#but aside from that...all the other headcanons are like 'this dude reckless. this dude a bit dumb. this dude very kind. that is all'

[loaksky]

How do you think lo’ak would react to someone insulting his mate? We saw how he reacted to the boys insulting Kiri, I can only imagine how much more protective he’d be over the person who loves him most ❤️ also ily your so talented so just please keep writing <3

i love YOU! more headcanons under the cut hehe

but could you imagine some of the boys and girls in the clan teasing you because you're really reserved and don't really take part in the stuff villagers your age do?

you stand on the edge of feasts, not really taking part in the song and dance because you're shy,

you don't really like taking part in hunting because you don't like hurting the creatures even if it's the natural order of life on pandora,

like you've completed your rite and all that, but you spend a lot of time on your own.

maybe you work with mo'at closely and spend a lot of time doing research in the forest and are especially close with nature and the cycle of life.

could definitely see that one of the first times lo'ak stumbles upon you, you're petting the cub of tapirus, singing it a song as it snoozes with its head in your lap.

could see you and lo'ak becoming close because he knows what it's like to be alone (crying bc i'm remembering when he was talking to payakan adsflasdlf).

learns that you're his polar opposite in disposition, but you two are also so similar and he sees who he wants to be in you.

could see him being kind of scared to let you know about his inevitably budding feelings because he thinks you're so sought after, but finds that you don't have many friends aside from kiri and a few other villagers.

and it's sad bc it's not like you don't want friends, if anything, you'd really like to share the depth of your love for the forest with villagers your age, but they think you're weird because you talk to plants and cry when animals are hurt.

i think that lo'ak wouldn't have really realized that they were making fun of you until you guys start spending more time together and he notices that there are times when you look a lil sad

when he tries prying, you give him the sweetest smile and tell him it's silly.

when he keeps pushing, you probably just hug him tight, cheek smooshed against his heart as you assure him that you're a big girl.

you keep it locked tight like a vault because you're not a very confrontational person, just avoid conflict and stay in your own corner of the forest.

it isn't until there's one day, still new to your established relationship, where he's lowkey trailing you and you don't even notice. you're cornered by a group of villagers who tug on one of your braids and step on your tail.

"gonna have a little party with your plant friends?" or something stupid like that.

maybe the girls are jealous because you're the center of the sully's attention?

like with neteyam, he's really sweet and i wouldn't really say attainable, but accessible? the girls think they could have a chance with him,

but with lo'ak, he's reckless and a free spirit and not really emotionally available to the girls.

and of course this is a thrilling idea to some of them, but when they notice that he's spending a lot of time around you, it makes them green.

there's definitely a certain point in time where things shift and you notice that people are probably acting a little differently towards you, kind of including you more & this makes you scratch your head because ???

you probably find out that lo'ak beat the shit out of one of the main guys that tease you and warned the others that if he hears even a whisper of them making you sad, he'll string them by their tails.

dude who makes fun of you kinda just stews, but relents because after all, lo'ak is the olo'eyktan's son.

you start making a few more friends after that, maybe start being more vocal about the forest and people start seeing why lo'ak caught feelings.

the girls can still be a little vicious though.

like maybe when you and lo'ak pass by, one of them says something super bitchy like "i wonder what spell she has the olo'eyktan's son under for him to be whipped over someone so plain."

you hear it, but pretend not to and lo'ak's watching your reaction closely.

probably stops in his tracks and turns on the group of giggling girls, his shadow looming over their circle shutting them right up.

"watch what you say about my girl."

MY GIRL ADSFJAHSDJKFAS

you definitely can't keep the smile from growing on your face as lo'ak rejoins you a few feet away, fingers curling through yours and tail swishing.

in conclusion, you're his sweet girl and lo'ak's your super in love bf and i am SAD.

[mapsofnonexistentplaces]

mr. bepop or faye valentine for the character asks 😸

putting it under the cut ^_^

MR BEEPO FIRST

favorite thing about them

ahh i genuinely just think hes like. a very stylish character like perhaps derivative of the whole show's aesthetic but yeah. hes just a cool jazz cowboy who can do tricks and shotcha. i think the way his like. carefree nature is challenged by the end of the show is really good also.... like yeah this dude is reckless and youre kind of meant to suspend your disbelief at first just to see him pull cool stunts and shit but by the end its very much commented on as a specific flaw of his and its like. yeah! clever way to show off a characters problems being enabled and made worse to the point of them being visible to others.... its cool its cool

least favorite thing about them

i think his hair looks STUPID in official art often i like it when its drawn as just like. visibly curled or messy i guess

favorite line

guess i shotcha....

but also "whatever happens happens". :+)

brOTP + OTP

compounding these because my answers the same. i think its funny to interpret him faye and jet as just like. awkward situational polycule LOL mostly just because when i was watching the show i kept making jokes like. Yuup. these guys are all divorced to each other without ever having been married

nOTP

him and vicious im just not big on "enemies who want to fuck each other secretly" type dynamics

random headcanon

schizoid guy swag....! and also i just like. randomly headcanon him as latino because i was listening to a lot of volta when i was watching the show and i very quickly associated frances the mute with his storyline hah. so hes very much tied up with that in my mind

unpopular opinion

uhhhh i think hes cool but not in the way weird old anime fans think hes cool. i think his self destructive habits make him very interesting....

song i associate with them

CYGNUS VISMUND CYGNUS !!!!!!! i also do have a playlist for him hehe

favorite picture of them

first ones that came to mind :+)

faye time now.....

favorite thing about them

I LIKE THAT SHES JUST LIKE. very openly bratty and annoying and that she does anything she wants. like i think the flippant way she treats the rest of the bebop crew rules i like that shes very selfish and just puts herself first. makes the few moments when she actually gets worried about the others really poignant....

least favorite thing about them

wouldnt say i completely dislike it because i do think it was handled tastefully but i think the subplot of like. oooh yeah guy who revived her from her cryosleep or whatever being someone shes very romantically into made me roll my eyes a bit. i do think it makes her like. presence during the timeframe of the show way stronger but from a story writing standpoint im just like Bah a bit lame that shes The Woman and shes constantly Romancing men

favorite line

none that come to mind i just like it when shes mean 👍 oh uh not a line but it was cool when she just ate dog food that one time

brOTP + OTP

see above answer for spike hah

nOTP

most relationships honestly....... i think she deserves to have some genuine connections with people and aside from spike and jet she really doesnt have any hah.

random headcanon

she would love shitty 90s era pop songs.........

unpopular opinion

unpopular opinion uhhhh i think she is a cool character who is not just a sex object

song i associate with them

hmmmm ^_^

favorite picture of them

love pics of her and ein HEHE

[dragonfruitsoup]

Hi there! I wanted to ask in honor of Sasori'sbirthday(cause it was his birthdayright?): have you ever thought of an alternative AU, where he and Baki switch roles, so Sasori becomes the sand sibs sensei, and Baki would become Deidara's partner in Akatsuki. Like, I like this idea a lot. It would've benefited and given more development to all if them. Sure, we'd lose the likeable, funny dynamic between Saso and Dei, but who says they can't have one as enemies who "absolutely do not like each other" (they actually do). Like imagine, Saso training with Kank. Spending time and guiding Gaara. Underrating Temari (cause I think Chiyo said at some point that Suna is pretty sexist?) During the fight with Sakura against him. Just for her to get super string, shut him up, so now he religiously drinks his respect women juice. And give more development to Baki too, like this dude makes 0 appearances after the Gaara rescue arc, lol. Anyways, I think it's a great idea, what's your opinion?

Pd: and also imagine him and Kakashi interacting. Kakashi's dad killed Sasori's parents I think? So they can't stand each other at 1st, but then they get to know each other, and become friends as a result. That would be cool.

hello friend!

i swear i didnt forget about this, it's just been a heck of a week. it was his birthday! (11/8)

now, i started responding to this and got COMPLETELY derailed so we're gonna try again where i stay on topic haha

i have never once thought of baki joining the akatsuki, but i constantly think of sasori staying in the village and becoming a (very reluctant) teacher/team leader. my man is miserable and i love that for him.

there is this absolutely flawless piece of dialogue & art that lives rent free in my mind and is immediately where i go to any time i imagine sassy remaining in the village.

1- baki

baki with deidara can go one of two ways for me. what we see of baki when he's introduced is that he's clearly managing to wrangle these walking nightmares, with some degree of success. so, like, he clearly has the patience to deal with reckless murder children. although, he could only be dealing with them because they're the kazekage's kids and he doesn't wanna be left to rot in a ditch somewhere....he does murder the fuck outta hayate right off the bat, so like. it's possible he's willing to just dispatch of dei the second the kid pisses him off, but he's also clearly dedicated to his missions, so maybe the kid'll survive. 

either way, i think baki and kakuzu get along great in the 'long suffering partner to literal children' club. (kisame, who actually likes his partner, crashes club meetings constantly like 'but did i tell you about the time he...!!!')

2 - sasori 

now, if you're chill with my personal little headcanon that sassy is cousins somehow to the sand brats, then i guarantee that he will pull the 'sorry. cant. conflict of interest.' card CONSTANTLY. will claim there’s bias, and we can’t have a case of nepotism. (he says, blank faced, as if he’s not talking about the kazekage’s children)

if not, however, then i'll say i personally can't see him taking on anyone who isnt a puppeteer. he has a brand. BUT FOR ARGUMENT'S SAKE! i want his absolute fumbling on how to teach temari. i am living for this mental image. because, as far as i remember, we never see a single puppeteer use a jutsu that doesn't involve puppets. like. not once. (aside from chiyo's forbidden zombie technique. doesnt count). sassy must know how to do something without his puppets, but does he??? little tem rocks up and demands to use a fan and sassy just stalls like 'how...how does that work???? you mean you want to physically hold that weapon? you dont want to use chakra strings??? whhhyyyy?????' sassy having to learn a whole new skill set because she won't budge and she absolutely calls him a coward who can't do it and like fuck will sassy let that stand. (sand sibs learn very quickly that the best way to get their leader to do something is to attack his pride.)

kankuro is obvious. little genin kank, fresh out of the academy, starry eyed to be working with his idol. completely heckin smitten. and then he realizes this, what, late-20s? early 30 year old? spends most of his time when not training them just hunched over a workbench in the dark, filthy and greasy and gross and completely unable to remember anyone's name if you come knocking at his door. he's brilliant! he's genius! his knowledge and techniques are unparalleled! but he's got classic 'grad student who hasnt eaten anything but coffee or left the library stacks in three days' vibe as soon as he's off shift. kank spends equal amounts of time learning from sassy and bullying sassy into staying the fuck alive because who else is gonna teach him??? this is the best of the best, don't you dare leave me to pick this up on my own! sassy has an obvious soft spot for the kid though. i mean, he'll die before he ever says that to kank's face, but! he absolutely gets called out when the jonins hang out. (if said jonin has to miss their next mission due to mild food poisoning, oh well) likes to challenge kank and pick his brain about puppets. they work well together, when he's not being a pompous bitch. 

gaara is probably the one sassy has the hardest yet easiest time with. he's absolutely willing to just let this kid do his thing, but at least leave the bodies intact! (sassy, no!!) if sass stays in the village, he's probably not the one who murdered the third and thus has no experience with sand techniques. like, not even by proxy of using a puppet. and it's not like the kid needs training in it!! the kid's fine! little pisspoot gaara, throwing a murderous tantrum and sass just staring him down, blank faced. kank, pleading, because that's his teacher! his favorite person! don't make him mad! i dont want you to die! and sass just, still deadpan, 'im already dead inside.' shukaku screeching about how he likes this one. the bizarre bonding over nihilism. temari is so gd done with these idiots. gaara, bringing back bodies when shukaku needs to rampage, like a little cat! coming back from the chunin exams like 'how do you get past the intense bloodlust?' and model citizen sassy responding 'you don't. you just redirect it.' sass, utterly fucking deligted to pawn off his tiny brittle garden on someone else because he hates trying to remember to water those fuckers. (sass simultaneously disappointed because now he doesn't have a supply of bodies for his experiments)

now, i think we're losing an absolutely golden opportunity of baki still leading sand brats while sassy has his own team for the chunin exams/invasion arc and the absolute EXHAUSTION that baki is feeling the entire time, but! sassy just letting his team of sand sibs do what they want, he doesnt care, as long as they stick vaguely to the script and then watching gaara get wrecked by lee and thinking 'huh, kid's probs not gonna take that well...' and then watching gaara in his little malted milk ball during the fight with sasuke and thinking 'well fuck, there goes the plan...hope the kage doesnt pin this on me.' AND THEN! watching his team stumble out of the woods at some point, beaten and bruised and clutching each other and sassy having to reevaluate everything he knows about these kids in like ten seconds. sasori, crashing on the sand sib's floor, face first, when he breaks the news about rasa, because gd, now he's responsible for these walking disasters. like. he already was, no one in that room has any illusions about rasa's parenting skills. but gdi, he did not sign up for this. 

3 - kakashi

listen. listen. i am LIVING for sasori and his cricket shoulder pads glaring across that funky little shed the first round of the chunin tournament took place in. kakashi is sweating, there is so much going on with his squad, and now he's got some redheaded asshole burning holes through his skull??

sasori and kakashi, who never really meet before the chunin exams because they both pull the ‘i dont want a team’ bullshit. kakashi because trauma and a lack of socialization and sassy, well probably for the same reason, but mostly just because he doesnt want to.

this is, of course, assuming that sasori even knows what kakashi looks like. he's used to granny bitching about this man who killed his parents (valid), but he doesnt know what he looks like. he finally recognizes the name though, when someone (naruto) yells his name and then it's fucking on sight. he knows that's not the man who killed his parents, but, eh, close enough. (figures he'll get him during the invasion, misses his chance. is extremely fucking bitter about this. and then his kid befriends one of kakashi's kids? what??? reluctant guardian hangouts while the jinchuriki dorks go out for snacks and training and play games and just. uuuuggghhhhh. sassy is miserable. kakashi apologizing for sassy's parents one day. sass begrudgingly accepting it because he is intimately familiar with the feeling of losing a parent and fuck, he does not want to trauma bond with his enemy, gdi. he can't believe this is his life.)

here i was, trying to keep this short and i just babbled more haha. sorry bout that! anyway.  

[idv-marythefairy]

ELI CLARK X READER (relationship headcanons)

• to begin with, eli, imo, is the “ideal boyfriend” girls want.

• i mean, my dude is kind, sweet, thoughtful, selfless, considerate, protective, he’s got it all!

• let’s erase gertrude, let’s pretend he never met her here (sorry if that makes you mad)

• he is the type of person who will most likely pay more attention to the type of person that you are rather than what you look like, he doesn’t care about looks

• you, guys, give me the vibe that you started off as friends and progressed from there

• seeing how nice he treats you made you fall and seeing how special and unique you are, he fell for you

• he took you aside, one day, led you to a quiet and romantic place and confessed right then and there, which you found absolutely charming (who wouldn’t 😌)

• poor boy is a bit nervous when you two started dating because he didn’t want to hurt you, so, please, reassure him that you’ll take things slow and that you’ll let him know if something makes you feel uncomfortable

• you two settled upon creating a safe word because that’d make him feel much better

• he loves you unconditionally, he’s loyal and very trustworthy

• need advice? he’s the right person to go talk to!

• wanna rant about a match that frustrated you? he’s all ears for you!

• wanna talk about something that’s troubling you? he’ll drop what he’s doing and focus on you!

• cute dates at moonlit river park, he asks naib, norton and william to help him set up a date on the garden

• i feel like the first thing you, guys, will do is have dinner under the stars and talk about everything while his friends are hiding behind the bushes

• you laughed about some silly jokes eli made

• moving on to the final part of the plan: a waltz under the stars as fireflies flew past you

• this boy knows what girls want, i swear-

• you two spend a lot of time together which means that you’re, also, spending time with brooke rose, eli’s owl

• she loves eli and protects him and, thus, i believe that she needs time not only to get used to your presence but to get to know you too

• she loves you, considers you an important part of her’s and her owner’s life and decided to protect you

• i believe eli is a bit uncomfortable with the idea of PDA and that’s why you two decided to take it slow or express your affection for the other in simple ways, be it hand-holding, hugs, pats on the head, he doesn’t mind that, i believe

• if you get matched with eli, he’ll make sure that you get out of it safe and sound

• “you know, you have to take care of yourself too. besides, you can’t always protect me. sometimes i have to do that too.”

• he passes brooke rose to you when getting chased by the hunter, no “buts”, no questions here, PERIODT!

• he bodyblocks like there’s no tomorrow which makes you extremely worried about him getting downed in the end

• “get out of here!”

• he uses himself as bait when you announce that the hunter is near you and tries to do anything in his power to lure them away from you

• “ELI, FOCUS ON DECODING!” “b-but the hunter-” “I SAID: FOCUS ON DECODING!”

• he has been chaired many times because of all of these actions which led to you rescuing him all the time instead of popping ciphers like the rest of your teammates

• the infirmary has been something like his second dorm due to the many times he’s taken hits for you

• eli is the type of person to lecture you for your recklessness and so is emily and, thus, she was in disbelief that eli was acting so carelessly

• you have and still lecture him about his actions but it always ends up with you two cuddling and giving soft kisses to one another

• he doesn’t mind about who will spoon who but i’m under the impression that he’s the type of guy that wants to be held closely more than wanting to hold someone else

• you and eli decided to talk things in your relationship instead of starting a fight

• i mean, he doesn’t see the point in fights, they only cause chaos and ruin people’s days for nothing

• he has too much patience for his own good, rarely ever gets mad and if something doesn’t sit right with him, he’ll tell you straight away and very politely too

• overall, i do believe that eli is a wonderful person and boyfriend

• he doesn’t get jealous because you two trust each other a lot and he’s do just about anything to see you smile

• 11/10 i recommend dating him uwu 💕

[junikshanasar]

who is stars and stripes

Because apparently there’s controversy over her????

So here’s my take on our gorgeous and super cool number one hero of the USA.

If you’ve seen my posts, you already know that I love her because she looks so goddamn cool in despite the ridiculous imitation of All Might (like srsly, she used to be a smol little glasses girl)

buuuuut, as much as I love admiring her panels and shading, she is... not a good hero. Not as far as we’ve seen, at least.

Let’s take a look at who Star is:

When she’s first introduced, she looks like frickin female all might, like dude:

Buuuuut, here’s quite a statement:

ok lol this acc killed me, but aside from making ppl laugh, was this perhaps an indication that Star is stronger, or has the potential to be more powerful than All Might?

Maybe, but I’m not so sure. See, she wants to be like him and surpass, and her idea of that is being more powerful than him, rather than having a greater impact.

What does that mean? It means she is focused on ‘power to destroy the enemy,’ which, frankly, contradicts the entire premise of Boku no Hero Academia.

Horikoshi loves greys: nobody in bnha is black or white, they are always somewhere in the middle, and even then what is considered ‘lighter’ or ‘darker’ changes with different perspectives. That’s why it’s important for us to see the human and negative sides of heroes, as well as the experiences and surprisingly relatable sides of villains. In this way, she is the anti-thesis to Deku who sees humanity in Shigaraki and wants to ‘save’ him.

So, back to Star. Right from the get-go, I could tell she was reckless. Like, come on, all the other countries could not aid Japan as they were dealing with their own surges of villainy (apropos to AFO who mentioned having ‘friends’), and their Number Ones, though desperate to help their buddy All Might, were held back by their governments.

Star is not. Before negotiations even end, she’s out of the country. While this may be seen as loyal and quick to take action, Star is just being rash. For one, considering her quirk relies on knowledge, specifically the names of what she wants to control, she has literally no real idea of the situation, or who Shigaraki really is. Her quick-action would be infinitely more admirable if she had actually reconvened with the japanese heroes. They have all the information! Consider why Star can’t control Shiggy:

Star would’ve known she couldnt use her quirk properly on him if she’d even just had a quick summary of who Shiggy is from the japanese heroes (i.e. that his birth name is Shimura Tenko, his villain name is Tomura Shigaraki, and AFO has merged his consciousness with him)

This wouldve saved a lot of unnecessary energy and resource waste, as well as allowed time to strategize on the optimal battle plan before the confrontation. (but we know the USA likes to jump into things without listening to advice and learn lessons the hard way... *cough* World War 1 *cough*)

Actually, let’s talk about the perspective of the USA. Why was Star able to get away with yeeting like she did? Well, clearly, it isn’t the first time she’s defied authority, since we hear from Captain Ackbar that this time she wont get away with just a slap on the wrist, implying she has before.

(and just, before anything, can we appreciate the star wars reference XD)

In Japan, heroes are nationalized and monitored by the Hero Commission. I really like the headcanon from petrichor’s fanfic ‘Parallax’ (brilliant read, full of information and explanations straight out of my school curriculum, they are the only reason I am passing highschool).

The headcanon is that heroes are a ‘replacement’ or sorts for Japan’s military, which could no longer be established after the WW2 concession. It’s a wonderful idea that explains why heroes are so widely and intensely propagated in the series. 

Piggybacking off of that, I initially wondered if the reason Stars could get away with her rash actions without consequence is because in the USA heroes might actually be privatized, and thus her agency does not need to take any real orders from the government. The money perhaps would’ve come from insurance and merchandise and/or sponsoring, but the latest chapter (331) and further rumination quickly shut that idea down.

Clearly Star was connected with and works with the military in the USA, and we all know the military in the USA defers to the government (as opposed to a military state, where the military is independent and often has more power).

Plus, Captain basically implies/says that the government is Star’s boss XD

Sooo, this means that it’s just that Star has so much power and influence (note: her army ‘brothers’) that she can get away with a lot. Why is this important?

It’s an indication that in the USA, power means you can do what you want, even if it goes against the government... or the law.

And Star has become a hero under these circumstances, so she also has these traits.

Whilst ackbar praises her

This selfishness and hastiness is only viable in her own country for one, and two she must know how to limit herself. While certainly having some of that selfishness and quick-to-action attitude is important for a leader, and can help you save ppl according to what is true to yourself beyond the limitations of the law (another recurring theme in bnha), some form of regulation is important.

There’s a reason authorities are legally more trustworthy than vigilantes (... yes this is debatable, police can exploit the system, vigilantes can have their own moral codes and whatever, but that is not our current argument), but Star doesnt seem to care much for these regulations? Even the threat of losing her status as hero doesnt seem to faze her because she’s just that confident in her power - she will beat Shiggy, and will return proud. 

Bouncing off that, the panel that I think caused the biggest surge of dislike against her was this one:

uh oh, Star wants to override Japanese law and kill Shiggy~

While dead Shiggy is lowkey appealing (maybe not for the folks for whom he is their fav character, in which case... sorry not sorry, but I’ve never rlly cared abt him? some of the other ‘main’ villains always had some sort of charm to them that made me enjoy reading about them even just a little. Shiggy is still an interesting character, just one I dont care too much abt despite being the ‘main’ baddie), this is once again Star being rash. 

She has not consulted with the Japanese government, she does not have anyone’s permission, not even her own government, and she’s trying to use a thing called the ‘override order’ (which def feel like smthing superpower USA would implement). This was too selfish and brash. But that’s just the USA: once you involve them, they just wanna do things their way.

And ‘their way’ usually involves nukes

but hey, when you got a problem, the easiest way to go is to just blow it up~

So yes, though Stars and Stripes (what a lowkey lame name XD) is pretty and badass, she is not an ideal hero, nor is she really meant to be

Especially not for this story, which is all about the nuances of society. Unfortunately, the only way I can see this confrontation going is that Star can’t kill Shiggy and AFO acc steals Star’s quirk, since he’s clearly planning to, and it seems he’s somewhat aware of what she’s like?

Otherwise, another hero will jump in to stop Star, or end the fight. Either or, there’s no way Shiggy’ll die, because that would go against everything bnha is about (and also be a lame way to get rid of him)

In the end, the real difference between Star and All Might is that All Might’s two spikes represent peace (like a peace sign┏ (゜ω゜)=☞), but Star’s idea of increasing his impact is eight tufts, as in more - more power, more strength, more villains subjugated. And we know who has had a bigger impact - after all, one is the until now unheard of and not frequently talked about (outside the usa, I’d assume) number one of America, and the other is the global Symbol of Peace that everyone knows and wants to support.

[aggressive-positivity-network]

Tf2 headcanons? Aw yeah! So let's say a new merc joins the team. They're a total asshole: Cocky, sarcastic, overconfident, refuse help. But both Spy and Scout see right through that, it's a defense mechanism. How do they go about making this person comfortable enough to not be an asshole?

*chanting* HURT COMFORT HURT COMFORT HURT COMFORT HURT COMFORT HURT COMFORT HURT COMF

Okay, jokes aside, this is one of my favorite tropes. Maybe I’m too naïve to believe that some people are just mean to be mean, or maybe it’s a sort of comfort to know that even the worst people can be understood, but either way, WOOOOOOOOO!

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An Ass For An Ass

Headcanons

Scout:

To be honest, Scout’s threshold for asshole-ery is pretty high. Growing up with eight brothers will do that to you.

But when the new recruit came around, something immediately rubbed him the wrong way.

Recruit always stole his thunder with the crass jokes and over-the-top displays. Every battle turned into a competition, which messed with Scout’s system of fighting. He never had to focus much on his own team before, and now he had to worry about keeping his own reputation upheld while trying not to get stabbed, shot, or blown up.

Recruit also kept hitting on Miss Pauling - even after reminding them again and again that she was lesbian, and was not and never will be into dudes.

“Come on…you just haven’t been with a real man yet…”

“No, no, I’ve been with a lot of men. Real men. I just wasn’t into any of them. After a while, it was kind of obvious.”

But what really pissed a lot of people off was Recruit’s fighting style.

They were an absolute monster on the field - that’s why they were chosen - but every interaction was treated as some sort of survival scenario.

One would think that would be a good thing, but Recruit was ridiculous.

No matter what the situation was, he was fine, he was okay, he could take it, he could fix it.

He could be killed only inches away from a Medic because he would never yell for one. Sometimes Recruit would even show visible anger at being healed. It got to the point where Medic didn’t heal him at all, and just allowed him to die as to not waste time he could give too more grateful patients.

Missions were even worse.

He followed orders to a T, but Pauling had to beg him to leave a failed mission, or to leave without completely destroying the site.

Everyone just took it as Recruit showing off, or having something to prove as a rookie.

It was annoying, but ultimately harmless in most circumstances.

However, it all came to a head when Recruit tried disengage a sentry by himself and was severely injured.

Both Engineer and Medic, who had had to fix most of Recruit’s past and current recklessness, ripped him a new one, one chewing out after the other.

“What we’re you thinkin’, son?! One crossed wire and you woulda blown the whole base!”

“Zhe only reason you are allowed in my lab at all is because it’s in my contract. Personally, I vould have rather left nature to it…”

Since then, Recruit did exactly as he was told, and nothing else. And most of the team liked it that way.

But Scout recognized some warning signs immediately. Fatigue, near silence except for missions, self-isolation, snapping when people got too close…it all paved the way for a pretty nasty (and, for Scout, very familiar) result.

One night, Recruit was sitting on the balcony, and Scout came out with two bottles - a beer for Recruit and a root beer for himself.

(Scout can only drink on the weekends because one, unlike most, he can’t go to work hung over because his job requires a lot of movement, and two, he has no restraint and can’t stop once he starts.)

“What do you want?”

Scout shrugged. “Depends.”

“On what?!”

“What are ya willin’ to tell me?”

Recruit just looked at the beer and sneered.

“Can’t we just skip this?” Scout said. “Maybe get to the part where you tell me what kinda Sally Sob Story we’re dealin’ with here?”

Recruit looked away.

“Aw, c’mon, don’t tell me you don’t got one. ‘Cause you do. I can see it a mile away. So what happened? Pop leave? Somebody died? Lotta brothers and sisters? Ma had a few too many and smacked ya around?”

Recruit didn’t turn around, but Scout could tell he was crying. He had hit a sore spot. Hard.

“Hey, pal, listen…”

Scout trailed off, then slowly began again.

“…the only reason I know is ‘cause I’ve been through it, ‘kay? Outta everybody I knew, I only trusted me. And that was great when I did a good job, ‘cause I knew I put me there.”

Scout opened his bottle of root beer and took a long swig.

“But when I screwed somethin’ up, it’s like everybody I ever knew just let me down. The one thing I could count on was gone.”

Recruit looked at Scout with tears in his eyes.

“But ya can’t do everything by yourself,” Scout continued. “Believe me. I learned that the hard way.”

Scout laughed, but it was mostly to clear the air. He didn’t get serious very often.

Recruit hadn’t touched his beer, but was leaned over the balcony with his head in his hands.

Scout sighed and looked up at the stars.

“But here’s somethin’ that nobody told me - it gets easier, y’know that? You just gotta relax and cut yourself some slack.”

Recruit shifted uncomfortably. “But the Administrator said…”

“Yeah yeah yeah, I know what she said. Gave ya that whole speech about how bein’ part of the team means discipline and focus and whatever. It’s all bull crap. She don’t know the first thing about bein’ on the field. If she did, why’d she hire us?”

“Sh-she said my perseverance was an asset to the team.”

“Perseverance, my ass. You know what would be an asset to the team? Stayin’ alive for more than fifteen minutes!”

Recruit looked at his feet. He had blinked away his tears, but he still looked on the verge of falling apart.

Scout put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it a little.

“You’re a great fighter, Recruit. You’re one of the best…that’s why you’re here. You got nothin’ to prove to nobody. Not to me, not to the team, not to the Administrator…not even to yourself. You’ve made it, kid. You’ve made it.”

Scout slid his hand off Recruit and started to walk away.

“Hey.”

Scout turned to see Recruit in the process of opening his beer.

“Thanks.”

Scout smiled. “No problem, pal. Plenty more under Demo’s mattress.”

“No, I mean…for that. I needed that tonight.”

“Oh…yeah! Sure. Don’t worry about it.”

Scout went back inside and to his room - but not before checking the cameras on the balcony a few times. Just in case.

Over the next few months, Scout kept helping Recruit break some old bad habits.

Recruit learned to take criticism without getting angry, to leave tanked missions, and to take care of himself.

He still occasionally flirted with Miss Pauling, but it was now more of an inside joke than anything.

Recruit still isn’t perfect - he still cringes a little when he’s healed, and falls back into survival mode when times are stressful - but he is now a much happier, much healthier person.

Spy:

Spy’s asshole wasn’t a merc, per se.

They were more of an informant, usually giving out important facts about locations, missions, and a target’s history.

Sometimes they would even use the Administrator’s PA system to announce new rules and reminders.

This would be perfectly fine - after all, you get kind of tired of hearing the Administrator all the time - except for the fact that Informant was the most sarcastic, most nasally, most apathetic, most matter-of-fact person on earth.

Even outside of a work setting, which was rare because they stayed in their office most of the time, Informant would go out of their way to be as condescending as possible.

Especially to whoever they considered to be in the “less intelligent” category: Heavy, Pyro, Scout, Demo, and Soldier.

To all the “others,” he turned every briefing into a contest to see who knew more at any given time…which, of course, usually meant he won.

“Now, does anyone know where his address is? Come on, any takers? Yeah, I thought so.”

Unlike Recruit, which would only warrant a few grumbles here and there from the team, Informant was the subject of a lot of hissed complaints and terrible rants from even the calmest of members.

Informant was the only one who could get under Heavy’s skin - a personal pet peeve of his was being considered less intelligent or less of a human being because English wasn’t his first language, which Informant chose to remind him of constantly.

It began with a few simple jabs at his grammar or word structure, but once Informant figured out that Heavy wouldn’t hurt a fly outside of battle, the taunts grew more and more daring.

Heavy would usually ignore Informant, which would only exacerbate their need to be noticed. This led to some pretty nasty interactions - from spouting the statistics of Russia’s average intelligence to even saying Heavy was a disgrace to his country by being a literature major.

“How’s that Russian literature major treating you? You know - in America.”

Sniper and Medic had tried to set Informant straight, but Heavy refused to accept any help. This was something that was his to bear, and his alone. He knew that they both took their own helping of harassment.

But one day, Informant went a little to far.

He did the one thing you should never do: insult Heavy’s family.

“You mother and sisters can’t do anything more than wait for you. No wonder you’re the only source of income.”

Before he knew it, Informant was against a wall, struggling to breathe, blood running into his eyes.

Heavy walked away after the incident, and told Medic about it, but he refused to heal him. Informant had called Medic a Nazi on more than one occasion.

This, finally, is where Spy comes in.

Spy was walking by Informant’s office, when he heard a strange sound - barely suppressed hiccups and sobs.

Despite his aversion to displays of emotion, the promise of seeing one of his greatest enemies as their lowest was too amusing to resist.

He knocked lightly on the door, then slowly opened it - always the master of drama.

Informant was under their desk, bloodied and bruised, sobbing into their knees.

Spy entered noiselessly, sitting in Informant’s office chair and lighting a cigarette.

It was only when Spy made a dramatic exhale of the smoke that Informant looked up, tears streaking their face.

They stared at each other for a moment, and then Spy finally spoke.

“Oh, how the mighty fall. Flown too close to the sun, have we?”

Informant couldn’t do much more than snivel and retreat farther below the desk.

“Who did it?” Spy asked. “I want to give them my regards…and maybe a bottle of wine.”

“H-Heavy…”

“Oh? Well, if anyone can bring him to blows, it’s you.”

Spy put his feet on the desk and continued to blow smoke out of his nose, thinking.

“It’s strange,” he said. “Most offices have at least a few pictures of family. A trip to the beach, perhaps the zoo…?”

He took a quick glance around.

“No children. No army mates. No graduation photos or a large catch at a local lake. The only personal item you have is this…”

Spy picked up a Rubik’s Cube. The plastic still around it crinkled.

“Unused.”

Informant looked at the floor.

“I like to keep my personal and professional life separate.”

Spy pursed his lips and squinted.

“How noble of you. But I don’t think that’s the case. You know what I think, Informant?”

Spy took his feet of the desk and bent down, looking Informant in the eyes.

“I don’t think you have a life.”

Informant’s eyes went wide for a moment, then his face immediately crumpled. Bullseye.

Spy smirked and got up from the chair, starting to leave.

Informant’s sniffling turned into sobbing, and before Spy could put his hand on the doorknob, muffled wailing filled the office.

Spy closed his eyes and clenched his teeth. He was trying not to remember something. But the imagery was too strong.

He remembered hiding under a table, like Informant was. People screaming and cursing at each other in French. His knees all scarred and his nose runny from a cold that should have resolved weeks ago. Waltz music coming from next door, trying to drown out the fighting. Glass breaking. Biting his knuckles so he wouldn’t whimper or cry.

Spy’s hand closed into fist. He took a deep breath, and turned to face Informant again.

“But to be fair…”

He walked towards the desk, putting his hand in his suit pocket. He got on his knees and pulled out a pink handkerchief.

“…I don’t have one either.”

He offered the handkerchief to Informant, who put it to his face, still staring at Spy through red eyes.

The pair were silent for a moment, with Spy putting out his cigarette and lighting a new one while Informant cleaned themselves up.

“But the difference between you and I,” Spy said, his voice wavering a bit, “is that I am a Spy. If my information got into the wrong hands, it could be the end of me and my team.”

He tapped his cigarette on a nearby trash can, letting the ashes fall into it.

“But what are you hiding from?”

Informant took a shaky inhale, the handkerchief still covering his nose and mouth.

“W-what?”

“Why do you feel the need to be, as Scout puts it, a tier five jerkazoid?”

Informant sniffled. “I…I didn’t think I took it that far.”

“Took what that far?”

“I just…snrk…I thought that’s what I had to do to get them to take me seriously.”

Informant laughed, but their heart wasn’t in it.

“I’m five foot four with red hair and freckles. I look more like someone’s Andy doll than a contract killer. I thought maybe if I knew everything…I’d be worth it.”

They shrugged.

“At best, they’d be impressed. At worst, they would never get close enough to me to know the truth: the only reason why I’m here is because I can rattle off a few names and that I had good grades in school because I had nothing better to do.”

Spy’s chest ached. He didn’t know why, but it was a strange feeling to him.

“Mon ami…”

He cleared his throat.

“If half of the team is any indication, you don’t need to be Nikola Tesla to be hired. Hell, the fact you can read is an anomaly in itself. But there is something you must understand…”

Spy cleared his throat again. His voice had gotten quite unstable all of a sudden.

“Intelligence is measured in different ways. Scout could never read even the simplest of children’s books, but his physical intelligence - reflexes, spatial awareness, aim - is phenomenal. Medic would have to put my spine back together if I even attempted to do what he does on the field.”

Informant snickered at the joke, or perhaps the image it conjured.

“And me,” Spy continued. “I can speak almost any language, adjust to any social setting, charm anyone, fool anyone…kill anyone. Just like you, I can remember, and I use the information I absorb mostly to show how superior I am to all my lowly colleagues.”

Spy furrowed his brow and looked away.

“But I know less about myself than even my enemies. I have hidden it so deep within my mind that I can hardly remember…or perhaps would rather not remember…who I was before this mask of mine.”

Informant hesitated. “I…I’m sorry, Spy.”

Spy sneered and puffed a few smoke rings.

“I don’t want your sympathy. I want you to have some self-respect - and respect for my teammates. Because next time you are beaten within an inch of your life, you might catch me in a less generous mood.”

With that, Spy got up, reached into his suit pocket and presented a small MediKit, which he tossed to Informant.

“I’d suggest freshening up before going to any more briefings.”

Informant nodded, and set to work healing himself.

Spy started to leave, then stuck his head back in.

“And hang a few posters, would you? Your office looks like a prison cell.”

Finally, the Frenchman took his leave, adjusting his suit and nodding solemnly to the team members he happened to pass - or scowling at them, depending.

He glanced over the security feed, and once he was satisfied, made his way to his smoking room.

Spy closed the heavy oak door, poured himself a small glass of scotch, and sat down in his chair next to the fireplace.

He put a magazine on his knee and began to flip through the pages, but his gaze soon started to wander.

He closed the magazine, tossed it into the fire, leaned into his hand, and wept.

…So what became of Informant?

Well, after a reluctant heal from Medic and a few well-deserved apologies, Informant began to try and break the cycle of self-sabotage.

The process took a lot longer than Recruit’s did - especially since Informant’s transgressions were a lot more egregious - but, little by little, they began to heal.

A lot of the time, the other mercs would have to tell them to tone it down a bit, or to cut him off completely if necessary.

Informant still almost has a panic attack if he doesn’t have the right papers, and his office is still pretty bare, but he took Spy’s advice - a few AC/DC posters hang on the leftmost wall.

As for Spy, well…he needs to have a talk with Medic.

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I am so sorry…this is all so messy and weird. One is so much longer than the other, and I’m not even sure half the dialogue sounds right.

The two headcanons were just typed out at different times, the first where I had less motivation and the second when I had more motivation. This wasn’t on purpose, it just happened.

I hope you still like it, though!

[elvesofnoldor]

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[trashcankitty12]

Helia Headcanons

Helia Scofield, nephew of Saladin; Master Artist in the making.

Don’t let his soft demeanor and pacifistic leanings fool you; Helia’s up for the fight if he’s needed.

(All headcanons are mainly for my verses: Left and the New Company of Light. Fair warning.)

-Helia was born to Harley and Hannah Scofield.

-Hannah, Saladin’s twin (and the elder twin, thank you) is an illusion-based witch who works with her Great Uncle’s army. She’s a commander of the Pegasus Unit of the Callistan Army, and unlike her brother, tries to keep herself out of trouble.

-Harley’s more of a gentle soul who enjoys art and runs an art gallery in Callisto.

-As you can imagine, his parents, though loving to him and though they did love each other at one point, have had many disagreements about their lifestyles and what would be best for the family.

-Harley was more pacifistic while Hannah preferred to ‘face things head on’. (Both have great strategic minds though, and… Tended to use them against each other.)

-At a young age, Helia showed potential for magic. Hannah and Saladin tried to help hone his potential skills as a wizard, but the best he could do was simple spells to make himself faster and stronger than normal and to send magic notes. (And a few other minimalistic spells. He couldn’t do anything fancy like his mom and uncle though…)

-It didn’t really bum him out too much though. In fact, it was partially a relief that he wouldn’t have to worry about hurting someone with his magic if his feelings or concentration went out of control. And he had an easy way of keeping his utensils nearby while he was working.

-Helia was in a junior sword fighting league as a kid, something his Uncle Saladin and his mother were very proud of. (Though his father thought it reckless and dangerous and ugly… Even if there was a sort of elegance to sword fighting when done right.)

-He also participated in art clubs at his school and did his to earn high marks in elementary and middle school. (He tended to be a daydreamer and often spaced out in class, especially if the subject was boring to him. Which became another argument for his parents.)

-When he was about 12/13, his parents decided to divorce. Hannah relocated and deployed to serve in Magix at the Callistan Embassy (and to be closer to her brother). His father remained in Callisto.

-He was actually happy that they finally divorced, thrilled to never have to hear one of their ‘we’re not really arguing, just having a heated discussion’ sort of fights. Having to decide where to live and what his plans for the future, however, made him sick.

-His social anxiety was through the roof anyway, and on top of all of this… His art took a bit of a dark turn and so did his poetry.

-How dare his parents fight each other and then demand he choose? How dare they implode on him like this?

-(Faragonda and Griffin were honestly the best people during this time. And so were his childhood friends. They helped him keep his cool and realize what he wanted and how to go about talking to his parents about this stuff.)

-Helia left the sword fighting league, he never really enjoyed it anyway except for the moments he was benched and could sketch the matches. And he decided to stay with his father and enroll at the Callistan Art Academy. His mother was so proud that he wanted to follow his dreams, and agreed to weekends and holidays.

-(Honestly his parents were just happy that he was talking to them again instead of pushing them away. They were so worried, they even went to therapy so they could try and do better for Helia.)

-Helia stayed in touch with some of his sword fighting league friends and kept up with his childhood friends when he went to the Art Academy.

-He loved showing off his new works and talking his friends into being models for some of his works. (One of his favorite portraits is of his best guy friend posing with his new weapon after being accepted into Red Fountain.)

-His parents did move on from each other. On his dad’s side, he has a stepdad and a lovely younger stepsister who adores him. (And he has a half-brother on the way!!)

-His mom remarried a fellow soldier, Monroe. And Monroe has two children of their own; Seneca and Marie. (Older stepsisters… They’re loud and boisterous, but they mean well and Helia enjoys watching them pose and give him fashion shows to help out his own work.)

-Though he was only at the Academy for a short time, Helia discovered many things about himself. (And made friends with the Princess of Linphea who had gotten in despite her age. The fairy is truly gifted in making topiary art.)

-He loves his charcoal brushes and using colored pencils when doing sketches. Something about the way it moves on the paper just makes him so happy.

-And he does love to paint, though he’s not much for water colors. (And never ask him to do a digital piece. The last time he tried working with a tablet, he nearly got electrocuted. Granted, it was probably a one-time thing, but he took it as a sign.)

-Poetry is second love, aside from sketching and painting. He loves being able to verbalize his feelings and put the words down that he can feel inside. Its one of the few ways he feels he can truly connect to people, since it’s easier to write down the words instead of saying them. (Though he has done poetry readings from time to time.)

-Between portraits and landscapes, Helia prefers landscapes. And he’d really gotten into architecture drawings before he left the Academy.

-Because his parents were often busy when he was a kid, he found he had useful skills to ‘adult’ while at the Academy and on his own for the first time. (He can cook fairly well, at least, you know what you’re supposed to be eating and it tastes pretty good. But he’s no Chef Langdon.)

-He was great at keeping his room spotless and clean. His workspaces however? Not so much.

-Over half his wardrobe is stained with either paint or charcoal or clay.

-(Yes, he can do pottery. Just not very well. In fact, it usually looks pretty shit, but hey, he tried.)

-After seeing the news about what happened in Magix and how his uncle’s school was destroyed and the people he cared about nearly died, Helia decided to transfer. (Which took a lot of convincing with his dad and the Dean of the Academy and Saladin.)

-But once he was in, he was in. And when given the choice about his weapon, he went with one his mother loves to use, the laser-string gloves. Great for restraint and for quick weapon-recovery in battle without potentially causing further harm.

-Add in his ability to make himself stronger, and he can wield that glove with the confidence of a sword fighter.

-He quickly clicked with Timmy once he joined their squadron, despite the two having different views of technology.

-Helia was Riven’s roommate though, and while their personalities didn’t compete with each other, they didn’t completely get along either. (Riven reminded Helia of Hannah with his ‘let’s just face it’ ways and Riven felt Helia wasn’t much of a hero if all he did was restrain instead of fight.)

-Of course, as time went on, Helia and Riven do have respect for each other, and have many inside jokes that came from their time living together.

-Helia quickly found he was one of the ‘advisors’ of the group, with everyone coming to him for advice. He was flattered, sure, but dudes… Just because he managed to get what he got, doesn’t mean he knows how he did it.

-Aside from training with his gloves, he’s good using a whip and decent with a sword. Bows and arrows/anything needing aim isn’t his strong suit. He’s also not the best at giving reports on how things went on their missions, which is why that task gets delegated to Sky or Riven.

-He trained as a medic too, deciding that while he wouldn’t be the best in a fight, he can help with the aftermath. And his squad kind of needed a medic aside from Timmy and Brandon…

-Helia may not enjoy fighting, but he’s not above doing what’s necessary when the people he cares about are in danger. There have been plenty of times, not just when saving the Magical Dimension, that Helia has risked his life and limbs to protect his friends.

-One such incident was a survival trip to the Marshlands of Amanal. Brandon never would have made it home in one piece if Helia hadn’t thrown himself at the hippogriff. (And he somehow managed to befriend it afterward. No, he has no memory of how he did it.)

-Helia tends to be a stress-sketcher. Worried about a test? Doodles on his notes from class. Worried about an upcoming mission? Sketchbook in hand. Relationship issues? Sketchbook.

-Oh! He’s a great pilot too! Helia has a great sense of direction and has grown up around the ships, so he knows how to work them. (Now, if you want to know what makes them tick or how to put them together if they fall apart, ask someone else. Preferably Timmy or Riven.)

-Helia has a whole stash of teas. A collection, if you will. (Something that he blames Faragonda for, but hey, it’s not the worst habit ever.)

-After all the traveling he’s done thanks to Red Fountain, Helia sort of understands better why his mom and uncle loved their military days so much. Seeing new places, learning new things, enjoying new foods… It’s quite an existence. (If you can look passed all the fighting and wars and invasions…)

-Yes, Helia does yoga. He also enjoys dance. (And with friends like Layla, Musa, and Nabu, he never has to do it alone.)

-Some of his favorite people to sketch: Flora, for her grace and beauty and the way she seems to just breathe life into natural settings; Sky, for his posture and presence and ability to always appear in charge; Layla, for her strength and grace and how every body of water seems to be at her command; and finally, Timmy and Tecna, As a couple, those two just radiate this feeling of joy and it just… How can you not want to sketch it?!

-(Kiko is also a favorite sketch subject. The little rabbit just has so much personality!)

-This may come as a shock to people, but Helia enjoys horror movies. Preferably the psychological/thriller-based horror movies. It’s the way they capture human emotion and it’s just so poignant and interesting. He wants to learn how to convey such feelings in his work.

-Between his parents, you’d think Helia was closer to his father… In actuality, he’s closer to his mother.

-His mom enjoyed doing things and showing him things and just getting him to be more active and curious as a child.

-His father was more of a watcher. An observer-type. Always looking for something awe-inspiring for his next piece. (Something Helia and Harley bond over now. And laugh at, from time to time.)

-Helia enjoys swapping sketching ideas with Bloom and Stella, looking to see what they’re up to and how they can try and work off of each other.

-(And he has done some physical character sheets and layout ideas for Tecna’s video game idea to help her see her vision more clearly.)

-Helia doesn’t play a lot of video games. They’re just not his thing… But he does have a soft spot for the Sims series after Bloom introduced him to it, and he enjoys this maze creation game that a Solarian gaming company came up with for phones (level 200!!!).

-He swears more than people think he does. It’s almost comical how shocked people are when they meet this ‘sweet and soulful guy’ and then he drops a few ‘f’ bombs while working on his projects. (Not just ‘f’ bombs either��� Dude gets creative with his curses. Even Riven’s impressed.)

-Helia didn’t go to Earth with the others, instead taking up a job offer on Callisto to help with remodeling his great uncle’s barracks. (And now, the castle itself… He’s so honored it’s his designs in the works.)

-However, he does visit from time to time. It makes him a little sad though, seeing Earth the way it is. All the pollution creating cars, the strange fashion, the way people seem to disregard each other. It’s so sad.

-When the ‘saving the Magical Dimension’ stuff stops, Helia’s hoping to join with his father’s art gallery and to build on his portfolio of projects. (He knows he already has a few jobs waiting for him, like Stella’s coronation portrait for when she becomes queen.)

-He just hopes his works inspire and touch people the way they do as he works on them.

[arvandus]

Hi! It’s been a while! So remember my request for the 750 followers event about the singing quirk and the insomnia? I actually made a TikTok account centering around that OC and it’s pretty popular! I just wanted to say thank you so much for answering my request because that really helped me flesh out the character!

Also, this is unrelated, but do you think the LoV would be like a tight-knit found family type situation, or a coworkers type deal? I feel like they would have game/movie nights or something like that maybe with a darker spin cuz they’re reckless and chaotic. I just love your ideas and how you provide lots of depth to characters that don’t get a lot of attention.

Love you and thanks for everything!

That's so awesome that your OC is so well received on Tiktok! I'm so happy for you! It's always a great feeling when your creative content is valued.

As for the LOV... well, you know I tend to ramble, so I'm gonna continue this below the cut... I really get in depth with this, because I love LOVE psychoanalyzing fictional characters and relationship dynamics.

I think each character is different in their own way, and some will be more social than others. So you'd probably get some members hanging out and doing 'normal' things together more than others. Like for Dabi, I see him as often separating himself from the others, even when he's in the same space as them. We all know he's a bit of an ass, and it's my headcanon the he does that on purpose to keep others at arm's length. He's not interested in forming attachments, so he'd be less likely to engage in things like game nights and stuff. He's very goal focused and sees the others as a means to an end; it's all about how useful others are to him. That doesn't mean he doesn't form attachments though; I think he'd just be in denial about it. He might loosen up with a few drinks, or have some late-night one-on-one conversations with some members, depending on how he's feeling. But his motto is always "me first" and he tries his damnedest to stick to that (which is why writing him with conflicting emotions is so damn fun!).

Shigaraki is interesting, because he literally wants to destroy everything, but still seems to value his comrades. It's like he's in conflict with himself where he says he loathes the world and wants to watch it all fall apart.... except for these few people, cuz they're pretty cool. Something to note is that at the beginning of the series, he seems a bit bratty, a bit hot-tempered. But obviously there must be something about him that makes the others stay, and it's not just his power or his connections to AFO - we slowly get to see his personality unfold as he gains confidence in himself, and we start to learn that he can be charming, level-headed, and understanding to his comrades. And really not a huge surprise, considering he had All For One as his mentor, who's ability to manipulate and win over others has probably been his greatest weapon aside from his quirk. I'm not saying Shigaraki is manipulating the League... in fact, I think he's genuine, and it's his genuineness that has won each of them over. But he's learned how to talk to others in a way that has them feeling understood and trusted, and in return they trust him.

That being said, I still think that at first, Shigaraki would struggle with larger social groups, like when all of the league is together. I don't see him liking a lot of noise and rambunctiousness, it'd be a little overwhelming for him. It's not about sensory sensitivity. It'd be overwhelming from a psychological standpoint. He's not used to being around others like that, and he finds it draining. But over time, he would learn to enjoy their company. It would start on a more one-on-one basis or a small group basis. And the more comfortable he gets, the easier it is for him to be around more League members at once, until it's no longer something he worries or thinks about - it just is. It's almost as if he no longer sees it as him vs. them; instead, he almost considers them an extension of himself, and he sees them as his responsibility and something to value. That's a difference between him and Dabi - while Dabi fights attachments tooth and nail, Shigaraki is like, "*shrug* didn't plan for this, but here we are." and now he's valuing and supporting his teammate's dreams like he does his own.

I see Toga, Twice, and Spinner as the more social butterflies while others may drift in and out depending on how full their social meter is. Those three would be the glue holding the rest together; if the league is to develop a sense of "family," it comes from those three. They're the ones that scream "fun" to me, but in different ways. Like, Spinner is just a cool, chill dude. He's that really close friend you can just hang with and not feel any pressure. Wanna watch a movie? Cool. Wanna play games? Awesome. Wanna go grab a bite to eat? Let's go. And he'd be a great listener and super easy to talk to. Twice is all about 'family' and would be big on doing things together. Don't plan something social without inviting him. Toga would be all about having fun and living life to the fullest (although for her, that'd probably include some violent stuff...).

Kurogiri is 100% dad vibes (in a reserved sort of way), while Compress is the cool uncle; I see both of them as more mature than the rest. Compress would join in for things like movie nights and card games, but I don't see him playing video games with the others (although he'd probably watch) or doing late-night shenanigans the way young people tend to do; although like Shigaraki, he'd probably follow along in case their reckless butts need saving.

I also think it's worth noting that all of their relationships with each other would likely evolve the more time they spend together and the more battles they fight together; it creates a sense of camaraderie that might not have been there in the beginning. In the beginning, they were all strangers to each other that were brought together for a common goal, or at least very similar goals. It felt more like an alliance, than a team. But I think as time passes, they learn to value each other more as individuals, and it'd become more and more difficult to separate the work from the emotional attachments.

[stilwaterskeeter]

Gatboss Headcanons

If you didn’t see this post coming.....how bold of you to assume I wasn’t gonna make this post eventually...

Anyways

Boss fell first

Well maybe “fell” isn’t the right word for it. They liked Johnny first and they realized it first, he’s an attractive and charismatic guy somehow how could they not?

They fell for him when he took a shotgun blast to the knee and then still took out Big Tony long enough for The Playa to get away

Johnny was always into The Boss too but it took him a lot longer to realize and even longer to step up to the plate

Aisha’s not stupid, she knew before Johnny did, she’s always known in a way

She believes in the soulmates kinda thing, she thinks that yeah she and Johnny are soulmates, but so are Johnny and The Boss

She absolutely encourages them but in vague and snide comments mostly, Johnny’s damn oblivious and doesn’t catch on ever

The Boss catches on easy enough, they think it’s a little weird that Aisha supports it but they’re a go with the flow kinda person so they just roll with it

Aisha even invites The Boss on some of her and Johnny’s dates

Johnny is of course Johnny and doesn’t really see anything weird with his homie hanging out at their dates

Queue The Boss and Aisha rolling their eyes like “can you believe we’re in love with this guy?”

Aisha and The Boss were planning on having a nice date (nice by Johnny’s standards, so watching shitty action flicks and eating Freckle Bitch’s) where they finally sat Johnny down to have The Talk and be like “Hey, you’re kind of dense. Do you realize we’re both dating you?”

Said plan never happens because The Ronin get in the way

And then Aisha dies

The Boss definitely isn’t about to step up and say anything now or anytime soon, Johnny needs time to mourn and honestly so does The Boss

Funny enough, it’s not long after her death and funeral that Johnny realizes he might be in love with The Boss and might have been for a while

The Boss is the first person Johnny sees aside from a doctor or nurse when he’s in the hospital and they don’t give him any of that pity crap, they don’t even bring up Aisha at all unless Johnny does

They’ve always been good at that with him, knowing when and what to keep their mouth shut about

Not to mention they don’t miss a beat when the power goes out, Johnny doesn’t even have the time to make a joke about leaving right then because The Boss is already ahead of him on that, they give him a pistol “just in case” and they’re off

And they let him deal with Shogo, only stepping in to help bury the brat, didn’t even say anything, didn’t need to. They were gonna stay by his side through it all and probably as long as they’re both still standing at this point

And now that he’s thinking about it, The Boss was always hanging around with him and Aisha even before the boat explosion and especially when Johnny was all but bedridden for a while after getting his knee blown out and kidnapped

And shit they’re really fuckin’ funny and they’re really fuckin good lookin’ too

Johnny still doesn’t say anything though, he thinks it’d be kinda fucked up to say something when they only just buried Aisha maybe a few weeks ago

But he’s going to say it eventually...just not now...but eventually

Eventually never comes

They’re always hanging out and they go on what Johnny thinks probably count as dates

They go to the movies to see every shitty action flick and every shitty horror flick and even to some animated movies

They get kicked out for talking too much and too loudly and for throwing their food everywhere during the action and horror movies

They do their damn best to stay during the animated movies, it’s hard to enjoy your guilty pleasures if you’re not paying attention or focused on some asshole security guard trying to manhandle you out of the theater

And they go to some of the Skeeters games for a while

Until they get banned because they ran onto the playing field drunk and naked and “ruined” the game

Of course they think they made it better, but oh well

But Johnny just never speaks up, there’s always another gang war on the horizon looming over them or cops or something

After a while he thinks maybe The Boss doesn’t feel the same and just sort of decides not to tell them

It’s not like it’d make any difference, they’re still gonna go to the movies and the shooting range and shit

And then they try to rob The Syndicate’s bank

Johnny doesn’t stop for a moment to think that maybe this is it for them so of course he doesn’t think to tell The Boss how he feels

But then The Boss and Shaundi jump and there’s a fucking alien trying to abduct him and fuck, he’s missed his window

Johnny’s death hits The Boss fucking hard, but lbr we been knew that

They don’t let their anger or their sadness or anything that they’re feeling show half as much as they want to

Shaundi’s already angry enough for the both of them and The Boss needs to make sure she doesn’t get reckless because they’re not about to lose anymore friends

It’s a silent anger for the most part, they shut up, shoot, and move on in their fights and during their plans. They’re going to personally put a fucking bullet in Loren’s head and they’re going to level this fucking city if they have to to get to him

After Loren’s dead they realize that fuck it, they don’t need the territory, they just want to go home and bury Johnny and do fuck all for a few weeks or months maybe

Before they go back to Steelport after Johnny’s funeral is raided, The Boss stops by Johnny’s house and grabs some of his gold chains, they start to wear some of them themself

The also take one of his knives and tie one of the chains around the handle. They have every intention to use the knife to tear into Killbane themself

After everything is said and done, there’s sort of just this hole and they know damn well there’s no filling it

Shaundi and Pierce try to help because of course they noticed

Shaundi tries to take them out and help them get fucked up and just let loose or to a shooting range to just go crazy in

Pierce takes them for drives with the playlist he’s got for when they’re hanging out at full blast so they can sing and just bullshit around town

It does help some and cheers them up a little, but that hole is definitely not going away

All the others try to help in their own ways

Kinzie goes with them to Smiling Jack’s

Angel spars with them

Viola takes them to clubs or these expensive art shows

Oleg just sort of hangs out with them, he tries to entertain them with small things like seeing what kind of stuff he can crush in his bare hands or a game where they watch russian dramas and The Boss tries to guess what they’re saying and what’s going on and Oleg just watches and occasionally actually helps

Eventually the hole subsides and then they’re the president then they’re in space and Earth ks destroyed

The Boss likes to joke about how much it all seems like the plot for one of the shitty movies they and Johnny used to watch

But then Kinzie says she’s found Johnny, that he’s not dead

Fuck everyone else they’re going get Johnny, smart idea of not, The Boss is not losing him again

Once Johnny’s back they both try to ignore how awkward it is

They both wanna tell the other but after so many years it just seems pointless

The crew gets sick of it after a week and pull an old “lock them in a room until they confess”

The crew has clearly forgotten how stubborn The Boss and Johnny both are

It doesn’t work and the crew gives up because they need The Boss actually to do their job

After the crew’s little mishap, Johnny admits defeat and confronts The Boss himself

“Listen, man, I don’t wanna like freak you out or anythin’ but I’ve missed you a lot and you kind of mean a lot to me and I didn’t really show that before and I really never told you this but what I’m tryna say is I think I’m probably kind of in love with you...or something...”

Of course it goes well and of course the first thing they do is sleep together

“I can’t believe it...Aisha was right.”

“She was what?”

“Johnny, why do you think Aisha invited me on all of your dates?”

“Isn’t that just what homies do? I thought she just liked the company...”

They don’t ever announce it or anything but they’re not exactly keeping it a secret either

The Boss calls Johnny their First Lady all the time because it gets on Johnny’s nerves

“Aw c’mon, that’s bullshit! I was never on Earth when you were president!”

“Doesn’t make it any less true, Johnny!”

Of course the crew had bets about how this was going to end

Pierce, Kinzie, Keith, and Ben have to pay Shaundi, Asha, and Matt

Pierce also has to pay Shaundi extra because they’ve had a bet going since SR2

Pierce thought The Boss and Johnny were already an item

Shaundi took one look at them and went “oh hell no, they’re gonna be pining for a while, dude”

Man, was she right, it took Johnny’s death, an alien invasion, and the destruction of Earth for them to even tell each other

[crapitskizaru]

A Bunch of Punks: Kiddo, Killer, Shanky and Edge Lord Edition

(first of all, sorry for my english, i come from germany) I reeeally love your blog! I spend hours in the night to read your posts. May I ask for headcanons with Kid, Killer, Shanks and maybe Law with a rebellious daughter? (Piercings, coloured hair, a little punk) Thank you :)

Warning: as always, a lil bit too long in the Kiddo section and just to add, they are all punks so¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The Ultimate Edge Lord

☠ as long as she applies all of the sanitary requirements that Traffy is sure to mention on a daily basis, he actually doesn’t mind at all

☠ “How did you manage to get this one infected? Again?”

☠ besides that, he’d never accept if she put herself in danger to simply show off - he’s sure to teach her to think before acting, plan ahead and lay low, at least until she becomes powerful enough to take care of herself

☠ provided she’d want to get some tattoos, Traffy enjoys being able to keep her company during the sessions, even if he finds it turbo cheesy - somehow, it makes him feel closer to her than ever

☠ or when she asks him for advice regarding piercing/tattoo care, healing, or just a simple hint on a new hair color, it gives him the feeling of doing something right; and the sheer fact that she trusts him and his judgement is the best thing in the world

☠ naturally, it’s all in Traffy’s mind; he’d have some problems in turning it all into words, but with her help, they’d soon find common ground

☠ “So how did you get these tattoos, dad?”

The Devil Punk

☠ “You’ve got daddy’s fashion sense. Nice.”

☠ just so proud 

☠ would totally share hair dyes, nail polish, jewelry, hairsprays, sanitizers, eyeliners and so on - although Kiddo could get extremely protective of his favorite cosmetics sometimes 

☠ despite the fact that she gained most of her knowledge on makeup/beauty products from daddy, Kiddo can also learn quite a few things himself - after all, he gotta keep it fresh; maybe a new shade of lipstick? Another nail polish? Fancy earring? 

☠ “So where did you get that one?”

☠ the hard to swallow thing would definitely be her rebellious behavior which pisses The Red Devil off to no ends; even though he’s more than glad she knows how to speak her mind and is no coward in standing up for herself, if it means standing up to him - then it gets good

☠ their crewmates could easily start bringing popcorn to the routine fights those two carry out on a daily basis, over everything and nothing in particular, shouting profanities and trying to come up with a better insult than the other one

☠ “Apparently, it runs in the family.”

☠ putting that aside, their shared, angry Kiddo-Gene would surely allow them to find basic activities they’d both enjoy - such as massacrating the World Government; whether with sophisticated words or voodoo dolls, it doesn’t matter, as long as they manage to let out some fury from their systems 

☠ nonetheless, for Kiddo, his daughter is his lil shit no matter what she wears or how she looks, but in this case, he wouldn’t be able to stop himself from smirking proudly whenever he sees her rocking those punky vibes 

☠ it could become just another factor which brings those two closer together and fuels their relationship even more, letting them bond over shared interests - and, of course, Kiddo’s crew also puffs their chests out in pride, seeing how their little girl has grown 

☠ “We’ve raised her right, dudes.” 

Killer-kun 

☠ much like Kiddo in this matter - he loves that she’s got this punky side going on, although would be pretty worried that she’s gonna start seeing his captain as her role model 

☠ “No, no. Kid - bad. Reason - good.” 

☠ always reminds her about rationality; she doesn’t have to show off or prove anything to anyone, since Killer simply can’t imagine how a person could think his daughter isn’t perfect - she totally is to him, in every aspect and in every way

☠ “When someone insults you, remember what daddy always says. If you can easily get away with it, kill them. If not, come to me or uncle Kid for help.” 

☠ he’s the one to assist in the hair dying sessions whenever she feels like changing her hair color, and he’d get quite good at it after a while if he isn’t already, cause someone had to help Kiddo the first couple of times, ain’t that right

Shankyy

☠ would he try to act as if he shares her interests? Would he pretend that he’s an expert in those fields? Well, would he? 

☠ “I know all about this stuff.” 

☠ he’s the cool dad, that’s for sure, and how his daughter dresses or looks wouldn’t occupy his mind for too long - it’s more her behavior that he worries about

☠ Shanky wouldn’t ever want her to become too confident because her dad is the most badass bitch in the New World and no one messes with his crew; sometime in the future, she might find herself facing the enemy alone and there’ll be no room for recklessness or showing off then

☠ so provided she was ever to disobey him just for the sake of disobeying the orders, Shanky doesn’t hesitate - he challenges her to a duel, and whoever wins gains the upper hand 

☠ since it’s not too hard to predict the winner, usually it all ends with the crew’s loud cheering and making fun of her for getting beaten again, as well as a long lecture from the captain himself on safety, rationality and maturity - which ends with everyone dozing off after few minutes 

[365daysoftododeku]

29th April 2019

Author: Kenyoda

Admin’s Note: This oneshot is a part of the Candid Shoutos series by @ebonyphd! The idea is inspired by @crzangel‘s headcanon here.

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Pillow Talk

Izuku stares out of his bedroom window as he tries to stifle the urge to put his pillow over his boyfriend’s face. He glares over at his bed partner, but can’t hold the expression long. Shouto looks too cute, muttering incoherently to himself as his hands clench and unclench like he wants to hold on to something. Izuku sighs.

The sleep talking is not necessarily a new phenomenon. Izuku had slowly cottoned on to it after they got together. It is amusing, given the class thought that Izuku would be the sleep talker of the two.

The sleep talking usually isn’t this bad. But he has noticed that when they had exciting days like those with hero training or even just the class hanging out somewhere, Shouto’s murmuring got worse. Since they confirmed their relationship publicly today via PlusInsta, he should have been prepared.

Izuku was beginning to wonder if it was a side effect of his partner’s PTSD. Though they haven’t had someone officially diagnose Shouto, it was pretty obvious that Shouto was and still is suffering from the after effects of Endeavor’s abuse.

“Izuku…” Shouto says softly. He jumps. Even though he had been looking at Shouto, the call of his name still surprises him. Shouto’s face is twisted. Izuku’s heart clenches at the distress on his face. “Izuku… don’t go… sorry… so sorry…” he whimpers. Izuku immediately takes Shouto’s hand in his and says,

“I am not going anywhere,” Shouto clings to his wrist. Nuzzling his hand as his half-lidded, glazed eyes stare into Izuku’s.

“Really?” Shouto rasps against Izuku’s skin.

“If you want me here, then I will be,” Izuku feels Shouto’s lips pull into a smile.

“Okay. Love you,” he says, eyes sliding shut. Finally, silence pervades the room. Izuku snuggles close to Shouto, laying down completely again. Something is bothering his boyfriend. Izuku is pretty sure of it. He has a sinking feeling it doesn’t have anything to do with their announcement, though.

The next morning Izuku is woken up by his alarm rather than Shouto. He blinks away the pain of the early morning light. He fumbles under his pillow for the phone and eventually manages to turn it off. He moans softly as he begrudgingly sits up, shaking Shouto’s shoulder. The chimera groans. Slowly, one gray eye opens then a pretty blue one. It is like watching the sun rise as the orbs come alive. Shouto blinks and yawns widely, rubbing absently at his left eye.  

“Mornin’ sleepyhead!” sings Izuku. He gets a sleepy hum in reply as his boyfriend drapes himself across Izuku’s lap. Izuku laughs. “Come on, Shou…”

“T’ early…” he slurs as Izuku pets his hair. Shouto is not a morning person at all. Izuku on the other hand, is always ready to go once he is awake. Shouto would sleep all day if he is left undisturbed.

“I know, but class and Aizawa-sensei await.” He says grandly as he prods at Shouto’s side. A snicker escapes him and a wicked idea springs into Izuku’s head. He attacks Shouto’s sides with merciless fingers. Shouto squeals with laughter. He tries to shuffle away but Izuku follows, chuckling deviously.

“Eeek! I-Izu- ha ahahhaahaaaa hahaha ahhhahahahahah! Please! Hahaha- mercy! Mercy!” Shouto cries as he continues to giggle and snort in helpless mirth. Izuku’s hands grow tired and he relents. Shouto is left giggling weakly and glaring at him through wet eyes.

“Awake now?” Izuku teases. Shouto growls and lunges for him. But, Izuku dives for the end of his bed. He scampers around Shouto, racing out the door. He hears Shouto following close behind. He darts for the stairwell and literally frog leaps down each flight, barely managing to keep from smashing his face into the wall several times. He bursts into the common area like a bat out of hell. He runs over Mineta and smacks into Kirishima.

“Dude! What the hell?!” the redhead blurts as Izuku darts behind him shrieking,

“Kirihideme!” Shouto plows into room, his hair flying every which way. His eyes narrowed. Izuku isn’t sure if it is out anger or because his poor boyfriend couldn’t see. The dual quirk user tries several times to reach Izuku but he manages to duck his swipes laughing manically. Iida stomps into the room to scold them for being reckless so early in the morning.

Once the chaos dies down, they eat breakfast with their friends. Izuku makes time to apologize to Kirishima and Mineta for getting them caught up in his roughhousing. Kirishima waves it off and Mineta begrudgingly accepts it. As they make their way to class, Izuku attempts to apologize to Shouto, too.

“It’s no big deal, ‘Zuku. It was a silly bit of fun.” He says easily. Izuku hugs him with one arm, and Shouto leans into it with a sigh. They both resolutely ignore the murmuring around them.

The day passes normally. Izuku almost manages to forget about the posting fiasco until they leave in the afternoon. As they make their way across the grounds, Shouto’s phone begins to ring. Izuku watches as his boyfriend takes it out and groans before shoving it back in his pocket.

“Endeavor?” Izuku asks, although he already knows the answer. Shouto’s shoulders travel up to his ears and he scowls. Yep. He nudges the other boy with his shoulder. After a moment, Shouto releases a breath and his shoulders slump. Izuku feels his mood dip as his boyfriend’s eyes take on a defeated expression. Izuku presses closer to him trying to offer as much comfort as he could.

As they study with the others, Izuku relaxes as Shouto seems to cheer up a bit. Hanging with their friends seems to be lifting Shouto’s mood. Just as he finishes the thought, Shouto’s phone rings again. Their eyes meet. Shouto looks resigned, already making a move to stand. Izuku begs him not to with his eyes. Shouto’s expression simply says ‘You know I have to…’. Izuku scowls darkly as he leaves.

“Deku-kun,” Uraraka calls after a moment of tense silence. Izuku just slumps over the table in defeat, burying his head in arms. He only looks up when Shouto shuffles back into the room. He immediately looks him over. Shouto’s face is placid. His posture is normal enough. Too normal. Izuku’s face contorts in rage, because he knows that Shouto is lying as much as he can in that moment. He has locked himself up, hiding as much as he can.

Shutting down is a classic coping mechanism. Anytime Endeavor pushes in on him too much… Shouto just shuts down, and that is the better response. Other times he will act like a wounded animal, lashing out at anyone that gets too close. The thought breaks Izuku’s heart all over again. He knows he will have to confront him about it eventually.

But for the moment, he lets the study group continue and works as diligently as he can. Shouto doesn’t say a single word.

When it ends and the others disperse, Izuku is left staring at Shouto. His boyfriend looks even more closed off than before. Izuku wants to kick himself now. He should have pulled him aside sooner. He has probably dissociated. Izuku slowly packs their things. Shouto doesn’t even blink when he pulls the book he is staring at out from under his nose. Izuku situates both their things in his backpack. He then gently tries to pry Shouto from the floor, but he is limp.

“You’re completely gone, aren’t you?” Izuku whispers, broken. He picks the boy up bridal style and leaves for their room. Izuku wants to laugh at himself… he hasn’t thought of his own room as anything other than theirs for nearly a year. Shouto hardly steps foot in his own room now. The young hero briefly wonders if the teachers have noticed, after all, All Might had mentioned that they were keeping a closer eye on them.

Izuku places Shouto on the bed and drops the bag at his desk. He turns around to see Shouto has curled in on himself. It hurts to see his love in such pain. He gently climbs onto the bed, and strokes Shouto’s shoulder. The boy flinches initially, but doesn’t move. Time stretches on and Izuku tries not to fret as Shouto continues to remain unresponsive.

“Izuku?” the small voice jars Izuku out of his half-awake state. Shouto seems to be back with him.

“Shouto,” he sighs, relieved. His boyfriend looks lost. Izuku gathers the boy in his arms. Shouto clings to him. Izuku mutters soothing words into his ears.

“I’m sorry,” he croaks. Izuku frowns.

“There is nothing for you to be sorry about.” Izuku whispers. Shouto buries his head in Izuku’s shoulder.

“I scared you… don’t tell me I didn’t. I know you.” Shouto huffs. Izuku just continues to cradle him.

“Yes, you did. Not on purpose. That wasn’t your fault. I know how Endeavor affects you.” Izuku soothes. “So… let’s hear it. What did he say?”

“He just wanted to remind me of my station and that he owns me,” he finally mumbles, shame bleeding into his words. Izuku sees red for a moment. He takes a breath, trying desperately to reign in the rage singing through his blood. Coward. Bastard. Fake. Villain! It howls. Izuku grits his teeth and holds Shouto tighter.

“I am sorry, Shouto,” he whispers. Shouto hums weakly in acknowledgement. “You belong to you alone.” Shouto kisses his throat, before humming thoughtfully.

“And… if I want to?” he adds after a few more moments of silence. Izuku blinks in confusion.

“Want to?” he questions. Shouto does not move. “Shouto?”

“What if I want to… belong… to someone?” he whispers into the sensitive skin of Izuku’s neck. He shivers. An echo of a different moment plays in Izuku’s mind. Yours… yours! All yours! Shouto moans. A shiver goes down Izuku’s back at the thought. He shakes off the lingering want.

“Well, that would be your choice… you choose to do that.” He answers carefully.

“Oh, ok.” They lay in silence a little longer. Most of the tension slowly melts from Shouto. The two slowly fall asleep clinging to one another.

Izuku awoke some time later, soft chatter sliding over his ears. He sighs. Shouto is at it again. He is snuggled close whispering into his shoulder. Izuku struggles to make out what he is saying. He occasionally picks out words like ‘no’ and ‘bastard’ and ‘Fuyumi’ He even catches his own name now and again.

“Shouto,” Izuku calls. The teen shifts in his arms.

“Yes?” Izuku starts at the response. Well… Shouto usually calms down after having a conversation. Maybe tonight will be the same.

“What are you thinking about?” asks Izuku as he gets comfortable.

“It doesn’t matter…” Izuku frowns.

“Of course what you think matters…” Shouto cuts him off with a bitter laugh. Izuku has to admit that it is truly creepy, given that Shouto is still very much asleep.

“As long as I am his… nothing I want matters.” Izuku’s stomach rolls in disgust. “Tools don’t have wants,” Izuku feels bile creep up his throat. How could he? How could someone be so needlessly cruel to their own child?

“Well… you’re not a tool, Shouto. No matter what that bastard says,” He finds himself growling. Even though he knows that Shouto will have no recollection of this conversation.

“I’m not?” he questions as if the concept is foreign to him. Izuku wants to cry rather than be ill now.

“No,” he says, around the lump in his throat.

“I don’t want to do this.” He says after a while.

“Don’t want to do what, Shou?”

“Be a hero… I don’t want to hurt people.” Izuku’s eyes widen. Part of him wants to believe Shouto is talking nonsense. That he is just saying these things in his sleep. But another part of him knows that on some level, Shouto is being far more honest than he would be awake.

“I-You don’t have to.” He says thickly. “You don’t have to hurt people. You can rescue people.”

“That won’t be enough… it’ll be a waste,” he murmurs in return. His voice sounding pained. Izuku clutches the boy to his chest, a quiet sob escaping him. The mantra of ‘this isn’t fair… this isn’t fair’ playing over and over again in his head.

“Then what do you want?” Izuku mutters as tears trace familiar paths on his cheeks.

“A cat.” Izuku can’t help it. He bursts into soft snorts of laughter. Shouto hums in amusement. “Stop laughing at me.” Izuku snorts louder.

“Alright, how about when we graduate… I get you a cat. Okay?” he offers as he presses a kiss to his forehead. Shouto smiles.

“K’, but we’ll need a place that allows pets, though…” he sighs. Izuku stops. A giddy energy is slow filling him from head to toe. Shouto wants to live with him. He squeezes him tighter and the chimera squeaks.

“Sorry.” Izuku chuckles. Disgruntled glowing eyes are glaring at him in the dark.

“What the fuck, Izu? It’s the middle—of the night,” Shouto grumbles, a yawn interrupting in the middle.

“Sorry, I couldn’t resist how adorable you are when you sleep talk,” he says easily as he strokes his cheek. He would pry about the less adorable things in the morning. Shouto’s face warms under his fingers.

“I do not!” he huffs, embarrassed.

“Oh, but you do! It’s so cute.” Izuku continues to tease.  

“Izuuuu—” he whines. Izuku chuckles again. “…do I really—?”

“Yes, it’s cute!” says Izuku. Shouto groans again.

“I’m sorry… I haven’t been keeping you up, have I?” he asks.

“Not too much, but I will admit I am worried.” Izuku says, honest. “But I won’t press you on it now… just… you know I love you right? That I will always be here for you?” Shouto’s expression softens.

“I-I do. I know… it’s just hard. I don’t want to burden you. I mean there’s my father and… that whole mess with the Quirk…” he says balefully, blushing faintly when he mentions the Quirk incident. Izuku can’t help the flush that spreads over his cheeks and he is very aware that it is not all out of embarrassment… Now is not the time to be having those thoughts! he chastised himself. But later…

“I love you, Shou! I want to share those burdens with you. You know… I have been meaning to talk with you about something for a while…” Izuku suddenly says. He had been dreading this conversation but as Shouto talked, he realized that his boyfriend had given so much of himself to Izuku even before they started dating. He showed Izuku all the vulnerable parts of himself without hesitation.

While Izuku, couldn’t even bare to talk about the basics of his own life. The bullying. Being without his father, whom he loved very much. All Might and One for All. Fucking hell, Kacchan knows and, honestly, he doesn’t deserve to know. But Izuku fucked that up on his own. But now, he was going to fix it. Starting with Shouto.  

“Really?” Shouto mumbles, sounding nervous. Izuku hums as he places another kiss on Shouto’s head.

“Yeah… you know how I mentioned that got my Quirk late…?” Izuku starts. Shouto nods against his chest. “Well truth is I didn’t… I never… got a Quirk. I am technically Quirkless,” Shouto stiffens and his eyes fly up to bore into Izuku’s.

“What?” he gasps. Izuku swallows and continues.

“Yeah… All Might gave me his. It’s a Quirk that stockpiles energy and can be passed along from one person to the next. He decided I was worthy enough to have it.” Shouto seems to try to stare into Izuku’s soul, searching. Izuku doesn’t shy away from the scrutiny.

“So… that’s why you said… that’s why it’s so… well then,” stutters Shouto after a moment. Izuku nods, feeling nauseous from nerves. “Why did you tell me this? Isn’t this like classified information… like his injury?”

“Yep. But I trust you. So, I wanted you to know… needed you to know, especially since…” Izuku stopped again. He did not want to go into discussing living arrangements with Shouto just because he had been muttering nonsense in his sleep. But then he thought about the misunderstanding from a few days ago. It could have been avoided if they had just talked.

“Izu?” Izuku sighs.

“You said that you… wanted a cat… in your sleep. I was kind of joking and said I would get you one as a graduation gift… and then you said...” Izuku faltered. This conversation could alter things for them, for their relationship. This could lead to them planning to be together beyond UA. Sure they had roughly a year, give take a couple of weeks, left but it truly hadn’t occurred to Izuku that they would be together past that. He had just been basking in the love he felt for Shouto.

“I said… what?” Shouto asks, a strangled tone to his voice.

“Y-you said we would have to get a pet friendly apartment… and I—I like the idea. I mean, I like the idea of you and me… together… I mean, I don’t mind us being a long time thing… I guess is what I am trying to say…” his nerves make Izuku ramble in his trademark manner. Shouto’s eyes widen as his blush grows deeper. He gives a nervous cough and hides in the crook of Izuku’s neck again. Before Izuku has a chance to panic over his boyfriend’s response, Shouto squeezes him tightly.

“I would—I would like that,” Izuku’s heart jolts into a wild cadence. The love Izuku feels twists his heart in the best way. Once again that possessive urge sweeps through him. Make him yours. It cries. Izuku is helpless to ignore it this time, an idea begins to take shape...

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DIFFERENCE OF GENDRY’S CHARACTERISATION IN SEASON 8 EPISODE 2 

content:    you heard it - i should be sleeping but i didn’t.   i watched the leak episode.   i’m not fully conscious enough to make a full review of it,   but i’ve focused my entire thoughts about gendry because i’ve been sort of hung up regarding him since there was an image spoiler a few hours beforehand.   so here are some lines i’ll be drawing and refuse to take as part of my writing of him.

trigger warning:   got spoilers,   rape,  sexual assaults.

things i'm willing to incorporate into my writing:

001               gendry has been busy making the weapons he should’ve been making instead.    i like that he doesn’t necessarily prioritise arya’s,   even if it was specially requested from her;    it means he knows the exact reason why he was being brought to north   -    that was to supply the fighting men in winterfell with weapons just in time for the invasion.    he had a job to do when he arrived,   and he stuck to it.    that didn’t mean he wasn’t going to do arya’s nor made sure he’d made it well for her;   just that he’d saved it up for later.

002               it’s hot in the forge,   my dudes,   so the reason gendry was wearing a thin-layered of tunic wasn’t because he was trying to impress arya.   it’s just naturally hot when you’re close to the fire most of the time,   which he was,   and i’ve had had a thought-out headcanon before that gendry naturally runs warm,   body-temperature wise.   so yes,   i accept this as canon,   but not out of any intention to allow nor encourage any sexual behaviour.

003                gendry is strong.   he took a hammer from arya and struck it down with one swing against the bark and walk away like it’s fucking nothing.    that’s canon and i fucking like it.

004                gendry does give arya her weapon personally.    and he is impressed that she’s done well in herself as an armed woman considering he’d known her as a girl who was still so reckless while they’re-on-the-lam,    but rather than complete awe,   i think,   like the show has been portraying,    i might add a tinge mix of confusion and worry.    gendry will always be plagued by the guilt of leaving her,    and probably never quite stop blaming himself for the things that she must’ve endured alone afterwards.    and he knew that,  with such precise control of her skills,   she didn’t develop it easily.    so yes,   he worries.   and not just contemplative. 

things i’m NOT willing, nor ever, going to incorporate into my writing:

001               gendry does visit arya later to deliver the weapon she’s asked,   but he won’t be as freely to have told her about his ancestry nor her experience with the red woman.   (  still,  i like how joe said,  “she wanted my blood. for some spell.”  so i’m taking that as canon if he should ever explain it.  )  this is because i see   gendry as a very private person.   all his life,   up until arya,  was him defending and protecting himself:   that means he carries his anger and worry and concern all on his own without having to think that relying on people could be an option.   

and while arya changed that particular point of view,   when he began to trust her and they’ve developed that equal camaraderie and partnership while they’re on the run,    this is not the same arya that he knew.   gendry will tell bits and pieces,   yes,   i won’t deny,   but see:   how they’ve made arya as being the one to ask him all the questions.   gendry doesn’t trust this behaviour.   and he hadn’t before   (   see:  his first meeting with ned stark when ned asked him questions,  and he seems closed off.   ),   i don’t understand why he should be suddenly okay with it now.

of course,   one may argue it’s because they were friends before,   good friends even.   and i agree.   gendry has always held a certain torch for arya.   but again:   this isn’t the same arya that he knew.    and i know the show’s portraying him as hideously dumber than he is,   but if gendry can detect arya was a girl when they were kids — before they were close,   mind you — i think he would’ve had suspicion that arya isn’t the same.    gendry would want an equal footing in this relationship once more,  i would believe;   because it’s what they had before,   and what he wants to continue in the future.

this means,   he gets to ask his own questions and have them be answered before he could re-trust arya again.    if arya deflects,   so will he.

002              gendry does not engage in a sexual relationship with arya.   okay,   i feel like i shouldn’t have to explain this,   but i will:   so gendry was raped.    he was sexually assaulted,   and he is traumatised by it.   i know this doesn’t mean that gendry shouldn’t allow himself to indulge with further sexual relationships if he means it,    but  ...   this wasn’t meaningful.   again,   referring to the above reasoning mostly that,   

reason one.    gendry doesn’t know this arya.   yes,  they’ve shared a large part of their history with one another,   gendry and arya even grew together for a few years on the road,   but gendry didn’t return the same ( see: how he’s become more of an active character than passive,  which he was before when he was a boy,  regarding his place in the social hierarchy ),  so why should arya does?

reason two.    and again,   i will repeat:   gendry is a very private person;   reclusive,   almost.   wary and guarded easily with people he doesn’t know.    he’s had good reasons to be like that,   too,   considering his background and his experiences at being tossed aside from one guardian to a captor etc.   in the books,   he has refused to engage with women who are flirting with him.   i chalk it up to the fact that gendry just has an abundant sense of distrust.

and referring back to the first reason,   gendry has yet to trust this arya.    of course,   there was that basis of their past that didn’t make him completely wary of her,   but...   at the same time,    why should he?   so far,   arya has given him no reason to.  she wasn’t like the girl he used to know,   and up until then,  she has given exactly zero information on where she’d been or how she’s changed.    arya is now just a lady who wore the face of a girl he knew,  and sometimes smiled at the jokes that they’ve shared.   but she’s not the same,   and she doesn’t seem willing to open up to him about it.

so yes,   when there’s lack of trust,   there would’ve been lack of motivation for him to pursue or agree to arya’s offer.

reason three.   gendry is and always will be wary of his status.   it doesn’t matter whose son he was:   he is a mere smith,   and he is uneducated,   and he is a lowborn.    he knows this.    this doesn’t have to be a bad thing.   it’s just who he is,   and gendry’s long accepted this.   with that said,   no matter how much he jokes or teases arya about it,    arya is a highborn.    gendry just wouldn’t fuck with that,   okay?   a kiss,   or a long hug,   if you want to show that he’s attracted;    but sex in a fairly public place where,    you know,   he could’ve gotten killed if anybody just passed by and saw,   is not going to go.   gendry’s been taught for about most of his life of his place in the hierarchy system,   those sort of teaching just doesn’t fly out of the window one night. 

although of course,   you may argue on two basis (1)  that lust can make people do stupid shit,   and (2) lust to add with “the end of the world” trope makes them even stupider.   i agree.   however,   this is arya.    as much as gendry doesn’t know this new version of her nor trust her,   as per reason one and two,   that doesn’t mean he’s just going to defile her like that.   not only was he compromising his place as a smith brought by the kindness of jon, who was king then,   but he’s also risking her reputation as a lady.   she may not care,   fine,   but he does.   he always have,   and he always will.

reason four.    back to the meaningful thing,   yeah.   just.    gendry is already someone who needs absolute trust for him to finally be comfortable enough with someone for him to freely complaint,    let alone sexually be involved with,    but past his rape and sexual assault makes it worse.    also the way arya treated him?    all cold and harsh and quite mechanical  ( sorry tv!show arya,  but it’s true  )   and her quickly assuming the dominant / top position without speaking with him?   it’s not going to work.   gendry’ll faster gets a panic attack and run the hell away to make sure he’s not bounded to the wall than to indulge her,   no matter who she is or who she’s been to him.

reason five.    probably a summarisation of all the reasons above,   but he’s demisexual as fuck.   he cares for arya,   yes,   but he doesn’t know her enough,   in my writing,   post-reunion to trust his body in her hand.

003              gendry had not slept with other women.   after melissandre,   he becomes even more reclusive and private in king’s landing.    i wanna add more on the fact that seeing women and having meaningless sex with them is also coming from the fact that he watched his mom getting groped almost daily when she was working (when he was young) was what rooted this dislike towards men just coming blindly after girls,  but that’s another headcanon for another time.  regardless,  gendry is — technically — a virgin.

004              gendry is not this dumb.   i swear to god.   he is a simple boy,  yes,  and a lot of time in his narration he refers to himself as “stupid”,   but he’s not.   gendry is a complex,   though maybe not as complicated or as many layered as others,   character who is equally thoughtful and logical and smart in his own way.   a friendly reminder that,   a lot of times,  in the books,   arya has acknowledged several times that gendry was correct and that she was wrong.   he’s not just some dumb sidekick who’s got all the muscles.   the tv show should stop writing him as so,   and i won’t be writing him like that here.

tl;dr                gendry didn’t have sex with arya,  thanks.    also HUGE SHOUT OUT to @xneedlepoint and @strklings for listening to me ramble about it before!!!!! yOU GUYS ARE THE MVP AND ILY!!!!!!!

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Duncan Info

Full name: Duncan Marcus Evans

Species: Human

Age: 20

Sexuality: Bisexual

FC(s): Matthew Daddario || Kovu ( The Lion King 2 )

Bio: From a young age, Duncan has felt like the black sheep of his family. And who can blame him? Everyone else is a respected member of the law, all police officers... and he just happened to have a problem with rules. Rules are meant to be broken, and sometimes it was way more fun than to follow the law and be a member of society. That’s what he always thought. 

Even then, Duncan never went that far with his criminal tendencies: vandalism, stealing stuff... sure, but he would never intentionally kill someone and don’t even dare to suggest he‘s one of those psychos who hurt animals for shits and giggles. He’s bad... but he’s not that bad. Deep inside, he has a hard of gold. It’s just way more fun to be chaotic, make fun of others and intimidate others, not to mention he HAD to act strong and tough while he spent most of his years in Juvy.

One day, however, he saw the add that would the beginning of big changes in his life. He saw Chris McClean, a popular TV show host, announcing his next project: a reality TV show where 22 teens would compete for 100.000 dollars. Duncan saw his chance to get out of Juvy ( even if it was only for the entire Summer ) and possibly return with money for his lawyer. And so, he made a “one of a kind” audition, which made him an official participant for Total Drama Island.

He didn’t do bad -- heck, he ended in fourth place from 22, that’s incredible! And, if he had to be honest, the experience wasn’t that bad. I mean, anything is better than being in Juvy, but he made some cool friends along the way like Geoff and DJ, as well as meeting a “one of a kind” type of girl in Courtney.

Due to circumstances too complicated to explain, he was one of the few to return for the second season, Total Drama Action, in which he became a finalist alongside Beth. A year later, he returned for Total Drama World Tour, only to immediately quit due to being constantly annoyed by non-stop bickering and the singing... oh, the singing. Unfortunately for him, he was eventually forced to return mid-season ( ergo, forced to sing ) and here is where his bad judgment got the better of him.

Looking back, he regrets the love triangle fiasco between him, Courtney and Gwen, but at the time he didn’t give a fuck what others would think. These reckless mistakes and acting too idiotic would continue in All-Stars, the fifth season of Total Drama and the last time he appeared in live TV. Fortunately, despite how stupid he was acting, Duncan was able to ponder over his own attitude recently... and how not worth it was.  Like, sure, he has always been sarcastic, a little shit and enjoys making fun of others to some extent... but that was when he didn’t give a crap about the world, about the future or the people around him.

The catalyst to his “change of heart” was remembering Mal, the top dog of Juvy -- not even he dared to cross paths with him and was fortunate enough to remain low-key while he was there. Knowing what the guy was capable of made him reconsider his actions, leaving aside his pride and “tough bad boy facade” to help others, especially Zoey. Despite his best efforts, however, Mal eventually learned about it made a plan to have him kicked out. Well, not only did he succeed, but he also made Duncan go back to jail... even if this time he managed to get out early due to good behaviour.

Now as a free man, while not changing one bit of his physical appearance ( Like, c’mon, the mohawk and the piercings are dope as hell ), he IS trying to move on and have a new life... a better life. He began to work at a tattoo and piercing shop as an apprentice, slowly getting to do his own work and having his own customers. The few people that don’t outright hate him from Total Drama still keep in contact with him, much to his luck. He’s still a jackass... but he’s a better jackass than when he was 16.

Note: Follows canon events up to a certain extent, diverges heavily in the events of All-Stars and the aftermath of that.

[ MAIN || INBOX || HEADCANONS || VISAGE || MUSINGS ]

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V001: Delinquent Without a Cause

Default main verse. Takes place after all the events of the Total Drama seasons he participated in ( for more information on my divergence in All-Stars, read the bio ). He’s currently living on his own in a small apartment, with a German Sheppard he adopted from a shelter while it was still a puppy, and working full time at a tattoo and piercing shop.

V002: I Wanna Be Famous

Mid-show verse. For anything or any interactions that happen within the context of Total Drama, in any of the seasons he participated in: TDI, TDA, TDWT or TDAS.

V003: Last Surprise

Persona 5 verse. His lawyer, when speaking to the judge who sentenced him to 2 more years in Juvy, said that travelling abroad would do good for him. Something about different environments and different routines, or something like that. Duncan didn’t ponder on it until he had arrived in Japan, and even then he only REALLY thought about what this was doing to him months later when his life changed in the most unexpected way.

It all started with Duncan doing something stupid. He was getting irritated by the idea of being a transfer student in a country he barely knows, to which he can barely follow a conversation with his basic Japanese... this led him to the shady deals of Junya Kaneshiro. However, what seemed like a good idea at first turned into a nightmare for him. If his lawyer learned about his, he would be brought back to Canada to complete his sentence behind bars... heck, they would probably make it longer!

But then... something unexpected happened. One of his classmates, a dyed blond punk questioned him about the blackmail ( first of all, how did he learn about it?? ) -- he only told him the truth in private, to warn him of the dangers and to make him stay away. He fucked himself over, he wouldn’t let others go through the same if he could avoid it. However, not only did he encounter that dude again, but discover a different reality from their own: the Metaverse.

That’s how he met the Phantom Thieves, how he learned about their identities and what they actually did to change people’s hearts. And the craziest bit? He, too, had the potential. Seems like his rebellious nature had awoken this “potential” years ago, however now it was actually manifesting due to being in the Metaverse. He was already a rebel, why not just continue being one? And like that, he ripped off the mask that formed on his face, his clothes chancing to something more leathery-like, and now having a large three-headed hellhound standing beside him: Cerberus. He was now known as “Demon”.

NOTE: He’s 16 in this verse and nothing from Total Drama happened in this verse. Not even TDI.

OUTFIT // MASK // ARCANA: The Hanged Man

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CONNECTIONS

Courtney :: [ Pom ]

:: Duncan ♥ We stick to our guns and we love like battleships [ Courtney ( floofymuses ) ] ::

Gwen :: [ Star ]

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Lynn Darcy :: [ Bae ]

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Lyle Darcy :: [ Bae ]

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Ann Takamaki :: [ Josie ]

:: Duncan ♥ Don’t think twice baby [ Ann ( galaxyveind ) ] ::

Magnolia Grey :: [ Josie ]

:: Duncan ♥ Dirty dancing [ Maggie ( galaxyveind ) ] ::

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My brain for literally no reason: Herbiboy and Ben Tover are dating

I COULD COMBINE MY LOVE FOR THESE TWO GREEN BOYS AND MAKE THEM EXTRA DOUBLE CUTE TOGETHER!!!

Smol man and long man are the greatest of marriage

Like i dunno why but i just randomly headcanoned my herbiboy oc as gay and my ben tover as a hopeless romantic blushyman whose big quest in life is to find a perfect fairytale love. I have no idea how that is connected to 'cowardly slenderman' but from experience my headcanons tend to not make sense very often, lol

So itd be EVEN CUTER if shy herbiboy comes out of the closet due to a friendship with a fellow shyman that blossoms into feelings. And Ben finds his fairytale prince in an unexpected place! Reach into your local hedge and find a dating opportunity, i suppose??

Also i headcanon Chummer as Herbiboy's adoptive uncle/mentor figure because they both nom the leafs. And Blazion is Herbiboy's well intentioned but oblivious friend who causes chaotic hijinks from his attempts to help. Cos canonically Herbiboy fuses with Blazion to evolve into Jerkass Flirty Straightman Time. I'm imagining blazion trying to support his shy friend to find love and just COMPLETELY missing the fact that this dude doesnt date women because he is not attracted to women. "Hey protagonist person, help me get ladies to like my friend!" *cataclysmic shenanigans of poor leaf man trying to escape from dates while not offendibg his well intentioned hetero wingman* I'm imagining in this reinterpretation Herbiboy woulld actually evolve into Carniboy when he becomes confident in his own sexuality. Like *giant rainbow explosion of bishieness* HEY BEN UR ONE HOT MAMA *finger guns* *suddenly poofs back and is super embarassed* Like jekyll and hyde if hyde was ur subconcious charisma for smoochin dudes. And probably he transforms back and forth by eating meat/salad and theres goofy scenes of people trying to toss cabbages at him to save him from doing something reckless in his brave smoochman form. And 'oh no we need to fight a boss, quick rub some kfc in his face'. And loads of close calls of Carniboy very almost confessing to Ben but turning back at the last second, like classic 'will they wont they' but with people tossing corb cobs like baseballs. Also once him and Ben actually start dating he probably gets better control of his powers and can change forms by smoochin!!!

Also to add to Good Plots Of Motivational Gay Rights Yokai Time, maybe Ben's dreamy romanticness cpuld be very fairy tale/knight and damsel type thing? And he's always going off on goofy fantasies about how X reminds him of Y fairytale and then a cutesy imagine bubble of him as the main character. Lots of disney princess cosplays! I just feel like drawing Ben in different outfits would be super cute cos he has such a silly character design, yknow? The little mermaid but LONG! Soooome dayyyy my priiiiince will come~! *twists into spirals with every high note* Also itd be cool to design a modern era type costume for him, for when he wants to hide as a human. Cos aside from being stretchy he could mostly pull off a disguise? Goofy shenanigans of wiggle man trying to be short and normal cos like.. I dunno, the protagonist needs an older friend to buy something from the store. We need to be taller for this-hey i know the perfect guy! Like just as a random example they need to acquire a lighter to relight Blazion's hair after he got caught in the rain. And Ben is like I MUST DO FAVOR FOR FRIEND OF MY FRIEND BECAUSE I HAVE SUCH CRUSH ON FRIEND! Super important mission to be do the normal humann thinge! But he gets distracted daydreaming about the hypothetical future of herbiboy being so grateful they go on a super adorable date, and he blushes so hard he grows 50 feet tall and bursts through the ceiling

Also i just think Ben Tover would give great cuddles, he's like one of those cats that wrap around your shoulders but in the form of an entire man. U just see a tiny herbiboy head poking out of this giant pretzel of hugs!

Oh also randonly ive decided that Ben's backstory is that he's a half human half yokai, however he was adopted and never knew who his real parents were. So it was pretty traumatic for him to slowly realise he had weird supernatural powers when he thought he was a real human. He probably started his cowardly excusemaking cos he was always paranoid about hiding his powers and always panicked so much his excuses were terrible. And because of this everyone in his village easily found out about Ordinary Dude Ben in fact Not Being That, and he had to run from a terrifying mob of everyone he once trusted all trying to exorcise him as if he was dangerous just for the way he was born. For a long time he hated himself and tried to surpress his yokai side, looking for some sort of cure. But through the help of his friends he's able to accept himself and also regain faith in the idea that humans and yokai can coexist and theres still a place in both worlds for him, yknow?

Also randomly his dad is Azure Dragon cos i was like 'okay what other long yokai are there..well i guess a dragon'. IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE AND ALSO NO SENSE AT ALL! So thatd also make Draggie his estranged little brother, and they could have a sweet moment of reuniting.

Man my headcanons are weird

[n7soldiered]

CHARACTER QUESTIONNAIRE note:  I'm crazy busy these days and am getting zero sleep.  Worked on this for the past couple of days but my clarity has been fluctuating.  I'm sorry if some of this makes little sense or contradicts.  I promise I’ll go back to fix this later.  I'm just really tired/stressed working overtime.  Also, please note that much of this is dictated by interaction, too.  It’s obvious who John is closest to.

GENERAL

NAME:  John ‘Anderson’ Shepard. ALIAS(ES):  n/a AGE:  29 — PLACE OF BIRTH:   Shepard was born somewhere on earth.     I haven’t worked out the circumstances yet.  As far as I’m concerned, he grew up somewhere in Canada because he speaks with a hint of Canadian dialect.  I mean, Meer is Canadian, so it makes sense, y’know?  I was thinking about following Vanderloo’s origins, have him hail from the Western Netherlands just to shake things up, but, I don’t think it matches as well as having him come from Canada.  The accent is just too important a detail to ignore.  If I remember correctly, canon states Shepard is from Canada?

SPOKEN LANGUAGES:   It actually took an extensive amount of research for me to work this out.  I’ve learned that I know nothing about Canada and wow, there are a lot of languages spoken there.  According to many statistical charts, I’d found online, John’s accent isn’t strong enough for me to assume he’s from eastern Canada.  He probably grew up somewhere in the heart of Canada ( just like Meer’s birthplace ), toward the west coast but not too far out.  

So, Shepard is fluent in English, Canadian French, and struggles only slightly with metropolitan ( modern ) French, mainly in correcting his inflection and intonation.  Sometimes he forgets how informal he is with his speech, but he’s quick to adjust.  He’s also thoroughly acquainted with slang-speech.  He learned most, if not all, of his French while growing up on the streets.

I also have this little developing headcanon about John and other alien languages.  If there’s a chance he can vocalize the tones required, he’ll want to learn a few words.  Maybe even ditch the translator sometimes if he gets good enough, just for the hell of it.  Shepard loves a good challenge and he likes to learn about other cultures.  He’s rather open-minded and adventurous in that sense.

SEXUAL ORIENTATION:  John is a demiromantic pansexual, borderline demisexual, if not demisexual, in his adult years.  However, that isn’t to say he didn’t have his fair share of flings.  By the time he hit the academy, and subsequently, ICT, romance just wasn’t something he had time for.  And that served to develop demisexual traits. OCCUPATION:  Alliance soldier, Commander, Spectre.

APPEARANCE

EYE COLOR:  blue. HAIR COLOR:  brown. HEIGHT:  6’2″. SCARS:  While I’ve always thought the renegade scars are a cool aesthetic to have, it’s never made any sense to me that the scars are completely limited to their face ( in-game )? John had never put forth the resources to completely heal his facial scarring.  You shouldn’t have to squint to see them.  If you look, they’re there.  Not prominent, but there.  When experiencing high emotions or anger, his scars glow orange ‘neath the skin.

Also, please note that the location of John’s scarring correlates with the game’s canon cinematic ( yes, I examined the cinematic for way too long lmao ).  The worst of his scarring is located on his chest, midsection, left back, and around and under the armpit.  They’d operated around there the most, with the goal of preserving his heart.  His right collarbone was completely removed, as well as the bones in his right wrist and shoulder.  Scars rope his right arm, starting from the wrist to the upper shoulder.  After having been obliterated upon surface impact, his left knee had received a prosthetic.  Both femur bones, one right finger, and three left fingers are prosthetics.  ... He has a lot of prosthetics.  I’m still working on this one, though.  Post-reaper war, his prosthesis fuck up his gait.  After investing much time in physiotherapy, he discards the wheelchair and adopts a walking cane.

FAVORITE

            Wow.   I haven’t thought about any of this before so please, bear with me as we get through this.   Though I doubt I’ll be changing much, some of these headcanons are subject to change as I develop John.

COLOR:   Blue—light blues.   Baby blue.  Pastel pinks.   Pastels(???).  I don’t think he cares for extremely dark colors or anything neon.  The aesthetic of neon lights reminds him of his childhood, ‘home’, but there’s no fondness tied to the remembrance. HAIR COLOR:  Disregarding personal attraction entirely, he thinks blond hair is pretty.   Pure. EYE COLOR:  I don’t know why this detail amuses me so much but—blue.  I suppose there’s a bit of narcissistic bias on his part in that, but, if there’s one thing John likes about himself, it’s his blue eyes.  Since that seemed kinda predictable, I’ll point out that aside from blue, hazel eyes fascinate him.  Jane and Jyn’s bright green eyes are beautiful to him, and when the light catches just right, Kaidan’s eyes shine an amber gold.   And that, my friends, blows the dude’s fuckin’ mind, I swear.  Having blue eyes for all his life, it’s enthralling for John to see a weave of green and brown in someone’s gaze.   It’s the little things, y’know?

ENTERTAINMENT:   This is a ridiculously broad question.    When condensed into a measure of a few days, or even a few hours, shore leave doesn’t often provide John enough unfettered time to seek a means of entertainment.   He’s kind of a workaholic.  However, if there is time on his hands, it’s spent catching up with friends.  Maintaining relationships is an absolute priority for John.  Regardless of the era, without his companions and loved ones, he wouldn’t have made it this far in life.  He feels like he owes it to them to visit and put in some quality time, hanging out and just chatting.  I’d imagine they’d go out and eat, go see the latest action vid or whatever. PASTIME:   What annoys me the most about this question is that no matter how I explain what Shepard enjoys doing in his free time, he’ll still seem like a complete square.  … Like I said, he doesn’t get enough free time as it is.  If he isn’t working on reports and whatever paperwork the alliance swamped him with, he’s working out, eating, or getting some goddamned sleep for once.

FOOD:   GOD.  THIS IS THE HARDEST QUESTION IN THE UNIVERSE WTF.   Okay, after dropping another day into thinking about this—and I know I’m going a bit off tangent—I’ve come to the conclusion that John is a Fool.

As awful as it sounds, he prefers eating ration bars, and he eats them way too often.  I'm not saying he likes them, I’m saying he prefers them.   Although they’re mostly kept for when they’re on the front lines, ration bars aren‘t thirst provoking and they’re nutrient dense, which pass them as ideal for his backward-stupid mindset.

With approximately 4,000 calories packed into a block, he can just shove that in his face and go straight back to work.

It’s also imperative to understand that good tasting food will be eaten too fast; they recommend bad tasting emergency food as it will be eaten only when necessary.  John ‘prefers’ to eat bars of chalk, apparently.

When it comes to normal food, John relishes any chance to eat meat.  He loves comfort foods such as ribs, steak, mac and cheese, bacon, ham, mashed potatoes, chicken-anything etc.  High-calorie count dishes don’t faze him.  He could clean out someone’s fridge in one go.  On the sweet spectrum ...  While he isn’t big on sweets like ice-cream and decadent cakes, that doesn’t mean he’ll turn them down.   John didn’t get to have those things as a kid.

He also likes dessert pastries.  They’re tiny and delicate and he has trouble bringing himself to eat carefully decorated ones.  Has a soft spot for sweet cinnamon and custard-anything.   Likes cinnamon rolls and pecan pie.  A lover of brown sugar.  Still doesn’t know what ‘the hell a macaroon is.   Someone buy him a macaroon.

DRINK:   I don’t see John as someone who drinks soda regularly.   His go-to drinks are water, fruit juices, and tea.  As someone who doesn’t drink alcohol, therefore cannot contribute much firsthand knowledge to this headcanon aside from providing detailed descriptions of the taste from various sources, I believe John appreciates good whiskey.  Bourbons, if you want to get specific.  Ryes on a good day, and rums, on the nights he knows he can kick back without worrying about the next morning.  Gin and vodka, on the undoubtedly bad nights.  

Still, I don’t really see him as someone who gets absolutely hammered on purpose.  Although whiskey will lead to a much worse hangover, even if ingested carefully, something tells me he just doesn’t care for much else?  If he drinks, he’d rather the drink taste good.

BOOKS:  [ answered ]  you mean the concept of shepard, having enough free time on his hands to read a book?  sorry, but you’ve got the wrong shepard.  i’ll be frank, i doubt he cares much for reading books, less if it’s fiction.  unless there’s intel to gain that will aid in his current objective, even biographies don’t make the cut.  john reads news reports and mission debriefings … sometimes, if he’s feeling up to it.  once again, content relevance and long-term value are what sways shepard’s interest in engagement.  besides, he enjoys vids way more than books.  less quiet.  less boring.

HAVE THEY

PASSED UNIVERSITY:  no. HAD SEX:  … yes. HAD SEX IN PUBLIC:  no. GOTTEN SOMEONE PREGNANT:  no. KISSED A MAN:  yes. KISSED A WOMAN:  yes. GOTTEN TATTOOS:  I’m still thinking about this one.  perhaps, from jack. GOTTEN PIERCINGS:  He’s thought about it as a young, reckless teen, but no.   In a normal modern verse, he’s pierced his ears. HAD A BROKEN HEART:    Uh.   The closest thing John’s had to a ‘broken heart’ is when Kaidan had spurned his offer to join the Normandy SR-2 on Horizon.  However, the sentiment had been a direct contradiction to his beliefs at the time.  Despite John’s reliable sense of optimism, he had been certain he would die destroying the collector base.  The fact that Kaidan decided against joining had eased as much as it had crushed his spirit.

Also can’t forget his reunion with Liara.  When she’d kissed him upon reuniting but chose to follow her work instead of leaving with him, he’d felt bitter inside.   While he realized she had more important things to handle at the time, John was butthurt.  You kinda can’t blame him.

BEEN IN LOVE:   Yes.  But only after he’d met his ‘canon romance’.  John only knew of ‘puppy-love’ before then. STAYED UP FOR MORE THAN 24 HOURS:  definitely.

ARE THEY

A VIRGIN:   Why would you ask this when, in just the previous section, you inquired if he’s ever had sex?  Omg this meme.  I suppose I could delve into this, then.  Oh, let me just mention, John is ... really, terribly oblivious sometimes.  Given his background and his comparatively early admittance into the alliance military, he simply hadn’t garnered enough experience with the normality of intimacy in relationships, be it casual or not.  I bet a lot of the social cues flew right over his head.  

When individuals came on to him, which did happen a handful of times while in ICT, it was painfully obvious what they wanted, but John was never convinced until they’d slapped down an outright offer.  I have a good feeling he lost his virginity around this time of his life.  These experiences were more like one-night stands.  Extremely cut and dry affairs since most were more focused on getting off rather than expecting something out of it. A CUDDLER:  Yes.   The little spoon, too haha  p: A KISSER:  I mean.  Does he have lips??  Of course, he likes to kiss.  I dunno if he’s much of any good at it...  But John’s good at everything he does so. A SMOKER:  In his youth, yes. SCARED EASILY:   Goddamn right, Shepard gets scared easily.  And his fear manifests in a remarkably strange manner if you ask me.   But first, I must address what constitutes as ‘scary’.  What Shepard faces on a regular basis is life-threatening so, we’ll be disregarding trivial things like horror movies etc ...   Fear, for John, evolves into driving factors for him, motivation—for lack of better wording.  If anyone—or anything—happens to threaten his loved ones, especially, while he isn’t there to do something about it, himself, Shepard is prone to all manners of violence and extreme behavior.  In short, John gets fucking pissed when he’s truly scared.

JEALOUS EASILY:   John is.  ... Possessive.   And I say that with a measure of self-conflict as well, because I don’t think he’s possessive either.  It might just be too soon to know.  From what I’ve gleaned off his temperament, and his intermittent displays of headstrong aggression, he demonstrates jealousy and possessiveness only when driven too far.

John is a patient man, but he’s far from a saint.

Let’s just say, for example, his lover decides to chat up another individual.  Just an amicable discussion.  However, that individual seems to inch closer and closer to his lover.  Combine that with some not-so-friendly-touches and his lover, made uncomfortable by that, and you will have John seeing red.  God, forbid the situation ever flips the other way around.  I don’t imagine he’d take infidelity well...    Trust is everything to John. TRUSTWORTHY:   You won’t find a more loyal, reliable, and honest man. DOMINANT:   Oh, god.   This is one I’ve been experiencing trouble figuring out.   John is ‘dominant’ for reasons that are obvious.  He’s a ranking officer; a commander; a spectre, a captain, and above all, a leader.  No matter how you crop it, John is a dominant force to be reckoned with.  Hmmm.  However, when loved ones are involved, and the situation is domestic and not dangerous, John is rendered useless lmao.   Around the right people, he’s softhearted and ridiculously malleable.  If they asked, he’d bend over backward for them.  But only for them, y’know? SUBMISSIVE:   I —  o h.   ...  This is awkward.   I only just now realized there might be a sexual theme to ‘dominant’ and ‘submissive’.   Wow.  Okay, well, I’m not gonna get too into that.  John is malleable around loved ones.  That’s really all there is to it.  So far, Jane, Kaidan, and Ryan have him wrapped around their fingers. SINGLE:  ( verse dependent ).

RANDOM QUESTIONS

WANTED TO KILL SOMEONE:  yes. ACTUALLY KILLED SOMEONE:   the count is steeper than he’d like. RIDDEN A BEAST:  … Yes?  I bet he asked Wrex to piggyback him once.  Probably got headbutted instead.   And I have no doubt that grunt had to piggyback him when injured. HAVE/HAD A JOB:   yes. HAVE ANY FEARS:   lkfkjlsflkd.   For now, I will list a couple of things because, once again, these are things I’ve only vaguely speculated rather than fully explored.

1.  failure. 2.  here, have one he reveals himself: ❝ I’M  NOT  AFRAID  TO  DIE. ❞           shepard held their eyes, aware they could see straight into the shadows at the bottom of his gaze, and all the harshly controlled thoughts and fears that burned there.   he felt the rush of cool air brush against his cheek, and the shift of reality began to decline like the tides of  VIRMIRE,  falling back from every nerve.   john plunged himself into it, down uncertain contours of dislodged sentiments and reverent possibilities on the rise, moving in a disorganized flurry, windswept within his mind.

another distant look in the commander’s eyes.  perhaps, fighting one of the many battles that never showed.   ❝ i’m afraid of SURVIVING.   getting to the end of this fucking war, only to find out i’m ALONE.   that everyone I knew and cared for is GONE       ! ❞

FAMILY

SIBLING(s):  Jane Shepard, Ryan Shepard.   ( twins | verse dependent ). canon:  none PARENTS:  David Anderson.   ( adoptive father | verse dependent ) canon:  none CHILDREN:  none.  ( verse dependent? ) canon: none PETS:  I will be featuring his pets in a completely different post. TAGGED BY: @risenspectre  Thank you! TAGGING:  @littleredrenegade​ @sentinelmade​ @therevcnant​ @kyberborne​