#but am I?

[mxmads]

So we get a gay romance and then one of them is sent to Turbo Hell? What is this, Supernatural?

[ghost--bot]

[punkstylerecovery]

It took me a long time to realize I actually had anxiety and that people weren't just feeling like I did all the time but now that I know, I'm still not sure how much anxiety is too much anxiety.

Like, how much is enough anxiety that I can justify [to the Authority On Taking Drugs that doesn't actually exist] taking the prescription my psyciatrist wants to give me? How much is enough I should talk more to my therapist about it? Where is the guidebook on "What To Do When You Have Anxiety"? I need it, guys. 😭

[deathnguts]

I just need you all to know that my cat is Siamese (neither of her parents are Siamese) and sits at the foot of my mothers record player to demand music and she picks the records herself and she’s a fan of the lumineers and she’s better than you and I’m better than you because she’s mine

[witchoil]

it’s my birthday!!! tell me about something you love!!!

[respectthepetty]

I love this color moment in this week's episode of Stay by My Side (@heretherebedork, yes, I did lose it!)

But Bu Xia doing everything in the gayest way possible is one of the my favorite parts of Stay by My Side. It's not even that his every action is gay, but that every action towards Jiang Chi is very romantic, and it's all coming from a guy to a guy = gay.

And that he doesn't realize how gay he is being is giving me life.

Bu Xia stares as two men kissing in the park, yet all he can do is be upset that Jiang Chi is smiling at other people WHO AREN'T HIM!

Babe, you is gay!

All of this makes sense in the ghost plot, but to Jiang Chi - IT'S GAY:

Bu Xia is super clinging and won't let Jiang Chi out of his sight.

Bu Xia kissed him.

Bu Xia brushed his neck and ears with his lips when Jiang Chi was carrying him.

Bu Xia physically holds on to him any chance he can.

Bu Xia told Jiang Chi he was very special to him.

Bu Xia calls him to see when he will come home because he always needs Jiang Chi right next to him.

Bu Xia gets upset at the thought of Jiang Chi moving out.

Bu Xia was pouting when he realized Jiang Chi needed him for a senior's project and NOT JUST TO HANG OUT!

Bu Xia takes care of Jiang Chi's wound and feeds him breakfast and lunch, unprompted.

Bu Xia wants Jiang Chi to join the team, but tells Jiang Chi HE WANTS TO SPEND ALL HIS TIME WITH HIM!

GAY!

I pray Taiwan just skips over the angst and lets these two be together once it clicks in Bu Xia what he is actually feeling has nothing to do with ghosts because if it spills out that he is doing all of this just to use Jiang Chi, I will be as devastated as Jiang Chi.

Also, this school groupchat ain't shit.

[slayonehundredninetytwo]

Picking Scabs

TW: descriptions of blood and emeto

Sickie: Hyunjin

Caretaker:Mostly Chan

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After a long day of practice, it was peaceful at the stray kids dorm. Specifically the 3Racha + Hyunjin dorm. They had just finished dinner, and were relaxing in the living room all together. There was some kind of movie playing on the tv, only no one was really paying it much attention. Although they had decided to not go into the studio, Chan was typing away on his laptop, no matter how much his group mates encouraged him to take a break. Hyunjin was sketching, Changbin was scrolling on his phone, and Han was picking at a scab on his arm.

“Gross!” Jisung exclaimed when he finally had pulled off the scab. 

“Look at this!”

“That’s nasty. Clean that off- you’re gonna make a mess.” Changbin calmly said.

Han noticed that Hyunjin was still focused on his drawing, and had yet to realize what was happening next to him. 

“Hyunjin!” He said, trying to get Hyunjin’s reaction. When Hyunjin turned to see what all the fuss was about, he immediately regretted it when he saw a tiny bloody crater on Han’s arm.

“Oh my god that is disgusting.”

He said, looking away. Changbin handed Jisung a tissue to clean up the red flood. Hyunjin had always been sensitive to things like this. He just got grossed out very easily, to the point it can make him rather uncomfortable and even queasy. His members always  thought he was just being dramatic. 

Once Han had cleaned off all the blood, it was still pink and gushy. Jisung thought it would be funny to wave his arm in front of Hyunjin’s face, who was obviously very grossed out by the injury. He too thought Hyunjin was just being dramatic. 

“Sung, please stop that. It’s gross.”

Hyunjin begged, growing paler by the second. 

“Oh cmon. It’s just a scratch. A little blood never hurt anybody!”

Han continued to mess around with the spot, squeezing and poking at it. It was so disgusting.

“Please stop. Just put a bandaid over it and be done already. I really don’t like seeing stuff like that.”

“You’re so dramatic Hyunjin, it’s not even that bad! Look!” Han responded, shoving his arm into Hyunjin’s face yet again. Hyunjin couldn’t take it anymore. He couldn’t tell if he was gonna faint or vomit with how queasy and dizzy he felt. 

He soon got his answer, quickly shooting up from his spot on the couch and running off down the hall with a hand clasped over his mouth. 

Chan finally looked up from his laptop and watched him go. 

“Where’s he off to so quickly?”

“Not sure I w-“ 

His voice was cut off by the sound of retching from the bathroom. Chan hurriedly stood up to go check on the poor boy. Han got up to follow, but Chan stopped him.

“Stay here. He’s probably in there cause he was grossed out by your arm. You being there will probably make it worse. Go put a bandaid over it and let him calm down a bit”

“But I-“

“No buts. He told you to stop and you didn’t. Put a bandaid on and when he’s ready you can come in and apologize.”

Chan didn’t wait for Han’s response as he was already down the hall to help out Hyunjin.

When he got there, he found Hyunjin leaning over the toilet incredibly pale.

“It’s okay bud. Just don’t think about it.”

Chan said, kneeling down next to Hyunjin, holding back his hair and rubbing his back.

Hyunjin retched again, bringing up a wave of his dinner into the toilet bowl. 

When he was finished, he leaned back on his knees.

“I really don’t like blood and stuff.”

“I know you don’t Jinnie, it’s alright. Now, do you want to go back out to the couch or just go to bed for the night? It’s pretty late anyway.”

Hyunjin was just exhausted from the whole ordeal. Vomiting is very tiring. He opted for his comfy bed and Chan tucked him in sweetly. Before he could doze off, Jisung entered his room with a brand new bandaid on his arm.

“Jinnie, I’m so sorry.” He said sitting on the edge of the bed. “I didn’t know that would make you sick. I should have listened. I’m so so so sorry.” 

“It’s okay Ji. I forgive you, as long as you make sure it never happens again.”

“Never. I promise.”

Han said, glad that his hyung forgave him so easily. He sat for a moment, watching Hyunjin slowly drift off to sleep. He carefully got up from the bed and tiptoed to the door, closing it behind him as quiet as he possibly could. He already felt guilty enough, he couldn’t possibly disrupt his once again peaceful dorm.

🫶

p.s. I promise the Suengmin one is on the way! I just kinda lost motivation with that one and wanted to work on something else. But it’s coming soon i swear!

[genderless-sun]

My favorite tumblr pass time is going through moots blog like it’s my dash

[l0nesome-dreams]

The temptation to sucker punch someone is so real right about now.

*deep inhale*

Not even joking. I’m gonna do it. 🙃✨

I’m gonna get court martialed for punching someone, aren’t I?

[cbk1000]

Sometimes I wonder why I was hired to my role, let alone recruited for it by my boss and the head of our department, because an analyst? That is some kind of smart person role. And I've never thought of myself as particularly analytical or a problem solver.

And then every day at work I have to interact with people who cannot handle the most basic of troubleshooting, who cannot figure out something that took me two seconds to solve, and who send me problems they can't resolve because they can't figure out to follow the chain of events leading up to the error and draw a conclusion, and I'm like, "Oh right; I forgot a lot of people are very dumb."

[samuraikuraima]

Bro why people hate on u for a real truth? Like bruh, lesboy is just straight 😭😭😭

cause they're a bunch of lesboys saying "nuh uh" and that stuff, im pretty sure im getting canceled for the first time

[thefixer]

i literally want a thread where someone is just very intimidated by mia ... and the whole thread is just a staring contest where mia just asserts her authority and dominance over someone .

[magdaclaire]

some of y’all watched supernatural for the first time too late in life. if you understood all the themes the first time around, you were too old. it needed to make you insane at 12 years old or not at all. bless

[dutyworn]

useless spicy headcanon thought from back when wren was on the multi:

someone tying her up for sexy stuff with very basic wrists to headboard etc. (mun note she's such a 100 percent switch and experimental it's not even funny, though for one-night-stands or sexual partners with no profound trust between them she's almost exclusively dominant)

her partner, trying to be sexy: you're not going anywhere ;) wren, a little shit, deadpan: i mean. i could get free. i could dislocate my thumb her partner: wren: or break my wrist her partner: wren: her partner, exasperated: please don't do that her: i could also break your neck with my thighs the mun: THIS ESCALATED

she has extensive military training and will also top from the bottom, i don't make the rules,

[capitano-marina]

🧡🧡🧡