#but assuming they might just think I'm dramatic is unpleasant

[lulu-the-bugaboo]

Wanting to gush about your interests to your friends but also being scared of them internally judging you

[moretheta]

ok holy shit holy shit. theories are about to go wild. holy shit. tangled thoughts and theories below the cut:

now we have to consider a few things : firstly, are we going to assume that the prince in question knows? i think judging by longhi's comment, beyond would at least have some level of contact with them- although they might not know about their parentage. second assumption i'm making is that beyond's kid is alive. not just for story purposes, but because, knowing beyond and his tactics he would have surely placed high protections on the child in question to ensure they won.

which leaves:

benjamin - implicitly ruled out by longhi herself. i give it 5% chance she's wrong (if we're assuming that there is, in fact, a bastard in the ranks)

camilla- doubtful considering like. everything we know about camilla and her unwillingness to work with other people. 8% chance

zhang lei - we've had a lot of his POV, and he's thusfar given us no indication that he has any hunter association connections. but he also gave me illegitimate child vibes (i thought his dad might be onior) so who knows. 30% chance

tserriedich. no way. that man is evil enough.2%

tubeppa- would be ironic, considering longhi works for her... although maybe she does have suspicions and is hoping to do some corporate espionage idk. 20%

tyson - this one gave me pause. tyson is one of the more mysterious princes so far, we don't know a lot about her inner world so it wouldn't surprise me if she was hiding something. 40%

luzurus- listen.we all know this man looks NOTHING like his other full(!) siblings. i had theorized that he was actually the child of the cha'r mob boss, brocco li (togashi... you're killing me togashi) due to the resemblance and benefactor relationship between the two. and being of the bloodline might be enough for the seed urn to work idk. but he doesn't look particularly like beyond either.... but who knows the guys mysterious and both he and tyson have kurapika's guys posted on them so presumably they have some level of plot importance. 45%

salé-salé- DEAD!!! HAHAHAAA .0001%

halkenburg - oh this would kill me. i can't imagine him compromising his ethics for a guy like beyond, but depending on how gullible he is... and we do know he trusts tserriednich for some reason... oh boy i hope not. but yk, dramatic irony's a bitch. 25%

kacho- :( .00001%

fugetsu - initially discounted her bc of the twin thing, but upon further consideration the sisters are clearly fraternal & look almost nothing alike. could fugetsu have been a changeling child raised as kacho's twin? idk, but it might offer some insight into her current Cursed condition. 15%

momoze more dead kids oh boy .000001%

maryam - initially i ruled him out, as i did with most of the younger kids because it makes more sense timeline wise... but now that i think about it it's indeed interesting that queen sevranti always (and very obviously) favored one of her children over the other. there are many ways to interpret her behavior, but this could be one of them. 48%

woble .....

ok listen. i could see a case being made- she's the only prince we haven't seen the nen beast of, and some where already theorizing her to be illegitimate. (this brings up the question of loopholes in the seed urn ceremony: is it enough to be the child of a queen? or do you need the kings direct bloodline. because if it's latter than would in fact rule out anyone with a nen beast- which is everyone but woble). however, oito's reaction seems to be one of genuine shock; not sure if the pendulum would swing if she's in the room and not being pointed at, so we can't be entirely certain she's not lying, but at the same time oito doesn't seem the type to be putting on an act at this point. and the other possibility is that she's telling the truth and was SA'd by a beyond pretending to be nasubi. pretty unpleasant to think about so for my sake i hope that's not the case. it would, however, make quite a moral conundrum for kurapika. but at the same time i also dont think longhi would reach out to make this contract in the first place if she suspected it was woble? idk insider information says to have doubts. but the nen beast.... hm. 22%

regardless, the confirmation of an bastard child amongst the "legitimate princes" would of course make the treatment of nasubi's other illegimate children all the more cruel oh my god does morena know-

oh my god?!? could it be morena???!???!!? like, she's not part of the succession war proper, so she technically can't win... unless beyond's plan isn't to win? maybe he has some other goal? but i can't imagine morena's goals of total chaos aligning with beyond's power-hungry schemes....

much to think about!

[sylenth-l]

It’s been a minute since we’ve seen it but the way you draw Felwinter’s signature longcoat gives him such a presence it’s almost a character in its own right (right there with his pants?! Ajshdkdf) … but I noticed recently that the Winter’s Guile exotic looks like it’s built around hand-knit arm warmers and it got me wondering… is it really all just a flare for the dramatic Fel’s got and it’s all for the LOOK, or perchance does he have a secret craving to be extra ⋆｡°✩COZY✩°｡⋆ whether he needs it or not? (Bc I think Sagira had the right idea with that incredible fur collar… same, gurl… SAME😏)

Yeah, apparently I've been drawing too much skinny jeans akljshdfkjsh that's so embarrassing... Considering he barely ever shows up anywhere outside of his study without his ~3 layers of coats, and the number of people who see him (un)dressed so casually on a regular basis can be counted on one hand... I'm feeling like I'm ruining his super dramatic image!!! 😭😂 We definitely need more coats in the future, lol.

Anyway, to your question! I think Felwinter has a whole wardrobe of coats, both with and without fur. Would be weird to walk around wearing a thick fur coat in summer, after all. He undoubtedly has a tendency to be dramatic and stylish, but apart from that… I think you're right in some sense about the coziness, that's actually something I was considering. Especially about the gloves.

The metal of his hands is hard, sharp and cold, something entirely opposite of the soft and warm human skin. Unpleasant upon a sudden contact. I don't think it's something that bothers him too much or something he thinks about a lot, but it is the fact he's aware of and considers. Especially when it comes to people he cares about. So he might logically assume that making contact through a softer fabric, more pleasant to the touch, is actually better than his bare plating.

And, well, for the majority of people he would be right to think so. Saying as someone who has seen and heard a lot of ewws to the idea of shipping people with Exos 🤪

[mangodestroyer]

I feel you on the whole "it's not okay for me to do/say stupid things." When I was a teenager, I used to say, "People are so hard on me because I have all the wrong flaws! But of COURSE it's okay for others to have flaws because they're flawed in the right way!" And I think my teenage self might have been on to something. I didn't realize at the time that my "flaws" were just symptoms of my condition. I knew I had been diagnosed with something at the age of five (social communication disorder), but I hadn't realized it was very similar to autism and lifelong. When I went to a therapist at 17 after having a meltdown in class because my friend and I argued over something (it was pretty dumb looking back, but I got upset because my friend was assuming the worst about a character and minimizing her suffering and it made me wonder if she would have done that to me irl, which I now know isn't true because she has grown as a person and is actually very empathetic), the therapist analyzed me for a while and talked to my mother privately (who had been called to the school to come to the therapist session with me). She just said the things she would normally say about me. That I'm just very emotional.

And I thought that would be it. Therapist would just think I was emotional. And I hated that because that was something that would often get used against me growing up. Nope, the therapist told me that I am probably autistic, and that was why I had the miscommunication with my friend that led to me melting down. Not only did I misunderstand my friend big time, but he noticed that I had other symptoms of autism too. Hyperfixations, lack of eye contact, weird body language, stimming, good academic performance, speech problems, etc. And trust me when I say that I was both shocked and relieved when he told me this. Before this point, I had never considered that I was possibly autistic. I knew I had been close to being diagnosed as a child (two points away on the autism spectrum test), but I didn't think I actually could be autistic. But he explained to me that lots of people grow up being undiagnosed, even if they were screened for it. It's especially underdiagnosed in people raised female because of some of the symptoms getting mistaken for gender stereotypes (women are often considered obsessive and emotional and are expected to act more reserved, which is how people on the spectrum come off). "Female autism" also apparently presents differently. It also turns out, in the U.S., that specialists are reluctant to diagnose autism because it ends up being a financial burden for all the parties involved; schools, parents, insurance companies, etc. So they don't want to diagnose it unless it's "really bad."

I knew I was different. I didn't know why. I didn't know why my attempts to "fit in" and "act normal" weren't working. And this... this just explained so much to me! I thought I was just cursed or something. I thought I was hopeless! Nope, I'm just a little different. Since then, I've been able to figure myself out further and learned how to better navigate the world with my neurodiversity.

But trust me when I say that I feel it so hard when you say you aren't allowed to make mistakes. I don't know about you, but I had a lot of self-hate for the longest time. Which is sadly very normal for people on the spectrum (there's a very high unaliving rate for this demographic). It didn't help that I had grown up in an emotionally abusive household that often scapegoated me because of my autistic symptoms. I grew up thinking I was pretty much worthless and awful. I thought I was stupid, sucked at everything I did, the most unpleasant person to be around, hideous, and so on. If I had known what personality disorders were at the time, I would have thought I had one. People had me convinced that I was too emotional and dramatic, too confrontational, too argumentative, that I loved to start shit and "stir the pot" (I didn't like this, I always felt fucking awful when shit led to a fight), and that I don't care about others and only care about myself. Okay, okay. Maybe this is more than just a "being autistic" experience. Maybe this was more of a "my family is abusive and tried to project all these awful traits onto me." Cause I'm pretty sure it's not normal for your mother to scream at you for two hours straight and tell you horrible things like "You don't love anyone!" and "I should have been harder on you!" But then again, neurodivergent kids often end up being the ones taking an abusive family's wrath... And what's worse is that we end up dating people who are like our parents (my ex ended up being cold like my family and finding me annoying like they do, and then I think my roommate was sexually interested me and was trying to get me involved with her and her boyfriend in that way, which would have been a disaster because she would switch between being sweet and supportive, almost babying, with me because she could tell I was neurodivergent and compliment some of my physical features, but then she would also say some pretty messed up things about me too, some insanely hurtful and some sexual, and yeah there were some other things about her that just creep me out looking back).

I guess what I am trying to say is that neurodiversity comes with so many of its own problems and there's no field guide on how to deal with them. A lot of us have to rough it out and figure this shit out for ourselves. I'm really not unique in having experience so much mistreatment. Lots of people on the spectrum experience that. We just seem to be a target for abusive individuals, so we get to deal with shit like that on top of societal ridicule and have to do so much work trying to not only heal and accept ourselves, but prevent others from hurting us in the future. Many of us have mental health issues for a reason.

I'm not saying neurotypicals don't have problems. Some NTs are depressed, don't feel like they fit in, doubt themselves, and end up in abusive relationships. While it may be true that they tend to have it easier on average, that doesn't mean an NT's life can't be hard. Lots of people have hard lives. It's just hard to remember this sometimes as an ND because from my perspective, it's so easy for NTs to find the help and support they need to overcome this.

I don't know where you're from, but if you happen to live in an English speaking country like I do, you probably know that some Western cultures tend to have some toxic ideas about what is "normal" or "acceptable" and "fitting in." And here in the U.S., it's BAD. We are a very mean culture indeed. We promote so many unhealthy behaviors and it's no wonder so many people here are miserable. We promote hustle culture, which is a problem for so many reasons and one of them is because it discourages self-care. We scorn "laziness," and by that, I mean anyone who isn't able to work AT LEAST 40 hours a week while juggling a bunch of other responsibilities. Autistic people burn out easily and have trouble keeping track of shit/get overwhelmed, so this is one reason why autistic traits are looked down upon here. We also expect people to do whatever is popular. It's normal to scrutinize "weird" people, and it's even encouraged to humiliate those who don't fit the mold. In fact, our entertainment often portrays people with autistic traits as being sociopathic and distustingly freaky in their weirdness. Idk, maybe I'm the only one who's noticed this, but I feel like some modern media just shows that "weird" co-worker in TOO bad of a light, whereas media in the past almost kind of seemed to celebrate the socially awkward characters as being an asset despite their weirdness. Oh, and don't get me started on how normalized narcissistic traits are! We make too many excuses for people who fuck others over and are convinced that they are "hard-working" and "smart" when they're really not.

So yeah, a lot of these rules are cultural. I admit, I live in one shitty culture. I have actually sometimes wondered if I would have been happier if I grew up somewhere else. For instance, I've been told in places like Italy, people are more laid back. Same with France. And Japan values privacy, which is not something the U.S. values (we think people are suspicious if they aren't open about everything or want some alone time). And like I said about the old media thing, I think characters who showed autistic traits were more appreciated back in the day because I've seen so many cartoons and whatnot from the old days where characters like that were just allowed to exist in peace. Now they're just sociopathic losers, ig.

And you're right about the ecosystems where neurodiversity is more accepted. I'm kind of starting to get into the more alternative sub cultures (I've always been interested in them but was too afraid to do so because it was considered "weird"). I follow a YouTuber who has been a pretty hardcore goth their whole life, and they're also autistic. So are lots of people who end up joining into that culture. I've also come to realize that I have the attitude of a goth. Seeing how ugly the world is but also seeing the beauty in it. And I find the aesthetic appealing. I'm not saying I'll go full out with the aesthetic or anything or listen to the music, but I certainly wouldn't mind dressing in darker clothes and all that. I've also thought about dyeing my natural auburn hair a more vibrant shade of red so I look Satanic (I'm not Satanic, but again, I like the aesthetic and it pisses some people off way too much). And I'd love to get to know more people who just... go out of their way to be less normal? I think I was happier when I was more openly weird is all I'm saying.

Also, back when I was attending an engineering school in person, there were definitely a lot of people who seemed to be on the spectrum. And lots of people, in hindsight, actually wanted to get to know me and I think some were even flirting with me. Not something that happens very often in my small, redneck town. I've been thinking about going back there for grad school. I've also met people in my pure math program who have more in common with me than people I encounter on the street everyday.

Our people are out there.

Ineffable feels like the right word to use for how society operates with their stupid rules based on stupid things.

Stupid things like "even if I tell you it's ok you're just supposed to know it's not so that you don't hurt my feelings"

See also "it's okay to hurt your feelings on purpose and involve a large audience to help me hurt your feelings on purpose because you hurt mine on accident"

This isn't based on anything recent I'm just thinking about it because I'm writing some heavily-Aziraphale POV stuff and I tend to lean heavily on the word "ineffable" and I realized that's because that's how all of this stuff feels to me most of the time.

Why is it like that? I don't know, I can only tell you that it is based on the patterns I've observed.

Who told me this was against The Rules? Well no one, that's the point, it's all just kind of ineffable you're just supposed to sort of know and I'm just trying to do my best to follow.

Why can't I deviate? Well -- I mean -- because those are The Rules, I'm not supposed to deviate? Oh -- but it's also in The Rules that you're supposed to break the rules sometimes? Oh, you won't tell me when those are? Oh. Oh dear.

Well, that's rather inconvenient. And yet I'm the bastard for being direct every once in awhile or attempting to follow The ineffable Rules that are both very important and meaningless at the same time.

[aprilblossomgirl]

I wish I had more capacity to gush about the romance parts of the show. But I think the backstory pretty much influenced these love lines, which, although we've had bits by bits revealed by each episode, including that fact behind the school curse, I feel like there are still missing pieces for me to understand the whole thing. I've had my guesses but not to the extent that I would comfortably assume them a possibility. There is more to the story than about a rule keeper meets a rule breaker under a very strict school system, I think. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.

Coming back to the first part of episode 1 after knowing who's behind those curses, I felt a kind of heartache thinking of how much the inner conflict Akk had. He was the one to set the van's brake, also the first (if not the only) one who gave the warning shout, "Look out!" while running towards where the World Remembers were protesting. All with those other students there who could be the ones to have first realized there was a van coming their way. Looking at Akk's face after the incident feels so different now. Was there any guilt and regret he had? So far, it seems that his decision to carry out those curses was something he made on his own. I might be wrong about this though, so we shall see later. But if it was indeed so, what's behind it?

On the other hand, I feel that Ayan's understanding of Akk comes from his good nature but also from what he might have learned from Uncle Dika about the school. He questioned before, "If we break the rules, what will they do to us?" I think Uncle Dika gave him the answer, but how much he told (or did not tell) him? How much that informed Ayan's awareness of Suppalo's school system? Also, what kind of accountability does he expect the school to hold about his uncle? He might have hesitated in putting Akk on his board because he somehow knew that being in such a situation was out of Akk's control. But then, what he already knew about Akk being the one behind the curses was the more reason he needed him to be part of the plan. 

However, now that Ayan has learned that Uncle Dika had a significant influence on Akk, also has got to know Akk better as a person, as a broken young boy as himself, how would that change his mind? Unknowingly perhaps Uncle Dika connected them more than they realized. But they need to talk about it openly and make it mutually clear about what had happened to him despite all the pain that would come out of it.

I was happy that through episode 6, we got to see the different sides of these kids. I hope in episode 7 we'll get to know them more and better. If I remember correctly, someone from the cast/crew team mentioned in the special episode that Akk's home is the second set, after the school, where the filming mostly took place. So, I hope the boys will be there for more than just one episode, I guess (?). Please let them enjoy themselves and their freedom outside the school gate, outside its restraints. Let them be more open and honest and vulnerable with each other. And please, this time, let me just survive the episode.

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Okay, this whole thing might be just me being Wat. 

Not that he's at all wrong. I, too, wish to know better what's with this whole situation with everyone and everything. It's halfway now, and I still think there's a bigger story involved, but again, maybe it could just be me going on another dramatic illusion. Or it’s really just that there is so much for me to talk about this show as it hits home too much which reminds me of those unpleasant memories of grade school period, talking about ridiculous pressure and expectation and foolish assumptions from the school, parents or relatives, and peers, and sometimes yourself.

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

Have you heard about the hypothesis that intuitives are more attracted to typology because it's abstract, if so do you think it's true? Considering that the community already has a strong intuitive bias, i'm not so sure.

I have heard it and I don’t think it’s true at all.

In one older survey on Tumblr of the MBTI community, there about 3 times as many self-identified INFJ respondants as self-identified ISFJs. In real life, there are, per the MBTI institute, about 10 times as many ISFJs as INFJs. For this to work out on a large scale, assuming the MBTI institute’s numbers are in the right range, it means that an INFJ is 30 times more likely than an ISFJ to be interested in typology.

Now granted that’s a whole bunch of assumptions, namely, there’s a lot of volunteer bias here and the MBTI institute’s number may be imperfect. So what I suspect is one or more the following:

1. Intuitives are not as rare as the MBTI Institute says they are. The MBTI Institute’s data comes from surveys over time; a lot of those are going to come from corporate offices and I can see corporate office workers being more likely to be sensors interested in stability and routine (with an especial skewing towards SJs). It could just be that the MBTI distribution is wildly different than we think it is because no one’s ever tested the general population in a truly random study, and also even official tests have bias because this isn’t a blood test. In this case, if we assume corporate offices are more interested in typology, and corporate offices skew towards sensors, that sort of ruins the idea that intuitives are more interested in typology.

I also strongly suspect the number of intuitives online in proportion to sensors would go down when suddenly they’re equally common. I call this the INFJ paradox; when you call out how many INFJs there are online someone’s like “maybe there are more INFJs than we think” and it’s like “okay then why is your blog entirely talking about how you make up only 1% of the population then, either there’s lots of you or there aren’t, make up your mind.” Which brings me to point 2:

2. Typology resources often say intuitives are groundbreaking and visionary and sensors like rules and tools. As such, most people who read this and like it are going to say they’re intuitive, because why would you be a sensor. I don’t actually know why the MBTI community on Tumblr shrank dramatically over recent years, but one of my guesses is that people stopped blowing smoke up the asses of anyone who said they had high Ni without question, and so it wasn’t fun anymore for people looking for cheap validation. From what I understand this bias is alive and well on other typology sites, which might be why they’re more popular because people don’t want a system that says “you’re not misunderstood you’re just 15 and angsty” and they definitely don’t want one that says “the reason you’re misunderstood is because you’re a terrible communicator and unpleasant to be around, not because you are too much of a genius for people to comprehend.”

All that said: a slight preference among intuitives over sensors? Definitely possible. A preference to the degree we’d need to see for the 2016 numbers of each type to make sense? Nope.

[roseydewrites]

Au where izuku has AFO but he doesn't know

he straight up took kacchan's quirk the second it came and didn't even notice and kacchan was like:

katsuki: hey hey look i got a new quirk!

Izuku: *sees explosions* wow!!

izuku:I can't wait to get my quirk!

katsuki: heh yeah and when u do we both will be the strongest heroes ever!

Izuku: *nods feverishly*

katsuki: high five! *high fives izuku*

izuku: *takes kacchan's quirk while high fiving accidentally and doesn't notice*

izuku: oooh show it to me again!

Katsuki: *Tries to activate his quirk but doesn't work* huh?

izuku: *peers from behind Katsuki's shoulder and puts his hand on his shoulder* what's wrong?

katsuki: my quirk it won't wo- *palms bring out explosions again* oh nvm it's back

(Katsuki got his quirk back when izuku put his hand on his shoulder)

also I only have one more plot thing: so yknow he can just try and steal etc. And they for sure won't diagnose him as quirkless right? but why? bc everytime they try to open his file to name his quirk/quirklessness the file ends up corrupted and unworking

and one day (at kamino idk) Izuku was hmmm like he somehow found the lab and went out to fetch his file, open the file on the big-a** computer monitor and it shone almost mockingly:

Ä̷́͂͂́͆̎͆̉̈́̌̈́͆̀̑̀̄̈́̎̒̿̒̆��̨̡̨̢̡͖̥̙̻̟̟͙̩̜̫͖̲͈̭̯̙͈̼̜̠̫̟͍͓̬̦̱̹̩͕̤̟̱͙͓̲̼̅̋͊͑̃̇̐̓̄͑̀̂̀̀̋͛̚̕͜ͅͅͅl̵̡̡̢̢̨̨̨̢̨̛̛̯͖̩̖͚͇͇̥͙͔͍͇̬̤̙̟̺͔̺̰̮̻̱͓̼̲̳̳̯̰̞̬̼͕̟͈͙̟̭̻͎̲̰̖͇̩͎̼͉̮̜̼̗̗̘̺̞͓̳̩͔͓͔̱̯̮͉̻̲͍͉͕̘̬͔̲̝̹͊̄̐̓̌̆͂̈́̂̒͒̎͆̏́͂̈́͊̌̑̏̃̾́̇͒̈́́͛͋͐̽̉̐̈́͗̈́̀͗͌̄̀̀͒̍̃̅́̿̏̎̇̈́̄̽͛͊̀̏͌́͑̑̀͌̔͊̅̄̃͘̕̚͘̕͜͜͠͝͠ͅl̶̡̢̢̡̤̜̥͍͍̼̩̠̺͔͈̜̭̭̗̜̗̺̳̝̦̭̣̩̰̩̼̺̮͕̘̫͎͖̙͙̪̻̥̣̣̦͉̙͉̜̪̫̗̪̯͚̯̥̀̈̑̓̐̀̽̀͂̇̑̎͐̀̾̔̔̏̒̉̆̓̊͋͌͗͋̂̓́̇̐̀̔̀̋̂̌͗̔̓̏̀́͌̈́͒̃̀́̅̾̆̇̉͘̚͜͜͜͝͠ͅͅ ̴̢̢̨̛̻͖͍̪͚͎͙̠̥̰̖̥̮͔̩̗̥̫̞̞̥̱̟̤̳̠̫̤͖̹̞̳̳̹̦̟̻̜̉͂̉́̀̒̀̊̈́̌̑͛̈́̊̿͒̈́̏̀̔͆͌̀͂̆̿̒̅̒̃̈̀̾̒̕͘͜͠͠͝͝͝͝F̶̧̢̧̡̢̧̛͇̭̳̖̰̩̘̺̰̟̩̹̰̲̣̺̱̠͕̪̝̥̪̠̯͎͉͙̭̣̯̪̬̱̟͉̬̳̘̳̳̓̉̓̔̉͊̀̉͆̋̓̅̊́͗̋͊̿̌͒̎̽̀̈́̈́̾̓͌̅̂̿̕͘̕̕͜͜ͅͅō̶̧̧̡̢̡̢͉̮͔̖̥̺̗̩̣̘̮̲̬̰̺̱̘͖̯̮͎̮̩͙̤̮̰̪̯͚̹͙͎̗̩͕̳̲̟̟̻̫̮͙̦̬͖͈̞̩̻̝̫͚̟͍̹̩͇̂́̌͗̎̇́̓̈́̊̓͐̈́́̓̄͒̎̄͐̈́͌̾̈́̈̾̂̿́̌͋͊̍̋̀̉̈́̓͗̎̎̋̓̔͊͋̕͜͜͜͜͝͝͝͝ŗ̶̧̢̢̡̛̳̯̭͖̪͖̪̞͖̼͓̮͚̲̙̹̙̗͈͇̗̼͚̳͎̖̹̤̮̣̬̟̳̠͔͎̦̜̰͚̬̩̦̹̪̦̰̹̟̰̯͎̺̮͇̰͎͔̜͕̲̩̲̤̤̩̊̅̈́͛̀̊͋̒̅̕͜͜͜͝͝ͅ ̷̧̢̨̨͖͇̟͖͔̪͙͍̬̜͚̤͍̭͎͕̣̠͈͈̩̗͙̜̣̪̮̩̝̟͖̺̬̥̹̤̞̻̙͉̟̳͇̪̙̱̲̙̘͎̼̻̟̺̹̬̱̓͆̐̄̽̏̃͑͊͋̇̃̄̇͊̌̇̅͐̓̅̀̈́̈́̆͆̿̆͛̈̀̈́̊͋̒̃̐̍͊̄͐̉̀͒̄͑̏̀̋͂̊̈́̎͘͘͘̚̚͜͝͝͝͝͝͠ͅÒ̶̡̡̨̢̨̥̯͕̼͍̖̣̪̳̥͉̲͔͇͎̭̯̜͕͙͈̹̹͈͎̭̩̳̪̻̼͎̞͔̭̞͚̣͍̖͖͈̳̜̱̬̬̠̺̦̙͔̘̖̜̳̳͓̭͍̘̖͇̱̮̝̳͌̊͂̑̆̓͊̈͑͂̽̏̔͗̓̾̀͊̄̇̔͊͒͐̑̄͋̎̈́̅͒͋̈́̈́̑͐̅̂̈́̂͘͘̕̚͘̚͜͝͠͝ͅͅͅͅn̵̡̛̯̭̩͇̝̞̰͈̹̥͍̺̯̩͓͇̻̦̪̜̠̳͔̝̺̟͖̝̬͓̝̊̉̐̅̓̇͌́̀̓͗̀͛̓̑̿́͒̕̚͜͜e̷͛́̈́̎́̓̈́̾͛̏̆̌͛͒̿̏̌̆͆̕͠͝͝��̭͉͒͑͋͌́̂̍̀̋̋͋͆̇͆͂̀́̈̃̈͌͝͠

so he is straight up shocked and he might have ofa? if he didn't that's his reaction:

wtf is that quirk does that make him rich? does it give him all the brains in the world? is that why he is so smart? CAN HE HAVE ALL OF ALL MIGHT FIGURINES FOR HIMSELF NOW????

if he did however:

oh shit oh fuck of SHIT IS THAT WHY HE WAS SUDDENLY ABLE TO SEE IN THE DARK THAT NIGHT WHEN HE TOUCHED A BUTTERFLY? THAT WAS ITS QUIRK HOLY SHIT OMG WTF ALL MIGHT WAIT NO ALL MIGHT IS OUTSIDE FIGHTING FOR HIS LIFE BUT AM I EVEN ALLOWED TO GO FIGHT NOW OH F*CK I WONT BE ABLE TO DRINK FROM A CUP ANYMORE BC MAYBE IT ALSO HAS A QUIRK OH FUCK I'M HYPERVENTILATING OH SHIT HE CAN TAKE QUIRKS I CAN TAKE QUIRKS CAN EVERYONE TAKE QUIRKS ? WAIT THAT MEANS I'M NOT ALL MIGHT'S SECRET LOVECHILD? OH DAMN OH HE CAN TAKE QUIRKS SO MAYBE THATS HOW THE HAIR THINGY FOR OFA WORKE-

and so. on.

Maybe tho he could mistake his quirk for something like aizawa'S? he can erase quirks by touch?

idk the idea sounds to me a potential angst AND crack fic and I think I like the crack idea more bc I feel it be unique yknow

:)

AAAAAAAA

SHINY

This could definitely be a fic that switches between crack and angst. My favorite type of fic, tbh. Catch me crying the club one minute and then laughing my ass off the next

So basically Izuku would rationalize his quirk as stoping someone’s quirk when he touches them, and it only reactives when he touches them again. The readers know this isn’t how it’s actually working, but that’s dramatic irony for you. Afterall, quirks that can take and pass on other quirks aren’t a thing in BNHA. AFO was the equalivate of a boogeyman to the people: terrifying story to tell children (“a monster will come from the closet and will steal your quirk if you misbehave”) but everyone knows that’s not actually possible.

Right?

Right?

Right

SO Izuku just thinks his quirk can turn others quirks on and off, like Aizawa with blinking. He never thinks to try seeing if he can use the quirk himself while it’s off. Because why would you? That weird feeling he gets when he stops another person’s quirk, like something is entering him, is obviously just the feeling he gets when he cancels a quirk. It happens eveytime, and goes away when he touches them again and they can use their quirk again. That feeling of something leaving him when he touches them again? Simply the ability to use their quirk returning to the other person, and his quirk deactivating.

That’s all it is, right?

Right

You could make it so it isn’t that different from canon, just Izuku being slightly more obsessed with quirks (how that’s possible is a miracle). You could also do it with him being treated like a to be villain, since people would not like having their quirks taken away from them. Even temporarily. Would you like having your sense of smell or sight being taken away by another person, even if they gave it back? I would assume not. Plus we know the BNHA world isn’t exactly the most forgiving to people with “unpleasant” quirks or quirks they arbitrarily decide are “unheroic.” I hc Aizawa as being treated horribly as a kid and like he’s a future villain, similar to Shinsou, so that’s why he’s so willing to help him. Some thing with Izuku here.

*sigh* such a shiny idea.....

[amysubmits]

I'm a sub and my boyfriend is a dom. In some aspects anyway... but there are some things I'd like him to take more control of, ie: rules, making sure I've eaten, taken meds, etc etc. But I'm so afraid of asking and don't entirely know how to ask for certain things or tell him what I want/like, esp in a ldr... I get too subby and feel bad for asking for things and sometimes feel if he wanted to do it he would and I don't want to be a bother... advice?😥

I can’t really tell if you mean that you are naturally submissive and he is naturally Dominant but you haven’t discussed intentionally creating a D/s dynamic yet? If so…

I personally think of being naturally Dominant as rather different from being “a Dom” or intentionally embracing a D/s dynamic. I didn’t always understand that though, and I had similar thoughts of ‘If he wanted to give me rules he would’ at one time. I largely think that is a misconception that is created from how we don’t often see how dynamics are created, we hear way more stories about how dynamics function once they were already established. Frankly, if he were to just place demands on you without discussing if you want or need those things, it wouldn’t involve your consent. So I think the only way to create intentional D/s is to talk about it and get explicit consent. I have a post on that:

https://amysubmits.tumblr.com/post/171764906942/erotica-consent

I’d also say…keep in mind that him not asking to take charge if you haven’t asked for D/s can be a lot of things other than just ‘he doesn’t want it’. 

Maybe he feels like it’s a weakness or a problem that he desires control, so he intentionally resists it and tries to leave you space to do whatever you want.

Maybe he doesn’t fully even recognize that he enjoys being in charge, but once he tried it he would love how it feels. Sometimes people recognize their need for D/s or their natural submission or dominance pretty late in life. It can be there but the person may not even be aware of it. 

Maybe he knows he wants to take more control, but he worries that you would think he was a bad person if he admitted it. There are a lot of bad stereotypes out there about Dominance, he may have to process through those insecurities before he can embrace being your Dominant. Maybe he doesn’t have a clue that you want those things from him, and just being told you do would dramatically change how he feels about embracing D/s.

Or if you mean that you have discussed D/s in a very general way, but you want to expand your dynamic to include more ‘stuff’, but you haven’t asked becuase you worry that would be pushing him into being your Dominant in a way that doesn’t appeal to him? Well, I don’t know that you could very successfully create a D/s dynamic if you aren’t both sharing some of the things that are the most important to you. It sounds like you don’t want to dictate ‘too much’ of the dynamic. I can understand that in the sense that I find more meaning in submitting to CD in the ways that he asks me to instead of the ways I’ve asked him to lead. But, I think if you don’t share your needs and at least your biggest and most important desires then you’re not enabling him to have the information that he needs to create a dynamic that serves your needs and his needs both. He can’t read your mind, and him not being able to read your mind doesn’t mean he isn’t interested in creating D/s in some of the ways that appeal to you. He may be just as interested as you are in some of those ways, but maybe he hasn’t started them due to not having a clue that you wanted them. I think ultimately, if you trust that he will defend his own boundaries and advocate for his own needs and wants, then it shouldn’t be a problem at all to let him know about your desires because if you want something that isn’t right for him, he’ll say no.  

You suggesting something for your dynamic doesn’t mean that you are ‘taking over’ the creation of the dynamic. Especially something as general as ‘rules’. If you want rules, you can say that and he could still create specific rules that he likes, making it very much his thing and not something he created just to please you. That’s just one example of how he might take the info you give him but ‘make it his own’ so that your dynamic will work for him just as much as it works for you. I understand that root fear of “if I ask for too much I might accidentally take over and make the relationship all about me.” but with you being so careful about not being pushy I highly doubt you ever would find yourself in a place where you’ve accidentally dragged him into something he didn’t want. I struggled with (and sometimes still struggle with) this insecurity but CD tells me that I always worry about him being ME. Meaning, I worry that if I ask for something he’ll feel like he ‘should’ say yes and the reaso I worry that is because *I* have a hard time telling people no. When I stop and think about HIM, I remember that part of what I adore about him is how he isn’t afraid to tell me no. Not just within D/s but he is naturally a person who isn’t afraid to tell others ‘no’ if something isn’t right for him. So if I suggest something for our D/s that isn’t natural or ‘good’ feeling to him (and he knew it was a bad match, anyway) he would say no. If we both think something sound okay and we try it but it doesn’t work for one or the other of us, that is okay too. Some experimentation is required in order to fully understand what you both need within D/s, I think. 

I think the feeling like a burden or like you are bothering him is often a worry that comes from submissives assuming our Dominants are different than they actually are. I know that for me, when I think about ‘wearing CD’s shoes’ it sounds unpleasant, so when I’m having a bad day or get depressed or something I can get in that mindset of feeling like I shouldn’t ‘bother’ him. But that’s my own brain judging me, not how he actually feels. I have a post on that too:

https://amysubmits.tumblr.com/post/159025945437/burden

I hope something in here helped. If I missed the mark on what your struggle is please feel free to send a new ask and I’ll try again. :)

[heroes-among-us-all]

How about a hc/scenario about young!Bakugou (maybe around like 4-7 ish?) having a puppy crush on a young!Reader and the little cute things that he does to make the reader acknowledge him? Maybe add an additional hc/wordings about the aftermath a few years later till their highschool years. I'm in need in some fluffy shit sorry 💕💕 Thanks!

Cute request! I changed it just a bit so that the young!Reader moved away and they meet up again in highschool, hope you enjoy :) 

“Wow, Katsuki, you’re amazing!” 

You grinned ear-to-ear, hobbling forward on your little legs to get a closer look. The young blonde in front of you was sparking off small, contained explosions in the palm of his hands—the first signs of his Quirk manifesting.

“It’s cool, right?” he gushed, unable to contain his own smile. “I just got it a few days ago, and everyone says it’s awesome!” 

You nodded hurriedly. “Yep! It is awesome! You’re the best, Katsuki!” 

The boy was used to receiving compliments from those around him; rather, it was someone that he’d come to expect. But for some reason, whenever you were the one who got excited on his behalf, it made his chest feel hot and his cheeks would flush a bright red. Your smile was just the prettiest thing he’d ever seen, that much he was sure of.

“The teachers said that I’d be able to become an amazing hero with a Quirk like this,” he huffed, placing his hands on his hips matter-of-factly. “I’ll be even cooler than All Might one day, too!” 

Your smile never faltered, because you honestly believed his words to be true. Katsuki was still grinning cheekily, but he faltered for a moment, blushing deeper. 

“Ah, but…I’ll be the Number One hero, okay? And then you—“ he pointed towards you with a shaky finger “—You’ll be the Number Two hero. Almost as cool as me, but not exactly the same. That’s still good though, right?” 

Your puffy little cheeks flushed, blown away by what he’d just told you. Katsuki almost never acknowledged others, and the fact that he thought you could be anywhere near as strong as him was an amazing feeling. 

“Wow,” you mumbled breathlessly. “You really think I could be that good, Katsuki?” 

“O-of course you can!” he puffed out, unable to hide his fluster. “You just gotta try your best!” 

“…Oh. I’ll do my best, then!” 

Caught up in your excitement, you flung your tiny frame over Katsuki’s own. He stiffened as your arms wrapped around him and pulled him into a hug, and you heard the little stammers of embarrassment he let out. He was definitely having a hard time processing your affection, but eventually his small arms fell loosely around your back as well.

“We’ll be the best heroes,” he mumbled against your neck. “The two of us. Together.” 

You pulled away only to grin back at him. “Okay!” 

“Hey, follow me for a bit,” Katsuki prodded, latching his hand across your wrist. “I know a place near the forest that has a lot of flowers.” His eyes flickered timidly across your frame. “You like…flowers, right?” 

“Yup! I love them!” 

He smiled. “Okay, cool. Follow me, then!” 

Katsuki continued to lead you forward through the brush of the forest. At some point, he’d let go of your wrist and timidly intertwined his fingers with your own. You didn’t miss the heavy blush that lined his cheeks once he did so; it even went all the way up to the tips of his ears. You chatted along happily and without much of a care, stopping only at Katsuki’s signal. 

“Look,” he gestured, grinning back at you. “Lots of flowers here. You like ‘em?” 

You nodded boisterously. “I do! They’re all so pretty!” 

Without warning, you let go of his hand to jump into the bed of vibrantly-colored flora. It was a sort of clearing in the middle of the forest, and there were all sorts of different flowers growing in erratic patches. Katsuki crouched down beside you and smirked.

“I told ya,” he bragged. “Told ya I knew where I could find a ton of ‘em.” 

He seemed to be getting giddy of the notion of your approval, or attention. It wasn’t really something he needed to work for though, since you already thought the world of him. 

“I know,” you hummed. “I believed you, Katsuki. You’re always showing me cool things, and that’s why you’re my best friend in the entire world!” You outstretched your arms for dramatic effect, and the blonde only flushed at the gesture. 

“…Cool,” he mumbled, picking up a flower and running its petals through his fingers. “Yeah, cool. You’re also…my best friend, too.” 

You snuggled up closer to him, pressing your shoulders up against one another while you happily admired the bed of flowers. Katsuki mumbled something to himself, eventually plucking a different flower and removing most of the stem—he then leaned in to tuck the flower behind your ear. 

“That’s for you,” Katsuki blushed. “It looks pretty. And…you’re also pretty. So I thought it made sense to give it to you.” 

You were so happy that you almost didn’t have the words. Katsuki’s bright, crimson eyes were gazing back at you, so full of gentleness and adoration; that which he would almost never show to others. Your fingers absentmindedly passed by the flower tucked behind your ear, and you smiled again.

“You really think I’m pretty?” 

He stiffened. “D-duh. I wouldn’t say it unless I meant it, right?” 

“That’s true,” you mumbled, timidly curling your fingers into your lap. “Thank you, Katsuki. And I think you’re very pretty, too. Oh, wait—you’re very handsome. That’s what you say to boys that look good, right?” 

“Y-yeah. Thanks…” 

He looked a bit too flustered for words, and the two of you sat there for a while in silence. It wasn’t unpleasant, or anything. As long as you were with Katsuki, you were happy even just to sit by his side. 

Humming to yourself, you leaned forward to pluck another flower, but Katsuki’s little arms had already wrapped around your frame.

“U-umm…(Name),” he croaked, gazing timidly into your eyes. “I want to tell you something, okay? So just listen up, alright?” 

“Huh? Okay. I’m listening, Katsuki.” 

He inhaled sharply, as if preparing himself for some sort of endeavor. His puffy cheeks were stained with blotchy hues of bright crimson as he stared back at you.

“I want you to be my girlfriend!!” 

You blinked slowly, a bit confused at first, but a wide grin was soon to spread across your lips.

“Okay! I’d love to be your girlfriend, Katsuki!” 

“E-eh? Seriously…??” 

Katsuki’s arms fell off your frame so that he could press a hand up against his burning cheeks. Still, you could see how a shaky smile was steadily forming on his own lips; to the point that he could scarcely contain his excitement. 

“B-but not now!” he added hurriedly. “It has to be when we’re older—my mom says those are when the “serious” relationships happen, and I want ours to be…um, y’know…” 

“Serious?” 

“Yeah!” 

You grinned happily. “That sounds good. We’ll be girlfriend and boyfriend when we’re older then, okay? And we’ll be together for a long time?” 

“You’re going to be my only girlfriend,” Katsuki declared. “And then we’re gonna get married.” 

“Wow! That sounds amazing!” 

You let out a squeal of joy and pulled him into another hug; this time, Katsuki readily squeezed you back. He inhaled sharply again and quickly pecked you on the cheek, blushing redder than ever before. 

“It’s a promise,” Katsuki mumbled. “I kissed you, so it’s a promise. So you’re not allowed to be anyone else’s girlfriend, okay?” 

You felt the warmth lingering from where his lips had connected with your cheek. You smiled.

“Okay, Katsuki.” 

That had been nearly 11 years ago. 11 whole years, and Katsuki still remembered it as clear as day. He felt like a moron for ever even thinking back to the time he’d spent with you; you’d moved away not long after, so it was pretty clear that he would never see you again. Besides, he’d just gotten into U.A—hell, it was supposed to be his very first day at the school of his dreams, and here he was, having some stupid nostalgia. Seriously, what a load of shit. 

Katsuki moved through the halls, both hands shoved into his pockets as he sought out his homeroom class. The damn place was huge, but just as well; this was where he’d leave his mark and make his way to the very top. 

His hand gripped the edge of the sliding door, and he’d managed to get it half-open before—

“Ah! Katsuki??” 

Katsuki froze. Even if it had changed, he still recognized that cheerful voice; that bubbly, careless tone. It was a stupid thing to say, and he already cursed himself for even assuming, but at the very least, he could check…right? 

To say that his eyes widened when they fell on your frame would have been an understatement. Surely, your appearance had changed, but just like with your voice, there was that familiarity there that called to him. As his eyes skimmed your frame, he recognized your (h/c) locks, and those gleaming, (e/c) orbs. And then…that smile. The same smile that always made his chest burn. The very same smile that was making him fuzzy right here and now. 

You’d been pretty as a kid, that much he could remember. But now, he could honestly say that you were fucking beautiful. No matter how cute you may have been before, Katsuki could never have prepared himself for the way you would grow up. 

He felt so stupid. So, so stupid. Because here he was, seeing you again for the first time in 11 years, and he realized he was just as in infatuated with you as he had been back then.

“Can’t believe we’re seeing each other again after all these years,” you smiled. “Kind of feels like a dream, right?” 

Katsuki honestly didn’t know what to say. He was worried that with the way he was, the second he would open his mouth you would be immediately turned off by his brash manner of speaking and never look in his direction ever again. He couldn’t even form any words to begin with.

Luckily, you spoke before he could spiral even further.

“I have to say,” you giggled, “You sure grew up to be way more attractive than I ever thought you were. Now I’m seriously considering taking you up on that offer. Do you remember what we promised back then?” You smiled again, and Katsuki honestly just wanted to melt on the spot. “C’mon, you know the one—about the two of us becoming girlfriend and boyfriend. You didn’t forget, did you?” 

Katsuki was still stunned, but he knew that he couldn’t keep up this silence for long.

“God, say something, for fuck’s sake. She’s gonna think you’re mute, or an even bigger asshole than you actually are. Say something, fuck.” 

Even with all the self-confidence he’d accrued through the years, nothing could have prepared him for a meeting like this. Still, there was one thing he would never do, and that was to cower in front of a challenge. He just hoped that his flushed cheeks weren’t anywhere near as bad as they felt. 

“Yeah, I remember,” he finally managed. “So…are we gonna give that a shot?” 

[gatesofember]

(1) Hey Ember! I have trouble in commenting on works bec. One time, I was a tad bit dramatic *ahem* with my comment (lots of capitalization and screaming aka fangirling but essentially all positive vibes) ((also, I'm not refering to you!! It was actually on another fandom and when I was younger)) And they replied... not unkindly but... It still made me hold back in commenting on any fic I read in the fear the author would take it negatively.

Firstly, I think this might be the sweetest ask I’ve ever received! This is such a good question and I��m flattered you reached out. I suffer from this kind of rejection-sensitivity too and I’m honestly such a hypocrite because as much as I love receiving comments, I can also be scared to leave them. I can even be nervous to reply to comments on my own fics! (Especially if I’ve been ignoring my account for a month, then it’s like “I waited too long to respond and if I do it now it would just be awkward.”)

But back to your question! I’ll try to make this specific enough to ease your anxiety. (At least, that’s what I’d want. I really hope I don’t end up making you more anxious.)

Your experience must have been a bad one-off because I don’t know a single writer that doesn’t like getting comments that are just people screaming in caps with infinite exclamation points. Short messages like “I enjoyed this update!” are always appreciated, of course. I love getting comments where readers pick specific things that they liked, such as “this part was so moving,” “I ADORE this character,” “this conversation really hit home,” or “I laughed so hard when X happened.” With AM au, I love it when people ask about the universe, but be prepared for a long reply because I could ramble about that for hours! I’d love to discuss thoughts that I didn’t get to include, or how I came up with ideas, or why I did something a certain way. (There’s at least one long thread somewhere in am au when I talked about a bunch of random stuff like that Leo’s mom was a soror who broke her vows and that Hades, Persephone, and Maria had a happy healthy polyamorous relationship.) I think my favorite comments are questions and opportunities for actual discussions. It is so flattering to know that someone wants to talk about my work. It means that you were willing to expend the time and energy to think deeply about it. And of course I like to talk about it! I wanted to talk about it so badly that I wrote it!

As for comments I don’t like...first and foremost, asking for faster updates. But to be clear, I don’t mean that you have to tiptoe around even mentioning future updates in your comments. I just mean things like “You are taking forever!” and “how much longer???” It’s ok to say “I can’t wait for the next chapter!” or “I hope this continues soon!” or to jokingly say, “I need an update, like, stat!” because those are expressions of excitement! (If it’s unclear to me whether you’re joking or not, I’ll choose to assume you’re joking, don’t worry.) And sometimes if I haven’t updated in a long time, readers leave comments like “I miss this fic so much and I hope you get back to it soon” and that’s ok too! What I don’t like is the unpleasant ones that remind me of how much you guys hate waiting because gosh darn it, I hate making you guys wait! I want to know that you’re excited about it continuing, not that I’m making you miserable by not going faster.

Another kind of comment I don’t like are when people say things to control my writing. Like “can you write about X next?” or “I don’t like where this is going, can’t they just do X?” or “I wanted to see X happen, not Y.” But again, there’s a line. “I wanted/expected X to happen and I’m curious as to why you chose to do Y instead” is very different and wouldn’t bother me. That expresses that the reader wasn’t happy with something, but also opens it up to discussion and respects the decisions I made. No one’s going to like everything that I do and I know that, but what happens in my work is ultimately up to me. If you want to see a certain thing happen, then you should write it yourself or find a writer who has clearly stated they are open for requests.

And I’ve gotten some comments that were just...odd. Weird, cryptic comments that I had no idea how to decipher. Comments on smut that included wayyyy too much information on a reader’s physical reaction to my writing (please do not tell me about how horny you are). Thankfully, the ‘odd’ comments don’t appear very often.

Thank you for this ask! I was honestly delighted to receive it. In summary, keyboard smashing and all caps are, in my opinion, quite delightful. Just be polite and respectful when you comment! And please, please do not tell me how horny you are. I don’t want to know how horny you are.

[askanautistic]

Is there any recovery from burnout? It's been three years and I'm still not back where I used to be. I feel like I might never be the same, but family has high expectations.

Yes, but the amount of recovery might vary, because there will of course be variables from person to person and situation to situation. It will depend on the causes of the burnout, the symptoms, what recovery has entailed (in terms of time, rest, support), and it will also probably depend somewhat on your own expectations and the expectations of those around you. CausesIf someone is still having to suffer the causes even whilst experiencing burnout, they will never get a chance to recover. Even if someone is away from the causes and recovers fully from burnout, if the pre-burnout circumstances are the same and the autistic person has to return to that environment, it is likely that burnout will re-occur. Symptoms/effectsWhen someone has ‘burnt out’, they often experience depression. It seems quite common for people who experience depression to be prone to re-occurrences. Quite often if someone has experienced something deeply unpleasant like depression/stress/burnout, they’ll be more sensitive to the symptoms (so if someone starts to become stressed again or to experience pre-burnout warning signs, they’ll recognise them), which might be a positive thing if it means they are able to manage things before they result in a burnout, but can also be negative if it causes the person anxiety or distress (through fear of experiencing burnout/depression again). Some people might experience worsened sensory issues, and for some people these symptoms might return to normal as they recover, but for others these symptoms might remain. I experienced burnout and my already sensitive hearing became dramatically more sensitive - my hearing sensitivity has not improved since then.The recovery periodIdeally, someone would have the appropriate amount of time (which will probably vary from person to person) and support to recover, if not fully then as much as possible. The recovery period can have complications, however.If someone has burned out due to school or work stresses, the likelihood is that they will have to return to their school or job at some point. Odds are this will happen when there has been some improvement, but not necessarily when there’s been enough improvement. As mentioned above, if they are expected to return to the same circumstances as pre-burnout, they’ll continue to struggle. Even if improvements/adjustments have been made, if they are still suffering some of the effects of the burnout, they’ll likely continue to struggle to some extent. They might also have work to catch up on, which will mean more stress. Even if this doesn’t result in another burnout, it would probably prevent further recovery (where recovery is ongoing).If someone suffers from burnout and it results in them losing their job, or having to take sick leave, depression and/or anxiety over this can of course hinder recovery. The same goes for any other potential expectations or inability perform various duties. Once someone is over the more obvious symptoms of burnout, people might start to assume they are ‘back to normal’, or the autistic person might feel pressured (by other people or even themselves) to perform duties and responsibilities before they’ve had adequate time to recover. So they’ll either push themselves too hard, or will feel depressed/anxious/stressed over neglecting various duties.There might be a lack of support, or a lack of adequate support to help someone to cope with the effects of burnout. Managing expectationsThere are some situations in which someone will have a break, recharge, and will be able to return to whatever responsibilities they have. I think that a lot of people have this expectation in mind in many situations for which this isn’t true (if someone is signed off from work, for example, the expectation is often that when they return they are fully fit for their previous duties, and even where phased returns are recommended there tend to be standard timeframes and/or pressure to keep these brief). Quite often, recovery is ongoing, and someone has to adjust their limits in line with their recovery. Someone might be at home for a while and they might start to feel pretty good and even like they are back to normal, but if they were to return to their normal duties and responsibilities would quickly become overwhelmed, instead needing to gradually increase their activities. It can be hard to actually ease yourself back into life like this, though, as the people around us often seem to think that much larger jumps between stages are manageable, and don’t often allow for taking steps back, so it’s very easy for people who are unwell to find themselves being pushed too far, too fast. It’s also very easy to go along with other people through eagerness for things to return to normal, embarrassment over being seen to not cope with what other people perceive as being everyday events, or a desire to avoid being an inconvenience, but ultimately it would probably be better if we did try to assert our limits and needs. Are your expectations fair? If your definition of recovery means being able to get back to the exact kind of life you had pre-burnout, then that might not be possible, and even if it is possible it would probably not be a good idea. After all, burnout happens for a reason - the circumstances leading up to burnout were obviously not suitable, and even if you thought you were coping, or thought you were able to hide how difficult things were, eventually there are consequences for putting yourself under that kind of strain. Also be fair to yourself over whether you have actually had the adequate time and support to recover, or whether your recovery might have been hindered by taking on things that require lots of effort to cope with. Try to give yourself credit for any recovery you have so far made rather than worrying about your end goal (and potentially letting that fear impede your recovery, or pushing yourself beyond your limits in an attempt to reach your goal, or trying to please other people).Coping with other people’s expectations can of course be difficult, too, and many people don’t understand the difficulties we face. It can be easy for an outsider to assume that because someone was previously able to do something, they will still be able to do it, or that because someone seems to be a lot better they must be ‘back to normal’, and to underestimate just how long recovery can take (or that recovery isn’t just a case of things returning to normal, but can be a case of continuing to manage ongoing symptoms and continuing to try to minimise risks of relapse). You might need to explain more fully what burnout is, what caused it, and how you feel about your recovery. 

[sstarkiid]

do all of the lovesick asks bitch. expose urself

wow, ok.

read more thing bc this is long and embarrassing

1: Do you have a current crush?

Two actually but who's counting

2: How long has your crush lasted?

Uhh a few months n then the other one is weird i can't answer that lmao

3: 5 songs that you have associated with your crush?

I'm……..not that sappy I can give u like one

Ice prince : Runaways by ATL

Space boy : Stars by Fun.

4: Do you think they've ever liked you back?

I mean. It's very likely.

5: Will you ever reveal your feelings to them?

Yea probably

6: What’s holding you back from making a move?

It's not that I haven't made a move but like. I am Fear.

7: Are you frightened by your feelings for them?

A lil

8: Do you think they could ever love you?

Maybe???? but i’m kind of an optimist

9: Do you love them?

Lol next question

10: Have you ever had a crush on someone you really shouldn't?

DEFINITELY. I CAN'T NAME ANYONE SPECIFICALLY BUT THE ANSWER IS PROBABLY YES.

11: Do you think anyone currently has a crush on you

...IT'S VERY LIKELY.

12: Ever had a crush on what you thought was a platonic friend?

Hi Jared

13: What would you do if your crush revealed they felt the same?

I'd probably need a second to process it but like probably hug ‘em idfk

14: Has your crush ever hurt you?

Nope!!!!

15: Have they made you cry by breaking your heart?

Nope!!!!!!!!!

16: Why do you like them?

Ice prince is fun to tease idk we go back n forth a lot but he's also a softie n listen he's dramatic enough to keep up w/ me

Space boy tells u like it is and he seems kinda scary or not,, nice at first maybe but he's actually also soft !!

They're also both hot as hell oh my god

17: Do you think you'll ever get over them?

I mean. If I had to I would but...  I don't WANT TO.

18: Do you have 1 specific song that is strongly associated with a certain memory or interaction with them?

Mmm not really?? Not yet?? It'll happen dw

19: The moment you knew you had feelings for them?

We both got scared of the firework finale on the 4th and I squeaked and he like held onto me n it was really funny n cute n I was just like “ok this is a thing now great”

Uhh I was doing the typical girl thing where I send screenshots of a conversation to a friend only the friend is his sister so………..i blame her it’s literally all her fault

20: What would they have to do for you to stop liking them?

Murder someone probably

Or y'know

Something equally as shitty n illegal

21: Have you ever fallen asleep with them?

Yea. Both. Napping is cool.

22: Held their hand?

Mmhm! Both but like that's not that weird

23: Kissed their cheek?

Yup. Both.

24: Kissed them on the lips?

Yeah. Both. Actually.

25: Gone down on them/ they've gone down on you?

N O P E

26: Had sex with them?

Nuh-uh.

27: Where on your body have they touched you?

This is…. A weird question I don't like it

28: Does their touch set your skin on fire?

Fire.

Ice prince.

Fire.

HM.

29: Do you get butterflies when they touch you?

Ok maybe

30: Do they make you smile like no one else can?

Y e a

31: Does their presence calm you?

Mmhmm.

32: Does it make you go crazy being around them and not 'being with' them?

Not… until recently but---

33: Are you friends with your crush?

Both of ‘em!

34: Have you always been friends?

Uhh I guess w/ Ice prince yes but not the other one

35: Last thing they messaged you about?

One was abt a dog, other one was abt coming over to hang out

36: Best phone call with them?

Hands down any call when I've been driving so I make my brother talk to them instead those are always fun

37: Last time you hung out with them?

I. I literally started answering this in one of their houses.

38: Ever been drunk together?

I DON'T DRINK

39: Fondest memory of them?

The fireworks show n then probs a few days ago when we just drove around n talked abt stuff

40: Ever made a mistake with them?

Mistake??????????? i don’t make those

41: Regretted not making a move?

Every day of my life but also I have literally kissed both of them so which is the truth

42: If you could go back in time to that moment, what would you do?

Nothing ‘cause I'm a big baby

43: Do you think that would change your current relationship with them?

Nope

44: If you could get a 100% honest answer from them, what 3 questions would you ask?

ok first FUCK THIS QUESTION

Ice prince

Do u. Actually wanna date or am I just the most gullible person ever

.......................so how do you feel about polyamory

Do u actually hate the puns or do u secretly enjoy them I need to know.

Space boy

Are you aware that you can literally text me for anything at any time?? Bc u should be

Were you ever afraid to talk to me?

Will you promise to talk to me before doing stupid shit so that at the very least i can tell u that ur an idiot,,, but like. affectionately.

45: Did they wish you Happy Birthday on your birthday?

My birthday is in like another month and I didn't know either of them really last year so they better

46: Have they ever tried to make a move?

?????????

Idk tbh

47: If so why did you miss it?

‘Cause I'm clueless as hell

48: Have they ever been infatuated with a friend of yours?

Don't think so

49: Are they single?

Lol yeah they're definitely single

50: Where were you when you felt the most for them?

IT'S ALWAYS WHEN THEY'RE SLEEPING they both just look so cute n peaceful n I get all mushy n wanna protect them but I'm weak as hell so

51: Any specific place you associate with them?

Mmmm not really

52: Films that make you think about them?

Disney films in general

Marvel movies for Ice prince bc NERD

53: Have you picked up a habit because of them?

I don't think so but it's also not unlikely

54: What was your first impression of them?

Ice prince seemed antisocial and idk abt space boy we were like 5 yrs old technically so who knows man

55: Has it altered since then?

LMAO YES

56: Do you remember the first thing you talked about?

Probably musicals bc I can't shut up ever and he was confused

And uhhh no unless u mean like when we started hanging out bc it was candy

57: First time they touched you?

COLD

HE DID IT TO SPITE ME AND IT WAS FUNNY BUT IT WAS SO COLD HOW

And I'm 99% certain I made him high five me before we ever spoke bc I'm a nuisance

58: Have they ever lied to you?

Not that I know of

59: What are their eyes like?

Ohhhhh my GOD

really......clear?? that’s not like. a good way to describe em but u know when u look up at the sky and it’s like. wow there are no clouds!! n then u feel the breeze and it’s kinda cold but it’s not unpleasant it’s?? p nice??? like. that.

cool as FRICK like what the hell i’m actually jealous they’re a rly pretty nice shade n then suddenly it’s!!! different!!!! and it’s like!!!!!!!!!!!!! a surprise a v good surprise which is fitting u just gotta look a lil and he’s full of lil surprises

60: What are you most attracted to about them?

well,, for one they’re both hot as hell, so. that. in general.

if u know anything abt me i’m a sucker for pretty eyes

i also like the “soft but pretends to not be” because i think it’s cute they’re also really good to cuddle with

61: Can you see a future with them?

well i can’t see one without ‘em so something’s gotta give here right?

62: Have you sabotaged things between you two?

i freaking hope not

63: Why? What were you afraid of achieving? Love? Happiness? Content? Disappointment?

why does this thing assume you said yes to the above question that’s kinda rude

64: Could they make you happy?

already do

65: Do you dream about them?

if we’re friends and you haven’t appeared in one of my dreams and done smth weird or random are we actually friends??

side note does daydreaming count LOL

66: What's something that only you two do?

i don’t think i “gently bully” anyone nearly as much as i do ice prince also the only one who actually can cuddle w/ me properly in the summer i’m js

uuuummmm go on random drives in the middle of the night so tht zoe can make out w/ ppl instead of texting our sorry asses

67: Does liking them make you feel vulnerable?

you. have. no idea.

68: Have they ever given you anything?

food has definitely been exchanged and shared. i’ve stolen sweaters. uh.

69: Have they ever used you?

.........not that i’m aware of??

70: Have they abused and manipulated you due to your feelings for them?

nO WHAT TH E

71: Have you ever spent quite literally all day and night thinking about them?

that’s......a bit much i might be pathetic and somewhat desperate but like i do kinda have a life

72: Have you ever accidentally nearly walked into moving traffic cause you were thinking about them?

no but i’ve walked into walls because i was tired and thinking abt stuff so that’s a thing i probably have done

73: Ever worn anything knowing it would draw their attention to you?

YEAH LMAO I DO THAT ALL THE TIME IN GENERAL i like attention fight me

74: Have they ever made you feel so safe and content everything else slips away?

y e ah

75: Ever held you so close you could feel their heartbeat?

mmhmm

76: Truthfully do you think you belong together right now?

[taylor swift’s you belong with me playing in the distance]

77: Have they ever seen you completely vulnerable?

um. no.

78: Do you trust them?

i would trust all of my friends with my life

79: When you see them what feelings are strongest?

i just get?? really happy n i turn into a little kid i swear to god how does he put up with me

n he makes me feel really calm n content n just. good. u know.

80: Are they in love or interested in someone else?

d e a r l o r d i h o p e n o t

81: If they asked you to kiss them, would you?

in a heartbeat

82: Will they be in your life a year from now?

they BETTER BE

83: A moment where you so nearly gave into your feelings for them and did something about it?

i have literally kissed both of them and not because of dares what kind of,,

84: Do they know you have feelings for them?

i’m not exactly,,, subtle

85: Do you have a favourite picture with them?

no but i have favorite pictures of them

86: Your ideal date with them?

hey. concept. a double date. but like. instead of 2 couples it’s just me w/ both of them wow

87: What's their name?

it’s rly obvious that i’m talking about porter and connor fuck you

88: Have you ever been in their room?

i’ve been in connor’s but porter n i mostly chill other places

89: Shared a secret with them?

yeah but it’s not a secret if i tell the internet now is it?

90: Have they ever made you a promise and broken it?

don’t think so

91: Have they ever disappointed you?

nope!

92: Whats the most problematic thing about them, which you overlook due to your feelings for them?

uh. idk. porter’s kinda closed off to other people at first i guess that could be problematic. i’m patient w/ that shit so it doesn’t bug me as much idk

general relationships or lack thereof w/ other ppl tbh for both of them i think 

93: Have you ever had to compete for their affection?

no

94: For as long as they're in your life could you handle just being friends?

that’s what i do with p much everyone else but another way to approach this is if u couldn’t be together would u shut them out and the answer is no?? bc that’s kinda shitty

so yes

95: Ever looked for a sign to make a move?

every?? single second of every day but once again i have literally kissed both of them uh

96: What's standing in your way from being with them?

general anxiety

a single conversation

...lmao

97: Would you let them use you for sex?

this implies that,, they don’t care abt me and only themselves n they’re not really?? like that so?? it wouldn’t happen like that??

realistically knowing myself i wanna say no but i probably would which is Not Good i know

98: Ever had a bad feeling about them that's screaming for you to get out while you still can?

no. like. literally the opposite. wtf

99: If you could go back in time, would you avoid ever meeting them?

NEVER

100: You have 1 wish about them, what would you wish for?

that porter finds someone who makes him feel warm n fuzzy on the inside even if it’s not me

n for connor that one day everything is stable and everything is ok

anyway hey jared U SUCK

[magical-gull]

Yes Keet pls write up that separate post about how a Mio vs Galaxia showdown would look, I'm VERY interested!

This nonsense is surrounded by a whole mess of modified canon (there's like three+ versions of this story canonically, dont ask for specifics) and intentional Removal Of Everyone Else Who SHould Probably Be Around And Doing Things For Simplicity, but I'll throw in notes if stuff is relevant to this particular scenario.

Galaxia does A Thing which prompts Mio to become pensive about the senshi’s actual chances against her, and comes up with a plan in secret. Secret partly because she isn't too concerned about the Starlights (”sucks to be you but more pressing issues“) but also partly because the others won't agree to it. She does have a lot of close talks with Setsuna and (oddly) Hotaru, but they're the most open minded to things so no one suspects too much. Everyone just assumes she agrees with the Outer Senshi, which is... broadly correct.

By this point in the story, Mio already knows a lot about previously being Beryl, and a lot about the kingdom and elysium and all that from Helios, mostly private conversations. Again, not HIDING it from the senshi, but they don't ask directly so she doesn't tell. Mio asks Helios about... well, a lot of things, and goes over the things they've already learned. Like how Helios had protected part of the Golden Crystal (long story, but basically a combo of both versions of official canon) that was damaged when Beryl was injured a long time ago but he didn't return to her due to personal doubts (ed. SuperS revision) how that obviously means a starseed doesn't necessarily have to be in a body if it wasn't completely in HER body, and hasn't been until recently, but being in Elysium (which is the guardian’s realm, sort of) seemed to protect it just fine if not for The Troubles with QN...

Helios tries to keep a cool head as he already guesses the path of the conversation, but after hearing the plan, goes a little hoarse.

Mio also learns from Hotaru further starseed oddities; Hotaru did in fact give back the Outer Senshi their powers during the previous story (ed. SuperS) but not out of nowhere; she literally split parts of her own 'starseed' (she doesn't know the word, but the implication is there) to get around the magic of the eclipse. This means she's as bound to the three as they are to her, and also why she's significantly powered down now.

Maybe she learns about how Galaxia's goons are powered too, but I don't know if she'd be that close to the Starlights, assuming they even know.

Anyway things get Extra Desperate, and she somehow gets around the other senshi - Setsuna and Hotaru caution her but don't stop her, Mission and Sacrifices amirite girls? - long enough to get alone. She returns to the physical entrance of Elysium (somehow) which is at the metaphorical doorstep of what's left of the ruined underground Golden/Dark Kingdom; there's been no cleanup crew, so the rather interesting ruins are still marred by where Metallia exploded out of the earth, QN's fuckery, etc. Being here is helping her remember the layout of the place, and for once she lets the memories get closer. Poking at the dust around makes her aware there are... things. Not youma, not quite ghosts, but all things with memory of her and they aren't happy. She admits they have no reason to owe her anything, and that while in every life she wanted to protect what she had she's been a lousy Guardian so far. But that Things are arriving and she needs their help. A compromise is made.

Mio somehow gets Galaxia over to where she is for a big confrontation (you can just imagine Beryl trying to look dignified on a ruined throne or something, thumping a septer) huge and melodramatic and full of cheese like she's good at. Galaxia's impressed despite herself and offers... well, whatever villains like to offer. Or would she like something else? Mio almost seems to agree with Galaxia's ultimatium, or at least find them reasonable, but admits a problem. She smells something around Galaxia, something INSIDE of her, very familar, that was once in her and who exactly is she pledging loyalty to? Words like 'puppet' and 'lackey' are thrown around, and G isn't having it. SHe has a show of force, which Mio deflects...

And Mio's there. But a lot more than her. Much in the way Serenity is there when Usagi needs it, she has the other self. It's Beryl, seemingly, but not the death-warmed-over skulking redhead full of bitterness. Maybe the person she was *supposed* to always be, the real queen under the mountain, mixed with Mio's self and cleverness and mind and heart. Not full of shadow, but gold and metal and glory and strength. A *real* Gold Queen, she can't resist thinking. Well, there’s some purple underneath. And some fine cloth. Namesake after all. AMazing all this dust isn’t getting all over her clothes. An outside observer might wonder about the clashing, tacky necklace of rough, green stones but wouldn’t have much time to do so. She fires everything. WHatever magic was still in the rotting kingdom, whatever her own crystal could give, whatever her sheer tendancy and spite can make, and it's fine if she's greedy, she'll keep all the things she has and loves and that's fine, she'll stomp out a fire even if she has to do it barefoot because they’re hers and no one will take away things she can protect.

If you are a fan of the pyrotechnic confrontation Usagi has Beryl at least in one universe, the allusion is very intentional. The irony is not lost on Mio, who thinks at least now she can draw level with Usagi. BUt at some point Mio knows it's not going to work. Maybe she always knew. But whatever power is coming out of the earth, it's holding Galaxia in place, if briefly . In a flash, Mio-Beryl is next to her, almost tenderly giving her a nudge down to force her on one knee and whisper something.

What you do if you're meeting a real queen, is kneel.

It's probably best the explosion that rocks the place is mostly underground, or a lot of questions would be raised. Helios should not really be able to hear the commotion behind the Door, but FEELS it, which is his cue. Galaxia pulls herself from the rubble. She's a bit of mess, but not dead. She's not going to be killed by that. But angry. Frazzled in a way she hasn't in a while. The cracks in her armor might as well me cracks in the flesh; they're oozing something more unpleasant than blood. It wriggles and moves, and she slaps it down. Mio is back to being Mio, completely worn out, has enough energy to think aloud to Helios. Tell him to protect all their dreams.

Galaxia controls herself long enough to do her starseed trick - or perhaps doesnt have to, heroes seem to get out their own doodads for these dramatic proceedings - and is left gaping when it suddenly vanishes into thin air. Well, into a hand she can't see. Helios can't say anything besides being glad to have met Mio. But Mio is content with knowing at least THAT'S a starseed that won't be stolen. And she got Galaxia to kneel. That was a great line. "Loser." And she laughs, laughs and laughs as Galaxia is torn between anger and boggling at her as she fades away.