#but also thank you for the sweet message anon!!!!!!

[stormyoceans]

i literally think your subconscious is holding onto phumpeem because you were feeling a little out of the bl world, cause they're not even that good 😭 i'm glad you're back with a new hyperfixation though! feels like the vv monica we know!

SKJFGSKDJGFDSKJGFSDK I MEAN. FAIR (re: phumpeem maybe not even being that good) HOWEVER CONSIDER THIS

AND THIS

AND ALSO LET'S GO BACK TO THIS

LIKE IM SO FUCKING PREDICTABLE IT'S HONESTLY EMBARRASSING BUT I GUESS THIS IS THE SHIT THAT WORKS ON ME IDK GIVE ME A SITUATIONSHIP WHERE THEY GENUINE CARE FOR EACH OTHER AND MY HEART WILL LATCH ON TO IT LIKE A DOG WITH A BONE

also i would hate for you guys to think i've become less insufferable it was about time i went back to my true annoying as fuck self

[merakiui]

for your ask game, I thought id answer for 7! it was the rook fic, 11:11 - sugar dew sewn anew :)

I had actually held off on reading it for awhile because I wasn't entirely sure I was going to like the ending and, well, it definitely gave me mixed feelings. I remember my mouth was agape the first time I had read and finished it in its entirety 😭

I was so conflicted because part of me absolutely adored the ending and was satisfied with it, but was also left feeling a bit frustrated.

I loved the horror and suspense — or more so, the feeling that something is wrong and you know something is wrong but you don't know what and/or can't do anything to fix it — dread. that's the emotion I'm looking for. I loved every bit of the dreadful feelings the story created, and that only gradually increased the further I read, because the anticipation of having an idea of what was coming but not knowing exactly when- was killing me (and definitely killed mc)

so I did thoroughly enjoy the anticipation the setting of the story set up, and how it carried that feeling all the way up to the climax, once introduced

and despite what I may say in the next section or two, I truly did enjoy rooks character in this story. i greatly enjoyed his dialogue, and would even applaud him for his never ending ability to make someone feel unsettled! his love and adoration for the darling never fails to make me queasy. objectively, it is disturbing; a man so "in love" he kills the very person he dearly cherishes. but at the same time, a sick, twisted part of me genuinely enjoyed that his obsession went so far that it reached the state of death - like wow, get you a man who means it when he says he will love you in life and death!! overall, rooks character was a fun one to read and analyze throughout the story, especially once the creep-factor started increasing lol

but as I said earlier, despite how satisfied I was with this ending, a part of me couldn't fully accept it. and my feelings for not wholly accepting the ending is not at all a reflection of your writing, but rather a simple personal preference and opinion of mine!!

I do enjoy reading yandere stories where the darling dies; whether that be of natural, accidental, or self-inflicted causes, or even where the yandere does kill them, but then later regrets it (those are always so scrumptious, I love seeing yanderes become pathetic)!! and I also do enjoy reading yandere stories where the yandere gets their "happy" ending, but I only enjoy those stories for certain characters, as I believe some characters are simply not eligible to earn their happy ending 😒 and one of those characters are rook.

whether speaking of rook in his canon sense, or with a yandere twist, he is a terrifying and fear-inducing man. and because of the fact that no matter which way you speak of rook - even in the most cute, fluffiest context imaginable! - it doesn't take away that he is a canon hunter and therefore has a diverse skillset catered to catching and trapping prey. and when you are aware of that knowledge going into a yandere rook fic, then you already know that a happy ending, or successful escape for rooks darling is practically unimaginable; because rook would simply not let that happen. so knowing rook is more than likely to get HIS happy ending in yandere fics, it's unfortunate (to me at least). and I did not expect anything different when beginning my read of 11:11. I knew rook would be the victor here, but it doesn't make it hurt any less knowing darling will never get their own happy ending 😔

but what rook did in this story that takes it a step further is involving what I mentioned earlier, the 'darling dies' trope. to reiterate, I do enjoy these tropes, especially when there's angst or pain on the yanderes end, but once again, rook does not fall into that category. rather than rook experiencing any kind of turmoil over the death of his darling, he's happy and is even the one to have caused darlings death. so not only does his bob-cut ass get his happy ending, his happy ending also results in killing his darling. darling already had no chance of escaping from rook once he set his gaze on them, but for him to reaally seal that fate and kill them, too? aaah, it's frustrating!! and I think what frustrates me the most on this part is that, in the 'darling dies' stories that I read, when the darling kicks the bucket, its accompanied by intention, will, or even acceptance! the darlings are at least aware or have come to terms with their impending death. but the darling in 11:11 experienced none of those feelings nor did they even want to give up!! rook just took their life at a time they weren't ready for, and for his own selfish, happy ending. and finally, when the darling dies in those types of stories, I actually view it as a rather bittersweet thing. because it at least means they escaped their yandere/captor, despite them only being able to achieve that freedom through death. but unlike those stories, where darling is eventually given freedom from their yandere, 11:11's darling, even in death, is stuck with rook and he refuses to let them go. it's just so !!! it's honestly kind of heartbreaking; knowing all that darling went through. and even before their death, probably no comfort came to them as maybe a part of them suspected what rook would do with them after death. from the chase to climax, darling was unlucky and was never given an ounce of security - even when meeting death. and I think thats what really pulls it together for me when dealing with this ending. knowing that there were probably so many internal thoughts and emotions swirling inside of darling but were left unspoken as rook took their life AAAAA it brings me such anguish </3

all in all, I think what left me the most irritated was that everything was done for and by rook. every aspect of the story was created for him and him alone, there was never room for darling when his obsession with them extends so far, to the point hes willing to take their life for his own. it's truly amazing how selfish yet poetic he was in 11:11 😭

SO. to put it simply, yes, there was a fic of yours that left me emotional. not sappy-emotional, but conflicted-emotional. it was such a satisfying yet irritating ending all at once. it did leave me with a few questions as to where this leaves rook now. such as "would a situation like darling's occur again with another victim in the future?" or "is he really, truly, satisfied with the person he loved so much being nothing but a glamorized corpse now?" but honestly, I could probably answer the second question myself, I'm just avoiding it as the answer might further make me dislike his character in this story LMAO

I know I was pissed as hell talking about rook earlier, but 11:11 is most definitely my favorite characterization of him you've written so far. in fact, 11:11, despite me being hesitant to start, has definitely become one of my personal favorite works of yours and something that will probably never leave my mind.

the writing is truly mesmerizing, and the way you wrote rook was so beautifully-crafted. despite how much I disliked his character in this work, I also loved every second of him and his creepiness. also, although I havent mentioned setting much, it's truly one of the biggest elements that ties all of this together. the setting you made for the atmosphere, and especially the chase sequence, blends amazingly with the the flow and dialogue. it doesnt feel out of place in the slightest and actually evokes more intense emotions when paired with the writing. the departing imagery you left the reader with was particularly gorgeous and will never leave my mind!!

you truly outdid yourself with 11:11; as I read it months ago and it's still so fresh and vivid in my mind; that it elicited such emotions from me. I am so happy it won the poll that one day LMAOO or else we would've never gotten such a masterpiece </3

I know the timeloop au rook fic is far into your planner, but aaah, I have a feeling it will also ignite such emotions within me, so I am very excitedly looking forward to it!!

I apologize for the length of this ask! 😭 I hope everything makes sense and that my interpretation and opinions come across cleanly and clearly!! i was having trouble with properly wording and voicing my thoughts, so forgive me for any errors or repeated/not further elaborated ideas. I also hope my comparisons to other, general tropes/stories did not bother you! 11:11 was by far unique and an original piece, and it doesn't come close to anything I've ever read before! i just found it easier to use basic trope styles as a way to clearly articulate my thoughts, but I truly meant no harm when using them to refer to the plot of 11:11. so, if I had managed to offend you at all, I am sincerely sorry!

anyways, I reeeallly hope this ask actually sends and doesn't get eaten because I'd hate to rewrite this 😭 but i hope youre doing well!! :)

(ask game)

Anon, oh my GOSH!!!!!! I am beyond flattered and so speechless to know that 11:11 gave you such emotional turmoil!!! I was hooked reading every word of your ask!! Please never apologize for the length of your message! I'm so grateful to receive it and read it. Just knowing that you enjoyed 11:11 and took the time to put your thoughts into writing has me so immensely honored. >o<

I couldn't help laughing at your referring to Rook as "his bob-cut ass" LOL. He really is the most frustrating type of yandere. >:( you've made so many great points with your analysis (and none of the comparisons to tropes offended me! Rather, I was happy to read about them! :D), and among them I think your comment on the situation makes darling and Rook's story even more difficult to stomach:

all in all, I think what left me the most irritated was that everything was done for and by rook. every aspect of the story was created for him and him alone, there was never room for darling when his obsession with them extends so far, to the point hes willing to take their life for his own. it's truly amazing how selfish yet poetic he was in 11:11 😭

You're absolutely right! The very first thing I thought of when writing the story was that everything was and is centered around Rook. The setting (while an eerie backdrop to place both him and Reader in) suits Rook's character more than it does the Reader's. The trophy room he sits in, framed by various animal heads, was intentionally written for him. Those descriptions of being prey or predator are for him because he's a hunter and this is his story. From beginning to end, the entire plot is tailored to fit Rook and his all-encompassing obsession. You're absolutely right when you say, "there was never room for darling when his obsession with them extends so far." He's horrifically selfish, and the mindset of "if I can't have you, no one can" is mostly applied to 11:11!Rook. Because he is greedy and he recognizes this, but then he finds beauty in the brutal, in the obsession, in the raw, animalistic fear the Reader feels when it dawns on them that he's going to kill them.

The reader was never going to get a happy ending. This was how I drafted the story, with this in mind. The moment the story opens, Reader is doomed. Their head was always destined to take the place of the headless mount. Of course the mount itself is already indicative of what's to come, a classic example of Chekhov’s gun that immediately foreshadows that, at some point, the headless mount will soon have its head. Infuriatingly enough, it's Rook who gets his happy ending, handed to him on a platter because he doesn't truly suffer in the fic. Sure, there is resistance from the Reader and they try to survive, but in the end it's Rook who wins with an ease so smooth you'd think he's done this before. And maybe he has. Maybe he's killed more than just birds and deer and mice. Who can say, really?

He's so creepy and so vexing in 11:11. There is not an ounce of remorse to his character here. It doesn't pain him that he's taking a life. Rather, he's excited. Giddy, even, because in his twisted perception he's not ending your life; he's refurbishing it. Giving new life to your death. Most often, when something horrible happens, we look for reasons. Why is this happening to me? Why did this happen? Why are you doing this? We ask all kinds of questions. Knowing that there is reason and logic behind tragedy can often help us make sense of it, especially if it's traumatic and sudden. And that's exactly what Reader attempts to do in the fic:

"What did I ever do to you to deserve this?" “Nothing, mon amour.” “N-Nothing?” “Absolutely nothing!” he reaffirms, rather conversationally, and the frustration-riddled tension in your body deflates all at once.

It's especially despairing because there is no sadness or regret. Rook loves human life, but then his actions here suggest it's below him in some way. That he loves it just enough to wax truthful poetry, but not enough to reconsider appreciating the beauty while Reader's alive and well. Most of all, it hurts because he has no valid reason for taking Reader's life other than for his own selfish desires. There is no revenge plot here. There is no death due to self-defense here. There is no death by accident here; it's all intentional. He's killing the Reader because it pleases him. Because he wants to. Because he can. The Reader has never done anything wrong to Rook. It's simply the fact that they exist that he's willing to go so far in his infatuation, and that's so heartbreaking. Reader just wants to live, but Rook will not let that happen because, once again, he is so annoyingly selfish.

And it's due to this selfishness that he's able to smile and hum so jovially come morning when he's putting the finishing touches on the newest trophy added to his collection.

Ramblings aside, I'm also happy Rook won in the poll! Originally, the idea was simply "an artist who struggles to love encounters [insert yandere here] and finds inspiration in their eyes." I was going to use this for Jade, in which the Reader could never quite paint him perfectly and would soon become so obsessed with portraying him accurately on a canvas, which would then allow Jade to twist their perception of him. Essentially, the endgame with Jade's version of this concept was that he'd keep you locked up in his home as a pet, promising to grant you freedom once you finally paint the emotions in his eyes properly. Until then, Reader would remain as his cat. Obviously this idea is not nearly as gruesome as Rook's. ^^;;; so I'm glad he was voted, otherwise 11:11 would have been a very different story.

And the time loop Rook fic... I'm almost positive it will incite a lot of feelings, one of which I hope is anger. >:) it's going to be a very wild plot. Many twists and turns!

[aipilosse]

This is probably a stupid question, but you said you're open to ones about Sauron: do you know what he was doing after Morgoth was defeated the first time? It doesn't make sense that he would be in Valinor, but I see people say that he was. Am I missing something? Thank you

Anon, this is not a stupid question at all and I've also puzzled over where the idea that Sauron was in Valinor after the otherthrow of Utumno came from. From reading the Silm, it really sounds like Sauron defected to Morgoth at a very early point, well before the elves woke up, and did not leave him after Morgoth's defeat.

I guess at a high level, here's the timeline of events:

World is created. Valar arrive.

Melkor decides he want to be king of the world, screw Manwë and Eru.

Tulkas arrives and chases Melkor out. Melkor begins to sulk away from the Valar.

The Valar make the two lamps. Everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.

THEN we get this first information about Sauron (from the Annals of Aman in Morgoth's Ring):

Now Melkor knew of all that was done; for even then he had secret friends and spies among the Maiar whom he had converted to his cause, and of these the chief, as after became known, was Sauron, a great craftsman of the household of Aulë.

So, yeah, Sauron became a follower of Morgoth at a very early point, before the making of the lamps. He also had to have been not aligned with Morgoth exclusively at some point in order to become known as a great craftsman of the household of Aulë.

So when does he leave? I don't know, but I think it's before the elves leave Cuiviénen.

I think it's actually an important plot point that Sauron is out in the world working as an agent of Morgoth after Utumno is overthrown, and crucially Utumno is overthrown because the elves have woken up and the Valar want to defend them but have not yet contacted them. One of the highlights for me in Nature of Middle-earth was all the references that Sauron was causing chaos while Morgoth was in Mandos and then in Valinor. This was already in the Myths Transformed chapter of Morgoth's Ring, but there were even more details in NoME.

Here's Myths Transformed because I don't feel like fishing out NoME (and I think this is more complete and canonical anyway):

We my assume, then, that the idea of breeding the Orcs came from Melkor, not at first maybe so much for the provision of servants or the infantry of his wars of destruction, as for the defilement of the Children and the blasphemous mockery of the designs of Eru. The details of the accomplishment of this wickedness were, however, left mainly to the subtleties of Sauron. in that case the conception in mind of the Orcs may go far back into the night of Melkor's thought, though the beginning of their actual breeding must await the awakening of Men. When Melkor was made captive, Sauron escaped and lay hid in Middle-earth; and it can in this way be understood how the breeding of the Orcs (no doubt already begun ) went on with increasing speed during the age when the Noldor dwelt in Aman; so that when they returned to Middle-earth they found it already infested with this plague, to the torment of all that dwelt there, Elves or Men or Dwarves. It was Sauron, also, who secretly repaired Angband for the help of his Master when he returned; and there the dark places underground.

So, I think we can conclude Sauron spent time in Valinor during the Age of the Lamps, but was already leaning or completely converted to Melkor's agenda at the time, and he left well before the elves arrived, very possibly before the elves woke up. I am not aware of any information that suggests otherwise, though if anyone has it, I'm happy to hear it.

So I think the many stories of Sauron in Valinor with elves are just playing with the idea and having fun with it, because it is an interesting idea, and not really worrying about the timeline. And I will end on that non-judgmental note!

[nekrosmos]

Just wanted to say that I love how Gomz and you keep going off in the tags with all the love for each other and everyone else. You two are doing this fandom a great service. 🤍

Omg Anon that is very sweet of you to say !! I'm a big yapper in the tags and like to be everyone's cheerleader when I can <3 Gomz's art is so sweet and I just lose my mind every time, it's so good.

Too much negativity on the internet and in fandom spaces, we gotta be loud about the things we love, especially about each other's work <3

[anhonest-puck]

Dear Ralphie,

I think you’ll know who this is from. I genuinely wanted to show that I appreciate you so much for being such a great friend and mutual of mine for a somewhat short time, you have been such an amazing comfort over this horrible time for myself with my own personal issues and political issues. You’ve been the distraction in my day I look forward to. I genuinely appreciate you so so much.

You remind me of the warm forest. The one where you look up and the sun reflects off the leaves and blinds you. It’s beautiful and it’s so softly warm and the breeze also shines through so it’s not so miserably warm. You remind me of the plants on the ground that grow no matter the weeds, the ones that are so stubborn to grow no matter what. You remind me of those mushrooms with beautiful patterns.

I won’t tell you your hex code. but you’re an amazing friend of mine and I love you so much. /p. thanks for everything. (started crying while writing. <3)

You remind me of Disenchanted by MCR. lovely song by the way.

-🧣

OH MY GOSH YALL ☹️☹️ /pos

yall are gonna make me start SOBBING AAAHHHH I LOVE ALL OF YALL SO MUCH!!!

i’m so so glad that i’m able to be that somewhat safe place for you, just hearing that is such a huge honor and compliment; i can’t even put how much that means to me into words! hearing that you look forward to chatting with me makes my whole damned week. i appreciate you so so much as well <33

that whole second paragraph?? crying so hard this is so beautiful /pos 🥹🫶 again, this was perfectly timed; you made me sound like such a beautiful person and i literally cannot thank you enough!

i love you lots too!! <3

[rayar32]

to that one anon that sent an ask: I'M SORRY I FUCKED UP AND DELETED YOUR ASK BUT YES YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY SOURCE MY STUFF FOR INSPIRATION-

that goes to everyone here actually if my dumbass brainrot content inspires you to do any creative work please do share it with me because I would LOVE to see it

[evansbby]

[written-mishaps]

I just had a "remembering that Steve exists" moment and i went directly to reading your empath au fic, it is so good

AWWGHHHHHHHHHGG THANK YOU that genuinely warms my heart

[if-mirrormine]

HI!!! HELLO!!! I recently found your work and i got emotional! I'm crying ugly when Mc's mom hug mc and how Grayson and Callie react wheb they saw mc. OH GOD STOP MAKING ME CRY TT Please continue to create inspiring story!!!

[gingerjolover]

happy birthday ginger!!! i hope today is great!!!

thank you baby!!!

i am going to try and post something ✨special✨ for my bday (this weekend probs)

[ghost-proofbaby]

any updates on shire is burning ?🥹🥹🥹

this is one of the nicer asks i've gotten regarding it so i'ma respond just using you my lovely nonnie <3

it's a work in progress!! not abandoned but i don't push myself to write it or put it out as quickly, and i definitely am far more critical with it than i am with other fics since willow and eddie are my babies.

i wish i could give a more exact timeline of when to expect an update, but i'm really just vibing over here as i write it haha <3 probably not terribly soon considering i don't have a majority of the chapter written yet, tho :-(

[stormyoceans]

I know what you need from early in the morning - js's healing hugs, which were kindly provided by the lt acc 😉 do a good job monica

NOT TO BE UNABLE TO EXPRESS WHAT IM FEELING BUT UWUWUWUWUWUWUUWUWUWUWUWYWUUWUWWUUWUWUWWEWU SOBBING

A VERY GOOD MORNING TO ME INDEED THIS IS TRULY THE BEST WAY TO START THE DAY NOW IM GONNA HAVE THE ENERGY TO WORK

THEY REALLY ARE EACH OTHER'S SAFE PLACE UH 🥺🤧

[girls-and-honey]

omg hi frienddd

thought u might have left

nice to see u didn’t :D

hi hi anon! I temporarily left a little bit, I kinda left a lot of things and took a social hibernation from the world. but I'm here (ish) and will hopefully get back into the normal swing of things

[misc-obeyme]

Hi first congrats on coming out to your parents, and its going to be hard with your sister, and Obey me helping people finding out their own sexuality and gender, and how casually in game they use the they/them pronouns when talking about MC. You have the fandom behind you,

I wanr to give you a huge hug

Oh thank you for this, anon! 💜 ��

I don’t normally post stuff about my personal life, but I really felt the Obey Me fandom would understand in a way nobody else in my life could.

I think it’s pretty great that the game has helped people understand themselves better. It has its flaws but for me it was the self insert thing that really made a difference. My MC is not me and when I write about them it’s more like I’m expressing myself through them. But when I play the game, I’m playing as me. And I thought being referred to as they/them would pull me out of the story like it sometimes does with my MC’s name in there. Like I don’t mind the pronouns but they aren’t mine so if it was really me they would use different ones. But that didn’t happen. They felt right.

Anyway, I was just feeling very emotional when I wrote that post last night. So thank you for this ask, it means a lot!

[mad-c1oud]

Not an ask, but dude. I haven't felt so excited about someone's fanfics in *years*. I love your writing and can't wait for whatever you're cooking up this year :]

-🪴 anon

AHHHHHHHHHHH🪴 ANON YOURE ACTAULLY GONNA MAKE ME SCREAM

Thank you so much gah :')

It’s crazy to think that people are sticking around to see what I throw at them next. There’s so much coming for this new year I’m really excited too

<33333

[supes9]

Listen to me. Roy and johnny are so slay and made me the gay I am today thank you for the gif sets

Don't you worry, Anon, I am listening, I understand, and you are very welcome! ☺️

It's so nice to hear you've enjoyed the Emergency! gif sets I've made so far featuring Roy and Johnny, and I have a lot of others that I will start up on in the not-too-distant future! I absolutely love those two, they're the best, so you will inevitably be seeing plenty more of them from me. 😉

Thank you so much for your kind message, and I'm very happy to be a part of the E! fandom and help spread the love for the series! 💕