#but because my idea of peak romance is hannibal
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i think if i wrote and published a book id get semi-cancelled
#not because im particularly like. bigoted. at least i like to think im not#but because my idea of peak romance is hannibal#and i have in fact bingewatched hourlong book reviews on youtube#that said maybe im safe because itd be queer which means booktok & booktube wouldnt care as much#i mean maybe id get called homophobic. and get rad////fems on my ass again for being a trans aroallo gay nonbinary person#id straight up just not get an audience actually if i write a book itll be about a qpr between two aroallo characters#best case scenario itd go under the radar worst case scenario ill get 13 year old tiktok queers on my ass for sexualizing gay men#newsflash!! 1. im an adult i can do what i want and 2. my identity is entirely sexual. are you going to say im bad rep#ramblings#i am once again asking someone to introduce tiktok queers to the aroallo identity and inform me of their response
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Hello dearest Hannibal community,
Thanks to all the peeps who are still following me after like 10ish years of more or less complete inactivity on here.
I did have a lilā peak now and then, looked at old posts of mine and reblogged some that didnāt feel all too cringe. Also scrolled through my feed and hannibal tags and found that actually not all too much has changed in this fandom - same humour, same love for the show, same insanity, same kind of lovely peopleā¦ heck, some of you veterans from back in the day are STILL active! I very much applaud your committment! šš»
Iām actually writing this post because I thought Iād give an update on whatās been going on in my life in hopes that some of you also comment a wee update about themselves or make a post and tag me (and others from the community) š«¶š»
Iāll try and make this not too long (Spoiler: it got longer than expected):
Basically, Hannibal (@nbchannibal) fundamentally influenced the trajectory of my life.
I went to med school because of that show and got my medical degree few years ago. Never in my life thought about becoming a medical doctor until I watched Hannibal, more specifally after watching Season 3.
Iāve always been fascinated by sciences, human anatomy, forensics, horror, the dark and obscure. But also loved arts and creative work, and for the longest time Iād wanted to make that my profession. I was planning on studying Digital Animation right up until I finished my last year of high school. At this point, I didnāt really have a portfolio for uni application and was doubting my creative skills/potential.
When Season 3 of Hannibal aired, Iād watched it 2 times in a row and then rewatched Hannibal all together (since have rewatched the whole series again about 3 times). I realized that I didnāt solely love the show because of the (b)romances, its story and its goriness, but because of the psychological and medical aspects of it. Really, really loved the āsassy forensics teamā and their work (even though it was very fantastical at times and surely not the most realistic portayal of forensic medicine). Suddenly, I had the epiphany of becoming a forensic pathologist. Silly me didnāt know that meant that Iād have to do 6 years of medical school, get a medical degree and then do another 6 years of residency in forensic medicine. But applied for medical school anyways, passed the ābigā entrance test and sure enough, I fell in love with medicine.
My dream of forensic medicine was pretty much crushed right away, since I was told that there were only few residency options in the city where lived (and wanted to continue to live) and hardly ever any open positions in this niche specialty. Also job market was rather saturated - and still is.
Did a pathology internship during uni and found it very intrigueing but couldnāt really cope with the smells, even though seeing, touching and cutting (recently) deceased bodies was no trouble at all. I then thought, maybe forensics wouldānt have worked for me anyways and abandoned the idea completely.
Last year of medical school I did an internship in psychiatry, enjoyed it, apparently did well enough and was encourage by my attending to pursue a career in that feeld. Before that internship I had again recently rewatched Hannibal, and rather unknowingly paid closer attention to the psychiatrists and psychologists portrayed in that show. Hereby became more and more fascinated by the subject of mental health and mental disorders. I was aware, however, that most psychiatrists in Hannibal almost exclusively performed some form of psychotherapy and hardly any clinical/medical psychiatry was shown.
Ultimately, I got a job at the very same psychiatric clinic I did the internship at and am still doing my residency there. I like my specialty very much, love and care for my patients deeply, and my work definitely gives me some sense of purpose. Do I feel completely fulfilled? No. But who really is, am I right?
As of late, Iāve been entertaining the idea of forensic medicine again and changing my current specialty. I guess, I have not been able to let it go completely after allā¦
Anyways, did Hannibal affect your life also in some or great way as it did mine? If so, Iād be curious to hear your stories! :)
Thanks and best wishes to those who read the whole thing or even just a small part of it. ā¤ļø
- M.
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Rating Rand/Forsaken Ships
A Completely Impartial and Unbiased Guide
Rand/Aginor
Troubling! Very troubling. Donāt like that. However, I suppose it does have the homoerotic potential of Aginor being the first Forsaken Rand kills...? So thereās that, I suppose.
Rating: 1/10 for a pity point
Rand/Aranāgar
Aranāgar was a bad idea and I prefer to think about her as little as possible, so Iām just gonna slide right on by here and not linger.
Rating: no thanks/10
Rand/Asmodean
The original! I mean, sort of. Iām pretty sure if I did a count of Rand/Forsaken pairings this would be the most popular, which, makes sense. We Were Robbed by only having glimpses of the Rand and Asmodean relationship for one book.
While it doesnāt have quite the spicy rivals-to-enemies-to-enemies-but-fucking-maybe energy as some of the other ones on this list, itās popular for a reason and has the benefit of canon plausibility since theyāre in the same place at the same time for a somewhat extended period, sharing a tent and everything.
Rating:Ā 10/10, point docked because thereās less personal millennia old baggage, which I like in a Rand/Forsaken pairing personally; point added again for this one actually being more about Rand than Lews Therin Telamon
Rand/Beālal
I feel like I didnāt get to know Beālal very well before he was summarily annihilated by Moiraine shortly after we first saw him in the flesh. Heās one of the ājealous of Lews Therinā crowd, but not as much of a stand out as the other two I think of in that category. Gets some sexy points for being a schemer but ultimately his rapid obliteration means that this pairing never gets off the ground.
Rating:Ā 2/10
Rand/Balthamel
Iāve got nothing.
Rating:Ā 0/10
Rand/Demandred
I feel like Rand/Demandred has really strong āyou want to fuck me so bad it makes you look stupidā vibes. I mean, mostly itās transferred directly from Lews Therin Telamon to Rand by way of reincarnation but that kind of just makes it funnier. āYou want to fuck a guy whoās been dead for a few thousand years so bad it makes you look stupid.ā
On the other hand, thatās the stuff of legends, right there. Prime shipping material. And we know Rand specifically finds evil men sexy, so thereās that.
Promising, but almost too obvious.
Rating: 8/10
Rand/GraendalĀ
Had not considered this before but thereās so much good awful therapist āI could make him worseā potential here that shouldnāt be overlooked, so Iām reconsidering some of my previous thoughts. The mindfuckery you could get here! The psychological, Hannibal-esque experience! Exquisite.
Rating: 7/10
Rand/Ishamael
Fellas is it gay--
No but seriously!! Demandred wishes he could be on this level. As I said in the tags of that post: age spanning eternal enmity is very gay and truly Ishamael is doing the most where itās not just āI am envious of this one specific manā and more āwe are souls eternally destined to battle each other until the universe ceases to existā which is absolutely ~peak romance.~
Rating: 9/10, point only deducted because Rand spends the duration of their acquaintance believing heās the actual Dark One
Rand/Lanfear
I mean...look, itās okay? But it doesnāt thrill me, or anything. Itās pretty much your bog standard ājealous evil woman āif I canāt have him no one willāā set up and thatās just not that interesting to me! Her sexiest moment is for sure when sheās torturing Rand immediately prior to Moiraine football-tackling her into an alternate universe, though, so I feel like she gets some points for that.
I feel like someone probably could make this one interesting to me if they tried, though, so Iāll give it a little bit of credit.
Rating:Ā 6/10 for the torture and also canonicity, I guess
Rand/MāHaelĀ
Again feel like this one has the energy Demandred wishes he had but didnāt get because he wasnāt on page, probably at least partly because Taimandred (though I personally am sort of fond of Taim as his own character). And this dynamic? Spicy. Particularly where it comes during Randās gradual descent into peak human disaster territory.
Personally Iām probably more of a Taim/Logain kind of gal but thereās plenty of opportunities here for excellent hatefucking, and the advantage of regular proximity.
Rating: 9/10
Rand/Mesaana
I actually forgot about Mesaana completely when I was first writing this post, which I feel kind of bad about, but also, I mean - Mesaana, we barely knew ye. She spent all her time fucking around in the White Tower, so we donāt get a lot of interaction there. I think if I were to have a main character pairing with Mesaana it would be Egwene/Mesaana, which I thought about just now and I feel has potential.
Maybe itās just that I get gay vibes off Mesaana and canāt conceptualize her being interested in a man. Sheās def not Randās type.
Rating: 0/10
Rand/MoghedienĀ
Moghedien is too busy obsessing over Nynaeve and then living her kinky master/slave fantasies to have time for the Dragon Reborn. Honestly have to agree that if Nynaeve was the Dragon like the show was teasing for a minute there she would fight Lanfear for her.
Rating:Ā 0/10
Rand/Moridin
Recognize I may be biased here but this potentially has even more potential than Rand/Ishamael given that this is the same obsession-fueled tied-together-by-fate relationship but with less of the ādriven insane by millennia of semi-confinementā tripping up the latter.Ā
Look, as I said above, being convinced that youāre trapped in a spiral leading to the inevitable destruction of everything is the ideal foundation for a relationship. You canāt tell me Iām wrong.
Also I guess the inherent homoeroticism of swapping bodies with your sworn enemy, or something like that.
Rating:Ā 10/10
Rand/Osanāgar
You know, funnily enough I feel like this actually has a certain amount of potential, given the amount of time he spends around Rand, and dedicating a fair amount of energy to keeping him alive, too. Osanāgar isnāt interesting enough for me to be really sold on it, but thereās potential, anyway, so Iāll give it some points for that.
Rating:Ā 2/10
Rand/RahvinĀ
Rahvin is too heterosexual for this and I mean that in the worst way possible.
Rating:Ā 0/10
Rand/SammaelĀ
This has some of the same appeal as Rand/Demandred but strikes me as a lot funnier for some reason, maybe because I have a hard time taking Sammael very seriously. I think itās the feeling I get that while Demandred and Lews Therin had some kind of a relationship Sammaelās enmity was sort of one-sided. You know, one of those things where thereās a deep and intense rivalry that only one party knows about.
On the other hand the number of direct murder attempts is a pretty solid argument in favor here. And there is something to be said for āI ship it because itās kind of hilarious.ā
Rating:Ā 6/10
Rand/Semirhage
You know, I love Semirhage deeply for some fucking reason and it seems like there should be potential here given what she does to Rand (several squares on the Forsaken Kink Bingo Board), but I think my problem is that Semirhage in my head is just too much of a lesbian to be into it.
Yes, that is problematic; I stand by it.
Rating:Ā 3/10, because the kink bingo shit does deserve some credit
#quality posting on this here blog#wheel of time#wot book spoilers#i want to tag this so i can find it again but i have 0 idea what as#long post for ts
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Ā Ā Ā CRIMSON MOVES ME. CRIMSON MAKES MY HEART BEAT LIKE AN ADOLESCENTāS.
Ā Ā This seemed uttered almost distractedly; a focus on the air before him rather than the red mass just beyond. Willās artistic flair was unconventional in its apparition, its coalescence, and Hannibal had come to feed upon it. This time heād elected to sit back, busy himself with observations and a small, blank sketch pad, and record the triumph and installation at work.
Ā Ā His own rendition of the scene, as Will worked to unfold it, could never match the realistic beauty. But he worked his pencil into it with life, attentively capturing every movement.
Ā Ā Ā Ā āWould that I could live vicariously through you, Will.ā
Ā Ā He spoke not of the blood upon hands, the red wash of coppery smell, the clean line of sight as a heart slowed its pumping. He spoke of the opposite.
Ā Ā Heartbeats. How many times had he watched, inward and outward, a heartbeat slow to a stop? How many times had he expected his own to speed in reaction, in exhilaration? How many times, since the fear had thrummed through him that final time (in that stand of trees, his sisterās flesh stuck on the insides of his throat, his own life undoubtedly coming closer to its end with every breath), had he hoped against all hope that the next struggle, the next kill, would inspire his own heart to beat as though it lived? But time and again his own body fought to continue, wounded, or the knife buried to its hilt in a deserving throat.. his heart remained steadfast.
Ā Ā It only ever came close in Willās proximity, but still, it was not the same. He could not remember the sensation of a racing heart.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWill you describe it to me?ā
there is a rendition of their fortune before them, swept up in fell dynamic by the grasp of date oils and the taught scream of canvas. so deep these colors move him, and so deep he feels the need to voice it and grant it escape. because it weighs heavy on his heart that this is the peak of human creation and he is bereft of any sense to ground himself within it. therein comes a rhapsody, as, though this all sounds clumse, it is the rapture that numbs him rather than a critique of distaste.Ā
and breathing steady, the slow incline of his eyes stroll along the edge of the paintingās dimension. he fears if he moves to much, says too much, thinks too much, it will cease to exist. as if he has lured something in only to shy it away into the dark waters. these men who bend and bare before him are drenched in a heat of fever and flux and will wade into nothing as if his existence has introduced a second liquid state that does not permit them to remain.
hannibal has had such a profound effect on what he sees here today, never before would he walk through echoing halls of sculptured, beautiful men and fallen monuments to the greatest and feel touched. they now look back, finally, and he can understand what art is. for he has seen it live and breathe before him, in the smooth and angular curvature of a gilded three-piece, and be brought to life by every stroke of graphite, bleeding shade into one another like plumes of a hungry mind on paper.
immortalized on something that can be set fire to so easily by the hands of a man who plays god...it is quite the lapsing feeling of remembrance and of melancholic sobering. it is a loud silence to be shown yourself through the eyes of another. a mnemonic uprising that they are tangible and temporary, they are volatile and bound to flights of catalyst and compulsion, driving always, towards cataclysmic ends.
such honest and tender a reply grants the birth of a smile so soft it contends with what mona lisa knows, livening the jaded mist that had come to settle on vision clouded by ardent whimsy. it only ever takes one statement: hannibal could bring him to tears beneath one look, beneath one word, beneath one sword. they are effortless in the presence of their binding, red string wraps around their feet and tethers their palms to one another.Ā
only then upon request would his eyes liven. he searches for words, picks them carefully as the other does. will graham is romanced by the idea of introducing his companion to what a century-old revolutionary of the heart has dared to show his mind. of wilting gardens and chalk houses, a splendid sun basks a balmy exhale over his skin and he tilts his head up and to the side, receiving it. his are eyes shut, wholesome.Ā
something that ignites the will of his veins and something he dominates. knowing hannibal to have no concept of personal civilization beyond the chemical spurs the arousal of disrobing him to his own. they share an awakening and this provides victual but it does not satiate him, rampant to gorge on the unfettered and unblossomed areas of hannibalās soul. he seeks out a second home to place himself within, with hope of collecting everything that spills and runs.
Ā Ā Ā ā i feel as if iāve swallowed the rumble of thunder. and opened up heaven beneath my rib-cage. lightning...seems to strike behind my larynx and...crawl across every bronchial. branch and expire into my lungs. itās fast. it mimics my inner anatomy as if an electric current has duplicated my form and suspended itself somewhere between my bones and my skin. only once. itās...itās almost a surreal revelation. that iām feeling my soul respond ā and so vividly. my soul...quivers like a last breath. ā
#bcnquet#i see ur dolce hannibal and raise u my dolce will#i swear to god he's having a total soulgasm right now#ok but what about a verse where they ran away together n have days out at museums and art galleries n are happy n calm pls
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Looking for new partners <3
Hi there! I am a literate 20 year old roleplayer looking for a long term partner (18+)! I write paragraph responses and will do my best to match your length as well :) I am pretty flexible and open to any ideas you have. I really want to do a RP that we both love.Ā I have a few ideas. Feel free to contact me if you want something of a similar vibe that is not on here! I play my female OC in all of these, and the character listed is who I am looking for:Ā
Fandom
Loki - my character is a witch who worships the old gods and has taken a particular interest in Loki. What if they have a relationship in which the lines are kind of blurredā my character isnāt sure he truly exists because he visits her in the odd hours of night and only sees glimpses of him during the day. Iām also thinking about a plot where he chooses her to be his wife before their first meeting. I was inspired by the Marie Antoinette movie for that one.Ā
Tony Stark - my character could appear to be the type that everyone expects Tony Stark to date, a much younger sugar baby. But sheās not a sugar baby, and she actually really loves him.Ā
Bucky Barnes - Iām feeling the classic good girl/bad boy trope with him and my character. we could even take it further to become villain and sidekick ;)Ā
Hobbits - Iām really feeling a cute cottagecoreĀ RP where my character falls into Middle Earth Alice in Wonderland style and a hobbit(s) takes care of her,Ā
Captain Kirk, Bones, or Scotty from Star Trek
Negan from the Walking DeadĀ
Hannibal or Will from NBC Hannibal - my character is Hannibalās patientā¦ which makes for complicated relationships. Iām dying for this one.Ā
OC X OC
Artist and the muse - your character is an artist (painter, photographer, fashion designer?) and feels a spiritual connection to my character.Ā
Gothic romance - your character is a mysterious debonair man who sweeps my character off her feet to a Victorian mansion with stained glass and old paintings in the countryside. Maybe he has a dark secret of some sort? Think Crimson PeakĀ
God and witch/priestess - my character is chosen to be high priestess for your characterās ancient cultĀ
The Mummy inspired - your character is an archaeologist who falls for a mysterious Egyptian dancerĀ
Wonderland - my character falls into a world Alice in Wonderland style. We could have fun with world building on this one. Is your character a dark elf? Evil king? a sweet gnome?Ā
Iām up for fleshing out new ideas or any other ideas you may have! let me know. You can find me on discord and email. discord:Ā missbelladonna#2770 email: [email protected]
#Indie rp#oc rp#multiple paragraph#para#long term#fandom#fantasy#historical#horror#original#post apocalyptic#romance#slice of life#submission#literate#mythology#marvel#the lord of the rings#star trek#the walking dead#hannibal#discord#email
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