sideblogs? Mass Post Editor?

Someone please help him.

Solomon probably does that.

Luke

Baking.

He uses tumblr for recipes and images of baked goods.

But tumblr isn't even the best place to go for that, so he isn't on very often.

He sometimes likes Simeon's posts, just as a show of support since he knows how hard Simeon works to post anything anywhere.

[hazshit-hotel-hater]

It Had To Be You

Before I get into my big explaining rant, reblogs are very much appreciated! I know this is usually a rant blog but when I spend so long on a drawing I want to have people see it and stare at it like I do LOL

Also for the ALT text, a lot of the details are going to be explained below so if you’d like extra details please read!

So, my designs! I really hate Husk’s design; as in I hate drawing it. It’s too red and tiny for me, Husk is very orange and round to me, he’s like a really chubby cat that you flip over in the bed and smack their belly and kiss em. He also kinda reminds me of Tigerstar from Warriors but like if he was a more morally correct person. Kind of. I removed all of the red from Husk and replaced it with little motifs of orange and brown like in his ears, his eyebrows, wings, and the little patch on his snout. For his wings I tried to base them around a Brown Thrasher because they fit the colour I needed and they’re very defensive birds which is a trait I’d like to see in Husk more. Seeing him protecting others with his wings in Episode 8 was a very cute touch and I want more of that. Oh and the little orange bit on his snout was based on one of my old cats named Whiskey and I thought that was fitting cause yknow. Whiskey. 🥃. Also it’s cute!

Part of Husk’s orange colouration also falls under some inspiration I received from @bluehazardanonymous whom you may see on my blog again. But they sent me a very interesting colour chart and it made my brain go funny

Husk’s design has a lot of orange, yellow, and small hints of red like his undone bowtie and hat band/ace of hearts card. The orange for gluttony is mostly related to alcohol and such, meanwhile the yellow in his eyes, shirt patch, and on the button on his hat are to show greed from things like gambling and possible leftovers from being an overlord. I don’t think you can just go from being all powerful to some random bartender and NOT have some kind of thirst for power right???? That also bleeds into the red parts (haha cause blood red) to keep his design on the warm side and have a little bit of anger in there.

His clothes are also supposed to look a bit sloppy and kinda sad cause I mean. He is. But they are also all relatively formal items of clothing. By the way I’m never drawing this guy shirtless, sorry you need to beg and pay for that/j

Now for Angel. With Angel being pink-ish and how I usually draw the rest of Hell, I try to make Hell more gross looking and greenish/sickly, generally unpleasant, so that Angel is more eye catching and pops out more like a celebrity would. A lot of the cast in my head is more orange/maroon coloured, not a lot of pink or salmon colours. Of course pink is under lust on the colour wheel, but I personally don’t like chalking Angel up to just his job, nor do i really like using “true” pink. I always keep him in this range:

Also that white is not for him it’s for other things, I always make him a cream-ish colour. I like pink with red undertones always, especially for Angel. It shows his job very blatantly if you take a simple glance at him, but if you’re nuts like me and colour pick from these that I use, you’ll see a lot of them are closer to red, rather than the bright pink-ish-purple colour for lust. And also closer to his original more purple design!

I think it goes without saying that Angel has a lot of pent up anger and frustration that he hides with his persona and humour, and I think trying to show some of that in his colours is a lot more interesting than just haha pink gay spider. I dunno.

Also I thought these little cowlick flip thingies on the side were really cute

I was originally going to make the sign in the back purple since that’s usually the colour of most XXX signs in Hazbin, but the yellow makes everything else look a lot more dingy and gross while still being bright and I love that. Also the yellow is kind of a shallow jab of my own at the adult entertainment industry, a lot of this stuff is just people being exploited for money but I will go on a tangent about this if I don’t shift topic!! Anyway. A lot of the background isn’t super visible, but based on the colours I was kinda going for a more envy & wrath & greed section of the pride ring. Just seems like a good place to smoke. The rain doesn’t hold much symbolism to it but it is there to make the area seem more unpleasant. Yknow how it rains sometimes and the sewage in the street comes up? Like that.

Im really happy with a bunch of stuff in this art. 10 hours, 184+ layers, and 11751 strokes is probably the most I have ever done for.. anything????? Even if you don’t like the art I hope you appreciate the long rant LOL

Be sure to have a good day and drink something ‼️

[parahumanswormfan]

Man, Ward is a hard read. I know, or I think I know, that the story is a lot about loss and moving on. I hope not to say that it's the "main thing" it's about the way understanding the world/the world is the main thing I think The Witness is about. (Not totally sure what I mean by "main thing," which is why it's in quotes.) But, I feel pretty sure Wildbow was in part exploring loss/moving on as he wrote the text. (Not in that I'm psychologizing Wildbow, which I hope to not do, but in the way someone who tells me "There is an apple on the dining room table" is "in part exploring" dining room tables as they think of the sentence.) And, while I have an overwhelmingly positive attitude about Wildbow writing honestly/accurately/truthfully, which I think Wildbow was definitely doing with Ward... and I am ABSOLUTELY NOT expressing the desire that the text be different... It's still, like... what the f, Ward is such a hard, GRUELING, PAINFUL READ Oh my god, I hate Victoria. I didn't hate her this much in Worm. I think she mostly got an eye roll from me, until The S9 happened, and she really aggravated me, then The Wretch happened, and I was probably bummed for her. I know this is a common experience. I think Wildbow cites it as an error (?) in his follow up blog post and that surprises me. It surprises me because it's well explained by being deliberate and targeted as a meditation on the loss of Taylor at the end of Worm. Because Victoria feels annoying to read precisely for someone who would like Taylor. God, it's so frustrating. Like, Worm is a puzzle box. You have to solve it to understand what the hell is happening. So much is left to you to get and I thought that was the intended experience. Taylor, because she's so clever, is kind of like an answer key. I would try to beat her to understanding and then, when she arrived at understanding, I'd use her final view to fact check what I thought was going on. Like, it was a cool race. But Victoria is so much dumber than Taylor. Moreover, she is close minded in a way that Taylor isn't, in a way exactly opposite Taylor that just precludes her directing her intelligence to understand the world anywhere NEAR as well as Taylor. And it's just, like, she's so normal, and Taylor so isn't. In real life, Victoria would be someone I'd probably not like personally, but also probably not judge. In a book other than this one, I would not read the rest. But, as a meditation on losing Taylor in Worm, she's incredible. I would not ask that she be any different. She relates so incredibly to the rest of Ward's themes, it's absurd. But, bearing in mind this interpretation might be totally wrong, especially given that blog post I've only read a tiny bit of: Oh my god, Ward is such a painful read.

[contentloadingandstuff]

This is not a post about writing. Sorry.

I don't want to put personal things on this blog. You're here to read the stuff I write, and don't want to listen to me whine. I understand that. And yet here I am.

As predicted, though it came much faster. It's already been a week and I'm starting to have enough of this. The entire day was spent at the university because my lessons are spaced out throughout the day. I have added another two annoying, condescending and egoistic professors. I miss high school already, and I never thought I would - everything was better organised back then. Classrooms packed, stuffy, filthy chair-desks. Every teacher has their own rules and programmes. Every one of them says that it's going to be difficult. Thanks, I didn't realise that when I signed up for five years of law. They give tasks and homework that involve other people, people that I don't know and that seem to not give a flying duck about me when I try to seek them out. So much boring text to dig through, while not even knowing which parts are important. I got into the highest language group (C1) in English. My reward? Two years spent working my ass off with a nasty hag as my teacher. I have to commute ninety minutes to campus. I missed my bus today by two stops. Now it's forty minutes more commuting as punishment. And then twenty minutes on foot. I left my house at 8, I will come back at 20. Twelve hours. Every Monday since now. Half of which are actually spent on learning.

I'm tired. The bed is tough, the flat cramped and lonely. I have left everyone behind for this. Sure, I can travel back to them by train, but that costs. And my teachers allow just two missed classes, else you fail. Money management is giving me decision fatigue. I have long started digging into my savings, the stuff I got on my birthday. The rent is high. I need to get a flatmate to reduce the costs because my grandparents won't let me stay in this tiny flat for less than 3000 PLN (750$) monthly.

On top of that, my friends have gotten less talkative. I don't blame them, they have their own lives. If anybody texts or calls me, it's my family - only to learn about how I fare. Not in general, just at the university. Because there is nothing more to me. They tell me 'ah, yeah, that's going to suck :D' with a cheerful tone. Oh it already does. But I have to answer them that I'm fine, because it wouldn't do any good to tell them to piss off, or at least shut up if they have to be on my back.

I was excited at the prospect of being alone. I wouldn't have to be ashamed, worried or hide things. Independence, privacy. It quickly wore off. I stay up until 3 am, get five hours of sleep and go to uni. I play video games, but even they don't excite me as much as they used to. I feel like I've watched every single video on YouTube by now. I don't have the strength to go for new things now.

Writing is nothing but another source of stress now. When I do my dailies in Genshin I am reminded that I'm not writing. NAU stares daggers at me. I've killed it, but the first remade chapter isn't even halfway ready as of now.

I'm not going to the gym, or leaving the house that much. I'm eating trash food, for just a moment of distraction. I've bought more Lego than I bought for years recently. Just to get a moment of happiness when putting it together. I've spent money on things that I won't use. They don't seem as interesting when they are built. I can't sell them, I've opened them already. I lost two instruction books. They are useless.

I don't have a choice, I need to keep studying, but I don't want to. Now I have nobody to guide me through this mess. I need to work things out myself, but it's not what I can feasibly do.

I hate it here. I hate it now. I regret living up to this moment in my life. I wish I spared myself of all this. But I didn't have the strength to do it, even when I had the best chance.

So uh, writing is gonna be slow alright.

[vladdyissues]

It's so cute that you uploaded some puffy, you're so kind 😭💞

But I have a question, why did they even block his account? How does Tumblr block an account? He didn't upload anything bad [?]

To the best of my knowledge—and I say this because I did not see every single one of Puffy's posts—Puffy did everything that Tumblr requires when it comes to posting "mature" artwork. She tagged her posts, used Community Labels, cropped and/or censored thumbnails, and made use of the "Read More" option. She was bolder than me when it came to posting certain art styles and speaking unabashedly, but that's a difference in personality. Puffy is a free spirit, incredibly witty, and absolutely hilarious. I'm old and crotchety and try to avoid drama if I can help it—not to say that Puffy in any way invited or deserved termination. She did not.

But she was no match for a targeted mass-reporting campaign. And, unfortunately, there's no way to know just how many people were involved or how much harassment she's been receiving since she joined Tumblr. I know there were at least three asks, likely more, and one rude comment left on one of her artworks early on.

But Tumblr has a poor track record when it comes to making decisions and meting out justice. They don't typically perform thorough investigations, they panic when they see certain words, and they're also prone to outrageous hypocrisy—like the fact that gifs of graphic, live-action porn somehow still manage to survive on this site after 10 years and a purge that cost the company a billion dollars in value, and how they claim to be "the queerest place on the internet" while simultaneously alienating and fostering a hostile environment for the queer artists who are largely responsible for Tumblr's success. Porn and spam bots run amok, but the blogs of marginalized people and artists are first on the chopping block.

I myself have had blogs deleted for lesser reasons. A couple years ago I created a "ship week" event blog, which was deleted simply because at one point in the TV show, one of the characters in the ship was a minor. The blog posted G-rated prompts. It was text-based with completely worksafe header graphics. It didn't endorse any age ranges, but left that up to the discrimination of the participants. The participants complied with Tumblr's TOS if they posted 18+ content, cropping images, using Community Labels and such. Everything adhered strictly to Tumblr's guidelines.

But I was the target for a lot of hatred from the rest of the fandom. They hated my guts because I shipped "the wrong ship"—because it was a gay ship, because it upset the canon heterosexual ship that one of the characters was in, because I wasn't sniveling in fear whenever they sent me hateful asks, because I refused to be bullied or shamed. They went after us because we were a tiny group of fans, easy to target and eradicate. Disgusting behavior, really.

I tried to appeal the deletion, but I never heard back from Tumblr. Fine. I moved the event to another platform (and it looked much better there, too), and that was that.

In short, Tumblr would rather delete a hundred innocent blogs out of fear of offending their ad sponsors rather than 1) investigate the claims made against the blog, or 2) give the blog owner a chance to delete the offending content.

One final thing:

Last month, around 17 June 2024, several Pompep fans on Tumblr received anywhere between 1-3 anonymous asks telling us to kill ourselves or "get raped".

Over cartoon characters.

It's a sad state of things when there's more sympathy, respect and agency given to drawings of fictional lines than living, breathing people.

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

well, the new year is in a bit depending on where the fuck you are.

but what is everyone’s hopes for next year?

mine is much of the same,

“plz no more epidemic of the sars2”

“Plz can we have peace in our lifetime as promised by everyone”

“Plz can the government stop being bad”

“I hope crypto and NFT’s go defunct without people losing their life savings”

And probably shit tons of crying.

this year has been awful!

the next one we haven’t yet seen.

but I wish everyone a happy new year. (Tho Chinese new year isn’t until later, I can’t wait for it!)

let’s hope this one is marginally better!

Yay, 🎉 (:celebration emoji)

[IMAGE ID: a tiny tabby kitten with impact text that says, “I’m actually not even close to my limit, it takes a lot more than this to knock me down" END ID:]

woo, so much shit has happened this year.

yet we are still alive and we are still here, this is awesome fucking awesome!

shout out to our beloved moots

@crippled-peeper for being cool <3 you made us not hate ourselves because of being disabled you deserve the best, from one to another. next year will hopefully be better, and it will !!!!

@aguineapigcouldntdothis for supporting this blog tirelessly, and being genuinely so cool be proud of yourself! happy new year

@icedragonaftermath for supporting this blog and being cool

@aloeverawrites for everything your awesome

@snekdood for changing my (pop) thoughts on veganism and for being awesome

@blacktipreefsharkwizarding for coming back after being lost in the account move <3

@problematicpooch for supporting the blog!

@t-is-tobi for being genuinely so cool

@roots-system even though we don't talk much you guys are awesome

@75screamingtoads for being the coolest

@rin-and-jade for being one of the best peoples out there, you guys deserve all love !

@iosonounapersonamiao for being so kind and awesome! your the best

@valcaira for being awesome and supporting the blog <3 and just being around, your cool!

@ex-alias for being a huge supporter of this blog, shout out!

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@spark1edog for just being here, it's a joy to see you round!

@theelectricalcity for being a HUGGGGGE supporter

@head-of-sea-foam-the-system for sticking around you guys are the best

@shitpostingsystem who has stuck through thick and thin, you guys deserve the best, thanks for sticking around <3

@anarchywoofwoof hope next year is better, your the best

@atypi-cals you guys are great! <3 thanks for supporting this blog !!!

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@olivertheballer idk who you are, where you came from but you are the chillest guy, and we love seeing you around. your a joy <3

and many many more who I have zeroooooo energy to write.

I wish all of you a happy new year, and best wishes.

from the us-the-voices system,

may next year be kind on you!

[thoughtfullyrainynightmare]

Halloo! ive been reading ur blog and i love it sooo mucch 💌💌💌

can i request for angsty nozel with his wife? so she was a noble and had been busy dealing w her family bussiness. one day she came home late and finding nozel waiting for her. he thinks that shes neglecting her own family and there the argument began. and she accidentally said something sooo hurtful to him due her exhaustion. the ending is up to uuu!

thank you laaura, i hope u live a great life and good luck on your exams! 💟💟💟

Hiyaaa~! ^^

Thank youuu!! ^^ I'm glad to hear that you like my content T^T <3 Oh I love me some hurt-comfort from time to time, so most certainly ^^ You're very welcome, and thank you, I hope the very best for you too!

Pairing: Nozel x f!reader Genre: Hurt-comfort Fanfic type: Oneshot Length: ~1.2k Content/warnings: Wife/reader implies that Nozel would have done better marrying a "numbskull to boss around", reader is a bussiness woman right down to the bone, reader ends up apologizing and comforting Nozel, Nozel is maybe a teeny tiny bit ooc? maybe, hurt-comfort

You were a business woman. Or you considered yourself as one even if the self-given title was a bit misleading considering that you were of noble birth. But you didn’t want to be the kind of a typical noble woman. The text book Noble Lady who didn’t do as much as sit around and order servants around. And gossip.

Hated the gossiping types. Though of course some rumours could be useful in the business world, but that was another thing than maliciously speaking out rumours in order to just make another person’s life difficult. There was discussing events, perhaps even people, and then there was ‘discussing people’.

The latter you hated.

But you, you were someone who was determined to make it in the working world, and had earned the position you held in your family business. You had earned it. Worked for it. And you were going to succeed in it. For your family, your husband, but first and foremost, for yourself.

Actually, you had been a bit surprised to learn that Nozel had harboured feelings for you back in the day, because you had thought that he would have wanted a ‘typical noble wife’ for himself. But instead, he had fallen for you.

He had called you capable, strong, kind and caring; he had called you as someone he would be proud to call a wife and carry the Silva name. These were separated instances of course, but nowadays those discussions linked together in your mind. They made you smile, on most days, because you felt like he understood you.

He was a working man, after all. He was a busy person, too. And so he should understand you, if you were late, and caught up in endless meeting and paperwork. Because he was caught in it too. Which sometimes made married life difficult, but you made it work. You made it work because you loved each other, and cherished the moments you had together even more.

That… was what you expected to come to when you came come that evening.

Not him, standing there with crossed arms in his silk pyjamas and a robe.

“You’re late,” he only said.

“I know, I know, I had a meeting and it went on and on, you know how it’s like. When people can’t get things done and you’re stuck in a circle,” you told him while taking off your outer clothes.

“You’re working even longer than I am these days,” he continued, going somewhere, but not saying it straight.

“I’ll make time for us when I can, I promise.”

He sighed with a frown, which told you about his growing irritation, which in turn made your brows furrow.

“Honey… I’ll try to-“

“You’re not trying enough,” he spoke on top of you making your eyes shoot wide open.

“Ex..cuse me?” You asked, wanting to think that you had heard wrong.

“You’re not making us, our family, the Silvas, into a priority. Instead you value your previous life higher and spend more time with them than here.”

“Of course I spend time with them!” You argued. “Because it’s a part of the business! It’s like telling you that you can’t spend so much time with the knights!”

“I am spending less time with the knights! Because I am here waiting for you!”

“I didn’t ask for it!”

“That’s what married couples are supposed to do! Want to be with each other.”

“Be stuck at home you mean?!”

“I want to see you when I get out of work!”

“Well maybe you should have married a good-for-nothing numbskull that you can boss and show around then.” And that… that was when you heard what you had just said.

You heard it, and… worst of all, you saw it. You saw it in his eyes, the way his eyes widened this time, and how he was biting his molars together to keep himself from saying anything else. To hold his tongue.

His eyes turned to the side, which his posture followed as he turned away to make his way to the window.

It had been a topic of a conversation back, way back, when you had started dating. That he didn’t want someone who’d idly follow his wishes, but would instead be someone who had a mind of her own, who could stand by him. It had been important to him. Because he knew that he could be quite adamant, stern, cold even, and he wanted his wife to be someone who could be there to support him as he tried to unlearn the traits he had picked up while growing up.

And now you were telling him that he didn’t deserve such support. That only someone who would mindlessly follow anyone for the sake of a title would be the only kind of a person, who’d want to be with him. That anyone strong, would look at him and conclude that he was too much work, a rotten piece of work. Damaged goods.

You, essentially, told him that he was unlovable. 

“Nozel I…” you started, taking a few steps closer to him.

“Don’t…” he said but didn’t turn around to look at you. Instead he just looked out of the window into the night.

“I didn’t mean that…”

“It’s fine.”

He wasn’t fine, you knew as much.

“Look I…” you made your way to him and wrapped your arms around his middle, placing your head onto his shoulder. “It’s amazing that you want to see me at the end of the day. I want to see you too, but it’s… I wouldn’t ask you to quit being a knight.”

“I’m not asking you to quit,” he replied with something that was almost a huff. “Just cut back on the hours. Be more present here. Be a family.”

He had a point. Because you were building a new family with him. But it wasn’t as simple as just being an entirely separate family from what you had. You didn’t want that, to just cut out everything from your past. You wanted to have bits from both families.

“I want to have a family with you too, to be a family, but my family is also a part of it. I can devote more or my time to us, but you need to devote more of your time too then.” It sounded like a business deal, but you thought it to be a fair one. Because the common wish for you both was to spend more time together. This would be the way to do it.

There was a pause lingering in the air, for a few seconds, until he finally spoke up.

“Alright. Deal,” there was a hint of a smile in his tone, just a hint. But you’d take it. You’d take that sense of consolation, of acceptance and forgiveness; the tone of moving forward.

But the real consolation came from how he placed his hand on top of yours, and how he sank into the embrace.

You’d make it. Together. In this life.

[faunusrights]

murphy's guide to uuuuuh writing objects/places/locations and things (because two whole people asked)

greetings. this guide may or may not help you, as is true of all guides and advice and tips and tricks. but it helped me, and since i'm the protagonist of this blog this is my definitive guide. it shrimply may not be yours. mileage may vary. that said, allow me to give you said advice in the hopes that it does, in fact, aid you,

so when i was a tiny tater tot you know what i hated writing? descriptions. a lot of people really hate it and so did i, because descriptions were just these big blocks of text that got in the way of the FUN STUFF. you know; the plot! the dialogue! the characters! and i see a lot of writers who, to this day, find themselves writing reams and reams of dialogue with no way of knowing where characters are or what they're doing/holding/interacting with, and even if they do explain, it tends to be a few lines like 'they're in the living room' or 'they're sitting on a chair' like we're directing a film.

[INT. CAFE] they are sitting in some chairs by a table. i'll let the props department decide what kind.

the reality is, you are trying to weave a world in which your reader can step into, and a big part of that is writing the uh. the world. and a few years ago i had a revelation that made writing scenes and descriptions so much fun that it's honestly now my favourite part of writing, and a huge part of this realisation comes from my work as a visual artist. so, i'm going to explain The Box.

now, i want to stress that The Box was not my creation. rather, that honour goes to eric hibbeler and his tutorial eric's thoughts on drawing backgrounds and props, which i'll add a link to in a reblog/reply so tumblr doesn't cast this post into the shadow realm (thanks, tumblr!) but the guide he made also applies to writing with just a bit of tweaking, and i'm gonna explain how.

this cardboard box is just a cardboard box, and it's likely the sort of box you're imagining if i say the words a cardboard box. it's nondescript and pretty generic, and in a scene that calls for a cardboard box, it'll do the job! when we write, describing stuff like the chair or the window or the carpet is vague enough that the reader will, usually, just fill in the visual gap with what their interpretation of the chair or the window or the carpet is. for all you know, their mental image of the scene uses the carpet from the shining! but the thing is, YOU, the writer, may have a WILDLY different vision on the carpet (or chair/window/box etc.) and that's where you need to step in and get SPECIFIC about details.

here is a different take on the same box. we've gotten much more specific about the box's history here; it's been used in a move or for storage at some point, it's been kicked around, taped up, taped down, put a in puddle at one point, had a cat give it a few scratches... it's not that many changes, not really, but the box has--say it with me--character.

character, by definition, means the aggregate of features and traits that form the individual nature of some person or thing. what some writers tend to do, however, is forget this word applies just as much to inanimate objects as it does to the people in their stories. we give characters a lot of, well... character, and forget entirely about the things around them having just as (much if not more) to define them.

in essence, what changed my approach to writing places and locations and backgrounds was the realisation was these are also characters in my scene, with just as much contribution to the plot and the information being provided as any individual person in the same instance. it was only when i realised how important adding such character in visual art was that i realised the same applied to writing!

let's take, for instance, a bedroom in which two characters are holding a conversation. you may be tempted to keep your details sparse except for things that are directly plot relevant because you want to get on with the good bits, i.e. the talk itself, but what you can use the bedroom for is to tell information about the owner or resident without having to outline it in exposition. this is where getting good at giving character to spaces becomes very powerful as a tool.

Velvet's bedroom wasn't much to look at; a double-bed, a desk to edit her photos at, and a few pictures of her family and friends on the walls. Still, she sits down on her bed and invites Blake to do the same.

In this instance, a reader gets the general gist of the location--it's a bedroom with bedroom-typical things in it--but the room lacks any characters or specificity, which sticks out for narrative reasons because velvet is full of character; her bedroom would be the same! so, we have to build on what her bedroom would actually be like in order to build its character and define velvet without directly saying what she's like as a person:

Velvet's bedroom was in disarray, as ever; she hadn't made her bed because she wasn't really expecting guests, and her desk was littered with all her photography gear from SD cards to lenses to all her cleaning supplies. A few last-ditch attempts to make the place look a little more organised took the form of straightening out all her framed pictures of her family and friends that took up all the wall space she could spare, dusting off her big pride flag over her bed before she plopped herself down, straightening out her duvet before inviting Blake to sit next to her with a smile.

now, the bedroom has prominence as its own source of information: we understand that velvet isn't really a tidy person by nature; photography is a big enough part of her life to dominate her personal space; her family and her friends are important to her; her identity is also a large component of her personality; she likes to try and give her guests a better impression even if it's half-assed. and we covered all that without velvet actually having to say any of that information out loud! wow!

normally, of course, i'd lace that information in a little more subtly and over a few paragraphs rather than in one big dump, but the effect is the same; when a space has character, you can treat it as a character that has just as much importance to a scene as the dialogue or the interactions two people have.

this concept can be applied to a single prop, like a box or a camera or a desk or the like, and can also be applied to a much bigger location, like a park or a school or a house or more. the idea is that often, things are never just in their generic form, but have history that impacts the way it looks or defines the person or people who interact with it.

you wouldn't write these two playgrounds in exactly the same way; they both have a swing, a slide, a bench, a sign, and a tree... but depending on how you write it, one has a kind of character for a setting, narrative, or larger location that's way different to the other! this ends up defining your wider world, too; maybe one playground is nice and new because the council got the funding they asked for, but the other is in an area known for having little investment? in the end, were these two parks humanised, they'd likely be people with very different personalities; that's the sort of approach you should have!

the TL;DR of this whole thing is that description is not the part where you start listing off items in the room or the building or the location just so your reader has a vague idea of where they are, but an opportunity to turn that space into a person who has a whole bunch to say about the people who are frequently present. you can even see this in action by writing the differences between, say, your bedroom and the bedroom of your sibling/parent/friend; chances are, they're VERY different spaces that represent two very different people! this is also true of a kitchen, your home, your school, your campus, or your workplace; the office of someone who works in IT won't look like the office of someone who works in accounting, even if they share a lot of qualities and items.

ultimately, think of the humble Box; sure, a regular cardboard box might suffice to give the reader an idea of what's in a scene, but when we give that Box a personality of its own, suddenly that Box has a lot to say about the person who owns it--and not all of them may be good!

[mikareo]

“ ࣭⸰ ★ post of gratitude ! <3

⊹ ⠀⠀ hi guys! on my old blog, i'd make a post every november to spread gratitude for the mutuals i interact w most n wanted to carry that tradition onto this blog! ily all and hope that your day was wonderful today (unless ur a nanami stan bc that was rlly rough im so sorry abt that ep ajskl)

psa; if u weren't tagged in this post, pls know that i appreciate u very much and would love to interact w u more!! msg me anytime n i'll try my best to visit ur inbox in the near future!

꒰ . . to my readers ꒱

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ thank u so much for supporting my work by reading, liking, sharing, or commenting on any of my writing! i love reading through reblogs and seeing what u guys think of my ideas,, it's so motivating n i appreciate it so much like omg sometimes u got my kickin my feet reading thru ur comments ajskl i hope to post quality content for ur enjoyment n i luv u all,, much more to come as time goes on !!!

꒰ . . to my mutuals ꒱ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ᯇ in alphabetical order

⌗ @chigirizzz ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ hi val! just wanted to say that i love how supportive u are of other creators on the site,, i feel like whenever i see u on the dash ur always hyping someone up or making their day brighter! ALSO i cant believe u also know the voltage otome games bc i feel like i'm crazy sometimes bc no one know what they are LMFAO i hope u had an amazing day !!!

⌗ @doobea ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ dooby!!! i love the bright energy u bring to my dash n i think ur absolutely gorgeous (u ate that choso costume up omg ajskdlf) ur always such a pleasure to interact w n i think ur writing is amazing,, i rlly need to just binge it all one night ESP the choso fics u post bc ur writing rlly captures how much u love him LOL my fav choso worshipper <3 hope yall get married!

⌗ @hesthermay ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ hi pookie teehee,, i haven't answered ur text yet bc i was trying to figure out how to fry chicken (3 of them were raw ajsklf) but i will after i post this lol. ilyvm and i can't wait for u to stay w me,, i'm gonna take u to the mall n treat u to some canes chicken fingers *heart eyes* (i'm typing on my laptop forgive me) you've been w me since my org blog from sept 2020 n i act can't believe how long we've known each other now (3 years!) ur so old like ur my granny but that's ok bc ur my favorite granny ever,, sorry for violating u #ageism is not okay,, i miss u so much n i miss ur bf bc ur my mom n dad (legally) i even miss ur roommate who i actually can't rlly remember the name of but that's not the point i'm trying to make so forget i said that part,, i definitely know his name!!! also i decided that kingsley is my favorite dog u have bc he's tiny n reminds me of my doggie,, luv ya! text u in a bit!

⌗ @itadorey ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ omg hi inez, remember these? no u probably don't bc i got rlly lazy w my blog in the late days (rip aitarose) i love all of the tiktoks u send me n i love ur instagram stories bc they make me laugh n i love how much u love snoopy,, he's literally my idol n there are so many statues of him in my city it's so funny n they always make me think of u. ur my yung gravy queen,, i love u so much n i'm so glad hq tumblr let me meet u even tho it was lowkey traumatizing (yikes) our mudae days were so fun,, esp the night i let that person put the roleplay bot into my server jkals so grateful for u !!!

⌗ @kitorin ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ hiiii souta!!!! i just wanted to say that i LOVE seeing u comment first on my writing posts,, like it motivates me so much bc i know i have such a large support system coming from u n ur so sweet n talented AJSJJJ u were (i think?) my first new mutual on this blog when i first made it,, n you've made coming back to tumblr such a welcoming n amazing experience! i'm so grateful to be ur mutual n i hope you've had an absolutely amazing day!

⌗ @mymegumi ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ firstly BITCH ANSWER MY TEXT. secondly, happy thanksgiving! <3 wish we were spending it together but distance is real n it hates us :( miss u and can't wait to see u whenever that is lmfao like whenever plane tickets decide to stop being so expensive,, so glad we aren't beefing anymore haha that was so silly of us... anyways... whenever i do see u, i'm going to give u a big hug n then we're going to gossip abt everything that's happened since we were last together n it's going to be great bc i'm going to make u watch twice videos n ur gonna love them as much as i do bc i'm ur sister n u have no choice but to love what i love! hahaha... i love you so much n i'm so glad ur my sister #meimei n jiajia 4ever <- that's actually approved by me n that's all that matters bc i'm actually the president of the world and ur my favorite person on it jaklsdf ANSWER MY TEXT BITCH

⌗ @pokkomi ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ chiu u r genuinely one of the most positive ppl i've ever met on tumblr n i love u sm for it like jaskdlfjdkl u always make my day when u reblog a post n reading ur tags is so heartwarming n it makes me want to write a million more pieces just to see what u think of them,, ur theme is absolutely adorable n i love ur alpha wolf pfp bc it's so funny n i was literally giggling when u were answering asks abt it n i saw them on my dash,, i hope that every day is an amazing day for u n if u ever need anything u can come in my pms to chat or my inbox (i will def be saying hi later in urs LOL) have an amazing amazing day n i can't wait for u to post any kind of writing in the future!

⌗ @rewh0re ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ hi hana!!! i'm so glad u popped into my inbox n said hi bc i always saw u interacting w ppl on the dash n i was too nervous to say hi jakfsdlkl i love interacting w u n talking abt whatever n whenever in inboxes or replies,, ur username always makes me giggle n i love it so much (i always read it as 'reo whore' for some reason asjfdkl but i love it) i send ur kuroo fics to my kuroo stan friend n she eats them up,, ur writing style is so beautiful n emotional,, i love the way u structure ur plots w metaphors n repetition n symbolism n everything u put into ur hard work it's all so amazing,, wishing u the very best day tmr ever!

⌗ @wishmemel ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAFI!!!! ik i alr said it but it never hurts to hear a million times n more! i associate u sm w sanrio like idk if mymelo is ur favorite but in my head u r the real life her ajsfkl,, ur so sweet n genuine i love interacting w u n seeing u all over my dash,, I HOPE UR BIRTHDAY WAS AMAZING !!!! ... fixing this bc im screaming bc i can't believe i mixed that up omg... anyways... LUV U

⌗ @yoisami ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ OKAY FIRST i literally LOVE ur theme like it's so cute n so fitting to ur personality i love it sm ajsfkdl saki ur so sweet n i'm so glad we're mutuals bc i always look forwards to seeing u on my dash or going to ur inbox (which i'm lacking on rn but i promise i'll visit it more soon jaskdl!!!!) the way u support ff writing on tumblr is so amazing w ur reblogs n tags,, n i look foward to reading more of ur writing in the future (hopefully i can live up to ur sweet tags!) !!! have an amazing amazing day saki !!!!!!

⌗ @y2kuromi ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ screaming bc i got ur bday mixed up w another mutual but HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN LMFAO !!!! i hope that ur day was so amazing n that i'm not getting this wrong again (SORRY SAFI) !!! mimi ur so nice i'm like giggling so hard rn im so sorry,, happy happy birthday hope it was amazing!

⌗ all of my other loves <3 ₊ ˖ ་.

⋆⋆⋆⠀ ⠀ i love being mutuals w all of u n being a part of such a supportive writing community! ur all so talented n ur blogs r beautiful, i hope ur day was absolutely amazing n that we can interact more in the future (i will be invading ur inboxes that's a promise ajfskdl) !!!! happy november!!!

[tiny-princessz]

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♡ Introduction to me and to this blog! ♡

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੭੭ ݂ 21. ( Amber ) ׄ 🧸 ꒱

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✧ㅤִ ﹙she / they / it + neos﹚. ౨౿

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♡ ~ Hi hello my loves! ~ ♡

♡ ~ My name is Amber! I am a disabled queer person here on the internet and I'm also nonhuman. ~ ♡

♡ ~ My queer identity:

× I'm a trans demifeminine genderice cloudfem being who is bisexual, biromantic and taken!

× My pronouns are she/they/it/star/shine. I don't usually use emoji pronouns but if you'd use them, use 💗/💗s for me. My titles are star shineness, it who dreams, th3 3mpr3ss (translation/plain text: the empress), tiny princessz (with the z).

× My nicknames are Am, Bear, Kitty, Gray and Starz. I fluctuate between them.

♡ ~ My disabilities:

× I am multiply disabled, chronically ill and mentally ill.

× My main disabilities and the ones that impact me the most are Autism, Misophonia, OCD, ME/CFS, BPS, IBD and Terminal Ileitis. I have other disabilities with impact both my brain and body in many ways.

× I deal with bladder and bowel issues and post about it. No this is not a fetish. While I am kinky myself, I don't have this fetish. This is me suffering, not having fun. I am disabled. /serious

× I use crutches, a cane, an AAC app and am looking into getting a wheelchair or a rollator.

× I am demiverbal and low to middle support needs autistic.

♡ ~ My nonhuman identity:

× I am physically nonhuman, a holothere, otherkin, therian and have a mindscape (though that does not mean I'm plural!). I am a type of shapeshifting angelic fairy. I am not of this world. My soul is much older than my body. I am also a practicing witch and polytheist that worships many gods, mainly The Drowned God.

♡ ~ My interests, alliance ect.:

× I am a furry (as in a hobby), an age regressor (not in a sexual way), a peaceful anarchist and a far leftist, person who participates in cpunk and unitypunk, an eepyqueer with a stance against discourse and am neutral on AI. I selfship. I use subliminals and spells. I am pro reality shifting and do it from time to time.

× I'm in the BDSM community. I'm kinky. I've been repressing that part of me for the longest time and I'm finally letting that out. I have a Fetlife account. Honestly, if that makes you uncomfortable please just don't follow me.

♡ ~ What I support:

I support people with atypical dysphoria, people with good faith identities and people with all disabilities (yes, even people with personality disorders and people who's disabilities cause them to be "unhygenic" or "strange"). I am pro-Palestine. I think discourse is not good and will not participate in it.

♡ ~ My DNI + DNF:

⚠️I ask for minors not to interact with this blog please, due to some nsfw and vents that will be on it occasionally. This is for your safety. That means: no following, no liking posts, no sending messages or asks.⚠️

Do not interact if you are a bigot of any kind, hate minorities, are anti-nonhuman, think physical nonhumanity is always a result of mental illness, are a homophobe/transphobe or an exclusionist. TERFs/SWERFs and the like aren't welcome here. Cops are not welcome here. Transmeds aren't welcome here. Ableists and saneists aren't welcome here. If you are anti self diagnosis you aren't welcome here.

If you are against kink DNI. This blog contains many mentions of kink. I am prokink.

Don't ask me about syscourse, I am not a system. Don't ask me about shipcourse, I don't do shipping.

I am eepyqueer. Don't ask me about discourse. I think discourse is not good for my mental health. I prioritize myself and the safety of my community.

♡ ~ Other notes:

Stay safe and take care of yourselves. <3

[daily-anime-chilchuck]

Hii~ Pinned post

Blog run by @ririthu

Basic DNI applies. No racism, sexism, lgbt+ hate, proship, etc etc you get the gist. Blogs with no pfp also get blocked.

also PLEASE behave in my notes, I will block you if I get uncomfortable. This means no sexual or ship stuff, for personal reasons.

I won't be putting any text on the pictures, only tags. Will also most likely be cropping them so there's mainly him unless I don't feel like it

I watch the anime in both sub and dub. Sub for my first watch through, and dub when I'm taking screenshots for this blog so I don't get any subtitles in the pictures.

Posts may contain manga spoilers in the tags from me. I've read the entire manga and am sososooo excited for the rest of it to be adapted okayy

Tagging system:

For specific episodes, "episode _"

Guest characters, "ft. ____"

If there's just a part of him in frame I'll tag something like "'s hand/foot/hair/etc"

And if he's teeeeeny tiny in the bg or similar I'll tag as "small of chuck"

Non chil/talking posts, "no timbs"

if he's being a childad(I decide when), "childad moment"

[floweringsweetheart2]

📧 | [ I envy and am jealous of fakeboys ]

Wednessday, (20/nov/2024)

➣ Welcome paragraph🎀

Hello my fellow incubators in training, sluts/slaves, desperate bimbos and dear followers! Here it is another post of mine discussing about.... guess what? FAKEBOYS.

For your information, I am not actually a TERF!! Nor I condone actual transphobia, even though my vent is kind of way too genuine to the acceptable standarts of today, and I'm really wondering if my blog or post is gonna get taken down for hate speech because many of you might not understand what I'm acyually tryna say😭

Some implicit intonations of my text are clearly related to the kink (even though im kinda too masculine to be seen by others as a cisgender girl unfortunately) but others are genuine vent. Since I want to still let some mystery behind some of my intentions, I won't clarify ALL of my statements. Why? Because it's midnight and I'm lazy asf, even tho I only played for the past couple hours roblox lmao)

If you're not fine with my vent for a list of reasons (e.g.), please, I kindly invite to consider arguing with the wall. My blog wasn't made for everyone to enjoy its content (even though my main objective here besides mindlessly posting stuff I feel like is entertaining my "followers". The block button is just a few couple clicks away so, why bother in the comment section when you can pretend you've never seen my vent before?

➣ Why so many warnings? 🎀

Because this topic (dysphoria in general) is something that hugely impacts on my life, especially since I had been forced to submit to the overwhelming psychological burden and "debt" that is integrating to womanhood (even though I didn't even had completed two digits before I had been introduced).

The instability that is being an unnatractive woman in womanhood, especially when put in it against my will had generated a really profound trauma inside my head which I avoid talking to, but since this blog is kind of a vent account when I post "seriously" (cos no one can take me seriously actually) , I will talk abouy it to you guys :)

➣ Struggling at the most basics🎀

I am NOT a fakeboy. Because, if I were financially and aesthetically allowed, my expression of gender will be higly feminine, since I am afab and had been identifying with my designated gender at birth :/

But, as I mentioned before, just as socially expected, I am unnatractive. I can't show no pics of me but I'm ugly as hell, but like, I had never felt comfortable in my own skin and it IS about naturally manifesting your gender spectrum.

Cuz like, first of all... You all guys know that I'm straight but I simply LOVE TITS!!!! Maybe because I was raised in a male-dominated humor culture (not men humor, plsase!) And, for most of my womanhood life (idk, almost a decade??? idk) I have been considered a quite busty girl for soemone my age. I am actually a 38E cup but they look like something in between C cups and B cups... Weird...

So, when I see all the girls having some rapid breaat growth (obtaining in a couple of months what I slowly achieved in 3 years or so) makes me genuinely so fucking mad... I must be the curviest girl in any room!!! How can this happen!??!?!?

And it it of common sense that FtMs use binders so their sillouette doesn't look too feminine, but something that infuriates me (not just a tiny bit... like, A LOT) is that they ALWAYS have the sluttiest and tiniest waists to touch... Always the biggest udders to grope in family gatherings... The juiciest thighs to lick, the curviest hips to birth and bear, THE SHORTEST HEIGHTSSSSSS!!!!! THE TINIEST NOSED AND HANDSSS

Like, I understand that gender doesn't work that way but... Isn't it so unfair that we, cis girls who struggle to make ourselves more feminine then there's someone who milks money out of their sketchy tumblr blog for literally trying to get rid of those udders... Like, uhm, at least give us some???? wtf bro

I am genuinely almost bawling my eyes out after this vent post because... idk man IT'S SO UNFAIR, SO UNFAIR URAGHGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! What have I done to be born in this miserable body? I literally look like an ogre :(

[papayafiles]

(big text post that kind of starts in the middle of a thought but it's my blog so it's fine) (re: twitter)

the thing with people viewing (twt) lando fans as "haters" or "hypocrites" is that in my view, a lot of lando fans are doing it in a mostly retaliatory way, a kind of "you all nitpick and hate on lando for no reason so now i'm gonna do it to your drivers, to be fair/for you to get a taste of your medicine/as revenge bc i want you to suffer the way i did." and furthermore a lot of people nitpicking/pulling out tiny moments from other drivers are doing it in a "if lando did this he would be CRUCIFIED" way and not a "look at this tiny moment that is for real so horrible and disgusting; now send hate" way, and then it gains traction and kind of morphs into something else/actual hate/general discourse that just appears to outsiders as "wow all these people are genuinely upset over this tiny moment and they're yelling at each other/the driver on twitter about it." even many qrts that appear to be straight-up hate, as someone who knows the accounts, are doing it in a "well you've lowered the bar previously so now i'm just stooping to your level. see? how does this feel, hmm?" kind of way. it's all very chip-in-shoulder.

and that's not something i've personally seen from many other fanbases—when they hate on lando (or whoever), they do it in a direct "look at this loser" or "how dare he say this horrible thing" etc way, and i much more rarely see the "my driver would NEVER be allowed to do this; therefore HE (other driver) deserves to be punished for it" sentiment. (and this is very likely because those other drivers have received less widespread online hate to cause this knee-jerk reaction in their fanbases; and, in particular, less hate due specifically to nitpicked out-of-context moments/twisted words/pure misinformation. which i'll say is the most frustrating brand of hate)

and obviously if this continues other fanbases will start doing the same back and it'll be this cycle of "how's a taste of your own medicine you hypocrites" over and over and furthermore this is largely an internet/twitter phenomenon which, echo chambers and reactive communities. but still. and there's no moral or solution to this; it's just something i've noticed.

[long-haired-hottie]

I’m Ken, feel free to ask but all the pronouns are okay. Addressing me as he/him is entirely welcome. This means I am LGBTQIA+ friendly. If you’re a TERF or radfem or racist or whatever then fuck off. You just don’t want to talk to me and I don’t want to talk to you. In fact, block me on sight. Make our lives easier by just not making interactions possible.

11/24/24: This post is now my functioning About and Rules page. I'm on my cell more often than I originally thought so it makes no sense to continue hopping between the two for a rules page.

11/8/24: I am not a fandom blog. I am a RP blog. If you are not a RP blog and you want to interact with me by sending me headcanon or world building asks that's fine. If you want to comment on my posts that aren't RPs that's fine. I do ask that my OOC posts not be reblogged unless I state that it's okay. It's a squick of mine.

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I block people like the wind changes direction. You may not have done anything wrong and if you feel that way then just feel free to have someone ask me what’s up. You might get unblocked and you might not. If you do then cool. If you don’t then move on with your life.

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Unless otherwise specified, Dija starts out at twenty-two years of age and has just gotten out of a six year relationship.

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[loominggaia]

FUTURE LG STORIES EXPOSED (MAJOR SPOILERS!)

So, my surgery is coming up next month. There is always a chance of complications. This one has a long, brutal recovery even under the best conditions. Estimated recovery is 2-3 weeks, assuming I don’t need radiation. In that case, I will be down for much longer. Then, you know, there’s always that tiny chance that I don’t survive the procedure (not likely, but with my luck…Jesus, you never know…)

My point is, the future is uncertain and there may not be new content for a long time after my procedure. So, I would like to expose my outlines for the next several Looming Gaia stories. I won’t post the full drafts with all the details, but I will give a very abridged summary of each one that explains the major plot points. B-plots and other details will not be included, so there is still incentive to read the full versions even after you’ve been “spoiled”.

The following text contains MAJOR spoilers for the next several stories in the series. It won’t spoil every little detail, but it will expose the most important stuff that happens. Of course this whole blog is basically a giant spoiler for the series, and there isn’t any good way to avoid that. But I will at least make an attempt here by placing the following text under a cut. Read at your own discretion!

FUTURE LG STORIES EXPOSED: PART 1

(These titles are not final, some of them are just crappy placeholders)

Agony Awakens - Tep, the former Morite prince, sets out on a quest to join the Cult of the Crescent. He believes if he can find a lost Staff of Agony and give it to the Divine of Hate, he will be rewarded with a magical Crescent priest mask. He locates the Staff of Agony, which is being guarded by a skorpius named Splitter. He convinces Splitter to join his quest, promising him wealth and power if they succeed. They are joined by an agony wretch they simply call Wretch, who is the only one capable of touching the Staff of Agony without crumpling from its power.

They use Wretch to deliver the Staff of Agony to Disgrace on the day of his resurrection. Disgrace is pleased with the gift, but his resources are stretched thin after his last defeat and he cannot afford to forge a new mask for Tep. His commander, an elf named Goryx, tells Tep that if he wants a mask, he will have to take an existing one by force. Goryx traps Tep into a death match and Tep is losing badly, until his loyal cohorts Splitter and Wretch come to his rescue. Goryx’s elven vessel is killed, and it turns out Goryx is the name of the mask itself, not the elf. The mask parasitizes Tep, becoming one with his body and mind, and Tep becomes the new Goryx. Goryx appoints Splitter as his knight and Wretch as his lackey, and he remains second-in-command to Disgrace.

Disgrace sends the trio to capture a thousand people from Yerim-Mor Capital. King Roz is willing to give them up to keep the peace, but Prince Jaq resists. Jaq assembles a troop of priestesses from the Order of Love and Light and fights Goryx’s vile army. Goryx’s troop retreats, but still manages to capture enough people to satisfy Disgrace. Disgrace enslaves these people and forces them to start building his new empire. Meanwhile, he forges a new battalion of monsters for Goryx and orders him to steal the Divine Executioner back from Drifter’s Hollow.

For Goodness Sake - Feeling burned by Zeffer, Connor decides to tell the Evangeline Guard who is responsible for the Kelvingyard incident, feeling he has nothing to lose and everything to gain. Goryx and his evil battalion descend upon Drifter’s Hollow, but they happen to arrive at the same time as the Evangeline Guard. The Freelance Good Guys get caught in the fray, and the three forces battle each other. The Evangeline Guard retreats and the Freelance Good Guys mop up the last of the Crescent troops. Isaac corners who he thinks is Disgrace, but is actually Goryx. Isaac lets Goryx go, if only to deliver a message back to Disgrace: "fight your own battles, coward!"

Connor arrived with the Evangeline Guard to identify the FGG to them, but they left him behind when they retreated. Evan confronts him about this, and Connor explains that he only did it because Zeffer ran him off into the wilderness to die. Furious and betrayed, Evan tells both Connor and Zeffer to get out of his sight and never return. Connor runs off, but Zeffer can’t handle losing Evan and has a mental breakdown. Evan made Zeffer promise him he’d never commit suicide back in “The Aldfog Mystery”, so Zeffer begs Evan to kill him instead. Evan refuses, so Zeffer bites Lilian and infects her with his vampirism. She can only be cured if he dies, and Zeffer believes this will force Evan’s hand.

However, Evan doesn’t get a chance to budge before Lilian attacks Zeffer herself. She uses the move Alaine taught her in “Pig Bait” to escape his hold and stabs him to death with his own dagger, sucking the blood from his heart and curing herself. Meanwhile, Connor runs back to Evangeline Kingdom and tracks down the sergeant who abandoned him. He demands a reward for exposing the ones who committed the Kelvingyard incident, but the sergeant doesn’t see it that way. Rather, he believes Connor led them right into a Crescent Cult ambush and imprisons him for life.

Some time later, Evan gets a letter from Abigail. She says Connor is on death row and Sofia suffered a fatal heart attack when she heard the news. Enclosed is the deed to the farm and all the Atlas family assets, which now legally belong to Evan. Abigail says he can have it all, but she never wants to see his face again after letting this happen to her son. Evan ends up selling the farm and using this fortune to recruit help from some of his old friends and clients. He receives mercenary troops from Jelani, enchanted beasts from Natoma, ogrish soldiers from the Redsnake Canyons, warriors from Kirkmar, and nymphs from the Hollow to help him break Connor out of prison.

Evan tells Connor he doesn’t forgive him, he only did this for Abigail’s sake, and if he’s really sorry then he’ll go help his mother get away from Edmund. With Connor’s help, Abigail abandons her crummy marriage to Edmund, then she and her son start a new life in Glasstide. Evan returns to the Hollow, where all Sofia’s former slaves now live. Most of them eventually head north to become Folkvar citizens, but Habrene decides to stay.

Just Choose Skycruise - Evan receives tickets to a Zareenite luxury cruise from an old client, as gratitude for a job well done. Evan has been depressed about the deaths of Zeffer and Sofia and believes this vacation will help lift everyone's spirits. He has enough tickets for his entire crew, but realizes Zeffer isn’t with them anymore, so he has one extra. He decides to invite Lilian in his place, despite his sour feelings towards her since killing Zeffer.

The whole crew + Lilian boards a luxury airship in Zareen Empire. They each have their own separate adventures, but all of them end up getting in trouble with security and thrown into the brig. Lilian is the only one who manages to behave herself, but she isn’t fit to fight off the sky pirates that suddenly hijack the ship and begin robbing everyone.

She turns into a bat to escape them and free the Freelance Good Guys from their cells. They manage to fight off the sky pirates and are hailed as heroes by the people who previously wrote them off as hoodlums. The ship lands safely in Zareen Capital as planned, and Evan reconciles with Lilian.

More parts coming soon...

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