#but deflate maybe

[dracothedeatheatingcupcake-ao3]

And that’s a wrap for Comic Con 2024! Ha, it was a lot of fun, but I really enjoyed dressing up as Mondo today! I even had a couple people recognize him! And a few others just liked the hair, one of whom asked how long it took me to get my hair like that, which tells me that at least it looks natural enough for people to mistake it as my actual hair, ha.

Overall, Comic Con was cool! On Thursday, I attended a live podcast recording for Braving the Elements, which is an Avatar the Last Airbender podcast hosted by Janet Varney and Dante Bosco (the voices of Korra and Zuko, respectively), and I actually got a trivia question right and I should (hopefully…) get an email from them soon to get a prize for answering the question right. If not… oh well. At least I’ll be featured briefly on the podcast answering trivia correctly, even though I usually suck at trivia, ha.

The rest of the days were a bit more meh, but I still had fun. I won a Pokeball ornament from a Hallmark panel, since I knew how many Squirtles were in the Squirtle Squad, aha. Which leaves my trivia score 2 for 2 at the moment.😅 I also got a free shirt and scarf for the upcoming Yakuza live action show, which was neat. I’ve never played Yakuza, but my brother has, so I was able to give him the shirt at least.

Still, while Comic Con was fun, I’m definitely glad it’s over so I can go home and clean up from my frantic cosplay creating the last several weeks, oof.

Also! On the first day I dressed at Taka, but since I was by myself I only have the one photo my dad was able to quickly take of me before he had to drive off and a quick selfie I took in the car.

[gayofthefae]

I can't believe Mike friend zoned Will and then Will immediately friend zoned him back and Mike got all sad and quiet and retreated back "In the Closet (at Rink o Mania)"

(yes, that moment is the exact line the song starts playing, you can check)

vs when he realizes Will already thought so

[betweenblackberrybranches]

I come to bring you all flowers<3

I still dont feel so good so drawing doesnt want to work but here have some peonies

[butmakeitgayblog]

how do you think clarke would have let lexa know she still had feels for her and loved her if they hadn't had to separte, they had more time together. im really curious was it sometime during the night clarke lays awake and cant shake the feeling she just needs lexa, like really needs her affection rite down to the core or would it be clarke just randomly kissing lexa because shes being all heda and she just cant help herself. i mean come on we all know lexas not going in for the kiss first this time she said she wouldnt and she all afraid of clarkes boundries now.

Ya know. That's actually a good question. And I think if you asked a dozen people in the fandom you'd probably get a dozen really different answers, but I think in my mind and just how Clarke conducted herself, I don't think she would've gone for it any time soon without there being a tipping point.

Because the thing is, Clarke is stubborn. She is bull-fuckin-headed. God love her, she's a precious little shit. Ya just wanna firmly sandwich her face between your palms be like, ".... let some shit go sometimes. Also, you're allowed to want things for yourself. Now stop bein' a dick."

So with that understanding - that she is stubborn and will hold a grudge wuh-haaay past when it's time to let it go - I have to say that no I don't see her really being completely and openly honest with Lexa about her feelings until given a clear impetus to be so. There always had to be a push for it to happen.

Having to go back to Arkadia and possibly never seeing Lexa again, seeing Lexa so resigned to the fact that they may never again get to have that kind of closeness or intimacy in their goodbye (as fleeting in that moment as it felt), knowing that they may never see each other again or if they do it could potentially be on opposite sides of the battlefield, the fact that it was Lexa who pushed forward and let slip "That's why I—..."

Those were all a storm of emotions that emotionally pushed Clarke into acting on her feelings.

Without that, I don't think she would've done it any time soon.

Because it was obvious Lexa had already done damn near all she could to earn Clarke's trust back. Clarke even understood the choices Lexa had made by that point. Had literally mirrors them herself despite, stubbornly 👀, trying to push the blame off onto Lexa's shoulders as a coping mechanism. They were rebuilding all the pieces of their relationship, but every 2 steps forward, Clarke would always take one step back. She always kept that distance. Always keep Lexa at arms distance.

This scene right here is the epitome of Clarke being Clarke

I mean goddamn girl. They had just spent the afternoon together. Clarke had sat and physically comforted Lexa after her nightmare. She'd drawn her sleeping and held that trust in such a vulnerable state. And yet, when Emerson attacked and Lexa moved to not only protect her but to comfort her by merely touching her and helping her up, Clarke recoils and harshly rejects her. Leaving Lexa startled, and confused, and hurt despite her immediately accepting the rejection, because... well, look at what they had just shared. That afternoon, those moments, they had meant something.

But that's just what Clarke does.

It's just who she is when she feels like her trust has been broken. Despite all the pieces being there for Clarke to move on from the anger she was already having a hard time hanging on to anyway, she still did hang on to it, because she's a stubborn little asshole (affectionate... mostly) in that way

That being said... if they were given A Lot more time for Clarke to pull her head out of her own ass and move on and actually allow herself to be happy within this world of chaos, I think it would've been more of a moment of Lexa just being Lexa, rather than Heda, that would've finally knocked down those few remaining bricks in Clarke's wall.

Because, while I think Clarke was attracted to Heda and Lexa as Heda and all that she embodied in those moments, truly I think Clarke fell in love with Lexa as just a person. The girl beneath the armor. And, imo at least, I think that's an important distinction to make. And I think it was an important distinction for Clarke too.

So do I think it would've been some moment of Lexa being entirely ~too Heda~ and Clarke just smooching her face off? Honestly, no. While that would've made for a fantastic moment to watch 🥵, I actually think it would've been a quiet moment of Lexa just being Lexa. Her saying or doing something with more meaning or emotion or vulnerability than she normally does. A moment of her showing Clarke yet another piece of that girl hidden beneath the sash of her duty that just hit her like an arrow right between the cracks of Clarke's already crumbling resolve.

But either way, emotional or situational, there'd always have to be a tipping point.

[lemongogo]

this is how it feels to attempt sequential art after only ever illustrating standalone things. tbh

[loveandthings11]

🤪 the only justice for Kendall is moving him to the Friends universe

[giftboxxworld]

So I was in the middle of practicing entropy (chemistry lol) and I pondered… I’m scared for the future of this nation (I’m from America), and honestly I sometimes feel a very sad feeling, that feeling of doom over circumstances you tried to control and fix, but couldn’t. And especially how it’s affecting people. And it makes me feel so, so sad..

Here’s some drawings of Peppino feeling this way

Like and or reblog to give Peppino a warm hug and his favorite snacks

He could really use some love and comfort right now.. poor guy.

[animentality]

people were upsetting me in the comments on one of my fanfic chapters, so I just deleted it.

i was going to write 5 chapters, but since I deleted one, and don't feel like posting the other one now, I think it's fine to just leave it as a trilogy.

man.

i'm not sure.

am I losing my touch, or is that particular fandom really touchy?

i swear I never got this much complaining when I wrote durgetash porn...

maybe it's because that's a more adult fandom.

i don't know.

feels bad, though. kinda feels bad.

[catscidr]

chucks this dottore x y/n art like a smoke grenade and runs in the opposite direction like the cop in cloudy with a chance of meatballs

[lukeofe]

I wonder if inflatable pool floats, in their waxing moments as they are blown up by their new owners for the first time, would wonder or hope that they will have a certain life. I wonder how they'd feel about a life spent at a pool with a family who has kids that are a little too rough, only living that one glorious day in the sun before being punctured, thrown away, and forgotten. Would they feel satisfied, having served their purpose? Would they feel hurt? Wasted? Treated cruelly?

If a pool toy finds themselves in the hands of a kinder person, maybe an adult who would use them on vacations and summer spa days, would that be better? Would there be a fullness felt in those months or years of existence before the inevitable seam split dooms them to the landfill, being situationally cared for until then but still receiving care nonetheless?

And if they are purchased and inflated by a pooltoy collector or enthusiast, someone who has an emotional connection to them? What then? Is that the love they'd all seek? That level of care and respect? They weren't designed with it in mind, but isn't it natural for all of us to desire to be more that what we were "made" for?

Is it not a disgrace then that so many pool floats end up discarded, their purpose as things served but their potential as vessels for connection stifled? Is that not tragedy?

If there were a God that pooltoys pray to as they are filled with life for the very first time, what life would they want that God to have them live? What kind of touch would they pray for?

[utterdrip]

astarion’s sigh/laugh of utter relief when he realizes durge just wants him safe

[oceanwithouthermoon]

me after realizing that tumblr is not real life and i can just pretend not to care when people on here are mean to me

[eemoo1o-animoo]

Butler Pattern Baldness is canon, Yana said so herself.

[jimmyspades]

[faaun]

the forest looks like heaven today i woke up feeling the heaviest weight at the top of my heart

[spideyhexx]

i had the crazy thought of going through divorce reader saying her husband's name while jack is fucking her....

oh no

yeah he’d stop immediately and get extremely weird, but he doesn’t yell or say much he just gets stiff and tells you maybe you should head out