#but because I am a fucking coward I did it anonymously

[daily-whistlepaw]

daily whistlepaw until l becomes PoV day 765

a thing I drew at school today. the text is about me, dw it’s nothing too bad

[pettytiredandjewish]

Y’all I just noticed something- ever since I turned off anonymous asks, due to me getting harassed constantly by antisemitic asshats and pro-Palestine people/anti-zionists (because I’m a cold hearted bitch/moron/monster for caring for Israeli citizens who are also victims of the war/ caring for the return of the hostages/ calling out antisemitism/etc…) I haven’t gotten any more hateful or harassing asks… I wonder why??? Could it be that some of them are….cowards and likes to hide? I guess we’ll never know….(jk I already know the answer-i just wanted to add a dramatic flair to it lol)

Also do y’all (I’m talking to the pro Palestine and anti Zionist crowd) even care that Hamas is still holding over a hundred hostages??? And that Hamas are treating the hostages like they’re in some sick torture game??? It seems like whenever someone talks about the hostages/any news about them/testimonies from those who were returned/etc… y’all go bat shit crazy. Hell there’s this video going around where this group of people (pro Palestine/anti Zionist) were defacing a mural that says ‘free the hostages’ and ‘fuck Hamas’ (or something similar to it) because it somehow insulted them???

And stop denying that 10/7 happened. It’s not a fucking conspiracy theory! It was a messed up/horrible terrorist attack and a pogrom- a pogrom that Hamas has promised will happen again! To those who are still denying it/claiming that IDF did it/ or thinks that this attack was necessary- y’all are just fucking unbelievable and messed up…

At this point I’m convinced that y’all hate jews in general and that you are using the i/p war as an excuse to be hateful antisemitic little fuckers. I said what I said.

Am yisrael chai! ✡️

[ljbrary]

You absolute dunce. Either wake up, or stop trying to pretend you care about what’s happening on Gaza. It’s not a “war,” and it’s not a “conflict.” It’s a full-fledged genocide. A war or conflict can only occur between two free nations, who are more or less standing on equal ground. That is NOT what is happening between Palestine and Izrahell. In what kind of a conflict/war does one side control the water, electricity, food, aid etc going into the other side? None. It’snotreal is a parasitic, violent occupation, and the Palestinian people have every right to resist. You have literal Holocaust survivors begging for ceasefire and calling it a genocide, not wanting it to continue. But of course, zios are just modern-day nazis and don’t care about what even the actual Jews, the living Holocaust survivors have to say.

omg my first antisemitic anon hate!! thank you!!!!

Anyone who I actually care about knows who I am as a person and how I feel about the sanctity of human life, so I don't really care about your opinion of me, and especially don't feel the need to indulge in a litmus test on geopolitical politics from you of all people, hope this helps!!

Anyway, I hope you take constructive criticism.

Your review:

Delivery: 6/10.

You get points for decent grammar and sentence structure. It was easy to read, and I like how you used quotation marks correctly, so bonus points for that. First sentence was a good hook, but the incorrect use of commas at the end kinda threw me off a little :/

Creativity: 1/10.

Literally, did you even try?? Not one single independent thought was expressed. Boring. Seen it before. Try harder, please. If you're going to try to play with words, make sure you actually know what they mean; you semantically can't do that to the word "Israel," sorry. It's a Hebrew word, so butchering it in English just feels really juvenile. Would like to have seen better effort with that.

Word choice: 0/10.

You would have gotten points for the words "dunce," because I haven't heard that word since like the 1930s, and "parasitic," because I thought that was an interesting use of the word, but unfortunately you got points taken off for using a KKK slur :/

Literary devices: -17/10.

The Holocaust inversion was not part of the rubric, so I had to take extra points off for that, and unfortunately it went into the negatives. Sorry :/ (I would have given you points for the use of irony, when you equated a KKK slur for Jews to the entity responsible for the worst genocide of Jews in history, but I'm absolutely sure that you did not use it on purpose, so the points were voided.)

Other notes:

The choice to be a coward (anonymous) really added to the ambiance of the message, but unfortunately I don't see a spot on the rubric for that, so no points were awarded.

Overall: -10/40 = -25%. Congrats, you failed! Disrespectfully, go fuck yourself!

.עם ישראל חי

[acat-foryournap]

What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You're fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that's just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little "clever" comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn't, you didn't, and now you're paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You're fucking dead, kiddo.

Well, if you say so. Then get off anon

Oh, you can't? Too scared? Can't attack someone over the internet without your identity being hidden? What, afraid people will go after you? Afraid I know who you are? Don't click send anonymous question, come on, reveal who you are, coward. Don't be scared nothing is gonna happen you chicken. Come here. Have a name. A blog. Be brave enough if you're gonna go around saying shit like that. Fucking coward, I could spit on you and you wouldn't do shit because that's what you're good at, nothing but doing shit. You say much about yourself but you're nothing, and you can't get off anon because your ugly ass would get revealed that you're an 8yo saying bullshit. Even my critters could beat you up fistfight. Get off anon and say stuff to my face, you disgusting excuse for a Twitter user

[armand1481]

You are so fucking fake. I used to follow you because I rembered you from ArtistoftheMillenia and I thought you were talented but I unfollowed after all this dumb shit drama started bcus I realized how fucking obnoxious you are as a person. First of all, “UWU pwease don’t call me Amadeo it twiggers my twauma :(“ what a load of bullshit. Trauma my fucking ass, the internet has rotted your brain like all the other fake asf chronically online ass people and made you believe you have tRaUmA, No. You got an opportunity any young artist would kill for being featured on a big YouTubers channel and all u can think to do is whine and be ungrateful bcus UWU my trauma WAAAAH. Makes my fucking blood boil. I don’t see what was so fucking traumatizing for you, getting to learn from one of the most talented artists of our age? What the fuck kind of trauma is that? And putting aside that bullshit, the way you talk and write is INFURIATING. It’s SO clearly fake that it makes me want to throw up from embarrassment. You talk like some pseudo gothic cringy emo kid who wants to come off as deep and smart and uses words like “purge” on fucking tumblr and talks in a forced monotone voice so ppl think ur more interesting then u actually r. CUT THAT SHIT OUT, everyone can tell it’s an act and it’s so embarrassing. And yes I’m choosing not to be anonymous for this bcus now you can’t shame me for being a coward and sending anon hate. I don’t give a fuck if u know who I am and your fans harass me, I don’t give a fuck. That’s how much you piss me off

The world would be improved if you just fucking killed yourself now and did us all a favor by PURGING society of the useless waste of space and air that you are, you anti intellectual dog shit, you pollute culture and you pollute art. You are nothing. Your inability to analyze anything beyond the most baseline surface level shit that is right in front of you is dispicable, you fucking idiot. Your idiocy shocks me.

Marius did give me wonderful opportunities but he also GROOMED ME, and I mean so very literally, he sexually exploited me and abused me. You are an idiot to believe that you understand the whole situation just by the glimpse you saw of us on the internet. Also, I’d like you to know that I’m fucking autistic, and the reason I seem “fake” to you (are you twelve years old? I wouldn’t be surprised) is because my autism makes me speak and behave in ways people find unnatural or forced. I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you. I wish I could kill you myself but unfortunately you live quite far away from me and I’m too busy to book a flight. However, someone else could always do it for me.

Palais Garnier, 8 Rue Scribe, 75009 Paris, France

Lock your doors you stupid cunt.

[marrowhyena]

Anonymous Coward asked: Crudeness aside, that OP does have a point: we are outnumbered and also a niche as male, gay furries and you need to be better by respecting your general audience more regardless beliefs, religion or politics (instead of deflecting and being judgmental with "lols" while forcing sexuality and queerness into them.) Where am I going with this? Remember when you admittely were worried about lossing viewers because of that Leo and Marrow piece being used as a thumbnail and were forced to stop using it?

Did you just 'forced diversity' me? Why does Dishonored Wolf watch my content? Your entire argument amounts to "you should go back into the closet and stop expressing yourself so that you don't make conservative christians uncomfortable." Sorry you hate yourself, buddy. Go the fuck away lol

[Smile or comment on the answer here](https://retrospring.net/@Boring_Keith/a/112655749539572177)

[pedrospatch]

Hey anon, high school bully behavior is anonymously bullying someone, something that YOU are doing.

This type of behavior is what drives people off of tumblr. Why more and more people pack it up and move to ao3 only or quit writing entirely. Keep it up, anon. Watch what happens, what’s already happening.

If you have an issue with someone, handle it like an adult. Not whatever this crap is. What did you think would happen, sending that rude message? That everyone would say oh yeah, this dumbass coward hiding behind an anonymous message is right. What a hero! They’re braver than all of us, bullying Vee online. Christ reincarnated. But you won’t do that, will you?

In the time it took to decide to send a rude message to someone, decide what that message would be, search for Vee’s tumblr, go into her inbox and type it up and press send, you could have done anything else and it would’ve been better. You could’ve said something nice to a friend (assuming you have any. I suppose imaginary ones count, as sad as that is) , you could have taken a few deep breaths. Perhaps made yourself a snack and calmed down. I think best of all, you could have (and should have) shut the fuck up. Never underestimate the value of shutting your mouth, anon. It’s a precious gift.

I hope someone does this shit to you and you can know how it feels. You’re clearly lacking empathy and it’d do you well to learn some. I’ll start you off with two pieces advice - If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all. Treat others how you want to be treated.

Vee, you are invaluable to this community and you’re worth so much more than you could ever ever know. I hope you know the positive impact you’ve had on me as an individual and countless fucking others, as well as tumblr as a whole. This flaming asshole will only ever be that - a flaming, electrified asshole. A pimple on the ass of the universe. You are a brilliant creator, friend, and member of this community. So much more than whoever this troglodyte is. I know you’re hurting, and I’m hurting for you. I hope you can heal soon. Do something nice for yourself tonight because you deserve it. You deserve it every night.

...i may or may not have had to google the term troglodyte

nonnie, thank you for your kindness, first of all. my emoji tab on my laptop decided she wanted to stop working, so here is this heart for you <33

it's kind of too late to tell you not to waste your own energy in regards to that anon, but really, let's just let them be. i've already wasted enough energy for all of us, and i really, really wish that i had been in a better headspace when that dumb ask was dropped into my inbox. if i had been, i would have just kept sipping my smoothie and writing my silly little story, which is what i had been doing when the notification came in lmao.

they caught me on a night i was already hurting, so naturally, their opinion of me did indeed hurt my feelings, and it sucks, but all the love i have gotten has certainly kept me from crawling into a hole and for that i am grateful. i think i shall take your advice and do something nice for myself tonight. <3

[citruslullabies]

I'm sorry for messaging you while the asks say temporarily closed, but I just wanted to say some things. 1, people should not go around fucking HARRASING you because you are not comfortable writing smut. It is fucking STUPID and fucking DISGUSTING that people would do that to somebody. It's like they don't think of people feelings at all. Like what the actual fuck? Some people aren't comfortable writing this stuff and that shouldn't be a reason to fucking HARRASS them. And if you are going to fucking do that, then don't do anonymously, use your fucking account you fucking COWARD. Like sorry that you are so thirsty that you will do anything to get your grubby hands on some smut. I bet you don't even have 1 inch.

2, people should NOT tell you to harm yourself! That is CRUEL! I don't give TWO SHITS what they think you did, it is absolutely NOT okay to ask somebody to fucking OFF THEMSELF!

I am personally sorry about everything that you have experienced while being on this platform. I am also very sorry about how much I have sweared on this ask, but the fact that somebody has the audacity to do that fucking infuriates me. Also, I want to say that you have inspired me to make so much art and writing. Just know that I look up to you and I know others do to. I give you all of my love -peirre-play-place ❤️

Hey hon, you're completely fine, messages are still allowed requests are not

But thank you, it honestly means a lot to me. A lot of people can be super fucked up on the Internet and I'm honestly getting used to it.

It sucks but it is how it is.

[somevillainfuckery]

Hello there! I hate drama and and want to nip this in the bud! 😃 Can I clarify something? Because I am a bit confused. Sorry if this is long...

Apparently I shared something of yours as a shipper at one point and you didn't like that...... and then (based on what you wrote in your tag to me) that you apparently shared some sort of passive aggressive message and it ended up being about me? And you think I clapped back? Or something like that?? I think???

And then you said something about an anonymous message?

I am very confused. Because I have no idea what you are talking about. I haven't seen or interacted to any complaint post. I aint got time for that. Ive been on this tag for 2 days, and I am well aware that it is polarized on the ship. Believe me. And i respect that. That is your opinion and you free to have it, I also love the platonic side too! I'm literally here for a good time and dont do drama.

I have learned that l've shared something of yours, and it made you uncomfortable, but I don't like that and I don't like to cause rifts in fandoms. I actually like all types of ships because I don't think that any one ship can be wrong because it's all fantasy and no one ship should be able to gatekeep any fandom, AND we should all stay in each other's lanes. I am just living my life, dude. If I have something to say I will use my face. I don't do anon. I'm not a coward.

In the past I have personally have gotten death threats and anonymous lies about my info being stolen as well as anon messages of people wanting to rape my dead body all because I ship something they don't approve of in past fandoms. So sick and stupid. All for a personal preference! So gross!! But anime fandoms are ceazy. That behavior is what I call a cheeto-fingered red bull flavored anti, and yes, I referenced them in one beetlejuice post because they are out definitely there.

God I hope you aren't one of those people.

Now I can honestly say that I haven't seen this supposed post of yours being passive aggressive towards shipppers (me), nor have I sent you any anonymous messages, but I would appreciate it, if you are just a normal person trying to keep the peace, then please, if you have an issue with me, please bring it up with me personally instead of adding to potential drama than doesn't need to be had.

I did make a post about my opinion on the couple after my first watch of the new movie, and I added a bit at the end about antis, but I figure you as more of a non-shipper or something, because you seemed cordial the post you tagged me in, and I haven't gotten anything ugly yet in this fandom which is nice. (thank goodness)

I mean hell, I support crack milulti-fandom ships because at the end of the day it's all fantasy and no one is wrong. I'm Ace so I actually love platonic ships just as much as romantic ones. I like and support it all!!! I just am fucked up in the head and i like this one romantically too. I am well aware that this ship is problematic, but thats why fantasy is so fun. I crave normalcy in reality but anything but in fantasy.

Like you said in the post you tagged me in, I also don't want to cause more unnecessary drama. I have not been in the beetlejuice tag for very long so if there is a more appropriate tags to use I will defitately use them. I am all about keeping the peace.

I'm just here to share content and find fun people to vibe with, but yeah I am used to staying vigilant with the uglies that try to be mean. Ive created sancruary groups for other fandoms simply so people can enjoy their ships in peace. I am not paying attention to you if you don't ship them (at least I'm trying not to).

I have not, nor will I read whatever it was that might have been said, but I am happy to rectify my mistake and delete anything I might have shared of yours. I will not heart or share any of your posts, because I do ship them and I don't want people to get the wrong idea about you. - Damn that sounds Hella passive aggressive but I'm not trying to be.

Believe me, this is the weirdest message I've sent to anyone, but I hope it is read and understood by a cordial individual. Please be safe out there. Please enjoy your lovely platonic besties, and I hope you find solas in whatever you can. The world is vicious. 💚🖤

(@spirits-n-giggles because of the word-limit on the chat I will reply here. I apologize for the delay in seeing/replying to this. I'm gonna try and explain things to the best of my ability-) To explain the anon thing, I swear, I did not think it was you. The very second I sent out my complaint post, someone sent an anonymous ask ripping me a new one, and I chose to delete and ignore it. After that I just realized that the complaint post was.. really really stupid of me- When I mentioned you in the post you had actually seen, the reason I apologized for the complaint post was in case you had seen it and decided to ignore it [which is completely valid]. I'm sorry you have to deal with horrible threats simply because of a ship you like. Just because someone ships a certain thing, does not mean that gives people the right to harass them. Just like you, I'm only trying to enjoy beetlejuice content, and I'm not trying to have any drama go down. I'm glad you understand, and that you enjoy my content. I won't block anyone from enjoying anything I post unless absolutely necessary, and right now.. its not anything serious enough to have you remove things that you reblogged from my account or anything. If you enjoy it, then do what you will, reblog and like what you want. I'm glad we both just want to keep the peace in the fandom, and avoid trouble, and I'm sorry if we got off on the wrong foot. I wish you a wonderful weekend, and if there's anything else that needs clarification, if you want to ask about anything else, or even away from this and you wanna talk about anything else- please reach out to me and let me know.

[vdragon-creations]

I am sorry but I don’t think you understand Raph’s character at all if you just think he’s the angry one always starting things. He’s way more complex than that and you being incredibly close minded. If you can’t see past his flaws like you can the others I feel sorry for you. You probably think Leo is flawless and can do no wrong.

Hahaha! Bruh, we got a live one here! This folks is a prime example of how folks can no longer read on the internet without either getting pissy without thinking or automatically jump to the worst conclusion about a person. All because someone out there doesn't like a fictional character the same way you do.

(Now I see why you took the time to ask this anonymously. Coward.)

Firstly, it's you're instead of you. I know you're mad, but maybe slow down a bit.

Secondly, you're actively blind if you think I said that Raph is always starting things. My exact words where "I feel like Raph tends to start them". The key word being "tends". Meaning not always, but a good amount of the time. And I feel like you're basically ignoring a lot of cases where Raph actively make things a problem when they weren't, or when there IS a problem, he just gets pissy instead of like....idk talking. (And I feel like you're actively ignoring that he's legitimately characterized to be the "Do first ask later type" in most versions! Hell, his 84 version is incredibly violent! Do you just....not know that or??? And they changed that in the 87 version where he's more sarcastic then angry. Again, something I mentioned in my Raph post.)

And way to go, assuming you know a damn thing about me! Cause guess what, I'm aware Raph is more complex. In my Leo post, I talked a little bit about how I related a lot to Leo because of the role I was forced to play as a kid. But the thing I didn't mention was that...I also relate to Raph quite a bit. I had massive anger issues growing up too. And they where due to a lot of reasons. But the two biggest ones where:

I didn't understand quite how to deal with situations were I wasn't being listened to or taken seriously.

I cared a lot about those around me, and when I felt they didn't care back, it made me feel a way.

TWO THINGS THAT I KNOW RAPH FELT IN SEVERAL VERSIONS TOO! Doesn't mean he was right to act the way he did. But he's a teenager, and I was a child. I can look past all of that. But, can't erase the fact that he could and did act like a complete shitter in a lot of situations without really...any good reasons. And it got them into some deep shit.

But, I can see that he owns up to most of it too, and apologizes when he's gone too far. I had to learn to do the same. And I will commend him for that.

And as for the Leo thing, again just proves you didn't read what I said once more in my Raph post. I outright stated "Leo does seem to be making the worse choices in those arguments (Glares at Bayverse Leo)" I'm aware he's not flawless! For fuck sake, in 2003 (Season 4), Bayverse Out of The Shadows, TMNT 2007, and in fucking RISE, Leo could be a REAL piece of work! And I feel, just like with Raph, things could've worked out a lot better if they had just....talked!

And I'm more then capable of seeing the flaws of all my favs and can still like them despite there flaws! And the opposite could be said for characters I'm not as jazzed about. Like with Raph. I'm more then capable of seeing past his flaws and can see why people like him. Don't mean I gotta tho.

All I said in my Raph post was that I don't really like him and never really have. I don't hate him, just don't like him. I saw a part of him that reminded me of some of the worst parts of myself growing up, and it can rub me the wrong way when the shows just don't let him show off his more softer side and grow as a character. (A fault of the writers you dipshit, not the character itself! He's not real so he can't actively change if writers don't let him.) And after all of this, I wouldn't wanna see him gone from the series, cause without the whole team, the TMNT fall apart.

But you saw that I don't like Raph, and immediately jumped to calling me "Closed minded" and making some pretty, gunna be honest, closed minded assumptions about how I must view a fictional character over another. Well, says more about you then it does me in the end!

Have a nice day.

[blue-shiver13]

Doubt you’ll respond to this publicly, but at least you’ll read it.

It’s cool you like HeavyMedic and all, and it’s great that there’s a plethora of content both in Valve and fan created content around the ship, but it’s kinda shitty you bash other ships that also ship Medic with other mercs, like EngiMedic, on your Twitter.

Sure, it ain’t a canon ship and it’s not as popular, but why hate it for literally no reason other than you don’t agree with it? I quote from your Twitter post:

“I fucking hate engimedic and the amount of good drawings it has from its community. I don't give a fuck about anything you say about it it's not canon and it literally has some mild evidence of being abusive. Heavy and medic have no domination lines directed DIRECTLY at eachother”.

So just because it’s not canon and you think it’s abusive, in your opinion, it’s therefore invalid and deserves hate? Additionally, a lot of people don’t even push for EngiMedic as canon, they do it because they enjoy the ship, like many other ships. I personally don’t ship HeavyMedic, but I still like the art and content people make of the ship.

But to sit here and bash a group of people for liking a ship because it’s not canon, and basically saying it doesn’t deserve the good art it has because of that, is childish af. Honestly grow up man, there’s nothing to hate about it. It’s one thing to not like or support it, but to sit here and bash it because you think HeavyMedic is superior and the only ship that should exist is crazy stupid.

First off, I didn’t bash the group I bashed the ship. I’d rather people who ship it stay away from me due to what I say in my third point. I never said it deserves hate and all I did was give my personal opinion.

Second, that post was from 2 months ago during a time I was more unstable than I am now. I have changed and I’m more accepting of it even though it can still sometimes send me into a downward spiral. Thank you for setting me back by a long time, you’ve only fueled my instability and inability to accept other views more.

Third, I have trauma that links to engimedic to the point where at times my mental state has gotten worse from just knowing it exists. I know it sounds crazy but this is what happens when you’re someone who used to be chronically online and almost half of the people you knew were abusive as shit. Due to other parts of my trauma I am unable to see Medic shipped with anyone but Heavy.

Fourth, I am a neurodivergent minor. I am HIGHLY attached to my view of TF2 and other views make me INSANELY uncomfortable. My view of TF2 is a hyperfixation of mine that I have had for 3 years.

Fifth, you’re a coward for not doing an ask on your real account. if you don’t like me or my opinions then you don’t need to follow me or interact with me. But if you want to interact so badly like you obviously do, use your normal account and don’t hide behind an anonymous ask like a coward.

Sixth, YOUR view of TF2 is not less valid than mine but if it includes something in my DNI I just prefer you keep those headcanons away from me due to my attachment to my view of TF2.

Finally, I have a question for you.

Why me? Why don’t you go bother someone else who’s actually done things that matter? You can literally just block me if you don’t like me, so why bring this up to me? Do you want to “change me” and if so, you did a terrible job at trying.

Oh yeah I almost forgot.

The only other ship between medic and another merc I’ve publicly bashed is a literal proship between Medic and Classic Heavy, HIS FUCKING ABUSER. So if you want to say that I “bash other ships that also ship Medic with other mercs” you’re showing me you have a problem with me bashing a proship.

If you were only referring to engimedic then you would only refer to engimedic.

[katyspersonal]

I am feeling so ill. My mental pain keeps translating into physical one, like something that keeps poisoning me from within, and it can last from very morning to very evening at times. I wish I stopped being reminded of the backstabbing, of how much that person has been lying to us, and how she threw away her empathy and common sense in an instant, as soon as she got enticed with the prospect to feel like a """victim""". When everything was explained and even forgiven prior.

For a Christian, she sure is a terrible one, and really should pray to her God for forgiveness. Because that's sin of vanity if I've seen one. Her sorry pro-lifer ass that can't even use they/them pronouns because it is "not correct in English" and has been following Mico herself before he deactivated must be satisfied with people around with whom she has to censor her true opinions, I suppose? She had all context, she had explanation and apology, she faked having accepted that apology too, lied about not really caring about the "drama", faked patience and lied about always welcoming me back - only to latch at the first chance to backstab me and my friends she got. And the way she conveniently ignored how I took my words back, too.. I don't know what is WRONG with people who think that when a person that has been stalked and harassed for a year lashes out upon feeling threatened - they've shown their """true face""". Nobody is more alien to normal human emotions and reactions than Americans. I guess for them you are either physically incapable of anger, fear and fucking up OR you are a vile dangerous monster.

But the real question - what did she want to ACCOMPLISH? She didn't really feel like a star and gain sympathy like a victim of the """horrible mistreatment""" that me lashing out when she defended my STALKER was - that I also TOOK BACK. From my knowledge, she kept herself anonymous. And of course instantly blocked me, because like a coward she could not answer for her lies. She also lost other friends too - one HATES liars and hypocrites more than anything, another has similar emotional problems to mine so no longer feels safe, third straight up was harassed by that person as well.. "They are still lovely people" she says. And I am not a "lovely" person, of course. Because "lovely" people just smile and shrug off being stalked, harassed and talked untrue shit about for a year, I suppose? Because "lovely" people don't become clingy for someone defending them so loud and proud?

My only theory is that she just secretly harbored hatred towards me all along but was forcing the facade of patience and understanding, until one day finally came what looked like a good justification to drop it. But then why sending me all that emotional support when I fell for suicidal road back in spring? Why write at least two essays to Alfred-chan about her right to interact with me and about how I deserved kindness and compassion? Why acting flattered when I said I loved her (platonically) when in reality she was creeped out? Why bothering to explain me how she did not blame me and always would welcome me back in the blog? Following me for a decent time and all that interacting. Was feeling like a poor victim that fell under attack of the "monster" for like 5 minutes without even revealing her name to the world and losing more likeminded people worth it? Was it worth it? How? How mad you should be at someone for getting attached more than """acceptable""" and for lashing out before learning why you'd defend someone that harassed us, that you'd resort to backstabbing and break all your prior promises? She even told me stuff like "ratting someone out is very condemned in my culture and I'd never do that". Then what DID she do, when she showed the moment of weakness I had 40 days ago, to a deranged ableist that has been condoning harassment and canceling for hell knows how long and she could tell wished me harm?

I want to ask whether it was worth it, but clearly she didn't lose anything of value. One of those "but internet connections are not REAL uwu" people.

I so badly want to say that this is my fault for trusting someone who is not only American but also a Christian, double combination of hypocrite and all you know. Because I just want to find a reason. I want to know WHY, even if the answer is something as shallow as nationality and religion. But this is just not fair to people who are one or both of these things but have common sense to not lie and not be cut throats. I guess the real reason is that some people are just too easily enticed with the chance to feel like the "good" guys, to mark category of people that do not deserve any empathy, human bonds and understanding because they are "evil and dangerous". It is just easier. You feel justified to mistreat a certain category of people because they are "bad" - all while the criteria for why they're "bad" is growing progressively absurd. But this coming from a person that preached kindness and acceptance. Yet she sided with the people that punish me FOR having shown that kindness and acceptance to someone else, and never intend to stop. Why following Mico yourself, then?

I have no skill of forgiving people that do not feel remorse, I am not that kind of a person. It just hurts until I forget or find another thing to worry about. I don't know where to turn to, what superior power to pray to for faster healing from this, because betrayal like this is the worst thing you can do to me. It is fine to refuse to forgive someone's mental breakdown, but why not tell me off in private? Why run under the skirt of the person with bad faith that only supports neurodivergence in the form of being quirky about one's special interests and not for what problems it really brings? Does she really think it is victim's fault when they develop bad trust and abandonment issues upon a creepy stalker trying to ruin their life? The cunt would've doxxed me if they could only over the fact that I said I was gonna reblog from who I want - again, something she herself kept getting harassed over. So was that okay, then? She never meant her words, then, and only flexed her "I interact with who I want" for weird flex of herself as a hero, and not for our friends group?

Well, yes. It has to be that. Until she saw an opportunity to switch sides and find a more compelling "enemy" to stand against. The final punch in the gut is that she assumes my friends are okay with the betrayal either, just goes around as though nothing happened, as though having betrayed someone and still writing them down as vile and unremorceful even after they apologised to her two times was nothing. Yeah, why? If a person failed to meet her personal mark of forgiving, tolerating and shrugging off harassment - then they deserve to be backstabbing and thrown to those cultish ableists. That's her logic.

And I just want to vent all this in a sorry effort to remind myself: "See, she is so petty and callous that she doesn't deserve crying and hurting over! People like that are below you, Kat, just forget it and move on!" But in the end, I just can't stop asking myself why. She did not feel like that type of a person. My other mutual also said it was not expected, since she had that 'wise', thoughtful exterior all along and acted as though she was trustworthy. At this rate I was right in my accusation of her being brainwashed, I guess... The only thing I was wrong is the TIME when it happens.

[wunderbud]

Alright so, I sat down with Daniel.

This probably won't be a surprise to you or anyone else but he admits that he might have a addiction to not safe for work content (artwork and well, you know real life women & men) which would explain his past behavior in this whole situation.

I asked him how the hell did this addiction of his even start? He says he was probably exposed to it when he was like, 8 or 12.

One sign of this addiction is "Engaging in risky behavior to view it"

Also loss of self-confidence or self-worth

Along with aggression and desensitization

So basically the man has a mental health issue that he didn't really think that much about.

You and others may take this as you will.

Alright, I'm only going to say this once because im so goodamn aggravated. Not towards you, anon, towards Daniel himself. Show this to him if you want to, I don't care what he sees anymore.

An addiction to nsfw does not, in any way, excuse the way he treated me and countless others. It doesn't give him the right to insult me and the other victims, it doesn't give him the right to use people the way he did.

Every single message I've read over from difficult people have all had the same patterns of manipulation, every single one is a fucking sob story of "look at how sad and pathetic I am feel sorry for me" one he gets called out and it makes me sick to my stomach. If he really was sorry for what he did he would've gotten help after the first time he did it.

He's not sorry he did it, he's sorry he was caught. If I hasn't said something, he would have done it again, I'm sure of it.

He needs to own up to what he did instead of spewing out various excuses to avoid taking accountability for anything.

When I asked him if there were any others besides me and the anonymous victim, he said it was just us and well, now we know there was a third. I gave him so many chances to be honest and he never took any of them.

Dan, if you're reading this, you need to stop hiding behind your friends and talk yourself. Stop being a fucking coward and using good, innocent people to speak for you. It's pathetic.

No more second chances. No more sympathy

[glaxyjellyfish]

You’re completely wrong about Trump. You have been duped by the far left who spew never ending lies about anyone who is a threat to their power. Trump wants every American CITIZEN to have life, liberty, happiness and freedom regardless of nationality color sexual orientation. But you’re 18 and you know nothing anyway since you’ve , iI assume, gone thru a marxist indoctrination camp called the American education system. And yeah I chose anonymity because I know you can’t handle the truth and nobody wants to read your shit responses.

Also an old ask.

This one is really funny to me. I live in a republican-run state, or at least I did before election day (we've flipped democratic which is very surprising since historically we're a red southern state), but anon, my schooling was typically centrist or conservative leaning. I did not learn about Marxism from school. I learned about it from online leftist circles. The first time I heard about it in a classroom, it was in my college history course this semester.

So, I am going to go through this ask piece by piece to rip apart your bullshit.

To start, the far left wants to get rid of people who threaten their power. This is blatant nonsense. The far left are not in power. The far right and centrist leaning democrats are.

Trump does not give two shots about the majority of american CITIZENS because most of us are minorities, immigrants, left leaning, poor, etc.

I am not 18 actually! I'm very closer to 20. Once again, I learned about Marxism online. I am not a Marxist however, I am an Anarcho-Socialist. The American education system I went through did not teach me much about politics either. I didn't even know what gay was until 7th grade. The first time I heard the word lesbian, I was a 6th grader who didn't know you could like people of the same gender (that story is actually pretty funny. Maybe I'll tell it sometime)

Finally, you didn't choose anonymity because I can't handle 'the truth' or because no one wants to hear my opinions, you chose anon because you're a fucking coward.

[pyroclaststan]

I said I’d do Kingsley’s half, and I did! (Very late) I might touch this one up later? Not sure. This is pre-Rebirth, some cursing, nothing really needing a CW other than feelings.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 2317 PST, August 27th 2017] *heavy, laboured breathing* A-answer… this f-f-fucking phone! You fucking c-coward! Bastard! W-w-w— *loud groan and quickened breathing* Where are you! I’m h-here, I’m f-f-fr-free! Come g-get me! I’m here!

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0247 PST, August 28th 2017] *muffled sobbing* I’m g-gonna fucking… f-fucking kill you… I would n-n-n….. never have left you b-behind… you all l-l-left me behind.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 2040 PST, September 4th 2017] Ricardo…… ¿L-lo sabías? ¿P-planeaste esto? Sabes que—saves que n-nunca podría resistir la oportunid-dad de p-p-probar que estás equivocado. ¿Era una trampa?

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0401 PST, September 5th 2017] L-Les-saviez-vous? Je t-t-t-t'ai appelé.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0405 PST, September 5th 2017] *quiet breathing*…Je t'ai appelé tant de fois.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 1412 PST, September 20th 2017] W-when I get b-back there…

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0833 PST, November 2nd 2017] It’s my b-b-birthday today. The one you gave me. Not that you care, you haven’t for y-ye-years. I’ve only been gone, what? Th-three? It’s only been three years… h-how did you forget me in three years?

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0607 PST, December 8th 2017] I see that you’re replacing us. F-fuck you. I’m surprised they let you even hire people with how good you are at getting them killed. With how few you leave behind, if they’re even whole anymore. More meat for the R-Rangers grinder, huh? Hope they know how quickly you’ll leave them behind. I hope they don’t trust you like I did.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0000PST, January 1st 2018] Happy New Year, Elena, I still owe you champagne. Ricardo… good fucking luck this year.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 1727 PST, February 14th 2018] Five years ago today, we were very different people in a very different position. We were so young back then, it’s strange to think about it. I used to think you were the sun of Los Diablos: so bright, the centre of anything and everything in the universe.

But just like back then, in those final moments, as I watch sunset… you’re not here. It’s almost funny.

I mean, this whole situation—our whole deal: it’s come full-circle. I started all of this, all of my work, because I hated you and the Rangers. You were the centrifugal fucking force I wanted to stay away from no matter the pull. Because of what you let slip through your fingers—what you took from me, who you allow to get killed. And here I am again, preparing myself to go out there and fight, to face you. Once again motivated by what you’ve taken from me and how much I hate you.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 2200 PST, February 14th 2018] I hate that I still—

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0023 PST, February 15th 2018]

I promised my real family I wouldn’t let you get away with it: I wouldn’t let shit excuses for heroes like you all let this city down. I wouldn’t let you all get away with this fucking mediocrity and laziness. I wouldn’t let you rest on your laurels while this city spirals because of what you’re told you can and can’t do. I promised them, and now I promise Anathema, too—and every other person you’ve gotten killed.

…I will always keep that promise…

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 0256 PST, June 12th 2019] I don’t know why I’m still calling or messaging this stupid fucking thing. It’s my own program: I can see how long it’s been since anyone ever touched it. I’m the only one on it. I guess I’m kinda hoping that I find you before you find me. I have been dreaming of the look on your face when you’re finally forced to look at the mess you’ve made, what you’ve created. Your grandest fucking masterpiece. You’ll regret having never retired. You’re getting old, slow, and weak: and I’m coming for you.

I can’t wait for the day I find you.

[Unread Voice Message: Chrysantamum Anonymous. 1124 PST, June 12th 2019] Correction: we’re coming for you. I have a feeling you’re going to love my new friend. Not that that’ll matter in the end. And the end is coming soon. Just you fucking wait.

Good luck, you’re gonna fucking need it: you won’t be forgetting me ever again.

[goldenlaquer]

HOLD ON A MINUTE WHAT HAPPENED WHILE I WAS ASLEEP- HOLY SHIT did anons bother you AGAIN?? like, speaking of that, yesterday I found this post about dealing with anon hate. "Just realize that those people had to click a button to remove their name cause they’re scared of you. They ain’t shit." FUCK BRO THAT'S SO TREU THO??? also wtf do those anons want. This is YOUR place. I ain't going to my friend's place and say: "wow that sofa is not my cup of tea, I think you should remove it". BRUH yall this is GOLDIE'S place. And we all sitting on that comfortable, soft sofa (which represtents your art and fics, metaphorically- ok I suck at this but u get my point). Those cowards who hide behind the anon button are fucking pathetic. I think that as a compromise, you could remove the anon option for a good while. I also think deleting your OC content would feel like, lettin them win. Do they deserve victory?? fuck no. Rather, you could draw Seiji with his middle finger up. That's what they deserve. Be yourself no matter what!!! Goldie ILYSM I'll be late for school but I really wanted to say this!!!!😔😔😔😔😔💗 also sorry if this doesn't make sense I iterally just got up and i'm RAGING (ilyilyilyily)

Ahhhhh, Miiuu 🥹🫶🫶🫶 You always come in like a sweet, refreshing fall breeze 🥹🥹 Thank you so much for coming in to comfort me, and what you’ve said is definitely not wrong

I’ve considered removing my anon button but I honestly enjoy the majority of the anonymous messages; this sounds very greedy but I don’t nearly get as many interaction if they aren’t on, which sucks but I understand people are usually shy about putting a face to what they say. I genuinely enjoy tumblr anonymous because it gives people some courage to talk to me. But then again, that’s also when I do get some messages that are less than pleasant, huh?

I am so sorry, usually I’m good at quietly deleting them away 😭 but I’ve been catching L’s left and right in real life, in addition to catching L’s left and right on the internet😭 So thoughts like: ‘ahh maybe it would be better if my ocs were taken off so i don’t have to deal with these anons’ or ‘i made these ocs, i cherish them, they are like an extension of myself, and I dont want them to be insulted any longer’ have entered my mind and they won’t leave.

But. You’re right. It does feel like giving those anons a victory if I do delete my oc content. I shall consider more about this before I make a drastic leap!!