#but I'm sure figuring how to make this thing work with neocities will be the largest (and final) hurdle

[mrnnki]

this is looking like it might be exactly what I want as long as I can get it to work

just installed Hugo and dear gourd do people not write their guides for know-nothings like me

[phrandallanton]

Hellu))

I looked at your neocities thingy, and I just wondered how you did that with the text boxes and the background and stuff. If you are willing to share, if you aren't, then sorry for wasting ur time)

I'm very new to coding (I suck) and "Penelope the cat" doesn't really help much T-T

Hi! Don't worry about asking, I'm always happy to help and give info on anything I know to the best I can! (Though to be completely honest, I too don't know much of HTML so... lol)

I used a <table> tag and the other tags that come with it. I also used boarder, boarder style, and background color, which would be in the CSS part of the code. Makes the boarder that's around it, The style that boarder will be in, and the background color of that table.Here's a website that explains it better then I can and also helps me out A LOT.

I heavily recommend this site, it's a life saver and will explain everything.

Also here is some CSS to help with the boarder and background!

Some other extra tips I'll throw in here:

I recommend using "Visual Studios". It's a free program and you can get a plug-in that allows you to see how your website looks without having to edit, go to the website, refresh, over and over. It also helps with coding as well, overall I'm loving it!

Now, by no means am I saying you should copy somebody else code and steal it. That's wrong. However, if you see something you like and want to know how it works, inspect the page and look at the code! I've learned a lot from doing this and it's help me figure out how things work too. Once again, do not straight up steal lines of somebody else's code. By that point you're not coding, you're copying, pasting, and stealing.

I also think you should learn the basics of HTML, and if you really want to make things then I say take the time to learn HTML. Personally for me, I love the look of broken ugly websites. Just some basic CSS will do for me! But if you're not like me, then yes, I think you should learn more then just the basics.

I'm sure there's some HTML nerds that can explain this way better then what I can so like I always say when it comes to learning stuff, look it up! The internet has unlimited free information, somebody 12 years ago on reddit probably asked the same question you did and the answer will be in the comments of that post. Always search for things!

[staghunters]

STAGHUNTERS NEOCITIES WEEE

Figured I should make a new post at this point because the other one is getting too long to keep reblogging. I've been tinkering away at the site and it is shaping up! Here's a lil page by page tour under the cut

you can view the site here!

Splash screen!

It's a little bumper so the css can load without it scrabling the home page. It looks alright, but to add some more text to the image, I have to make a new one in the death screen generator, which is not ideal.

The home page!

I've changed the middle window so it fits in better with the rest. Not very visually exciting there in terms of color, but it is for now the best look imo. Text there is aligned justified, I've condensed it a bit more and added the randomized quote section underneath it instead of it being a seperate window on the side.

To do list needs an update but is still accurate. The team is still there, but on the other side, I have set the blinkies to be a bit larger. The music player has been removed because I couldn't find a way to add songs to it that weren't included on the source site. Snufkin is here now. The webrings will need some more. Retronaut is there, but not functioning as it should. it just forwards you to random sites in the ring instead of where it should be, but I can't find what exactly I'm doing wrong with the code.

Another thing that is not working on neocities itself is the "last updated" part. For some reason it doesn't display there what it does display on my local html. Maybe a bug at neo.

And icons at the top on the nav par! Adds some more flair to the place. The footer has also received a minor update: it now has a sitemap link instead of another back-to-home url.

About!

I'm thinking of moving the small window with the short info to the right, but it is here for now. Links that are web-building related are on the right, also for my own referencing. The essentials lists on the left are hidden on load, but can be revealed by tapping the puttons. The lists are in tree-view and the window shouldn't expand over the cassette image once the construction sign is removed. Speaking of, the cassette has a lil playlist.

I might expand on the info a bit more, but that is for me to ponder. I liked including links to tumblr, the guestbook, and a button in case anyone wants to link my site on theirs.

Writing!

Hasn't really changed much. I've been looking at moving the sidebar info to be in the main section upon load, but idk if that would just make things more complicated. Right now it loads to an empty section there, stuff appears once you click a button. PDF support is only available once I'm a supporter of neocities, which i do wanna do but isn't a priority atm just for getting this part running. The links to ao3 will do just fine for now.

Journal!

The space for my rambling. It can be browsed by entry through the post-it, and all that seems to be functioning alright. Added a kitty and a sticker for decoration. The Stop Making Sense bumper sticker will now load a local video of the performance, but once again I won't be able to add this to the site until I get a supporter thing going. It plays/pauses on click, hehe.

Basement!

Decided to add a page for it. Basic info, schedule, link to the room, my letterboxd, and an overview of past movies. It's a nice spot on the site that is also the most cramped, but I like how it turned out.

BLUE SCREEN OF DEATH

In case any page/url error happens, you can send a movie recommendation to B (their askbox is linked when you open on desktop)

UNDER HEAVY CONSTRUCTION

The art and other pages are very much works in progress. Art can be up and running once I upload art to the site, but I'm not sure if I want to post full pieces here. Maybe I'll make it a space for sketch stuff that I'd otherwise discard.

As for the other page: I might be filing it under the writing page as a section, since the only thing here is WvW atm. It's cool that it has it's own thing, but I'm not sure if something that is basically a fanfic warrants such a space. That, or I keep it and drop all my other-media stuff in here so there's more to look at.

That's it for now! I got some ideas on how to continue, but they're not super-duper set in stone.

[golem-boy]

DevLog 02: I'd Rather Be Writing CSS

Hello again! This month's DevLog post is going to be a lot of fun. I'm going to talk a little about my endeavors with Neocities, writing code, and working with old-school web interaction.

I also wanted to make a note that I'm totally cool with folks reblogging and liking these posts, and you're welcome to snag the rss feed for this tag if you'd like to keep up with it but don't particularly feel like wading through everything else I drop here.

Without further ado--

Lately I've been working on a side project to help a friend out; their Neocities, is--like mine--going to be a place to host a ton of centralized information so they can just hand site links out rather than having to link a whole array of webpages to people in order to share certain stuff. (I totally recommend people do this, btw. Super useful, AND you get to learn html/css, which is great on a site like Tumblr, where you can employ that knowledge and skillset elsewhere!)

Thing is, when I started this, I'd been... a touch rusty on things like... you know, the basics, building from a blank space up into a proper site. One of my problems was accidentally adding a period before the 'body' stylization code in the css document, which, for those wondering, makes the css read it as a 'div' or 'span' tag, rather than a core component of the site. Rookie mistake, but I did manage to figure it out... by making links turn orange on hover!

How, you may ask? It confirmed that the style from the css was successfully applying to the barebones html I'd already written, and gave me a better idea of what exactly was going wrong. Never discount the odd ways of troubleshooting, tbh.

I've also made a huge leap of progress on my own site, specifically the gallery pages, though they are DEFINITELY still works in progress, namely in layout. I've had to expand my understanding a litle and read up on stuff like flex boxes, which I might expand on and cover in my next DevLog as I make more progress.

I also started sketching some ideas with a friend out for a sort of idle colony sim--I don't want to spoil too much, but our shared notes are preeetty exciting so far!

On the topic of games, Garry's Mod is kind of a wreck on linux. I managed to get it going fine with Proton 9.x, which is hilarious--it straight up does not run anymore on the native build. No idea what got broken, but it sure is Something to behold, hah. I have been wading through my subscribed items, trying to update some of the tools and utilities. One of these days I'll get my shit figured out and upload a UT99 playstation-port Xan... I already have a lot of plans for such a thing, of course.

I have been honing my skills with blender, especially rigging, which has been interesting. I definitely GET it, it's just a matter of synthesizing and memorizing parts of the control scheme and especially how to fiddle with things like shapekeys. The perk of ragdoll stuff is you don't need a ton of picky shit... phew! Getting ahead of myself a bit there.

This month has been super busy, and I've been a bit scatterbrained, but here's to another month of progress, eh?

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[hpdfag]

I didn’t get to see the pink theme sadly but this deeper red one is so cool?? It probably looks much better in dark mode but I have too many eye problems too use it all the time ngl…I’ll check it out later!

How have you been doing? I recently got a bit too BPD and now I’m in this little stage where I really wanna improve as a person, getting into self care and all that shit. It’s a bit silly, and I’m sure it’s something akin to mania, but I think it’s good for me to feel so stimulated to take care of myself! For me, it’ll get me a compliment or two from my FP and overall I’ll feel better for them. And I end up feeling good for myself so…happiness for the whole family!

Tell me a bit about how you’ve been doing and all, stuff that happened (if anything!) or anything on your mind. We’re always open-eared around you :}

- 🧶

THANK U THANK U !!!!!! ive been on an editing kick again so ive been messing w/ the themes on basically all of my blogs .. im glad u like this one :D

i've been doing really well!! it's similar for me actually, i'm finally doing some really hard work with my therapist and it sucks but it's making me want to get better. i really do believe that it's what i'm here to do, and it feels wonderful to have a purpose again. i always say that the meaning of life is something you have to find for yourself, but i never really bothered with it. i always considered myself a lost cause. but maybe i can get out of this. maybe one day i won't feel so small and scared ... it feels wonderful to feel wonderful :]

and it is good !! even if it's just mania, it's always good to take care of yourself. i always relearn some unfortunate truths whenever i bother with self care like "i feel more like a person when i bother to shower and eat breakfast" LOLOL

overall i've been doing a lot better i think :] im finally starting to break out of the mindset i worked myself into with my ex and im feeling much better for it. i've actually had several people irl tell me that im looking visibly better completely unprompted and it catches me off gaurd every time haha

i haven't been doing much but !! im hoping to get back into the swing of things, especially with school coming up in september ... but it's gonna be the last year before college!! im a senior!! wtf!! it feels weird going into senior year at 16 but i did start kindergarten at like 4 years old so i guess it tracks /silly

right now the project i want to get back on is my neocities ... it's a total mess right now while i figure out html and css, but hopefully eventually i can make it my own !! it's very vaguely space themed right now but eventually i wanna theme it off of myself since like. all of our interests come and go but unfortunately i remain /silly .. it'll be difficult but lots of fun !! (i have it linked here if u wanna poke around it in its current laughably unfinished state, itll look best on google chrome on desktop!)

ive been spending a bit more time with my mom recently too, ive been rewatching some of my favorite anime with her and we're gonna watch some newer ones too!! (we've gotten thru evangelion and madoka magica so far, and we're gonna start cowboy bebop next ^_^)

auauauaua ive started rambling like hell but !! im glad to be able 2 chat with u, it's always one of the highlights of our day :]

[garrisonpark-blog]

#1

I will begin to post when I have interesting things to share about what I have completed or started making to do with my project, so that I know what I've done for today, and as a reminder of how far I have come!

2 days ago I created my first map draft, started a neocities page, and began to plan out what I must do to get my idea into a tangible thing. I'm working on my neocities page to some difficulty, as I've never played with html before, but I'm sure I'll figure it out.

Happy with the map, though I might remove some things and I need to add the antagonists location.

My plans I'm fully happy with, I'll start making a list of what I should be doing in order next!

My neocities page will take some time, I don’t really recommend looking it up as its a little broken and not worth your time. I'm making it because I'd like to archive my work, ideas, progress and any related websites into one place, and I think neocities is very lovely.

Till next time!! <33

[glacierruler]

Intro Post

I'm making a new post due to the fact that my other one is old!

Fun Facts About Me

I am over the age of 18.

I'm genderfluid and genderqueer, as well as asexual and maybe on the aro spectrum(but I'm not too sure yet, thought I was lithromantic for a while but it no longer fits).

I have bipolar 1 disorder, and adhd. Possibly autistic, I hit most of the traits, but I'm not certain enough about it to claim it.

My legs hurt all the time for some reason, still trying to figure out why.

I'm in college for a fine arts degree!

I really love painting, writing, doing digital art, reading, and sewing!

Currently hyper fixating on Sanders Sides. I haven't really changed hyperfixations.

I also really enjoy Marble League, Hermitcraft, and the 3rd Life series that Grian started.

For music, my absolute favorite band is AJR. I do like other bands and songs, but AJR is most of what I listen to. I also have a record player!

Fics and Fanfics

Masterpost for my sasi fanfics!

Masterpost for my hermitcraft fanfics!

Making the Future Masterpost

Where You Can Support Me

This is where my ko-fi is located

It has some original art prints on it, and you can also commission me to write stuff. Some things might end up being taken off and put back on, but that's mostly due to not having the product and needing to order more.

Other Links

My neocities website!

I'm still working on it, so there are definitely more features that will come with it. I'm teaching myself how to do stuff, so the layout is a bit bland for now, but it's there!

Some Final Things

My askbox is open and probably won't close depending on how things go. Feel free to drop by and say hi.

I'm fine with dms for the most part!

[eidolonightmare]

will make an acc soon when i can !!!! you use so kmany big words ur like a wizard casting spells . i like the last one the most , i dont know how to read with rhythm but it still sounds cool . i can imagine the few like music ppls i like singing it :3 very talented !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i will most definately have you help me learn french in the future idf we are friends !!!!!! also THANBK YOU for the list i will take them thru out the night and let you know what i get :DDDDD i love quizzes tysm !!!!!!!! see for me i think i could listen to it and (maybe) read it well but NOT write and not speak ?? that goes for all languages tho

THE LAST TIME I WAS ACTIVE IN YANBLR WAS 2022 (I THINK) WHERE I HAD MY OWN ACC AND THEN SUMMER OF THIS YEAR WHEN I JUST KINDA LURKED LMAO , I WAS TOO SCARED TO MAKE POSTS BECAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF POPULAR USERS I DONT LIKE AND I DIDNT WANT TO RUN INTO THEM OR THEIR MUTUALS , now i dont care AS MUCH but i still dont like a couple of them tbh

and i have no idea when i graduate . like none uhm .... im also homeschooled (/neg) so that will definitely contribute to if im even like able to . iiiiiiiiii have a slight feeling i might end up dropping out once i am seventeen sdjekjrfr but its okay . will live my house dog dream ^___________^

and i took computer science and i failed it ! so LMAO , U HAVE MY CONGRATS . my neocities is also bland-ish because i REFUSE to use iframes , FUCK that .

and yes i am currently replaying pkmn legends . this might sound silly but ive never finished a pkmn game . tbh story based games bore the hell out of me JDNFIJSRFIERK I CANT STAND TO PLAY THEM . THERYE FUN TO WATCH BUT BESIDES THAT BLEGH

i dooooont have much else to say tbh :P am very sleepy and tired and i doooont really like the tumblor ask system FNWEJFKWJRFK , u can msg me if you want /nf BUT THAT MIGHT BE AWKWARD ???? i dunno dude my social skills are comparable to like . i dont want to say an ant because ants have like tons of interactions but like . i dunno maybe a worm ........ do worms ,,, are worms talkative ? i mean im talkative i just dont know what the fuck im saying . also i think thats kinda funny because i am LITERALLY a dog and yet i have no idea how to interact with anyone or anything , but that is okay , im like one of those dogs who have their like "person" i guess . idk what the fuck im talking about dude .

anyway uhm YEAH feel free 2 msg me if u want but you dont have to because i ammmm not sure if it is an appropriate time to ask so . uhh u do what YOU want yes . yes . OKAY BYE BYE TAKIUNG UR QUIZZES - ALEX THE THE THE MAN BOY DOG WOLF CANINE IDFK MAN

sorry if this response is kinda dry i am Tired. but i wanted to respond.

alright awesome!! heheheh thank you i suppose. thank you! ^_^ i'm glad you liked it!!!

hehehe yippee awesome...!! great great i'm excited to see what you get. i hope you have fun taking them! yeah i get that. that happens to me, too. i think you just have to practice more when that happens honestly... and get more input so you feel more comfortable.

ahh yeah i get that lmfao. one of my friend's exes is on here and i have an ex on here so i'm trying to avoid them and their friends... lmfao. and another person i don't like. real.

oohhh yeah. i wouldn't recommend dropping out if it's possible for you to not because that's going to make things harder for you in the future but i won't judge you if you do or anything. because school is really hard T_T. dog house dream!!

fair tbh!!! some parts of that class were rly hard for me so i understand why that might happen T_T. also real. i just can't figure out how to make it look cooler; maybe i'll work on it some more.

yay awesome. also that's totally fair.

okie that's alright!! i'll message you then ^_^ hehe that's fair. i think i understand what you mean though idk how to describe it either, lmfao.

alright :D i shall message you. yippee taking my quizzes!! ^_^

[rozinaaa]

I Like Tumblr

I know this is metaphysical (a bit ironic, since it's also my 360th post on this blog, which gives me the feeling that I've literally come full circle), and I never thought that I'd say this, but I like Tumblr, since it makes long form blogging cheap and accessible, along with having the option to create different types of content, instead of being forced to focus on creating one type of thing all the time (Instagram lets you post anything visual (but also makes you obsess over yourself too much to the point where it starts to get harmful), TikTok is ALL about videos (and basically hijacks your brain), Medium is basically the capitalist political hellsite version of Tumblr (essentially being a longer form version of Twitter/X), LinkedIn is the work version of Facebook (which is ironic since I also use LinkedIn a lot), Neocities is for anyone who refuses to get with the times (usually people that think they're still 10, even though they could be at least three times that age, and don't know much about decent UI Design, either through sheer stubbornness, or through a genuine lack of skill and knowledge, as well as essentially grieving nostalgically about a time that may or may not have lived through), WordPress feels way too complex, coding my own sites by hand becomes a headache (I just want to focus on designing and writing (and all the other creative things) without having to needlessly mess around with the development side of things), and I know that you can combine text and image on other platforms, but it doesn't feel the same as doing it like this), as well as combining it with social media, but combining it in a way which doesn't feel overly addictive or competitive like the other platforms.

Perhaps this is my main experience of using Tumblr as a way to create content, since I've also been guilty of consuming lots of content on here as I have on all the other platforms, so I guess it's good to maintain the balance and see what others are doing from time to time, so that you don't get too alienated and end up in your own little bubble.

I guess what I want out of social media and content creation is to not feel pressured in obsessing over stats and the pressure to be Absolutely Flawless And Perfect All The Time™️, but to just enjoy the act of creating the content that I want to see, and potentially invite others around to see it as well, instead of trying to create a full blown business (I've seen others do it, and it seems like you're either well-established (to the point where you earn so much that it basically replaces your dayjob), or you're just lurking in the corners, wanting to start, only to be too paralysed by choice and input to even make the first step, but never encountering someone who's in the middle, and is essentially an amateur content creator, since they usually tend to be more realistic than the professionals), because that does get overwhelming when you're literally trying to figure out yourself and what you want to do.

I've felt this over the past 10 years (but I always obsessed over creating visuals for fake brands that I created which (thankfully) never really took off, which explains my foray into graphic design), to the point where it feels like I'm a perpetual amateur content creator, never seeming to break the surface, so I'm not too sure how I feel about that.

For now, using Tumblr feels like using scrap paper (in a good way), since I can just post what I want without having to worry about algorithms and whatnot, essentially using it as a way to sketch out my thoughts and ideas, not to mention that I can create multiple blogs under one account, so I can try out different online personas without having to carve out a whole brand for them.

To be honest, the only way that I'm going to actually do something is if it's cheap (i.e. low cost, and also cheap to produce, by having a lower barrier to entry), easy to use (there's probably a reason why I update my Tumblr much more than either of my handcoded sites, since Tumblr feels a lot more accessible to me, and there's a lot less friction involved, compared to updating various files and stressing over the development sides of things), it looks visually appealing (this is probably why I also happen to be a UI Designer, but I've always cared about how things have looked, so that's probably just who I am), and that it's cloud/web-based, since I have the option to log in to the platform from any device and just get on with it, without having to mess around with the overly technical stuff all the time.

With all of this said, I think I might create a Research and Development blog that's similar to this, but make it about things that directly link to my job/line of work (so literally just UI/UX Design, Research, and other hints of Graphic Design, which would be the main focus of the blog, although I'd be free to talk about other things that might link to The Main Thing, and I'd host it on Tumblr for all of the reasons that I've previously mentioned), as well as actually making it public, so that others can see my posts, and so that it can act a bit like a portfolio, along with being able to create content in a non-competitive way, and building my way up, instead of feeling like I have to start off from the top, and wonder why I get burnt out and ditch the idea of creating content so quickly.

[astralartefact]

Placeholder Name for Atarase's Media Diary

Entry 001 - 13 Sentinels: Aegis Rim

Synopsis

13 "kids" figure out what the fuck is going until finally, in the last 30 minutes, the power of love makes me - specifically the 2024 me - barf all over the place. My therapist will hear about this.

I always wanted to do something like this for the games I play, but I always told myself I would make a neocities or a blogspot or something for it; that won't happen so I'll just do it here instead of not doing it at all

How much did I know before playing?

I knew Time Shenanigans were involved, but other than that only that people really love it.

Did I like it more than I hated it?

I liked it much more than I hated it

Since I liked it, here's what I hated about it

I hated most of the Romance. Ruined the ending of a really cool game for me (jury is still out if i'm hyperbolic, for more on all of this check out the ramble section at the end) they should have cut most of it out - which would be easy because most of it only happens in the last 10% of the game.

(Exceptions are Okino & Takatoshi (even though i didn't like that taka was still 'no homo... right????' in the ending while enough time had passed for the others to have kids) and I think Ogata & Tomi worked too because, well, it was actually built towards throughout the game from both sides, crazy how that works).

Also it feels mean that Miwako (the queen) and Okino aren't playable characters. It's almost as if there's something different about those two specifically. Wonder what that might be.

What did this game make me think about?

What makes you you?

...also the ending shit made me spiral hard about loneliness and romance, probably should be honest enough to mention that

Specific Impressions that will stick with me

The Sentinel Calling animations happening in every character's last scene is really cool. I love when there's an iconic but 'formulaic' thing that every character gets their own version of, like a Magical Girl Transformation. Always great.

Also I played around with having the characters read out the titles of their memories way too much to not mention it.

Also Also, a very specific Tomi scene that I will talk about further below is vividly stuck in my brain.

Outstanding Audio

LEUCINE, LYSINE, High Alert, Seaside Vacation

Honestly, the music in this game was fantastic. I never really heard people talk about specifically the ost before, but I guess people rarely talk about video game osts unless it's something on the iconicness of persona or they know the name behind who made it.

Favorite Character

Keitaro Miura is the Razumihin of our times. I also really liked Ei Sekigahara, but then that ending happened.

Also, of course, Tsukasa Okino is an Icon.

Favorite Arc/Story Line

A lot of them, but I will leave it at these two:

All of the 2188 Miura & BJ stuff

Yuki's detective story line

Favorite Set Piece

The Final Defense sequence is really cool. I actually wasn't sure if I made it or if this was just the game over screen lol

Favorite Scene

I remember a scene where Sentinel Miura tells Ei he knew all this time that something was going on because he's a bad liar, but that they're still friends despite what he did, but I couldn't find it on a quick look through the archive section.

But this scene had more chemistry than both of them had with their canon romantic partners and I will stand by that.

Best Performance

I didn't really pay much attention tbh, nobody really stood out - but I guess in a good way, I really liked all of the JP voice cast. The only thing I ever really thought out loud was "That's Saori Hayami."

--- ENTERING THE PRETENTIOUS SECTION OF THIS ENTRY ---

What about this game gives me Hope for the future of gaming?

I guess I always love when Japanese games demonstrate that they know Queer People exist.

What about this game makes me scared for the future of gaming?

You know how basically all Gamers hate Capitalism these days? Yeah, while that's definitely a net good, this is one of the very specific instances in which it's a bad thing.

I just want to play this game made by the same people again. Not a sequel, nothing that's related to this, but just another game that's mechanically exactly like this that's just another setting with another mystery to solve. Just put to use what you have learned doing this and make a game like this again.

Like, you don't have to do it forever, but you could do it again, just for me who really loved playing this game you made!!!

But we don't really get "easy" sequels these days anymore, because everything has to have a new take, a new mechanic - or else it's lazy and a "cash-grab". And that kind of sucks, because most of the time just doing something again will mean you know now what worked and what didn't.

The Ramble Section where I get to actually talk about what I thought about

Okay, so basically, I really liked how the game portrayed the idea of "You're not just your soul/your DNA, you're also made up by the actions and influences of everyone around you. If you 'lived again' you wouldn't become the same person, because your context would be different."

It's in the whole thing that for every name there are actually about three different characters that are all different people - but I think my favorite example is actually the whole Tomi x Ogata thing - which is why I think it's one of the few romances in this game that works.

There's a scene in her story where in her original Sector Tomi goes to look what happened to her home together with Ogata. That exact same scene, everything she says, also happens in Amiguchi's memories from the loop before - but instead of Ogata, Tetsuya Ida is there as her love interest. And that basically brings it to a point - Sure, who you are/your "DNA" matters - but it also matters who's there with you. And that's why she ends up with Ogata this time.

In one of Ei's scenes Okino also talks about how there is really no difference between him and an AI Nanomachine version of him that's exactly the same - we change all of the time so why would it matter where exactly our memories come from if all of it works the same?

And that's like almost the entire game. People realizing that the person they were and the person they are 'supposed to be' are different people from who they are. It really is demonstrated by the most important character of all - the 'current version' of Chihiro, Iori, is basically fully irrelevant to the plot of the game. And I think that's kind of cool? To argue that any kind of "DNA" could become any size of plot relevant depending on the circumstances. That all of these "same" people have developed their own self and all of theses selves and their decisions are equally as valuable despite not being "fated" to do one specific thing. (It's kind of nihilistic in a way - if nothing about you is specifically 'valuable', everything you end up doing is valuable the same amount)

But this is also exactly why most of the Romance in this game sucks ass. Either you have Miura x Minami or Yakushiji x Kurabe where they all of a sudden argue the exact opposite, where the only romantic development happens through past characters - characters whose whole deal especially in Kurabe's case is that THEY'RE NOT HIM. THAT'S THE ENTIRE FCKIN POINT OF HIS ENTIRE PLOT LINE - and suddenly it's just "Well, the current version also loves them, I guess they are the same, no trust me, they found their way here on their own we didn't just forget to write that" despite either almost nothing (Minami has much more development with BJ - who's alive at the end, you could have just made those two happen and leave my sweet boy alone) happening between them or worse - Budget Homura being a fckin stalker for 80% of the game and then in the 20% where she isn't, Kurabe isn't even around for it.

But then on the other hand you have Ei x Iori, Yuki x Amiguchi and Gouto x Shinonome, where it just feels like they had to add this because... well, they simply need to have romance? Did you miss that this game was about romance? You simply have to understand, these children simply have a need to romance. They need. To. FUC-

I mean, out of these Yuki x Amiguchi still works the best, mainly because I guess at least it's built up during the course of the game, but like. Fuck that. Amiguchi just annoyed her and then bam it's love. Yuki is such a good character, her arc is so great and then she let's herself be harrased into liking this whelp. And then they hate each other in the ending, bc haha, isn't it funny that Amiguchi still flirts with other people when they're married??? (and we'll get to the ending.)

Gouto x Shinonome was just thrown in there in one singular sentences for absolutely no good reason. Why even mention it. Why was this a thing you needed to establish. Could you just simply not fathom that at least one character in this game might not have been in a relationship at the age of 16?

(Well, there IS a character who wants to get a relationship but is thanks to this nonsense the only one who explicitly doesn't get one. Her name starts with M and ends with -iwako and she would have deserved to be a main character. I wonder what's different about her from everyone else... i already made that 'joke')

But now to the crown jewel of my hate about this game's romance:

Ei x Iori is absolute garbage. I hate it so fucking much. I said earlier that I thought Iori being irrelevant is really cool - well, it's too bad that only happened because they waste her story segment on whatever this is.

Their entire relationship is... that Iori thinks he's cute.

That's all. That's all of it. They didn't have a single full conversation before they started dating. Why. Why is Iori's only character trait that she thinks Ei is cute. I don't even think she gets to react to Ei telling her he killed her in a previous life. Like, think of the drama this relationship could have. Her figuring out that Ei killed not only her teacher self but the 2188 real self too and now he's here and he's after her so she needs to escape - but he's so cute... (which is the only reason why I will forgive the shippers, i trust you people to make this work)

None of that is in her story. She just wants to meet him again to tell him she loves him. And then she does. And then they're together. And now we're spending the culmination of the entire game on this bullshit.

The home stretch of the game (for me that was the last half wave + the ending) was excrutiating for me to play through. To be transparent - part of it is that I'm currently really struggling with loneliness thanks to my pretty severe social anxiety - which of course also includes love and 'finding a partner'. And this game really didn't help when all of a sudden 80% in it decided to become about """Love""" instead.

Everyone ends up in these perfect little relationships with zero effort - and it just made me feel like shit. Suddenly the entire game, everything we've learned about these characters, all of the small interpersonal connections we have made between these characters, every single of them that mattered so much to unlock the entirety of their 'truth', of their willingness to get into the Sentinel - meaningless. The only thing that matters is that they're now boyfriend and girlfriend. The only thing that matters is that they have children now. It doesn't matter what they decide to do with their life, it doesn't matter what they think of the situation they're in.

I think Iori doesn't get a single line about what she thinks about Chihiro Morimura being her.

And that's really it. Instead of getting a revue or something, any real introspective conclusion to these character's experiences that they had over the course of this fantastic story we just throw all of it out of the window so we can instead talk about how all of these people are in relationships now - even the creepy evil dude is """finally""" reunited with his virtual Idol! Isn't that heartwarming! LOVE! ROMANCE!

Ei isn't even in the fucking ending!!!

I hate the Ending. I hate it. Fuck that ending. Almost infuriates me as much as Eulogia. (Fuck Eulogia)

Okay, writing this later than the part before but I read the part of the wikipedia article where they talk about Kamitani's thoughts on the scenario he wrote and I don't get this man - he says he wanted the game (and specifically Ei's story) to be a romance???? That was the original plan that "remained"??? What??? Have you somehow edited out all of those romance parts in the main part of the game and just left them at the end???

Like, again, They have crushes, sure, stuff like that is hinted at or mentioned in passing, but the character's struggles and storylines are for the most part unrelated to the romance of the playable characters and because of that the romance, like, doesn't progress at all, people have crushes that one of the two thinks about in a static thought that doesn't actually develop further from its premise until right at the end where a relationship just happens out of thin air because I guess this is what romance is - so to say that that's a theme they always planned is crazy to me because you did nothing with it.

Also, apparently a lot of the best parts of the game (Yuki's detective storyline, all of Okino, Ogama's story and the Gotou Chihiro sequences) are the ones that were 'hard to write' and/or changed late into production - which is crazy, usually it's the other way around...

[keepthisholykiss]

Okay it's time, here's my gtfo of Tumblr post

Since Tumblr was previously my most active social media website I figure I will make a proper post to pin about my move off-site. By Jan 1 this blog will be deleted entirely. If you want to find me elsewhere now is the time. Here's the list of places to find me and how often I'll be around them!

My new website! - This is hands down the easiest place to find me. I am creating my website from the ground up so it's a mess but in an endearing way. I've even made my first blog post here. This website will essentially function how my Tumblr previously did. I will post blogs about random things, add updates on projects, create and publish free educational resources, and more! I do not have an RSS (yet?) so the easiest way to follow me is via a neocities account.

Cohost - Of the many twitter alts out there I like cohost the best. I have fun with it, I'm slowly finding my feet there, and I think the vibes are generally good. I do not follow nearly enough folks yet so if you follow me here please let's be mutuals there! I plan to use it much like twitter with lots of one-off thoughts. I am only still on twitter to stay up to date with activism stuff so it's really not worth plugging my twitter now.

Instagram - This is one of the only "big" socials I am active on. It's best to follow me here for activism stuff, cooking, and art as those are basically the only things I post there. If you want to follow me on IG please DM me because I am selective with who I trust to follow me there as I post more IRL things there.

...and that's it! Unless another weird niche semi-old-internet vibe type thing comes out I will only be in those three places from now on. I have been a tumblr user with few breaks since 2008 across a variety of accounts and niches. I don't know that I ever thought I would leave tumblr "for good" but it's way past time. My work in activism will continue offline largely or in ways I'm not talking about here.

Since I won't have time or space to post it in the new year (and like only 2 IRLs follow me here) we are relocating to Oregon next year for probably our last major move ever unless we end up needing (and having the means lol) to leave the country. I am also leaving 4-year institution work which is very exciting for me. Our journey in moving, my journey in finding my place in alternative educational lenses, and more will be covered largely on my blog and in other places I'm sure. So if any of that interests you feel free to follow me off this website. I also have heard something about tumblr dying (again) which lol, lmao even. I truly don't care how true or not that is, please know my intention in leaving has nothing to do with that and has everything to do with being a marketable number for them.

In closing, fuck tumblr, fuck staff, fuck specifically the bitch who runs emporium and tricked all these kids into dumping funds into a website that hates them. Fuck zionists, fuck transphobes, fuck racists, fuck neoliberal apologists, and fuck anyone who is trying to shame you into shutting up about the lives of people who deserve to live. Also organize within your communities and find ways to disengage from the economy and create a better future.

My wish is that every oppressed nation of beautiful people will be free now and forever, that land goes back to who it belongs to, and that some day capitalism will not ruin art, community, and love the way it has on this website and across the world.

[tkitten16]

happy end of 2022 everyone!

it hasn't really turned 2023 here yet but i figured i'd at least toss out my basic as heck plans for it i guess! (sorry for how messy and long this is, my mind's not good at getting my point across without it being a mile long) one thing i'm mainly planning on doing is to work on coding a bit more, mostly for my neocities site because boy do i need to actually clean up the html for it and move most (if not all) of the style part of into css for ease of use aaa-

another thing i'm planning on doing is more art/animation obviously, along with trying to get out of the fear of drawing stuff that i'm obsessed with that isn't my Mario OCs, because boy do i want to be chaotic as hell and actually draw more stuff that has affected™ my younger self's creative side (looks at Undertale AU stuff)

i also really want to mess around in paint a lot more, the program is very scrungly but it's fun to just make something messy in it, i really want to make a pmv or amv with it in the future once i figure out the optimal way of making the background, foreground, and characters separate from each other without causing any huge messes in screening them out individually (especially if i want to play around with brushes that aren't the pixelart-y pencil tool ack-)

and last but not least, i REALLY need to finish making more lore for my OCs, i specifically need to write Sinder and Lathyrus's whole meeting thing so i can use it as a ref for whenever Sinder appears in the askblog. not to mention stuff for Shen before the events of meeting Karu, and Karu's whole family in itself.

so yeah! i'm gonna be busy as hell next year, that's for sure!

i don't really have much left to say that isn't 'practice/figure out music, coding, and writing in general' so uh, i guess i'm done for now!

See you next year i guess!

[iraprince]

oooh okay 1) your site concept + decor ideas r SO cute already and 2) do u have any recs for people who also want to learn html? whether theyre your own personal tips or like, 'this site has a rlly good breakdown of the basics' or w/e

1)thank u sm!!! and 2) yes!! neocities has a short/bare bones but very friendly tutorial when you first set up an account (hosted by a cartoon cat.) that you can complete in one sitting, and then after that (or instead of that) you can go to w3schools html + css tutorials and just kind of start doing them from the top. (you're going to find that you basically have to learn css at the same time that u learn html for most of the stuff you'd want to do on a website, but it's not so bad.) i've been slowly working my way through those, and googling stuff when i have specific questions about how to do stuff! beyond those basics, sadgrl.online is incredibly helpful and has a lot of guides + tutorials, plus just fun stuff that's specifically geared towards personalized websites/shrines.

also, start small and be patient. especially when we're used to super slick modern social media where everything is all rounded off and animated and shit, it's easy to get a box and a few lines of html up and feel, like... discouraged, or disappointed, like "i worked all afternoon on this and it looks like shit" -- but it doesn't!!! you cannot barf out a finished website in one day and you'll drive yourself nuts if you expect that of yourself, so get comfy with bare bones boxes and text and ugly little links for now. i have found myself getting way more frustrated if i decide i need to do 3000 complex things RIGHT NOW vs patiently building up things from bare bones, plus it's easier to build up more elements on top of something simple than to tear apart something where u got in over ur head and now u have to figure out why it's not working.

i also recommend trying out a dedicated code editing program like vscode rather than doing everything directly in whatever area you're finalizing/hosting things in. it's a drag to edit, save, clear your cache, load the website to check if it looks good, rinse and repeat -- i'm finding it way easier to try stuff in vscode paired with a live preview (i'm using this extension; it took a little fiddling to get it working bc i'm so new to all of it, but there are instructions on the page!) this way of working has been way easier for me; i'm sure other editors probably have something similar, but basically how this works is i have vscode up, then right next to it a browser window with my live preview in it, and every time i crtl+s to save my html in vscode the preview of the site updates. makes trial + error way faster and overall it makes the whole thing less intimidating!! (not everything in the preview will always work on the site, u will still have to troubleshoot and tweak stuff, but this way of doing it has still been way more enjoyable and streamlined for me overall.)

final note: i have literally only been doing this for like, two days! it's not easier than i expected, it's hard and confusing and slow, but it's been way less painful than i expected. you can do it!!!!!!!!