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radioisntdead · 2 months ago

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I have the worst luck with nail salons dear grace, what I wanted vs what I got

#radiorambles #first time was a couple years back they did a horrible job #flashforward today they did a worse job didn't do what I asked for and The guy that did my nails massaged my hands and MOVED MY SLEEVES UP #to MASSAGE MY ARMS the hands I get BUT MY ARMS??#dude had gell fused to my skin so it was stuck then took off half the polish and wasn't going to fix it like I asked #I SAID hey can you fix this I don't like how it is I was polite and this shit happens #I don't know if there was like a language barrier or ehat but I almost had a mental breakdown in the nail salon #thankfully the day got better me abd moons got boba and went to Barnes and nobles #it was a nice day but I'm still peeved about the nail thing #GUESS WHAT THEY CHARGED? 35 BUCKS #like??? i was supposed to get fake nails n' stuff not THAT #I hate it so much #my mom and sister were pissed #my sister does nail stuff as a hobby and shes REALLY good at it and then this professional place just this #I could do a better job on my own like what the fuck anyways ramble over I needed to get that off my chest again AAA

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forthevibe-w · 2 months ago

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as usual with me, we have to take it slow the first time that i peg her.

despite her usual docility, she guides my strap to her hole. i'm sure she'd prefer if i did it, but i need help for the first time.

so she positions herself, then slowly lowers herself onto my strap. and she moans so loud, undoing herself before me, fucking herself on my dick. i will just watch with fascination, figuring out how to replicate what she likes. if she sounds so pretty now, i wonder what she'll sound like when i do it.

after a few moments, i will stop her. i'll grab her neck, or her hair, or even her waist, and tell her to stop. i'll remove myself from her hole, and flip us around, and pin her to the bed. i'll kiss her pretty lips and wait her her to beg for more. she's so desperate at this point, i doubt it'll take long, but i won't rush. i will touch her softly and bite her hard until i hear her ask for me to fuck her. if she rushes, i'll curl my lips into a smile, and whisper "be patient," until i'm ready.

this time, i'll fuck her myself. i will position myself over her aching hole and listen. when she begs, having tasted my strap but not truly been fucked by me, i will give her more than a taste. she said she likes it rough, so rough i will be. i'll slam into her with brute, unpracticed thrusts. i don't know how to be gentle, and would i even want to be? seeing her, i always want to take. this time, seeing her pleading beneath me, i want to fuck her at my will. i watched her do it, i know how she likes it, so this time, i'm letting her lie back and i am fucking her.

i'll watch her squirm beneath me, those huge eyes rolled back, helpless and consumed with pleasure. i'll listen to her pathetic noises moaned in sync with my rhythm, watching her hands go above her head without my action. i'll watch her become overwhelmed, crying, and incoherent. and then i'll watch her cum harder than she has in a long time.

and after she finishes, i want to hold her tight. i want to take her in my arms, and kiss her forehead, and make sure it wasn't too hard. i'll take off the strap and trace patterns into her skin while she comes down. i want to keep her there until the after tremors have faded and she's able to say more than "wow."

all this say, i want to fuck her, but we'll have to take it slow the first time. at least, slow at first. i'm sure i'll get used to it, but it'll take me a moment.

#insane just how badly i want to see her cry. this isnt even a “she cries during sex and i wanna see it” no i just want to make her cry #i don't even know how i'd accomplish that. is this it? she mentioned impact play for that previously. guess im learning how to hit #anyways. y'all. im so fucking obsessed. help.#i didnt even like pegging until like two months ago. when she asked me very nicely and i went ohhhh shit #i actually NEED to peg you #i thought about this for like two days before i could get it out and it's the most i've ever written for this blog #probably in the top 3 longest smutty things ive written ever. and stars it's only getting worse #she has me in a chokehold but HEY at least its mutual #unrelated but the fucking tenses in this post is a fucking mess. future? present? who knows #ok tags:#autistic nsft #nonbinary nsft #queer nsft #trans nsft #t4t nsft #t4t ns/fw #nsft concept #nsft imagine #nsft text #nsft #circus deer #nsft t4t #nsft trans #nsft txt #hornyposting #queer smut #queer ns/fw #PLEASE I SPEND SO LONG ON THIS GIVE ME ATTENTION

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sparrownnax · 26 days ago

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good news: finally got an email for a job interview

bad news: if i get it, i have to be available to start at 5:30AM

worse news: last time i had to regularly get up that early for work i was genuinely contemplating killing myself again

#suicide mention #my options right now are Unemployed or Feel Like Shit All The Time #everything is expensive i can't just go to one of the bigger cities here cus even though theres more jobs in theory rent is even worse there #i could head south. my grandma could probably get me something with the place she works there. but then i'll have to be with #that entire side of the family and the only ones i rly like are my grandpa and the other gay cousin #and my mom will have to go there as well to see me and she doesn't like being around her family that much #but fuck #idk what my options here are.#i'll keep looking for other jobs in the meantime. i have a week til this interview so i have a little time to find something else #i'll ask my mom tomorrow i guess #anyways why the fuck do i have to be available that early at goddamn old navy #dunno if my dad would take me super seriously unless i told him i wanted to walk into traffic but hey.

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 1 month ago

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i thought their voices made for a pretty interesting combination, so i made a little test thing to show it off

ust by Zoë (@/half-a-head)

#my video lol #my audio lol #i guess it counts as both?? can i really call it cover tho if its so short #oliver vocaloid #根音ネネ #nene nene #machigerita #vocaloid #utau #yeah whatever i guess i'll put tags for organization. asjdngkjfnkjfjdmg i can fix/edit them better later if i decide eeeee #this mix might still have its issues but pls 😭 it was my first time using cakewalk so dont b mean to me #and it wasnt meant to be something super final and polished anyways again this was just a little fun test so ye. idk if ill make a full ver #i also wanted to make a better little video but since it wasnt a full thing and i was running out of time i just made this instead #which i still think is good for these purposes anyways? i do need to practice/experiment more with aviutl #maybe a bit of a morbid song choice for their bdays lmaoo... but HEY IT COULD BE WORSE #(looking at how i drew piko getting his fucking heart ripped out by bestie miki for his bday last year lmao)#and also if youre a vsynth in my computer unfortunately you are doomed to my morbid ass song taste lol i dont make the rules #well. i do. its my computer. and per the rules actually yes sing little fucked up songs for me vsynths... hahahahah...

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undyinglantern · 2 months ago

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HUGE DISCLAIMER im only half way through episode 7 of the main story and rarely read events

#posting this as its own thing instead of keeping it as just a reblog #sticking blemi as one of my fave skins only for her event to be the 'worst' right under her #sorry for being a horse hater i just couldnt get over the corporatization of it all i hated it it was so annoying #skins were picked based on whats available on global but there are a couple cn skins i did like more #sorry for not being able to stick to JUST ONE but hey give it up to specialists for my faves also having the best skins #vanguard e1 portrait bc i dont have him at e2 defender e1 portrait bc she looks cooler with the armor on even if i *do* have her at e2 #also woah best event triple wombo combo could you guess im a hunter fan could you believe that #'worse operator' I LIKE THEIR GAMEPLAY I LIKE THE SKILL THEYRE MAINLY KNOWN FOR i just canNOT stand their personalities #and also dont care for them design wise either it really is unfortunate theyre basically the same (fun) unit but I Do Not Like Them #also Ya is here for design and gender reasons alone i dont remember what the event or fight were like lol #personal #arknights

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queen-boudicca · 1 year ago

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Me when doing my environmental science homework, at every available opportunity:

#wish there were a class discord or a chill teacher so i could share it #fr though I'm like “oh we're talking about freshwater? hey did you know that agricultural runoff is causing accelerated eutrophication?”#and that a lot of the runoff is bc of erosion caused by the destruction of ecosystems and their vegetation that would've kept soil in place #and the runoff is mostly compromised of fertilizer and bacteria and pesticides from the agriculture and sediment from the eroded land #and that crop irrigation is so inefficient that literally 40% of irrigation water never reaches the crops #and don't even get me started on the FUCKING CORN SUBSIDIES #god those fucking corn subsidies #“hey boudicca what's the worst policy choice the us government made in the 1930s–40s?”#“was it American isolationism? maybe increased militarization? the garbage treatment of women and minorities?”#wrong! it was not stopping those fucking corn subsidies #(this is a joke obviously those other things were worse)#(I'm not actually saying this silly little agricultural practice was worse than Japanese internment don't worry)#but i AM saying that at some point they should've fucking phased out those goddamn corn subsidies #do you wanna know why California grows so much corn even though it's an incredibly water intensive crop and California is dry as shit?#I'll give you three guesses #anyway sorry for rambling my point is fuck industrial agriculture #agriculture #described

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seventh-district · 3 months ago

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ooooooohohoho the way that i'm about to lean so hard into escapism

#vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #us election #Seven's Public Diary #hey Siri play Sedated by Hozier for me please #i can feel my brain doing the thing where all the Bad is too overwhelming so it simply refuses to feel it #like. i cried for days before it and now that it's over and the worst happened i just. don't have much left. and i don't want to feel it #it's not cathartic anymore it's just miserable and i don't want to be miserable so i guess i'll be delusional for fun instead #it's not the correct or good thing to do but there's Many worse vices i could be using. so an increase in maladaptive daydreaming it is !#yeah the world is falling apart but so is my own life and so is my body as a result and. i can't worry about all of it or i Won't Make It #so prepare for a lot more assorted fandom blogging as i scrounge around for crumbs of serotonin in these trying times

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starbuck · 1 year ago

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another semester BEHIND me… the relief hasn’t fully kicked in, but i’m starting to feel it.

#my dumb ass decided it would be a good idea to take ten credits in eight weeks #it was NOT #BUT (unless one of my professors really hates my final project which is unlikely) i have successfully emerged with all A’s #and i am now officially a sophomore!#(or will be in a couple days when the semester actually ends and the credits kick in)#it’s gonna be SO weird at Christmas with my family #because i functionally started at the same time as my little cousin #who has done one semester #and i’m just gonna roll in like ‘lol what’s up? guess who’s a sophomore now????’#i AM gonna milk that - i need victories #(not against my little cousin - i am SO proud of him… against my Grandpa)#anyway - now it’s time for Crazy Weekend #which consists of a work holiday party a program and two Christmas Bird Counts #it is gonna be a TIME #a good time - hopefully - but a Time nonetheless #and then? i get to? REST??????#nah - we actually have another program #but HEY - could be worse!!#someday i will rest #someday..

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iamthetruestrepairman · 8 months ago

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I wish I just knew when/if I did something wrong

#the truest repairman posts #I’m probably making a big deal out of notjing but hey ho this is tumblr what is it for if not. Ranting about your emotions #A little too personally #I’m glad my cat is here honestly because I’d probably be reacting worse if she wasn’t here #I won’t remember this in a month so I don’t need to worry about it jaw clenched hands shaking #I guess I should have expected this I mean what’s the point of feeling like you’ve done something wrong and being upset when it’s confirmed #I just wish I knew what because now it’s the triple element of #If I did something wrong feeling guilty for that #If I didn’t and someone is just upset with me feeling guilty for causing that #And if someone is just a dick not caring about what they say but immediately worrying that by brushing it off as some shitty comment im #Ignoring someone who I actually upset #I shouldn’t get this worked up over something it’s 100% because I’m so tired #I was just already feeling so shit and then it was just confirmed like that… I wish I had someone to talk to now even so I could feel like #Haven’t upset EVERYONE at least #God I hope someone was just being a dick so I can stop giving a fuck #I’m too old to get upset like this man #Sorry for the long tags ig #Vent #Yeah we’re getting there I’d say #Probably should have tagged my like. One other post as vent too

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dandyshucks · 1 year ago

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starting to think maybe i should turn rbs off on that post actually bc im having heart palpitations now fdsjgjkl why is this happening to meeee

#vent //#me when the paranoia is Getting Bad fjkfdsjkl #its stemming from m.oral o.cd i think bc i am mainly worried abt more eyes on my blog and ppl seeing me frolic here #and the brain gophers have been insisting that i am doing smth horribly wrong and not realizing it #and the worry is that someone is going to see that and bypass talking to me abt it and go straight to making a callout post #and i will be sitting here with Zero Idea abt it #and continue hurting ppl by doing the Unknown Wrong Thing #but i also am not sure how that would happen bc i overthink literally Everything i post #if u see me put tags on smth that isn't just a simple ''ough'' or ''hehe yay!!'' i probably sat there for two mins making sure it was okay #running thru the words at every angle i can conceive of to ensure its not going to hurt somebody somehow fdsjkl #and this paranoia has been so bad the past few days. and when it gets bad then i get worried bc maybe i somehow have a guilty conscience #without even knowing !!! just subconsciously having a guilty conscience somehow !!#which ... only makes the paranoia worse fdsgjkl its a very bad vicious circle #anyways. i have been lowkey avoiding being here lately bc of this but i feel like avoidance just makes it worse #so . hrm. i just do not want to have more crying breakdowns bc i tried to figure out what on earth i could possibly be doing so wrong fsdjk #not exactly a fun way to spend time FDSJKL but ... what can ya do i guess #like i can't ask ppl ''hey am i doing smth wrong?'' bc thats. very vague. and subjective. and also i shouldnt rely on other ppl like that #but my brain is so goofed up that i genuinely cannot tell when i get like this sdjfkl bc i feel so sure i must be doing smth wrong somehow #so every tiny thing seems like maybe its wrong in a way i dont understand yet... ough #ANYWAYS SORRY THIS IS . NOT A GOOD POST TO MAKE. LOL. but i feel like this is the only way im going to bust myself out of this cycle #hopefully if i just Say that i've been really worried then if smth IS actually wrong someone will let me know #and if nothing is wrong then !! i can move on from this continual paranoia spiral !! maybe !!#i feel like me posting this is going to be a Wrong Immoral Move but fdsjkl rly trying to just. break out of it rn fsdjkl #dandyshucks

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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago

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and I just realised I can't sleep tonight 🙃 I have to go see my GP as soon as they open at 8 (to get a note so I can hopefully still do the oral exam for my thesis). I can't sleep without meds. but if I take the meds I can't wake up after only a few hours. sooo. I guess I'll be awake until probably like 10:00 or something, at least.

#which is fine I guess #since I woke up very very late.... but still. anything that pushes my sleep schedule even further back is not great #but hey at least I'll probably look like I'm actually sick 🙃#it sure would be cool to be able to sleep! and to only sleep like.. 8 hours. maybe even 10. and feel rested #but no I can't even do that.#everything would be easier if only I could sleep. I wouldn't need the meds. which cause side effects. which are unpleasant and make things #worse.#maybe one day 🙃🙃#personal

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pierogipete · 1 year ago

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winter is so much fun i love experiencing 4pm from 8am-430pm and then midnight immediately after its great for my brain

#yall i need some vitamin d #winter blues #i fucking guess #one more week then im using the rest of my vacation time #hey at least i dont have finals anymore #it could always be worse

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batri-jopa · 2 years ago

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Me after watching a movie with young gay characters frotting spontanically and lovingly: Fuck yeah, that's it!!! What an enlightment! Why did it never even occured to me that guys can do it this way?? Why doesn't any other movie showed it to me before!? Like is this not the most logical and natural way when their genitals are literally sticking out?! And it's just sooo sweet and tender!! And they are so equal in the act!! and it so much corresponds with the rest of their relationship in the movie and is opposed to the patriarchal norms and social expectations of male rivarly and and... I am so damn sure everyone in the fandom must be highlighting the fact that they frot!!!

Glancing at other people's fanfics: [top and bottom everywhere]

Me: wha...? 😳 but... why???? 🥺

[I shut myself up and crawl back into my hole assuming that I must be the most sexually obsessed weirdo in the block]

You’ve heard of He Would Not Fucking Say That. Now get ready for: He Would Not Fuck Like That

#well I've read a lot of smut and sure it was a good stuff. I've been surprised at first that there's no frot but hey I take what I can get #I think maybe these characters would actually turn to do it this other way some day who knows? So I did enjoyed it #there is no wrong or right way to write a fanfic. It's just that their First Time WAS different and I KNOW it #and what is worse I think it was important. not like the hill I wish to die on but still. I've seen what I've seen and I know what I know #it actually fascinates me how popular top-bottom dynamics are in fics and movies...#...while statistics say it's the least favorite way of intercourse among gay men couples?🤔#could the dynamics be so much appealing for the writers? or could it be lack of knowledge (for it's not a commonly known topic afterall)?#if I were a scientist I'd love to make a research about it. I'm not so I can only guess #and believe me it's not easy to be sexually obsessed asexual and home grown sociopsychologist at the same time #fandom #whatsnothotaboutfrot

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pfc-nagi · 3 days ago

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the real question is at what point do I tell the guy I have been obnoxiously flirting with for a year and a half abt the fact that I am working on a misa cosplay

#hey michael guess what? twink in a skirt <3 #btw when I say obnoxiously I mean it like why are we both such pussies. we have literally verbatim been like 'ok go to bed we can continue-#-flirting later :3 sleep well <333' it is gross and we are both Cowards who will not try to actually make any moves #full disclosure this man is ALSO the Entire Reason I started watching anime in the first place lmao #I am simply too gay for my own good #anyway about the cosplay. considering I already own most of the accessories literally all I need to do #is go to hot topic one (1) time #(there are like 4 within an hour of me so I can really Scour if I have to)#and I will be just about done #the biggest issues are as follows:#1. where the fuck do u buy good wigs. this is a genuine question #by good I just mean better than terrible. I do not need to spend an ungodly amount of money on this wig considering:#2. I have absolutely nowhere to wear this. the one (1) con I have gone to no longer exists #I will just. own a misa cosplay. for myself I guess #anyway. sorry for being the way I am. I just think if I were to wear a misa cosplay it might make him worse #full disclosure I know nothing about this man btw. I do not know how old he is. nor do I know his sexuality. none of that matters really #he's into me and what more could I need lmao #sorry for being the way that I am all the time lmfao #sn speaks

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sardonicsergeant · 25 days ago

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Think I'm fine for now...

#sardonic speeches #he went to go get cigarettes....#p sure thats... a part of the arguing lately.#without my brother i... dont have any family i could even start to rely on #like no grocery or living assistance or anything and uhm....#hes not too happy about it anymore so im not sure how long it will last...#i really dont think im that needy or spoiled....#it just sucks knowing it wont change when he gets back it makes me want to just... cut the chord but like...#man i have a bloodlust for myself but i dont want to die i guess......#legit the more i think about my reality the more i want to kill myself but ignoring it and just pushing forward makes it worse.#god if i could drive i think i would just go off a bridge at this point....#but hey he told me if i put my foot on a gas pedal hed stop smoking #... or started going into stores....#i only stopped bc well legit sit there for an hour and he gets increasingly just... irritated and smokes like 3 cigarettes #and at the end of it hes yelling and im crying and its just like.... bro i cant go in the store like that #i hate how many stangers have given us a look and its worse bc they think its 1000% voluntary but.... hes my brother #i cant leave him i promised myself i wouldnt but i promise myself alot and im fine letting myself down if im honest...#fuck i wish i would get smited already!! do i not deserve it #???????

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talkorsomething · 8 months ago

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They literally just had a conversation about ice cube trays and whether or not they were clean (they decided they were not i think?) and did NOT ask me anything. Do i not exist to you people

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #the ice cube trays were clean btw just the water wasn't good at the time #which is why they were empty #this and also some things in the freezer that need moved and NOBODY has asked me to move them and i literally could #like #augh. god. i exist!!! i live here! i know things!!! i'm awake!!!!!!#i'm not SUPER annoyed by it but i Could Be if i think about it too much #which i mean. i probably will.#anyways this has annoyed me into deciding *i* will deal with the freezer stuff when i wake up if nobody else has by that point #just ... a constant list of things that's just gonna keep getting longer.#cause i don't want to ... ugh words tonight #i don't want to add the stress of because like. listen.#i get angry a LOT and it's not really warranted most of the time. i do not want to subject people to that.#and also just ... everythiiiing everything about the way i hear him act has been bugging me this week and its only MOSTLY because it's #almost (or is by now?) shark week and i always get pissed at everything right before then.#the other part is that he reminds me of the father unit who ALREADY bugs me just. in general so. yippee i guess.#its like 'hey u should communicate if u have a problem :)' and then i go 'ok i will :)' LYING because i do NOT want to make this situation #exponentially worse. cause thats how it would go. i dont need to feel even LESS wanted in my own home lol

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