#but i HAVE drawn him 10000 times today

[gilliontidestriderchampionoftheu]

if i was good at putting my thoughts into words itd be so over for all of you

[steve0discusses]

S5 Ep 42 Pt 1: It’s All In Your Head

Every week with long covid is like a new batch of symptoms. Last month’s symptom, among other things, was “words no work no good,” and so we just uh...didn’t do an update. I probably needed to chill and nap anyway. Not that I’m fully better yet, today I did laundry and pulled out a blue shirt that I clearly own and bought with my own money--but I have no memory of it. Zilch.

The brain is amazing, that with this brain fog, I can’t remember my blue t-shirt, but I can remember Yugioh. Weird, right? So anyway, thanks for your patience in this weird time of my life, glad to have a blog to write about anime in that is so chill with our very long breaks.

Also, I finally went through my old caps to toss old pictures so that way I can make new stuff, and guess what I just realized?

Kisara is not a dragon!

Seto’s girlfriend isn’t a dragon! She’s just on top of the dragon, I can’t...I just can’t believe this.

Truly a crime that this season, the final ultimate season of Yugioh, is what I’m doing while on Long Covid fruitloops, so I can miss every damn point that this show fires at me. But, at least, I hope it’s funny to read. It is like every single update where I realize I was wrong about the obvious, and don’t worry, it’s gonna happen again in like 4 seconds. My borked brain.

Anyway, Yugi and Co have walked all the way to the palace. Because we’re still on S4 time and space conventions where Death Valley, the Grand Canyon, and San Fransisco are all next to each other. Like Yami fell in the Nile in a fight that was just outside of the city--but I assumed he got pulled way out there. Either way, it’s a kid’s show, never think about geography.

(read more under the cut)

Yugi can conveniently walk through doors now, and after a quick shoutout to his homie Yami, they phase through.

Including Tristan who is...

Well,

APPARENTLY TRISTAN WAS POSSESSED.

Freakin, my brain is a bunch of salad dressing, lmaoooo even last episode I was like “wow Tristan is drawn kinda evil and I don’t really get why” and it was RIGHT THERE. He’s been possessed probably since Bakura grabbed him by the neck right in front of me. I somehow missed this!

And like, I figure, if I try and wait out long covid it may take a whole other year, so like this is just me now. I started this blog as like a competent analysis (ish), and now I get to the end of S5 giving you just an incoherent rorschach. It’s kind of fitting for this show really, everyone has to end up at least a little bit of a mess. Keeps you humble. Even me. I also have to become the mess.

Anyway, speaking of becoming a babbling incoherent mess, we go back to Bakura, who has fully lost his game in Battle Basement of a 7 vs 1 game.

Only in Yugioh would they make a 7 vs 1 game feel evenly sided.

And as I wonder if I’ve already made that joke four months back and have forgotten, they all watch Bakura do a mad dash to screw them over one last time.

And while they stood there and just allowed Bakura to fumble around with the doom rocks made of human souls, from no where, Aknadin stumbles through the door all day drunk like freakin Kramer.

And no, in the show he did not reveal here that he was Seto’s dad, but he does in like 2 minutes so I didn’t really care about where I put it. The big thing is that Aknadin’s gone full-tilt cray and not even he can fully explain his motive anymore.

That’s when they realize Aknadin’s babysitter, Shada, has been punk’d on the bottom of skull tablet basement. Which like, Imagine the day that Shada’s been having. I guess Aknadin just left him at the base of like 10000 human skulls then, hahaha.

I have checked my notes and I decided that 2000 people died in Kul Elna a few months back but eh I don’t feel like changing this cap. Overall, I have no freakin idea how many people lived in this freakin town and they can’t tell us because 4Kids would never allow it.

Which is when Bakura decided to teleport his bean into another bean because this bean is broke.

Which is when we met this guy, a guy we’ve only met for like 4 seconds of the show so far. Hello there, Original Bakura.

Straight up, he wasn’t on screen long enough for me to over-analyze his accent before he was a small mound of dust on the floor.

Ah the death count! Oh damn it, I write these notes on the caps sometimes, expecting I’ll put an actual number there later but lets be real, I just need to publish this episode, so let me open the Google doc...

7,805,847,572

Yeah that’s how many people have died in this kids show so far. We’re right on track. Thanks Bakura, for another death, but no you have not caught up with Dartz. Although I will hand it to him, Dartz didn’t end up killing himself nearly as many times as Bakura has.

Speaking of dying and being dead on a kid’s show, in enters Shada.

So lets go see what Yugi’s up to hm? The four have decided to separate in this Egyptian palace to each find Yami’s name. Mind you...there’s some flaws with this plan.

The flaw being that none of them have graduated high school or know freakin anything about Egypt, other than they hang out with an Ex patriot Egyptian. (2 ex-patriots if you count Yugi’s Grandfather. Although honestly, are you an ex-pat if you are reborn in a kid’s body on the other side of the world? You are, right? You are). But, whether or not Yami can or can’t read Egyptian in Canonical Yugioh, we know that Yugi apparently super can’t when Yami isn’t in his bean.

And Joey just can’t focus for the life of him, which, damn, relatable. But, he did find a room full of women.

He also went to the only room with like lots of water. Real pissed focused mind here, and no the piss plotline will not be resolved.

Tea, still GOAT.

This castle, man. I love the complete disregard for interiors that this animation team has. Like...what even is the purpose of this weird maze room with masssssive stone tiles, Yugioh? Like...what is this even supposed to be? Why are the tiles so SHINY?

Anyway, lets go back to Shada and hear his excuse for what the hell happened last episode.

Which is when Aknadin decided to just start cursing everyone, which he would have done earlier if he wasn’t constantly in a sick bed this season.

This very well might be a yugioh card effect that turns you into a rainbow filter, but it also looks like a complete mess of artistic directions on the screen.

Which like, after that cutesy filter, lets pull our eyes out.

Which is when Yami makes the biggest logical leap known to man.

That’s right! Yami has figured out that this entire time, this entire arc, he’s been sleeping at this RPG table that Bakura’s built in his mom’s basement Yami’s Puzzle Necklace.

In fact, when Yami wakes up to all of this, wearing his normal ass school clothes, and Bakura sitting across from him in his popped collar duster jacket, Bakura says something on the line of “bout time you woke up.”

the fic shippers must have had a FIELD DAY with one.

Anyway, everything is a lie, Bakura is controlling people like puzzle pieces, which not only explains why Aknadin’s motives went a 180, but can lead us to believe that Yami also COULD control everyone else, but just chooses not to. Just like he does in real life.

I think, overall, you just have to go with it. We’re playing D+D, except it’s about your embarrassing past. Like if you made D+D about your middle school experience and you can’t remember your first name.

What a way to die, really. What a weird ass way for Yami to almost die.

Anyway, here’s a link for those new here to read these from the beginning. I have the 2nd part already drafted up, should be up in a few days and not an entire month, haha. Hope your 2023 is looking up!

https://steve0discusses.tumblr.com/tagged/yugioh/chrono

[lovesanmotion]

yandere!ateez as fanboys

Hongjoong: 

The moment he hears one song from your latest album, it immediately swept him off his feet from the ground and made the decision to stan you. You are his favorite soloist. The moment he hears your latest comeback album, he immediately listened to all your other songs and made his research about you that night. Of course, the caffeine boosting him. 

He made a lot of social media accounts just to follow you. Twitter, Instagram, Youtube, you name it. He would follow your every move and post. But is still didn’t feel the same. To Hongjoong, he felt like he was still missing a large chunk of your life and he didn’t want that. The next night, he pulled a couple of strings and ta dah! had access to your very personal information. And he felt so complete afterwards. 

To you, Hongjoong was just one of your few male fans that you adore. I mean, the guy makes covers of your songs. And part of you agreed that when he made his own remix of your songs, it would sound 10000% better than the original. However, you just didn’t noticed the subliminal messages and tones he inserted in his remixes. 

Seonghwa: 

Seonghwa was one of those rare male fansites you have. Being in a 7 member girl group called Starlight, you are the group’s visual, main dancer, lead vocalist, center and face of the group. Once your group made its debut, fame automatically found you. 

Endorsements here and there, landing yourself in various commercial films and even coming to be a guest of variety shows. Your popularity instantly swept off and in a blink of an eye, the whole of South Korea knew your name. And your name tasted delicious in HwaLight_Y/N. Seonghwa’s fansite name dedicated to you. He thought of a name that would connect him to you. Hwa meaning star, replacing the english word and thus the birth of the fansite name. 

With his good looks, he too became known amongst the fans. He was known as your handsome fansite master. And since he was one of the rare male fansites you have, you would immediately recognize him from afar. Smiling at his camera and waving at him. Much to Seonghwa’s delight, he felt like there was already a deep connection between you two. And he wanted more of that. 

He started coming to your unofficial group activities. Slippiing his way inside the venue just to be able to feel your presence a few feet from him. He started purchasing flight and hotel information from other “fans” and would purchase the seat closest to you or the room nearest yours. 

Didn’t noticed those red beaming lights hidden inside your hotel room when you’re changing clothes or taking a shower? Click click! Or you were dead asleep tired from rehearsals when someone barged into your room? Click click! Ever noticed how your favorite red lace underwear went missing only to come back with a stain? Click click! 

Yunho: 

At first, he wasn’t entirely dazzled by you. Yunho was just a regular idol manager who would follow you into your every activities and schedules. He needed the money, plus, companies like him for his tall and muscular physique. The kind of person that can ward off creepy or scary fans that tried to get close to you.

You, on the other hand, is an ex member of your former girl group but found fame as a solo artist. Your debut song swept the charts and immediately won every single music show chart. Topping music chart billboards in every country. Despite all the glitz and glamor that followed you, you felt lonely and desperate for human touch. 

It wasn’t supposed to be how Yunho, naked and in between your legs. How such alcohol can make you two do things that violates his contract with you. One night was all it takes for him to see a completely different side of you. And he wanted more of that. 

Yunho became more protective towards you. Becoming more aggressive to anyone who dares lay a hand on you. Even going as far as sleeping in one bed with you as he thinks “its completely necessary, who know, someone might be barging into your room in the middle of the night?”  You can never get away from him. Companies like him, remember? With his clean records, your company would do anything to keep him signed with you. 

Yeosang: 

Channel YNbyYS is a youtube channel run by Yeosang. It’s the platform wherein he posts his dance covers to your group’s songs. With a bit of his dancing elements and the original choreography of your group, the blend came out much nicer than what everyone expected. His heart leaped more at the idea of you endorsing a chicken brand. From that day forward, he became a regular of the certain chicken brand nearest to him. 

Yeosang may seem like a complete innocent and harmless fanboy. But do you ever what he is behind his dance covering youtube channel? Why, he is the second most influential person in your company. The son of your own CEO. He had his very own place within the company. And he uses it to the extent of getting closer to you. 

The gifts that came into your company? Those are ALL Yeosang’s gifts for you. From the dresses to the shoes. He shamelessly threw away other gifts’ that were for you because according to him “he is the only relevant and special person that can offer you gifts”. Anything else is directly to the bin. 

And you wonder how your “fans” know your taste in fashion. 

Mingi: 

Mingi, before being blacklisted by your company, was just a regular fanboy of your group. You were the group’s main rapper and the lyrics to your bars spoke volumes to him. He was just casually listening to your verses and mixtapes until one day, he realized that he wanted to be more than just your fanboy.

It started slowly when he would attend your group’s fansigns and even follow you towards the airport. But the bodyguards prevented him from coming anymore closer to you. And so he did the unthinkable. Knocking down a bodyguard that was shielding you and enveloping you in his arms. His heartbeat raced and he felt a second heartbeat between his pants. With you in his arms, he only realized how petite yet handful you are. Hands running all over your body, burying his nose in your hair inhaling that soft and sweet strawberry shampoo that you use. 

Despite being blacklisted, he never cared about going public and meeting you at your group or individual activities. Instead, he resorted to barging into your dorm. Whether you’re home or not. 

 San: 

You are your group’s maknae and visual. Dubbed as Korea’s IT Girl, your face can be found anywhere in Seoul. From commercial films to leading Korean dramas, releasing your own solo album and attending fashion weeks, you are always the talk of the town. Whenever your name comes up, its always met with praises. Of course, the people loves you! You are a crowd and fan favorite. 

And you had managed to capture the eyes and heart of San. Calling himself as your number 1 fan. He was never absent in any of your activities. Getting front row seats in your concerts, being present at your variety shows and even buying products that you endorse - soju, cosmetics, literally anything. 

To your fans, he is the biggest fanboy you ever had. And it was quite entertaining to watch him profess his love to you. You even chuckled a few of his pick up lines that he threw at you during your fansigns. When asked if you had anything memorable that a fan ever did to you, the answer would always be San. 

Behind closed doors, San kept a dirty secret. Remember how he always gets front row seats to your concerts? He hid a camera in his clothes to film your upskirt. Beating his meat every night to his own collection of your tight and revealing clothing. Remember how you would endorse anything? He’d buy it and imagine how ripping it off your body feels like. His greatest possession? Your black lingerie. Too bad, you’re never getting it back. 

Wooyoung: 

ForYN is a website account run by Wooyoung. He regularly updates his content - from posting your pictures that are uploaded today, to your daily activities, the products you use and a little sub website from his channel wherein he writes poems and graphical fanfiction of himself with you. But of course no one would ever read between the lines. The way how Wooyoung would write would be so poetical and endearing that it? doesn’t? have? any? hidden? meaning? 

He only came once to your fansign and gave you a pink teddybear. It wasn’t the best gift you owned but you liked it somehow. There was something about the teddybear that you didn’t know why you’re into it. Its just a plain gift but everytime you look at it, its as if you’re drawn to it. 

Maybe becuase you didn’t noticed how it has camera eyes? 

Wooyoung’s love for you deepened when he caught you humping on the pink teddybear. Cum splattering all over its face. It was just one gift, but it was everything to you. 

And Wooyoung’s working on the next entry for his fanfiction. 

Jongho: 

For today, you were having your own vlive. Doing what you called a YN mukbang. As the convenient food store you bought was placed on the table, you began to greet yours fans, asking them how they are feeling before digging in your food. Among the hundreds and thousands of viewers, Jongho was one of them. 

He was engrossed in two things: one, how adorable and beautiful you look despite just eating. Second, the rude comments that were popping up in your live video. Rude remarks of body shaming were what caught his attention. He took his time digging deeper into someone else’s username and IP address. Once he got a hold of their information, he would report those comments and head out. In his disguise while hunting the people who made disguisting remarks at you. No one should ever make such remarks to a goddess. 

[animalinvestigator]

sending another ask in response because the reply function does Not anticipate my wordiness!!! always fine to post me publicly usually btw and if not ill try to say so ^_^

BUT yeah i rlly rlly like the message of change not always needing to be bad i used to be so so so scared of and anti-change all the time and like. its a good message.

though i was also considering earlier today that for mike’s death, whatever it may be (i dont think its important to actually figure it out with what specificallt happened for this), maybe it was a lack of change that lead to his death? like rainer said, you can never have mike a back so i was thinking maybe mike’s family was trying to act like nothing changed, its still mike a and refusinf to address it and lead to his death in some way. and this could fuel rainer’s resentment for the family (fuck you all and fuck me as well, u get the idea) and kind of further cements to him his very negative views and also why he specificallt mentioned theres a better chance of helping care b or nlm. jus smth i was thinking abt!

(also was trying to decide how to think abt the lines from scop 3 if u have any thoughts! not far in my own thinking abt it though: “When you find her room, the passage to my right will lead to her.She'll appear from the darkness, limping, and I'll shoot her in the head.” my thinking is the first ‘her’, at least, is lina because there Is a passage to the right in her room in the library and also it does say “You found her” b4 said room which seems telling. was thinking POSSIBLY the second half of the quote is referring to paul/care MMMMAYBE showing up in the ensuing rooms to the right as he is walking around in game in the dark? but could maybe have a double or different meaning with that latter half of the quote idk lol. its not like an especially super important specific part i dont think? but i find it interesting)

put this under the cut cos it got long ^o^ lots to talk abou there!!!!

definitely! i feel like "being unwilling to make meaningful change" seems to be at the heart of a lot of the horrible failures to protect vulnerable parties that define the mark hammond leskowitz family tree. theres a malignancy in the family that it takes 10000 tragedies for the other parties to address, and i think its pretty clear to me that a lot of rainer's resentment comes from that inaction. he pretty clearly feels like the family has failed, and i think their biggest failure is willful ignorance and unwillingness to change until it's way too late. The "if you think they're worth the effort" in care a's description just kind of oozes with that specific kind of resentment-- like 'since you didn't seem to care at all when it happened to mike' kind of thing. so TLDR i took a very similar thing away from it! i dont think we need to know exactly what happened to know that whatever happened, rainer feels like mike was failed somehow. i could spend about 200 years talking about rainer but i wont. Actually im going to write another paragraph talking about him right now so i just lied. the note in cares room is one of the densest pieces of writing in the entire series and theres 100000 things i could say about it. WRT to the line you pointed out specifically, i definitely think that line in particular is talking about lina as well !!! because the passageway in her room is exactly where it describes, paralell to the child library text, etc etc etc. the latter half of the quote could be referring to pretty much anyone. personally i read it as a continuation of the thought about lina becuase the mention of her limping is consistent with his constant drawing paralells between her and mike's dog who specifically broke its leg, but i definitely don't think it's a stretch at all to say its talking about care because the same paralells are drawn between HER and the dog as well and because she is the character that he talks about "pulling out of the darkness" in addition to the thing you pointed out about her wandering in the literlaly dark gameworld (see care b text below)

it could go either way, i definitely don't think defining specifically who it is changes his intent much, but its interesting to try to dissect what exactly he meant by this, espescially because its so like cynical and hopeless. the fact that the portions where he's talking about lina and the portions where he's talking about care kind of blend together into the same thought are pretty telling in and of themself, too.

lots of dubiousness with that particular chunk of writing because i think a lot of his intent behind it cant really be determined unless we know where along the timeline it is -- it almost definitely was written after care got home from the school, but thats a bit antagonistic to rainer's loose attitude of hope towards helping her at the time. ive had a lot of heated discussions on the subject of timeline stuff relating to this piece and i dont think there's really any way to determine, but its definitely really interesting either way n_n

[oblivi-ace97]

Marissa’s 31 Nights of Halloween

Today’s movie: Phantom of the Opera

Ok so I know I did like a whole “live blogging” for this movie last year but I’m gonna do it again cause why not. I apologize in advance for repeating anything from last year.

The overture is an absolute banger! Like say what you will about Andrew Lloyd Webber but he did not have to go that hard on this overture but I’m so glad he did. Like wow 10000/10

I also love seeing the opera house be restored to its former glory! It’s very satisfying.

Is Patrick Wilson wearing a wig in this movie? Or is his hair just naturally that bright and silky?

It’s not a legit theatre company if there isn’t a dramatic bitch like Carlotta.

The phantom really just straight up tries to kill Carlotta because he doesn’t like her singing.

I love how Madame Giry is the only one speaking with a French accent.

How can you not have an understudy??????

I know Emmy Rossum is wearing a wig but god I wish my hair looked that good. Like that’s how I think my hair looks all the time but I usually look like a witch that lives in the woods.

Is it actually possible for the phantom of hear Christine all the way down in the bowels of the theatre????

RAOUL YOU ARE SO FUCKING RUDE GETTING IP AND LEAVING IN THE MIDDLE OF A PERFORMANCE

Don’t be like Raoul kids. Leaving in the middle of a performance is poor theatre etiquette (unless you are dying but even then just quietly die in your seat as to not disrupt the show) this has been PSA.

RAMIN!!!! I always forget he’s in the movie for like .2 seconds

God Emmy Rossum is so pretty! I wish I looked like her when I was 16!

Madame Giry you can’t just watch the phantom lock Christine in her dressing room and do nothing that’s not ok

If I saw a man appear in my mirror I would run so fast

The title song is such a bop

2 gates and a curtain as the entrance to your home…you are so extra phantom

All those candles are a fire hazard! Like how did the opera house not burn down sooner with the collection of candles that phantom has

AND HE LEAVES MOST OF THEM LIT WHEN HES NOT HOME!!! DUDE YOUR BLATANT DISREGARD FOR BASIC FIRE SAFETY IS CONCERNING

Has anyone ever thought about the phantom being a vampire???? Cause like the dude hates sunlight. He lives in the basement of an opera house. We never see the man eat. He has a flair for the dramatic. He likes to wear a cape. The evidence is stacking up.

Also I think him being a vampire would explain all the candles.

Although now that I think about it he can see his reflection…I don’t care I still think he’s a vampire

I think if the phantom weren’t a creepy stalker I would fall for him. Like I can excuse murder but I drawn the line at stalking and being possessive.

If he weren’t a stalker he would just be a dramatic goth boy that is a music prodigy…well and murderer I guess but you could argue that he murdered people because he was a stalker so…

DISCLAIMER: I am fully aware that the phantom is a bad person and super toxic I’m just saying in an alternate universe where he wasn’t I think I would love him.

The man has curtains around his bed…that’s so dramatic…I love it

Christine you can’t just take off people’s masks without permission…it’s rude

How long was Christine missing? I don’t think I’ve ever known

If they ever made a modern version of phantom of the the opera would the phantom send emails to everyone instead of letters? The idea of that makes me giggle

I fucking love Prima Donna! I feel like it gets slept on.

I love how the phantom goes up to the top of the theatre to deliver his ominous message. Like did he go around the theatre a decided that that spot had the best acoustics

If was sitting in box 5 I would be shitting a brick. I would be like I’m so sorry I’ll move here’s your box mr theatre ghost

How did Bouquet not fucking scream when he turned and the phantom was directly behind him? I would have let out a full on shriek

With all the dramatic cape twirls the phantom does he’s got to be at least half vampire???

I feel like going to the roof wasn’t the smartest idea if the objective was to get away from the phantom. Why not I don’t know LEAVE THE OPERA HOUSE!

It’s been a year and I still don’t have someone singing me a love ballad on a rooftop in the snow…it’s just not fair

AND NO ONE’S KISSING ME AND SPINNING ME AROUND ON A ROOFTOP IN THE SNOW…this should be illegal

Every time I see the phantom’s face after Christine and Raoul kiss I just think of that Simpsons meme the one that’s like “you can pinpoint the exact moment his heart breaks”

Bitch she didn’t betray you! When did she tell you that she was gonna be with you? She didn’t so she didn’t betray you dude

I think the reason I don’t really care for the costumes in the masquerade scene is because they’re all the same color scheme. Like let’s have some variety.

If the engagement is supposed to be secret than why do you have the ring on a necklace for everyone to see? Like get a longer chain so you can hide it in your chest.

And then you’re making out in the middle of the ballroom. Christine I don’t think you understand the concept of a secret

The phantom does know how to make an entrance

The fucking candleholder costumes get me every time

The red death costume in the musical is much more dramatic I think movie phantom was going for sexy over dramatic but he makes up for it by bringing a sword

The way Raoul comes back he looks like he went to the bathroom and is like oh shit what did I miss

And that’s how you exit a fucking party!

Raoul you can’t guard someone if you’re a heavy sleeper. Cause what happens is the person you are protecting decides to get up early and go to the cemetery to visit her dad’s grave and you sleep through it

Did I talk about all the puffy white shirts and black pants that are in this movie last year cause there’s quite a few and just…it’s such a look. Everyone looks good in a puffy white shirt and black pants.

I wish they would have given Christine a similar style dress for Wishing like she has in the musical.

Phantom hangs out in cemeteries…that’s some vampire shit right there

I’ve said once and I’ll say it again…a sword fight is the one thing the musical is missing.

Do you think the audience was just like…why are the police here?????

I feel so bad for Christine. She’s under so much pressure.

Cue the horrified looks on the audience faces while they’re watching Don Juan

I’m sorry but mr phantom…that is the worst disguise in history and that’s including Clark Kent

I love that the phantom basically decided that if he was going to make his opera debut he was going to do it in the sexiest possible show and if that doesn’t scream dramatic ass vampire I don’t know what does

Making the chandelier crash causing the opera house to go up in flames…dramatic as fuck

And now we’ve reached the scene that to this day gives me anxiety…the scene where Raoul almost drowns

“It’s in your soul where the true distortion lies” you need some aloe for that burn phantom

Keeps an extra noose in the lake for emergencies��ok

Sometimes I wish Christine had hit the phantom over the head with a frying Pan or better yet set him on fire with all the FUCKING CANDLES THAT ARE ALL OVER THE FUCKING LAIR…that would have been a dramatic way to go out so I’m sure the phantom would have approved

You’re telling me the phantom left through some tunnel that was behind a mirror and no one found it…did they even look???? Like it wouldn’t have been that hard to find…it was just behind a curtain

Well my take away from this year’s viewing is that the phantom is a vampire and none of you can change my mind

[dolcetters]

vanilla sunday .

no one asked, i just heckin’ felt like it m’dude. under readmore for length. i’ll try to keep my answers relatively to-the-point, too, since this’ll be a longer post but feel free to inquire on things or ... whatever u-u/ aye. i go sleep now.

is your muse a romantic? do they dream of love and marriage?

short answer: no.

as a teenager, dol didn’t have much interest in pursuing a romantic relationship with any of his peers around yuflam--or at all, really. by the time he got to academy things were either too busy or starting to get too tense for him to consider the idea. and shortly after that he went over a decade thinking he’d never even see sunlight again.

at this point, he just... --it’s just another thing he might want but doesn’t recognize it as something he wants. because he’s earnestly so bad at listening to his own desires and is more than willing to cast them aside if it means aiding someone he cares about achieve their own.

is your muse a deviant? are they overly flirtatious or forward?

no. there’s no real expansion on this, just no. <xD he tends to be much more bashful and sheepish, partially because of aforementioned inability to recognize he might want a relationship with someone. and even if he DOES realize this, he’s... extremely self aware. we’ll leave it at that.

is your muse good at kissing? are they experienced?

NOPE. and no. he’s never kissed anyone.

does your muse initiate a lot of physical contact?

nooooo no no no. he has an anxiety disorder (haphephobia) revolving around physical contact and even something as “small” as shaking hands or a shoulder bump can make him very nervous, uncomfortable and alert. the reaction is almost doubled if it comes with the sensation or energy of being grabbed.

it’s going to take a lot of time, patience, and trust for him to be comfortable initiating physical contact with you.

is your muse comfortable with public displays of affection?

no, for both the above reason as well as the paranoia that comes with being a fugitive/legally dead. the less attention that’s drawn to him, the better. at most, he’d hold your hand... but refer to the previous question for that.

does your muse steal clothing from their partner?

less “steal” and more borrow. due to having limited resources after escaping the labs and very few belongings he can truly call his own, dol wouldn’t/doesn’t just take or use things that belong to friends, family or potential partners (part of this spurs from his OWN resource guarding). he’d be more likely to approach you while you were brushing your teeth and be like “hey, s’it cool if i wear your hoodie today” and then respond based on that answer.

and he’s going to ask you every time. he doesn’t assume.

is your muse the big spoon or the little spoon?

varies! but most likely, when they’re facing each other, he little-spoons because pressing his face into the curve of the neck just above the collar is not only secure and comforting somehow, but he can hear your heartbeat.

when one of them is facing away, he tends to big spoon. --and obviously this is all assuming he’s at that level of comfort when it comes to physical touch + the partner.

is your muse comfortable with, or proud of their body? are they insecure?

complicated?

he’s very comfortable and proud of his body when it comes to his physical build, strength, fitness, etc. his strength and speed is something he values and keeping himself healthy and capable is very important to him. he knows he’s done a good job (those arms don’t lie) and he takes pride in that.

~however~, being a chimera... --he’s optimistic, yes. he’s just happy to be alive, of course. it’s not so bad. ...but he is fully, deeply, and painfully aware of how someone might react to witnessing some of his “quirks” when it comes to his splice or the idea of being with someone who isn’t entirely human. and the fact that he often became a target of light jabbing and jokes with the nesties, because dog behavior is much more well-known and commonly familiar than croc or snake or bull behavior, has only added to this awareness.

then, of course, there’s the added detail that he’s not even a perfected chimera. he’s just a successful one. a C- on some government biology test; barely passing.

so yeah. there’s some surface level pride, but... a lot of shame underneath.

is your muse attracted to any features in particular?

physical? no.

he has a soft spot and respect for people who refuse to give into their pain, though. where he experienced trauma and fear and let it make him hardened in a lot of ways, there are other people who have only become brighter, warmer, and do whatever they can to keep someone else from experiencing what they have.

to say he admires that trait in a person is an understatement.

have their crushes been mostly male, mostly female, or evenly split?

he’s only really had two, and they’ve both been gals, so i guess that makes it mostly female. i’ve mentioned before that he might have been uselessly in love with martel in the time before the raid (whether she felt the same is unknown) and he in default verse is lowkey sweet on rose.

have their partners been mostly male, mostly female, or evenly split?

he hasn’t had a partner.

is your muse easily flustered? do they blush, swear, etc.?

yes, yes, yes. him being flustered is usually a combo-result of: (1) not being used to that kind of attention from someone he actually likes,  (2) having no idea how to respond, (3) internalized shame over what he is, and (4) he’s a fucking idiot.

where is your muse most sensitive?

his head, mostly, especially on his hair line and around the ears.

and i can 10000% promise to you that if he ever lets you comb your fingers in his hair or rub around his temples and you make some kind of dog-related-comment, you’re actually going to cause a shit-ton of psychic damage i’m gonna need you to roll like 10d6 for me.

please, please please please don’t ever refer to him as--or make jokes connecting him to--a dog in moments that are supposed to be vulnerable and/or intimate, i can’t... express this enough, it will hurt him.

is your muse more submissive or dominant in a relationship?

idk, i guess submissive but again: idk

would your muse ever tempt their partner, e.g. flirting, wearing tight/sexy clothing?

nah. not really his thing.

if he does “tempt” them it’s going to be sincerely accidental. like... yeah you walked in on me doing pull-ups i guess. would you hand me my water bottle? i’m parched.

does your muse initiate heated/sexual contact, or do they wait for their partner?

i feel like this question deserves it’s own post because i have a LOT of thoughts regarding rosecetto, specifically, on this topic.

outside of that ship, however, the answer is likely no. he’s not the initiator primarily for touch-anxiety reasons and also chimera-related-shame reasons, even if the partner has assured him there’s nothing wrong with him in the past.

does your muse leave hickies? do they ask for them?

eeehhhhh???? ... i guess accidentally sometimes?? and no.

does your muse like to be pinned down, or to pin their partner?

that’s a big NO. if you pin him down, even if he’s reached a point of security with you that he allows you to touch him, you’re going to flare up any of that anxiety that had previously subsided. he’s been physically restrained and held down far too long and all for bad/painful reasons, and he can’t associate it with anything other than “they’re going to hurt me and i need to get away, no matter what i have to do”.

as for pinning his partner, it’s likely also a no because he’d just... be too aware of his own trauma to even try doing it and he’d probably be uncomfortable being asked to do it.

has your muse reached first/second/third base? home run?

honey, he’s done nothing, he hasn’t even swung--

would your muse be interested in engaging with multiple partners?

no. he doesn’t see anything wrong with it when it comes to other people but this is definitely not for him or something he could be comfortable with.

would your muse ever send a sexual text message? would they send pictures?

n/a, but even in modern verses the answer would be no

does your muse read smut, own magazines, or watch p-rn?

nah

is your muse the type to discuss their sex life or sexual prowess with others?

abso. fucking lutely. not. no no no.

at absolute. MOST? he might open up to sakura (yinseal) about it. maybe greed (avadite). and it’d only be if he felt like he was doing something wrong or felt overwhelmed and self-conscious. but otherwise this is his and his partner’s business.

is your muse a top, a bottom, or a switch? do they have a lean?

defaults to bottom but will top if asked or in some circumstances.

crystal has confirmed that rose (forsakenflora) tops, so jfdlfjklsjkldhsd

how interested is your muse in sex and sexual activity?

he’s not.

it’s not a priority of his, and he definitely doesn’t want to hear about yours.

do they have sex frequently, occasionally, or rarely?

not at all right now jf kljdklhshf lhfklsdg

[jingabitch]

fucked up was a slap in the face to how lonely I am and I really adore your softer yandere expression. Is it possible to request a short where it’s that time of the month & she’s really cuddly/needy one day, but touched repulsed another? 👉👈

asdfghjkl girl i 10000% feel that !! honestly a lot of the angst from the reader’s pov was drawn from my personal experiences LEL

hope you enjoy this short and it’s what you were looking for! it’s a little hard to incorporate the yandere into a situation like this where there’s no tension, but i hope i did okay anyway! let me know what you guys think hehe

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Namjoon has a high IQ.

That means he’s good at pattern recognition. It’s not, however, very helpful when it comes to predicting your moods and actions in this highly volatile period.

Heh, period. (He has a high IQ, but he’s just a guy, okay?)

He escaped to his home studio to lick his wounds after you screamed at him today, and that’s where he currently sits, frowning deeply at his computer screen. He knows he should be working, but instead he’s turned to Reddit to help him get through this trying time. Being fluent in English has never been so useful.

Outside, he can hear you whining to Taehyung and Jeongguk about how mean he was, trying to drink your hot chocolate, and he scowls. He only wanted one sip, he thinks bitterly. You’re usually so excited to share food with them, especially when Seokjin has made it, and in the three or so weeks that you’ve been with them, you’ve quickly become his biggest supporter in the kitchen, even going so far as to force the others to try his cooking when they’re reluctant to.

The trouble started this morning, he thinks morosely, when you slinked out of Yoongi’s room and into the bathroom an hour earlier than usual, and only got worse during breakfast. You’re not usually overly clingy, but today you shuffled out of the room still wrapped in your blanket and sat down right next to Yoongi on the floor for breakfast, so close to him you were practically in his lap. When Namjoon commented that you were probably getting in Yoongi’s way and he couldn’t possibly eat like that, instead of laughing it off like he expected you to, your eyes had welled with tears.

While you were burying your face into Yoongi’s chest, he rested his chin on top of your head, shaking his head slightly at the rest of them and mouthing, “Red sea!” 

That had been strike one.

Strike two came when after breakfast, Hoseok, who was distraught at how much pain you seemed to be in, volunteered to run out and get some heating pads and painkillers from the convenience store around the corner.

Namjoon said, very reasonably, he thought, “You can’t do that. You’ll be recognized and people will be suspicious that you’re buying those things together.”

In response, you gave him the saddest, most betrayed look he’s ever seen in his life. “You’re ashamed of me,” you sobbed, and Yoongi and Taehyung immediately hugged you tight, rubbing your back and shushing you. Even Yeontan came to find out what was wrong, scrambling into your lap and trying his best to lick away your tears.

“Nice going, hyung,” Jeongguk muttered at him, rolling his eyes, and Namjoon felt, again, like he was the only one who didn’t know what was going on. You’re usually so rational, so calm and pliant.

Somehow everyone else is able to endear themselves to you today. Hoseok by going to the convenience store for you, Jin by making you hot chocolate, Jimin and Jeongguk by being their usual clingy, affectionate selves, Yoongi because he’s your favourite and cuddles you when you go to have a nap after eating your painkillers, and Taehyung because he’s Yeontan’s daddy and the dog is probably your favourite companion in the house right now.

He sighs. Maybe he’ll just stay here for the next couple of days, to avoid upsetting you any further.

Of course, the pendulum swings again. 

A few hours later, he knows you’ve gotten up from your nap from the sudden commotion outside. You storm out of Yoongi’s bedroom furiously, the older man following you with a hapless and confused look on his face. Namjoon, who came out to see what was going on, can empathise. 

“No, baby, wait -”

You round on him furiously. “Min Yoongi, get away from me!”

“I can explain -”

“There’s nothing to explain! You think I’m disgusting!” You cry, stomping to the couch where Taehyung and Jeongguk are sitting, playing with Yeontan.

“Noona, come sit,” Jeongguk says, smiling up at you, and you smile back at him. He always looks at you with such pure, unadulterated joy that you can’t help but be happy every time you look at him.

“Thank you, baby,” you coo at him, and Yoongi, sensing that he’s no longer welcome, makes eye contact with Namjoon, who tilts his head, inviting him wordlessly into the home studio.

“What happened?” he asks once the door is shut.

“Hell if I know,” Yoongi grumbles. “I wake up and find her on top of me like she wants to devour me whole.”

Namjoon raises a brow. That is strange. Usually it’s Yoongi who initiates their sexual encounters, since he’s the one with an insatiable desire for her.

“Exactly, I just reminded her that she’s - you know…” he twirls his finger in the direction of his crotch, “and she storms out of the room in a huff.”

Namjoon winces.

Soon enough, though, most of the boys have been kicked out of the apartment. Jin is especially wounded when you tell him that you can’t stand his smug face, and it’s a comment that would have you bent over his knee were they not all so acutely aware that you are bleeding and hence, in pain and also unpredictable in your current state.

Namjoon figures that this is just a different kind of normal, though, and after observing you for a little longer, he’ll probably be able to figure it out.

The next morning, everyone leaves for the studio except for Namjoon, who drew the short straw and had to stay home to watch you because no one knew what you would do when you were this unpredictable - what if you wanted to go for a walk outside?

He decides to leave you alone, though, rationalizing that you will seek him out if you want his company, though you rarely do, usually sticking to Yoongi or the maknaes. Or Yeontan, he adds dryly to himself. If nothing else, the dog really is the biggest winner here, going from spending most of his time alone in the apartment to having a 24/7 companion and treat dispenser.

Which is why he’s surprised when you walk into his room later that day, Yeontan at your heels. He’s sitting at his desk when you pick a book off his shelf and climb onto his bed to read it, giving Yeontan a little boost onto the mattress so he can curl up next to you. Since you’re home all the time, you’ve basically taken on the role of being his primary caregiver, and Taehyung is torn between jealousy that the dog is starting to favour you and fits of exuberance about how cute you are when you nap together.

“That’s my bed,” he objects to no one in particular. It’s not you he minds - he’s taken pains to keep his bed free from animal fur.

You look up at him over the book. “Do you want to share, oppa?” you ask, patting the bed beside you invitingly, and he’s so surprised at your uncharacteristic boldness that he just follows your direction, bringing his notebook along with him.

You snuggle into his side when he sits next to you, propped up by pillows. “I’m sorry about yesterday, oppa,” you say shyly and he looks down at you, surprised. You’re not done yet, though. “I know we aren’t as close as some of the other boys, but I want to be,” you continue with such sincere earnestness in your eyes that he can’t help but smile down at you.

It’s clear that you think he’s been keeping a distance because he’s shy and needs a little help being coaxed out of his bubble. He doesn’t mind letting you think that, though, especially if it means an easier time having you come to him.

After all, he’s keeping a distance so he can observe you better, not because of any reticence on his part. But he’d be a fool to let you know that.

[aftermathdb]

DEATH BATTLE Review: Leonardo vs. Jason

Many years ago, Leonardo was destined to do battle with Tommy Oliver, but instead did battle with Zitz… And today, we see him do battle with Jason Lee Scott.

Ground rules for this fight: No zords, no turtle-mechs, no teammates. Just a good old fashioned, 1v1 battle to the death.

Leonardo′s Preview.

Beneath the streets of New York, four ordinary turtles were mutated by contact with a strange mutagen, and were trained by a equally mutated Rat-Person who named them after Renaissance artists and trained them in ninjutsu. If that sounds like a parody… That’s because it is…

Regardless, these Genetically Altered Shinobi Terrapins were in need of a leader. Donatello was smart and technical but he wasn’t a strategist for battle, Raphael was too hotheaded, and Michelangelo… is Michelangelo.

So the true leader in blue was chose to lead the team. Though most just call him Leonardo.

Leonardo embodies Bushido. For those of you confused, don’t worry, Boomstick is too. For those of you who don’t understand why ninjas and samurais have a lot of beef, it’s because ninjas were literally made to fight samurais.

And they make a quick note: As there is no “definitive” version of Leonardo to choose from, anything that’s reasonable is fair game. As in, if at least two Leos can/have done it, it’s on the table.

So, no double-mutations, dragon transformations, or anything too out of the ordinary.

The hosts go over Leo’s mastery of martial arts, and his weapons. Essentially, the Ninjaken Swords are just Katanas without the curve. As well as multiple other ninja needs like smoke bombs, grapple guns, kunai and ninja stars, and the works.

And we lead into a Wiz and Boomstick animated segment where… I’m not sure why or how, but Boomstick’s smile looks… better? Maybe it has something to to do with the way the teeth are drawn.

(please ignore the typo. I was in a bit of a rush)

A mixture of both a joke and part of the analysis. I like it.

Leonardo knows how to heal with (a missed opportunity for a Boomstick joke) the ninja magic of self-healing. While not potent enough to fix fatal wounds, it’s still handy nonetheless.

The hosts also go over how Leonardo is fast enough to dodge lightning,

Push over this giant pillar onto a giant mutated cockroach

And was even able to hold back this mutated tyrannosaurs’ bite.

And across multiple timelines, he’s usually the one who deals the finishing blow to the Shredder.

While teen angst and immaturity can hold him back from his full potential, Leo’s one heckuva fighter.

Jason′s Preview.

After 10000 years of being trapped in a magic space dumpster, the evil witch Rita Repulsa was set to conquer earth. So the galactic sage Zordon recruited some overbearing and overemotional humans to defend Earth. And every team needs a leader. So enter the levelheaded martial arts teacher: Jason Lee Scott.

Jason draws power from the Morphin’ Grid, and i order to gain access to it, he just needs to shout out three words.

“It’s Morphin’ Time!”

With this power on his sai-aye-aye-aye-aye-ide

The hosts apparently deduce that the Morphin’ Grid takes the hits for Jason, as evidenced by the sparks.

And after going over the weapons, we go into our next Wiz and Boomstick segment.

And after going over the Power Sword and a whole lot of weapons, and some key weaknesses. Like the whole thing about how they can’t escalate a fight.

So the Power Blaster is off-limits if it’s not actually needed.

But Grid-Enhanced individuals are still strong in their own right. Like when Jason lifted this enormous boulder over his head.

Nice.

Other Grid-Enhanced feats include

Pushing over a boulder weighing in at about 125000 tons, dodging lightning for a bit, and surviving the Power Rangers’ command center exploding.

And while Jason does lose his powers when he takes too much damage, he’ll still be one heckuva fighter. Especially with the power on his si-i-i-i-i-ide!

The Battle Itself.

Luis and Zack are the main animators for this, Leonardo will be voiced by Jon Allen and Jason will be reprised by Alejandro Saab, Audio Lead by Chris Kokkinos, and soundtrack of Teenage Morphin’ Ninja Power by Therewolf. And before we get into it, I gotta say that that track name is awesome!

So the fight starts off with Jason trying to get somewhere while Leo is eating his pizza, and Jason runs into Leo.

Which causes…

The pizza to fall.

Leo calls him out on it, and Jason sees him as one of Rita’s monsters.

And after a quick scuffle, Jason morphs.

So we get into a quick stand-off, and we seriously get into another opportunity where the “Fight Byte” could come back. They don’t have to do it for all of them, they can just choose which ones they do want to use it for.

At least make it a ringtone.

So, right off the bat, Leo narrowly takes speed, as they seem to land an equal number of attacks on each other. But it’s also clear that Jason takes strength early on as well, as he basically shrugs off all of Leo’s attacks.

Jason summons his Power Sword, and we get into a really cool sword fight sequence. Not as cool as Sasuke vs. Hiei’s sword clash, but still cool nonetheless.

And after a quick scuffle, Jason shows off for a bit…

And Leo’s swords break.

Jason goes in for a Tyrannosaurus Charge, and we get a recreation of that scene from Johnny Cage vs. Captain Falcon when the other guy was just blown away from how cool the other guy is.

Leo retreats into the sewer after knocking a drain cover at Jason, and he recovers the damage that was done to him.

As well as getting his newer weapon.

So now we’re at a teleport spam, where Jason is trying to hit Leo, but Leo is just too quick to actually strike.

And once Jason does land a hit, Leo’s shell is stopping him

Leo teleports high up, and we go into our finishing blow in

5…

4…

3…

2…

1…

What’s bonkers here is that Power Rangers have finally ended their losing streak! Woo!

Verdict + Explanation.

After some quick joking around with Boomstick, we get into the reason why Jason won. While Leo has dodged lightning more reliably and had better training, he was simply outclassed everywhere else.

And that training wouldn’t really be that much help because Jason’s morph gives him extra skills to work with. Call it cheating, but whatever. It’s Power Rangers.

Leo can reasonably scale to a Turtle Villain named Baron Draxum in terms of durability.

Now, the Barron survived this 12 ton explosion. Which is impressive, but not compared to Jason who survived the Command Center exploding. That blast was nearly 54 times greater than what Leo could scale to.

Strength was also in Jason’s favor too. While Leo could push over large stone pillars, Grid-Enhanced beings could push around 125000 ton boulders.

It wasn’t as one sided as it might seem though. Leo certainly was more skilled and was faster. If those were the only stats that mattered, that would have gotten him more wins. But Jason ultimately came out on top.

Overall impression.

Overall, this fight really does feel like an interesting episode. It’s definitely one of those “Playground Debates” that you probably would have had if you were a kid watching one or both of these shows.

The fight is interesting, and the dialogue is delightfully corny. The fight is certainly longer than Canary-Sindel, so it’s easier to soak in how each ability and stat stacks against the other. Like I said, speed was only a narrow win on Leo’s end, and it showed because he was able to dodge more easily, but it also showed that strength and durability was on Jason’s simply because he was able to tank any attack Leo threw at him no problem, and was able to basically shatter Leo’s weapons casually.

The soundtrack is awesome, and it definitely makes it feel like an 80s/90s nostalgia trip where your childhood tries to kill the other childhood.

8.7/10.

Next Time…

Well so much for Genos vs. Cyborg or War Machine vs... Uh… Huh. I guess War Machine is like how I view Dinobot. Not a whole lot of options for him that aren’t super shallow.

Is there a fight that you want me to review? - Send an ask/request, and I’ll look into it!

Do you want to read my fanfic based around DEATH BATTLE itself? click here!

Thank you for reading, and I hope to see you next time for…

Cyber Fighter Smackdown.

[transition-of-lanabean]

Hey there, it’s been a couple weeks. Or more. I’ve lost track, haha.

 Soooo how’s everybody? I hope you are all doing well. My last few weeks have been pretty uneventful for myself, but not so much for a friend.

 As far as me, I’m doing what I need to transition wise. So far in the last month since scheduling my GRS consult I have managed to save up over $700 for my target of $8000-$10000. I have zero faith I can do that every month, but so far I’m happy. I think once I reach around $5000 I”ll truly be happy with the progress, and if I can reach that by the end of the year I’ll be soooo relieved.

 The above photo of me is an up to date one, now with 19 months of laser to show for it, and even shortly after I played with the brows a bit, but not overly so. I’ve trimmed a bit and shortened it significantly. Small steps. I’ve had great progress on the upper lip the last month with laser and I’m thrilled. I finally started tugging at a few of the hairs and they came out painlessly, not to regrow (so far), so it’s even better than I originally thought. My next appointment on March 23rd is the final appointment on just my face, and my main concentration will be... down there. We’re going to talk about what’s going to happen at that appointment and the following one, I’m assuming around April 7th, will include the genital area. Not looking forward to that. But I’m excited. I have no clue.

 I have an appointment in Seattle to get my hormone levels checked. I had my blood drawn today and my appointment is next Friday, so there is that. I’m going to talk with her about a good cream to help with numbing the area down below as I’m told it is quite painful. I’ve even been advised to take a couple ibuprofen prior to coming in for my appointments. Time will tell there.

 Other than that... just a picture of weather this morning, post snow flurry last night. Not much to speak of, but it sure left the roads icy. Things improved greatly tonight, but there’s talk of more snow tomorrow afternoon. We’ll see if our weather liars are accurate. Plus PUPPPPY! Never a bad time for a cute puppy photo!

 Now for the sad news that’s yet to be determined how bad. My bible study friend, who is in his 60′s, started having issues a month or so ago, maybe a bit more. I was noticing it a bit myself - he was basically reading parts of verses wrong, had trouble with pronunciation and couldn’t memorize scripture (which he’s usually amazing at). I thought hard at the last session we had if something was going on, but I held my tongue and figured his family would ask very quickly too.

 Late the next week, a couple days before our next session, he texted me and said that he had to cancel our session because he had to go to the doctor. I had a feeling what it was about, but decided to respond that it was just fine and hoped his appointment went well.

 I found out a couple days after his appointment from him via another text that they found out he had a brain tumor of some kind. They weren’t sure what it was, only that it was pretty big and they had to get him in for surgery, and fast. He was in for surgery within a week of them finding it. 2 weeks ago they find the tumor, had the surgery a week ago today.

 He’s recovering well, and despite the tumor being connected to his cognitive functions/speech part of his brain, they removed what they could, and he’s recovering nicely. They have yet to receive the biopsy results, so whether it’s cancerous or not is to be determined, and hopefully within a few days from now they’ll get word. Right now he’s doing great, even better than he was shortly before surgery when his issues were obvious. His family is anxiously awaiting those results.  

 So that about wraps up my life the last few weeks, both the good and bad. I’ve been praying a lot for my friend and his family and haven’t been concentrating on too much else right now. It makes my issues look like nothing and puts things in perspective for sure.

 I do hope you have all had a nice last few weeks.

 - Lana