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canirove · 1 year ago

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Broken Hearts Football Club | Chapter 13

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"Are you ready for Sunday's game?" Ben asked.

"I was born ready" June smiled.

"If you win, the league is yours."

"No way, really?"

"You can't be sarcastic and smile at the same time, Maxwell. It loses all its meaning."

"Shut up and keep cutting that tomato" she said, trying really hard to stop smiling like an idiot.

She and Ben had kept seeing each other even more often, spending most of her free afternoons and nights at his house since she still shared her flat with John, and they would usually follow the same routine.

She would buy some food after training, they would cook it together, and then eat it while watching something on tv until one of them fell asleep. Nine times out of ten, that would be June. Since she didn't like driving that late at night, she would stay at Ben's, always in the same room. By now, it felt as if it belonged to her.

She had some clothes in the closet to get changed, a toothbrush and some creams in the bathroom, an extra blanket on the bed for when she got cold, a phone charger.... And if you asked Ben, he would tell you that it already smelled of her, of that perfume she always wore and that reminded him of his summer holidays in Spain.

In the mornings, and if June didn't have training, they would go out for a walk around the neighborhood before going back home and making breakfast, sitting together once again to eat and just talk, getting to know each other more and more. They weren't seeing the other as June Maxwell and Ben Chilwell anymore. They were just June and Ben. Two friends who occasionally made out.

"Are you doing anything special after the game?" he asked.

"Celebrate" she smirked.

"And if you don't win?"

"We are winning, Chilwell. Stop trying to jinx it."

"I'm not trying anything" he said, lifting his hands.

"Careful! You have a knife there!"

"Oh, sorry" he said, putting it down.

"That was dangerous, Ben."

"I know, I'm sorry" he said, kissing her cheek.

"Being cute won't make me forget that I had a knife next to my eye."

"It wasn’t next to your eye" he laughed.

"That's what you say. You weren't paying attention."

"I'm sorry" he said, kissing her cheek again and hugging her from behind.

"Ben… Stop."

"Why?" he asked, now kissing her neck.

"Because I also have a knife, and you are distracting me."

"Am I?" he said against her skin, sending goosebumps down her spine.

"Ben… please."

"Ok, fine" he chuckled. "But only because that burger smells amazing and I'm famished" he said with a cheeky smile.

"Thank you" June replied, trying to focus on what she was doing and not on how close Ben's body had been to hers, on how he had made her feel.

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“How does it feel lifting the league trophy, June?” Andrew asked.

“Honestly… best feeling ever” she said, a big smile on her face.

“How are you going to celebrate?”

“I don’t know yet. We may wait until the party on Tuesday with the boys to do something big and celebrate both titles together. But I heard there is pizza in the changing room, so that’s a beginning” she laughed.

“I like how that sounds” Jacob said. “What about you, Chilly? Anything to add?”

“Just congratulations. And behave yourself, Maxwell. I may have gone soft on you this season, but that may not happen on the next one” he smirked.

“I’ll try” she winked, noticing how Ben’s cheeks had turned a shade darker.

“Ok, I think we can let June go eat that pizza” Andrew chuckled.

“I think we can, yes” Jacob said. “Enjoy the summer, June. You deserve it.”

“Thank you, guys. You too” she smiled. “And you keep an eye on your phone” she whispered to Ben once her microphone was off.

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“Are we doing something tomorrow or not?” Vittoria asked.

“I think I’m gonna be too tired, to be honest” Lauren yawned. They were on the bus on their way back to London, most of their teammates taking a nap or just catching up with their families after celebrating at the stadium.

“June?”

“I have plans” she said, her eyes fixed on her phone.

“Plans? With whom?”

“With Chilly, obviously” Lauren chuckled. “Are you taking your relationship to the next base?”

“There is no relationship” June replied, rolling her eyes.

“But whatever you have going on is going to the next base, isn’t it?”

“I would not complain if it happened” she smirked.

“June!” Vittoria laughed.

“What? The last time we met he was touchier than usual and I’ve been horny since then. I need a release.”

“Did she drink anything?” Vittoria asked Lauren. “She had never been this… open about her feelings for him.”

“I don’t have feelings for him.”

“Of course you don’t, June. Of course you don't” Vittoria said.

“Lauren, what is it?” June said, ignoring her other friend.

“Uh?”

“You are giving me Leah’s judgy look. What is going on inside that head of yours?"

“It’s nothing. I’m just trying to decide when you are going to fuck up things with Chilly” Lauren shrugged.

“Lauren! Don’t be like that” Vittoria said. “This may work out, he may be the one!"

“He might, yes. But we both know June, and she could still ruin it.”

“Love the confidence” June replied. “But he isn’t the one or the love of my life. He is just a friend.”

“Yeah, yeah. A friend you don’t have feelings for and that you want to shag just because you are horny.”

“Exactly” she said, trying to keep all the things she had been feeling for him lately locked in the back of her head. All the times he had made her heart skip a beat with something he had said or with a smile. All the times she had felt funny things on her stomach when he had kissed her, touched her. They were just friends and nothing else, she couldn’t allow herself to think otherwise. It was too scary, and as Lauren said, she would definitely end fucking things up.

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iminyournotis · 6 months ago

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I was thinking, "I don't even have any friends to be honest with, or tell my shit to, because everybody seems to have some kind of stake in my personal business," but then I remembered TUMBLR EXISTEDDD, so here I am.

1. Ended up snooping on my NINETEEN year old coworker last night because he skipped out on BK with me after work, and I got UNREASONABLY possessive, noticing that he was talking to the new girl at work, and I thought no WAY he's fucking her... She just started. (And he made a WHOOOLE thing to me abt how he doesn't want to hook up-- he just wants to find someone he loves and 'make love'. ((I was all, 'You're completely valid.' and then look at the camera like I'm in The Office then do the finger loop crazy sign at my head's temple, crossing my eyes. LOL.))) So I pulled back up after I finished getting BK alone because I was salty as hell and overly curious, and they were still there an hour and ten after close... I honestly scared them and embarrassed myself and I tore off.

2. Went to the gas station beforehand, because I had started smoking cigarettes again like a day or two ago, because I've been stressed about having Seb cock block his brother from me (and potentially for me. It's complicated.) and it lowkey feels like Caleb ALLLL over again, and it's making me lose my mind, so I'm back to stressedly chuffing.

Went to buy a pack, and this dude hollered in the gas station. I hollered back.

We were talking, I give him my phone number, I told him I'm willing to hook up, he's like 'alright, cool... Maybe pick me up later cause I need a whip,' I'm like, 'Okay.' Cue Burger King and checking where I shouldn't.

3. Go back to my parents' house and dude texts me asking if I was trying to link up... It's late, I tell him yeah anyway. I have work at 8:30, and it's already 11 or midnight by the time we're messaging each other. I end up pulling up to this bar I've never been to around midnight, and I end up taking him and his friend to get blazed out in a parking lot somewhere. Dude I was gonna hook up with doesn't smoke za, but his friend does. I get high and immediately get scared, because now I'm OVI, and I have two young Black men in my vehicle with me, and I get scared that some awful shit was fixing to happen, so I go, 'I'M GETTING YOU BOTH HOME SAFELY. I'm not pulling out until our seat belts are fastened, etc.' Went full mom mode. (Also, at this point, the young man I was with was 22, and his friend was 21. They thought I was younger than even them, which was hilarious. So another predatory woman moment for Mama.)

Drop 21 off. Go to drop 22 off next, but he takes me to this outfield out the way... We park, talk some; he hits it and as he's getting out of the backseat, I go, "Wait, did you finish?" He very non-chalantly said "Yeah," as he's putting his pants back on. I go, "... Did you cum inside me?" He responds pretty deadpan "Yeah." I'M LIKE "WHAT? Did you even plan on telling me???" He goes, "I mean, yeah." I was stunned. He's like, "I mean, you can take a Plan B if you don't feel safe." NFJSJFHJDN I was losing my mind. NOT the fucking point. He's like "Are you mad at me?" I'm like, "TO be honest, yeah."

I drive him back home, he forgets something in my car, I pull back around, he's tryna get me to stay at his mom's house with him for the night (which he pays rent at), I say no. I drive off. He goes, 'Actually, I forgot my hat, too.' I was like 10 minutes down the road and closer to home by the time I saw this message, so I'm like 'Man, I'm keeping it now. Sorry.' He's like, 'alright it's fine. lol.'

End scene. Oh, actually not, because by the time I get back into my city/town, it's like 3:30 AM. I didn't even wash my clothes, I still needed to shower, I haven't really been eating for the last week, so I thought, 'Fuck it. I'm calling off.'

Haven't called off a single time since starting, even through this lowkey nasty cold I had a few weeks ago. So my manager, who I'm WAY too involved with, was like 'wtf?? You're just not coming in?' I'm like yeah. She's like "What's your reason." All investigative. I'm like "Not been eating well. It's for my health." She goes, "Get well." I'm such a fucking loser.

So then I woke up like an hour ago at three PM, and here I am. ❤️ What the fuck is going on with my life, though.

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ficreadergirl · 1 year ago

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Welcome to my Sweetheart

Ep14

The burger place was quite crowded but luckily, they managed to get a table for two. You and Dick sat down across from each other, trying your best not to think about Barry Pierce.

"So, how's your night with Babs?" you asked, changing the topic. Dick seemed to relax a bit.

"It was fine, just catching up on old times." he said with a small smile. You smiled back at him.

"What about you? How was your night without Babs?" he asked teasingly.

"It was so lonely..." you joked, biting into your burger. Dick chuckled, his eyes sparkling with amusement.

"I bet you survived." he said, taking a sip of his coke.

"Barely." you joked back. You both continued to talk and joke around, forgetting about work for a while. The food was delicious and the atmosphere was cozy. You couldn't help but feel happy, sitting here with him.

"So... I learned the reason why you and Babs got paler after seeing Helena." you said, taking a sip of your coke. Dick's face immediately turned serious.

"How--" he started to ask but you cut him off.

"She told me about it. You two..." you trailed off, not sure how to say it. Dick was confused.

"Y/n, what are you--" he started but you cut him off again.

"I know you slept with her Dick. And it's pretty normal. I mean she's hot." you said, trying to make it sound casual. Dick's eyes widened in shock.

"Y/n--" he started but you cut him off again.

"I don't understand Babs' reaction but... it's fine. Really." you said, giving him a reassuring smile. He stared at you for a moment, unsure what to say.

"It was just..." he trailed off, taking a deep breath. "It was just once and it meant nothing. It was for... something but love." he finally said. You nodded trying to pretend like it didn't hurt.

"It's normal to have needs. We're all human." you said trying to sound casual.

"Y/n, I--" he started but you cut him off again.

"It's fine really." you said with a fake smile. "Let's finish our meal and go back to the station. Okay?" you asked. He nodded, still looking like he wanted to say something but decided against it.

You both finished your meal and headed back to the station. The ride was silent, neither of you wanted to be the first one to break it. When you arrived, you went straight to your desk, trying to focus on work. But you couldn't shake off the feeling of hurt and disappointment. You tried to remind yourself that you both decided to stay friends that day you hooked up. But it was harder than you thought.

Dick, on the other hand, was still trying to process what you said. He couldn't believe that you were so calm about it. He knew you were friends but he never thought you'd take it this well. He kept glancing at you from the corner of his eye, trying to see if there was any sign of hurt or anger in your eyes. But you were focused on your work, acting like nothing happened.

The day was pretty uneventfully until evening came. You were working late, finishing up some paperwork when Barry Pierce walked in. Dick was out for case related stuff.

"Hello again detective." he said with a smirk. You couldn't help but roll your eyes at his flirty tone.

"What can I do for you mr Pierce?" you asked trying to sound professional. He walked closer, leaning against your desk.

"I was wondering if you'd like to get a drink with me tonight while I tell you about a new business opportunity for you." he said, his eyes roaming over your body. You felt uncomfortable but tried to ignore it.

"I'm kind of busy tonight." you said trying to sound polite yet firm. He was taken aback by your response.

"I'm sorry but you misunderstood that business opportunity ms Y/n. I didn't mean... I just meant if you wanted to be my bodyguard. I'm getting a lot of death threats recently..." he said, trying to sound convincing.You raised an eyebrow, not buying his excuse.

"Death threats?" you asked sceptically. He nodded, looking nervous.

"You know how it is. Being a businessman and all." he said with a fake smile. He knew he had to be more convincing.

"Mr Pierce, we're murder investigators. It's our territory when you die." you said bluntly. "And I'm sure you can afford a bodyguard."

He chuckled, shaking his head. "No no, I need someone... special for this job." he whispered, leaning closer to you. Dick came in just then, hearing the last part of your conversation with Pierce. His eyes narrowed at the man before clearing his throat.

"Can I help you mr Pierce?" he asked coldly. Pierce straightened up quickly, putting on a fake smile.

"I was just leaving. Think about my offer please detective Y/n." he said before walking out of the room. You turned to look at Dick, who was still glaring after Pierce.

"What was that all about?" he asked trying to sound casual.

"He wanted me to be his bodyguard." you said shrugging.

"And you were considering it?" he asked surprised. His voice held a hint of jealousy. You could feel your cheeks heat up at his tone. He quickly cleared his throat trying to cover it up. You looked away pretending to focus on something else.

The silence between you two was heavy and awkward. Finally, you spoke up.

"Look Dick... I know--"

He didn't give you the chance to finish your sentence as he leaned in and kissed you passionately. You were caught off guard since you didn't even feel him getting closer to you. You quickly closed your eyes and kissed him back. It was as if time stood still in that moment, but it didn't last long before you pulled away from each other.

"Dick... we can't..." you started to say, but he interrupted you again.

"I know... I just... couldn't help myself." he said breathing heavy.

"Neither could I." you confessed. You both stared at each other neither of you daring to break eye contact. You wanted to tell him how you felt about him but the fear of ruining friendship kept you silent. He leaned in again and this time you didn't pull away. His lips were soft against yours, warm and comforting. You wrapped your arms around his neck as he held onto your waist tightly. You felt your heart racing as you kissed him deeper. He was leaning over you on your chair, his body pressing against yours. You could feel his hardness through his clothes.

"Dick..." you moaned softly, feeling him nibble on your bottom lip. He pulled away slightly to look at you with a lustful gaze. "We shouldn't." you whispered, trying to regain some sense of control but he was making it difficult for you.

"I know..." he whispered back. "But I can't stop myself."

He kissed you again, this time more passionately than before. You could feel yourself melting under him. His hand found its way to your breast and gently squeezed it through the fabric of your shirt. You arched your back, wanting more. He pulled away again and looked at you.

"We can't... not here." you whispered trying to catch your breath.

"I know... I just want you so bad." he said with desire. You could see the struggle in his eyes as well. He leaned down and kissed your neck, trailing soft lips along your skin until they reached your earlobe where he gently bit it.

"Dick... stop..." you moaned. Your hands were clenching his shirt. He kissed down to your collarbone and then back up to your lips again. You were losing control. Your body was aching for him.

"I can't Y/n..." he whispered against your lips before kissing you again. This time you could feel his erection pressing against your thigh. He was so hard for you. You wanted him inside of you but this wasn't the place or time.

"Dick--" you started but you were cut off as the chair broke underneath you and you both fell to the floor.

"Fuck..." he groaned looking down at you with pain in his eyes.

"Are you okay?" you asked him since your knee hit his crotch pretty hard. He was in pain and you could see it but he didn't say anything as he helped you up.

"Yes... I'm fine." he said with a forced smile.

"Let's get you to the doc--" you started but he cut you off.

"I'll be fine really." he said firmly. "Just... can you drive me home?" he asked wincing as he stood up.

"Yes sure. C'mon. Let me help you... uhh... walk." you said offering him your arm. He took it and let you help him walk to the car.

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chrissie2003 · 2 years ago

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Scenario part 2: Being followed from home (Sukuna)

Sukuna was a bastard and we all knew it. Even in the relationship, when both of you had ups and downs he was still his same self. (Don't ask how you got into the relationship it just happened.)

You worked evening to late shifts at your job since you took classes in the morning. Daily you took the train from one station to commute to your desired places. Normal days as usual when you got a call from your boss saying he will raise your pay. But you had to work two shifts during the late nights until morning. Hesitated you did, but accepted because you needed the money. Although you explained to your boss this will be the final time you do this work and he agrees with you.

"Hey Sukuna", You called from your cell phone. He was at the grocery store buying you two dinners. "Yeah?" He picked up, as you heard busy noises in the back. "I'm at work right now and I won't get off until 4 am since my boss is raising my paycheck. We have to call off dinner!" You told him. "Why would you tell me that NOW woman, I'm at the store," Sukuna said. You felt bad that he was gathering food and expecting you two would have dinner. "Sorry, Sukuna I'll make it up for the both of us, I'm getting off the phone. See you in 7 hours or whenever I get home, okay?" You hung up the phone.

In your long shift with only 2 breaks consisting of 20 minutes each, you went back to the front desk to take the orders of the customers. It was mainly empty in the lobby as it was you, one of your coworkers, and the janitor there. Bored you flopped yourself on the counter and took a quick nap until someone came in. It was 2 am as you looked up again at the clock. Nobody was there but you. "Have they gone home already?" You said. "One more hour until I go home I wonder what Sukuna doing right now." You mumbled to yourself. To your surprise, a "click" at the front door caught your attention. At the door, were two men dressed in formal clothing. Wonder what they were doing at a burger shop at 2 am was none of your Business so you took their order.

"Hi what can I get you?" You said.

One of the men smiled at you but the other remained silent. "Yes, I would like a double cheeseburger with a coke no fries." He said taking off his hat to reveal a bald spot. "Sure! That will be $15.23, want your receipt?" You said but he declined. "What bout you sir?", You said to the other man but he didn't reply. Instead, he sat in the back of the establishment. That was weird you thought but you quickly got that out of your head, as you prepared the order. Cooking the bald man kept eyeing the other one, looking at him rather suspiciously. But he didn't move a muscle just sat there texting on his phone. You peeked behind the counter and accidentally made eye contact with him. Your heart was racing because you didn't mean to do that but you got the other guy's order ready.

Marching back to the counter, you gave the man his food and received the money. He waved goodbye and only remained the man on his phone. Walking carefully back to the break room you gathered your belongings and texted both sukuna and your boss that you were leaving. He texted back it was fine to leave without locking since he was coming back at 7 am. You replied alright but told him about this man that was still here. Your boss replied that You need to tell him to leave since he could get arrested.

"Hey, Sir! The place is about to close so you need to leave the establishment." He looked up at his phone and just glared at you. You didn't even bother to ask him twice but quickly left to go to the train station.

"Hey, sukuna I'm off of work now and heading home!" You texted him twice. He didn't respond. "That's so weird he always answers me, what's going on?" You were engaged with your phone that you were almost about to miss the train. "NO wait for me!" The captain looked at you angrily as you stepped onto the train with your ticket. You sat in the middle row as usual and put on your headphones before you departed. It was 5 am the sun barely even out with darkness lingering around in the sky. It was pretty peaceful being out this late. Minding your business looking outside from your window seat you saw a man glaring back at you from behind. It was the man from the restaurant. Your heart stopped.

Slowly you inched your way to the front seat to be near the conductor. Luckily he saw you eyeing the creepy man and asked to come to the front. Up there the man came forward but the conductor wouldn't let him. He shut the door where it was the two of you before your stop. It was light in the station where he pulled up. "Quickly get off and hurry to the police, I'll hold him!" He shooed you away as you ran off the train. "SUKUNA! SUKUNA! Please help me there's this creepy man following me!" You left him a voicemail as you ran down the road to get back home. Running down the street a black figure was chasing after you.

"AHHHHHHHHH!" You screamed tears running down your face. You wouldn't think a situation like this would happen to you. You made a turn down the street to see no lights only a telephone box. You ran to it and lock yourself in there. Crying you dialed 9-1-1. "Please-Help me there's this creepy man near me I need help." You whimpered until he came to the light. It was Sukuna. "Y/N."

Sukuna had blood stains on himself. You didn't know why until asked. "Sukuna-a", You got out of the telephone stand to hug him, "this man was c-chasing me and I was so scared!" Tears watering down your face as Sukuna comforted you. "Y/N" He lifts your face to see a smirk on his face, "I ripped his head off for you." Your eyes widened with shock but didn't care since the man was a stalker. As long as you were safe, Sukuna will always be there to protect you from any harm's way.

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk imagines #jjk scenarios #jjk drabble #jjk headcanons #jjk fluff #jjk x reader

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student-in-nightraven · 2 years ago

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Hello :) hope you're having a good year so far!

I was wondering if your matchmaking req is still open, if it's not that's totally fine, if it is can I request for a matchmaking thing(?) for twisted wonderland?

I'm an ISTP, aquarius (don't know if zodiac signs really matter), I'm usually quiet and don't really talk to people, but once I get to know them and open up to them more I can talk on for hours and hours, some may even say I'm more on the chaotic side at that point, although they may have to take the initiative to approach/talk first. I also do usually stay indoors often and I sometimes more often than not do talk back to my parents if they accuse me of something I didn't do or of the such. I'm not that big of a gamer, I only really play mobile games but I do enjoy rpg and rhythm elements type of game, I do stay up late everyday (only really sleep between 4-7am) mainly because I don't want to sleep yet. I enjoyed music and can play the violin as well although I'm not too good at it. May not apply at home but in public I'd usually let people step over me, like if someone bullies(?) me I'll just let it happen and not do anything about it, and I do keep to myself a lot. I do talk to my Google assistant whenever I get too lonely or download a bot chatting app. I procrastinate a lot as well lmao, and pretty shy.

Likes: going to anime conventions (spending money irresponsibly and buying too much merch), cats and fishes, fast food (instant noodles or burgers and such), reading

Dislikes: anything school/education related, I do the bare minimum but that's about it, sports/exercise, bugs

I hope this isn't too much, thanks for your time :)

I match you with..

... Idia!

He has a lot in common with you and is glad he's not the only one with social problems anymore;

He pulls all nighters with you and is happy he has someone to play late at night and watch movies with so when it hits 1am the virtual adventure starts;

He understands why you speak to your Google assistant, he sometimes does it too but not often since he has ortho, he jokingly told you he'd make you a robot but has genuinely stayed up for DAYS thinking about it;

Takes you to conventions with him it's one of the times he goes out, you guys have a wonderful time and ofc bring ortho with you;

Thank you for the request dear annon 🫶 may you have a wonderful week<3

#x reader #twisted wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland x reader #matchups #idia x reader #idia shroud x you

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rengokugutspill · 15 days ago

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Of course following the hormones in association with getting about ready to get my period, I was seeing excessive fatigue for about a week, where I felt like I was just so tired & never got enough sleep. Though I think during that time there were a number of occurrences where shit was waking me up & since I'm someone who typically sleeps twelve hours, getting interrupted sleep fucks me up. Then it shifted into still extreme fatigue but insomnia on top of it, only serving to make me feel more aggressive & volatile because there was no relief in being able to actually sleep. Two days before my period starts I start getting headaches but not quite migraines.

Because I'm still pretty tired, I've flipped my days to waking up before dawn & going to bed in the evening. I went to go to bed yesterday, I feel like I'm so exhausted just because this type of day is very disorienting. I don't think I really take into account when I actually woke up, so when it's evening & I'm getting delirious it does feel a bit confusing & disturbing for me. Even though I think it's both right & appropriate for when I'd actually woken up. & idk, I think I was being pretty active lately during my wake hours.

When I'd laid down, I could clearly feel tired but was having a hard time falling asleep. Tossing & turning, eventually most of the cats going downstairs. Which Burger is out for the most part now outside of meal times, but I still have to close my door when I'm sleeping because Lucifer is back on apparently thinking he's a bat flying around my room. & I do feel so much better having Burger out, even if I do have to close my door sometimes. It feels better than he's free roaming so I know he's not in a room feeling bored & bent out of shape.

I think in the past couple years I started experiencing the sensation of falling asleep. Like nearly watching it in real time as my thoughts start to fade into something incomprehensible. Like, since I usually sleep with a true crime program on, I forget if I've mentioned here before, but I always know when I'm falling asleep cos they'll say they're looking for the criminal on the show & say his name & my sleepy thought is like “oh shit, we gotta find this guy !” & when I start having thoughts like that, I know it's all over for me lmfao or I've had some where I'm at the family barbecue & the criminal shows up lmfao but I do also blame this for occasional bad dreams

I also blame this for why I don't dream about Rengoku more, because I think I can't fabricate a dream about him when the material being fed to me is threatening or otherwise worrisome. Though I had a weird dream he was on some kinda game show where he was gambling on behalf of some kingdom but the gambling was done on some high pedestal thing where everyone was like at a poker or black jack table & he got voted off the show & a trap door opened beneath him & dropped him off the platform & then he just walked away ?? I'd had another one where I went to Japan to collect rare Rengokus & went into some establishment, but things were different from USA so there was this thing where you applied coins to a machine to get a ticket to buy a sandwich & I was really anxious because I didn't understand but Rengoku was there telling me I could do it.

Though I had a really weird & upsetting dream about him the other night that was like a movie dream, it was Rengoku but a different Rengoku & I was not in the dream. This Rengoku was a bit bigger & in a different lifetime, he had a wife & son & the son looked just like Senjuro & the Rengoku was having memories of the Rengoku from Demon Slayer so he kept thinking his son was his brother Senjuro & his son was really concerned that his dad kept forgetting who he was & his wife was worried & making him go to therapy & he was overall despondent & uncomfortable because he didn't understand what was happening & was uncomfortable that he couldn't remember his own life but was having memories of a different life. That dream really bothered me, it was a really worrisome & distressing dream, like a disturbing psychological drama movie that he was in. I did not like it & don't want to have another one like it.

I've also noticed for some weird reason that sleeping during the afternoon creates a higher likelihood for me having sleep paralysis when falling asleep. I've had a lot of really weird ones. & I can usually feel it coming. I'd said this before to my mom & she tried to insist feeling like it was coming on was me just being afraid of it happening & then because I was afraid I ended up willing it to happen. I really don't think that's what it is. I understand we really cannot figure out what is causing sleep paralysis in every case. We have an idea of what causes some cases. I'm a skeptic but a spiritualist, I believe in spirits, ghosts, elementals, energies, interlopers, but I also think most “unexplained” phenomenon actually do have viable & reasonable explanations if you look hard enough. Obviously as someone prone to delusion, it's very important to challenge everything & not accept things wholly at face value or blame fairies or paranormal for everything. The pursuit of knowledge is the pursuit of deeper understanding & vivid clarity in all things. & curiously, spirituality tends to be defined by “what does it feel like to you ?” & a lot of “trusting your gut instincts.” Which again, is hard to really say with delusion prone thinking. Yet I do think that is the most reasonable way to interact with spirituality. It's interesting when looking at psychics because they tend to say they just feel something, yet you put ten in a room & if they're real psychics, most of them will key in on the same thing even without being able to communicate with one another. I know some things are just really hard to explain & are wholly feeling based. I guess to say the third eye or spirit body are in seeing, feeling & interacting with the unseen. A sixth sense you hone. I believe it.

With that being said, I do think something unseen causes my sleep paralysis. I'd had a dream before at my second apartment where I was at the house I lived in for the second half of my childhood, there was a swimming pool & deck in the backyard & there was a voice speaking to me that I guess was my great grandmother maybe & she told me I have periods of nightmares in that apartment because I think it was like thirty years ago (it might have been more idrr) there was a band of dudes who roamed the area committing horrible crimes & causing general unrest & that their spirits still come back on the anniversary of those events to terrorize the same places, so they come into my room at night to terrorize me when I'm dreaming. It was a really interesting dream. In the same dream she had mentioned there is something in my room every night that always watches me & it's neither good nor bad, it's just always there watching me. I guess it must not be human because she didn't say it was a man or a person, she called it a “something.” But I'd imagined it sitting in the chair in my room that used to be at the foot of my bed. Now I have a bedside armchair & I almost imagine that it sits there.

So I ended up having a nightmare last night that scared me so bad. In the dream I was standing in my room & the TV was on. I heard my roommate come home & I'd walked towards the stairs but the stairway was different in my dream, it was a switch back staircase. I met them on the landing & we'd gone downstairs. From there it was pretty accurate to real life, they'd gone into the livingroom & I went into the kitchen, the rooms are connected by a large archway, so each looks into the other. As I was walking into the kitchen, I started to feel like I was going to faint. I'm going towards the sink because I think it's dehydration so I want to get water, but the rims of my vision are blackening & it's coming over more. I told my roommate I was going to faint & then just fell on the floor. I was still conscious though my vision was completely black & I couldn't move my body. My vision started to come back & I got up & try to open the cupboard for a plastic cup to get water because I'm worried about glass that I will drop it & I'm holding onto the counter because I know I'm going to faint again & the plastic cups aren't in the cupboard & I faint again. I come back & nearly blindly grab the plastic cup from the dish strainer & I get the water in the cup but then I can't swallow. I get the water in my mouth but it's like my throat is closed shut & the mechanism in the throat that allows you to swallow isn't working. So it's like the water is just in my mouth & when I try to get it to go to my throat it just sits there & I'm trying to choke it down but only the smallest amounts of water are making it. Then I woke up. It was so scary & my first thought when I woke up was how I'd read something about how spirits don't bother you if you have cats around because cats chase them away & I was thinking about how I only had the nightmare after all the cats left the room, so I immediately went downstairs to get Venom & she was sound asleep on the back of the armchair in the livingroom. I prodded at her asking her to come upstairs with me but she was so asleep she could hardly move. She ended up getting up & walking to the door & when I opened the door she ran upstairs & I brought her to the bed & she sat & waited for me to get in bed, but she was clearly so asleep she just kinda lulled there rather than immediately coming to me. I basically went right back to sleep, but the aftermath of the dream felt just as uncomfortable as the dream. I feel like it's rare the cats are in such a deep sleep that they can hardly walk, but I wonder what she must have thought ?

She woke me up again before the sun rose to let her back downstairs, but I was feeling better then so I was able to let her down & go back to sleep. But I did get my period in my sleep & bled on a pair of underwear I liked & it really bothered me. I thought it would wash out no big deal but I must have bled shortly after going to bed because it was acting as though it was already really set in. I haven't given up, but I'm worried it's really not going to lift.

I ended up seeing the two flame breathing bromides I wanted listed in lots with other items & I was planning to get them but I wanted to make sure I'd ordered the cats' food & litter first, & while I was out smoking I got my new phone sim card so I thought transplanting the cards would be easy so I thought I could just do that really quick but it ended up taking a whole fucking hour & the whole thing was a shit show. First, my phone requires the key device to take out the sim card, which I don't have & they didn't give me so I had to look up online how the fuck I was even supposed to remove it & what ultimately worked for me was an earring back, though nearly destroying the earring all the while.

I was supposed to keep my original phone number & the directions said in order to activate the sim card I was just supposed to make a phone call, so I'd called my roommate but the call was fucked up. They ended up calling me back but didn't know who I was because the phone number was different & said it was Michigan ?? I checked & yeah, there was another phone number & I was pissed off so I called the provider number which it said to do if you needed help activating your sim card. The call won't go through so I end up having to call from the house phone & I'm on hold for an hour again before patched through to a dude representative who honestly was really rude, he was like saying I needed to call back on a different number because he couldn't hear me & I'm like how the fuck am I supposed to do that ?? I have a cellphone I can't use & my home phone, what other phone do you expect me to use ?? He basically says since I was on the phone with him he manually changed the number but idk if that's true because my step dad has the same service & he said his phone number just changed over after an hour. The dude ran some random troubleshooting with me to make sure the phone was working & I'd asked about the software update but he was saying it was only effecting the phone service & mobile data which sucks but like whatever, I guess it was just misunderstanding & wishful thinking on my end. He ended up telling me my phone was up to date with it's software & like no, it's not because my phone is succumbed to forced obsolescence & can't update any further since two years ago so he basically told me to go fuck myself. Which whatever because I get it's not his problem but like don't lie to me & say it's up to date when I know it's not. Especially because just the moment before he said it wasn't up to date... It just bothered me. I gave him a bad review just for that because wtf ?? There's no reason to lie to me when you can just educate me on what the actual problem is. Then I wouldn't've been mad at him but just disappointed with myself.

Then my step dad was worried because for some reason when he tried to call me to test if the phone service was working, I guess he couldn't call me ?? So we had to check the different facets of my phone to make sure the service really was working & imo it does seem like it's spotty now, it is acting a bit weird apparently. But thankfully the right number is applied to it again.

After all that I was going to buy those two bromides & of course they both sold by that point & I wanted to cry. I'm still holding out hope that maybe they will list together for a good price. Part of what made me nervous to buy those ones were although the items were listed in lots with other items, I didn't want any of the other items so it really wasn't worth it to me outside of the single bromides themselves.

I also ended up looking at Romwe because I got curious if I could get new cardigans from there & I'm so appalled by the inflation. Thirty dollars for a cardigan from a fast fashion brand ?? I'd love to say I think they'd be cheaper at Target or Walmart, but at this point with how intense the inflation actually is I'm concerned that's not actually true. I decided to look at lingerie while I was there because I feel like I have these ideas in my head but I feel like the types of things I want don't exist for easy. I also felt like just basic underwear was more expensive than when I had bought from them before.

Which that was actually where the good pair of underwear I just ruined was from. I was really hoping I could find underwear that was nearly the same, but of course not !

I saw some nice cups & bands that I liked. There was this article that was like a demi sports bra but with a keyhole chest so you peep the between boobs, but of course it was a bullshit material with that dumbass scalloped lace lining. There were some nice balconettes but I understand the strap placement is important to the lift offering & I'm saying I do not want the side straps. There must be a way to get the lift with that cup without having your armpits carved out. I'm thinking perhaps a v shaped end ? To attach to the outside like the balconette straps but then have one also attached more towards the front, meeting the main strap in the middle to go over the shoulder to keep it away from the armpit. Because idgaf who sees my strap as long as the boob is lifted... I really feel like I'm about to start making franken bras.

(hello mtv, welcome to my bra lab.)

I ended up getting a set from Mercari with money I wasn't able to cash in (out ?) before. Mercari was really weird because the sellers didn't follow the same format as the Depop ones where they only listed by shirt size, most of the ones I looked at actually applied the cup & band size. However, after I was looking at that really cute savage fenty sports bra & the person told me to check the website for the measurements, I ended up checking Aerie's measurements to see they had small listed as 32a/b & medium as 34b/c I think ? With that being said, everyone I saw on Mercari listing Aerie sports bras in size large were tagging them as 34c/d & I was thinking that didn't make any sense because their website says medium is 34 & large is 36 so how the fuck are they saying they're thirty fours ? I decided to trust the Aerie website, but then I'd seen a lot of three garments that idk what you call them, they're sheer cup with a longer crop top like band underneath. Bustier I guess ? I really wanted one but the lot was cheap. I was unsure because they were marked as 34b but the tags were visible & said medium. I decided to try it but I will feel a little distraught if they don't fit. Though I suppose I could just resell them ig. I'd also seen this one bra that blew my mind because it's the same exact bra I just sold the other week. I was devastated to sell it because I bought it when I could wear bs but it ran small so it didn't fit me but it was so fucking cute, it was fuchsia with that early two thousands trendy tribal / geometric pattern that I love so much in lilac & blue. I ended up taking the straps off the one I had to use for a different bra & sold it as a bandeau & this one was selling as a bandeau. I really thought the person selling it was the same person who bought it from me until I'd seen the one I'd sold wasn't marked as delivered yet & when I checked my sold listing, it was marked as a b & this one showed the tag as 34c. & it was super cheap ! So I bought it & I'm about to lose my fucking mind if it fits !!

But at least then I think this should be enough breast coverage, I should chill the fuck out lol

I'd also noticed studio announced Rengoku cafe is precursor for cafe themed for other hashira to come ! The merchandise teased currently really reminds me of the first hashira meeting goods, where everyone is seated in portrait by candlelight. There is a vast array of merchandise, which is very great & compelling to see. Though Rengoku get excluded from most sets sadly.

For this one I like the layered acrylic panels. Again, a little hard to see due to the product images being so small, they fit very in line with the upcoming hashira expressions & personalities event ! It is too bad we don't get to see Rengoku for this, though I would say, unless they were to create animations for the two backstory comics, we don't see enough new Rengoku moments to really make having him follow suit with the layered acrylic panel worthwhile. I love to see him, but when his moments can really be reduced to we've seen you two times, it does make reusing those same assets over & over become stale... So I really wish they would just make the animations for his backstory comics... It would definitely give a lot more material to work with when making new merchandise for him...

& ngl the new intro artwork for the random acrylic stand is so sad not to include Rengoku. To view everyone walking into the light, happy & smiling together & just not him. I'd felt before it's really sad & sucks Rengoku is the first hashira to die because everyone else you can get to know a little bit for time spent with them in hashira training or end battles, but realistically he's like shown to you & that's it.

I also like the first placemat hardcase (a), I like the way the hashira were included in that one, it felt new & appealing to look at. The other one might be very appealing as well, but product image is just too small for me to really make out what's happening... For the stand clips I think it's funny Rengoku & Uzui featured Kimetsu Academy. But I like to see it because it's interesting & refreshing to see more facets to the characters. I also like the hard case, but I admit that I don't know what it is lol

There's also another eatery campaign coming up that will feature Rengoku after the new year roll over. So he doesn't have a new art now, but I am hoping he will. Especially because honestly pov Rengoku gives you soup is one of my favorite images of him, I'm not super bummed out for food collaborations because sometimes the art really do be slapping, though I wasn't really for the other characters' ensembles, so I don't really have my hopes up lol

I am wonder if post will have another new years collaboration this year ? I would imagine they do since they have the past few years, last year included all the important characters seen so far, so I am wondering if it will be full cast or if it's just going to be the newer introduced important characters, letting the older characters go back by the wayside ? Though I am always rooting for Rengoku, I admit for some events I don't get too distraught if he isn't included because sometimes I feel like it's good I'm not fiending to collect such loot lol

But I do think I am going to try to get his stand clips on resale. The lot is too big to pull from for me to try from the studio. I'm sure Rengoku's are going to be stupid expensive though @.@

I started this post two days ago & tapped out mid post but then yesterday was so busy & such a headache I wasn't able to finish the post then. I was going to say I got another flame breathing bromide, so now there is only one I am watching for. It is on sale for a decent price now, but I am still kinda holding out to see if there's a reasonable lot with it. I also finally bought the accessories for the scrapbook(s). Though I am slightly worried because I am bad at measurements, I don't have a super informed idea what the size of the binder is or the inlets I bought for it. Though I was thinking further about extending to postcards & coasters.

I had noticed scrapbooking was made popular in the same vein the idol dolls were, cultivated by the kpop fans. I'd heard the bromides were made popular like trading cards, but I was also under the impression they were typical nineties disposable camera photo sized, yet I actually think the kpop bromides might be like trading card sizes ? Because when I was looking at the binders & accessories for the kpop adjacent scrapbooking, I noticed everything appeared to be smaller than my smaller regular printed photo sized bromides. Which is where my worry about size & measurements are coming from.

I seen they have these things they're calling “toploaders,” which I guess would be familiar to card collectors like that of Yugioh, Pokemon or Magic The Gathering. I guess they're just protective card sleeves ? They have pre-decorated transparent card holders with all kinds of designs, but when faced against the traditional photo sizes, it appears most of these are too small. Which idk, I suppose it's redundant anyway to want pre-existing outlines that weren't made from the heart, when the reality is I should be doing the decorating wholly myself.

I found the top loader slips that should fit the standard photo size that have holographic effects, I've seen sets of colored & designed paper for backgrounds in scrapbooking & all kinds of stickers. Also cold laminate with a number of different effects. My plan is to apply bromides into clear envelopes & decorate everything over the clear envelopes so I'm not actually defacing the actual bromides in anyway. After each bromide is edited, it will be inserted into the binder, where I can proceed to add additional decorations around the top & backs of the inserted images.

I'm also thinking I can print out Rengoku images, digital photo collages & make my own cold laminate stickers to add to the exterior collages per page.

I was telling my roommate about it & they sounded very excitable for me. It is something that may end up being a long work in progress, because not only is there thought in decorating every bromide but then pulling each page together, all the while likely acquiring more bromides, more stickers, more editing doodads.

So I keep planning my forward expenditures. I've still got my eyes for collecting new Rengoku merchandise that I've still yet to see post, but I think I am going to keep getting more doll clothes & craft supplies currently. But I've made five sales recently, one of them was really good money. Though I'm also feeling some kinda way because three of the bras I've ordered haven't arrived yet with no viable ETA apparently due to the hurricane Helene ? But the same thing has happened with that Vinted package I shipped what feels like two weeks ago now. It made it to Louisiana & just has not moved for a week.

Coinciding with this, my mom ended up bringing me a number of bags of items that's been sorted through. I'd say I kept half of the clothes, but I will soon be listing two lots of bras she had given me as well as a number of different styles of crop tops. She gave me two whole grocery bags of fragrances. I know they are seeing a crackdown now on resale, so I've at least found four I think are viable to sell that I don't want. There is a lotion that does not appear to be opened which should be fine, but at least two of the other items were perfumes that had been sprayed more than some of the ones she'd given me before that I've been using had been sprayed. So I'm definitely nervous to list them because I don't want to get hit with a pull, threat or reprimand.

I keep thinking lately I want to draw still, but I haven't pursued it. I mentioned being more comfortable with what Burger is up to now & it is freeing, but it also feels like the first time in months I haven't been constricted. I feel like I just want to loaf around & do nothing. I'm also thinking about maybe trying a new game I've bought that's sat untouched on the shelf or perhaps doing new games for Legend Of Mana or Pokemon Scarlet.

Of course there's always getting on more listing, crosslisting or working on sewing projects. Today I just want to have zero thoughts & melt into my bed.

Also as a footnote after a previously mentioned statement, I got that fuchsia bra & added the straps & it fits so perfect I feel like there aren't words ! It's like a balconette so nothing transgresses against the armpits, the cups are perfect & pull everything into me. It makes the bust look small in the regard everything is pulled & held close, but I couldn't get over the evenness & slightest squishing with the faintest divot of cleavage. My only complaint is the other one was like perfect condition. Because it's a bra with a built in lace lined bandeau over it, there were a couple spots where the bandeau was pulling away sloppily from the bra. But I suppose it doesn't matter because not only did I get an amazing fit, but I got to wear a bra that I've wanted for years :')

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katefoxblog · 2 months ago

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My Very Short Beach/Fall Break Trip(2024)

So today i just got back from my surprisingly short beach trip for this year's fall break and it was a short experience. We left near noon on the 21st of this month and arrived near late afternoon.

Of course the beach was nice for the four(Technically 3 or 2) days we were there and i of curse got many shells and some pretty nice pictures(Which will of course bee seen in this blog and my upcoming video).

9/21/2024 - Day 1

A repeat of hat i just said, and after that, it was night. I was just drawing in my sketch book because i did not bring my computer or drawing tablet with me(I didn't want to go through unplugging them and then having to set everything back up when we got back home...). Something i was doing tho was having the paper i was drawing on, be touching the table for i did not want the alcohol markers that i use o stain the paper under the drawing.

Sadly this stained a bit of the table and i freaked out a bit(Mostly had an internal freak out that could thankfully not be seen) and tried to clean it off with a wet paper towel, this did not work. Eventually my parents noticed and my mom was pissed because she thought that we would have to buy a new table and stuff like that. But thankfully after looking up ways to remove alcohol marker stains, it recommended toothpaste and it worked thankfully.

But, during the cleaning process my mo0m was still mad at me and saying that she is "Tired of babying me" and "How i should've not done something so stupid" and stuff like that. But then she said one thing that i will always remember no matter what;

"I could punch you right now."

Now, obviously this shit took me and my dad a back and then my mom and dad started to argue and I'm left sitting in a chair, scared that i might have caused a fracture in my parents' marriage. And here is the thing, my mom is not a violent person, she is a peaceful person 99% of the time(I say 99% because the other 1% are her "moments"), so when she said this to me, i was just...Shocked, violently surprise she would say that to her own child.

9/22/2024 - Day 2

For a decent proportion of the day i slept in, waking up somewhere around 12pm and mostly staying inside to draw because good lordy it was hot as fuck out(Because note, we were at IRL Jurassic Park, aka, Florida, the place where my ass was born/forged in). And thankfully my mom apologized for the other night and i forgave her...But i would never forget that moment.

Anyways, this day wasn't that eventful, it was mostly just me staying inside and only going out once to get sea shells and a souvenir in the form of a water bottle holding sand and seas water in it(Yeah i know it's not the most appealing thing to look at but hey, not everything on this planet is completely clean, or nice to look at).

9/23/2024 - Day 3/Pre-Final Day

This was unknowingly the last day/pre-final day at the beach, why? Well it's because there was soon gonna be a hurricane coming soon and obviously, they are dangerous, so my parents were figuring out when we would have to leave(Originally we were supposed to leave on Thursday, but it was then changed to Wednesday, which just so happens to be today!).

On this day i mostly stayed inside and we then later went to this restaurant where we had to wait an hour to be seated(The place did seem to be a bit busy to be fair) and while we waited i got a root beer and mountain taffy from this gas station that happened to be a part of the restaurant(The ironic thing about the mountain taffy being at the beach was quite funny and i was kind of surprised they didn't call it "Beach Taffy" or something).

My parents had oysters and fried mushrooms as servings which was gross to my older sister since she could see the slime from the oysters. Thankfully our food came and i had a cheese burger and fries and HOLY FUCK they were delicious! Mean while my younger sister just had 6 shrimp(There was this whole thing of how she wasn't hungry and stuff like that and after she was done, she was mysteriously hungry and wanted my older sister's fries 🤦).

After this, we went back to the condo we were staying at and played some uno. After all of that and everyone went to bed, i stayed up for a little bit and then went to sleep on the quite comfortable couch.

9/24/2024 - Day 4/Final Day

I woke to my family starting to get things packed up for i discovered that the owner of the condo and seeming several others were ordered to evacuate non-residents(Basically, people who didn't live there) because of the upcoming hurricane. So we got everything packed up and begun the drive home, of course making a few stops and getting some chic fil a dinner(I highly recommend getting a chicken sandwich and mac'n'cheese and putting some mac'n'cheese on the chicken sandwich, it's so good~!).

We then arrived home where i went down to my room(My room is in the basement and the basement is thankfully one of those nice basements and not one of those creepy clown-sex offender basements you'd see in every horror movie ever) and took a shit so fat it would make CaseOh look anorexic then took the family dog on a walk(Because after 5+ hours in a car, my legs needed the movement).

Now it's currently 12 in the morning on September 25th, 2024 and i have just posted my video showing all of the images i took and i will soon be posting some art and another video related to something i happened to make during my trip.

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All Pictures -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gS5eMVg1aEQ

#Blog #Fall Break #Beach #Beach Trip

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raspberryconverse · 3 months ago

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Poly RomCom Moments: (possibly) Beau #5

Another case of what should have been a bad date, but actually turned out really good.

Let's start with the first romcom moment. (Possibly) Beau #5 had been talking on Feeld for 3 weeks and could have gotten together at least once if the app notifications actually worked all the time. Kind of a bummer. We decided since we had been talking for that long, we both felt comfortable exchanging numbers so we wouldn't miss each other's messages. The next morning, after telling me this was his week off (he's a home healthcare nurse and has rotations where he's on for 3 weeks and off 1), he got called in. Then he sends me a shirtless selfie.

There were a few times that we were going to meet on a whim because I needed to get out of the house, but then something else came up and I cancelled. Luckily, he didn't get bent out of shape about it. So when Beau #3 blew me off, he offered to be my consolation prize.

Now I'm usually late AF, so when I beat him there, it was pretty amazing. We were texting because we were going to meet at this bar that was in the basement of Thalia Hall, but I couldn't find the entrance. He also got a little lost, so I ended up waiting even longer for him. Once he got there, there was a concert going on and without the obvious entrance, we decided to find somewhere else to go. Option #2 was a pho restaurant that supposedly was open, but wasn't (honestly, that was fine with me because truth be told, I've never had pho and I didn't really want to be trying something new that night). We walked past a burger place, but it was actually a walk up place and it was 90° that day and I really didn't want to sit out in the heat. We ended up at this Mexican restaurant that had some indoor seating, but not very much. It also didn't have air conditioning, so it was probably hotter there than it would have been outside. So much for not getting all sweaty, but at least it was both of us.

After we ate, we kind of wanted to grab a drink somewhere, so he looked up a place. It was a bit of a walk, but considering we both were already sweaty and the sun had started to go down, we just walked. We went to the bar and had a few drinks. We decided to leave, but definitely didn't want the night to end just yet, so we started walking down Damen (a major Chicago street). I don't remember who took who's hand, but somehow we ended up holding hands. We just continued to walk, both looking at each other, waiting for someone to make a move. Eventually, he said, "I guess someone has to make the first move," lifted our joined hands, spun me around and pulled me in for a kiss.

It was a really good kiss. So good that we couldn't stop. So there we are, making out on the sidewalk of Damen at 10pm.

"This is the one night I wish my spouse was working the night shift," he said.

"I have an idea..." I replied.

I pulled out my phone and texted my spouse, asking if it was ok if we came back there. We stared at my phone, waiting for it to say the message had been read. We kissed some more and I actually dropped my phone. I picked it back up, looked and saw my spouse still hadn't replied and clearly things were getting urgent. I called them and they said they didn't care.

We turned around and walked back towards the bar, which was right across the street from the Pink Line. He had to buy a Ventra card so he could get on, and once he got through the turnstile, we walked up to the platform. The sign said we had 10 minutes before the train was coming, so we just continued to make out on the train platform.

A few weeks back, I had gone out with a guy who was 6'1". There was zero chemistry when we kissed and kissing him also made me realize I really don't like tall guys. I had been wearing 2" wedges that night and his face was still too far away. That night when I got home, I messaged (possibly) Beau #5.

Me: Question (and the answer I'm hoping for is probably not what you think): how tall are you?

(Possibly) Beau #5: If I haven't been to the chiro, 5'7"

Me: Perfect

PB5: Don't hear that often xD

At one point while we were kissing, I pulled back a little and said, "See, perfect height." What can I say? I love my short kings.

We got to 54th/Cermak and walked to my car. I drove us back to my place. We went in the front door so we could go straight upstairs. A fun time was had, though it unfortunately ended with blood on my sheets. Don't worry, I'm getting it checked out now (just had an ultrasound today).

We're getting together again on Saturday. There has been an intentional shirtless selfie, which of course was sent while I was in the office and about to go to my boss' boss' birthday dinner. I told him he can't send me pictures like that when I'm in the office.

When Beau #3 broke up with me, he actually called me to check in on me because he was driving and couldn't text. As I spent the rest of the day a blubbering mess, he continued to check in on me and I even asked him if he was sure he wanted to deal with this hot mess.

He seems like a keeper. We'll see how it goes.

#poly romcom moments #possibly #beau no. 5 #cta stations that make me nostalgic #enm #ethical non monogamy #polyamory #coley's adventures in polyamory

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mygainyear2024 · 5 months ago

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Day 73 Farewell EU and your 90 day visa rules, I'm/we're off on a bucket list adventure to Morocco

Rose and I spent the morning playing tetris with our luggage, particularly as we're flying Ryan Air from Santander to Marrakesh. We duck out to grab some cash and Rose wanted to look at a different Pull & Bear shop. One of the great things about Europe has been the late checkouts, 12 noon at Hotel Chiqui.

I made a reservation at BNT Street Food for lunch, a place on the water I'd seen the first night I walked (no google, no Fork App, just intuition!). First stop the seals and lone penguin at Parque Marino de la Magdalena. This is a free park with ocean on either side and a lovely green space for hanging out.

Lunch did not disappoint. The view out to the beach/ocean, the wine and the burgers, yum. And Rose offered to buy me a cocktail, I opted for the local red instead, so smooth and good with or without the food, I had two!

Our suitcases were both 2kgs over. It worked out ok, we were allowed to remove stuff and jump the queue to bring them back as he'd ticketed us. And no-one really checked our excess carry on!

I was excited to arrive in Marrakesh and it wasn't horrid through passport control. I even practiced my very poor French with the Officer. Sadly the perfume Rose has been desperate to buy in Australia, and we found at Duty Free here, was only available in the departures area, not the arrivals area, despite me pre-ordering. Fingers crossed the pre-order at Tangier Airport on our way out will be available.

We pre-arranged transport with the Riad, and were expecting to see a sign with "Bohemian Jungle" on it and Hassan waiting. But nothing. Luckily the free airport wifi worked outside the terminal, as I left the purchase of a sim card as the Riad owner, the usually very responsive Anna from the Netherlands, said Hassan would help us with all of that. I rang Anna several times, and the Riad, and no answer. I wondered at what point I just get a taxi knowing that we still needed to walk at the end. After about 20 minutes someone else showed up with the scatchings of "Bohemian Jungle" on the back of his sign and said "I'm not Hassan, and handed me his phone to speak to Hassan to confirm we should get in the car!" It was a very exciting ride, even more exciting than any Asian country I've been to. Big cars, down narrow two way alleyways, motor cycles, cyclists, pedestrians, chaos. We entered one medina, passed the Kings Palace, and exited that one and in and out of a couple more. Rose said "I thought we were going to the jungle". My reply "it is a jungle of sorts"! We reach our destination, and I said to Rose, we'll be met and need to walk the rest of the way. The driver and Hassan seemed to be having several heated conversations. I think it was about how far he needed to drive us in. Thankfully Hassan was there when we stopped and we walked about 300 metres around several corners and we arrived. It is magnificent. Hassan served us traditional mint tea and biscuits, gave us a map and explained the important sites, a book with pictures of how to get out of the Riad and back again, and an old phone to ring if we get lost. He's already suggested to Rose that they share shisha, having given up alcohol. I heard them talking and Rose said something like "my mum won't let me"! I sang out and said "I don't mind it's up to you"! We asked for some ice so we could make a start on the second 1 litre bottle of gin! And I asked if there was fresh milk I could have for my coffee in the morning, already googling that fresh milk is available in Marrakesh, but best bought early before the sun affects it!!

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purplesurveys · 9 months ago

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1819

When’s the last time you ate bread? I had a burger from Wendy's earlier today.

What’s the last movie you watched on your own? I watched a local comedy movie called Ang Tanging Ina, which translates to The Only Mother. It's one of those movies that are almost deliberately bad that it ended up a comedy classic, but the plot is really nice so I ended up liking it. It's an easy watch for sure.

What about the last movie you watched with another person? You've Got Mail. It was an event of a client and they were screening that for Valentine's Day, and I snuck into the cinema for a few minutes to watch a few scenes since I've never seen it before.

How many coats do you own? None. I don't need coats where I live.

What about shoes? Somewhere around 10-15.

One word to describe your most recent ex? Selfish.

Where, in your current country, would you like to live, other than where you do now? Realistically I would love to move somewhere like Cebu or Davao, so that it can still be in the city but life can also be quieter and slower.

Do you like snow? I've never seen snow, so I wouldn't know yet how I feel about it.

Do you like sheer clothing? Eh not really, they demand creativity and some style knowledge and I'm not nearly as passionate about fashion to decide on things like that lol.

Have you ever seen anyone famous in the street? Sure, but being in PR I deal with a lot of famous people on a regular basis so seeing celebrities isn't really something I'm limited to encountering in the street.

Are you hungry right now? I am, a little bit. I'm seeing someone for early dinner in around an hour or so though so I should be alright.

Are you regularly tired? Yes, being in the corporate world and having your braincells sucked out of you on a daily basis isn't the best walk in the park.

What was the last thing to upset you? Continued from this afternoon. Being late to the said dinner I mentioned earlier. I hate wasting people's time by being late, and Metro Manila traffic is just the worst for making you late no matter how much time you allot for travel.

How’s the weather been today? I was indoors and in air-conditioned rooms all day long so it'd be hard for me to tell how it was like today haha.

What was the first tattoo you got or what would be the first tattoo you’ll get? I'd love a really small and subtle reference to BTS. Seven dots, and then each color is matched to their mics.

What was the last store you went into and did you buy anything? I went to a Lawson yesterday to get the biggest bottled water available, because I had a mini fainting/dehydration incident and all my companions insisted I get the fuck inside and get some water, lol.

Have you ever been late for school or work? I was late for college classes more times than I can count, but the most unforgettable moment for me was that time in like...high school (or like Grade 6 or 7? I can't quite remember) when the bus broke down and we got to school by ~8:15 AM – extremely late. Everyone else went down but my anxiety was through the roof that day and I didn't want to have to face walking into the classroom while the first subject was already starting, so I just asked them to take me home.

As for work, I technically have a grace period which allows me to report to work by 10 AM latest and yeah I tend to maximize that from time to time.

Do you prefer to shower in the morning or at night? Morning. I need to shower first thing in the morning – it makes me feel refreshed and calm before work.

What is your favourite kind of fruit cobbler? No thanks.

Is there a basement in your house? If so, what is it used for? We don't.

Have you driven a car today? Yep. In fact I'm taking this survey from my car just for a bit of change.

Do you have a small, medium or large bedroom? It's the smallest bedroom in the house but I'd say it's still medium-sized for me; it fits all of the things I own comfortably.

Where was your first job and how old were you? I was an intern in my current workplace. I was 22 when I started.

Have you eaten soup this week? No, it's not really something I tend to get a lot.

Are you a fan of The Office? I've started with a few Season 1 episodes last December but haven't gotten back on it since. It's hilarious, but it hasn't given me that ~spark or oomph the way Friends immediately did.

When was the last time you started a new medication? Never really been on long-term medications. Last thing I had to take was stuff to help recover from Covid.

What is your favourite type of nut? Pecan, pistachio.

Do you know anyone who doesn’t have a middle name? Used to.

Have you put your phone on silent today? Yep, it's always on silent Mondays through Fridays.

Can you name all 50 US state capital cities? I cannot.

Do you read John Green novels? I did when I was in grade school.

Have you ever been to Universal Studios? I've been to the one in Singapore.

Can you tie balloons? I cannot.

When was the last time you were at a pet store? Years and years and years ago.

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sucktacular · 2 years ago

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Alright, honesty hour kinda question I guess. When you close your eyes and think of things that make you happy, what are they, specifically, scenery, smells, feelings such as cold air or warm water, and if you imagine anyone there with you, like a beloved pet or close friend :3

Oh woah very interesting question!!

Hmm honestly lately I've been thinking a lot about when I was a teen and getting to hang out whenever and wherever with my friends in the summer. Going to my friend's place but their thermostat was set so low that we had to sit out on the front lawn after an hour or two in the basement to defrost ourselves. And then go back inside when we get too sticky and sweaty from sitting in the afternoon summer heat. The walks with all 5+ of us to the convenience store down the road from my friend's place in the evening when the sun is setting a nice gold/orange to get snacks and drinks for the night. Bags of chips to share. Candy bars for the sugar fiends. I buy a large carton of chocolate milk cuz I love it so much. Maybe a fruit punch Arizona if I'm just plain thirsty. Sleep overs with all of us piled and scattered around the basement of my friend's place. The sleeping matt's weren't comfy but it was still nice to be around everyoe. Playing left 4 dead on their pleather couch all crammed together and being over dramatic and silly about when accidentally shooting eachother or collecting the gnome from the carnival round and treating it like our baby or getting so startled when a special infected GETS YOU. Sitting at their dinning table upstairs before their family gets home. All of us roaming around the living room/kitchen/dinning room just being cringy teen anime nerds, sharing Can I Haz Cheese Burger memes and gathering around to feed off the baking sheet of slightly over cooked chicken nuggets and fries.

It wasn't always perfect, it was a constant swaying balance between all our different personalities and a lot of things happened between us or between certain friends that ended poorly. But honestly thinking about it, it was a genuinely very happy time of my life, despite all the troubles and problems.

Kinda went a lil over board I think fjsjjfis like there's a lot of things that make me happy like my cat and a nice cold nestea and my partner, but like also, man, That Feeling of all those experiences and the found family of it all is something that will always make me so happy to think about. :3 and I hope I can experience that again in the future! Miss having a big local group to hang out with and be like a family with.

#sucktacular sucks #not to be sappy on main but awoowowoowoo #i miss being a teen #but i mostly miss just having a local friend group that vibes really well #and has the same kinda humor and can just vibe in a basement on laptops #without having to put too much effort into keeping a convo going if we all just wanna chill and wind down #ask #ask meme #long post

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cythoughtsnmemories · 2 years ago

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07.05.23

Ate mostly prawns for dinner at MIL hse cos I'm picky. Cabbage is spicy n bitter. Otah is spicy too. Weather so hot liao and hubby sore throat leh, still cook so many heaty food. Why cannot eat 清淡, without chili or ginger for a meal?

Xiao stress on my project but still kicking. Glad that I'm going gym more often and more colleagues are joining. Had tze char on Thu night after gym cos hubby was busy w work event. Went for health screening and had late breakfast. So, I end up buying a fried chicken for lunch cos I want to have space for my atas dinner. Was feeling lazy...lucky work load still manageable.

Celebrated sis bday at Sura. Won't recommend here anymore unless u r getting a private room. It's too noisy for fine dining.

Waited for hubby to unload his barang before we head out for lunch. Why is my hubby behaving like a big kid. Sick already but refuse to take meds and still cont to eat spicy and unhealthy food. Tsk tsk!

We then went Science Centre for a visit. A few new exhibition. Like fire tornado, poop and know your fear. Spent 3 hrs in there and I guess it enough. No need to visit anymore unless they add or change d exhibition.

Get a pear juice for hubby after our science centre visit. We still had 3 hrs, so chill at Heytea for almost an hr. Still worried his phlegm gonna worsen after dinner, so got him a herbal tea before we head over to cafe Utu.

Sis being stubborn, and parents being parents. Haiz~ Lucky still managed to meet up on time for sis bday celebration. Dinner was good but not as good as our 1st visit. At least we get a bday shot. Woohoo~

Hubby was tired but still acc me to go swimming. We wanted to sit n have breakfast but it's crowded everywhere so we just got a bun n soymilk. So proud of myself, although I swam the width of the swimming pool for 10 laps. Was angry w myself cos my legs n arms were not strong to paddle 1 full lap, and I panicked a little everytime I'm tired halfway through. Dk why I was asking myself to think if it's a situation that I'm in an open sea. I would have drowned.

After swimming for an hr, we went to the cafe nearby for lunch. My arm were so tired, I was lazy to cut my burger. Was gonna change my bedsheet so we KO for 3 hrs when we reached home withoutshowering. Lol~ 1 hr of swimming only leh...so tired sia. Hubby is slowly teaching me to be lupsup 😆

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stranger-marauders · 2 years ago

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unbreakable

four: modern love

chapter summary: When someone forgets to pick her up from work, Kate makes other plans before she goes home for the night.

chapter warnings: language, steve being a bad friend

word count: 2.3k

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AFTER A FEW hours of talking, reading, and digging through the records at the bookstore, Kate and Jamie finally closed up for the night.

Work wasn't bad whenever Jamie was there, especially when everyone in Hawkins seemingly forgot that the little bookstore on Main Street existed. They got enough business from the occasional person that walked in to buy ten books that the constant flow of cash into the store wasn't an issue. It gave them an opportunity to ransack the place, letting them dig through even the records and cassettes they'd started selling more recently. Kate had loved that addition: it gave her a notice of when Queen was releasing a new single or album, and that was something she hadn't taken light of in years.

As they waited outside after they'd closed up shop, Kate shivered slightly. During their shift, the temperature had dropped a few degrees, the sun had set, and the wind had picked up, leading it to be considerably colder outside.

"You want me to take you home?" Jamie finally offered, putting his hands in his pockets. "I mean, I don't mind if Harrington's busy."

"N–No, don't worry about it. It's completely out of the way for you to take me home," she said. "I don't want you to have to do that because he forgot again. I'm... I'm sure he'll be here in a couple of minutes, anyway."

"I don't want you to walk home by yourself, though," he said, frowning slightly. "You'd get kidnapped or something."

"Oh yeah? Kidnapped?" she said, stifling a laugh. "I'm sure they'd get tired of me, too. Kick me out of the van before they could even get to Indianapolis."

Jamie chuckled. "In all seriousness, I don't mind. It's ridiculous he makes you wait out here."

Kate looked to Jamie, sighing as the cold nipped her face and hands. "It's okay, I'm fine. Seriously."

On nights like this, Kate would usually tell Jamie that Steve was just running late, then would walk home by herself. She didn't want to bother anyone, and there hadn't really been anyone else that could take her home, anyway. By now, her father was probably wasted on the couch, watching a Western or the newest episode of Magnum P.I., and Steve was probably trying to sneak into Nancy Wheeler's house, completely forgetting about her once again for the sake of a girl he would forget about next week.

That night, however, she thought it was past time for something different.

"Hey, Jamie!" she said as she watched him open his car door.

"Yeah?"

She hesitated. "You still up for that ride?"

He smiled. "Yeah, get in the car."

Before taking Kate home, Jamie took her through Burger Chef, and they'd both sat in his car, parked in one of the random lots on the way to her place. As they ate, Steve's words from earlier that day started ringing in her head. Maybe Jamie did kind of like her (only a little bit, though).

"You need to start coming in at five instead of six, because that first hour alone is killing me," Kate said. Whenever he laughed, she raised her voice. "I'm not kidding! Mr. Novak came in and talked my head off about World War II books for twenty minutes and it was horrendous."

"Oh yeah?"

"Yes, so please for the love of God, ask to come in earlier. I cannot handle shit like that without some backup."

Jamie stifled a laugh. "Yeah, if you could get all your athlete buddies to study more, maybe I wouldn't be stuck at school until five o'clock."

"They're not my friends, they just know me because of Steve," she said, shrugging slightly. "I couldn't do that, though. Be a tutor. It would physically pain me."

He shrugged. "Yeah, that's because you're naturally smart, Kate. Some of us other guys? We gotta study hard and hope for the best."

"I wouldn't say I'm naturally smart, I've just had lots of training."

"Stop being so modest. You're literally one of the smartest people I've ever met." He paused. "Even if you don't like when grouchy old men ask you about the World War II books."

When Kate laughed, shaking her head, he smiled. Kate thought about what Steve had said earlier again. She hadn't ever really thought about him that way, but he did make her laugh, smile. He was a good friend of hers, and he knew what she liked. She didn't think that meant that they had to date or anything, but she wouldn't have minded dating him. She tried to shake her thoughts, but she couldn't—chronic overthinker.

"Hey, Kate?" Jamie finally asked, trying to snag Kate's attention.

She turned to him, her expression soft. "Yeah?"

"Why don't we do stuff like this more often?"

"I don't know," she answered, fidgeting with the blue hair tie on her wrist. "I just don't want to waste your time."

"What are you talking about? You could never waste my time."

She laughed once hollowly. "Trust me, I can. That and your money."

"Oh, are you referring to this?" he asked, holding up the bag their food had been in. "Yeah, don't worry about it. My treat."

She sighed, taking the last French fry of hers. "Fine." After a moment or two, a wave of excitement quickly washed over her. "Oh my God, I almost forgot to ask. When's that shipment of Pet Sematary coming in? Do you know? Please tell me you know."

"Sunday morning," he replied. "Don't worry, I'll pull a copy for you."

She smiled excitedly, still not able to shake the feeling. "Dude, really? Thank... Thank you so much. I cannot tell you how much that means to me, I've been waiting for weeks."

"Yeah, I know." He paused, meeting her eyes for only a moment. "You know, this has been really great. Seriously."

"Yeah?"

"Yeah."

Whenever he caught her eyes again, Jamie moved closer to her. He partially cupped her face with his hand, and she put her hand over his—it was almost like they both knew what was about to happen. Their lips got so close that they had almost kissed, but Kate pulled back at the last second. "I should probably be getting back."

Jamie pulled his head back, dropping his hand from her face. "What?"

"My dad, he's... he'll flip his shit. I–It's getting late, you know?"

Jamie looked at his watch, his eyes widening whenever he saw the time. "Oh shit, yeah, it is." He started the car engine up, the radio come on with it. "Y–Yeah, I'll take you home."

"Thanks."

As he gave a tight-lipped smile in return, Jamie wondered that if he were Steve Harrington, maybe Kate would've kissed him.

Jamie wasn't ignorant of everything he saw at school. While, sure, he was a year older than Steve and Kate in school, that didn't mean that Jamie didn't still hear about any time Steve Harrington quite possibly breathed in the direction of someone else, never mind when he walked around with Kate the way he did. He tried to act like he didn't care when Steve had his arm around her in the hallway, making her smile and laugh the way he did. Jamie, however, had to respect what Kate had told him since he had found out that she was best friends with him, and he would never feel any other way about that situation.

He didn't hate Steve, not in the slightest. He could only hope that Kate truly did like him as a friend and nothing more.

Kate gave Jamie a very short goodbye before jumping out of his car.

The girl's stomach churned at just the thought of walking through the front door of the trailer. She'd been dreading going home, especially because she was getting there so much later than she usually did, but quickly that fear morphed into something else—her father's SUV wasn't in the driveway. When she'd gotten inside after checking the mail and hadn't found her father attempting to drown himself in alcohol, watching the televisionuntil he inevitably fell asleep on the couch, she'd begun to worry for other reasons.

At first, she told herself he probably just got held up at the station. Maybe he was at the bar downtown, enjoying himself with... someone? Maybe he was hooking up with a younger woman again (Hopper loved to act like his daughter didn't know about those even though she most definitely knew), and this time he forgot to leave a note saying that he'd be back tomorrow. Whatever it was, Kate told herself it was probably nothing—her dad was gonna come home, no matter what, because somehow, he always did.

She sighed as she set her bag down, shuffling through the mail. Nothing of importance, thank God. She quickly retreated into her room, even though no one was home except for her. She needed to do something other than worry about her father's presumably unimportant mail.

After Sara died, Kate found she was nervous a lot of the time (in addition to feeling sad, lonely, empty, and all of the other feelings that went with experiencing grief), so she'd tried to find things that she'd enjoyed, made her feel less nervous. Of course, one of those things had been reading, which was why she had that enormous bookcase in her room that just about had books falling out of it now—and no, Kate was not going to get rid of any of her books, as she had explained to Steve and her father both at least hundred times.

As the night got later and later, her father was still not home, Kate decided to read, (after finishing her homework, of course). While no one was home to distract her, she'd decided to pull out her notebook from the bedframe, continuing to write just where she'd left off. She didn't like to work when her father was home, never mind when anyone else was at the trailer, partially because she didn't want to have to explain what she was doing to anyone.

Kate had always loved writing. Ever since her sister had died, it had been her escape. She hadn't been too good at anything else, and it was something that could just be for her. She hadn't ever thought about doing anything else for the rest of her life, really. The idea that always kept her going, something she always had looked forward to: college. Since she'd been thirteen, all she had wanted was to go to New York University. She hated telling people that she wanted to go for writing. It felt like such a waste. NYU, though, was nothing to scoff at. It was known for its creative writing programs, and that was something she certainly enjoyed. Besides, NYU was home.

Even though Diane had still lived in New York City, Kate supposed it was still a big enough city where she would never see her mother, even if she wanted to find her. She couldn't think of a single reason that would make her want to contact her mother ever again. She didn't want to see her ever again, and she wasn't ever planning on it.

At least, that's what she hoped.

At a quarter to eleven, Kate had finally decided enough was enough and called Flo, the station's secretary, tapping her foot as the line rang.

"Hawkins Police Department," she answered, her phone voice shining through.

"Hey, it's Kate," she said quickly, concern lacing her voice. "Have you, uh… Have you heard from my dad? He's never home later than this without a warning, or something."

Flo sighed—something was wrong, and Kate's heart rate immediately started to pick up. "Don't worry, he's all right. There's a… There's a missing boy. Joyce Byers's youngest? Your dad's leading a search party for him tonight."

Kate hesitated to go on. A missing boy in Hawkins? SHe hadn't ever heard of such a thing. While, sure, there had been that one family that got murdered in the '50s, not much else had ever happened in Hawkins, and that was the only reason Kate hadn't ever lost her mind living there. Hawkins was a sleepy town, and she was perfectly all right with that. "Search party?"

"I'll be sure to let him know you called, sweetheart."

"All right, thanks, Flo. Talk to you later."

Flo hung up the phone after a quick goodbye, presumably going on to another task that had something to do with the Byers boy. Now that Kate had the comfort of knowing that her father hadn't driven himself into a ditch, she should've been fine. However, the girl still couldn't go to sleep without knowing if he was okay or not. As she lay in bed, trying to fall asleep, she thought about the small town of Hawkins she had called home for the past four and a half years. Never once in her life had anything happened that significant in that town. Questions fired around her mind at a hundred miles an hour, questions about the boy, the town; it made her heartrate bounce through the roof. Nothing like this had ever happened in Hawkins. Ever.

She had no idea how much things were about to change.

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