#but I've had chest pains

[nihilismhaver]

Fun fact of the day!

When I go back to school, I'm probably gonna spend more time in the counselors office than in any of my classes!!!

(I also might join track!)

[n0heart]

it's not a nude nor kinky content but i wanna share this pic because My Boy took it today while we were at central park and it's special to me 🥰

[spelacchiotto]

i may still be recovering, but i needed to get sad dilf McNulty out of my system like a miasma

[thebirdandhersong]

breaking the tumblr fast to ask for prayer :') it is currently the WORST of times (though, in intense joyous flashes, occasionally also the best of times). I am bulldozing my way through the dregs of midterms, final exam prep, graduation plans, job applications, dorm volunteer stuff, all while trying to deal with/reckon with/endure/come to terms with/persevere through literally the deepest emotional pain I've ever been in lol

[jon-withnoh]

Health vent in the tags 🙃

[krashing-starz]

y'know when you watch a piece of media and your literary interpretation skills aren't quite up to par to fully understand everything but it still hits SO FUCKING HARD that you lowkey feel like you just chugged an energy drink?

[cat-with-a-keyboard]

can keith emerson stop messing with my voodoo doll please

[egglygreg]

Ok, so I had this dream last night right? And it was mostly nonsensical and weird and silly, but there was this moment...

[thatndginger]

The Runaway Snippets

I've decided to say 'fuck it' and start posting little snippets from The Runaway, because I can. And also because Tem and Dean have been taking over my brain as of late. (the Pack trio are still up there too, but they're giving the dramatics a rest for now.)

So have some cute fluff this morning, I guess~

The cabin is on one side of a clearing shaped like a lopsided egg, the bigger house Temperance had only partially paid attention to nestled on the opposite side. And on the far side of the clearing, a coyote is chasing a little girl.

The girl is young, maybe five or seven, with a head of wild dark red hair that flies around her face like a cloud. There’s something odd about her, but from this distance Temperance can’t tell. The coyote looks like a coyote. Bigger than a coyote should be, maybe.

The coyote lunges for the girl.

Temperance jerks forward.

The girl shrieks. And then she laughs.

“The fuck...” Temperance stumbles to a halt near the porch steps, every thought forgotten as he tries to make sense of what he’s seeing.

The coyote had lunged, but instead of teeth slicing into defenseless flesh, it had simply pressed it’s nose into the girl’s shoulder near the strap of her overalls. Then it had leapt away, dropping into a bow as it’s tail wagged. Now it’s running away from the girl, just slow enough for her to keep up, just quick enough to make catching it a challenge.

They’re playing.

Shapeshifter taglist (if this still applies? let me know?) @sunset-a-story @touloserlautrec @ceph-the-ghost-writer

[savage-rhi]

Magenta 😟

[thefrogdalorian]

Since the last neurodivergent!Din post I made provoked so much thoughtful discussion (thank you for that, if you interacted!) I've been thinking about the possibility of Din potentially being nd more and more. Specifically, the way his upbringing in his covert would have impacted on him if he is indeed neurodivergent and I have some thoughts.

I think the way Din was raised would definitely have helped mask his autistic traits successfully in some ways, but also made them stand out more once it came to interacting with people from outside his covert.

Think about it... once he was taken from Aq Vetina and raised by the Children of The Watch, from a very young age he never had to show his face to anyone, ever again. So the tribe that adopted him never got to see the pain and terror that he was experiencing due to the trauma of losing his parents. Which, if he is neurodivergent, I can imagine his new caregivers not realising how upset he was. It's heartbreaking to think about Din experiencing incredible emotional pain following the trauma of losing his parents, yet struggling to communicate it to anyone in his tribe. You tend to realise a kid is upset based on how they look and if the tribe couldn't see his face... I can't stop thinking about baby Din crying behind his helmet and it hurts.

Plus, because he swore the Creed and had to hide his face forever, there was no need to make eye contact or pressure to learn that skill. Which granted, is a skill he doesn't need, but it's still a part of communicating with others that he never learned. When we see him at the beginning of the series, the way he communicates is very direct which was probably fine in his covert but outside of it, he could be viewed as rude. To me, at the start of the show, it feels like he doesn't necessarily see the point of talking, beyond the bare minimum. Which is a mood. Even though he talks far more as the series progress, it's still quite direct communication and he doesn't really participate in small talk. He speaks a lot to Grogu, a child who cannot communicate back to him.

When it comes to adults in the show, every time we've seen Din interacting with groups, it always feels as though he doesn't quite fit in. His covert don't seem to like him that much, he didn't fit in on Sorgan with Omera, he didn't fit in with Xi'an and co in The Passenger, he didn't really fit in with Greef (and Cara) on Nevarro in Season 2. The last scene of season three is not him on a unified Mandalore... once again, he's alone. He's always been an outsider.

Also, the way he was raised by being hidden away on Concordia, it formed the views that we see beginning to be tested throughout the series. The fact the formative years of his life were spent with a tribe with a very strict Creed, it means he learnt what Mandalorians are from his covert and nowhere else. To an autistic person, who can have very rigid and literal patterns of thought, he might have truly believed the Way he follows is the only way to be Mandalorian. I think this is also why he's so certain that Bo-Katan is not Mandalorian when they first meet, because to him, she can't possibly be. But actually, the more he learns about her and other Mandalorians, the more he's happy to admit he's wrong. Something that neurotypicals often fail to do with grace.

I think season three more than proved that Din is not a zealot, he's actually incredibly compassionate, tolerant and accepting of difference. And there's a possibility that the reason for that somewhat sudden shift is that he could be autistic.

That's why, again, I think his open-mindedness is precisely why he is such a comforting character for neurodivergent people or indeed anyone who doesn't fit in with the norm... because it really does feel as though we could be our true selves around him and he wouldn't judge us or make us feel bad for being different.

Please please let me hug him.

[atowncalledher]

wake up in the middle of the night feeling like I'm gonna fucking die

I'm too young for it but i check off multiple symptoms of a heart attack (I know them by heart bc my dad almost died of a heart attack and his dad almost died of a heart attack and his dad DID die from a heart attack so yk)

go to the er. not a heart attack. not anything. no one knows what the fuck is wrong with me yaaaaaay

[izzy-b-hands]

I will be forever grateful i can be on this new med. it's one a lot of folks also need and can struggle to have access to! It's important i be on it, especially if i start doing any vid collabs

(some of which, really, all of which, i unfortunately actually need to cancel that were in the preplanning stages, bc the election results have me wanting to wait and see how the general atmosphere of the country is before i agree to meet up with anyone. I feel bad for cancelling, but also i just can't know for sure how safe things are/might be going forward and I'd rather avoid the potential of. ya know. various not great things that could happen at a meet up, tho i would certainly hope they wouldn't. i don't feel like actually addressing them rn, u guys know what i mean)

That said, if the truvada initial side effects could fuck off asap would be so lovely. three weeks at worst, then they should be gone/much better or so i am told. really hope that's true bc losing my mornings to being dizzy and nauseous is Not Working for me lmao. im on week two, and now understand why my new doc said to call if i needed any 'cheerleading' and support to get thru the side effects, bc apparently she's done that for several ppl to make sure they actually make it thru the three weeks and keep on it (lovely of her!!)

[lisxdumbr]

I am so tired

[aastarions]

i know ive been complaining so much but can i catch one break like just one break im begging im pleading

[sga-owns-my-soul]

lolol im pretty sure my most important friendship of 24 years just ended i'm doing sooooo good rn