#but i don’t wanna waste $30000 on something i may not even be smart enough to get

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i always feel like im making the wrong decision. im too far in to back out now, but i feel like i dont have the capacity to succeed. like, my brain is so scattered all the time and i feel like im not smart enough to be able to actually get through college. my full associates didn’t transfer to the 4 year im going to and i might have to do extra courses. and like its not a big deal. but i feel like this is a sign that im doing something wrong, that i should’ve picked different. ive done two years already but if was at community college, so this is already going to be more difficult since its at a university. and i was commuting. i still was at home. i won’t be home, ill be somewhere new. and it doesn’t matter that much, but i don’t think ill be able to do it. i just don’t feel like im that smart, and this is a stem program. i just. not feeling great