#but before that caitlin n i r making grace dinner to try to make up for david having to leave it will not b good but we r making raviolis
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garlique · 4 years ago
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today seems like it is going to b a good spoons day i woke up went and got blood drawn and then got breakfast, got covid tested, AND got my flu shot all before 11. i think the new meds placebo hit today lmao
tw for panic attacks and alcohol in the tags!!
#of course tonight i will be DRINKING which is v exciting hehe#but literally i have ONE class meeting left it's at 2:30 i have one thing due for it that's like 80% done#and then the only thing i have to do for finals is prep for a 20 minute oral final exam and then edit my mus final based on the peer review#so YES i am getting blasted i have come up with a foolproof plan to get as drunk as possible without vomming again lol#every time i take a shot it will be a double except the other shot is gonna b lemonade#and i will simply measure the shots with my heart#and so i shall simply get absolutely blasted hehe#but before that caitlin n i r making grace dinner to try to make up for david having to leave it will not b good but we r making raviolis#so for that it is also good im having a good spoons day so i can cook plus i need to do the dishes before that so good spoons day VERY good#it's s weird because i had a debilitating panic attack last night like lasted for over an hour typa bad#on a whole other note i DID make the conscious decision to let grace like help me last night which i feel like weirdly ok about#i dont like asking for help when im in like Crisis crisis because i always feel bad and that is of course my mother's fault but i won't#get into that rn#and so every time i feel a panic attack/meltdown coming on in front of other people i try to immediately excuse myself#and last night i debated for like a minute between leaving and letting grace help me and i like did decide to let her help#which was probably for the best but that was also SUCH a bad one#like she saw me have one over my computer breaking but this was bad. i kinda wanna ask what it looked like from the outside lmao#SCREEM ok wait now i feel bad abt it because i just remembered IM supposed to be HER emotional support housemate rn lmao#anyway yea yea yea it's weird im doing so well today considering how bad i was doing last night#ive been bouncing back from things suspiciously quickly lately honestly. like am i like?? coping??? mmm anyway
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