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3un015 · 11 months ago

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My for you page is literally filled with Malevolent content

@jazziethh this is your fault!

#Malevolent #malevolent podcast #malevolent podfic #I wanna listen to this podcast so baaaaad #But I don't have any time #;-;

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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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bioethicists · 8 months ago

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every time a new SA allegation of a favored celeb arises, i'm reminded of the absolutely soul-crushing experience of the depp/heard trial in which i learned that dozens of ppl i loved + respected + trusted were also willing to engage in the basest form of misogyny if the woman Seemed Crazy Enough. there was a horrifying 2ish weeks on this website + much longer irl where i genuinely felt unsafe voicing my discomfort as i relived something eerily reminiscent of the aftermath of my own assaults playing out on screen, commented on by true crime youtubers like it was a red sox game.

it happens time + time again with every new allegation + it's truly the most agonizing + exhausting part of being a survivor. i am begging you all to consider that survivors are watching you engage with this stuff like theater + it erodes our trust in all of you + compounds our grief.

#one of the only things i still have blacklisted is depp/heard #the whole ~she's a borderline bitch who deserved whatever happened cuz she was the crazy one~#schtick is smth i never expected to have to watch play out on a public stage so much so that my 50 year old acquaintances would know of it #now every time it's a new Beloved Celeb i'm like i don't trust any of you fucking ppl

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jojaxcola · 1 month ago

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"no one told me back then that i was in the glory days."

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#stardew valley #stardew valley fanart #sdv shane #sdv sam #jojamart mockumentary #my art #this was inspired by an anonymous ask i received saying:#“Do you have any art of Shane outside of work? Maybe with the hens more in his element?”#and naturally my brain popped up with this idea #of shane at work and also not with the hens #:(#but it made me reflect on the other aspects of shane that we know about #i wish i knew more about his time as an athlete #also!!#the reason i made that poll a few days ago is that the school semester is starting up #i am a part time student in addition to having a full time job #so i'm not 100% sure if i'll have room to make new art #but i don't want to stop posting (at least that's how i'm feeling at the moment)#so it might be fun to highlight my process!!

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milkamel · 16 days ago

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I don't think this guy is good at handling any kind of affection let's be real 🙏

#mmelart #cookie run kingdom #shadow milk crk #shadow milk cookie #pure vanilla crk #pure vanilla cookie #truthless recluse #shadowvanilla #pureshadow #I feel like Shadow Milk wouldn't accept any kindness well especially from someone who he's attached to lol #Like.. he finds it comforting but also hates it and fears at the same time if you know what I mean #And I can imagine PV secretly trying to give it to him without it being suspicious or something while being Truthless Recluse #Okay idk how to put it into words but I hope you understand my vision here- I can't think properly I don't want it to be way too OOC #They have been on my mind so much I need moreee

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hinamie · 7 months ago

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big fan of panels where they look like they wld beat me up

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuuji #megumi #YUUJI WILL NOT COOPERATE TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME >:(((#is it the angle ? is it the expression?? the bangs??????? am i just a fraud and a fake yuuji liker i dont know at this point #god #just . just take it i cant fiddle with the proportions any more ill go insane #it was worse when i tried colouring it but im STILL not 100% sold on it no matter what i shift or tilt #megumi my darling boy i love u at least You always have my back :'<#honestly my leading theory is that bc my yuuji design looks objectively More different than his canon design #its more prone 2 looking Wrong in my head #but even so !!! if i *have* my yuuji design down why does it still feel like im fighting fr my gd life when i try 2 draw him #it feels like he is shattering my drawing hand and smiling at me n taunting me w those shiny puppy eyes th entire time #head in hands I Don't Get It #when will i get it #anyway scoreboard yuuji: 623453766235 hina: 0

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spudcat · 2 months ago

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#raven.txt #gravity falls #stanley pines #stanford pines #edit: yeah this is presented as a meme but it's really .not that funny #like i have cried over this situation .multiple times. whenever i think about stanley too hard i start fucking crying #i don't think i ever cried over any fictional characters beside him? he has autism in his eyes i love you stanley pines

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emmavakarian-theirin · 2 months ago

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obsessed with the way lucanis just says "no." sometimes

#i have 'GIVE ME. FIRE.' pop in my head way too frequently.#lucanis dellamorte #dragon age veilguard spoilers #da4 spoilers #maybe it's just me bc i don't have that much control of my voice to put specific emotions in a 2 letter word but i just think they're neat #irrelevant but while putting this together i noticed there's a tear in rook's left eye in that last scene? which i'm pretty sure is a glitc #from having tears in lucanis' eyes earlier but it's bizarre i only noticed this now on my laptop screen #and not any of the times i've played through this scene on a 4k tv lol

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mari-lair · 4 months ago

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the 'favor tree'!

#siffrin? more like sif is out au #i am still not answering any loop asks btw you all will have to puzzle wtf their roles is through crumbs~ good luck :)#isat au #in stars and time #isat #isat loop #loop constantly having an 'i don't want to be here. this au sucks' vibe is important to me #quick art #mari draws #isat spoilers #CAUSE LOOP HOW DID I FORGET

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forgettable-au · 5 months ago

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I'm sick so I drew silly things about my AU lmao don't take these that seriously

#made these in my tablet instead of my computer and I realized I don't have any of the fonts sigh.......#so I improvised #“No girls allowed! No boys allowed! Papyrus allowed.”#these are so silly I missed doing silly AU stuff (has done it twice before #(this is the third time)#forgettable-au #undertale au #undertale #I don't even know if I should tag these #gaster #papyrus #papyrus!gaster #flowey #I keep drawing Gaster differently qyswodhwsj #but I think I'm settling for a design.....

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 20 days ago

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Maybe we never had a chance.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #a-yuan #Ultimately...despite how hard we try to reach people - sometimes it just is not possible.#Sometimes all you can do is wish that things could have been different. You pen a note with all the things you want to say -#and then you let it go. The words stay unsent and unspoken. You just watch the rift between you grow until you're too far away to try again #It is a sad end! It is two people who want to be closer but do not have the right capacity to do anything but shut doors.#Worse yet; it's two people who feel it is not their place to try and impose anything more.#It takes so long to heal from endings like that. You never get enough closure when there is still a faint hope of 'another day'.#It's a false amicability. It's closing a door and telling yourself that at least the windows are unlocked.#WWX will keep up his friendliness as a way to hold LWJ at a distance. LWJ can only try to help so many times.#Speaking of tragedies of trying to help; Let's talk about the addiction metaphors in this episode.#WWX tells LWJ in fairly straightforward terms that he does not *want* do be doing ghost cultivation.#What he wants is to protect people - by any means necessary. If he had another option he would take it.#The path WWX 'chose' is one that is deeply mired in external shame and taboo. He jokes about it but it clearly doesn't feel great.#And I put 'chose' in quotes because just like many who find them selves in bad situations - the choice is an illusion.#He's adamant that this is 'his' choice. That he is in control.#Better to be villainized that endure the terrifying reality that you lack any ability to have choice anymore.#If he had the choice - truly had the choice - he would not be doing this.#You can't help those who don't want to be helped. So of course all LWJ can do is watch from the side. Offer a hand when he can.#This life was a tragedy and the countdown to it all blowing up started a long time ago...

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lucabyte · 7 months ago

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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

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#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks #hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature #ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual #isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete #they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot

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luxlightly · 2 months ago

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"If you're hurt by finding out that a person you admired did something bad or are worried about the idea they might, it shows you need to not form attachments to people you don't personally know."

I have bad news for you about how literally the entirety of human socialization and the human mind work. You can say "here's a stick from off the ground. his name is Stanley and he has a loving family" and then break the stick and people will feel hurt because they formed a positive connection to Stanley. Humans project attachment onto everything. Asking people not to feel connections to other humans is not feasible. It's not possible and, if it were, it sure as hell wouldn't be healthy.

You didn't do anything wrong if you feel hurt that someone you didn't personally know did something wrong. You're not parasitic or obsessive for wanting people you don't personally know to be good people. Being devastated that someone you liked did something horrible isn't a sign you liked them too much, it's a sign you have the basic human ability to form emotional and social connections. Your responsibility is being aware of those connections and behaving in ways that are healthy, respectful, and keep you and others safe.

Trying to just not admire people or not feel a connection to other humans won't work. Focus instead on being aware of what your relationships to other people are, what actions on your part are acceptable given that level of relationship, what actions are acceptable on their part, and what level of relationship it's realistic or healthy to project. And be ready, as with all things in life, to change your views on something or someone when presented with new information, even if you have very strong emotional connections to the subject. For example: "I'd love to get a cup of coffee with the celebrity I don't know and talk with them about a film they're in. I imagine that would be nice." <- normal human emotion "I will go to this celebrity I don't know and ask them, apropos of nothing, to get a coffee with me/I expect this celebrity I've never met WILL go to coffee with me" <- Unrealistic level of projected relationship. Crosses boundaries of normal human interactions between strangers.

"I'm devastated this actor I liked was an abuser" <- normal human emotion

"I won't believe that this actor was an abuser because I like him and therefore can tell he wouldn't do that" <- Unrealistic and unhealthy level of projected relationship. Unsafe for you and others.

You can't just "not admire" people, yes, even people you don't know personally. Instead, be careful to make sure your admiration of someone doesn't affect your ability to make judgements about them.

#i don't know #I see a lot of posts that are clearly well meaning and the idea of maintaining a realistic view of your connections to strangers is solid #but they always seem to rely on this underlying shame #and this idea that it's on you to never form positive feelings because what if they're wrong #it's not sustainable and frankly it's very easy to exploit #because if your philosophy boils down to 'don't ever have parasocial relationships'#(which is impossible to begin with #since humans feel connections with everyone all the time #and any "many-to-one' relationship of performer to audience is technically 'parasocial')#it means all someone has to do to circumvent it is convince you you're more than a fan and have a closer relationship than that #which is already where the danger is #be aware of the behaviors of everyone you interact with #and ready to adjust your behavior and your views on people when you need to especially when you don't know them well #you're just going to be fighting a losing battle trying to just not care about celebrities #it's on them for doing something horrible not on you for daring to form connections with other people

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kedreeva · 29 days ago

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I need you to understand that the very straight and immediate line from someone's very confident "I don't like mice/I've handled mice before so I know what they're like" to joyous wonder as they hold the first calm, friendly mouse they've ever held and murmur "they're so soft/sweet/warm/gentle" practically to themselves is basically a drug

"I work at a petstore," says the young man with much disdain, "so I don't really need to hold another one. I know what they're like."

"These aren't petstore mice," I say, as I turn my hand over and the mouse holds on tighter. "They're not like any mouse you've ever held," I say, as I close my hand gently around the mouse and flip her onto her back for a second so I can touch her mouth and demonstrate how difficult it would be to get one of my mice to bite.

"I'm sure you've handled them extensively from a very young age, though."

"They haven't been handled before today, except to be moved into clean cages." She arranges herself in my hand and cleans her face. "Are you sure you don't want to hold one?"

He opens his hands, and she pours from my hand into his like a viscous liquid. She is soft and warm and sweet, and his entire face lights up when she hunkers down onto his warm hand and closes her eyes.

"....She's changing my mind."

"They tend to do that when you leave it open."

He took her and two companions home.