#but I'll try to be there in the next days. i prommy.

[avid-adoxography]

"Trick-or-Treat!!"

At the door is a group, five adults, and three kids. All of them are dressed like dinosaurs, with the two youngest kids wearing Dilophosaurus costumes, the eldest kid is wearing a Deinosuchus costume. Four of the adults are wearing Triceratops costumes, while the fifth is wearing a T-Rex costume.

(if you're doing the Trick-Or-Treat inbox stuff)

Applauding and hollering as my child within screeches in overwhelming joy (<- used to be a dino kid) and handing over them one of these each

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

would fuck around with my make up but i have no wipes 😭😭😭

[d011zk1ll]

"don't cry bug eyes"

Bro didn't cook I fear

Final day of @alyanetteaugust it is a sad sad time

Next year I'll make better prompts prommy, and I'll get better at art just to draw women

Here's a message I sent ppl about the reveal for context:

Marinette bleeding out, her transformation washing away and leaving her there, near death.

Scarabella's ladybugs will fix everything, of course, but they won't erase the memory of seeing her partner fade away into her girlfriend, still bleeding out over her own suit and gloves, the blood tacky against her fingers.

And she knows who Mao is. It's only fair that for the most painful death, and her half of the reveal, Scarabella makes sure she knows she isn't alone. She doesn't die alone, ever. She has her girlfriend by her side.

So she shows her, she calls her transformation off and hugs her so tight, blood now seeping into her nice dress she was wearing on their date, until her heart finally stops. And alya places marinette down on the floor, trying to cushion her before transforming and going back to beat the Akuma, a lot more rage powering her.

[ribbonetteart]

A request for something a little different than usual 🍑👑

Progress stuff below:

I haven't done progress shots in a bit and I think it's something I want to do more often because I like talking and blogging I guess haha.

Now that I have more experience illustrating digitally, this kind of direct reference drawing is MUCH easier to do digitally 😫honestly this felt like a self imposed challenge lol. BUT I did want to do some more traditional stuff because I feel that I had been doing a little too much digital, if that makes sense. It's nice to play with my markers and color pencils once in a while too!!

Doing the line art on this piece ESPECIALLY felt easier to do traditionally than digitally. For some reason, trying to do line art on a tablet screen feels too smooth or slippery or something. Lining traditionally feels easier, probably because I put so much pressure on the paper in the sketch phase that when the lining phase comes next, it feels like I'm just following the lines on the page like a train on a track ^_^

despite uploading a couple of illustrations colored with marker now, I still feel a bit like a novice when it comes to marker. I got a new pack of markers that I wanted to play with, which was even more motivation to return to paper for a bit. But honestly, I feel like I fudged the window color blending. I watched tutorials and stuff on blending with markers but I guess I still need more practice ^^;;; at least it looks a bit messy to me. This is how this piece came to be a mixed media illustration, since I tried using color pencils to make that transition from blue to green on the windows a little smoother.

I think the pot holding the piranha plant came out a tad too saturated and it's calling too much attention compared to the very light floor and dresser. I was trying to follow the colors on the reference closely as an easy re-intro to traditional art, but next time I do something like this, I think I'll take more liberties with color and see what happens.

Overall, I'm quite happy with how Peach turned out. I don't draw humans too often since I typically draw Sonic characters lol. Sometimes it feels like I have to re-teach myself to draw people as a result. I really liked using the gelly roll for the highlights on her face and the polka dots on her shirt :3 I highly recommend using that pen as my previous experiences with other white gel pens don't compare to this one (not to sound like a commercial I'm just really happy it worked as well as it did!).

And finally, although redrawing a creation from a dress up game screenshot is probably not the most imaginative exercise I could be doing with illustration, I think it's fun and it's pushing me to do things outside of my comfort zone. I'm using new art tools (I'll get better with marker I prommy) and I drew a background! I'd like to do more backgrounds like this as a practice to encourage more original stuff. Maybe. One day. Probably.

If you read all of this until the end, thank you! Have a wonderful day, and thank you for following me and supporting my art :3c 💝

[reblog-house]

-Day 1-

Wanna try to draw more digitally, so call this a semi(?) daily challenge? I don't have any prompt list so uh yeah. I saw a her on my sketchbook went yk what why not, i love my design of her, also of the axe (do Not question how it works or how it could exist in a physical space. it's purely aesthetics - yes, the crescent shapes opposite the blade overlap on purpose. looks odd otherwise), so why not start off with her?

Since this is the first day I may have gone a bit overboard. Did the lineart and went 'hmm it looks odd. needs color'. the next ones most likely will not be colored.

regardless, take a wonderful Pearlypop <3

excuse the attempt at foreshortening. i'll get better i prommy

[sanguineterrain]

omg just a random ramble (and a bit of a request hehe) about your recent fic about "this is for your own good" Jason:

i don't know if you've seen this scene: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqK4UOMha2Q which is basically where Jason confronts the Joker in Death in the Family (2020) [i think this is the timeline where Bruce is the one who dies but we can take these scenes out of context JSHJS]

But I really, really found the idea of memory repression super interesting - and mix a little pit madness maybe 👀 Think about it, after everything's done, Red Hood's debut and with the finale between him and Batman, Jason comes to and realizes the fucked up things he did to Vigilante!R (the drugging, the chains) while Vigilante!R's left with being a compliant and dependent shell of themself; how do you think he'll approach this? Will he decide to keep her "safe"? Would he try to rehabilitate her himself? Would he let her go? I find it terribly heartbreaking for him to see one of the most important people in his life broken because of him

[also btw, i absolutely love how you characterized Jason here because he seems so detached despite being so obsessed and how there's this false sense of security ughhhh; i feel like the neuron activation monkey every time little details and the sentences you put connect with like with "This is a man who was trained by Batman." to Jason saying "'I know my mistake.'" which then leads to the drugging because that moment was so terribly Batman I could probably write a thesis about it if i had time 🥸 anyways, hope your week was great!]

Oooh just watched that scene! Wow, Joker's dialogue was amazing. I miss the days where superhero movies had meaningful dialogue 😭 absolutely diabolical of him to manipulate Jason like that. The way Jason became a child again when Joker got inside of his head (and he really is young to begin with!) ohhhh my boy 💔

Anyway, I think it's so interesting that most of the reactions to my fic have been requesting a fix it. It's like we love Jason so much, we can't bear to see him go dark 🫶

In my universe, Jason never "realizes his mistake" because I think he'd be in too deep at that point to face what he's done. And protecting someone he loves by any means necessary is very Batman-esque of him. Jason genuinely believes he's doing the right thing, even though it's causing R mental distress. I actually like the idea of the entire Batfamily going dark and helping Jason if the Reader ever seriously escaped. I also think it's interesting if the dynamic shifted over time and Reader used Jason's guard dog personality for their benefit. Jason is truly dedicated to them, that's no lie. They'd make each other worse 🥰

But let's say he did realize his mistake! Honestly, I think Jason wouldn't forgive himself and he'd let them go before doing something really self destructive. Reader would be the only one who could pull him back, and after everything, it's hard to say if they'd want to do that! Jason would've caused them a lot of grief at that point.

But yeah. Maybe I'll write a niceys Jason fic next because it seems like dark Jason makes all of us sad 😂 I admit that it felt weird to write him this way but I enjoyed it too. I think my favorite iteration of Jason is where he's insane and dedicated and wants you soooo bad but he tries so very hard to be normal. He would kill and die and eat people for you but he's super normal :) prommy!

[megafaunatic]

idk if ur like open to randos in ur asks giving u media recommendations, but i would give anything in the world for u to try and give the k-novel 'return of the blossoming blade' by BIGA a chance... UR MY FAVE CONTENT CREATOR SINCE THE YE OLDEN TGCFMDZS DAYS SO I WANTED TO AT LEAST TRY LOLLL its like my favourite novel of all time and ive been trying to force it upon everyone with little avail, which i dont understand WHYY cuz its SOO GOOOD like it definitely deserves to have the same level of popularity w international fans as MDZS and TGCF had, but for now it remains a hidden gem.......... it's an insanely long novel i will nawt lie (1.5k+ chapters and updating everyday but only like 500smth have been tl'd into english on the fantl site Sky Demon Order[who also post semi-daily]) but its sosososo worth it i prommy..trust me..:smiles: it's a classic 'hero from the past who died a tragic and preventable(?) death reincarnates a hundred years into the future hiding his identity to teach the youth in order to keep the future generation from following in his footsteps and making the same mistakes he did' but without all the stale, predictable, boringness u'd typically expect from that specific genre... it's an incredibly comedic action novel that takes place in ancient china wuxia setting & focuses primarily on found family and those close familial bonds between the main cast behind all the sword fighty action (dont know how to fit this in anywhere else, but its important to me that u know the mc, chung myung, is the main casts grandpa.. hes their peepaw.. he shows affection by beating them on their heads). theres no romance at all, but i would argue that is a SELLING POINT for this novel like i swear it is so refreshing, the found family of it all means soo much to me, so much so i am now going to force it to mean so much to you too(this is a threat).... if u do gaf abt ships tho then maybe the doomed, tragic, best-friends-to-almost lovers tangchung yaoi and the love at first sight iseolsoso yuri might catch ur eye *LOOKS AT YOU* i genuinely really really feel like it would be straight up ur alley, like its definitely smth i feel would at least peak ur interest imo (chung myung, the mc, is probably my fave mc of all time..at eighty two years young, he IS the next peoples princess and i want to hit him with my car and then nurse him back to health just to hit him again.. i feel like u'd enjoy him like that as well).. im so desperate for more eng fans of this novel u cant see me rn but i am biting into a leather belt trying not to sob and cry out loud as im typing this this is so long im so embarrawsed so ill leave u here.. i hope my pleas have touched ur heart in some way and if the novel chapter count is too intimidating, ROTBB also has a webcomic on webtoons by the same name (season two of the webcomic just started ^__^ ) and the art is so good and funny and its a good way to get into the novel without being overwhelmed by the chp count methinks BUT i would definitely consider reading the novel mandatory cuz the webcomic only fills u in on so much.... ok. i hope u managed to get thru this insane wall of text, my bad.. until we meet again...*salutes* *revs up my motorcycle and disappears behind a cloud of smoke but when the dust settles i am laying dead on the floor*

ok so first of all i respect this so much 🫡 thank you for spreading your passion in the final moments before your motorcycle dirt death 🫡🫡🫡

second of all this does sound really fun !!! i have found it on sky demon order and i'll give it a try... BUT i gotta be real over a thousand chapters and only two hundred of them translated AND no romance is unfortunately killing me... i just dont know if i have the stamina for that... im a horrible little fujo if its THAT long theres gotta be some kissing!!!!! sorry 😭😭

for u i will give it a try but i can make no promises 🫡 i will consider chung myung my blorbo in law tho

[teknikolor-walters]

uhhh poorly written thoughts on bugboy duo and brotherhood

@parkeryangs sorry in advance. and also sorry if I got any bits of cricket's lore wrong / mischaracterized him I tried my best I prommy

Cricket Sherwood considers Cicada Alexander Walters a brother.

He misses his sister, his Katydid, of course he does. There have been several times where he sits alone, on his bed, her contact open. It would be so easy to call her.

He never does.

It's better that way.

Their job is dangerous, and cruel, and violent. Sitting by and doing nothing as these people are completely destroyed. And then he is assigned to work with someone, specifically.

Ty answers all of their questions almost excitedly. He's very passionate about the new "Mikelijah Consolidation Project". He tells them that the consolidation is half Mike Walters- surely Cricket knows about the Mike Walters -and a tier three worker at OVER. All Cricket has to do is make sure that the memory tests and surgeries run smoothly. Simple.

Except it isn't. "Mikelijah" is hostile from the moment Cricket walks through the door, but he can see it in their eyes that they're just scared. Introductions and pronouns are exchanged. Cricket learns that this test subject doesn't have a name.

"You know, I named myself Cricket because I've always been really into bugs. Since childhood. Me and my sister, we would go out and try to find as many bugs as possible for us to study. Her name's Katydid. I'm pretty sure that's because of me, at least somewhat."

What Cricket doesn't mention is that their sister is in constant danger, and is wrapped up in all of this, technically, also because of them.

The test subject regards him.

"I used to be casually into entomology. It was just a passing thing, really, but Eli was into it for a bit. I should pick it back up."

And Cricket, ever the fool, says that they have some bugs in their room, if 'Mikelijah' would like to see. She says she would.

"I think I'd like to be named Cicada," they proclaim one day, as they lay on the floor of Cicada's cell next to each other. "It just feels right."

Bugs encased in resin turns into entomology textbooks turns into facts excitedly being shared between the two. The consolidation is lonely. He likes talking to Cricket.

"You're kind of a freak," they tell him. "I like that. We should be friends."

Eventually, excited facts turns into sharing details about one another's lives turns into a genuine bond. Cricket looks forward to looking after them, to be able to talk and be with them.

"It suits you."

"But I still wanna keep Mikey's last name. And maybe I'll keep Elijah's middle name too? Cicada Alexander Walters. Cuz then my initials would be CAW, like the sound a crow makes."

Cricket can't help but smile. Cicada Alexander Walters. His friend.

It's testing day. Ty always makes them stand there and watch. They know their friend's insides better than anyone, he says. They'd know if anything goes wrong.

Cricket isn't squeamish by any means, but seeing Cicada howling over the operating table, viscera exposed, makes his blood boil. He wants to protect them. He want to grab Ty and takes Ty's own tools and-

It doesn't matter in the end. It never does. Cicada never remembers it and Cricket isn't supposed to talk about it. It's not like they ever want to, anyway.

(The fact that Cicada never remembers doesn't do anything to stop the guilt. They can't shake the feeling that they're supposed to protect him, and every single time they're hurt is another one of his failures.)

Most of their time spent together is spent just hanging out. Sometimes Cricket finds music he thinks they'd like or Cicada convinces him to let them watch shitty horror movies on his even shittier computer. But today, Cricket has beads and string, and is determined to make something out of it.

The two friends slip the friendship bracelets over one another's wrists once they're done, and it feels so much bigger than it is. The bracelets themselves are shoddily made, but they can't help but feel tied together, somehow.

Bugboy 1 and bugboy 2, the bracelets proclaim.

Afterwards, Cicada leans into him, snuggling into his chest. Cricket clutches onto his friend like he's going to disappear if he doesn't.

"I love you, Crick."

"Love you too. I'll always protect you, okay?"

(Katy nods and smiles up at her brother. "Thanks. And I'll always do the same for you.")

Cicada nods and smiles up at his brother. "Thanks. And I'll always do the same for you."

Eventually, Cricket's phone buzzes. It's from Ty. He tells Cicada that he has to go and he'll see them as soon as humanly possible. Cicada says they understand. They love him. He loves them too.

And then a day passes, and another, and Cicada is gone. Nobody seems to have known where they went, and they heard no alarm bells. They want to believe that Cicada made it out. They want to believe she disabled the alarms somehow and made a home for themself away from all of this.

Still, he can't help but worry. Maybe he'd doomed another sibling. Maybe he'd failed to protect them. Maybe they were dead.

He doesn't even want to think about what would happen if they died.

Cricket more often than not finds himself sitting on the floor of the cell Cicada used to occupy, staring at the ground. They know it's selfish but in those moments they want nothing more than to hold her again. They want to know where she went.

Little brother, they ask, why did you leave me here?

There is nobody to respond.

[meirimerens]

how much time per day or week do you think you spend making art (either drawing or writing)? you have such crazy creative output (in my opinion at least - i know its very different for everyone) and all of it is so wonderful!

THANK YOU.... I TRY TO MAKE THAT #GOODSTUFF... thank you for #enjoying... ok i've already mentioned this part in an ask somewhere but one of the reasons i seem to have a "crazy creative output" is because My Ass is unemployed right. i am that "the unemployed friend at 4PM on a monday" person. i'm also not studying, so i can truly dedicate my time to #mycraft, and even then i don't have the output i could have if i spent all the time i'm at my puter actually drawing or writing. i also hyperfixate in the Not Fun Way and my brain Will Not let me move on before i've finished task 1 and it's not very conducive to a productive #lifestyle, artistically or otherwise. i also mention this ^ because i have plans of actually going back to school next year and between studying + needing a job to pay rent my creative output i'm aware will likely Dwindle so. warning everyone rn.

i can't really make calculations per se but i'm on my puter/tablet for real like in the #creative mindset at least 5hrs a day. i'm on my puter/tablet for longer than that, but i also do bland stuff like read and write emails, try to keep my webbed sites updated, i watch movies and videos, i talk to friends, i go on unnecessary wikipedia deep dives for 2hrs at a time, i hoard pdfs for sport, i keep my eyes on multiple websites i need to to re-enroll in school, i worry about my future housing situation and as such scroll renting sites for hours etc. you can see what i mean when i say i don't have the creative output i could have; some people can finish a full image in 5hrs. but i'm too #scatterbrained for this. i truly think when i actually have commitments in my life (uni & work) i'll make better use of the spare hours i'll have left because they'll mean everything to me...

tldr a lot, but i don't actually focus enough in that Lot to have a truly impressive #yield, and i'm soon going to have to do things everyday which will make this crop yield dwindle... but such is life. thank you for sticking by so far... more to come. i prommy.

[sistercarrie]

ugh

took yesterday off to destress and it is now the wee hours of the morning and i have not slept a wink because ive been up giving myself a stomach ulcer just thinking about the future all night and im like hm should i take a second day off in a row but i took two days off 2 weeks ago and i don't want to seem unprofessional but im trying to negotiate with myself like noooo omg i prommy if i take today off i'll catch up on work (bc i made a bad career choice and am bogged down with work as well as getting my qualifications so i can get outta this shitty local next year) and clean my disgusting narsty apartment and get some groceries and get vacuum my car and reply to text messages and buy some CBD so i can sleep properly again at night and i won't take a day off again until like april :( <3 so who knows!

[may-bonne]

Lmao I'd never give you a virus I prommy 👉👈 I found that site through another tumblr post ages ago

I'm gonna wait until I finish Bloodrayne to send another long anon with all my thoughts 🫀 But I will say that I want to put Katarin and Holga Kilgore in a room together. Have you ever seen either of the Machete movies? They're both dumb fun. The first is way better than the sequel imo though

SOMEBODY should have ripped that fake mustache off. Thinking about that one interview where Mrod talks about how bizarre filming that sex scene was for her. She says something like "Frank has a very different idea of that than I do" lol. Since that was definitely the first time he got laid without coughing up hit money first, I doubt he knew that you don't want a girl looking at you like that before you fuck

I'm hard pressed to think of a single decision made by any character that makes sense. By the end of the movie, it feels almost pointless? Nothing really changed. Frank came away with a dog and gender dysphoria. He shot a bunch of dudes like he always does. Got the revenge. But there should have been forgiveness for Johnnie. He couldn't bring himself to shoot her and for a cold blooded assassin, it feels like that should have gone somewhere more significant than just sending her away

"Buddies" activated the dog part of Frank's brain. He's like a sad street dog that got out of a shelter and won't let people approach him

Idk anything about writing a screenplay either so you won't hear any complaints from me. It sucks that the only other person I've seen that likes The Assignment doesn't have anon turned on. I found your blog through theirs though so can't complain

i want to watch machete!! resident evil is the next thing on my list but then i def will. i gotta finish season 2 of lost, too. i kind of go back and forth between mrod and jordana brewster and i'm really swinging back towards mitchie right now lol

in the interviews i read she said that to get into character she went on tinder as a man and i would fucking love to see what that profile looked like. (also this just occurred to me but i feel like frank should definitely be jerking off in the shower pre-op. i'm gonna go add that in right now)

frank has major runt-of-the-litter energy. i saw a post on here the other day that was like "he's got that abandoned shelter dog rizz. he looks like he wants to sit quietly beside you on the couch while you watch tv" and immediately thought of this pic:

very much frank's vibe. i want to towel him dry and pinch his nose until he stops trying to spit out his estradiol

mrod plays all these tough chicks and then i am immediately seized with visions of them rain-soaked and shivering with sweet little kitty ears. holga is the lone exception and i think it's because she's the only one of them who doesn't seem like she's on the verge of a massive sexuality crisis. i guess katarin's would be more along the lines of "my people need me! i can't fuck this vampire!" i would love to see her talk to holga. my personal dream is a d.e.b.s. sequel where mrod plays some kind of european villain doing that exact same accent. or she could just be a jersey mobster. i'm not picky

while we're exchanging mrod media i feel compelled to share this spoken word piece she posted on tumblr in 2014 because i feel everybody should know about it

this reply is already too long but whatevs i'm going to ramble about the rewrite now. i wrote dr. jane's big villain monologue yesterday and it was fun as hell. i've changed her motivation for doing the surgery on frank to wanting to prove that she was such an incredible surgeon that she could create an altered body so perfect it would triumph over the mind and he would eventually come to see himself as a woman. but she tells dr. galen she failed because frank was never a man in the first place insofar as he never formed any sense of self beyond being a killer so it was like trying to perform surgery on a gun. meanwhile we see frank slowly starting to realize other people have lives by clumsily expressing sympathy for prostitutes etc. i also had johnnie give him some ace bandages after watching him almost take his nips off with tape 'cause good lord. in the last scene he's in a sports bra. character development!!

i cut all the shakespeare and poe and just have her quoting the hippocratic corpus and stuff. i was talking to myself in the shower yesterday (in my dreams i am invited to appear on national television to share my opinions on mrod movies while america watches raptly) and had more thoughts about the literary allusions but i'll save those for later

also if you're talking about who i think you are, her mainblog is missin-you-already and she has anon on there! i haven't talked to her that much about the assignment, though, so i dunno if she has thoughts. although it's hard to imagine anyone wouldn't

[procrastinatinglumi]

heyhoo

So i am feeling slightly motivated

And I'm trying to sleep

But if you could (and want) please send me an art request :>

Maybe the next day I wake up I'll draw my heart out

I prommy I'll draw good

I'm a good artist I swear

[roadkiii]

Entry 1.0.0-2 - Caving

Welcome to my blog. I’m not tagging anything but entry #, so sorry if my unrelated mess somehow ends up in your search.

I think I'm unflagged now?? I think??? We'll see. Who knew minecraft could be so controversial to the flagging algorithm, i prommy im not a pornbot staff ;-;

i've been mining in the area and because i'm a a little bitch i've been turning peaceful on and off to keep myself sane

I got extremely lucky and it turns out the mountain behind my house has a cave that is so large that it leads through an abandoned mine shaft and several lava pools. Finally got my first diamonds (i was too slow to catch the achievement :o) )

not a bad haul if I do say so myself, but I'm a bit bitter at how much more experience I should have from coal, redstone, and lapiz. can't say i can complain too much though, i'll probably be hoarding iron ore blocks for the eventual day i can hit them with fortune to get the raw iron.

>:O please be skeletons please be skeletons

ugh. i guess that's fine. wouldve preferred to have the bones, but when more crops are added to the game this'll be a nice farming method (i hope zombies can immediately drop them--)

There wasn't even a chest in here 😭 i feel robbed

AND a ravine nearby damn this cave has everything

I kinda miss bedrock fog tbh. it gave everything a much spookier feel in the caves, and i've gotten startled a couple of times seeing the shadows of zombies within the fog down here.

Alright my inventory is packed to the brim, I need to finish mining for now. Thankfully I emerged from a cave on the other side of this small mountain, I wasn't prepared to try to trek home dodging monsters

I'll let this be the end of this play session, next time I'll see how I fare in ye olde nether. As soon as I can find the stronghold I'll probably build a rail line to it to knock out that achievement.

next (1.0.0-3)

[year2000electronics]

currently i'm super nervous because I'm doing a session for my askblog, but other than that I woke up early and feeling rested today, so I've been doing super good! plus I'm getting my hair cut short next week for gender~ (obv i'll be safe abt it but I'm pretty happy abt finally getting it cut :] )

the session will go GREAT i prommy! remember at the end of the day youre the one in control of the askbox so if the story is going off the rails literally nobody will know if you send yourself an ask to just get things back on track (time honored strategy by myself) 

also NICE!! gender haircut! ive got a hair appointment soon too actually im hoping to talk with my stylist to try and get some more upper volume for a different type of gender

[angelkitty7888]

Well, it happened....

Its been almost 4 weeks since we found out how sick our girl was. She has been spoiled with all the love and treats that we could pull off the whole time. Between buttercream frosting, fresh turkey pan cooked for her, chinese food pork, her favorite foods, fresh catnip (a whole plant!), she has been one happy baby. Today (July 7th) was the day that she let us know she was ready to say goodbye. Our vet office knew it would be coming soon since we have been talking with them at least once a week for her medicines. Even with a pandemic going on, both of us received permission to be with her the whole process (it was supposed to just be one person and only for a few minutes during the actual passing). So at roughly noon we said goodbye to our Prommy love. She went peacefully, on a favorite blanket and with one of her favorite toys (a fabric catnip pickle) next to her.

The vet techs who were there were some of the ones who have been with us the whole way. They shed some tears with us too. In the words of one, "You know its going to happen sometime, but this is one of the ones that really hurts." They have been nothing but amazing this whole losing battle... even doing some little things for us here and there on the house! (Like trimming her nails for us, she was always an angel for the vets but a demon whenever we tried to do it)... we bawled like we were the ones dying.

We got home and tidied up our room a bit, crying the whole time. Bagged up her blankets to be washed, deconstructed my cardboard under-bed-barricade, picked up food dishes, and dumped out the litter box... it was all we could handle for now... her cat tree, beds, and window perch were just making us too emotional to try and clean up.

So now.... For the first time in roughly 20 years, I don't have a cat that I am responsible for..... I don't know what to do with myself...

Here is to the last of my sweet girls. May you have crossed quickly, and found your sisters. I love you, I miss you, give the others a snuggle from me, and I'll see you again someday.

Found out today that we are on borrowed time with my and my wife's cat Prommy. We've known since last fall that she has Hyperthyroidism and found kidney trouble in February. With all of the Covid crap going on we hadnt gotten her to an Internist yet for a consultation, she threw up A LOT a few weeks ago so she went to an emergency vet and they got her an appointment. She went for an ultrasound and consultatiin with an internist today.... They found a huge tumor on her stomach that wasn't there a few weeks ago... The vet said there isn't really anything they can do to counteract it with how fast its growing. So all we can do is keep her comfy, happy, and loved until she lets us know she is ready to go. Which could be a few days to a few months away...

I haven't cried this much in years. This is my child basically. I'm devastated to the point of nausea.

The only good thing with this is that we can give her a kitty bucket list. Not sure what's going to be on it yet besides let her have whatever food she wants and all of the catnip... but we are working it out....